Dragon's
Bane
Barbara
Hambly
Copyright
1985 by Barbara Hambly
CHAPTER
I
BANDITS
OFTEN LAY in wait in the ruins of the old
town at
the fourways-Jenny Waynest thought there were
three
of them this morning.
She was
not sure any more whether it was magic which
told
her this, or simply the woodcraftiness and instinct
for the
presence of danger that anyone developed who
had
survived to adulthood in the Winterlands. But as she
drew
rein short of the first broken walls, where she knew
she
would still be concealed by the combination of autumn
fog and
early morning gloom beneath the thicker trees of
the
forest, she noted automatically that the horse drop-
pings
in the sunken clay of the roadbed were fresh,
untouched
by the frost that edged the leaves around them.
She
noted, too, the silence in the ruins ahead; no coney's
foot
rustled the yellow spill of broomsedge cloaking the
hill
slope where the old church had been, the church sacred
to the
Twelve Gods beloved of the old Kings. She thought
she
smelled the smoke of a concealed fire near the remains
of what
had been a crossroads inn, but honest men would
have
gone there straight and left a track in the nets of
dew
that covered the weeds all around. Jenny's white mare
Moon
Horse pricked her long ears at the scent of other
beasts,
and Jenny wind-whispered to herfor silence,
smoothing
the raggedy mane against the long neck. But
she had
been looking for all those signs before she saw
them.
She
settled into stillness in the protective cloak of fog
and
shadow, like a partridge blending with the brown of
the
woods. She was a little like a partridge herself, dark
and
small and nearly invisible in the dull, random plaids
of the
northlands; a thin, compactly built woman, tough
as the
roots of moorland heather. After a moment of
silence,
she wove her magic into a rope of mist and cast
it
along the road toward the nameless ruins of the town.
It was
something she had done even as a child, before
the old
wander-mage Caerdinn had taught her the ways
of
power. All her thirty-seven years, she had lived in the
Winteriands-she
knew the smells of danger. The late-
lingering
birds of autumn, thrushes and blackbirds, should
have
been waking in the twisted brown mats of ivy that
half-hid
the old inn's walls-they were silent. After a
moment,
she caught the scent of horses, and the ranker,
dirtier
stench of men.
One
bandit would be in the stumpy ruin of the old tower
that
commanded the south and eastward roads, part of
the
defenses of the ruined town left from when the pros-
perity
of the King's law had given it anything to defend.
They
always hid there. A second, she guessed, was behind
the
walls of the old inn. After a moment she sensed the
third,
watching the crossroads from a yellow thicket of
seedy
tamarack. Her magic brought the stink of their souls
to her,
old greeds and the carrion-bone memories of some
cherished
rape or murder that had given a momentary
glow of
power to lives largely divided between the giving
and
receiving of physical pain. Having lived all her life
in the
Winteriands, she knew that these men could scarcely
help
being what they were; she had to put aside both her
hatred
of them, and her pity for them, before she could
braid
the spells that she laid upon their minds.
Her
concentration deepened further. She stirred judi-
ciously
at that compost of memories, whispering to their
blunted
minds of the bored sleepiness of men who have
watched
too long. Unless every illusion and Limitation
was
wrought correctly, they would see her when she
moved.
Then she loosened her halberd in its holster upon
her
saddle-tree, settled her sheepskin jacket a little more
closely
about her shoulders and, with scarcely breath or
movement,
urged Moon Horse forward toward the ruins.
The man
in the tower she never saw at all, from first
to
last. Through the browning red leaves of a screen of
hawthorn,
she glimpsed two horses tethered behind a
ruined
wall near the inn, their breath making plumes of
white
in the dawn cold; a moment later she saw the bandit
crouching
behind the crumbling wall, a husky man in greasy
old
leathers. He had been watching the road, but started
suddenly
and cursed; looking down, he began scratching
his
crotch with vigor and annoyance but no particular
surprise.
He did not see Jenny as she ghosted past. The
third
bandit, sitting his rawboned black horse between a
broken
comer of a wall and a spinney of raggedy birches,
simply
stared out ahead of him, lost in the daydreams she
had
sent.
She was
directly in front of him when a boy's voice
shouted
from down the southward road, "LOOK OUT!"
Jenny
whipped her halberd clear of its rest as the bandit
woke
with a start. He saw her and roared a curse. Periph-
erally
Jenny was aware of hooves pounding up the road
toward
her; the other traveler, she thought with grim
annoyance,
whose well-meant warning had snapped the
man
from his trance. As the bandit bore down upon her,
she got
a glimpse of a young man riding out of the mist
full-pelt,
clearly intent upon rescue.
The
bandit was armed with a short sword, but swung
at her
with the flat of it, intending to unhorse her without
damaging
her too badly to rape later. She feinted with the
halberd
to bring his weapon up, then dipped the long blade
on the
pole's end down under his guard. Her legs clinched
to Moon
Horse's sides to take the shock as the weapon
knifed
through the man's belly. The leather was tough,
but
there was no metal underneath. She ripped the blade
clear
as the man doubled up around it, screaming and
clawing;
both horses danced and veered with the smell
of the
hot, spraying blood. Before the man hit the muddy
bed of
the road, Jenny had wheeled her horse and was
riding
to the aid of her prospective knight-errant, who
was
engaged in a sloppy, desperate battle with the bandit
who had
been concealed behind the ruined outer wall.
Her
rescuer was hampered by his long cloak of ruby
red
velvet, which had got entangled with the basketwork
hilt of
his jeweled longsword. His horse was evidently
better
trained and more used to battle than he was: the
maneuverings
of the big liver-bay gelding were the only
reason
the boy hadn't been killed outright. The bandit,
who had
gotten himself mounted at the boy's first cry of
warning,
had driven them back into the hazel thickets that
grew
along the tumbled stones of the inn wall, and, as
Jenny
kicked Moon Horse into the fray, the boy's trailing
cloak
hung itself up on the low branches and jerked its
wearer
ignominiously out of the saddle with the horse's
next
swerve.
Using
her right hand as the fulcrum of a swing. Jenny
swept
the halberd's blade at the bandit's sword arm. The
man
veered his horse to face her; she got a glimpse of
piggy,
close-set eyes under the rim of a dirty iron cap.
Behind
her she could hear her previous assailant still
screaming.
Evidently her current opponent could as well,
for he
ducked the first slash and swiped at Moon Horse's
face to
cause the mare to shy, then spurred past Jenny
and
away up the road, willing neither to face a weapon
that so
outreached his own, nor to stop for his comrade
who had
done so.
There
was a brief crashing in the thickets of briar as
the man
who had been concealed in the tower fled into
the raw
mists, then silence, save for the dying bandit's
hoarse,
bubbling sobs.
Jenny
dropped lightly from Moon Horse's back. Her
young
rescuer was still thrashing in the bushes like a stoat
in a
sack, half-strangled on his bejeweled cloak strap. She
used
the hook on the back of the halberd's blade to twist
the
long court-sword from his hand, then stepped in to
pull
the muffling folds of velvet aside. He struck at her
with
his hands, like a man swatting at wasps. Then he
seemed
to see her for the first time and stopped, staring
up at
her with wide, myopic gray eyes.
After a
long moment of surprised stillness, he cleared
his
throat and unfastened the chain of gold and rubies that
held
the cloak under his chin. "Er-thank you, my lady,"
he
gasped in a slightly winded voice, and got to his feet.
Though
Jenny was used to people being taller than she,
this
young man was even more so than most. "I-uh-"
His
skin was as fine-textured and fair as his hair, which
was
already, despite his youth, beginning to thin away
toward
early baldness. He couldn't have been more than
eighteen,
with a natural awkwardness increased tenfold
by the
difficult task of thanking the intended object of a
gallant
defense for saving his life.
"My
profoundest gratitude," he said, and performed a
supremely
graceful Dying Swan, the like of which had
not
been seen in the Winteriands since the nobles of the
Kings
had departed in the wake of the retreating royal
armies.
"I am Gareth of Magloshaldon, a traveler upon
errantry
in these lands, and I wish to extend my humblest
expressions
of..."
Jenny
shook her head and stilled him with an upraised
hand.
"Wait here," she said, and turned away.
Puzzled,
the boy followed her.
The
first bandit who had attacked her still lay in the
clay
muck of the roadbed. The soaking blood had turned
it into
a mess of heel gouges, strewn with severed entrails;
the
stink was appalling. The man was still groaning weakly.
Against
the matte pallor of the foggy morning, the scarlet
of the
blood stood out shockingly bright.
Jenny
sighed, feeling suddenly cold and weary and
unclean,
looking upon what she had done and knowing
what it
was up to her yet to do. She knelt beside the dying
man,
drawing the stillness of her magic around her again.
She was
aware of Gareth's approach, his boots threshing
through
the dew-soaked bindweed in a hurried rhythm
that
broke when he tripped on his sword. She felt a tired
stirring
of anger at him for having made this necessary.
Had he
not cried out, both she and this poor, vicious,
dying
brute would each have gone their ways...
... And
he would doubtless have killed Gareth after
she
passed. And other travelers besides.
She had
long since given up trying to unpick wrong
from
right, present should from future if. If there was a
pattern
to all things, she had given up thinking that it was
simple
enough to lie within her comprehension. Still, her
soul
felt filthy within her as she put her hands to the dying
man's
clammy, greasy temples, tracing the proper runes
while
she whispered the death-spells. She felt the life go
out of
him and tasted the bile of self-loathing in her mouth.
Behind
her, Gareth whispered, "You-he's-he's
dead."
She got
to her feet, shaking the bloody dirt from her
skirts.
"I could not leave him for the weasels and foxes,"
she
replied, starting to walk away. She could hear the
small
carrion-beasts already, gathering at the top of the
bank
above the misty slot of the road, drawn to the blood-
smell
and waiting impatiently for the killer to abandon
her
prey. Her voice was brusque-she had always hated
the
death-spells. Having grown up in a land without law,
she had
killed her first man when she was fourteen, and
six
since, not counting the dying she had helped from life
as the
only midwife and healer from the Gray Mountains
to the
sea. It never got easier.
She
wanted to be gone from the place, but the boy
Gareth
put a staying hand on her arm, looking from her
to the
corpse in a kind of nauseated fascination. He had
never
seen death, she thought. At least, not in its raw
form.
The pea green velvet of his travel-stained doublet,
the
gold stampwork of his boots, the tucked embroidery
of his
ruffled lawn shirt, and the elaborate, feathered
crestings
of his green-tipped hair all proclaimed him for
a
courtier. All things, even death, were doubtless done
with a
certain amount of style where he came from.
He
gulped. "You're.-you're a witch!"
One
corner other mouth moved slightly; she said, "So
I
am."
He
stepped back from her in fear, then staggered,
clutching
at a nearby sapling for support. She saw then
that
among the decorative slashings of his doublet sleeve
was an
uglier opening, the shirt visible through it dark
and
wet. "I'll be fine," he protested faintly, as she moved
to
support him. "I just need..." He made a fumbling effort
to
shake free of her hand and walk, his myopic gray eyes
peering
at the ankle-deep drifts of moldering leaves that
lined
the road.
"What
you need is to sit down." She led him away to
a
broken boundary stone and forced him to do so and
unbuttoned
the diamond studs that held the sleeve to the
body of
the doublet. The wound did not look deep, but
it was
bleeding badly. She pulled loose the leather thongs
that
bound the wood-black knots of her hair and used
them as
a tourniquet above the wound. He winced and
gasped
and tried to loosen it as she tore a strip from the
hem of
her shift for a bandage, so that she slapped at his
fingers
like a child's. Then, a moment later, he tried to
get up
again. "I have to find..."
"I'll
find them," Jenny said firmly, knowing what it
was
that he sought. She finished binding his wound and
walked
back to the tangle of hazel bushes where Gareth
and the
bandit had struggled. The frosty daylight glinted
on a
sharp reflection among the leaves. The spectacles
she
found there were bent and twisted out of shape, the
bottom
of one round lens decorated by a star-fracture.
Flicking
the dirt and wetness from them, she carried them
back.
"Now,"
she said, as Gareth fumbled them on with hands
shaking
from weakness and shock. "You need that arm
looked
to. I can take you..."
"My
lady, I've no time." He looked up at her, squinting
a
little against the increasing brightness of the sky behind
her
head. "I'm on a quest, a quest of terrible importance."
"Important
enough to risk losing your arm if the wound
turns
rotten?"
As if
such things could not happen to him, did she only
have
the wits to realize it, he went on earnestly, "I'll be
all
right, I tell you. I am seeking Lord Aversin the Dra-
gonsbane.
Thane of Alyn Hold and Lord of Wyr, the
greatest
knight ever to have ridden the Winterlands. Have
you
heard of him hereabouts? Tall as an angel, handsome
as
song... His fame has spread through the southlands
the way
the floodwaters spread in the spring, the noblest
of
chevaliers... I must find Alyn Hold, before it is too
late."
Jenny
sighed, exasperated. "So you must," she said.
"It
is to Alyn Hold that I am going to take you."
The
squinting eyes got round as the boy's mouth fell
open.
"To-to Alyn Hold? Really? It's near here?"
"It's
the nearest place where we can get your arm seen
to,"
she said. "Can you ride?"
Had he
been dying, she thought, amused, he would
still have
sprung to his feet as he did. "Yes, of course.
I-do
you know Lord Aversin, then?"
Jenny
was silent for a moment. Then, softly, she said,
"Yes.
Yes, I know him."
She
whistled up the horses, the tall white Moon Horse
and the
big liver-bay gelding, whose name, Gareth said,
was
Battlehammer. In spite of his exhaustion and the pain
of his
roughly bound wound, Gareth made a move to offer
her
totally unnecessary assistance in mounting. As they
reined
up over the ragged stone slopes to avoid the corpse
in its
rank-smelling puddles of mud, Gareth asked, "If-
if
you're a witch, my lady, why couldn't you have fought
them
with magic instead of with a weapon? Thrown fire
at
them, or turned them into frogs, or struck them blind..."
She had
struck them blind, in a sense, she thought
wryly-at
least until he shouted.
But she
only said, "Because I cannot."
"For
reasons of honor?" he asked dubiously. "Because
there
are some situations in which honor cannot apply..."
"No."
She glanced sidelong at him through the aston-
ishing
curtains of her loosened hair. "It is just that my
magic
is not that strong."
And she
nudged her horse into a quicker walk, passing
into
the vaporous shadows of the forest's bare, over-
hanging
boughs.
Even
after all these years of knowing it, she found the
admission
still stuck in her throat. She had come to terms
with
her lack of beauty, but never with her lack of genius
in the
single thing she had ever wanted. The most she had
ever
been able to do was to pretend that she accepted it,
as she
pretended now.
Ground
fog curled around the feet of the horses; through
the
clammy vapors, tree roots thrust from the roadbanks
like
the arms of half-buried corpses. The air here felt
dense
and smelled of mold, and now and then, from the
woods
above them, came the furtive crackle of dead leaves,
as if
the trees plotted among themselves in the fog.
"Did
you-did you see him slay the dragon?" Gareth
asked,
after they had ridden in silence for some minutes.
"Would
you tell me about it? Aversin is the only living
Dragonsbane-the
only man who has slain a dragon. There
are
ballads about him everywhere, about his courage and
his
noble deeds... That's my hobby. Ballads, I mean, the
ballads
of Dragonsbanes, like Selkythar the White back
in the
reign of Ennyta the Good and Antara Warlady and
her
brother, during the Kinwars. They say her brother
slew..."
By the way he caught himself up Jenny guessed
he
could have gone on about the great Dragonsbanes of
the
past for hours, only someone had told him not to bore
people
with the subject. "I've always wanted to see such
a
thing-a true Dragonsbane-a glorious combat. His
renown
must cover him like a golden mantle."
And,
rather to her surprise, he broke into a light, wav-
ery
tenor:
Riding
up the hillside gleaming,
Like
flame in the golden sunlight streaming;
Sword
of steel strong in hand,
Wind-swift
hooves spurning land,
Tall as
an angel, stallion-strong,
Stem as
a god, bright as song...
In the
dragon's shadow the maidens wept,
Fair as
lilies in darkness kept.
'I know
him afar, so tall is he,
His
plumes as bright as the rage of the sea,'
Spake
she to her sister, 'fear no ill...'
Jenny
looked away, feeling something twist inside inside
her at
the memory of the Golden Dragon of Wyr.
She
remembered as if it were yesterday instead of ten
years
ago the high-up flash of gold in the wan northern
sky,
the plunge of fire and shadow, the boys and girls
screaming
on the dancing floor at Great Toby. They were
memories
she knew should have been tinted only with
horror;
she was aware that she should have felt only glad-
ness at
the dragon's death. But stronger than the horror,
the
taste of nameless grief and desolation came back to
her
from those times, with the metallic stench of the drag-
on's
blood and the singing that seemed to shiver the sear-
ing
air...
Her
heart felt sick within her. Coolly, she said, "For
one
thing, of the two children who were taken by the
dragon,
John only managed to get the boy out alive. I
think
the girl had been killed by the fames in the dragon's
lair.
It was hard to tell from the state of the body. And if
she
hadn't been dead, I still doubt they'd have been in
much
condition to make speeches about how John looked,
even if
he had come riding straight up the hill-which of
course
he didn't."
"He
didn't?" She could almost hear the shattering of
some
image, nursed in the boy's mind.
"Of
course not. If he had, he would have been killed
immediately."
"Then
how..."
"The
only way he could think of to deal with something
that
big and that heavily armored. He had me brew the
most
powerful poison that I knew of, and he dipped his
harpoons
in that."
"PoisonT'
Such foulness clearly pierced him to the
heart.
"Harpoons? Not a sword at all?"
Jenny
shook her head, not knowing whether to feel
amusement
at the boy's disappointed expression, exas-
peration
at the way he spoke of what had been for her
and
hundreds of others a time of sleepless, nightmare
horror,
or only a kind of elder-sisterly compassion for the
naivete
that would consider taking a three-foot steel blade
against
twenty-five feet of spiked and flaming death. "No,"
she
only said, "John came at it from the overhang of the
gully
in which it was laired-it wasn't a cave, by the way;
there
are no caves that large in these hills. He slashed its
wings
first, so that it couldn't take to the air and fall on
him
from above. He used poisoned harpoons to slow it
down,
but he finished it off with an ax."
"An
ax?!" Gareth cried, utterly aghast. "That's-that's
the
most horrible thing I've ever heard! Where is the glory
in
that? Where is the honor? It's like hamstringing your
opponent
in a duel! It's cheating!"
"He
wasn't fighting a duel," Jenny pointed out. "If a
dragon
gets into the air, the man fighting it is lost."
"But
it's dishonorable!" the boy insisted passionately,
as if
that were some kind of clinching argument.
"It
might have been, had he been fighting a man who
had
honorably challenged him-something John has never
been
known to do in his life. Even fighting bandits, it pays
to
strike from behind when one is outnumbered. As the
only
representative of the King's law in these lands, John
generally
is outnumbered. A dragon is upward oftweJity
feet
long and can kill a man with a single blow of its tail.
You
said yourself," she added with a smile, "that there
are
situations in which honor does not apply."
"But
that's different!" the boy said miserably and lapsed
into
disillusioned silence.
The
ground beneath the horses' feet was rising; the
vague
walls of the misty tunnel through which they rode
were
ending. Beyond, the silvery shapes of the round-
backed
hills could be dimly seen. As they came clear of
the
trees, the winds fell upon them, clearing the mists and
nipping
their clothes and faces like ill-trained dogs. Shak-
ing the
blowing handfuls of her hair out other eyes. Jenny
got a
look at Gareth's face as he gazed about him at the
moors.
It wore a look of shock, disappointment, and puz-
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Scale
and Structure of a Dragon
(From
John Aversin's notes)
1) Mane
structure and spikes at joints are thicker than
shown.
A bone "shield" extends from the back of the
skull
beneath the mane to protect the nape of the
neck.
2)
Golden Dragon ofWyr measured approx. 27' of which
12' was
tail; there are rumors of dragons longer than
50'
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zlement,
as if he had never thought to find his hero in this
bleak
and trackless world of moss, water, and stone.
As for
Jenny, this barren world stirred her strangely.
The
moors stretched nearly a hundred miles, north to the
ice-locked
shores of the ocean; she knew every break in
the
granite landscape, every black peat-beck and every
hollow
where the heather grew thick in the short highlands
summers;
she had traced the tracks of hare and fox and
kitmouse
in three decades of winter snows. Old Caerdinn,
half-mad
through poring over books and legends of the
days of
the Kings, could remember the time when the
Kings
had withdrawn their troops and their protection
from
the Winteriands to fight the wars for the lordship of
the
south; he had grown angry with her when she had
spoken
of the beauty she found in those wild, silvery
fastnesses
of rock and wind. But sometimes his bitterness
stirred
in Jenny, when she worked to save the life of an
ailing
village child whose illness lay beyond her small
skills
and there was nothing in any book she had read that
might
tell her how to save that life; or when the Iceriders
came
raiding down over the floe-ice in the brutal winters,
burning
the barns that cost such labor to raise, and slaugh-
tering
the cattle that could only be bred up from such
meager
stock. However, her own lack of power had taught
her a
curious appreciation for small joys and hard beauties
and for
the simple, changeless patterns of life and death.
It was
nothing she could have explained; not to Caerdinn,
nor to
this boy, nor to anyone else.
At
length she said softly, "John would never have gone
after
the dragon, Gareth, had he not been forced to it.
But as
Thane of Alyn Hold, as Lord of Wyr, he is the
only
man in the Winteriands trained to and living by the
arts of
war. It is for this that he is the lord. He fought
the
dragon as he would have fought a wolf, as a vermin
which
was harming his people. He had no choice."
"But
a dragon isn't vermin!" Gareth protested. "It is
the
most honorable and greatest of challenges to the man-
hood of
a true knight. You must be wrong! He couldn't
have
fought it simply-simply out of duty. He can't have!"
There
was a desperation to believe in his voice that
made
Jenny glance over at him curiously. "No," she agreed.
"A
dragon isn't vermin. And this one was truly beautiful."
Her
voice softened at the recollection, even through the
horror-haze
of death and fear, of its angular, alien splen-
dor.
"Not golden, as your song calls it, but a sort of amber,
grading
to brownish smoke along its back and ivory upon
its
belly. The patterns of the scales on its sides were like
the
beadwork on a pair of slippers, like woven irises, all
shades
of purple and blue. Its head was like a flower, too;
its
eyes and maw were surrounded with scales like colored
ribbons,
with purple homs and tufts of white and black
far,
and with antennae like a crayfish's tipped with bobs
of
gems. It was butcher's work to slay it."
They
rounded the shoulder of a tor. Below them, like
a break
in the cold granite landscape, spread a broken
line of
brown fields where the mists lay like stringers of
dirty
wool among the stubble of harvest. A little farther
along
the track lay a hamlet, disordered and trashy under
a
bluish smear of woodsmoke, and the stench of the place
rose on
the whipping ice-winds: the lye-sting of soap being
boiled;
an almost-visible murk of human and animal waste;
the
rotted, nauseating sweetness of brewing beer. The
barking
of dogs rose to them like churchbells in the air.
In the
midst of it all a stumpy tower stood, the tumble-
down
remnant of some larger fortification.
"No,"
said Jenny softly, "the dragon was a beautiful
creature,
Gareth. But so was the girl it carried away to
its
lair and killed. She was fifteen-John wouldn't let her
parents
see the remains."
She
touched her heels to Moon Horse's sides and led
the way
down the damp clay of the track.
* *
"Is
this village where you live?" Gareth asked, as they
drew
near the walls.
Jenny
shook her head, drawing her mind back from
the
bitter and confusing tangle of the memories of the
slaying
of the dragon. "I have my own house about six
miles
from here, on Frost Fell-I live there alone. My
magic
is not great; it needs silence and solitude for its
study."
She added wryly, "Though I don't have much of
either.
I am midwife and healer for all of Lord Aversin's
lands."
"Will-will
we reach his lands soon?"
His
voice sounded unsteady, and Jenny, regarding him
worriedly,
saw how white he looked and how, in spite of
the
cold, sweat ran down his hollow cheeks with their
faint
fuzz of gold. A little surprised at his question, she
said,
"These are Lord Aversin's lands."
He
raised his head to look at her, shocked. "These?"
He
stared around him at the muddy fields, the peasants
shouting
to one another as they shocked up the last of
the
corn, the ice-scummed waters of the moat that girdled
the
rubble fill and fieldstone patches of the shabby wall.
"Then-that
is one of Lord Aversin's villages?"
"That,"
Jenny said matter-of-factly as the hooves of
their
horses rumbled hollowly on the wood of the draw-
bridge,
"is Alyn Hold."
The
town huddled within the curtain wall-a wall built
by the
present lord's grandfather, old James Standfast, as
a
temporary measure and now hoary with fifty winters-
was
squalid beyond description. Through the archway
beneath
the squat gatehouse untidy houses were visible,
clustered
around the wall of the Hold itself as if the larger
building
had seeded them, low-built of stone and rubble
upon the
foundations of older walls, thatched with river
reed-straw
and grubby with age. From the window-turret
of the
gatehouse old Peg the gatekeeper stuck her head
out,
her long, gray-streaked brown braids hanging down
like
bights of half-unraveled rope, and she caned out to
Jenny,
"You're in luck," in the glottal lilt of the north-
country
speech. "Me lord got in last night from ridin' the
bounds.
He'll be about."
"She
wasn't-was she talking about Lord Aversin?"
Gareth
whispered, scandalized.
Jenny's
crescent-shaped eyebrows quirked upward.
"He's
the only lord we have."
"Oh."
He bunked, making another mental readjust-
ment.
"'Riding the bounds'?"
"The
bounds of his lands. He patrols them, most days
of the
month, he and militia volunteers." Seeing Gareth's
face
fall, she added gently, "That is what it is to be a
lord."
"It
isn't, you know," Gareth said. "It is chivalry, and
honor,
and..." But she had already ridden past him, out
of the
slaty darkness of the gatehouse passage and into
the
heatless sunlight of the square.
With
all its noise and gossipy squalor, Jenny had always
liked
the village of Alyn. It had been the home of her
childhood;
the stone cottage in which she had been born
and in
which her sister and brother-in-law still lived-
though
her sister's husband discouraged mention of the
relationship-still
stood down the lane, against the cur-
tain
wall. They might regard her with awe, these hard-
working
people with their small lives circumscribed by
the
work of the seasons, but she knew their lives only a
little
less intimately than she knew her own. There was
not a
house in the village where she had not delivered a
child,
or tended the sick, or fought death in one of the
myriad
forms that it took in the Winterlands; she was
familiar
with them, and with the long-spun, intricate pat-
terns
of their griefs and joys. As the horses sloshed through
mud and
standing water to the center of the square, she
saw
Gareth looking about him with carefully concealed
dismay
at the pigs and chickens that shared the fetid lanes
so
amicably with flocks of shrieking children. A gust of
wind
blew the smoke of the forge over them, and with it
a faint
wash of heat and a snatch of Muffle the smith's
bawdy
song; in one lane laundry flapped, and in another,
Deshy
Werville, whose baby Jenny had delivered three
months
ago, was milking one of her beloved cows half-
in,
half-out of her cottage door. Jenny saw how Gareth's
disapproving
gaze lingered upon the shabby Temple, with
its
lumpish, crudely carved images of the Twelve Gods,
barely
distinguishable from one another in the gloom, and
then
went to the circled cross of Earth and Sky that was
wrought
into the stones of so many village chimneys. His
back
got a little stiffer at this evidence of paganism, and
his
upper lip appeared to lengthen as he regarded the
pigpen
built out from the Temple's side and the pair of
yokels
in scruffy leather and plaids who leaned against
the
railings, gossiping.
"Course,
pigs see the weather," one of them was say-
ing,
reaching with a stick across the low palings to scratch
the
back of the enormous black sow who reposed within.
"That's
in Clivy's On Farming, but I've seen them do it.
And
they're gie clever, cleverer than dogs. My aunt
Mary-you
remember Aunt Mary?-used to train them
as
piglets and she had one, a white one, who'd fetch her
shoes
for her."
"Aye?"
the second yokel said, scratching his head as
Jenny
drew rein near them, with Gareth fidgeting impa-
tiently
at her side.
"Aye."
The taller man made kissing sounds to the sow,
who
raised her head in response with a slurping grunt of
deepest
affection. "It says in Polyborus' Analects that the
Old
Cults used to worship the pig, and not as a devil,
either,
as Father Hiero would have it, but as the Moon
Goddess."
He pushed his steel-rimmed spectacles a little
higher
on the bridge of his long nose, a curiously profes-
sorial
gesture for a man ankle-deep in pig-muck.
"That
a fact, now?" the second yokel said with interest.
"Now
you come to speak on it, this old girl-when she
were
young and flighty, that is-had it figured to a T how
to get
the pen gate open, and would be after... Oh!" He
bowed
hastily, seeing Jenny and the fuming Gareth sitting
their
horses quietly.
The
taller of the two men turned. As the brown eyes
behind
the thick spectacle lenses met Jenny's, they lost
their
habitual guarded expression and melted abruptly into
an
impish brightness. Middle-sized, unprepossessing,
shaggy
and unshaven in his scruffy dark leather clothing,
his old
wolfskin doublet patched with bits of metal and
scraps
of chain mail to protect his joints-after ten years,
she
wondered, what was there about him that still filled
her
with such absurd joy?
"Jen."
He smiled and held out his hands to her.
Taking
them, she slid from the white mare's saddle into
his
arms, while Gareth looked on in disapproving impa-
tience
to get on with his quest. "John," she said, and
turned
back to the boy. "Gareth of Magloshaldon-this
is Lord
John Aversin, the Dragonsbane of Alyn Hold."
For one
instant, Gareth was shocked absolutely
speechless.
He sat for a moment, staring, stunned as if
struck
over the head; then he dismounted so hastily that
he
clutched his hurt arm with a gasp. It was as if, Jenny
thought,
in all his ballad-fed fantasies of meeting the Dra-
gonsbane,
it had never occurred to him that his hero would
be
afoot, not to say ankle-deep in mud beside the local
pigsty.
In his face was plain evidence that, though he
himself
was over six-foot-three, and must be taller than
anyone
else he knew, he had never connected this with
the
fact that, unless his hero was a giant, he would per-
force
be shorter also. Neither, she supposed, had any
ballad
mentioned spectacles.
Still
Gareth had not spoken. Aversin, interpreting his
silence
and the look on his face with his usual fiendish
accuracy,
said, "I'd show you my dragon-slaying scars to
prove
it, but they're placed where I can't exhibit 'em in
public."
It said
worlds for Gareth's courtly breeding-and
Jenny
supposed, the peculiar stoicism of courtiers-that
even
laboring under the shock of his life and the pain o
a
wounded arm, he swept into a very creditable salaan;
of
greeting. When he straightened up again, he adjusted
the set
of his cloak with a kind of sorry hauteur, pushed
his
bent spectacles a little more firmly up onto the bridge
of his
nose, and said in a voice that was shaky but oddly
determined,
"My lord Dragonsbane, I have ridden here
on errantry
from the south, with a message for you from
the
King, Uriens of Belmarie." He seemed to gather
strength
from these words, settling into the heraldic son-
ority
of his ballad-snatch of golden swords and bright
plumes
in spite of the smell of the pigsty and the thin,
cold
rain that had begun to patter down.
"My
lord Aversin, I have been sent to bring you south.
A
dragon has come and laid waste the city of the gnomes
in the
Deep of Ylferdun; it lairs there now, fifteen miles
from
the King's city of Bel. The King begs that you come
to slay
it ere the whole countryside is destroyed."
The boy
drew himself up, having delivered himself of
his
quest, a look of noble and martyred serenity on his
face,
very like. Jenny thought, someone out of a ballad
himself.
Then, like all good messengers in ballads, he
collapsed
and slid to the soupy mud and cowpies in a dead
faint.
CHAPTER
II
RAIN
DRUMMED STEADILY, drearily, on the walls of
Alyn
Hold's broken-down tower. The Hold's single guest
room
was never very bright; and, though it was only mid-
afternoon,
Jenny had summoned a dim ball of bluish
witchfire
to illuminate the table on which she had spread
the
contents of her medicine satchel; the rest of the little
cubbyhole
was curtained in shadow.
In the
bed, Gareth dozed restlessly. The air was sweet
with
the ghosts of the long-dried fragrances of crushed
herbs;
the witchlight threw fine, close-grained shadows
around
the dessicated mummies of root and pod where
they
lay in the circles Jenny had traced. Slowly, rune by
rune,
she worked the healing spells over them, each with
its own
Limitation to prevent a too-quick healing that
might
harm the body as a whole, her fingers patiently
tracing
the signs, her mind calling down the qualities of
the
universe particular to each, like separate threads of
unheard
music. It was said that the great mages could see
the
power of the runes they wrought glowing like cold
fire in
the air above the healing powders and sense the
touch
of it like plasmic light drawn from the fingertips.
After
long years of solitary meditation, Jenny had come
to
accept that, for her, magic was a depth and a stillness
rather
than the moving brilliance that it was for the great.
It was
something she would never quite become recon-
ciled
to, but at least it kept her from the resentment that
would
block what powers she did have. Within her narrow
bounds,
she knew she worked well. "
The key
to magic is magic, Caerdinn had said. To be
a mage,
you must be a mage. There is no time for anything
else,
if you will come to the fullness of your power.
So she
had remained in the stone house on Frost Fell
after
Caerdinn had died, studying his books and measur-
ing the
stars, meditating in the crumbling circle of ancient
standing
stones that stood on the hillcrest above. Through
the
slow years her powers had grown with meditation and
study,
though never to what his had been. It was a life
that
had contented her. She had looked no further than
the
patient striving to increase her powers, while she healed
others
where she could and observed the turning of the
seasons.
Then
John had come.
The
spells circled to their conclusion. For a time silence
hung on
the air, as if every hearth brick and rafter shadow,
the
fragrance of the applewood fire and the guttural trickle
of the
rain, had been preserved in amber for a thousand
years.
Jenny swept the spelled powders together into a
bowl
and raised her eyes. Gareth was watching her fear-
fully
from the darkness of the curtained bed.
She got
to her feet. As she moved toward him, he
recoiled,
his white face drawn with accusation and loath-
ing.
"You are his mistress!"
Jenny
stopped, hearing the hatred in that weak voice.
She
said, "Yes. But it has nothing to do with you."
He
turned his face away, fretful and still half-dreaming.
"You
are just like her," he muttered faintly. "Just like
Zyeme.,."
She
stepped forward again, not certain she had heard
clearly.
"Who?"
"You've
snared him with your spells-brought him
down
into the mud," the boy whispered and broke off
with a
feverish sob. Disregarding his repulsion, she came
worriedly
to his side, feeling his face and hands; after a
moment,
he ceased his feeble resistance, already sinking
back to
sleep. His flesh felt neither hot nor overly chilled;
his
pulse was steady and strong. But still he tossed and
murmured,
"Never-I never will. Spells-you have laid
spells
on him-made him love you with your witcher-
ies
..." His eyelids slipped closed.
Jenny
sighed and straightened up, looking down into
the
flushed, troubled face. "If only I had laid spells on
him,"
she murmured. "Then I could release us both-
had I
the courage."
She
dusted her hands on her skirt and descended the
narrow
darkness of the turret stair.
She
found John in his study-what would have been
a
fair-sized room, had it not been jammed to overflowing
with
books. For the most part, these were ancient vol-
umes,
left at the Hold by the departing armies or scav-
enged from
the cellars of the burned-out garrison towns
of the
south; rat-chewed, black with mildew, unreadable
with
waterstains, they crammed every shelf of the laby-
rinth
of planks that filled two walls and they spilled off
to
litter the long oak table and heaped the floor in the
corners.
Sheets of notes were interleaved among their
pages
and between their covers, copied out by John
in the
winter evenings. Among and between them were
jumbled
at random the tools of a scribe-prickers and
quills,
knives and inkpots, pumice stones-and stranger
things
besides: metal tubes and tongs, plumb-bobs and
levels,
burning-glasses and pendulums, magnets, the
blown
shells of eggs, chips of rock, dried flowers, and a
half-disassembled
clock. A vast spiderweb of hoists and
pulleys
occupied the rafters in one comer, and battalions
of
guttered and decaying candles angled along the edges
of
every shelf and sill. The room was a magpie-nest of
picked-at
knowledge, the lair of a tinkerer to whom the
universe
was one vast toyshop of intriguing side issues.
Above
the hearth, like a giant iron pinecone, hung the
tail-knob
of the dragon of Wyr-fifteen inches lortg and
nine
through, covered with stumpy, broken spikes.
John
himself stood beside the window, gazing through
the
thick glass of its much-mended casement out over the
barren
lands to the north, where they merged with the
bruised
and tumbled sky. His hand was pressed to his
side,
where the rain throbbed in the ribs that the tail-knob
had
cracked.
Though
the soft buckskin of her boots made no sound
on the
rutted stone of the floor, he looked up as she came
in. His
eyes smiled greeting into hers, but she only leaned
her
shoulder against the stone of the doorpost and asked,
"Well?"
He
glanced ceilingward where Gareth would be lying.
"What,
our little hero and his dragon?" A smile flicked
the
comers of his thin, sensitive mouth, then vanished
like
the swift sunlight of a cloudy day. "I've slain one
dragon,
Jen, and it bloody near finished me. Tempting as
the
promise is of getting more fine ballads written of my
deeds,
I think I'll pass this chance."
Relief
and the sudden recollection of Gareth's ballad
made
Jenny giggle as she came into the room. The whitish
light
of the windows caught in every crease of John's
leather
sleeves as he stepped forward to meet her and
bent to
kiss her Ups.
"Our
hero never rode all the way north by himself,
surely?"
Jenny
shook her head. "He told me he took a ship from
the
south to Eldsbouch and rode east from there."
"He's
gie lucky he made it that far," John remarked,
and
kissed her again, his hands warm against her sides.
"The
pigs have been restless all day, carrying bits of straw
about
in their mouths-I turned back yesterday even from
riding
the bounds because of the way the crows were
acting
out on the Whin Hills. It's two weeks early for
them,
but it's in my mind this'll be the first of the winter
storms.
The rocks at Eldsbouch are shipeaters. You know,
Dotys
says in Volume Three of his Histories-or is it in
that
part of Volume Five we found at Ember?-or is it in
Clivy?-that
there used to be a mole or breakwater across
the
harbor there, back in the days of the Kings. It was
one of
the Wonders of the World, Dotys-or Clivy-says,
but
nowhere can I find any mention of the engineering of
it. One
of these days I'm minded to take a boat out there
and see
what I can find underwater at the harbor mouth..."
Jenny
shuddered, knowing John to be perfectly capa-
ble of
undertaking such an investigation. She had still not
forgotten
the stone house he had blown up, after reading
in some
moldering account about the gnomes using blast-
ing
powder to tunnel in their Deeps, nor his experiments
with
water pipes.
Sudden
commotion sounded in the dark of the turret
stair,
treble voices arguing, "She is, too!" and "Let go!"
A muted
scuffle ensued, and a moment later a red-haired,
sturdy
urchin of four or so exploded into the room in a
swirl
of grubby sheepskin and plaids, followed immedi-
ately
by a slender, dark-haired boy of eight. Jenny smiled
and
held out her arms to them both. They flung them-
selves
against her; small, filthy hands clutched delightedly
at her
hair, her skirt, and the sleeves other shift, and she
felt
again the surge of ridiculous and illogical delight at
being
in their presence.
"And
how are my little barbarians?" she asked in her
coolest
voice, which fooled neither of them.
"Good-we
been good. Mama," the older boy said,
clinging
to the faded blue cloth of her skirt."/ been good-
Adric
hasn't."
"Have,
too," retorted the younger one, whom John
had
lifted into his arms. "Papa had to whip lan."
"Did
he, now?" She smiled down into her older son's
eyes,
heavy-lidded and tip-tilted like John's, but as sum-
mer blue
as her own. "He doubtless deserved it."
"With
a big whip," Adric amplified, carried away with
his
tale. "A hundred cuts."
"Really?"
She looked over at John with matter-of-fact
inquiry
in her expression. "All at one session, or did you
rest in
between?"
"One
session," John replied serenely. "And he never
begged
for mercy even once."
"Good
boy." She ruffled lan's coarse black hair, and
he
twisted and giggled with pleasure at the solemn make-
believe.
The
boys had long ago accepted the fact that Jenny
did not
live at the Hold, as other boys' mothers lived with
their
fathers; the Lord of the Hold and the Witch of Frost
Fell
did not have to behave like other adults. Like puppies
who
tolerate a kennelkeeper's superintendence, the boys
displayed
a dutiful affection toward John's stout Aunt
Jane,
who cared for them and, she believed, kept them
out of
trouble while John was away looking after the lands
in his
charge and Jenny lived apart in her own house on
the
Fell, pursuing the solitudes of her art. But it was their
father
they recognized as their master, and their mother
as
their love.
They
started to tell her, in an excited and not very
coherent
duet, about a fox they had trapped, when a sound
in the
doorway made them turn. Gareth stood there, look-
ing
pale and tired, but dressed in his own clothes again,
bandages
making an ungainly lump under the sleeve of
his
spare shirt. He'd dug an unbroken pair of spectacles
from
his baggage as well; behind the thick lenses, his eyes
were
filled with sour distaste and bitter disillusion as he
looked
at her and her sons. It was as if the fact that John
and she
had become lovers-that she had borne John's
sons-had
not only cheapened his erstwhile hero in his
eyes,
but had made her responsible for all those other
disappointments
that he had encountered in the Winter-
lands
as well.
The
boys sensed at once his disapprobation. Adric's
pugnacious
little jaw began to come forward in a miniature
version
of John's. But lan, more sensitive, only signaled
to his
brother with his eyes, and the two took their silent
leave.
John watched them go; then his gaze returned,
speculative,
to Gareth. But all he said was, "So you lived,
then?"
Rather
shakily, Gareth replied, "Yes. Thank you-"
He
turned to Jenny, with a forced politeness that no amount
of
animosity could uproot from his courtier's soul. "Thank
you for
helping me." He took a step into the room and
stopped
again, staring blankly about him as he saw the
place
for the first time. Not something from a ballad,
Jenny
thought, amused in spite of herself. But then, no
ballad
could ever prepare anyone for John.
"Bit
crowded," John confessed. "My dad used to keep
the
books that had been left at the Hold in the storeroom
with
the corn, and the rats had accounted for most of 'em
before
I'd learned to read. I thought they'd be safer here."
"Er..."
Gareth said, at a loss. "I-I suppose..."
"He
was a stiff-necked old villain, my dad," John went
on
conversationally, coming to stand beside the hearth
and
extend his hands to the fire. "If it hadn't been for old
Caerdinn,
who was about the Hold on and off when I was
a lad,
I'd never have got past the alphabet. Dad hadn't
much
use for written things-I found half an act of
Luciard's
Firegiver pasted over the cracks in the waBs of
the
cupboard my granddad used to store winter clothes
in. I
could have gone out and thrown rocks at his grave,
I was
that furious, because of course there's none of the
play to
be found now. God knows what they did with the
rest of
it-kindled the kitchen stoves, I expect. What
we've
managed to save isn't much-Volumes Three and
Four of
Dotys' Histories; most of Polyborus' Analects
and his
Jurisprudence; the Elucidus Lapidarus; Clivy's
On
Farming-in its entirety, for all that's worth, though
it's
pretty useless. I don't think Clivy was much of a
farmer,
or even bothered to talk to fanners. He says that
you can
tell the coming of storms by taking measurements
of the
clouds and their shadows, but the grannies round
the
villages say you can tell just watching the bees. And
when he
talks about the mating habits of pigs..."
"I
warn you, Gareth," Jenny said with a smile, "that
John is
a walking encyclopedia of old wives' tales, granny-
rhymes,
snippets of every classical writer he can lay hands
upon,
and trivia gleaned from the far comers of the hollow
earth-encourage
him at your peril. He also can't cook."
"I
can, though," John shot back at her with a grin.
Gareth,
still gazing around him in mystification at the
cluttered
room, said nothing, but his narrow face was a
study
of mental gymnastics as he strove to adjust the
ballads'
conventionalized catalog of perfections with the
reality
of a bespectacled amateur engineer who collected
lore
about pigs.
"So,
then," John went on in a friendly voice, "tell us
of this
dragon of yours, Gareth of Magloshaldon, and why
the
King sent a boy of your years to carry his message,
when
he's got warriors and knights that could do the job
as well."
"Er..."
Gareth looked completely taken aback for a
moment-messengers
in ballads never being asked for
their
credentials. "That is-but that's just it. He hasn't
got
warriors and knights, not that can be spared. And I
came
because I knew where to look for you, from the
ballads."
He
fished from the pouch at his belt a gold signet ring,
whose
bezel flashed in a spurt of yellow hearthlight-
Jenny
glimpsed a crowned king upon it, seated beneath
twelve
stars. John looked in silence at it for a moment,
then
bent his head and drew the ring to his lips with
archaic
reverence.
Jenny
watched his action in silence. The King was the
King,
she thought. It was nearly a hundred years since
he
withdrew his troops from the north, leaving that to the
barbarians
and the chaos of lands without law. Yet John
still
regarded himself as the subject of the King.
It was
something she herself had never understood-
either
John's loyalty to the King whose laws he still fought
to
uphold, or Caerdinn's sense of bitter and personal
betrayal
by those same Kings. To Jenny, the King was
the
ruler of another land, another time-she herself was
a
citizen only of the Winterlands.
Bright
and small, the gold oval of the ring flashed as
Gareth
laid it upon the table, like a witness to all that was
said.
"He gave that to me when he sent me to seek you,"
he told
them. "The King's champions all rode out against
the
dragon, and none of them returned. No one in the
Realm
has ever slain a dragon-nor even seen one up
close
to know how to attack it, really. And there is nothing
to tell
us. I know, I've looked, because it was the one
useful
thing that I could do. I know I'm not a knight, or
a
champion..." His voice stammered a little on the admis-
sion,
breaking the armor of his formality. "I know I'm no
good at
sports. But I've studied all the ballads and all
their
variants, and no ballad really tells that much about
the
actual how-to of killing a dragon. We need a Dra-
gonsbane,"
he concluded helplessly. "We need someone
who
knows what he's doing. We need your help."
"And
we need yours." The light timbre of Aversin's
smoky
voice suddenly hardened to flint. "We've needed
your
help for a hundred years, while this part of the Realm,
from
the River Wildspae north, was being laid waste by
bandits
and Iceriders and wolves and worse things, things
we
haven't the knowledge anymore to deal with: marsh-
devils
and Whisperers and the evils that haunt the night
woods,
evils that steal the blood and souls of the living.
Has
your King thought of that? It's a bit late in the day
for him
to be asking favors of us."
The boy
stared at him, stunned. "But the dragon..."
"Pox
blister your dragon! Your King has a hundred
knights
and my people have only me." The light slid across
the
lenses of his specs in a flash of gold as he leaned
his
broad shoulders against the blackened stones of the
chimney-breast,
the spikes of the dragon's tail-knob
gleaming
evilly beside his head. "Gnomes never have just
one
entrance to their Deeps. Couldn't your King's knights
have
gotten the surviving gnomes to guide them through
a
secondary entrance to take the thing from behind?"
"Uh..."
Visibly nonplussed by the unheroic practi-
cality
of the suggestion, Gareth floundered. "I don't think
they
could have. The rear entrance of the Deep is in the
fortress
of Halnath. The Master of Halnath-Polycarp,
the
King's nephew-rose in revolt against the King not
long
before the dragon's coming. The Citadel is under
siege."
Silent in
the comer of the hearth to which she had
retreated.
Jenny heard the sudden shift in the boy's voice,
like
the sound of a weakened foundation giving under
strain.
Looking up, she saw his too-prominent Adam's
apple
bob as he swallowed.
There
was some wound there, she guessed to herself,
some
memory still tender to the touch.
"That's-that's
one reason so few of the King's cham-
pions
could be spared. It isn't only the dragon, you see."
He
leaned forward pleadingly. "The whole Realm is in
danger
from the rebels as well as the dragon. The Deep
tunnels
into the face of Nast Wall, the great mountain-
ridge
that divides the lowlands ofBelmarie from the north-
eastern
Marches. The Citadel of Halnath stands on a cliff
on the
other side of the mountain from the main gates of
the
Deep, with the town and the University below it. The
gnomes
ofYlferdun were our allies against the rebels, but
now
most of them have gone over to the Halnath side.
The
whole Realm is split. You must come! As long as the
dragon
is in Ylferdun we can't keep the roads from the
mountains
properly guarded against the rebels, or send
supplies
to the besiegers of the Citadel. The King's cham-
pions
went out..." He swallowed again, his voice tight-
ening
with the memory. "The men who brought back the
bodies
said that most of them never even got a chance to
draw
their swords."
"Gah!"
Aversin looked away, anger and pity twisting
his
sensitive mouth. "Any fool who'd take a sword after
a
dragon in the first place..."
"But
they didn't know! All they had to go on were the
songs!"
Aversin
said nothing to this; but, judging by his com-
pressed
lips and the flare of his nostrils, his thoughts were
not
pleasant ones. Gazing into the fire. Jenny heard his
silence,
and something like the chill shadow of a wind-
driven
cloud passed across her heart.
Half
against her will, she saw images form in the molten
amber
of the fire's heart. She recognized the winter-
colored
sky above the gully, the charred and brittle spears
of
poisoned grass fine as needle-scratches against it, John
standing
poised on the gully's rim, the barbed steel rod
of a
harpoon in one gloved hand, an ax gleaming in his
belt.
Something rippled in the gully, a living carpet of
golden
knives.
Clearer
than the sharp, small ghosts of the past that
she saw
was the shiv-twist memory of fear as she saw
him
jump.
They
had been lovers then for less than a year, still
bumingly
conscious of one another's bodies. When he
had
sought the dragon's lair, more than anything else Jenny
had
been aware of the fragility of flesh and bone when it
was
pitted against steel and fire.
She
shut her eyes; when she opened them again, the
silken
pictures were gone from the flame. She pressed
her
lips taut, forcing herself to listen without'speaking,
knowing
it was and could be none of her affair. She could
no more
have told him not to go-not then, not now-
than he
could have told her to leave the stone house on
Frost
Fell and give up her seeking, to come to the Hold
to cook
his meals and raise his sons.
John
was saying, "Tell me about this drake."
"You
mean you'll come?" The forlorn eagerness in
Gareth's
voice made Jenny want to get up and box his
ears.
"I
mean I want to hear about it." The Dragonsbane
came
around the table and slouched into one of the room's
big
carved chairs, sliding the other in Gareth's direction
with a
shove of his booted foot. "How long ago did it
strike?"
"It
came by night, two weeks ago. I took ship three
days
later, from Claekith Harbor below the city of Bel.
The
ship is waiting for us at Eldsbouch."
"I
doubt that." John scratched the side of his long nose
with
one scarred forefinger. "If your mariners were smart
they'll
have turned and run for a safe port two days ago.
The
storms are coming. Eldsbouch will be no protection
to
them."
"But
they said they'd stay!" Gareth protested indig-
nantly.
"I paid them!"
"Gold
will do them no good weighting their bones to
the
bottom of the cove," John pointed out.
Gareth
sank back into his chair, shocked and cut to
the
heart by this final betrayal. "They can't have gone..."
There
was a moment's silence, while John looked down
at his
hands. Without lifting her eyes from the heart of
the
fire. Jenny said softly, "They are not there, Gareth.
I see
the sea, and it is black with storms; I see the old
harbor
at Eldsbouch, the gray river running through the
broken
houses there; I see the fisher-folk making fast their
little
boats to the ruins of the old piers and all the stones
shining
under the rain. There is no ship there, Gareth."
"You're
wrong," he said hopelessly. "You have to be
wrong."
He turned back to John. "It'll take us weeks to
get
back, traveling overland..."
"Us?"
John said softly, and Gareth blushed and looked
as
frightened as if he had uttered mortal insult. After a
moment
John went on, "How big is this dragon of yours?"
Gareth
swallowed again and drew his breath in a shaky
sigh.
"Huge," he said dully.
"How
huge?"
Gareth
hesitated. Like most people, he had no eye for
relative
size. "It must have been a hundred feet long. They
say the
shadow of its wings covered the whole ofDeeping
Vale."
"Who
says?" John inquired, shifting his weight side-
ways in
the chair and hooking a knee over the fornicating
sea-lions
that made up the left-hand arm. "I thought it
came at
night, and munched up anyone close enough to
see it
by day."
"Well..."
He floundered in a sea of third-hand rumor.
"Ever
see it on the ground?"
Gareth
blushed and shook his head.
"It's
gie hard to judge things in the air," John said
kindly,
pushing up his specs again. "The drake I slew here
looked
about a hundred feet long in the air, when I first
saw it
descending on the village of Great Toby. Turned
out to
be twenty-seven feet from beak to tail." Again his
quick
grin illuminated his usually expressionless face. "It
comes
of being a naturalist. The first thing we did, Jenny
and I,
when I was on my feet again after killing it, was
to go
out there with cleavers and see how the thing was
put
together, what there was left of it."
"It
could be bigger, though, couldn't it?" Gareth asked.
He
sounded a little worried, as if. Jenny thought dryly,
he
considered a twenty-seven foot dragon somewhat pal-
try.
"I mean, in the Greenhythe variant of the Lay of
Selkythar
Dragonsbane and the Worm of the Imperteng
Wood,
they say that the Worm was sixty feet long, with
wings
that would cover a battalion."
"Anybody
measure it?"
"Well,
they must have. Except-now that I come to
think
of it, according to that variant, when Selkythar
had
wounded it unto death the dragon fell into the River
Wildspae;
and in a later Belmarie version it says it
fell
into the sea. So I don't see how anyone could
have."
"So
a sixty-foot dragon is just somebody's measure of
how
great Selkythar was." He leaned back in his chair,
his
hands absentmindedly tracing over the lunatic carv-
ings-the
mingled shapes of all the creatures of the Book
of
Beasts. The worn gilding still caught in the chinks flick-
ered
with a dull sheen in the stray glints of the fire.
"Twenty-seven
feet doesn't sound like a lot, 'til it's there
spitting
fire at you. You know their flesh will decompose
almost
as soon as they die? It's as if their own fire con-
sumes
them, as it does everything else."
"Spitting
fire?" Gareth frowned. "All the songs say
they
breathe it."
Aversin
shook his head. "They sort of spit it-it's liq-
uid
fire, and nearly anything it touches'!! catch. That's
the
trick in fighting a dragon, you see-to stay close
enough
to its body that it won't spit fire at you for fear
of
burning itself, and not get rolled on or cut to pieces
with
its scales whilst you're about it. They can raise the
scales
along their sides like a blowfish bristling, and they're
edged
like razors."
"I
never knew that," Gareth breathed. Wonder and
curiosity
lessened, for a moment, the shell of his offended
dignity
and pride.
"Well,
the pity of it is, probably the King's champions
didn't
either. God knows, I didn't when I went after the
dragon
in the gorge. There was nothing about it in any
book I
could find-Dotys and Clivy and them. Only a
few old
granny-rhymes that mention dragons-or drakes
or
worms, they're called-and they weren't much help.
Things
like:
"Cock
by its feet, horse by its hame,
Snake
by its head, drake by its name.
"Or
what Polyborus had in his Analects about cer-
tain
villages believing that if you plant loveseed-those
creeper-things
with the purple trumpet-flowers on them-
around
your house, dragons won't come near. Jen and I
used
bits of that kind of lore-Jen brewed a poison from
the
loveseed to put on my harpoons, because it was obvious
on the
face of it that no fiddling little sword was going to
cut
through those scales. And the poison did slow the
thing
down. But I don't know near as much about them
as I'd
like."
"No."
Jenny turned her eyes at last from the fire's
throbbing
core and, resting her cheek upon her hand where
it lay
on her up-drawn knees, regarded the two men on
either
side of the book-cluttered table. She spoke softly,
half to
herself. "We know not where they come from, nor
where
they breed; why of all the beasts of the earth they
have
six limbs instead of four..."
"'Maggots
from meat,'" quoted John, '"weevils from
rye,
dragons from stars in an empty sky.' That's in Terens'
Of
Ghosts. Or Caerdinn's 'Save a dragon, slave a dragon.'
Or why
they say you should never look into a dragon's
eyes-and
I'll tell you. Gar, I was gie careful not to do
that.
We don't even know simple things, like why magic
and
illusion won't work on them; why Jen couldn't call
the
dragon's image in that jewel of hers, or use a cloaking-
spell
against his notice-nothing."
"Nothing,"
Jenny said softly, "save how they died,
slain
by men as ignorant of them as we."
John
must have beard the strange sorrow that underlay
her
voice, for she felt his glance, worried and questioning.
But she
turned her eyes away, not knowing the answer
to what
he asked.
After a
moment, John sighed and said to Gareth, "It's
all
knowledge that's been lost over the years, like Luciard's
Firegiver
and how they managed to build a breakwater
across
the harbor mouth at Eldsbouch-knowledge that's
been
lost and may never be recovered."
He got
to his feet and began to pace restlessly, the flat,
whitish
gray reflections from the window winking on spike
and
mail-scrap and the brass of dagger-hilt and buckle.
"We're
living in a decaying world. Gar; things slipping
away
day by day. Even you, down south in Bel-you're
losing
the Realm a piece at a time, with the Winterlands
tearing
off in one direction and the rebels pulling away
the
Marches in another. You're losing what you had and
don't
even know it, and all that while knowledge is leaking
out the
seams, like meal from a ripped bag, because there
isn't
time or leisure to save it.
"I
would never have slain the dragon. Gar-slay it,
when we
know nothing about it? And it was beautiful in
itself,
maybe the most beautiful thing I've ever laid eyes
on,
every color of it perfect as sunset, like a barley field
in
certain lights you get on summer evenings."
"But
you must-you have to slay ours!" There was
sudden
agony in Gareth's voice.
"Fighting
it and slaying it are two different things."
John
turned back from the window, his head tipped slightly
to one
side, regarding the boy's anxious face. "And I
haven't
yet said I'd undertake the one, let alone accom-
plish
the other."
"But
you have to." The boy's voice was a forlorn whis-
per of
despair. "You're our only hope."
"Am
I?" the Dragonsbane asked gently. "I'm the only
hope of
all these villagers, through the coming winter,
against
wolves and bandits. It was because I was their
only
hope that I slew the most perfect creature I'd ever
seen,
slew it dirtily, filthily, chopping it to pieces with an
ax-it
was because I was their only hope that I fought it
at all
and near had my flesh shredded from my bones by
it. I'm
only a man, Gareth."
"No!"
the boy insisted desperately. "You're the
Dragonsbane-the
only Dragonsbane!" He rose to his
feet,
some inner struggle plain upon his thin features, his
breathing
fast as if forcing himself to some exertion. "The
King..."
He swallowed hard. "The King told me to make
whatever
terms I could, to bring you south. If you come..."
With an
effort he made his voice steady. "If you come,
we will
send troops again to protect the northlands, to
defend
them against the Iceriders; we will send books,
and
scholars, to bring knowledge to the people again. I
swear
it." He took up the King's seal and held it out in
his
trembling palm, and the cold daylight flashed palely
across
its face. "In the King's name I swear it."
But
Jenny, watching the boy's white face as he spoke,
saw
that he did not meet John's eyes.
As
night came on the rain increased, the wind throwing
it like
sea-breakers against the walls of the Hold. John's
Aunt
Jane brought up a cold supper of meat, cheese, and
beer,
which Gareth picked at with the air of one doing
his
duty. Jenny, sitting cross-legged in the comer of the
hearth,
unwrapped her harp and experimented with its
tuning
pegs while the men spoke of the roads that led
south,
and of the slaying of the Golden Dragon of Wyr.
"That's
another thing that wasn't like the songs," Gar-
eth
said, resting his bony elbows amid the careless scatter
of
John's notes on the table. "In the songs the dragons
are all
gay-colored, gaudy. But this one is black, dead-
black
all over save for the silver lamps of its eyes."
"Black,"
repeated John quietly, and looked over at
Jenny.
"You had an old list, didn't you, love?"
She
nodded, her hands resting in the delicate maneu-
verings
of the harp pegs. "Caerdinn had me memorize
many
old lists," she explained to Gareth. "Some of them
he told
me the meaning of-this one he never did. Perhaps
he
didn't know himself. It was names, and colors..." She
closed
her eyes and repeated the list, her voice falling
into
the old man's singsong chant, the echo of dozens of
voices,
back through the length of years. "Teltrevir helio-
trope;
Centhwevir is blue knotted with gold; Astirith is
primrose
and black; Morkeleb alone, black as night...
The
list goes on-there were dozens of names, if names
they
are." She shrugged and linked her fingers over the
curve
of the harp's back. "But John tells me that the old
dragon
that was supposed to haunt the shores of the lake
of
Wevir in the east was said to have been blue as the
waters,
marked all over his back with patterns of gold so
that he
could lie beneath the surface of the lake in summer
and
steal sheep from the banks."
"Yes!"
Gareth almost bounced out of his chair with
enthusiasm
as he recognized the familiar tale. "And the
Worm of
Wevir was slain by Antara Warlady and her
brother
Darthis Dragonsbane in the last part of the reign
of
Yvain the Well-Beloved, who was..." He caught him-
self up
again, suddenly embarrassed. "It's a popular tale,"
he
concluded, red-faced.
Jenny
hid her smile at the abrupt checking of his ebul-
lience.
"There were notes for the harp as well-not tunes,
really.
He whistled them to me, over and over, until I got
them
right."
She put
her harp to her shoulder, a small instrument
that
had also been Caerdinn's, though he had not played
it; the
wood was darkened almost black with age. By
daylight
it appeared perfectly unadorned, but when fire-
light
glanced across it, as it did now, the circles of the air
and sea
were sometimes visible, traced upon it in faded
gold.
Carefully, she picked out those strange, sweet knots
of
sound, sometimes two or three notes only, sometimes
a
string of them like a truncated air. They were individual
in the
turns of their timing, hauntingly half-familiar, like
things
remembered from childhood; and as she played she
repeated
the names: Teltrevir heliotrope, Centhwevir is
blue
knotted with gold... It was part of the lost knowl-
edge,
like that from John's scatterbrained, jackdaw quest
in the
small portion of his time not taken up with the
brutal
demands of the Winterlands. Notes and words were
meaningless
now, like a line from a lost ballad, or a few
torn
pages from the tragedy of an exiled god, pasted to
keep
wind from a crack-the echoes of songs that would
not be
heard again.
From
them her hands moved on, random as her passing
thoughts.
She sketched vagrant airs, or snatches of jigs
and
reels, slowed and touched with the shadow of an
inevitable
grief that waited in the hidden darkness of future
time.
Through them she moved to the ancient tunes that
held
the timeless pull of the ocean in their cadences; sor-
rows
that drew the heart from the body, or joys that called
the
soul like the distant glitter of stardust banners in the
summer
night. In time John took from its place in a hole
by the
hearth a tin pennywhistle, such as children played
in the
streets, and joined its thin, bright music to hers,
dancing
around the shadowed beauty of the harp like a
thousand-year-old
child.
Music
answered music, joining into a spell-circle that
banished,
for a time, the strange tangle of fear and grief
and
dragonfire in Jenny's heart. Whatever would come
to
pass, this was what they were and had, now. She tossed
back
the cloudy streams of her hair and caught the bright
flicker
of Aversin's eyes behind his thick spectacles, the
pennywhistle
luring the harp out of its sadness and into
dance
airs wild as hay-harvest winds. As the evening
deepened,
the Hold folk drifted up to the study to join
them,
sitting where they could on the floor or the hearth
or in
the deep embrasures of the windows: John's Aunt
Jane
and Cousin Dilly and others of the vast tribe of his
female
relatives who lived at the Hold; lan and Adric;
the
fat, jovial smith Muffle; all part of the pattern of the
life of
the Winterlands that was so dull-seeming at first,
but was
in truth close-woven and complex as its random
plaids.
And among them Gareth sat, ill at ease as a bright
southern
parrot in a rookery. He kept looking about him
with
puzzled distaste in the leaping restlessness of the red
firelight
that threw into momentary brightness the mold-
ery
rummage of decaying books, of rocks and chemical
experiments,
and that glowed in the children's eyes and
made
amber mirrors of the dogs'-wondering, Jenny
thought,
how a quest as glorious as his could possibly
have
ended in such a place.
And
every now and then, she noticed, his eyes returned
to
John. There was in them not only anxiety, but a kind
of
nervous dread, as if he were haunted by a gnawing
guilt
for something he had done, or something he knew
he must
yet do.
"Will
you go?" Jenny asked softly, much later in the
night,
lying in the warm nest of bearskins and patchwork
with
her dark hair scattered like sea-wrack over John's
breast
and arm.
"If
I slay his dragon for him, the King will have to
listen
to me," John said reasonably. "If I come at his
calling,
I must be his subject, and if I am-we are-his
subjects,
as King he owes us the protection of his troops.
If I'm
not his subject..." He paused, as he thought over
what
his next words would mean about the Law of the
Realm
for which he had so long fought. He sighed and
let the
thought go.
For a
time the silence was broken only by the groan
of wind
in the tower overhead and the drumming of the
rain on
the walls. But even had she not been able to see,
catlike,
in the dark, Jenny knew John did not sleep. There
was a
tension in all his muscles, and the uneasy knowledge
of how
narrow had been the margin between living and
dying,
when he had fought the Golden Dragon of Wyr.
Her
hand under his back could still feel the rucked, hard
ridges
of scar.
"Jenny,"
he said at last, "my father told me that his
dad
used to be able to raise four and five hundred of militia
when
the Iceriders came. They fought pitched battles on
the
edge of the northern ocean and marched in force to
break
the strongholds of the bandit-kings that used to
cover
the eastward roads. When that band of brigands
attacked
Far West Riding the year before last, do you
remember
how many men we could come up with, the
mayor
of Riding, the mayor of Toby, and myself among
us?
Less than a hundred, and twelve of those we lost in
that
fight."
As he
moved his head, the banked glow of the hearth
on the
other side of the small sanctum of their bedchamber
caught
a thread ofcamelian from the shoulder-length mop
of his
hair. "Jen, we can't go on like this. You know we
can't.
We're weakening all the time. The lands of the
King's
law, the law that keeps the stronger from enslaving
the
weaker, are shrinking away. Every time a farm is
wiped
out by wolves or brigands or Iceriders, it's one less
shield
in the wall. Every time some family ups and goes
south
to indenture themselves as serfs there, always pro-
vided
they make it that far, it weakens those of us that
are
left. And the law itself is waning, as fewer and fewer
people
even know why there is law. Do you realize that
because
I've read a handful of volumes of Dotys and
whatever
pages of Polyborus' Jurisprudence I could find
stuck
in the cracks of the tower I'm accounted a scholar?
We need
the help of the King, Jen, if we're not to be
feeding
on one another within a generation. I can buy
them
that help."
"With
what?" asked Jenny softly. "The flesh off your
bones?
If you are killed by the dragon, what of your
people
then?"
Beneath
her cheek she felt his shoulder move. "I could
be
killed by wolves or bandits next week-come to that,
I could
fall off old Osprey and break my neck." And when
she
chuckled, unexpectedly amused at that, he added in
an
aggrieved voice, "It's exactly what my father did."
"Your
father knew no better than to ride drunk." She
smiled
a little in spite of herself. "I wonder what he would
have
made of our young hero?"
John
laughed in the darkness. "Gaw, he'd have eaten
him for
breakfast." Seventeen years, ten of which had
been
spent knowing Jenny, had finally given him a tol-
erance
of the man he had grown up hating. Then he drew
her
closer and kissed her hair. When he spoke again, his
voice
was quiet. "I have to do it, Jen. I won't be gone
long."
A
particularly fierce gust of wind shivered in the tow-
er's
ancient bones, and Jenny drew the worn softness of
quilts
and furs up over her bare shoulders. A month,
perhaps,
she calculated; maybe a little more. It would
give
her a chance to catch up on her neglected medita-
tions,
to pursue the studies that she too often put aside
these
days, to come to the Hold to be with him and their
sons.
To be a
mage you must be a mage, Caerdinn had said.
Magic
is the only key to magic. She knew that she was
not the
mage that he had been, even when she had known
him
first, when he was in his eighties and she a skinny,
wretched,
ugly girl of fourteen. She sometimes wondered
whether
it was because he had been so old, at the end of
his
strength, when he came to teach her, the last of his
pupils,
or because she was simply not very good. Lying
awake
in the darkness, listening to the wind or to the
terrible
greatness of the moor silence which was worse,
she
sometimes admitted the truth to herself-that what
she
gave to John, what she found herself more and more
giving
to those two little boys snuggled together like pup-
pies
upstairs, she took from the strength of her power.
All
that she had, to divide between her magic and her
love,
was time. In a few years she would be forty. For
ten
years she had scattered her time, sowing it broadcast
like a
farmer in summer sunshine, instead of hoarding it
and
pouring it back into meditation and magic. She moved
her
head on John's shoulder, and the warmth of their long
friendship
was in the tightening of his arm around her.
Had she
forgone this, she wondered, would she be as
powerful
as Caerdinn had-once been? As powerful as she
sometimes
felt she could be, when she meditated among
the
stones on her lonely hill?
She
would have that time, with her mind undistracted,
time to
work and strive and study. The snow would be
deep by
the time John returned.
If he returned.
The
shadow of the dragon of Wyr seemed to cover her
again,
blotting the sky as it swooped down like a hawk
over
the autumn dance floor at Great Toby. The sickening
jam of
her heart in her throat came back to her, as John
ran
forward under that descending shadow, trying to reach
the
terrified gaggle of children cowering in the center of
the
floor. The metallic stink of spat fire seemed to bum
again
in her nostrils, the screams echoing in her ears...
Twenty-seven
feet, John had said. What it meant was
that
from the top of the dragon's shoulder to the ground
was the
height of a man's shoulder, and half again that to
the top
of its tall haunches, backed by all that weight and
strength
and speed.
And for
no good reason she could think of, she remem-
bered
the sudden shift of the boy Gareth's eyes.
After a
long time of silence she said, "John?"
"Aye,
love?"
"I
want to go with you, when you ride south."
She
felt the hardening of the muscles of his body. It
was
nearly a full minute before he answered her, and she
could
hear in his voice the struggle between what he wanted
and
what he thought might be best. "You've said yourself
it'll
be a bad winter, love. I'm thinking one or the other
of us
should be here."
He was
right, and she knew it. Even the coats of her
cats
were thick this fall. A month ago she had been trou-
bled to
see how the birds were departing, early and swiftly,
anxious
to be gone. The signs pointed to famine and sleet,
and on
the heels of those would come barbarian raids
from
across the ice-locked northern sea.
And
yet, she thought... and yet... Was this the weak-
ness of
a woman who does not want to be parted from
the man
she loves, or was it something else? Caerdinn
would
have said that love clouded the instincts of a mage.
"I
think I should go with you."
"You
think I can't handle the dragon myself?" His
voice
was filled with mock indignation.
"Yes,"
Jenny said bluntly, and felt the ribs vibrate under
her
hand with his laughter. "I don't know under what
circumstances
you'll be meeting it," she went on. "And
there's
more than that."
His
voice was thoughtful in the darkness, but not sur-
prised.
"It strikes you that way too, does it?"
That
was something people tended not to notice about
John.
Behind his facade of amiable barbarism, behind his
frivolous
fascination with hog-lore, granny-rhymes, and
how
clocks were made lurked an agile mind and an almost
feminine
sensitivity to nuances of situations and relation-
ships.
There was not much that he missed.
"Our
hero has spoken of rebellion and treachery in the
south,"
she said. "If the dragon has come, it will ruin the
harvest,
and rising bread-prices will make the situation
worse.
I think you'll need someone there whom you can
trust."
"I've
been thinking it, too," he replied softly. "Now,
what
makes you think I won't be able to trust our Gar?
I doubt
he'd betray me out of pique that the goods aren't
as
advertised."
Jenny
rolled up onto her elbows, her dark hair hanging
in a
torrent down over his breast. "No," she said slowly,
and
tried to put her finger on what it was that troubled
her
about that thin, earnest boy she had rescued in the
ruins
of the old town. At length, she said, "My instincts
tell me
he can be trusted, at heart. But he's lying about
something,
I don't know what. I think I should go with
you to
the south."
John
smiled and drew her down to him again. "The
last
time I went against your instincts, I was that sorry,"
he
said. "Myself, I'm torn, for I can smell there's going
to be
danger here later in the winter. But I think you're
right.
I don't understand why the King would have given
his
word and his seal into the keeping of the likes of our
young
hero, who by the sound of it has never done more
than
collect ballads in all his life, and not to some proven
warrior.
But if the King's pledged his word to aid us, then
I'd be
a fool not to take the chance to pledge mine. Just
the
fact that there's only the two of us, Jen, shows how
close
to the edge of darkness all this land lies. Besides,"
he
added, sudden worry in his voice, "you've got to come."
Her
thoughts preoccupied by her nameless forebod-
ings,
Jenny turned her head quickly. "What is it? Why?"
"We'll
need someone to do the cooking."
With a
cat-swift move she was on top of him, smoth-
ering
his face under a pillow, but she was laughing too
much to
hold him. They tussled, giggling, their struggles
blending
into lovemaking. Later, as they drifted in the
warm
aftermath, Jenny murmured, "You make me laugh
at the
strangest times."
He
kissed her then and slept, but Jenny sank no further
than
the uneasy borderlands of half-dreams. She found
herself
standing once again on the lip of the gully, the heat
from
below beating at her face, the poisons scouring her
lungs.
In the drifting vapors below, the great shape was
still
writhing, heaving its shredded wings or clawing inef-
fectually
with the stumps of its forelegs at the small figure
braced
like an exhausted woodcutter over its neck, a drip-
ping ax
in his blistered hands. She saw John moving
mechanically,
half-asphyxiated with the fumes and sway-
ing
from the loss of the blood that gleamed stickily on his
armor.
The small stream in the gully was clotted and red
with
the dragon's blood; gobbets of flesh choked it; the
stones
were blackened with the dragon's fire. The dragon
kept
raising its dripping head, trying to snap at John; even
in her
dream, Jenny felt the air weighted with the strange
sensation
of singing, vibrant with a music beyond the
grasp
of her ears and mind.
The
singing grew stronger as she slid deeper into sleep.
She saw
against the darkness of a velvet sky the burning
white
disc of the full moon, her private omen of power,
and before
it the silver-silk flash of membranous wings.
She
woke in the deep of the night. Rain thundered
against
the walls of the Hold, a torrent roaring in dark-
ness.
Beside her John slept, and she saw in the darkness
what
she had noticed that morning in daylight: that for
all his
thirty-four years, he had a thread or two of silver
in his
unruly brown hair.
A
thought crossed her mind. She put it aside firmly,
and
just as firmly it reintruded itself. It was not a daylight
thought,
but the nagging whisper that comes only in the
dark
hours, after troubled sleep. Don't be a fool, she told
herself;
the times you have done it, you have always
wished
you hadn't.
But the
thought, the temptation, would not go away.
At
length she rose, careful not to wake the man who
slept
at her side. She wrapped herself in John's worn,
quilted
robe and padded from the bedchamber, the worn
floor
like smooth ice beneath her small, bare feet.
The
study was even darker than the bedchamber had
been,
the fire there nothing more than a glowing line of
rose-colored
heat above a snowbank of ash. Her shadow
passed
like the hand of a ghost over the slumbering shape
of the
harp and made the sliver of reflected red wink along
the
pennywhistle's edge. At the far side of the study, she
raised
a heavy curtain and passed into a tiny room that
was
little more than a niche in the Hold's thick waU.
Barely
wider than its window, in daylight it was coolly
bright,
but now the heavy bull's-eye glass was black as
ink,
and the witchlight she called into being above her
head
glittered coldly on the rain streaming down outside.
The
phosphorescent glow that illuminated the room
outlined
the shape of a narrow table and three small
shelves.
They held things that had belonged to the cold-
eyed
ice-witch who had been John's mother, or to Caer-
dinn-simple
things, a few bowls, an oddly shaped root,
a few
crystals like fragments of broken stars sent for
mending.
Pulling her robe more closely about her. Jenny
took
from its place a plain pottery bowl, so old that what-
ever
designs had once been painted upon its outer surface
had
long since been rubbed away by the touch of mages'
hands.
She dipped it into the stone vessel of water that
stood
in a corner and set it upon the table, drawing up
before
it a tall, spindle-legged chair.
For a
time she only sat, gazing down into the water.
Slips
of foxfire danced on its black surface; as she slowed
her
breathing, she became aware of every sound from the
roaring
of the rain gusts against the tower's walls to the
smallest
drip of the eaves. The worn tabletop was like
cold
glass under her fingertips; her breath was cold against
her own
lips. For a time she was aware of the small flaws
and
bubbles in the glaze of the bowl's inner surface; then
she
sank deeper, watching the colors that seemed to swiri
within
the endless depths. She seemed to move down
toward
an absolute darkness, and the water was like ink,
opaque,
ungiving.
Gray
mists rolled in the depths, then cleared as if wind
had
driven them, and she saw darkness in a vast place,
pricked
by the starlike points of candleflame. An open
space
of black stone lay before her, smooth as oily water;
around
it was a forest, not of trees, but of columns of
stone.
Some were thin as silk, others thicker than the
most
ancient of oaks, and over them swayed the shadows
of the
dancers on the open floor. Though the picture was
silent,
she could feel the rhythm to which they danced-
gnomes,
she saw, their long arms brushing the floor as
they
bent, the vast, cloudy manes of their pale hair catch-
ing
rims of firelight like sunset seen through heavy smoke.
They
danced around a misshapen stone altar, the slow
dances
that are forbidden to the eyes of the children of
men.
The
dream changed. She beheld a desolation of charred
and
broken ruins beneath the dark flank of a tree-covered
mountain.
Night sky arched overhead, wind-cleared and
heart-piercingly
beautiful. The waxing moon was like a
glowing
coin; its light touching with cold, white fingers
the
broken pavement of the empty square below the hill-
side
upon which she stood, edging the raw bones that
moldered
in puddles of faintly smoking slime. Something
flashed
in the velvet shadow of the mountain, and she
saw the
dragon. Starlight gleamed like oil on the lean,
sable
sides; the span of those enormous wings stretched
for a
moment like a skeleton's arms to embrace the moon's
stem
face. Music seemed to drift upon the night, a string
of
notes like a truncated air, and for an instant her heart
leaped
toward that silent, dangerous beauty, lonely and
graceful
in the secret magic of its gliding flight.
Then
she saw another scene by the low light of a dying
fire.
She thought she was in the same place, on a rise
overlooking
the desolation of the ruined town before the
gates
of the Deep. It was the cold hour of the tide's ebbing,
some
hours before dawn. John lay near the fire, dark
blood
leaking from the clawed rents in his armor. His face
was a
mass of blisters beneath a mask of gore and grime;
he was
alone, and the fire was dying. Its light caught a
spangle
of red from the twisted links of his torn mail shirt
and
glimmered stickily on the upturned palm of one blis-
tered
hand. The fire died, and for a moment only starlight
glittered
on the pooling blood and outlined the shape of
his
nose and lips against the darkness.
She was
underground once more, in the place where
the
gnomes had danced. It was empty now, but the hollow
silences
beneath the earth seemed filled with the inchoate
murmur
of formless sound, as if the stone altar whispered
to
itself in the darkness.
Then
she saw only the small flaws in the glaze of the
bowl,
and the dark, oily surface of the water. The witch-
light
had long ago failed above her head, which ached as
it
often did when she had overstretched her power. Her
body
felt chilled through to the bones, but she was for a
time
too weary to move from where she sat. She stared
before
her into the darkness, listening to the steady drum
of the
rain, hurting in her soul and wishing with all that
was in
her that she had not done what she had done.
All
divination was chancy, she told herself, and water
was the
most notorious liar of all. There was no reason
to
believe that what she had seen would come to pass.
So she
repeated to herself, over and over, but it did
no
good. In time she lowered her face to her hands and
wept.
CHAPTER
III
THEY
SET FORTH two days later and rode south through
a
maelstrom of wind and water.
In the
days of the Kings, the Great North Road had
stretched
from Bel itself northward like a gray stone ser-
pent,
through the valley of the Wildspae River and across
the
farm and forest lands of Wyr, linking the southern
capital
with the northern frontier and guarding the great
silver
mines of Tralchet. But the mines had flagged, and
the
Kings had begun to squabble with their brothers and
cousins
over the lordship of the south. The troops who
guarded
the Winterlands' forts had been withdrawn-
temporarily,
they said, to shore up the forces of one con-
tender
against another. They had never returned. Now
the
gray stone serpent was disintegrating slowly, like a
shed
skin; its stones were torn up to strengthen house
walls
against bandits and barbarians, its ditches choked
with
decades of detritus, and its very foundations forced
apart
by the encroaching tree roots of the forest of Wyr.
The
Winterlands had destroyed it, as they destroyed all
things.
Traveling
south along what remained of the road was
slow,
for the autumn storms swelled the icy becks of the
moors
to white-toothed torrents and reduced the ground
in the
tree-tangled hollows to sodden, nameless mires.
Under
the flail of the wind, Gareth could no longer argue
that
the ship upon which he had come north would still
be
waiting at Eldsbouch to waft them south in relative
comfort
and speed, but Jenny suspected he still felt in his
heart
that it should have been, and, illogically, blamed
her
that it was not.
They
rode for the most part in silence. Sometimes when
they
halted, as they frequently did for John to scout the
tumbled
rocks or dense knots of woodland ahead. Jenny
looked
across at Gareth and saw him gazing around him
in a
kind of hurt bewilderment at the desolation through
which
they rode: at the barren downs with their weed-
grown
lines of broken walls; at the old boundary stones,
lumpish
and melted-looking as spring snowmen; and at
the
stinking bogs or the high, bare tors with their few
twisted
trees, giant balls of mistletoe snagged weirdly in
their
naked branches against a dreary sky. It was a land
that no
longer remembered law or the prosperity of ordered
living
that comes with law, and sometimes she could see
him
struggling with the understanding of what John was
offering
to buy at the stake of his life.
But
usually it was plain that Gareth simply found the
halts
annoying. "We're never going to get there at this
rate,"
he complained as John appeared from the smoke-
colored
tangle of dead heather that cloaked the lower
flanks
of a promontory that hid the road. A watchtower
had
once crowned it, now reduced to a chewed-looking
circle
of rubble on the hill's crest. John had bellied up the
slope
to investigate it and the road ahead and now was
shaking
mud and wet out of his plaid. "It's been twenty
days
since the dragon came," Gareth added resentfully.
"Anything
can have happened."
"It
can have happened the day after you took ship, my
hero,"
John pointed out, swinging up to the saddle of his
spare
riding horse. Cow. "And if we don't look sharp and
scout
ahead, we are never going to get there."
But the
sullen glance the boy shot at John's back as
he
reined away told Jenny more clearly than words that,
though
he could not argue with this statement, he did not
believe
it, either.
That
evening they camped in the ragged birches of the
broken
country where the downs gave place to the hoary
densities
of the Wyrwoods. When camp was set, and the
horses
and mules picketed. Jenny moved quietly along
the
edge of the clearing, the open ground above the high
bank of
a stream whose noisy rushing blended with the
sea-sound
of the wind in the trees. She touched the bark
of the
trees and the soggy mast of acoms, hazelnuts, and
decaying
leaves underfoot, tracing them with the signs
that
only a mage could see-signs that would conceal the
camp
from those who might pass by outside. Looking
back
toward the fluttering yellow light of the new fire,
she saw
Gareth hunkered down beside it, shivering in his
damp
cloak, looking wretched and very forlorn.
Her
square, full lips pressed together. Since he had
learned
she was his erstwhile hero's mistress, he had barely
spoken
to her. His resentment at her inclusion in the expe-
dition
was still obvious, as was his unspoken assumption
that
she had included herself out of a combination of
meddling
and a desire not to let her lover out of her sight.
But
Gareth was alone in an alien land, having clearly
never
been away from the comforts of his home before,
lonely,
disillusioned, and filled with a gnawing fear of what
he
would return to find.
Jenny
sighed and crossed the clearing to where he sat.
The boy
looked up at her suspiciously as she dug into
her
jacket pocket and drew out a long sliver of smoky
crystal
on the chain that Caerdinn had used to hang around
his
neck. "I can't see the dragon in this," she said, "but
if
you'll tell me the name of your father and something
about
your home in Bel, at least I should be able to call
their
images and tell you if they're all right."
Gareth
turned his face away from her. "No," he said.
Then,
after a moment, he added grudgingly, "Thank you
all the
same."
Jenny
folded her arms and regarded him for a moment
in the
jumpy orange firelight. He huddled a little deeper
into
his stained crimson cloak and would not meet her
eyes.
"Is
it because you think I can't?" she asked at last.
"Or
because you won't take the aid of a witch?"
He
didn't answer that, though his full lower lip pinched
up a
bit in the middle. With a sigh of exasperation. Jenny
walked
away from him to where John stood near the oil-
skin-covered
mound of the packs, looking out into the
darkening
woods.
He
glanced back as she came near, the stray gleams
of firelight
throwing glints of dirty orange on the metal of
his
patched doublet. "D'you want a bandage for your
nose?"
he inquired, as if she'd tried to pet a ferret and
gotten
nipped for her trouble. She laughed ruefully.
"He
didn't have any objections to me before," she said,
more
hurt than she had realized by the boy's enmity.
John
put an arm around her and hugged her close. "He
feels
cheated, is all," he said easily. "And since God forbid
he
should have cheated himself with his expectations, it
must
have been one of us that did it, mustn't it?" He
leaned
down to kiss her, his hand firm against the bare
nape of
her neck beneath the coiled ridge of her braided
hair.
Beyond them, among the ghostly birches, the thin
underbrush
rustled harshly; a moment later a softer, stead-
ier
rushing whispered in the bare branches overhead. Jenny
smelled
the rain almost before she was conscious of its
light
fingers upon her face.
Behind
them, she heard Gareth cursing. He squelched
across
the clearing to join them a moment later, wiping
raindroplets
from his spectacles, his hair in lank strings
against
his temples.
"We
seem to have outsmarted ourselves," he said glum-
ly.
"Picked a nice place to camp-only there's no shelter.
There's
a cave down under the cut of the streambank..."
"Above
the highest rise of the water?" inquired John,
a
mischievous glint in his eye.
Gareth
said defensively, "Yes. At least-it isn't so very
far
down the bank."
"Big
enough to put the horses in, always supposing we
could
get them down there?"
The boy
bristled. "I could go see."
"No,"
said Jenny. Gareth opened his mouth to protest
this
arbitrariness, but she cut him off with, "I've laid spells
of ward
and guard about this camp-I don't think they
should
be crossed. It's almost full-dark now..."
"But
we'll get wetf"
"You've
been wet for days, my hero," John pointed
out
with cheerful brutality. "Here at least we know we're
safe
from the side the stream's on-unless, of course, it
rises
over its bank." He glanced down at Jenny, still in
the
circle of his arm; she was conscious, too, ofGareth's
sulky
gaze. "What about the spell-ward, love?"
She
shook her head. "I don't know," she said. "Some-
times
the spells will hold against the Whisperers, some-
times
they don't. I don't know why-whether it's because
of
something about the Whisperers, or because of some-
thing
about the spells." Or because, she added to herself,
her own
powers weren't strong enough to hold even a
true
spell against them.
"Whisperers?"
Gareth demanded incredulously.
"A
kind of blood-devil," said John, with an edge of
irritation
in his voice. "It doesn't matter at the moment,
my
hero. Just stay inside the camp."
"Can't
I even go look for shelter? I won't go far."
"If
you leave the camp, you'll never find your way
back to
it," John snapped. "You're so bloody anxious not
to lose
time on this trip, you wouldn't want to have us
spend
the next three days looking for your body, would
you?
Come on, Jen-if you're not after making supper,
I'll do
it..."
"I'll
do it, I'll do it," Jenny agreed, with a haste that
wasn't
entirely jest. As she and John walked back to the
smoky,
sheltered campfire, she glanced back at Gareth,
still
standing on the edge of the faintly gleaming spell-
circle.
His vanity stinging from John's last words, the boy
picked
up an acom and hurled it angrily out into the wet
darkness.
The darkness whispered and rustled, and then
fell
still again under the ceaseless pattern of the rain.
They
left the folded lands of rock hills and leaping
streams
for good after that and entered the ruinous gloom
of the
great Forest of Wyr. Here crowded oaks and haw-
thorn
pressed close upon the road, catching the faces of
the
travelers with warty, overhanging boughs and dirty
moss
and their horses' hooves with scabrous roots and
soggy
drifts of dead leaves. The black lattices of bare
branches
above them admitted only a fraction of the pallid
daylight,
but rain still leaked through, pattering in an end-
less,
dreary murmur in the dead fern and hazel thickets.
The
ground was worse here, sodden and unsteady, or
flooded
in meres of silver water in which the trees stood,
knee-deep
and rotting; and Aversin remarked that the
marshes
of the south were spreading again. In many places
the
road was covered, or blocked with fallen trees, and
the
labor of clearing it or beating a path through the thick-
ets
around these obstacles left them all cold and exhausted.
Even
for Jenny, used to the hardships of the Winterlands,
this
was tiring, and the more so because there was no
respite;
she lay down weary at night and rose weary in
the
bleak grayness before dawn to travel on once again.
What it
was to Gareth she could well imagine. As he grew
more
weary, his temper shortened, and he complained
bitterly
at every halt.
"What's
he looking for now?" he demanded one after-
noon,
when John ordered their fifth halt in three hours
and,
armed with his heavy horn hunting-bow, dismounted
and
vanished into the choking tangle of hazel and black-
thorn
beside the road.
It had
been raining most of the forenoon, and the tall
boy
drooped miserably on the back of The Stupid Roan,
one of
the spare horses they'd brought from the Hold.
The
other spare. Jenny's mount, John had christened The
Stupider
Roan, a name that was unfortunately apt. Jenny
suspected
that, in his wearier moments, Gareth even
blamed
her for the generally poor quality of the Hold's
horseflesh.
The rain had ceased now, but cold wind still
probed
through the very weave of their garments; every
now and
then a gust shook the branches above them and
splattered
them with leftover rain and an occasional sod-
den oak
leaf that drifted down like a dead bat.
"He's
looking for danger." Jenny herself was listening,
her
nerves queerly on edge, searching the silence that
hung
like an indrawn breath among the dark, close-
crowded
trees.
"He
didn't find any last time, did he?" Gareth tucked
his
gloved hands under his cloak for warmth and shivered.
Then he
looked ostentatiously upward, scanning what sky
was
visible, calculating the time of day, and from there
going
on to remember how many days they had been on
the
road. Under his sarcasm she could hear fear. "Or the
time
before that, either."
"And
lucky for us that he didn't," she replied. "I think
you
have little understanding of the dangers in the Win-
terlands
..."
Gareth
gasped, and his gaze fixed. Turning her head
quickly,
Jenny followed his eyes to the dark shape of
Aversin,
his plaids making him nearly invisible in the gloom
among
the trees. With a single slow movement he had
raised
his bow, the arrow nocked but not yet pulled.
She
tracked the trajectory of the arrow's flight to the
source
of the danger.
Just
visible through the trees, a skinny tittle old man
was
stooping arthritically to scrape the dry insides from
a
rotting log for kindling. His wife, an equally lean, equally
rag-clad
old woman whose thin white hair hung lankly
about
her narrow shoulders, was holding a reed basket
to
receive the crumbling chips. Gareth let out a cry of
horror.
"NO!"
Aversin
moved his head. The old woman, alerted also,
looked
up and gave a thin wail, dropping her basket to
shield
her face futilely with her arms. The dry, woody
punk
spilled onto the marshy ground about her feet. The
old man
caught her by the arm and the two of them began
to flee
dodderingly into the deeper forest, sobbing and
covering
their heads with their arms, as if they supposed
that
the broad-tipped iron war arrow would be stopped
by such
slack old flesh.
Aversin
lowered his bow and let his targets stumble
unshot
into the wet wilderness of trees.
Gareth
gasped, "He was going to kill them! Those poor
old
people..."
Jenny
nodded, as John came back to the road. "I know."
She
understood why; but, as when she had killed the dying
robber
in the ruins of the old town, she still felt unclean.
"Is
that all you can say?" Gareth raged, horrified. "You
knowf
He would have shot them in cold blood..."
"They
were Meewinks, Gar," John said quietly.
"Shooting's
the only thing you can do with Meewinks."
"I
don't care what you call them!" he cried. "They
were
old and harmless! All they were doing was gathering
kindling!"
A
small, straight line appeared between John's reddish
brows,
and he rubbed his eyes. Gareth, Jenny thought,
was not
the only one upon whom this trip was telling.
"I
don't know what you call them in your part of the
country,"
Aversin said tiredly. "Their people used to farm
all the
valley of the Wildspae. They..."
"John."
Jenny touched his arm. She had followed this
exchange
only marginally; her senses and her power were
diffused
through the damp woods, and in the fading light
she
scented danger. It seemed to prickle along her skin-
a soft
plashing movement in the flooded glades to the
north,
a thin chittering that silenced the small restive noises
of fox
and weasel. "We should be moving. The light's
already
going. I don't remember this part of the woods
well but
I know it's some distance from any kind of camp-
ing
place."
"What
is it?" His voice, like hers, dropped to a whisper.
She
shook her head. "Maybe nothing. But I think we
should
go."
"Why?"
Gareth bleated. "What's wrong? For three days
you've
been running away from your own shadows..."
"That's
right," John agreed, and there was a dangerous
edge to
his quiet voice. "You ever think what might hap-
pen to
you if your own shadow caught you? Now ride-
and
ride silent."
It was
nearly full night when they made camp, for, like
Jenny,
Aversin was nervous, and it took some time for
him to
find a camping place that his woodsmanship judged
to be
even relatively safe. One of them Jenny rejected,
not
liking the way the dark trees crowded around it; another
John
passed by because the spring could not be seen from
where
the fire would be. Jenny was hungry and tired, but
the
instincts of the Winterlands warned her to keep mov-
ing
until they found a place that could be defended, though
against
what she could not tell.
When
Aversin ruled against a third place, an almost-
circular
clearing with a small, fem-choked spring gurgling
through
one side of it, Gareth's hunger-frayed temper
snapped.
"What's wrong with it?" he demanded, dis-
mounting
and huddling on the lee-side of The Stupid Roan
for
warmth. "You can take a drink without getting out of
sight
of the fire, and it's bigger than the other place was."
Annoyance
glinted like the blink of drawn steel in John's
voice.
"I don't like it."
"Well,
why in the name of Sannendes not?"
Aversin
looked around him at the clearing and shook
his
head. The clouds had parted overhead enough to admit
watery
moonlight to glint on his specs, on the water drop-
lets in
his hair when he pushed back his hood, and on the
end of
his long nose. "I just don't. I can't say why."
"Well,
if you can't say why, what would you like?"
"What
I'd like," the Dragonsbane retorted with his
usual
devastating accuracy, "is not to have some snirp of
a silk-lined
brat telling me a place is safe because he wants
his
supper."
Because
that was obviously Gareth's first concern, the
boy
exploded, "That isn't the reason! I think you've lived
like a
wolf for so long you don't trust anything! I'm not
going
to trek through the woods all night long because..."
"Fine,"
said Aversin grimly. "You can just bloody well
stay
here, then."
"That's
right! Go ahead, abandon me! Are you going
to take
a shot at me if I try to come after you and you
hear
the bushes rustle?"
"I
might."
"John!"
Jenny's cool, slightly gravelly voice cut across
his
next words. "How much longer can we travel without
lights
of some kind? Clouds are moving up. It won't rain,
but you
won't be able to see a foot ahead of you in two
hours."
"You
could," he pointed out. He felt it, too, she
thought-that
growing sensation that had begun back along
the
road; the uneasy feeling of being watched.
"I
could," she agreed quietly. "But I don't have your
woodsmanship.
And I know this part of the road-there
isn't a
better place ahead. I don't like this place either,
but I'm
not sure that staying here wouldn't be safer than
showing
up our position by traveling with lights, even a
very
dim magelight. And even that might not show up
signs
of danger."
John
looked about him at the dark woods, now barely
visible
in the cold gloom. Wind stirred at the bare boughs
interlaced
above their heads, and somewhere before them
in the
clearing Jenny could hear the whisper of the ferns
and the
rushing voice of the rain-fed stream. No sound
of
danger, she thought. Why then did she subconsciously
watch
with her peripheral vision; why this readiness to
flee?
Aversin
said quietly, "It's too good."
Gareth
snapped, "First you don't like it and then you
say
it's too good..."
"They'll
know .all the camping places anyway," Jenny
replied
softly across his words.
Furious,
Gareth sputtered, "Who'll know?"
"The
Meewinks, you stupid oic," snapped John back
at him.
Gareth
flung up his hands. "Oh, fine! You mean you
don't
want to camp here because you're afraid of being
attacked
by a little old man and a little old lady?"
"And
about fifty of their friends, yes," John retorted.
"And
one more word out of you, my hero, and you're
going
to find yourself slammed up against a tree."
Thoroughly
roused now, Gareth retorted, "Good! Prove
how
clever you are by thrashing someone who disagrees
with
you! If you're afraid of being attacked by a troop of
forty
four-foot-tall septuagenarians..."
He
never even saw Aversin move. The Dragonsbane
might
not have the appearance of a hero. Jenny thought,
but he
nevertheless had the physical reflexes of one. Gar-
eth
gasped as he was literally lifted off his feet by a double-
handful
of cloak and doublet, and Jenny strode forward
to
catch John's spike-studded forearm. With softness as
definite
as an assassin's footfall, she said, "Be quiet! And
drop
him."
"Got
a cliff handy?" But she felt the momentum of his
rage
slack. After a pause he pushed-almoat threw-
Gareth
from him. "Right." Behind his anger he sounded
embarrassed.
"Thanks to our hero, it's well too dark
now to
be moving on. Jen, can you do anything with this
place?
SpeU it?"
Jenny
thought for a few moments, trying to analyze
what it
was that she feared. "Not against the Meewinks,
no,"
she replied at last. She added acidly, "They'll have
tracked
you gentlemen by your voices."
"It
wasn't me who..."
"I
didn't ask who it was." She took the reins of the
horses
and mules and led them on into the clearing, anx-
ious
now to get a camp set and circled with the spells of
ward
before they were seen from the outside. Gareth, a
little
shamefaced at his outburst, followed sulkily, looking
at the
layout of the clearing.
In the
voice of one who sought to mollify by pretending
that
the disagreement never happened, he asked, "Does
this
hoUow look all right for the fire?"
Irritation
still crackled in Aversin's voice. "No fire.
We're
in for a cold camp tonight-and you'll take the first
watch,
my hero."
Gareth
gasped in protest at this arbitrary switch. Since
leaving
the Hold, Gareth had always taken the last watch,
the
dawn watch, because at the end of a day's riding he
wanted
nothing more than to lie down and sleep; Jenny
had
always taken second; and John, used to the habits of
wolves
who hunted in the early part of the night, took the
first.
The boy began, "But I..." and Jenny swung around
to look
at them in the somber gloom.
"One
more word out of either of you and I will lay a
spell
of dumbness upon you both."
John
subsided at once. Gareth started to speak again,
then
thought better of it. Jenny pulled the picket rope out
of the
mule Clivy's pack and looped it around a sapling.
Half to
herself, she added, "Though God knows it couldn't
make
you any dumber."
Throughout
their meager dinner of dried beef, cold
commeal
mush, and apples, Gareth remained ostenta-
tiously
silent. Jenny scarcely noticed, and John, seeing
her
preoccupied, said little to her, not wanting to disturb
her
concentration. She was not sure how much he felt of
the
danger she sensed in the woods all around them-
she
didn't know how much of it was only the product of
her own
weariness. But she wove all her concentration,
all her
abilities, into the spell-circle that she put around
the
camp that night: spells of ward that would make their
campsite
unnoticeable from the outside, that would thwart
the eye
of any who were not actually within the circle.
They
would not be much help against the Meewinks, who
would
know where the clearing was, but they might pro-
vide a
delay that would buy time. To these she added
other
spells against other dangers, spells that Caerdinn
had
taught her against the blood-devils and Whisperers
that
haunted the Woods of Wyr, spells whose efficacy she
privately
doubted because she knew that they sometimes
failed,
but the best spells that she-or anyone to whom
she had
spoken-knew.
She had
long suspected that the Lines of magic were
thinning
and that every generation attenuated the teaching
of
magic that had been passed down from the old times,
the
times before the Realm of Belmarie had united all the
West
under itself and the glittering worship of the Twelve
Gods.
Caerdinn had been one of the mightiest of the Line
of
Heme, but, when she had first met him at fourteen, he
was
already very old, feeble, and a little crazy. He had
taught
her, trained her in the secrets of the Line passed
from
master to pupil over a dozen generations. But since
his
death she had found two instances where his knowledge
had
been incorrect and had heard of spells from her Line-
kindred,
the pupils' pupils of Caerdinn's master Spaeth
Skywarden,
which Caerdinn had either not bothered to
teach
her, or had not known himself. The spells of guard
against
the Whisperers that had more and more come to
haunt
the Wyrwoods were ineffective and sporadic, and she
knew of
no spell that would drive them or the blood-devils
out of
an area to render it safe for humans again. Such things
might
reside somewhere in a book, written down by the mage
who
discovered them, but neither Jenny, nor any mage she
had
met, had known of them.
She
slept that night uneasily, exhausted in body and
troubled
by strange shapes that seemed to slide in and
out
through the cracks in her dreams. She seemed to be
able to
hear the whistling clutter of the blood-devils as
they
flitted from tree to tree in the marshy woods across
the
stream and below them the soft murmurs of the Whis-
perers
in the darkness beyond the barrier of spells. Twice
she
pulled herself painfully from the sucking darkness of
sleep,
fearing some danger, but both times she only saw
Gareth
sitting propped against a pile ofpacksaddles, nod-
ding in
the misty blackness.
The
third time she woke up, Gareth was gone.
It had
been a dream that woke her; a dream of a woman
standing
half-hidden among the trees. She was veiled, like
all the
women of the south; the lace of that veil was like
a cloak
of flowers scattered over her dark curls. Her soft
laughter
was like silver bells, but there was a husky note
in it,
as if she never laughed save with pleasure at some-
thing
gained. She held out small, slender hands, and whis-
pered
Gareth's name.
Leaves
and dirt were scuffed where he had crossed
the
flickering lines of the protective circles.
Jenny
sat up, shaking back the coarse mane other hair,
and
touched John awake. She called the witchlight into
being,
and it illuminated the still, silent camp and glowed
in the
eyes of the wakened horses. The voice of the spring
was
loud in the hush.
Like
John, she had slept in her clothes. Reaching over
to the
bundle of her sheepskin jacket, her plaids, her boots
and her
belt that lay heaped at one side of their blankets,
she
pulled from its pouch the small scrying-crystal and
angled
it to the witchlight while John began, without a
word,
to pull on his boots and wolfskin-lined doublet.
Of the
four elements, scrying earth-crystal-was
easiest
and most accurate, though the crystal itself had
to be
enchanted beforehand. Scrying fire needed no spe-
cial
preparation, but what it showed was what it would,
not
always what was sought; water would show both future
and
past, but was a notorious liar. Only the very greatest
of
mages could scry the wind.
The
heart of Caerdinn's crystal was dark. She stilled
her
fears for Gareth's safety, calming her mind as she
summoned
the images; they gleamed on the facets, as if
reflected
from somewhere else. She saw a stone room,
extremely
small, with the architecture of some place half-
dug
into the ground; the only furnishing was a bed and a
sort of
table formed by a block of stone projecting from
the
wall itself. A wet cloak was thrown over the table,
with a
puddle of half-dried water about it-swamp weeds
clung
to it like dark worms. A much-bejeweled longsword
was
propped nearby, and on top of the table and cloak
lay a
pair of spectacles. The round lenses caught a spark
of
greasy yellow lamplight as the door of the room opened.
Someone
in the corridor held a lamp high. Its light
showed
small, stooped forms crowding in the broad hall
beyond.
Old and young, men and women, there must have
been
forty of them, with white, sloped, warty faces and
round,
fishlike eyes. The first through the doorway were
the old
man and the old woman, the Meewinks whom
John
had nearly shot that afternoon.
The old
man held a rope; the woman, a cleaver.
The
house of the Meewinks stood where the land lay
low, on
a knoll above a foul soup of mud and water from
whose
surface rotting trees projected like half-decayed
corpses.
Squat-built, it was larger than it looked-stone
walls
behind it showed one wing half-buried underground.
In
spite of the cold, the air around the place was fetid
with
the smell of putrefying fish, and Jenny closed her
teeth
hard against a queasiness that washed over her at
the
sight of the place. Since first she had known what
they
were, she had hated the Meewinks.
John
slid from his dapple war horse Osprey's back and
looped
his rein and Battlehammer's over the limb of a
sapling.
His face, in the rainy darkness, was taut with a
mingling
of hatred and disgust. Twice households of Mee-
winks
had tried to establish themselves near Alyn Hold;
both
times, as soon as he had learned of them, he had
raised
what militia he could and burned them out. A few
had
been killed each time, but he had lacked the men to
pursue
them through the wild lands and eradicate them
completely.
Jenny knew he still had nightmares about what
he had
found in their cellars.
He
whispered, "Listen," and Jenny nodded. From the
house
she could detect a faint clamor of voices, muffled,
as if
half-below the ground, thin and yammering like the
barking
of beasts. Jenny slid her halberd from the holster
on Moon
Horse's saddle and breathed to all three mounts
for
stillness and silence. She sketched over them the spells
of
ward, so that the casual eye would pass them by, or
think
they were something other than horses-a hazel
thicket,
or the oddly shaped shadow of a tree. It was these
same
spells upon the camp, she knew, that had prevented
Gareth
from finding his way back to it, once what must
have
been the Whisperer had led him away.
John
tucked his spectacles into an inner pocket. "Right,"
he
murmured. "You get Gar-I'll cover you both."
Jenny
nodded, feeling cold inside, as she did when she
emptied
her mind to do some great magic beyond her
power,
and steeled herself for what she knew was coming.
As they
crossed the filthy yard and the strange, muffled
outcry
in the house grew stronger, John kissed her and,
turning,
smashed his booted foot into the small house's
door.
They
broke through the door like raiders robbing Hell.
A hot,
damp fetor smote Jenny in the face as she barged
through
on John's heels, the putrid stink of the filth the
Meewinks
lived in and of the decaying fish they ate-
above
it all was the sharp, copper-bright stench of new-
shed
blood. The noise was a pandemonium of yammering
screams;
after the darkness outside, even the smoky glow
of the
fire in the unnaturally huge hearth seemed blinding.
Bodies
seethed in a heaving mob around the small door
at the
opposite side of the room; now and then sharp
flashes
of light glinted from the knives clutched in moist
little
hands.
Gareth
was backed to the doorpost in the midst of the
mob. He
had evidently fought his way that far but knew
if he
descended into the more open space of the big room
he
would be surrounded. His left arm was wrapped,
shieldlike,
in a muffling tangle of stained and filthy bed-
ding;
in his right hand was his belt, the buckle-end of
which
he was using to slash at the faces of the Meewinks
all
around him. His own face was streaming with blood
from
knife-cuts and bites-mixed with sweat, it ran down
and
encrimsoned his shirt as if his throat had been cut.
His
naked gray eyes were wide with a look of sickened,
nightmare
horror.
The
Meewinks around him were gibbering like the souls
of the
damned. There must have been fifty of them, all
armed
with their little knives of steel, or of sharpened
shell.
As John and Jenny broke in. Jenny saw one of them
crawl
in close to Gareth and slash at the back of his knee.
His
thighs were already gashed with a dozen such attempts,
his
boots sticky with runnels of blood; he kicked his
attacker
in the face, rolling her down a step or two into
the
mass of her fellows. It was the old woman he had
kept
John from shooting.
Without
a word, John plunged down into the heaving,
stinking
mob. Jenny sprang after him, guarding his back;
blood
splattered her from the first swing of his sword,
and
around them the noise rose like the redoubling of a
storm
at sea. The Meewinks were a small folk, though
some of
the men were as tall as she; it made her cringe
inside
to cut at the slack white faces of people no bigger
than
children and to slam the weighted butt of the halberd
into
those pouchy little stomachs and watch them fall,
gasping,
vomiting, and choking. But there were so many
of
them. She had kilted her faded plaid skirts up to her
knees
to fight and she felt hands snatch and drag at them,
as one
man caught up a cleaver from among the butcher's
things
lying on the room's big table, trying to cripple her.
Her
blade caught him high on the cheekbone and opened
his
face down to the opposite comer of his jaw. His scream
ripped
the cut wider. The stench of blood was every-
where.
It
seemed to take only seconds to cross the room.
Jenny
yelled, "Gareth!" but he swung at her with the
belt-she
was short enough to be a Meewink, and he had
lost
his spectacles. She flung up the halberd; the belt
wrapped
itself around the shaft, and she wrenched it from
his
hands. "It's Jenny!" she shouted, as John's sword
strokes
came down, defending them both as it splattered
them
with flying droplets of gore. She grabbed the boy's
bony
wrist, jerking him down the steps into the room.
"Now,
run!"
"But
we can't..." he began, looking back at John, and
she
shoved him violently in the direction of the door. After
what
appeared to be a momentary struggle with a desire
not to
seem a coward by abandoning his rescuers, Gareth
ran.
They passed the table and he caught up a meat hook
in
passing, swinging at the pallid, puffy faces all around
them
and at the little hands with their jabbing knives.
Three
Meewinks were guarding the door, but fell back
screaming
before the greater length of Jenny's weapon.
Behind
her, she could hear the squeaky cacophony around
John
rising to a crescendo; she knew he was outnum-
bered,
and her instincts to rush back to fight at his side
dragged
at her like wet rope. It was all she could do to
force
herself to hurl open the door and drag Gareth at a
run
across the clearing outside.
Gareth
balked, panicky. "Where are the horses? How
are
we...?"
For all
her small size, she was strong; her shove nearly
toppled
him. "Don't ask questions!" Already small,
slumped
forms were running about the darkness of the
woods
ahead. The ooze underfoot soaked through her
boots
as she hauled Gareth toward where she, at least,
could
see the three horses, and she heard Gareth gulp
when
they got close enough for the spells to lose their
effectiveness.
While
the boy scrambled up to Battlehammer's back,
Jenny
flung herself onto Moon Horse, caught Osprey's
lead-rein,
and spurred back toward the house in a por-
ridgey
spatter of mud. Pitching her voice to cut through
the
screaming clamor within, she called out, "JOHN!" A
moment
later a confused tangle of figures erupted through
the low
doorway, like a pack of dogs trying to bring down
a bear.
The white glare of the witchlight showed Aversin's
sword
bloody to the pommel, his face streaked and run-
rung
with his own blood and that of his attackers, his
breath
pouring like a ribbon of steam from his mouth.
Meewinks
clung to his arms and his belt, hacking and
chewing
at the leather of his boots.
With a
screaming battle cry like a gull's, Jenny rode
down
upon them, swinging her halberd like a scythe. Mee-
winks
scattered, mewing and hissing, and John wrenched
himself
free of the last of them and flung himself up to
Osprey's
saddle. A tiny Meewink child hurled up after
him,
clinging to the stirrup leather and jabbing with its
little
shell knife at his groin; John swung his arm down-
ward
and caught the child across its narrow temple with
the
spikes of his armband, sweeping it off as he would
have
swept a rat.
Jenny
wheeled her horse sharply, spurring back to where
Gareth
still clung to Battlehammer's saddle on the edge
of the
clearing. With the precision of circus riders, she
and
John split to grab the big gelding's reins, one on either
side,
and, with Gareth in tow between them, plunged back
into
the night.
"There."
Aversin dipped one finger into a puddle of
rainwater
and flicked a droplet onto the iron griddle bal-
anced
over the fire. Satisfied with the sizzle, he patted
commeal
into a cake and dropped it into place. Then he
glanced
across at Gareth, who was struggling not to cry
out as
Jenny poured a scouring concoction of marigold-
simple
into his wounds. "Now you can say you've seen
Aversin
the Dragonsbane run like hell from a troop of
forty
four-foot-tall septuagenarians." His bitten, band-
aged
hands patted another cake into shape, and the dawn
grayness
flashed off his specs as he grinned.
"Will
they be after us?" Gareth asked faintly.
"I
doubt it." He picked a fleck of commeal off the
spikes
of his armbands. "They'll have enough of their
own
dead to keep them fed awhile."
The boy
swallowed queasily, though having seen the
instruments
laid out on the table in the Meewinks' house,
there
could be little doubt what they had meant for him.
At
Jenny's insistence, after the rescue, they had shifted
their
camp away from the garnered darkness of the woods.
Dawn
had found them in relatively open ground on the
formless
verges of a marsh, where long wastes of ice-
scummed,
standing water reflected a steely sky among
the
black pen strokes of a thousand reeds. Jenny had
worked,
cold and weary, to lay spells about the camp,
then
had occupied herself with the contents of her
medicine
satchel, leaving John, somewhat against her bet-
ter
judgment, to make breakfast. Gareth had dug into his
packs
for the bent and battered spectacles that had sur-
vived
the fight in the ruins up north, and they perched
forlornly
askew now on the end of his nose.
"They
were always a little folk," John went on, coming
over to
the packs where the boy sat, letting Jenny finish
binding
up his slashed knees. "After the King's troops
left
the Winterlands, their villages were forever being
raided
by bandits, who'd steal whatever food they raised.
They
never were a match for an armored man, but a
village
of 'em could pull one down-or, better still, wait
till he
was asleep and hack him up as he lay. In the starving
times,
a bandit's horse could feed a whole village for a
week. I
expect it started out as only the horses."
Gareth
swallowed again and looked as if he were going
to be
ill.
John put
his hands through his metal-plated belt. "They
generally
strike right before dawn, when sleep is deep-
est-it's
why I switched the watches, so I'd be the one
they
dealt with, instead of you. It was a Whisperer that
got you
away from the camp, wasn't it?"
"I-I
suppose so." He looked at the ground, a shadow
crossing
his thin face. "I don't know. It was some-
thing
..." Jenny felt him shudder.
"I've
seen them on my watch, once or twice... Jen?"
"Once."
Jenny spoke shortly, hating the memory of
those
crying shapes in the darkness.
"They
take all-forms," John said, sitting on the ground
beside
her and wrapping his arms about his knees. "One
night
one even took Jen's, with her lying beside me...
Polyborus
says in his Analects-or maybe it's in that half-
signature
of Terens' Of Ghosts-that they read your
dreams
and take on the forms that they see there. From
Terens-or
is it Polyborus? Or maybe it's in Clivy, though
it's a
bit accurate for Clivy-I get the impression they
used to
be much rarer than they are now, whatever they
are."
"I
don't know," Gareth said quietly. "They must have
been,
because I'd never heard of them, or of the Mee-
winks,
either. After it-it lured me into the woods, it
attacked
me. I ran, but I couldn't seem to find the camp
again.
I ran and ran... and then I saw the light from that
house..."
He fell silent again with a shudder.
Jenny
finished wrapping Gareth's knee. The wounds
weren't
deep, but, like those on John's face and hands,
they
were vicious, not only the knife cuts, but the small,
crescent-shaped
tears of human teeth. Her own body bore
them,
too, and experience had taught her that such wounds
were
filthier than poisoned arrows. For the rest, she was
aching
and stiff with pulled muscles and the general fatigue
of
battle, something she supposed Gareth's ballads neg-
lected
to mention as the inevitable result of physical com-
bat.
She felt cold inside, too, as she did when she worked
the
death-spells, something else they never mentioned in
ballads,
where all killing was done with serene and noble
confidence.
She had taken the lives of at least four human
beings
last night, she knew, for all that they had been born
and
raised into a cannibal tribe; had maimed others who
would
either die when their wounds turned septic in that
atmosphere
of festering decay, or would be killed by their
brothers.
To
survive in the Winterlands, she had become a very
competent
killer. But the longer she was a healer, the
more
she learned about magic and about life from which
all
magic stemmed, the more she loathed what she did.
Living
in the Winterlands, she had seen what death did
to
those who dealt it out too casually.
The
gray waters of the marsh began to brighten with
the
remote shine of daybreak beyond the clouds. With a
soft
winnowing of a thousand wings, the wild geese rose
from
the black cattail beds, seeking again the roads of the
colorless
sky. Jenny sighed, weary to her bones and know-
ing
that they could not afford to rest-knowing that she
would
have no rest until they crossed the great river Wild-
spae
and entered the lands of Belmarie.
Quietly,
Gareth said, "Aversin-Lord John-I-I'm
sorry.
I didn't understand about the Winterlands." He
looked
up, his gray eyes tired and unhappy behind their
cracked
specs. "And I didn't understand about you. I-
I hated
you, for not being what-what I thought you
should
be."
"Oh,
aye, I knew that," John said with a fleet grin.
"But
what you felt about me was none of my business.
My
business was to see you safe in a land you had no
knowledge
of. And as for being what you expected-Well,
you can
only know what you know, and all you knew
were
those songs. I mean, it's like Polyborus and Clivy
and
those others. I know bears aren't bom completely
shapeless
for their mothers to sculpt with their tongues,
like
Clivy says, because I've seen newbom bear cubs.
But for
all I know, lions may be bom dead, although
personally
I don't think it's likely."
"They
aren't," Gareth said. "Father had a lioness once
as a
pet, when I was very little-her cubs were bom live,
just
like big kittens. They were spotted."
"Really?"
Aversin looked genuinely pleased for one
more
bit of knowledge to add to the lumber room of his
mind.
"I'm not saying Dragonsbanes aren't heroic, because
Selkythar
and Antara Warlady and the others might have
been,
and may have gone about it all with 'swords in golden
armor
and plumes. It's just that I know I'm not. If I'd
had a
choice, I'd never have gone near the bloody dragon,
but
nobody asked me." He grinned and added, "I'm sorry
you
were disappointed."
Gareth
grinned back. "I suppose it had to rain on my
birthday
sometime," he said, a little shyly. Then he hes-
itated,
as if struggling against some inner constraint.
"Aversin,
listen," he stammered. Then he coughed as the
wind
shifted, and smoke swept over them all.
"God's
Grandmother, it's the bloody cakes!" John swore
and
dashed back to the fire, cursing awesomely. "Jen, it
isn't
my fault..."
"It
is." Jenny walked in a more leisurely manner to
join
him, in time to help him pick the last pitiful black
lump
from the griddle and toss it into the waters of the
marsh
with a milky plash. "I should have known better
than to
trust you with this. Now go tend the horses and
let me
do what you brought me along to do." She picked
up the
bowl of meal. Though she kept her face stem, the
touch
of her eyes upon his was like a kiss.
CHAPTER
IV
IN THE
DAYS that followed. Jenny was interested to
notice
the change in Gareth's attitude toward her and
toward
John. For the most part he seemed to return to
the
confiding friendliness he had shown her after she had
rescued
him from the bandits among the ruins, before he
had
learned that she was his hero's mistress, but it was
not
quite the same. It alternated with a growing nervous-
ness
and with odd, struggling silences in his conversation.
If he
had lied about something at the Hold, Jenny thought,
he was
regretting it now-but not regretting it enough yet
to confess
the truth.
Whatever
the truth was, she felt that she came close
to
learning it the day after the rescue from the Meewinks.
John
had ridden ahead to scout the ruinous stone bridge
that
spanned the torrent of the Snake River, leaving them
alone with
the spare horse^and mules in the louring silence
of the
winter woods. "Are the Whisperers real?" he asked
her
softly, glancing over his shoulder as if he feared to
see
last night's vision fading into daytime reality from the
mists
between the trees.
"Real
enough to kill a man," Jenny said, "if they can
lure
him away from his friends. Since they drink blood,
they
must be fleshly enough to require sustenance; but,
other
than that, no one knows much about them. You had
a
narrow escape."
"I
know," he mumbled, looking shamefacedly down at
his
hands. They were bare, and chapped with cold-as
well as
his cloak and sword, he had lost his gloves in the
house
of the Meewinks; Jenny suspected that later in the
winter
the Meewinks would boil them and eat the leather.
One of
John's old plaids was draped on over the boy's
doublet
and borrowed jerkin. With his thin hair dripping
with
moisture down onto the lenses of his cracked spec-
tacles,
he looked very little like the young courtier who
had come
to the Hold.
"Jenny,"
he said hesitantly, "thank you-this is the
second
time-for saving my life. I-I'm sorry I've behaved
toward
you as I have. It's just that..." His voice tailed
off
uncertainly.
"I
suspect," said Jenny kindly, "that you had me mis-
taken
for someone else that you know."
Ready
color flooded to the boy's cheeks. Wind moaned
through
the bare trees-he startled, then turned back to
her
with a sigh. "The thing is, you saved my life at the
risk of
your own, and I endangered you both stupidly. I
should
have known better than to trust the Meewinks; I
should
never have left the camp. But..."
Jenny
smiled and shook her head. The rain had ceased,
and she
had put back her hood, letting the wind stir in
her
long hair; with a touch of her heels, she urged The
Stupider
Roan on again, and the whole train of them moved
slowly
down the trail.
"It
is difficult," she said, "not to believe in the illusions
of the
Whisperers. Even though you know that those whom
you see
cannot possibly be there outside the spell-circle
crying
your name, there is a part of you that needs to go
to
them."
"What-what
shapes have you seen them take?" Gar-
eth
asked in a hushed voice.
The
memory was an evil one, and it was a moment
before
Jenny answered. Then she said, "My sons. lan and
Adric."
The vision had been so real that even calling their
images
in Caerdinn's serving-crystal to make sure that
they
were safe at the Hold had not entirely banished her
fears
for them from her mind. After a moment's thought
she
added, "They have an uncanny way of taking the
shape
that most troubles you; of knowing, not only your
love,
but your guilt and your longing."
Gareth
flinched at that, and looked away. They rode
on in
silence for a few moments; then he asked, "How
do they
know?"
She
shook her head. "Perhaps they do read your
dreams.
Perhaps they are themselves only mirrors and,
like
mirrors, have no knowledge of what they reflect. The
spells
we lay upon them cannot be binding because we
do not
know their essence."
He
frowned at her, puzzled. "Their what?"
"Their
essence-their inner being." She drew rein just
above a
long, flooded dip in the road where water lay
among
the trees like a shining snake. "Who are you, Gar-
eth of
Magloshaldon?"
He
startled at that, and for an instant she saw fright
and
guilt in his gray eyes. He stammered, "I-I'm Gareth
of-of
Magloshaldon. It's a province of Belmarie..."
Her
eyes sought his and held them in the gray shadows
of the
trees. "And if you were not of that province, would
you
still be Gareth?"
"Er-yes.
Of course. I..."
"And
if you were not Gareth?" she pressed him, hold-
ing his
gaze and mind locked with her own. "Would you
still
be you? If you were crippled, or old-if you became
a
leper, or lost your manhood-who would you be then?"
"I
don't know-"
"You
know."
"Stop
it!" He tried to look away and could not. Her
grip
upon him tightened, as she probed at his mind, show-
ing him
it through her eyes: a vivid kaleidoscope of the
borrowed
images of a thousand ballads, burning with the
overwhelming
physical desires of the adolescent; the raw
wounds
left by some bitter betrayal, and over all, the
shadowing
darkness of a scarcely bearable guilt and fear.
She
probed at that darkness-the lies he had told her
and
John at the Hold, and some greater guilt besides. A
true
crime, she wondered, or only that which seemed one
to him?
Gareth cried, "Stop it!" again, and she heard the
despair
and terror in his voice; for a moment, through his
eyes,
she saw herself-pitiless blue eyes in a face like a
white
wedge of bone between the cloud-dark streams of
her
hair. She remembered when Caerdinn had done this
same
thing to her, and released Gareth quickly. He turned
away,
covering his face, his whole body shivering with
shock
and fright.
After a
moment Jenny said softly, "I'm sorry. But this
is the
inner heart of magic, the way all spells work-with
the
essence, the true name. It is true of the Whisperers
and of
the greatest of mages as well." She clucked to the
horses
and they started forward again, their hooves sink-
ing
squishily into the tea-colored ooze. She went on, "All
you can
do is ask yourself if it is reasonable that those
you see
would be there in the woods, calling to you."
"But
that's just it," said Gareth. "It was reasonable.
Zyerne..."
He stopped himself.
"Zyeme?"
It was the name he had muttered in his
dreams
at the Hold, when he had flinched aside from her
touch.
"The
Lady Zyeme," he said hesitantly. "The-the
King's
mistress." Under its streaking of rain and mud his
face
was bright carnation pink. Jenny remembered her
strange
and cloudy dream of the dark-haired woman and
her
tinkling laughter.
"And
you love her?"
Gareth
blushed even redder. In a stifled voice he
repeated,
"She is the King's mistress."
As I am
John's, Jenny thought, suddenly realizing
whence
his anger at her had stemmed.
"In
any case," Gareth went on after a moment, "we're
all in
love with her. That is-she's the first lady of the
Court,
the most beautiful... We write sonnets to her
beauty..."
"Does
she love you?" inquired Jenny, and Gareth fell
silent
for a time, concentrating on urging his horse through
the mud
and up the stony slope beyond.
At
length he said, "I-I don't know. Sometimes I
think..."
Then he shook his head. "She frightens me,"
he
admitted. "And yet-she's a witch, you see."
"Yes,"
said Jenny softly. "I guessed that, from what
you
said at the Hold. You feared I would be like her."
He
looked stricken, as if caught in some horrible social
gaffe.
"But-but you're not. She's very beautiful..." He
broke
off, blushing in earnest, and Jenny laughed.
"Don't
worry. I learned a long time ago what a mirror
was
for."
"But
you are beautiful," he insisted. "That is-Beau-
tiful
isn't the right word."
"No."
Jenny smiled. "I do think 'ugly' is the word
you're
looking for."
Gareth
shook his head stubbornly, his honesty forbid-
ding
him to call her beautiful and his inexperience making
it
impossible to express what he did mean. "Beauty-
beauty
really doesn't have anything to do with it," he said
at
last. "And she's nothing like you-for all her beauty,
she's
crafty and hard-hearted and cares for nothing save
the
pursuit of her powers."
"Then
she is like me," said Jenny. "For I am crafty-
skilled
in my crafts, such as they are-and I have been
called
hard-hearted since I was a little girl and chose to
sit
staring at the flame of a candle until the pictures came,
rather
than play at house with the other little girls. And
as for
the rest..." She sighed. "The key to magic is magic;
to be a
mage you must be a mage. My old master used
to say
that. The pursuit of your power takes all that you
have,
if you will be great-it leaves neither time, nor
energy,
for anything else. We are born with the seeds of
power
in us and driven to be what we are by a hunger
that
knows no slaking. Knowledge-power-to know
what
songs the stars sing; to center all the forces of cre-
ation
upon a rune drawn in the air-we can never give
over
the seeking of it. It is the stuff of loneliness, Gareth."
They
rode on in silence for a time. The woods about
them
were pewter and iron, streaked here and there with
the
rust of the dying year. In the wan light Gareth looked
older
than he had when they began, for he had lost flesh
on the
trip, and lack of sleep had left permanent smudges
of
bister beneath his eyes. At length he turned to her again
and
asked, "And do the magebom love?"
Jenny
sighed again. "They say that a wizard's wife is
a
widow. A woman who bears a wizard's child must know
that he
will leave her to raise the child alone, should his
powers
call him elsewhere. It is for this reason that no
priest
will perform the wedding ceremony for the mage-
bom,
and no flute player will officiate upon the rites. And
it
would be an act of cruelty for a witch to bear any man's
child."
He
looked across at her, puzzled both by her words
and by
the coolness of her voice, as if the matter had
nothing
to do with her.
She
went on, looking ahead at the half-hidden road
beneath
its foul mire of tangled weeds, "A witch will
always
care more for the pursuit of her powers than for
her
child, or for any man. She will either desert her child,
or come
to hate it for keeping her from the time she needs
to
meditate, to study, to grow in her arts. Did you know
John's
mother was a witch?"
Gareth
stared at her, shocked.
"She
was a shaman of the Iceriders-his father took
her in
battle. Your ballads said nothing of it?"
He
shook his head numbly. "Nothing-in fact, in the
Greenhythe
variant of the ballad ofAversin and the Golden
Worm of
Wyr, it talks about him bidding farewell to his
mother
in her bower, before going off to fight the dragon-
but now
that I think of it, there is a scene very like it in
the
Greenhythe ballad of Selkythar Dragonsbane and in
one of
the late Halnath variants of the Song of Antara
Warlady.
I just thought it was something Dragonsbanes
did."
A smile
brushed her lips, then faded. "She was my first
teacher
in the ways of power, when I was six. They used
to say
of her what you thought of me-that she had laid
spells
upon her lord to make him love her, tangling him
in her
long hair. I thought so, too, as a little child-until
I saw
how she fought for the freedom that he would not
give
her. When I knew her, she had already borne his
child;
but when John was five, she left in the screaming
winds
of an icestorm, she and the frost-eyed wolf who
was her
companion. She was never seen in the Winter-
lands
again. And I..."
There
was long silence, broken only by the soft squish
of
hooves in the roadbed, the patter of rain, and the occa-
sional
pop of the mule Clivy's hooves as he overreached
his own
stride. When she went on, her voice was low, as
if she
spoke to herself.
"He
asked me to bear his children, for he wanted chil-
dren,
and he wanted those children to be mine also. He
knew I
would never live with him as his wife and devote
my time
to his comfort and that of his sons. I knew it,
too."
She sighed. "The lioness bears her cubs and then
goes
back to the hunting trail. I thought I could do the
same.
All my life I have been called heartless-would
that it
were really so. I hadn't thought that I would love
them."
Through
the trees, the dilapidated towers of the Snake
River
bridge came into view, the water streaming high and
yellow
beneath the crumbling arches. Before them, a dark
figure
sat his horse in the gloomy road, spectacles flashing
like rounds
of dirty ice in the cold daylight, signaling that
the way
was safe.
They
made camp that night outside the ruined town of
Ember,
once the capital of the province of Wyr. Nothing
remained
of it now save a dimpled stone mound, over
grown
with birch and seedling maple, and the decaying
remains
of the curtain wall. Jenny knew it of old, from
the
days when she and Caerdinn had searched for books
in the
buried cellars. He had beaten her, she remembered,
when
she had spoken of the beauty of the skeleton lines
of
stone that shimmered through the dark cloak of the
fallow
earth.
As dusk
came down, they pitched their camp outside
the
walls. Jenny gathered the quick-burning bark of the
paper
birch for kindling and fetched water from the spring
nearby.
Gareth saw her coming and broke purposefully
away
from his own tasks to join her. "Jenny," he began,
and she
looked up at him.
"Yes?"
He
paused, like a naked swimmer on the bank of a
very
cold pool, then visibly lost his courage. "Er-is there
some
reason why we didn't camp in the ruins of the town
itself?"
It was
patently not what he had been about to say, but
she
only glanced back toward the white bones of the town,
wrapped
in shadow and vine. "Yes."
His
voice dropped. "Is there-is there something that
haunts
the ruins?"
The
corners of her mouth tucked a little. "Not that I
know
of. But the entire town is buried under the biggest
patch
of poison ivy this side of the Gray Mountains. Even
so,"
she said, kneeling beside the little dry firewood they
had
been able to find and arranging the birchbark beneath
it,
"I have laid spells of ward about the camp, so take
care
not to leave it."
He
ducked his head a little at this gentle teasing and
blushed.
A
little curiously, she added, "Even if this Lady Zyeme
of
yours is a sorceress-even if she is fond of you-she
would
never have come here from the south, you know.
Mages
only transform themselves into birds in ballads,
for to
change your essence into the essence of some other
life
form-which is what shapeshifting is-aside from
being
dangerous, requires an incredible amount of power.
It is
not something done lightly. When the magebom go,
they go
upon their two feet."
"But..."
His high forehead wrinkled in a frown. Hav-
ing
decided to be her champion, he was unwilling to believe
there
was anything beyond her powers. "But the Lady
Zyeme
does it all the time. I've seen her."
Jenny
froze in the act of arranging the logs, cut by an
unexpected
pang of a hot jealousy she had thought that
she had
long outgrown-the bitter jealousy other youth
toward
those who had greater skills than she. All her life
she had
worked to rid herself of it, knowing it crippled
her
from learning from those more powerful. It was this
that
made her tell herself, a moment later, that she ought
not to
be shocked to learn of another's use of power.
Yet in
the back of her mind she could hear old Caerdinn
speaking
of the dangers of taking on an alien essence,
even if
one had the enormous power necessary to perform
the
transformation and of the hold that another form could
take on
the minds of all but the very greatest.
"She
must be a powerful mage indeed," she said,
rebuking
her own envy. With a touch of her mind, she
called
fire to the kindling, and it blazed up hotly beneath
the
logs. Even that small magic pricked her, like a needle
carelessly
left in a garment, with the bitter reflection of
the
smallness of her power. "What forms have you seen
her
take?" She realized as she spoke that she hoped he
would
say he had seen none himself and that it was, in
fact,
only rumor.
"Once
a cat," he said. "And once a bird, a swallow.
And
she's taken other shapes in-in dreams I've had. It's
odd,"
he went on rather hastily. "In ballads they don't
make
much of it. But it's hideous, the most horrible thing
I've
ever seen-a woman, and a woman I-I-" He stum-
bled in
his words, barely biting back some other verb that
he
replaced with, "-I know, twisting and withering,
changing
into a beast. And then the beast will watch you
with
her eyes."
He
folded himself up cross-legged beside the fire as
Jenny
put the iron skillet over it and began to mix the
meal
for the cakes. Jenny asked him, "Is she why you
asked
the King to send you north on this quest? To get
away
from her?"
Gareth
turned his face from her. After a moment he
nodded.
"I don't want to betray-to betray the King."
His
words caught oddly as he spoke. "But sometimes I
feel
I'm destined to do so. And I don't know what to do.
"Polycarp
hated her," he went on, after a few moments
during
which John's voice could be heard, cheerfully curs-
ing the
mules Clivy and Melonhead as he unloaded the
last of
the packs. "The rebel Master ofHalnath. He always
told me
to stay away from her. And he hated her influence
over
the King."
"Is
that why he rebelled?"
"It
might have had something to do with it. I don't
know."
He toyed wretchedly with a scrap of meal left in
the
bowl. "He-he tried to murder the King and-and
the
Heir to the throne, the King's son. Polycarp is the
next
heir, the King's nephew. He was brought up in the
palace
as a sort of a hostage after his father rebelled.
Polycarp
stretched a cable over a fence in the hunting
field
on a foggy morning when he thought no one would
see
until it was too late." His voice cracked a little as he
added,
"I was the one who saw him do it."
Jenny
glanced across at his face, broken by darkness
and the
leaping light of the flames into a harsh mosaic of
plane
and shadows. "You loved him, didn't you?"
He
managed to nod. "I think he was a better friend to
me than
anyone else at Court. People-people our age
there-Polycarp
is five years older than I am-used to
mock at
me, because I collect ballads and because I'm
clumsy
and can't see without my spectacles; they'd mock
at him
because his father was executed for treason and
because
he's a philosopher. Many of the Masters have
been.
It's because of the University at Halnath-they're
usually
atheists and troublemakers. His father was, who
married
the King's sister. But Polycarp was always like
a son
to the King." He pushed back the thin, damp weeds
of his
hair from his high forehead and finished in a stran-
gled
voice, "Even when I saw him do it, I couldn't believe
it."
"And
you denounced him?"
Gareth's
breath escaped in a defeated sigh. "What could
I
do?"
Had
this. Jenny wondered, been what he had hidden
from
them? The fact that the Realm itself was split by
threat
of civil war, like the Kinwars that had drawn the
King's
troops away from the Winterlands to begin with?
Had he
feared that if John knew that there was a chance
the
King would refuse to lend him forces needed at home,
he
would not consent to make the journey?
Or was
there something else?
It had
grown fully dark now. Jenny picked the crisp
mealcakes
from the griddle and set them on a wooden
plate
at her side while she cooked salt pork and beans.
While
Gareth had been speaking, John had come to join
them,
half-listening to what was said, half-watching the
woods
that hemmed them in.
As they
ate, Gareth went on, "Anyway, Polycarp man-
aged to
get out of the city before they came for him. The
King's
troops were waiting for him on the road to Halnath,
but we
think he went to the Deep, and the gnomes took
him
through to the Citadel that way. Then they-the
gnomes-bolted
up the doors leading from the Deep to
the
Citadel and said they would not meddle in the affairs
of men.
They wouldn't admit the King's troops through
the
Deep to take the Citadel from the rear, but they
wouldn't
let the rebels out that way, either, or sell them
food.
There was some talk of them using blasting powder
to
close up the tunnels to Halnath completely. But then
the
dragon came."
"And
when the dragon came?" asked John.
"When
the dragon came, Polycarp opened the Citadel
gates
that led into the Deep and let the gnomes take refuge
with
him. At least, a lot of the gnomes did take refuge
with
him, though Zyeme says they were the ones who
were on
the Master's side to begin with. And she should
know-she
was brought up in the Deep."
"Was
she, now?" John tossed one of the small pork
bones
into the fire and wiped his fingers on a piece of
comcake.
"I thought the name sounded like the tongue
of the
gnomes."
Gareth
nodded. "The gnomes used to take a lot of the
children
of men as apprentices in the Deep-usually chil-
dren
from Deeping, the town that stands-stood-in the
vale
before the great gates of the Deep itself, where the
smelting
of the gold and the trade in foodstuff's went on.
They
haven't done so in the last year or so-in fact in
the
last year they forbade men to enter the Deep at all."
"Did
they?" asked John, curious. "Why was that?"
Gareth
shrugged. "I don't know. They're strange crea-
tures,
and tricky. You can't ever tell what they're up to,
Zyeme
says."
As the
night deepened, Jenny left the men by the fire
and
silently walked the bounds of the camp, checking the
spell-circles
that defended it against the blood-devils, the
Whisperers,
and the sad ghosts that haunted the ruins of
the old
town. She sat on what had been a boundary stone,
just
beyond the edge of the fire's circle of light, and sank
into
her meditations, which for some nights now she had
neglected.
It was
not the first time she had neglected them-she
was too
well aware of the nights she had let them go by
while
she was at the Hold with John and her sons. Had
she not
neglected them-had she not neglected the pur-
suit of
her power-would she be as powerful as this
Zyeme,
who could deal in shapeshifting at a casual whim?
Caerdinn's
strictures against it returned to her mind, but
she
wondered if that was just her own jealousy speaking,
her own
spite at another's power. Caerdinn had been old,
and
there had been nowhere in the Winterlands that she
could
turn for other instruction after he had died. Like
John,
she was a scholar bereft of the meat of scholarship;
like
the people of the village of Alyn, she was circum-
scribed
by the fate that had planted her in such stony soil.
Against
the twisting yellow ribbons of the flames, she
could
see John's body swaying as he gestured, telling
Gareth
some outrageous story from his vast collection of
tales
about the Winterlands and its folk. The Fattest Ban-
dit in
the Winterlands? she wondered. Or one about his
incredible
Aunt Mattie? It occurred to her for the first
time
that it was for her, as well as for his people, that he
had
undertaken the King's command-for the things that
she had
never gotten, and for their sons.
It's
not worth his life! she thought desperately,
watching
him. / do well with what I have! But the
silent
ruins of Ember mocked at her, their naked bones
veiled
by darkness, and the calm part of her heart whis-
pered
to her that it was his to choose, not hers. She could
only do
what she was doing-make her choice and aban-
don her
studies to ride with him. The King had sent his
command
and his promise, and John would obey the King.
Five
days south of Ember, the lands opened up once
more.
The forests gave way to the long, flat, alluvial slopes
that
led down to the Wildspae, the northern boundary of
the
lands of Belmarie. It was an empty countryside, but
without
the haunted desolation of the Winterlands; there
were
farms here, like little walled fortresses, and the road
was at
least passably drained. Here for the first time they
met
other travelers, merchants going north and east, with
news
and rumor of the capital-of the dread of the dragon
that
gripped the land, and the unrest in Bel due to the
high
price of grain.
"Stands
to reason, don't it?" said a foxlike little trader,
with
his cavalcade of laden mules behind him. "What with
the
dragon ruining the harvest, and the grain rotting in
the
fields; yes, and the gnomes what took refuge in Bel
itself
hoarding the stuff, taking it out of the mouths of
honest
folk with their ill-got gold."
"Ill-got?"
asked John curiously. "They mined and
smelted
it, didn't they?" Jenny, who wanted news without
irritating
its bearer, kicked him surreptitiously in the shin.
The
merchant spat into the brimming ditch by the road-
side
and wiped his grizzled reddish beard. "That gives
them no
call to buy grain away from folks that needs it,"
he
said. "And word has it that they're trafficking regular
with
their brothers up in Halnath-yes, and that they and
the
Master between them kidnapped the King's Heir, his
only
child, to hold for ransom."
"Could
they have?" John inquired.
"Course
they could. The Master's a sorcerer, isn't he?
And the
gnomes have never been up to any good, causing
riot
and mayhem in the capital..."
"Riot
and mayhem?" Gareth protested. "But the gnomes
have
been our allies for time out of mind! There's never
been
trouble between us."
The man
squinted up at him suspiciously. But he only
grumbled,
"Just goes to show, doesn't it? Treacherous
little
buggers." Jerking on his lead mule's bridle, he passed
them
by.
Not
long after this they met a company of the gnomes
themselves,
traveling banded together, surrounded by
guards
for protection, with their wealth piled in carts and
carriages.
They peered up at John with wary, shortsighted
eyes of
amber or pale blue beneath low, wide brows, and
gave
him unwilling answers to his questions about the
south.
"The
dragon? Aye, it lairs yet in Ylferdun, and none
of the
men the King has sent have dislodged it." The
gnome
leader toyed with the soft fur trim of his gloves,
and the
thin winds billowed at the silk of his strangely cut
garments.
Behind him, the guards of the cavalcade watched
the
strangers in deepest suspicion, as if fearing an attack
from
even that few. "As for us, by the heart of the Deep,
we have
had enough of the charity of the sons of men,
who
charge us four times the going price for rooms the
household
servants would scorn and for food retrieved
from
the rats." His voice, thin and high like that of all the
gnomes,
was bitter with the verjuice of hate given back
for
hate. "Without the gold taken from the Deep, their
city
would never have been built, and yet not a man will
speak
to us in the streets, save to curse. They say in the
city
now that we plot with our brethren who fled through
the
back ways of the Deep into the Citadel of Halnath.
By the
Stone, it is lies; but such lies are believed now in
Bel."
From
the carts and carriages and curtained litters, a
murmur
of anger went up, the rage of those who have
never
before been helpless. Jenny, sitting quietly on Moon
Horse,
realized that it was the first time she had ever seen
gnomes
by daylight. Their eyes, wide and nearly color-
less,
were ill-attuned for its glare; the hearing that could
catch
the whispers of the cave bats would be daily tor-
tured
by the clamor of the cities of men.
Aversin
asked, "And the King?"
"The
King?" The gnome's piping voice was vicious,
and his
whole stooping little body bristled with the raw
hurt of
humiliation. "The King cares nothing for us. With
all our
wealth mewed up in the Deep, where the dragon
sits
hoarding over it, we have little to trade upon but
promises,
and with each day that passes those promises
buy
less in a city where bread is dear. And all this, while
the
King's whore sits with his head in her lap and poisons
his
mind as she poisons everything she touches-as she
poisoned
the very heart of the Deep."
Beside
her. Jenny heard the hissing ofGareth's indrawn
breath
and saw the anger that flashed in his eyes, but he
said
nothing. When her glance questioned him, he looked
away in
shame.
As the
gnomes moved out of sight once again into the
mists,
John remarked, "Sounds a proper snakes' nest.
Could
this Master really have kidnapped the King's child?"
"No,"
Gareth said miserably, as the horses resumed
their
walk toward the ferry, invisible in the foggy bot-
tomlands
to the south. "He couldn't have left the Citadel.
He
isn't a sorcerer-just a philosopher and an atheist.
I-don't
worry about the King's Heir." He looked down
at his
hands, and the expression on his face was the one
that
Jenny had seen in the camp outside Ember that night-
a
struggle to gather his courage. "Listen," he began shak-
ily.
"I have to..."
"Gar,"
said John quietly, and the boy startled as if
burned.
There was an ironic glint in John's brown eyes
and an
edge like chipped flint to his voice. "Now-the
King
wouldn't by any chance have sent for me for some
other
reason than the dragon, would he?"
"No,"
Gareth said faintly, not meeting his eyes. "No,
he-he
didn't."
"Didn't
what?"
Gareth
swallowed, his pale face suddenly very strained.
"He-he
didn't send for you-for any other reason. That
is..."
"Because,"
John went on in that quiet voice, "if the
King
happened to send me his signet ring to get me involved
in
rescuing that child of his, or helping him against this
Master
of Halnath I hear such tell of, or for his dealings
with
the gnomes, I do have better things to do. There are
real
problems, not just money and power, in my own
lands,
and the winter closing in looks to be a bad one.
I'll
put my life at risk against the dragon for the sake of
the
King's protection to the Winterlands, but if there's
aught
else in it..."
"No!"
Gareth caught his arm desperately, a terrible
fear in
his face, as if he thought that with little more
provocation
the Dragonsbane would turn around then and
there
and ride back to Wyr.
And
perhaps, Jenny thought, remembering her vision
in the
water bowl, it might be better if they did.
"Aversin,
it isn't like that. You are here to slay the
dragon-because
you're the only Dragonsbane living.
That's
the only reason I sought you out, I swear it. I
swear
it! Don't worry about politics and-and all that."
His
shortsighted gray eyes pleaded with Aversin to believe,
but in
them there was a desperation that could never have
stemmed
from innocence.
John's
gaze held his for a long moment, gauging him.
Then he
said, "I'm trusting you, my hero."
In
dismal silence, Gareth touched his heels to Battle-
hammer's
sides, and the big horse moved out ahead of
them,
the boy's borrowed plaids making them fade quickly
into no
more than a dark, cut-out shape in the colorless
fogs.
John, riding a little behind, slowed his horse so that
he was
next to Jenny, who had watched in speculative
silence
throughout.
"Maybe
it's just as well you're with me after all, love."
She
glanced from Gareth up to John, and then back.
Somewhere
a crow called, like the voice of that melan-
choly
land. "I don't think he means us ill," she said softly.
"That
doesn't mean he isn't gormless enough to get us
killed
all the same."
The
mists thickened as they approached the river, until
they
moved through a chill white world where the only
sound
was the creak of harness leather, the pop of hooves,
the
faint jingle of bits, and the soughing rattle of the wind
in the
spiky cattails growing in the flooded ditches. From
that
watery grayness, each stone or solitary tree emerged,
silent
and dark, like a portent of strange events. More
than
all else. Jenny felt the weight ofGareth's silence, his
fear
and dread and guilt. John felt it, too, she knew; he
watched
the tall boy from the comer of his eye and lis-
tened
to the hush of those empty lands like a man waiting
for
ambush. As evening darkened the air. Jenny called a
blue
ball of witchfire to light their feet, but the soft, opal-
escent
walls of the mist threw back the light at them and
left
them nearly as blind as before.
"Jen."
John drew rein, his head cocked to listen. "Can
you
hear it?"
"Hear
what?" Gareth whispered, coming up beside them
at the
top of the slope which dropped away into blankets
of
moving fog.
Jenny
flung her senses wide through the dun-colored
clouds,
feeling as much as hearing the rushing voice of
the
river below. There were other sounds, muffled and
altered
by the fog, but unmistakable. "Yes," she said qui-
etly,
her breath a puff of white in the raw air. "Voices-
dorses-a
group of them on the other side."
John
glanced sharply sidelong at Gareth. "They could
be
waiting for the ferry," he said, "if they had business
in the
empty lands west of the river at the fall of night."
Gareth
said nothing, but his face looked white and set.
After a
moment John clucked softly to Cow, and the big,
shaggy
sorrel plodded forward again down the slope to
the
ferry through the clammy wall of vapor.
Jenny
let the witchlight ravel away as John pounded
on the
door of the squat stone ferry house. She and Gareth
remained
in the background while John and the ferryman
negotiated
the fare for three people, six horses, and two
mules.
"Penny a leg," said the ferryman, his squirrel-dark
eyes
darting from one to the other with the sharp interest
of one
who sees all the world pass his doorstep. "But
there'll
be supper here in an hour, and lodging for the
night.
It's growing mortal dark, and there's chowder fog."
"We
can get along a few miles before full dark; and
besides,"
John added, with an odd glint in his eye as he
glanced
back at the silent Gareth, "we may have someone
waiting
for us on the far bank."
"Ah."
The man's wide mouth shut itself like a trap.
"So
it's you they're expecting. I heard 'em out there a
bit
ago, but they didn't ring no bell for me, so I bided by
my
stove where it's warm."
Holding
up the lantern and struggling into his heavy
quilted
jacket, he led the way down to the slip, while
Jenny
followed silently behind, digging in the purse at her
belt
for coin.
The
great horse Battlehammer had traveled north with
Gareth
by ship and, in any case, disdained balking at
anything
as sheer bad manners; neither Moon Horse nor
Osprey
nor any of the spares had such scruples, with the
exception
of Cow, who would have crossed a bridge of
flaming
knives at his customary phlegmatic plod. It took
Jenny
much whispered talk and stroking of ears before
any of
them would consent to set foot upon the big raft.
The
ferryman made the gate at the raft's tail fast and fixed
his
lantern on the pole at its head; then he set to turning
the
winch that drew the wide, flat platform out across the
opaque silk
of the river. The single lantern made a woolly
blur of
yellowish light in the leaden smoke of the fog; now
and
then, on the edge of the gleam. Jenny could see the
brown
waters parting around a snagged root or branch
that
projected from the current like a drowned hand.
From
somewhere across the water she heard the jingle
of
metal on metal, the soft blowing of a horse, and men's
voices.
Gareth still said nothing, but she felt that, if she
laid a
hand upon him, she would find him quivering, as
a rope
does before it snaps. John came quietly to her side,
his
fingers twined warm and strong about hers. His spec-
tacles
flashed softly in the lante> slight as he slung an end
of his
voluminous plaid around her shoulders and drew
her to
his side.
"John,"
Gareth said quietly, "I-I have something to
tell
you."
Dimly
through the fog came another sound, a woman's
laugh
like the tinkling of silver bells. Gareth twitched, and
John, a
dangerous flicker in his lazy-lidded eyes, said, "I
thought
you might."
"Aversin,"
Gareth stammered and stopped. Then he
forced
himself on with a rush, "Aversin, Jenny, listen. I'm
sorry.
I lied to you-I betrayed you, but I couldn't help
it; I
had no other choice. I'm sorry."
"Ah,"
said John softly. "So there was something you
forgot
to mention before we left the Hold?"
Unable
to meet his eyes, Gareth said, "I meant to tell
you
earlier, but-but I couldn't. I was afraid you'd turn
back
and-and I couldn't let you turn back. We need
you, we
really do."
"For
a lad who's always on about honor and courage,"
Aversin
said, and there was an ugly edge to his quiet voice,
"you
haven't shown very much of either, have you?"
Gareth
raised his head, and met his eyes, "No," he
said.
"I-I've been realizing that. I thought it was all right
to
deceive you in a good cause-that is-I had to get you
to
come..."
"All
right, then," said John. "What is the truth?"
Jenny
glanced from the faces of the two men toward
the far
shore, visible dimly now as a dark blur and a few
lights
moving like fireflies in the mist. A slightly darker
cloud
beyond would be the woodlands of Belmarie. She
touched
John's spiked elbow wamingly, and he looked
quickly
in that direction. Movement stirred there, shapes
crowding
down to wait for the ferry to put in. The horse
Battlehammer
flung up his head and whinnied, and an
answering
whinny trumpeted back across the water. The
Dragonsbane's
eyes returned to Gareth and he folded his
hands
over the hilt of his sword.
Gareth
drew a deep breath. "The truth is that the King
didn't
send for you," he said. "In fact, he-he forbade
me to
come looking for you. He said it was a foolish quest,
because
you probably didn't exist at all and, even if you
did,
you'd have been killed by another dragon long ago.
He said
he didn't want me to risk my life chasing a phan-
tom.
But-but I had to find you. He wasn't going to send
anyone
else. And you're the only Dragonsbane, as it was
in all
the ballads..." He stammered uncertainly. "Except
that I didn't
know then that it wasn't like the ballads. But
I knew
you had to exist. And I knew we needed someone.
I
couldn't stand by and let the dragon go on terrorizing
the
countryside. I had to come and find you. And once I
found
you, I had to bring you back..."
"Having
decided you knew better about the needs of
my
people and my own choice in the matter than I did?"
John's
face never showed much expression, but his voice
had a
sting to it now, like a scorpion's tail.
Gareth
shied from it, as from a lash. "I-I thought of
that,
these last days," he said softly. He looked up again,
his
face white with an agony of shame. "But I couldn't
let you
turn back. And you will be rewarded, I swear I'll
see
that you get the reward somehow."
"And
just how'll you manage that?" John's tone was
sharp
with disgust. The deck jarred beneath their feet as
the
raft ground against the shoals. Lights like marsh can-
dles
bobbed down toward them through the gloom. "With
a mage
at the Court, it couldn't have taken them long to
figure
out who'd pinched the King's seal, nor when he'd
be back
in Belmarie. I expect the welcoming commit-
tee
..." he gestured toward the dark forms crowding for-
ward
from the mists. "... is here to arrest you for treason."
"No,"
Gareth said in a defeated voice. "They'll be my
friends
from Court."
As if
stepping through a door the forms came into
visibility;
lantemlight danced over the hard gleam of satin,
caressed
velvet's softer nap, and touched edges of stiff-
ened
lace and the cloudy gauze of women's veils, salted
all
over with the leaping fire of jewels. In the forefront of
them
all was a slender, dark-haired girl in amber silk,
whose
eyes, golden as honey with a touch of gray, sought
Gareth's
and caused the boy to turn aside with a blush.
One man
was holding a cloak for her of ermine-tagged
velvet;
another her golden pomander ball. She laughed,
a sound
at once silvery and husky, like an echo from a
troubled
dream.
It
could be no one but Zyeme.
John
looked inquiringly back at Gareth.
"That
seal you showed me was real," he said. "I've
seen it
on the old documents, down to the little nicks on
its
edges. They're taking its theft a bit casually, aren't
they?"
He laid
hold of Cow's bridle and led him down the
short
gangplank, forcing the others to follow. As they
stepped
ashore, every courtier on the bank, led by Zyeme,
swept
in unison into an elaborate Phoenix Rising salaam,
touching
their knees in respect to the clammy, fish-smelling
mud.
Crimson-faced,
Gareth admitted, "Not really. Techni-
cally
it wasn't theft. The King is my father. I'm the missing
Heir."
CHAPTER
V
"So
THAT'S YOUR Dragonsbane, is it?"
At the
sound of Zyeme's voice. Jenny paused in the
stony
blue dimness of the hall of the enchantress's hunting
lodge.
From the gloom in which she stood, the little ante-
chamber
beyond the hall glowed like a lighted stage; the
rose-colored
gauze of Zyeme's gown, the whites and
violets
of Gareth's doublet, sleeves, and hose, and the
pinks
and blacks of the rugs beneath their feet all seemed
to bum
like the hues of stained glass in the ember-colored
lamplight.
The instincts of the Winterlands kept Jenny to
the
shadows. Neither saw her.
Zyeme
held her tiny goblet of crystal and glass up to
one of
the lamps on the mantel, admiring the blood red
lights
of the liqueur within. She smiled mischievously. "I
must
say, I prefer the ballad version myself."
Seated
in one of the gilt-footed ivory chairs on the
opposite
side of the low wine table, Gareth only looked
unhappy
and confused. The dimple on the side of Zyeme's
curving,
shell pink lips deepened, and she brushed a cor-
ner of
her lace veils aside from her cheek. Combs of
crystal
and sardonyx flashed in her dark hair as she tipped
her
head.
When
Gareth didn't speak, her smile widened a little,
and she
moved with sinuous grace to stand near enough
to him
to envelop him in the faint aura of her perfume.
Like
shooting stars, the lamplight jumped from the crystal
facets
of Gareth's goblet with the involuntary tremor of
his
hand.
"Aren't
you even going to thank me for coming to meet
you and
offering you the hospitality of my lodge?" Zyeme
asked,
her voice teasing.
Because
she was jealous of Zyeme's greater powers,
Jenny
had forced herself to feel, upon meeting her at the
ferry,
nothing but surprise at the enchantress's youth. She
looked
no more than twenty, though at the lowest com-
putation-which
Jenny could not keep herself from mak-
ing,
though the cattiness of her reaction distressed her-
her age
could not have been much less than twenty-six.
Where
there was jealousy, there could be no learning, she
had
told herself; and in any case she owed this girl justice.
But now
anger stirred in her. Zyeme's closeness and
the
hand that she laid with such artless intimacy on
Gareth's
shoulder, so that less than a half-inch of her finger-
tip
touched the flesh of his neck above his collar-lace
could
be nothing but calculated temptations. From what
he had
told her-from every tense line of his face and
body
now-Jenny knew he was struggling with all that
was in
him against his desire for his father's mistress.
Judging
by her expression in the lamplight, Gareth's efforts
to
resist amused Zyeme very much.
"Lady-Lady
Jenny?"
Jenny's
head turned quickly at the hesitant voice. The
stairway
of the lodge was enclosed in an elaborate lat-
ticework
of pierced stone; in the fretted shadows, she
could
make out the shape of a girl of sixteen or so. Only
a
little taller than Jenny herself, she was like an exquisitely
dressed
doll, her hair done up in an exaggeration of
Zyeme's
elaborate coiffure and dyed like white-and-
purple
taffy.
The
girl curtseyed. "My name is Trey, Trey Cleriock."
She
glanced nervously at the two forms framed in the
lighted
antechamber, then back up the stair, as if fearing
that
one of Zyeme's other guests'would come down and
overhear.
"Please don't take this wrongly, but I came to
offer
to lend you a dress for dinner, if you'd like one."
Jenny
glanced down at her own gown, russet wool with
a hand
like silk, banded with embroideries of red and blue.
In
deference to custom which dictated that no woman in
polite
society was ever seen with her hair uncovered, she
had
even donned the white silk veil John had brought
back to
her from the east. In the Winteriands she would
have
been accounted royally clad.
"Does
it matter so much?"
The
girl Trey looked as embarrassed as years of deport-
ment
lessons would let her. "It shouldn't," she said frankly.
"It
doesn't, really, to me, but... but some people at Court
can be
very cruel, especially about things like being prop-
erly
dressed. I'm sorry," she added quickly, blushing as
she
stepped out of the checkered darkness of the stair.
Jenny
could see now that she carried a bundle of black
and
silver satin and a long, trailing mass of transparent
gauze
veils, whose random sequins caught stray spangles
of
light.
Jenny
hesitated. Ordinarily the conventions of polite
society
never had bothered her, and her work left her
little
time for them in any case. Knowing she would be
coming
to the King's court, she had brought the best gown
she
had-her only formal gown, as a matter of fact-
aware
that it would be out of date. It had been no concern
to her
what others thought of her for wearing it.
But
from the moment she had stepped from the ferry
earlier
that evening, she had had the feeling of walking
among
unmarked pitfalls. Zyeme and her little band of
courtiers
had been all polite graciousness, but she had
sensed
the covert mockery in their language of eyebrows
and
glances. It had angered her and puzzled her, too,
reminding
her too much of the way the other children in
the
village had treated her as a child. But the child in her
was
alive enough to feel a morbid dread of their sport.
Zyeme's
sweet laughter drifted out into the hall. "I
vow the
fellow was looking about him for a bootscraper
as he
crossed the threshold... I didn't know whether to
offer
him a room with a bed or a pile of nice, comfortable
rushes
on the floor-you know a good hostess must make
her
guests feel at home..."
For a
moment Jenny's natural suspicion made her won-
der if
the offer of a gown itself might be part of some
scheme
to make her look ridiculous. But Trey's worried
blue
eyes held nothing but concern for her-and a little
for
herself, lest she be spotted in the act of spoiling sport.
Jenny
considered for a moment defying them, then dis-
carded
the idea-whatever gratification it might bring was
scarcely
worth the fight. She had been raised in the
Winteriands,
and every instinct she possessed whispered
for the
concealment of protective coloration.
She
held out her hands for the slithery annfuls of satin.
"You
can change in the little room beneath the stairs,"
Trey
offered, looking relieved. "It's a long way back to
your
rooms."
"And
a longer one back to your own home," Jenny
pointed
out, her hand on the latch of the concealed door.
"Did
you send for this specially, then?"
Trey
regarded her with guileless surprise. "Oh, no.
When
Zyerne knew Gareth was returning, she told us all
we'd
come here for a welcome dinner: my brother Bond
and
myself, the Beautiful Isolde, Caspar of Walfrith and
Merriwyn
of Longcleat, and all the others. I always bring
two or
three different dinner gowns. I mean, I didn't know
two
days ago what I might want to wear."
She was
perfectly serious, so Jenny repressed her smile.
She
went on, "It's a little long, but I thought it looked
like
your colors. Here in the south, only servants wear
brown."
"Ah."
Jenny touched the folds of her own gown, which
caught
a cinnamon edge in the glow from the antecham-
ber's
lamps. "Thank you. Trey, very much-and Trey?
Could I
ask yet another favor?"
"Of
course," the girl said generously. "I can help..."
"I
think I can manage. John-Lord Aversin-will be
down in
a few moments..." She paused, thinking of the
somewhat
old-fashioned but perfectly decent brown vel-
vet of
his doublet and indoor cloak. But it was something
about
which she could do nothing, and she shook her
head.
"Ask him to wait, if you would."
The
room beneath the stairs was small, but showed
evidence
of hasty toilettes and even hastier romantic
assignations.
As she changed clothes, Jenny could hear
the
courtiers assembling in the hall to await the summons
for
dinner. Occasionally she could catch some of the muted
bustling
from the servants in the dining hall beyond the
antechamber,
laying the six cloths and undercover so nec-
essary,
according to Gareth, to the proper conduct of a
meal;
now and then a maid would laugh and be rebuked
by the
butler. Nearer, soft voices gossiped and teased:
"...
well, really, what can you say about someone who
still
wears those awful smocked sleeves-and she's so
proud
of them, too!"... "Yes, but in broad daylight? Out-
doors?
And with her husbandT'... "Well, of course it's
all a
plot by the gnomes..." "Did you hear the joke about
why
gnomes have flat noses?"
Closer,
a man's voice laughed, and asked, "Gareth, are
you
sure you found the right man? I mean, you didn't
mistake
the address and fetch someone else entirely?"
"Er-well-"
Gareth sounded torn between his loy-
alty to
his friends and his dread of mockery. "I suppose
you'd
call him a bit barbaric. Bond..."
"A
bit!" The man Bond laughed richly. "That is to say
that
the dragon has caused 'a bit' of trouble, or that old
polycarp
tried to murder you 'a bit.' And you're taking
him to
Court? Father will be pleased."
"Gareth?"
There was sudden concern in Zyeme's lilt-
ing
voice. "You did get his credentials, didn't you? Mem-
bership
in the Guild of Dragonsbanes, Proof of
Slaughter..."
"Testimonials
from Rescued Maidens," Bond added.
"Or
is that one of his rescued maidens he has with him?"
Above
her head. Jenny felt rather than heard a light
descending
tread on the steps. It was the tread of a man
raised
to caution and it stopped, as her own had stopped
for a
moment, at the point on the stairs just behind where
the
light fell from the room beyond. As she hastened to
pull on
the stiffened petticoats, she could feel his silence
in the
entwining shadows of the latticed staircase.
"Of
course!" Bond was saying, in the voice of a man
suddenly
enlightened. "He has to carry her about with
him
because nobody in the Winterlands can read a written
testimonial!
It's similar to the barter system, you see..."
"Well,"
another woman's voice purred, "if you ask me,
she
isn't much of a maiden."
With
teasing naughtiness, Zyerne giggled. "Perhaps it
wasn't
much of a dragon."
"She
must be thirty if she's a day," someone else added.
"Now,
my dear," Zyeme chided, "let us not be catty.
That
rescue was a long time ago."
In the
general laugh. Jenny was not sure, but she thought
she
heard the footsteps overhead soundlessly retreat.
Zyerne
went on, "I do think, if this Dragonsbane of yours
was
going to cart a woman along, he might at least have
picked
a pretty one, instead of someone who looks like
a
gnome-a short little thing with all that hair. She scarcely
needs a
veil for modesty."
"That's
probably why she doesn't wear one."
"If
you're going to be charitable, my dear..."
"She
isn't..." began Gareth's voice indignantly.
"Oh,
Gareth, don't take everything so seriously!"
Zyeme's
laughter mocked him. "It's such a bore, darling,
besides
giving you wrinkles. There. Smile. Really, it's all
in
jest-a man who can't take a little joking is only a short
step
from far more serious sins, like eating his salad with
a fish
fork. I say, you don't think..."
Her
hands shaking with a queeriy feelingless anger,
Jenny
straightened her veils. The mere touch of the stiff-
ened
gauze fired a new spurt of irritation through her,
annoyance
at them and that same sense of bafflement she
had
feltbefore. The patterns of human relationships inter-
ested
her, and this one, shot through with a web of arti-
ficiality
and malice, explained a good deal about Gareth.
But the
childishness of it quelled her anger, and she was
able to
slip soundlessly from her cubbyhole and stand
among
them for several minutes before any of them became
aware
of her presence.
Lamps
had been kindled in the hall. In the midst of a
small
crowd of admiring courtiers, Zyeme seemed to spar-
kle
bewitchingly under a powdering of diamonds and lace.
"I'll
tell you," she was saying. "However much gold
Gareth
was moved to offer the noble Dagonsbane as a re-
ward, I
think we can offer him a greater one. We'll show
him a
few of the amenities of civilization. How does that
sound?
He slays our dragon and we teach him how to eat
with a
fork?"
There
was a good deal of appreciative laughter at this.
Jenny
noticed the girl Trey joining in, but without much
enthusiasm.
The man standing next to her must be her
brother
Bond, she guessed; he had his sister's fine-boned
prettiness,
set off by fair hair of which one lovelock, trail-
. down onto a lace collar, was dyed blue.
Beside his
graceful
slimness, Gareth looked-and no doubt felt-
eangly,
overgrown, and miserably out of place; his
expression
was one of profound unhappiness and embar-
rassment.
It
might have been merely because he wasn't wearing
his
spectacles-they were doubtless hideously unfash-
ionable-but
he was looking about him at the exquisite
carvings
of the rafters, at the familiar glimmer of lamplit
silk
and stiffened lace, and at the faces of his friends, with
a weary
confusion, as if they had all become strangers to
him.
Even
now. Bond was saying, "And is your Dragons-
bane as
great as Silkydrawers the Magnificent, who slew
the
Crimson-and-Purple-Striped Dragon in the Golden
Woods
back in the Reign of Potpourri the Well-Endowed-
or was
it Kneebiter the Ineffectual? Do enlighten me,
Prince."
But
before the wretched Gareth could answer, Zyeme
said
suddenly, "My dears!" and came hurrying to Jenny,
her
small white hands stretched from the creamy lace of
her
sleeve ruffles. The smile on her face was as sweet
and
welcoming as if she greeted a long-lost friend. "My
dearest
Lady Jenny-forgive me for not seeing you sooner!
You
look exquisite! Did darling Trey lend you her black-
and-silver?
How very charitable of her..."
A bell
rang in the dining room, and the minstrels in the
gallery
began to play. Zyeme took Jenny's arm to lead in
the
guests-first women, then men, after the custom of
the
south-to dinner. Jenny glanced quickly around the
hall,
looking for John but knowing he would not be there.
A qualm
crossed her stomach at the thought of sitting
through
this alone.
Beside
her, the light voice danced on. "Oh, yes, you're
a mage,
too, aren't you?... You know I did have some
very
good training, but it's the sort of thing that has always
come to
me by instinct. You must tell me about using your
powers
to make a living. I've never had to do that, you
know..."
Like the prick of knives in her back, she felt
the
covert smiles of those who walked in procession
behind.
Yet
because they were deliberate. Jenny found that the
younger
woman's slights had lost all power to wound her.
They
stirred in her less anger than Zyeme's temptation
of
Gareth had. Arrogance she had expected, for it was
the
besetting sin of the magebom and Jenny knew herself
to be
as much prey to it as the others and she sensed the
enormous
power within Zyeme. But this condescension
was a
girl's ploy, the trick of one who was herself insecure.
What,
she wondered, did Zyerne have to feel insecure
about?
As they
took their places at the table. Jenny's eyes
traveled
slowly along its length, seeing it laid like a winter
forest
with snowy linen and the crystal icicles of cande-
labra
pendant with jewels. Each silver plate was inlaid
with
traceries of gold and flanked with a dozen little forks
and
spoons, the complicated armory of etiquette; all these
young
courtiers in their scented velvet and stiffened lace
were
clearly her slaves, each more interested in carrying
on a
dialogue, however brief, with her, than with any of
their
neighbors. Everything about that delicate hunting
lodge
was designed to speak her name, from the entwined
Zs and
Us carved in the comers of the ceiling to the
delicate
bronze of the horned goddess of love Hartem-
garbes,
wrought in Zyeme's image, in its niche near the
door.
Even the delicate music of hautbois and hurdy-
gurdy
in the gallery was a proclamation, a boast that Zyeme
had and
would tolerate nothing but the very finest.
Why
then the nagging fear that lay behind pettiness?
She
turned to look at Zyeme with clinical curiosity,
wondering
about the pattern of that giri's life. Zyeme's
eyes
met hers and caught their expression of calm and
slightly
pitying question. For an instant, the golden orbs
narrowed,
scorn and spite and anger stirring in their depths.
Then
the sweet smile returned, and Zyerne asked, "My
dear,
you haven't touched a bite. Do you use forks in the
north?"
There
was a sudden commotion in the arched doorway
of the
hall. One of the minstrels in the gallery, shocked,
hit a
glaringly wrong squawk out of his recorder; the oth-
ers
stumbled to silence.
"Gaw,"
Aversin's voice said, and every head along the
shimmering
board turned, as if at the clatter of a dropped
plate.
"Late again."
He
stepped into the waxlight brightness of the hall with
a faint
jingle of scraps of chain mail and stood looking
about
him, his spectacles glinting like steel-rimmed moons.
He had
changed back into the battered black leather he'd
worn on
the journey, the wolflude-lined jerkin with its
stray
bits of mail and metal plates and spikes and the dark
leather
breeches and scarred boots. His plaids were slung
back
over his shoulder like a cloak, cleaned of mud but
frayed
and scruffy, and there was a world of bright mis-
chief
in his eyes.
Gareth,
at the other end of the table, went red with
mortification
to the roots of his thinning hair. Jenny only
sighed,
momentarily closed her eyes, and thought
resignedly,
John.
He
strode cheerily into the room, bowing with impar-
tial
goodwill to the courtiers along the board, not one of
whom
seemed capable of making a sound. They had, for
the
most part, been looking forward to baiting a country
cousin
as he tried unsuccessfully to ape his betters; they
had
scarcely been prepared for an out-and-out barbarian
who
obviously wasn't even going to bother to try.
With a
friendly nod to his hostess, he settled into his
place
on the opposite side of Zyerne from Jenny. For a
moment,
he studied the enormous battery of cutlery
arrayed
on both sides of his plate and then, with perfect
neatness
and cleanliness, proceeded to eat with his fin-
gers.
Zyeme
recovered her composure first. With a silky
smile,
she picked up a fish fork and offered it to him.
"Just
as a suggestion, my lord. We do do things differently
here."
Somewhere
down the board, one of the ladies tittered.
Aversin
regarded Zyeme with undisguised suspicion. She
speared
a scallop with the fish fork and held it out to him,
by way
of demonstration, and he broke into his sunniest
smile.
"Ah, so that's what they're for," he said, relieved.
Removing
the scallop from the tines with his fingers, he
took a
neat bite out of it. In a north-country brogue six
times
worse than anything Jenny had ever heard him use
at
home, he added, "And here I was thinking I'd been in
your
lands less than a night, and already challenged to a
duel
with an unfamiliar weapon, and by the local magewife
at
that. You had me gie worrit."
On his
other side. Bond Clerlock nearly choked on his
soup,
and John thumped him helpfully on the back.
"You
know," he went on, gesturing with the fork in
one
hand and selecting another scallop with the other,
"we
did uncover a great box of these things-all different
sizes
they were, like these here-in the vaults of the Hold
the
year we looked out the bath for my cousin Kat's
wedding.
We hadn't a clue what they were for, not even
Father
Hiero-Father Hiero's our priest-but the next
time
the bandits came down raiding from the hills, we
loaded
the lot into the ballistas instead of stone shot and
let fly.
Killed one of 'em dead on the spot and two others
went
riding off over the moor with all these little spikey
things
sticking into their backs..."
"I
take it," Zyeme said smoothly, as stifled giggles
skittered
around the table, "that your cousin's wedding
was an
event of some moment, if it occasioned a bath?"
"Oh,
aye." For someone whose usual expression was
one of
closed watchfulness, Aversin had a dazzling smile.
"She
was marrying this southern fellow..."
It was
probably. Jenny thought, the first time that any-
one had
succeeded in taking an audience away from
Zyeme,
and, by the glint in the sorceress's eyes, she did
not
like it. But the courtiers, laughing, were drawn into
the
circle of Aversin's warm and dotty charm; his exag-
gerated
barbarity disarmed their mockery as his increas-
ingly
outrageous tale of his cousin's fictitious nuptials
reduced
them to undignified whoops. Jenny had enough
of a
spiteful streak in her to derive a certain amount of
enjoyment
from Zyeme's discomfiture-it was Zyeme,
after
all, who had mocked Gareth for not being able to
take
jests-but confined her attention to her plate. If John
was
going to the trouble of drawing their fire so that she
could
finish her meal in peace, the least she could do was
not let
his efforts go to waste.
On her
other side. Trey said softly, "He doesn't look
terribly
ferocious. From Gareth's ballads, I'd pictured
him
differently-stem and handsome, like the statues of
the god
Sannendes. But then," she added, winkling the
meat
from an escargot with the special tongs to show
Jenny
how it was done, "I suppose it would have been a
terrific
bore for you to ride all the way back from the
Winterlands
with someone who just spent his time 'scan-
ning
th'encircling welkin with his eagle-lidded eyes,' as
the
song says."
In
spite of Zyeme's disapproving glances, her hand-
some
cicisbeo Bond was wiping tears of laughter from his
eyes,
albeit with great care for his makeup. Even the
servants
were having a hard time keeping their faces prop-
erly
expressionless as they carried in peacocks roasted
and
resplendent in all their feathers and steaming removes
of
venison in cream.
"...
so the bridegroom looked about for one of those
wood
things such as you have here in my rooms," John
was
continuing, "but as he couldn't find one, he hung his
clothes
over the armor-stand, and damned if Cousin Kat
didn't
wake in the night and set about it with her sword,
taking
it for a bandit..."
Trust
John, Jenny thought, that if he couldn't make an
impression
on them on their own grounds, he wouldn't
try to
do it on the grounds of Gareth's ballads, either.
They
had succumbed to the devil of mischief in him, the
devil
that had drawn her from the first moment they had
met as
adults. He had used his outrageousness as a defense
against
their scorn, but the fact that he had been able to
use it
successfully made her think a little better of these
courtiers
of Zyeme's.
She
finished her meal in silence, and none of them saw
her go.
"Jenny,
wait." A tall figure detached itself from the
cluster
of bright forms in the antechamber and hurried
across
the hall to catch her, tripping over a footstool half-
way.
Jenny
paused in the enclosing shadow of the stair lat-
tice.
From the anteroom, music was already lilting-not
the
notes of the hired musicians, this time, but the com-
plex
tunes made to show off the skill of the courtiers
themselves.
To play well, it seemed, was the mark of a
true
gentleperson; the music of the cwrdth and the
double-dulcimer
blended into a counterpoint like lace,
from
which themes would emerge like half-familiar
faces
glimpsed in a crowd. Over the elaborate harmonies,
she
heard the blithe, unrepentant air of the pennywhistle,
following
the melody by ear, and she smiled. If the Twelve
Gods of
the Cosmos came down, they would be hard put
to
disconcert John.
"Jenny,
I-I'm sorry." Gareth was panting a little from
his
haste. He had resumed his battered spectacles; the
fracture
in the bottom of the right-hand lens glinted like
a star.
"I didn't know it would be like that. I thought-
he's a
Dragonsbane..."
She was
standing a few steps up the flight; she put out
her
hand and touched his face, nearly on level with her
own.
"Do you remember when you first met him?"
He
flushed with embarrassment. In the illuminated
antechamber,
John's scruffy leather and plaids made him
look
like a mongrel in a pack of lapdogs. He was exam-
ining a
lute-shaped hurdy-gurdy with vast interest, while
the
red-haired. Beautiful Isolde of Greenhythe told the
latest
of her enormous stock of scatological jokes about
the
gnomes. Everyone guffawed but John, who was far
too
interested in the musical instrument in his lap to notice;
Jenny
saw Gareth's mouth tighten with something between
anger
and confused pain. He went north seeking a dream,
she
thought; now he had neither that which he had sought
nor
that to which he had thought he would return.
"I
shouldn't have let them bait you like that," he said
after a
moment. "I didn't think Zyeme..."
He
broke off, unable to say it. She saw bitterness harden
his
mouth, and a disillusion worse than the one John had
dealt
him beside the pigsty at Alyn. He had probably
never
seen Zyeme being petty before, she thought; or
perhaps
he had only seen her in the context of the world
she had
created, never having been outside of it himself.
He took
a deep breath and went on, "I know I should
have
taken up for you somehow, but... but I didn't
know
how!" He spread his hands helplessly. With the first
rueful
humor at himself that Jenny had seen, he added,
"You
know, in ballads it's so easy to rescue someone. I
mean,
even if you're defeated, at least you can die grace-
fully
and not have everyone you know laugh at you for
the
next three weeks."
Jenny
laughed and reached out to pat his arm. In the
gloom,
his features were only an edge of gold along the
awkward
cheekline, and the twin circles of glass were
opaque
with the lamplight's reflection that glinted on a
few
flame-caught strands of hair and formed a spiky illu-
mination
along the edges of his lace collar. "Don't worry
about
it." She smiled. "Like slaying dragons, it's a special
art."
"Look,"
said Gareth, "I-I'm sorry I tricked you. I
wouldn't
have done it, if I'd known it would be like this.
But
Zyeme sent a messenger to my father-it's only a
day's
ride to Bel, and a guest house is being prepared for
you in
the Palace. I'll be with you when you present
yourselves
to him, and I know he'll be willing to make
terms..."
He caught himself, as if remembering his earlier
lying
assurances. "That is, I really do know it, this time.
Since
the coming of the dragon, there's been a huge stand-
ing
reward for its slaying, more than the pay of a garrison
for a
year. He has to listen to John."
Jenny
leaned one shoulder against the openwork of the
newel
post, the chips of reflected lamplight filtering through
the
lattice and dappling her black and silver gown with
gold.
"Is it so important to you?"
He
nodded. Even with the fashionable padding of his
white-and-violet
doublet, his narrow shoulders looked
stooped
with tiredness and defeat. "I didn't tell very much
truth
at the Hold," he said quietly. "But I did tell this:
that I
know I'm not a warrior, or a knight, and I know
I'm not
good at games. And I'm not stupid enough to
think
that the dragon wouldn't kill me in a minute, if I
went
there. But-I know everyone around here laughs
when I
talk about chivalry and honor and a knight's duty,
and you
and John do, too... But that's what makes John
the
Thane of the Winterlands and not just another bandit,
doesn't
it? He didn't have to kill that first dragon." The
boy
gestured wearily, a half-shrug that sent fragments of
luminosity
slithering along the white stripes of his slashed
sleeves
to the diamonds at his cuffs. "I couldn't not do
something.
Even if I did muff it up."
Jenny
felt she had never liked him so well. She said,
"If
you had truly muffed it up, we wouldn't be here."
She
climbed the stairs slowly and crossed the gallery
that
spanned the hall below. Like the stair, it was enclosed
in a
stone trellis cut into the shapes of vines and trees,
and the
shadows flickered in a restless harlequin over her
gown
and hair. She felt tired and cold from holding herself
braced
all evening-the sly baiting and lace-trimmed mal-
ice of
Zyeme's court had stung more than she cared to
admit.
She pitied them, a little, for what they were, but
she did
not have John's brass hide.
She and
John had been given the smaller of the two
rooms
at the end of the wing; Gareth, the larger, next
door to
theirs. Like everything else in Zyeme's lodge,
they
were beautifully appointed. The red damasked bed
hangings
and alabaster lamps were designed both as a
setting
for Zyeme's beauty and a boast of her power to
get
what she wanted from the King. No wonder, thought
Jenny,
Gareth distrusted and hated any witch who held
sway
over a ruler's heart.
As she
left the noise of the gallery behind her and
turned
down the corridor toward her room, she became
conscious
of the stiff rustling of her borrowed finery upon
the
inlaid wood of the floor and, with her old instinct for
silence,
gathered the heavy skirts up in her hands. Lamp-
light
from a half-opened door laid a molten trapezoid of
brightness
across the darkness before her. Zyeme, Jenny
knew,
was not downstairs with the others, and she felt
uneasy
about meeting that beautiful, spoiled, powerful
girl,
especially here in her own hunting lodge where she
held
sole dominion. Thus Jenny passed the open doorway
in a
drift of illusion; and, though she paused in the shad-
ows at
what she saw by the lights within, she remained
herself
unseen.
It
would have been so, she thought later, even had she
not
been cloaked in the spells that thwart the casual eye.
Zyeme
sat in an island of brightness, the glow of a night-
lamp
stroking the gilt-work of her blackwood chair, so
still
that not even the rose-point shadows of her lace veils
stirred
upon her gown. Her hands were cupped around
the
face of Bond Clerlock, who knelt at her feet, and such
was his
immobility that not even the sapphires pinning
his
hair glinted, but burned steadily with a single reflec-
tion.
Though he looked up toward her face, his eyes were
closed;
his expression was the contorted, intent face of
a man
in ecstasy so strong that it borders pain.
The
room smoked with magic, the weight of it like a
glittering
lour in the air. As a mage. Jenny could feel it,
smell
it like an incense; but it was an incense tainted with
rot.
She stepped back, repelled. Though the touch of
Zyeme's
hands upon Bond's face was the only contact
between
their two bodies, she had the sickened sensation
of
having looked upon that which was obscene. Zyeme's
eyes
were closed, her childlike brow puckered in slight
concentration;
the smile that curved her lips was one of
physical
and emotional satisfaction, like a woman's after
the act
of love.
Not
love, thought Jenny, drawing back from the scene
and
moving soundlessly down the hall once more, but
some
private satiation.
She sat
for a long time in the dark window embrasure
of her
room and thought about Zyeme. The moon rose,
flecking
the bare tips of the trees above the white carpet
of
ground mists; she heard the clocks strike downstairs
and the
drift of voices and laughter. The moon was in its
first
quarter, and something about that troubled her,
though
she could not for the moment think what. After
a long
time she heard the door open softly behind her and
turned
to see John silhouetted in the dim lamplight from
the
hall, its reflection throwing a scatter of metallic glints
from
his doublet and putting a rough halo on the coarse
wool of
his plaids.
Into
the darkness he said softly, "Jen?"
"Here."
Moonlight
flashed across his specs. She moved a lit-
tle-the
barring of the casement shadows on her black
and
silver gown made her nearly invisible. He came cau-
tiously
across the unfamiliar terrain of the floor, his hands
and
face pale blurs against his dark clothing.
"Gaw,"
he said in disgust as he slung off his plaids.
"To
come here to risk my bones slaying a dragon and end
up
playing dancing bear for a pack of children." He sat
on the
edge of the curtained bed, working at the heavy
buckles
of his doublet.
"Did
Gareth speak to you?"
His
spectacles flashed again as he nodded.
"And?"
John
shrugged. "Seeing the pack he runs with, I'm not
surprised
he's a gammy-handed chuff with less sense than
my
Cousin Dilly's mulberry bushes. And he did take the
risk to
search for me, I'll give him that." His voice was
muffled
as he bent over to pull off his boots. "Though I'll
wager
all the dragon's gold to little green apples he had
no idea
how dangerous it would be. God knows what I'd
have
done in his shoes, and him that desperate to help
and
knowing he hadn't a chance against the dragon him-
self."
He set his boots on the floor and sat up again.
"However
we came here, I'd be a fool not to speak with
the
King and see what he'll offer me, though it's in my
mind
that we'll run up against Zyerne in any dealings we
have
with him."
Even
while playing dancing bear, thought Jenny as she
drew
the pins from her hair and let her fashionable veils
slither
to the floor, John didn't miss much. The stiffened
silk
felt cold under her fingers, from the touch of the
window's
nearness, even as her hair did when she unwound
its
thick coil and let it whisper dryly down over her bony,
half-bared
shoulders.
At
length she said, "When Gareth first spoke to me of
her, I
was jealous, hating her without ever having seen
her.
She has everything that I wanted, John: genius, time
... and
beauty," she added, realizing that that, too, mat-
tered.
"I was afraid it was that, still."
"I
don't know, love." He got to his feet, barefoot in
breeches
and creased shirt, and came to the window where
she
sat. "It doesn't sound very like you." His hands were
warm
through the stiff, chilly satins of her borrowed gown
as he
collected the raven weight of her hair and sorted it
into
columns that spilled down through his fingers. "I
don't
know about her magic, for I'm not magebom myself,
but I
do know she is cruel for the sport of it-not in the
big
things that would get her pointed at, but in the little
ones-and
she leads the others on, teaching them by
example
and jest to be as cruel as she. Myself, I'd take
a whip
to lan, if he treated a guest as she treated you. I
see now
what that gnome we met on the road meant when
he said
she poisons what she touches. But she's only a
mistress,
when all's said. And as for her being beauti-
ful.
.." He shrugged. "If I was a bit shapecrafty, I'd be
beautiful,
too."
In
spite of herself Jenny laughed and leaned back into
his
arms.
But
later, in the darkness of the curtained bed, the
memory
of Zyeme returned once more to her thoughts.
She saw
again the enchantress and Bond in the rosy aura
of the
nightlamp and felt the weight and strength of the
magic
that had filled the room like the silent build of
thunder.
Was it the magnitude of the power alone that
had
frightened her, she wondered. Or had it been some
sense
of filthiness that lay in it, like the back-taste of
souring
milk? Or had that, in its turn, been only the worm-
wood
other own jealousy of the younger woman's greater
arts?
John
had said that it didn't sound very like her, but
she
knew he was wrong. It was like her, like the part of
herself
she fought against, the fourteen-year-old girl still
buried
in her soul, weeping with exhausted, bitter rage
when
the rains summoned by her teacher would not dis-
perse
at her command. She had hated Caerdinn for being
stronger
than she. And although the long years of looking
after
the irascible old man had turned that hatred to affec-
tion,
she had never forgotten that she was capable of it.
Even,
she added ironically to herself, as she was capable
of
working the death-spells on a helpless man, as she had
on the
dying robber in the ruins of the town; even as she
was
capable of leaving a man and two children who loved
her,
because of her love of the quest for power.
Would I
have been able to understand what I saw tonight
if I
had given all my time, all my heart, to the study of
magic?
Would I have had power like that, mighty as a
storm
gathered into my two hands?
Through
the windows beyond the half-parted bedcur-
tains,
she could see the chill white eye of the moon. Its
light,
broken by the leading of the casement, lay scattered
like
the spangles of a fish's mail across the black and silver
satin
of the gown that she had worn and over the respect-
able
brown velvet suit that John had not. It touched the
bed and
picked out the scars that crossed John's bare
arm,
glimmered on the upturned palm of his hand, and
outlined
the shape of his nose and lips against the dark-
ness.
Her vision in the water bowl returned to her again,
an icy
shadow on her heart.
Would
she be able to save him, she wondered, if she
were
more powerful? If she had given her time to her
powers
wholly, instead of portioning it between them and
him?
Was that, ultimately, what she had cast unknowingly
away?
Somewhere
in the night a hinge creaked. Stilling her
breathing
to listen, she heard the almost soundless pat of
bare
feet outside her door and the muffled vibration of a
shoulder
blundering into the wall.
She
slid from beneath the silken quilts and pulled on
her
shift. Over it she wrapped the first garment she laid
hands
on, John's voluminous plaids, and swiftly crossed
the
blackness of the room to open the door.
"Gar?"
He was
standing a few feet from her, gawky and very
boyish-looking
in his long nightshirt. His gray eyes stared
out
straight ahead of him, without benefit of spectacles,
and his
thin hair was flattened and tangled from the pillow.
He
gasped at the sound of her voice and almost fell, grop-
ing for
the wall's support. She realized then that she had
waked
him.
"Gar,
it's me, Jenny. Are you all right?"
His
breathing was fast with shock. She put her hand
gently
on his arm to steady him, and he blinked myop-
ically
down at her for a moment. Then he drew a long
breath.
"Fine," he said shakily. "I'm fine, Jenny. I..."
He
looked around him and ran an unsteady hand through
his
hair. "I-I must have been walking in my sleep again."
"Do
you often?"
He
nodded and rubbed his face. "That is... I didn't in
the
north, but I do sometimes here. It's just that I
dreamed..."
He paused, frowning, trying to recall.
"Zyeme..."
"Zyeme?"
Sudden
color flooded his pallid face. "Nothing," he
mumbled,
and avoided her eyes. "That is-I don't
remember."
After
she had seen him safely back to the dark doorway
of his
room. Jenny stood for a moment in the hall, hearing
the
small sounds ofbedcurtains and sheets as he returned
to his
rest. How late it was, she could not guess. The
hunting
lodge was deathly silent about her, the smells of
long-dead
candles, spilled wine, and the frowsty residue
of
spent passions now flat and stale. All the length of the
corridor,
every room was dark save one, whose door stood
ajar.
The dim glow of a single nightlamp shone within,
and its
light lay across the silky parquet of the floor like
a
dropped scarf of luminous gold.
CHAPTER
VI
"HE'LL
HAVE TO listen to you." Gareth perched him-
self in
the embrasure of one of the tall windows that ran
the
length of the southern wall of the King's Gallery, the
wan
sunlight shimmering with moony radiance in the old-
fashioned
jewels he wore. "I've just heard that the dragon
destroyed
the convoy taking supplies out to the siege
troops
at Halnath last night. Over a thousand pounds of
flour
and sugar and meat destroyed-horses and oxen
dead or
scattered-the bodies of the guards burned past
recognition."
He
nervously adjusted the elaborate folds of his cer-
emonial
mantlings and peered shortsightedly at John and
Jenny,
who shared a carved bench of ebony inlaid with
malachite.
Due to the exigencies of court etiquette, formal
costume
had been petrified into a fashion a hundred and
fifty
years out of date, with the result that all the courtiers
and
petitioners assembled in the long room had the stilted,
costumed
look of characters in a masquerade. Jenny
noticed
that John, though he might persist in playing the
barbarian
in his leather and plaids among the admiring
younger
courtiers, was not about to do so in the presence
of the
King. Gareth had draped John's blue-and-cream
satin
mantlings for him-a valet's job. Bond Cleriock had
offered
to do it but. Jenny gathered, there were rigid sar-
torial
rules governing such matters; it would have been
very
like Bond to arrange the elaborate garment in some
ridiculous
style, knowing the Dragonsbane was unable to
tell
the difference.
Bond
was present among the courtiers who awaited
the
arrival of the King. Jenny could see him, further down
the
King's Gallery, standing in one of the slanting bars of
pale,
platinum light. As usual, his costume outshone every
other
man's present; his mantlings were a miracle of com-
plex
folds and studied elegance, so thick with embroidery
that
they glittered like a snake's back; his flowing sleeves,
six
generations out of date, were precise to a quarter-inch
in
their length and hang. He had even painted his face in
the
archaic formal fashion, which some of the courtiers
did in
preference to the modem applications of kohl and
rouge-John
had flatly refused to have anything to do
with
either style. The colors accentuated the pallor of
young
Clerlock's face, though he looked better. Jenny
noted,
than he had yesterday on the ride from Zyeme's
hunting
lodge to Bel-less drawn and exhausted.
He was
looking about him now with nervous anxiety,
searching
for someone-probably Zyeme. In spite of how
ill he
had seemed yesterday, he had been her most faithful
attendant,
riding at her side and holding her whip, her
pomander
ball, and the reins of her palfrey when she
dismounted.
Small thanks. Jenny thought, he had gotten
for it.
Zyeme had spent the day flirting with the unre-
sponsive
Gareth.
It was
not that Gareth was immune to her charms. As
a
nonparticipant. Jenny had an odd sense of unobserved
leisure,
as if she were watching squirrels from a blind.
Unnoticed
by the courtiers, she could see that Zyeme
was
deliberately teasing Gareth's senses with every touch
and
smile. Do the magebom love? he had asked her once,
back in
the bleak Winterlands. Evidently he had come to
his own
conclusions about whether Zyeme loved him, or
he her.
But Jenny knew full well that love and desire were
two
different things, particularly to a boy of eighteen.
Under
her innocently minxish airs, Zyeme was a woman
skilled
at manipulating the passions' of men.
Wry?
Jenny wondered, looking up at the boy's awk-
ward
profile against the soft cobalt shadows of the gallery.
For the
amusement of seeing him struggle not to betray
his
father? Somehow to use his guilt to control him so
that
one day she could turn the King against him by crying
rape?
A stir
ran the length of the gallery, like wind in dry
wheat.
At the far end, voices murmured, "The King! The
King!"
Gareth scrambled to his feet and hastily checked
the
folds of his mantlings again. John rose, pushing his
anachronistic
specs a little more firmly up on the bridge
of his
nose. Taking Jenny's hand, he followed more slowly,
as
Gareth hurried toward the line of courtiers that was
forming
up in the center of the hall.
At the
far end, bronze doors swung inward. The Cham-
berlain
Badegamus stepped through, stout, pink, and
elderly,
emblazoned in a livery of crimson and gold that
smote
the eye with its splendor. "My lords, my ladies-
the
King."
Her arm
against Gareth's in the press. Jenny was aware
of the
boy's shudder of nervousness. He had, after all,
stolen
his father's seal and disobeyed his orders-and he
was no
longer as blithely unaware of the consequences
of his
actions as the characters of most ballads seemed
to be.
She felt him poised, ready to step forward and
execute
the proper salaam, as others down the rank were
already
doing, and receive his father's acknowledgment
and
invitation to a private interview.
The
King's head loomed above all others, taller even
than
his son; Jenny could see that his hair was as fair as
Gareth's
but much thicker, a warm barley-gold that was
beginning
to fade to the color of straw. Like the steady
murmuring
of waves on the shore, voices repeated "My
lord...
my lord..."
Her
mind returned briefly to the Winterlands. She sup-
posed
she should have felt resentment for the Kings who
had withdrawn
their troops and left the lands to ruin, or
awe at
finally seeing the source of the King's law that
John
was ready to die to uphold. But she felt neither,
knowing
that this man, Uriens of Bel, had had nothing to
do with
either withdrawing those troops or making the
Law,
but was merely the heir of the men who had. Like
Gareth
before he had traveled to the Winterlands, he
undoubtedly
had no more notion of those things than what
he had
learned from his tutors and promptly forgotten.
As he
approached, nodding to this woman or that man,
signing
that he would speak to them in private, Jenny felt
a vast
sense of distance from this tall man in his regal
crimson
robes. Her only allegiance was to the Winterlands
and to
the individuals who dwelt there, to people and a
land
she knew. It was John who felt the ancient bond of
fealty;
John who had sworn to this man his allegiance,
his
sword, and his life.
Nevertheless,
she felt the tension as the King
approached
them, tangible as a color in the air. Covert
eyes
were on them, the younger courtiers watching, wait-
ing to
see the reunion between the King and his errant
son.
Gareth
stepped forward, the oak-leaf-cut end of his
mantlings
gathered like a cloak between the second and
third
fingers of his right hand. With surprising grace, he
bent
his long, gangly frame into a perfect Sarmendes-in-
Splendor
salaam, such as only the Heir could make, and
then
only to the monarch. "My lord."
King
Uriens II of Belmarie, Suzerain of the Marches,
High
Lord ofWyr, Nast, and the Seven Islands, regarded
his son
for a moment out of hollow and colorless eyes set
deep
within a haggard, brittle face. Then, without a word,
he
turned away to acknowledge the next petitioner.
The
silence in the gallery would have blistered the paint
from
wood. Like black poison dumped into clear water,
it
spread to the farthest ends of the room. The last few
petitioners'
voices were audible through it, clearer and
clearer,
as if they shouted; the closing of the gilded bronze
doors
as the King passed on into his audience room
sounded
like the booming of thunder. Jenny was con-
scious
of the eyes of all the room looking anywhere but
at
them, then sliding back in surreptitious glances, and of
Gareth's
face, as white as his collar lace.
A soft
voice behind them said, "Please don't be angry
with
him, Gareth."
Zyeme
stood there, in plum-colored silk so dark it was
nearly
black, with knots of pink-tinted cream upon her
trailing
sleeves. Her mead-colored eyes were troubled.
"You
did take his seal, you know, and depart without his
permission."
John
spoke up. "Bit of an expensive slap on the wrist,
though,
isn't it? I mean, there the dragon is and all, while
we're
here waiting for leave to go after it."
Zyeme's
lips tightened a little, then smoothed. At the
near
end of the King's Gallery, a small door in the great
ones
opened, and the Chamberlain Badegamus appeared,
quietly
summoning the first of the petitioners whom the
King
had acknowledged.
"There
really is no danger to us here, you know. The
dragon
has been confining his depredations to the farm-
steads
along the feet of Nast Wall."
"Ah,"
John said comprehendingly. "That makes it all
right,
then. And is this what you've told the people of
those
farmsteads to which, as you say, the dragon's been
confining
his depredations?"
The
flash of anger in her eyes was stronger then, as if
no one
had ever spoken to her so-or at least, thought
Jenny,
observing silently from John's side, not for a long
time.
With visible effort, Zyeme controlled herself and
said
with an air of one reproving a child, "You must under-
stand.
There are many more pressing concerns facing the
King..."
"More
pressing than a dragon sitting on his doorstep?"
demanded
Gareth, outraged.
She
burst into a sweet gurgle of laughter. "There's no
need to
enact a Dockmarket drama over it, you know.
I've
told you before, darling, it isn't worth the wrinkles
it will
give you."
He
pulled his head back from her playful touch.
"Wrinkles!
We're talking about people being killed!"
"Tut,
Gareth," Bond Clerlock drawled, strolling
languidly
over to them. "You're getting as bad as old
Polycarp
used to be."
Under
the paint, his face looked even more washed-
out
next to Zyeme's sparkling radiance. With a forced
effort
at his old lightness, he went on, "You shouldn't
grudge-those
poor farmers the only spice in their dull little
lives."
"Spice..."
Gareth began, and Zyeme squeezed his
hand
chidingly.
"Don't
tell me you're going to go all dull and altruistic
on us.
What a bore that would be." She smiled. "And I
will
tell you this," she added more soberly. "Don't do
anything
that would further anger your father. Be patient-
and try
to understand."
Halfway
down the long gallery, the Chamberlain Bad-
egamus
was returning, passing the small group of gnomes
who
sat, an island of isolation, in the shadow of one of
the
fluted ornamental arches along the east wall. As the
Chamberlain
walked by, one of them rose in a silken whis-
per of
flowing, alien robes, the cloudy wisps of his milk-
white
hair floating around his slumped back. Gareth had
pointed
him out to Jenny earlier-Azwylcartusherands,
called
Dromar by the folk of men who had little patience
with
the tongue of gnomes, longtime ambassador from the
Lord of
the Deep to the Court of Bel. Badegamus saw
him and
checked his stride, then glanced quickly at Zyeroe.
She
shook her head. Badegamus averted his face and
walked
past the gnomes without seeing them.
"They
grow impudent," the enchantress said softly.
"To
send envoys here, when they fight on the side of the
traitors
of Halnath."
"Well,
they can hardly help that, can they, if the back
way out
of the Deep leads into the Citadel," John remarked.
"They
could have opened the Citadel gates to let the
King's
troops in."
John
scratched the side of his long nose. "Well, being
a
barbarian and all, I wouldn't know how things are done
in
civilized lands," he said. "In the north, we've got a
word for
someone who'd do that to a man who gave him
shelter
when he was driven from his home."
For an
instant Zyeme was silent, her power and her
anger
seeming to crackle in the air. Then she burst into
another
peal of chiming laughter. "I swear, Dragonsbane,
you do
have a refreshingly naive way of looking at things.
You
make me feel positively ancient." She brushed a ten-
dril of
her hair aside from her cheek as she spoke; she
looked
as sweet and guileless as a girl of twenty. "Come.
Some of
us are going to slip away from this silliness and
go
riding along the sea cliffs. Will you come, Gareth?"
Her
hand stole into his in such a way that he could not
avoid
it without rudeness-Jenny could see his face color
slightly
at the touch. "And you, our barbarian? You know
the
King won't see you today."
"Be
that as it may," John said quietly. "I'll stay here
on the
off chance."
Bond
laughed tinnily. "There's the spirit that won the
Realm!"
"Aye,"
John agreed in a mild voice and returned to the
carved
bench where he and Jenny had been, secure in his
established
reputation for barbarous eccentricity.
Gareth
drew his hand from Zyeme's and sat down
nearby,
catching his mantlings in the lion's-head arm of
the
chair. "I think I'll stay as well," he said, with as much
dignity
as one could have while disentangling oneself from
the
furniture.
Bond
laughed again. "I think our Prince has been in
the
north too long!" Zyerne wrinkled her nose, as if at a
joke in
doubtful taste.
"Run
along, Bond." She smiled. "I must speak to the
King. I
shall join you presently." Gathering up her train,
she
moved off toward the bronze doors of the King's
antechamber,
the opals that spangled her veils giving the
impression
of dew flecking an apple blossom as she passed
the
pale bands of the windowlight. As she came near the
little
group of gnomes, old Dromar rose again and walked
toward
her with the air of one steeling himself for a loathed
but
necessary encounter. But she turned her glance from
him and
quickened her step, so that, to intercept her, he
would
have to run after her on his short, bandy legs. This
he
would not do, but stood looking after her for a moment,
smoldering
anger in his pale amber eyes.
"I
don't understand it," said Gareth, much later, as the
three
of them jostled their way along the narrow lanes of
the
crowded Dockmarket quarter. "She said Father was
angry,
yes-but he knew whom I'd be bringing with me.
And he
must have known about the dragon's latest attack."
He
hopped across the fish-smelling slime of the gutter to
avoid a
trio of sailors who'd come staggering out of one
of the
taverns that lined the cobbled street and nearly
tripped
over his own cloak.
When
Badegamus had announced to the nearly empty
gallery
that the King would see no one else that day, John
and
Jenny had taken the baffled and fuming Gareth back
with
them to the guest house they had been assigned in
one of
the outer courts of the Palace. There they had
changed
out of their borrowed court dress, and John had
announced
his intention of spending the remainder of the
afternoon
in the town, in quest of gnomes.
"Gnomes?"
Gareth said, surprised.
"Well,
if it hasn't occurred to anyone else, it has
occurred
to me that, if I'm to fight this drake, I'm going
to need
to know the layout of the caverns." With sur-
prising
deftness, he disentangled himself from the intri-
cate
crisscross folds of his mantlings, his head emerging
from
the double-faced satin like a tousled and unruly weed.
"And
since it didn't seem the thing to address them at
Court..."
"But
they're plotting!" Gareth protested. He paused
in his
search for a place to dump the handful of old-
fashioned
neck-chains and rings among the already-
accumulating
litter of books, harpoons, and the contents
of
Jenny's medical pouch on the table. "Speaking to them
at
Court would have been suicide! And besides, you're
not
going to fight him in the Deep, are you? I mean..."
He
barely stopped himself from the observation that in
all the
ballads the Dragonsbanes had slain their foes in
front
of their lairs, not in them.
"If
I fight him outside and he takes to the air, it's all
over,"
John returned, as if he were talking about back-
gammon
strategy. "And though it's crossed my mind we're
walking
through a morass of plots here, it's to no one's
advantage
to have the dragon stay in the Deep. The rest
of it's
all none of my business. Now, are you going to
guide
us, or do we go about the streets asking folk where
the
gnomes might be found?"
To
Jenny's surprise and probably a little to his own,
Gareth
offered his services as a guide.
"Tell
me about Zyerne, Gar," Jenny said now, thrusting
her
hands deep into her jacket pockets as she walked.
"Who
is she? Who was her teacher? What Line was she
in?"
"Teacher?"
Gareth had obviously never given the mat-
ter a
thought. "Line?"
"If
she is a mage, she must have been taught by some-
one."
Jenny glanced up at the tall boy towering beside
her,
while they detoured to avoid a gaggle of passersby
around
a couple of street-comer jugglers. Beyond them,
in a
fountain square, a fat man with the dark complexion
of a
southerner had set up a waffle stand, bellowing his
wares
amid clouds of steam that scented the raw, misty
air for
yards.
"There
are ten or twelve major Lines, named for the
mages
that founded them. There used to be more, but
some
have decayed and died. My own master Caerdinn,
and
therefore I and any other pupils of his, or of his
teacher
Spaeth, or Spaeth's other students, are all in the
Line of
Herne. To a mage, knowing that I am of the Line
of Heme
says-oh, a hundred things about my power
and my
attitude toward power, about the kinds of spells
that I
know, and about the kind that I will not use."
"Really?"
Gareth was fascinated. "I didn't know it was
anything
like that. I thought that magic was just some-
thing-well,
something you were born with."
"So
is the talent for art," Jenny said. "But without
proper
teaching, it never comes to fullest fruition; without
sufficient
time given to the study of magic, sufficient striv-
ing
..." She broke off, with an ironic smile at herself. "All
power
has to be paid for," she continued after a moment.
"And
all power must come from somewhere, have been
passed
along by someone."
It was
difficult for her to speak of her power; aside
from
the confusion of her heart about her own power,
there
was much in it that any not magebom simply did
not
understand. She had in all her life met only one who
did,
and he was presently over beside the waffle stand,
getting
powdered sugar on his plaids.
Jenny
sighed and came to a halt to wait for him at the
edge of
the square. The cobbles were slimy here with sea
air and
offal; the wind smelled offish and, as everywhere
in the
city of Del, of the intoxicating wildness of the sea.
This
square was typical of the hundreds that made up the
interlocking
warrens ofBel's Dockmarket, hemmed in on
three-and-a-half
sides by the towering, rickety tenements
and
dominated by the moldering stones of a slate-gray
clock
tower, at whose foot a neglected shrine housed the
battered
image of Quis, the enigmatic Lord of Time. In
the
center of the square bubbled a fountain in a wide basin
of
chip-edged granite, the stones of its rim worn smooth
and
white above and clotted beneath with the black-green
moss
that seemed to grow everywhere in the damp air of
the
city. Women were dipping water there and gossiping,
their
skirts hiked up almost to their thighs but their heads
modestly
covered in clumsy wool veils tied in knots under
their
hair to keep them out of the way.
In the
mazes of stucco and garish color of the Dock-
market,
John's outlandishness hadn't drawn much notice.
The
sloping, cobbled streets were crowded with sojoum-
ers from
three-fourths of the Realm and all the Southern
Lands:
sailors with shorn heads and beards like coconut
husks;
peddlers from the garden province of Istmark in
their
old-fashioned, bundly clothes, the men as well as
the
women wearing veils; moneychangers in the black
gabardine
and skullcaps that marked them out as the Wan-
derer's
Children, forbidden to own land; whores painted
to
within an inch of their lives; and actors, jugglers, scarf
sellers,
rat killers, pickpockets, cripples, and tramps. A
few
women cast looks of dismissive scorn at Jenny's
uncovered
head, and she was annoyed at the anger she
felt at
them.
She
asked, "How much do you know about Zyeme?
What
was she apprenticed as in the Deep?"
Gareth
shrugged. "I don't know. My guess would be
in the
Places of Healing. That was where the greatest
power
of the Deep was supposed to lie-among their
healers.
People used to journey for days to be tended
there,
and I know most of the mages were connected with
them."
Jenny
nodded. Even in the isolated north, among the
children
of men who knew virtually nothing of the ways
of the
gnomes, Caerdinn had spoken with awe of the
power
that dwelled within the Places of Healing in the
heart
of the Deep of Ylferdun.
Across
the square, a religious procession came into
view,
the priests of Kantirith, Lord of the Sea, walking
with
their heads muffled in their ceremonial hoods, lest
an
unclean sight distract them, the ritual wailing of the
flutes
all but drowning out their murmured chants. Like
all the
ceremonials of the Twelve Gods, both the words
and the
music of the flutes had been handed down by rote
from
ancient days; the words were unintelligible, the music
like
nothing Jenny had heard at Court or elsewhere.
"And
when did Zyeme come to Bel?" she asked Gar-
eth, as
the muttering train filed past.
The
muscles of the boy's jaw tightened. "After my
mother
died," he said colorlessly. "I-I suppose I shouldn't
have
been angry at Father about it. At the time I didn't
understand
the way Zyeme can draw people, sometimes
against
their will." He concentrated his attention upon
smoothing
the ruffles of his sleeve for some moments,
then
sighed. "I suppose he needed someone. I wasn't
particularly
good to him about Mother's death."
Jenny
said nothing, giving him room to speak or hold
his
peace. From the other end of the square, another
religious
procession made its appearance, one of the
southern
cults that spawned in the Dockmarket like rab-
bits;
dark-complexioned men and women were clapping
their
hands and singing, while skinny, androgynous priests
swung
their waist-length hair and danced for the little idol
borne
in their midst in a carrying shrine of cheap, pink
chintz.
The priests of Kantiritfc seemed to huddle a little
more
closely in their protecting hoods, and the wailing of
the
flutes increased. Gareth spared the newcomers a dis-
approving
glance, and Jenny remembered that the King
of Bel
was also Pontifex Maximus of the official cult;
Gareth
had no doubt been brought up in the most careful
orthodoxy.
But the
din gave them the illusion of privacy. For all
any of
the crowd around them cared, they might have
been
alone; and after a time Gareth spoke again.
"It
was a hunting accident," he explained. "Father and
I both
hunt, although Father hasn't done so lately. Mother
hated
it, but she loved my father and would go with him
when he
asked her to. He teased her about it, and made
little
jokes about her cowardice-but he wasn't really
joking.
He can't stand cowards. She'd follow him over
terrible
country, clinging to her sidesaddle and staying up
with
the hunt; after it was over, he'd hug her and laugh
and ask
her if it wasn't worth it that she'd plucked up her
courage-that
sort of thing. She did it for as long as I
can
remember. She used to lie and tell him she was starting
to leam
to enjoy it; but when I was about four, I remember
her in
her hunting habit-it was peach-colored velvet with
gray
fur, I remember-just before going out, throwing up
because
she was so frightened."
"She
rounds like a brave lady," Jenny said quietly.
Gareth's
glance flicked up to her face, then away again.
"It
wasn't really Father's fault," he went on after a moment.
"But
when it finally did happen, he felt that it was. The
horse
came down with her over some rocks-in a side-
saddle
you can't fall clear. She died four or five days later.
That
was five years ago. I-" He hesitated, the words
sticking
in his throat. "I wasn't very good to him about
it."
He adjusted
his specs in an awkward and unconvincing
cover
for wiping his eyes on his sleeve ruffle. "Now that
I look
back on it, I think, if she'd been braver, she'd
probably
have had the courage to tell him she didn't want
to
go-the courage to risk his mockery. Maybe that's
where I
get it," he added, with the shy flash of a grin.
"Maybe
I should have seen that I couldn't possibly blame
him as
much as he blamed himself-that I didn't say
anything
to him that he hadn't already thought." He
shrugged
his bony shoulders. "I understand now. But when
I was
thirteen, I didn't. And by the time I did understand,
it had
been too long to say anything to him. And by that
time,
there was Zyeme."
The
priests of Kantirith wound their way out of sight
up a
crooked lane between the drunken lean of crazy
buildings.
Children who had stopped to gawk after the
procession
took up their games once more; John resumed
his
cautious way across the moss-edged, herringbone pat-
tern of
the wet cobbles toward them, stopping every few
paces
to stare at some new marvel-a chair-mender pur-
suing
his trade on the curbstone, or the actors within a
cheap
theater gesticulating wildly while a crier outside
shouted
tidbits of the plot to the passersby around the
door.
He would never, Jenny reflected with rueful amuse-
ment,
leam to comport himself like the hero of legend
that he
was.
"It
must have been hard for you," she said.
Gareth
sighed. "It was easier a few years ago," he
admitted.
"I could hate her cleanly then. Later, for a while
I-I
couldn't even do that." He blushed again. "And
now..."
A
commotion in the square flared suddenly, like the
noise
of a dogfight; a woman's jeering voice yelled,
"Whore!"
and Jenny's head snapped around.
But it
was not she and her lack of veils that was the
target.
A little gnome woman, her soft mane of hair like
an
apricot cloud in the wan sunlight, was making her
hesitant
way toward the fountain. Her black silk trousers
were
hitched up over her knees to keep them out of the
puddles
in the broken pavement, and her white tunic, with
its
flowing embroideries and carefully mended sleeves,
proclaimed
that she was living in poverty alien to her
upbringing.
She paused, peering around her with a painful
squint
in the too-bright daylight; then her steps resumed
in the
direction of the fountain, her tiny, round hands
clutching
nervously at the handle of the bucket that she
inexpertly
bore.
Somebody
else shouted, "Come slumming, have we,
m'lady?
Tired of sitting up there on all that grain you got
hid?
Too cheap to hire servants?"
The
woman stopped again, swinging her head from side
to side
as if seeking her tormentors, half-blind in the out-
door
glare. Someone caught her with a dog turd on the
arm.
She hopped, startled, and her narrow feet in their
soft
leather shoes skidded on the wet, uneven stones. She
dropped
the bucket as she fell, and groped about for it
on
hands and knees. One of the women by the fountain,
with
the grinning approbation of her neighbors, sprang
down to
kick it beyond her reach.
"That'll
leam you to hoard the bread you've bought
out of
honest folks' mouths!"
The
gnome made a hasty scrabble around her. A faded,
fat
woman who'd been holding forth the loudest in the
gossip
around the fountain kicked the pail a little further
from
the searching hands.
"And
to plot against the King!"
The
gnome woman raised herself to her knees, peering
about
her, and one of the children darted out of the gath-
ering
crowd behind her and pulled the long wisps of her
hair.
She spun around, clutching, but the boy had gone.
Another
took up the game and sprang nimbly out to do
the
same, too engrossed in the prospect of fun to notice
John.
At the
first sign of trouble, the Dragonsbane had turned
to the
man next to him, a blue-tattooed easterner in a
metalsmith's
leather apron and not much else, and handed
him the
three waffles he held stacked in his hands. "Would
you
ever hold these?" Then he made his way unhurriedly
through
the press, with a courteous string of "Excuse me
...
pardon..." in time to catch the second boy who'd
jumped
out to take up the baiting where the first had begun
it.
Gareth
could have told them what to expect-Zyeme's
courtiers
weren't the only ones deceived by John's
appearance
of harmless friendliness. The bully, caught
completely
offguard from behind, didn't even have time
to
shriek before he hit the waters of the fountain. A huge
splash
doused every woman on the steps and most of the
surrounding
idlers. As the boy surfaced, spitting and gasp-
ing,
Aversin turned from picking up the bucket and said
in a
friendly tone, "Your manners are as filthy as your
clothes-I'm
surprised your mother lets you out like that.
They'll
be a bit cleaner now, won't they?"
He
dipped the bucket full and turned back to the man
who was
holding his waffles. For an instant Jenny thought
the
smith would throw them into the fountain, but John
only
smiled at him, bright as the sun on a knifeblade, and
sullenly
the man put the waffles into his free hand. In the
back of
the crowd a woman sneered, "Gnome lover!"
"Thanks."
John smiled, still at his brass-faced friend-
liest.
"Sorry I threw offal in the fountain and all." Bal-
ancing
the waffles in his hand, he descended the few steps
and
walked beside the little gnome woman across the
square
toward the mouth of the alley whence she had
come.
Jenny, hurrying after him with Gareth at her heels,
noticed
that none followed them too closely.
"John,
you are incorrigible," she said severely. "Are
you all
right?" This last was addressed to the gnome, who
was
hastening along on her short, bowed legs, clinging to
the
Dragonsbane's shadow for protection.
She
peered up at Jenny with teeble, colorless eyes.
"Oh,
yes. My thanks. I had never-always we went out
to the
fountain at night, or sent the girl who worked for
us, if
we needed water during the day. Only she left." The
wide
mouth pinched up on the words, at the taste of some
unpleasant
memory.
"I
bet she did, if she was like that lot," John remarked,
jerking
his thumb back toward the square. Behind them,
the
crowd trailed menacingly, yelling, "Traitors! Hoard-
ers !
Ingrates!" and fouler things besides. Somebody threw
a fish
head that fucked off Jenny's skirts and shouted
something
about an old whore and her two pretty-boys;
Jenny
felt the bristles of rage rise along her spine. Others
took up
this theme. She felt angry enough to curse them,
but in
her heart she knew that she could lay no greater
curse
upon them than to be what they already were.
"Have
a waffle?" John offered disanningly, and the
gnome
lady took the preferred confection with hands that
shook.
Gareth,
carmine with embarrassment, said nothing.
Around
a mouthful of sugar, John said, "Gie lucky for
us
fruit and vegies are a bit too dear these days to fling,
isn't
it? Here?"
The
gnome ducked her head quickly as she entered the
shadows
of a doorway to a huge, crumbling house wedged
between
two five-storey tenements, its rear wall dropping
straight
to the dank brown waters of a stagnant canal.
The
windows were tightly shuttered, and the crumbling
stucco
was written over with illiterate and filthy scrawls,
splattered
with mud and dung. From every shutter Jenny
could
sense small, weak eyes peering down in apprehen-
sion.
The
door was opened from within, the gnome taking
her
bucket and popping through like a frightened mole
into
its hill. John put a quick hand on the rotting panels
to keep
them from being shut in his face, then braced with
all his
strength. The doorkeeper was determined and had
the
prodigious muscles of the gnomes.
"Wait!"
John pleaded, as his feet skidded on the wet
marble
of the step. "Listen! I need your help! My name's
John
Aversin-I've come from the north to see about this
dragon
of yours, but I can't do it without your aid." He
wedged
his shoulder into the narrow slit that was all that
was
left. "Please."
The
pressure on the other side of the door was released
so
suddenly that he staggered inward under his own
momentum.
From the darkness beyond a soft, high voice
like a
child's said in the archaic High Speech that the
gnomes
used at Court, "Come in, thou others. It does
thee no
good to be thus seen at the door of the house of
the
gnomes."
As they
stepped inside, John and Gareth blinked against
the
dimness, but Jenny, with her wizard's sight, saw at
once
that the gnome who had admitted them was old
Dromar,
ambassador to the court of the King.
Beyond
him, the lower hall of the house stretched in
dense
shadow. It had once been grand in the severe style
of a
hundred years ago-the old manor, she guessed,
upon
whose walled grounds the crowded, stinking tene-
ments
of the neighborhood had later been erected. In
places,
rotting frescoes were still dimly visible on the
stained
walls; and the vastness of the hall spoke of gra-
cious
furniture now long since chopped up for firewood
and of
an aristocratic carelessness about the cost of heat-
ing
fuel. The place was like a cave now, tenebrous and
damp,
its boarded windows letting in only a few chinks
of
watery light to outline stumpy pillars and the dry mosa-
ics of
the impluvium. Above the sweeping curve of the
old-fashioned,
open stair she saw movement in the gallery.
It was
crowded with gnomes, watching warily these
intruders
from the hostile world of men.
In the
gloom, the soft, childlike voice said, "Thy name
is not
unknown among us, John Aversin."
"Well,
that makes it easier," John admitted, dusting off
his
hands and looking down at the round head of the
gnome
who stood before him and into sharp, pale eyes
under
the flowing mane of snowy hair. "Be a bit awkward
if I
had to explain it all, though I imagine Gar here could
sing
you the ballads."
A
slight smile tugged at the gnome's mouth-the first,
Jenny
suspected, in a long time-as he studied the incon-
gruous,
bespectacled reality behind the glitter of the leg-
ends.
"Thou art the first," he remarked, ushering them
into
the huge, chilly cavern of the room, his mended silk
robes
whispering as he moved. "How many hast thy father
sent
out. Prince Gareth? Fifteen? Twenty? And none of
them
came here, nor asked any of the gnomes what they
might
know of the dragon's coming-we, who saw it best."
Gareth
looked disconcerted. "Er-that is-the wrath
of the
King..."
"And
whose fault was that. Heir ofUriens, when rumor
had
been noised abroad that we had made an end of thee?"
There
was an uncomfortable silence as Gareth red-
dened
under that cool, haughty gaze. Then he bent his
head
and said in a stifled voice, "I am sorry, Dromar. I
never
thought of-of what might be said, or who would
take
the blame for it, if I disappeared. Truly I didn't know.
I
behaved rashly-I seem to have behaved rashly all the
way
around."
The old
gnome sniffed. "Soi" He folded his small hands
before
the complicated knot of his sash, his gold eyes
studying
Gareth in silence for a time. Then he nodded,
and
said, "Well, better it is that thou fall over thine own
feet in
the doing of good than sit upon thy hands and let
it go
undone, Gareth ofMagloshaldon. Another time thou
shalt
do better." He turned away, gesturing toward the
inner
end of the shadowed room, where a blackwood table
could
be distinguished in the gloom, no more than a foot
high,
surrounded by burst and patched cushions set on
the
floor in the fashion of the gnomes. "Come. Sit. What
is it
that thou wish to know, Dragonsbane, of the coming
of the
dragon to the Deep?"
"The
size of the thing," John said promptly, as they all
settled
on their knees around the table. "I've only heard
rumor
and story-has anybody got a good, concrete mea-
surement?"
From
beside Jenny, the high, soft voice of the gnome
woman
piped, "The top of his haunch lies level with the
frieze
carved above the pillars on either side of the door-
way
arch, which leads from the Market Hall into the Grand
Passage
into the Deep itself. That is twelve feet, by the
measurements
of men."
There
was a moment's silence, as Jenny digested the
meaning
of that piece of information. Then she said, "If
the
proportions are the same, that makes it nearly forty
feet."
"Aye,"
Dromar said. "The Market Hall-the first cav-
ern of
the Deep, that lies just behind the Great Gates that
lead
into the outer world-is one hundred and fifty feet
from
the Gates to the inner doors of the Grand Passage
at the
rear. The dragon was nearly a third of that length."
John
folded his hands on the table before him. Though
his
face remained expressionless. Jenny detected the slight
quickening
of his breath. Forty feet was half again the
size of
the dragon that had come so close to killing him
in Wyr,
with all the dark windings of the Deep in which
to
hide.
"D'you
have a map of the Deep?"
The old
gnome looked affronted, as if he had inquired
about
the cost of a night with his daughter. Then his face
darkened
with stubborn anger. "That knowledge is for-
bidden
to the children of men."
Patiently,
John said, "After all that's been done you
here, I
don't blame you for not wanting to give out the
secrets
of the Deep; but I need to know. I can't take the
thing
from the front. I can't fight something that big head-
on. I
need to have some idea where it will be lairing."
"It
will be lairing in the Temple of Sarmendes, on the
first
level of the Deep." Dromar spoke grudgingly, his
pale
eyes narrow with the age-old suspicion of a smaller,
weaker
race that had been driven underground millennia
ago by
its long-legged and bloodthirsty cousins. "It lies
just off
the Grand Passage that runs back from the Gates.
The
Lord of Light was beloved by the men who dwelt
within
the Deep-the King's ambassadors and then-
households,
and those who had been apprenticed among
our
people. His Temple is close to the surface, for the
folk of
men do not like to penetrate too far into the bones
of the
Earth. The weight of the stone unnerves them; they
find
the darkness disquieting. The dragon will lie there.
There
he will bring his gold."
"Is
there a back way into it?" John asked. "Through
the
priests' quarters or the treasuries?"
Dromar
said, "No," but the little gnome woman said,
"Yes,
but thou would never find it, Dragonsbane."
"By
the Stone!" The old gnome whirled upon her, smol-
dering
rage in his eyes. "Be silent, Mab! The secrets of
the
Deep are not for his kind!" He looked viciously at
Jenny
and added, "Nor for hers."
John
held up his hand for silence. "Why wouldn't I
find
it?"
Mab
shook her head. From beneath a heavy brow, her
round,
almost colorless blue eyes peered up at him, kindly
and a
little sad. "The ways lead through the warrens,"
she
said simply. "The caverns and tunnels there are a
maze
that we who dwell there can learn, in twelve or
fourteen
years of childhood. But even were we to tell thee
the
turnings thou must take, one false step would con-
demn
thee to a death by starvation and to the madness
that
falls upon men in the darkness under the earth. We
filled
the mazes with lamps, but those lamps are quenched
now."
"Can
you draw me a map, then?" And, when the two
gnomes
only looked at him with stubborn secrets in their
eyes,
he said, "Dammit, I can't do it without your help!
I'm
sorry it has to be this way, but it's trust me or lose
the
Deep forever; and those are your only choices!"
Dromar's
long, outward-curling eyebrows sank lower
over
the stub of his nose. "So be it, then," he said.
But
Miss Mab turned resignedly and began to rise. The
ambassador's
eyes blazed. "No! By the Stone, is it not
enough
that the children of men seek to steal the secrets
of the
Deep? Must thou give them up freely?"
"Tut,"
Mab said with a wrinkled smile. "This Dragons-
bane
will have problems enow from the dragon, without
going
seeking in the darkness for others."
"A
map that is drawn may be stolen!" Dromar insisted.
"By
the Stone that lies in the heart of the Deep..."
Mab got
comfortably to her feet, shaking out her patched
silken
garments, and pottered over to the scroll-rack that
filled
one comer of the dim hall. She returned with a reed
pen and
several sheets of tattered papyrus paper in her
hand.
"Those whom you fear would steal it know the way
to the
heart of the Deep already," she pointed out gently.
"If
this barbarian knight has ridden all the way from the
Winterlands
to be our champion, it would be paltry not
to
offer him a shield."
"And
her?" Dromar jabbed one stumpy finger, laden
with
old-fashioned, smooth-polished gems, at Jenny. "She
is a
witch. What surety have we that she will not go
snooping
and spying, delving out our secrets, turning them
against
us, defiling them, poisoning them, as others have
done?"
The
gnome woman frowned down at Jenny for a
moment,
her wide mouth pursed up with thought. Then
she
knelt beside her again and pushed the writing things
across
the table at Dromar. "There," she said. "Thou may
draw
the maps, and put upon them what thou will, and
leave
from them what thou will."
"And
the witch?" There was suspicion and hatred in
his
voice, and Jenny reflected that she was getting very
tired
of being mistaken for Zyeme.
"Ah,"
said Miss Mab, and reaching out, took Jenny's
small,
scratched, boyish brown hands in her own. For a
long
moment she looked into her eyes. As if the small,
cold
fingers clasping hers stirred at the jewel heap of her
dreams,
Jenny felt the gnome woman's mind probing at
her
thoughts, as she had probed at Gareth's, seeking to
see the
shape of her essence. She realized that Miss Mab
was a
mage, like herself.
Reflex
made her stiffen. But Mab smiled gently and
held
out to her the depths of her own mind and soul-
gentle
and clear as water, and stubborn as water, too,
containing
none of the bitterness, resentments, and doubts
that
Jenny knew clotted the comers of her own heart.
She
relaxed, feeling as ashamed as if she had struck out
at an
inquiry kindly made, and felt some other own angers
dissolving
under that wise scrutiny. She felt the other
woman's
power, much greater than her own, but gentle
and
warm as sunlight.
When
Miss Mab spoke, it was not to Dromar, but to
her.
"Thou art afraid for him," she said softly. "And per-
haps
thou should be." She put out one round little hand,
to pat
Jenny's hair. "But remember that the dragon is not
the
greatest of evils in this land, nor is death the worst
that
can befall; neither for him, nor for thee."
CHAPTER
VII
IN THE
WEEK that followed. Jenny returned many times
to the
crumbling house in the Dockmarket. Twice John
accompanied
her, but John, for the most part, spent his
days in
the King's Gallery with Gareth, waiting for a sign
from
the King. His evenings he spent with the wild young
courtiers
who surrounded Zyeme, playing dancing bear,
as he
called it, and dealing as best he could with the slow
torture
of waiting for a combat that could cost his life.
Being
John, he did not speak of it, but Jenny felt it when
they
made love and in his silences when they were alone
together,
this gradual twisting of the nerves that was driv-
ing him
nearly mad.
She
herself avoided the Court for the most part and
spent
her days in the city or in the house of the gnomes.
She
went there quietly, wrapped in spells to conceal her
from
the folk in the streets, for, as the days ground by,
she
could feel the ugly miasma of hate and fear spreading
through
the streets like poisoned fog. On her way through
the
Dockmarket quarter, she would pass the big taverns-
the
Lame Ox, the Gallant Rat, the Sheep in the Mire-
where
the unemployed men and women who had come
in off
the ruined farms gathered daily, hoping for a few
hours'
hire. Those in need of cheap labor knew to go
there
to find people who would move furniture or clean
out
stables for a few coppers; but with the winter storms
making
the shipping scarce and the high price of bread
taking
all the spare funds to be had, there were few enough
who
could afford to pay even that. None of the gnomes
still
living in the city-and there were many of them, in
spite
of the hardships-dared go by the Sheep in the Mire
after
noontime, for by that hour those within would have
given
up hope of work that day and would be concen-
trating
what little energy they had on getting drunk.
So
Jenny moved in her shadowy secrets, as she had
moved
through the lawless Winterlands, to visit the Lady
Taseldwyn,
who was called Miss Mab in the language of
men.
From
the first, she had been aware that the gnome
woman
was a more powerful mage than she. But, rather
than
jealousy and resentment, she felt only gladness that
she had
found someone to teach her after all those years.
In most
things, Mab was a willing teacher, though the
shape
of the gnomes' wizardry was strange to Jenny, alien,
as
their minds were alien. They had no Lines, but seemed
to
transmit their power and knowledge whole from gen-
eration
to generation of mages in some fashion that Jenny
did not
understand. Mab told her of the healing spells for
which
the Deep was famous, of the drugs now sequestered
there,
lost to them as surely as the dragon's gold was lost,
of the
spells that could hold the soul, the essence of life,
to the
flesh, or of the more dangerous spells by which the
life-essence
of one person could be drawn to strengthen
the
crumbling life of another. The gnome woman taught
her
other spells of the magic underground-spells of crys-
tal and
stone and spiraling darkness, whose meaning Jenny
could
only dimly comprehend. These she could only mem-
orize
by rote, hoping that with later meditation, skill and
understanding
would come. Mab spoke also to her of the
secrets
of the earth, the movement of water, and how
stones
thought; and she spoke of the dark realms of the
Deep
itself, cavern beneath cavern in endless succession
of
hidden glories that had never seen light.
Once,
she spoke of Zyeme.
"Aye,
she was apprenticed among us Healers." She
sighed,
putting aside the three-stringed dulcimer upon
which
she had been outlining to Jenny the song-spells of
their
craft. "She was a vain little girl, vain and spoiled.
She had
her talent for mockery even then-she would
listen
to the Old Ones among us, the great Healers, who
had
more power at their command than she could ever
dream
of, nodding that sleek little head others in respect,
and
then go and imitate their voices to her friends in
Deeping."
Jenny
remembered the silvery chime of the sorceress's
laughter
at dinner and the way she had hurried her steps
to make
Dromar run after her if he would speak.
It was
early evening. For all its cold, the great hall of
the
gnomes' house was stuffy, the air stagnant beneath
its
massive arches and along the faded pavement of its
checkered
corridors. The noises of the streets had fallen
to
their dinnertime lull, save for the chiming of the clock
towers
all over the city and one lone kindling-peddler
crying
his wares.
Mab
shook her head, her voice low with remembrance
of
times past. "She was greedy for secrets, as some girls
are
greedy for sweets-covetous for the power they could
give
her. She studied out the hidden ways around the
Places
of Healing so that she could sneak and spy, hiding
to
listen in darkness. All power must be paid for, but she
took
the secrets of those greater than she and defiled
them,
tainted them-poisoned them as she poisoned the
very
heart of the Deep-yes, she did poison if-and
turned
all our strength against us."
Jenny
shook her head, puzzled. "Dromar said some-
thing
of the kind," she said. "But how can you taint spells?
You can
spoil your own magic, for it colors your soul as
you
wield it, but you cannot spoil another's. I don't under-
stand."
Mab
glanced sharply at her, as if remembering her
presence
and remembering also that she was not one of
the
folk of the gnomes. "Nor should thou," she said in
her
soft, high voice. "These are things that concern the
magic
of gnomes only. They are not human things."
"Zyeme
seems to have made them human things."
Jenny
moved her weight on her heels, easing her knees
on the
hardness of the stone floor through the shabby
cushion.
"If it is, indeed, from the Places of Healing that
she
learned the arts that have made her the most powerful
mage in
the land."
"Pah!"
the gnome mage said in disgust. "The Healers
of the
Deep were more powerful than she-by the Stone,
/ was
more powerful!"
"Was?"
Jenny said, perplexed. "I know that most of
the
Healers in the Deep were killed with the coming of
the
dragon; I had thought none of sufficient strength sur-
vived
to defy her. The magic of gnomes is different from
the
spells of men, but power is power. How could Zyeme
have
lessened yours?"
Mab
only shook her head furiously, so that her pale,
web-colored
hair whipped back and forth, and said, "These
are the
things of the gnomes."
In
those days Jenny did not see much of Zyerne, but
the
enchantress was often on her mind. Zyeme's influence
pervaded
the court like the faint waft of her cinnamon
perfume;
when Jenny was in the Palace confines, she was
always
conscious of her. However Zyeme had acquired
her
power and whatever she had done with it since. Jenny
never
forgot that it was so much greater than hers. When
she
neglected what tomes of magic John was able to pilfer
from
the Palace library to sit with her scrying-stone,
watching
the tiny, soundless images of her sons skylarking
perilously
along the snow-covered battlements of the Hold,
she
felt a pang of guilt. Zyeme was young, at least ten
years
younger than she; her power shone from her like
the
sun. Jenny no longer felt jealousy and she could not,
in all
honesty, feel anger at Zyeme for having what she
herself
did not, as long as she was not willing to do what
was
needful to obtain that power. But she did feel envy,
the
envy of a traveler on a cold night who saw into the
warmth
of a lighted room.
But
when she asked Mab about Zyeme-about the
powers
that had once been less than Mab's, but now were
greater;
about why the gnomes had forbidden her to enter
the
Deep-the little mage would only say stubbornly,
"These
are the things of the gnomes. They have naught
to do
with men."
In the
meantime John went his own way, a favorite of
the
younger courtiers who laughed at his extravagant bar-
barism
and called him their tame savage, while he held
forth
about engineering and the mating customs of pigs,
or
quoted classical authors in his execrable north-country
drawl.
And still, every morning, the King passed them
by in
the gallery, turning his dull eyes aside from them,
and the
etiquette of the Court forbade Gareth to speak.
"What's
his delay?" John demanded as he and Gareth
emerged
from the arched porticoes of the gallery into the
chill,
fleet sunlight of the deserted terrace after yet another
futile
day's waiting. Jenny joined them quietly, coming up
the
steps from the deserted garden below, carrying her
harp.
She had been playing it on the rocks above the sea
wall,
waiting for them and watching the rainelouds scud
far out
over the sea. It was the season of winds and sudden
gales,
and in the north the weather would be sleety and
cold,
but here days of high, heatless sunlight alternated
with
fogs and blowing rains. The matte, white day-moon
was
visible, sinking into the cloud wrack over the sea;
Jenny
wondered what it was that troubled her about its
steady
waxing toward its half. Against the loamy colors
of the
fallow earth, the clothes of Zyeme and her court
stood
out brightly as they passed on down into the garden,
and
Jenny could hear the enchantress's voice lifted in a
wickedly
accurate imitation of the gnomes' shrill speech.
John
went on, "Is he hoping the dragon will fall on the
Citadel
and spare him the trouble of the siege?"
Gareth
shook his head. "I don't think so. I'm told
Polycarp
has catapults for slinging naphtha set up on the
highest
turrets. The dragon keeps his distance." In spite
of the
Master's treason. Jenny could hear in the Prince's
voice a
trace of pride in his former friend.
Unlike
John, who had rented a Court costume from a
shop
outside the palace gates which specialized in such
things
for petitioners to the King, Gareth owned at least
a dozen
of them-like all Court costumes, criminally
expensive.
The one he wore today was parakeet green
and
primrose and, in the uncertain light of the afternoon,
it
turned his rather sallow complexion yellow.
John
pushed his specs a little further up on the bridge
of his
nose. "Well, I tell you, I'm not exactly ettling to
go on
kicking my heels here like a rat catcher waiting for
the
King to decide he wants my services. I came here to
protect
my lands and my people, and right now they're
getting
nothing from the King who's supposed to guard
them,
nor from me."
Gareth
had been gazing down into the garden at the
little
group around the leaf-stained marble statue of the
god
Kantirith absently, as if not aware of where he looked;
now he
turned his head quickly. "You can't go," he said,
worry
and fear in his voice.
"And
why not?"
The boy
bit his lip and did not answer, but his glance
darted
nervously back down to the garden. As if she felt
the
touch of it, Zyeme turned and blew him a playful kiss,
and
Gareth looked away. He looked tired and hagridden,
and
Jenny suddenly wondered if he still dreamed of Zyeme.
The
uncomfortable silence was broken, not by him,
but by
the high voice of Dromar.
"My
lord Aversin..." The gnome stepped out onto the
terrace
and blinked painfully in the wan, overcast light.
His
words came haltingly, as if they were unfamiliar in
his
mouth. "Please-do not go."
John
glanced down at him sharply. "You haven't pre-
cisely
extended your all in welcome and help, either, have
you?"
The old
ambassador's gaze challenged him. "I drew
thee
the maps of the Deep. By the Stone, what more canst
thou
want?"
"Maps
that don't lie," John said coolly. "You know as
well as
I do the maps you drew have sections of 'em left
blank.
And when I put them together, the maps of the
various
levels and the up-and-down map, damned if it
wasn't
the same place on all of them. I'm not interested
in the
secrets of your bloody Deep, but I can't know
what's
going to happen, nor where I may end up playing
catch-me
in the dark with the dragon, and I'd just as soon
have an
accurate map to do it with."
There
was an edge of anger on his level voice, and an
edge of
fear. Dromar must have heard both, for the
answering
blaze died out of his own countenance, and he
looked
down at his hands, clasped over the knots of his
sash.
"This is a matter that has nothing to do with the
dragon,
nothing to do with thee," he said quietly. "The
maps
are accurate-I swear it by the Stone in the heart
of the
Deep. What is left off is the affair of the gnomes,
and the
gnomes only-the very secret of the heart of the
Deep.
Once, one of the children of men spied out that
heart,
and since then we have had cause to regret it bit-
terly."
He
lifted his head again, pale eyes somber under the
long
shelf of snowy brow. "I beg that thou trust me, Drag-
onsbane.
It goes against our ways to ask the aid of the
children
of men. But thou must help us. We are miners
and
traders; we are not warriors, and it is a warrior that
we
need. Day by day, more of our folk are forced to leave
this
city. If the Citadel falls, many of the people of the
Deep
will be slaughtered with the rebels who have given
them
not only the shelter of their walls, but the very bread
of their
rations. The King's troops will not let them leave
the
Citadel, even if they would-and believe me, many
have
tried. Here in Bel, the cost of bread rises, and soon
we
shall be starved out, if we are not murdered by the
mobs
from the taverns. In a short time we shall be too
few to
hold the Deep, even should we be able to pass its
gates."
He held
out his hands, small as a child's and gro-
tesquely
knotted with age, pallidly white against the soft
black
layerings of his strangely cut sleeves. "If thou dost
not
help us, who among the children of men will?"
"Oh,
run along, Dromar, do." Clean and sweet as a
silver
knife, Zyeme's voice cut across his last words. She
came
mounting the steps from the garden, light as an
almond
blossom floating on the breeze, her pink-edged
veils
blown back over the dark and intricate cascades of
her
hair. "Isn't it enough that you try to foist your way
into
the King's presence day after day, without troubling
these
poor people with politics out of season? Gnomes
may be
vulgar enough to talk business and buttonhole
their
betters in the evening, but here we feel that once
the day
is done, it should be a time for enjoyment." She
made
shooing gestures with her well-kept hands and pouted
in
impatience. "Now run along," she added in a teasing
tone,
"or I shall call the guards."
The old
gnome stood for a moment, his eyes upon hers,
his
cloudy white hair drifting like cobwebs around his
wrinkled
face in the stir of the sea winds. Zyeme wore
an
expression of childlike pertness, like a well-loved little
girl
demanding her own way. But Jenny, standing behind
her,
saw the delighted arrogance of her triumph in every
line
and muscle of her slim back. She had no doubt that
Zyerne
would, in fact, call the guards.
Evidently
Dromar hadn't, either. Ambassador from the
court
of one monarch to another for thirty years, he turned
and
departed at the behest of the King's leman. Jenny
watched
him stump away down the gray and lavender
stonework
of the path across the garden, with Bond Cler-
lock,
pale and brittle-looking, imitating his walk behind
his
back.
Ignoring
Jenny as she generally did, Zyeme slid one
hand
through Gareth's arm and smiled up at him. "Back-
biting
old plotter," she remarked. "I must present myself
to your
father at supper in an hour, but there's time for
a
stroll along the sea wall, surely? The rains won't start
until
then."
She
could say it with surety, thought Jenny; at the
touch
of her spells, the clouds would come and depart
like
lapdogs waiting to be fed.
Still
holding Gareth's arm and leaning her suppleness
against
his height, she drew him toward the steps leading
down
into the garden; the courtiers there were already
dispersing,
and its walks were empty under the wind-
driven
scurry of fugitive leaves. Gareth cast a despairing
glance
back at John and Jenny, standing together on the
terrace,
she in the plaids and sheepskin jacket of the north,
and he
in the ornate blue-and-cream satins of the Court,
his
schoolboy spectacles balanced on his nose.
Jenny
nudged John gently. "Go after them."
He
looked down at her with a half-grin. "So from a
dancing
bear I'm being promoted to a chaperon for our
hero's
virtue?"
"No,"
Jenny said, her voice low. "A bodyguard for his
safety.
I don't know what it is about Zyeme, but he feels
it,
too. Go after them."
John
sighed and bent to kiss her lips. "The King had
better
pay me extra for this." His hug was like being
embraced
by a satin lion. Then he was off, trotting down
the
steps and calling to them in horrible north-country
brogue,
the wind billowing his mantlings and giving him
the
appearance of a huge orchid in the gray garden.
In all,
it was just over a week, before the King finally
sent
for his son.
"He
asked me where I'd been," Gareth said quietly.
"He
asked me why I hadn't presented myself to him
before."
Turning, he struck the side of his fist against the
bedpost,
his teeth gritted to fight tears of rage and con-
fusion.
"Jenny, in all these days he hasn't even seen me!"
He
swung angrily around. The faded evening light,
falling
through the diamond-shaped panes of the window
where
Jenny sat, brushed softly across the citron-and-
white
satins of his Court mantlings and flickered eerily in
the round,
facetless old jewels on his hands. His hair had
been
carefully curled for the audience with his father and,
as was
the nature of fine hair, hung perfectly straight
around
his face again, except for a stray lock or two. He'd
put on
his spectacles after the audience, cracked and bent
and
unlikely-looking with his finery; the lenses were
speckled
with the fine blowing rain that chilled the win-
dowglass.
"I
don't know what to do," he said in a strangulated
voice.
"He said-he said we'd talk about the dragon the
next
time he saw me. I don't understand what's going
on..."
"Was
Zyeme there?" John inquired. He was sitting at
the
spindly desk, which, like the rest of the upper floor
of his
and Jenny's guest house, was heaped with books.
The whole
room, after eight days, had the appearance of
a
ransacked library; volumes were propped against one
another,
places marked by pages of John's notes or odd
articles
of clothing or other books-and in one case a
dagger-slipped
between the leaves.
Gareth
nodded miserably. "Half the time when I asked
him
things, she'd answer. Jenny, could she be holding him
under
some kind of spell?"
Jenny
started to say, "Possibly..."
"Well,
of course she is," John said, tipping back his
high
stool to lean the small of his back against the desk.
"And
if you hadn't been so bloody determined to do that
slick
little baggage justice, Jen, you'd have seen it a week
ago.
Come!" he added, as a soft tapping sounded at the
door.
It
opened wide enough for Trey Clerlock to put her
head
around the doorframe. She hesitated a moment; then,
when
John gestured, she came in, carrying a pearwood
hurdy-gurdy
with ivory stars scattered at random over its
stubby
neck box and playing pegs. John beamed with
delight
as he took it, and Jenny groaned.
"You're
not going to play that thing, are you? You'll
frighten
the cattle for miles around, you know."
"I'll
not," John retorted. "And besides, there's a trick
to
making it louder or softer..."
"Do
you know it?"
"I
can leam. Thank you. Trey, love-some people just
haven't
any appreciation for the sound of fine music."
"Some
people haven't any appreciation for the sound
of a
cat being run through a mangle," Jenny replied. She
turned
back to Gareth. "Zyeme could be holding him
under a
spell, yes-but from what you've told me of your
father's
stubbornness and strength of will, I'm a little
surprised
that her influence is that great."
Gareth
shook his head. "It isn't only that," he said.
"I-I
don't know how to put this, and I can't be sure,
because
I wasn't wearing my spectacles during the inter-
view,
but it almost seems that he's faded since I've been
gone.
That's a stupid idea," he recanted at once, seeing
Jenny's
puzzled frown.
"No,"
said Trey unexpectedly. The other three looked
at her,
and she blushed a little, like a flustered doll. "I
don't
think it's stupid. I think it's true, and faded is a
good
word for it. Because I-I think the same thing is
happening
to Bond."
"Bond?"
Jenny said, and the memory of the King's
face
flashed across her mind; how hollow and brittle he
had
looked, and how, like Bond, the paint on his face had
seemed
to stand out from the waxiness beneath.
Trey
appeared to concentrate for a moment on care-
fully
straightening the lace on her left cuff. An opal flick-
ered
softly in the particolored coils of her hair as she
looked
up. "I thought it was just me," she said in a small
voice.
"I know he's gotten heavier-handed, and less funny
about
his jests, the way he is when his mind is on some-
thing
else. Except that his mind doesn't seem to be on .
anything
else; it just isn't on what he's doing, these days.
He's so
absentminded, the way your father's gotten." Her
gaze
went to Jenny's, imploring. "But why would Zyeme
put a
spell on my brother? She's never needed to hold
him to
her. He's always squired her around. He was one
of the
first friends she had at Court. He-he loved her.
He used
to dream about her..."
"Dream
about her how?" Gareth demanded sharply.
Trey
shook her head. "He wouldn't tell me."
"Did
he sleepwalk?"
The
surprise in the girl's eyes answered the question
before
she spoke. "How did you know?"
The
fitful rain outside had ceased; in the long silence,
the
voices of the palace guards in the court below the
guest
house windows could be heard clearly, telling a story
about a
gnome and a whore in town. Even the hazy light
of the
afternoon was failing, and the room was cold and
slate
gray. Jenny asked, "Do you dream about her still,
Gareth?"
The boy
turned red as if scalded. He stammered, shook
his
head, and finally said, "I-I don't love her. I truly
don't.
I try-I don't want to be alone with her. But..."
He
gestured helplessly, unable to fight the traitor dreams.
Jenny
said softly, "But she is calling you. She called
you
that first night we were in her hunting lodge. Had
she
done so before?"
"I-I
don't know." He looked shaken and in and very
frightened,
as he had when Jenny had probed at his mind,
as if
looking at things that he did not want to see. Trey,
who had
gone to take a spill from the fire and was lighting
the
small ivory lamps on the edge of John's desk, shook
out her
taper, went quietly over to him, and got him to
sit
down beside her on the edge of the curtained bed.
At
length Gareth said, "She might have. A few months
ago she
asked me to dine with her and my father in her
wing of
the palace. I didn't go. I was afraid Father would
be
angry at me for slighting her, but later on he said
something
that made me wonder whether he'd even known
about
it. I wondered then. I thought..." He blushed still
more
hotly. "That was when I thought she might have
been in
love with me."
"I've
seen loves like that between wolves and sheep,
but the
romance tends to be a bit one-sided," John
remarked,
scratching his nose. "What prevented you from
going?"
"Polycarp."
He toyed with the folds of his mantlings,
which
caught a soft edge of brightness where the angle
of the
lamplight came down past the curtains of the bed.
"He
was always telling me to beware of her. He found
out
about the dinner and talked me out of going."
"Well,
I don't know much about magic and all that,
but
just offhand, lad, I'd say he might have saved your
life."
John braced his back against the desk's edge and
fingered
a silent run of melody up the hurdy-gurdy's keys.
Gareth
shook his head, puzzled. "But why? It wasn't
a week
before he tried to kill us-me and my father both."
"If
that was him."
The boy
stared at him, slowly-growing horror and real-
ization
in his face. He whispered, "But I saw him."
"If
she could take the shape of a cat or a bird, putting
on the
form of the Master of Halnath wouldn't be beyond
her-Jen?"
He glanced across the room to where she sat
silent,
her arm resting across one up-drawn knee, her chin
upon
her wrist.
"She
wouldn't have taken on his actual being," she
said
quietly. "An illusion would have served. Shape-
shifting
requires enormous power-but then, Zyeme has
enormous
power. However she did it, the act itself is
logical.
If Polycarp had begun to suspect her intentions
toward
Gareth, it would dispose of and discredit him at
once.
By making you the witness. Gar, she removed all
chance
of your helping him. She must have known how
bitter
a betrayal it would be."
Numbly,
Gareth whispered, "No!" struck by the horror
of what
he had done.
Trey's
voice was soft in the stillness. "But what does
she
want with Gareth? I can understand her holding the
King,
because without his support she'd-she wouldn't
exactly
be nothing, but she certainly wouldn't be able to
live as
she does now. But why entrap Gareth as well?
And
what does she want with Bond? He's no good to her
...
We're really only a very minor family, you know. I
mean,
we haven't any political power, and not that much
money."
A rueful smile touched one comer of her lips as
she
fingered the rose-point lace of her cuff. "All this...
One
must keep up appearances, of course, and Bond is
trying
to marry me off well. But we really haven't any-
thing
Zyeme would want."
"And
why destroy them?" Gareth asked, desperate
concern
for his father in his voice. "Do all spells do that?"
"No,"
Jenny said. "That's what surprises me about
this-I've
never heard of a spell of influence that would
waste
the body of the victim as it holds the mind. But
neither
have I heard of one holding as close as the one
which
she has upon your father, Gareth; nor of one that
lasts
so long. But her magic is the magic of the gnomes
and
unlike the spells of men. It may be that among their
secrets
is one that will hold the very essence of another,
twining
around it like the tendrils of a morning-glory vine,
which
can tear the foundations of a stone house asunder.
But
then," she went on, her voice low, "it is almost certain
that to
have that kind of control over him, at the first,
she had
to obtain his consent."
"His
consent?" Trey cried, horrified. "But how could
he? How
could anyone?"
Gareth,
Jenny was interested to note, said nothing to
this.
He had seen, however briefly, on the road in the
north,
the mirror of his own soul-and he also knew
Zyeme.
Jenny
explained, "To tamper that deeply with another's
essence
always requires the consent of the victim. Zyeme
is a
shapeshifter-the principle is the same."
Trey
shook her head. "I don't understand."
Jenny
sighed and, rising to her feet, crossed to where
the two
young people sat side-by-side. She put her hand
on the
girl's shoulder. "A shapeshifter can change some-
one else's
essence, even as she can change her own. It
requires
enormous power-and first she must in some
fashion
obtain the victim's consent. The victim can resist,
unless
the shapeshifter can find some chink of consenting,
some
hidden demon within-some part of the essence
that
wills to be changed."
The
deepening darkness outside made the lamplight
even
more golden, like honey where it lay over the girl's
face.
Under the shadows of the long, thick lashes. Jenny
could
read both fear and fascination, that half-understand-
ing
that is the first whisper of consent.
"I
think you would resist me if I tried to transform you
into a
lapdog, had I the power to do so. There is very
little
of the lapdog in your soul. Trey Clerlock. But if I
were to
transform you into a horse-a yearling filly, smoke-
gray
and sister to the sea winds-I think I could obtain
your
consent to that."
Trey
jerked her eyes away, hiding them against Ga-
reth's
shoulder, and the young man put a protective
arm
around her as well as he could, considering that he
was
sitting on the trailing ends of his extravagant sleeves.
"It
is the power ofshapeshifting and the danger," Jenny
said,
her voice low in the silence of the room. "If I trans-
formed
you into a filly. Trey, your essence would be the
essence
of a horse. Your thoughts would be a horse's
thoughts,
your body a mare's body; your loves and desires
would
be those of a young, swift beast. You might remem-
ber for
a time what you were, but you could not find your
way back
to be it once again. I think you would be happy
as a
filly."
"Stop
it," Trey whispered, and covered her ears.
Gareth's
hold about her tightened. Jenny was silent. After
a
moment the girl looked up again, her eyes dark with the
stirred
depths of her dreams. "I'm sorry," she said, her
voice
small. "It's not you I'm afraid of. It's me."
"I
know," Jenny replied softly. "But do you understand
now? Do
you understand what she might have done to
your
father, Gareth? It is sometimes less painful to give
over
striving and let another mind rule yours. When Zyeme
first
came to power she couldn't have acquired that kind
of hold
over you, because you would not come near enough
for her
to do it. You hated her, and you were only a boy-
she
could not draw you as she draws men. But when you
became
a man..."
"I
think that's loathsome." It was Trey's turn to put a
orotective
arm around Gareth's satin shoulders.
"But
a damn good way to keep her power," John pointed
out,
leaning one arm across the hurdy-gurdy resting upon
his
knees.
"I
still can't be sure that this is what she did," Jenny
said.
"And it still wouldn't explain why she did the same
thing
to Bond. I would not know for certain until I could
see the
King, speak to him..."
"God's
Grandmother, he'll scarcely speak to his own
son,
love, let alone me or thee." John paused, listening
to his
own words. "Which might be a good reason for not
speaking
to me or thee, come to that." His eyes flickered
to
Gareth. "You know. Gar, the more I see of this, the
more I
think I'd like to have a few words with your dad."
CHAPTER
VIII
IN THE
DEATHLY hush that hung over the gardens,
Gareth's
descent from the wall sounded like the mating
of oxen
in dry brush. Jenny winced as the boy crashed
down
the last few feet into the shrubbery; from the shad-
ows of
the ivy on the wall top at her side she saw the dim
flash
of spectacle lenses and heard a voice breathe, "You
forgot
to shout 'Eleven o'clock and all's well,' my hero!"
A faint
slur of ivy followed. She felt John land on the
ground
below more than she heard him. After a last check
of the
dark garden half-visible through the woven branches
of the
bare trees, she slipped down to join them. In the
darkness,
Gareth was a gawky shadow in rust-colored
velvet,
John barely to be seen at all, the random pattern
of his
plaids blending into the colors of the night.
"Over
there," Gareth whispered, nodding toward the
far
side of the garden where a light burned in a niche
between
two trefoil arches. Its brightness spangled the
wet
grass like pennies thrown by a careless hand.
He
started to lead the way, but John touched his arm
and
breathed, "I think we'd better send a scout, if it's
burglary
and all we're after. I'll work round the three sides
through
the shadows of the wall; when I get there, I'll
whistle
once like a nightjar. Right?"
Gareth
caught his sleeve as he started to move off.
"But
what if a real nightjar whistles?"
"What,
at this time of the year?" And he melted like
a cat
into the darkness. Jenny could see him, shifting his
way
through the checkered shadows of the bare topiary
that
decorated the three sides of the King's private court;
by the
way Gareth moved his head, she could tell he had
lost
sight of him almost at once.
Near
the archways there was a slither of rosy lamplight
on a
spectacle frame, the glint of spikes, and the brief
outline
of brightness on the end of a long nose. Gareth,
seeing
him safe, started to move, and Jenny drew him
soundlessly
back again. John had not yet whistled.
An
instant later, Zyeme appeared in the doorway arch.
Though
John stood less than six feet from her, she did
not at
first see him, for he settled into stillness like a
snake
in leaves. The enchantress's face, illuminated in the
warm
apricot light, wore that same sated look Jenny had
seen in
the upstairs room at the hunting lodge near the
Wildspae-the
look of deep content with some wholly
private
pleasure. Now, as then, it raised the hackles on
Jenny's
neck, and at the same time she felt a cold shudder
of
fear.
Then
Zyeme turned her head. She startled, seeing John
motionless
so near to her; then she smiled. "Well. An
enterprising
barbarian." She shook out her unbound,
unveiled
hair, straying tendrils of it lying against the hol-
low of
her cheek, like an invitation to a caress. "A little
late,
surely, to be paying calls on the King."
"A
few weeks late, by all I've heard." Aversin scratched
his
nose self-consciously. "But better late than never, as
Dad
said at Granddad's wedding."
Zyeme
giggled, a sweet and throaty sound. Beside her,
Jenny
felt Gareth shiver, as if the seductive laughter
brought
memories of evil dreams.
"And
impudent as well. Did your mistress send you
along
to see if Uriens had been entangled in spells other
than
his own stupidity and lust?"
Jenny
heard the hiss ofGareth's breath and sensed his
anger
and his shock at hearing the guttersnipe words fall
so
casually from those pink lips. Jenny wondered why
she
herself was not surprised.
John
only shrugged and said mildly, "No. It's just I'm
no dab
hand at waiting."
"Ah."
Her smile widened, lazy and alluring. She seemed
half-drunk,
but not sleepy as drunkards are; she glowed,
as she
had on that first morning in the King's Gallery,
bursting
with life and filled with the casual arrogance of
utter
well-being. The lamp in its tiled niche edged her
profile
in amber as she stepped toward John, and Jenny
felt
again the grip of fear, as if John stood unknowingly
in
deadly danger. "The barbarian who eats with his hands-
and
doubtless makes love in his boots."
Her
hands touched his shoulders caressingly, shaping
themselves
to the muscle and bone beneath the leather
and
plaid. But Aversin stepped back a pace, putting dis-
tance
between them, rather as she had done in the gallery
to
Dromar. Like Dromar, she would not relax her self-
consequence
enough to pursue.
In a
deliberately deepened north-country drawl, he said,
"Aye,
my lack of manners does give me sleepless nights.
But it
weren't to eat prettily nor yet to make love that I
came
south. I was told you had this dragon eating folks
hereabouts."
She
giggled again, an evil trickle of sound in the night.
"You
shall have your chance to slay it when all is ready.
Timing
is a civilized art, my barbarian."
"Aye,"
John's voice agreed, from the dark cutout of
his
silhouette against the golden light. "And I've had buck-
ets of
time to study it here, along with aB them other
civilized
arts, like courtesy and kindness to suppliants,
not to
speak of honor, and keeping one's faith with one's
lover,
instead of rubbing up against his son."
There
were perhaps three heartbeats of silence before
she
spoke. Jenny saw her back stiffen; when she spoke
again,
her voice, though still sweet, had a note to it like
a harp
string taken a half-turn above its true note. "What
is it
to you, John Aversin? It is how things are done here
in the
south. None of it shall interfere with your chance
of
glory. That is all that should concern you. I shall tell
you
when it is right for you to go.
"Listen
to me, Aversin, and believe me. I know this
dragon.
You have slain one worm-you have not met
Morkeleb
the Black, the Dragon ofNast Wall. He is might-
ier
than the worm you slew before, mightier than you can
ever
know."
"I'd
guessed that." John pushed up his specs, the rosy
light
glancing off the spikes of his armbands as from spear-
points.
"I'll just have to slay him how I can, seemingly."
"No."
Acid burned through the sweetness other voice
like
poisoned candy. "You can not. I know it, if you and
that
slut of yours don't. Do you think I don't know that
those
stinking offal-eaters, the gnomes, have lied to you?
That
they refused to give you true maps of the Deep? I
know
the Deep, John Aversin-I know every tunnel and
passage.
I know the heart of the Deep. Likewise I know
every
spell of illusion and protection, and believe me, you
will
need them against the dragon's wrath. You will need
my aid,
if you are to have victory-you will need my aid
if you
are to come out of that combat with your life. Wait,
I say,
and you shall have that aid; and afterward, from
the
spoils of the Deep, I shall reward you beyond the
dreams
of any man's avarice."
John
tilted his head a little to one side. "You'll reward
-?"
me'
In the
silence of the sea-scented night. Jenny heard the
other
woman's breath catch.
"How
is it you'll be the one to divvy up the gnomes'
treasure?"
John asked. "Are you anticipating taking over
the
Deep, once the dragon's out of the way?"
"No,"
she said, too quickly. "That is-surely you know
that
the insolence of the gnomes has led them to plot
against
his Majesty? They are no longer the strong folk
they
were before the coming of Morkeleb. Those that
were
not slain are divided and weak. Many have left this
town,
forfeiting all their rights, and good riddance to them."
"Were
I treated as I've seen them treated," John
remarked,
leaning one shoulder against the blue-and-
yellow
tiles of the archway, "I'd leave, myself."
"They
deserved it." Her words stung with sudden
venom.
"They kept me from..." She stopped herself,
then
added, more reasonably, "You know they are openly
in
league with the rebels ofHalnath-or you should know
it. It
would be foolish to dispose of the dragon before their
plots
are uncovered. It would only give them a strong
place
and a treasure to return to, to engage in plotting
further
treason."
"I
know the King and the people have heard nothing
but how
the gnomes are plotting," Aversin replied in a
matter-of-fact
voice. "And from what I hear, the gnomes
up at
the Citadel haven't much choice about whose side
they're
on. Gar's being gone must have been a real boon
to you
there; with the King half-distracted, he'd have been
about
ready to believe anything. And I suppose it would
be
foolish to get rid of the dragon before so many of the
gnomes
have left the Realm-or some reason can be found
for
getting rid of the rest of 'em-that they can't reoccupy
their
stronghold, if so be it happened someone else wanted
the
place, that is."
There
was a moment's silence. Jenny could see the
light
slither quickly along the silk facing ofZyeme's sleeve,
where
her small hand clenched it in anger, leaving a print
of
wrinkles like the track of invisible thoughts. "These
are
matters of high polity, Dragonsbane. It is nothing to
you,
after all. I tell you, be patient and wait until I tell
you it
is time for us to ride together to the Deep, you and
1.1
promise that you shall not be cheated of this slaying."
She
stepped close to him again, and the diamonds on
her
hands threw little spits of fire against the dullness of
leather
and plaid.
"No,"
Aversin said, his voice low. "Nor shall you be
cheated
of the Deep, after I've done your butchering for
you.
You summoned the dragon, didn't you?"
"No."
The word was brittle as the snap of a frost-killed
twig.
"Of course not."
"Didn't
you, love? Then it's gie lucky for you that it
came
along just when it did, when you were wanting a
power
base free of the King, in case he tired of you or
died;
not to speak of all that gold."
Jenny
felt the scorch of her wrath like an invisible
explosion
across the garden, even as Zyerne raised her
hand.
Jenny's throat closed on a cry of fear and warning,
knowing
she could never have moved in time to help and
could
not have stood against the younger woman's magic,
if she
did; Aversin, his back to the stone of the arch, could
only
throw his arm before his eyes as the white fire snaked
from
Zyeme's hand. The hissing crackle of it in the air
was
like lightning; the blaze of it, so white it seemed edged
in
violet, seared over every stone chink and moss tuft in
the
pavement and outlined each separate, waxy petal of
the
winter roses in colorless glare. In its aftermath, the
air
burned with the smell of ozone and scorched leaves.
After a
long moment, John raised his face from his
protecting
arms. Even across the garden. Jenny could see
he was
shaking; her own knees were so weak from shock
and
fear she felt she could have collapsed, except for her
greater
fear of Zyeme; and she cursed her own lack of
power.
John, standing before Zyeme, did not move.
It was
Zyeme who spoke, her voice dripping with
triumph.
"You get above yourself, Dragonsbane. I'm not
that
snaggle-haired trollop of yours, that you can speak
to me
with impunity. I am a true sorceress."
Aversin
said nothing, but carefully removed his spec-
tacles
and wiped his eyes. Then he replaced them and
regarded
her silently in the dim light of the garden lamp.
"I
am a true sorceress," she repeated softly. She held
out her
hands to him, the small fingers plucking at his
sleeves,
and a husky note crept into her sweet voice. "And
who
says our alliance must be so truculent, Dragonsbane?
You
need not spend your time here tugging with impa-
tience
to be gone. I can make the wait pleasant."
As her
delicate hands touched his face, however, Aver-
sin
caught the fragile wrists, forcing her away at arm's
length.
For an instant they stood so, facing one another,
the
silence absolute but for the racing draw of their breath.
Her
eyes were fixed upon his, probing at his mind. Jenny
knew,
the same way she had probed at Gareth's earlier,
seeking
some key of consent.
With a
curse she twisted free of his grip. "So," she
whispered.
"That raddled bitch can at least get her rutting-
spells
right, can she? With her looks, she'd have to. But
let me
tell you this, Dragonsbane. When you ride to meet
the dragon,
like it or not, it will be me who rides with
you,
not her. You shall need my aid, and you shall ride
forth
when I say so, when I tell the King to give you
leave,
and not before. So learn a little of the civilized art
of
patience, my barbarian-for without my aid against
Morkeleb,
you shall surely die."
She
stepped away from him and passed under the lamp-
lit
arch, reaching out to take the light with her as she
went.
In its honeyed brightness her face looked as gentle
and
guileless as that of a girl of seventeen, unmarked
by rage
or perversion, pettiness or spite. John remained
where
he was, watching her go, sweat beading his face
like a
mist of diamonds, motionless save where he rubbed
the
thin, sharp flashburns on his hands.
A
moment later, the window behind him glowed into
soft
life- Through the fretted screen of scented shrubs and
vine
that twined its filigreed lattice. Jenny got a glimpse
of the
room beyond. She had an impression of half-seen
frescoes
on the walls, of expensive vessels of gold and
silver,
and of the glint of bullion embroidery thickly edging
the
hangings of the bed. A man lay in the bed, moving
feebly
in some restless dream, his gold hair faded and
colorless
where it lay in disorder over the embroidered
pillows.
His face was sunken and devoid of life, like the
face of
a man whom a vampire has kissed.
"It
would serve her right if you left tonight!" Gareth
stormed.
"Rode back north and left her to deal with her
own
miserable worm, if she wanted it so badly!"
He
swung around to pace the big chamber of the guest
house
again, so furious he could barely splutter. In his
anger,
he seemed to have forgotten his own fear of Zyeme
and his
desire for protection against her, forgotten his
long
quest to the Winterlands and his desperation to have
it
succeed. From her seat in the window. Jenny watched
him
fulminate, her own face outwardly calm but her mind
racing.
John
looked up from tinkering with the keys of the
hurdy-gurdy.
"It wouldn't do, my hero," he said quietly.
"However
and whyever it got here, the dragon's here now.
As
Zyeme said, the people hereabouts are no concern of
mine,
but I can't be riding off and leaving them to the
dragon.
Leaving out the gnomes, there's the spring plant-
ing to
be thought of."
The boy
stopped in his pacing, staring at him. "Hunh?"
John
shrugged, his fingers stilling on the pegs. "The
harvest's
gone," he pointed out. "If the dragon's still abroad
in the
land in the spring, there'll be no crop, and then,
my hero,
you'll see real starvation in this town."
Gareth
was silent. It was something he had never
thought
of. Jenny guessed. He had clearly never gone
short
of food in his life.
"Besides,"
John went on, "unless the gnomes can reoc-
cupy
the Deep pretty quick, Zyeme will destroy them
here,
as Dromar said, and your friend Polycarp in the
Citadel
as well. For all Dromar's hedging about keeping
us out
of the heart of the Deep, the gnomes have done
for us
what they can; and the way I see it, Polycarp saved
your
life, or at least kept you from ending up like your
father,
so deep under Zyeme's spells he can't tell one
week
from the next. No, the dragon's got to be killed."
"But
that's just it," Gareth argued. "If you kill the
dragon,
she'll be free to take over the Deep, and then the
Citadel
will fall because they'll be able to attack it from
the
rear." He looked worriedly over at Jenny. "Could she
have
summoned the dragon?"
Jenny
was silent, thinking about that terrible power
she had
felt in the garden, and the dreadful, perverted
lour of
it in the lamplit room at Zyeme's hunting lodge.
She
said, "I don't know. It's the first time I've heard of
human
magic being able to touch a dragon-but then,
Zyeme
derives her magic from the gnomes. I have never
heard
of such a thing..."
"Cock
by its feet, horse by its home..." repeated John.
"Could
she be holding the dragon by his name? She knows
it,
right enough."
Jenny
shook her head. "Morkeleb is only the name
men
give it, the way they call Azwylcartusherands Dro-
mar,
and Taseldwyn Mab. If she'd had his true name, his
essence,
she could send him away again; and she obviously
can't,
or she would have killed you in the garden tonight."
She
hitched her shawl up over her shoulders, a thin
and
glittering spiderweb of South Islands silk, the thick
masses
of her hair lying over it like a second shawl. Cold
seemed
to breathe through the window at her back.
Gareth
went back to pacing, his hands shoved in the
pockets
of the old leather hunting breeches he'd put on
to go
burgling.
"But
she didn't know its name, did she?"
"No,"
replied Jenny. "And in that case..." She paused,
then
frowned, dismissing the thought.
"What?"
John wanted to know, catching the doubt in
her
voice.
"No,"
she repeated. "It's inconceivable that at her level
of
power she wouldn't have been taught Limitations. It's
the
first thing anyone learns." And seeing Gareth's incom-
prehension,
she explained. "It's one of the things that
takes
me so long when I weave spells. You have to limit
the
effect of any spell. If you call rain, you must specify
a
certain heaviness, so as not to flood the countryside. If
you
call a curse of destruction upon someone or some-
thing,
you have to set Limitations so that their destruction
doesn't
come in a generalized catastrophe that wipes out
your
own house and goods. Magic is very prodigal in its
effects.
Limitations are among the earliest things a mage
is
taught."
"Even
among the gnomes?" Gareth asked. "You said
their
magic is different."
"It
is taught differently-transmitted differently. There
are
things Mab has said that I do not understand and things
that
she refuses to tell me about how their power is formed.
But it
is still magic. Mab knows the Limitations-from
what
she has told me, I gather they are more important
in the
night below the ground. If she studied among the
gnomes,
Zyeme would have to have learned about them."
John
threw back his head and laughed in genuine
amusement.
"Gaw, it must be rotting her!" He chuckled.
"Think
of it, Jen. She wants to get rid of the gnomes, so
she
calls down a generalized every-worst-curse she can
think
of upon them-and gets a dragon she can't get rid
of!
It's gie beautiful!"
"It's
'gie' frivolous," Jenny retorted.
"No
wonder she threw fire at me! She must be that
furious
just thinking about it!" His eyes were dancing
under
his singed brows.
"It
just isn't possible," Jenny insisted, in the cool voice
she
used to call their sons back from skylarking. Then,
more
seriously, "She can't have gotten to that degree of
power
untaught, John. It's impossible. All power must be
paid
for, somehow."
"But
it's the sort of thing that would happen if it hadn't
been,
isn't it?"
Jenny
didn't reply. For a long time she stared out the
window
at the dark shape of the battlements, visible
beneath
the chilly autumn stars. "I don't know," she said
at
last, stroking the spiderweb fringes other gauze shawl.
"She
has so much power. It's inconceivable that she hasn't
paid
for it in some fashion. The key to magic is magic.
She has
had all time and all power to study it fully. And
yet..."
She paused, identifying at last her own feelings
toward
what Zyeme was and did. "I thought that someone
who had
achieved that level of power would be different."
"Ah,"
John said softly. Across the room, their eyes
met.
"But don't think that what she's done with her
achievement
has betrayed your striving, love. For it hasn't.
It's
only betrayed her own."
Jenny
sighed, reflecting once again on John's uncanny
ability
to touch the heart of any problem, then smiled a
little
at herself; and they traded a kiss in a glance.
Gareth
said quietly, "But what are we going to do? The
dragon
has to be destroyed; and, if you destroy it, you'll
be
playing right into her hands."
A smile
flicked across John's face, a glimpse of the
bespectacled
schoolboy peeking out from behind the com-
plex
barricades raised by the hardships of the Winteriands
and his
father's embittered domination. Jenny felt his eyes
on her
again-the tip of one thick reddish brow and the
question
in the bright glance. After ten years, they had
grown
used to speaking without words.
A qualm
of fear passed over her, though she knew he
was
right. After a moment, she drew her breath in another
sigh
and nodded.
"Good."
John's impish smile widened, like that of a
boy
intent on doing mischief, and he rubbed his hands
briskly.
He turned to Gareth. "Get your socks packed,
my
hero. We leave for the Deep tonight."
CHAPTER
IX
"STOP."
Puzzled,
Gareth and John drew rein on either side of
Jenny,
who sat Moon Horse where she had halted her in
the
middle of the leaf-drifted track. All around them the
foothills
of Nast Wall were deathly silent, save for the
trickle
of wind through the charred trunks of what had
once
been woods to either side of the road and the faint
jingle
of brass as Osprey tugged at his leading-rein and
Clivy
began foraging prosaically in the sedges of the ditch-
side.
Lower down the hills, the woods were still whole,
denuded
by coming winter rather than fire; under the
pewter-gray
trunks of the beeches, the rust-colored
underbrush
lay thick. Here it was only a tangle of brittle
stems,
ready to crumble at a touch. Half-hidden in the
weeds
near the scorched paving stones of the road were
the
blackened bones of fugitives from the dragon's first
attack,
mixed with shattered cooking vessels and the sil-
ver
coins that had been dropped in flight. The coins lay
in the
mud still. No one had ventured this close to the
ruined
town to retrieve them.
Up
ahead in the weak sunlight of winter, the remains
of the
first houses of Deeping could be seen. According
to
Gareth the place had never been walled. The road ran
into
the town under the archway below the broken clock
tower.
For a
long while Jenny sat listening in silence, turning
her
head this way and that. Neither of the men spoke-
indeed,
ever since they had slipped out of the Palace in
the
small hours before dawn, Jenny had been acutely
conscious
of John's growing silence. She glanced across
at him
now, where he sat withdrawn into himself on his
riding
horse Cow, and remembered for the dozenth time
that
day Zyeme's words-that without her assistance,
neither
he nor Jenny would be capable of meeting the
dragon
Morkeleb.
Beyond
a doubt John was remembering them, too.
"Gareth,"
Jenny said at last, her voice little more than
a
whisper, "is there another way into the town? Some
place
in the town that is farther from the Gates of the
Deep
than we are now?"
Gareth
frowned. "Why?"
Jenny
shook her head, not certain herself why she had
spoken.
But something whispered across her nerves, as
it had
all those weeks ago by the ruins of the nameless
town in
the Winteriands-a sense of danger that caused
her to
look for the signs of it. Under Mab's tutelage she
had
become more certain of trusting her instincts, and
something
in her hated to go closer than the ruined clock
tower
into the sunlight that fell across Deeping Vale.
After a
moment's consideration Gareth said, "The far-
thest
point in Deeping from the Great Gates would be the
Tanner's
Rise. It's at the bottom of that spur over there
that
bounds the town to the west. I think it's about a half-
mile from
the Gates. The whole town isn't-wasn't-
much
more than a quarter-mile across."
"Will
we have a clear view of the Gates from there?"
Confused
by this bizarre stipulation, he nodded. "The
ground's
high, and most of the buildings were flattened
in the
attack. But if we wanted a lookout on the gates,
you can
see there's enough of the clock tower left for
a..."
"No,"
Jenny murmured. "I don't think we can go that
near."
John's
head came sharply around at that. Gareth fal-
tered,
"It can't-it can't hear us, can it?"
"Yes,"
Jenny said, not knowing why she said it. "No-
it
isn't hearing, exactly. I don't know. But I feel some-
thing,
on the fringes of my mind. I don't think it knows
we're
here-not yet. But if we rode closer, it might. It is
an old
dragon, Gareth; it must be, for its name to be in
the
Lines. In one of the old books from the Palace library,
it says
that dragons change their skins with their souls,
that
the young are simply colored and bright; the mature
are
complex of pattern and the old become simpler and
simpler
again, as their power deepens and grows. Mor-
keleb
is black. I don't know what that means, but I don't
like
what I think it implies-great age, great power-his
senses
must fill the Vale of Deeping like still water, sen-
sitive
to the slightest ripple."
"He
pox-sure heard your father's knights coming, didn't
he?"
John added cynically.
Gareth
looked unhappy. Jenny nudged her mare gently
and
took a step or two closer to the clock tower, casting
her senses
wide over all the Vale. Through the broken
webs of
branches overhead, the massive darkness of the
westward-facing
cliffs of Nast Wall could be seen. Their
dizzy
heights towered like rusted metal, streaked with
purple
where shadows hit; boulders flashed white upon
it like
outcroppings of broken bone. Above the line of the
dragon's
burning, the timber grew on the flanks of the
mountain
around the cliffs, up toward the mossed rocks
of the
cirques and snowfields above. The ice-gouged homs
of the
Wall's bare and ragged crest were veiled in cloud
now,
but beyond its hunched shoulder to the east a thin
track
of smoke could be seen,'marking the Citadel of
Halnath
and the siege camps beneath it.
Below
that wall of stone and trees, the open spaces of
the
Vale lay, a huge well of air, a gulf filled with pale,
sparkly
sunlight-and with something else. Jenny's mind
touched
it briefly and shrank from that living conscious-
ness
that she sensed, coiled like a snake in its dark lair.
Behind
her, she heard Gareth argue, "But the dragon
you
killed up in the gully in Wyr didn't know you were
coming."
The very loudness of his voice scraped her nerves
and
made her want to cuff him into silence. "You were
able to
get around behind it and take it by surprise. I don't
see
how..."
"Neither
do I, my hero," John cut in softly, collecting
Cow's
reins in one hand and the charger Osprey's lead in
the
other. "But if you're willing to bet your life Jen's
wrong,
I'm not. Lead us on to the famous Rise."
On the
night of the dragon, many had taken refuge in
the
buildings on Tanner's Rise; their bones lay every-
where
among the blackened ruin of crumbled stone. From
the
open space in front of what had been the warehouses,
it had
once been possible to overlook the whole thriving
little
town of Deeping, under its perpetual haze of smoke
from
the smelters and forges down below. That haze was
gone
now, burned off in the dragon's greater fire; the
whole
town lay open to the mild, heatless glitter of the
winter
sunlight, a checkerwork of rubble and bones.
Looking
about her at the buildings of the Rise, Jenny
felt
cold with shock, as if she had been struck in the pit
of the
stomach; then, as she realized why she recognized
the
place, the shock was replaced by horror and despair.
It was
the place where she had seen John dying, in her
vision
in the water bowl.
She had
done divination before, but never so accu-
rately
as this. The precision of it appalled her-every
stone
and puddle and broken wall was the same; she
remembered
the way the looming line of the dark cliffs
looked
against the sky and the very patterns of the bones
of the
town below. She felt overwhelmed by a despairing
urge to
change something-to shatter a wall, to dig a hole,
to clear
away the brush at the gravelly lip of the Rise
where
it sloped down to the town-anything to make it
not as
it had been. Yet in her soul she knew doing so
would
change nothing and she feared lest whatever she
did
would make the picture she had seen more, rather
than
less, exact.
Her
lips felt stiff as she spoke. "Is this the only point
in the
town this far from the Gates?" She knew already
what
Gareth would reply.
"It
had to be, because of the smell of the tanneries.
You see
how nothing was built near it. Even the water
tanks
and reservoirs were put up in those rocks to the
north,
rather than here where the better springs were."
Jenny
nodded dully, looking out toward the high rocks
to the
north of the town where he was pointing. Her whole
soul
was crying No! No...
She
felt suddenly hopeless and stupid, overmatched
and
unprepared and incredibly naive. We were fools, she
thought
bitterly. The slaying of the first worm was a fluke.
We
should never have been so stupid as to presume upon
it,
never have thought we could do it again. Zyeme was
right.
Zyeme was right.
She
looked over at John, who had dismounted from
Cow and
was standing on the rocky lip of the Rise where
the
ground fell sharply to the dale below, looking across
toward
the opposite rise of the Gates. Cold seemed to
cover
her bones like a vast, winged shadow blocking the
sun,
and she heeled Moon Horse gently over beside him.
Without
looking up at her, he said, "I figure I can just
make
it. The Temple of Sarmendes is about a quarter-
mile
along the Grand Passage, if Dromar was telling the
truth.
If Osprey and I go full-pelt, we should just about
be able
to catch the dragon in the Market Hall, just within
the
Gates. Saying he's able to hear me the minute I start
down
the Rise, I should still be able to catch him before
he can
get out into the air. I'll have room to fight him in
the
Market Hall. That will be my only chance."
"No,"
Jenny said quietly. He looked up at her, eye-
brows
quirking. "You have another chance, if we ride
back
now to Bel. Zyeme can help you take the thing from
behind,
deeper in the caves. Her spells will protect you,
too, as
mine can not."
"Jen."
The closed wariness of his expression split sud-
denly
into the white flash of teeth. He held up his hands
to help
her down, shaking his head reprovingly.
She
made no move. "At least it is to her advantage to
preserve
you safe, if she wants the dragon slain. The rest
is none
of your affair."
His
smile widened still further. "You have a point,
love,"
he assented. "But she doesn't look to me like she
can
cook worth a row of beans." And he helped her down
from
her horse.
The
foreboding that weighed on Jenny's heart did not
decrease;
rather, it grew upon her through the short after-
noon.
She told herself, again and again, as she paced out
the
magic circles and set up her fire in their midst to brew
her
poisons, that water was a liar; that it divined the future
as
crystal could not, but that its divinations were less
reliable
even than fire's. But a sense of impending doom
weighed
upon her heart, and, as the daylight dimmed, in
the
fire under her simmering kettle she seemed to see
again
the same picture: John's shirt of chain mail rent
open by
claws in a dozen places, the broken links all
glittering
with dark blood.
Jenny
had set up her fire at the far end of the Rise,
where
the wind would carry the smoke and the vapors
away
from both the camp and the Vale, and worked
throughout
the afternoon spelling the ingredients and the
steel
of the harpoons themselves. Miss Mab had advised
her
about the more virulent poisons that would work upon
dragons,
and such ingredients as the gnome wizard had
not had
among her slender stocks Jenny had purchased
in the
Street of the Apothecaries-in the Dockmarket in
Bel.
While she worked, the two men prowled the Rise,
fetching
water for the horses from the little well some
distance
into the woods, since the fountain house that had
served
the tanneries had been crushed like an eggshell,
and
setting up a camp. John had very little to say since
she had
spoken to him on the edge of the Rise; Gareth
seemed
to shiver all over with a mingling of excitement
and
terror.
Jenny
had been a little surprised at John's invitation
that Gareth
join them, though she had planned to ask John
to
extend it. She had her own reasons for wanting the
boy
with them, which had little to do with his expressed
desire-though
he had not expressed it lately-to see a
dragonslaying
close at hand. She-and undoubtedly John
as
well-knew that their departure would have left Gareth
unprotected
in Bel.
Perhaps
Mab had been right, she thought, as she turned
her
face from the ghastly choke of the steam and wiped
it with
one gloved hand. There were worse evils than the
dragon
in the land-to be slain by it might, under certain
circumstances,
be construed as a lesser fate.
The
voices of the men came to her from the other side
of the
camp as they moved about preparing supper; she
had
noticed that neither spoke very loudly when they were
anywhere
near the edge of the Rise. John said, "I'll get
this
right yet," as he dropped a mealcake onto the griddle
and
looked up at Gareth. "What's the Market Hall like?
Anything
I'll be likely to trip over?"
"I
don't think so, if the dragon's been in and out,"
Gareth
said after a moment. "It's a huge hall, as Dromar
said;
over a hundred feet deep and even wider side to
side.
The ceiling's very high, with fangs of rock hanging
down
from it-chains, too, that used to support hundreds
of
lamps. The floor was leveled, and used to be covered
with
all kinds of booths, awnings, and vegetable stands;
all the
produce from the Realm was traded to the Deep
there.
I don't think there was anything there solid enough
to
resist dragon fire."
Aversin
dropped a final mealcake on the griddle and
straightened
up, wiping his fingers on the end of his plaid.
Blue
darkness was settling over Tanner's Rise. From her
small
fire. Jenny could see the two of them outlined in
gold
against a background of azure and black. They did
not
come near her, partly because of the stench of the
poisons,
partly because of the spell-circles glimmering
faintly
in the sandy earth about her. The key to magic is
magic-Jenny
felt that she looked out at them from an
isolated
enclave of another world, alone with the oven-
heat of
the fire, the biting stench of the poison fumes,
and the
grinding weight of the death-spells in her heart.
John
walked to the edge of the Rise for perhaps the
tenth
time that evening. Across the shattered bones of
Deeping,
the black skull-eye of the Gates looked back at
him.
Slabs of steel and splintered shards of burned wood
lay
scattered over the broad, shallow flight of granite steps
below
them, faintly visible in the watery light of the wax-
ing
moon. The town itself lay in a pool of impenetrable
dark.
"It
isn't so far," said Gareth hopefully. "Even if he
hears
you coming the minute you ride into the Vale, you
should
reach the Market Hall in plenty of time."
John
sighed. "I'm not so sure of that, my hero. Dragons
move
fast, even afoot. And the ground down there's bad.
Even
full-tilt, Osprey won't be making much speed of it,
when
all's said. I would have liked to scout for the clearest
route,
but that isn't possible, either. The most I can hope
for is
that there's no uncovered cellar doors or privy pits
between
here and the Gates."
Gareth
laughed softly. "It's funny, but I never thought
about
that. In the ballads, the hero's horse never trips on
the way
to do battle with the dragon, though they do it
from
time to time even in tourneys, where the ground of
the
lists has been smoothed beforehand. I thought it would
be-oh,
like a ballad. Very straight. I thought you'd ride
out of
Bel, straight up here and on into the Deep..."
"Without
resting my horse after the journey, even on
a
lead-rein, nor scouting the lay of the land?" John's eyes
danced
behind his specs. "No wonder the King's knights
were
killed at it." He sighed. "My only worry is that if I
miss my
timing by even a little, I'm going to be spot under
the
thing when it comes out of the Gates..."
Then he
coughed, fanning at the air, and said, "Pox
blister
it!" as he dashed back to pick the flaming meal-
cakes
off the griddle. Around burned fingers, he said,
"And
the damn thing is, even Adric cooks better than I
do..."
Jenny
turned away from their voices and the sweetness
of the
night beyond the blazing heat of her fire. As she
dipped
the harpoons into the thickening seethe of brew
in her
kettle, the sweat plastered her long hair to her
cheeks,
running down her bare arms from the turned-up
sleeves
of her shift to the cuffs of the gloves she wore;
the
heat lay like a red film over her toes and the tops of
her
feet, bare as they often were when she worked magic.
Like
John, she felt withdrawn into herself, curiously
separated
from what she did. The death-spells hung like
a
stench in the air all around her, and her head and bones
were
beginning to ache from the heat and the effort of the
magic
she had wrought. Even when the powers she called
were
for good, they tired her; she felt weighed down by
them
now, exhausted and knowing that she had wrought
nothing
good from that weariness.
The
Golden Dragon came to her mind again, the first
heartstopping
instant she had seen it dropping from the
sky
like amber lightning and had thought. This is beauty.
She
remembered, also, the butchered ruin left in the gorge,
the
stinking puddles of acid and poison and blood, and
the
faint, silvery singing dying out of the shivering air. It
might
have been only the fumes she inhaled, but she felt
herself
turn suddenly sick at the thought.
She had
slaughtered Meewinks, or mutilated them and
left
them to be eaten by their brothers; she remembered
the
crawling greasiness of the bandit's hair under her fin-
gers as
she had touched his temples. But they were not
like
the dragon. They had chosen to be what they were.
Even as
I have.
And
what are you. Jenny Waynest?
But she
could find no answer that fitted.
Gareth's
voice drifted over to her from the other fire.
"That's
another thing they never mention in the ballads
that
I've been meaning to ask you. I know this sounds
silly,
but-how do you keep your spectacles from getting
broken
in battle?"
"Don't
wear 'em," John's voice replied promptly. "If
you can
see it coming, it's too late anyway. And then, I
had Jen
lay a spell on them, so they wouldn't get knocked
off or
broken by chance when I do wear them."
She
looked over at the two of them, out of the con-
densing
aura of death-spells and the slaughter of beauty
that
surrounded her and her kettle of poison. Firelight
caught
in the metal of John's jerkin; against the blueness
of the
night it gleamed like a maker's mark stamped in
gold
upon a bolt of velvet. She could almost hear the
cheerful
grin in his voice, "I figured if I was going to break
my
heart loving a magewife, I might as well get some
good
from it."
Over
the shoulder of Nast Wall the moon hung, a half-
open
white eye, waxing toward its third quarter. With a
stab
like a shard of metal embedded somewhere in her
heart.
Jenny remembered then that it had been so, in her
vision
in the water.
Silently,
she pulled herself back into her private circle
of
death, closing out that outer world of friendship and
love
and silliness, closing herself in with spells of ruin
and
despair and the cold failing of strength. It was her
power
to deal death in this way, and she hated herself for
it; though,
like John, she knew she had no choice.
"Do
you think you'll make it?" Gareth nattered. Before
them,
the ruins of the broken town were purple and slate
with
shadow in the early light. The war horse Osprey's
breath
was warm over Jenny's hand where she held the
reins.
"I'll
have to, won't I?" John checked the girths and
swung
up into the saddle. The cool reflection of the mom-
ing sky
gleamed slimily on the grease Jenny had made for
him
late last night to smear on his face against the worst
scorching
of the dragon's fire. Frost crackled in the weeds
as
Osprey fidgeted his feet. The last thing Jenny had done,
shortly
before dawn, had been to send away the mists
that
seeped up from the woods to cloak the Vale, and all
around
them the air was brilliantly clear, the fallow winter
colors
warming to life. Jenny herself felt cold, empty, and
overstretched;
she had poured all her powers into the
poisons.
Her head ached violently and she felt unclean,
strange,
and divided in her mind, as if she were two sep-
arate
people. She had felt so, she recalled, when John
had
ridden against the first dragon, though then she had
not
known why. Then she had not known what the slaugh-
ter of
that beauty would be like. She feared for him and
felt
despair like a stain on her heart; she only wanted the
day to
be over, one way or the other.
The
mail rings on the back of John's gloves rattled
sharply
as he reached down, and she handed him up his
harpoons.
There were six of them, in a quiver on his back;
the
steel of their barbed shafts caught a slither of the early
light,
save for the ugly black that covered their points.
The
leather of the grips was firm and tough under her
palms.
Over his metal-patched doublet, John had pulled
a chain
mail shirt, and his face was framed in a coif of
the
same stuff. Without his spectacles and with his shaggy
hair
hidden beneath it, the bones of his face were suddenly
prominent,
showing what his features could look like in
an old
age he might never reach.
Jenny
felt she wanted to speak to him, but there was
nothing
she could think of to say.
He
gathered the reins in hand. "If the dragon comes
out of
the Gate before I reach it, I want the pair of you
to leg
it," he said, his voice calm. "Get into cover as deep
as you
can, the higher up the ridge the better. Let the
horses
go if you can-there's a chance the dragon will
go
after them first." He did not add that by that time he
would
already be dead.
There
was a momentary silence. Then he bent from
the
saddle and touched Jenny's lips with his own. His felt,
as they
always did, surprisingly soft. They had spoken
little,
even last night; each had already been drawn into
an
armor of silence. It was something they both under-
stood.
He
reined away, looking across the Vale to the black
eye of
the Deep, and to the black thing waiting within.
Osprey
fiddle-footed again, catching John's battle nerves;
the
open ground of Deeping seemed suddenly to stretch
away
into miles of enormous, broken plain. To Jenny's
eye,
every tumbled wall looked as tall as the house it had
once
been, every uncovered cellar a gaping chasm. He
would
never cross in time, she thought.
Beside
her, John leaned down again, this time to pat
Osprey's
dappled neck encouragingly. "Osprey, old
friend,"
he said softly, "don't spook on me now."
He
drove in his spurs, and the sharp crack of iron-
shod
hooves as they shot forward was like the chip of
distant
lightning on a summer noon. Jenny took two steps
down
the loose, rocky slope after him, watching the gray
horse
and the pewter-dark shape of the man as they plunged
through
the labyrinth of gaping foundations, broken beams,
standing
water who knew how deep, slipping down drifts
of
charred wood chips and racing toward the open black
mouth
of the Gates. Her heart hammering achingly in her
chest,
Jenny stretched her mageborn senses toward the
Gate,
straining to hear. The cold, tingling air seemed to
breathe
with the dragon's mind. Somewhere in that dark-
ness
was the slithery drag of metallic scales on stone...
There
was no way to call the image of the dragon in
her
scrying-stone, but she sat down suddenly where she
was on
the loose, charred rubble of the slope and pulled
the
slip of dirty-white crystal upon its chain from her
jacket
pocket. She heard Gareth call her name from the
top of
the slope, but she vouchsafed neither answer nor
glance.
Across the Vale, Osprey leaped the split ruin of
the
demolished Gates on the granite steps, cool blue shad-
ows falling
over him and his rider like a cloak as the Gate
swallowed
them up.
There
was a flick and a gleam, as the wan sunlight
caught
in the facets of the jewel. Then Jenny caught a
confused
impression of hewn stone walls that could have
encompassed
the entire palace of Bel, a cavem-ceiling
bristling
with stone teeth from which old lamp-chains hung
down
into vast, cobalt spaces of air... black doorways
piercing
the walls, and the greatest of them opening oppo-
site.
...
Jenny
cupped her hands around the jewel, trying to
see
into its depths, straining past the curtains of illusion
that
covered the dragon from her sight. She thought she
saw the
flash of diffuse sunlight on chain mail and saw
Osprey
trip on the charred debris of blackened bones and
spilled
coins and half-bumed poles that littered the floor.
She saw
John pull him out of the stumble and saw the
gleam
of the harpoon in his hand... Then something
spurted
from the inner doors, like a drench of thrown
bathwater,
splattering viscously into the dry ash of the
floor,
searing upward in a curtain of fire.
There
was a darkness in the crystal and in that dark-
ness,
two burning silver lamps.
Nothing
existed around her, not the cool shift of the
morning
air, nor the sunlight wanning her ankles in her
buckskin
boots where her heels rested on the chopped-
up
slope of gravel and weeds, not the wintry smell of
water
and stone from below, nor the small noises of the
restless
horses above. Cupped in her hands, the edges of
the
crystal seemed to burn in white light, but its heart
was
dark; through that darkness only fragmentary images
came-a
sense of something moving that was vast and
dark,
the swinging curve of John's body as he flung a
harpoon,
and the cloudy swirls of blinding fumes.
In some
way she knew Osprey had gone down, smitten
by the
stroke of the dragon's tail. She had a brief impres-
sion of
John on his knees, his eyes red and swollen from
the
acrid vapors that filled the hall, aiming for another
throw.
Something like a wing of darkness covered him.
She saw
flame again and, as a queer, detached image,
three
harpoons lying like scattered jackstraws in the mid-
dle of
a puddle of blackened and steaming slime. Some-
thing
within her turned to ice; there was only darkness
and
movement in the darkness, and then John again, blood
pouring
through the rips in his mail shirt, staring up at a
towering
shape of glittering shadow, his sword in his hand.
Blackness
swallowed the crystal. Jenny was aware that
her
hands were shaking, her whole body hurting with a
pain
that radiated from a seed of cold under her breast-
bone,
her throat a bundle of twisted wires. She thought
blindly,
John, remembering him striding with graceful
insouciance
into Zyeme's dining room, his armor of out-
rageousness
protecting him from Zyeme's claws; she
remembered
the flash of autumn daylight on his specs as
he
stood ankle-deep in pig muck at the Hold, reaching up
his
hands to help her dismount.
She
could not conceive of what life would be like with-
out
that fleeting, triangular grin.
Then
somewhere in her mind she heard him call out
to her:
Jenny...
She
found him lying just beyond the edge of the trap-
ezoid
of light that fell through the vast square of the Gates.
She had
left Moon Horse outside, tossing her head in fear
at the
acrid reek of the dragon that pervaded all that end
of the
Vale. Jenny's own heart was pounding, so that it
almost
turned her sick; all the way across the ruins of
Deeping
she had been waiting for the dark shape of the
dragon
to emerge from the Gates.
But
nothing had come forth. The silence within the
darkness
was worse than any sound could have been.
After
the brightness of the Vale, the blue vaults of the
Market
Hall seemed almost black. The air was murky
with
vapors that diffused what little light there was. The
trapped
fumes burned her eyes and turned her dizzy, mixed
with
the smoke of burning and the heavy reek of poisoned
slag.
Even with a wizard's sight, it took Jenny's eyes a
moment
to accustom themselves. Then sickness came
over
her, as if the blood that lay spread everywhere had
come
from her body, rather than John's.
He lay
with his face hidden by his outflung arm, the
mail
coif dragged back and the hair beneath it matted with
blood
where it had not been singed away. Blood lay in a
long,
inky trail behind him, showing where he had crawled
after
the fight was over, past the carcass of the horse
Osprey,
leading like a sticky path to the vast, dark bulk
of the
dragon.
The
dragon lay still, like a shining mound of obsidian
knives.
Supine, it was a little higher than her waist, a
glittering
blacksnake nearly forty feet long, veiled in the
white
smoke of its poisons and the darkness of its magic,
harpoons
sticking from it like darts. One foreleg lay
stretched
out toward John, as if with its last strength it
had
reached to tear him, and the great talon lay like a
skeleton
hand in a pool of leaked black blood. The atmos-
phere
all about it seemed heavy, filled with a sweet, clear
singing
that Jenny thought was as much within her skull
as
outside of it. It was a song with words she could not
understand;
a song about stars and cold and the long,
ecstatic
plunge through darkness. The tune was half-
familiar,
as if she had heard a phrase of it once, long ago,
and had
carried it since in her dreams.
Then
the dragon Morkeleb raised his head, and for a
time
she looked into his eyes.
They
were like lamps, a crystalline white kaleidoscope,
cold
and sweet and burning as the core of a flame. It
struck
her with a sense of overwhelming shock that she
looked
into the eyes of a mage like herself. It was an alien
intelligence,
clean and cutting as a sliver of black glass.
There
was something terrible and fascinating about those
eyes;
the singing in her mind was like a voice speaking
to her
in words she almost understood. She felt a calling
within
her to the hungers that had all of her life consumed
her.
With a
desperate wrench, she pulled her thoughts from
it and
turned her eyes aside.
She
knew then why the legends warned never to look
into a
dragon's eyes. It was not only because the dragon
could
snag some part of your soul and paralyze you with
indecision
while it struck.
It was
because, in pulling away, you left some shred
of
yourself behind, snared in those ice-crystal depths.
She
turned to flee, to leave that place and those too-
knowing
eyes, to run from the singing that whispered to
the
harmonics of her bones. She would have run, but her
booted
foot brushed something as she turned. Looking
down to
the man who lay at her feet, she saw for the first
time
that his wounds still bted.
CHAPTER
X
"HE
CAN'T BE dying!"- Gareth finished laying a heap
of
fresh-cut branches beside the low fire and turned to
Jenny,
his eyes pleading with her. As if. Jenny thought,
with
what power was left in her numbed mind, his saying
could
make it so.
Without
speaking, she leaned across to touch the ice-
cold
face of the man who lay covered with plaids and
bearskins,
so close to the flickering blaze.
Her
mind felt blunted, like a traveler lost in the woods
who
returned again and again to the same place, unable
to
struggle clear.
She had
known that it would come to this, when first
she had
taken him into her life. She should never have
yielded
to the mischief in those brown eyes. She should
have
sent him away and not given in to that weak part of
herself
that whispered: I want a friend.
She
stood up and shook out her skirts, pulling her plaid
more
tightly around her sheepskin jacket. Gareth was
watching
her with frightened dog eyes, hurt and pleading;
he
followed her over to the heap of the packs on the other
side of
the fire.
She
could have had her fill of lovers. There were always
those
who would lie with a witch for the novelty of it or
for the
luck it was said to bring. Why had she let him stay
until
morning and talked to him as if he were not a man
and an
enemy whom she knew even then would fetter her
soul?
Why had she let him touch her heart as well as her
body?
The
night was dead-still, the sky dark save for the white
disc of
the waxing moon. Its ghostly light barely outlined
the
broken bones of the empty town below. A log settled
in the
dying fire; the spurt of light touched a spangle of
red on
the twisted links of John's mail shirt and glimmered
stickily
on the upturned palm of one blistered hand. Jenny
felt
her whole body one open wound of grief.
We
change what we touch, she thought. Why had she
let him
change her? She had been happy, alone with her
magic.
The key to magic is magic-she should have held
to that
from the start. She had known even then that he
was a
man who would give his life to help others, even
others
not his own.
If he
had waited for Zyeme...
She
pushed the thought away with bitter violence,
knowing
Zyeme's magic could have saved him. All day
she had
wanted to weep, not only with grief, but with
anger
at herself for all the choices of the past.
Thin
and plaintive as a child's, Gareth's voice broke
into
her circle of stumbling self-hate. "Isn't there anything
that
you can do?"
"I
have done what I can," she replied wearily. "I have
washed
his wounds and stitched them shut, laid spells of
healing
upon them. The dragon's blood is a poison in his
veins,
and he has lost too much blood of his own."
"But
surely there's something..." In the brief gleam
of the
fire, she could see that he had been weeping. Her
own
soul felt cold now and drained as John's flesh.
"You
have asked me that seven times since it grew
dark,"
she said. "This is beyond my skills-beyond the
medicines
that I have-beyond my magic."
She
tried to tell herself that, even had she not loved
him,
even had she not given up the time she could have
spent
studying, it would still have been so.
Would
she have been able to save him, if she had not
given
him all those hours; if she had spent all those early
mornings
meditating among the stones in the solitude of
the
hilltop instead of lying talking in his bed?
Or
would she only have been a little bleaker, a little
madder-a
little more like the worst side of herself-a
little
more like Caerdinn?
She did
not know, and the hurt of that was almost as
bad as
the hurt of suspecting that she did know.
But she
had only her own small powers-spells worked
one
rune at a time, patiently, in the smallest increments
of
thought. She slowed and calmed her mind, as she did
when
she worked magic, and realized she could not cure
him.
What then could she do for him? What had Mab
said,
when she had spoken of healing?
She ran
her hands through her long hair, shifting the
weight
of it from her face and neck. Her shoulders hurt
with
cramp; she had not slept in two nights, and her body
ached.
"The
most we can do now is keep heating stones in
the
fire to put around him," she said at last. "We must
keep
him warm."
Gareth
swallowed and wiped his nose. "Just that?"
"For
now, yes. If he seems a little stronger in the mom-
ing, we
may be able to move him." But she knew in her
heart
that he would not live until morning. Like a whis-
pering
echo, the vision in the water bowl returned to her,
a
bitter nightmare of failed hope.
Hesitantly,
Gareth offered, "There are physicians up
at
Halnath. Polycarp, for one."
"And
an army around its walls." Her voice sounded
very
cold to her own ears. "If he's still alive in the morning
... I
didn't want you to risk putting yourself once again
where
Zyeme might reach you, but in the morning, I think
you
should take Battlehammer and ride back to Bel."
Gareth
looked frightened at the mention of Zyeme's
name
and at the thought of possibly facing her alone, but
he
nodded. Jenny was interested to note, in some detached
portion
of her tired soul, that, having sought all his life
for
heroism, while Gareth might now flinch from it, he
did not
flee.
She
went on, "Go to the house of the gnomes and fetch
Miss
Mab here. The medicines of the gnomes may be
locked
away in the Deep, but..." Her voice trailed off.
Then
she repeated softly, "The medicines of the gnomes."
Like
pins and needles in a numbed limb, the hurt of
hope
renewed as a sudden wash of agony. She whispered,
"Gareth,
where are John's maps?"
Gareth
blinked at her uncomprehendingly, too preoc-
cupied
for the moment with his own fears of Zyerne to
realize
what she was getting at. Then he gave a start, and
hope
flooded into his face, and he let out a whoop that
could
have been heard in Bel. 'The Places of Healing!"
he
cried, and threw his arms around her, sweeping her
off her
feet. "I knew it!" he shouted, with all his old forlorn
cockiness.
"I knew you could think of something! You
can..."
"You
don't know anything of the kind." She fought
free of
him, angry at him for expressing what was already
surging
through her veins like a swig of cheap brandy.
She
brushed past him and almost ran to John's side, while
Gareth,
gamboling like a large puppy, began to ransack
the
camp for the maps.
If
there was anything worse than the pain of despair,
she
thought, it was the pain of hope. At least despair is
restful.
Her own heart was hammering as she brushed
aside
the russet hair from John's forehead, almost black-
looking
now against the bloodless flesh. Her mind was
racing
ahead, ticking off the remedies Mab had spoken
of:
distillations to slow and strengthen the thready heart-
beat;
salves to promote the healing of the flesh; and phil-
ters to
counteract poison and give him back the blood he
had
lost. There would be spell-books, too, she thought,
hidden
in the Places of Healing, words with which to bind
the
soul to the flesh, until the flesh itself could recover.
She
could find them, she told herself desperately, she
must.
But the knowledge of what was at stake lay on her
heart like
stones. For a moment she felt so tired that she
almost
wished for his death, because it would require no
further
striving from her and threaten her with no further
failure.
Holding
his icy hands, she slid for a moment into the
outer
fringes of the healing trance and whispered to him
by his
inner name. But it was as if she called at the head
of a
descending trail along which he had long since
passed-there
was no answer.
But
there was something else. In her trance she heard
it, a
soft touch of sound that twisted her heart with fright-
the
slur of scales on rock, the shiver of alien music.
Her
eyes opened; she found herself shaking and cold.
The
dragon was alive.
"Jenny?"
Gareth came nattering over to her side, his
hands
full of creased bits of dirty papyrus. "I found them,
but-but
the Places of Healing aren't on them." His eyes
were
filled with worry behind the cracked, crazy specs.
"I've
looked..."
Jenny
took them from his hand with fingers that shook.
In the
firelight she could make out passages, caverns,
rivers,
all marked in Dromar's strong, runic hand, and the
blank
spots, unmarked and unlabeled. The affair of the
gnomes.
Anger
wrenched at her, and she threw the maps from
her.
"Damn Dromar and his secrets," she whispered
viciously.
"Of course the Places of Healing are the heart
of the
Deep that they all swear by!"
"But-"
Gareth stammered weakly. "Can you-can
you
find them anyway?"
Fury
welled up in her, of hope thwarted, first by fear
and now
by one gnome's stubbornness, like molten rock
pouring
through the cracks of exhaustion in her soul. "In
those
warrens?" she demanded. For a moment anger,
weariness,
and the knowledge of the dragon claimed her,
tearing
at her so that she could have screamed and called
down
the lightning to rive apart the earth.
As
Zyeme did, she told herself, fighting for calm. She
closed
her fists, one around the other, and pressed her
lips
against them, willing the rage and the fear to pass;
and
when they passed, there was nothing left. It was as
if the
unvoiced scream had burned everything out of her
and
left only a well of dark and unnatural calm, a universe
deep.
Gareth
was still looking at her, his eyes pleading. She
said
quietly, "Maybe. Mab spoke of the way. I may be
able to
reason it out." Mab had also said that one false
step
would condemn her to a death by starvation, wan-
dering
in darkness.
Like an
answer, she knew at once what John would
have
said to that-God's Grandmother, Jen, the dra-
gon'11
eat you before you get a chance to starve.
Trust
John, she thought, to make me laugh at a time
like
this.
She got
to her feet, chilled to the bone and feeling a
hundred
years old, and walked to the packs once more.
Gareth
trailed along after her, hugging his crimson cloak
about
himself for warmth and chattering on about one
thing
and another; locked in that strange stasis of calm,
Jenny
scarcely heard.
It was
only as she slung her big satchel about her shoul-
der and
picked up her halberd that he seemed to feel her
silence.
"Jenny," he said doubtfully, catching the edge of
her
plaid. "Jenny-the dragon is dead, isn't it? I mean,
the
poison did work, didn't it? It must have, if you were
able to
get John out of there..."
"No,"
Jenny said quietly. She wondered a little at the
weird
silence within her; she had felt more fear listening
for the
Whisperers in the Woods ofWyr than she did now.
She
started to move off toward the darkness of the shadow-
drowned
ruins. Gareth ran around in front of her and
caught
her by the arms.
"But-that
is-how long..."
She
shook her head. 'Too long, almost certainly." She
put her
hand on his wrist to move him aside. Having made
up her
mind what she must do, she wanted it over with,
though
she knew she would never succeed.
Gareth
swallowed hard, his thin face working in the
low
ruby light of the fire. "I-I'll go," he volunteered
shakily.
"Tell me what I should look for, and I..."
For an
instant, laughter threatened to crack all her
hard-won
resolve-not laughter at him, but at the wan
gallantry
that impelled him, like the hero of a ballad, to
take
her place. But he would not have understood how
she
loved him for the offer, absurd as it was; and if she
began
to laugh she would cry, and that weakness she knew
she
could not now afford. So she only stood on her toes
and
pulled his shoulders down so that she could kiss his
soft,
thin cheek. "Thank you, Gareth," she murmured.
"But
I can see in the darkness, and you cannot, and I
know
what I seek."
"Really,"
he persisted, torn visibly between relief at
her
refusal, awareness that she was in fact far better suited
than he
for the task, a lifetime of chivalric precept, and
a very
real desire to protect her from harm.
"No,"
she said gently. "Just see that John stays warm.
If I
don't come back..." Her voice faltered at the knowl-
edge of
what lay before her-the death by the dragon, or
the
death within the maze. She forced strength into her
words.
"Do what seems best to you, but don't try to move
him too
soon."
The
admonition was futile, and she knew it. She tried
to
remember Mab's words regarding the lightless laby-
rinths
of the Deep and they slid from her mind like a
fistful
of water, leaving only the recollection of the shining
wheels
of diamond that were the dragon's watching eyes.
But she
had to reassure Gareth; and while John breathed,
she
knew she could never have remained in camp.
She
squeezed Gareth's hand and withdrew from him.
Hitching
her plaids higher on her shoulder, she turned
toward
the shadowy trails through the Vale and the dark
bulk of
Nast Wall that loomed against a sullen and pitchy
sky.
Her final glimpse of John was of the last glow of the
dying
fire that outlined the shape of his nose and lips
against
the darkness.
Long
before she reached the Great Gates of the Deep,
Jenny
was aware of the singing. As she crossed the frost-
skimmed
stones of the ruins, bled of all their daytime
color
by the feeble wash of the moonlight, she felt it-a
hunger,
a yearning, and a terrifying beauty, far beyond
her
comprehension. It intruded into her careful piecing-
together
of those fragmentary memories of Mab's remarks
about
the Places of Healing, broke even into her fears for
John.
It seemed to float around her in the air, and yet she
knew
that it could only be heard by her; it shivered in
her
bones, down to her very finger ends. When she stood
in the
Gates with the blackness of the Market Hall lying
before
her and her own shadow a diffuse smudge on the
scuffed
and blood-gummed refuse of the floor, it was almost
overwhelming.
There
was no sound to it, but its rhythm called her
blood.
Braided images that she could neither completely
sense
nor wholly understand twisted through her con-
sciousness-knots
of memory, of starry darkness that
sunlight
had never seen, of the joyous exhaustion of phys-
ical
love whose modes and motives were strange to her,
and of
mathematics and curious relationships between
things
that she had never known were akin. It was stronger
and
very different from the singing that had filled the gully
when
the Golden Dragon ofWyr lay gasping its last. There
was a
piled strength in it of years lived fully and of patterns
comprehended
across unknowable gulfs of time.
The
dragon was invisible in the darkness. She heard
the
soft scrape of his scales and guessed him to be lying
across
the inner doors of the Market Hall, that led to the
Grand
Passage and so into the Deep. Then the silver lamps
of his
eyes opened and seemed to glow softly in the
reflected
moonlight, and in her mind the singing flowed
and
intensified its colors into the vortex of a white core.
In that
core words formed.
Have
you come seeking medicines, wizard woman? Or
is that
weapon you carry simply what you have deluded
yourself
into thinking sufficient to finish what your poi-
sons do
too slowly for your convenience'!
The
words were almost pictures, music and patterns
shaped
as much by her own soul as by his. They would
hurt,
she thought, if allowed to sink too deeply.
"I
have come seeking medicines," she replied, her voice
reverberating
against the fluted dripstone of the toothed
ceiling.
"The power of the Places of Healing was every-
where
renowned."
This I
knew. There was a knot of gnomes that held out
in the
place where they took au the wounded. The door
was
low, but I could reach through it like a wolf raiding
a bury
of rabbits. I fed upon them for many days, until
they
were all gone. They had the wherewithal to make
poisons
there, too. They poisoned the carrion, as if they
did not
think that I could see the death that tainted the
meat.
This will be the place that you seek.
Because
he spoke partially in pictures, she glimpsed
also
the dark ways into the place, like a half-remembered
dream
in her mind. Her hope stirred, and she fixed the
pictures
in her thoughts-tiny fragments, but perhaps
enough
to serve.
With
her wizard's sight she could distinguish him now,
stretched
before her across the doors in the darkness. He
had dislodged
the harpoons from his throat and belly, and
they
lay blackened with his blood in the muck of slime
and ash
on the floor. The thorny scales of his back and
sides
lay sleek now, their edges shining faintly in the dim
reflection
of the moon. The heavy ridges of spikes that
guarded
his backbone and the joints of his legs still bristled
like
weapons. The enormous wings lay folded neatly along
his
sides, and their joints, too, she saw, were armored
and
spined. His head fascinated her most, long and narrow
and
birdlike, its shape concealed under a mask of bony
plates.
From those plates grew a vast mane of ribbonlike
scales,
mingled with tufts of fur and what looked like
growths
of ferns and feathers; his long, delicate antennae
with
their glittering bobs of jet lay limp upon the ground
around
his head. He lay like a dog, his chin between his
forepaws;
but the eyes that burned into hers were the
eyes of
a mage who is also a beast.
J n'(7/
bargain with you, wizard woman.
She
knew, with chill premonition but no surprise what
his
bargain would be, and her heart quickened, though
whether
with dread or some strange hope she did not
know.
She said, "No," but within herself she felt, like a
forbidden
longing, the unwillingness to let something this
beautiful,
this powerful, die. He was evil, she told herself,
knowing
and believing it in her heart. Yet there was some-
thing
in those silver eyes that drew her, some song of
black
and latent fire whose music she understood.
The
dragon moved his head a little on the powerful
curve
of his neck. Blood dripped down from the tattered
ribbons
of his mane.
Do you
think that even you, a wizard who sees in dark-
ness,
can search out the ways of the gnomes'?
The
pictures that filled her mind were of the darkness,
of
clammy and endless mazes of the world underground.
Her
heart sank with dread at the awareness of them; those
few
small images of the way to the Places of Healing,
those
fragmentary words of Mab's, turned in her hands
to the
pebbles with which a child thinks it can slaughter
lions.
Still
she said, "I have spoken to one of them of these
ways."
And did
she tell the truth? The gnomes are not famed
for it
in matters concerning the heart of the Deep.
Jenny
remembered the empty places on Dromar's maps.
But she
retorted, "Nor are dragons."
Beneath
the exhaustion and pain, she felt in the drag-
on's
mind amusement at her reply, like a thin spurt of
cold
water in hot.
What is
truth, wizard woman? The truth that dragons
see is
not pleasant to the human eyes, however uncom-
fortably
comprehensible it may be to their hearts. You
know
this.
She saw
that he had felt her fascination. The silver
eyes
drew her; his mind touched hers, as a seducer would
have
touched her hand. She saw, also, that he understood
that
she would not draw back from that touch. She forced
her
thoughts away from him, holding to the memories of
John
and of their sons, against the power that called to
her
like a whisper of amorphous night.
With
effort, she tore her eyes from his and turned to
leave.
Wizard
woman, do you think this man for whom you
risk
the bones of your body will live longer than I?
She
stopped, the toes of her boots touching the hem
\
of the
carpet of moonlight which lay upon the flagstoned
floor.
Then she turned back to face him, despairing and
torn.
The wan light showed her the pools of acrid blood
drying
over so much of the floor, the sunken look to the
dragon's
flesh; and she realized that his question had struck
at her
weakness and despair to cover his own.
She
said calmly, "There is the chance that he will."
She
felt the anger in the movement of his head, and
the
pain that sliced through him with it. And will you
wager
on that? Will you wager that, even did the gnomes
speak
the truth, you will be able to sort your way through
their
warrens, spiral within spiral, dark within dark, to
find
what you need in time? Heal me, wizard woman, and
I will
guide you with my mind and show you the place
that
you seek.
For a
time she only gazed up at that long bulk of shining
blackness,
the dark mane of bloody ribbons, and the eyes
like
oiled metal ringing eternal darkness. He was a wonder
such as
she had never seen, a spined and supple shadow
from
the thomed tips of his backswept wings to the honied
beak of
his nose. The Golden Dragon John had slain on
the
windswept hills of Wyr had been a being of sun and
fire,
but this was a smoke-wraith of night, black and strong
and old
as time. The spines of his head grew into fantastic
twisted
homs, icy-smooth as steel; his forepaws had the
shape
of hands, save that they had two thumbs instead
of one.
The voice that spoke in her mind was steady, but
she
could see the weakness dragging at every line of that
great
body and feel the faint shiver of the last taut strength
that
fought to continue the bluff against her.
Unwillingly,
she said, "I know nothing of the healing
of
dragons."
The
silver eyes narrowed, as if she had asked him for
something
he had not thought to give. For a moment they
faced
one another, cloaked in the cave's darkness. She
was
aware of John and of time-distantly, like something
urgent
in a dream. But she kept her thoughts concentrated
upon
the creature that lay before her and the diamond-
prickled
darkness of that alien mind that struggled with
hers.
Then
suddenly the gleaming body convulsed. She felt,
through
the silver eyes, the pain like a scream through
the
steel ropes of his muscles. The wings stretched out
uncontrollably,
the claws extending in a terrible spasm as
the
poison shifted in his veins. The voice in her mind
whispered.
Go,
At the
same moment memories flooded her thoughts
of a
place she had never been before. Vague images
crowded
to her mind of blackness as vast as the night
outdoors,
columned with a forest of stone trees that whis-
pered
back the echo of every breath, of rock seams a few
yards
across whose ceilings were lost in distant darkness,
and of
the murmuring of endless water under stone. She
felt a
vertigo of terror as in a nightmare, but also a queer
sense
of deja vu, as if she had passed that way before.
It came
to her that it was Morkeleb and not she who
had
passed that way; the images were the way to the
Places
of Healing, the very heart of the Deep.
The
spined black body before her twisted with another
paroxysm
of anguish, the huge tail slashing like a whip
against
the rock of the wall. The pain was visible now in
the
silver eyes as the poison ate into the dragon's blood.
Then
his body dropped slack, a dry clatter of horns and
spines
like a skeleton falling on a stone floor, and from a
great
distance off she heard again. Go.
His
scales had all risen in a blanket of razors at his
agony;
quiveringly, they smoothed themselves flat along
the
sunken sides. Jenny gathered her courage and strode
forward;
without giving herself time to think of what she
was
doing, she scrambled over the waist-high hill of the
ebony
flank that blocked the doorway of the Grand Tun-
nel.
The backbone ridge was like a hedge of spears, thrust-
ing
stiffly from the unsteady footing of the hide. Kilting
up her
skirt, she put a hand to steady herself on the carved
stone
pillar of the doorjamb and leaped over the spines
awkwardly,
fearing to the last that some renewed con-
vulsion
would thrust them into her thighs.
But the
dragon lay quiet. Jenny could sense only the
echoes
of his mind within hers, like a faint gleam of far-
off
light. Before her stretched the darkness of the Deep.
If she
thought about them, the visions she had seen
retreated
from her. But she found that if she simply walked
forward,
as if she had trodden this way before, her feet
would
lead her. Dream memories whispered through her
mind of
things she had seen, but sometimes the angle of
sight
was different, as if she had looked down upon them
from
above.
The
upper levels of the Deep were dry, wrought by the
gnomes
after the fashion of the tastes of men. The Grand
Passage,
thirty feet broad and paved in black granite,
worn
and runnelled with the track of uncounted genera-
tions
of feet, had been walled with blocks of cut stone to
hide
the irregularities of its shape; broken statues lying
like
scattered bones in the dark attested the classical
appearance
of the place in its heyday. Among the frag-
mented
whiteness of the marble limbs lay real bones, and
with
them the twisted bronze frames and shattered glass
of the
huge lamps that had once depended from the high
ceiling,
all scraped together along the walls, like leaves
in a
gutter, by the passage of the dragon's body. Even in
the
darkness, Jenny's wizard's sight showed her the fire-
blackening
where the spilled oil had been ignited by the
dragon's
breath.
Deeper
down, the place had the look of the gnomes.
Stalagmites
and columns ceased to be carved into the
straight
pillars favored by the children of men, and were
wrought
into the semblance of trees in leaf, or beasts, or
grotesque
things that could have been either; more and
more
frequently they had simply been left to keep the
original
shape of pouring water which had been their own.
The
straight, handsomely finished water courses of the
higher
levels gave place to tumbling streams in the lower
deeps;
in some places the water fell straight, fifty or a
hundred
feet from distant ceilings, like a living pillar, or
gushed
away into darkness through conduits shaped like
the
skulls of gargoyles. Jenny passed through caverns and
systems
of caves that had been transformed into the vast,
interconnected
dwelling places of the great clans and fam-
ilies
of the gnomes, but elsewhere she found halls and
rooms
large enough to contain all the village of Deeping,
where
houses and palaces had been built freestanding,
their
bizarre spires and catwalks indistinguishable from
the
groves of stalagmites that clustered in strange forests
on the
banks of pools and rivers like polished onyx.
And
through these silent realms of wonder she saw
nothing
but the evidences of ruin and decay and the scrap-
ing
track of the dragon. White ur-toads were everywhere,
squabbling
with rats over the rotting remains of stored
food or
month-old carrion; in some places, the putrescent
fetor
of what had been hoards of cheese, meat, or vege-
tables
was nearly unbreathable. The white, eyeless ver-
min of
the deeper pits, whose names she could only guess
at from
Mab's accounts, slipped away at her approach,
or hid
themselves behind the fire-marked skulls and
dropped
vessels of chased silver that everywhere scat-
tered
the halls.
As she
went deeper, the air became cold and very
damp,
the stone increasingly slimy beneath her boots; the
weight
of the darkness was crushing. As she walked the
lightless
mazes, she understood that Mab had been right;
without
guidance, even she, whose eyes could pierce that
utter
darkness, would never have found her way to the
heart
of the Deep.
But
find it she did. The echo of it was in the dragon's
mind,
setting up queer resonances in her soul, a lamina-
tion of
feelings and awareness whose alien nature she
shrank
from, uncomprehending. Beside its doors, she felt
the
aura of healing that lingered still in the air, and the
faint
breath of ancient power.
All
through that series of caverns, the air was warm,
smelling
of dried camphor and spices; the putrid stench
of
decay and the crawling vermin were absent. Stepping
through
the doors into the domed central cavern, where
ghost-pale
stalactites regarded themselves in the oiled
blackness
of a central pool, she wondered how great a
spell
it would take to hold that healing warmth, not only
against
the cold in the abysses of the earth, but for so
long
after those who had wrought the spell had perished.
The
magic here was great indeed.
It
pervaded the place; as she passed cautiously through
the
rooms of meditation, of dreaming, or of rest. Jenny
was
conscious of it as a living presence, rather than the
stasis
of dead spells. At times the sensation of it grew so
strong
that she looked back over her shoulder and called
out to
the darkness, "Is someone there?" though in her
reason
she knew there was not. But as with the Whis-
perers
in the north, her feelings argued against her reason,
and
again and again she extended her senses through that
dark
place, her heart pounding in hope or fear-she could
not
tell which. But she touched nothing, nothing but dark-
ness
and the drip of water falling eternally from the hang-
ing
teeth of the stones.
There
was living magic there, whispering to itself in
darkness-and
like the touch of some foul thing upon her
flesh,
she felt the sense of evil.
She
shivered and glanced around her nervously once
more.
In a small room, she found the medicines she sought,
row
after row of glass phials and stoppered jars of the
green-and-white
marbled ware the gnomes made in such
quantity.
She read their labels in the darkness and stowed
them in
her satchel, working quickly, partly from a grow-
ing
sense of uneasiness and partly because she felt time
leaking
away and John's life ebbing like the going-out of
the
tide.
He
can't die, she told herself desperately, not after all
this-but
she had come too late to too many bedsides in
her
years as a healer to believe that. Still, she knew that
the
medicines alone might not be enough. Hastily, glanc-
ing
back over her shoulder as she moved from room to
dark
and silent room, she began searching for the inner
places
of power, the libraries where they would store the
books
and scrolls of magic that, she guessed, made up
the true
heart of the Deep.
Her
boots swished softly on the sleek floors, but even
that
small noise twisted at her nerves. The floors of the
rooms,
like all the places inhabited by gnomes, were never
at one
level, but made like a series of terraces; even the
smallest
chambers had two or more. And as she searched,
the
eerie sense of being watched grew upon her, until she
feared
to pass through new doors, half-expecting to meet
some
evil thing gloating in the blackness. She felt a power,
stronger
than any she had encountered-stronger than
Zyerne's,
stronger than the dragon's. But she found noth-
ing,
neither that waiting, silent evil, nor any book of power
by
which magic would be transmitted down the years
among
the gnome mages-only herbals, anatomies, or
catalogs
of diseases and cures. In spite of her uneasy fear,
she
felt puzzled-Mab had said that the gnomes had no
Lines,
yet surely the power had to be transmitted some-
how. So
she forced herself to seek, deeper and deeper,
for the
books that must contain it.
Exhaustion
was beginning to weaken her like slow ill-
ness.
Last night's watching and the night's before weighed
her
bones, and she knew she would have to abandon her
search.
But knowledge of her own inadequacy drove her,
questing
inward into the forbidden heart of the Deep,
desperate
to find what she might before she returned to
the
surface to do what she could with what she had.
She
stepped through a door into a dark place that echoed
with
her breathing.
She had
felt cold before, but it seemed nothing now;
nothing
compared to the dread that congealed around her
heart.
She
stood in the place she had seen in the water bowl,
in the
visions of John's death.
It
shocked her, for she had come on it unexpectedly.
She had
thought to find an archive there, a place of teach-
ing,
for she guessed this to be the heart and center of the
blank
places on Dromar's ambiguous maps. But through
a
knotted forest of stalactites and columns, she glimpsed
only
empty darkness that smelled faintly of the wax of a
thousand
candles, which slumped like dead things in the
niches
of the rock. No living thing was there, but she felt
again
that sense of evil and she stepped cautiously forward
into
the open spaces of black toward the misshapen stone
altar.
She
laid her hands upon the blue-black, soapy-feeling
stone.
In her vision the place had been filled with mut-
tering
whispers, but now there was only silence. For a
moment,
dark swirlings seemed to stir in her mind, the
inchoate
whisperings of fragmentary visions, but they
passed
like a groundswell, leaving no more aftertaste than
a
dream.
Still,
they seemed to take from her the last of her
strength
and her will; she felt bitterly weary and suddenly
very
frightened of the place. Though she heard no sound,
she
whirled, her heart beating so that she could almost
hear
its thudding echo in the dark. There was evil there,
somewhere-she
knew it now, felt it close enough to leer
over
her shoulder. Shifting the bulging satchel upon her
shoulder,
she hastened like a thief across the slithery dark-
ness of
the gnomes' dancing floor, seeking the ways that
would
lead her out of the darkness, back to the air above.
Morkeleb's
mind had guided her down into the abyss,
but she
could feel no touch of it now. She followed the
marks
she had made, runes that only she could see, drawn
upon
the walls with her forefinger. As she ascended through
the
dark rock seams and stairs of amber flowstone, she
wondered
if the dragon were dead. A part of her hoped
that he
was, for the sake of the people of these lands, for
the
gnomes, and for the Master; a part of her felt the same
grief
that she had, standing above the dragon's corpse in
the
gully ofWyr. But there was something about that grief
that
made her hope still more that the dragon was dead,
for
reasons she hesitated to examine.
The
Grand Passage was as dark as the bowels of the
Deep
had been, bereft of even the little moonlight that
had
leaked in to illuminate it before; but even in the utter
darkness,
the air here was different-cold but dry and
moving,
unlike the still, brooding watchfulness of the heart
of the
Deep.
Her
wizard's sight showed her the dark, bony shape
of the
dragon's haunch lying across the doorway, the bris-
tling
spears of his backbone pointing inward toward her.
As she
came nearer she saw how sunken the scaled skin
lay on
the curve of the bone.
Listen
as she would, she heard no murmur of his mind.
But,
the music that had seemed to fill the Market Hall
echoed
there still, faint and piercing, with molten shivers
of
dying sound.
He was
unconscious-dying, she thought. Do you think
this
man will live longer than I? he had asked.
Jenny
unslung her plaid from her shoulder and laid the
thick
folds over the cutting knives of the dragon's spine.
The
edges drove through the cloth; she added the heavy
sheepskin
of her jacket and, shivering as the outer cold
sliced
through the thin sleeves of her shift, worked her
foot
onto the largest of the spines. Catching the doorpost
once
again for leverage, she swung herself nimbly up and
over.
For an instant she balanced on the haunch, feeling
the
slender suppleness of the bones under the steel scales
and the
soft heat that radiated from the dragon's body;
then
she sprang down. She stood for a moment, listening
with
her ears and her mind.
The
dragon made no move. The Market Hall lay before
her,
blue-black and ivory with the feeble trickle of starlight
that
seemed so bright after the utter night below the ground.
Even
though the moon had set, every pot sherd and skewed
lampframe
seemed to Jenny's eyes outlined in brightness,
every
shadow like spilled ink. The blood was drying,
though
the place stank of it. Osprey still lay in a smeared
pool of
darkness, surrounded by glinting harpoons. The
night
felt very old. A twist of wind brought her the smell
of
woodsmoke from the fire on Tanner's Rise.
Like a
ghost Jenny crossed the hall, shivering in the
dead
cold. It was only when she reached the open night
of the
steps that she began to run.
CHAPTER
XI
AT DAWN
SHE felt John's hand tighten slightly around
her
own.
Two
nights ago she had worked the death-spells, weav-
ing an
aura of poison and ruin-the circles of them still
lay
scratched in the earth at the far end of the Rise. She
had not
slept more than an hour or so the night before
that,
somewhere on the road outside Bel, curled in John's
arms.
Now the drifting smoke of the low fire was a smudge
of gray
silk in the pallid morning air, and she felt worn
and
chilled and strange, as if her skin had been sand-
papered
and every nerve lay exposed. Yet she felt strangely
calm.
She had
done everything she could, slowly, meticu-
lously,
step by step, following Miss Mab's remembered
instructions
as if the body she knew so well were a strang-
er's.
She had given him the philters and medicines as the
gnomes
did, by means of a hollow needle driven into the
veins,
and had packed poultices on the wounds to draw
from
them the poison of the dragon's blood. She had
traced
the runes of healing where the marks of the wounds
cut the
paths of life throughout his body, touching them
with
his inner name, the secret of his essence, woven into
the
spells. She had called him patiently, repeatedly, by
the
name that his soul knew, holding his spirit to his body
by what
force of magic she could muster, until the med
icines
could take hold.
She had
not thought that she would succeed. When
she
did, she was exhausted past grief or joy, able to think
no
further than the slight lift of his ribcage and the crease
of his
blackened eyelids with his dreams.
Gareth
said softly, "Will he be all right?" and she nod-
ded.
Looking at the gawky young prince who hunkered
at her
side by the fire, she was struck by his silence.
Perhaps
the closeness of death and the endless weariness
of the
night had sobered him. He had spent the hours
while
she was in the Deep patiently heating stones and
placing
them around John's body as he had been told to
do-a
dull and necessary task, and one to which, she was
almost
certain, she owed the fact that John had still been
alive
when she had returned from the dragon's lair.
Slowly,
her every bone hurting her to move, she put
off the
scuffed scarlet weight of his cloak. She felt scraped
and
aching, and wanted only to sleep. But she stood up,
knowing
there was something else she must do, worse
than
all that had gone before. She stumbled to her med-
icine
bag and brought out the brown tabat leaves she
always carried,
dried to the consistency of leather. Break-
ing two
of them to pieces, she put them in her mouth and
chewed.
Their
wringing bitterness was in itself enough to wake
her,
without their other properties. She had chewed them
earlier
in the night, against the exhaustion that she had
felt
catching up with her while she worked. Gareth watched
her
apprehensively, his long face haggard within the
straggly
frame of his green-tipped hair, and she reflected
that he
must be almost as weary as she. Lines that had
existed
only as brief traces of passing expressions were
etched
there now, from his nostrils to the comers of his
mouth,
and others showed around his eyes when he took
off his
broken spectacles to rub the inner corners of the
lids-lines
that would deepen and settle into his manhood
and his
old age. As she ran her hands through the loosened
cloud
of her hair, she wondered what her own face looked
like,
or would look like after she did what she knew she
must
do.
She
began collecting medicines into her satchel once
more.
"Where
are you going?"
She
found one of John's plaids and wrapped it about
her,
all her movements stiff with weariness. She felt
threadbare
as a piece of worn cloth, but the uneasy strength
of the
tabat leaves was already coursing through her veins.
She
knew she would have to be careful, for the tabat was
like a
usurer; it lent, but it had a way of demanding back
with
interest when one could least afford to pay. The moist
air
felt cold in her lungs; her soul was oddly numb.
"To
keep a promise," she said.
The boy
watched her with trepidation in his earnest
gray
eyes as she shouldered her satchel once more and
set off
through the misty silences of the ruined town toward
the
Gates of the Deep.
"Morkeleb?"
Her
voice dissipated like a thread of mist in the stillness
of the
Market Hall. Vapor and blue morning shadow
cloaked
the Vale outside, and the light here was gray and
sickly.
Before her the dragon lay like a dropped garment
of
black silk, held to shape only by its bonings. One wing
stretched
out, where it had fallen after the convulsions of
the
night before; the long antennae trailed limp among the
ribbons
of the mane. Faint singing still lay upon the air,
drawing
at Jenny's heart.
He had
given her the way through the Deep, she
thought;
it was John's life that she owed him. She tried
to tell
herself that it was for this reason only that she did
not
want that terrible beauty to die.
Her
voice echoed among the upended ivory turrets of
the
roof. "Morkeleb!"
The
humming changed within her mind, and she knew
he
heard. One delicate, crayfish antenna stirred. The lids
of
silver eyes slipped back a bare inch. For the first time
she saw
how delicate those lids were, tinted with subtle
shades
of violet and green within the blackness. Looking
into
the white depths they partly shielded, she felt fear,
but not
fear for her body; she felt again the cross-blowing
winds
of present should and future if, rising up out of the
chasms
of doubt. She summoned calm to her, as she sum-
moned
clouds or the birds of the hawthorn brakes, and
was
rather surprised at the steadiness of her voice.
"Give
me your name."
Life
moved in him then, a gold heat that she felt through
the
singing of the air. Anger and resistance; bitter resis-
tance
to the last.
"I
cannot save you without knowing your name," she
said.
"If you slip beyond the bounds of your flesh, I need
something
by which to call you back."
Still
that molten wrath surged through the weakness
and
pain. She remembered Caerdinn saying, "Save a
dragon,
slave a dragon." At that time, she had not known
why
anyone would wish to save the life of such a creature,
nor how
doing so would place something so great within
your
power. Cock by its feet...
"Morkeleb!"
She walked forward, forgetting her fear
of
him-perhaps through anger and dread that he would
die,
perhaps only through the tabat leaves-and laid her
small
hands on the soft flesh around his eyes. The scales
there
were tinier than the ends of needles. The skin felt
like
dry silk beneath her hand, pulsing with warm life.
She
felt again that sense, half-fright, half-awe, of taking
a step
down a road which should not be trodden, and
wondered
if it would be wiser and better to turn away
and let
him die. She knew what he was. But having touched
him,
having looked into those diamond eyes, she could
more
easily have given up her own life.
In the
glitter of the singing within her mind, one single
air
seemed to detach itself, as if the thread that bound
together
the complex knots of its many harmonies had
suddenly
taken on another color. She knew it immediately
in its
wholeness, from the few truncated fragments Caer-
dinn
had whistled for her in a hedgerow one summer day.
The
music itself was the dragon's name.
It slid
through her fingers, soft as silken ribbons; taking
it, she
began to braid it into her spells, weaving them like
a rope
of crystal around the dragon's fading soul. Through
the
turns of the music, she glimpsed the entrance to the
dark,
starry mazes of his inner mind and heart and, by
the
flickering light of it, seemed to see the paths that she
must
take to the healing of his body.
She had
brought with her the medicines from the Deep,
but she
saw now that they were useless. Dragons healed
themselves
and one another through the mind alone. At
times,
in the hours that followed, she was terrified of this
healing,
at others, only exhausted past anything she had
ever
experienced or imagined, even in the long night
before.
Her weariness grew, encompassing body and brain
in
mounting agony; she felt entangled in a net of light and
blackness,
struggling to draw across some barrier a vast,
cloudy
force that pulled her toward it over that same
frontier.
It was not what she had thought to do, for it had
nothing
to do with the healing of humans or beasts. She
summoned
the last reserves of her own power, digging
forgotten
strengths from the marrow of her bones to battle
for his
life and her own. Holding to the ropes of his life
took
all this strength and more that she did not have; and
in a
kind of delirium, she understood that if he died, she
would
die also, so entangled was her essence in the starry
skeins
of his soul. Small and clear, she got a glimpse of
the
future, like an image in her scrying-stone-that if she
died,
John would die within the day, and Gareth would
last
slightly less than seven years, as a husk slowly hol-
lowed
by Zyeme's perverted powers. Turning from this,
she
clung to the small, rock-steady strength of what she
knew:
old Caerdinn's spells and her own long meditations
in the
solitude among the stones of Frost Fell.
Twice
she called Morkeleb by his name, tangling the
music
of it with the spells she had so laboriously learned
rune by
rune, holding herself anchored to this life with
the
memory of familiar things-the shapes of the leaves
of
plants, gentian and dog's mercury, the tracks of hares
upon
the snow, and wild, vagrant airs played on the
pennywhistle
upon summer nights. She felt the dragon's
strength
stir and the echo of his name return.
She did
not remember sleeping afterward. But she woke
to the
warmth of sunlight on her hair. Through the open
Gates
of the Deep, she could see the looming rock face
of the
cliffs outside drenched with cinnabar and gold by
the
afternoon's slanted light. Turning her head, she saw
that
the dragon had moved and lay sleeping also, great
wings
folded once more and his chin upon his foreclaws
like a
dog. In the shadows, he was nearly invisible. She
could
not see that he breathed, but wondered if she ever
had.
Did dragons breathe?
Lassitude
flooded her, burying her like silk-fine sand.
The
last of the tabat leaves had burned out of her veins,
and
that exhaustion added to the rest. Scraped, drained,
wrung,
she wanted only to sleep again, hour after hour,
for
days if possible.
But she
knew it was not possible. She had saved Mor-
keleb,
but was under no illusion that this would let her
sleep
safely in his presence, once he had regained a little
of his
strength. A detached thread of amusement at herself
made
her chuckle; lan and Adric, she thought, would
boast
to each other and every boy in the village that their
mother
could go to sleep in a dragon's lair-that is, if she
ever
made it back to tell them of it. Even rolling over hurt
her
bones. The weight of her clothes and her hair dragged
at her
like chain mail as she stood.
She
stumbled to the Gates and stood for a moment,
leaning
against the rough-hewn granite of the vast pillar,
the
dry, moving freedom of the air fingering her face.
Turning
her head, she looked back over her shoulder and
met the
dragon's open eyes. Their depths stared into hers
for one
instant, crystalline flowers of white and silver,
like
glittering wells of rage and hate. Then they slid shut
again.
She walked from the shadows out into the brilliance
of the
evening.
Her
mind as well as her body felt numbed as she walked
slowly
back through Deeping. Everything seemed queer
and
changed, the shadow of each pebble and weed a thing
of new
and unknown significance to her, as if for years
she had
walked half-blind and now had opened her eyes.
At the
northern side of the town, she climbed the rocks
to the
water tanks, deep black pools cut into the bones
of the
mountain, with sun flashing on their opaque sur-
faces.
She stripped and swam, though the water was very
cold.
Afterward she lay for a long time upon her spread-
out
clothing, dreaming she knew not what. Wind tracked
across
her bare back and legs like tiny footprints, and the
sun-dance
changed in the pool as shadows crept across
the
black water. She felt it would have been good to cry,
but was
too weary even for that.
In time
she got up, put on her clothes again, and returned
to
camp. Gareth was asleep, sitting with his knees drawn
up and
his face upon them on his crossed arms, near the
glowing
ashes of the fire.
Jenny
knelt beside John, feeling his hands and face.
They
seemed warmer, though she could detect no surface
blood
under the thin, fair skin. Still, his eyebrows and
the
reddish stubble of his beard no longer seemed so dark.
She lay
down beside him, her body against his beneath
the
blankets, and fell asleep.
In the
drowsy warmth of half-waking, she heard John
murmur,
"I thought that was you calling me." His breath
was no
more than a faint touch against her hair. She blinked
into
waking. The light had changed again. It was dawn.
She
said, "What?" and sat up, shaking back the thick
weight
of her hair from her face. She still felt tired to
death,
but ravenously hungry. Gareth was kneeling by the
campfire,
tousled and unshaven with his battered spec-
tacles
sliding down the end of his nose, making griddle-
cakes.
She noted that he was better at it than John had
ever
been.
"I
thought you were never waking up," he said.
"I
thought I was never waking up either, my hero,"
John
whispered. His voice was too weak to carry even
that
short distance, but Jenny heard him and smiled.
She
climbed stiffly to her feet, pulled on her skirt again
over
her creased shift, laced her bodice and put on her
boots,
while Gareth set water over the coals to boil for
coffee,
a bitter black drink popular at Court. When Gareth
went to
fetch more water from the spring in the woods
beyond
the wrecked well house. Jenny took some of the
boiling
water to renew John's poultices, welcoming the
simplicity
of human healing; and the smell of herbs soon
filled
the little clearing among the ruins, along with the
warm,
strange smell of the drink. John fell asleep again,
even
before Jenny had finished with the bandages, but
Gareth
fetched her some bannocks and honey and sat
with
her beside the breakfast fire.
"I
didn't know what to do, you were gone so long,"
he said
around a mouthful ofmealcake. "I thought about
following
you-that you might need help-but I didn't
want to
leave John alone. Besides," he added with a rueful
grin,
"I've never managed to rescue you from anything
yet."
Jenny
laughed and said, "You did right."
"And
the promise you made?"
"I
kept it."
He let
out his breath with a sigh and bowed his head,
as if
some great weight that had been pressing down upon
him had
been lifted. After a while he said shyly, "While
I was
waiting for you, I made up a song... a ballad. About
the
slaying of Morkeleb, the Black Dragon of Nast Wall.
It
isn't very good..."
"It
wouldn't be," Jenny said slowly, and licked the
honey
from her fingers. "Morkeleb is not dead."
He
stared at her, as he once had when she had told
him
that John had killed the Golden Dragon of Wyr with
an ax.
"But I thought-wasn't your promise to John to-
to slay
him if-if John could not?"
She
shook her head, the dark cloud of her hair snagging
in the
grubby fleece of her jacket collar. "My promise was
to
Morkeleb," she said. "It was to heal him."
Collecting
her feet beneath her, she rose and walked
over to
John once more, leaving Gareth staring after her
in
appalled and unbelieving bewilderment.
A day
passed before Jenny returned to the Deep. She
stayed
close to the camp, taking care of John and washing
clothes-a
mundane task, but one that needed to be done.
Somewhat
to her surprise, Gareth helped her in this,
fetching
water from the spring in the glade, but without
his
usual chatter. Knowing she would need her strength,
she
slept a good deal, but her dreams were disquieting.
Her
waking hours were plagued with a sense of being
watched.
She told herself that this was simply because
Morkeleb,
waking, had extended his awareness across
the
Vale and knew where they were, but certain under-
standings
she had found within the mazes of the dragon's
mind
would not allow her to believe this.
She was
aware that Gareth was watching her, too,
mostly
when he thought she wasn't looking.
She was
aware of other things, as well. Never had she
felt so
conscious of the traces and turnings of the wind,
and of
the insignificant activities of the animals in the
surrounding
woods. She found herself prey to strange
contemplation
and odd knowledge of things before unsus-
pected-how
clouds grow, and why the wind walked the
way it
did, how birds knew their way south, and why, in
certain
places of the world at certain times, voices could
be
heard speaking indistinctly in empty air. She would
have
liked to think these changes frightened her because
she did
not understand them, but in truth the reason she
feared
them was because she did.
While
she slept in the late afternoon, she heard Gareth
speak
to John of it, seeing them and understanding through
the
depths of her altered dreams.
"She
healed him," she heard Gareth whisper, and was
aware
of him squatting beside the tangle of bearskins and
plaids
where John lay. "I think she promised to do so, in
trade for
his letting her past him to fetch the medicines."
John
sighed and moved one bandaged hand a little
where
it lay on his chest. "Better, maybe, she had let me
die."
"Do
you think..." Gareth swallowed nervously and
cast a
glance at her, as if he knew that asleep, she still
could
hear. "Do you think he's put a spell on her?"
John
was silent for a time, looking up at the gulfs of
sky
above the Vale, thinking. Though the air down here
was
still, great winds racked the upper atmosphere, herd-
ing
piled masses of cloud, charcoal gray and blinding white,
up
against the shaggy flanks of the mountains. At length
he
said, "I think I'd feel it, if there were another mind
controlling
hers. Or I'd like to flatter myself to thinking
I'd
feel it. They say you should never look into a dragon's
eyes,
lest he put a spell on you. But she's stronger than
that."
He
turned his head a little and looked at where she
lay,
squinting to focus his shortsighted brown eyes upon
her.
The bare flesh on either side of the bandages on his
arms
and chest was livid with bruises and pitted with tiny
scabs
where the broken links of the mail shirt had been
dragged
through it. "When I used to dream of her, she
didn't
look the same as in waking. When I was delirious,
I
dreamed of her-it's as if she's grown more herself, not
less."
He
sighed and looked back at Gareth. "I used to be
jealous
other, you know. Not of another man, but jealousy
of
herself, of that part other she'd never give me-though
God
knows, back in those days, what I wanted it for. Who
was it
who said that jealousy is the only vice that gives
no
pleasure? But that was the first thing I had to leam
about
her, and maybe the hardest I've ever learned about
anything-that
she is her own, and what she gives me is
of her
choosing, and the more precious because of it.
Sometimes
a butterfly will come to sit in your open palm,
but if
you close your hand, one way or the other, it-and
its
choice to be there-are gone."
From
there Jenny slid into deeper dreams of the crush-
ing
darkness of Ylferdun and the deep magic she sensed
slumbering
in the Places of Healing. As if from a great
distance,
she saw her children, her boys, whom she had
never
wanted to conceive but had borne and birthed for
John's
sake, but loved uneasily, unwillingly, and with des-
perately
divided heart. With her wizard's sight she could
see
them sitting up in their curtained bed in the darkness,
while
wind drove snow against the tower walls; not sleep-
ing at
all, but telling one another tales about how their
father
and mother would slay the dragon and ride back
with
pack trains and pack trains of gold.
She
woke when the sun lay three-quarters down the
sky
toward the flinty crest of the ridge. The wind had
shifted;
the whole Vale smelled of sharp snow and pine
needles
from the high slopes. The air in the lengthening
slaty
shadows was cold and damp.
John
was asleep, wrapped in every cloak and blanket
in the
camp. Gareth's voice could be heard in the woods
near
the little stone fountain, tunelessly singing romantic
lyrics
of passionate love for the edification of the horses.
Moving
with her habitual quiet, Jenny laced up her bod-
ice and
put on her boots and her sheepskin jacket. She
thought
about eating something and decided not to. Food
would
break her concentration, and she felt the need of
every
fragment of strength and alertness that she could
muster.
She
paused for a moment, looking around her. The old,
uneasy
sensation of being watched returned to her, like
a hand
touching her elbow. But she sensed, also, the faint
tingling
of Morkeleb's power in the back of her mind and
knew
that the dragon's strength was returning far more
quickly
than that of the man he had almost slain.
She
would have to act and act now, and the thought
of it
filled her with fear.
"Save
a dragon, slave a dragon," Caerdinn had said.
Her
awareness of how small her own powers were ter-
rified
her, knowing what it was against which she must
pit
them. So this, in the end, was what she had paid for
John's
love, she told herself, with a little wry amusement.
To go
into a battle she could not hope to win. Involuntarily
another
part of her thought at once that at least it wasn't
John's
life, but her own, that would be forfeit, and she
shook
her head in wonderment at the follies of love. No
wonder
those with the power were warned against it, she
thought.
As for
the dragon, she had a sense, almost an instinct,
of what
she must do, alien to her and yet terrifyingly clear.
Her
heart was hammering as she selected a scruffy plaid
from
the top of the pile over John. The thin breezes flut-
tered
at its edges as she slung it around her; its colors
faded
into the muted hues of weed and stone as she made
her way
silently down the ridge once more and took the
track
for the Deep.
Morkeleb
no longer lay in the Market Hall. She fol-
lowed
the scent of him through the massive inner doors
and
along the Grand Passage-a smell that was pungent
but not
unpleasant, unlike the burning, metallic reek of
his
poisons. The tiny echoes of her footfalls were like far-
off
water dripping in the silent vaults of the passage-
she
knew Morkeleb would hear them, lying upon his gold
in the
darkness. Almost, she thought, he would hear the
pounding
of her heart.
As
Dromar had said, the dragon was laired in the Tem-
ple of
Sarmendes, some quarter-mile along the passage.
The
Temple had been built for the use of the children of
men and
so had been wrought into the likeness of a room
rather
than a cave. From the chryselephantine doors Jenny
looked
about, her eyes piercing the absolute darkness
there,
seeing how the stalagmites that rose from the floor
had
been cut into pillars, and how walls had been built
to
conceal the uneven shape of the cavern's native rock.
The
floor was smoothed all to one level; the statue of the
god,
with his lyre and his bow, had been sculpted of white
marble
from the royal quarries of Istmark, as had been
his
altar with its carved garlands. But none of this could
conceal
the size of the place, nor the enormous, irregular
grandeur
of its proportions. Above those modestly clas-
sical
walls arched the ceiling, a maze of sinter and crystal
that
marked the place as nature's work timidly home-
steaded
by man.
The
smell of the dragon was thick here, though it was
clean
of offal or carrion. Instead the floor was heaped
with
gold, all the gold of the Deep, plates, holy vessels,
reliquaries
of forgotten saints and demigods, piled between
the
pillars and around the statues, tiny cosmetic pots
smelling
of balsam, candlesticks quivering with pendant
pearls
like aspen leaves in spring wind, cups whose rims
flashed
with the dark fire of jewels, a votive statue of
Salemesse,
the Lady of Beasts, three feet high and solid
gold...
All the things that gnomes or men had wrought
of that
soft and shining metal had been gathered there
from
the farthest tunnels of the Deep. The floor was like
a beach
with the packed coins that had spilled from their
torn
sacks, and through it gleamed the darkness of the
floor,
like water collected in hollows of the sand.
Morkeleb
lay upon the gold, his vast wings folded along
his
sides, their tips crossed over his tail, black as coal
and
seeming to shine, his crystal eyes like lamps in the
dark.
The sweet, terrible singing that Jenny had felt so
strongly
had faded, but the air about him was vibrant with
the
unheard music.
"Morkeleb,"
she said softly, and the word whispered
back at
her from the forest of glittering spikes overhead.
She
felt the silver eyes upon her and reached out, ten-
tatively,
to the dark maze of that mind.
Why
gold? she asked. Why do dragons covet the gold
of men?
It was
not what she had meant to say to him, and she
felt,
under his coiled anger and suspicion, something else
move.
What is
that to you, wizard woman?
What
was it to me that I returned here to save your
life?
It would have served me and mine better to have let
you
die.
Why
then did you not?
There
were two answers. The one she gave him was,
Because
it was understood between us that if you gave
me the
way into the heart of the Deep, I should heal you
and
give you your life. But in that healing you gave me
your
name, Morkeleb the Black-and the name she spoke
in her
mind was the ribbon of music that was his true
name,
his essence; and she saw him flinch. They have
said,
Save a dragon, slave a dragon, and by your name
you
shall do as I bid you.
The
surge of his anger against her was like a dark wave,
and all
along his sides the knifelike scales lifted a little,
like a
dog's hackles. Around them in the blackness of the
Temple,
the gold seemed to whisper, picking up the
groundswell
of his wrath.
/ am
Morkeleb the Black. I am and will be slave to no
one and
nothing, least of all a human woman, mage though
she may
be. I do no bidding save my own.
The
bitter weight of alien thoughts crushed down upon
her,
heavier than the darkness. But her eyes were a mage's
eyes,
seeing in darkness; her mind held a kind of glowing
illumination
that it had not had before. She felt no fear
of him
now; a queer strength she had not known she
possessed
stirred in her. She whispered the magic of his
name as
she would have formed its notes upon her harp,
in all
its knotted complexities, and saw him shrink back
a
little. His razor claws stirred faintly in the gold.
By your
name, Morkeleb the Black, she repeated, you
shall
do my bidding. And by your name, I tell you that
you
will do no harm, either to John Aversin, or to Prince
Gareth,
or to any other human being while you remain
here in
the south. When you are well enough to sustain
the
journey, you shall leave this place and return to your
home.
Ire
radiated from his scales like a heat, reflected back
about him
by the thrumming gold. She felt in it the iron
pride
of dragons, and their contempt for humankind, and
also
his furious grief at being parted from the hoard
that he
had so newly won. For a moment their souls met
and
locked, twisting together like snakes striving, fighting
for
advantage. The tide other strength rose in her, surging
and
sure, as if it drew life from the combat itself. Terror
and
exhilaration flooded her, like the tabat leaves, only
far
stronger, and she cast aside concern for the limitations
other
flesh and strove against him mind to mind, twisting
at the
glittering chain of his name.
She
felt the spew of his venomous anger, but would
not let
go. If you kill me, I shall drag you down with me
into
death, she thoughts/or dying, I shall not release your
name
from my mind.
The
strength that was breaking the sinews of her mind
drew
back, but his eyes held to hers. Her thoughts were
suddenly
flooded with images and half-memories, like the
visions
of the heart of the Deep; things she did not under-
stand,
distracting and terrifying in their strangeness. She
felt
the plunging vertigo of flight in darkness; saw black
mountains
that cast double shadows, red deserts unstirred
by wind
since time began and inhabited by glass spiders
that
lived upon salt. They were dragon memories, con-
fusing
her, luring her toward the place where his mind
could
close around hers like a trap, and she held fast to
those
things of her own life that she knew and her memory
of the
piping of old Caerdinn whistling the truncated air
of
Morkeleb's true name. Into that air she twisted her
own
spells of breaking and exhaustion, mingling them
with
the rhythm of his heart that she had learned so well
in the
healing, and she felt once more his mind draw back
from
hers.
His
wrath was like the lour of thunder-sky, building all
around
her; he loomed before her like a cloud harboring
lightning.
Then without warning he struck at her like a
snake,
one thin-boned claw raised to slash.
He
would not strike, she told herself as her heart con-
tracted
with terror and her every muscle screamed to flee
... He
could not strike her for she had his name and he
knew
it... She had saved him; he must obey... Her mind
gripped
the music of his name even as the claws hissed
down.
The wind of them slashed at her hair, the saber
blades
passing less than a foot from her face. White eyes
stared
down at her, blazing with hate; the rage of him
beat
against her like a storm.
Then he
settled back slowly upon his bed of gold. The
tang of
his defeat was like wormwood in the air.
You
chose to give me your name rather than die, Mor-
keleb.
She played his name like a glissando and felt the
surge
of her own rising power hum in the gold against his.
You
will go from these lands and not return.
For a
moment more she felt his anger, resentment, and
the
fury of his humbled pride. But there was something
else in
the hoarfrost glitter of his gaze upon her, the knowl-
edge
that she was not contemptible.
He said
quietly. Do you not understand?
Jenny
shook her head. She looked around her once
again
at the Temple, its dark archways piled high with
more
gold than she had ever seen before, a treasure more
fabulous
than any other upon earth. It would have bought
all of
Bel and the souls of most of the men who dwelled
there.
But, perhaps because she herself had little use for
gold,
she felt drawn to ask again, Why gold, Morkeleb?
Was it
the gold that brought you here?
He
lowered his head to his paws again, and all around
them
the gold vibrated with the whisper of the dragon's
name.
// was the gold, and the dreams of the gold, he
said. /
had discontent in all things; the longing grew upon
me
while I slept. Do you not know, wizard woman, the
love
that dragons have for gold?
She
shook her head again. Only that they are greedy
for it,
as men are greedy.
Rose-red
light rimmed the slits of his nostrils as he
sniffed.
Men, he said softly. They have no understanding
of
gold; no understanding of what it is and of what it can
be.
Come here, wizard woman. Put your hand upon me
and
listen with my mind.
She
hesitated, fearing a trap, but her curiosity as a
mage
drove her. She picked her way over the cold, uneven
heaps
of rings, platters, and candlesticks, to rest her hand
once
more against the soft skin below the dragon's great
eye. As
before, it felt surprisingly warm, unlike a reptile'.,
skin,
and soft as silk. His mind touched hers like a firm
hand in
the darkness.
In a
thousand murmuring voices, she could hear the
gold
pick up the music of the dragon's name. The blended
nuances
of thought were magnified and made richer, dis-
tinct
as subtle perfumes, piercing the heart with beauty.
It
seemed to Jenny that she could identify every piece 01
gold
within that enormous chamber by its separate sound-
ing,
and hear the harmonic curve of a vessel, the melding
voices
of every single coin and hairpin, and the sweet
tingling
locked in the crystal heart of every jewel. Her
mind,
touching the dragon's, flinched in aching wonder
from
the caress of that unbearable sweetness as the echoes
awoke
answering resonances within her soul. Memories
of
dove-colored dusks on the Fell that was her home
pulled
at her with the deep joy of winter nights lying on
the
bearskins before the hearth at Alyn Hold, with John
and her
sons at her side. Happiness she could not name
swept
over her, breaking down the defenses of her heart
as the
intensity of the music built, and she knew that foi
Morkeleb
it was the same in the chimeric deeps of his
mind.
When
the music faded, she realized she had closed her
eyes,
and her cheeks were wet with tears. Looking about
her,
though the room was as black as before, she thought
that
the memory of the dragon's song lingered in the gold,
and a
faint luminosity clung to it still.
In time
she said. That is why men say that dragon's
gold is
poisoned. Others say that it is lucky... but it is
merely
charged with yearning and with music, so that
even
dullards can feel it through their fingers.
Even
so, whispered the voice of the dragon in her mind.
But
dragons cannot mine gold, nor work it. Only gnomes
and the
children of men.
We are
like the whales that live in the sea, he said,
civilizations
without artifacts, living between stone and
sky in
our islands in the northern oceans. We lair in rocks
that
bear gold, but it is impure. Only with pure gold is
this
music possible. Now do you understand?
The
sharing had broken something between them, and
she
felt no fear of him now. She went to sit close to the
bony
curve of his shoulder and picked up a gold cup from
the
hoard. She felt as she turned it over in her hands that
she
could have chosen it out from a dozen identical ones.
Its
resonance was clear and individuated in her mind; the
echo of
the dragon's music held to it, like a remembrance
of
perfume. She saw how precisely it was formed, chas-
tened
and highly polished, its handles tiny ladies with
garlands
twined in their hair where it streamed back over
the
body of the cup; even microscopically fine, the flowers
were
recognizable as the lilies of hope and the roses of
fulfillment.
Morkeleb had killed the owner of this cup,
she
thought to herself, only for the sake of the incredible
music
which he could call from the gold. Yet his love for
the
gold had as little to do with its beauty as her love for
her
sons had to do with their-undeniable, she thought-
good
looks.
How did
you know this was here?
Do you
not think that we, who live for hundreds of
years,
would be aware of the comings and goings of men?
Where
they build their cities, and with whom they trade,
and in
what? I am old. Jenny Waynest. Even among the
dragons,
my magic is accounted great. I was born before
we came
to this world; I can sniff gold from the bones of
the
earth and follow its path for miles, as you follow
ground
water with a hazel twig. The gold-seams of the
Wall
rise to the surface here like the great salmon of the
north
country rising to spawn.
The
dragon's words were spoken in her mind, and in
her
mind she had a brief, distant glimpse of the Earth as
the
dragons saw it, spread out like a mottled carpet of
purple
and green and brown. She saw the green-black pelt
of the
forests of Wyr, the infinitely delicate cloud shapes
of the
crowns of the tall oaks, fragile and thready with
winter,
and saw how, toward the north, they were more
and
more replaced by the coarse spiky teeth of pine and
fir.
She saw the gray and white stones of the bare Win-
terlands,
stained all the colors of the rainbow with lichen
and
moss in summer, and saw how the huge flashing silver
shapes
of eight- and ten-foot salmon moved beneath the
waters
of the rivers, under the blue, gliding shadow of
the
dragon's wings. For an instant, it was as if she could
feel
the air all about her, holding her up like water; its
currents
and countereddies,. its changes from warm to
cold.
Then
she felt his mind closing around hers, like the
jaws of
a trap. For an instant she was locked into suf-
focating
darkness, the utter darkness that not even the
eyes of
a wizard could pierce. Panic crushed her. She
could
neither move nor think, and felt only the acid gloat-
ing of
the dragon all around her, and, opening beneath
her, a
bottomless despair.
Then as
Caerdinn had taught her, as she had done in
healing
John-as she had always done within the circum-
scribed
limits of her small magic-she forced her mind
to calm
and began to work rune by rune, note by note,
concentrating
singly and simply upon each element with
her
whole mind. She felt the wrath of the dragon smoth-
ering
her like a hot sea of night, but she wedged open a
crack
of light, and into that crack she drove the music of
the
dragon's name, fashioned by her spells into a spear.
She
felt his mind flinch and give. Her sight returned,
and she
found herself on her feet among the knee-deep
piles
of gold, the monstrous dark shape backing from her
in
anger. This time she did not let him go, but flung her
own
wrath and her will after him, playing upon the music
of his
name and weaving into it the fires that scorched
his
essence. All the spells of pain and ruin she had wrought
into
the poison flooded to her mind; but, like her fury at
the
bandits at the crossroads these many weeks ago, her
anger
had no hate in it, offering him no hold upon her
mind.
He shrank back from it, and the great head lowered
so that
the ribbons of his mane swept the coins with a
slithery
tinkle.
Wrapped
in a rage of magic and fire, she said, You shall
not
dominate me, Morkeleb the Black-neither with your
power
nor with your treachery. I have saved your life,
and you
shall do as I command you. By your name you
shall
go, and you shall not return to the south. Do you
hear
me?
She
felt him resist, and drove her will and the strength
of her
newfound powers against him. Like a wrestler's
body,
she felt the dark, sutfurous rage slither from beneath
the
pressure of her will; she stepped back, almost instinc-
tively,
and faced him where he crouched against the wall
like a
vast, inky cobra, his every scale bristling with glit-
tering
wrath.
She
heard him whisper, I hear you, wizard woman, and
heard,
in the cold voice, the reasonance not only of furious
anger
at being humbled, but of surprise that she could
have
done so.
Turning
without a word, she left the Temple and walked
back
toward the square of diffuse light that marked the
outer
hall at the end of the Grand Passage and the Great
Gates
beyond.
CHAPTER
XII
WHEN
JENNY CAME down the steps of the Deep she
was
shaking with exhaustion and an aftermath of common
sense
that told her that she should have been terrified.
Yet she
felt curiously little fear ofMorkeleb, even in the
face of
his treachery and his wrath. Her body ached-
the power
she had put forth against him had been far in
excess
of what her flesh was used to sustaining-but her
head
felt clear and alert, without the numbed weariness
she
felt when she had overstretched her powers. She was
aware,
down to her last finger end, of the depth and great-
ness of
the dragon's magic, but was aware also of her
own
strength against him.
Evening
wind dusted across her face. The sun had sunk
beyond
the flinty crest of the westward ridge, and though
the sky
still held light, Deeping lay at the bottom of a lake
of
shadow. She was aware of many things passing in the
Vale,
most of them having nothing to do with the affairs
of
dragons or humankind-the skreak of a single cricket
under a
charred stone, the flirt of a squirrel's tail as it fled
from
its hopeful mate, and the flutterings of the chaf-
finches
as they sought their nighttime nests. Where the
trail
turned downward around a broken pile of rubble that
had
once been a house, she saw a man's skeleton lying
in the
weeds, the bag of gold he had died clutching split
open
and the coins singing softly to her where they lay
scattered
among his ribs.
She was
aware, suddenly, that someone else had entered
the
Vale.
It was
analagous to sound, though unheard. The scent
of
magic came to her like smoke on the shift of the wind.
She
stopped still in the dry tangle of broomsedge, cold
shreds
of breeze that frayed down from the timberline
stirring
in her plaids. There was magic in the Vale, up on
the
ridge. She could hear the slither and snag of silk on
beech
mast, the startled splash of spilled water in the dusk
by the
fountain, and Gareth's voice halting over a name...
Catching
up her skirts. Jenny began to run.
The
smell of Zyerne's perfume seemed everywhere in
the
woods. Darkness was already beginning to collect
beneath
the trees. Panting, Jenny sprang up the whitish,
flinty
rocks to the glade by the fountain. Long experience
in the
Winterlands had taught her to move in utter silence,
even at
a dead run; and thus, for the first moment, neither
of
those who stood near the little well was aware of her
arrival.
It took
her a moment to see Zyeme. Gareth she saw
at
once, standing frozen beside the wellhead. Spilled water
was
soaking into the beech mast around his feet; a half-
empty
bucket balanced on the edge of the stone trough
beside
the well itself. He didn't heed it; she wondered
how
much of his surroundings he was aware of at all.
Zyeme's
spells filled the small glade like the music
heard
in dreams. Even she, a woman, felt the scented
warmth
of the air that belied the tingly cold lower down
in the
Vale and sensed the stirring of need in her flesh.
In
Gareth's eyes was a kind of madness, and his hands
were
shaking where they were clenched, knotted into fists,
before
him. His voice was a whisper more desperate than
a
scream as he said, "No."
"Gareth."
Zyeme moved, and Jenny saw her, as she
seemed
to float like a ghost in the dusk among the birch
trees
at the glade's edge. "Why pretend? You know you;
love
for me has grown, as mine has for you. It is like file
in your
flesh now; the taste of your mouth in my dreama
has
tormented me day and night..."
"While
you were lying with my father?"
She
shook back her hair, a small, characteristic ges
tare,
brushing the tendrils of it away from her smooth
brow.
It was difficult to see what she wore in the dusk-
something
white and fragile that rippled in the stirrings
of the
wind, pale as the birches themselves. Her hair was
loosened
down her back like a young girl's; and, like a
young
girl, she wore no veils. Years seemed to have van-
ished
from her age, young as she had seemed before. She
looked
like a girl of Gareth's age, unless, like Jenny, one
saw her
with a wizard's eye.
"Gareth,
I never lay with your father," she said softly.
"Oh,
we agreed to pretend, for the sake of appearances
at
Court-but even if he had wanted me to, I don't think
I could
have. He treated me like a daughter. It was you
I
wanted, you..."
"That's
a lie!" His mouth sounded dried by fever heat.
She
held out her hands, and the wind lifted the thin
fabric
of her sleeves back from her arms as she moved a
step
into the glade. "I could bear waiting no longer. I had
to
come, to leam what had happened to you-to be with
you..."
He
sobbed, "Get away from me!" His face was twisted
by
something close to pain.
She
only whispered, "I want you..."
Jenny
stepped from the somber shade of the trail and
said,
"No, Zyeme. What you want is the Deep."
Zyeme
swung around, her concentration breaking, as
Morkeleb
had tried to break Jenny's. The lurid sensuality
that
had dripped from the air shattered with an almost
audible
snap. At once, Zyeme seemed older, no longer
the
virgin girl who could inflame Gareth's passion. The
boy
dropped to his knees and covered his face, his body
racked
with dry sobs.
"It's
what you've always wanted, isn't it?" Jenny
touched
Gareth's hair comfortingly, and he threw his arms
around
her waist, clinging to her like a drowning man to
a spar.
Oddly enough, she felt no fear of Zyeme now, or
of the
greater strength of the younger woman's magic.
She
seemed to see Zyeme differently, even, and felt calm
as she
faced her-calm and ready.
Zyeme
uttered a ribald laugh. "So there's our boy who
won't
tumble his father's mistress? You had them both to
yourself,
didn't you, slut, coming down from the north?
Enough
time and more to tangle him in your hair."
Gareth
pulled free of Jenny and scrambled to his feet,
shaking
all over with anger. Though Jenny could see he
was
still terrified of the sorceress, he faced her and gasped,
"You're
lying!"
Zyeme
laughed again, foully, as she had in the garden
outside
the King's rooms. Jenny only said, "She knows
it
isn't true. What did you come here for, Zyeme? To do
to
Gareth what you've done to his father? Or to see if it's
finally
safe for you to enter the Deep?"
The
enchantress's mouth moved uncertainly, and her
eyes
shifted under Jenny's cool gaze. Then she laughed,
the mockery
in it marred by her uncertainty. "Maybe to
get
your precious Dragonsbane at the same time?"
A
week-even a day-ago. Jenny would have
responded
to the taunt with fear for John's safety. But
she
knew Zyeme had not gone anywhere near John. She
knew
she would have sensed it, if such magic had been
worked
so near-almost, she thought, she would have
heard
their voices, no matter how softly they spoke. And
in any
case, John was unable to flee; one deals with the
unwounded
enemy first.
She saw
Zyeme's hand move and felt the nature of the
spell,
even as she smelled the singed wool of her skirts
beginning
to smoke. Her own spell was fast and hard,
called
with the mind and the minimal gesture of the hand
rather
than the labor it had once entailed. Zyerne stag-
gered
back, her hands over her eyes, taken completely
by
surprise.
When
Zyeme raised her head again, her eyes were livid
with
rage, yellow as a devil's in a face transformed with
fury.
"You can't keep me from the Deep," she said in a
voice
which shook. "It is mine-it will be mine. I've
driven
the gnomes from it. When I take it, no one, no
one,
will be able to contend against my power!"
Stooping,
she seized a handful of old leaves and beech-
nuts
from the mast that lay all about their feet. She flung
them at
Jenny. In the air, they burst into flame, growing
as they
burned, a tangled bonfire that Jenny swept aside
with a
spell she had hardly been aware she'd known. The
blazing
logs scattered everywhere, throwing streamers of
yellow
fire into the blue gloom and blazing up in half-a-
dozen
places where they touched dry weeds. Doubling
like a
hare upon her tracks, Zyeme darted for the path
that
led down into the Vale. Jenny leaped at her heels,
her
soft boots in three strides outdistancing the younger
woman's
precarious court shoes.
Zyeme
twisted in her grip. She was taller than Jenny
but not
physically as strong, even taking into account
Jenny's
exhaustion; for an instant their eyes were inches
apart,
the yellow gaze boring like balefire into the blue.
Like a
hammerblow. Jenny felt the impact of a mind
upon
hers, spells of hurt and terror that gripped and twisted
at her
muscles, utterly different from the weight and living
strength
of the dragon's mind. She parried the spell, not
so much
with a spell as with the strength of her will,
throwing
it back at Zyeme, and she heard the younger
woman
curse her in a spate of fury like a burst sewer.
Nails
tore at her wrists as she sought the yellow eyes with
her own
again, catching Zyeme's silky curls in a fist like
a rock,
forcing her to look. It was the first time she had
matched
strength in anger with another mage, and it sur-
prised
her how instinctive it was to probe into the
essence-as
she had probed into Gareth's, and Mab into
hers_not
solely to understand, but to dominate by under-
standing,
to give nothing of her own soul in return. She
had a
glimpse of something sticky and foul as the plants
that
eat those foolish enough to came near, the eroded
remains
of a soul, like an animate corpse of the young
woman's
mind.
Zyeme
screamed as she felt the secrets of her being
bared,
and power exploded in the air between them, a
burning
fire that surrounded them in a whirlwind of tearing
force.
Jenny felt a weight falling against her, a blackness
like
the dragon's mind but greater, the shadow of some
crushing
power, like an ocean of uncounted years. It drove
her to
her knees, but she held on, sloughing away the
crawling,
biting pains that tore at her skin, the rending
agony
in her muscles, the fire, and the darkness, boring
into
Zyeme's mind with her own, like a white needle of
fire.
The
weight of the shadow faded. She felt Zyerne's
nerve
and will break and got to her feet again, throwing
the
girl from her with all her strength. Zyeme collapsed
on the
dirt of the path, her dark hair hanging in a torrent
over
her white dress, her nails broken from tearing at
Jenny's
wrists, her nose running and dust plastered to her
face
with mucus. Jenny stood over her, panting for breath,
her
every muscle hurting from the twisting impact of
Zyeme's
spells. "Go," she said, her voice quiet, but with
power
in her words. "Go back to Bel and never touch
Gareth
again."
Sobbing
with fury, Zyeme picked herself up. Her voice
shook.
"You stinking gutter-nosed sow! I won't be kept
from
the Deep! It's mine, I tell you; and when I come
there,
I'll show you! I swear by the Stone, when I have
the
Deep, I'll crush you out like the dung-eating cock-
roach
you are! You'll see! They'll all see! They have no
right
to keep me away!"
"Get
out of here," Jenny said softly.
Sobbing,
Zyeme obeyed her, gathering up her trailing
white
gown and stumbling down the path that led toward
the
clock tower. Jenny stood for a long time watching her
go. The
power Jenny had summoned to protect her faded
slowly,
like fire banked under embers until it was needed
again.
It was
only after Zyeme was out of sight that she real-
ized
that she should never have been able to do what she
had
just done-not here and not in the Deep.
And it
came to her then, what had happened to her
when
she had touched the mind of the dragon.
The
dragon's magic was alive in her soul, like streaks
of iron
in gold. She should have known it before; if she
had not
been so weary, she thought, perhaps she would
have.
Her awareness, like Morkeleb's, had widened to
fill
the Vale, so that, even in sleep, she was conscious of
things
taking place about her. A shiver passed through
her
flesh and racked her bones with terror and wonder-
ment,
as if she had conceived again, and something alive
and
alien was growing within her.
Smoke
from the woods above stung her nose and eyes,
white
billows of it telling her that Gareth had succeeded
in
dousing the flames. Somewhere the horses were whin-
nying
in terror. She felt exhausted and aching, her whole
body
wrenched by the cramp of those gripping spells, her
wrists
smarting where Zyeme's nails had torn them. She
began
to tremble, the newfound strength draining away
under
the impact of shock and fear.
A
countersurge of wind shook the trees around her, as
if at
the stroke of a giant wing. Her hair blowing about
her
face, she looked up, but for a moment saw nothing.
It was
something she'd heard of-that dragons, for all
their
size and gaudiness, could be harder to see in plain
daylight
than the voles of the hedgerow. He seemed to
blend
down out of the dusk, a vast shape of jointed ebony
and
black silk, silver-crystal eyes like small moons in the
dark.
He
could feel my power nearing its end, she thought
despairingly,
remembering how he had turned on her
before.
The terrible, shadowy weight of Zyeme's spells
still
lay on her bones; she felt they would break if she
tried
to summon the power to resist the dragon. Wrong
with a
weariness close to physical nausea, she looked up
to face
him and hardened her mind once again to meet
his
attack.
Even as
she did so, she realized that he was beautiful,
as he
hung for a moment like a black, drifting kite upon
the
air.
Then
his mind touched hers, and the last pain of
Zyeme's
spells was sponged away.
What is
it, wizard woman? he asked. It is only evil
words,
such as fishwives throw at one another.
He
settled before her on the path, folding his great
wings
with a queerly graceful articulation, and regarded
her
with his silver eyes in the dusk.
He
said, You understand.
No, she
replied. / think I know what has happened,
but I
do not understand.
Bah. In
the leaky gray twilight beneath the trees, she
saw all
the scale-points along his sides ruffle slightly, like
the
hair of an affronted cat. / think that you do. When
your
mind was in mine, my magic called to you, and the
dragon
within you answered. Know you not your own
power,
wizard woman? Know you not what you could be?
With a
cold vertigo that was not quite fear she under-
stood
him then and willed herself not to understand.
He felt
the closing of her mind, and irritation smoked
from
him like a white spume of mist. You understand, he
said
again. You have been within my mind; you know what
it
would be to be a dragon.
Jenny
said. No, not to him, but to that trickle of fire
in her
mind that surged suddenly into a stream.
As in a
dream, images surfaced of things she felt she
had
once known and forgotten, like the soaring freedom
of
flight. She saw the earth lost beneath her in the clouds,
and
about her was a vaporous eternity whose absolute
silence
was broken only by the sheer of her wings. As
from
great height, she glimpsed the stone circle on Frost
Fell,
the mere below it like a broken piece of dirty glass,
and the
little stone house a chrysalis, cracked open to
release
the butterfly that had slept within.
She
said, I have not the power to change my essence.
I have,
the voice whispered among the visions in her
mind.
You have the strength to be a dragon, once you
consent
to take the form. I sensed that in you when we
struggled.
I was angry then, to be defeated by a human;
but you
can be more than human.
Gazing
up at the dark splendor of the dragon's angular
form,
she shook her head. / will not put myself thus in
your
power, Morkeleb. I cannot leave my own form with-
out
your aid, nor could I return to it. Do not tempt me.
Tempt?
Morkeleb's voice said. There is no temptation
from
outside the heart. And as for returning-what are
you as
a human. Jenny Waynest? Pitiful, puling, like all
your
kin the slave of time that rots the body before the
mind
has seen more than a single/lower in all the mead-
ows of
the Cosmos. To be a mage you must be a mage,
and I
see in your mind that you fight for the time to do
even
that. To be a dragon...
"To
be a dragon," she said aloud, to force her own
mind
upon it, "I have only to give over my control of
you. I
will not lose myself thus in the dragon mind and
the
dragon magic. You will not thus get me to release
you."
She
felt the strength press against the closed doors in
her
mind, then ease, and heard the steely rustle of his
scales
as his long tail lashed through the dry grasses with
annoyance.
The dark woods came back into focus; the
strange
visions receded like a shining mist. The light was
waning
fast about them, all the colors bled from straggly
briar
and fem. As if his blackness took on the softer hues
of the
evening, the dragon was nearly invisible, his shape
blending
with the milky stringers of fog that had begun
to veil
the woods and with the black, abrupt outlines of
dead
branch and charred trunk. Somewhere on the ridge
above
her. Jenny could hear Gareth calling her name.
She
found she was trembling, not solely from weari-
ness or
the piercing cold. The need within her was ter-
rifying-to
be what she had always wished to be, to have
what
she had wanted since she had been fourteen, ugly,
and
cursed with a terrible need. She had tasted the strength
of the
dragon's fire, and the taste lingered sweet in her
mouth.
/ can
give you this, the voice in her mind said.
She
shook her head, more violently this time. No. /
will
not betray my friends.
Friends?
Those who would bind you to littleness for
their
own passing convenience? The man who grudges
you the
essence of your soul out of mourning for his
dinner?
Do you cling to all these little joys because you
are
afraid to taste the great ones. Jenny Waynest?
He had
been right when he had said that there is no
temptation
from outside the heart. She flung back her
long
hair over her shoulders and called to herself all the
strength
remaining in her, against the star-prickled dark-
ness
that seemed to draw upon the very marrow of her
bones.
Get
away from me, she told him. Go now and return
to the
islands in the northern sea that are your home.
Sing
your songs to the rock-gold and the whales, and let
be
forever the sons of men and the sons of gnomes.
As if
she had struck a black log that, breaking, had
revealed
the living fire smoldering within, she felt the
surge
of his anger again. He reared back, his body arched
against
the dimming sky. The dark wire and silk of his
wings
rattled as he said, Be it so then, wizard woman. I
leave
to you the gold of the Deep-take of it what you
will.
My song is in it. When old age comes, whose mortal
frost
you have already begun to feel upon your bones,
press
it to your heart and remember that which you have
let
pass you by.
He
gathered himself upon his haunches, his compact,
snakelike
shape rising above her as he gathered about him
the
glitter of magic in the air. Black wings unfurled against
the
sky, looming over her so that she could see the obsi-
dian
gleam of his sides, the baby-skin softness of the
velvet
belly, still puckered with the crimped, ugly mouths
of
harpoon wounds. Then he flung himself skyward. The
great
stroke of his wings caught him up. She felt the magic
that
swirled about him, a spindrift of enchantment, the
star
trail of an invisible comet. The last rays of sinking
light
tipped his wings as he rose beyond the blue shadow
of the
ridge. Then he was gone.
Jenny
watched him go with desolation in her heart. All
the
woods seemed laden now with the smell of wet bum-
ing,
and the murky earthiness of dead smoke. She became
slowly
aware that the hem of her skirt was sodden from
kneeling
in the wet path; her boots were damp and her
feet
cold. Listless weariness dragged upon her, from mus-
cles
pulled by exertion and Zyeme's spells and also from
the
words the dragon had spoken to her when she had
turned
away from what he had offered.
As a
dragon, she would have no more hold upon him,
nor would
she wish any longer to drive him from the Deep.
Was
that, she wondered, why he had offered her the splen-
did and
terrifying freedom of that form? They said that
dragons
did not entrap with lies but with truth, and she
knew he
had read accurately the desires of her soul.
"Jenny?"
A smudged, dirty Gareth came hurrying
toward
her down the path. To her ears, used to the voice
of the
dragon, he sounded tinny and false. "Are you all
right?
What happened? I saw the dragon..." He had
removed
his specs and was seeking a sufficiently clean
patch
of his sooty, spark-holed shirt to wipe them on,
without
much success. Against the grime on his face the
lenses
had left two white circles, like a mask, in which
his
gray eyes blinked nakedly.
Jenny
shook her head. She felt weary to the point of
tears,
almost incapable of speech. He fell into step with
her as
she began slowly climbing the path up the Rise
once
more.
"Did
Zyerne get away?"
She
looked at him, startled. After what had passed
between
herself and Morkeleb, she had nearly forgotten
Zyeme.
"She-she left. I sent her away." It seemed like
days
ago.
"You
sent her away?" Gareth gasped, dumfounded.
Jenny
nodded, too tired to explain. Thinking about it,
she
frowned, as something snagged at her mind. But she
only
asked, "And you?"
He
looked away from her and reddened with shame.
Part of
Jenny sighed in exasperation at this foolishness,
so
petty after the force of the dragon's greater seduction;
but
part other remembered what it was like to be eighteen,
and
prey to the uncontrollable yearnings of the body.
Comfortingly,
she touched the skinny arm under the ripped
lawn of
his shirtsleeve.
"It
is a spell she had on you," she said. "Nothing more.
We are
all tempted..." She pushed aside the echoing
memory
of the dragon's words. "... And what is in our
deepest
hearts is still not what we are judged on, but rather
what we
ultimately do. She only uses'such spells to draw
you to
her, to control you as she controls your father."
They
reached the clearing, soggy and dirty-looking,
like a
garment upon which acid had been spilled, with
charred
spots and little puddles of gleaming water which
still
steamed faintly from the smolder they had quenched.
"I
know." Gareth sighed and picked up the bucket from
the
sodden ground to dip it once more into the well. He
moved
stiffly from pulled muscles and exertion but didn't
complain
of them as he once might have done. On the
edge of
the well trough, he found his tin cup and dipped
water
from the bucket to hand to her, the wetness icy
against
her fingers. She realized with a little start that she
had
neither eaten nor drunk since breakfast. There had
been no
time, and now she felt old and exhausted as she
took
the cup from his hand.
"You
just sent her away?" Gareth asked again. "And
she
went? She didn't turn herself into a falcon... ?"
"No."
Jenny looked up, as it came to her what it was
that
had bothered her about the events of the evening.
"Morkeleb..."
She stopped, not wanting to speak of what
Morkeleb
had offered to her.
But
even so, she thought, she could not have taken on
a
dragon's form without his help. His powers had broken
through
to the powers within her, but her powers were
still
raw and small. And Zyeme...
"I
defeated her," she said slowly. "But if she's as shape-
crafty
as you have said-if she has that kind of strength-
I
shouldn't have been able to defeat her, even though my
powers
have grown."
She
almost said, "Even with the dragon's powers in
me,"
but the words stuck on her lips. She felt the powers
stir in
her, like an alien child in the womb of fate, and
tried
to put aside the thought of them and of what they
might
mean. She raised the cup to her lips, but stopped,
the
water untasted, and looked up at Gareth again.
"Have
you drunk any of the water from this well?" she
asked.
He
looked at her in surprise. "We've all been drinking
it for
days," he said.
"This
evening, I mean."
He
looked ruefully around at the clearing and his own
soaked
sleeves. "I was too busy throwing it about to drink
any,"
he said. "Why?"
She
passed her hand across the mouth of the cup. As
things
were visible to a wizard in darkness, she saw the
viscid
sparkle of green luminosity in the water.
"Has
it gone bad?" he asked worriedly. "How can you
tell?"
She
upended the cup, dumping the contents to the
ground.
"Where was Zyeme when you came into the
clearing?"
He
shook his head, puzzled. "I don't remember. It was
like a
dream..." He looked around him, though Jenny
knew
that the clearing, soggy and trampled in the dismal
gloom,
was very different from the soft place of twilight
enchantment
if had appeared an hour or so ago.
At last
he said, "I think she was sitting where you are
now, on
the edge of the wellhead."
Morkeleb
had said. They did not think that I could see
the
death that tainted the meat. Was it Dromar who had
remarked
that dragons were impossible to poison?
She
twisted her body and moved her hands across the
surface
of the bucket that Gareth had drawn up. The reek
of
death rose from it, and she recoiled in disgust and
horror,
as if the water had turned to blood beneath her
fingers.
CHAPTER
XIII
"BUT
WHY?" SQUATTING before the fire on his hunker-
bones,
Gareth turned to look at John, who lay in his nest
of
bearskin blankets and ratty plaids a few feet away. "As
far as
she was concerned, you'd slain her dragon for her."
He
unraveled the screw of paper in which they'd brought
the
coffee up from Bel, decided there wasn't enough to
bother
with measuring, and dumped it into the pot of
water
that bubbled over the fire. "She didn't know then
that
Jenny was any threat to her. Why poison us?"
"At
a guess," John said, propping himself with great
care up
on one elbow and fitting his spectacles to his dirty,
unshaven
face, "to keep us from riding back to Bel with
the
news that the dragon was dead before she could get
your
dad to round up the remaining gnomes on some
trumped-up
charge. As far as she knew, the dragon was
dead-I
mean, she couldn't have seen him in a crystal or
a water
bowl, but she could see us all alive and chipper,
and the
inference is a pretty obvious one."
"I
suppose." Gareth unrolled his tumed-up sleeves and
slung
his cloak around his shoulders once more. The
morning
was foggy and cold, and the sweat he'd worked
up
clearing out the well house close to their camp in the
ruined
tanneries was drying.
"I
doubt she'd have poisoned you," John went on. "If
she'd
wanted you dead, she'd never have waited for you."
Gareth
blushed hotly. "That isn't why she waited," he
mumbled.
"Of
course not," John said. "Dead, you're not only no
good to
her-if you die, she loses everything."
The boy
frowned. "Why? I mean, I can see her wanting
me
under her power so I'd no longer be a threat to her,
the
same reason she put Polycarp out of the way. And if
she
killed the two of you, she'd need me to back up her
story
about the dragon still being in the Deep, at least
until
she could get rid of the gnomes." He sniffed bitterly
and
held out his blistered hands to the fire. "She'd prob-
ably
use Bond and me as witnesses to say eventually that
she
slew the dragon. Then she'd be able to justify having
my
father give her the Deep."
He sighed,
his mouth tight with disillusionment. "And
I
thought Polycarp stretching a bit of cable over a fence
sounded
like the depths of perfidy." He settled the griddle
over
the fire, his thin face looking much older than it had
in the
jonquil pallor of the daytime flames.
"Well,"
John said gently, "it isn't only that. Gar." He
glanced
over at Jenny, who sat in the shadows of the newly
cleared
doorway of the well house, but she said nothing.
Then he
looked back to Gareth. "How long do you think
your
father's going to last with Zyeme alive? I don't know
what
her spells are doing to him, and I know a dying man
when I
see one. As it is, for all her power, she's only a mis
tress.
She needs the Deep for a power base and fortress
independent
of the King, and she needs the Deep's gold."
"My
father would give it to her," Gareth said softly.
"And
I-I suppose I'm just the contingency plan, in case
he
should die?" He poked at the softly sizzling cakes on
the
griddle. "Then she had to destroy Polycarp, whether
or not
he tried to warn me of her. The Citadel guards the
back
way into the Deep."
"Well,
not even that." John lay back down again and
folded
his hands on his breast. "She wanted to be rid of
Polycarp
because he's an alternative heir."
"Alternative
to whom?" Gareth asked, puzzled. "To
me?"
John
shook his head. "Alternative to Zyeme's child."
The
horror that crossed the boy's face was deeper than
fear of
death-deeper. Jenny thought with the strange
dispassion
that had lain upon her all that morning and
through
the previous night, than fear of being subjugated
to the
enchantress's spells. He looked nauseated by the
thought,
as if at the violation of some dark taboo. It was
a long
time before he could speak. "You mean-my father's
child?"
"Or
yours. It would scarcely matter which, as long as
it had
the family looks." Bandaged hands folded, John
looked
shortsightedly up at the boy as, half-numbed,
Gareth
went through the automatic motions of forking
griddlecakes
from the skillet. Still in that gentle, matter-
of-fact
voice, he went on, "But you see, after this long
under
Zyeme's spells, your father may not be capable of
fathering
a child. And Zyeme needs a child, if she's to go
on
ruling."
Jenny
looked away from them, thinking about what it
would
be, to be that child. The same wave of sickness
Gareth
had felt passed over her at the knowledge of what
Zyeme
would do to any child others. She would not feed
upon
it, as she fed upon the King and Bond; but she would
raise
it deliberately as an emotional cripple, forever
dependent
upon her and her love. Jenny had seen it done,
by
women or by men, and knew what manner of man or
woman
emerged from that smothered childhood. But even
then,
the twisting had been from some need of the parent's
heart,
and not something done merely to keep power.
She
thought of her own sons and the absurd love she
bore
them. She might have abandoned them, she thought
with
sudden fury at Zyeme, but even had she not loved
them,
even were they got on her by rape, she would never
have
done that to them. It was a thing she would have
liked
to think she herself could scarcely conceive of any-
one
doing to an innocent child-except that in her heart
she
knew exactly how it could be done.
Anger
and sickness stirred in her, as if she had looked
upon
torture.
"Jenny?"
Gareth's
voice broke her from her thoughts. He stood
a few
paces from her, looking pleadingly down at her. "He
will
get better, won't he?" he asked hesitantly. "My father,
I mean?
When Zyeme is banished, or-or is killed-he
will be
the way he was before?"
Jenny
sighed. "I don't know," she replied in a low
voice.
She shook her mind free of the lethargy that gripped
her, a
weariness of the spirit as much as the ache of hei
body
left by the battering of Zyeme's spells. It was not
only
that she had badly overstretched her own newfound
powers,
not only that her body was unused to sustaining
the
terrible demands of the dragon's magic. She was aware
now
that her very perceptions were changing, that it wa?
not
only her magic that had been changed by the touch
of the
dragon's mind. The dragon in you answered, he
had
said-she was starting to see things as a dragon saw.
She got
stiffly to her feet, staggering a little against the
shored-up
doorpost of the well house, feeling physically
drained
and very weak. She had watched through the
night,
telling herself it was for Zyeme that she watched,
though
in her heart she knew the enchantress would not
be
back, and it was not, in fact, for her that she waited
She
said, "It isn't the spells that she holds him under that
are
harming him. Zyeme is a vampire, Gareth-not of
the
blood, like the Whisperers, but of the life-essence
itself.
In her eyes last night I saw her essence, her soul;
a
sticky and devouring thing, yes, but a thing that must
feed to
go on living. Miss Mab told me of the spells of
the
Places of Healing that can shore up the life of a dying
man by
taking a little of the life-energy of those who
consent
to give it. It is done seldom, and only in cases of
great
need. I am certain this is what she has done to your
father
and to Bond. What I don't understand is why she
would
need to. Her powers are such that..."
"You
know," John broke in, "it says in Dotys' Histories
... or
maybe it's in Terens... or is it the Elucidus Lapi-
darus...
?"
"But
what can we doT Gareth pleaded. "There must
be
something! I could ride back to Bel and let Dromar
know
it's safe for the gnomes to reoccupy the Deep. It
would
give them a strong base to..."
"No,"
Jenny said. "Zyeme's hold on the city is too
strong.
After this, she'll be watching for you, scrying the
roads.
She'd intercept you long before you came near
Bel."
"But
we have to do something!" Panic and desperation
lurked
at bay in his voice. "Where can we go? Polycarp
would
give us shelter in the Citadel..."
"You
going to tell the siege troops around the walls
you
want a private word with him?" John asked, forgetting
all
about his speculations upon the classics.
"There
are ways through the Deep into Halnath."
"And
a nice locked door at the end of 'em, I bet, or
the
tunnels sealed shut with blasting powder to keep the
dragon
out-even if old Dromar had put them on his
maps,
which he didn't. I had a look for that back in Bel."
"Damn
him..." Gareth began angrily, and John waved
him
silent with a mealcake in hand.
"I
can't blame him," he said. Against the random browns
and
heathers of the bloodstained plaid folded beneath his
head
his face still looked pale but had lost its dreadful
chalkiness.
Behind his specs, his brown eyes were bright
and
alert. "He's a canny old bird, and he knows Zyerne.
If she
didn't know where the ways through to the Citadel
hooked
up into the main Deep, he wasn't going to have
that
information down on paper that she could steal. Still,
Jen
might be able to lead us."
"No."
Jenny glanced over at him from where she sat
cross-legged
beside the fire, dipping the last bite of her
griddlecake
into the honey. "Even being able to see in
darkness,
I could not scout them out unaided. As for you
going
through them, if you try to get up in under a week,
I'll
put a spell of lameness on you."
"Cheat."
"Watch
me." She wiped her fingers on the end of her
plaid.
"Morkeleb guided me through to the heart of the
Deep; I
could never have found it, else."
"What
was it like?" Gareth asked after a moment. "The
heart
of the Deep? The gnomes swear by it..."
Jenny
frowned, remembering the whispering darkness
and the
soapy feel of the stone altar beneath her fingertips.
"I'm
not sure," she said softly. "I dreamed about it..."
As one,
the horses suddenly flung up their heads from
the
stiff, frosted grass. Battlehammer nickered softly and
was
answered, thin and clear, from the mists that floated
on the
fringes of the woods that surrounded Deeping Vale.
Hooves
struck the stone, and a girl's voice called out,
"Gar?
Gar, where are you?"
"It's
Trey." He raised his voice to shout. "Here!"
There
was a frenzied scrambling of sliding gravel, and
the
whitish mists solidified into the dark shapes of a horse
and
rider and a fluttering of dampened veils. Gareth strode
to the
edge of the high ground of the Rise to catch the
bridle
of Trey's dappled palfrey as it came stumbling up
the
last slope, head-down with exhaustion and matted
with
sweat in spite of the day's cold. Trey, clinging to the
saddlebow,
looked scarcely better off, her face scratched
as if
she had ridden into low-hanging branches in the wood
and
long streamers clawed loose from her purple-and-
white
coiffure.
"Gar,
I knew you had to be all right." She slid from
the
saddle into his arms. "They said they saw the dragon-
that
Lady Jenny had put spells upon him-I knew you
had to
be all right."
"We're
fine. Trey," Gareth said doubtfully, frowning
at the
terror and desperation of the girl's voice. "You look
as if
you've ridden here without a break."
"I
had to!" she gasped. Under the torn rags of her white
Court
dress, her knees were trembling, and she clung to
Gareth's
arm for support; her face was colorless beneath
what
was left of its paint. "They're coming for you! I
don't
understand what's happening, but you've got to get
out of
here! Bond..." She stumbled on her brother's name.
"What
about Bond? Trey, what's going on?"
"I
don't know!" she cried. Tears of wretchedness and
exhaustion
overflowed her eyes, and she wiped them
impatiently,
leaving faint streaks of blue-black kohl on her
round
cheeks. "There's a mob on its way, Bond's leading
it..."
"Bond?"
The idea of the lazy and elegant Bond trou-
bling
himself to lead anyone anywhere was absurd.
"They're
going to kill you. Gar! I heard them say so!
You,
and Lady Jenny, and Lord John."
"What?
Why?" Gareth was growing more and more
confused.
"More
to the point, who?" John asked, propping him-
self up
among his blankets once again.
"These-these
people, laborers mostly-smelters and
artisans
from Deeping out of work, the ones who hang
around
the Sheep in the Mire all day. There are Palace
guards
with them, too, and I think more are coming-I
don't
know why! I tried to get some sense out of Bond,
but
it's as if he didn't hear me, didn't know me! He slapped
me-and
he's never hit me, Gar, not since I was a child..."
"Tell
us," Jenny said quietly, taking the girl's hand,
cold as
a dead bird in her warm rough one. "Start from
the
beginning."
Trey
gulped and wiped her eyes again, her hands shak-
ing
with weariness and the exertion of a fifteen-mile ride
The
ornamental cloak about her shoulders was an indoor
garment
of white silk and milky fur, designed to ward off
the
chance drafts of a ballroom, not the bitter chill of
a foggy
night such as the previous one had been. Her long
fingers
were chapped and red among their diamonds.
"We'd
all been dancing," she began hesitantly. "It was
past
midnight when Zyeme came in. She looked strange-
I
thought she'd been sick, but I'd seen her in the morning
and
she'd been fine then. She called Bond to her, into an
alcove
by the window. I-" Some color returned to her
too-white
cheeks. "I crept after them to eavesdrop. I know
it's a
terribly rude and catty thing to do, but after what
we'd
talked of before you left I-I couldn't help doing it.
It
wasn't to leam gossip," she added earnestly. "I was
afraid
for him-and I was so scared because I'd never
done it
before and I'm not nearly as good at it as someone
like
Isolde or Merriwyn would be."
Gareth
looked a little shocked at this frankness, but
John
laughed and patted the toe of the girl's pearl-beaded
slipper
in commiseration. "We'll forgive you this time,
love,
but don't neglect your education like that again. You
see
where it leads you?" Jenny kicked him, not hard, in
his
unwounded shoulder.
"And
then?" she asked.
"I
heard her say, 'I must have the Deep. They must
be
destroyed, and it must be now, before the gnomes hear.
They
mustn't be allowed to reach it.' I followed them
down to
that little postern gate that leads to the Dock-
market;
they went to the Sheep in the Mire. The place
was
still full of men and women; all drunk and quarreling
with
each other. Bond went rushing in and told them he'd
heard
you'd betrayed them, sold them out to Polycarp;
that
you had the dragon under Lady Jenny's spells and
were
going to turn it against Bel; that you were going to
keep
the gold of the Deep for yourselves and not give it
to
them, its rightful owners. But they weren't ever its
rightful
owners-it always belonged to the gnomes, or to
the rich
merchants in Deeping. I tried to tell that to
Bond..."
Her cold-reddened hand stole to her cheek, as
if to
wipe away the memory of a handprint.
"But
they were all shouting how they had to kill you
and
regain their gold. They were all drunk-Zyeme got
the
innkeeper to broach some more kegs. She said she
was
going to re-enforce them with the Palace guards. They
were
yelling and making torches and getting weapons. I
ran
back to the Palace stables and got Prettyfeet, here..."
She
stroked the exhausted pony's dappled neck, and her
voice
grew suddenly small. "And then I came here. I rode
as fast
as I dared-I was afraid of what might happen if
they
caught me. I'd never been out riding alone at night..."
Gareth
pulled off his grubby crimson cloak and slung
it
around her shoulders as her trembling increased.
She
concluded, "So you have to get out of here..."
"That
we do." John flung back the bearskins from over
his
body. "We can defend the Deep."
"Can
you ride that far?" Gareth asked worriedly, hand-
ing him
his patched, iron-plated leather jerkin.
"I'll
be gie in trouble if I can't, my hero."
"Trey?"
The
girl looked up from gathering camp things as Jenny
spoke
her name.
Jenny
crossed quietly to where she stood and took her
by the
shoulders, looking into her eyes for a long moment.
The
probing went deep, and Trey pulled back with a thin
cry of
alarm that brought Gareth running. But to the bot-
torn,
her mind was a young girl's-not always truthful,
anxious
to please, eager to love and to be loved. There
was no
taint on it, and its innocence twisted at Jenny's
own
heart.
Then
Gareth was there, indignantly gathering Trey to
him.
Jenny's
smile was crooked but kind. "I'm sorry," she
said.
"I had to be sure."
By their
shocked faces she saw that it had not occurred
to
either of them that Zyeme might have made use of
Trey's
form-or of Trey.
"Come,"
she said. "We probably don't have much time
Gar,
get John on a horse. Trey, help him."
"I'm
perfectly capable..." John began, irritated.
But
Jenny scarcely heard. Somewhere in the mists of
the
half-burned woods below the town, she felt sudden
movement,
the intrusion of angry voices among the frost-
rimmed
silence of the blackened trees. They were coming
and they
were coming fast-she could almost see them
at the
turning of the road below the crumbling ruin of the
clock
tower.
She
turned swiftly back to the others. "Go!" she said
"Quickly,
they're almost on us!"
"How..."
began Gareth.
She
caught up her medicine bag and her halberd and
vaulted
to Moon Horse's bare back. "Now! Gar, take Trey
with
you. John, RIDE, damn you!" For he had wheeled
back,
barely able to keep upright in Cow's saddle, to
remain
at her side. Gareth flung Trey up to Battle-
hammer's
back in a flurry of torn skirts; Jenny could hear
the
echo of hooves on the trail below.
Her
mind reached out, gathering spells together, even
the
small effort wrenching at her. She set her teeth at the
stabbing
pain as she gathered the dispersing mists that
had
been burning off in the sun's pallid brightness-her
body
was not nearly recovered from yesterday. But there
was no
time for anything else. She wove the cold and
dampness
into a cloak to cover all the Vale of Deeping;
like a
secondary pattern in a plaid, she traced the spells
of
disorientation, ofjamais vu. Even as she did so, the
hooves
and the angry, incoherent voices were very close.
They
rang in the misty woods around the Rise and near
the
gatehouse in the Vale as well-Zyeme must have told
them
where to come. She wheeled Moon Horse and gave
her a
hard kick in her skinny ribs, and the white mare
threw
herself down the rocky slope in a gangly sprawl of
legs,
making for the Gates of the Deep.
She
overtook the others in the gauzy boil of the mists
in the
Vale. They had slowed down as visibility lessened;
she led
them at a canter over the paths that she knew so
well
through the town. Curses and shouts, muffled by the
fog,
came from the Rise behind them. Cold mists shredded
past
her face and stroked back the black coils other hair.
She
could feel the spells that held the brume in place
fretting
away as she left the Rise behind, but dared not
try to
put forth the strength of will it would take to hold
them
after she was gone. Her very bones ached from even
the
small exertion of summoning them; she knew already
that
she would need all the strength she could summon
for the
final battle.
The
three horses clattered up the shallow granite steps.
From
the great darkness of the gate arch. Jenny turned
to see
the mob still milling about in the thinning fog, some
fifty
or sixty of them, of all stations and classes but mostly
poor
laborers. The uniforms of the handful of Palace guards
stood
out as gaudy splotches in the grayness. She heard
their
shouts and swearing as they became lost within plain
sight
of one another in territory they had all known well
of old.
That won't last long, she thought.
Moon
Horse shied and fidgeted at the smell of the dragon
and of
the old blood within the vast gloom of the Market
Hall.
The carcass of the horse Osprey had disappeared, but
the
place still smelled of death, and all the horses felt it,
Jenny
slid from her mare's tall back and stroked her neck,
then
whispered to her to stay close to the place in case of
need
and let her go back down the steps.
Hooves
clopped behind her on the charred and broken
flagstones.
She looked back and saw John, ashen undei
the
stubble of beard, still somehow upright in Cow's sad-
dle. He
studied the Vale below them with his usual cool
expressionlessness.
"Zyeme out there?" he asked, and
Jenny
shook her head.
"Perhaps
I hurt her too badly. Perhaps she's only
remaining
at the Palace to gather other forces to send
against
us."
"She
always did like her killing to be done by others.
How
long will your spells hold them?"
"Not
long," Jenny said doubtfully. "We have to hold
this
gate here, John. If they're from Deeping, many of
them
will know the first levels of the Deep. There are
four or
five ways out of the Market Hall. If we retreat
further
in, we'll be flanked."
"Aye."
He scratched the side of his nose thoughtfully.
"What's
wrong with just letting them in? We could hide
up
somewhere-once they got to the Temple of Sar-
mendes
with all that gold, I doubt they'd waste much
energy
looking for us."
Jenny
hesitated for a moment, then shook her head.
"No,"
she said. "If they were an ordinary mob, I'd say
yes,
but-Zyeme wants us dead. If she cannot break and
overwhelm
my mind with her magic, she's not going to
give up
before she has destroyed my body. There are
enough
of them that would keep hunting us, and we can't
take a
horse into the deeper tunnels to carry you; without
one,
we'd never be able to move swiftly enough to avoid
them.
We'd be trapped in a cul-de-sac and slaughtered.
No, if
we're to hold them, it has to be here."
"Right."
He nodded. "Can we help you?"
She had
returned her attention to the angry snarl of
moving
figures out in the pale ruins. Over her shoulder,
she
said, "You can't even help yourself."
"I
know that," he agreed equably. "But that wasn't my
question,
love. Look..." He pointed. "That bloke there's
figured
out the way. Here they come. Gaw, they're like
ants."
Jenny
said nothing, but felt a shiver pass through her
as she
saw the trickle of attackers widen into a stream.
Gareth
came up beside them, leading Battlehammer;
Jenny
whispered to the big horse and turned him loose
down
the steps. Her mind was already turning inward
upon
itself, digging at the strength in the exhausted depths
of her
spirit and body. John, Gareth, and the slender girl
in the
white rags of a Court gown, clinging to Gareth's
arm,
were becoming mere wraiths to her as her soul spi-
raled
down into a single inner vortex, like the single-
minded
madness that comes before childbearing-nothing
else
existed but herself, her power, and what she must
do.
Her
hands pressed to the cold rock of the gate pillar,
and she
felt that she drew fire and strength from the stone
itself
and from the mountain beneath her feet and above
her
head-drew it from the air and the darkness that
surrounded
her. She felt the magic surge into her veins
like a
reined whirlwind of compressed lightning. Its power
frightened
her, for she knew it was greater than her body
would
bear, yet she could afford no Limitation upon these
spells.
It was thus, she knew, with dragons, but her body
was not
a dragon's.
She was
aware of John reining Cow sharply back away
from
her, as if frightened; Gareth and Trey had retreated
already.
But her mind was out in the pale light of the
steps,
looking down over Deeping, contemplating in lei-
surely
timelessness the men and women running through
the
crumbled walls of the ruins. She saw each one of them
with
the cool exactness of a dragon's eyes, not only how
they
were dressed, but the composition of their souls
through
the flesh they wore. Bond she saw distinctly,
urging
them on with a sword in his hand, his soul eaten
through
with abcesses like termite-riddled wood.
The
forerunners hit the cracked pavement and dust of
the
square before the gates. Like the chirp of an insect
in a
wall, she heard Gareth nattering, "What can we do^
We have
to help her!" as she dispassionately gathered the
lightning
in her hands.
"Put
that down," John's voice said, suddenly weak and
bleached.
"Get ready to run for it-you can hide in the
warrens
for a time if they get through. Here's the maps..."
The mob
was on the steps. Incoherent hate rose around
her
like a storm tide. Jenny lifted her hands, the whole
strength
of rock and darkness tunneling into her body,
her
mind relaxing into the shock instead of bracing against
it.
The key
to magic is magic, she thought. Her life began
and ended
in each isolate crystal second of impacted time.
The
fire went up from the third step, a red wall of it,
whole
and all-consuming. She heard those trapped in the
first
rush screaming and smelled smoke, charring meat,
and
burning cloth. Like a dragon, she killed without hate,
striking
hard and cruel, knowing that the first strike must
kill or
her small group would all be dead.
Then
she slammed shut before her the illusion of the
doors
that had long ago been broken from the gateway
arch.
They appeared like faded glass from within, but
every
nail and beam and brace of them was wrought per-
fectly
from enchanted air. Through them she saw men and
women
nulling about the base of the steps, pointing up
at what
they saw as the renewed Gates of the Deep and
crying
out in wonder and alarm. Others lay on the ground,
or
crawled helplessly here and there, beating out the flames
from
their clothes with frenzied hands. Those who had
not
been trapped in the fire made no move to help them,
but
stood along the bottom of the step, looking up at the
gates
and shouting with drunken rage. With the caco-
phony
of the screams and groans of the wounded, the
noise
was terrible, and worse than the noise was the stench
of
sizzling flesh. Among it all. Bond Clerlock stood, star-
ing up
at the phantom gates with his hunger-eaten eyes.
Jenny
stepped back, feeling suddenly sick as the human
in her
looked upon what the dragon in her had done. She
had
killed before to protect her own life and the lives of
those
she loved. But she had never killed on this scale,
and the
power she wielded shocked her even as it drained
her of
strength.
The
dragon in you answered, Morkeleb had said. She
felt
sick with horror at how true his knowledge of her had
been.
She
staggered back, and someone caught her-John
and
Gareth, looking like a couple of not-very-successful
brigands,
filthy and battered and incongruous in their
spectacles.
Trey, with Gareth's tattered cloak still draped
over
her mud-stained white silks and her purple-and-wtute
hair
hanging in asymmetrical coils about her chalky face,
wordlessly
took a collapsible tin cup from her pearl-beaded
reticule,
filled it from the water bottle on Cow's saddle,
and
handed it to her.
John
said, "It hasn't stopped them for long." A mist
of
sweat covered his face, and the nostrils of his long nose
were
marked by dints of pain from the mere effort of
standing.
"Look, there's Bond drumming up support for
a
second go. Silly bleater." He glanced across at Trey and
added,
"Sorry." She only shook her head.
Jenny
freed herself and walked unsteadily to the edge
of the
shadow gate. Her head throbbed with exhaustion
that
bordered nausea. The voices of the men and her own
voice,
when she spoke, sounded flat and unreal. "He'll
get it,
too."
In the
square below the gates, Bond was running here
and
there among the men, stepping over the charred bod-
ies of
the dying, gesticulating and pointing up at the phan-
tom
doors. The Palace guards looked uncertain, but the
laborers
from the Dockmarket were gathered about him,
listening
and passing wineskins among themselves. They
shook
their fists up at the Deep, and Jenny remarked,
"Like
the gnomes, they've had their taste of poverty."
"Yes,
but how can they blame us for it?" Gareth objected
indignantly.
"How can they blame the gnomes? The
gnomes
were even more victims of it than they."
"Whether
or no," John said, leaning against the stone
pillar
of the Gate, "I bet they're telling themselves the
treasures
of the Deep are theirs by right. It's what Zyeme
will
have told 'em, and they obviously believe it enough
to kill
for them."
"But
it's silly!"
"Not
as silly as falling in love with a witch, and we've
both
done that," John replied cheerfully. In spite of her
exhaustion,
Jenny chuckled. "How long can you hold
them,
love?"
Something
in the sound of his voice made her look
back
quickly at him. Though he had dismounted from
Cow to
help her, it was obvious he could not stand alone;
his
flesh looked gray as ash. Shouting from below drew
her
attention a moment later; past the smoke still curling
from
the steps, she could see men forming up into a ragged
line,
the madness of unreasoning hate in their eyes.
"I
don't know," she said softly. "All power must be
paid
for. Maintaining the illusion of the Gates draws still
more of
my strength. But it buys us a little time, breaking
the
thrust of their will if they think they'll have to break
them."
"I
doubt that lot has the brains to think that far." Still
leaning
heavily on the pillar, John looked out into the
slanted
sun of the square outside. "Look, here they come."
"Get
back," Jenny said. Her bones hurt with the thought
of
drawing forth power from them and from the stone and
air
around her one more time. "I don't know what will
happen
without Limitations."
"I
can't get back, love; if I let go of this wall, I'll fall
down."
Through
the ghost shape of the Gates, she saw them
coming,
running across the square toward the steps. The
magic
came more slowly, dredged and scraped from the
seared
core of her being-her soul felt bleached by
the
effort. The voices below rose in a mad crescendo, in
which
the words "gold" and "kill" were flung up like spars
of
driftwood on the rage of an incoming wave. She glimpsed
Bond
Clerlock, or what was left of Bond Clerlock, some-
where
in their midst, his Court suit pink as a shell among
the
blood-and-buttercup hues of the Palace guards. Her
mind
locked into focus, like a dragon's mind; all things
were
clear to her and distant, impersonal as images in a
divining
crystal. She called the white dragon rage like a
thunderclap
and smote the steps with fire, not before them
now,
but beneath their feet.
As the
fire exploded from the bare stone, a wave of
sickness
consumed her, as if in that second all her veins
had
been opened. The shrieking of men, caught in the
agony
of the fire, struck her ears like a slapping hand, as
grayness
threatened to drown her senses and heat rose
through
her, then sank away, leaving behind it a cold like
death.
She saw
them reeling and staggering, ripping flaming
garments
from charred flesh. Tears of grief and weakness
ran
down her face at what she had done, though she knew
that
the mob would have torn the four of them apart and
had
known, that time, that she could summon fire. The
illusion
of the Gates felt as tenuous as a soap-bubble around
her-like
her own body, light and drifting. John stumbled
to
catch her as she swayed and pulled her back to the
pillar
against which he had stood; for a moment they boih
held to
it, neither strong enough to stand.
Her
eyes cleared a little. She saw men running about
the
square in panic, rage, and pain; and Bond, oblivion^
to bums
which covered his hand and arm, was chasing
after
them, shouting.
"What
do we do now, love?"
She
shook her head. "I don't know," she whispered
"I
feel as if I'm going to faint."
His arm
tightened around her waist. "Oh, do," he
encouraged
enthusiastically. "I've always wanted to carr>
you to
safety in my arms."
Her
laughter revived her, as he had no doubt meant it
to. She
pushed herself clear of his support as Gareth and
Trey
came up, both looking ill and frightened.
"Could
we run for it through the Deep?" Gareth asked,
fumbling
the maps from an inner pocket and dropping two
of
them. "To the Citadel, I mean?"
"No,"
Jenny said. "I told John-if we left the Market
Hall,
they'd flank us; and carrying John, we couldn't out-
distance
them."
"I
could stay here, love," John said quietly. "I could
buy you
time."
Sarcastically,
she replied, "The time it would take them
to pick
themselves up after tripping over your body ic
the
archway would scarcely suffice."
"One
of us could try to get through," Trey suggesteu
timidly.
"Polycarp and the gnomes at the Citadel would
know
the way through from that side. They could come
for the
rest of you. I have some candles in my reticule,
and
some chalk to mark the way, and I'm no good to you
here..."
"No,"
Gareth objected, valiantly fighting his terror of
the
dark warrens. "I'll go."
"You'd
never find it," Jenny said. "I've been down in
the
Deep, Gareth, and believe me, it is not something that
can be
reasoned out with chalk and candles. And, as John
has
said, the door at the end will be locked in any case,
even if
they didn't blast it shut."
Down
below them, Bond's voice could be heard dimly,
shouting
that the Gate wasn't real, that it was just a witch's
trick,
and that all the gold that had been lost was theirs
by
right. People were yelling, "Death to the thieves! Death
to the
gnome-lovers!" Jenny leaned her head against the
stone
of the pillar, a bar of sunlight falling through the
Gate
around her and lying like a pale carpet on the fire-
black
rubble of the Market Hall. She wondered if Zyeme
had
ever felt like this, when she had called upon the deep
reserves
of her powers, without Limitations-helpless
before
the anger of men.
She
doubted it. It did something to you to be helpless.
All
power must be paid for. Zyeme had never paid.
She
wondered, just for a moment, how the enchantress
had
managed that.
"What's
that?"
At the
sound of Trey's voice, she opened her eyes again
and
looked out to where the girl was pointing. The light
filling
the Vale glinted harshly on something up near the
ruined
clock tower. Listening, she could pick out the sound
of
hooves and voices and feel the distant clamor of anger
and
unthinking hate. Against the dull slate color of the
tower's
stones, the weeds of the hillside looked pale as
yellow
wine; between them the uniforms of half a com-
pany of
Palace guards glowed like a tumble of hothouse
poppies.
The sun threw fire upon their weapons.
"Gaw,"
John said. "Reinforcements."
Bond
and a small group of men were running up through
the
rubble and sedge toward the new company, flies
swarming
thick on the young courtier's untended wounds.
Small
with distance. Jenny saw more and more men under
the
shadow of the tower, the brass of pike and cuirass
flashing,
the red of helmet crests like spilled blood against
the
muted hues of the stone. Exhaustion ate like poison
into
her bones. Her skin felt like a single open, throbbing
wound;
through it, she could feel the illusion of the Ga^c
fading
to nothingness as her power drained and died.
She
said quietly, "You three get back to the doors into
the
Grand Passage. Gar, Trey-carry John. Bolt the dooi s
from
the inside-there are winches and pulleys there."
"Don't
be stupid." John was clinging to the gatepost
beside
her to stay upright.
"Don't
you be stupid." She would not take her eyes
from
the swarming men in the square below.
"We're
not leaving you," Gareth stated. "At least, I'm
not.
Trey, you take John..."
"No,"
Trey and the Dragonsbane insisted in approxi-
mate
unison. They looked at one another and managed
the
ghost of a mutual grin.
"It's
all of us or none of us, love."
She
swung around on them, her eyes blazing palely
with
the crystalline coldness of the dragon's eyes. "None
of you
can be of the slightest use to me here against so
many.
John and Trey, all you'll be is killed immediately.
Gareth..."
Her eyes pinned his like a lance of frost. "You
may not
be. They may have other instructions concerning
you,
from Zyeme. I may have the strength for one more
spell.
That can buy you some time. John's wits may keep
you
alive for a while more in the Deep; you'll need Trey's
willingness
as well. Now go."
There
was a short silence, in which she could feel
John's
eyes upon her face. She was conscious of the men
approaching
in the Vale; her soul screamed at her to get
rid of
these three whom she loved while there was yet
time.
It was
Gareth who spoke. "Will you really be able to
hold
the Gate against another charge? Even of-of my
father's
men?"
"I
think so," Jenny lied, knowing she hadn't the strength
left to
light a candle.
"Aye,
then, love," said John softly. "We'd best go."
He took
her halberd to use as a crutch; holding himself
upright
with it, he put a hand on her nape and kissed her.
His
mouth felt cold against hers, his lips soft even through
the
hard scratchiness of five days' beard. As their lips
parted,
their eyes met, and, through the dragon armor of
hardness,
she saw he knew she'd lied.
"Let's
go, children," he said. "We won't shoot the bolts
till we
have to, Jen."
The
line of soldiers was descending through the lab-
yrinth
of shattered foundations and charred stone. They
were
joined by the men and women of Deeping, those,
Jenny
noted, who had thrown garbage at Miss Mab in the
fountain
square of Bel. Makeshift weapons jostled pikes
and
swords. In the brilliance of daylight everything seemed
hard
and sharp. Every house beam and brick stood out
to
Jenny's raw perceptions like filigree work, every tangle
of weed
and stand of grass clear and individuated. The
amber
air held the stench of sulfur and burned flesh. Like
a dim
background to angry ranting and exhortation rose
the
keening of the wounded and, now and again, voices
crying,
"Gold... gold..."
They
scarcely even know what it is for, Morkeleb had
said.
Jenny
thought about lan and Adric, and wondered
briefly
who would raise them, or if, without her and John's
protection
of the Winterlands, they would live to grow
up at
all. Then she sighed and stepped forth from the
shadows
into the light. The pale sun drenched her, a small,
skinny,
black-haired woman alone in the vast arch of the
shattered
Gate. Men pointed, shouting. A rock clattered
against
the steps, yards away. The sunlight felt warm and
pleasant
upon her face.
Bond
was screaming hysterically, "Attack! Attack now!
KU1 the
witch-bitch! It's our gold! We'll get the slut thip
time-get
her..."
Men
began to run forward up the steps. She watchec
them
coming with a curious feeling of absolute detach
ment.
The fires of dragon-magic had drained her utterly-
one
last trap, she thought ironically, from Morkeleb, i
final
vengeance for humiliating him. The mob curled like
a
breaking wave over the ruined beams and panels of the
shattered
gates, the sunlight flashing on the steel of the
weapons
in their hands.
Then a
shadow crossed the sunlight-like a hawk's,
but
immeasurably more huge.
One man
looked up, pointed at the sky, and screamed.
Again
the sunlight was darkened by circling shade.
Jenny
raised her head. The aureate light streamed trans-
lucently
through the black spread of bones and the dark
veins
of sable wings, sparkled from the spikes that tipped
the
seventy-foot span of that silent silk, and gilded every
hom and
ribbon of the gleaming mane.
She
watched the dragon circling, riding the thermals
like a
vast eagle, only peripherally conscious of the ter-
rified
shouting of the men and the frenzied squeals of the
guards'
horses. Yelling and crashing in the rubble, the
attackers
of the Deep turned and fled, trampling upon
their
dead and dropping their weapons in their headlong
flight.
The
Vale was quite empty by the time Morkeleb lighted
upon
the heat-cracked steps of the Deep.
CHAPTER
XIV
WHY DID
YOU RETURN?
The sun
had set. Echoes of its brightness lingered on
the
cinnamon edges of the cliff above. After the firelight
and
blackness of the Market Hall, where Gareth and Trey
could
be heard talking softly beside the small blaze they
had
kindled, the windy coolness of the steps was deeply
refreshing.
Jenny ran tired hands through her hair, the
cold of
her fingers welcome against her aching skull.
The
great, gleaming black shape that lay like a sphinx
along
the top step turned its head. In the reflected glow
from
the fire in the hall she saw the long edges of that
birdlike
skull, the turn and flutter of the ribboned mane
and the
glint of the bobs of jet that quivered on long
antennae.
His
voice was soft in her mind. I need your help, wizard
woman.
What?
It was the last thing she would have expected
from
the dragon. She wondered illogically if she had heard
rightly,
though with dragons there was never a question
of
that. My HELP? MY help?
Bitter
anger curled from the dragon like an acrid smoke,
anger
at having to ask the help of any human, anger at
needing
help, anger at admitting it, even to himself. But
in the
close-shielded mind, she felt other things-exhaus-
tion
approaching her own and the chill thread of fear.
By my
name you drove me forth from this place, he
said.
But something else, something beyond my name,
draws
me back. Like a jewel, one jet-bobbed antenna
flicked
in the wind. Like the discontented dreams that
first
brought me to this place, it will not let me rest; it is
a
yearning like the craving for gold, but worse. It tor-
mented
me as I flew north, mounting to pain, and the
only
ease I had was when I turned south again. Now all
the
torments of my soul and my dreams center upon this
mountain.
Before you entered my mind, it was not so-
I came
and went as I pleased, and naught but my own
desire
for the gold made me return. But this pain, this
longing
of the heart, is something I never felt before, in
all my
years; it is something I never knew of, until your
healing
touched me. It is not of you, for you commanded
me to
go. It is a magic that I do not understand, unlike
the
magic of dragons. It gives me no rest, no peace. I
think
of this place constantly, though, by my name, wizard
woman,
it is against my will that I return.
He
shifted upon his haunches, so that he lay as a cat
will
sometimes lie, his forelimbs and shoulders sphinx-
like,
but his hinder legs stretched out along the uppermost
step.
The spiked club of his tail lashed slightly at its clawed
tip.
It is
not the gold, he said. Gold calls to me, but never
with a
madness like this. It is alien to my understanding,
as if
the soul were being rooted from me. I hate this place,
for it
is a place of defeat and disgrace to me now, but the
craving
to be here consumes me. I have never felt this
before
and I do not know what It is. Has it come from
you,
wizard woman? Do you know what is it?
Jenny
was silent for a time. Her strength was slowly
returning,
and she felt already less weak and brittle than
she
had. Sitting on the steps between the dragon's claws,
his
head rose above hers, the thin, satiny ribbons of his
mane
brushing against her face. Now he cocked his head
down;
looking up, she met one crystalline silver eye.
She
said. It is a longing such as humans feel. I do not
know
why it should possess you, Morkeleb-but I think
it is
time that we found out. You are not the only one
drawn
to the Deep as if possessed. Like you, I do not
think
it is the gold. There is something within the Deep.
I sense
it, feel it within my bones.
The
dragon shook his great head. / know the Deep, he
said.
It was my hold and dominion. I know every dropped
coin
and every soda-straw crystal; I heard the tread of
every
foot passing in the Citadel overhead and the slip-
ping of
the blind white fish through the waters deep below.
I tell
you, there is nothing in the Deep but water, stone,
and the
gold of the gnomes, sleeping in the darkness.
There
is nothing there that should draw me so.
Perhaps,
Jenny said. Then, aloud, she called into the
echoing
cavern behind her, "Gareth? John? Trey?"
The
dragon lifted his head with indignation as soft foot-
falls
scuffled within. Like speech without words, Jenny
felt
the sharp flash of his pride and his annoyance at her
for
bringing other humans into their counsels and she
longed
to slap his nose as she slapped her cat's when he
tried
to steal food from her fingers.
He must
have felt the returning glint of her exasper-
ation,
for he subsided, his narrow chin sinking to rest
upon
the long-boned hooks of one black foreclaw. Beyond
the
spears of his backbone she saw the great tail lash.
The
others came out, Gareth and Trey supporting John
between
them. He had slept a little and rested and looked
better
than he had. The spells of healing she had laid upon
him
were having their effect. He gazed up at the dark
shape
of the dragon, and Jenny felt their eyes meet and
knew
that Morkeleb spoke to him, thought she heard not
what he
said.
John
replied in words. "Well, it was just as well, wasn't
it?
Thank you."
Their
eyes held for a moment more. Then the dragon
raised
his head and turned it away irritably, transferring
his
cold silver gaze to Gareth. Jenny saw the young man
flush
with shame and confusion; whatever the dragon said
to him,
he made no reply at all.
They
laid John down with his back to the granite door
pillar,
his plaid folded beneath his shoulders. His spec-
tacles
caught the starlight, rather like the silvery glow of
the
dragon's eyes. Jenny seated herself on the steps
between
him and the dragon's talons; Gareth and Trey,
as if
for mutual protection, sat opposite and close together,
staring
up in wonder at the thin, serpentine form of the
Black
Dragon of Nast Wall.
In
time, Jenny's flawed, silver-shot voice broke the
silence.
"What is in the Deep?" she asked. "What is it
that
Zyeme wants so badly there? All her actions have
been
aimed toward having it-her hold over the King,
her attempts
to seduce Gareth, her desire for a child, the
siege
of Halnath, and the summoning of the dragon."
She did
not summon me, retorted Morkeleb angrily.
She
could not have done that. She has no hold upon my
mind.
"You're
here, ain't you?" John drawled, and the drag-
on's
metallic claws scraped upon the stone as his head
swung
round.
Jenny
said sharply, "John! Morkeleb!"
The
dragon subsided with a faint hiss, but the bobs of
his
antennae twitched with annoyance.
She
went on, "Might it be that she is herself sum-
moned?"
/ tell
you there is nothing there, the dragon said. Noth-
ing
save stone and gold, water and darkness.
"Let's
back up a bit, then," John said. "Not what does
Zveme
want in the Deep, but just what does she want?"
Gareth
shrugged. "It can't be gold. You've seen how
she
lives. She could have all the gold in the Realm for the
asking.
She has the King..." He hesitated, and then went
on
calmly, "If I hadn't left for the north when I did, she
would
certainly have had me, and very probably a son to
rule
through for the rest of her life."
"She
used to live in the Deep," Trey pointed out. "It
seems
that, ever since she left it, she's been trying to get
control
of it. Why did she leave? Did the gnomes expel
her?"
"Not
really," Gareth said. "That is, they didn't formally
forbid
her to enter the Deep at all until this year. Up until
then
she could come and go in the upper levels, just like
any
other person from Bel."
"Well
if she's shapestrong, that's to say she had the
run of
the place, so long as she stayed clear of the mage-
born,"
John reasoned, propping his specs with one fore-
finger.
"And what happened a year ago?"
"I
don't know," Gareth said. "Dromar petitioned my
father
in the name of the Lord of the Deep not to let her-
or any
of the children of men, for that matter..."
"Again,
that's a logical precaution against a shape-
shifter."
"Maybe."
Gareth shrugged. "I didn't think of it then-
a lot
of the unpopularity of the gnomes started then,
because
of that stipulation. But they said Zyeme specif-
ically,
because she had..." He fished in his compendious,
ballad-trained
memory for the exact wording. "... 'defiled
a holy
thing.'"
"No
idea what it was?"
The
prince shook his head. Like John, he looked drawn
and
tired, his shirt a fluttering ruin of dirt and spark holes,
his
face sparkling faintly with an almost-invisible adoles-
cent
stubble. Trey, sitting beside him, looked little better.
With
her typical practicality, she had carried a comb in
her
reticule and had combed out her hair, so that it hung
past
her hips in crinkled swaths, the smooth sheen of its
fantastic
colors softened to a stippling of snow white and
violet,
like the pelt of some fabulous beast against the
matted
nap of Gareth's cloak.
'"Defiled
a holy thing." Jenny repeated thoughtfully.
"It
isn't how Mab put it. She said that she had poisoned
the
heart of the Deep-but the heart of the Deep is a
place,
rather than an object."
"Is
it?" said John curiously. _
"Of
course. I've been there." The silence of it whis- f
pered
along her memory. "But as for what Zyeme wants..."
"You're
a witch, Jen," said John. "What do you want?"
Gareth
looked shocked at the comparison, but Jenny
only
thought for a moment, then said, "Power. Magic.
The key
to magic is magic. My greatest desire, to which
I would
sacrifice all things else, is to increase my skills."
"But
she's already the strongest sorceress in the land,"
Trey
protested.
"Not
according to Mab."
"I
suppose there were gnome wizards in the Deep
stronger,"
John said interestedly. "If there hadn't been,
she
wouldn't have needed to summon Morkeleb."
She did
not summon me! The dragon's tail lashed again,
like a
great cat's. She could not. Her power is not that
great.
"Somebody's
is," John remarked. "Before you wiped
out the
Deep and the mages in it, the gnomes were strong
enough
to keep Zyerne out. But they all perished, or at
least
all the strong ones did..."
"No,"
Jenny said. "That's what has puzzled me. Mab
said
that she herself was stronger than Zyeme at some
time in
the past. That means that either Mab grew weaker,
or
Zyeme stronger."
"Could
Mab's power have been weakened in some way
when
Morkeleb showed up?" John glanced up at the
dragon.
"Would that be possible? That your magic would
lessen
someone else's?"
/ know
nothing of the magic of humans, nor yet of the
magic
of gnomes, the dragon replied. Yet among us, there
is no
taking away of another's magic. It is like taking
away
another's thoughts from him, and leaving him with
none.
"That's
another thing," Jenny said, folding her arms
about
her drawn-up knees. "When I met Zyerne yesterday
... My
powers have grown, but I should not have been
able to
defeat her as I did. She is shapestrong-she should
have
far more strength than I did." She glanced over at
Gareth.
"But she didn't shift shape."
"But
she can," the boy protested. "I've seen her."
"Lately?"
asked John suddenly.
Gareth
and Trey looked at one another.
"Since
the coming of the dragon? Or, to put it another
way,
since she hasn't been able to enter the Deep?"
"But
either way, it's inconceivable," Jenny insisted.
"Power
isn't something that's contingent upon any place
or
thing, any more than knowledge is. Zyeme's power
couldn't
have weakened any more than Mab's could.
Power
is within you-here, or in Bel, or in the Winter-
lands,
or wherever you are. It is something you learn,
something
you develop. AH power must be paid for..."
"Except
that it's never looked as if Zyeme had paid
for
hers," John said. His glance went from Jenny to the
dragon
and back. "You said the magic of the gnomes is
different.
Is there a way she could have stolen power,
Jen?
That she could be using something she's no right to?
I'm
thinking how you said she doesn't know about Lim-
itations-obviously,
since she summoned a dragon she
can't
get ridof..."
She did
not summon me!
"She
seems to think she did," John pointed out. "At
least
she's kept saying how she was the one who kicked
the
gnomes out of the Deep. But mostly I'm thinking
about
the wrinkles on her face."
"But
she doesn't have any wrinkles," Trey objected,
disconcerted
at this lightning change of topic.
"Exactly.
Why doesn't she? Every mage I've known-
Mab,
who isn't that old as gnomes go, old Caerdinn, that
crazy
little wander-mage who used to come through the
Winterlands,
and you, Jen-the marks of power are
printed
on their faces. Though it hasn't aged you," he
added
quickly, with a concern for her vanity that made
Jenny
smile.
"You
are right," she said slowly. "Now that you speak
of it,
I don't think I've ever encountered a mage that-
that
sweet-looking. Maybe that's what first troubled me.
And Mab
said something about Zyeme stealing secrets.
Zyeme
herself said that when she is able to get into the
Deep,
she'll have the power to destroy us all." She
frowned,
some other thought tugging at her mind. "But
it
doesn't make sense. If you think she could have gained
her
powers by studying arts possessed by the gnomes-
by
breaking into and reading the books of their deeper
magic-you're
wrong. I searched through the Places of
Healing
in quest of just such books, and found none."
"That's
a bit odd in itself, isn't it?" John mused. "But
when
you said power isn't contingent on any thing, any
more
than knowledge is-knowledge can be stored in a
book.
Is there any way power can be stored? Can a mage
use
another mage's power?"
Jenny
shrugged. "Oh, yes. Power can be accumulated
by
breadth as well as by depth; several mages can focus
their
power together and direct it toward a single spell
that
lies beyond their separate strengths. It can be done
by
chanting, meditating, dancing..." She broke off, as
the
vision rose once more to her mind-the vision of the
heart
of the Deep. "Dancing..." she repeated softly, then
shook
her head. "But in any case, the power is controlled
by
those who raise it."
"Is
it?" asked John. "Because in Polyborus it says..."
Morkeleb
cut him off. But if she were forbidden the
Deep,
Zyerne could have been nowhere near it when the
power
was raised that sent this yearning unto me and
called
me back. Nor, indeed, could she have been near
the
Deep to conjure the dreams that first brought me here.
And no
other mages would have combined to raise that
power.
"That's
what I'm trying to tell you!" John broke in.
"In
Dotys-or Polyborus' Analects-or maybe it's the
Elucidus
Lapidarus..."
"What?"
demanded Jenny, well aware that John was
perfectly
capable of fishing for the source of reference for
ten
minutes in the jackdaw-nest of his memory.
"Dotys-or
Polyborus-says that it used to be rumored
that
mages could use a certain type of stone for a power-
sink.
They could call power into it, generation after gen-
eration,
sometimes, or they could combine-and I think
he
mentioned dancing-and when they needed great power,
forthe
defense of their realm or defeat ofadragonorareally
powerful
devil, they could call power out of it."
They
looked at one another in silence-witch and
prince,
maiden and warrior and dragon.
John
went on, "I think what the gnomes were guard-
ing-what
lies in the heart of the Deep-is a power sink."
"The
Stone," Jenny said, knowing it for truth. "They
swear
'by the Stone' or 'by the Stone in the heart of the
Deep.'
Even Zyeme does. In my vision, they were danc-
ing
around it."
John's
voice was soft in the velvety darkness. "And
in that
case, all Zyeme would have needed to steal was
the key
to unlock it. If she was apprenticed in the Places
of
Healing near there, that wouldn't have been hard."
"If
she's mentally in contact with it, she could use it
somewhat,
even at a distance," Jenny said. "I felt it, when
I
struggled with her-some power I have never felt. Not
living,
like Morkeleb-but strong because it is dead and
does
not care what it does. It must be the source of all
her
strength, for shapechanging and for the curse she sent
to the
gnomes, the curse that brought you here from the
north,
Morkeleb."
"A
curse that's still holding good whether she wants
it to
or not." John's spectacles flashed in the starlight as
he
grinned. "But she must not be able to wield it accu-
rately
at a distance, even as Miss Mab can't use it against
her. It
would explain why she's so wild not to let them
get
even a chance of going back."
So what
thenf demanded Morkeleb grimly. Did your
estimable
Dotys, your wise Polyborus, speak of a way to
combat
the magic of these stones?
"Well,"
John said, a faint grin of genuine amusement
touching
the comers of his mouth, "that was the whole
point
of my coming south, you see. My copy of the Elu-
cidus
Lapidarus isn't complete. Almost nothing in my
library
is. It's why I agreed to become a Dragonsbane for
the
King's hire in the first place-because we need books,
we need
knowledge. I'm as much a scholar as I can be,
but it
isn't easy."
With
the size of a human brain, it would not be\ Mor-
keleb
snapped, irrationally losing his temper. You are no
more
scholar than you are Dragonsbane!
"But
I never claimed to be," John protested. "It's just
there's
all these ballads, see..."
The jet
claws rattled again on the pavement. Jenny,
exasperated
with them both, began, "I really am going to
let him
eat you this time..."
Trey
put in hastily, "Could you use the Stone yourself,
Lady
Jenny? Use it against Zyerne?"
"Of
course!" Gareth bounced like a schoolboy on the
hard
step. "That's it! Fight fire with fire."
Jenny
was silent. She felt their eyes upon her-Trey's,
Gareth's,
John's, the crystal gaze of the dragon turned
down at
her from above. The thought of the power stirred
in her
mind like lust-Zyeme's power. The key to magic
is
magic...
She saw
the worry in John's eyes and knew what her
own
expression must look like. It sobered her. "What are
you
thinking?"
He
shook his head. "I don't know, love."
He
meant that he would not stand in the way of any
decision
she made. Correctly interpreting his look, she
said
gently, "I would not misuse the power, John. I would
not
become like Zyeme."
His
voice was pitched to her ears alone. "Can you
know
that?"
She
started to reply, then stilled herself. Shrill and clear
she
heard Miss Mab's voice saying. She took the secrets
of
those greater than she, defiled them, tainted them,
poisoned
the very heart of the Deep ... She remembered,
too,
that sense of perverted power that had sparkled in
the
lamplight around Zyerne and the luckless Bond, and
how the
touch of the dragon's mind had changed her.
"No,"
she said at last. "I cannot know. And it would
be
stupid of me to meddle with something so powerful
without
knowing its dangers, even if I could figure out
the key
by myself."
"But,"
Gareth protested, "it's our only chance of
defeating
Zyeme! They'll be back-you know they will!
We
can't stay holed up here forever."
"Could
we learn enough about the Stone for you to
circumvent
its powers somehow?" Trey suggested. "Would
there
be a copy of the Whatsus Howeverus you talked
about
in the Palace library?"
Gareth
shrugged. His scholarship might extend to seven
minor
variants of the ballad of the Wariady and the Red
Worm of
Weldervale, but it was a broken reed insofar as
obscure
encyclopedists went.
"There
would be one at Halnath, though, wouldn't
there?"
Jenny said. "And if it didn't contain the infor-
mation,
there are gnomes there who might know."
"If
they'd tell." John propped himself gingerly a little
higher
against the granite of the gate pillar, the few por-
tions
of his shirt not darkened with bloodstains very white
in the
rising moonlight against the metallic glints of his
doublet.
"Dromar's lot wouldn't even admit it existed.
They've
had enough of humans controlling the Stone, and
I can't
say as I blame them. But whatever happens," he
added,
as the others subsided from their enthusiasm into
dismal
reflection once more, "our next move had better
be to
get out of here. As our hero says, you know Bond
and the
King's troops will be back. The only place we
can go
is Halnath, and maybe not there. How tight are
the
siege lines. Gar?"
"Tight,"
Gareth said gloomily. "Halnath is built on a
series
of cliffs-the lower town, the upper town, the Uni-
versity,
and the Citadel above that, and the only way in
is
through the lower town. Spies have tried to sneak in
over
the cliffs on the mountain side of the city and have
fallen
to their deaths." He readjusted his cracked spec-
tacles.
"And besides," he went on, "Zyerne knows as
well as
we do that Halnath is the only place we can go."
"Pox."
John glanced over at Jenny, where she sat against
the
alien curves of the dragon's complicated shoulder
bones.
"For something that was never any of our business
to
begin with, this is looking worse and worse."
"I
could go," Trey ventured. "The troops would be
least
likely to recognize me. I could tell Polycarp..."
"They'd
never let you through," John said. "Don't think
Zyeme
doesn't know you're here, Trey; and don't think
she'd
let you off because you're Bond's sister or that Bond
would
risk Zyeme so much as pouting at him to get you
off.
Zyerne can't afford even one of us returning to the
gnomes
with word the dragon's left the Deep."
That,
Morkeleb said thinly, is precisely our problem.
The dragon
has NOT left the Deep. Nor will he, until this
Zyerne
is destroyed. And I will not remain here docile,
to
watch the gnomes carrying on their petty trafficking
with my
gold.
"Your
gold?" John raised an eyebrow. With a swift
gesture
of her mind Jenny stilled Morkeleb again.
Nor
would they allow it, she said, for the dragon alone.
It
would only be a matter of time until their distrust of
you
mastered them, and they tried to slay you. No-you
must be
freed.
Freed!
The voice within her mind was acrid as the
stench
of vinegar. Freed to be turned like a beggar onto
the
roads? The dragon swung his head away, the long
scales
of his mane clashing softly, like the searingly thin
notes
of a wind chime. You have done this to me, wizard
woman!
Before your mind touched mine I was not bound
to this
place...
"You
were bound," Aversin said quietly. "It's just that,
before
Jenny's mind touched yours, you weren't aware
of it.
Had you tried to leave before?"
/
remained because it was my will to remain.
"And
it's the old King's will to remain with Zyeme,
though
she's killing him. No, Morkeleb-she got you
through
your greed, as she got poor Gar's dad through
his
grief and Bond through his love. If we hadn't come,
you'd
have stayed here, bound with spells to brood over
your
hoard till you died. It's just that now you know it."
That is
not true!
True or
not. Jenny said, it is my bidding, Morkeleb,
that as
soon as the sky grows light, you shall carry me
over
the mountain to the Citadel of Halnath, so that I
can
send Polycarp the Master to bring these others to
safety
there through the Deep.
The
dragon reared himself up, bristling all over with
rage.
His voice lashed her mind like a silver whip. / am
not
your pigeon nor your servant!
Jenny
was on her feet now, too, looking up into the
blazing
white deeps of his eyes. No, she said, holding to
the
crystal chain of his inner name. You are my slave, by
that
which you gave me when I saved your life. And by
that
which you gave me, I tell you this is what you shall
do.
Their
eyes held. The others, not hearing what passed
between
their two minds, saw and felt only the dragon's
scorching
wrath. Gareth caught up Trey and drew her
back
toward the shelter of the gateway; Aversin made a
move to
rise and sank back with a gasp. He angrily shook
offGareth's
attempt to draw him to safety, his eyes never
leaving
the small, thin form of the woman who stood
before
the smoking rage of the beast.
All
this Jenny was aware of, but peripherally, like the
weave
of a tapestry upon which other colors are painted.
Her
whole mind focused in crystal exactness against the
mind
that surged like a dark wave against hers; The power
bom in
her from the touch of the dragon's mind strength-
ened and
burned, forcing him back. Her understanding
of his
name was a many-pointed weapon in her hands. In
time
Morkeleb sank to his haunches again, and back to
his
sphinx position.
In her
mind his voice said softly, You know you do not
need
me, Jenny Waynest, to fly over the mountains. You
know
the form of the dragons and their magic. One of
them
you have put on already.
The
other I might put on, she replied, for you would
help me
in that, to be free of my will. But you would not
help me
put it off again.
The
deeps of his eyes were like falling into the heart
of a
star. If you wished it, I would.
The
need in her for power, to separate herself from all
that
had separated her from its pursuit, shuddered through
her
like the racking heat of fever. "To be a mage you must
be a
mage," Caerdinn had said.
He had
also said, "Dragons do not deceive with lies,
but
with truth." Jenny turned her eyes from those cosmic
depths.
You say it only because in becoming a dragon, I
will
cease to want to hold power over you, Morkeleb the
Black.
He
replied. Not 'only,' Jenny Waynest.
Like a
wraith he faded into the darkness.
Though
still exhausted from the battle at the Gates,
Jenny
did not sleep that night. She sat upon the steps, as
she had
sat awake most of the night before, watching and
listening-for
the King's men, she told herself, though
she
knew they would not come. She was aware of the
night
with a physical intensity, the moonlight like a rune
of
molten silver on every chink and crack of the scarred
steps
upon which she sat, turning to slips of white each
knotted
weed-stem in the scuffed dust of the square below.
Earlier,
while she had been tending to John by the fire in
the
Market Hall, the bodies of the slain rioters had van-
ished
from the steps, though whether this was due to
fastidiousness
on Morkeleb's part or hunger, she wasn't
sure.
Sitting
in the cold stillness of the night, she meditated,
seeking
an answer within herself. But her own soul was
unclear,
torn between the great magic that had always lain
beyond
her grasp and the small joys she had cherished in
its
stead-the silence of the house on Frost Fell, the
memory
of small hands that seemed to be printed on her
palms,
and John.
John,
she thought, and looked back through the wide
arch of
the Gate to where he lay, wrapped in bearskins
beside
the small glow of the fire.
In the
darkness she made out his shape, the broad-
shouldered
compactness that went so oddly with the
whippet
litheness of his movements. She remembered the
fears
that had driven her to the Deep to seek medicines-
that
had driven her first to look into the dragon's silver
eyes.
Now, as then, she could scarcely contemplate years
of her
life that did not-or would not-include that fleet-
ing,
triangular smile.
Adric
had it already, along with the blithe and sunny
half of
John's quirky personality. lan had his sensitivity,
his
maddening, insatiable curiosity, and his intentness.
His
sons, she thought. My sons.
Yet the
memory of the power she had called to stop
the
lynch mob on these very steps returned to her, sweet-
ness
and terror and exultation. Its results had horrified
her,
and the weariness of it still clung to her bones, but
the
taste that lingered was one of triumph at having wielded
it. How
could she, she wondered, have wasted all those
years
before this beginning? The touch ofMorkeleb's mind
had
half-opened a thousand doors within her. If she turned
away
from him now, how many of the rooms behind those
doors
would she be able to explore? The promise of the
magic
was something only a magebom could have felt;
the
need, like lust or hunger, something only the magebom
would
have understood. There was a magic she had never
dreamed
of that could be wrought from the light of certain
stars,
knowledge unplumbed in the dark, eternal minds
of
dragons and in the singing of the whales in the sea.
The
stone house on the Fell that she loved came back to
her
like the memory of a narrow prison; the clutch of
small
hands on her skirts, of an infant's mouth at her
breast,
seemed for a time nothing more than bonds holding
her
back from walking through its doors to the moving
air
outside.
Was
this some spell of Morkeleb's? she wondered,
wrapping
the soft weight of a bearskin more tightly around
her
shoulders and gazing at the royal blue darkness of the
sky
above the western ridge. Was it something he had
sung up
out of the depths of her soul, so that she would
leave
the concerns of humans and free him of his bondage
to her?
Why did
you say, "Not" 'only,'"Morkeleb the Black?
You
know that as well as I, Jenny Waynest.
He had
been invisible in the darkness. Now the moon-
light
sprinkling his back was like a carpet of diamonds
and his
silver eyes were like small, half-shut moons. How
long he
had been there she did not know-the moon had
sunk,
the stars moved. His coming had been like the float-
ing of
a feather on the still night.
What
you give to them you have taken from yourself.
When
our minds were within one another, I saw the strug-
gle
that has tortured you all your life. I do not understand
the
souls of humans, but they have a brightness to them,
like
soft gold. You are strong and beautiful. Jenny Way-
nest. I
would like it if you would become one of us and
live
among us in the rock islands of the northern seas.
She
shook her head. / will not turn against those that
I love.
Turn
against? The sinking moonlight striped his mane
with
frost as he moved his head. No. That I know you
would
never do, though, for what their love has done to
you,
they would well deserve it if you did. And as to this
love
you speak of, I do not know what it is-it is not a
thing
of dragons. But when I am freed of the spells that
bind me
here, when I fly to the north again, fly with me.
This is
something also that I have never felt-this wanting
of you
to be a dragon that you can be with me. And tell
me,
what is it to you if this boy Gareth becomes the slave
of his
father's woman or to one of his own choosing?
What is
it to you who rules the Deep, or how long this
woman
Zyerne can go on polluting her mind and her body
until
she dies because she no longer recalls enough about
her own
magic to continue living? What is it to you if the
Winterlands
are ruled and defended by one set of men or
another,
or if they have books to read about the deeds
of yet
a third? It is nothing. Jenny Way nest. Your powers
are
beyond that.
To
leave them now would be to turn against them. They
need
me.
They do
not need you, the dragon replied. Had the
King's
troops killed you upon these steps, it would have
been
the same for them.
Jenny
looked up at him, that dark shape of power-
infinitely
more vast than the dragon John had slain in Wyr
and
infinitely more beautiful. The singing of his soul re-
echoed
in her heart, magnified by the beauty of the gold.
Clinging
to the daylight that she knew against the calling
of the
dark, she shook her head again and said. It would
not
have been the same.
She
gathered the furs about her, rose, and went back
into
the Deep.
After
the sharpness of the night air, the huge cavern
felt
stuffy and stank of smoke. The dying fire threw weird
flickers
of amber against the ivory labyrinth of inverted
turrets
above and glinted faintly on the ends of the broken
lamp
chains that hung down from the vaulted blackness.
It was
always so, going from free night air to the frowsty
stillness
of indoors, but her heart ached suddenly, as if
she had
given up free air for a prison forever.
She
folded the bearskin, laid it by the campfire, and
found
where her halberd had been leaned against the few
packs
they had brought with them from the camp. Some-
where
in the darkness, she heard movement, the sound
of
someone tripping over a plaid. A moment later Gareth's
voice
said softly, "Jenny?"
"Over
here." She straightened up, her pale face and
the
metal buckles of her sheepskin jacket catching the low
firelight.
Gareth looked tired and bedraggled in his shirt,
breeches,
and a stained and scruffy plaid, as unlike as
possible
to the self-conscious young dandy in primrose-
and-white
Court mantlings of less than a week ago. But
then,
she noted, there was less in him now than there had
been,
even then, of the gawky and earnest young man
who had
ridden to the Winterlands in quest of his hero.
"I
must be going," she said softly. "It's beginning to
mm
light. Gather what kindling you can, in case the King's
men
return and you have to barricade yourselves behind
the
inner doors in the Grand Passage. There are foul things
in the
darkness. They may come at you when the light is
gone."
Gareth
shuddered wholeheartedly and nodded.
"I'll
tell Polycarp how things stand. He should come
back
here to get you, if they didn't blast shut the ways
into
the Deep. If I don't make it to Halnath..."
The boy
looked at her, the heroically simple conclu-
sions
of a dozen ballads reverberant in his shocked fea-
tures.
She
smiled, the pull of the dragon in her fading. She
reached
up the long distance to lay a hand on his bristly
cheek.
"Look after John for me."
Then
she knelt and kissed John's lips and his shut
eyelids.
Rising, she collected a plaid and her halberd and
walked
toward the clear slate-gray air that lay like water
outside
the darker arch of the Gate.
As she
passed through it, she heard a faint north-coun-
try
voice behind her protest, "Look after John, indeed!"
CHAPTER
XV
LIGHT
WATERED THE darkness, changing the air from
velvet
to silk. Cold cut into Jenny's hands and face, imbu-
ing her
with a sense of strange and soaring joy. The high
cirques
and hanging valleys of the Wall's toothy summits
were
stained blue and lavender against the charcoal gray
of the
sky; below her, mist clung like raveled wool to the
bones of
the shadowy town. For a time she was alone
and
complete, torn by neither power nor love, only
breathing
the sharp air of dawn.
Like a
shift in perception, she became aware of the
dragon,
lying along the bottom step. Seeing her, he rose
and
stretched like a cat, from nose to tail knob to the tips
of the
quivering wings, every spine and hom blinking in
the
gray-white gloom.
Wrap
yourself well, wizard woman. The upper airs are
cold.
He sat
back upon his haunches and, reaching delicately
down,
closed around her one gripping talon, like a hand
twelve
inches across the back and consisting of nothing
but
bone wrapped in muscle and studded with spike and
hom.
The claws lapped easily around her waist. She felt
no fear
of him; though she knew he was treacherous, she
had
been within his mind and knew he would not kill her.
Still,
a shivery qualm passed through her as he lifted her
up
against his breast, where she would be out of the air-
stream.
The
vast shadow of his wings spread against the mauve
gloom
of the cliff behind them, and she cast one quick
glance
down at the ground, fifteen feet below. Then she
looked
up at the mountains surrounding the Vale and at
the
white, watching eye of the moon on the flinty crest
of the
ridge, a few days from full and bright in the western
air as
the lamps of the dragon's eyes.
Then he
flung himself upward, and all the world dropped
away.
Cold
sheered past her face, its bony fingers clawing
through
her hair. Through the plaids wrapped around her,
she
felt the throbbing heat of the dragon's scales. From
the sky
she looked to the earth again, the Vale like a well
of blue
shadow, the mountain slopes starting to take on
the
colors of dawn as the sun brushed them, rust and
purple
and all shades of brown from the whitest dun to
the
deep hue of coffee, all edged and trimmed with the
dark
lace of trees. The rain tanks north of Deeping caught
the new
day like chips of mirror; as the dragon passed
over
the flanks of the mountain, circling higher, she saw
the
bright leap of springs among the pine trees, and the
white
spines of thrusting rock.
The
dragon tilted, turning upon the air, the vast wings
searing
faintly at the wind. Occasional eddies of it whis-
tled
around the spikes that defended the dragon's back-
bone-some
of them no longer than a finger, others almost
a
cubit, dagger-sharp. In flight the dragon seemed to be
a thing
made of silk and wire, lighter than his size would
lead
one to think, as if the flesh and muscle, like the mind
and the
shape of his bones, were different in composition
from
all things else upon the Earth.
This is
the realm of the dragons, Morkeleb's voice said
within
her mind. The roads of the air. It is yours, for the
stretching
out of your hand.
In the
slant of the light they laid no shadow upon the
ground,
but it seemed to Jenny that she could almost see
the
track of their passage written like a ship's wake upon
the
wind. Her mind half-within the dragon's, she could
sense
the variations of the air, updraft and thermal, as if
the
wind itself were of different colors. With the dragon's
awareness,
she saw other things in the air as well-the
paths
of energy across the face of the world, the tracks
that
traveled from star to star, like the lines of force that
were
repeated in the body, smaller and smaller, in the
spreads
of dealt cards or thrown runes or the lie of leaves
in
water. She was aware of life everywhere, of the winter-
white
foxes and hares in the patchy snowlines beneath
the
thin scrum of cloud below, and of the King's troops;
camped
far down upon the road, who pointed and cried
out as
the dragon's dark shape passed overhead.
They
crossed the flank of the mountain to its daylight
side.
Before and below her, she saw the cliff and hill and
Citadel
ofHalnath, a spiky conglomerate of thrusting gray
ramparts
clinging like a mud-built swallow's nest to the
massive
shoulder of a granite cliff. From its feet, the land
lay
crisscrossed with wooded ravines to the silver curve
of a river;
mist blended with the blue of woodsmoke to
veil
the straggling lines of tents and guard posts, horse
lines
and trenches raw with yellow mud, that made up
the
siege camps. An open ring of battered ground lay
between
the walls and the camp, ravaged by battle and
bristling
with the burned-out shells of the small truck farms
that
nestled around the walls of any town. Beyond, to the
north,
the green stretches of the Marches vanished away
under a
gauze of mists, the horse- and cattle-lands that
were
the Master's fief and strength. From the river marshes
where
pewter waters spread themselves, a skein of dan-
defoot
herons rose through the milky vapors, tiny and
clear
as a pen sketch.
There.
Jenny pointed with her mind toward the battle-
ments of
the high Citadel. The central court there. It's
narrow,
but long enough for us to land.
Wind
and her long hair lashed her eyes as the dragon
wheeled.
They
have armored their walls, the dragon said. Look.
Men
were running about the ramparts, pointing and
waving
at the enormous wings flashing in the air. Jenny
glimpsed
catapults mounted on the highest turrets, coun-
terweighted
slings bearing buckets that burst suddenly
into
red flame and massive crossbows whose bolts could
point
nowhere but at the sky.
We'll
have to go in. Jenny said. I'll protect you.
By
catching the bolts in your teeth, wizard womanf
Morkeleb
asked sarcastically, circling away as some over-
eager
slinger slipped his ropes and a bucketful of naphtha
described
a curving trajectory, flames streaming like faded
orange
pennants against the brightness of the new day.
What
protection can you, a human, offer me?
Jenny
smiled to herself, watching the naphtha as it broke
into
blazing lumps in falling. None of them landed in the
town on
the slopes below-they knew their mathematics,
these
defenders ofHalnath, and how to apply them to bal-
listics.
For herself, she supposed she should have been ter-
rified,
to be carried this high above the reeling earth-if she
fell,
she would fall for a long time before she died. But
whether
it was her trust in Morkeleb, or the dragon's mind
that
enveloped hers in the thoughts of those who lived in
the
airstream, she felt no fear of it. Indeed, she almost be-
lieved
that, if she were to drop, she had only to spread out
her own
wings, as she did in dreams of flight.
Small
as toys on the walls of the Citadel, the machines
of
defense were being cranked around to bear upon them.
They
looked, at this distance, like nothing so much as
John's
little models. And to think I grew impatient when
he
insisted upon showing me how every one of them fired.
She
smiled, half to Morkeleb and half to herself. Swing
north,
Morkeleb, and come at them from along that ridge.
The
problem with machines has always been that it requires
only
the touch of a wizard's mind to fox their balance.
There
were two engines guarding the approach she had
set, a
bolt-firing catapult and a spring-driven sling. She
had
thrown her magic before, conjuring images within her
mind,
to foul the bowstrings of bandits in the north and
to
cause their feet to find roots as they ran, or their swords
to
stick in their sheaths. Having seen the mechanisms
of
these weapons in John's models, she found this no
harder.
Ropes twisted in the catapult, jamming the knots
when
the triggering cord was jerked. With a dragon's
awareness,
she saw a man running in panic along the
battlements;
he knocked over a bucket into the mecha-
nism of
the sling so that it could not be turned to aim.
The
dragon swung lazily from the weapon's possible path,
guided
by the touch of Jenny's mind within his; and she
felt,
like a chuckle of dark laughter, his appreciation for
the
ease with which she thwarted the mechanical devices.
You are
small, wizard woman, he said, amused, but a
mighty
defender of dragons, nevertheless.
Throwing
her streaming hair back from her eyes. Jenny
could
see men on the battlements below them clearly now.
They
were clothed in makeshift uniforms, the black, bil-
lowing
gowns of scholars covered with battered bits of
armor,
some of it stamped with the royal arms and
obviously
taken from prisoners or the slain. They fled in
all
directions as the dragon drew near, save for one man
tall,
red-haired, and thin as a scarecrow in his ragged black-
gown,
who was swinging something to bear upon them
that
looked for a moment like a telescope-a metal tube
braced
upon stakes. The walls swooped closer. At the last
moment
Jenny saw harpoons stacked beside him and,
instead
of glass in the tube's mouth, the glint of a metal
point.
The
lone defender had a burning spill in one hand,
lighted
from one of the naphtha buckets. He was watching
them
come in, taking aim-Blasting powder, thought
Jenny;
the gnomes will have brought plenty up from the
mines.
She remembered John's abortive experiments with
rockets.
The
scene rushed to meet them, until every chipped
stone
of the wall and every patch on the scholar's ragged
gown
seemed within reach of Jenny's hand. As he brought
the
spill down to the touch-hole, Jenny used her mind to
extinguish
the flame, as she would have doused a candle.
Then
she spread out her arms and cried, "STOP!" at
the top
of her voice.
He
froze in mid-motion, the harpoon he had snatched
from
the pile beside him cocked back already over his
shoulder,
though Jenny could tell by the way he held it
that he
had never thrown one before and could not have
hit
them. Even at that distance, she saw wonder, curiosity,
and
delight on his thin face. Like John, she thought, he
was a
true scholar, fascinated with any wonder, though
it
carried his death upon its wings.
Morkeleb
braked in the air, the shift of his muscles
rippling
against Jenny's back. All men had fled the long,
narrow
court of the Citadel and the walls around it, save
that
single defender. The dragon hung for a moment like
a
hovering hawk, then settled, delicate as a dandelion
seed,
to perch on the wall above the shadowy well of the
court.
The great hind-talons gripped the stone as the long
neck
and tail counterbalanced, and he stooped like a vast
bird to
set Jenny on her feet upon the rampart.
She
staggered, her knees weak from shock, her whole
body
trembling with exhilaration and cold. The tall, red-
haired
young man, harpoon still in one hand, moved for-
ward
along the walkway, black robe billowing beneath an
outsize
hauberk of chain mail. Though he was clearly
cautious.
Jenny thought from the way he looked at Mor-
keleb
that he could have stood and studied the dragon for
hours;
but there was a court-bred politeness in the way
he
offered Jenny his hand.
It took
her a moment to remember to speak in words.
"Polycarp
of Halnath?"
He
looked surprised and disconcerted at hearing his
name.
"I am he." Like Gareth, it took more than dragons
or
bandits to shake his eariy training; he executed a very
creditable
Dying Swan in spite of the harpoon.
Jenny
smiled and held out her hands to him. "I am
Jenny
Waynest, Gareth's friend."
"Yes,
there is a power sink in the heart of the Deep."
Polycarp,
Master of the Citadel ofHalnath and Doctor of
Natural
Philosophy, folded long, narrow hands behind his
back
and turned from the pointed arches of the window
to look
at his rescued, oddly assorted guests. "It is what
Zyeme
wants; what she has always wanted, since first
she
knew what it was."
Gareth
looked up from the ruins of the simple meal
which
strewed the plain waxed boards of the workroom
table.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
The
bright blue eyes flickered to him. "What could I
have
said?" he asked. "Up until a year ago I wasn't even
sure.
And when I was..." His glance moved to the gnome
who sat
at the table's head, tiny and stooped and very
old,
his eyes like pale green glass beneath the long mane
of milk-white
hair. "Sevacandrozardus-Balgub, in the
tongue
of men; brother of the Lord of the Deep who was
slain
by the dragon-forbade me to speak of it. I could
not
break his confidence."
Beyond
the tall windows, the turrets of the lower Cit-
adel,
the University, and the town beneath could be
glimpsed,
the sunlight on them yellow as summer butter,
though
the buildings below were already cloaked in the
shadows
of the mountain as the sun sank behind its shoul-
der.
Sitting on the end of the couch where John lay. Jenny
listened
in quiet to the debating voices. Her body ached
for
sleep and her mind for stillness, but she knew that
both
would be denied her. Neither the words of the
impromptu
council nor the recollection of the trip back
through
the Deep with Polycarp and the gnomes to fetch
the
others had eradicated from her thoughts the soaring
memory
of the dragon's flight.
She
knew she ought not to let it hold her so. She ought
to be
more conscious of her own gladness that they were,
at least
for the moment, relatively safe and more preoc-
cupied
with their exchange of information with the Master
and
with plans for how to deal with the Stone and its
mistress.
Yet the flight and the memory of the dragon's
mind
had shaken her to the bones. She could not put that
wild
intoxication from her heart.
The old
gnome was saying, "It has always been for-
bidden
to speak of the Stone to outsiders. After it became
clear
that the girl Zyeme had heard of it somehow and
had
spied upon those who used it and learned its key, my
brother,
the Lord of the Deep, redoubled the anathema.
It has
from the darkness of time been the heart of the
Deep,
the source of power for our Healers and mages,
and has
made our magic so great that none dared to assault
the
Deep of Ylferdun. But always we knew its danger as
well-that
the greedy could use such a thing for their own
ends.
And so it was."
Jenny
roused herself from her thoughts to ask, "How
did you
know she had used it?" Like the others, she had
bathed
and was now dressed like them all in the frayed
black
gown of a scholar of the University, too large for
her and
belted tight about her waist. Her hair, still damp
from
washing, hung about her shoulders.
The
gnome's light eyes shifted. Grudgingly, he said,
"To
take power from the Stone, there must be a return.
It
gives to those who draw upon it, but later it asks back
from
them. Those who were used to wielding its power-
myself,
Taseldwyn whom you know as Miss Mab, and
others-could
feel the imbalance. Then it corrected itself,
or
seemed to. I was content." He shook his head, the
opals
that pinned his white hairflashing in the diffuse light
of the
long room. "Mab was not."
"What
return does it ask?"
For a
moment his glance touched her, reading in her,
as Mab
had done, the degree other power. Then he said,
"Power
for power. All power must be paid for, whether
it is
taken from your own spirit, or from the holding-sink
of
others. We, the Healers, of whom I was chief, used to
dance
for it, to concentrate our magic and feed it into the
Stone,
that others might take of its strength and not have
their
very life-essences drawn from them by it-the woman
Zyeme
did not know how to make the return of magic to
it, did
not even leam that she should. She was never
taught
its use, but had only sneaked and spied until she
learned
what she thought was its secret. When she did
not
give back to it, the Stone began to eat at her essence."
"And
to feed it," said Jenny softly, suddenly under-
standing
what she had seen in the lamplight of Zyeme's
room,
"she perverted the healing spells that can draw
upon
the essences of others for strength. She drank, like
a
vampire, to replace what was being drunk from her."
In the
pale light of the window, Polycarp said, "Yes,"
and
Gareth buried his face in his hands. "Even as she can
draw
upon the Stone's magic at a distance, it draws upon
her. I
am glad," he added, the tone of his light voice
changing,
"to see you're still all right, Gar."
Gareth
raised his head despairingly. "Did she try to
use
you?"
The
Master nodded, his thin, foxy face grim. "And
when I
kept my distance and made you keep yours, she
turned
to Bond, who was the nearest one she could prey
upon.
Your father..." He fished for the kindest words to
use.
"Your father was of little more use to her by that
time."
The
prince's .fist struck the table with a violence that
startled
them all-and most of all Gareth himself. But he
said
nothing, and indeed, there was little he could say, or
that
any could say to him. After a moment. Trey Clerlock
rose
from the couch in the comer, where she had been
lying
like a child playing dress-up in her flapping black
robe,
and came over to rest her hands upon his shoulders.
"Is
there any way of destroying her?" the girl asked,
looking
across the table to the tiny gnome and the tall
Master
who had come to stand at his side.
Gareth
turned to stare up at her in shock, having, man-
like,
never suspected the ruthless practicality of women.
"Not
with the power she holds through the King and
through
the Stone," Polycarp said. "Believe me, I thought
about
it, though I knew I truly would face a charge of
murder
for it." A brief grin flickered across his face. "But
as I
ended up facing one anyway..."
"What
about destroying the Stone, then?" John asked,
turning
his head from where he lay flat on his back on a
tall-legged
sleeping couch. Even the little he had been
able to
eat seemed to have done him good. In his black
robe,
he looked like the corpse at a wake, washed and
tended
and cheerful with his specs perched on the end of
his
long nose. "I'm sure you could find a good Stonebane
someplace..."
"Never!"
Balgub's wrinkled walnut face grew livid. "It
is the
source of the healing arts of the gnomes! The source
of the
strength of the Deep! It is ours..."
"It
will do you precious little good if Zyeme gets her
hands
on it," John pointed out. "I doubt she could break
through
all the doors and gates you locked behind us on
our way
up here through the Deep, but if the King's troops
manage
to breach the Citadel wall, that won't make much
difference."
"If
Jenny could be given the key to the use of the
Stone..."
suggested Gareth.
"No!"
Balgub and Jenny spoke at once. All those w
the
Master's long, scrubbed stone workroom, John
included,
looked curiously at the witch of Wyr.
"No
human shall touch it!" insisted the gnome with
shrill
fury. "We saw the evil it did. It is for the gnomes,
and
only for us."
"And
I would not touch it if I could." Jenny drew her
knees
up close to her chest and folded her arms around
them;
Balgub, in spite of his protest, looked affronted that
the
greatest treasure of the Deep should be refused. Jenny
said,
"According to Mab, the Stone itself has been defiled
Its
powers, and the spells of those that use it, are polluted
by what
Zyeme has done."
"That
is not true." Balgub's tight little face set in an
expression
of obstinancy. "Mab insisted that the Stone's
powers
were becoming unpredictable and its influence
evil on
the minds of those who used it. By the heart of
the
Deep, this is not so, and so I told her, again and again.
I do
not see how..."
"After
being fed chewed-up human essences instead
of
controlled spells, it would be a wonder if it didn't become
unpredictable,"
John said, with his usual good-natured
affability.
The
gnome's high voice was scornful. "What can a
warrior
know of such things? A warrior hired to slay the
dragon,
who has," he added, with heavy sarcasm, "sig-
nally
failed in even that task."
"I
suppose you'd rather he'd signally succeeded?" Gar-
eth
demanded hotly. "You'd have had the King's troops
coming
at you through the Deep by this time."
"Lad."
John reached patiently out to touch the angry
prince's
shoulder. "Let's don't fratch. His opinion does
me no
harm and shouting at him isn't going to change it."
"The
King's troops would never have found their way
through
the Deep, even with the gates unbolted," Balgub
growled.
"And now the gates are locked; if necessary we
will
seal them with blasting powder-it is there and ready,
within
yards of the last gate."
"If
Zyeme was leading them, they would have found
the
way," Polycarp returned. The links of the too-large
mail
shirt he wore over his gown rattled faintly as he
folded
his arms. "She knows the way to the heart of the
Deep
well enough from the Deeping side. As you all saw,
from
there to the underground gates of the Citadel it's an
almost
straight path. And as for the Stone not having been
affected
by what she has put into it..." He glanced down
at the
stooped back and round white head of the gnome
perched
in the carved chair beside him. "You are the only
Healer
who escaped the dragon to come here, Balgub,"
he
said. "Now that the dragon is no longer in the Deep,
will
you go in and use the Stone?"
The
wide mouth tightened, and the green eyes did not
meet
the blue.
"So,"
said the Master softly.
"I
do not believe that Mab was right," Balgub insisted
stubbornly.
"Nevertheless, until she, I, and the remaining
Healers
in Bel can examine the thing, I will not have it
tampered
with for good or ill. If it came to saving the
Citadel,
or keeping Zyeme from the Deep, yes, I would
risk
using it, rather than let her have it." Little and white
as two
colorless cave shrimp, his hands with their smooth
moonstone
rings closed upon each other on the inkstained
tabletop.
"We have sworn that Zyeme shall never again
have
the use of the Stone. Every gnome-and every
man..."
He cast a glance that was half-commanding, half-
questioning
up at the Master, and Polycarp inclined his
head
slightly, "-in this place will die before she lays a
hand
upon what she seeks."
"And
considering what her powers will be like if she
does,"
Polycarp added, with the detached speculation of
a
scholar, "that would probably be just as well."
"Jen?"
Jenny
paused in the doorway of the makeshift guest
room to
which she and John had been assigned. After the
windy
ramparts, the place smelled close and stuffy, as the
Market
Hall had last night. The mingled scents of dusty
paper
and leather bindings of the books stored there com-
pounded
with the moldery odors of straw ticks that had
gone
too long without having the straw changed; after the
grass-and-water
scents of the east wind, they made the
closeness
worse. The lumpish shapes of piles of books
heaped
along two walls and the ghostly scaffolding of
scroll
racks lining the third made her think of John's over-
crowded
study in the north; several of the volumes that
had
been put here to make room for refugees trapped by
the
siege had been taken from their places and already
bore
signs of John's reading. John himself stood between
the
tall lights of two of the pointed windows, visible only
as a
white fold of shirt sleeve and a flash of round glass
in the
gloom.
She
said, "You shouldn't be out of bed."
"I
can't be on the broad of my back forever." Through
his
fatigue, he sounded cheerful. "I have the feeling we're
all
going to be put to it again in the near future, and I'd
rather
do it on my feet this time."
He was
silent for a moment, watching her silhouette
in the
slightly lighter doorway.
He went
on, "And for a woman who hasn't slept more
than an
hour or so for three nights now, you've no room
to
speak. What is it, Jen?"
Like a
dragon, she thought, he has a way of not being
lied
to. So she did not say, "What is what?" but ran her
hands
tiredly through her hair and crossed to where he
stood.
"You've
avoided speaking to me of it-not that we've
had
time to do so, mind. I don't feel you're angry with
me, but
I do feel your silence. It's to do with your power,
isn't
it?"
His arm
was around her shoulder, her head resting
against
the rock-hardness of his pectoral, half-uncovered
by the
thin muslin shirt. She should have known, she told
herself,
that John would guess.
So she
nodded, unable to voice the turmoil that had
been
all day in her mind, since the dragon's flight and all
the
night before. Since sunset she had been walking the
ramparts,
as if it were possible to outwalk the choice that
had
stalked her now for ten years.
Morkeleb
had offered her the realms of the dragons,
the
woven roads of the air. All the powers of earth and
sky,
she thought, and all the years of time. The key to
magic
is magic; the offer was the answer to all the thwarted
longings
of her life.
"Jen,"
John said softly, "I've never wanted you to be
torn. I
know you've never been complete and I didn't
want to
do that to you. I tried not to."
"It
wasn't you." She had told herself, a hundred years
ago it
seemed, that it was her choice, and so it had been--
the
choice of doing nothing and letting things go on as
they
were, or of doing something. And, as always, her
mind
shrank from the choice.
"Your
magic has changed," he said. "I've felt it and
I've
seen what it's doing to you."
"It
is calling me," she replied. "If I embrace it, I don't
think I
would want to let go, even if I could. It is every-
thing
that I have wanted and worth to me, I think, every-
thing
that I have."
She had
said something similar to him long ago, when
they
had both been very young. In his jealous posses-
siveness,
he had screamed at her, "But you are everything
that I
have or want to have!" Now his arms only tightened
around
her, as much, she sensed, against her grief as his
own,
though she knew the words he had spoken then were
no less
true tonight.
"It's
your choice, love," he said- "As it's always been
your
choice. Everything you've given me, you've given
freely.
I won't hold you back." Her cheek was pressed
to his
chest, so that she only felt the quick glint of his
smile
as he added, "As if I ever could, anyway."
They
went to the straw mattress and huddle of blan-
kets, the
only accommodation the besieged Citadel had
been
able to offer. Beyond the windows, moisture glinted
on the
black slates of the crowded stone houses below;
a
gutter's thread was like a string of diamonds in the
moonlight.
In the siege camps, bells were ringing for the
midnight
rites of Sarmendes, lord of the wiser thoughts
of day.
Under
the warmth of the covers, John's body was
familiar
against hers, as familiar as the old temptation to
let the
chances of pure power go by for yet another day.
Jenny
was aware, as she had always been, that it was less
easy to
think about her choices when she lay in his arms.
But she
was still there when sleep finally took her, and
she
drifted into ambiguous and unresolved dreams.
CHAPTER
XVI
WHEN
JENNY WAKENED, John was gone.
Like a
dragon, in her dreams she was aware of many
things;
she had sensed him waking and lying for a long
while
propped on one elbow beside her, watching her as
she
slept; she had been aware, too, of him rising and
dressing,
and of the slow painfulness of donning his shirt,
breeches,
and boots and of how the bandages pulled pain-
fully
over the half-healed mess of slashes and abrasions
on his
back and sides. He had taken her halberd for sup-
port,
kissed her gently, and gone.
Still
weary, she lay in the tangle of blankets and straw-
ticks,
wondering where he had gone, and why she felt
afraid.
Dread
seemed to hang in the air with the stormclouds
that
reared dark anvil heads above the green distances
north
of Nast Wall. There was a queer lividness to the
light
that streamed through the narrow windows, a breath-
less
sense of coming evil, a sense that had pervaded her
dreams...
Her
dreams, she thought confusedly. What had she
dreamed?
She
seemed to remember Gareth and the Master Poly-
carp
walking on the high battlements of the Citadel, both
in the
billowing black robes of students, talking with the
old
ease of their interrupted friendship. "You must admit
it was
a singularly convincing calumny," Polycarp was
saying.
Gareth
replied bitterly, "I didn't have to believe it as
readily
as I did."
Polycarp
grinned and drew from some pocket in his
too-ample
garments a brass spyglass, unfolding its jointed
sections
to scan the fevered sky. "You're going to be
Pontifex
Maximus one day. Cousin-you need practice
in
believing ridiculous things," And looking out toward
the
road that led south he had stared, as if he could not
believe
what he saw.
Jenny
frowned, remembering the cloudy tangles of the
dream.
The
King, she thought-it had been the King, riding
up the
road toward the siege camps that surrounded the
Citadel.
But there had been something wrong with that
tall,
stiff form and its masklike face, riding through the
sulfurous
storm light. An effect of the dream? she won-
dered.
Or had the eyes really been yellow-Zyeme's eyes?
Troubled,
she sat up and pulled on her shift. There was
a wash
bowl in a comer of the room near the window,
the
surface of the water reflecting the sky like a piece of
smoked
steel. Her hand brushed across it; at her bidding,
she saw
Morkeleb, lying in the small upper courtyard of
the
Citadel, a small square of stone which contained noth-
ing
save a few withered apple trees, a wooden lean-to that
had
once held gardening equipment and now, like every
other
shelter in the Citadel, housed displaced books. The
dragon
lay stretched out like a cat in the pallid sunlight,
the
jeweled bobs of his antennae flicking here and there
as if
scenting the welter of the air, and beside him, on the
court's
single granite bench, sat John.
The
dragon was saying. Why this curiosity. Dragons-
bane?
That you may know us better, the next time you
choose
to kill one of us?
"No,"
John said. "Only that I may know dragons bet-
ter.
I'm more circumscribed than you, Morkeleb-by a
body
that wears out and dies before the mind has seen
half
what it wants to, by a mind that spends half its time
doing
what it would really rather not, for the sake of the
people
who're in my care. I'm as greedy about knowledge
as
Jenny is-as you are for gold, maybe more so-for I
know I
have to snatch it where I can."
The
dragon sniffed in disdain, the velvet-rimmed nos-
tril
flaring to show a surface ripple of deeper currents of
thought;
then he turned his head away. Jenny knew she
ought
to feel surprise at being able to call Morkeleb's
image
in the water bowl, but did not; though she could
not
have phrased it in words, but only in the half-pictured
understandings
of dragon-speech, she knew why it had
formerly
been impossible, but was possible to her now.
Almost,
she thought, she could have summoned his image
and
surroundings without the water.
For a
time they were silent, man and dragon, and the
shadows
of the black-bellied thunderheads moved across
them,
gathering above the Citadel's heights. Morkeleb did
not
look the same in the water as he did face to face, but
it was
a difference, again, that could not be expressed by
any but
a dragon. A stray wind shook the boughs of the
cronelike
trees, and a few spits of rain speckled the pave-
ment of
the long court below them. At its far end. Jenny
could
see the small and inconspicuous-and easily defen-
sible-door
that led into the antechambers of the Deep.
It was
not wide, for the trade between the Citadel and
the
Deep had never been in anything bulkier than books
and
gold, and for the most part their traffic had been in
knowledge
alone.
Why?
Morkeleb asked at length. If, as you say, yours
is a
life limited by the constraints of the body and the
narrow
perimeters of time, if you are greedy for knowl-
edge as
we are for gold, why do you give what you have,
half of
all that you own, to others?
The
question had risen like a whale from unguessed
depths,
and John was silent for a moment before answer-
ing.
"Because it's part of being human, Morkeleb. Having
so
little, we share among ourselves to make any of it worth
having.
We do what we do because the consequences of
not
caring enough to do it would be worse."
His answer
must have touched some chord in the drag
on's
soul, for Jenny felt, even through the distant vision,
the
radiant surge ofMorkeleb's annoyance. But the drag-
on's
thoughts sounded down to their depths again, and
he
became still, almost invisible against the colors of the
stone.
Only his antennae continued to move, restless, as
if
troubled by the turmoil in the air.
A
thunderstorm? Jenny thought, suddenly troubled. In
winter?
"Jenny?"
She looked up quickly and saw the Master
Polycarp
standing in the tall slit of the doorway. She did
not
know why at first, but she shuddered when she saw
hanging
at his belt the brass spyglass he had used in her
dream.
"I didn't want to wake you-I know you've been
without
sleep..."
"What
is it?" she asked, hearing the trouble in his
voice.
"It's
the King."
Her
stomach jolted, as if she had missed one step of
a
stairway in darkness, the dread other dream coalescing
in her,
suddenly hideously real.
"He
said he'd escaped from Zyeme-he wanted sanc-
tuary
here, and wanted above all to talk to Gar. They
went
off together..."
"No!"
Jenny cried, horrified, and the young philoso-
pher
looked at her in surprise. She snatched up and flung
on the
black robe she had been wearing earlier, dragging
its
belt tight. "It's a trick!"
"What...?"
She
pushed her way past him, shoving up the robe's
too-long
sleeves over her forearms; cold air and the smell
of
thunder smote her as she came into the open and began
to run
down the long, narrow stairs. She could hear Mor-
keleb
calling to her, faint and confused with distance; he
was
waiting for her in the upper court, his half-risen scales
glittering
uneasily in the sickly storm light.
Zyerne,
she said.
Yes. I
saw her just novv, walking with your little prince
to the
door that leads down into the Deep. She was in
the
guise of the old King-they had already passed through
the
door when I spoke of it to Aversin. Is it possible that
the
prince did not know it, as Aversin said to me? I know
that humans
can fool one another with the illusions of
their
magic, but are even his own son and his nephew
whom he
raised so stupid that they could not have told
the
difference between what they saw and what they knew?
As
always, his words came as pictures in her mind-
the old
King leaning, whispering, on Gareth's shoulder
for
support as they walked the length of the narrow court
toward
the door to the Deep, the look of pity, involuntary
repulsion,
and wretched guilt on the boy's face-feeling
repelled,
and not knowing why.
Jenny's
heart began to pound. They know the King has
been
ill, she said. No doubt she counted upon their for-
giveness
of any lapses. She will go to the Stone, to draw
power
from it, and use Gareth's life to replace it. Where's
John
now? He has to...
He has
gone after them.
WHAT?
Like a dragon, the word emerged only as a
blazing
surge of incredulous wrath. He'll kill himself!
He will
likely be forestalled, Morkeleb replied cyni-
cally.
But Jenny did not stay to listen. She was already
running
down the steep twist of steps to the lower court.
The
cobbles of the pavement there were uneven and badly
worn,
with tiny spangles of vagrant rain glittering among
them
like silver beads on some complex trapunto; the
harshness
of the stone tore at her feet as she ran toward
that
small, unprepossessing door.
She
flung back to the dragon the words. Wait for her
here.
If she reaches the Stone, she will have all power at
her
command-I will never be able to defeat her, as I did
before.
You must take her when she emerges...
It is
the Stone that binds me, the dragon's bitter voice
replied
in her mind. If she reaches it, what makes you
think I
shall be able to do anything but her will?
Without
answering Jenny flung open the door and
plunged
through into the shadowy antechambers of the
earth.
She had
seen them the previous morning, when she
had
passed through with the gnomes who had gone to
fetch
John, Gareth, and Trey from the other side of the
Deep.
There were several rooms used for trade and busi-
ness,
and then a guardroom, whose walls were carved to
three-quarters
of their height from the living bone of the
mountain.
The windows, far up under the vaulted ceilings,
let in
a shadowy blue light by which she could just see
the
wide doors of the Deep itself, faced and backed with
bronze
and fitted with massive bars and bolts of iron.
These
gates were still locked, but the man-sized pos-
tern
door stood ajar. Beyond it lay darkness and the cold
scent
of rock, water, and old decay. Gathering up her
robes.
Jenny stepped over the thick sill and hurried on,
her
senses probing ahead of her, dragonlike, her eyes
seeking
the silvery runes she had written on the walls
yesterday
to mark her path.
The
first passage was wide and had once been pleasant,
with
basins and fountains lining its walls. Now some were
broken,
others clogged in the months of utter neglect;
moss
clotted them and water ran shining down the walls
and
along the stone underfoot, wetting the hem of Jenny's
robe
and slapping coldly at her ankles. As she walked,
her
mind tested the darkness before her; retracing yes-
terday's
route, she paused again and again to listen. The
way
through the Deep ran near the Places of Healing, but
not
through them; somewhere, she would have to turn
aside
and seek the unmarked ways.
So she
felt at the air, seeking the living tingle of magic
that
marked the heart of the Deep. It should lie lower
than
her own route, she thought, and to her left. Her mind
returned
uncomfortably to Miss Mab's words about a false
step
leaving her to die of starvation in the labyrinthine
darkness.
If she became lost, she told herself, Morkeleb
could
still hear her, and guide her forth...
But
not, she realized, ifZyeme reached the Stone. The
power
and longing of the Stone were lodged in the drag-
on's
mind. If she got lost, and Zyeme reached the Stone
and
gained control of Morkeleb, there would be no day-
light
for her again.
She
hurried her steps, passing the doors that had been
raised
for the defense of the Citadel from the Deep, all
unlocked
now by Gareth and the one he supposed to be
the
King. By the last of them, she glimpsed the sacks of
blasting
powder that Balgub had spoken of, that final
defense
in which he had placed such faith. Beyond was
a
branching of the ways, and she stopped again under
an arch
carved to look like a monstrous mouth, with sta-
lactites
of ivory grimacing in a wrinkled gum of salmon-
pink
stone. Her instincts whispered to her that this was
the
place-two tunnels diverged from the main one, both
going
downwards, both to the left. A little way down the
nearer
one, beside the trickle of water from a broken
gutter,
a wet footprint marked the downward-sloping stone.
John's,
she guessed, for the print was dragged and
slurred.
Further along that way, she saw the mark of a
drier
boot, narrower and differently shaped. She saw the
tracks
again, dried to barely a sparkle of dampness on
the
first steps of a narrow stair which wound like a path
up a
hillslope of gigantic stone mushrooms in an echoing
cavern,
past the dark alabaster mansions of the gnomes,
to a
narrow doorway in a cavern wall. She scribbled a
rune
beside the door and followed, through a rock seam
whose
walls she could touch with her outstretched hands,
downward,
into the bowels of the earth.
In the
crushing weight of the darkness, she saw the
faint
flicker of yellow light.
She
dared not call out, but fled soundlessly toward it.
The air
was warmer here, unnatural in those clammy
abysses;
she felt the subtle vibrations of the living magic
that
surrounded the Stone. But there was an unwhole-
someness
in the air now, like the first smell of rot in
decaying
meat or like the livid greenness that her dragon
eyes
had seen in the poisoned water. She understood that
Miss
Mab had been right and Balgub wrong. The Stone
had
been defiled. The spells that had been wrought with
its
strength were slowly deteriorating, perverted by the
poisons
drawn from Zyeme's mind.
At the
end of a triangular room the size of a dozen
barns,
she found a torch, guttering itself out near the foot
of a
flight of shallow steps. The iron door at the top stood
unbolted
and ajar, and across its threshold John lay
unconscious,
scavenger-slugs already sniffing inquiringly
at his
face and hands.
Beyond,
in the darkness. Jenny heard Gareth's voice
cry,
"Stop!" and the sweet, evil whisper of Zyeme's laugh-
ter.
"Gareth,"
the soft voice breathed. "Did you ever think
it was
possible that you could stop me?"
Shaken
now with a cold that seemed to crystallize at
the
marrow of her bones. Jenny ran forward into the heart
of the
Deep.
Through
the forest of alabaster pillars she saw them,
the
nervous shadows of Gareth's torch jerking over the
white
stone lace that surrounded the open floor. His face
looked
dead white against the black, baggy student gown
he
wore; his eyes held the nightmare terror of every dream,
every
encounter with his father's mistress, and the knowl-
edge of
his own terrifying weakness. In his right hand he
held
the halberd John had been using for a crutch. John
must
have warned him that it was Zyeme, Jenny thought,
before
he collapsed. At least Gareth has a weapon. But
whether
he would be capable of using it was another mat-
ter.
The
Stone in the center of the onyx dancing floor seemed
to glow
in the vibrating dark with a sickly corpse light of
its
own. The woman before it was radiant, beautiful as
the
Death-lady who is said to walk on the sea in times of
storm.
She looked younger than Jenny had ever seen her,
with
the virgin fragility of a child that was both an armor
against
Gareth's desperation and a weapon to pierce his
flesh
if not his heart. But even at her most delicate, there
was
something nauseating about her, like poisoned mar-
zipan-an
overwhelming, polluted sensuality. Wind that
Jenny
could not feel seemed to lift the soft darkness of
Zyeme's
hair and the sleeves of the frail white shift that
was all
that she wore. Stopping on the edge of the flow-
stone
glades, Jenny realized that she was seeing Zyeme
as she
had once been, when she first had come to this
place-a
magebom girl-child who had run through these
lightless
corridors seeking power, as she herself had sought
it in the
rainy north; trying, as she herself had tried, to
overcome
the handicap of its lack in whatever way she
could.
Zyeme
laughed, her sweet mouth parting to show pearls
of
teeth. "It is my destiny," she whispered, her small
hands
caressing the blue-black shine of the Stone. "The
gnomes
had no right to keep it all to themselves. It is
mine
now. It was meant to be mine from the founding of
the
world. As you were."
She
held out her hands, and Gareth whispered, "No."
His
voice was thin and desperate as the wanting of her
clutched
at his flesh.
"What
is this No? You were made for me, Gareth.
Made to
be King. Made to be my love. Made to father
my
son."
Like a
phantom in a dream, she drifted toward him
over
the oily blackness of the great floor. Gareth slashed
at her
with the torch, but she only laughed again and did
not
even draw back. She knew he hadn't the courage to
touch
her with the flame. He edged toward her, the hal-
berd in
his hand, but Jenny could see his face rolling with
streams
of sweat. His whole body shook as he summoned
the
last of his strength to cut at her when she came near
enough-fighting
for the resolution to do that and not to
fling
down the weapon and crush her in his arms.
Jenny
strode forward from the alabaster glades in a
blaze
of blue witchlight, and her voice cut the palpitant
air
like a knife tearing cloth. She cried, "ZYERNE!" and
the
enchantress spun, her eyes yellow as a cat-devil's in
the
white blaze of the light, as they had been in the woods.
The
spell over Gareth snapped, and at that instant he
swung
the halberd at her with all the will he had left.
She
flung the spell of deflection at him almost
contemptuously;
the weapon rang and clattered on the
stone
floor. Swinging back toward him, she raised her
hand,
but Jenny stepped forward, her wrath swirling about
her
like woodsmoke and phosphorous, and flung at Zyeme
a rope
of white fire that streamed coldly from the palm
of her
hand.
Zyeme
hurled it aside, and it splattered, sizzling, on
the
black pavement. Her yellow eyes burned with unholy
light.
"You," she whispered. "I told you I'd get the Stone-
and I
told you what I'd do to you when I did, you ignorant
bitch.
I'll rot the stinking bones of your body for what
you
did!"
A spell
of crippling and ruin beat like lightning in the
close
air of the cavern, and Jenny flinched from it, feeling
all her
defenses buckle and twist. The power Zyeme
wielded
was like a weight, the vast shadow she had only
sensed
before turned now to the weight of the earth where
it
smote against her. Jenny threw it aside and writhed
from
beneath it; but for a moment, she hadn't the strength
to do
more. A second spell struck her, and a third, cramp-
ing and
biting at the muscles and organs of her body,
smoking
at the hem of her gown. She felt something break
within
her and tasted blood in her mouth; her head
throbbed,
her brain seemed to blaze, all the oxygen in
the
world was insufficient to her lungs. Under the ruthless
battering
she could do no more than defend herself; no
counterspell
would come, no way to make it stop. And
through
it all, she felt the weaving of the death-spells,
swollen
and hideous perversions of what she herself had
woven,
returning like a vengeance to crush her beneath
them.
She felt Zyerne's mind, powered by the force of
the
Stone, driving like a black needle of pain into hers;
felt
the grappling of a poisoned and vicious essence seek-
ing her
consent.
And why
nofi she thought. Like the black slime of
bursting
pustules, all her self-hatreds flowed into the light.
She had
murdered those weaker than herself; she had
hated
her master; she had used a man who loved her for
her own
pleasure and had abandoned the sons of her body;
she had
abandoned her birthright of power out of sloth
and
fear. Her body screamed, and her will to resist all the
mounting
agonies weakened before the scorching onslaught
of the
mind. How could she presume to fight the evil of
Zyeme,
when she herself was evil without even the excuse
of
Zyeme's grandeur?
Anger
struck her then, like the icy rains of the Win-
terlands,
and she recognized what was happening to her
as a
spell. Like a dragon, Zyerne deceived with the truth,
but it
was deception all the same. Looking up she saw
that
perfect, evil face bending over her, the golden eyes
filled
with gloating fire. Reaching out, Jenny seized the
fragile
wrists, the very bones of her hands hurting like an
old
woman's on a winter night; but she forced her hands
to
close.
Grandeur?
her mind cried, slicing up once more through
the fog
of pain and enchantment. It is only you who see
yourself
as grand, Zyerne. Yes, lam evil, and weak, and
cowardly,
but, like a dragon, I know what it is that I am.
You are
a creature of lies, of poisons, of small and petty
fears-it
is that which will kill you. Whether I die or not,
Zyerne,
it is you who will bring your own death upon
yourself,
not for what you do, but for what you are.
She
felt Zyeme's mind flinch at that. With a twist of
fury Jenny
broke the brutal grip it held upon hers. At the
same
moment her hands were struck aside. From her
knees,
she looked up through the tangle of her hair, to
see the
enchantress's face grow livid. Zyeme screamed
"You!
You..." With a piercing obscenity, the sorceress's
whole
body was wrapped in the rags of heat and fire and
power.
Jenny, realizing the danger was now to her body
rather
than to her mind, threw herself to the floor and
rolled
out of the way. In the swirling haze of heat and
power
stood a creature she had never seen before, hideous
and
deformed, as if a giant cave roach had mated with a
tiger.
With a hoarse scream, the thing threw itself upon
her.
Jenny
rolled aside from the rip of the razor-combed
feet.
She heard Gareth cry her name, not in terror as he
would
once have done, and from the comer of her eye
she saw
him slide the halberd across the glass-slick floor
to her
waiting hand. She caught the weapon just in time
to
parry a second attack. The metal of the blade shrieked
on the
tearing mandibles as the huge weight of the thing
bore
her back against the blue-black Stone. Then the thing
turned,
doubling on its tracks as Zyeme had done that
evening
in the glade, and in her mind Jenny seemed to
hear
Zyeme's distant voice howling, "I'll show you! I'll
show
you all!"
It
scuttled into the forest of alabaster, making for the
dark
tunnels that led to the surface.
Jenny
started to get to her feet to follow and collapsed
at the
foot of the Stone. Her body hurt her in every limb
and
muscle; her mind felt pulped from the ripping cruelty
of
Zyeme's spells, bleeding still from her own acceptance
of what
she was. Her hand, which she could see lying
over
the halberd's shaft, seemed no longer part of her,
though,
rather to her surprise, she saw it was still on the
end of
her arm and attached to her body; the brown fingers
were
covered with blisters, from some attack she had not
even
felt at the time. Gareth was bending over her, holding
the
guttering torch.
"Jenny-Jenny,
wake up-Jenny please\ Don't make
me go
after it alone!"
"No,"
she managed to whisper and swallowed blood.
Some
instinct told her the lesion within her had healed,
but she
felt sick and drained. She tried to rise again and
collapsed,
vomiting; she felt the boy's hands hold her
steady
even though they shook with fear. Afterward, empty
and
chilled, she wondered if she would faint and told
herself
not to be silly.
"She's
going to get Morkeleb," she whispered, and
propped
herself up again, her black hair hanging down in
her
face. "The power of the Stone rules him. She will be
able to
hold his mind, as she could not hold mine."
She
managed to get to her feet, Gareth helping her as
gently
as he could, and picked up the halberd. "I have to
stop
her before she gets clear of the caverns. I defeated
her
mind-while the tunnels limit her size, I may be able
to
defeat her body. Stay here and help John."
"But..."
Gareth began. She shrugged free of his hold
and
made for the dark doorway at a stumbling run.
Beyond
it, spells of loss and confusion tangled the
darkness.
The runes that she had traced as she'd followed
John
were gone, and for a few moments the subtle obscu
rity of
Zyeme's magic smothered her mind and made ali
those
shrouded ways look the same. Panic knotted around
her
throat as she thought of wandering forever in the
darkness;
then the part of her that had found her way
through
the woods of the Winterlands said. Think. Think
and
listen. She released magic from her mind and looked
about
her in the dark; with instinctive woodcraftiness,
she had
taken back-bearings of her route while making
her
rune-markings, seeing what the landmarks looked like
coming
the other way. She spread her senses through the
phantasmagoric
domain of fluted stone, listening for the
echoes
that crossed and recrossed in the blackness. She
heard
the muted murmur of John's voice speaking to Gar-
eth
about doors the gnomes had meant to bar and the
clawed
scrape of unclean chitin somewhere up ahead.
She
deepened her awareness and heard the skitter of the
vermin
of the caves as they fled, shocked, from a greater
vermin.
Swiftly, she set off in pursuit.
She had
told Morkeleb to stand guard over the outer
door.
She prayed now that he had had the sense not to,
but it
scarcely mattered whether he did or not.The power
of the
Stone was in Zyeme-from it she had drawn the
deepest
reserves of its strength, knowing that, when the
time
came to pay it back, she would have lives aplenty
at her
disposal to do it. The power of the Stone was lodged
in
Morkeleb's mind, tighter now that his mind and hers
had
touched. With the dragon her slave, the Citadel would
fall,
and the Stone be Zyeme's forever.
Jenny
quickened once more to a jog that felt ready to
break
her bones. Her bare feet splashed in the trickling
water,
making a faint, sticky pattering among the looming
shapes
of the limestone darkness; her hands felt frozen
around
the halberd shaft. How long a start Zyeme had
she
didn't know, or how fast the abomination she had
become
could travel. Zyeme had no more power over
her,
but she feared to meet her now and pit her body
against
that body. A part other mind thought wryly: John
should
have been doing this, not she-it was his end of
the
bargain to deal with monsters. She smiled bitterly.
Mab had
been right; there were other evils besides drag-
ons in
the land.
She
passed a hillslope of stone mushrooms, an archway
of
teeth like grotesque daggers. Her heart pounded and
her
chilled body ached with the ruin Zyeme had wrought
on her.
She ran, passing the locks and bars the gnomes
had set
such faith in, knowing already that she would be
too
late.
In the
blue dimness of the vaults below the Citadel,
she
found the furniture toppled and scattered, and she
forced
herself desperately to greater speed. Through a
doorway,
she glimpsed a reflection of the fevered daylight
outside;
the stench of blood struck her nostrils even as
she
tripped and, looking down, saw the decapitated body
of a
gnome lying in a pool of warm blood at her feet. The
last
room of the Citadel vaults was a slaughterhouse, men
and
gnomes lying in it and in the doorway to the outside,
their
makeshift black livery sodden with blood, the close
air of
the room stinking with the gore that splattered the
walls
and even the ceiling. From beyond the doorway,
shouting
and the stench of burning came to her; and,
stumbling
through the carnage. Jenny cried out Morkeleb\
She
hurled the music of his name like a rope into the
sightless
void. His mind touched hers, and the hideous
weight
of the Stone pressed upon them both.
Light
glared in her eyes. She scrambled over the bodies
in the
doorway and stood, blinking for an instant in the
lower
court, seeing all around the door the paving stones
charred
with a crisped muck of blood. Before her the
creature
crouched, larger and infinitely more hideous in
the
befouled and stormy daylight, metamorphosed into
something
like a winged ant, but without an ant's compact
grace.
Squid, serpent, scorpion, wasp-it was everything
hideous,
but no one thing in itself. The screaming laughter
that
filled her mind was Zyeme's laughter. It was Zyerne's
voice
that she heard, calling to Morkeleb as she had called
to
Gareth, the power of the Stone a tightening noose upon
his
mind.
The
dragon crouched immobile against the far rampart
of the
court. His every spike and scale were raised for
battle,
yet to Jenny's mind came nothing from him but
grating
agony. The awful, shadowy weight of the Stone
was
tearing at his mind, a power built generation after
generation,
fermenting in upon itself and directed by
Zyeme
upon him now, summoning him to her bidding,
demanding
that he yield. Jenny felt his mind a knot of
iron
against that imperious command, and she felt it when
the
knot fissured.
She
cried again, Morkeleb\ and flung herself, mind and
body,
toward him. Their minds gripped and locked.
Through
his eyes, she saw the horrible shape of the crea-
ture
and recognized how he had known Zyerne through
her
disguise-the patterning of her soul was unmistaka-
ble.
Peripherally, she was aware that this was true for
every
man and gnome who cowered within the doorways
and
behind the protection of each turret; she saw things
as a
dragon sees. The force of the Stone hammered again
at her
mind, and yet it had no power over her, no hold
upon
her. Through Morkeleb's eyes, she saw herself still
running
toward him-toward, in a sense, herself-and
saw the
creature turn to strike at that small, flying rag of
black-wrapped
bones and hair that she knew in a detached
way for
her own body.
Her
mind was within the dragon's, shielding him from
the
burning grip of the Stone. Like a cat, the dragon
struck,
and the creature that had been Zyerne wheeled
to meet
the unexpected threat. Half within her own body,
half
within Morkeleb's, Jenny stepped in under the sag-
ging,
bloated belly of the monster that loomed so hugely
near
her and thrust upward with her halberd. As the blade
slashed
at the stinking flesh, she heard Zyeme's voice in
her
mind, screaming at her the back-street obscenities of
a
spoiled little slut whom the gnomes had taken in on
account
of the promise of her power. Then the creature
gathered
its mismated limbs beneath it and hurled itself
skyward
out of their way. From overhead, Jenny felt the
hot
rumble of thunder.
Her
counterspell blocked the bolt of lightning that would
have
come hurling down on the court an instant later; she
used a
dragon-spell, such as those who walked the roads
of the
air used to allow them to fly in storms. Morkeleb
was
beside her then, her mind shielding his from the Stone
as his
body shielded hers from Zyeme's greater strength.
Minds
interlinked, there was no need of words between
them.
Jenny seized the knife-tipped spikes of his foreleg
as he
raised her to his back, and she wedged herself
uncomfortably
between the spearpoints that guarded his
spine.
More thunder came, and the searing breathlessness
of
ozone. She flung a spell to turn aside that bolt, and the
lightning-channeled,
she saw, through the creature that
hovered
in the livid air above the Citadel like a floating
sack of
pus-struck the tubular harpoon gun on the ram-
part.
It exploded in a bursting star of flame and shattered
iron,
and the two men who were cranking another catapult
to bear
on the monster turned and fled.
Jenny
understood then that the storm had been sum-
moned
by Zyeme, called by her powers through the Stone
from
afar, and the Stone's magic gave her the power to
direct
the lightning when and where she would. It had
been
her weapon to destroy the Citadel-the Stone, the
storm,
and the dragon.
She
pulled off her belt and used it to lash herself to
the
two-foot spike before her. It would be little use if the
dragon
turned over in flight, but would keep her from
being
thrown off laterally, and that was all she could hope
for
now. She knew her body was exhausted and hurt, but
the
dragon's mind lifted her out of herself; and in any
case,
she had no choice. She sealed herself off from the
pain
and ripped the Limitations from mind and flesh.
The
dragon hurtled skyward to the thing waiting above.
Winds
tore at them, buffeting Morkeleb's wings so
that he
had to veer sharply to miss being thrown into the
highest
turret of the Citadel. From above them, the crea-
ture
spat a rain of acid mucus. Green and stinking, it seared
Jenny's
face and hands like poison and made smoking
tracks
of corrosion on the steel of the dragon's scales.
Furiously
keeping her mind concentrated against the sear-
ing
agony. Jenny cast her will at the clouds, and rain began
to
sluice down, washing the stuff away and half-blinding
her
with its fury. Long black hair hung stickily down over
her
shoulders as the dragon swung on the wind, and she
felt
lightning channeling again into the hovering creature
before
them. Seizing it with her mind, she flung it back.
It
burst somewhere between them, the shock of it striking
her
bones like a Mow. She had forgotten she was not a
dragon,
and that her flesh was mortal.
Then
the creature fell upon them, its stumpy wings
whirring
like a foul bug's. The weight of it rolled the
dragon
in the air so that Jenny had to grasp the spikes on
either
side of her, below the blades and yet still cutting
her
fingers. The earth rolled and swung below them, but
her
eyes and mind locked on the thing above. Its stink i^
was
overpowering, and from the pullulant mass of its j||
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flesh, a
sharklike head struck, biting at the massive joints
of the
dragon's wings, while the whirlwind of evil spells
sucked
and ripped around them, tearing at their linked
minds.
Ichorous
yellow fluid burst from the creature's mouth
as it
bit at the spikes of the wing-joints. Jenny slashed at
the
eyes, human and as big as her two fists, gray-gold as
mead-Zyeme's
eyes. The halberd blade clove through
the
flesh-and from among the half-severed flaps of the
wound,
other heads burst like a knot of snakes among
spraying
gore, tearing at her robe and her flesh with suck-
eriike
mouths. Grimly, fighting a sense of nightmare hor-
ror,
she chopped again, her blistered hands clotted and
running
with slime. Half her mind called from the depths
of the
dragon's soul the healing-spells against the poisons
she
knew were harbored in those filthy jaws.
When
she slashed at the other eye, the creature broke
away
from them. The pain of Morkeleb's wounds as well
as her
own tore at her as he swung and circled skyward,
and she
knew he felt the burning of her ripped flesh. The
Citadel
dropped away below them; rain poured over them
like
water from a pail. Looking up, she could see the
deadly
purplish glow of stored lightning rimming the black
pillows
of cloud so close above their heads. The battering
of
Zyeme's mind upon theirs lessened as the sorceress
rallied
her own spells, spells of wreckage and ruin against
the
Citadel and its defenders below.
Mists
veiled the thrusting folds of the land beneath
them, the
toy fortress and the wet, slate-and-emerald of
the
meadows beside the white stream of the river. Mor-
keleb
circled. Jenny's eyes within his seeing all things
with
clear, incredible calm. Lightning streaked down by
her and
she saw, as if it had been drawn in fine lines
before
her eyes, another catapult explode on the ram-
parts,
and the man who had been winding it flung back-
ward
over the parapet, whirling limply down the side of
the
cliff.
Then
the dragon folded his wings and dropped. Her
mind in
Morkeleb's, Jenny felt no fear, clinging to the
spikes
while the wind tore her sopping hair back and her
bloody,
rain-wet robes plastered to her body and arms.
Her
mind was the mind of a stooping falcon. She saw,
with
precise pleasure, the sacklike, threshing body that
was
their target, felt the joy of impending impact as the
dragon
fisted his claws...
The jar
all but threw her from her precarious perch on
the
dragon's backbone. The creature twisted and sagged
in the
air, then writhed under them, grabbing with a dozen
mouths
at Morkeleb's belly and sides, heedless of the
spikes
and the monstrous slashing of the dragon's tail.
Something
tore at Jenny's back; turning, she hacked the
head
off a serpentine tentacle that had ripped at her, but
she
felt the blood flowing from the wound. Her efforts to
close
it were fogged and slow. They seemed to have fallen
into a
vortex of spells, and the weight of the Stone's
strength
dragged upon them, trying to rend apart the locked
knot of
their minds.
What
was human magic and what dragon she no longer
knew,
only that they sparkled together, iron and gold, in
a
welded weapon that attacked both body and mind. She
could
feel Morkeleb's growing exhaustion and her own
dizziness
as the Citadel walls and the stone-toothed cliflfs
of Nast
Wall wheeled crazily beneath them. The more
they
hacked and cut at the awful, stinking thing, the more
mouths
and gripping tentacles it sprouted and the tighter
its
clutch upon them became. She felt no more fear than
a beast
might feel in combat with its own kind, but she
did
feel the growing weight of the thing as it multiplied,
getting
larger and more powerful as the two entwined
bodies
thrashed in the sea of streaming rain.
The
end, when it came, was a shock, like the impact
of a
club. She was aware of a booming roar somewhere
in the
earth beneath them, dull and shaking through her
exhausted
singlemindedness; then, more clearly, she heard
a voice
like Zyeme's screaming, multiplied a thousandfold
through
the spells that suffocated her until it axed through
her
skull with the rending echo of indescribable pain.
Like
the passage from one segment of a dream to
another,
she felt the melting of the spells that surrounded
them
and the falling-away of the clinging, flaccid flesh and
muscle.
Something flashed beneath them, falling through
the
rainy air toward the wet roof crests of the Citadel
below,
and she realized that the plunging flutter of stream-
ing
brown hair and white gauze was Zyeme.
The
instantaneous Get her and Morkeleb's Let her fall
passed
between them like a spark. Then he was plunging
again,
as he had plunged before, falconlike, tracking the
falling
body with his precise crystal eyes and plucking it
from
the air with the neatness of a child playing jacks.
Charcoal-gray
with rain, the walls of the Citadel court
rose up
around them. Men, women, and gnomes were
everywhere
on the ramparts, hair slicked down with the
pouring
cloudburst to which nobody was paying the slight-
est
attention. White smoke poured from the narrow door
that
led into the Deep, but all eyes were raised skyward
to that
black, plummeting form.
The
dragon balanced for a moment upon the seventy-
foot
span of his wings, then extended three of his delicate
legs to
touch the ground. With the fourth, he laid Zyeme
on the
puddled stone pavement, her dark hair spreading
out
around her under the driving rain.
Sliding
from the dragon's back, Jenny knew at once
that
Zyeme was dead. Her mouth and eyes were open.
Distorted
with rage and terror, her face could be seen to
be
pointy and shrewish with constant worry and the can-
cerous
addiction to petty angers.
Trembling
with weariness. Jenny leaned against the
dragon's
curving shoulder. Slowly, the scintillant helix of
their
minds unlinked. The rim of brightness and color that
had
seemed to edge everything vanished from her vision.
Living
things had solid bodies once more, instead of incor-
poreal
ghosts of flesh through which shone the shapes of
souls.
A
thousand pains came back to her-of her body and
of the
stripped, hurting ruin of her mind. She became
aware
of the blood that stuck her torn robe to her back
and ran
down her legs to her bare feet-became aware
of all
the darkness in her own heart, which she had accepted
in her
battle with Zyeme.
Holding
to the thomed scales for support, she looked
down at
the sharp, white face staring upward at her from
the
rain-hammered puddles. A human hand steadied her
elbow,
and turning, she saw Trey beside her, her frivo-
lously
tinted hair plastered with wet around her pale face.
It was
the closest, she realized, that she had seen any
human
besides herself come to Morkeleb. A moment later
Polycarp
joined them, one arm wrapped in makeshift
dressings
and half his red hair burned away by the crea-
ture's
first attack upon the door.
White
smoke still billowed from the door of the Deep.
Jenny
coughed, her lungs hurting, in the acrid fumes.
Everyone
in the court was coughing-it was as if the
Deep
itself were in flames.
More
coughing came from within. In the shadowy slot,
two
forms materialized, the shorter leaning upon the taller.
From
soot-blackened faces, two pairs of spectacle lenses
flashed
whitely in the pallid light.
A
moment later they emerged from the smoke and
shadow
into the stunned silence of the watching crowd
in the
court.
"Miscalculated
the blasting powder," John explained
apologetically.
CHAPTER
XVII
IT WAS
NOT for several days after John and Gareth
blew up
the Stone that Jenny began to recover from the
battle
beneath and above the Citadel.
She had
cloudy recollections of them telling Polycarp
how
they had backtracked to the room by the gates where
the
blasting powder had been left, while her own con-
sciousness
darkened, and a vague memory of Morkeleb
catching
her in his talons as she fell and carrying her,
catlike,
to the small shelter in the upper court. More clear
was the
remembrance of John's voice, forbidding the oth-
ers to
go after them. "She needs a healing we can't give
her,"
she heard him say to Gareth. "Just let her be."
She
wondered how he had known that. But then, John
knew
her very well.
Morkeleb
healed her as dragons heal, leading the body
with
the mind. Her body healed fairly quickly, the poisons
burning
themselves out of her veins, the slashed, puck-
ered
wounds left by the creature's mouths closing to leave
round,
vicious-looking scabs the size of her palm. Like
John's
dragon-slaying scars, she thought, they would stay
with
her for what remained of her life.
Her
mind healed more slowly. Open wounds left by
her
battle with Zyeme remained open. Worst was the
knowledge
that she had abandoned the birthright of her
power,
not through the fate that had denied her the ability
or the
circumstances that had kept her from its proper
teaching,
but through her own fear.
They
are yours for the stretching-out of your hand,
Morkeleb
had said.
She
knew they always had been.
Turning
her head from the shadows of the crowded
lean-to,
she could see the dragon lying in the heatless sun
of the
court, a black cobra with his tasseled head raised,
his
antennae flicking to listen to the wind. She felt her
soul
streaked and mottled with the mind and soul of the
dragon
and her life entangled with the crystal ropes of his
being.
She
asked him once why he had remained at the Citadel
to heal
her. The Stone is broken-the ties that bind you
to this
place are gone.
She
felt the anger coiled within him stir. I do not know,
wizard
woman. You cannot have healed yourself-I did
not
wish to see you broken forever. The words in her
mind
were tinted, not only with anger, but with the mem-
ory of
fear and with a kind of shame.
Whyf
she asked. You have often said that the affairs
of
humankind are nothing to dragons.
His
scales rattled faintly as they hackled, then, with a
dry
whisper, settled again. Dragons did not lie, but she
felt
the mazes of his mind close against her.
Nor are
they. But I have felt stirring in me things that
I do
not understand, since you healed me and shared with
me the
song of the gold in the Deep. My power has waked
power
in you, but what it is in you that has waked its
reflection
in me I do not know, for it is not a thing of
dragons.
It let me feel the grip of the Stone, as I flew
north-a
longing and a hurt, which before was only my
own
will. Now because of it, I do not want to see you
hurt-I
do not want to see you die, as humans die. I want
you to
come with me to the north. Jenny; to be one of
the
dragons, with the power for which you have always
sought.
I want this, as much as I have ever wanted the
gold of
the earth. I do not know why. And is it not what
you
want?
But to
that, Jenny had no reply.
Long
before he should have been on his feet, John
dragged
himself up the steps to the high court to see her,
sitting
behind her on the narrow makeshift cot in her little
shelter,
brushing her hair as he used to at the Hold on
those
nights when she would come there to be with him
and their
sons. He spoke of commonplaces, of the dis-
mantling
of the siege troops around the Citadel and of the
return
of the gnomes to the Deep, ofGareth's doings, and
of the
assembling of the books they would take back to
the
north, demanding nothing other, neither speech, deci-
sion,
nor thought. But it seemed to her that the touch of
his
hands brought more bitter pain to her than all Zyeme's
spells
of ruin.
She had
made her choice, she thought, ten years ago
when
first they had met; and had remade it every day
since
then. But there was, and always had been, another
choice.
Without turning her head, she was aware of the
thoughts
that moved behind the diamond depths of Mor-
keleb's
watching eyes.
When he
rose to go, she laid a hand on the sleeve of
his
frayed black robe. "John," she said quietly. "Will you
do
something for me? Send a message to Miss Mab, asking
her to
choose out the best volumes of magic that she
knows
of, both of the gnomes and of humankind, to go
north
also?"
He regarded
her for a moment, where she lay on the
rough
paillasse on her narrow cot which for four nights
now had
been her solitary bed, her coarse dark hair hang-
ing
over the whiteness of her shift. "Wouldn't you rather
look
them out for yourself, love? You're the one who's
to be
using them, after all."
She
shook her head. His back was to the light of the
open
court, his features indistinct against the glare; she
wanted
to reach out her hand to touch him, but somehow
could
not bring herself to do so. In a cool voice like silver
she
explained, "The magic of the dragon is in me, John;
it is
not a thing of books. The books are for lan, when
he
comes into his power."
John
said nothing for a moment. She wondered if he,
too,
had realized this about their older son. When he did
speak,
his voice was small. "Won't you be there to teach
him?"
She
shook her head. "I don't know, John," she whis-
pered.
"I don't know."
He made
a move to lay his hand on her shoulder, and
she
said, "No. Don't touch me. Don't make it harder for
me than
it already is."
He
remained standing for a moment longer before her,
looking
down into her face. Then, obedient, he silently
turned
and left the shed.
She had
come to no further conclusion by the day of
their
departure from the Citadel, to take the road back to
the
north. She was conscious of John watching her, when
he
thought she wasn't looking; conscious of her own glad-
ness
that he never used the one weapon that he must have
known
would make her stay with him-he never spoke
to her
of their sons. But in the nights, she was conscious
also of
the dark cobra shape of the dragon, glittering in
the
moonlight of the high court, or wheeling down from
the
black sky with the cold stars of winter prickling upon
his
spines, as if he had flown through the heart of the
galaxy
and come back powdered with its light.
The
morning of their departure was a clear one, though
bitterly
cold. The King rode up from Bel to see them off,
surrounded
by a flowerbed of courtiers, who regarded
John
with awe and fear, as if wondering how they had
dared
to mock him, and why he had not slain them all.
With
him, also, were Polycarp and Gareth and Trey, hand-
fast
like schoolchildren. Trey had had her hair redyed,
burgundy
and gold, which would have looked impressive
had it
been done in the elaborate styles of the Court instead
of in
two plaits like a child's down her back.
They
had brought with them a long line of horses and
mules,
laden with supplies for the journey and also with
the
books for which John had so cheerfully been prepared
to risk
his life. John knelt before the tall, vague, faded
old
man, thanking him and swearing fealty; while Jenny,
clothed
in her colorless northlands plaids, stood to one
side,
feeling queerly distant from them all and watching
how the
King kept scanning the faces of the courtiers
around
him with the air of one who seeks someone, but
no
longer remembers quite who.
To John
the King said, "Not leaving already? Surely
it was
only yesterday you presented yourself?"
"It
will be a long way home, my lord." John did not
mention
the week he had spent waiting the King's leave
to ride
forth against the dragon-it was clear the old man
recalled
little, if anything, of the preceding weeks. "It's
best I
start before the snows come on heavy."
"Ah."
The King nodded vaguely and turned away, lean-
ing on
the arms of his tall son and his nephew Polycarp.
After a
pace or two, he halted, frowning as something
surfaced
from the murk of his memory, and turned to
Gareth.
"This Dragonsbane-he did kill the dragon, after
all?"
There
was no way to explain all that had passed, or
how
rightness had been restored to the kingdom, save by
the
appropriate channels, so Gareth said simply, "Yes."
"Good,"
said the old man, nodding dim approval.
"Good."
Gareth
released his arm; Polycarp, as Master of the
Citadel
and his host, led the King away to rest, the cour-
tiers
trailing after like a school of brightly colored, orna-
mental
fish. From among them stepped three small, stout
forms,
their silken robes stirring in the ice winds that
played
from the soft new sky.
Balgub,
the new Lord of the Deep ofYlferdun, inclined
his
head; with the stiff unfamiliarity of one who has sel-
dom spoken
the words, he thanked Lord Aversin the Drag-
onsbane,
though he did not specify for what.
"Well,
he hardly could, now, could he?" John remarked,
as the
three gnomes left the court in the wake of the King's
party.
Only Miss Mab had caught Jenny's eye and winked
at her.
John went on, "If he came out and said, 'Thank
you for
blowing up the Stone,' that would be admitting
that he
was wrong about Zyerne not poisoning it."
Gareth,
who was still standing hand-in-hand with Trey
beside
them, laughed. "You know, I think he does admit
it in
his heart, though I don't think he'll ever completely
forgive
us for doing it. At least, he's civil to me in Council-
which
is fortunate, since I'm going to have to be dealing
with
him for a long time."
"Are
you?" A flicker of intense interest danced in John's
eye.
Gareth
was silent for a long moment, fingering the stiff
lace of
his cuff and not meeting John's gaze. When he
looked
up again, his face was weary and sad.
"I
thought it would be different," he said quietly. "I
thought
once Zyerne was dead, he would be all right. And
he's
better, he really is." He spoke like a man trying to
convince
himself that a mended statue is as beautiful as
it was
before it broke. "But he's-he's so absentminded.
Badegamus
says he can't be trusted to remember edicts
he's
made from one day to the next. When I was in Bel,
we made
up a Council-Badegamus, Balgub, Polycarp,
Dromar,
and I-to sort out what we ought to do; then I
tell
Father to do it-or remind him it's what he was going
to do,
and he'll pretend he remembers. He knows he's
gotten
forgetful, though he doesn't quite remember why.
Sometimes
he'll wake in the night, crying Zyeme's name
or my
mother's." The young man's voice turned momen-
tarily
unsteady. "But what if he never recovers?"
"What
if he never does?" John returned softly. "The
Realm
will be yours in any case one day, my hero." He
turned
away and began tightening the cinches of the mules,
readying
them for the trek down through the city to the
northward
road.
"But
not now!" Gareth followed him, his words making
soft
puffs of steam in the morning cold. "I mean-I never
have
time for myself anymore! It's been months since I
worked
on my poetry, or tried to complete that southern
variant
of the ballad of Antara Warlady..."
"There'll
be time, by and by." The Dragonsbane paused,
resting
his hand on the arched neck of Battlehanuner,
Gareth's
parting gift to him. "It will get easier, when men
know to
come to you directly instead of to your father."
Gareth
shook his head. "But it won't be the same."
"Is
it ever?" John moved down the line, tightening
cinches,
checking straps on the parcels of books-vol-
umes of
healing, Anacetus' works on greater and lesser
demons,
Luciard's Firegiver, books on engineering and
law, by
gnomes and men. Gareth followed him silently,
digesting
the fact that he was now, for all intents and
purposes,
the Lord of Bel, with the responsibilities of the
kingdom-for
which he had been academically prepared
under
the mental heading of "some day"-thrust suddenly
upon
his unwilling shoulders. Like John, Jenny thought
pityingly,
he would have to put aside the pursuit of his
love of
knowledge for what he owed his people and return
to it
only when he could. The only difference was that
his
realm was at peace and that John had been a year
younger
than Gareth was when the burden had fallen to
him.
"And
Bond?" John asked gently, looking over at Trey.
She
sighed and managed to smile. "He still asks about
Zyeme,"
she said softly. "He really did love her, you
know.
He knows she's dead and he tries to pretend he
remembers
it happening the way'I told him, about her
falling
off a horse... But it's odd. He's kinder than he
was.
He'll never be considerate, of course, but he's not
so
quick or so clever, and I think he hurts people less.
He
dropped a cup at luncheon yesterday-he's gotten
very
clumsy-and he even apologized to me." There was
a
slight wryness to her smile, perhaps to cover tears. "I
remember
when he would not only have blamed me for
it, but
gotten me to blame myself."
She and
Gareth had been following John down the line,
still
hand in hand, the girl's rose-colored skirts bright
against
the pewter grayness of the frosted morning. Jenny,
standing
apart, listened to their voices, but felt as if she
saw
them through glass, part of a life from which she was
half-separated,
to which she did not have to go back unless
she
chose. And all the while, her mind listened to the sky,
hearing
with strange clarity the voices of the wind around
the
Citadel towers, seeking something...
She
caught John's eye on her and saw the worry crease
between
his brows; something wrung and wrenched in
her
heart.
"Must
you go?" Gareth asked hesitantly, and Jenny,
feeling
as if her thoughts had been read, looked up; but
it was
to John that he had spoken. "Could you stay with
me,
even for a little while? It will take nearly a month for
the
troops to be ready-you could have a seat on the
Council.
I-I can't do this alone."
John
shook his head, leaning on the mule Clivy's with-
ers.
"You are doing it alone, my hero. And as for me,
I've my
own realm to look after. I've been gone long as
it
is." He glanced questioningly at Jenny as he spoke, but
she
looked away.
Wind
surged down around them, crosswise currents
swirling
her plaids and her hair like the stroke of a giant
wing.
She looked up and saw the shape of the dragon
melting
down from the gray and cobalt of the morning
sky.
She
turned from the assembled caravan in the court
without
a word and ran to the narrow stair that led up to
the
walls. The dark shape hung like a black kite on the
wind,
the soft voice a song in her mind.
By my
name you have bidden me go. Jenny Waynest,
he
said. Now that you are going, I too shall depart. But
by your
name, I ask that you follow. Come with me, to
the
islands of the dragons in the northern seas. Come
with
me, to be of us, now and forever.
She
knew in her heart that it would be the last time of
his
asking; that if she denied him now, that door would
never
open again. She stood poised for a moment, between
silver
ramparts and silver sky. She was aware of John
climbing
the steps behind her, his face emptied of life and
his
spectacle lenses reflecting the pearly colors of the
morning
light; was aware, through him, of the two little
boys
waiting for them in the crumbling tower of Alyn
Hold-boys
she had bome without intention of raising,
boys
she should have loved, she thought, either more or
less
than she had.
But
more than them, she was aware of the dragon,
drifting
like a ribbon against the remote white eye of the
day
moon. The music of his name shivered in her bones;
the
iron and fire of his power streaked her soul.
To be a
mage you must be a mage, she thought. The
key to
magic is magic.
She
turned and looked back, to see John standing on
the
root-buckled pavement between the barren apple trees
behind
her. Past him, she glimpsed the caravan of horses
in the
court below. Trey and Gareth holding the horses'
heads
as they snorted and fidgeted at the scent of the
dragon.
For a moment, the memory of John's body and
John's
voice overwhelmed her-the crushing strength of
his
muscles and the curious softness of his lips, the cold
slickness
of a leather sleeve, and the fragrance of his body
mixed
with the more prosaic pungence ofwoodsmoke and
horses
that permeated his scruffy plaids.
She was
aware, too, of the desperation and hope in his
eyes.
She saw
the hope fade, and he smiled. "Go if you must,
love,"
he said softly. "I said I wouldn't hold you, and I
won't.
I've known it for days."
She
shook her head, wanting to speak, but unable to
make a
sound, her dark hair swirled by the wind of the
dragon's
wings. Then she turned from him, suddenly, and
ran to
the battlements, beyond which the dragon lay wait-
ing in
the air.
Her
soul made the leap first, drawing power from the
wind
and from the rope of crystal thought that Morkeleb
flung
her, showing her the way. The elements around the
nucleus
of her essence changed, as she shed the shape
that
she had known since her conception and called to
her
another, different shape. She was half-conscious of
spreading
her arms against the wind as she strode forward
over
the edge of the battlement, of the wind in her dark
hair as
she sprang outward over the long drop of stone
and
cliff and emptiness. But her mind was already speed-
ing
toward the distant cloud peaks, the moon, the dragon.
On the
walls behind her, she was aware of Trey whis-
pering,
"She's beautiful..."
Against
the fading day moon, the morning's strength-
ening
light caught in the milk-white silk of her spreading
wings
and flashed like a spiked carpet of diamonds along
the
ghost-pale armor of the white dragon's back and sides.
But
more than of that, she was conscious of John,
Dragonsbane
of ballad and legend, watching her with silent
tears
running down his still face as she circled into the
waiting
sky, like a butterfly released from his hand. Then
he
turned from the battlements, to the court where the
horses
waited. Taking the rein from the stunned Gareth,
he
mounted Battlehammer and rode through the gateway,
to take
the road back to the north.
CHAPTER
XVIII
THEY
FLEW NORTH together, treading the woven roads
of the
sky.
The
whole Earth lay below her, marked with the long
indigo
shadows of morning, the bright flash of springing
water,
and the icy knives of the glaciers. She saw the
patterns
of the sea, with its currents of green and violet,
its
great, gray depths, and the scrum of white lace upon
its
surface, and those of the moving air. All things were
to her
as a dragon sees them, a net of magic and years,
covering
the Earth and holding it to all the singing uni-
verse
in a crystal web of time.
They
nested among the high peaks ofNast Wall, among
the
broken bone ends of the world, looking eastward over
the
gorges where the bighorn sheep sprang like fleas from
rock to
rock, past dizzying drops of green meltwater and
woods
where the dampness coated each tree in pillows
of
emerald moss, and down to the woods on the foothills
of the
Marches, where those who swore fealty to the
Master
dwelt. Westward, she could look past the glacier
that
lay like a stilled river of green and white through the
gouged
gray breakers of the cliffs, past cold and barren
rocks,
to see the Wildspae gleaming like a sheet of brown
silk
beneath the steam of its mists and, in the glimmering
bare
woods along its banks, make out the lacework turrets
of
Zyerne's hunting lodge among the trees.
Like a
dragon, she saw backward and forward in time;
and
like a dragon, she felt no passion at what she saw.
She was
free, to have what she had always sought-
not
only the power, which the touch of Morkeleb's mind
had
kindled in her soul, but freedom to pursue that power,
released
from the petty grind of the work of days.
Her
mind touched and fingered that knowledge, won-
dering
at its beauty and its complexity. It was hers now,
as it
had always been hers for the taking. No more would
she be
asked to put aside her meditations, to trek ten
miles
on foot over the wintry moors to deliver a child; no
more
would she spend the hours needed for the study of
her
power ankle-deep in a half-frozen marsh, looking for
frogwort
for Muffle the smith's rheumatism.
No more
would her time-and her mind-be divided
between
love and power.
Far
off, her dragon's sight could descry the caravan of
horses,
making their antlike way along the foothills arid
into
the woods. So clear was her crystal sight that she
could
identify each beast within that train-the white
Moon
Horse, the balky roans, the stupid sorrel Cow, and
the big
liver-bay Battlehammer-she saw, too, the flash
of
spectacle lenses and the glint of metal spikes on a
patched
old doublet.
He was
no more to her now than the first few inches
upon
the endless ribbon of dragon years. Like the bandits
and the
wretched Meewinks-like his and her sons-he
had his
own path to follow through the labyrinth patterns
of
darkening time. He would go on with his fights for his
people
and with his dogged experiments with rock salts
and
hot-air balloons, his model ballistas and his quest for
lore
about pigs. One day, she thought, he would take a
boat
out to the rough waters ofEldsbouch Cove to search
for the
ruins of the drowned breakwater, and she would
not be
waiting for him on the round pebbles of the gravel
beach...
He would ride out to the house beneath the
standing
stones on Frost Fell, and she would not be stand-
ing in
its doorway.
In
time, she knew, even these memories would fade.
She saw
within herself, as she had probed at the souls of
others.
Trey's, she recalled, had been like a clear pool,
with
bright shallows and unsuspected depths. Zyeme's
had
been a poisoned flower. Her own soul she saw also
as a
flower whose petals were turning to steel at their
outer
edges but whose heart was still soft and silky flesh.
In
time, it would be ail steel, she saw, breathtakingly
beautiful
and enduring forever-but it would cease to be
a
flower.
She lay
for a long time in the rocks, motionless save
for the
flick of her jeweled antennae as she scried the
colors
of the wind.
It was
thus to be a dragon, she told herself, to see the
patterns
of all things from the silence of the sky. It was
thus to
be free. But pain still poured from some broken
place
inside her-the pain of choice, of loss, and of still-
born
dreams. She would have wept, but there was nothing
within
dragons that could weep. She told herself that this
was the
last time she would have to feel this pain or the
love
that was its source. It was for this immunity that she
had
sought the roads of the sky.
The key
to magic is magic, she thought. And all magic,
all
power, was now hers.
But
within her some other voice asked, For what pur-
pose?
Afar off she was aware of Morkeleb, hunting the
great-homed
sheep in the rocks. Like a black bat of steel
lace,
he passed as soundlessly as his own shadow over
the
snowfields, wrapping himself in the colors of the air
to drop
down the gorges, the deceptive glitter of his magic
hiding
him from the nervous, stupid eyes of his prey.
Magic
was the bone of dragon bones, the blood of their
blood;
the magic of the cosmos tinted everything they
perceived
and everything they were.
And
yet, in the end, their magic was sterile, seeking
nothing
but its own-as Zyeme's had been.
Zyeme,
Jenny thought. The key to magic is magic. For
it
Zyeme had sacrificed the men who loved her, the son
she
would have borne, and, in the end, her very
humanity-even
as she herself had done!
Caerdinn
had been wrong. For all his striving to perfect
his
arts, in the end he had been nothing but a selfish,
embittered
old man, the end of a Line that was failing
because
it sought magic for magic's sake. The key to
magic
was not magic, but the use of magic; it lay not in
having,
but in giving and doing-in loving, and in being
loved.
And to
her mind there rose the image of John, sitting
beside
Morkeleb in the high court of the Citadel. Having
so
little, we shared among ourselves to make any of it
worth
having... the consequences of not caring enough
to do
it would have been worse...
It had
been John all along, she thought. Not the prob-
lem, but
the solution.
Shadow
circled her, and Morkeleb sank glittering to
the
rocks at her side. The sun was half-down the west
and
threw the shimmer of the blue glacier light over him
like a
sparkling cloak of flame.
What is
it, wizard woman?
She said,
Morkeleb, return me to being what I was.
His
scales bristled, flashing, and she felt the throb of
his
anger deep in her mind. Nothing can ever return to
being
what it was, wizard woman. You know that. My
power
will be within you forever, nor can the knowledge
of what
it is to be a dragon ever be erased from your
mind.
Even
so, she said. Yet I would rather live as a woman
who was
once a dragon than a dragon who was once a
woman.
On the steps of the Deep, I killed with fire, as a
dragon
kills; and like a dragon, I felt nothing. I do not
want to
become that, Morkeleb.
Bah,
Morkeleb said. Heat smoked from the thousand
razor
edges of his scales, from the long spikes and the
folded
silk of his wings. Do not be a fool. Jenny Waynest.
All the
knowledge of the dragons, all their power, is yours,
and all
the years of time. You will forget the loves of the
earth
soon and be healed. The diamond cannot love the
flower,
for the flower lives only a day, then fades and
dies.
You are a diamond now.
The
flower dies. Jenny said softly, having lived. The
diamond
will never do either. I do not want to forget, and
the
healing will make me what I never wanted to be.
Dragons
have all the years of time, Morkeleb, but even
dragons
cannot roll back the flow of days, nor return
along
them to find again time that they have lost. Let
me go.
No! His
head swung around, his white eyes blazing,
his
long mane bristling around the base of his many horns.
/ want
you, wizard woman, more than I have ever wanted
any
gold. It is something that was born in me when your
mind
touched mine, as my magic was born in you. Having
you, I
will not give you up.
She
gathered her haunches beneath her and threw her-
self
out into the void of the air, white wings cleaving the
wind.
He flung himself after, swinging down the gray cliffs
and
waterfalls of Nast Wall, their shadows chasing one
another
over snow clefts dyed blue with the coming eve-
ning
and rippling like gray hawks over the darkness of
stone
and chasm. Beyond, the world lay carpeted by
autumn
haze, red and ochre and brown; and from the
unleaved
trees of the woods near the river, Jenny could
see a
single thread of smoke rising, far off on the evening
wind.
The
whiteness of the full moon stroked her wings; the
stars,
through whose secret paths the dragons had once
come to
the earth and along which they would one day
depart,
swung like a web of light in their unfolding pat-
terns
above. Her dragon sight descried the camp in the
woods
and a lone, small figure patiently scraping burned
bannocks
off the griddle, books from a half-unpacked box
stacked
around him.
She
circled the smoke, invisible in the colors of the
air,
and felt the darkness of a shadow circling above her.
Wizard
woman, said the voice of the dragon in her
mind,
is this truly what you want7
She did
not reply, but she knew that, dragon-wise, he
felt
the surge and patterns of her mind. She felt his baf-
flement
at them, and his anger, both at her and at some-
thing
within himself.
At
length he said,/ want you. Jenny Way nest. But more
than
you, I want your happiness, and this I do not under-
stand-I
do not want you in grief. And then, his anger
lashing
at her like a many-tailed whip. You have done this
to me!
I am
sorry, Morkeleb, she said softly. What you feel is
the
love of humans, and a poor trade for the power that
the
touch of your mind gave me. It is what I learned first,
from
loving John-both the pain and the fact that to feel
it is
better than not to be able to feel.
Is this
the pain that drives you7 he demanded.
She
said. Yes.
Bitter
anger sounded in his mind, like the far-off echo
of the
gold that he had lost. Go, then, he said, and she
circled
down from the air, a thing of glass and lace and
bone,
invisible in the soft, smoky darkness. She felt the
dragon's
power surround her with heat and magic, the
pain
shimmering along her bones. She leaned into the fear
that
melted her body, as she had leaned into the winds of
flight.
Then
there was only weariness and grief. She knelt
alone
in the darkness of the autumn woods, the night chill
biting
into all the newly healed wounds of her back and
arms.
Through the warty gray and white of the tree boles,
she
could see the red glow of fire and smell the familiar
odors
of woodsmoke and horses; the plaintive strains of
a
pennywhistle keened thinly in the air. The bright edge
of
color had vanished from all things; the evening was
raw and
misty, colorless, and very cold. She shivered and
drew
her sheepskin jacket more closely about her. The
earth
felt damp where her knees pressed it through her
faded
skirts.
She
brushed aside the dark, coarse mane of her hair
and
looked up. Beyond the bare lace of the trees, she
could
see the black dragon still circling, alone in the
sounding
hollow of the empty sky.
Her
mind touched his, with thanks deeper than words.
Grief
came down to her, grief and hurt, and rage that he
could
feel hurt.
// is a
cruel gift you have given me, wizard woman, he
said.
For you have set me apart from my own and destroyed
the
pleasure of my old joys; my soul is marked with this
love,
though I do not understand what it is and, like you,
I shall
never be able to return to what I have been.
lam
sorry, Morkeleb, she said to him. We change what
we
touch, be it magic, or power, or another Iffe. Ten years
ago I
would have gone with you, had I not touched John,
and
been touched by him.
Like an
echo in her mind she heard his voice. Be happy,
then,
wizard woman, with this choice that you have made.
I do
not understand the reasons for it, for it is not a thing
of
dragons-but then neither, any longer, am I.
She
felt rather than saw him vanish, flying back in the
darkness
toward the empty north. For a moment he passed
before
the white disk of the moon, skeletal silk over its
stem
face-then he was gone. Grief closed her throat,
the
grief of roads untaken, of doors not opened, of songs
unsung-the
human grief of choice. In freeing her, the
dragon,
too, had made his choice, of what he was and
would
be.
We
change what we touch, she thought. And in that,
she
supposed, John-and the capacity to love and to care
that
John had given her-was, and forever would be,
Morkeleb's
bane.
She
sighed and got stiffly to her feet, dusting the twigs
and
leaves from her skirts. The shrill, sweet notes of the
pecnywhistle
still thr<. ed the evening breeze, but with
them
was the smell of smoke, and of bannocks starting
to
burn. She hitched her plaid up over her shoulder and
started
up the path for the clearing.