MY BROTHER:

Changes are coming your way but only as preparation for fuller service. Before, however, that fuller service becomes possible there must be an interlude of stock-taking (is not that the right business word?) and a period of review and of renewed consecration. A physical readjustment is also needed but it may not be as serious as you anticipate (in spite of brave words, my brother). Many of your difficulties are psychological and caused by an inner tension and tautness which is really quite unnecessary. To offset that, I would ask you to ponder on one of the keywords I gave you when you entered this group of disciples in training - the word restfulness.

Do not work so hard, strenuously and furiously at the spiritual life. It is a state of being and not so much a state of achievement. It is a condition of correct orientation and direction and not so much a painful and oft dramatic effort to measure up to a standard which you think your soul sets you, or I for instance set you, or which your group brothers are expecting you to achieve and which you have accepted. Yet it seems to elude you and you do not feel that you have made the grade. Yet you have not failed as badly as you are apt to think in moments of depression.

Why think so much about yourself at all, my brother? Have you never had quoted to you the lines "Rule out the good self as well as the bad self and let only Christ be seen and heard"? You hear so much coming to you all the time from the struggling personality. It speaks to you so glamorously that the quiet and gentle voice of the soul, bringing radiance and rest, fails to make an impact upon your life.