CHAPTER
1
WHAT IN
THE NAME OF THE COLD HELLS IS THIS?"
SunWolf held the scrap of unfolded paper between stubby fingers that
were still slightly stained with blood.
Starhawk,
his tall, rawboned second-in-command, glanced up from cleaning the grime of
battle off the hilt of her sword and raised dark, level brows inquiringly.
Outside, torchlight reddened the windy night. The camp was riotous with the
noise of victory; the mercenaries of Wrynde and the troops of the City of
Kedwyr were uninhibitedly celebrating the final breaking of the siege of
Melplith.
"What's
it look like?" she asked reasonably.
"It
looks like a poxy proposition." He handed it to her, the amber light of
the oil lamp overhead falling over his body, naked to the waist and glittering
with a light curly rug of gold hair. Starhawk had been fighting under his
command for long enough to know that, if he had actually thought it nothing
more than a proposition, he would have put it in the fire without a word.
Sun
Wolf, Commander of the Mercenaries, Camp of Kedwyr below the walls of Melplith,
from Sheera Galernas of Mandrigyn, greetings. I will be coming to you in your
tent tonight with a matter of interest to you. For my sake and that of my
cause, please be alone, and speak to no one of this. Sheera.
"Woman's
handwriting," Starhawk commented, and ran her thumb consideringly along
the gilt edge of the expensive paper.
Sun
Wolf looked at her sharply from beneath his curiously tufted brows. "If
she wasn't from Mandrigyn, I'd say it was the local madam trying to drum up
business."
Starhawk
nodded in absent-minded agreement.
Outside
the tent, the noise scaled up into a crescendo. Boozy catcalls mixed with cries
of encouragement and yells of "Kill him! Kill the bastard!" Between the
regular troops of the City of Kedwyr and the City's Outland Militia Levies, a
lively hatred existed, perhaps stronger than the feeling that either body of
warriors had toward the hapless citizen-soldiers of the besieged town of
Melplith. It was a conflict that the Wolf and his mercenaries had stayed well
clear of-the Wolf because he made it his policy never to get involved in local
politics, and his men because of a blood-chilling directive from their captain
on the subject. The noises of drunken murder did not concern him-there wasn't a
man in his troop who would have so much as stayed to watch.
"Mandrigyn,"
Starhawk said thoughtfully. "Altiokis conquered that city last spring,
didn't he?"
Sun
Wolf nodded and settled himself into a fantastic camp chair made of staghorn
bound with gold, looted from some tribal king in the far northeast. Most of the
big tent's furnishings had been plundered from somewhere or other. The peacock
hangings that separated it into two rooms had once adorned the bedroom of a
prince of the K'Chin Desert. The cups of translucent, jade-green lacquer and
gold had belonged to a merchant on the Bight Coast. The graceful ebony table,
its delicate inlays almost hidden under the bloody armor that had been dumped
upon it, had once graced the wine room of a gentlemanly noble of the Middle
Kingdoms, before his precious vintages had been swilled by the invading armies
of his enemies and he himself had been dispatched beyond such concerns.
"The
city went fast," Sun Wolf remarked, picking up a rag and setting to work
cleaning his own weapons. "Basically, it was the same situation as we had
here in Melplith-factional splits in the parliament, scandal involving the
royal family- they have a royal family there, or they did have, anyway- the city
weakened by internal fighting before Altiokis marched down the pass. I'm told
there were people there who welcomed him as a liberator."
Starhawk
shrugged. "No weirder than some of the things the Trinitarian heretics
believe," she joked, deadpan, and he grinned. Like most northerners, the
Hawk held to the Old Faith against the more sophisticated theologies of the
Triple God.
"The
Wizard King's Citadel has been on Mandrigyn's back doorstep for a hundred and
fifty years," the, Wolf continued after a moment. "Last year they
signed some kind of treaty with him. I could see it coming even then."
Starhawk
shoved her sword back into its sheath and wiped her fingers on a rag. Sun
Wolf's talent for collecting and sorting information was uncanny, but it was a
skill that served him well. He had a knack for gathering rumors, extrapolating
political probabilities from crop prices and currency fluctuations and the most
trivial bits of information that made their way north to his broken-down
stronghold at the old administrative town of Wrynde. Thus he and his men had
been on the spot in the Gwarl Peninsula when the fighting had broken out
between the trading rivals of Kedwyr and Melplith. Kedwyr had hired the Wolf
and his troop at an astronomical sum.
It
didn't always work that way-in her eight years as a mercenary in Sun Wolf's
troop, Starhawk had seen one or two spectacular pieces of mistiming-but on the
whole it had enabled the Wolf to maintain his troops in better-than-average
style, fighting in the summer and sitting out the violence of the winter storms
in the relative comfort of the half-ruined town of Wyrnde.
Like
all mercenary troops. Sun Wolf's shifted from year to year in size and
composition, though they centered around a hard core that had been with him for
years. As far as Starhawk knew, Sun Wolf was the only mercenary captain who
operated a regular school of combat in the winter months. The school itself was
renowned throughout the West and the North for the excellence of its fighters.
Every winter, when the rains made war impossible, young men and occasional
young women made the perilous journey through the northern wastelands that had
once been the agricultural heart of the old Empire of Gwenth to the ruined and
isolated little town of Wyrnde, there to ask to be taught the hard arts of war.
There
were always wars to fight somewhere. Since the moribund Empire of Gwenth had
finally been riven apart by the conflict between the Three Gods and the One,
there had always been wars-over the small bits of good land among the immense
tracts of bad, over the trade with the East in silk and amber and spices, over
religion, or over nothing. Starhawk, whose early training had given her a taste
for such things, had once explained the theology behind the Schism to the Wolf.
Being a barbarian from the far north, he worshipped the spirits of his
ancestors and would cheerfully take money from proponents of either faith. An
understanding of the situation had only amused him, as she knew it would.
Lately the wars had been over the rising of the Wizard King Altiokis, who was
expanding his own empire from the dark Citadel of Grimscarp, engulfing the
Thanes who ruled the countryside and such cities as Mandrigyn.
"Will
you see this woman from Mandrigyn?" she asked.
"Probably."
The noise of the fight outside peaked in a crazy climax of yelling, punctuated
by the heavy crack of the whips of the Kedwyr military police. It was the
fourth fight they'd heard since returning to the camp after the sacking of the town
was done; victory was headier than any booze ever brewed.
Starhawk
collected her gear-sword, dagger, mail shirt-preparatory to returning to her
own tent. Melplith stood on high ground, above its sheltered bay-one of those
arid regions whose chief crops of citrus and olives had naturally turned its
inhabitants to trade for their living. Chill winds now blew up from the choppy
waters of the bay, making the lamp flame flicker in its topaz glass and
chilling her flesh through the damp cotton of her dark, embroidered shirt.
"You
think it's a job?"
"I
think she'll offer me one."
"Will
you take it?"
The
Wolf glanced over at her briefly. His eyes, in this light, were pale gold, tike
the wines of the Middle Kingdoms, He was close to forty, and his tawny hair was
thinning, but there was no gray either in it or in the ragged mustache that
drooped like a clump of yellow-brown winter weeds from the underside of a
craggy and much-bent nose. The power and thickness of his chest and shoulders
made him seem taller than his six feet when he was standing up; seated and at
rest, he reminded her of a big, dusty lion. "Would you go against
Altiokis?" he asked her.
She
hesitated, not speaking her true answer to that. She had heard stories of the
Wizard King since she was a tiny girl-bizarre, distorted tales of his
conquests, his sins, and his greed. Horrible tales were told of what happened
to those who had opposed him, over the timeless years of his uncanny existence.
Her
true answer, the one she did not say aloud, was: Yes. if you wanted me to.
What
she said was, "Would you?"
He
shook his head. "I'm a soldier," he said briefly. "I'm not
wizard. I couldn't go against a wizard, and I wouldn't take my people against
one. There are two things that my father always told me, if I wanted to live to
grow old-don't fall in love and don't mess with magic."
"Three
things," Starhawk corrected, with one of her rare, fleeting grins.
"Don't argue with fanatics."
"That
comes under magic. Or arguing with drunks, I'm not sure which. I don't
understand how there could be one God or three Gods or five or more, but I do
know that I had ancestors, drunken, lecherous clowns that they were... Hello,
sweetpea."
The
curtain that divided the tent parted, and Fawn came in, brushing the last
dampness from the heavy curls of her mink-brown hair. The pale green gauze of
her gown made her eyes seem greener, almost emerald. She was Sun Wolf's latest
concubine, eighteen, and heartbreakingly beautiful. "Your bath's
ready," she said, coming behind the camp chair where he sat to kiss the
thin spot in his hair at the top of his head.
He took
her hand where it lay on his shoulder and, with a curiously tender gesture for
so large and rough-looking a man, he pressed his lips to the white skin of her
wrist. "Thanks," he said. "Hawk, will you wait for a few
minutes? If this skirt wants to see me alone, would you take Fawn over to your
tent for a while?"
Starhawk
nodded. She had seen a series of his girls come and go, all of them beautiful,
soft-spoken, pliant, and a little helpless. The camp tonight, after the sacking
of the town, was no place for a girl not raised to killing, even if she was the
mistress of a man like Sun Wolf.
"So
you're receiving ladies alone in your tent now, are you?" Fawn chided
teasingly.
With a
movement too swift to be either fought or fled, he was out of his chair,
catching her up, squeaking, in his arms as he rose. She wailed, "Stop it!
No! I'm sorry!" as he bore her off through the curtain into the other
room, her squeals scaling up into a desperate crescendo that ended in a
monumental and steamy splash.
Without
a flicker of an eyelid, Starhawk shouldered her war gear, called out,
"I'll be back for you in an hour, Fawn," and departed; only when she
was outside did she allow herself a small, amused grin.
She
returned in company with An, a young man who was Sun Wolf's other lieutenant
and who rather resembled an adolescent black bear. They bade the Wolf a grave
good evening, collected the damp, subdued, and rather pink-cheeked Fawn, and
made their way across the camp. The wind had risen again, cold off the sea with
the promise of the winter's deadly storms; drifts of wood smoke from the camp's
fires blew into their eyes. Above them, the fires in the city flared, fanned by
the renewed breezes, and a sulfurous glow outlined the black crenellations of
the walls. The night tasted raw, wild, and strange, still rank with blood and
broken by the wailing of women taken in the sacking of the town.
"Things
settling down?" the Hawk asked.
Ari
shrugged. "Some. The militia units are already drunk. Gradduck-that
tin-pot general who commanded the City Troops-is taking all the credit for
breaking the siege."
Starhawk
feigned deep thought. "Oh, yes," she remembered at length. "The
one the Chief said couldn't lay siege to a pothouse."
"No,
no," Ari protested, "it wasn't a pothouse-an outhouse ..."
Voices
yelled Ari's name, calling him to judge an athletic competition that was as
indecent as it was ridiculous, and he laughed, waved to the women, and vanished
into the darkness. Starhawk and Fawn continued to walk, the wind-torn
torchlight banding their faces in lurid colors-the Hawk long-legged and
panther-graceful in her man's breeches and doublet, Fawn shy as her namesake
amid the brawling noise of the camp, keeping close to Starhawk's side. As they
left the noisier precincts around the wine issue, the girl asked, "Is it
true he's being asked to go against Altiokis?"
"He
won't do it," Starhawk said. "Any more than he'd work for him. He was
approached for that, too, years ago. He won't meddle with magic one way or the
other, and I can't say that I blame him. Altiokis is news of the worst possible
kind."
Fawn
shivered in the smoky wind and drew the spiderweb silk of her shawl tighter
about her shoulders. "Were they all like that? Wizards, I mean? Is that
why they all-died out?"
In the
feeble reflection of lamplight from the tents, her green eyes looked huge and
transparent. Damp tendrils of hair clung to her cheeks; she brushed them aside,
watching Starhawk worriedly. Like most people in the troop, she was a little in
awe of that steely and enigmatic woman.
Starhawk
ducked under the door flap of her tent, and held it aside for Fawn to pass.
"I don't know if that's why the wizards finally died out," she said.
"But I do know they weren't all evil like Altiokis. I knew a wizard once
when I was a little girl. She was-very good."
Fawn
stared at her in surprise that came partly from astonishment that Starhawk had
ever been a little girl. In a way, it seemed inconceivable that she had ever
been anything but what she was now: a tail, leggy cheetah of a woman, colorless
as fine ivory-pale hair, pewter-gray eyes-save where the sun had darkened the
fine-grained, flawless skin of her face and throat to burnt gold. Her light,
cool voice was remarkably soft for a warrior's, though she was said to have a
store of invective that could raise blisters on tanned oxhide. It was more
believable of her that she had known a wizard than that she had been a little
girl.
"I-I
thought they were all gone, long before we were born."
"No,"
the Hawk said. The lamplight sparkled off the brass buckles that studded her
sheepskin doublet as she fetched a skin of wine and two cups. Her tent was
small and, like her, neat and spare. She had packed away her gear earlier. The
only things remaining on the polished wood folding table were the
gold-and-shell winecups and a pack of greasy cards. Starhawk was generally
admitted to be a shark of poker-with her face, Fawn reflected, she could hardly
be anything else.
"I
thought that, too," Starhawk continued, coming back as Fawn seated herself
on the edge of the narrow bed. "I didn't know Sister Wellwa was a wizard
for-oh, years."
"She
was a nun?" Fawn asked, startled.
Starhawk
weighed her answer for a moment, as if picking her words carefully. Then she
nodded. "The village where I grew up was built around the Convent of St.
Cherybi in the West. Sister Wellwa was the oldest nun there-I used to see her
every day, sweeping the paths outside with her broom made of sticks. As I said,
I didn't know then that she was a wizard."
"How
did you find out?" Fawn asked. "Did she tell you?"
"No."
Starhawk folded herself into her chair. Like everything else in the tent, it
was plain, bare, and easy to pack in a hurry. 'The countryside around the
village was very wild- I don't know if you're familiar with the West, but it's
a land of rock and thin forest, rising toward the sea cliffs. A hard land.
Dangerous, too. I'd gone into the woods to gather berries or something silly
like that-something I wasn't supposed to do. I was probably escaping from my
brothers. And-and there was a nuuwa."
Fawn
shivered. She had seen nuuwa, dead, or at a distance. It was possible, Starhawk thought, watching her, that she had
also seen their victims.
"I
ran," the Hawk continued unemotionally. "I was very young, I'd never
seen one before, and I thought that, since it didn't have any eyes, it couldn't
follow me. I must have thought at first that it was just an eyeless man. But it
came after me, groaning and slobbering, crashing through the woods. I never
looked back, but I could hear it behind me, getting closer as I came out of the
woods. I ran through the rocks up the hill toward the Convent, and Sister
Wellwa was outside, sweeping the path as she always was. And she-she raised her
hand- and it was as if fire exploded from her fingers, a ball of red and blue
fire that she flung at the nuuwa's head. Then she caught me up in her arms, and
we ran together through the door and shut and bolted it. Later we found places
where the nuuwa had tried to chew through the doorframe."
She was
silent; if any of the horror of that memory stirred in her heart, it did not
show on her fine-boned, enigmatic face. It was Fawn who shuddered and made a
small, sickened noise in her throat.
"It
was the only time I saw her do magic," Starhawk continued after a moment.
"When I asked her about it later, she told me she had only grabbed me and
carried me inside."
Across
the rim of the untasted cup. Fawn studied the older woman for a moment more.
Rumor in the camp had it that the Hawk had once been a nun herself, before she
had elected to leave the Convent and follow the Wolf. Though Fawn had never believed
it before, something in this story made her wonder if it might be true. There
were elements of asceticism and mysticism in Starhawk; Fawn knew that she
meditated daily, and the tent was certainly as barren as a nun's cell. Though a
cold-blooded and ruthless warrior, the Hawk was never senselessly brutal-but
then, few of the handful of women in Wolfs troop were.
It was
on the tip of Fawn's tongue to ask her, but Starhawk was not a woman of whom
one asked questions without permission. Besides, Fawn could think of no reason
why anyone would have left the comforts of the Convent to follow the brutal
trail of war.
Instead
she asked, "Why did she lie?"
"The
Mother only knows. She was a very old lady then- she died a year or so after,
and I don't think anyone else in the Convent ever knew what she was."
Fawn's
tapering fingers toyed with the cup, the diamonds of her rings winking like
teardrops in the dim, golden light. Somewhere quite close, a drunken chorus in
another tent began to sing.
"All
in the town of Kedwyr, A hundred years ago or more, There lived a lass named
Sella..."
"I
have often wondered," Fawn said quietly, "about wizards. Why is
Altiokis the only wizard left in the world? Why hasn't he died, in all these
years? What happened to all the others?"
Starhawk
shrugged. "The Mother only knows," she said again. As ever, her face
gave away nothing; if it was a question that had ever crossed her mind, she did
not show it. Instead she slapped the deck of cards before Fawn.
"Bank?"
Fawn
shuffled deftly despite her fashionably long, tinted fingernails. It was one of
the first things she had learned when she'd been sold to Sun Wolf two years ago
as a terrified virgin of sixteen-mostly in self-defense, since the Wolf and
Star-hawk were cutthroat card players.
Watching
her, Starhawk reflected how out of place the girl looked here. Fawn-whose name
had certainly been something else before she 'd been kidnapped en route from
her father's home in the Middle Kingdoms to a finishing school in Kwest
Mralwe-had clearly been brought up in an atmosphere of taste and elegance. The
clothes and jewelry she picked for herself spoke of it. Starhawk, though raised
in an environment both countrified and austere, had done enough looting in the
course of eight years of sieges to understand the difference between new-rich
tawdriness and quality. Every line of Fawn spoke of fastidious taste and
careful breeding, as much at odds with the nunlike barrenness of Starhawk's
living quarters as she was with the rather barbaric opulence of the Chief's.
What
had she been? the Hawk wondered. A nobleman's daughter? A merchant's? Those
white hands, delicate amid their carefully chosen jewelry, had certainly never
handled anything harsher than a man's flesh in all her life. The loveliest that
money could buy, Starhawk thought, with a wry twinge of bitterness for the
girl's sake-whether she wanted to be bought or not.
Fawn
laid the cards down, undealt. In repose, her face looked suddenly tired.
"What's going to become of him. Hawk?" she asked quietly.
Starhawk
shrugged, deliberately misunderstanding. "I can't see the Chief being
crazy enough to get mixed up in any affair having to do with magic," she
began, and Fawn shook her head impatiently.
"It
isn't just this," she insisted. "If he goes on as he's doing, he's
going to slip up one day. He's the best, they say-but he's also forty. Is he
going to go on leading troops into battle and wintering in Wrynde, until one
day he's a little slow dodging some enemy's axe? If it isn't Altiokis, how long
will it be before it's something else?"
Starhawk
looked away from those suddenly luminous eyes. Rather gruffly, she said,
"Oh, he'll probably conquer a city, make a fortune, and die stinking rich
at the age of ninety. The old bastard's welfare isn't worth your losing sleep
over."
Fawn
laughed shakily at the picture presented, and they spoke of other things. But
on the whole, as she dealt the cards, Starhawk wished that the girl had not
touched that way upon her own buried forebodings.
Sun
Wolf felt, rather than heard, the woman's soft tread outside his tent; he was
watching the entrance when the flap was moved aside. The woman came in with the
wild sea smell of the night.
With
the lamps at his back, their light catching in his thinning, dust-colored hair
and framing his face in gold, he did look like a sun wolf, the big, deadly,
tawny hunter of the eastern steppes. The woman put back the hood from her hair.
"Sheera
Galernas?" he asked quietly.
"Captain
Sun Wolf?"
He
gestured her to take the other chair. She was younger than he had thought, at
most twenty-five. Her black hair curled thickly around a face that tapered from
wide, delicate cheekbones to a pointed chin. Her lips, full almost to the
corners of her mouth, were sensual and dark as the lees of wine. Her deep-set
eyes seemed wine-colored, too, their lids stained violet from sleepless nights.
She was tall for a woman and, as far as he could determine under the muffling
folds of her cloak, well set up.
For a
moment neither spoke. Then she said, "You're different from what I had
thought."
"I
can't apologize for that." He'd put on a shirt and breeches and a brown
velvet doublet. The hair on the backs of his arms caught the light as he folded
his strong, heavy hands.
She
stirred in her chair, wary, watching him. He found himself wondering what it
would be like to bed her and if the experiment would be worth the trouble it
could cost. "I have a proposition for you," she said at last, meeting
his eyes with a kind of anger, defying him to look at her face instead of her
body.
"Most
ladies who come to my tent do."
Her
skin deepened to clay-red along the cheekbones and her nostrils flared a
little, like a horse scenting battle. But she only said, "What would you
say to ten thousand pieces of gold, to bring your troop and do a job for me in
Mandrigyn?"
He
shrugged. "I'd say no."
She sat
up, truly shocked. "For ten thousand gold pieces?" The sum was
enormous-five thousand would have bought the entire troop for a summer's
campaign and been thought generous. He wondered where she'd come up with it, if
in fact she intended to pay him. The size of the sum inclined him to doubt it.
"I
wouldn't go against Altiokis for fifty thousand," he said calmly. "And
I wouldn't tie up on a word-of-mouth proposition with a skirt from a conquered
city for a hundred, wizard or no wizard."
As he'd
intended, it prodded her out of her calm. The flush in her face deepened, for
she was a woman to whom few men had ever said no. An edge of ugly rage slid
into her voice. "Are you afraid?"
"Madam,"
Sun Wolf said, "if it's a question of having my bowels pulled out through
my eye sockets, I'm afraid. There's no amount of money in the world that would
make me pick a quarrel with Altiokis."
"Or
is it just that you'd prefer to deal with a man?"
She'd
spat the words at him in spite, but he gave them due consideration; after a
moment, he replied, "As a matter of fact, yes," His hand forestalled
her intaken breath. "I know where women stand in Mandrigyn. I know they'd
never put one in public office and they'd never send one on a mission like
this. And if you're from Madrigyn, you know that."
She
subsided, her breath coming fast and thick with anger, but she didn't deny his words.
"So
that means it's private," he went on. "Ten thousand gold pieces is
one hell of a lot of tin from a private party, especially from a city that's
just been taken and likely tapped for indemnity for whatever wasn't carried off
in the sack. And since I know women are vengeful and sneaky..."
"Rot
your eyes, you-" she exploded, and he held up his hand for silence again.
"They
have reasons for fighting underhand the way they do, and I understand them, but
the fact remains that I don't trust a desperate woman. A woman will do
anything."
"You're
right," she said quietly, her eyes burning with an eerie intensity into
his, her voice deadly calm. "We will do anything. But I don't think you
understand what it is to love your city, to be proud of it, ready to lay down
your life to defend it, if need be-and not be allowed to participate in its
government, not even be allowed by the canons of good manners to talk politics.
Holy Gods, we're not even permitted to walk about the streets unveiled! To see
the town torn apart by factionalism and conquered, with all the men who did
fight for it led away in chains while the wicked, the venal, and the greedy sit
in the seats of power...
"Do
you know why no man came to you tonight?
"For
decades-centuries-Altiokis has coveted Mandrigyn. He has taken over the lands
of the old mountain Thanes and of the clans to the southeast of us; he sits
like a toad across the overland trade roads to the East. But he's landlocked,
and Mandrigyn is the key to the Megantic. We made trade concessions to him,
turned a blind eye to encroachments along the border, signed treaties. You know
that's never enough.
"His
agents stirred up trouble and factions in the city, cast doubt on the
legitimacy of the rightful Prince, Tarrin of the House of Her, split the
parliament-and when we were exhausted with fighting one another, he and his
armies marched down Iron Pass. Tarrin led the whole force of the men of
Mandrigyn to meet them in battle, in the deeps of the Tchard Mountains. The next
day, Altiokis and his armies came into the city."
Her
eyes focused suddenly, an amber gleam deep in their brown depths. "I know
Tarrin is still alive."
"How
do you know?"
"Tarrin
is my lover."
"I've
had more women in my life," Sun Wolf said tiredly, "than I've had
pairs of boots, and I couldn't for the life of me tell you where one of them is
now."
"You'd
know best about that," she sneered. "The men were all made slaves in
the mines beneath the Tchard Mountains-Altiokis has miles of mines; no one
knows how deep, or how many armies of slaves work there. The-girls-from the
city sometimes go up there to-do business-with the overseers. One of them saw
Tarrin there." The expression of her face changed, suffused, suddenly,
with tender eagerness and the burning anger of revenge. "He's alive."
"We'll
skip over how this girl knew him," Sun Wolf said. He was gratified to see
that tender expression turn to one of fury. "I'll ask you this. You want
me and my men to rescue him from Altiokis' mines?"
Almost
trembling with anger, Sheera took a grip on herself and said, "Yes. Not
Tarrin only, but all of the men of Mandrigyn."
"So
they can go back down the mountain, retake the city, and live happily forever
after."
"Yes."
She was leaning forward, her eyes blazing, her cloak fallen aside to reveal the
dark purple satin of her gown, pearled over like dew with opal beads. "No
man came to you because there was no man to come. The only males left in
Mandrigyn are old cripples, little boys, and slaves-and the cake-mouthed, poxy
cowards who would sell their children to feed Altiokis' dogs, if the price were
a little power. We raised the money among us-we, the ladies of Mandrigyn. We'll
pay you anything, anything you want. It's the only hope for our city."
Her
voice rose, strong as martial music, and Sun Wolf leaned back in his chair and
studied her thoughtfully. He took in the richness of the gown she wore and the
softness of those unworked hands. Supposing the city were taken without sack-
which would be to Altiokis' advantage if he wanted to continue using it as a
port. Sun Wolf was familiar with the soft-handed burghers who paid other men to
do their fighting, but he had never given much thought to the strength or
motivations of their wives. Maybe it was possible that they'd raised the sum,
he thought. Golden earrings, household funds, monies embezzled from husbands
too cowardly or too prudent to go to war. Possible, but not probable.
"Ten
thousand gold pieces is the ransom of a king," he began.
"It
is the ransom of a city's freedom!" she bit back at him.
Starhawk
was right, he thought. There are other fanatics besides religious ones.
"But
it isn't just the cost of men's lives," he returned quietly. "I
wouldn't lead them against Altiokis and they wouldn't go.
It's
autumn already. The storms will break in a matter of days. It's a long march to
Mandrigyn overland through the mountains."
"I
have a ship," she began.
"You're
not getting me on the ocean at this time of year. I have better things to do
with my body than use it for crab food. We'll be a few days mopping up here,
and by then the storms will have started. I'm not waging a winter war. Not
against Altiokis-not in the Tchard Mountains."
"There's
a woman on board my ship who can command the weather," Sheera persisted.
"The skies will remain clear until we're safe in port."
"A
wizard?" He grunted. "Don't make me laugh. There are no wizards
anymore, bar Altiokis himself-and I wouldn't take up with you if you had one. I
won't mix myself in a wizards' war.
"And,"
he went on, his voice hardening, "I'm not interested in any case. I won't
take ten thousand gold pieces to buy my men coffins, and that's what it would
come to, going against Altiokis, winter or summer, mountains or flatland. Your
girlfriend may have seen Tarrin alive, lady, but I'll wager your ten thousand
gold pieces against a plug copper that his brain and his soul weren't his own.
And a plug copper's all my own life would be worth if I were fool enough to
take your poxy money."
She was
on her feet then, her face mottled with rage. "What do you want?" she
demanded in a low voice. "Anything. Me-or any woman in the city or all of
us. Dream-sugar? We can get you a bushel of it if you want it. Slaves? The town
crawls with them. Diamonds? Twenty thousand gold pieces ..."
"You
couldn't raise twenty thousand gold pieces, woman, I don't know how you raised
ten," Sun Wolf snapped. "And I don't touch dream-sugar. You? I'd
sooner bed a poisonous snake."
That
touched her on the raw, for she was a woman whom men had begged for since she
was twelve. But the rage in her was something more-condensed, like the core of
a flame-and it was this that had caused Sun Wolf to speak what sounded like an
insult but was, in fact, the literal truth. She was a dangerous woman,
passionate, intelligent, and ruthless; a woman who could wait months or years
for revenge. Sun Wolf did not rise from his chair, but he gauged the distance
between them and calculated how swiftly she might move if she struck.
Then a
draft of wild smoky night breathed suddenly through the tent, and Sheera swung
around as Starhawk paused in the doorway. For a moment, the women stood facing
each other, the one in her dark gown sewn with shadowy opals, with her wild and
perilous beauty, the other windburned and plain as bread, her man's doublet
accentuating her wide shoulders and narrow hips, the angular face with its
cropped hair. Starhawk's rolled-back sleeves showed forearms muscled like a
man's, all crimped with pink war scars.
They
sized each other up in silence. Then Sheera thrust past Starhawk, through the
tent flap, to vanish into the blood-scented night.
The
Hawk looked after her in silence for a moment, then turned back to her chief,
who still sat in his camp chair, his hands folded before him and his fox-yellow
eyes brooding. He sighed, and the tension seemed to ebb from his muscles as
much as it ever did on campaign. The door curtain moved again, and Fawn
entered, her dark hair fretted to tangles, falling in a soft web over her
slender back.
Sun
Wolf stood up and shook his head in answer to his lieutenant's unasked
question. "May the spirits of his ancestors," he said quietly,
"help the poor bastard who falls afoul of her."
CHAPTER
2
SUNLIGHT
LAY LIKE A THICK AMBER RESIN ON THE
SURFACE of the council table, catching in a burning line on the brass of its
inlay work, like the glare at the edge of the sea. For all the twinge of autumn
that spiced the air outside, it was over-warm up here, and the Council of
Kedwyr, laced firmly into their sober coats of padded and reinforced black
wool, were sweating gently in the magnified sunlight that fell through the
great oriel windows. Sun Wolf sat at the foot of the table between the Captain
of the Outland Levies and the Commander of the City Guards, his hands folded,
the glaring sun catching like spurts of fire on the brass buckles of his
doublet, and waited for the President of the Council to try and wriggle out of
his contract.
Both
the Outland Captain Gobaris and the City Commander Breg had warned him. They
themselves fought for Kedwyr largely as a duty fixed by tradition, and their
pay was notoriously elastic.
The
President of the Council opened the proceedings with a well-rehearsed paean of
praise for the Wolf's services, touching briefly upon his regrets at having had
to go to war against such a small neighbor as Melplith at all. He went on to
speak of the hardships they had all endured, and Sun Wolf, scanning those pink,
sweaty faces and hamlike jowls bulging out over the high-wrapped white
neckclothes, remembered the rotten rations and wondered how much these men had
made off them. The President, a tall, handsome man with the air of a
middle-aged athlete run to fat, came to his conclusion, turned to the
ferret-faced clerk at his side, and said, "Now, as to the matter of
payment. I believe the sum promised to Captain Sun Wolf was thirty-five hundred
gold pieces or its equivalent?"
The man
nodded in agreement, glancing down at the unrolled parchment of the contract
that he held in his little white hand.
"In
the currency of the Realm of Kedwyr..." the President began, and Sun Wolf
interrupted him, his deep rumbling voice deceptively lazy.
"The
word 'equivalent' isn't in my copy of the contract."
He
reached into the pouch on his belt and pulled out a much-folded wad of
parchment. As he deliberately spread it out on the surface of the table before
him, he could see the uneasy glance that passed among the councilmen. They had
not thought that he could read.
The
President's wide smile widened. "Well, of course, it is understood
that-"
"I
didn't understand it," Sun Wolf said, still in that mild tone of voice.
"If I had meant 'gold or local,' I'd have specified it. The contract says
'gold'-and by international contractual law, gold is defined by assay weight,
not coinage count."
In the
appalled silence that followed. Captain Gobaris of the Outland Levies leaned
his chin on his palm in such a way that his fingers concealed the grin that was
struggling over his round, heavy face.
The
President gave his famous, glittering smile. "It's a pleasure to deal with
a man of education, Captain Sun Wolf," he said, looking as if he would
derive even greater pleasure from seeing Sun Wolf on board a ship that was
headed straight for the rocks that fringed Kedwyr's cliffs. "But as a man
of education, you must realize that, because of the disrupted conditions on the
Peninsula, assay-weight gold coinage is in critically short supply. The balance
of imports and exports must be reestablished before our stockpiles of gold are
sufficient to meet your demands."
"My
demands," Sun Wolf reminded him gently, "were made six months ago,
before the trade was disrupted."
"Indeed
they were, and you may be sure that under ordinary circumstances our treasuries
would have been more than sufficient to give you your rightful dues in absolute
weight coinage. But emergency contingencies arose which there was no way to
foresee. The warehouse fires on the silk wharves and the failure of the lemon
crops on which so much of our export depends caused shortages in the treasury
which had to be covered from funds originally earmarked for the war."
Sun
Wolf glanced up. The ceiling of the council hall was newly gilded-he'd watched
the workmen doing it, one afternoon when he'd been kept kicking his heels here
for an hour and a half trying to see the President about the rations the
Council members had been selling them.
Gilding
was not cheap.
"Nevertheless,"
the President went on, leaning forward a little and lowering his voice to a
confiding tone, which the Outland Captain had told Sun Wolf meant he was about
to tighten up the screws, "we should be able to meet the agreed-upon
amount in gold coinage in four weeks, when the amber convoys come in from the
mountains. If you are willing to wait, all can be arranged to your
satisfaction."
Except
that my men and I will not be stuck on the hostile Peninsula for the winter,
the Wolf thought dryly. If they were paid promptly and left at the end of this
week, they might make it over the Gniss River, which separated the Peninsula
from the rolling wastelands beyond, before it became impassable with winter
floods. If they waited four weeks, the river would be thirty feet higher than
it was now in the gorges, and the Silver Hills beyond clogged with snow and
blistered by winds. If they waited four weeks to be paid, many of the men might
never make it back to winter quarters in Wrynde at all.
He
folded his hands and regarded the President in silence. The moment elongated
itself uncomfortably into a minute, then two. The next offer would be for local
currency, of course- stipulated at a far higher rate than he could get in
Wrynde. Silver coinage tended to fluctuate in value, and right now the silver
content wasn't going to be high. But he let the silence run on, knowing the
effect of it on men already a little nervous about that corps of storm troops
camped by the walls of Melplith.
It was
General Gradduck, the head of all the Kedwyr forces who had taken most of the
credit for breaking the siege, who finally spoke. "But if you are willing
to accept local currency ..." he began, and left the bait dangling.
They
expected the Wolf to start grudgingly stipulating silver content on
coinage-impossible to guarantee unless he wanted to have every coin assayed
individually. Instead he said, "You mean you'd like to renegotiate the
contract?"
"Well-"
the President said, irritated.
"Contractually,
you're obligated for gold," Sun Wolf said. "But if you are willing to
renegotiate, I certainly am. I believe, in matters regarding international
trade, the custom in the Peninsula is to impanel a jury of impartial
representatives of the other states hereabouts, to determine equivalent local
currency values for thirty-five hundred in gold."
The
President did not quite turn pale at the thought of representatives from the
other Peninsular states setting the amount of money he'd have to pay this
mercenary and his men. The other states, already alarmed by Kedwyr's attack on
its rival MelpHth, would love to be given the opportunity to disrupt Kedwyr's
economy in that fashion-not to mention doing Sun Wolf a favor that could be
tendered as part of the payment the next time they needed a mercenary troop.
He was
clearly sorry he had mentioned it.
A
pinch-faced little councilman down at the end of the table quavered, "Of
all the nerve!"
The
President forced one last smile. "Of course, Captain, such negotiations
could be badly drawn out."
Sun
Wolf nodded equably. "I realize the drain that's already been put on you
by our presence here. I'm sure my men could be put up in some other city in the
vicinity, such as Ciselfarge."
It had
been a toss-up whether Kedwyr would invade MelpHth or Ciselfarge in this latest
power struggle for the amber and silk trades, and Sun Wolf knew it. If the
President hadn't just returned from swearing lasting peace and brotherhood with
Ciselfarge's prince, the remark could have been construed as an open threat.
Grimly,
the President said, "I am sure that such a delay will not be
necessary."
The bar
of sunlight slid along the table, glared for a time in Sun Wolf's eyes, then
shifted its gleam to the wall above his head. Servants came in to light the
lamps before the negotiations were done. Once or twice. Sun Wolf went down to
the square outside the Town Hall to speak to the men he'd brought into the town
with him, ostensibly to make sure they weren't drinking themselves insensible
in the taverns around the square, but in fact to let them know he was still
alive. The men, like most of the Wolf's men, didn't drink nearly as much as
they seemed to-this trip counted as campaign, not recreation.
The
third time the Wolf came down the wide staircase, it was with the fat Captain
Gobaris of the Outland Levies and the thin, bitter, handsome Commander Breg of
the Kedwyr City Guards. The Outland Captain was chuckling juicily over the
discomfiture of the Council at Sun Wolf s hands. "I thought we'd lose our
President to the apoplexy, for sure, when you specified the currency had to be
delivered tomorrow."
"If
I'd given him the week he'd asked for, he'd have had time to get another run of
it from the City Mint," the Wolf said reasonably. "There'd be half
the silver content of the current coins, and he'd pay me off in that."
The
Guards Commander glanced sideways at him with black, gloomy eyes. "I
suspect it's what he did last year, when the city contracts were signed,"
he said. "We contracted for five years at sixty stallins a year, and that
was when stallins were forty to a gold piece. Within two months they were down
to sixty-five."
"Oh,
there's not much I wouldn't put past that slick bastard." Gobaris chuckled
as they stepped through the great doors. Before them, the town square lay in a
checkwork of moonlight and shadow, bordered with the embroidered gold of a
hundred lamps from the taverns that rimmed it. Music drifted on the wind, with
the smell of the sea.
No, Sun
Wolf thought, signaling to his men. And that's why I didn't come to this town
alone.
They
left their places in the open tavern fronts and drifted toward him across the
square. Gobaris scratched the big hard ball of his belly, and sniffed at the
wild air. "Winter rains are holding off," he judged. "They're
late this year."
"Odd,"
the commander said. "The clouds have been piling up on the sea horizon,
day after day."
Obliquely,
it crossed Sun Wolf's mind that the woman Sheera had spoken of having someone
on board her ship who could command the weather. A wizard? he wondered.
Impossible. Then his men were around him, grinning, and he raised his thumbs in
a signal of success. There were ironic cheers, laughter, and bantering chaff,
and Sheera slipped from the Wolf's mind as Gobaris said, "Well, that's
over, and a better job of butchery on a more deserving group of men I've never
seen. Come on, Commander," he added, jabbing his morose colleague in the
ribs with an elbow. "Is there anyplace in this town a man can get some
wine to wash out the taste of them?"
They
ended up making a circuit of the square, Sun Wolf, Gobaris, and Commander Breg,
with all of Sun Wolf's bodyguard and as many of the Outland Levies as had
remained in the town. Amid joking, laughter, and horseplay with the girls of
the local sisterhood who had turned out in their tawdry finery, Sun Wolf
managed to get a good deal of information about Kedwyr and its allies from
Commander Breg and a general picture of the latest state of Peninsula politics.
A cool,
little hand slid over his shoulder, and a girl joined them on the bench where
he sat, her eyes teasing with professional promise. Remarkable eyes, he
thought; deep gold, like peach brandy, lighting up a face that was young and
exquisitely beautiful. Her hair was the soft, fallow gold of a ripe apricot,
escaping its artful pins and lying over slim, bare shoulders in a shining mane.
He thought, momentarily, of Fawn, back at the camp-this girl couldn't be much
older than eighteen years.
The
tastes of wine and victory were mingled in his mouth. He said to the men he'd
brought with him, "I'll be back." With their good-natured ribaldry
shouting in his ears, he rose and followed the girl down an alley to her
rose-scented room.
It was
later than he had anticipated when he returned to the square. A white sickle
moon had cleared the overhanging housetops that closed in the alley; it
glittered sharply on the messy water that trickled down the gutter in the
center of the street. The noise from the square had entirely faded, music and
laughter dying away into four-bit love and finally sleep. His men, Sun Wolf
thought to himself with a wry grin, weren't going to be pleased at having
waited so long, and he steeled himself for the inevitable comments.
The
square was empty.
One
glance told him that all the taverns were shut, a circumstance that bunch of
rowdy bastards would never have permitted if they'd still been around. Dropping
back into the sheltering shadows of the alley, he scanned the empty pavement
again-milky where the moon struck it, barred with the angular black frieze of
the shadows cast by the roof of the Town Hall. Every window of that great
building and of all the buildings round about was dark.
Had the
President had them arrested?
Unlikely.
The candle lighted room to which the girl had led him wasn't that far from the
square; if there'd been an arrest, there would have been a fight, and the noise
would have come to him.
Besides,
if the Council had given orders for his arrest, they'd have followed him and
taken him in the twisting mazes of alleys, away from his men.
A town
crier's distant voice announced that it was the second watch of the night and
all was well.
Much
later than he'd anticipated, he thought and cursed the girl's teasing laughter
that had drawn him back to her. But no matter how late he was, his men would
never have gone off without him unless so ordered, even if they'd had to wait
until sunup.
After a
moment's thought, he doubled back toward the harbor gates. It was half in his
mind to return to the Town Hall and make a private investigation of the cells
that would invariably be underneath it. But as much as his first instinct
pulled him toward a direct rescue, long experience with the politics of war
told him it would be foolish. If the men had merely been arrested for drunken
rowdiness-which the Wolf did not believe for a moment-they were in no danger.
If they were in danger, it meant they'd been gathered in for some other reason,
and the Wolf stood a far better chance of helping them by slipping out of the
city himself and getting back to his position of strength in the camp. If he
did not return, it would be morning before Starhawk acted and possibly too late
for any of them.
His
soft boots made no noise on the cobbles of the streets. In the dark mazes of
the poor quarter, there was little sound- no hint of pursuit or of anything
else. A late-walking water seller's mournful call drifted through the
blackness. From a grimy thieves' tavern, built half into a cellar, smoky and
mephitic light seeped, and with it came raucous laughter and the high-pitched,
shrieking voices of whores. Elsewhere, the bells of the local Convent-Kedwyr
had always been a stronghold of the Mother's followers-chimed plaintively for
midnight rites.
The
harbor gate was a squat, round tower, crouching like a monstrous frog against
the starry backdrop of velvet sky. Slipping out that way would mean an extra
mile or so of walking, scrambling up the precarious cliff road, but the Wolf
assumed that, if the President had men watching for him, they'd be watching by
the main land gates.
Certainly
there were none awaiting him here. A couple of men and a stocky, plain-looking
woman in the uniforms of the City Guards were playing cards in the little
turret room beside the closed gates, a bottle of cheap wine on the table
between them. Sun Wolf slid cautiously through the shadows toward the heavily
barred and awkwardly placed postern door that was cut in the bigger gates-a
feature of many city gates, and one that he habitually spied out in any city he
visited.
Slipping
out by the postern would put him in full view of the guards in the turret for
as long as it took to count to sixty, he calculated, gauging distances and
times from the dense shadows of the gate arch. If the guards were not alert for
someone trying to get out of the city, he could just manage, with luck. For all
his size, he had had from childhood an almost abnormal talent for remaining
unseen, like a stalking wolf in the woods that could come within feet of its
prey. His father, who was his size but as big and blundering as a mountain
bear, had cursed him for it as a sneaking pussyfoot, though in the end he had
admitted it was a handy talent for a warrior to have.
It
served him well now. None of the card players so much as turned a head as he
eased the bar from the bolt slots and stole through.
After
the torchlight near the gate, the night outside was inky dark. The tide was
coming in, rising over the vicious teeth of the rocks below the cliffs to the
southwest, the starlight ghostly on the wet backs of the crabs that swarmed a!
their feet. As he climbed the cliff path, he saw that there were chains
embedded in the weedy stones of the cliff's base, winking faintly with the
movement of the waves.
He
shuddered with distaste. His training for war had been harsh, physically and
mentally, both from his father's inclination and from the customs of the
northern tribe into which he had been born. He had learned early that an active
imagination was a curse to a warrior. It had taken him years to suppress his.
The
cliff path was narrow and steep, but not impassable. It had been made for
woodcutters and sailors to go up from and down to the beaches when the tide was
out. Only an invading troop attacking the harbor gate would find it perilous.
He was soaked to the skin from the spray when he reached its top, half a mile
or so from the walls; the wind was biting through the wet sheepskin of his
jerkin. In the winter, the storms would make the place a deathtrap, he thought,
looking about him at the flat, formless lands at the top. Windbreaks of trees
crisscrossed all the lands between the cliffs and the main road from the city
gates, and a low wall of gray stones, half ruined and crumbling, lay like a
snake a dozen yards inland of the cliff top, a final bastion for those blinded
by wind and darkness. From here the waves had a greedy sound.
He
turned his face to the sea again, the wind flaying his cheeks. Above the dark
indigo of the sea, he could discern great columns of flat-topped clouds, guarding
lightning within them. The storms could hit at any time, he thought, and his
mind went back to the rough country of the wastelands beyond the Gniss River.
If there was a delay getting those jokers out of the city jail...
He
cursed his bodyguard as he turned his steps back toward the road that ran from
the land gate of the city Melplith. He'd left Little Thurg in charge of them.
You'd think the little bastard would have the sense to keep them out of
trouble, he thought, first bitterly, then speculatively. In point of fact,
Little Thurg did generally have the brains to keep out of trouble and, for all
his height of barely five feet, he had the authority to keep men under his
command out of trouble, too. It was that which had troubled Sun Wolf from the
first.
Then,
like a soft word spoken in the night, he heard the hum of a bowstring. A pain,
like the strike of a snake, bit his leg just above the knee. Almost before he
was aware that he'd been winged. Sun Wolf flung himself down and forward,
rolling into the low ground at the side of the road, concealed by the blackest
shadows of the windbreaks. For a time he lay still, listening. No sounds came
to his ears but the humming of the wind over the stones and the slurred voices
of the whispering trees overhead.
Shot
from behind a windbreak, he thought, and his hand slipped down to touch the
shaft that stood out from his flesh. The touch of it startled him, and he
looked down. He'd been expecting a war arrow, a killing shaft. But this was
short, lightweight, fletched with narrow, gray feathers-the sort of thing
children and soft-bred court ladies shot at marsh birds with. The head, which
he could feel buried an inch and a half in his leg, was smooth. After the
savage barbs he had from time to time hacked out of his own flesh in
twenty-five years of war, the thing was a toy.
He
pulled it out as he would have pulled a thorn, the dark blood trickling
unheeded down his boot. It was senseless. You couldn't kill a man with
something like that unless you put it straight through his eye.
Unless
it was poisoned.
Slowly
he raised his head, scanning the vague and star lighted landscape. He could see
nothing, no movement in the deceptive shadows of the stunted trees. But he knew
they were out there waiting for him. And he knew they had him.
They?
If he
was going to be trapped, why not in the town? Unless the President was unsure
of the loyalty of his city Troops and the Outland Levies? Would Gobaris' men
have rioted at Sun Wolf's arrest?
If
they'd thought it was the prelude to being done out of their own pay. they
would.
Working
quickly, he slashed the wound with his knife and sucked and spat as much of the
blood as he could, his ears straining for some anomalous sound over the thin
keening of the wind. He unbuckled his damp jerkin and used his belt for a
tourniquet, then broke off the head of the slender arrow and put it in his
pocket in the hopes that, if he did make it as far as the camp. Butcher would
be able to tell what the poison was. But already his mind was reviewing the
road, as he had studied it time and again during the weeks of the siege, seeing
it in terms of cover and ambush. It was well over an hour's walk.
He got
to his feet cautiously, though he knew there would be no second arrow, and
began to walk. Through the sweeping darkness that surrounded him, he thought he
sensed movement, stealthy in the shadows of the windbreaks, but he did not turn
to look. He knew perfectly well they would be following.
He felt
it very soon, that first sudden numbness and the spreading fire of feverish
pain. When the road dipped and turned through a copse of dark trees, he looked
back and saw them, a flutter of cloaks crossing open ground. Four or five of
them, a broad, scattered ring.
He had
begun to shiver, the breath laboring in his lungs. Even as he left the
threshing shadows of the grove, the starlight on the plain beyond seemed less
bright than it had been, the distance from landmark to landmark far greater
than he had remembered. The detached comer of his mind that had always been
capable of cold reasoning, even when he was fighting for his life, noted that
the poison was fast-acting. The symptoms resembled toadwort, he thought with a
curious calm. Better that-if it had to be poison-than the endless purgings and
vomitings of mercury, or the screaming hallucinatory agonies of anzid. As a
mercenary, he had seen almost as much of politics as he had of war. Poison
deaths were nothing new, and he had seen the symptoms of them all.
But he
was damned if he'd let that sleek, toothy President win this one uncontested.
He was
aware that he'd begun to stagger, the fog in his brain making the air glitter
darkly before his eyes. Tiny stones in the road seemed to magnify themselves
hugely to trip his feet. He was aware, too, that his pursuers were less careful
than they had been. He could see the shadows of two of them, where they hid
among the trees. Soon they wouldn't even bother with concealment.
Come
on, he told himself grimly. You've pushed on when you were freezing to death;
this isn't any worse than that. If you can make it to the next stand of rocks,
you can take a couple of the bastards out with you.
It
wasn't likely that the President would be with them, but the thought of him
gave Sun Wolf the strength to make it up the long grade of the road, toward the
black puddle of shadow that lay across it where the land leveled out again. He
was aware of all his pursuers now, dark, drifting shapes, ringing as wolves
would ring a wounded caribou. Numb sleep pulled at him. The shadow of the rocks
appeared to be floating away from him, and it seemed to him then that, if he
pushed himself that far, he wouldn't have the strength to do anything, once he
reached the place.
You
will, he told himself foggily. The smiling bastard probably told them it would
be a piece of cake, rot his eyes. I'll give them cake.
In the
shadow of the rocks, he let his knees buckle and crumpled to the ground. Under
cover of trying to rise and then collapsing again, he drew his sword,
concealing it under him as he heard those swift, light footfalls make their
cautious approach.
The
ground felt wonderful under him, like a soft bed after hard fighting.
Desperately he fought the desire for sleep, trying to garner the strength that
he felt slipping away like water. The dust of the road filled his nostrils, and
the salt tang of the distant sea, magnified a thousand times, swam like liquor
in his darkening brain. He heard the footsteps, slurring in the dry autumn
grass, and wondered if he'd pass out before they came.
I may
go straight to the Cold Hells, he thought bitterly, but by the spirit of my
first ancestor, I'm not going alone.
Dimly
he was aware of them all around him. The fold of a cloak crumpled down over his
arm, and someone set a light bow in the grass nearby. A hand touched his
shoulder and turned him over.
Like a
snake striking, he grabbed at the dark form bent over him, catching the nape of
the neck with his left hand and driving the sword upward toward the chest with
his right. Then he saw the face in the starlight and jerked his motion to a
halt as the blade pricked the skin and his victim gave a tiny gasping cry. For
a moment, he could only stare up into the face of the amber-eyed girl from the
tavern, the soft masses of her pale hair falling like silk over his gripping
hand.
Under
his fingers, her neck was like a flower's stem. He could feel her breath
quivering beneath the point of his sword. I can't kill her, he thought
despairingly. Not a girl Fawnie's age and frozen with terror.
Then
darkness and cold took him, and he slid to the ground. His last conscious
memory was of someone jerking the sword out of his hand.
CHAPTER
-- 3 --
"ARI SENT
YOU AWAY?" STARHAWK
LOOKED SHARPLY from Little
Thurg to Ari, who stood quietly at her side.
Thurg
nodded, puzzlement stamped into every line of his round, rather bland-looking
countenance. "I thought it funny myself, sir," he said, and the
bright blue eyes shifted over to Ari. "But I asked you about it then, and
you told me..."
"I
was never there," Ari objected quietly. "I was never in Kedwyr at
all." He looked over at Starhawk, as if for confirmation. They had spent
the night with half of Sun Wolf's other lieutenants, playing poker in
Penpusher's tent, waiting for word to come back from their chief. "You
know..."
Starhawk
nodded. "I know," she said and looked back at Thurg, who was clearly
shaken and more than a little frightened.
"You
can ask the others, sir," he said, and a pleading note crept into his
voice. "We all saw him, plain as daylight. And after the Chief had gone
off with that woman, I thought he met and spoke with Ari. May God strike me
blind if that isn't the truth."
Starhawk
reflected to herself that being struck blind by God was an exceedingly mild
fate compared with what any man who had deserted his captain in the middle of
an enemy city was likely to get. The fact that they were in the pay of the
Council of Kedwyr did not make that city friendly territory-quite the contrary,
in fact. You can dishonor a man's wife, kill his cattle, tool his goods, Sun
Wolf had often said, and he will become your friend quicker than any ruling
body that owes you money for something you've done for them.
She
settled back in the folding camp chair that was set under the marquee outside
Sun Wolf's tent and studied the man in front of her. The sea wind riffled her
pale, flyaway hair and made the awning crack above her head. The wind had
turned in the night, blowing hard and steady toward the east. The racing scud
of the clouds threw an uneasy alternation of brightness and shadow over the
dry, wolf-colored hills that surrounded Melplith's stove-in walls on three
sides and formed a backdrop of worried calculations, like a half-heard noise,
to all her thoughts.
Her
silence was salt to Thurg's already flayed nerves. "I swear it was Ari I
saw," he insisted. "I don't know how it came about, but you know I'd
never have left the Chief. I've been with him for years."
She
knew that this was true. She also knew that women, more than once, mistaking
her for a man in her armor, had offered to sell her their young daughters for
concubines, and the knowledge that there was literally nothing that human
beings would not sell for ready cash must have been in her eyes. The little man
in front of her began to sweat, his glance flickering in hopeless anguish from
her face to Ari's. Starhawk's coldbloodedness was more feared than Sun Wolf's
rages. A man who had taken a bribe to betray Sun Wolf could expect from her no
mercy and certainly nothing even remotely quick.
She
glanced up at Ari, who stood behind her chair. He looked doubtful, as well he
might; Thurg had always proved himself trustworthy and had, as he had said,
been with Sun Wolf's troop for years. She herself was puzzled, as much by the
utter unlikeliness of Thurg's story as by the possibility of betrayal. In his
place, she would have thought up a far better story, and she had enough respect
for his brains to think that he would have, also.
"Where
did Ari speak to you?" she asked at last.
"In
the square, sir," Thurg said, swallowing and glancing from her face to
Ari's and back again. "He-he came out of the alleyway the Chief had gone
down with that girl and-and walked over to where we were sitting in the tavern.
It was getting late. I'd already talked to the innkeeper once about keeping the
place open."
"He
came over to you-or called you to him?"
"He
came over, sir. He said, 'You can head on back to camp, troops. The Chief and I
will be along later.' And he gave us this big wink. They all laughed and made
jokes, but I asked didn't he want a couple of us to stay, just in case? And he
said, 'You think we can't handle City Troops? You've seen 'em fight!' And we-we
came away. I thought if An was with the Chief. .." He let his voice trail
off, struggling within himself. Then he flung his hands out. "It sounds
like your grandfather's whiskers, but it's true! Ask any of 'em!"
Desperation corrugated his sunburned little face. "You've got to believe
me!"
But he
did not look as if he thought that this was at all likely.
They
said in the camp that Starhawk had not been born- she'd been sculpted. She
considered him for a moment more, then asked, "He came out of the alley,
came toward the tavern, and spoke to you?"
"Yes."
"He
was facing the tavern lamps?"
"Yes-they
were behind me. It was one of those open-front places-I was at a table toward
the edge, out on the square, like."
"And
you saw him clearly?"
"Yes!
I swear it!" He was trembling, sweat trickling down his scar-seamed brown
cheeks. Behind him, just outside the rippling shade of the awning, two guards
looked away, feeling that electric desperation in the air and not willing to
witness the breaking of a man they both respected. Frantic, Thurg said,
"If I'd sold the Chief to the Council, you think I'd have come back to the
camp?"
Starhawk
shrugged. "If you'd thought you could get me to believe you thought you
were talking to Ari, maybe. I've seen too many betrayals to know whether you'd
have sold him out or not-but I do find it hard to believe you'd have done it
this stupidly. You're confined to quarters until we see whether the Council
sends out the money they promised."
When
the guards had taken Little Thurg away, An shook his head and sighed. "Of
all the damned stupid stories... How could he have done it, Hawk? There was no
way he had of knowing that I wasn't with ten other people-which I was!"
She
glanced up at him, towering above her, big and bearlike and perplexed, the slow
burn of both anger and hurt visible in those clear, hazel-gray eyes.
"That's what inclines me to believe he's telling the truth," she said
and got to her feet. "Or what he thinks is the truth, anyway. If I'm not
back from Kedwyr in three hours, hit the town with everything we've got and
send messages to Ciselfarge..."
"You're
going by yourself?"
"If
they're hiding what they've done, I'm in no danger," she said briefly,
casting a quick glance at the piebald sky and picking up her sheepskin jacket
from the back of her chair. "I can fight my way out alone as well as I
could with a small bodyguard-and if the Council doesn't know the Wolf's
missing. I'm not going to tell them so by going in with a large one."
But on
the highroad from the camp to the city gates, she met a convoy of sturdy little
pack donkeys and a troop of the Kedwyr City Guards, bearing the specified
payment from the Council. Thin and morose, like a drooping black heron upon his
cobby little Peninsular mare, Commander Breg hailed her. She drew her horse
alongside his. "No trouble?" she asked, nodding toward the laden
donkeys and the dark-clothed guards who led them.
The
commander made the single coughing noise that was the closest he ever came to a
laugh. The day had turned cold with the streaming wind; he wore a black cloak
and surcoat wound over the shining steel back-and-breast mail, and his face,
framed in the metal of his helmet, was mottled with vermilion splotches of
cold. "Our President came near to an apoplexy and took to his bed with
grief over the amount of it," he told her. "But a doctor was
summoned-they say he will recover."
Starhawk
laughed. "Ari and Penpusher are there waiting to go over it with
you."
"Penpusher,"
the commander said thoughtfully. "Is he that yak in chain mail who threw
the defending captain off the tower at the storming of Melplith's gates?"
"Oh,
yes," Starhawk agreed. "He's only like that in battle. As a
treasurer, he's untouchable."
"As
a warrior," the commander said, "he's someone I would not much like
to try and touch, either." A spurt of wind tore at his cloak, fraying the
horses' manes into tangled clouds and crooning eerily through the broken lines
of windbreak and stone. He glanced past Starhawk's shoulder at the gray rim of
the sea, visible beyond the distant cliffs. The sky there was densely piled
with bruised-looking clouds. Over the whining of the wind, the waves could
occasionally be heard, hammer like against the rocks.
"Will
you make it beyond the Gniss," he asked, "before the river
floods?"
"If
we get started tomorrow." It was her way never to give anyone anything.
She would not speak to a comparative stranger of her fears that they would not,
in fact, reach the river in time for a safe crossing. It was midmorning; were
it not for Sun Wolf's disappearance, they would have been breaking camp
already, to depart as soon as the money was counted. With the rapid rise of the
Gniss, hours could be important. As the wind knifed through the thick sheepskin
of her coat and stung the exposed flesh of her face, she wondered if the
commander's words were a chance remark or a veiled warning to take themselves
off before it was too late.
"By
the way," she asked, curvetting her horse away from the path of the little
convoy, "where does Gobaris keep himself when he's in town? Or has he left
already?"
The
commander shook his head. "He's still there, in the barracks behind the
Town Hall square, it's his last day in the town, though-he's getting ready to
go back to his farm and that wife he's been telling us about all through the
campaign."
"Thanks."
Starhawk grinned and raised her hand in farewell. Then she turned her horse's
head in the direction of the town and spurred to a canter through the cold,
flying winds of the coming storms.
She
found Gobaris, round, pink, and slothful, packing his few belongings and the
mail that no longer quite fitted him, in the section of barracks reserved by
the Council for the Outland Levies during their service to the town. Few of
them were left; this section of the barracks, allotted to the men of the
levies, was mostly empty, the straw raked from the bunks and heaped on the
stone floor ready to be hosed out, the cold drafts whistling through the
leak-stained rafters. The walls were covered with mute and obscene testimony of
the rivalry between the Outland Levies and the City Troops.
"I
don't know which is worse," she murmured, clicking her tongue
thoughtfully, "the lack of imagination or the inability to spell a simple
four-letter word that they use all the time."
"Lack
of imagination," Gobaris said promptly, straightening up in a two-stage
motion to favor the effect of the coming dampness on his lower back. "If
one more man had tried to tell me the story about the City Trooper and the baby
goat, I'd have strangled the life out of him before he'd got past 'Once upon a
time.' What can I do for you, Hawk?"
She
spun him a tale of a missing soldier, watching his puffy, unshaven face
closely, and saw nothing in the wide blue eyes but annoyance and concern that
the man should be found before the rest of the troop left without him. He let
his packing lie and took her down to the city hall, shouting down the regular
guards there and opening without demur any door she asked to see the other side
of. At the end, she shook her head in assumed disgust and sighed. "Well,
that rules out trouble, anyway. He'll be either sodden drunk or snugged up with
some woman." It took all her long self-discipline and all the inexpressive
calm of years of barracks poker to hide the sick qualm of dread that rose in
her and accept with equanimity the Outland Captain's invitation to share a
quart of ale at the nearest tavern.
She was
reviewing in her memory the other possible ways to enter the jail by stealth
and search for other cells there when Gobaris asked, "Did your chief get
back to the camp all right, then?"
She
frowned, resting her hands around the mug on the rather grimy surface of the
tavern table. "Why would he not?"
Gobaris
sighed, shook his head, and rubbed at the pink, bristly rolls of his jaw.
"I didn't like it myself, for all that Ari's a stout enough fighter. If
the President had wanted to make trouble, he could have trapped the two of them
in the town. It was dangerous, is all."
Starhawk
leaned back in her chair and considered the fat man in the cold white light
that came in through the open tavern front from the square. "You mean Ari
was the only man he had with him?" she asked, playing for time.
"Only
one I saw." He threw back his head, revealing a grayish crescent of dirty
collar above the edge of his pink livery doublet, and drank deeply, then wiped
his lips with an odd daintiness on the cuff of his sleeve. "He might have
had others up the alley, mind, but none whom I saw."
"Which
alley?" she asked in a voice of mild curiosity, turning her head to scan
the half-empty square. No booths or other tavern fronts opened into that great
expanse of checked white and black stone today-a rainsquall had already dappled
the pavement, and the fleeting patches of white and blue of the sky were more
and more obscured by threatening gray.
"That
one there." He pointed. From this angle, it was little more than a shaded
slot behind the keyhole turrets of an elaborately timbered inn front. "We
were at that alehouse there, the Cock in Leather Breeches, waiting for your
chief to get back. Then Ari came out of the alley, walked slap up to the
bodyguard, and sent 'em off back to camp. I thought it wasn't like the Wolf to
be that careless, but nobody asked me my opinion."
"You
knew it was Ari."
Gobaris
looked surprised. "Of course it was Ari," he said. "He was
standing within a yard of me, wasn't he? Facing the lamps of the inn."
Ari was
waiting for Starhawk at Sun Wolf's tent when she came back from the city. The
camp was alive with the movement of departure, warriors calling curses and
jokes back and forth to one another as they loaded pack beasts with their
possessions and loot from the sacking of Melplith. Starhawk, being not by
nature a looter, had very little to pack; she could have been ready to depart
in half an hour, tent and all. Someone-probably Fawn-had begun to dismantle Sun
Wolf's possessions, and the big tent was a chaos of tumbled hangings, their
iridescence shot with gold stitching, of disordered camp furniture and
cushions, and of mail and weapons. In the midst of it, on the inlaid ebony
table where their armor had rested last night, sat a priceless rose porcelain
pitcher in which slips of iris had been rudely potted. Beside it was a small
leather sack.
Starhawk
picked up the sack and weighed it curiously in her hand. She glanced inside,
then across at Ari. The bag contained gold pieces.
"Every
grain of gold he contracted for was delivered," Ari said somberly.
The
Hawk stripped off her rain-wet coat and threw it over the back of the staghorn
chair. "I'm not surprised," she said. "Gobaris says he saw you,
too. Though if it were a setup..."
Ari
shook his head. "I had the tents of all the men on that detail searched.
Little Thurg wasn't the only one, either..." He leaned out the tent door
and called, "Thurg!" to someone outside. The doorway darkened and Big
Thurg came in, making the small room minuscule by his bulk.
Big
Thurg was the largest man in the Wolf's troop, reducing Sun Wolf, Ari, and
Penpusher to frailty by comparison. The absurd thing about him was that,
although he and Little Thurg came from opposite ends of die country and were
presumably no relation to each other, in face and build they were virtually
twins, giving the general impression that Little Thurg had somehow been made up
from the scraps left over from the creation of his immense counterpart.
"It's
true, sir," he said, guessing her question, looking down at her, and
scratching his head. "We all saw him-me. Long Mat, Snarky, everyone."
"A
double?" Starhawk asked.
"But
why?" Ari threw out his hands in a gesture of angry frustration.
"They paid us!"
Outside,
someone led a laden mule past, the sound of the creaking pack straps a
whispered reminder that time was very short. Big Thurg folded enormous hands
before his belt buckle, his bright eyes grave with fear. "I think it's
witchery."
Neither
Starhawk nor Ari spoke. Starhawk's cold face remained impassive, but a line
appeared between the thick fur of Ari's brows.
Big
Thurg went on, "I've heard tell of it in stories. How a wizard can take on
the form of a man, to lie with a woman the night, and her thinking all the time
it's her husband; or else put on a woman's shape and call on a nurse to ask for
a child. When the true mother shows up, the kid's long gone. A wizard could
have seen you anywhere about the camp, sir, to know who you were."
"But
there aren't any wizards anymore," Ari said, and Starhawk could hear the
fear in his voice. Even among the mercenaries, Ari was accounted a brave man,
for all his youth- brave with the courage of one who had no need for bravado.
But there were very few men indeed who did not shudder at the thought of
dabbling in wizardry. She and Ari both knew for a fact that there was only one
wizard alive in the world- Altiokis.
Starhawk
said, "Thank you, Thurg. You can go. We'll have the guards let Little
Thurg go, with our apologies." The big man saluted and left. When she and
Ari were alone, she said quietly, "The Chief got an offer the other night
to go against Altiokis at Mandrigyn."
Ari
swore, softly, vividly, hopelessly. Then he said. "No. Oh, no, Hawk."
Around them, the camp was a noisy confusion, but the steady pattering of the
rain against the leather tent walls and in the puddles beyond the door came
through, like a whispered threat. It would be a long, beastly journey north;
there could be no more waiting. Ari looked at her, and in his eyes Starhawk saw
the grief of one who had already heard of a death.
She
continued in her usual calm voice. "It would explain why the President
sent us our pay. He knows nothing of it. The woman who came and spoke to the
Wolf here was from one of Altiokis' cities."
For a
time Ari did not speak, only stood with his head bowed, listening to the noises
of the camp and the rain and her soft-spoken words of doom. The fading
afternoon light laid a gleam like pewter on the creamy brown of his arm
muscles; it winked on the gold stitching of his faded, garish tunic and on the
jewels among the braided scalps that decorated his shoulders. His gold earrings
flashed against his long, black hair as he turned his head. "So what are
we going to do?"
Starhawk
paused and considered her several courses of action. There was only one of them
that she knew she could follow. Knowing this, she did not inquire of herself
the reasons why. "I think," she said at last, "that the best
thing would be for you to get the troop back to Wrynde. If Altiokis had wanted
the Chief dead, he would have killed him here. Instead, it looks as if he
spirited him away somewhere." A dozen tales of the Wizard King's
incredible, capricious cruelty contradicted her, but she did not give Ari time
to say so. She knew that, if she accepted that explanation, she might just as
well give Sun Wolf up for dead now. She went on, "I don't know why he took
him and I don't know where, but the Citadel of Grimscarp in the East is a good
guess. I know the Wolf, Ari. When he's trapped by a situation, he plays for
time."
Ari
raised his head finally, staring at her in horrified disbelief. "You're
not going there?"
She
looked back at him impassively. "It's either assume he's there and alive
and can be rescued-or decide that he's dead and give him up now." Seeing
his stricken look at the coldness of her logic, she added gently, "I don't
think either of us is ready to do that yet."
He
turned from her and paced the tent in silence. On the other side of the peacock
hangings. Fawn could be heard moving quietly about, preparing for departure.
Sun Wolf's armor and battle gear still hung on their stand at one end of the
room, a mute echo of his presence; the feathers on the helmet's widespread
wings were translucent in the pallid light from the door. Finally Ari said,
"He could be elsewhere." She shrugged. "In that case, it's short
odds that he can get himself out of trouble. If Altiokis has him-which I
believe he does-he'll need help. I'm willing to risk the trip." She hooked
her hands through her sword belt and watched Ari, waiting.
"You'll
go overland?" he asked at last.
"Through
the Kanwed Mountains, yes. I'll take a donkey-a horse would be more trouble
than it was worth, between wolves and robbers, and it wouldn't add anything to
my time. I can always buy one when I reach the uplands." Her mind was
leaping ahead, calculating the campaign details that could be dealt with-road
conditions, provisions, perils-to free herself from the fear that she knew
would numb her heart.
There's
nothing you can do right now to help him, she told herself coldly, except what
you are doing. Feeling fear or worry for him will not help either him or you.
But the fear smoldered in her nevertheless, like a buried fire in the heart of
a mountain of ice.
Ari
asked, "Whom will you take with you?"
She raised
her brows, her voice still calm and matter-of-fact. "Who do you think
could be trusted with the news that we might be messing with Altiokis? I
personally can't think of anyone."
As he
crossed the room back to her, she could see the worry lines already settling
into his face-the lines that would be there all winter, maybe all his life.
Morale in the troop was going to be hard enough to maintain in the face of the
Wolf's disappearance, without dealing with the added panic that the Wizard
King's name would cause, and they both knew it.
She
went on. "A lone traveler is less conspicuous than a small troop,
especially in the wintertime. I'll be all right."
The
echo of a hundred nursery tales of Altiokis was in Ari's voice as he asked,
"How will you get into the Citadel?"
She
shrugged again. "I'll figure out that part when I get there."
Ari was
the only one to see her off that night. She had delayed her departure until
after dark, partly to avoid spies, partly to avoid comment in the troop itself.
Her close friends in the troop-Penpusher, Butcher the camp doctor, Firecat, and
Dogbreath-she had told only that she was going to help the Chief and that
they'd both be back at Wrynde in the spring. Altiokis was not spoken of. After
packing most of her things to be sent back to Wrynde, she had spent the
afternoon in meditation, preparing her mind and heart for the journey in the
silence of the Invisible Circle, as they had taught her in the Convent of St.
Cherybi.
Ari was
quiet as he walked with her down the road toward the dark hills. By the light
of his torch, she thought, he looked older than he had this morning. He was in
for a hellish winter, she knew, and wondered momentarily if she ought not,
after all, to remain with the troop, for she was the senior of the two
lieutenants and the one who had more experience in dealing with the town
council of Wrynde.
But she
let the thought pass. Her mind was already set on her quest, with the cairn
single-mindedness with which she went into battle. In a sense, she had already
severed herself from Ari and the troop; and in any case, she was not sure that
her own road would not be the harder of the two.
"Take
care of yourself," Ari said. In the sulfurous glare of the torch, the coat
of black bearskin he wore gave him more than ever the look of a young beast.
The hills stood before them, tall against the sky; above the sea to their
backs, the clouds rose in vast pillars of darkness, the winter storms still
holding uncannily at bay.
"You,
also." She took the donkey's headstall in her left hand, then turned and
put her right hand on Ari's shoulder and kissed him lightly on the cheek.
"I don't know who's in for a worse time of it."
"Starhawk,"
Ari said quietly. The wind fluttered at his long hair; in the shadows she could
see the sudden jump of his tensed jaw muscles. "What am I going to
do," he asked her, "if someone shows up sometime this winter, without
you, claiming to be the Chief? How will I know it's really him?" Starhawk
was silent. They were both remembering Little Thurg, speaking to Ari's double
in the square of Kedwyr.
Sweet
Mother, she thought, how will I know it's the Chief when I find him!
For a
moment, a shiver ran through her, almost like panic; the fear of magic, of
wizards, of the uncanny, threatened to overcome her. Then the face of Sister
Walla returned to her, withered in its frame of black veils; she saw the
hunched back and tiny hands and herself, as a curious child, helping to sort
dried herbs in the old nun's cell and wondering why, of all the nuns in the
Convent of St. Cherybi, Walla alone, the oldest and most wrinkled, possessed...
"A mirror," she said.
Ari
blinked at her, startled. "A what?"
"Put
a mirror somewhere, in an angle of the room where you can see it, A mirror will
reflect a true form, without illusion."
"You're
sure?"
"I
think so," she said doubtfully. "Or else you can take him out to the
marshes on a night when there are demons about. As far as I know, Sun Wolf is
the only man I've ever met who could see demons."
They
had both seen him do it, in the dripping marshes to the north of Wrynde, and
had watched him following those loathsome, giggling voices with his eyes
through the ice-bitten trees.
"It
may be that a wizard can see demons, too, by means of magic," Ari said.
"It was said they could see through illusion."
"Maybe,"
she agreed. "But the mirror will show you a fraud." It occurred to
her for the first time to wonder why Sister Wellwa had kept that fragment of
reflective glass positioned in the corner of her cell. Whom had she expected to
see in it, entering the room disguised as someone else she knew?
"Maybe,"
Ari echoed softly. "And what then?"
They
looked into each other's eyes, warm hazel into cold gray, and she shook her
head. "I don't know," she whispered. "I don't know."
She
turned away from him and took the road into the darkness of the hills. Behind
her and to her left lay the dim scattering of lights visible through the broken
walls of Melplith and the collection of red sparks that was the mercenary camp.
By dawn tomorrow, the camp would be broken and gone. Kedwyr's Council had
smashed its rival's pretensions, and the overland trade in furs and onyx would
return to Kedwyr, high tariffs or no high tariffs. Melplith would sink back to
being a poky little market town like those farther back in the hills, and what
had anybody gained? A lot of people were dead, including one of Gobaris'
brothers; a lot of mercenaries were richer; a lot of women had been raped, men
maimed, children starved. The wide lands north of the Gniss River were still a
burned-over wasteland in which nuuwa and wolves wandered; demons still haunted
the cold marshes in whistling, biting clusters; abominations bred in the
southern deserts, while the cities of the Peninsula fought over money and those
of the Middle Kingdoms fought over religion.
The raw
dampness of the wind stung Starhawk's face and whipped at her half-numbed
cheeks with the ends of her hair. She'd meant to crop it before leaving, as she
did before the summer campaigns every year, but had forgotten.
She
wondered why Altiokis had wanted the Chief. Sun Wolf had obviously sent
Mandrigyn's emissary packing-and had himself vanished without a trace the
following night.
Revenge?
She shuddered inwardly at the tales of Altiokis' revenges. Or for other
reasons? Will Ari, during the course of the winter, find himself faced with a
man who claims to be Sun Wolf?
On the
hillside to her left, the slurring rush of the wind through the bracken was cut
by another sound, a shifting that was not part of the pattern of harmless
noise.
Starhawk
never paused in her step, though the burro she led turned its long ears
backward uneasily. In this country, it would take a skilled tracker to follow
in silence, even on a windy night. The ditches on either side of the
hard-packed dirt of the highroad were filled with a mix of gravel and summer
brushwood, and the sound of a body forcing passage anywhere near the road was
ridiculously loud to the Hawk's trained ears. When the track wound deeper into
the foothills, the ditches petered out, but the scrub grew thicker. As she
walked on, the Hawk could identify and pinpoint the sound of her pursuer,
thirty feet behind her and closing.
Human.
A wolf would be quieter; a nuuwa-if there were such things this close to
settled territory-wouldn't have the brains to stalk at all. The thought of
Altiokis' spies drifted unpleasantly through her mind.
To hell
with it, she told herself and faked a stumble, cursing. The scrunching in the
brush stopped.
Limping
ostentatiously, Starhawk hobbled to the side of the track and sat down in the
dense shadows of the brushwood. Under cover of Fiddling with her bootlaces, she
tied the burro's lead to a branch. Then she slithered backward into the brush,
snaked her way down the shallow, overgrown ditch, and climbed up onto the
scrubby hillside beyond.
The
night was clouding over again, but enough starlight remained to give her some
idea of the shape of the land. Her pursuer moved cautiously in the scrub; she
focused on the direction of the popping of cracked twigs. Keeping low to better
her own vision against the lighter sky, she scanned the dark jumble of twisted
black trunks and the mottling of grayed leaves.
Nothing.
Her shadow was keeping still.
Softly
her fingers stole over the loose sandy soil until they found what they sought,
a sizable rock washed from the stream bed by last winter's rains. Moving slowly
to remain as quiet as she could, she worked it free of the dirt. With a flick of
the wrist she sent it spinning into the brush a few yards away.
There
was a satisfactory rustling, and part of the pattern of dark and light that lay
so dimly before her jerked, again counter to the general restless movement of
the wind. The vague glow of the sky caught the pallid reflection of a face.
Very
good, the Hawk thought and eased her dagger soundlessly from its sheath.
Then
the wind changed and brought to her, incongruous in the sharpness of the
juniper, the sweet scent of patchouli.
Starhawk
braced herself to dodge in case she was wrong and called out softly,
"Fawn!"
There
was a startled shift in the pattern. The shape of the girl's body was revealed
under the voluminous folds of a mottled plaid cloak-the dull, almost
random-looking northern plaid that blended so deceptively into any pattern of
earth and trees. Fawn's voice was shaky and scared. "Starhawk?"
Starhawk
stood up, clearly startling the daylights out of the girl by her nearness. They
stood facing each other for a time on the windswept darkness of the hillside.
Because they were both women, there was a great deal that did not need to be
said. Starhawk remembered that most of what she had said to Ari had been in Sun
Wolf's tent; of course the girl would overhear.
It was
Fawn who spoke first. "Don't send me away," she said.
"Don't
be foolish," Starhawk said brusquely.
"I
promise I won't slow you down."
"You
can't promise anything of the kind and you know it," the Hawk retorted.
"I'm making the best time to Grimscarp that I can, over some damned dirty
country. It's not the same as traveling with the troop from Wrynde to the
Peninsula or down to the Middle Kingdoms and back."
Fawn's
voice was desperate, low against the whining of the wind. "Don't leave
me."
Starhawk
was silent a moment. Though a warrior herself, she was woman enough to
understand the fear in that taut voice. Her own was kinder when she said,
"Ari will see that you come to no harm."
"And
what then?" Fawn pleaded. "Spend the winter in Wrynde, wondering
who's going to have me if Sun Wolf doesn't come back?"
"It's
better than being passed around a bandit troop and ending up with your throat
slit in a ditch."
"You
run that risk yourself!" And when Starhawk did not answer, but only hooked
her hands through the buckle of her sword belt, Fawn went on. "I swear to
you, if you won't take me with you to Grimscarp, I'll follow you on my
own."
The
girl bent down, the winds billowing the great plaid cloak about her slender
body, and picked up something Star-hawk saw was a pack from among the heather
at her feet. She slung it over her shoulder and descended to where the Hawk
stood, catching at the branches now and then for balance, holding her dark,
heavy skirts out of the brambles. Starhawk held out a hand to her to help her
down to the road. The Hawk's grip was like a man's, firm under the delicate
elbow. When they reached the road together. Fawn looked up at her, as if trying
to read the expression in that craggy, inscrutable face, those transparent
eyes.
"Starhawk,
I love him," she said. "Don't you understand what it is to
love?"
"I
understand," Starhawk said in a carefully colorless voice, "that your
love for him won't get you to Grimscarp alive. I elected to search for him
because I have a little-a very little- experience with wizards and because I
believe that he can be found and rescued. It could easily have been any of the
men who came. I can hold my own against any of them in battle."
"Is
that all it is to you?" Fawn demanded passionately. "Another job?
Starhawk, Sun Wolf saved me from-from things so unspeakable it makes me sick to
remember them. I had seen my father murdered-" Her voice caught in a way
that told Starhawk that the death had been neither quick nor clean. "I'd
been dragged hundreds of miles by a band of leering, dirty, cruel men, I'd seen
my maid raped and murdered, and I knew that the only reason they didn't do the
same to me was because I'd fetch a better price as a virgin. But they talked
about it."
Her
face seemed to burn white in the filmy starlight, her body trembling with the
hideous memories. "I was so terrified at-at being sold to a captain of a
mercenary troop that! think I would have killed myself if I hadn't been watched
constantly. And then Sun Wolf bought me and he was so good to me, so
kind..."
The
hood of her cloak had blown back, and the stars glinted on the tears that
streaked her cheeks. Grief and compassion filled Starhawk's heart-for that
distant, frightened child and for the girl before her now. But she said, with
deliberate coldness, "None of that means that you'll be able to find him
safely."
"I
don't want to be safe!" Fawn cried. "I want to find him-or know in my
heart that he's dead."
Starhawk
glanced away, annoyed. She had never questioned that she should look for the
Chief-her loyalty to him was such that she would have undertaken the quest no
matter what Ari had said. Her own unquestioned prowess as a warrior had merely
been one of the arguments. Her native honesty forced her to recognize Fawn's
iron resolution as akin to her own, regardless of what kind of nuisance she'd
be on the road.
The
older woman sighed bitterly and relaxed. "I don't suppose," she said
after a moment, "that there is any way I could prevent you from coming with
me, short of tying you up and dragging you back to camp. Besides losing me
time, that would only make the two of us look ridiculous." She stared
coldly down her nose when Fawn giggled at the thought. "You know, don't
you, that you might cause the troop's departure to be delayed if Ari takes it
into his head to search the town for you?"
Fawn
colored strangely under the starlight. She bent to pick up her pack again and
start toward where the burro was still tethered, head-down against the wind.
"Ari won't look for me," she said. "For one thing, you know he
wouldn't delay the march north. And besides.. ." Her voice faltered with
shame. "I took everything valuable of mine. Clothes, jewels-everything
that I would take if I were running off with another man. And that's what he'll
think I did."
Unexpectedly,
Starhawk grinned. Fawn might not be able to reason her way past their
arguments, but she certainly had found a matter-of-fact means of discouraging
pursuit. "Don't tell me you have all that in that little pack?"
Startled
at the sudden lightening of the Hawk's voice, Fawn looked quickly up to meet
her eyes, then resumed her smile ruefully. "Only the jewels. I thought we
could sell them for food on the way. The rest of it I bundled up and dropped
over the sea cliffs."
"Very
nice." Starhawk smiled approvingly, reflecting that she was evidently not
the only person in the troop to hold possessions lightly. "You have a good
grasp of essentials. We'll make a trooper of you yet."
CHAPTTR
-- 4 --
WHEN
SUN WOLF WAS A BOY, HE HAD BEEN STRICKEN BY A fever. He had concealed it from
his father as long as he could, going hunting with the other men of the tribe
in the dark, half-frozen marshes where demons flitted from tree to tree like
pale slips of phosphorescent light. He had come home and hidden in the cattle
loft. There his mother had found him, sobbing in silent delirium, and had
insisted that they call the shaman of the tribe. It all came back to him now,
with the memory of parching thirst and restless pain: the low rafters with
their red and blue dragons almost hidden under the blackening of smoke; the
querulous voice of that dapper, busy little charlatan with the holy bones and
dangling locks of ancestral hair; and his father looming like an angry,
disapproving shadow beside the reddish, pulsing glow of the hearth. The Wolf
remembered his father's growling voice. "If he can't throw it off himself,
he'd better die, then. Get your stinking smokes and your dirty bones out of
here; I have goats who could work better magic than you." He remembered
the shaman's offended sniff-because, of course, his father was right.
And he
remembered the awful agony of thirst.
The
dream changed. Cool hands touched his face and raised the rim of a cup to his
lips. The metal was ice-cold, like the water in the cup. As he drank, he opened
swollen eyelids to look into the face of the amber-eyed girl. The fear that
widened her eyes told him he was awake.
I tried
to kill her, he thought cloudily. But she tried to kill me-or did she? His
memory was unclear. Mixed with the perfume of her body, he could smell the salt
flavor of the sea; the creak of wood and cordage and the shift of the bed where
he lay told him he was aboard a ship. The girl's eyes were full of fear, but
her arm beneath his head was soft. She raised the cup to his cracked lips
again, and he drained it. He tried to stammer thanks but could not speak-tried
to ask her why she had wanted to kill him.
Abruptly,
Sun Wolf slid into sleep again.
The
dreams were worse, a terrifying nightmare of racking, helpless pain. He had a
tangled vision of darkness and wind and rock, of being trapped and left prey to
things he could not see, of dangling over a tossing abyss of change and loss
and terrible loneliness. In the darkness, demons seemed to ring him-demons that
he alone could see, as he had always been able to see them, though to
others-his father, the other men of the tribe, even the shaman-they had been
only vague voices and a sense of terror. Once he seemed to see, small and clear
and distant, the school of Wrynde, shabby and deserted beneath the sluicing
rain, with only the old warrior who looked after the place in the troop's
absence sweeping the blown leaves from the training floor with a broom of sticks.
The smell and feel of the place cried to him, so real that he could almost
touch the worn cedar of the pillars and hear the wailing of the wind around the
rocks. Then the vision vanished in a shrieking storm of fire, and he was lost
in spinning darkness that cut at him like swords, pulling him closer and closer
to a vortex of silent pain.
Then
that, too, faded, and there was only white emptiness that blended slowly to
exhausted waking. He lay like a hollowed shell cast up on a beach, scoured by
sun and salt until there was nothing left, cold to the bone and so weary that
he ached. He could not find the strength to move, but only stared at the
timbers above his head, listening to the creak and roll of the ship and the
slap of water against the hull, feeling the sunlight that lay in a small,
heatless bar over his face.
They
were in full ocean, he judged, and heading fast before the wind.
He
remembered the mountains of clouds, standing waiting on the horizon. If the
storms hit and the ship went to pieces now, he would never have the strength to
swim.
So if
would be the crabs, after all.
But
that cold, calm portion of his mind, the part that seemed always to be almost
detached from his physical body, found neither strength nor anger in that
thought. It didn't matter- nothing mattered. The sway of the ship moved the
chip of sunlight back and forth across his face, and he found that he lacked
the strength even to wonder where he was-or care.
An hour
passed. The sunlight traveled slowly down the blanket that covered his body and
lay like a pale, glittering shawl over the foot of the bunk. Like the blink of
light from a sword blade, the chased gold rim of the empty cup on the table
beside him gleamed faintly in the moving shadows. Footsteps descended a hatch
somewhere nearby, then came down the hall.
The
door opposite his feet opened, and Sheera Galernas stepped in.
Not the
President of Kedwyr, after all, he thought, still with that eerie sense of
unconcern.
She
regarded him impassively from the doorway for a moment, then stepped aside.
Without a word, four women filed in behind her, dressed as she was, for
traveling in dark, serviceable skirts, quilted bodices, and light boots. For a
time none of them spoke, but they watched him, lined behind Sheera like
acolytes behind a priestess at a rite.
One of
them was the amber-eyed girl, he saw, her delicate, curiously secretive face
downcast and afraid and-what! Ashamed! Why ashamed'? The rose-tinted memory of
her room in Kedwyr slid through his mind, with the warmth of her scented flesh
twined with his. She was clearly a professional, for all her youth... Why
ashamed! But he was too tired to wonder, and the thought slipped away.
The
woman beside her was as pretty, but in a different way-certainly not
professional, at least not about that. She was as tiny and fragile as a
porcelain doll, her moonlight-blond hair caught in a loose knot at the back of
her head, her sea-blue eyes marked at the corners with the faint lines of
living and grief. He wondered what she was doing in the company of a hellcat
like Sheera... in the company of any of those others, for that matter.
Neither
of the other two women had or would even make die pretense of beauty. They were
both tall, the younger of them nearly Sun Wolf's own height-a broad-shouldered,
hard-muscled girl who reminded him of the women in his own troops. She was
dressed like a man in leather breeches and an embroidered shirt, and her shaven
skull was brown from exposure to the sun. So was her face, brown as wood and
scarred from weapons, like that of a gladiator. After a moment's thought, Sun
Wolf supposed she must be one.
The
last woman stood in the shadows, having sought them with an almost unthinking
instinct. The shadows did nothing to mask the fact that she was the ugliest
woman Sun Wolf had ever laid eyes on-middle-aged, hook-nosed, her mouth
distorted by the brown smear of a birthmark that ran like mud down onto her
jutting chin. Her eyes, beneath a single black bar of brow, were as green, as cold,
and as hard as jade, infused with the bitter strength of a woman who had been
reviled from birth.
They
looked from him to Sheera, and on Sheera their eyes remained.
Though
he was almost too tired to speak, Sun Wolf asked after a time, "You kidnap
my men, too?" There was no strength in his voice; he saw them move
slightly to listen. There was a gritty note to it, too, like a streak of rust
on metal, that he knew had not been there before. An effect of the poison,
maybe.
Sheera's
back stiffened slightly with the sarcasm, but she replied steadily, "No.
Only you."
He
nodded. It was a slight gesture, but all he had strength for. "You going
to pay me the whole ten thousand?"
"When
you're done, yes."
"Hmm."
His eyes traveled over the women again, slowly. Part of his mind was struggling
against this paralyzing helplessness, screaming to him that he had to find a
means to think his way out of this, but the rest of him was too tired to care.
"You realize it will take me a little longer to storm the mines
single-handedly?"
That
stung her, and those full red lips tightened. The porcelain doll, as if quite
against her will, grinned.
"It
won't be just you," Sheera said, her voice low and intense. "We're
bringing you back to Mandrigyn with us as a teacher-a teacher of the arts of
war. We can raise our own strike force, release the prisoners in the mines, and
free the city."
Sun
Wolf regarded her for a moment from beneath half-lowered lids, reflecting to
himself that here was a fanatic if ever he saw one-crazy, dangerous, and
powerful. "And just whom for starters," he inquired wearily,
"are you planning on having in your strike force, if all the men of the
city are working in the mines?"
"Us,"
she said. "The ladies of Mandrigyn."
He
sighed and closed his eyes. "Don't be stupid."
"What's
stupid about it?" she lashed at him. "Evidently your precious men
can't be bothered to risk themselves, even for ready cash. We aren't going to
sit down and let Altiokis appoint the worst scoundrels in the city as his
governors, to bleed us with taxes and carry off whom he pleases to forced labor
in his mines and his armies. It's our city! And even in Mandrigyn, where it's
as much as a woman's social life is worth to go abroad in the streets unveiled
and unchaperoned, there are women gladiators like Denga Key here. In other
places women can be members of city guards and of military companies. You have
women in your forces yourself. Fighting women, warriors. I saw one of them in
your tent that night."
Against
the sting of her voice, he saw Starhawk and Sheera again, cool and wary as a
couple of cats with the torch smoke blowing about them. Wearily, he said,
"Thai wasn't a woman, that was my second-in-command, one of the finest
warriors I've ever met."
"She
was a woman," Sheera repeated. "And she isn't the only woman in your
forces. They said in the city that you've trained women to fight before
this."
"I've
trained warriors," the Wolf said without opening his eyes, the exhaustion
of even the effort to speak weighting him like a sickness. "If some of 'em
come equipped to suckle babies later on, it's no concern of mine, so long as
they don't get themselves pregnant while they're training. I'm not going to
train up a whole corps of them from scratch."
"You
will," Sheera said quietly. "You have no choice."
"Woman,"
he told her, while that lucid and detached portion of his mind reminded him
that arguing with a fanatic was about as profitable as arguing with a drunk and
far more dangerous, "what I said about Altiokis still goes. I'm not going
to risk getting involved in any kind of resistance in a town he's just taken,
and I sure as hell won't do it to train a troop of skirts commanded by a female
maniac like yourself. And ten thousand poxy gold pieces, or twenty thousand, or
whatever the hell else you'll offer me isn't about to change my mind."
"How
about your life?" the woman asked, her voice uninflected, almost
disinterested. "Is that reward enough?"
He
sighed, "My life isn't worth a plug copper at this point. If you want to
chuck me overside, there's surely no way I can stop you from doing it."
It was
a foolish thing to have said, and he knew it, for Sheera was not a woman to be
pushed and she was clearly supreme on this ship, as shown by the fact that
she'd gotten its captain to put out to sea at this time of the year at al!. It
struck him again how absolutely alone he was here and how helpless.
He had
expected her to fly into a rage, as she had done in his tent. But she only
folded her arms and tipped her head a little to one side, the glossy curls of
her hair catching in the stiff embroidery of her collar. Conversationally, she
said, "There was anzid in the water you drank."
The
shock of it cut his breath like a garrote. He opened his eyes, fear like a cold
sickness chilling the marrow of his bones. "I didn't drink anything,"
he said, his mouth dry as the taste of dust. He had seen deaths from anzid. The
worst of them had taken two days, and the victim had never ceased screaming.
The ugly
woman spoke for the first time, her low voice mellow as the notes of a rosewood
flute, "You woke up thirsty from the arrow poison, after dreams of
fever," she said. "Amber Eyes gave you water to drink." The long
slender hand moved toward the empty cup beside the bed. "There was anzid
in the water."
Horror
crawled like a tarantula along his flesh. Sheera's face was like a stone; Amber
Eyes turned away, cheeks blazing with shame, unable to meet his gaze.
"You're
lying," he whispered, knowing that she was not.
"You
think so? Yirth has been a midwife, a Healer, and an abortionist long enough to
know everything there is to know about poisons-it isn't likely she'd have made
a mistake. If you hesitate to join us out of fear of Altiokis, I can tell you now
that nothing the Wizard King might do to you if our plan fails would be as bad
as that death. You have nothing further to lose by obeying us now."
Weak as
he was, he had begun to shake; he wondered how long it took for the symptoms of
anzid to be felt. How long had it been since he had been given the poison? It
flashed through his mind to take Sheera by that round, golden throat of hers
and strangle the life out of her. But weakness held him prisoner; in any case,
it would not save his life. And besides that, there was not even sense in
cursing her.
When he
had been silent for a time, the woman Yirth spoke again, her cold, green eyes
looking out from the concealing shadows, clinical and detached. "I am not
the wizard that my master was, before Altiokis had her murdered," she
said. "But it still lies within my powers to arrest the effects of a
poison from day today by means of spells. When we reach Mandrigyn, I shall
place a bounding-spell upon you, that the poison shall not lay hold of you so
long as you pass a part of each night within the walls of the city. The true
antidote," she continued, with a hint of malice in that low, pure voice,
"shall be given to you with your gold when you depart, after the city is
freed."
The
shaking had become uncontrollable. Fighting to keep panic from his voice, he
whispered, "You are a wizard yourself, then. The woman who controls the
winds."
"Of
course," Sheera said scornfully. "Do you think we'd have dared
consider an assault on Altiokis' Citadel without a wizard?"
"I
don't think there's anything you're crazy enough not to dare!"
It was
on his lips to curse her and die-but not that death. He lay back against the
thin pillows, his eyes closing, and the trembling that had seized him passed
off. He felt as bleached and twisted as a half-dried rag; even the fear seemed
to trickle out of him. In the silence, he could hear the separate draw and
whisper of each woman's breath and the faint splash and murmur of water against
the hull.
The
silence seemed to settle around his heart and brain, white, empty, and somehow
strangely calming. He knew he would die, then, hideously, one way or the other.
Having accepted that, his mind began to grope fumblingly for ways of playing
for time, of getting himself out of this, of fighting his way back to life.
Not, he told himself with weary savagery, that I really think there's a chance
of it. Old habits die hard.
And by
the spirits of my ancestors freezing down in the cold waters of Hell, I'm going
to die a great deal harder.
He drew
a tired breath and let it drain from his lips. Something stirred within him,
goaded back to feeble and unwilling life, and he opened his eyes and studied
the women before him, stripping them with his eyes, judging them as he would
have judged them had they turned up, en masse, at the school of Wrynde,
wondering if there was muscle as well as curving flesh under Sheera's
night-blue gown and which of them was a good enough shot to hit a man with a
birding arrow at fifty yards.
"Damn
your eyes." He sighed and looked at Sheera again. "So who am I
supposed to be?"
She
blinked at him, startled by the sudden capitulation. "What?"
"Who
am I supposed to be?" he repeated. Tiredness slurred his voice; he tried
to garner his waning energy and felt it slip like fine sand through his
fingers. His voice had grown weaker. As if some spell of distance had been
broken, the women gathered around him. Amber Eyes and the porcelain doll going
so far as to sit on the edge of his bunk. Sheera would not let herself so
unbend; she stood over him, her arms still folded, her curving brows drawn
heavily down over the straight, strong nose.
"If
Altiokis has dragged all the men away in chains," he continued quietly,
"you can't just have a strange man turn up in your household. Am I your
long-lost brother? A gigolo you picked up in Kedwyr? A bodyguard?"
The
porcelain doll shook her head. "We'll have to pass you off as a
slave," she said, her voice low and husky, like a young boy's.
"They're the only men whose coming into the city at this time of the year
can well be accounted for. There won't be any merchants or travelers in
winter."
She met
the angry glitter in his eyes with cool reasonableness. "You know it's
true."
"And
in spite of the fact that you find it demeaning to be a woman's slave,"
Sheera added maliciously, "you haven't really got any say in the matter,
now, have you. Captain?" She glanced at the others. "Gilden Shorad is
right," she said. "A slave can pass pretty much unquestioned. I can
get the ship's smith to put a collar on you before we reach port."
"What
about Derroug Dru?" Amber Eyes asked doubtfully. "Altiokis' new
governor of the town," she explained to Sun Wolf. "He's been known to
confiscate slaves."
"What
would he want with another slave?" Denga Rey the gladiator demanded,
hooking her square, brown hands into the buckle of her sword belt.
Gilden
Shorad frowned. "What would Sheera want with one, for that matter?"
she asked, half to herself. Close to, Sun Wolf observed that she was older than
he had at first thought- Starhawk's age, twenty-seven or so. Older than any of
the others except the witch Yirth, who, unlike them, had remained in the
shadows by the door, watching them with those cool, jade eyes.
"He
can't simply turn up as a slave without any explanation for why you bought
him," the tiny woman clarified, tucking aside a strand of her ivory hair
with deft little fingers.
"Would
you need a groom?" Amber Eyes asked.
"My
own groom would be suspicious if we got another one suddenly," Sheera
vetoed.
She
looked so perplexed that Sun Wolf couldn't resist turning the knife. "Not
as easy as just hiring your killing done, is it? You married?"
A flush
stained her strong cheekbones. "My husband is dead."
He gave
her a stripping glance and grunted. "Just as well. Kids?"
The
flush deepened with her anger. "My daughter is six, my son, four."
"Too
young to need an arms master, then."
Denga
Rey added maliciously, "You don't want anyone in that town to see you with
a sword in your hand anyway, soldier. Old Derroug Dru suspects anybody who can
so much as cut his meat at table without slitting his fingers. Besides, he's
got it in for big, buff fellows like you."
"Wonderful,"
the Wolf said without enthusiasm. "Leaving aside where this strike force
of yours is going to practice, and where you're going to get money for
weapons..."
"We
have money!" Sheera retorted, harried.
"I'll
be damned surprised if you'll be able to find weapons for sale in a town that
Altiokis has just added to his domains. How big is your town place? What did
your late lamented do for a living?"
By the
bullion stitching on her gloves, the poor bastard couldn't have been worth less
than jive thousand a year, he decided.
"He
was a merchant," she said, her breast heaving with the quickening of her
anger. "Exports-this is one of his ships. And what business is it of
yours-"
"It
is my business, if I'm going to be risking what little is left of my life to
teach you females to fight," he snapped. "I want to make damned sure
you don't get gathered in and sent to the mines yourselves before I'm able to
take my money and your poxy antidote and get the hell out of that scummy marsh
you call a town. Is your place big enough to have gardens? An orangery,
maybe?"
"We
have an orangery," Sheera said sullenly. "It's across the grounds
from the main house. It's been shut up for years- boarded up. It was the first
thing I thought of when I decided that we had to bring you to Mandrigyn. We
could use it to practice in."
He
nodded. There were very few places where orange trees could be left outdoors
year-round, yet groves of them were the fashion in all but the coldest of
cities. Orangeries tended to be large, barn like buildings-inefficient for the
purpose of wintering fruit trees for the most part, but just passable as
training floors.
"Gardeners?"
he asked.
"There
were two of them, freedmen," she said and added, a little defiantly,
"They marched with Tarrin's army to Iron Pass. Even though they had not
been born in Mandrigyn, they thought enough of their city's freedom to-"
"Stupid
thing to do," he cut her off and saw her eyes flash with rage. "There
a place to live in this orangery of yours?"
In a
voice stifled with anger, she said, "There is."
"Good."
Tiredness was coming over him again, final and irresistible, as if argument and
thought and struggle against what he knew would be his fate had drained him of
the little strength he had. The wan sunlight, the faces of the women around him
and their soft voices, seemed to be drifting farther and farther away, and he
fought to hold them in focus. "You- what's your name? Denga Rey-I'll need
you for my second-in-command. You fight during the winter?"
"In
Mandrigyn?" she scoffed. "If it isn't pouring sideways rain and hail,
the ground's not fit for anything but boat races. The last fights were three
weeks ago."
"I
hope you were trounced to within an inch of your life," he said
dispassionately.
"Not
a chance, soldier." She put her hands on her strong hips, a glint of
mockery in those dark eyes. "What I wonder is, who's going to look after
all those little trees so it looks as if there's really a gardener doing the
job? If Sheera buys one special, somebody's going to get suspicious."
Sun
Wolf looked up at her bleakly. "I am," he said. "I'm a warrior
by trade, but gardening is my hobby." His eyes returned to Sheera.
"And I damned well better draw pay for it, too."
For the
first time, she smiled, the warm, bright smile of the hellcat girl she hadn't
been in years. He could see then why men had fought for her hand-as they must
have done, to make her so poxy arrogant. "I'll add it in," she said,
"to your ten thousand gold pieces."
Sun
Wolf sighed and closed his eyes, wondering if it would be wise to tell her what
she could do with her ten thousand gold pieces. But when he opened them again,
he found that it was dark, the afternoon long over, and the women gone.
CHAPTER
-- 5 --
THEY
SAILED INTO MANDRIGYN HARBOR IN THE VANGUARD OFthe storms, as if the boat drew
the rain in its wake.
Throughout
the forenoon, Sun Wolf had stood in the waist of the ship, watching the clouds
that had followed them like a black and seething wall through the gray mazes of
the islands draw steadily closer, and wondering whether, if the ship went to
pieces on the rocky headlands that guarded the harbor itself, he'd be able to
swim clear before he was pulped by the breakers. For a time, he indulged in
hopes that it would be so and that, other than himself, the ship would go down
with all hands and Sheera and her wildcats would never be heard from again.
This thought cheered him until he remembered that, if the sea didn't kill him,
the anzid would.
As they
passed through the narrow channel between the turret-guarded horns of the
harbor, he turned his eyes from the dark, solitary shape of Yirth, standing, as
she had stood on and off for die past three days, on the stern castle of the
ship; he looked across the choppy gray waters of the harbor to where Mandrigyn
lay spread like a jeweled collar upon its thousand islands.
Mandrigyn
was the queen city of the Megantic Sea, the crossroads of trade; even in the
bitter slate colors of the winter day, it glittered like a spilled jewel box,
turquoise, gold, and crystal. Sun Wolf looked upon Mandrigyn and shivered.
Above
the town rose the dark masses of the Tchard Mountains, the huge shape of
Grimscarp veiled in a livid rack of purplish clouds, as if the Wizard King
sought to conceal his fortress from prying eyes. Closer to, he could identify
the trashy gaggle of markets and bawdy theaters as East Shore-the suburb that
Gilden Shorad had told him lay outside the city's jurisdiction on the eastern
bank of the Rack River. The colors of raw wood and cheap paint stood out like
little chips of brightness against the rolling masses of empty, furze-brown
hills that lay beyond; the Thanelands, where the ancient landholders still held
their ancestral sway.
A gust
of rain struck him, cold and stinging through the drab canvas of his shirt. As
he hunched his shoulders against it like a wet animal, he felt the unfamiliar
hardness of metal against his flesh, the traditional slave collar, a slip-chain
like a steel noose that the ship's aged handyman had affixed around his neck.
He
glanced back over his shoulder, hatred in his eyes, but Yirth had vanished from
the poop deck. Sailors, at least half of them women or young boys, were
scrambling up and down the rigging, making the vessel ready to be guided into
the quays.
There
was little activity in the harbor, most shipping having ceased a week ago in
anticipation of the storms. Of the sailors and stevedores whom Sun Wolf could
see about the docks, most were older men, young boys, or women. The city, he
thought, had been hard hit indeed. As the rain-laden gusts of wind drove the
ship toward the wharves, he could hear a ragged cheer go up from the vast
gaggle of unveiled and brightly clad women who loitered on the pillared
promenade of the long seafront terrace that overlooked the harbor. Friends of
Denga Rey's, he guessed, noting the couple of nasty-looking female gladiators
who swaggered in their midst.
Well,
why not? Business is probably damned slow these days.
At some
distance from that rowdy mob he picked out other welcoming committees. There
was a tall girl and a taller woman whose ivory-blond hair, whipped by the wind
from beneath their desperately clutched indigo veils, proclaimed them as kin of
Gilden Shorad's. With them was a lady as tiny, and as fashionably dressed, as
Gilden-family, he thought, no error.
Farther
back, among the pillars of the windswept promenade, a couple of liveried
servants held an oiled-silk canopy over the head of a tiny woman in amethyst
moire, veiled in trailing clouds of lilac silk and glittering with gold and
diamonds. With that kind of ostentation, he thought, she has to be a friend of
Sheera's. No one, evidently, had come
to meet Yirth.
A voice
at his elbow said quietly, "We made it into harbor just in time."
He
turned to see Sheera beside him, covered, as befitted a lady, from crown to
soles, her hands encased in gold-stitched kid, her hair a mass of curls and
jewels that supported the long screens of her plum-colored veils. She held a
fur-lined cloak of waterproof silk tightly around her; Sun Wolf, wearing only
the shabby, secondhand shirt and breeches of a stave, studied her for a moment,
fingering the chain around his neck, then glanced back at the vicious sea
visible beyond the headlands. Even in the shelter of the harbor, the waters
churned and threw vast columns of bone-white spray where they struck the stone
piers; no ship could make it through the channel now. "If you ask me, we
cut that a little too close for comfort," he growled.
Sheera's
lips tightened under the blowing gauze. "No one asked you," she
replied thinly. "You have Yirth to thank that we're alive at all. She's
been existing on drugs and stamina for the last three days to hold off the
storms until we could make port."
"I
have Yirth to thank," Sun Wolf said grimly, "that I'm on this
pox-rotted vessel to begin with."
There
was a momentary silence, Sheera gazing up into his eyes with a dangerous
tautness to her face. By the look of it, she hadn't gotten much more sleep in
the last several days than Yirth had. Sun Wolf returned her gaze calmly, almost
mockingly, daring her to fly into one of her rages.
When
she spoke, her voice was almost a whisper. "Just remember," she said,
"that I could speak to Yirth and let you scream yourself to death."
Equally
softly, he replied, "Then you'd have to find someone else to train your
ladies, wouldn't you?"
Sheera's
next words were forestalled by the arrival of Gil-den, veiled diaphanously and
preceding a whole line of porters bearing enough luggage for a year in the
wilds. She said quietly to Sheera, "Yirth's in her cabin. She'll wait
until the crowds have thinned off a bit, then slip away unnoticed. The ship's
coming in this way ahead of the storm will have attracted enough notice as it
is; we don't want any of Derroug's spies reporting to Altiokis that Yirth was
on board."
Sheera
nodded. "All right," she agreed, and Gilden moved off, slipping back
effortlessly into the role of an indefatigably frivolous, middle-class
globe-trotter amid the welter of her luggage.
They
had come in among the quays now, the crew making the ship fast to the long
stone wharf. The wet air crackled with orders, curses, and shouts. Farther up
the rail, Denga Rey and Amber Eyes were leaning over to wave and call to their
cronies on the dock. The fitful, blowing gusts of rain beaded the gladiator's
shaven scalp and the courtesan's soft, apricot-colored mane of unveiled hair;
both Gilden and Sheera, as was proper for women of their station and class,
ignored them totally.
The gangplank
was let down. A couple of sailors, a woman and a boy, brought up Sheera's
trunk. After a single burning, haughty stare from Sheera, Sun Wolf lifted it to
his shoulder and carried it down the cleated ramp at her heels.
The
wharves of Mandrigyn. as the Wolf had seen from the deck of the ship, were
connected at their landward end by a columned promenade, undoubtedly a
strolling place in the heal of the summer for the fashionable of the town. In
the winter, with its elaborate topiary laid naked by the winds and its marble
pillars and statues stained and darkened by flickering rain, it was drafty and
depressing. At a score of intervals along its length, it was broken by brightly
tiled footbridges that crossed the mouths of Mandrigyn's famous canals; looking
down through the nearest bridge's half-hexagon archway, the Wolf could see a
sort of sheltered lagoon there, where halt" a dozen gondolas rocked on
their moorings. Beyond these rainbow-colored, minnow like boats, the canal
wound away into the watery city between the high walls of the houses, the
waters shivering where they were brushed by squalls of rain. Everything seemed
dark with wetness and clammy with moss. Against this background, the tiny lady
who emerged from beneath her oiled-silk canopy to greet Sheera seemed
incongruously gaudy.
"Sheera,
I was terrified you wouldn't make it into the harbor!" she cried in a
high, rather light voice and extended tiny hands, gloved in diamond-speckled
confections of white and lavender lace.
Sheera
took her hands in greeting, and they exchanged a formal kiss of welcome amid a
whirl of wind-torn silk veils. "To tell you the truth, I was afraid of
that myself." she admitted, with a smile that was the closest Sun Wolf had
seen her get to warm friendliness in all their short acquaintance. Sheera was
evidently fond of this woman-and, by her next remark, very much in her
confidence.
"Did
you find one?" the tiny lady asked, looking up into Sheera's face with a
curiously intent expression, as if for the moment, Sheera and Sheera alone
existed for her. "Did you succeed?"
"Well,"
Sheera said, and her glance flickered to Sun Wolf, standing stoically, the
trunk balanced on his shoulder, a little way off. "There has been a change
in plans."
The
woman frowned indignantly, as if at an affront. "What? How?" The wind
caught in her lilac-colored veils, blowing them back to reveal a
delicate-complected, fine-boned face, set off by beautiful brown eyes under
long, perfectly straight lashes. For all that she was as overdressed as a saint
in a Trinitarian cathedra], she was a well-made little thing. Sun Wolf judged,
both dainty and full-breasted. No girl, but a woman of Sheera's age.
Sheera
introduced them quietly. "Drypettis Dru, sister to the governor of
Mandrigyn. Captain Sun Wolf, chief of the mercenaries of Wrynde."
Drypettis'
eyes, originally dark with indignation at being presented to a slave, widened
with shock, then flickered quickly back to Sheera. "You brought their
commander here?"
From
the direction of the ship, the whole gaudy crowd of what looked like
prostitutes and gladiators came boiling past them, laughing and joking among
themselves. At the sight of Sun Wolf, they let fly a volley of appreciative
whistles, groans, and commentary so outspoken that Drypettis Dru stiffened with
shocked indignation, and blood came stinging up under the thin skin of her
cheeks.
"Really,
Sheera," she whispered tightly, "if we must have people like that in
the organization, can't you speak to them about being a little more-more seemly
in public?"
"We're
lucky to have them in our organization, Dru," Sheera said soothingly.
"They can go anywhere and know everything-and we will need them all the
more now."
The
limpid brown eyes darted back to Sheera. "You mean you were asked for more
money than you could offer?"
"No,"
Sheera said quietly. "I can't explain here. I've told Gilden to spread the
word. There's a meeting tonight at midnight in the old orangery in my gardens.
I'll explain to everyone then."
"But..."
Sheera
lifted a finger to her for silence. From the direction of the nearest lagoon, a
couple of elderly servants were approaching, bowing with profuse apologies to
Sheera for being late. She made a formal curtsy to Drypettis and took her
leave, walking toward the gondola moored at the foot of a flight of
moss-slippery stone stairs without glancing back to see if Sun Wolf were
following. After a moment, he did follow, but he felt Drypettis' eyes on his
back all the way.
While
one servitor was making Sheera comfortable under a canopy in the waist of the
gondola, Sun Wolf handed the trunk down the narrow steps to the other one.
Before descending, he looked back along the quay, deserted now, with the masts
of the ships tossing restlessly against the scudding rack of the sky. He saw
the woman Yirth, like a shadow, come walking slowly down the gangplank and
pause at its bottom, leaning upon the bronze bollard there as if she were close
to stumbling with exhaustion. Then, after a moment, she straightened up, pulled
her plain frieze cloak more tightly about her, and walked away into the
darkening city alone.
From
his loft above the orangery. Sun Wolf could hear the women arriving. He heard
the first one come in silence, her footfalls a faint, tapping echo in the
wooden spaces of the huge room. He heard the soft whisper of talk when the
second one joined her. From the loft's high window, he could see their catlike
shapes slip through the postern gate at the bottom of the garden that gave onto
the Learn Canal and glide silently from the stables, where, Sheera had told
him, there was an old smugglers' tunnel to the cellar of a building on the
Learn Lagoon. He watched them scuttle through the shadows of the wet, weedy
garden, past the silhouetted lacework of the bathhouse pavilion, and with
unpracticed stealth, into the orangery itself.
He had
to admit that Sheera had not erred in her choice of location. The orangery was
the farthest building from the house, forming the southern end of the
quadrangle of its outbuildings. A strip of drying yard, the property wall, and
the muddy, greenish canal called Mothersditch separated it from the nearest
other building, the great laundries of St. Quillan, which closed up at the
third hour of the night. There was little chance they would be overheard if
they practiced here.
He lay
in the darkness on his narrow cot, listened to the high-pitched, muted babble
in the room below, and thought about women.
Women.
Human beings who are not men.
Who had
said that to him once? Starhawk-last winter, or the winter before, when she was
explaining something about that highly individual fighting style of hers... It
was something he had not thought of at the time. Now it came back to him, with
the memory of those gray, enigmatic eyes.
Human
beings who are not men.
Even as
a child, he had understood that the demons that haunted the empty marshlands
around his village were entities like himself, intelligent after their fashion,
but not human. Push them, and they did not react like men.
He had
met men who feared women and he understood that fear. Not a physical
fear-indeed, it was this type of man who was often guilty of the worst excesses
during the sacking of a city. This fear was something deeper. And yet the other
side of that coin was the yearning to touch, to possess, the desire for the
soft and alien flesh.
There
was no logic to it. But training this troop wasn't going to be like training a
troop of inexperienced boys, or of men, none of whom weighed over a hundred and
thirty pounds.
The
day's rain had broken after sundown. A watery gleam of moonlight painted the
slanted wall above his head. With the cold wind, voices from the garden blew
in-Sheera's, speaking to those wealthier women who had come, as if to a party,
in their gondolas to the front door of her great, marble-faced townhouse.
Women's voices, like music in the wet night.
Was it
training, he wondered, that made women distrustful of one another? The fact
that so much was denied them? Maybe, especially in a city like Mandrigyn, where
the women were close-kept and forbidden to do those things that would free them
from the tutelage of men. He'd seen that before-the hothouse atmosphere of
gossip and petty jealousies, of wrongs remembered down through the years arid
unearthed, fresh and stinking, on the occasions of quarrels. Would women be
different if they were brought up differently?
Would
men?
His
father's bitter, mocking laughter echoed briefly through his mind.
Then he
became aware that someone was standing by the foot of his bed.
He had
not seen her arrive, nor heard the petal-fall of her feet on the floorboards.
Only now he saw her face, floating like a misshapen skull above the dark blob
of the birthmark, framed in the silver-shot masses of her hair. He was aware
that she had been standing there for some time.
"What
the..." he began, rising, and she held up her hand.
"I
have only come to lay on you the bounding-spells to hold the poison in your
veins harmless, so long as you remain in Mandrigyn," she said. "As I
am not a true wizard, not come to the fullness of my power, I cannot work
spells at a distance by the mind alone." Like a skeleton hand, her white
fingers moved in the air, and she added, "It is done."
"You
did it all right on the ship," he grumbled sullenly.
One end
of that black line of eyebrow moved. "You think so? It is one of the
earliest things wizards know-how to come and go unnoticed, even by someone who
might be looking straight at them." She gathered her cloak about her, a
rustling in the darkness, preparing to go. "They are downstairs now. Will
you join them?"
"Why
should I?" he asked, settling his shoulders back against the wall at the
bed's head. "I'm only the hired help."
The
rosewood voice was expressionless. "Perhaps to see what you will have to
contend with? Or to let them see it?"
After a
moment, he got to his feet, the movement of his shoulders easing a little the
unaccustomed pressure of the chain. As he came closer to her, he saw how
ravaged Yirth's face was by exhaustion. The black smudges beneath her eyes, the
harsh lines of strain, did nothing for her looks. The last days of the voyage
were worn into her face and spirit as coal dust wore itself into a miner's
hands-to be lightened by time, maybe, but never to be eradicated.
He
paused, looking into those cold, green eyes. "Does Sheera know this?"
he asked. "If, as you say, you aren't a true wizard- if you haven't come
to the fullness of your power-it's insanity for you to go against a wizard
who's been exercising his powers for a hundred and fifty years-who's outlived
every other wizard in the world and seems to be deathless. Does Sheera know
you're not even in his class?"
"She
does." Yirth's voice was cool and bitter in the darkness of the room.
"It is because of Altiokis that I have not-and will never-come to the
fullness of my power as a wizard. My master Chilisirdin gave me the knowledge
and the training that those who are born with a mage's powers must have. It is
that training which allows me to wring the winds to my commanding, to hold you
prisoned, to see through the illusions and the traps with which Altiokis guards
the mines. But Chilisirdin was murdered-murdered before she could give to me
the secret of the Great Trial. And without that, I will never have the
Power."
Sun
Wolf's eyes narrowed. "The what?" he asked. In the language of the
West, the word connoted a judicial ordeal as well as tribulation; in the
northern dialect, the word was sometimes used to mean death as well.
The
misshapen nostrils flared in scorn. "You are a man who prides himself on
his ignorance of these things," she remarked. "Like love, you can
never be sure when they will cross your life, will or nil. Of what the Great
Trial consisted I never knew-only that it killed those who were not born with
the powers of a mage. Its secret was handed down from master to pupil through
generations. I have sought for many years to find even one of that last
generation of wizards, or one of their students, who might know what it was-who
might have learned how one did this thing that melds the power born into those
few children with the long learning they must acquire from a master wizard. But
Altiokis has murdered them all, or driven them into hiding so deep that they
dare not reveal to any what they are-or what they could have been. That is why
I threw in my lot with Sheera. Altiokis has robbed us all-all of us who would
have been mages and who are now condemned to this half-life of thwarted
longings. It is for me to take revenge upon him, or to die in the trying."
"That's
your choice," the Wolf said quietly. "What I object to is your
hauling me with you - me and all those stupid women downstairs who think
they're going to be trained to be warriors."
The
voices rose to them, a light distant babbling, like the pleasant sounds of a
spring brook in the darkness. Yirth's eyes flashed like a cat's. "They
also have their revenge to take," she replied. "And as for you, you
would die for the sake of the two pennies they will put upon your eyes, to pay
the death gods to ferry you to Hell."
"Yes,"
he agreed tightly. "But that's my choice-of time and manner and whom I
take with me when I go."
She
sniffed. "You have no choice, my friend. You were made what you are by the
father who spawned you-as I was made when I was born with the talent for
wizardry in my heart and this mark like a piece of thrown offal on my face. You
had no more choice in the matter than you had about the color of your
eyes."
She
gathered the dark veil about her once again, to cover her ugliness, and in
silence descended the stairs.
After a
moment, Sun Wolf followed her.
A few
candles had been lighted on the table near the staircase, but their feeble
light penetrated no more than a dozen feet into the vast wooden vault of the
orangery. All that could be seen in that huge darkness was the multiplied
reflection in hundreds of watching eyes. Like the wind dying on the summer
night, the sound of talking hushed as Sun Wolf stepped into the dim halo of
light, a big, feral, golden man, with Yirth like a fell black shadow at his
heels.
He had
not expected to see so many women. Startled, he cast a swift glance at Yirth,
who returned an enigmatic stare. "Where the hell did they come from?"
he whispered.
She
brushed the thick, silver-shot mane back over her shoulders. "Gilden
Shorad," she replied softly. "She and her partner Wilarne M'Tree are
the foremost hairdressers in Mandrigyn. There isn't a woman in the city they
cannot speak to at will, from noblewomen like Sheera and Drypettis Dru down to
common whores."
Sun
Wolf looked out at them again-there must have been close to three hundred women
there, sitting on the worn and dusty pine of the floor or on the edges of the
big earth tubs that contained the orange trees. Smooth, beardless faces turned
toward him; he was aware of watching eyes, bright hair, and small feet tucked
up underneath the colors of the long skirts. Whether it was from their numbers
alone, or whether the hypocaust under the floor had been fired, the huge, barn
like room was warm, and the smell of old dirt and citrus was mingled with the
smells of women and of perfume. The rustle of their gowns and of the lace on
the wrists of the rich ones was like a summer forest.
Then
silence.
Into
that silence, Sheera spoke.
"We
got back from Kedwyr today," she said without preamble, and her clear,
rather deep voice penetrated easily into the fusty brown shadows of the room.
"All of you know why we went. You put your money into the venture and your
hearts- did without things, some of you, to contribute; or put yourselves in
danger; or did things that you'd rather not have done to get the money. You
know the value of what you gave-I certainly do."
She
stood up, the gold of her brocade gown turned her into a glittering flame, the
stiff lace of her collar tangling with the fire-jewels in her hair. From where
he stood behind her, Sun Wolf could see the faces of the women, rapt to
silence, their eyes drinking in her words.
"All
of you know the plan," she continued, leaning her rump against the edge of
the table, her gem-bright hands relaxed among the folds of her skirts. "To
hire mercenaries, storm the mines, free the men, and liberate the city from
Altiokis and the pack of vultures he's put in charge. I want you to know right
away that I couldn't hire anyone.
"Maybe
I shouldn't have been surprised," she went on. "Winter's coming.
Nobody wants to fight a winter war. Every man's first loyalty is to himself,
and nobody wanted to risk Altiokis' wrath, not even for gold. I understand
that."
Her
voice rose a little, gaining strength and power. "But for them it's only
money. For us it's our lives. There isn't a woman here who doesn't have a
man-lover, husband, father- who either died at Iron Pass or was enslaved there.
And that was every decent man in the city; every man who had the courage to
march in Tarrin's army in the first place, every man who understood what would
happen if Altiokis added Mandrigyn to his empire. We've seen it in other
cities-at Racken Scrag, and at Kilpithie. We've seen him put the corrupt, the
greedy, and the unscrupulous into power-the men who'll toad-eat to him for the
privilege of making their own money out of us. We've seen him put such a man in
charge here."
Their
eyes went to Drypettis Dru, who had come in with Sheera and taken her seat as
close to the table as she could, almost literally sitting at her leader's feet.
Throughout the speech, she had been silent, gazing up at Sheera with the
passionate gleam of fanaticism in her brown eyes, her little hands clenched
desperately in her lap; but as the women looked at her, she sat up a bit.
"You
have all heard the evil reports of Derroug," Sheera said in a quieter
tone. "I think there are some of you who have-had experience with
his-habits." Her dark eyes flashed somberly. "You will know that his
own sister has turned against him and has been like my right hand in organizing
our cause."
"Not
turned against him," Drypettis corrected in her rather high, breathless
voice. "My brother's actions have always been deplorable and repugnant to
me. He has disgraced our house, which was the highest in the city. For that I
shall never forgive him. Nor for his lewdness toward you, nor-"
"Nor
shall any of us forgive him, Drypettis," Sheera said, cutting short what
threatened to turn into a discursive catalog of the governor's sins. "We
have all seen the evil effects of Altiokis' rule starting here in Mandrigyn. If
it is to be stopped, we must stop it now.
"We
must stop it," she repeated, and her voice pressed heavily on the words.
"We are fighting for more than just ourselves. We all have children. We
all have families-or had them." A murmur stirred like wind through the
room. "Since we can't hire men, we have to learn to do what we can
ourselves."
She
looked about her, into that shadowy, eye-glittering silence. The candlelight
caught in the stiff fabric of her golden gown, making her flash like an
upraised sword blade.
"We've
all done it," she said. "Since Iron Pass, you've all stepped in to
take over your husbands' affairs, in one way or another. Emtwyff, you go out
every day with the fishing fleet. Most of the fleet is now manned by
fishermen's wives, isn't it? Eo, you've taken over the forge ..."
"Had
to," said a big, cowlike woman, whose whips of ivory-fair hair marked her
as a relation of Gilden Shorad's. "Woulda starved, else."
"And
you've taken Gilden's daughter Tisa for your apprentice, too, haven't you?
Sister Quincis, they tell me they've even been appointing women as provisional
priests in the Cathedral, something they haven't done in hundreds of years.
Fillibi, you're running your husband's store-and running it damned well,
too.. And nobody cares whether any of
you wears a veil or not, or has a chaperon. Business is business.
"Well,
our business is defending the city and freeing the men. We've all proved women
can work as well as men. I think they can fight as well as men, too.
"I
think all of you know," she continued, her voice growing grave, "that
if you put a woman with her back to the wall, fighting, not for herself, but
for her man, her children, and her home, she's braver than a man, tougher than
a man-hell, she's tougher than a cornered rat. And, ladies, that's where we
are."
If she
asked for volunteers, they'd turn out to a woman, the Wolf thought. She has a
king's magic: that magic of trust.
Damned
arrogant bitch.
Sheera's
voice was low; a pin could have been heard dropping in the breathing silence of
the orangery. "No," she said,
"I
couldn't hire men to do it. But I hired one man-to come here and teach us to do
it ourselves, we're wilting to fight. There's a difference between just giving
money, no matter how much money, and picking up a sword yourself. And I tell
you, ladies-now is the time to see that difference."
They
could not applaud, for the sound would carry, but the silence was a magic crown
on those dark curls. Point them the way, Sun Wolf thought cynically, and they'd
march to the mines tonight, the silly bitches, and be dead by morning. Like too
many rulers, Sheera had the quality of making others ready to go out and fight
without ever asking themselves what it would cost them.
He gave
himself a little shove with his shoulder against the doorframe and walked to
where she stood before them in that aura of candle flame, flamelike herself in
her golden gown. At this movement, she turned her head, surprised. Maybe she
didn't think I'd speak, he thought, with a prickle of anger at that certainty
of hers. He turned to the devouring sea of eyes.
"What
Sheera says is true," he agreed quietly, the gravelly rumble of his voice
pitched, as a leader must know how to pitch it, to the size of his troop.
"A woman fighting for her children-or occasionally for a man-will fight
like a cornered rat. But I've driven rats into corners and killed them with the
toe of my boot, and don't think that can't happen to you."
Sheera
swung around, the whole of her body glittering with rage. He caught her gaze
and silenced her, as if he had laid a hand over her mouth. After a moment, his
eyes returned to the women.
"So
all right, I agreed to teach you, to make warriors out of you; and by the
spirits of my ancestors, I'll do it, if I have to break your necks. But I want
you all to understand what it is you're doing.
"War
is serious. War is dead serious. You are all smaller, lighter, and slower on
the run than men. If you expect to beat men in combat, you had damned well
better be twice as good as they are. I can make you twice as good. That's my job.
But in the process, you're going to get cut up, you're going to get hurt,
you're going to get shouted at and cursed, and you'll crawl home so exhausted
you can hardly stand up, because that's the only way to get good, especially if
you're little enough for some man to lift and carry away under his arm."
His eyes picked the diminutive Gilden Shorad out of the crowd and met a hard,
challenging, sea-blue stare.
"So
if you don't think you can finish the race, don't waste my time by starting it.
Whenever I get a batch of new recruits, I end up shaking out about half of
them, anyway. You don't have to be tough lo start-I'll make you tough. But you
have to stay with it. And you have to be committed to killing people and maybe
losing a limb or losing your life. That's war."
His
eyes raked them, gleaming like a gold beast's in the dimness: the whores, sweet
as all the spices of the East with their curled hair and painted eyes; the
brown laborer women, prematurely old, like bundles of dowdy serge; the wives of
merchants, now many of them merchants themselves, soft and well cared for in
their lace and jewels.
"You
decide if you can do it or not," he said quietly. "I want my corps
here tomorrow night at this time. That's all."
He
turned and met Sheera's eyes. Under her lowered lids he could see the
speculation, the curiosity and reevaluation, as if she were wondering what she
had brought to Mandrigyn.
CHAPTER
-- 6 --
THIS IS
A SWORD, SUN WOLF SAID. YOU HOLD IT BY THIS end."
He
glared at the dozen women who stood in a line before him, all of them wheezing
with the exertion of an hour of warming-up and tumbling exercises that had
convinced them, as well as their instructor, that they'd never be warriors.
"You."
He pointed to Gilden Shorad's partner-in-crime, the tiny, fragile-looking
Wilarne M'Tree. She stepped forward, bright, black eyes raised trustingly to
his, and he tossed the weapon to her hilt-first. She fielded it, but he saw by
the way she caught herself that it was heavier than she'd been ready for.
He held
out his hand and snapped his fingers. She threw it back awkwardly. He plucked
it out of the air with no visible effort.
"You're
going to be working with weighted weapons," he told them, as he'd told the
two groups he had worked with last night and would tell another group later on
tonight. "That's the only way you can build up the strength in your
arms."
One of
the women protested, "But I thought we-"
He
whirled on her. "You ask for permission to speak!" he snapped.
Her
face reddened angrily. She was a tall, piquant-faced woman with the red-gold
hair of a highlander, her breasts small under their leather binding, her legs
rather knock-kneed in her short linen drawers, the marks of past pregnancies
printed on the muscleless white flesh of her belly. After a moment, she said in
a stifled tone, "Permission to speak, sir."
"Permission
granted," he growled.
Permission
to speak, he had found, was one of the best ways to break the first rush of
hasty words. Most recruits didn't know what they were talking about, anyway.
It
worked in this case. Her first outburst checked, the woman spoke in sullenness
rather than in outrage. "I thought we were training for a-a surprise
attack. A sneak attack."
"You
are," Sun Wolf said calmly. "But if something goes wrong, or if
you're trapped, you may have to take on a man with a sword-or several men, for
that matter. You may have to hold off attackers from the rest of the party or
maintain a key position while the others go on. You won't just be fighting for
your own life then, you'll be fighting for everybody's."
The
woman stepped back, blushing hotly and greatly discomfited. With instinctive
tact, the Wolf turned to the other women. "That goes for all of you,"
he told them gruffly. "And for anything I teach. I was hired because I'm a
warrior-I know what you're going to run up against. Believe me, everything I
teach you has a purpose, no matter how pointless it seems. I can't take the
time to explain it to you. Do you understand?"
Cowed,
they nodded.
He
bellowed at them, "Don't just stand mere bobbing your heads up and down! I
can't hear your brains rank at this distance! Do you understand?"
"Yes,
sir," Gilden and Wilame hastened to reply.
He
glared at the group of them. "What?"
All of
them chorused this time. "Yes, sir."
He
nodded brusquely. "Good." He jerked his thumb at the weapons that lay
amid a pile of sacking in one comer of the dimly lighted orangery. "There
are your weapons. Along the wall you'll find posts embedded in the floor."
He pointed to where he had set the posts himself earlier that day, where they
would be easily concealable among the old tree rubs and stacks of clay pots.
"I want to see your exercise-backhand, forehand, and down, just those
three strokes. First just to get the hang of your sword, men as hard as you
can, as if you had a man in front of you, out to slice off your heads."
A few
of them looked squeamish at the idea; others started eagerly for the weapons.
Sun Wolf roared, "Get back into ranks!"
They
did-quickly. The tall woman looked as if she might speak, but thought better of
it.
"Nobody
breaks ranks until I give the order," he barked at them. "If you were
my men, I'd smarten you up with a switch. As it is, all I can do is throw you
out on your pretty little arses before you endanger the rest of the troop by
failure to obey orders. If I tell you to stand in ranks and then I walk out of
the room and take a nap, I'd better find you still in ranks and on your feet
when I get back, even if it's the next morning. You understand?"
"Yes,
sir," they sang out.
"Now
go!" He clapped his hands, and the echoes of it were still ringing in the
high rafters as the women scattered to obey.
Behind
him, a woman's voice remarked, "You're being nice to them."
He
glanced back and met Denga Rey's dark, sardonic eyes. Like him, and like most
of the women, the gladiator was stripped for exercise, and her brown body was
marked with scars of varying age. The feeble lamplight flashed on the bald arch
of her skull.
He
grunted. "If you call that 'nice' you have a different standard of it than
I do, woman."
"After
the gladiators' school," the warrior returned equably, "you're a
lover's caress-and I think we've got the same standard, soldier."
He
studied her in silence for a moment. She was younger than he'd first thought,
probably not more than twenty-one or twenty-two, a big, dark mare of a girl
with belly muscles as ridged and ripply as a crocodile's back. In her
alternation of silence and mockery on the voyage, he had sensed her animosity
toward him and had wondered what he would do if his only possible
second-in-command hated him because she was not first. He knew himself to be an
intruder to the organization, whether against his will or not. Sheera was still
clearly in command, but he had usurped a spot only slightly below hers; no
matter how much they needed him, there was bound to be ill will. He had just
been wondering whether it would come down to a physical confrontation between
himself and the gladiator when, for reasons of her own, she had apparently
decided to accept him; but occasionally he still caught her watching him with a
strange gleam in her dark eyes.
"There's
no point in taking it out on them because I was dragooned into this
lunacy," he said at last. Then, nodding toward them, he asked, "What
do you think of them?"
She
grinned. "They're rather sweet," she said. "Six months ago,
you'd never have got a sword into their dainty little mitts. But since the men have
been gone, they've been learning that they can work-not just these women, or
the women in the conspiracy, but all of them. They're running the shops, the
farms, and the banking and merchant concerns as well. I think some of them,
like our Gilden, even enjoy having a blade in their hands."
He
admitted grudgingly, "I will say this for them-they did turn out. That
surprised me. Most people will put up all the money you want, from a safe
distance."
She
shrugged her shoulders, the muscles of them shining like brown hardwood.
"They did put up a phenomenal amount of money, you know," she
remarked. "For all that little Drypettis gets under my skin, she's a
damned good organizer when it comes to the tin side of an operation. She was
responsible for that end of it."
"Was
she?" His eyes traveled down the line of sweating women, hacking doggedly
at their posts, as he searched out Sheera's pint-size disciple.
"Of
course. She's still the one who holds the purse strings of the operation. When
it was just a question of hiring you and your men, she was Sheera's number two
person. It's Dru who's kept that damned brother of hers off our backs,
too," she added, flicking a speck of dust from the worn black leather of
her breast guard. "She's done one hell of a lot for the organization-but
damn, that pinch face of hers sticks in my craw. If Sheera hadn't pointed out
to her that what we were doing was a military operation, I don't think she'd
ever have spoken to me."
His
eyes narrowed as they returned to that straight, rigid back and the long tail
of thick brown hair that dangled between those slender shoulders.
Not
Denga Rey. It was Drypettis whom he had supplanted.
From
what he'd seen of her, she wasn't likely to take kindly to being ousted from
her place as Sheera's advisor and relegated to mere trooper-the more so because
she was not that good a trooper. He remembered her expression on the wharf when
Denga Rey, Amber Eyes, and their rowdy friends had rioted past, whistling at
him like a crowd of sailors ogling a girl-an expression not only of embarrassed
rage but also almost of pain at having to associate with such people at all.
Politics
makes strange bedfellows and no error, he thought and wondered again how these
disparate women had ever come together in the first place.
"And
what about you?" he asked Denga Rey as the gladiator stood, scarred arms
folded, surveying their joint charges. "How'd a nice girl like you end up
in a place like this?"
Her
eyes mocked him. "Me? Oh, I'm in this only for the sake of die one I
love."
He
stared at her in surprise. "You have a man up in the mines?" It was
the last thing he would have expected of her.
The
curved, black eyebrows shot up; then she burst into a whoop of delighted
laughter. "A man? she choked, her eyes dancing. "You think I'd do
this for a man? Oh, soldier, you kill me." And she swaggered off,
chuckling richly to herself.
Sun
Wolf shook his head and turned his attention back to the laboring women. The
hard maple of the practice posts was barely chipped-none of them seemed to have
any idea how to hold or use a sword. He rolled his eyes briefly heavenward, as
if seeking advice from his ancestors-not, he reflected, that any of the lunatic
berserkers whose seed had spawned him had ever found themselves in the position
of teaching a bunch of soft-bred and lily-handed ladies the grim arts of war.
Then he went patiently down the line, correcting grips that would surely have
cost the wielders their weapons at the first blow, if they didn't break their wrists
in the bargain.
Most of
the young men who had come to him in Wrynde, singly or in small troops, were
not novices. They had handled swords, if only in the more gentlemanly arts of
dueling or militia training. Their muscles were hardened from the sports of
boys or from work. A fair number of these women-the wealthier ones
especially-had very dearly done neither sports nor work since childhood. Their
bodies, as he viewed them with a critical eye that brought blushes to the
cheeks of those who noticed the direction of his gaze, might be trim enough,
but their flesh was slack.
He
shook his head again. And they expected to be able to storm the mines! He only
hoped to be far along the road to Wrynde when they tried it.
He went
back along the line, patiently correcting strokes.
Many of
them shied from his touch, having been trained to walk veiled and downcast in
the presence of men. The tall woman who had challenged him was red-faced and
missish; Gilden Shorad, coldly businesslike; Wilame M'Tree, grave and trusting.
Drypettis jerked violently from his correcting hand, and for a moment he saw in
her eyes not only a jealous hatred but terror as well. A virgin, he thought. It
figures. And likely to remain that way, for all her prettiness.
Gently,
he held out his hand for the sword and demonstrated the proper way to use it.
Those huge, pansy-brown eyes followed the movements of his hand devouringly,
without once straying to either his body or his face. Her cheeks were scarlet,
as if scalded.
For all
that she was a tough little piece, and grittily determined to do well, she was
another one, Sun Wolf thought, whom he'd have to watch.
It was
only at Sheera's insistence that she had been included in the troop at all.
The
first muster of women had yielded over a hundred, of whom he had cut almost
half on the spot. Some of them had been dismissed purely for physical
reasons-fatness, or that telltale pallor of internal pain that marked old
childbirth injuries. Many of them he'd cut because of the obvious signs of
drunkenness or drug addiction. Four girls he had rejected simply because they
were thirteen years old, though they had sworn, with tears, that they were
fifteen and their mothers knew where they were. Three women he had dismissed,
as tactfully as he could, because his instincts and a very short observation
told him that they were quarrelsome, people who fomented discord either for
their own amusement or simply unconsciously, as if they could not help it. The
female version of this was less physical than that of the male, but the result
was the same. In a secret command, troublemakers were not to be tolerated.
The
women who were left were mostly young, the wives of craftsmen and laborers,
though there was a fair sprinkling of merchants' wives of varying degrees of
wealth. About a dozen were whores, though privately. Sun Wolf did not expect
most of them to stay the course. Enormous experience in the field had taught
him that most women who sold themselves for a living lacked either discipline or
the strength to control their lives-and he suspected this to be true even of
those whom he had not rejected out of hand for drinking or drugs. One of the
women in the final group that remained was a nun, an elderly woman who'd been
the Convent baker for twenty years and had a grip like a blacksmith's. He
thought of Starhawk and smiled.
Those
who were left he had divided into four groups, with instructions to report on
alternate nights, either a few hours after sunset or at midnight. With luck,
this arrangement would keep Sheera's townhouse and grounds from being obviously
the center of activity, for there were three or four ways into the compound,
and others were being devised. Yirth had sworn a death curse upon betrayal from
within, and the women had sworn fellowship with one another and loyalty to
Sheera.
They
were as safe as they could be, given the appalling circumstances, but Sun Wolf
looked down the line of those white, sweating, sluglike bodies with no
particularly sanguine hopes of success.
The
women slipped quietly away from the bathhouse at the bottom of the grounds
nearly two hours later, gowned once more as the respectable matrons or maidens
they had been before they took up the study of arms. From the dark door of the
orangery, Sun Wolf watched them, brief shadows against the dull, reddish glow
from the pavilion's windows, seeking passages, posterns, plank bridges over the
canals, and the narrow back streets that would lead them to gondolas tied up in
secluded courtyard lagoons. Light rainfall pattered on the bare, gray stems of
the deserted garden. Beyond the walls, the lapping of the canals formed the
murmurous background music to all life in that watery city.
The
water clock in the dim room behind him told him that it would shortly be
midnight. The women of the next group would appear soon.
The
cold dampness bit into the bare flesh of his shoulders and legs, and he turned
back into the silent wooden vaults of the organgery itself.
Sheera
was there, wrapped in a shawl of flame-colored wool whose fringes brushed her
bare feet. She was dressed for training in short drawers and leather guards,
and her dark eyes were angry.
"Do
you have to run them so hard?" she demanded shortly. "Some of them
are so exhausted they can hardly stagger."
"You
want to ask 'em whether they'd rather be exhausted now or slaughtered to the
last woman later on?"
Her
face reddened. "Or are you trying to run them all out, in the hopes that
I'll give up my plans to free the men from the mines?"
"Women,
I've learned by this time it's no use hoping you'll give up any plan that
you've come up with, no matter how witless it is," he snapped at her,
walking over to the room's single brazier of charcoal to rub his hands over the
molten glow of the blaze. "If those women can't take it, they'd better get
out of the army. We don't know what kind of resistance you'll meet with up in
the mines. Since you've made me the instructor, I'm damned well going to
prepare those women for anything."
"There's
no need to-" she began hotly.
"There
is, unless they train more than a couple of hours every other night!" He
swung back to face her, the reflection of the fire edging him in a line of
gold. "And considering that you couldn't come up with more than fourteen
swords..."
"We're
doing what we can about that!" she retorted. "And about finding
somewhere else to practice during the daytime. But the first thing Derroug Dru
did when he came to power was collect every weapon in the city-"
"I
told you that in the beginning."
"Shut
up! And he has spies everywhere within the walls."
"Then
meet outside the city."
"Where?"
she lashed out viciously.
With
silky sweetness he replied, "That's your affair, madam. I'm only your
humble slave, remember? But I'm telling you that if those women don't get more
training than they're getting, they'll never be soldiers."
"Do
you sometimes wonder if Sheera is crazy?" he asked Amber Eyes, much later,
as the pale glow of the sinking moon broke through the clouds to filter through
the loft window and touch the fallow gold of her hair. It lay like a river of
silk over his arm and chest, almost white against the brown of his skin.
She
considered the matter for a moment, a grave look coming into those usually
dreamy, golden eyes. Bedroom eyes, he called them, gentle and a little
vulnerable, even when she was wielding a sword. At length she said, "No.
At least, no crazier than the rest of us."
He
shifted his shoulders against the pillow. "That isn't saying much."
She
turned her head, where it lay in the crook of his arm, and studied him for a
moment, a tiny frown creasing her brow. The moonlight glimmered on the
thread-fine chain of gold that encircled her throat, its shadow like a delicate
pen stroke where it crossed the tiny points of her collarbone and vanished into
the softer shadows of her hair.
The
night of the first meeting in the orangery, when he had come up the stairs, she
had been here, waiting, sitting on the edge of the narrow bed, clothed only in
that heavy golden mane. Never one to question opportunity, Sun Wolf had taken
her-that night and on the two nights since. He occasionally wondered why she
had come to him, since she was obviously afraid of him; but aside from the love
talk of her trade, she was a silent girl, enigmatic and evasive when he spoke
to her.
Tonight
was the first time she had treated him like a partner in the same enterprise,
rather than a customer.
The
orangery below them was silent now, and the garden still but for the incessant
whisper of the canal beyond the walls. After a final, inconclusive quarrel with
Sheera, Sun Wolf had gone to the bathhouse, dark after the departure of the
women, its only light the soft, red pulsation under the copper boilers. By this
dim glow, he'd stripped, left his clothes on the baroque, black and gilt marble
bench in the antechamber, washed, and then swum for a time in the lightless
waters of the hot pool.
It had
eased his muscles, if not his feelings.
When
Amber Eyes had been too long silent, he said, "She's crazy if she thinks
she's going to rescue this Prince Tarrin safe and sound. Oh, I know someone's
supposed to have seen him alive, but they always say that of a popular
ruler."
"Oh,
no." She sat up a little, those gold kitten eyes very earnest in the wan
moonlight. "I've seen him. In fact, I delivered a message to him only a
few weeks ago, the last time I was up in the mines making maps."
Sun
Wolf stared at her. "What?"
"Oh,
yes," she said. "We've all seen him-Cobra, Crazy-red ..." She
named two of the other courtesans in the troop. "Plus a lot of the girls
you cut-the pros, I mean. How else could we let him know what's going on
here?"
"You
mean," Sun Wolf said slowly, "you've been in communication with the
men all along?"
"Of
course." Amber Eyes sat up with a swift, compact lightness and shook out
the splendid pale gold mane around shoulders that gleamed like alabaster in the
shadows. She seemed to forget the languid grace of a courtesan and hugged her
arms around her knees. "I expect Sheera didn't want to tell you about
it," she added frankly, "but that end of the organization was set
up-oh, long before we went to fetch you."
The
disingenuous phrase made him smile. For all her shy appearance, when she wasn't
hiding behind what Sun Wolf thought of as her professional manner, Amber Eyes
could be disarmingly outspoken. He'd seen it in her dealings with other women
in the troop. It was as if she showed to men-to her customers-only what they
thought they wanted to see.
"Did
Sheera set that up?" he wanted to know.
She
shook her head. "This was before Sheera and Dru got into it. It came about
almost by chance, really. Well, you know that the city was very hard hit, with
the men gone. We-the pros-didn't feel it emotionally so sharply, except for
those who had regular lovers who had marched with Tarrin. But I remember one
afternoon I went to Gilden's hairdressing parlor-all of us who can afford the
prices go to Gilden and Wilarne-and she said that her own husband had been
killed, but that Wilarne didn't know whether Beddick-her husband-was alive or
dead. Gilden said that many others were in the same situation. Wilarne was half
distracted by grief-not that Beddick was anyone to compose songs about, mind
you-and I said I'd see what I could learn. So I went riding in the foothills
near one of the southern entrances to the mines that looks out onto Iron Pass
and I let my horse get away from me and pretended to sprain my foot-the
usual." She smiled with remembered amusement. "The superintendent of
that end of the mines was very gallant.
"After
that it was easy. The next time I went up, I brought friends. The
superintendents of the various sections of the mines and the sergeants of the
guards don't get into town often. It's forbidden to them to have women up to
the barracks, but who's going to report it? Gilden and I were able to set up a
regular information service that way, getting news of who was dead and who was
alive-Beddick the Bland for one, and, eventually, Tarrin."
Her
face clouded in the veiled moonlight. "That was how Sheera came into it in
the first place. She'd heard that there was a way of getting news. She got word
to me through Gilden. By that time we had girls going up almost every day and
we were starting to pass messages in code. Tarrin, it turned out, was starting
to organize the miners already, passing messages from gang to gang as they were
taken here and there to different work sites in the mines. The men are taken
from one place to another in darkness, so they haven't any clear idea of where
they are in the tunnels; if a man wanders away from his gang, he can wander in
the deeper tunnels until he dies. The tunnels arc gated, too, and locked off
from one another. But they were starting to work up maps by the time we got in touch
with them. On our end, we'd already begun to make maps of the mine entrances,
the guardrooms, and where the main barracks are that guard the tunnels from the
mines up into the Citadel of Grimscarp itself."
Sun
Wolf frowned. "There are ways from the Citadel down into the mines?"
"That's
what the miners say. It's because the Citadel's so inaccessible from the
outside-it's very defensible, of course, but because of the way it's placed, on
the very edge of the cliff, the road from Racken Scrag-the Wizard King's
administrative town at the other end of Iron Pass-has to tunnel through a
shoulder of the mountain itself even to get to the gates. Since it was so
expensive to bring food up the Scarp, they connected that tunnel directly with
the mines; now they haul the food straight up from Racken through the mountain
itself. The ways into the Citadel from the mines are said to be heavily guarded
by magic and illusion."
"But
if you women storm the mines," the Wolf said grimly, "Aitiokis can
send his troops right down on top of you directly from the Citadel. Isn't that
right?"
"Well..
."Amber Eyes said unhappily. "If we strike quickly enough..."
"Wonderful."
He sighed and slumped back against the pillows. "More battles have been
lost because some fool of a general was basing his plans on 'if this or
that.'"
"We
do have Yirth, though," the girl said defensively. "She can protect
us against the worst of Aitiokis' magic and spot his illusions."
"Yirth."
He sniffed, his fingers involuntarily touching the metal links of his chain.
"Thai's how she got into this, isn't it?"
"Well,
yes." Amber Eyes looked down at her hands, restlessly pleating a corner of
the sheet between her fingers. Outside, a wind-tossed branch scratched like a
ghoul's fingers at the roof. The lantern on a passing gondola reflected in a
watery smear of dark gold against the window's rippled glass.
"It
was Sheera who brought Yirth into it," she said at length. "We all
knew Yirth, of course-I don't think there's a woman in the city who hasn't gone
to her for contraceptives, abortions, love philters, or just because she's the
only doctor in the city who's a woman. Sheera was one of the very few who knew
she was a wizard. She never had anything to do with the organization when all we
did was pass information back and forth.
"But
when Sheera came into it-she changed it. Before, it had all been so hopeless.
What was the point in communicating with the men in the mines, even if they
were men you loved, if there was no hope of their ever getting out? If
something went wrong here-if your property was confiscated, or your friends
arrested-you couldn't tell them of it, really, because it would only add to
their misery. But Sheera was the one who said that where information could be
exchanged, plans could be formed. She gave us hope.
"And
then Dru figured out a way that we could get money from the treasury, and they
started raising funds to hire mercenaries. And ..." She spread her hands,
her fine fingers almost translucent in the ivory moonlight. "Our
organization became a part of theirs-and Tarrin's. Tarrin and the men are still
getting us information on the mines, sending it through the skags..."
"The
what?" The word was familiar to him from mercenary slang; he knew it to
mean the cheapest sort of women who'd sell themselves to hide tanners and
garbagemen for the price of a cup of inferior wine.
"The
skags." She widened those soft, mead-colored orbs at him. "You
know-the ugly women or the fat ones or the old, flabby ones. The guards think
it's hilarious to throw them to a gang of miners. Some of the slaves down there
have been in the mines so long they're almost beasts themselves." The
delicate lips tightened into momentary hardness, and an anger that he had never
seen before flashed in those kitten eyes. "They'll drag one of these women
down and toss her into a slave barracks, say, 'Have at her, boys,' and then
leave."
She was
silent for a moment, looking out into the distance, drawing the edge of the
sheet over and over through her fingers. Outwardly her face was calm, but her
rage against the men who had the power to do this-and perhaps against all men-
was like a heat that he could feel through her silken skin where it touched his
shoulder. And who was he to argue? he wondered bitterly. The memory of things
that he himself, or men he had known, had considered funny while half drunk and
sacking a city silenced him before her anger.
Then
she shrugged and put the anger aside. "But it's the skags who communicate
from gang to gang of the men. Mostly Tarrin's orders keep them from being
abused. The superintendents keep mixing the newcomers, the men of Mandrigyn, in
with older miners-there are thousands of them down there-to prevent the men
from plotting among themselves. But they only spread the plot. And the rest of
us-the ones most of these men wouldn't let their wives talk to before the war-
have gotten maps of the mines and wax impressions of the keys to the gates-you
know Gilden's sister Eo is a smith? She copies the keys-and details of where
the armories are."
He
settled his back against the wall and regarded her almost wonderingly in the
shadows. Outside, the moonlight was dimming, and the smell of rain blew in
through the window like a cold perfume. Limned by the faint light, the girl's
face looked young, almost childlike; he remembered her by candlelight in the
rose-scented room in Kedwyr, laughing that soft, throaty, professional laugh as
she drew him into the conspiracy's trap. He realized that it was a compliment
to him that she showed him her other face-frank, open, without artifice, the
face she showed her women friends. Undoubtedly, it was the face she showed her
lover. He found himself wondering if she had a lover, as opposed to a
"regular"; or if he, like Gilden's nameless husband, like Beddick
M'Tree, like so many others, had followed Tarrin of the House of Her on that
last campaign up to the Iron Pass.
The
warm weight of her settled against his shoulder, a gesture of intimacy that was
less sexual than friendly, like a cat deciding to settle on his knee.
"We've been talking too much," she said, and her professional voice
was back, soft and teasing.
"One
more question," he said. "Why are you here?"
She
smiled.
He
intercepted her reaching hand. "You're afraid of me, aren't you?"
He felt
her body shift in the circle of his arm; when she answered, her voice was that
of a girl of nineteen, scarred by what she was, but frank and without artifice.
"I was," she said. Moonlight tipped her lashes in silver as she looked
up at him. "But I didn't think it was fair for you not to know how things
stood with the organization. Dru and Sheera said that the less you knew, the
less you could tell anyone. But as for your question..." Her lips brushed
his in the darkness. "I have my secrets, too."
He drew
her lo him. As he moved, the links of the chain around his neck jangled faintly
in the silence of the dark loft.
CHAPTER
-- 7 --
THE
PROBLEMS OF WEAPONS AND OF A SECONDARY PLACE TO practice by daylight, away from
Derroug Dru's spies, were solved, not by Sheera's ingenuity, but by fate,
guided presumably by Sun Wolf's deceased and uproariously amused ancestors.
The
Thanelands that lay to the east of Mandrigyn had long been under the
governorship of Altiokis; indeed, the haughty and old-fashioned Thanes of the
clans that held them had been the first to swear allegiance to the Wizard King.
But Altiokis' realm had spread to the richer cities of the coastlands and had
drawn upon the slave-worked veins of gold and silver in the mountains for its
wealth. The Thanelands were left, as they had always been, as a useless and
sparsely populated backwater. The roads winding into those gray hills from the
jumble of taverns and dives of East Shore led nowhere. After the sheep dial
grazed on the scraggly grass and heather had been folded hi for the winter, the
Thanelands lay utterly empty.
So it
was an easy matter for the women to slip across the Rack River in the predawn
darkness of a rainy morning and be away from all sight of the city by sunup, to
run in the wilderness of whin and peat bogs unobserved.
Freezing
wind blew another squall of rain over Sun Wolf's bare back. In the low ground
between the drenched, gray hills, the water lay like hammered silver, just
above the freezing point; on the high ground, the rocks made the easiest going,
for the wet, bare, winter-tough brambles could scratch even the most liberally
mud-armored flesh.
Ahead
of him, the main pack of the running women bobbed through the colorless light
of the wan afternoon. They were clearly flagging.
Those
who hadn't braided their hair up wore it in slick, sodden cloaks down over
their backs. Just ahead of him, a slender woman raised her arms to gather up a
soaked blond coil that reached almost down to her shapely backside, her pace
slackening as she did so. Sun Wolf, overtaking her in the slashing rain,
bellowed, "You going to mess with your poxy hair in battle,
sweetheart?"
She
turned a startled, flowerlike face upon him, now haggard with fatigue; others,
as guilty as she, looked also. He raised his voice into a cutting roar, meant
to be heard over the din of battle. "Next person who touches her hair, I'm
going to cut it off!"
They
ail buckled to and ran harder, arms swinging, knees pumping, leather-bound
breasts bouncing, drawers sticking wetly to their bodies in the rain. They had
all come to the conclusion, in the course of the last week, that there was not
a great deal that Sun Wolf would not do.
And
that, he thought grimly as he increased his own pace and forged easily ahead
through the pack, was as it should be.
Very
few of the women ran well. Tisa did-Gilden Shorad's leggy fifteen-year-old
daughter. So did whatever her name was- a rangy, homely mare of a fisherman's
wife-Emtwyff Fish. So did Denga Rey. The rest of them had been soft-raised, and
even the hardiest had neither the wind nor the endurance for sustained
fighting.
A few
of them, Sun Wolf was amused to note, still suffered agonies of
self-consciousness about being near naked in the presence of a man.
He
passed Sheera, laboring exhaustedly in the rear third of the field. Her black
hair was plastered to her cheeks where it -had come out of its braids; she was
muddy, wet, gasping, and still enough to stir a man's blood in his veins. He
hoped viciously that she was enjoying training as a warrior.
On the
whole. Sun Wolf was surprised at how many had lasted that first week.
A
week's hard training had cut their numbers down to fifty, and it spoke well for
their determination that any had remained at all. All of them-maidens, matrons,
and those who were neither-had been subjected to the most taxingly rigorous
physical training that Sun Wolf could devise; tumbling to train the reflexes
and identify the cowards; weights and throwing to strengthen the arms;
hand-to-hand fighting, wrestling, or dueling with blunted weapons; running on
the hills. These were preliminaries to the more vicious arts of infighting and
sneaky death to come.
Women
who the Wolf would have sworn would make champions with the best had dropped
out; half-pints like Wilarne M'Tree and maladroits like Drypettis Dru were
still with them. He could see those two from where he ran, laboring along a
dozen yards behind the rest of the pack.
Sun
Wolf was rapidly coming to the conclusion that he did not and never would
understand women.
Starhawk...
He had
always thought of Starhawk as different from other women, even from the other
warrior women of his own troop. It was only now, when he was surrounded by
women, that elements of her personality fell into place for him, and he saw her
as both less and more enigmatic, a woman who had rejected the subjugation these
women had been trained in-had rejected it long before her path had crossed his
own.
Briefly
the memory of their first meeting flitted through his mind; how cold the spring
sunlight had been in the garden of the Convent of St. Cherybi, and how strong
the smell of the new-turned earth. He saw her again as the tail girl she had
been, ascetic, distant, and cold as marble in the dark robes of a nun. He'd
forgotten why he'd even been at the Convent- probably extorting provisions from
the Mother there-but he remembered that moment when their eyes met and he knew
that this woman was a warrior in her heart.
He had
never believed that he would miss her as much as he did. Amber Eyes was
sweet-natured and supremely beddable, exactly the kind of girl he liked-or had
liked, anyway-but it was Starhawk for whom he reached, as a man in danger would
reach for his sword. He had never quite gotten over not having her there at his
side.
His
front runners were cresting the final hill above the copse of woods where they
had gathered that morning. They'd covered about two and a half miles-not bad
for a first run, for women untrained to it, he thought as he slacked his pace
and let himself fall back through the pack once more. He yelled a curse at
Giiden, who was flagging, her face the bright fuchsia hue that extremely fair
women turned in exhaustion; she staggered into a futile but gratifying attempt
at a burst of speed.
He
cursed them as he would have cursed his men, calling them cowards, babies,
sluts. As he fell back farther in the group, to run beside the grimly stumbling
Sister Quincis, he yelled, "I've seen Trinitarian heretics run faster than
that!"
They
broke over the crest of the hill in a spilling wave. Below them, the land lay
barren and grayish brown under the sluicing rain, the long snake of silver
water in the bottom of the vale reflecting the colorless sky. The brush around
it was black, dead with winter. Sun Wolf slowed his pace still further to round
in the last of the stragglers. Denga Key, her hard brown muscles shining with
moisture, had already reached the mere below.
He
yelled after them, "Run, you lazy bitches!" and collected a look from
Drypettis that could have been bottled and sold to remove the veneer from
furniture. He was almost standing still as Wilarne M'Tree staggered past. He
hurried her on her way with a swat on her little round rump.
By the
time he reached the growing group around the water, two or three of them had
recovered enough breath to begin throwing up.
"You
do that in the woods under the leaves where it's not going to be seen by an
enemy scout!" he roared at the green-faced and retching Eo. "You want
Altiokis' spies to follow the stink of you to your hideout? I mean it!" he
added as she started to double over again and, seizing her by the back of the
neck, he shoved her toward the trees. Others had begun to stumble in that
direction already.
To
Sheera, for whom it was too late, he ordered, "Clean that up."
Without
a word, for she was far past speech, she gathered up leaves to obey him.
"And
the rest of you start walking," he ordered curtly. "You'll get
chilled if you stand around, and I'm not going to have the lot of you sniveling
and fainting on me at practice tonight."
"Very
nice!" A voice, deep and harsh as a crow's, laughed from the sheltering
darkness of the nearby woods. "I had been told that any excuse for a
red-blooded male in Mandrigyn had been sent to the mines. I am pleased to see
that the reports were exaggerated."
Sun
Wolf swung around. White-faced, Sheera got to her feet. A tall bay horse
stepped from the tangled brambles of the thickets. The woman on its back sat
sidesaddle, her body straight as a spear. In the shadows of a green oilskin
hood, hazel-gray eyes flashed mockingly. The cloak covered most of her, except
for the hem of her gown and her gloves, and these were of such barbaric
richness as to leave little doubt about her station. The bay's bridle had
cheekpieces of brass, worked into the shape of flowers.
"Marigolds,"
Sheera said quietly. "The emblem of the Thanes of Wrinshardin."
The old
woman turned her head with a slow, ironic smile. "Yes," she purred.
"Yes, I am Lady Wrinshardin. The Thane's mother, not his wife. And you
are, unless I am much mistaken, the legendary Sheera Galena, in whose honor my
son once wrote such puerile verse."
Sheera's
chin came up. The thick curls of her black hair plastered wetly to her cheeks,
and the rain gleamed on her bare arms and shoulders, which had already turned
bright red with cold and gooseflesh. "If your son is the present Thane of
Wrinshardin who courted me when I was fifteen," she replied coolly,
"I am pleased to see that your taste in poetry so closely parallels my
own."
There
was a momentary silence. Then that mocking smile widened, and Lady Wrinshardin
said, "Well. At the time, I presumed that, like most town-bred hussies,
you had turned down the chance of wedding decent blood out of considerations of
money and the boredom of country life. I am pleased to see that you acted
rather from good sense." The sharp, faded old eyes casually raked the
scene before her, taking in the exhausted, bedraggled woman and the big man
with the chain about his neck who had not the eyes of a slave.
"I
don't suppose I have ever seen a man chase this many women since my husband
died," she remarked in her harsh, drawling voice. "And even he never
did so fifty at a time. Is running about the hills naked in the wintertime a
new fad in the town, or could it be that there is a purpose behind this?"
"Not
anything anyone's likely to hear of."
Lady
Wrinshardin turned her head slowly at the sound of Denga Key's voice, as if she
had just noticed the big gladiator. The wrinkled eyelids drooped. "Do I
detect a threat in that rather cryptic utterance?" she inquired
disinterestedly.
The
horse flung up its head with a squeal of fear. From the wet underbrush of the
woods, a ring of women materialized behind and around Lady Wrinshardin, some of
them a little pale, but all as grim-faced as bandits.
One
eyebrow slowly ascended that corrugated forehead. "Goodness," she
murmured to herself. Then, with a quick tweak of the reins, she wheeled the
horse and spurred through the line, heading for open country.
"Stop
her!" Sheera barked.
Hands
grabbed at the bridle, the horse rearing and lashing out at the women who
crowded so close around it. Denga Rey caught the bit, dragging its head down
while the animal twisted violently to get free. "Enough!" Lady
Wrinshardin said sharply, keeping her seat on that pirouetting saddle with the
aplomb of a grandmother riding her rocking chair. "You've proved your
courage; there's no need to be redundant about it to the point of damaging his
mouth."
The
dark woman released her pressure on the bit, but did not step back. Tisa clung
grimly to the rein on the other side, her hair in her eyes, looking absurdly
young. The haughty noblewoman gazed about at the women hemming her in, and the
mocking, amused smile returned to her wrinkled face.
Abruptly
she extended her hand to Tisa. "You may help me down, child."
Startled,
the girl held out her clasped hands to make a step. With a single lithe
movement. Lady Wrinshardin stepped to the ground and crossed the wet grass to
where Sheera stood. She had the haughty and self-centered carriage of a queen.
"Your
troops are well trained," she remarked.
Sheera
shook her head. "Only well disciplined." Alone of the women, she did
not appear to be awed by that elegant matriarch. Even Drypettis, whose
family-as she hastened to remind anyone who was interested-was among the
highest in the city, was cowed. After a moment, Sheera added, "In time,
they will be well trained."
The
eyes flickered to Sun Wolf speculatively, then back to Sheera again. "You
were wise not to wed my son," the lady said, putting back the oilskin hood
to reveal a tight-coiled braid of white hair pinned close about her head.
"He has no more courage than a cur dog that suffers itself to be put out
into the rain and fed only the guts of its kills. He is like his father, who
also feared Altiokis. Have you met Altiokis?"
Sheera
looked startled at the question, as if meeting the Wizard King were tantamount
to meeting one's remoter ancestors, Sun Wolf thought-or meeting the Mother or
the Triple God in person.
The
lady's thin lip curled. "He is vulgar." she pronounced.
"How
such a creature could have lived these many years..." Under their creased
lids, her eyes flickered, studying Sheera, and her square-cut lips settled into
their fanning wrinkles with a look of determination. Sun Wolf was uncomfortably
reminded of an old aunt of his who had kept all of his family and most of the
tribe in terror for years.
"Come
with me to the top of the hill, child," she said at last. The two women
moved off through the wet, winter-faded grass; then Lady Wrinshardin paused and
glanced back, as if as an afterthought, at the Wolf. "You come, too."
He
hesitated, then obeyed her-as everyone else must also obey her-following them
up the steep slope where granite outcrops thrust through the shallow soil, as
if the body of the earth were impatient with that thin and unproductive garment.
Greenish-brown hills circled them under the blowing dun rags of the hoary sky.
"My
great-grandfather swore allegiance to the Thane of Grimscarp a hundred and
fifty years ago," Lady Wrinshardin said after they had climbed in silence
for a few moments, with the tor still rising above their heads, vast as an
ocean swell. "Few remember him or the empire that he set out to build, he
and his son. In those days, many rulers had court wizards. The greater kings,
the lords of the Middle Kingdoms in the southwest, could afford the best. But
those who served the Thanes were either the young, unfledged ones, out to make
their reputations, or the ones who hadn't the ability to be or do anything
more. They were all of a piece, pretty much-my great-grandfather had one, the
Thanes of Schlaeg had one...and the Thanes of Grimscarp, the most powerful of
the Tchard Mountain Thanes, had one.
"His
name was Aitiokis.
"This
much I had from my grandfather, who was a boy when the Thane of Grimscarp
started setting up an alliance of all the Thanes of all the great old clans,
the ancient warrior clans here, in the Tchard Mountains, and down along the
Bight Coast, where they hadn't been pushed out by a bunch of jumped-up
tradesmen and weavers who lived behind city wails and never put their noses out
of doors to tell which way the wind was blowing. This was in the days before
the nuuwa began to multiply until they roamed the mountains and these hills
like foul wolves, the days before those human-dog-things, those abominations
they call ugies, had ever been heard of. The old Thane of Grim wanted to get up
a coalition of the Thanes and the merchant cities and he was succeeding quite
nicely, they say.
"But
something happened to him. Grandfather couldn't remember clearly whether it was
sudden or gradual; he said the old Thane's grip seemed to slip. A week, two
weeks, then he was dead. His son, a boy of eighteen, ruled the new coalition,
with Altiokis at his side.- None of us was ever quite sure when the boy dropped
out of sight."
The
steepness of the hill had slowed their steps, the old woman and the young one
leaning into the slope. Glancing back, the Wolf could see the other women
moving about down below, their flesh bright against the smoky colors of the
ground. Tisa and her aunt, Gilden's sister, the big, bovine Eo, were holding
the horse still and stroking its soft nose; Drypettis, as usual, was sitting
apart from the others, talking to herself; her eyes were jealously following
Sheera.
The
freshening wind cracked in Lady Wrinshardin's cloak like an unfurling sail. The
wry old voice went on. "Altiokis' first conquest was Kilpithie-a
fair-sized city on the other side of the mountains; they wove quite good woolen
cloth there. He used its inhabitants as slaves to build his new Citadel at the
top of the Grim Scarp, where he'd raised that stone hut of his in a single
night. They said that he used to go up there to meditate. From there he raised
his armies and founded his empire."
"With
the armies of the clans?" Sheera asked quietly.
They
had paused for breath, but the climb had warmed her again, and she stood
without shivering, the wind that combed the hillcrests tangling her black hair
across her face.
"At
first," the lady said grimly. "Once he began to mine gold from the
Scarp and from the mountains all about it, he could afford to hire mercenaries.
They always said there was another evil that marched in his armies, too-but
maybe it was only the sort of men he hired. He pollutes all he touches. Strange
beasts multiply in his realm. You know ugies? Ape-things-the Tchard Mountains
are stiff with them, though they were never seen before. Nuuwa-"
"Altiokis
surely didn't invent nuuwa," Sun Wolf put in. He shook his wet hair back,
freeing it of the chain around his neck; he was aware of the old lady's sharp
eyes gauging him, judging the relationship between the chain and Sheera against
the sure-ness and command in his voice. He went on. "You get nuuwa turning
up in records of one place or another for as far back as the records go.
They're mentioned in some of the oldest songs of my tribe, ten, twelve, fifteen
generations ago. Every now and again, you'll just get them, blundering around
the wilderness, killing and eating anything they see."
The
fine-chiseled nostrils flared a little, as if Lady Wrinshardin were unwilling
to concede any evil for which Altiokis were not responsible. "They say
that nuuwa march in his armies."
"I've
heard that," the Wolf said. "But if you know anything about nuuwa,
you'd know it's impossible. For one thing, there just aren't that many of them.
They-they simply appear, but their appearances are few and far between."
"Not
so few these days," she said stubbornly. She pulled her oilskin cloak more
tightly about her narrow shoulders and continued up the hill,
"And
anyway," the Wolf argued as he and Sheera fell into step with her once
more, "they're too stupid to march anywhere. Hell, all they are is walking
mouths..."
"But
it cannot be denied," the lady continued, "that Altiokis spreads evil
to what he touches. The Thanes served him once out of regard for their vows to
the Thane of Grim. Now they do so from fear of him and his armies."
They
stopped at the crest of the hill, while the winds stormed over and around them
like the sea between narrow rocks. Below them on the other side, the Thanelands
rolled on, silent and haunting in their winter drabness, possessed of a weird
spare beauty of their own. The dead heather and grass of the hills of
slate-gray granite gleamed silver with wetness. Twisted trees clung to the
skyline like bent crones and shook flailing fists at the heavens.
Far
off, in a cuplike depression between three hills, a single, half-ruined tower
pointed like a broken bone end toward the windy void above.
"What
you're doing is foolish, you know," the lady said.
Sheera's
nostrils flared, but she said nothing. Quite a tribute, the Wolf thought, to
the old broad's strength of character, if she can keep Sheera quiet.
"I
suppose there's some scheme afoot in the city to free Tarrin and the menfolk
and retake Mandrigyn. As if, having beaten them once, Altiokis could not do so
again."
"He
beat them because they were divided by factions," Sheera said quietly.
"I know. My husband was the first man in Derroug Dru's party and had more
to do than most with Altiokis' victory. Many of the men who supported Altiokis
cause-the poorer ones, whose favor he did not need to buy- were sent to the
mines as well. And my girls, the whores who go up to the mines, tell me that
there is another army of miners, from all corners of Altiokis' realm, who would
fight for the man who freed them."
"Your
sweetheart Tarrin."
Color
blazed into Sheera's face, her red lips opening to retort.
"Oh,
yes, my girl, we've heard all about your Golden Prince, for all that his family
were parvenus who made their money off a salt monopoly and from draining the
swamps to build East Shore. Better blood than your precious husband's,
anyway." She sniffed.
"My
husband-" Sheera began hotly.
Lady
Wrinshardin cut her off. "You really think this pack of white-limbed
schoolgirls can be taught to overcome Altiokis' mercenaries?"
Sheera's
lips tightened, but she said nothing.
The
lady glanced down into the vale behind them, as haughty as if she reviewed her
own troops. Her hands, in their crimson and gold gloves, stroked the oilskin of
her cloak.
"I'll
tell you this, then, if you succeed in what you aim, don't return to the city.
The tunnels of the mine connect with the Citadel itself. Cut off the serpent's
head-don't go back to hide behind her walls and wait for it to get you."
Eyes
widening with alarm, Sheera whispered, "That's impossible. Those ways are
guarded by magic. Altiokis himself is deathless..."
"He
wasn't birthless," Lady Wrinshardin snapped. "He was born a man and,
like a man, he can be killed. Attack the Citadel, and you'll have the Thanes on
your side-myself, Drathweard of Schlaeg, and all the little fry as well. Wait
for him to put the city under siege again, and he'll fall on you with
everything he's got."
She
jerked her chin toward the rolling valleys and distant tower. "That's the
old Cairn Tower. The Thanes of Cairn ran afoul of the fifteenth Thane of
Wrinshardin, God rest what passed in them for souls. The place hasn't been inhabited
since. It is a good run," she added with a malicious glitter in her eyes,
"from here."
And
turning, she moved back down the hill, straight and arrogant as a queen of
these wild lands. Sheera and Sun Wolf marked the location of the tower with their
eyes and followed her down.
While
she was mounting her horse beside the mere again, the lady said, as if as an
afterthought, "They used to say that weapons were stored there. I doubt
you'll find any of the old caches, but you are welcome to whatever you come
across."
She
settled herself in the saddle and collected the reins with a spare economy of
movement that spoke of a life lived in the saddle. "Come out of that
web-footed marsh to visit me, if you will," she added. "We need to
further our acquaintance."
So
saying, she wheeled her horse and, ignoring the other women as if they had not
existed, rode through them and away over the moors.
After
that they met mornings and evenings, rotating the groups-by daylight in the
ruins of the old Cairn Tower, by lamplight in the boarded-up orangery. Sun Wolf
announced that running to and from the peasant hut where they frequently hid
their cloaks would provide the conditioning necessary for wind and muscles, and
thereafter seldom took the women on a general run. Within a week he could tell
which ones ran to and from the tower and which walked.
The
ones who walked-there were not many-were cut.
And all
the while, he could feel them coming together as a force under his hand. He was
beginning to know them and to understand the changes he saw in them, not only
in their bodies but in their minds as well. With their veils and chaperons,
they had-timidly at first, then more boldly-discarded the instinctive notion
that they were incapable of wielding weapons, even in their own defense. Since
his conversation with Amber Eyes, Sun Wolf had often wondered what went on in
the minds of those pliant, quiet ones, the ones who had been raised to tell men
only what they wanted to hear. These women looked him in the face when they
spoke to him now, even the shyest. He wondered whether that was the effect of
weapons training or whether it was because, when they weren't learning how to
fight, they were running the financial life of the city.
He had
to admit to himself that, after a discouraging start, they were turning out to
be a fairly good batch of warriors.
The
weapons they found cached in the Cairn Tower were old, and their make cruder
and heavier than was general among the expert metalworkers of Mandrigyn. Gilden's
sister Eo and young Tisa set up a forge at the tower to lighten them as much as
they could without losing the weight necessary to parry and deliver killing
strokes. Denga Rey, watching the practice at the tower one day, suggested that
the half-pints of the troop use halberds instead.
"A
five-foot halberd can be used in battle like a sword," she said, watching
Wilame laboring to wield her weapon against a leggy black courtesan named
Cobra. The roofless hall of the old fortress made a smooth-floored, oval arena
some forty feet in length, and the women were scattered across it, wrestling,
fighting with weapons, practicing the deadlier throws and breaks of sneak
attacks. For once it was not raining, and, except in the low places, the floor
was dry. The Wolf had worked them here on days when mud coated them so thickly
that it was only by size and the way they moved that they could be
distinguished.
From
where he and the gladiator stood on what must have been the old feasting dais,
they could look out across the sunken floor of the room to the steps and the
empty triple arch of the doorway and to the moors beyond. There must have been
a courtyard of some kind there once-now there was only a flattened depression
in the ground and little heaps of stones covered with lichens and weeds. And
below him, between him and the door, the women were busy.
He
wondered what the Hawk would make of them.
Denga
Rey continued. "Most of the little ones are using swords that are as light
as possible for effective weapons- and they are still having troubles. In a
pitched fight, a man could outreach them."
Sun
Wolf nodded. With luck, they would surprise the guards at the mines and free
and arm the men from the guards' armories without the need for a pitched
battle. But long experience had taught him never to rely on luck.
The
only problem with having the smaller women use halberds in battle came from
Drypettis, who took it as a personal affront that the Wolf would make
allowances, for her size, in a tight voice, she told him, "We can succeed
on your own terms. Captain. There is no need to condescend."
He
glanced down at her, startled. At times she sounded like an absurd echo of
Sheera, without Sheera's shrewdness or her sense of purpose. Patiently, he
said, "There's only one set of terms to measure success in war,
Drypettis."
That
tight little fold at the corners of her mouth deepened.
"So
you have told us-repeatedly," she retorted with distaste. "And in the
crudest possible fashion."
Behind
her, Gilden and Wilarne exchanged a glance; the other small women-Sister
Quincis and red-haired Tamis Weaver-looked uneasy.
"Have
I?" the Wolf rumbled quietly. "I don't think so.
"Success
in war," he went on, "is measured by whether or not you do what you
aim to-not by whether you yourself live or die. The success of a war is not
measured in the same terms as the success of a fight. Succeeding in a war is
getting what you want, whether you yourself live or die. Now, it's sometimes
nicer to be alive afterward and enjoy what you've fought for-provided what
you've fought for is enjoyable. But if you want it badly enough-want others to
have it-even that isn't necessary. And it sure as hell doesn't matter how nobly
or how crudely you pursue your goal, or who makes allowances or who condescends
to you in the process. If you know what you want, and you want it badly enough
to do whatever you have to, then do it. If you don't-forget it."
The
silence in that single corner of the half-ruined tower was palpable, the shrill
grunts and barked commands in the hall beyond them seeming to grow as faint and
distant as the keening of the wind across the moors beyond the walls. It was
the first time that he had spoken of war to them, and he felt all the eyes of
this small group of tiny women on him.
"It's
the halfway that eats you," he said softly. "The trying to do what
you're not certain that you want to do; the wanting to do what you haven't the
go-to-hell courage-or selfishness-to carry through. If what you think you want
can only be got with injustice and getting your hands dirty and trampling over
friends and strangers-then understand what it will do to others, what it will
do to you, and either fish or cut bait. If what you think you want can only be
got with your own death or your own lifelong utter misery-understand that, too.
"I
fight for money. If I don't win, I don't get paid. That makes everything real
clear for me. You-you're fighting for other things. Maybe for an idea. Maybe
for what you think you ought to believe in, because people you consider better
than you believe in it, or say they do. Maybe to save someone who fed and
clothed and loved you, the father of your children-maybe out of love and maybe
out of gratitude. Maybe you're fighting because somebody else's will had drawn
you into this, and you'd rather die yourself than tell her you have other goals
than hers. I don't know that. But I think you'd better know it-and know it real
clearly, before any of you faces an armed enemy."
They
were silent around him, these half-pints, these small and delicate women.
Wilame's eyes fell in confusion, and he saw rose flush up under her wind-bitten
cheeks.
But it
was Drypettis who spoke. "Honor demands-"
"To
hell with honor," the Wolf said shortly, understanding that she had not
heard one word he had said. "Women don't have honor."
She
went white with anger. "Maybe the women you habitually consort with do
not-"
"Captain!"
Denga Rey's voice cut across the scuffling, sharp and uneasy. "Someone
coming!"
Every
sense suddenly snapped alert. He said briefly, "Hide." All around
them, at the sound of the gladiator's words, the women had been fading from
sight, seeking the darkness of the arches that had once supported a gallery
around the hall, now a ruin of scrub and shadow; they were concealing
themselves in the hundred bolt holes afforded by ruined passages and
half-collapsed turrets whose stones were feathered with dry moss and fern.
Gilden and Wilarne clambered up inside the monstrous flue of the hall's old
chimney as if trained from childhood as climbing boys.
Only
Drypettis stood where she was, rigid with anger. "You can't..." she
began, almost stifling with rage.
Sun
Wolf seized her arm impatiently and half threw her toward a droop-eyed hollow
of a broken doorway. "Hide, rot your eyes!" he roared at her and ran
to where only Sheera and Denga Rey stood, visible on either side of the triple
arch of the raised door.
From
here, the valley in which the Caim Tower was situated could be seen in one
sweep of trampled brown grass and standing water. Desolately empty, it lay
hemmed in by the stone-crested hills and the gray weight of cloud cover, a
solitude unbroken save by a few barren and wind-crippled trees. Then, in that
solitude, something moved, a figure running toward the tower.
"It's
Tisa," Sheera said, surprise and fear in her voice. "She was on watch
at Ghnir Crag, keeping an eye on the direction of town."
Denga
Rey said, "There's something else moving down there, too. Look, in the
brush along the side of the crag."
The
girl plunged, stumbling, up the ruined steps and into Sun Wolf's arms. She was
panting, unable to catch her breath- not the measured wind of a racer, but the
panic gasps of one who had fled for her life.
"What
is it?" Sun Wolf asked, and she raised her face to stare into his with
widened ayes.
"Nuuwa,"
she choked. "Coming here-lots of them, Captain."
"More
than twenty?"
She
nodded; her flesh was trembling under his hands at what she had so narrowly
escaped. "I couldn't count, but I think there were more than twenty.
Coming from all sides..."
"Pox
rot the filthy things. Turn out!" he bellowed, his voice like thunder in
the weed-grown walls. "We're under attack! Nuuwa-lots of 'em!"
The
shadows blossomed women. Just under half the strength of the troop was there
that day, eighteen women counting Sheera.
"Twenty
nuuwa!" Denga Rey was saying. "What the hell are that many nuuwa
doing in the Thaneland? That's ridiculous! You never see more than a few at a
time, and never..."
But as
she was cursing she was gathering up her weapons. Women were running all
around, leaping up the crazy walls under Sheera's shouted commands. Some of
them had bows and arrows; others had the heavy, old-fashioned swords. All of
them had daggers.
But if
you are dose enough to use a dagger on a nuuwa, Sun Wolf thought, it is far too
late.
He
could see them now, moving out in the hills. Slumped bodies were creeping along
the road, or emerging from the brushy slopes between the hills with a deceptively
quick, shambling lope. He felt his hair prickle at the numbers of them. By the
First Ancestor of the World, how many were there?
"Somebody
make a fire," he ordered, and went scrambling up the slumped remains of a
gallery stair to the broken platform above the door. The view from the top
turned him sick with dread.
The
nuuwa had broken cover from the hills all around and were converging on the
tower. Eyeless heads wagged loosely on lolling necks; shoulders were bent so
that the creatures' big, claw-nailed hands flopped, twitching, around their
knees. The hollows of those eaten-out eye sockets swayed back and forth, as if
they still sighted through the scarred-over, fallen flesh. If it were not for
the way the nuuwa moved-dead straight, with no consideration for the rise and
fall of the ground-they might almost have been mistaken for true men.
Sun
Wolf counted almost forty.
From
here, he could look down upon all of the Cairn Tower. What remained of the
curtain wall that had once surrounded the place lay in a sloppy ring around the
oval tower itself. Wall and tower were not concentric-the tower stood at one
end, so that its triple-arched doorway, empty of any defensive barrier, looked
straight out into the valley. Below him, he could see the women fanning out
along the broken top of the curtain wall, the bare flesh of their shoulders and
the colors of their hair very bright against the winter drabness of lichenous
stone and yellowed weeds and heather. No need to conceal themselves, for nuuwa
did not track their prey by sight. No need for strategy, for the nuuwa
understood none.
All
they understood-all they sought-was flesh.
From
the wall, he heard the whining thwunk of bowstrings and saw two of the
advancing creatures stumble. One of them lumbered to its feet again and came
on, the arrow sticking through its neck like a hatpin through a doll; the other
staggered a few steps, spouting blood from a punctured jugular, then fell, its
grotesquely grown teeth snapping in horrible chewing motions as it tried to
wallow its way along. Another of the creatures tripped over it in its advance,
then got up and shambled on. Nuuwa-in common with all other predators-would not
touch the flesh of nuuwa. The ground was prickled with arrows. Most of the
women had terrible aim.
Smoke
stung his eyes. Below him in the court, he could see that Gilden had got a fire
going-Tisa was gathering up branches, sticks, anything that could be used as
torches. Sheera and Denga Rey both had fire in their hands as they stood in the
open arches of the door. Nuuwa had just enough instinct to fear the heat of
fire. From his vantage point, the Wolf could see that in some fashion they knew
that there was no wall at the doorway. Half a dozen were shambling toward the
two women who stood in that gap.
He came
down from the platform at a run.
Wet mud
and pits of last week's thin snowfall scummed the crazy steps. The entire
curtain wall must have the same vile footing, he thought. Then he heard it,
beyond the higher ruins of the tower. From along the wall, now out of his
sight, came the slithering crash of dislodged stone and falling bodies, the
hooting grunts of the nuuwa, and the soft, smacking thunk of steel biting naked
flesh.
He had
a torch in one hand and a sword in the other as he sprang up the steps to the
empty gateway instants before the nuuwa came lolloping, gape-mouthed, to meet
the women. Sheera made the mistake of slashing at the widest target-the
breast-and the creature she cut fell on her with a vast, streaming wound
yawning in its chest, eyeless face contorted, mouth reaching to bite. The Wolf
had decapitated the first creature within range; he spun in the next split
second and hacked off both huge hands that gripped Sheera's arm, allowing her
to spring back out of range and slash downward on the thing's neck. It was all
he had time for-nuuwa were pressing up toward them, heedless of the cut of the
steel; spouting blood drenched them, hot on the flesh and running down slippery
underfoot. Beside him, he was vaguely aware of Denga Rey, fighting with the
businesslike brutality of a professional with sword and torch.
He felt
something gash and tear at his ankle, then saw that a fallen nuuwa had sunk its
teeth into his calf. He slashed downward, severing the head as it tore at his
flesh. Clawed hands seized his sword arm, and he cut at the eyeless face with
his torch, setting the matted hair and filthy, falling beard aflame. The
creature released him and began shrieking in a rattling, hoarse gasp,
blundering against its fellows and pawing at the blaze. Denga Rey, freed for an
instant, kicked it viciously back, and it went rolling down the steps, face
flaming, howling in death agonies as others stumbled over it to close in on the
defenders.
Through
the confusion of that hideous fight and the searing agony of the head still
clinging doggedly to his calf, Sun Wolf could hear the distant chaos of cries,
hoarse grunts, and shrill shouts. He heard a scream, keening and horrible,
rising to a fever pitch of rending pain and terror, and knew that one-of the
women had been overcome and was being killed. But like so many things in the
heat of battle, he noted it without much interest, detached, grimly fighting to
avoid a like fate himself. Another scream sounded closer, together with a
slithering crash of bodies falling from the wall. From the comer of .his eye,
he saw locked forms writhing on the icy clay of the hall floor, a tangle of
threshing limbs and fountaining blood. Eo the blacksmith sprang forward with
one of those huge two-handed broadswords upraised as if it were as light as a
willow switch.
He saw
no more; filthy hands and snapping, slobbering mouths pressed close around him.
For a moment, he felt as if he were being engulfed in that horrible mob, driven
back into the shadow of the empty gateway and wondering where the drop of the
steps was.
Then
steel zinged near him; as he decapitated one of the things grabbing and biting
at him, Denga Rey's sword sliced the spine of another, and it fell, rolling and
spasming, at his feet. Those were the last of the immediate attackers. He swung
around and saw that the steps were piled knee-deep in twitching bodies, from
which a thick current of brilliant red ran down to pool among the rocks. Behind
him, the tower was silent, save for a single voice raised in a despairing wail
of grief.
The
nuuwa were all dead.
He
looked down to where the severed head still locked on his calf with a death
grip. Fighting a surge of nausea, he bent down and beat at the joint of the
jawbone with the weighted pommel of his sword until the jaw broke and he was
able to pull the thing off by its verminous hair. Hands shaking, he knelt on
the slimy steps and held out his hand for Denga Rey's torch, since his own had
been lost in the fight. Reversing it, he drove the flaming end into the wound.
Smoke and the stink of burning meat assailed his nostrils; the pain went
through his body like a stroke of lightning. Distantly, he was aware of the
sound of Sheera's being sick in a corner of the hall.
He flung
the torch away and collapsed on his hands and knees, fighting nausea and
darkness. It wasn't the first time he had had to do this, from nuuwa or from
other wounds, but it never got any easier.
Footsteps
pattered on the clay floor. He heard the murmur of voices and opened his eyes
to see Amber Eyes binding up Denga Rey's bloody arm with someone's torn,
gold-embroidered scarf.
Both
women hastened to his side, and Amber Eyes knelt to bandage his wounds. Her
hands were sticky with gore. When he had breath to speak, Sun Wolf asked them,
"You bitten anywhere?"
"Few
slashes," the gladiator said shortly.
"Burn
'em."
"They're
not deep."
"I
said bum 'em. We aren't talking about sword cuts in the arena; nuuwa are
filthier than mad dogs. I'll do it for you if you're afraid."
That
got her. She damned his eyes, without malice, knowing he was right. Under her
swarthy tan, even she looked pate and sick.
After a
quick, brutal cauterization, he helped her to her feet, both of them leaning a
little on Amber Eyes for support. They were joined in a moment by a very pallid
Sheera, her hair in wet black strings before her eyes. Like theirs, her limbs
were plastered in gore. Sun Wolf shook himself clear of Denga Rey and limped to
put a gentle hand on her shoulder.
"You
all right?"
She was
quivering all over, like a bowstring after its arrow was spent. He sensed that
it was touch and go whether she would fall on his shoulder in hysterics; but
after a moment she drew a deep breath and said huskily. "I'll be all
right."
"Good
girl." He slapped her comfortingly on the buttock and was rewarded with
the kind of glare generally reserved for the humbler sort of insects in their
last moments before a servant was called to swat them. He grinned to himself.
She'd obviously got over the first shock,
There
were no other women in the empty hall. Slowly, limping with the pain of their
wounds, the four of them staggered to the narrow postern that let them into the
ruined circle of the curtain wall. Like the steps, the ground there was
littered with the bodies of dead nuuwa with severed heads and hands and feet.
Dark blood dripped down the stones and soaked into the winter-hard ground. At
the far end of the court, the women stood in a silent group, staring in nauseated
fascination at a tall, rawboned woman named Kraken, who was kneeling, her face
buried in her hands, over the dismembered and half-eaten body of sharp, little,
red-haired Tamis Weaver. Kraken was rocking back and forth and wailing, a
desolate moaning sound, like a hurt animal.
After a
moment Gilden and Wilarne moved in, bitten and painted with the blood of their
dead enemies, and gently helped Kraken to her feet and led her away. She moved
like a blind woman, half doubled over with grief.
Sun
Wolf looked around at those who were left. He saw women with scared faces, gray
with shock and nausea, the ends of their tangled hair pointy with blood. Some
of them had been bitten, clawed, chewed-there'd be more work, burning the
wounds, the agonizing aftermath of war. The place stank with that peculiar
battleground smell, the vile reek of blood and vomit and excrement, of death
and terror. Some of them, like Emtwyff Fish, looked angry still; others, like
Sister Quincis and Eo, seemed burned out, as if only cold ash remained of the
fire that had carried them alive through battle. Others looked merely puzzled,
staring about in confusion, as if they had no idea how they had come to be
wounded, exhausted, cold, and sick in this slaughterhouse place. More than one
was crying, with shock and grief and relief.
But
none of them looked, or would ever again look, quite as they had. .
The
Wolf sighed. "Well, ladies," he said quietly, "now you've seen
battle."
CHAPTER
-- 8 --
THE
RAIN THAT SLASHED AGAINST THE BOLTED SHUTTERS OF the Brazen Monkey made a
far-off, roaring sound, like the distant sea. With her boots extended toward
the enormous blaze that was the only illumination in the shadowy common room,
Starhawk scanned the few travelers still on the roads in this weather and
decided that she and Fawn would take turns sleeping tonight.
Inns in
this part of the mountains were notorious in any event, but during the dry
season, when the caravans from Mandrigyn, Pergemis, and the Middle Kingdoms filled
even this vast common room to capacity, there was some degree of safety. Most
merchants were decent enough fellows, and no traveler would suffer to see
another robbed, if only from the knowledge that it could happen to him next.
During the rains it was different.
Opposite
her, on the other worn and narrow plank bench, an unshaven little man with a
loose mouth and a looser eye kept glancing over at Fawn, who stood at the far
end of the long room, haggling with the innkeeper. Two others were hunched over
pewter mugs of beer and the remains of a haunch of venison at one of the
tables, oblivious to their surroundings. The Hawk wasn't prepared to bet on any
of their help, if there were trouble.
In a
businesslike fashion, she began reviewing exits from the common room and escape
routes from the inn.
Down at
the other end of the room. Fawn was still nodding, the occasional sweetness of
her low voice punctuating the innkeeper's ingratiating whine. They'd been
haggling about the price of rooms, food, and supplies for the last Fifteen
minutes, a protracted process that Fawn was capable of continuing for upward of
an hour without ever losing her air of grave interest. The heat of the room was
drying her great plaid cloak; in the smoky amber of the firelight, Starhawk
could see the steam rising from it, like faint breath on a snowy night.
From
Kedwyr, they'd journeyed through the olive and lemon groves of the brown hills
to the poorer inland cities of Nishboth and Plegg. Those cities had long ago
knuckled under to Kedwyr's dominance and had shrunk to little better than
market towns, with their decaying mansions of stone lace and the crumbling
ruins of their mosaic cathedrals dreaming of better days. After two days on the
road, the rains had hit, freezing winds roaring in from the sea and torrents of
black water pouring from the skies, flooding the roads and turning innocuous
streams in the barren foothills behind Plegg into boiling, white millraces.
They
had climbed toward Gaunt Pass and the wide road that twisted through the gray
spires of the Kanwed Mountains from the East to the Middle Kingdoms. Snow had
caught them three days from the pass itself, and for days they had plowed and
floundered their way through that icy world of winds and stone, discouraged,
exhausted, making sometimes as little as five miles a day. From the pass, they
had taken the road along the rim of the mountain mass, with the tree-cloaked
shoulders of the main peaks towering thousands of feet above them, invisible in
the gray turmoil of clouds.
Through
it all. Fawn had never complained and had done her loyal best to keep up with
Starhawk's surer pace. For all that she had spent the last two years in the
soft living of a concubine, she was tough, and the Hawk had to admit that the girl
was less trouble than she had at first feared. In Piegg, where they'd sold her
jewels, she'd gotten a far better price than Starhawk had expected that sleepy,
half-deserted town could have paid; and she'd shown an unexpected flair for
bargaining for food, lodging, and fodder for the donkey along the way. Starhawk
didn't see how she did it-but then, like most mercenaries, the Hawk had always
paid three times the local rate for everything and had never been aware of the
difference.
She had
asked Fawn about it one night, when they'd been camped in a rock cave above
Gaunt Pass, with a fire lighted at the entrance to frighten away wolves.
Blushing, Fawn had admitted, "My father was a merchant. He always wanted
me to learn the deportment of a lady, to better myself through an elegant
marriage, but I knew too much about the cost of things ever to appear really
well bred."
The
Hawk had stared at her in astonishment. "But you're the most ladylike
person I've ever met," she protested.
Fawn
had laughed. "It's all the result of the most agonizing work. I'm really a
storekeeper at heart. My father always said so."
Fawn
came back across the room now, the fire picking smoky streaks of red from the
close-braided bands of her dark hair. The greasy little rogue in the inglenook
looked up at her, and even the two blockheads at the table raised their noses
from their beer mugs as she passed.
"You
want to bet you get an offer of free room?" Starhawk asked as Fawn seated
herself on the worn, blackened oak of the bench at her side.
"I've
already had one, thanks," the girl replied in a low voice and glanced
across at the greasy man, who met her eyes and gave her a broken-toothed leer.
She looked away, her cheeks even redder than the firelight could have made
them. "I've paid for supper, bed, breakfast, bait for the donkey, and some
supplies to go on with."
Starhawk
nodded. "He have any idea how far to the next inn?"
"Fifteen
miles, he says. The Peacock. After that there's nothing until Foonspay,
twenty-five miles beyond, and that's a fair-sized village."
The
Hawk did some rapid mental calculations. "Tomorrow night in the open,
anyway," she said. "Maybe the night after, depending on the road. If
this rain turns to snow again, it's going to be hell's own mess."
Movement
caught her eye. The greasy little man had shuffled over to the bar, where he
stood talking in a low voice to the innkeeper. Starhawk's eyes narrowed.
"Did
you ask for the supplies tonight rather than in the morning?"
Fawn
nodded. "He said yes, later."
She
sniffed. "We'll make damned sure of it, then. I'm going out to the stables
to collect the packs. I don't want there to be any reason we couldn't get out
of here in the middle of the night if we wanted to."
Fawn
looked unhappy, but Starhawk's wariness was legendary in the troop and had more
than once saved the lives of scouting parties under her command. She left the
common room as quietly as possible, crossing the soup of mud, snow, and driving
rain in the yard only after she was fairly certain of the whereabouts of the
innkeeper and the slattern who did his cooking. The Brazen Monkey boasted no
stableman. Inspecting the interior of the big stone stables built into the
cliff that rose from the muck of the inn yard, the Hawk thought the place
rather too well stocked and kepi for the little traffic they must have had in
the last few weeks before these late rains.
She
collected all the supplies and equipment except the actual packsaddle itself,
slinging them by straps over her arms and shoulders, and waited in the darkness
of the big arched doorway until she saw both the innkeeper's shadow and the
woman's cross the lamplight of the half-open door. They'd be going to the
common room, with supper for Fawn and herself. Picking her footing carefully,
she slipped back into the inn by way of the shadows along the wall and up the
twisting stairs to their room.
Seeing
the damp and bug-infested mattresses on the two narrow cots, she was just as
glad she'd brought up their own bedding. The room itself was freezing cold, and
the roof leaked in two places. Nevertheless, she wrestled the bolt of the
shutters back and looked out into the streaming darkness of the night. A foot
or so below the sill of the window, the thatch of the kitchen roof was swimming
like a hay meadow in a flood, steam rising from it with the heat below.
Satisfied, she closed the shutters again, but did not bolt them; she checked
the door bolt, shoved the supplies well under the beds, and went downstairs.
The
greasy little man was leaning against the table, talking to an unhappy-looking
Fawn. Starhawk crossed the room to them, looked him up and down calmly, and
asked, "You invite this cheesebrain to supper, Fawnie?"
The man
started to sputter some kind of explanation. Star-hawk looked him in the eyes,
calculating, fixing his features in her mind to know again. His eyes shifted.
Then he ducked his head and hastily left the room, the rain blowing in from the
outside door as it opened and shut again behind him.
Starhawk
slid onto the bench opposite Fawn and applied herself to venison stew and black
bread.
Fawn
sighed. "Thank you. I couldn't seem to get rid of him..."
"What
did he want?" the Hawk asked, around a mug of beer.
"He
came over and offered to tell me about the road ahead. And I-I thought he
sounded as if he knew what he was talking about, but I couldn't be sure."
"More
likely he's trying to find out which way we're going and where we'll be by dark
tomorrow night. How much did that robber want for the kennel he's stuck us
in?"
As
Starhawk hoped, Fawn cheered up at that. She'd talked the innkeeper down to
half the asking price; recounting it brought a sparkle to her soft eyes. They
spoke of other inns and innkeepers, of bargaining and prices, swapping stories
of some of the more outrageous payments that Sun Wolf or other mercenaries
they'd known had either asked or been offered. Neither spoke of their
destination or of what they would do when they reached the impenetrable walls
of Altiokis' Citadel; by tacit consent, each kept her own hope and her own fear
to herself.
In
time, another man came down from upstairs, a wizened, spade-bearded little
cricket in black who looked like a decayed gentleman from one of the more
down-at-heels cities of the Peninsula with his starched neck ruff and darned,
soot-gray hose. He settled himself beside the two blockheads in the padded
coats who were drinking ale and talking in quiet voices; eventually they all
went upstairs to bed.
Starhawk
became uncomfortably aware of how her voice and Fawn's echoed in the empty
common room and how dark were the shadows that clotted under its
smoke-blackened rafters. Outside, the wind groaned louder over the rocks. Its
sound would cover that of anyone's approach.
She was
glad enough to leave the hall. By the light of a feeble tallow dip, she and
Fawn climbed the narrow corkscrew of stairs to the cold room under the rafters.
"Well,
these beds will have a use, after all," she commented wryly as she dropped
the door bolt into its slot. Fawn laughed and pulled one end of the heavy log
frame away from the wall. "Not like that-here. We'll lift. No sense
telling that old cutthroat downstairs what we're doing."
It was
a struggle to barricade the door quietly. Halfway through their task, a sound
arrested the Hawk's attention; she held up her hand, listening. The inn walls
were thick, but it sounded as if others in the place had the same idea.
Fawn
unrolled her bedding along the wall where the bed had been, carefully arranging
it to avoid the major leaks in the roof. "Do you really think they'll try
to rob us in the night?" Her voice had gotten very quiet; her eyes, in the
flickering light of the already failing dip, had lost the ebullience they'd
shown downstairs. Her face looked shadowed and tired. Star-hawk reflected that
for all her bright courage, Fawn did not travel well. She looked worn down and
anxious.
"I
almost hope so," the Hawk replied quietly. She blew on the flame, and the
room was plunged into inky darkness. "I'd far rather deal with it here
than on the road tomorrow."
Silence
settled over the inn.
Between
her travels, wars, and the long watches of ambush, the Hawk had developed a
fairly clear estimate of time. At the end of about three hours, she reached
over and shook Fawn awake, talked to her in the darkness for a few minutes to
make sure that she was awake, then lay back and dropped at once into the light,
wary, animal sleep of guard dogs and professional soldiers. She surfaced
briefly when the rain lightened an hour and a half later; she heard the
drumming of it fade to a soft, restless pattering in the dark, like tiny feet
running endlessly across the leaky thatch, and, below that sound, the soft
murmur of Fawn's voice, whispering the words of an old ballad to herself to
keep awake and pass the time. Then she slept again.
She
wakened quickly, silently, and without moving, at the urgent touch of Fawn's
hand on her shoulder. She tapped the knuckles lightly to show herself awake and
listened intently for the sounds that had alerted the girl to danger.
After a
moment, she heard it: the creak of a footstep on the crazy boards of the hall.
It was followed by the sticky squeak of wet leather and the clink of a buckle.
But more than any single clue, she could sense, almost feel, the weight and
warmth and breath gathered in the darkness outside their door.
Starhawk
sat up, reached to where her sword lay beside her on the dirty floor, and drew
its well-oiled length without a sound. With luck, she thought. Fawn would
remember to have her dagger ready; she wasn't going to warn anyone that they
were awake by asking aloud.
A
single crack of light appeared in the darkness, a thin chink ! from the
yellowish glow of a tallow dip. In the utter darkness, even that dim gleam was
bright as summer sun. Then she heard (he scraping of a fine-honed dagger being
slid through the door crack under the bolt, pushing it gently up. There was a
soft, <?.' distinct plunk as it dropped backward out of its slot. Then came
another long and listening silence.
Fawn
and the Hawk were both on their feet. Fawn moved back toward the window, as
they had previously agreed; Star-hawk stepped noiselessly toward the barricaded
door. The slit of light widened, and bulky shadows became visible beyond. There
was a jarring vibration, followed by a soft-voiced curse, rotting their eyes
for a pair of impudent sluts. A heavy shoulder slammed against the wood, and
the barricading bed grated and tipped back as the huge shape of a man slid
sideways through the narrow gap.
The
door opened inward and to the right. The intruder had to enter left shoulder
first. Killing him was as easy as sticking a frog. He gasped as the sword slid
in, and his knees buckled; there was the stink and splatter of blood, and Starhawk
sprang back as others slammed and pushed the door in, cursing furiously,
falling over the body and the bed, and dropping the light in the confusion. The
Hawk went in silently, hacking and thrusting; voices shouted and cursed. Steel
bit her leg. She thought there were three still living, blundering around in
the darkness like blind pigs in a pit.
Then
she heard Fawn scream, and a man's heavy rasp of breathing where she guessed
the girl would be. A body tangled with hers, hands grappling her legs and
pulling her off balance. A hoarse voice yelled, "Over here! I got
one!" She cut downward at the source of the voice, then swung in a wide
circle with her sword and felt its tip snag something that gasped and swore;
the man pulled her down, clutching and grappling, too close now for the sword
to be of use. She dropped it, hacking with her dagger; then light streamed in
over them, and more men came thundering in from the hall.
The
light showed the raised knife of the man who clutched her thighs, and Starhawk
cut backhand as he turned his head toward the newcomers, opening both windpipe
and jugular and spraying herself in a hot fountain of blood. The first man
through the door tripped over the corpse there, then the bed; the second man
clambered straight up over all three, his huge bulk blotting the light, and
threw himself like an immense lion on the only bandit left standing. He knocked
the man's blade aside with a backhand blow that would have stunned a horse,
caught him by the throat, and slammed his head back against the stone wall
behind with a hideous crunch. Then he swung around, his square, heavy-jawed
face pink and sweating in the faint gleam of brightness from the hall, as if
seeking new prey. Past him, Starhawk saw Fawn standing flattened against the
wall by the shuttered window, her face white and her disheveled clothing
smeared with dark blood. There was a dagger in her hand and a gutted robber
still twitching and sobbing at her feet.
The big
newcomer relaxed and turned to the jostling scramble of his companion in the
doorway. "Don't drop the light, ye gaum-snatched chucklehead," he
said. "We're behind the fair." One step took him to Fawn. "Are
you hurt, lass?"
The man
who'd tripped unraveled himself from the trampled remains of the collapsed bed
and stumbled again over the dead bandit in his hurry to reach Starhawk, who was
still sitting, covered with blood and floor-grime, beneath her slaughtered
assailant. He knelt beside her, an even bigger man than the first one, with the
same lock of brown hair falling over grave, blue-gray eyes. "Are ye
hurt?"
Starhawk
shook her head. "I'm fine," she said. "But thank you."
Much to
her surprise, he lifted her to her feet as if she'd been a doll. "We'd
have been sooner," he said ruefully, "but for some shrinking violet's
wanting to barricade our door..."
"Violet
yourself," the other man retorted, in the burring .accent of the Bight
Coast. "If we'd been the first ones they attacked, you'd have been glad
enough for the warning and delay-if the sound of their shoving over the bed had
waked you at all."
The
bigger man swung about, like a bullock goaded by flies. "And what makes
you think any bandit in the mountains is something you and I together couldn't
handle without even troubling to wake up?"
"You
sang a different tune night before last, when the wolves raided-"
"Ram!
Orris!" a creaky voice chirped from the doorway. The two behemoths fell
silent. The scrawny little gentleman in the starched ruff whom Starhawk had
seen briefly down in the common room came scrambling agilely over the mess in
the doorway, holding aloft a lantern in one hand. The other hand was weighted
down by a short sword, enormous in the bony grip. "You must excuse my
nephews," he said to the women, with a courtly salaam appallingly
incongruous with the gruesome setting. "Back home I use them for a plow
team, and thus their manners with regard to ladies have been sadly
neglected."
He
straightened up. Bright, black eyes twinkled into Star-hawk's, and she grinned
at him in return.
"Naagh
. . ." Ram and Orris pulled back hamlike fists threateningly at this slur
on their company manners.
The
little man disregarded them with sublime unconcern. "My name is Anyog
Spicer, gentleman, scholar, and poet. There is water in the room next to us,
since I'm sure ablutions are in order. . ."
"First
I'm going to find that damned innkeeper, rot his eyes," Starhawk snapped,
"and make sure he doesn't have any other bravos hiding out around
here." She looked up and saw that Fawn's face had gone suddenly from white
to green. She turned to the immense man who still hovered at her side.
"Take Fawn down to your room, if you would," she said. "I'll get
some wine when I'm in the kitchen."
"We've
wine," the big man - Ram or Orris - said. "And better nor what this
place stocks. I'll come with you, lassie. Orris, take care of Miss Fawn. And
see you don't make a muff of it," he added as he and Starhawk started for
the door.
Orris -
the handsomer of the two brothers and, Starhawk guessed, the younger by several
years - raised sharply backslanted dark eyebrows. "Me make muff of
it?" he asked as he gently took Fawn's arm and removed the dagger that she
still held in her nerveless hand. "And who fell over his own big feet
blasting into the room like a bull through a gate, pray? Of all the
gaum-snatched things . . ,"
"Be
a fair desperate gaum would take the time to find your wits to snatch 'em . .
."
Starhawk,
who sensed that the brothers would probably argue through battle and world's
end, caught Ram's quilted sleeve and pulled him determinedly toward the door.
There
were no more bandits at the inn. They found the innkeeper, disheveled and
groaning, in the room behind the kitchen, amid a tangle of sheets in which he
said he had been tied after being overpowered. But while he was explaining all
this at length to Ram, Starhawk had a look at the torn cloth and found no
tight-bunched creases, such as were made by knots. The woman said sullenly that
she had locked herself in the larder from fear of them. Both looked white and
shaken enough for it to have been true, but Starhawk began to suspect that by
killing the bandits, she had demolished the couple's livelihood. She smiled to
herself with grim satisfaction as she and Ram mounted the stairs once more.
"You're
no stranger to rough work, seemingly," Ram said, his voice rather awed.
Starhawk
shrugged. "I've been a mercenary for eight years," she said.
"These were amateurs."
"How
can you tell?" He cocked his head and gazed down at her curiously.
"They looked to me as if they were born with shivs in their fists."
"A
professional would have put a guard on your door. And what in the hell does
'gaum-snatched' mean? That's one I never heard before."
He
chuckled, a deep rumble in his throat. "Oh, it's what they say to mean
your wits have gone begging. Gaums are- what you call?-dragonflies; at least
that's what we call 'em where I come from. There are old wives who say they'll
steal away a man's wits and let him wander about the country until he drowns
himself walking into a marsh."
Starhawk
nodded as they turned the corner at the top of the stair and saw light
streaming out of one of the rooms halfway down the hall. "In the north,
they say demons will lead a man to his death that way-or chase him crying to
him from the air. But I never heard it was dragonflies."
They
came to the slaughterhouse room. By the light of the lamp she'd appropriated
from the kitchen, Starhawk saw that the greasy little man who'd spoken to Fawn
was the one Orris had brained. It was a good guess, then, that the innkeeper
had indeed been in league with them. Ram jerked his head toward the door as
they passed it- "What about them?"
"We'll
let our host clean up," Starhawk said callously. "It's his inn-and
his friends."
Orris
and Uncle Anyog had moved the women's possessions to their own room while Ram
and the Hawk were reconnoitering. Beds had been made up on the sagging
mattresses. Fawn was asleep, her hair lying about her in dark and careless
glory on the seedy pillow. By the look of his boots, Uncle Anyog had been
investigating the stables. He reported nothing missing or lamed.
"Meant
to do that after we'd been settled," Starhawk said, collecting spare
breeches, shirt, and doublet from her pack and preparing to go into the next
room to wash and change. "Maybe they didn't mean to take you three on at
all. If you asked after the two of us, the innkeeper could always tell you we'd
departed early."
"Hardly
that," Orris pointed out. "Else we'd overtake you on the road,
wouldn't we?"
"Depends
on which direction you were going in."
In the
vacant room, she took a very fast, very cold damp-cloth bath to get the dried
blood out of her flesh and hair, cleaned the superficial gash on her leg with
wine and bound it up, and changed her clothes. When she returned to the
brothers' room, Uncle Anyog was curled up asleep on the floor in a corner; Ram
and Orris were still talking quietly, arguing over how good a bargain they'd
really gotten on some opals they'd bought from the mines in the North. Starhawk
settled herself down with a rag, a pan of water, and a bottle of oil, to clean
her weapons and leather before moving on. The night was far spent and she knew
she would sleep no more.
Orris
finished pointing out to his brother some facts about the fluctuation in the
price of furs and how opals could be held for a rise in prices-neither argument
made any sense to Star-hawk-and turned to her to ask, "Starhawk? If you
don't mind my asking-which direction were you bound in, you and Miss Fawn? It's
a rotten time to be on the roads at all, I know. Where were you headed?"
"East,"
the Hawk said evasively.
"Where
east?" Orris persisted, not taking the hint.
She
abandoned tact. "Does it matter?"
"In
a way of speaking, it does," the young man said earnestly, leaning forward
with his hands on his cocked-up knees. "You see, we're bound for Pergem's,
with a pack train of fox and beaver pelts and opals and onyx from the North.
We've met trouble on the road before this-the man we took with us was killed
five nights ago by wolves. If there's more trouble with bandits along the way,
we stand to lose all the summer's profits. Now, I make no doubt you're a
fighter, which we could do with; and neither of us is so bad at it himself,
which Miss Fawn could do with. If you were bound toward the south..."
Starhawk
hesitated a moment, then shook her head. "We aren't," she said.
Pergemis lay where the Bight washed up against the feet of the massive
tablelands that surrounded- the Kanwed Mountains, far to the southwest of
Grimscarp. She continued, "But our road lies with yours as far as
Foonspay. That will get us out of the mountains and out of the worst of the
snow country. If you have no objection, we'll join you that far."
"Done,"
Orris said, pleased; then the light died from his honest, slab-sided face, and
his eyes narrowed. "You're not ever bound for Racken Scrag, are you, lass?
It's a bad business, all through that country, mixing with the Wizard
King."
"So
I've heard," Starhawk replied noncommittally.
When
she said no more, but returned to cleaning the blood from the handle of her
dagger, Orris grew fidgety and went on. "Two girls traveling about
alone..."
"Would
probably be in a lot of danger," she agreed. "But it happens I've
killed quite a few men in my time..." She tested the dagger blade with her
thumb. "And since I could probably give you five years, I'd hardly qualify
as a lass."
"Yes,
lass, but..."
At this
point, Ram kicked him-no gentle effort-and the two brothers relapsed into
jovial bickering, leaving Starhawk to her silent thoughts.
In the
days that followed, she had cause to be thankful for their partnership, for all
that the brothers periodically drove her crazy with their fits of chivalry.
Orris never ceased trying to find out the women's destination and objectives,
not from any malice but, what was worse, out of the best of intentions to
dissuade them from doing anything foolish or dangerous. Starhawk admitted to
herself that their journey was both foolish and dangerous, but that fact did
not make it any less necessary, if they were going to find and aid Sun Wolf and
learn what, if any, designs Altiokis had toward the rest of the troop. Orris'
automatic assumption that, having met them only a day or so ago and being
completely in ignorance of the reasons for their quest, he was nevertheless
better qualified than they to judge its lightness and its possibilities of
success alternately amused Starhawk and irritated her almost past bearing.
Likewise,
the brothers' good-natured arguments and insults could be carried far past the
point of being entertaining. When they weren't poking fun at each other's
appearance, brains, or social manners, they joined verbally to belabor Uncle
Anyog for his habit of reciting poetry as he walked, for his small size, or for
his flights of rhetorical eloquence, all of which Anyog took in good part.
Around the campfires in the evenings, the brothers listened, as enthralled as
Fawn and the Hawk were, to the little man's tales of heroes and dragons and to
the silver magic of his songs. Years in the war camps had given Starhawk an
enormous tolerance for the brothers' brand of bovine wit, but she found herself
more than once wishing that she could trade either or both of them for a half
hour of absolute silence.
But,
she reasoned, hers was not to choose her companions. Noisy, busy blockheads
like the brothers and the hyperioquacious Anyog were far preferable to
travelling through the mountains in winter atone.
The
Peacock Inn, when they reached it, was deserted, with snow drifting through the
windows of its shattered common room. In the stable, Starhawk discovered the
bones of a horse, chewed, broken, and crusted with frost, but clearly fresh;
the splintered shutters and doors of the ground floor had scarcely been
weathered. With thick powder snow squeaking under her boots, she waded back
across the yard. In the common room, she found Fawn and Uncle Anyog, huddled
together, looking uneasily about them and breathing like dragons in the fading
daylight. Orris and Ram came down the slippery drifts of the staircase.
"Nothing
above stairs," Orris reported briefly. "The door at the top's been
scratched and pounded, but no signs that it was forced. Whatever's done this|
it's gone now; but we'd probably be safer spending the night up there."
"Will
the mules go up the steps?" Starhawk asked. She told them what she'd found
in the stables. There were six mules, besides her own little donkey.
Orris
started to object and lay out a schedule for double watches on the stable, but
Ram said, "Nay, we'd best have 'em up with us. If any ill fell to 'em,
we'd be fair put to it between here and Foonspay, never mind leaving behind the
pelts and things."
It was
a stupid and ridiculous way to spend an evening, Starhawk thought, shoving and
coaxing seven wholly recalcitrant creatures up into the chambers usually
reserved for their social superiors. Uncle Anyog helped her, with vivid and
startlingly elaborate curses-the elderly scholar was more agile than he
looked-while Orris and Ram set to with shovels to clear a place around the
hearth for cooking, and Fawn gathered straw bedding in the stables and kindling
in the yard.
As
night settled over the frozen wastes of the mountains and they barricaded
themselves into the upper storey of the inn, Starhawk found herself feeling
moody and restless, prey to an uneasy sense of danger. The brothers'
boisterousness did nothing to improve her temper, nor did the grave lecture
Orris gave her on the necessity for them all to keep together. As usual, she
said nothing of either her apprehension or her irritation. Only Ram glanced up
when she left early for her watch. Fawn and Orris were too deeply immersed in a
lively discussion of the spice trade to notice her departure.
The
silence of the dark hallway was like water after a long fever. She checked the
mules where they were stabled in the best front bedroom, then followed the
feeble glow of the tallow dip to the head of the stairs, where Uncle Anyog sat
before the locked door.
His
bright eyes sparkled as he saw her. "Ah, in good time, my warrior dove.
Trust a professional to be on time for her watch. Are my oxen bedded
down?"
"You
think Orris would shut his eyes when he has an audience to listen to his
schemes for financing a venture to the East?"
Though
she spoke with her usual calm, the old man must have caught some spark of
bitterness in her words, for he smiled up at her wryly. "Our pecuniary and
busy-handed child." He sighed. "All the way from Kwest Mralwe,
through the woods of Swyrmlaedden, where the nightingales sing, through the
golden velvet hills of Harm, and across the snow-shawled feet of the Mountains
of Ambersith, he favored me with the minutest details of the latest
fluctuations of the currency of the Middle Kingdoms." He sighed again with
regret. "That's our Orris. But he is very good at what he is, you
know."
"Oh,
I know." Starhawk folded her long legs under her and sat beside him, her
back braced against the stained plaster of the wall. "To make a great deal
of money, a person has to think about money a great deal of the time. I suppose
that's why, in all the years I've been paid so handsomely, I'm never much
ahead. No mercenary is."
The
salt-and-pepper beard split in a wide smile. "But you are far ahead of
them in the memory of joy, my dove," he said. "And those memories are
not affected by currency fluctuations. I was an itinerant scholar all over the
world, from the azure lagoons of Mandrigyn to the windy cliffs of the West, until
I became too old and they made me be an itinerant teacher, instead-and I've
been paid fortunes by universities of Kwest Mrawle and Kedwyr and half the
Middle Kingdoms. Now here I am, returning in my old age to be a pensioner in my
sister's house in Pergemis, to stay with a girl whose only knowledge ever lay
in how to add, subtract, and raise big, wayfaring sons." He shook his head
with a regret that was only partially self-mockery. "There is no justice
in the world, my dove."
"Stale
news, professor." The Hawk sighed.
"I
fear you're right." Uncle Anyog extended one booted toe to nudge the stout
wood of the door. "You saw the marks on the other side?"
She
nodded. Neither Ram nor Orris had identified them.
She
herself had seen their like only once before, as a small child.
"Nuuwa?"
He
nodded, the stiff white petals of his ruff bobbing, catching an edge of the
light like an absurd flower. "More than one, I should say. Quite a large
band, if they were capable of breaking into the inn."
Starhawk's
face was grave. "I've never heard of them running in bands."
"Haven't
you?" Anyog leaned forward to prick up the tallow dip that sat in a tin
cup between them on the floor. His shadow, huge and distorted, bent over him,
like the darkness of some horrible destiny. "They get thicker as you go
east-didn't you know? And they've been seen in bands since early last summer in
all the lands around the Tchard Mountains."
She
glanced sideways at him, wondering how much he knew or guessed of her
destination. Down below in the inn, she could hear the soft scrabbling noises
of foxes and weasels quarreling over the garbage of dinner. For some reason,
the sound made her shudder.
"Why
is that?" she asked, when the silence had begun to prickle along her skin.
"You're a scholar, Anyog. What are nuuwa? Is it true that they used to be
men? That something- some sickness-causes them to lose their eyes, to change
and distort as they do? I hear bits and pieces about them, but no one seems to
know anything for certain. The Wolf says that they used to appear only rarely
and singly. Now you tell me that they're coming out of the East in big
bands."
"The
Wolf?" The little man raised one tufted eyebrow inquiringly.
"The
man I'm-Fawn and I-are seeking," Starhawk explained unwillingly.
"A
man, is it?" the scholar mused, and Starhawk unaccountably felt her cheeks
grow warm.
She
went on hastily. "In some places I know, they say that a man has only to
walk out in the night air to become a nuuwa; I think your nephews' tale about
gaums-dragonflies-may have something to do with it. Not true dragonflies, but
perhaps something that looks or moves like them. But no one knows. And I'm
beginning to find that fact in itself a little suspicious."
He
looked sharply across at her, his dark eyes suddenly wary. Starhawk met his
gaze calmly, wondering why she had the momentary impression that he was afraid
of her. Then he looked away and folded his fine little hands around his bony
knees. "A wizard might know," he said, "were there any
left."
The
memory came back to her of the eyeless, mewing thing that had beaten and chewed
at the Convent gates; she remembered Sister Wellwa, flinging fire from her
knotted hands, and a sliver of mirror angled in the corner of a room. She
recalled Little Thurg's speaking to a man who was not what he seemed.
"Anyog,"
she said slowly, "in all of your travels-have you ever heard of other
wizards besides Altiokis?"
The
silence stretched, and the flickering gleam of the tallow dip outlined the scholar's
profile in an edge of gold as he continued to look steadily away from her into
the darkness. At length he said, "No. None whom I have ever found."
"Are
there any yet alive?"
He
laughed, a soft, cracked little chuckle in the dark. "Oh, there are. There
are said to be, anyway. But those who are born with the Power have more sense
than to say so these days. If they learn any magic at all, they're careful to
make their staffs into little wands that can be hidden up their sleeves, if
they're men, or concealed as broom handles. There's even a legend about a
wizard who hired herself out as governess to a rich man's children and who kept
her staff hidden as the handle of her parasol."
"Because
of Altiokis?" Starhawk asked quietly.
The old
man sighed. "Because of Altiokis." He turned back to her, the dim,
uncertain glimmer making his face suddenly older, more tired, scored with
wrinkles like the spoor of years of grief. "And in any case, there are
fewer and fewer wizards who have crossed into the fullness of their power. They
have the little powers, what they can be taught by nature or by their masters,
if they have them-or so I've heard. But few these days dare to attempt the
Great Trial-even such few as are left who remember what it was."
He got to
his feet, dusting the seat of his breeches, his scrawny body silhouetted
against the dim light from the room where Ram and Orris were arguing over the
time it took to sail from Mandrigyn to Pergemis in the summer trading.
"And
what was it?" Starhawk asked curiously, looking up at Anyog as he flicked
straight the draggled lace at his cuffs.
"Ah.
Who knows? Even to admit knowledge of its existence puts a man under suspicion
from Altiokis' spies, whether he knows anything about wizardry itself or not."
He
strolled off down the hall, wiry and awkward as some strange daddy longlegs,
whistling an air from some complex counterpoint sonata in the dark.
CHAPTER
-- 9 --
"I
DON T LIKE IT. STAKHAWK FROWNED AS
SHE STUDIED THE town below her.
Beside
her. Ram folded his great arms against him for warmth. In his wadded layers of
purple quilting, he looked immense, his blunt, homely face reddened by the
cold. "It all seems quiet," he objected doubtfully.
Starhawk's
gray gaze slid sideways at him. "Very quiet," she agreed. "But
not one of those chimneys is smoking." She pointed, and a stray flake of
mealy snow, shaken from the pine boughs overhead, settled into the fleece of
her cuff. "This snow fell two nights ago, and nothing's tracked it
since-not in the street, nor from any of those houses to the sheds
behind."
Ram
frowned, squinting. "You're right, lass. Your eyes are keener than mine,
but 'twas stupid of me not to look. There are tracks round about the walls,
aren't there?"
"Oh,
yes," Starhawk said softly. "There are tracks." She turned back,
scrambling down from the promontory that overlooked the little valley in which
lay the village of Foonspay. Her feet slid in the slick powder of the snow;
even though she stepped in her own tracks, the going was rough. Ram lost his
balance twice, falling amid great clouds of billowing powder; nevertheless, he
offered her his arm for support with dogged gallantry at every swell of the
ground.
Snow
had fallen the night they had spent at the Peacock Inn, then rain and more
snow. The road, such as it was, had become crusted and treacherous, and they
had lost most of a day floundering through it, exhausted by the mere effort of
taking
a step. Around them, the woods had lain in silence, a silence that prickled
along Starhawk's nerves. She had found herself listening, seeking some
sound-any sound. But no squirrel had dislodged snow from the green-black
branches of the somber pines overhead; no rabbit had squeaked in the teeth of a
fox. For two nights, not even wolves had howled; in her scouting to both sides
of the buried road, Starhawk had seen no track of any bird or beast.
There
was something abroad in the woods, something before which even the wolves ran
silent.
The
others felt it, too. Up ahead, she could see the six mules and the donkey as
dark blobs on the marble whiteness of the snow, the vivid blue of Orris'
quilted jacket, Anyog's rusty black, and Fawn's green and brown plaid-a tight
little cluster of colors, huddled together in fear. They all jumped when she
and Ram emerged through the trees.
"The
town's deserted," she said as she came near.
"The
buildings are standing, but the Mother only knows what's prowling around them.
Let's get into the open. Then I'll take Ram and go ahead to scout the
place."
The
brothers nodded their agreement, but she saw the doubt in their faces-Orris
because, deep down in his heart, he believed that he should be giving the
orders, in spite of the fact that he knew Starhawk to be his superior in matters
of defense, Ram because he knew it, too, and considered it an unseemly thing
for a woman to be.
She
supposed, as she led the way cautiously down the gentle slope of the road, that
most women would have been pleased and flattered by the big man's
protectiveness. She merely found it irritating, as if he assumed her to be
unable to protect herself- and all the worse because it was both unconscious
and well meaning. Sun Wolf, she reflected, glancing over her shoulder at the
unnaturally silent woods, would help her out of trouble, but assumed that she
could hold up her end of the fight just fine.
She
scanned the sky, which was darker than the time of day could account for, then
looked over her shoulder again-a habit she'd picked up these days. Ahead of
them, the stone walls and snow-laden roofs of the town grew larger, and she ran
her eye over them, searching for some sign, some mark. Her back hackled with
nervousness. The shutters of several buildings had been broken and scratched,
the marks yellow against the gray of weathering. She stumbled, her feet sliding
and breaking through the crusts of the snow, and she gripped the headstall of
the mule she led for balance. Behind her, the others were doing the same. The
world was silent but for the hiss of Orris cursing and the crunching of hooves
and boots in the snow. The dark buildings seemed to stare at them with shadowy
eyes through the mauve-tinted twilight.
Orris'
voice sounded hideously loud. "You want to scout that great house there in
the center of town? The door's shut and the shutters are intact. There'll be
room for us there and for the beasts as well."
"Looks
good," Starhawk agreed. "Ram-"
The
mule beside her jerked its head free of her hold and reared up with a piercing
squeal. Starhawk swung around, scanning the silent crescent of trees at their
backs.
It came
lumbering from the woods with that queerly staggering gait, the eyeless head
lolling on the weaving neck. Starhawk yelled, "Nuuwa!" even as Orris
cried out, pointing- pointing as three more shambling forms dragged themselves
from the crusted brush of the surrounding woods. Starhawk swore, though she had
known from what Anyog had said at the Peacock that there might be several of
them, and flung Anyog the lead rein of the mule. "Make for the big
house!" she called to the others. "And for God's sake..."
Then
she saw something else, a floundering in the brush all around the edges of the
woods, and she heard Anyog whisper, "Holy Three!"
Fawn
screamed.
Starhawk
had never seen that many nuuwa together. There were twenty at least,
floundering through the snow at a jagged lope, their misshapen arms swinging
for balance. She plunged after the rest of the party, moving as fast as she
dared, her boots breaking through the buried crusts of the snow, panic heating
her veins like cheap brandy. Her memories threw up at her the child she had
been, fleeing screaming toward the Convent walls with the groaning, mouthing
thing slobbering at her heels-merging with the creatures that pursued her now.
There was a hideous slowness to the flight, like running in a dream. The nuuwa
fell and rose and fell again, lunging toward them with a terrible
inexorability. As in a dream, she could see every detail of them with
preternatural vividness-the deformed, discolored teeth in the gaping mouths,
the rotted eye sockets seared over with dirty scar tissue, the running sores
that blotched the flabby flesh.
Ahead
of her, Fawn fell for the tenth time; Ram dragged her to her feet and fell
himself. Starhawk, stopping to let them remain ahead of her, cursed them for a
pair of paddle-footed oafs and calculated that, if they slowed the flight much
more, none of them would make it to safety.
The
walls bulked up like cliffs; she could see the scattered bones of humans and
animals half covered with snow in the streets. She guessed that the nearest
nuuwa, the ones lumbering directly behind her, were some hundred feet to the
rear, their groaning yammer and the slurpy bubble of their breath seeming to
fill her ears. She thought of turning and fighting. Once she stopped, she'd
draw them, and the others would go on ...
Rot
that, she thought indignantly. I'm not a piece of meat to be thrown to
wolves..,
Great
Mother, but I know what is!
She
yelled, "Anyog, stop! Stop!"
Not
only the old man but the whole train checked, the mules plunging and screaming
on their leads. Fawn slipped again and fell to her knees in the deep snow.
Starhawk yelled, "The rest of you go on! Anyog, bring back one of those
mules! Now!"
"What
is it you're after doing..." Orris began.
Arguing,
Great Mother!. Starhawk thought with what horrified indignation was left her.
"Rot your eyes, get running!." she screamed at them.
"But..."
"MOVE!"
Anyog
was already beside her, hauling one of the screaming, pitching animals by its
lead. For a moment, it was touch and go whether Orris would get them all killed
by continuing the discussion, but the closing ring of nuuwa around him seemed
to decide him. He threw his whole weight against the headstalls of the mules he
led. Ram dragged Fawn to her feet, fighting their way along like a pair of
wallowing drunks.
Gasping,
his face under its little spade beard as white as his bedraggled ruff, Anyog
managed to get the mule within Star-hawk's range. The nearest nuuwa were thirty
feet away, howling as they slithered in the snow, drool foaming from their
lips. The Hawk stabbed her sword point-down in the snow, whipped the dagger
from her belt, and grabbed the mule's headstall. Anyog realized what she was
doing and added his own weight to bring the thrashing head down. The mule
reared, and the steel bit deep into the great vein of the neck.
She'd
shoved the gory dagger back into its sheath and pulled her sword free before
the beast even fell. It rolled to the ground, heaving in its death agony,
crimson spouting everywhere, searingly bright against the snow. She and Anyog
plunged back in the direction of the town, Anyog going like a gazelle for two
steps before he outraced his own balance and went down in a sprawling heap of
bones.
Starhawk
saw him fall from the corner of her eye; at the same time she saw the first
nuuwa fall slavering on the screaming mule. The stink of the fresh blood drew
the creatures; they were already tearing hunks of the live and steaming flesh
from the mute where it lay. Anyog scrambled to his feet, neither calling out to
her nor asking her to stop, and floundered after her. They were past the time
when one could wait for the other. That would only mean that they would die together.
She
heard the nuuwa mewing and wheezing behind her and the scrunch of those
staggering feet in the snow. She caught them in her peripheral vision-one near
enough to overtake her before she reached the black cliff of the building, two
others farther back. She braced her feet and whirled, her sword a flashing arc
in the wan twilight.
The
nuuwa fell back from the slicing blade, blood and guts dripping down from the
slit in its abdomen. Then it flung itself on her again, mouthing and grabbing
and tripping over its own entrails, as another came lumbering up from the side.
Others were close, she thought as she dispatched the first one. An instant's
delay would have them all on her. Two fell upon her simultaneously. As she
severed the head of the one in front, the weight of the second struck her back,
the stink of it overwhelming her as the huge teeth ripped at the leather of her
coat. She twisted, hacking, fighting the frenzy of panic at the slobbering
thing that rode her. Distantly, she could hear Anyog's despairing screams. The
clawing weight on her back bore her down, unreachable by her sword blade. The
hissing, foaming mouth grated on the back of her skull. With a final writhe,
she slithered free of her coat, springing clear and running frantically between
the houses.
The
gray bulk of the largest house in town loomed before her, broken by a black
mouth of door with a mill of terrified mules around it. Scrunching footfalls
seemed to fill her ears, staggering behind her with whistling gasps of breath.
The steps of the house tripped her feet. Orris' voice bawled curses at the
mules, and from the corner of her eye, she glimpsed her nearest pursuer-not a
nuuwa at all, but Anyog, with one of the foul things clutching at him, clinging
and dragging.
It
felled him on the steps, almost at Starhawk's feet, the greedy, filthy mouth
tearing gouts of flesh from his side. Star-hawk sprang down toward them, her
sword blazing in the gray murk of dusk, cleaving down like an axe on those
writhing bodies. The rest of the nuuwa were six or eight paces behind; she
dragged the old man up and flung him to the blurred purple bulk that she knew
was Ram. Snapping jaws peeled three inches of leather from her boot-heel as she
made it through the door. The slamming of it was like thunder in the empty
building.
The
nuuwa screamed outside.
They
laid Anyog down beside the fire that Fawn managed to kindle in the great hearth
of the downstairs hall. As Starhawk had suspected, the place had been the
principal inn of Foonspay, and there were signs that much of the population of
the village had lived here for several days, crowded together, for protection.
While she worked over Anyog with what makeshift dressings she could gather,
with needles and thread, boiling water, and cheap, strong wine, she wondered
how many of them had been killed before they'd managed to get away, and if
they'd made it to safety elsewhere, or had been killed on the road.
Ram and
Orris took brands from the raised brick hearth to light their way as they
explored the pitch-darkness of the inn corridors while Fawn went to find a
place for the mules. Dimly, the hooting grunts of the nuuwa could be heard
beyond the thick walls and heavy shutters. Within, all was deathly silent.
It had
been said once that wizards were Healers-that their power could cleanse the
hidden seeds of gangrene, close the bleeding for the flesh to heal. As she
worked, bloodied to the elbows, Starhawk knew that it would take such power to
save the old man's life. Against the darkness of his beard, Anyog's face was as
colorless as wax, pinched and sunken. Long experience had given her intimate
knowledge of the death marks, and she saw them here.
How
long she worked she did not know, nor how long, afterward, she sat at the old
man's side, watching the colors of the fire play over the colorless flesh of
his face. She had no idea where the others were, nor, she thought to herself,
did it particularly matter. They had their own concerns, merely in staying
alive; it wasn't for her to trouble them with stale news. They must a!) have
known, when they carried the old man in, that he would die.
In
time, the thin, cold fingers under hers twitched, and Anyog's creaky voice
whispered, "My warrior dove?"
"I'm
here," the Hawk said, her voice carefully neutral in the still, fire
lighted dimness of the room. To hearten him, she said, "We'll turn you
over to your sister yet."
There
was a thin whisper of laughter, instantly followed by an even thinner gasp of
pain. Then he murmured, "And you, my dove?"
She
shrugged. "We're going on."
"Going
on." The words were no more than the hissing of his breath. "To
Grimscarp?"
For a
long moment she was silent, sitting with her back to the chipped brickwork of
the raised hearth, looking down at the shrunken form that lay among the huddle
of stained blankets before her. Then she nodded and said simply,
"Yes."
"Ah,"
he whispered. "What other destination would you hide with such care from
our ox team? But they are right," he murmured. "They are right. Do
not go there, child. Altiokis destroys that which is bright and pure. He will
destroy you and the beautiful Fawnie, for no other reason than that you are
what you are."
"Nevertheless,
we must go," she said softly.
Anyog
shook his head, his dark eyes opening, fever-bright in the firelight.
"Don't you understand?" he whispered. "Only another wizard can
enter his Citadel, unless to come in as his captive or his slave. Only a wizard
can hope to work against him. Without magic of your own, you are helpless
before him; he will trap you with illusion and trick you to your own
destruction. His power is old; it is deep; it is not the magic of humankind. An
evil magic," he murmured, the lids sliding shut once again over the glassy
eyes, the flesh around them stained dark and mottled with the sinking of his
flesh. "Not to be defied."
Something
rustled in the darkness. Starhawk looked up sharply, the cool tension of battle
leaping to her heart, but she saw nothing in the impenetrable shadows that
loomed in every corner of the vast room. As lightly as a mother who wished not
to disturb the sleep of her child, she slipped her hands from beneath Anyog's
and stood up, her sword springing almost of itself to her grip, the reflex of
long years of war. Yet when she reached the stone archway that led into the
hall, she found nothing and heard no sound in the passage beyond.
When
she returned to his side. Anyog was asleep, the little white hands that had
never done work harder than the making of music or the writing of poems lying
as motionless as two bunches of crushed sticks upon the sunken chest. She
satisfied herself that a thread of breath still leaked through those white
lips, then sat where she had been and gradually let the silence surround her in
a kind of despairing peace. She knew that Anyog was right-without the help of a
wizard, she could not hope to enter the Citadel or to rescue the Wolf from the
Wizard King's toils. In a way, she supposed that she and Fawn had both known it
from the first, though neither of them had been willing to admit it; neither
had been willing to give Sun Wolf up.
From
that silence, she sought the deeper stillness and peace of meditation, focusing
her mind upon the Invisible Circle, upon the music that no one could hear. Many
of the nuns had looked into fire to begin it; Starhawk was too good a warrior
to night-blind herself that way, but she had learned, in her long years as a
mercenary, that she could find the starting place in her mind alone.
The
fire crackled and whispered in the grate, its unimaginable variations of color
playing like silk over the edges of brick and wood and flesh. Starhawk became
slowly aware of the air that stirred through the winding corridors of the dark
inn, of the stress and weight of the beams where they joined overhead, and of
the moldering thatch above, cloaked by the frost-silver of the moon. Her
awareness spread out, like water over a flood plain-of the mules, sleeping in
the darkness of what had become their stable, of Fawn weeping there, of the
weighty tread of the brothers as they explored the inn, of the nuuwa prowling
and yammering outside; and of the stars in the distant night.
She was
aware when the still air of the room was touched by magic.
It came
to her as faint as a thread of half-heard music, but clear, like the scent of a
single rose in a darkened room. She had not thought that magic would feel like
that. It was nothing like the blaze of thrown fire or the deadly webs of
illusion woven by the Wizard King and spoken of in four generations of
terrified whispers. It was a very simple thing, like the aura of brightness
that had sometimes seemed to cling about old Sister Wellwa-akin to meditation,
but moving, rather than still.
She
heard the faint, trembling voice of Uncle Anyog, whispering spells of healing
in the darkness.
In
time, she came out of her meditation. Anyog's muttering voice ran on a bit,
then stilled. Without the shift in her consciousness, in her awareness, she
might have thought only that he raved with fever, and perhaps he had counted on
this. He lay motionless, his open eyes reflecting the embers of the fire like
candles in a darkened room. She moved toward him and rested her hand upon his.
"You
are a wizard," she said softly, "aren't you?"
A
hoarse rattle, like a sob, escaped his throat. "Me? Never." The dry
fingers twitched beneath hers, lacking the strength to grip. "At one time
I thought-I thought... But I was afraid. Afraid of Altiokis-afraid of the Great
Trial itself. I ran away- left my master-pretended to love other things more.
Music- poems-going in fear lest any suspect. Garnering little pot-bound slips
of power, consumed by the dreams of what I might have had."
The
fever-bright eyes stared up into hers, brilliant and restless. Overhead, the boards
creaked with the brothers' heavy stride. Somewhere in the darkness, a mule
whuffied over its fodder. "My warrior dove," he whispered, "what
is it that you seek of the Wizard King? What is this dream that I see in your
eyes, this dream you will follow to your own destruction in his Citadel?"
Starhawk
shook her head stubbornly. "It is not a dream," she replied, her
voice low. "He is my chief-Altiokis has him prisoner."
"Ah."
The breath ran thinly from the blue lips. "Altiokis. My child, he does not
lightly loose what he has taken. Even could you find a wizard-a true wizard-to
aid you, you would not live long enough to die at your captain's side."
"Perhaps
not," Starhawk said quietly and was silent for a time, staring into the
sunken glow of the hearth; the flames were gone, and only the deep, rippling
heat of the coals was left, stronger than the fire, but unseen. At length she
asked, "And did giving up your dream bring you happiness with your safety,
Anyog?"
The
withered face worked briefly with pain, then grew still She thought that he
slept, but after a long silence, his lips moved. His voice was thin and
halting. "This man whom you seek," he murmured. "You must love
him better than life."
Starhawk
looked away. The words went through her mind like the grinding of a sword blade
in her flesh, shocking and sudden, and she understood that Anyog had spoken the
truth. It was a truth that she had hidden from the other warriors of Sun Wolf's
troop, from Sun Wolf himself, and from her own consciousness; yet she felt no
surprise in knowing that it was true. For years she had told herself that it
was the loyalty a warrior owed to a chosen captain, and that, at least, had
spared her jealousy toward the Wolf's numerous concubines. From her girlhood, she
had known herself plain, and the Wolf had his pick of beautiful girls.
But she
was not the only one who loved him better than life.
She
closed her teeth hard upon that bitterness and stared dry-eyed into the
darkness. Once the thing had been brought into the open, she could not unknown
it, but she understood why she had worked to deceive herself almost from the
first. Anything was better than the chasm of this despair.
Ram's
voice echoed in the inn kitchen, through the half-open door that led into the
common room where Starhawk sat. He was saying something to Orris-something
about wedging the windows there tighter shut-and Starhawk sighed. Whether her
feelings toward Sun Wolf were a soldier's loyalty or a woman's love, whether he
ever knew it or was even still alive to care, didn't alter the more immediate
fact that she was trapped in an inn with the nuuwa yammering and chewing at the
brickwork outside. First things first, she told herself wryly, getting to her
feet. There'll be time to mess with love-and magic-if you're alive this time
tomorrow.
She
found the brothers conferring in the shadows beside the vast, cold kitchen
hearth, the light of Orris' torch throwing reflections like the gleaming eyes
of dragons on the copper bottoms of the pans and on the drinking water in the
stone basin nearby. The nuuwa could be heard from outside, scratching and
mouthing at the window frames, their grunting moans occasionally broken by
long, piercing wails. "How is he?" Orris asked.
Starhawk
shook her head. "Tougher than he looks," she replied. "I'd have
bet he'd be dead by now-and lost my money. All secure here?"
They
both looked deeply surprised. Orris recovered himself first and gave his
opinion that the shutters would hold. "We've driven wedges in some of the
downstairs ones," he added. "God knows there are axes and wedges
aplenty in the wood room, though little enough wood. But as to how we're going
to get out of this hole..."
"We'll
manage," Starhawk said. "If worst comes to worst, we can pack Uncle
Anyog on one of the mules and leave the rest of them as bait."
"But
the pelts!" Orris protested, horrified. "And the stores! AH this
summer's trading..."
"Mother
will kill us," Ram added.
"She'll
have to stand at the end of a long line," Starhawk reminded him, jerking
her thumb toward the shuttered windows. "Where's Fawnie?"
She
found Fawn in the parlor they'd converted to a stable, huddled in the shadows
among the unloaded packs of furs, her face buried in her hands. The strangled
sounds of her weeping were what had drawn Starhawk, for the room was lightless
and the long corridor from the common room almost so. The Hawk stood hidden by
the black arch of the doorway, listening to that horribly muffled sound, her
instinct to go and comfort the girl's fears forestalled by the new awareness
that Anyog's words had brought into consciousness within her mind.
She
loved Sun Wolf. Loved him not as a warrior loved a leader, but as a woman loved
a man; and she could conceive of loving no man but him.
Her
childhood had taught her that love meant the subjection of the will to the will
of another. She had seen her mother invariably bow to her father's wishes, for
all the love that had been between them. She remembered those girls who had
competed in subservience to become her brothers' humble wives, baking their
bread, cleaning their houses, giving up the brightness of their youth to bear
and care for their sons. She had seen Fawn-and all those other soft, pliant
girls before her- girls who had been Sun Wolf's slaves, whether bought with
money or not.
There
had been times when the Wolf had asked her to do things she did not like. But
his requests had never been without a reason, and his reasons had always been
honest. From being his student, she had become his friend, perhaps the closest
friend he had. For all his easy camaraderie with his men, there was a part of
himself that he kept hidden from them, the part of him that argued theology on
long winter evenings, or arranged and rearranged rocks in a garden until they
fitted his sense of stillness and perfection. To her he had shown that part of
himself-to her only.
Yet
this girl was his woman.
My
rival, Starhawk thought, with a tang of bitter distaste. Is that what we'll
come to, I and this woman with whom I've shared a dozen campfires over the
mountains? My companion in danger, who split watches with me and bargained with
the innkeepers? Are we going to end up hair-pulling, like a couple of village
girls fighting over the affections of one of the local louts?
The
thought was ugly to her, like the base and soiling memories of her older
brothers' sweethearts and their cheap subterfuges to gain dances with them at
the fairs.
And,
for that matter, what has Fawn taken from me? Nothing that I ever would have
had. I broke my vows for Sun Wolf and broke my body to learn from him the hard
skills of war. I'll never regret doing either of those things-but from the
first, he never wanted me for his woman.
Isn't
it enough to be counted as his friend?
The
woman in her remembered how Fawn had rested her small hands so lightly on the
broad shoulders and kissed the thin place at the top of his hair. No, it wasn't
enough.
Yet she
saw also, with curious clarity, that Fawn had all the things that she herself
lacked-gentleness, the capacity to receive love without distrusting the motives
of its giver, the yielding softness that complemented the Wolf's overwhelming
strength, and the magic garment of her beauty that made her precious in his
eyes.
It
would be easier, she reflected, if Fawnie were a spoiled, grasping little
bitch. Then, at least, I would know what to feel, But then, of course, the Wolf
would not have chosen her for his own. And she would certainly not have sold
all that she had and left safety and comfort to seek him among the dangers of
Altiokis' Citadel.
Fawn
was eighteen, wretched, and very frightened; it was this, rather than any
consideration of Sun Wolf one way or the other, that finally drew the Hawk to
her side, to comfort her in awkward and unaccustomed arms.
In
spite of her exhaustion, Starhawk slept badly that night after her watch.
Anyog's words returned to her, again and again: You must love him better than
life... Only another wizard can enter his Citadel... Only a wizard... His power
is old; it is deep ... An evil magic, not to be defied...
Never
fall in love and never mess with magic...
In her
dreams, she found herself stumbling through tortuous. shadow-haunted hallways, where the trunks of trees forced apart
the stones of the crumbling walls and weeds trailed in the water that pooled
across the slimy floors. She was seeking for someone, someone who could help
her, and it was desperately important that she find him before it was too late.
But she had never sought anyone's help before this; her battles she had always
fought alone-she did not know the words to call out. In the darkness, she heard
Sister Wellwa's neat little footfalls retreating from her, saw the pale gleam
of Anyog's starched, white ruff. And behind her from the vine-choked turnings
of the corridors, other sounds came to her-blundering bodies and harsh,
snuffling breath. She struggled to break the grip of the dream, but she was too
tired; the slobbering, mewing sounds in the dark seemed to come closer.
With a
great effort, she opened her eyes and saw Fawn sitting on the raised hearth,
bending over to catch the words that Uncle Anyog was whispering. The redness of
the sunken fire outlined her face in an edge of ruby; her lips looked taut and
set. The air of the room was stuffy. Through the muzziness of half sleep,
Starhawk heard Ram and Orris making their rounds elsewhere in the inn-soft,
blundering noises, bickering voices. Uncle Anyog fell silent, and Fawn reached
down to wipe the sweat that beaded his sunken cheeks.
Then
she got to her feet and gathered her plaid cloak around her over the white
shift that was all that she wore. Her unbound hair glinted with slivers of
amber and carnelian in the dying fight. Starhawk asked her cloudily,
"Where are you going?"
"Just
to get some water," Fawn said, putting her hand to the kitchen door.
There
was a basin there, Starhawk remembered, her tired mind moving slowly. She'd
seen it when she'd spoken to Ram and Orris, standing next to the monstrous
darkness of the overhanging chimney ... the chimney ...
Her
shout of "No!" was drowned in Fawn's scream as the door opened.
She
thought, later, that she must have been on her feet and moving even as Fawn
cried out. She caught up the blanket as a shield; that and the thick folds of
the cloak that Fawn still clutched around her body were enough to entangle the
first nuuwa and save Fawn from its ripping rush. The second and third blundered
over the struggling, howling monster on the threshold. Starhawk decapitated one
even as it plunged at her, then whirled to hack at the other as it ripped a
mouthful of flesh from Fawn's arm. The head went bouncing and rolling, the
bloody mouth still chewing, the hands clutching at the girl as if it could
devour her still.
Starhawk
kicked shut the kitchen door and slammed the bolt, catching a vague glimpse of
other movement, struggling and flopping, in the vicinity of the hearth.
When
she turned back, Ram and Orris were already cutting loose the thing that
gripped Fawn. By the Sight of Ram's torch, it could be seen to be covered with
soot that made a blackish muck, mingled with its spouting blood. Fawn was
unconscious. For a sickening instant, Starhawk thought that she was dead.
The
Wolf will never forgive me...
My rival...
Was I
deliberately slow?
Great
Mother, no wonder he says it's unprofessional to love! It makes hash of your
fighting instinct!
"They're
coming down the chimney," she said. Ram was just standing up. It could not
have been more than sixty seconds from the time Fawn had opened the kitchen
door, "They'll be all over the roof."
With a
quickness astonishing in so huge a man, Ram was at the nearest window, peering
through a knot in the shutter at the thin moonlight outside. From within the
kitchen, there was a crashing and a vast yammer of sounds; the great bolts of
the door sagged suddenly under the heaving weight of bodies.
"Can
we break for it?" he demanded, turning back. The dot of moonlight lay like
a little coin on his Hat-boned, unshaven cheek.
"Are
you mad?" Orris demanded hoarsely. "They'll be off the roof and on
our backs-"
"Not
if we torch the inn."
"Look,
you gaum-snatched cully, they'll have left some to guard the doors-"
"No,"
the Hawk said. She'd rushed to the other side of the room to open the shutter
there a crack. The chink of air showed the white snow of the street empty
between the blackness of the buildings. "They don't even have the brains
to work in concert, as wolves do. Having found a way into the inn, they'll all
take it. Listen, they don't even know enough for them all to throw themselves
against the door at once or to use the table in there for a ram."
Orris
got to his feet, with Fawn limp and white in his arms, except for the spreading
smear of crimson on her shift. "By the Three, creatures more witless than
my brothers!" he cried. "I never thought to find them."
"You'll
find as many of them as you can do with, if you don't stir those moss-grown
clubs you've been calling feet all these years," Ram snapped, making a run
for the mules' parlor. Starhawk was seizing torches and throwing together
bedding, one ear turned always to listen to the growing din in the kitchen. She
raked what was left in the wood box against the kitchen door and picked up a
torch from the blaze on the hearth.
"What
about Anyog?" Orris demanded, and knelt at the old man's side. "We
can't make a litter, nor even a travois ..."
"Pack
him like killed meat, then," the Hawk retorted, having been taken off
battlefields that way herself. "He'll die, anyway, if he's left
here." Already she could see the hinges of the kitchen door moving under
the thrashing weight. Orris stared at her, gape-mouthed with horror. "Rot
you, do as I say!" she shouted, as she would at a trooper in battle.
"We haven't time to waste!"
Orris
scrambled to obey her. If Anyog is a wizard, she thought, Altiokis or no
Aitiokis, he'll put forth what power he has to stay alive. That's all we can
hope for now.
But
just as she was a professional soldier, the brothers were professional
merchants and could pack five mules and a donkey with the lightning speed
acquired in hundreds of emergency disencampments. In moments, it seemed, the
mules were squealing and kicking in the hall, with Orris cursing them and
lashing at them with a switch. Ram came running back to Starhawk's side, an axe
and wedges from the wood room like toys in his great hands. From the tail of
her eye, Starhawk had a glimpse of the long, muffled bundle that was Uncle
Anyog tied over the back of one mule and of Fawn, somehow on her feet and
wrapped in the old man's rusty black coat, stumbling to open the great outside
doors.
Icy air
streamed in on them. The ululations of the creatures in the kitchen had grown
to fever pitch. The doors were sagging as she and Ram made the rounds of the
other parlors. Flame licked upward over the rafters and blazed in the mules'
straw that they'd scattered across the floor. The kitchen door was breaking as
she flung her torch at it, then raced back through the furnace of the common
room to where Ram waited for her, framed against the snowy night beyond.
Half a
dozen wedges sealed the doors. As they sprang down the steps to where Orris
waited with the mules, the Hawk glanced back to see, silhouetted against the
roof flames, the black shapes of the nuuwa, shrieking and screaming like the
souls of the damned in the Trinitarian hells.
Nothing
challenged them as they made their way from the town. As they wound their way
up the road into the mountains beyond, they could see the light behind them for
a long time.
CHAPTER
- 10 -
"MOTHER
S CRYING."
Sun
Wolf glanced up at this new, soft voice intruding into the solitude of the
rain-wet garden. Sheera's daughter, Trella, who was sitting beside him with the
trowel and handrake in her small grip, said automatically, "She isn't
either."
The
tiny boy who had brought this news picked his way through the damp, turned
ground to where the Wolf and the little girl sat on a huge rock; he seemed
infinitely careful about not getting mud on his black slippers and hose.
Trella, who was six and had been assisting Sun Wolf in his duties as gardener
since he had come to Sheera's townhouse, had no such considerations. Her black
wool skirts were kilted up almost to her thighs, and two little legs in
wrinkled black stockings stuck out over the edge of the rock like sticks.
The boy
said nothing, only stared at them both with Sheera's beautiful, pansy-brown
eyes.
"Mother
never cries nowadays. And Nurse says you're not supposed to suck your thumb
like a baby," Trella added, as a clinching argument.
He
removed thumb from mouth, but held onto it with his other hand, as if he were
afraid it would fall off or dry out if not protected. "She cried when
Father died," he said defensively. "And Nurse says you're not
supposed to sit on rocks and plays with the slaves."
"I'm
not playing with him, I'm helping him work," Trella said with dignity.
"Aren't I?"
"Indeed
you are," Sun Wolf replied gravely, but there was a glitter of amusement
in his beer-colored eyes as he regarded Sheera's children.
He
seldom saw Graal Galemas, age four; though the boy was physically a miniature
Sheera, he was soft, rather timid, and stood very much upon his dignity as the
head of the House of Galernas. Trella presumably favored their deceased father;
she was a sandy-haired, hazel-eyed, snub-nosed child who stood in awe of no one
but her beautiful mother. Sun Wolf had met the two when they'd sneaked away
from their nurse to play in the orangery, as was evidently their wont. It was a
custom Sheera had never mentioned, and he wondered if she knew. Graal had bored
quickly of gardening, but Trella had helped him build the succession houses
along the south orangery wall, in the course of which project she had provided
him with a surprising and varied assortment of information about Sheera
herself.
Now
Graal said, "She did too cry when Father died."
Trella
shrugged. "She was crying before that. She cried when the messengers came
to the house about the battle and she was crying when she got back from Lady
Tilth's later that day. And I heard her crying down in the kitchen when she was
mulling some wine for Father."
"She
never did that," her brother contradicted, still hanging onto his thumb.
"We've got servants to mull wine." He was shivering, despite the
silver-laced velvet of his tiny doublet; though it had stopped raining some
hours ago, the day was cold and the air damp. In the barren drabness of the
empty garden, he looked like a dropped jewel against the dirt.
"Well,
she did too," Trella retorted. "I was playing in the pantry and I
heard her. And then she went up to her room and cried and cried and she was
still up there when Father got stomach cramps and died, so there."
Tears
flooded the boy's soft eyes, and his thumb returned to his mouth. Around it he
mumbled wretchedly, "Nurse says you're not supposed to play in the
pantry."
"That
was months and months and months ago, and if you tattle, I'll put a snail in
your bed." Just to be prepared, she hopped down from the rock and began to
hunt for the promised snail. Graal backed hastily away and fled crying toward
the house.
Sun
Wolf sat, his knees drawn up, on the river-smoothed stone and watched the child
go. Then he glanced back at the little girl, still grubbing purposefully about
in the loose, turned earth of the rock garden bed he'd been preparing. "He
loved your father, didn't he?"
She
straightened up, flushed and sullen. "He's just a baby." That,
evidently, settled father and brother both.
If they
knew so much, the Wolf wondered whether they knew about their mother and Tarrin
as well.
He
himself would no more have told a child that her father was a collaborator or
her mother a slut than he would have whipped a puppy for something it did not
do, and for pretty much the same reasons. He looked upon children as young
animals, and neither Graal nor Trella seemed to mind this offhand treatment.
But his own childhood had taught him that there was very little that men and
women would not do to their children.
He
wondered what it was that Sheera had gotten from Yirth to put in her husband's
mulled wine.
Wind
stirred the bare branches of the hedges above the hollow where they worked;
silver droplets of rain shook loose over them. Sun Wolf paid the drops no
heed-he'd been wet and cold a good portion of his life and thought nothing of
it- and Trella, who had been consciously imitating him for some weeks, ignored
them as well. The smell of the earth mingled with the damp, musty silence as he
arranged and rearranged the smooth, bare bones of the rocks, seeking the
indefinable harmony of shape, and it wasn't until much later that Trella broke
the silence.
"She
isn't crying," she declared. After a moment she added, "And anyway,
it's just because that man's here to see her."
"That
man," Sun Wolf knew, was Derroug Dru, Altiokis' governor of Mandrigyn.
Sure
enough, a short while later he saw the dapper little figure of the governor
emerge from the orangery and stroll along the path with a servant to hold a
gilt-tasseled umbrella over his head. The family resemblance to Drypettis was
marked; both were tiny, but where Drypettis was slender, Governor Derroug Dru
was a skinny, crooked little runt, the haughty set of whose head and shoulders
dwindled rapidly to weak and spindly legs. One leg was nothing more than a
twisted bone cased in silken hose whose discreet padding accentuated, rather
than hid, its deformity; he walked with a cane, and Sun Wolf had seen how all
of his entourage slowed their steps to match his, not out of courtesy, but out
of fear. His thinning brown hair was suspiciously bright around the temples,
and his eyes, brown and dissipated, were carefully painted to hide the worst
marks of excess. Right now, he had only the one servant with him, but the Wolf
knew he usually traveled with a whole shoal of hangers-on and several
bodyguards. He was not a man popular in Mandrigyn.
Amber
Eyes had told the Wolf that before Aitiokis had taken the town, she and her
friends used to draw straws, the short straw having to take Derroug. Since he
had become governor, his vices had become more open.
Sun
Wolf bent his head, smoothing the damp earth around the stones. He heard the
tap of the cane and the slightly dragging stride pause on the flagstoned path;
he felt the man's eyes on him, hating him for his height. Then Derroug passed
on. It was beneath the dignity of the governor of Mandrigyn to notice a slave
seriously.
At his
elbow, Trella's voice whispered, "I hate him!"
He glanced
from the little girl to the elegant figure ascending the terrace steps, a
splash of white fur and lilac silks against the mottled grays and moss-stained
reds of the back of the house and the startling white of the marble of pavement
and pilaster. Sheera never spoke of the governor, but he had come to see her
several times since the Wolf had been there, and never when Drypettis was
present. Sun Wolf guessed that the little woman ran interference between her
brother and her friend-which, totally aside from her former position in the
conspiracy, might explain Sheera's attachment to her.
It had
begun to rain again. The children's nurse came bustling along the path to scold
Trella for being out without a maidservant, for not wearing her veils, for
getting her hands dirty, and for consorting with a rough and dirty man.
"Speaking to a man alone... a fine little trull people will take you
for!" she clucked, and Trella hung her head.
Sun
Wolf wiped his hands on his patched breeches and said dryly, "I've been
accused of a lot of things in my time, woman, but this is the first anyone's
ever thought I'd try to corrupt a six-year-old." He did not like the
nurse.
She
elevated her well-shaped little nose to a slightly more lofty angle than usual
and retorted, "It is the principle. A girl cannot learn too young what is
beyond the lines of propriety. It appalls me to see what is happening in the
town these days- women going barefaced and sitting right out at the counters of
public shops like prostitutes in their windows... and consorting with
prostitutes, too, I shouldn't wonder! That hussy who was here earlier actually
had paint on her face! What my old lord would have said..."
She
retreated down the path, holding the unwilling child close to her skirts,
clucking and fluttering to herself about the city's fall from virtue.
Sun
Wolf shook his head and gathered up his tools. The rain was the fine, blowing,
fitful sort that heralded a heavier storm come nightfall; it plastered his long
hair down over his shoulders and soaked quickly through the coarse canvas of
his shirt. Still, he stood for a time, studying the rocks where he'd settled
them-the smooth granite boulder buried half heeled over, so that the long
fissure in its side was visible and it formed a sort of cave underneath,
protected by the four smaller stones. The lines of it were right, making a sort
of music against the starkness of the liver-colored earth, but he thought that
he would have liked to have Starhawk's opinion.
In a
way it troubled him, how often that thought had crossed his mind.
He had
always known she was a good lieutenant. Not only her skill in taking on and
defeating much larger men but also the inhuman cold-bloodedness that she
habitually showed the troops put them in awe of her, and that was as it should
be. As a leader, he had valued her wary painstakingness and her lucidness in
defining problems and solutions. As a man set apart by his position as chief,
he had valued her company.
It
wasn't until now that he realized how much he simply valued her. On campaign,
days or weeks might go by without his seeing her, but he had known she was
always there. Now s sometimes he would waken in the night and realize that if
something went wrong-which he had no doubt that it would- he would never see
her again. He had half expected to die in Mandrigyn, but he had never before
thought of death in those terms.
It was
a dangerous thought, and he pushed it from his mind as he entered the vast
brown shadows of the orangery. It was, he thought, what his father had meant
when he spoke of going soft-a blurring on the hard edge of a warrior's heart.
And why, damn it all? Starhawk wasn't even pretty.
Not
what most fools would call pretty, anyway.
Rain
beat on the portion of the orangery roof that was not covered by the loft. The
great room echoed softly with its dull roaring. In the now-familiar darkness,
the few trees that had not been moved out into the succession houses were
grouped like sleeping trolls in a corner, concealing the practice hacking-posts.
The table still stood at the end of the room near the door that led to his
narrow stairs. On an overturned tub, her head in her hands, staring blindly at
the gray boards of the wall, sat Sheera, the heavy wool of her crimson gown
falling like a river of blood about her feet.
Her son
had been right. She had clearly been crying.
Her
eyes, when she raised them as he passed, were red-rimmed and swollen, but he
saw her force hardness into them and calm into her face. She said, "How
soon can the women be ready to attack the mines?"
"With
or without a wizard to help?" he countered.
The
tiredness in her face turned to anger, like a flash of lighted Wasting powder,
and she opened her mouth to snap something at him.
"A
real wizard, not the local poison monger."
The red
lips closed, and the hard lines that he had lately seen so often carved
themselves from the flared nostrils to the taut corners of her mouth. "How
long?"
"A
month-six weeks."
"That's
too long."
He
shrugged. "You're the commander-Commander."
He
turned to go, and she surged to her feet and seized his arm, thrusting him
around to face her again. "What's wrong with going in now?"
"Nothing,"
he said. "As long as you don't care that all of your friends who've been loyal
enough to you-and to their patriotic and pox-rotted cause-to half kill
themselves and put their families in danger by learning how to soldier are
going to die because you lead them into battle half prepared."
Her
hand dropped from his arm as if his flesh had turned to a serpent's scales. But
he saw in her anger a lurking fear as well, the desperation of a woman fighting
fate and circumstance with dwindling reserves of strength.
"Don't
you understand?" she asked, her voice trembling with weariness and rage,
"Every day we wait, he gets stronger; and every day we wait, the chances
double that Tarrin will be hurt or put to death in the mines. They already
suspect him of organizing trouble there; he has been whipped and racked for it,
then thrown back onto the chain to do his full share of the work with his limbs
half dislocated. One day word of it will get back to Altiokis. But without him,
the men's resistance would crumble-he is all their hope, and the brightness of
his courage all that stands between their minds and the numbing despair of
slavery.
"I
know," she whispered. "He is a born leader, a born king; and he has a
king's magic, to draw the hearts of his followers unquestioningly. I loved him
from the moment we met; from the instant we laid eyes on each other, we knew we
would be lovers."
"And
does that keep you from playing along with the courtship of Derroug Dm?"
the Wolf demanded snidely.
"Courtship?"
She spat the word at him scornfully. "Pah! Is that what you think he
wants? Marriage or even an honorable love? You don't know the man. Because I
was the wife of his chief supporter, the most important and richest man of his
faction in the town, he held off. But he would always follow me with his eyes.
Now he comes around like a dog when the bitch is in season ..."
Sun
Wolf leaned his broad shoulders against one of the rude cedar pillars that held
up the roof, "Then I guess poisoning your husband was a little hasty on
your part, wasn't it?"
Her
eyes flashed at him like a beast's in the gloom of the vast hall.
"Hasty?" she snarled at him. "Hasty, when that pig had pretended
to go over to Tarrin's faction, during the feuding before Altiokis' attack;
when he encouraged every man loyal to Tarrin, every man loyal to his city, to
join Tarrin's army, already knowing what would happen to them at Iron Pass?
There was nothing he did not deserve for what he did that day."
She was
striding back and forth, the faint sheen from the windows rippling like light
on an animal's pelt, her face white against the bloody color of her gown and
the blackness of her hair. "What he did that day has cut across my life,
cut across the life of every person in this city. It has left us uprooted,
robbed us of the ones we love, and put us in continual peril of our lives. What
did he deserve, if not that?"
"I
don't know," Sun Wolf said quietly. "Considering that's exactly what
you did to me, without so much as a second thought, I can't give a very fair
answer to that question." He left her and mounted the dark, enclosed
stairway to his loft, the rain beating like thunder around him and over his
head.
CHAPTER
- 11 --
IT WAS
RAINING IN PERGEMIS. THE HARD, LEADEN
DOWNPOUR beat a fierce tattoo on the peaked slate roofs of that crowded city
with a sound almost like the drumming of hail. The cobblestones of the sloping
street, three stories below the window where Starhawk sat, were running like a
river; white streams frothed from the gutters of the roofs. Beyond the
close-angled stone walls, the distant sea was the same cold, deep gray as the
sky.
Starhawk,
leaning her forehead against the glass, felt it like damp ice against her skin.
Somewhere in the tall, narrow house she could hear Fawn's voice, light and
bantering, the tone she used to speak to the children. Then her footfalls came
dancing down the stairs.
She is
on her feet again, the Hawk thought. It is time to travel on.
The
thought pulled at her, like a load resumed before the back was fully rested.
She wondered how many days they had lost. Twenty? Thirty? What might have
befallen the Wolf in those days?
Nothing
that she could have remedied, she thought. And she could not have left Fawn.
By the
time they had reached the crossroads, where the southward way to the Bight
Coast parted from the highland road that led to Racken Scrag and eventually to
Grimscarp, the mauled flesh of Fawn's arm and throat had begun to fester.
Starhawk had done what she could for it. Anyog, whose hurts by chance or magic
remained clean, was far too ill to help her. There had been no question of a
parting of the ways.
By the
time they had reached Pergemis, Fawn had been raving, moaning in an agony of
pain and calling weakly for Sun Wolf. In the blurred nightmare of days and
nights that had followed, in spite of all that the lady Pel Farstep could do,
the girl had wandered in desperate delirium, sobbing for him to save her.
During
those first four or five days in the house of the widowed mother of Ram and
Orris, Starhawk had known very little beyond unremitting tiredness and fear and
remembered clearly meeting no one but Pel herself. The mother of the ox team
was ridiculously like her brother Anyog-small, wiry, with hair as crisp and
white-streaked as his beard. She had taken immediate charge of Fawn and
Starhawk both, nursing the sick girl tirelessly in the intervals of running one
of the most thriving mercantile establishments in the town. Star-hawk's
memories of that time were a blur of stinking poultices that burned her hands,
herbed steam and the coolness of lavender water, exhaustion such as she had
never known in war, and a bitter, guilty wretchedness that returned like the
hurt of an old wound every time she saw Fawn's white, drawn face. The other
members of the household had been only voices and occasional faces peering in
at the door.
Her
only clear recollection of the events of that time had been of the night they
had cut half a handful of suppurating flesh from Fawn's wound. She had sat up
with Fawn afterward, the girl's faint, sleeping breath the only sound in the
dark house. She had meditated, found no peace in it, and was sitting in the
cushioned chair beside the bed, staring into the darkness beyond the single
candle, when Anyog had come in, panting with the exertion of having dragged himself
there from his own room on the other side of the house. He had shaken off her
anxious efforts to make him sit; up until recently he had been worse off than
Fawn and still looked like a corpse in its winding sheet, wrapped in his
draggled bed robe.
He had
only clung to her for support, gasping, "Swear to me you will tell no one.
Swear it on your life." And when she had sworn, he had sat on the edge of
the bed and clumsily, with the air of one long out of practice, worked spells
of healing with hands that shook from weakness.
Pel
Farstep had remarked to Starhawk after this that her brother's sleep seemed
troubled. In his nightmares, he could be heard to whisper the name of the
Wizard King.
In
addition to Pel, the family consisted of her three sons- Imber was the oldest,
splitting the headship of the Farstep merchant interests with her-Imber's wife
Gillie, and their horrifyingly enterprising offspring, Idjit and Keltic. Idjit
was three, alarmingly suave and nimble-tongued for a boy of his years and
masterfully adept at getting his younger sister to do his mischief for him. In
the spring, Gillie expected a third child. "We're praying for another
lassie," Imber confided to Starhawk one evening as she played at finger
swords with Idjit before the kitchen hearth, "given the peck of trouble
this lad's been."
The
household further boasted a maid, a manservant, and three clerks who slept in
the attics under the streaming slates of the roof, plus two cats and three of
the little black ships' dogs seen in such numbers about the city. Pel ruled the
whole concern with brisk love and a rod of iron.
It was
a house, Starhawk thought, in which she could have been happy, had things been
otherwise.
There
would be no glory here, she mused, gazing out into the dove-colored afternoon
rain; none of the cold, bright truth of battle, where all things had the shine
of triumph, edged in the inky shadow of death. There was none of the strenuous
beauty of the warrior's way here and no one here who would understand it. But
life in more muted colors could be comfortable, too. And she would not be
lonely.
Loneliness
was nothing new to Starhawk. There were times when she felt that she had always
been lonely, except when she was with Sun Wolf.
These
days of rest had given her time to be alone and time to meditate, and the deep
calm of it had cleared her thoughts. Having admitted her love to herself, she
did not know whether she could return to being what she had been; but without
the Wolf's presence, she knew that it would not much matter to her where she
was or what she did. There was the possibility- the probability after so much
time-that he was dead and that her long quest would find only darkness and
grief at its end.
Yet she
could not conceive of abandoning that quest.
It was
nearing lamp lighting time. The room was on the south side of the house, facing
the sea, and brightness lingered on there when, in the rest of the house,
Gillie and the maid Pearl began to set out the fat, while, beeswax candles and
the lamps of multicolored glass. The hangings of the bed-the best guest bed
that she had shared with Fawn for the last week, since Fawn's recovery-were a
rich shade of red in daylight, but in this half-light they looked almost black,
and the colors of the frieze of stenciled flowers on the pale plaster of walls
had grown vague and indistinguishable in the shadows. Opposite her, above the
heavy carved dresser, a big mural showed some local saint walking on the waters
of the sea to preach to the mermaids, with fish and octopi meticulously
depicted playing about his toes.
Sitting
in the window seat, Starhawk pulled the thick folds of her green wool robe
closer about her. Her hair was damp from washing and still smelled of herbed
soap. She and Ram had taken Idjit and baby Kiltie down walking on the stone
quays after lunch, as the gulls wheeled overhead piping warnings of the coming
storm. The expedition had been a success. Idjit had induced Kiltie to fetch him
crabs from one of the tide pools at the far end of the horn of land that lay
beyond the edge of the docks, and Starhawk had had to slop to the rescue, with
Ram hovering anxiously about, warning her not to be hurt. A most satisfying day
for all concerned, she thought and grinned.
For a
woman who had spent her entire life in the company of adults-either nuns or
warriors-she was appalled at how idiotically fond she was of children.
It
would not be easy, she knew, to leave this pleasant house, particularly in
light of what she and Fawn must face.
Yet the
days here had been fraught with guilty restlessness; nights she had lain awake,
listening to the girl's soft breath beside her, wondering if the days she spent
taking care of Fawn were bought out of Sun Wolf's life.
But she
could not abandon her among strangers. And this knowledge had made Starhawk
philosophical. There had been entire days in which she had been truly able to
rest and peaceful evenings in the great kitchen or in the family room,
listening to Genie play her bone flute and talking of travel and far places
with Ram. When Fawn was able to come haltingly down the stairs, she joined
them. Starhawk was amused to see that she had won Orris' busy heart with her
quick understanding of money and trade.
For
Starhawk, at such times, it was as if she had refound her older brothers. After
Pel and Fawn and Gillie had taken themselves off to bed, she had spent evening
after evening drinking and dicing with the three big oxen, telling stories, or
listening to them speak of the northeastward roads.
"You
aren't the only ones who've spoken of the nuuwa running in bands these
days," Imber said, tucking his long-stemmed pipe into the corner of his
mouth and gazing across the table at Starhawk with eyes that were as blue, but
much quicker and shrewder, than those of either of his brothers. "After
these gomerils left for the North, we had word of it, before the weather closed
the sea lanes. I had fears they'd come to grief in the mountains."
Orris
frowned. "You mean, others have seen bands as big?"
"Eh-twice
and three times that size." Imber leaned forward to his carved chair and
pushed his glass toward Ram, who had charge of the pitcher of mulled wine.
"Fleg Barnhithe told me some sheepman from the Thanelands said there'd
been a band there numbered near forty..."
"Forty!"
the others cried, aghast.
"They're
breeding up in the mountains somewhere." Imber sighed, shaking his head.
"It's made fair hash of the overland roads. Them and other things, other
kinds of monsters..."
Starhawk
frowned, remembering her words with Anyog in the half darkness of the corridor
of the deserted Peacock Inn. "Breeding?" she said softly. "Now,
I've heard tell they're men- or were once men."
"That's
impossible," Orris stated, a little too quickly. "Blinding's a
punishment that's practiced everywhere, and those who are blinded don't even
lose their reason, much less turn into-into those. And anyway, a blinded man
doesn't follow the way they do. Nor has any man that kind of-of insane
strength."
But his
eyes flickered as he spoke, and there was a touch of fear in his voice; if the
nuuwa had once been men, the hideous corollary was that any man stood in danger
of becoming a nuuwa.
"I've
seen men close to that kind of strength in battle," Starhawk objected. She
folded her long, bony hands on the waxed oak of the table top. "I've met
men you'd have to kill to stop-men driven by necessity for survival out of all
bounds of human strength."
"But
if it was a thing that-that happened, as if it were a sickness, wouldn't it happen
to women, too? I don't think anyone's ever seen a woman of 'em."
"But
that goes double for them breeding," Ram pointed out. filling the glasses with the wine like
molten gold in the gleaming lamplight. "Anyroad, they'd never
reproduce-they'd eat their own young, as they do everything else they come
on."
"The
Mother doesn't mold them out of little clay bits," Starhawk said.
Orris
laughed. "You'll never convince our Ram of it."
"Nah,
just because he didn't have no schooling, bar what the wardens of the jail
could give him..." Imber teased, his eyes sparkling with mischief.
"Better
nor what the kennelman gave you," Ram retorted with a broad grin, and the
discussion degenerated into the rough-and-tumble kidding that Starhawk had
grown used to in that boisterous house.
But the
memory of that evening came back to her now as she thought of taking the road
again. She shivered and drew up her knees under the soft folds of the robe,
resting her chin on her crossed wrists. Neither she nor Fawn had spoken to any
of them of their destination; not for the first time, she was thankful for the
brothers' collective denseness that prevented them from guessing what Anyog had
known. She had no desire to deal with the overwhelming rush of protectiveness that
even the suspicion would have brought out in them.
From
somewhere below, she caught Fawn's voice, like a drift of passing perfume;
"... if that's the case, then keeping a fortified post in the North open
year-round would pay, wouldn't it?"
Pel's
brisk tones replied, "Yes, but the returns on the trade in onyx
alone..."
It must
have been years, the Hawk thought, since Fawn had been in company with the kind
of people she had grown up with, years since she had heard that clever,
practical lauguage of finance and trade. Starhawk smiled a little to herself,
remembering Fawn's shamefaced admission that she was a merchant at heart. Her
father-whose bones had been lying these two years, bleached where the robbers
had scattered them- had tried to make a great lady of her; Sun Wolf had made a
skilled and practiced mistress of her; it was only now, after trial and
struggle and desperate adventure, that Fawn was free to fly her own colors. In
spite of what she knew to be their rivalry for the same man, Starhawk was proud
of her.
Heavy
footfalls creaked in the hallway. Ram's, she identified them, and realized that
the room had grown dark. She got to her feet and lighted a spill from the
embers of the glowing hearth. She was touching the light to the wick of a brass
lamp in the shape of a joyous dolphin when the footsteps paused, and Ram's
hesitant knock sounded at the door.
"Starhawk?"
He pushed it shyly open. He, too, was sleek and damp from his bath, the sleeves
of his reddish-bronze tunic turned back from enormous forearms, the thin, gold
neck chain he wore like a streak of flame in the lamplight.
She
smiled at him. "The infants all bathed?"
He
laughed. "Aye, for all that Keltic wailed and screamed until I'd let her
bathe with Idjii and me. It was a fine, wet time we had in the kitchen, let me
tell you. It's like high tide on the floor, and the steam like the fogs in
spring."
Starhawk
chuckled at the thought, noticing, as she smiled up at him, how the rose-amber
of the light put streaks of deep gold in his brown hair and tiny reflections in
his eyes. She saw the graveness of his face and her laughter faded.
"Starhawk,"
he said quietly, "you spoke this afternoon of moving on. Going away to
seek this man of Fawnie's. Must you?"
..
.this man of Fawnie's. She looked away, down at her own hands, spangled with
the topaz reflections of the lamp's facets. Trust Ram, she thought, to go
protective on me... "I'll have to go sooner or later," she replied.
"It's better now."
"Must
it be-sooner or later?"
She
said nothing. The oil hissed faintly against the cold metal of the lamp; the
smell of the scented whale oil, rich and faintly flowery, came hot to her
nostrils, along with the bland smells of soap and wool. She did not meet his
eyes.
"If
the man's been missing this long, he's likely dead," Ram persisted softly.
"Starhawk, I know you have vows of loyalty to him as your chief and I
respect that, I truly do. Bui-could you not stay with us?"
The
drumming of the rain on the slates crept into her silence, and the memory of
the bleak cold of the roads. She felt the bitter, weary knowledge that she
would have to find a wizard somewhere, if she wanted to have any chance at the
tower of Grimscarp at all, and that the going would be harder now, with maybe
only that final grief at the end.
If it's
this hard for me, she thought, what will it be for Fawn, alone?
Doggedly,
she shook her head, but could not speak.
"In
the spring..." he began.
"In
the spring, it will be too late." She raised her head and saw his face
suddenly taut with emotion, the big square chin thrust out and the flat lips
pressed hard together.
"It's
too late now," he said. "Starhawk-must you make me write it all down,
and me no good hand with words? I love you. I want to marry you and for you to
stay here with me." And with awkward passion, he folded her in his great
arms and kissed her.
Between
her shock that any man would ever say those words to her and the rough strength
of his grasp, for a moment she made no move either to yield or to repulse. The
two affairs she had had while in Sun Wolf's troop had been short-lived, almost
perfunctory, a clumsy seeking for something she knew from the start that she
would never find. But this was different. He was offering her not the warmth of
a night, but a life in this place at his side. That, as much as the shape and
strength of a man's body in her arms, drew her.
He must
have felt her waver, unresponsive and uncertain, for his arms slacked from
around her, and he drew back. There was misery in his face. "Could you
not?"
Shakily
and for the first time, she looked at him not as a traveler like herself nor as
an amateur warrior to her professionalism, but as a man to her womanliness. It
had been comforting to rest her head on that huge barrel of a chest and to feel
the massive arms strong around her, a comfort like nothing else she had known.
She found herself thinking, He is very much like the Chief... and turned away,
flooded with a helpless sense of shame, bitterness, and regret.
Silently
she damned Anyog for doing this to her, for making her aware of herself as a
woman and of his nephew, that good, deserving ox, only in terms of the man she
truly wanted and could never hope to have.
She
heard the rustle of his clothing and stepped away from his hand before he could
touch her again. "Don't," she murmured tiredly and looked up, to see
the hurt in his eyes.
"Could
you not give up the way of the warrior, then?" he asked softly, and the
guilt that burned her was all the sharper for the fact that she had never
spoken to him of another love. The very genuine liking she had for him made it
all the worse.
But she
loved him no more than she loved Ari; and she could not conceive of herself
marrying a lumpish, earnest merchant and having to deal with his clumsy efforts
to protect her and to rule her life.
"It
wouldn't be fair to you," she said.
"To
take me a warlady to wife?" A faint smile glimmered in his eyes. "But
you'd no longer be a warrior then, would you? I'd be the mock of my brothers,
maybe, but then you could protect me and lay about them for me, you see."
And
when she said nothing, the flicker of mischief died from his face.
"Eh,
well," he said after a time. "I'm sorry I spoke, Hawk. Don't feel you
need leave this house before you wish, just to get clear of my ardor. I'll not
speak again."
She
lowered her eyes, but could find nothing to say. She knew she should speak, and
tell him that, though she did not love him, she liked him hugely, better than
either of his brothers; tell him that were she not struggling with a love as
hopeless as it was desperate, she would like nothing better than to join his
loud and brawling family... But she could not. There was no one, in fact, whom
she could speak to of it-there was only one person whom she trusted with her
feelings enough to tell, and he was the one person who must never know... this
man of Fawnie's.
She
changed her clothes and went downstairs to supper. She had little idea of what
she ate or of the few things she replied to those who spoke to her. Ram was
there, pale and quiet under the gibes of his brothers. Though she was past
noticing much, Starhawk was aware that Fawn, too. had very little to say. Pel
Farstep's sharp, black eyes flicked from face to face, but the shrewd little
merchant made no mention of their silence and was seen to kick her youngest son
under the table when he bawled a question to Ram, asking, was he in love, that
he couldn't eat?
They
always said that love affects women this way, Starhawk thought, fleeing the
convivial clamor in the supper room as soon as she decently could. Great
Mother, I've eaten hearty dinners after sacking towns and slitting the throats
of innocent civilians. Why should saying "No" to one lumpish burgher
whom I don't even love make whatever it was that Gillie spent her time and
sweat in the kitchen for taste like flour paste and ash? The Chief would kill
me.
No, she
thought. The Chief would understand.
She
paused before the mirror in her room and stood for a long time, candle in hand,
studying the pale, fragile-boned face reflected there.
She saw
nothing that anyone by any stretch of courtesy would call pretty. For all the
delicacy of the cheekbones and the whiteness of the fair skin, it was a face
cursed with a chin both too long and too square, with lips too thin, and with a
nose that was marked with that telltale, bumpy crookedness that was the family
resemblance of fighters. Fine, pale hair caught the candle's light, which
darkened it to the color of corn silk-in sunlight it was nearly white, tow and
flyaway as a child's. It had grown out some in her journeying, hanging wispy
against the hollows of her cheeks. Sunlight, too, would have lightened her eyes
almost to silver; in this light, they were smoke-colored, almost as dark as the
charcoal-gray ring that circled her pupils. Her lashes were straight and
colorless. There was a scar on her cheek, too, like a rudely drawn line of pink
chalk. In her bath, she had noted again how the line of it picked up again at
her collarbone and extended for a handspan down across pectoral muscle and
breast.
She
remembered a time when she had been proud of her scars.
Who but
Ram, she wondered, would offer to take a warlady to wife? Certainly not a man
who had his choice of fragile young beauties like Fawn.
The
door opened behind her. The liquid deeps of the mirror showed her another
candle, and its sheen rippled over a gown of brown velvet, tagged with the pale
ecru lace such as the ladies of the Bight Islands made, with a delicate face
lost in shadow above.
She
turned from the mirror. "How do you feel?" she asked.
Fawn
shrugged and set the candle down. "Renewed," she replied quietly.
"As it-oh, as if spring had come, after a nightmare winter." She
crossed to the small table that stood beside the window and picked up her
hairbrush, as was her nightly wont. But she set it down again, as she had set
down untasted forkfuls of flour paste and ash at tonight's supper. In the
silky, amber gleam of candle and lamp, her fingers were trembling.
"Ready
to take the road again?" the Hawk asked, her voice ringing tinnily in her
own ears. This man of Fawnie's, Ram had said. But that, she told herself, was
nothing that she had to burden Fawn with. It was no doing of hers that she had
been stolen away from her family and had taken Sun Wolf's fancy. The Wolf was
lost and in grave danger, and Fawn had put her life at risk to find him.
Fawn
was silent for a long moment, staring down at the brush, her face turned away.
In a muffled voice, she finally said, "No." She looked up with
wretched defiance in her green eyes. "I'm not going on."
Even
Ram's unexpected proposal of marriage had not struck Starhawk with such shock.
For a moment, she could only stare, and her first feeling was one of
indignation that this girl would abandon her quest for her lover.
"What?" was all she could say.
Fawn's
voice was shaking. "I'm going to stay here," she said haltingly,
"and-and marry Orris."
"What?"
And then, seeing the girl's eyes flood with tears of shame and wretchedness,
Starhawk crossed the room in two quick strides and caught her in a swift hug,
reassuring her while her own mind reeled in divided confusion. "Fawnie,
I-"
Fawn
began sobbing in earnest. "Starhawk, don't be angry with me. Please don't
be angry with me. Sun Wolf was so good to me, so kind-he saved me from I don't
know what kind of slavery and misery. But-but Anyog was right. I was there at
the inn when he said we would never enter the Citadel without the help of a
wizard-I was listening in the hall. And he's right, Hawk. We can't go against
Altiokis by ourselves. And there are no wizards anymore. He's the last one
left, the only one ..."
Not if
I can put the screws to Anyog in some way, he's not, Starhawk thought grimly.
But she only said, "We'll find one." Her honesty drove her to
recognize Fawn's love for the Wolf to be as valid as her own, even as it had
driven her to allow the girl to accompany her in the first place.
"No,"
Fawn whispered. "Hawk, even if we could-it isn't only that." She drew
back, looking earnestly up at the older woman with those wide, absinthe-green
eyes. "Starhawk, it isn't enough. I want a home; I want children of my
own. Even if we find him, even if he's not dead, I don't want to live as a mercenary's
woman. I love Sun Wolf-I think I'll always love him. But I won't go on being a
glorified camp follower. I can't."
Her
trembling fingers gestured at the dim room, with its curtained bed and softly
shining lamps, its stiff-robed, ridiculous saint preaching to the mermaids in
the sea, with their weedy hair flowing down over their breasts. "This is
the sort of house that I grew up in, Hawk. This is the life I know. I belong
here. And believe me," she added with a wry smile, "marrying into a
firm of spice merchants is a better thing, in the long run, than being mistress
to the richest mercenary in creation."
Flabbergasted,
Starhawk could not speak, but only look in puzzlement at that beautiful,
secretive face and wonder that anyone who actually had Sun Wolf's love could
give it up for a bustling, pompous busybody like Orris Farstep.
Fawn
disengaged herself quietly- from Starhawk's grasp and walked to the window. The
lace at her throat almost covered the bandages that remained over the wounds
that the nuuwa had left; like Starhawk, she would carry scars to the end of her
days. Her voice was soft as she went on. "I spoke to Pel about it this
afternoon. I know Orris is fond of me. And I-I want this, Hawk. I want a home
and a family and a place; I want to know that my man isn't going to get himself
killed in a war next week or discard me for someone else next year. I love this
place and I love these people. Do you understand?"
"Yes,"
the Hawk said, her voice so low that she was almost not sure that it could be
heard over the clamoring sounds in her own heart and mind. "Yes, I
understand."
Fawn's
back was a shape of darkness against the deep well of the window's shadow; the
candle threw a little wisp of light along the edge of the lace and on the halo
of her hair. "What will you do?" she asked.
Starhawk
shrugged. "Go on alone."
She
took her leave of them next day. Pel, Orris, Gillie, and the children went with
her to see her off at the city's land gate, wrapped in oilskins to keep off the
rain. Anyog, though he was able now to get about, had remained at home, as had
Ram and Fawn, each for a different, personal reason.
All the
way through the steep-slanted cobbled streets of the town, Orris had kept up a
worried stream of caution and advice regarding the roads through the Stren
Water Valley that would take her northeast to Racken Scrag, about the bandits
who were said to haunt them, and concerning the dangers of Altiokis' lands.
"It isn't only the bandits stealing your horses you'll have to worry
about, lass," he fretted-Pel had given Starhawk a riding mare and a pack
mule. "That Altiokis, he's hiring mercenaries, and the countryside's stiff
with them. They're dangerous fellows..."
The
Hawk sighed patiently, glancing sideways at Orris from beneath her streaming
hood. "I know all about mercenaries that I need to."
"Yes,
but-"
"Leave
the poor woman alone," Pel ordered briskly. "By God, how she put up
with you all the way from Foonspay I'll never know." Her smile flashed
white in the gypsy brown of her face. Her hood was of the fashionable calash
type-under its boned arch, the piled braids of her widow's coif gleamed faintly
in the rainy daylight. She quickened her step to where Starhawk, walked in
front of the little cavalcade of led horses and took the Hawk's hand in her own
little square one.
In a
softer voice, she said, "But we're all glad that you have been here,
child. Your staying made all the difference to Fawn. In the pinch, it may even
be that it saved her life to know that she had not been abandoned in a strange
place."
Starhawk
said nothing. She felt uncomfortable about Fawn, almost guilty. But her
impassive face showed nothing of the turmoil within her as she looked around at
the bright-painted walls of this rain-drenched, fish-smelling town. Pel seemed
to accept her silence for what it was and moved along briskly beside her,
keeping her heavy black skirts lifted above the runnels that trickled among the
cobblestones.
Orris
persisted. "But mercenaries-they're a bad breed, Starhawk, begging your
pardon for saying so. And they say the Dark Eagle whom Altiokis has put in
charge of all his mercenaries is the worst..."
"The
Dark Eagle?" Starhawk raised her dark, level brows.
"Aye.
He's a wicked man, they say..."
"Oh,
bosh," Pel retorted. "Our girl's probably served with him; haven't
you, child?"
"As
a matter of fact, I have," she admitted, and Orris looked shocked.
From
the saddle of the riding mare, Idjit announced, "I be goin' with the
Hawk."
"Say,
'I am going with the Hawk,'" corrected Gillie, who was leading the mare.
"And in any case, you aren't, laddie."
"Then
I maun't say't," the boy retorted in the broad Bight Coast dialect that
his mother was laboring diligently to erase from his speech. Keltic, perched
amid the packs on the mule, watched her brother with worship in her round, blue
eyes.
Their
mother looked annoyed with this challenge, but Star-hawk only said,
"That's all right, Gillie. Even if I could take a child along-which I
can't-I wouldn't have one with me who talked like a fisherman."
At this
rebuke from his hero, Idjit subsided, and Pel hid a grin. They had reached the
squat towers of the city gate. Amid the crowds of incoming countryfolk and
local farmers, they said good-by, Starhawk lifting the children down and
mounting in Idjit's place, leaning from the saddle to clasp their hands. She
missed them already-and more than these who had come to see her off, she missed
Ram and Anyog and Fawn. But there was nothing that she could have said to them
in parting. What could she say to a man she was leaving to seek another, or to
the woman who had abandoned that quest? And though in the end she had not had
the heart to speak to Anyog of her desperate need for even a cowardly and
unfledged wizard's aid, she knew that Anyog knew it. She did not blame him for
his fear, but she knew that he blamed himself.
"The
Stren Water Valley will be in flood this time of year," Orris advised.
"Best go up it by the foothills."
The
mare shied, more offended than afraid, as a market woman chivied a herd of
geese through the gate; in the shelter of the gatehouse eaves, a boy was
selling roast chestnuts out of a brazier full of coals, his thin, monotonous
song rising above the general din. Light and steady, rain drummed on the
shining slates and on Starhawk's black oilskin cloak. The sound of rain and the
smell offish and the sea would always be twined in her mind with these
people-with the two children hanging onto Gillie Farstep's hands, with the
monumental Orris, fussing at her to watch what inns she put up at, and with Pel
Farstep, like a little brown sparrow, reaching up to take her hands in
farewell.
"Keep
yourself safe, child," she said gently. "And remember, wherever you
are, there is a home here for you if you need one."
Starhawk
bent from the saddle and kissed the brown cheek. Then she turned the horse's
head; the mule stretched out its neck to the full extent of the lead before it
followed. She left the Farsteps in the crowded shadows of the noisy gate and
did not look back.
You
have parted from so many people, she told herself, to still that treacherous
ache in her heart. In time, you got over all but one and you'll get over these.
She
made herself wonder if the Dark Eagle would take her on as a mercenary; that
would get her into the Citadel, without the need to search for a wizard to aid
her. From things Ram and his brothers had said, most people didn't believe in
the existence of wizards anymore-only in Altiokis, inhuman, deathless, undefeatable,
coiled in the darkness of the Tchard Mountains like a poisonous snake beneath
the kitchen floor.
The wet
wind lifted her cloak. Shreds of white cloud blew, unveiling the distant
foothills of those mountains and the rolling uplands, stony and deserted, that
guarded all approaches to them on this side. How long would it be, she
wondered, before Altiokis turned his energies toward the Bight Coast, as he had
turned them toward Mandrigyn and the straits of the Megantic?
Once
she would have watched the proceedings with interest, as Sun Wolf did, gauging
the proper time to apply for work amid the chaos. She had burned and looted
many cities-this was the first time, she realized, she had dwelt in one in
peace. Pel, Ram, and Orris were the burghers she and her men had helped kill;
Idjit and Keltic were the children who had been sold into slavery to pay them.
She
shook her head, forcing those thoughts into the background of her mind. One
thing at a time, she told herself, and the thing now is to figure out what I'm
going to do when I reach the Citadel walls. The Dark Eagle would know of her
unshakable loyalty to the Wolf-he'd seen them work together when they'd all
been fighting in the East. Even if she came up with a story of disaffected
loyalties, the timing, with the Wolf, being a prisoner in the Citadel, would
give the game away.
She had
to find a wizard-one who was not too terrified of Altiokis to admit his powers,
preferably one who had passed this Trial that Anyog had spoken of. But there
was all the Mother's green earth to search in and all the days that she had
lost in Pergemis pressing on her, reminding her how little time it took for a
man to die.
Damn
Fawnie, anyway, she thought, exasperated, and then felt a twinge of guilt. She
did not rationally expect that the girl would have known at the outset that she
would not be going on from Pergemis; and in any case, Pel Farstep might very
well have been right. It would be easy to die, lying friendless among
strangers. Yet knowing Fawn for her rival, Starhawk could never have abandoned
her to her death.
Hooves
clattered on the hard surface of the highroad. Star-hawk swung around in the
saddle, the freshening wind blowing the hood back from her hair. It was a
single rider, wrapped like herself in a black oilskin poncho, the folds of it
whipping like the horse's black, tangled mane and tail in the moist chill of
the air. They drew up beside her, horse and rider steaming with breath.
Starhawk
said, "Are you out of your lint-picking mind?"
"I
suspect so." Uncle Anyog was panting, clinging to the pommel of the saddle
for balance, his face white against the darkness of his salt-and-pepper beard.
"But I couldn't let you go on, my warrior dove. Not alone."
She
regarded him from beneath lowered lids. "You going to start calling me
'lass,' as Ram does?"
He
grinned. She reined her mare around and started up the road for the foothills
and the way to the Tchard Mountains, Anyog jogging at her side.
"For
that matter, did Ram put you up to this?" she asked suddenly.
"It
would do my wits greater credit if I said he'd threatened me with a horrible
death if I didn't go to your aid." The old man sighed. "But alas, in
old age one learns to take credit for one's own follies. None of them knows a
thing, my child. I left Pel a note."
"It
must have covered three pages," she remarked.
Anyog
was recovering his breath a little. She could see, under the oilskin, that he
was dressed as he always was-as a gentleman-in his drab and sober black, the
starched white lace of his ruff like petals around his face. "In the
finest iambic pentameter," he amplified. "My dove, I know why you
refused our Ram's hamlike but gold-filled hand-and I suspect I know why you
left the Convent." Her head swiveled sharply around, her gray eyes
narrowing. "Oh, yes-I have seen you meditate and I know you didn't learn
that as a mercenary... But why did you become a Sister to begin with?"
She
drew rein, meeting that bright, black scrutiny with cold reserve. "I never
turn down an offer of help," she said. "And now that you have
offered, I won't send you back, because I need you. But that doesn't mean I
won't gag you and pack you up to Grimscarp, the way we packed you into
Pergemis, if you ask after things that are none of your affair."
She
clucked to the mare and moved off.
"But
it is my affair, my dove," the little man said, wholly unperturbed.
"For I think we are more alike than you know. You became a Sister, I
suspect, for the same reasons that you later became a warrior-because you would
not tolerate the slow breaking of your spirit to the yoke of a house and a
child and some man's whims, and any life seemed preferable to that-because you
need a life of the brighter colors, because you prefer lightning-edged darkness
to an eternal twilight. My child," he said softly, urging his bay mare up
beside hers on the narrow road, "I could no more have remained a pensioner
in my estimable sister's house than I could become a warrior like yourself.
"I
have lived with my fear a long time," he continued, drawing the oilskin
closer about his body as the wind turned chill once again. "Not until now
had I realized how it had come to rule me."
CHAPTER
12
SUN
WOLF PAUSED IN HIS PACING, HEARING THE SOUND OF soft, approaching footfalls in
the darkness. From the stairs, he thought. His sigh was deep and bored, and he
shifted his weight as a man would do on a long stint of guard. The pattering
steps halted. Around him, the vast, chilly darkness was lambent with breath.
Somewhere
a board creaked. Then weight struck his shoulders and the back of his
knee-light, muscled weight, like a cat's, vicious and controlled. At the first
breath of impact, he twisted, slithering free of the smooth arms that sought
his neck. In the darkness, he reached back and expertly tweaked the short
little nose that snorted with exertion so close to his ear.
He felt
his assailant step away. With an oily hiss of hot metal, someone uncovered a
dark-lantern. Behind him, Gilden stood panting, regarding him with injured
chagrin.
All
around the room, their hair tight-braided and their smooth arms traced in the
shadows with the faint, clear lines of muscle definition, the ladies of
Mandrigyn watched him, a sea of aggrieved eyes.
"You're
pulling with your shoulders," he told Gilden, looking down into those
long-lashed, sea-blue eyes. "Your center of balance is lower than a
man's-that's why you women have hell's own time throwing each other. It's one
of your advantages against a man. Throw from the hips-like this-lever me down.
Somebody your size, trying to use brute force against someone my size, is more
than stupid-she's suicidal."
Gilden
colored, but said, "Yes, sir. Thank you, sir."
"And
I heard you coming."
She
said something else then, sotto voce and obviously picked up from Crazy red's
vocabulary.
He
glanced at the assembled ladies. "Next?"
Behind
him, he heard Gilden's swift hiss of intaken breath, a voiceless protest. When
he turned and raised one shaggy brow at her, she asked, "Couldn't I try
again?"
"No,"
he said gently, "because you had only one chance, and now you're dead. Go
sit down."
She
returned without a word to her place on the edge of one of the upturned tree
tubs between Wilarne and her daughter, Tisa. Sun Wolf, for the tenth time so
far that evening, walked over to the little potting room that opened off the
main orangery, so that he would neither see nor hear-supposedly-where his next
assailant would begin her attack. The single dark-lantern that illuminated the
vast room threw his shadow, huge and grotesque and swaying, across the gray
boards of the wall; he heard Denga Rey fuss with the lantern slide and curse
when she scorched her fingers. As he closed the door behind him, he heard the
soft rise of talk. Gilden, glib as always, had informed him that this was to
cover any noise that the next attacker might make in taking her place, but Sun
Wolf suspected that it was simply because the women liked to talk.
It was
something he'd found was true even of Starhawk, though there wasn't a man in
the troop who'd believe that. So far as he knew, he was the only one she talked
to freely, not with the inconsequential small talk of war and the camp, but of
things that really concerned her, the past and the future, gardening, theology,
the nature of fear. In an odd way, he had felt curiously honored when he had
realized that this was true, for Starhawk's facade was one of the coldest and
most distant that he had ever seen. Most of the men were a little afraid of
her.
He
himself had been appalled by the realization that he loved her.
For one
thing, one of the most fatal mistakes any commander could make was to fall in
love with one of his captains, whether man or woman. It always became known,
and he had never seen a time when trouble had not come of it.
For
another thing, Starhawk was heart and bones a warrior; logical, emotionless,
and ruthless with anything that came in the way of her chosen course. The
affairs she had had with other members of the troop had been terminated the
minute the men had interfered with her training. Sun Wolf was not entirely
certain what her reaction would be if he should return to Wrynde and tell her,
"I love you, Starhawk."
And
yet, he found himself very much looking forward to returning to Wrynde and
finding her there, grave, homely, sarcastically demanding if he'd been
kidnapped by all those women for stud.
There
was a respectful tap at the door. He came out and signaled Denga Rey to kill
the lamp again. Then he began to walk, with a slow pace like a sentry's, the
length of that empty darkness, listening for his next student in this lesson in
how to take out and kill a man.
It was
Eo, not quite as heavy and not nearly as clumsy as she had been. She acquitted
herself well, timing her footsteps against his and remembering to throw from
the hip, not the shoulders. He hit the floor hard and tapped her arm as the
bone of her wrist clamped his windpipe shut. She released him instantly, and
the light went up to show her bending anxiously over him, afraid she had done
him real harm. He sat up, rubbing his throat and grinning; it was very much
like the blacksmith to knock a man senseless and beg his pardon contritely when
he came to.
That
was something he had found quite common to the women, this concern for one
another's bruises. Curse and revile himself blue in the face as he might, he
could seldom get even the smallest aggression toward one another out of them.
Their 'technique was good. Most of them understood the leverage their small
size needed and, between running and strenuous, night-and-morning training,
they were developing the reflexes necessary to put them even with larger and
heavier opponents. But he was forever seeing someone at sword practice get in a
really telling wallop on her opponent, then immediately lower her weapon and
make sure the other woman wasn't hurt before going on. It drove Sun Wolf nearly
crazy; if he hadn't seen them fight against the nuuwa, he would have
tried-unsuccessfully, he presumed-to wash his hands of the whole affair.
He had
found out many things about women in the last few weeks.
He had
learned that women, among themselves, could carry on conversations whose
bawdiness would have set any mercenary of the Wolf's acquaintance squirming.
He'd learned this the evening he'd gone to soak himself in the hot tub,
partitioned from the main bathhouse, after training, when the women were in the
main part of the baths and had assumed he'd gone up to bed. It had been a
startling and eye-opening experience for a man raised on the popular masculine
myth of feminine delicacy. "I wouldn't even tell jokes like that,"
he'd said later to Amber Eyes, and she had dissolved into disconcerting
giggles.
Another
alarming thing about the women was their prankishness. The ringleaders in
everything from ambushing him as he emerged, pink and dripping, after his bath
to sending him anonymous and horrific love letters were Gilden Shorad and
Wilame M'Tree, outwardly as gracious and poised a pair of matrons as ever a man
made his bow to in the street.
But the
main thing that he had found was their strength- dogged, ruthless, and, if
necessary, crueler than any man's. It had an animal quality to it, forged by
years of repression; for all their beauty and sweetness, these were fifty people
who would do whatever it was necessary to do, and the single-mindedness of it
sometimes frightened him.
He
thought of it now, sitting at last alone in the potting room, warming his hands
over a brazier of coals, listening to the women depart. The rain had resumed,
pattering noisily on the roof overhead, murmuring in the waters of the canals.
Most mornings, the lower islands of the city were flooded, the great squares
before its floating miracles of churches and town hall transformed to wastes of
water crossed with crude duckboards. The damp cold ate at his bones. The women
were wrapped like treacle-cured hams in leather and oiled silk, their voices a
soft music in the semi dark.
The
next class would be starting soon. Through the slits of the shuttered window of
the potting room, he watched their shadows flicker against the lights of the
house and smiled a little at the thought of them. They'd come a long way-from
veiled, timid creatures blushing at the presence of a man-even the ones who had
children and had presumably conceived them somehow-to cool and deadly fighters.
If what Gilden and others told him was true, they'd become hardheaded,
matter-of-fact businessmen and shopkeepers as well.
The men
of Mandrigyn, he thought wryly, were in for one hell of a surprise when they
finally got home.
The
potting room was dark, but for the poppy-red glow of the brazier; shadowy
shapes of trowels, rakes, and sprouted bulbs lurked gold-edged in the shadows.
The smells of the place were familiar to him-humus, compost, cedar mast, the
wetter,
rockier scent of gravel, and the faintly dusty smell of the half hod of sea
coal in the comer. From the door, he caught Sheera's voice, low and tense,
speaking to someone outside, then Drypettis' high, piercing tones. He heard
Tarrin's name spoken-that lost Prince and golden hope, slaving to organize the
mines-and then Drypettis' voice again.
"But
he is worthy of you, Sheera," she said. "Of all of them, he is the
only man in the city worthy of your love-the greatest and the best. I have
always thought it."
"He
is the only man in the city whom I have ever loved," Sheera replied.
"That's
what infuriates me; that you and he should be enslaved and humiliated-he by the
mines and the lash, you by the base uses of the barracks. That you should stoop
to using a-a violent clodhopper who can keep neither his eyes nor his hands off
those who are fighting for their city ..."
"I
assigned Amber Eyes to him," Sheera corrected diplomatically. "She
didn't object."
"He
could have had the decency to have left her alone!"
Sheera
laughed. "Oh, really, Dru! Think how insulted she would have been!"
He
could almost see the sensitive lips pinch up. "I'm sure that was his only
consideration," Drypettis retorted with heavy sarcasm, and a moment later
he heard the soft boom of the closed door. Then Sheera's footfalls approached,
slow and tired, and she stood framed in the darkness of the potting room
doorway.
Sun
Wolf hooked a stool from under the workbench and pushed it toward her with his
foot. She looked worn and stretched, as she always did these days when one of
the girls from the mines brought her news of Tarrin. She ignored the proffered
seat.
"If
she hates me that much," the Wolf said, holding his hands to the luminous coals,
"why does she stay? She's free to quit the troop and she'd be no
loss."
Sheera's
mouth tightened, and an angry glint flickered in her eyes. Stripped for
training, she held an old blanket wrapped about her shoulders, its thick folds
muffling the strong shape of her body. "I suppose that you, as a
mercenary, would judge everyone by your own standards," she retorted.
"It's inconceivable to you that, no matter what someone's personal
feelings about her leadership are, she could remain out of loyalty to a higher
goal. Like me-like all of us." She jerked her head back toward where the
half-seen shapes of Denga Rey and Amber Eyes could be distinguished, talking
quietly at the far end of the room. "Drypettis is a citizen of Mandrigyn.
She wants to see her city proud and free-"
"The
fact that she's the governor's sister couldn't have anything to do with her
staying, could it?" Sun Wolf rasped.
Sheera
sniffed scornfully. "Derroug could find a hundred better spies."
"Whom
you trust?"
"Who
are more acceptable to your tastes, anyway," Sheera snapped back at him.
"She may be a hideous snob; she may be unreasonably obstinate; she may be
rigid and vain and prudish beyond words; but I've known her all my life, since
we were girls in school together. She wouldn't betray us."
"She
could betray us by being too self-involved to know what she's doing." He
moved his shoulders, rubbed the aching muscles of his neck, and encountered, as
he did a dozen times a day, the steel of the slip-chain that lay around his
throat like a noose.
"Whatever
else she is, she isn't stupid."
"She's
a weak link."
"Not
in this case."
He
swung back toward her. "In any case," he snapped. "You all have
weaknesses 0f one kind or another. It's a commander's business to know what
they are and take them into account. A single unstable member could wreck the
whole enterprise, and I say that woman is about as unstable as any I've ever
seen."
"It
would be an insult to throw her out of the troop at this point without
cause," Sheera retorted hotly. "When it was only a matter of
organization, she was virtually second in command. .."
"Or
is it that you just like having a faithful disciple?"
"As
much as you hate not having one." She was angry now, carnelian reflections
of the fire leaping in her eyes. "She's been loyal to me, not only as a
conspirator but as a friend."
"As
commander-"
Her
voice gritted. "May I remind you, Captain, that I am the commander of this
force."
The
silence between them was as audible as the twang of an overstrained rope. In
the ruddy light, her eyes seemed to bum with the reflected fires of the
brazier. But whatever words would have next passed between them were
forestalled by the opening of the orangery doors and the joking voices of
Crazyred and Erntwyff Fish. "So he says, 'What cheap bastard gave you only
a copper?' And she says, 'What do you mean? They all gave me a copper.'"
The
women were coming in for the second class. After a long moment, Sheera turned
on her heel, her blanket swirling like a cloak with her steps, and went to
speak to them, leaving Sun Wolf standing silent in the potting room, looking
out at her through the frame of the dark door.
The
next morning he left the house at dawn to seek the witch Yirth in the city.
He had
the impression of having seen Yirth several times since they had spoken in his
loft on the night of that first meeting, but he would have been hard pressed to
say precisely where or when. She was a woman adept at making herself unnoticed.
No small fear, he thought rather crudely, for someone that ugly, forgetting
that, for all his size, he, too, had a talent for staying out of sight. He had
hesitated to seek her out, knowing that it was in truth her hand, not Sheera's,
that held the choke rein on his life. Moreover, he was not entirely certain
that he would be able to find her.
As soon
as curfew lifted, he went out, leaving Amber Eyes curled unstirring in his bed,
and took one of the secret exits of the women out of the grounds. The night's
rain had ceased, and the canals lay as opaque as silver mirrors among the
moss-streaked walls; the dripping of the rooftrees upon the narrow footpaths
and catwalks that bordered the water fell hollow into the stillness of the
morning, like the intermittent footsteps of drunken sprites.
He had
taken care not to go about in the city too often; Altiokis used mercenary
troops as part of the city garrison, and there was always a chance that he
would be recognized by one of them. But more than that, there was something in
any captured town that made the Wolf uneasy-a sense of being spied upon, a
sense that, if he called for help when in trouble, no one would come. The
battle at Iron Pass had indeed, as Sheera had said, stripped the city of all
that was healthy and decent, and the men whom he met in the streets were mostly
cripples, addicts-for Mandrigyn was one of the key ports in the dream-sugar
traffic from Kilpithie-or else had a furtive air of shame and deceit about them
that made them obviously unsuitable. Even the slaves he saw in the town were a
bad crop, the stronger ones having been confiscated as part of the indemnity
after the battle and sent with their masters to labor in the mines. Sun Wolf's
health and his size made him conspicuous-and matters were not helped by the
several women who had sent unequivocally worded notes to Sheera, requesting a
loan of his- unspecified-services.
He
crossed through the spiderweb windings of twisting streets and over plank
bridges that spanned canals he could have jumped, had there been room on those
jammed islets for a running start. On catwalks that paralleled the canals or
circled the courtyard lagoons along the second or third storey of the houses
that fronted them, crones and young girls were already appearing, to shake out
bedding in the damp air and call gossip back and forth across the narrow
waters. In the black latticework of alleys, ankle-deep in icy water on the
lower islands, he saw the lights going up in kitchens and heard the rattle of
ironware and the scrape of metal on stone as ashes were raked. Crossing a small
square before the black and silent fortress of a three-spired church, he
smelled from somewhere the waft and glory of bread baking, like a ghost's
guiding glimpse of the heaven of the saints.
In the
silvery light of morning, the city market was a riot of colors: the
rain-darkened crimson of the servants of the rich and the wet blue of country
smocks; the somber viridians of spinach and kale and the crisp greens of
lettuces; the scarlets and golds of fruits; and the prodigal, cloisonne
brightness of pyramids of melons, all shining like polished porcelain under
their beading of rain. The smells of sharp herbs and fishy mud smote him, mixed
with those of clinging soil and the smoky tang of wet wool; he heard girls'
voices as sweet as the hothouse strawberries they cried and old countrymen's
half-unintelligible patois. Raised as he had been in the barbaric North, Sun
Wolf had been a grown man before he had ever seen a city marketplace; and even
after all these years, the impact of kaleidoscopic delight was the same.
From a
countrywoman in a stall where game birds hung like great feathered mops, he
asked the direction of the woman Yirth; and though she gave him a suspicious
look from dark old eyes, she told him where Yirth could be found.
The
house stood on the Little Island, tall, faded, and old. Like most of the houses
there, it was of the old-fashioned style, half timbered and lavishly decorated
with carving, every pillar, doorpost, and window lattice encrusted with an
extravagant lacework of saints, demons, and beasts, wreathed about with all the
flowers of the fields. Bat the paint and gilding had long since worn off them.
Standing before the door. Sun Wolf had the impression of being on the edge of a
dark and carven wood, watched from beneath the trellised leaves by deformed and
malevolent elves. Yet the house itself was severely clean; the shutters that
were hinged to every window of its narrow face were darkly varnished, and die
worn brick of the step was washed and scraped. He heard his own knock ring
hollowly in the fastnesses of the place; a moment later, he heard the light,
soft touch of the wizard's approaching stride.
She
stepped aside quickly to let him in. Sun Wolf guessed that few people lingered
on that step.
"Did
Sheera send you?" she asked.
"No."
He saw the flicker of suspicion cross the sea-colored eyes. "I've come on
my own."
The
single dark bar of brow deepened in the middle, over the hooked nose. Then she
said, "Come upstairs." On the lower isles, none but the very poorest
used the ground floors of their houses for anything except storage.
Yirth's
consulting room was dark, long, and narrow, the tall window at its far end
looking out over the greenish light of a canal. Plants curtained it, crowding
in pots or hanging like robber gangs all from the same gallows, and the light
that penetrated was green and mottled. Around him, the Wolf had a sense of
half-hidden things, of clay crocks containing herbs lining the dark shelves, of
books whose worn bindings gleamed with wax and gold, and of embryos preserved
in brandy and herbs hung in dried and knobby bunches from the low rafters.
Unknown musical instruments slept like curious monsters in the corners; maps,
charts in forgotten tongues, and arcane diagrams of the stars lined the pale
plaster of the walls. The place smelled of soap, herbs, and drugs. He felt the
curious, tingling sense of latent magic in the air.
She
turned to face him in the tabby shadows. "What did you want?" she asked.
"I
want to know what I can give you, or what I can do for you, to have you set me
free." It came to him as he spoke that there was, in fact, nothing that he
could give her, for he had quite literally no possessions beyond his sword. A
hell of a spot, he thought, for the richest mercenary in the West.
But
Yirth only considered him for a moment, her hands folded over the gray web of
her shawl. Then she said, "Kill Altiokis."
His
hand slammed down on the long table that divided the room, making the glass
bottles there jump, and his voice crackled with anger. "Curse it, woman,
that wasn't your price on the ship!"
The
black brow moved; the eyes did not. "It is the price I claim to set you
free now," she responded coolly. "Otherwise, your bargain with Sheera
stands. You shall be freed-and paid-when the strike force marches."
"You
know as well as I do that's insane."
She
said nothing, using her silence against him.
"Damn
your eyes, you know that lunatic woman's going to get every skirt in that troop
killed!" he stormed at her. "I've worked on those women and I've
taught them, and some of them will be damned fine warriors in about two years'
time, if they live that long, which they won't if they go into battle with a
green captain. But if she's stubborn enough to do it, then all I want is to be
out of here-to have nothing further to do with it or with her!"
"I
fear you have no choice about that," Yirth replied calmly. She rested her
hands on the dark wood of the table; the wan light picked out their knots and
sinews, making them hardly human, like the strange, folded shapes of an oak
burl. "Men go to war for their own entertainment, or for some other man's-
women, only because they must. Altiokis, now-Altiokis is deathless and, being
deathless, he is bored. It amuses him to conquer cities. Have you seen what
happens to a city under his rule?"
"Not
being suicidal," the Wolf rumbled irritably, "I've avoided cities
under his rule."
"Not
being a merchant, or the father of children, or a tradesman needing to make his
living, you can do that, I suppose," Yirth returned. "But
Tarrin-Tarrin fought for the men who were, and for the generation of men who
would not see their children grow up under Altiokis' rule. He and Sheera seek
to free Mandrigyn. But my goal is different. I seek to see the Wizard King
destroyed, rooted out, as he rooted out and destroyed the other wizards. We are
not insane, Captain-the insane ones are those who let him live and grow."
"You
don't even know he can be killed," Sun Wolf said. "He's been a wizard
since before you were born. We don't even know if he's a man or a demon or what
he is."
"He's
a man," she lashed out, coldly bitter.
"Then
why hasn't he died?" the Wolf demanded. "All the magic in the world
won't prolong a man's life-not for a hundred and fifty years! Else we'd have an
army of superannuated wizards from all the ages in the past crawling down the
walls like ants. But demons are deathless..."
"He's
a man," she insisted. "Swollen and corrupt on his own immortality.
His desires are a man's desires-power, lands, money. His caprices are a man's
caprices, not a demon's. He has found a way-some way-of prolonging his life,
indefinitely for all we know. Unless he is stopped, he will continue to grow,
and all that he touches will rot." She turned and strode to the glimmering
window, the light catching the pale streaks in her hair, like wood ash in a
half-burned fire. "It is his death I seek, whatever the cost."
"Pox
rot you, you're not even a wizard yourself!" he yelled at her.
"You've never even gone through this bloody Great Trial I keep hearing
about; you haven't got the strength to blow out his bedroom candles! You're as
big a fool as Sheera is!"
"Bigger,"
she bit out, whirling to face him, and Sun Wolf could feel the tension smoking
from her, like mist from a pond on a freezing night. "Bigger-because
Sheera fights with hope, and I have none. I know what Altiokis is-I know just
how great is the gap between his powers and mine. But if he can be drawn into
battle, there is a chance, however slim. I will use the might of a freed
Mandrigyn to destroy him, as he destroyed my master-as he destroyed my future.
If f can do so, I shall be satisfied, though it costs me my life. As a wizard
in a town under his rule, I know that it will only be a matter of time before
he learns of my existence, and my life would be forfeit then, no matter what I
did."
"And
what about the cost to the others?" he stormed at her. "What about
their lives that Altiokis will destroy?"
"I
thought you cared only about your own, Captain," she jeered at him.
"We all have our motives, as you yourself have said. Without me, they
would still fight. Without you, without Sheera, without Tarrin. Without them, I
would have found another weapon to wield against the Wizard King. Depend upon
it, Captain, you are a part of us, your flesh and your fate sealed to ours. You
can no more desert us now than the string can desert the bow. The others do not
fully see this; even Sheera understands it only in terms of her own need, as
they all do. But late or soon, the Wizard King must be met. And willing,
unwilling, knowing or unknowing, you, Sheera, Tarrin, every man in the mines,
and every woman in Mandrigyn will play a part of that meeting."
Sun
Wolf stared at her for a moment, silent before her deadly bitterness. Then he
said again, "You're insane."
But she
only looked at him with those eyes like jade and polar ice. She stood like a
black-oak statue, framed in the trailing greenery of the window, wrapped in the
misty and terrible cloak of her power. She made no move as his storming
footfalls retreated down the sounding well of the stair, nor when the door
banged as he let himself out into the narrow street.
In
black anger, Sun Wolf made his way through the streets of Mandrigyn. He saw now
that, even in the unlikely event that he could talk or coerce that hellcat
Sheera into releasing him, Yirth would never let her do it. He had heard women
called vacillating and fickle, but he saw now that it was only in such matters
as were of little moment to them. Given a single target, a single goal, they
could not be shaken. It was a race now, he thought, to finish the training of
the strike force before someone in the city learned of what was happening.
He
traversed the Spired Bridge and turned aside through the Cathedral Square to
avoid the dissolving throngs in the market. Morning was still fresh in the sky,
the air cold and wet against his face and throat, and the sea birds crying
among the heaped pillows of clouds, warning of storms to come. On two sides of
the square, bright-colored clusters of silks and furs proclaimed the patrons of
the bookbinders' stalls there; on the third side, a small troop of Governor
Derroug's household guards stood watch over his curtained utter beside the
Cathedral steps. The usual sycophants were there. The Wolf recognized Stirk,
the harbor master, looking like a dressed-up corpse at a Trinitarian funeral,
and the fat brute who was Derroug's captain of the watch. Above them, the
Cathedral rose, its gold and turquoise mosaics glimmering in the pale morning,
buttress and dome seeming to be made of gilded light.
As he
passed the steps, a voice beyond him called out, "Captain!"
He knew
the voice, and his heart squeezed in his breast with fear and fury. He kept
walking. If anyone was within earshot, he had best not stop.
Thin
and clear as a cat's mew, Drypettis' voice called out again.
"Captain!"
A quick
glance showed him no one close enough to hear. He turned in his tracks, hearing
the approaching footsteps down the church's tessellated ascent and the restive
jittering of tangled gold.
Fluttering
with veils, like a half-furled pennoncel pinned with gems, the little woman
came scurrying importantly up to him. "Captain, I want you to tell
Sheera-" she began.
Sun
Wolf caught her by the narrow shoulders as if he would shake the life from her.
"Don't you ever," he said in a soundless explosion of wrath,
"don't you ever address me as captain in public again."
The
prim-mouthed face went white with rage, though she must have known that she was
in the wrong. Under the thread-drawn saffron of her puffed sleeves, he felt the
delicate muscle harden like bone. "How dare you!" she snarled at him.
With a wrench she freed herself of his grip. "How dare you speak to
me..."
Anger
crackled into him-an anger fed by Yirth's mocking despair, by Sheera's
stubbornness, and by the dangers that he had long sensed closing around him.
Impatiently he snapped, "You're bloody right I'll speak to you, if you're
ever stupid enough to..."
She
shrank from his pointing finger, pale, blazing, spitting like a cornered cat.
The rage in her eyes stopped him, startled, even before she cried, "Don't
you touch me, you lecherous blackguard!"
The
clipped, mincing accents of Derroug Dru demanded, "And what, pray, is
this?"
Altiokis'
governor had just emerged from the great bronze doors of the Cathedral and was
standing at the top of the steps, twisted and elegant against his backdrop of
clients. From where he stood, he could look down upon Sun Wolf. "Unhand my
sister, boy."
The
guards who had been around the litter were already approaching at a run.
CHAPTER
THE
SLAVES CELL OF THE JAIL UNDER THE CITY RECORDS Office was damp, filthy, and
smelted like a privy; the straw underfoot crawled with black and furtive life.
For as many people as there were chained to the walls, the place was oddly
quiet. Even those lucky enough to be fettered to the wall by a long chain-long
enough to allow them to sit or lie, at any rate-had the sense to keep their
mouths shut. Those who, like Sun Wolf, had had their slave collars locked to
the six inches or so of short chain could only lean against the dripping bricks
in exhausted silence, unable to move, to rest, or to reach the scummy trough of
water that ran down the center of the cell.
The
Wolf wasn't certain how long he'd been there. Hours, he thought, shifting his
cramped knees. Like most soldiers, he could relax in any position; it would be
quite some time before the strain began to tell on him. Others were not so
fortunate, or perhaps they had been here longer. There was a good-looking boy
of twenty or so, with a soft mop of auburn hair that hung over his eyes, who
had fallen three times since the Wolf had been there. Each time he'd been
brought up choking as the iron slip-collar tightened around the flesh of his
throat. He was standing now, but he looked white and sick, his breathing
labored, his eyes glazed and desperate, as if he could feel the last of his
strength leaking away with every minute that passed. The Wolf wondered what
crime the boy had committed, if any.
Across
the room, a man was moaning and retching where he lay in the unspeakable
straw-the opening symptoms to full-scale drug withdrawal. Sun Wolf shut his
eyes wearily and wondered how long it would be before someone got word to
Sheera of where he was.
Drypettis
would do that much, he told himself. She had been in the wrong to call him by
his title rather than by his name; but much as she might hate to admit she'd
made a mistake, and much as she hated him for supplanting her as Sheera's right
hand in the conspiracy, she wouldn't endanger Sheera's cause for the sake of
her own pride-at least he hoped not.
The
far-off tramp of feet came to him. Iron ranted. He heard Derroug's rather
shrill voice again, coldly syrupy. The Wolf remembered the jealous, bitter
glare the little man had given him as the guards had dragged him down here. The
footsteps came clearer now, the clack of the cane emphasizing the uneven drag
of the crippled foot.
Sun
Wolf sighed and braced himself. The fetid air was like warm glue in his lungs.
Across the room, the drug addict had begun to whimper and pick at the insects,
both visible and invisible, that swarmed over his sweating flesh.
There
was a smart slap of saluting arms and the grate of a key in the lock. Sun Wolf
opened his eyes as torchlight and a sigh of cooler air belched through the open
door; he saw figures silhouetted in the doorway at the top of the short flight
of steps. Derroug stood there, one white hand emerging like a stamen from a
flower of lace to rest on the weighted gold knob of his cane. Sun Wolf
remembered the cane, too-the bruise from it was livid on his jaw.
Beside
Derroug was Sheera, topping him by half a head.
"Yes,
that's him," she said disinterestedly.
He
thought he saw the little man's eyes glitter greedily.
A guard
in the blue and gold livery of the city came down the steps with the keys,
followed by another with a torch. They unlocked his neck chain from the wall,
but left his hands manacled behind him, and pushed him forward down the long
room, the torchlight flashing darkly from the scummy puddles on the floor. At
the bottom of the steps, they stopped, and he looked up at Sheera, haughty and
exquisite in heliotrope satin, amethysts sparkling like trapped stars in the
black handfuls of her hair.
She was
shaking, like a too tightly tensioned wire before it snapped.
"You
insulted my sister," Derroug purred, still looking down at the taller man,
though Sun Wolf had the odd feeling that it was not he who was being spoken to,
but Sheera. "For that I could confiscate you and have you cut and put to
work cleaning out latrines for the rest of your life, boy."
I'd
kill you first, Sun Wolf thought, but he could feel Sheera's eyes on him,
desperately willing him to be humble. He swallowed and kept his attention fixed
on the pearl-sewn insets of lace around the flounced hem of her gown. "I
know that, my lord. I am truly sorry-ii was never my intention to do so."
He knew if he looked up and met those smug eyes, something of his own desire to
ram those little white teeth through the back of that oily head might show.
"But
after consulting with your-mistress-" The cool voice laid a double meaning
upon the term of ownership, and Sun Wolf glanced up in time to see Derroug run
his eyes appraisingly over Sheera's body. "-my sister has agreed to forget
the incident. You are, after all, a barbarian, and I am sure that my lady
Sheera could ill spare your-services."
He saw
Sheera's cheeks darken in the torchlight and Derroug's insinuating smile.
He made
himself say, "Thank you, my lord."
"And
since you are a barbarian," Derroug continued primly, "I am positive
that your education has been so far neglected that you are not aware that it is
customary to kneel when a slave addresses the governor of this city."
Sun
Wolf, who was perfectly conversant with the laws of servitude, knew that the
custom was nothing of the kind-that this little man merely wished to see a
bigger one on his knees before the governor. Awkwardly, because his hands were
still bound behind him, he knelt and touched his forehead to the stinking clay
of the dirty steps. "I am sorry, my lord," he murmured through
clenched teeth.
Sheera's
voice said, "Get up."
He
obeyed her, schooling his face to show nothing of the rage that went through
him like the burning of fever, wishing that he had Starhawk's cool impassivity
of countenance. He saw Derroug watching him intently, saw the little pointed
tip of a pink tongue steal out to lick his lips.
"But
I'm afraid, Sheera darling, that you are partly at fault for not having
schooled him better. I know these barbarians- the lash is all they understand.
But as it happens, I have- something better." The governor's glinting
brown eyes slid sideways at her, his gaze traveling slowly over her, like a
lingering hand. "Would you object to my dispensing a salutary
lesson?"
Sheera
shrugged and did not look in Sun Wolf's direction. Her voice was carefully
unconcerned. "If you think it would benefit anyone."
"Oh,
I'm sure it would." Derroug Dni smiled. "I think it will be of great
benefit to you both. Lessons in the consequences of willful disobedience are
always worth watching."
As the
guards conducted them down the narrow corridors under the Records Office, Sun
Wolf felt the sweat making tracks in the grime of his face. A lesson in the
consequences of disobedience could mean anything, and Sheera was evidently quite
prepared to let him take it. Not, he reflected in that grimly calm corner of
his mind, that there was anything she could do about it. Like him, she had the
choice of trying to fight her way out of it now and very likely implicating and
destroying all the others in the troop in the resulting furor or going along
and gambling on her bluff. Among the lurching shadows of the ever-narrowing
halls, her back was straight and uncommunicative. The gleam of the torch flame
spilled down the satin of her dress as she held it clear of the filthy
flagstones; Derroug's hand, straying to touch her hip, was like a flaccid white
spider on the shining fabric.
"Our
Lord Altiokis has recently sent me-ah-assurances that can be used to punish
those who are disobedient or disloyal to me as his governor," he was
saying. "In view of the recent upheavals, such measures are quite
necessary. There must be no doubt in my mind of the loyalty of our
citizens."
"No,"
Sheera murmured. "Of course not."
Behind
her, Sun Wolf could see she was trembling, either with rage or with fear.
A guard
opened a door, the second to the last along the narrow hall. Torchlight gleamed
on something smooth and reflective in the darkness. As he stepped aside to let
Sheera precede him into the room, Derroug asked the sergeant of the guards,
"Has one of them been let loose?"
"Yes,
my lord," the man muttered and wiped his beaded face under the gold helmet
rim.
The
little man smiled and followed Sheera into the room. Other guards pushed Sun
Wolf down the two little steps after them. The door closed, shutting out the
torchlight from the hall.
The
only light in the room came from candles that flickered behind a thick pane of
glass set in the wall that faced the door. It showed Sun Wolf a narrow cell,
such as commonly contained prisoners important enough to be singly confined,
its bricks scarred by the bored scrapings of former inmates. The room was
small, some five feet by five; it hid nothing, even from that diffuse gleam.
The reflections of the candles showed him Sheera's face, impassive but wary,
and the greedy gleam in the governor's eyes as he looked at her.
"Observe,"
Derroug purred, his hand moving toward the window. "I have been privileged
to see Altiokis* cell like this, built in the oldest part of his Citadel; I
have been more than privileged that he has-ah-sent me the wherewithal to
establish one of my own. It is most effective for-disloyalty."
The
room beyond the glass was clearly another solitary cell. It was only a little
larger than the first, and utterly bare of furniture. Candles burned in niches
close to the ceiling, higher than a man could reach. It contained four or five
small lead boxes; one of them had been opened. The cell door, clearly the last
door along the hall down which they had passed, was shut, but the Wolf could
hear more guards approaching along the corridor. Mixed with their surer tread,
he could distinguish the unwilling, shuffling step of a prisoner's feet.
Something
moved in the semidark of the room beyond the window. For a moment, he thought
it was only a chance reflection in the glass, but he saw Sheera's head jerk to
catch the motion as well. In a moment there was another flicker, bright and
elusive. There was something there, something like a whirling flake of fire,
drifting and eddying near the ceiling with a restless motion that was almost
like life.
Sun
Wolf frowned, following it with his eyes through the protective window. Whether
it was bright in itself or merely reflective of chance flames, he could not
tell. It was difficult to track its motions, for it skittered here and there,
almost randomly, like a housefly on a hot day or a dragonfly skimming on the
warm air over the marshes; it was a single, moving point of bright flame in the
murk beyond the glass.
There
was a fumbling noise in the corridor. With astonishing quickness, the door
visible in the other room opened and slammed shut again behind the man who had
been thrust inside-the red-haired young slave who had stood opposite Sun Wolf
in the jail. The prisoner stumbled, throwing his unbound hands wide for
balance; for an instant he stood in the center of the room, gaping about him,
baby-blue eyes wide and staring with fear.
The boy
swung around with a startled cry.
Like an
elongating needle of light, the flake of fire-or whatever it was-struck, an
instantaneous vision of incredible quickness. The young man staggered, his
hands going to cover one of his eyes as if something had stung it. The next
instant, his screaming could be heard through the stone and glass of the wall.
What
followed was sickening, horrifying even to a mercenary inured to all the
terrible fashions in which men slew one another. The boy bent double; clutching
his eye, his screams rising to a frenzied pitch. He began to run, clawing
blindly, ineffectually, at his face, falling into walls. The Wolf saw the
thread of blood begin to drip from between the grabbing fingers as the boy's
knees buckled. He registered, with clinical awareness, the progress of the pain
by the twisting jerks of the boy's body on the floor and by the rising agony
and terror of the shrieks. Sun Wolf noted how the frantic fingers dug and
picked, how the helpless limbs threshed about, and how the back writhed into an
arch.
It
seemed to take forever. The boy was rolling on the floor, screaming ...
screaming...
Sun
Wolf could tell-he thought they all could tell-when the screams changed, when
the fire-poison-insect-whatever it was-ate its way through to the brain.
Something broke in the boy's cries; a deafening, animal howl replaced the human
voice. The body jerked, as if every muscle had spasmed together, and began to
roll and hop around the cell in a grotesque and filthy parody of life. Glancing
at Sheera, Sun Wolf saw that she had closed her eyes. Had she been able to, she
would have brought up her hands to cover her ears as well. Beyond her,
Derroug's face wore a tight, satisfied smile; through his flared nostrils, his
breathing dragged, as if he had drunk wine. Sun Wolf looked back to the window,
feeling his own face, his own hands, bathed in icy sweat. If there were ever a
suspicion, ever a question, about the troop, the governor had only to show the
suspect what he himself had just seen. There was no doubt that person would
tell everything-the Wolf knew that he would.
The
screaming continued, a gross, bestial ululation; the body was still moving,
blood-splotched hands fumbling at the stones on the floor.
Derroug's
voice was a soft, almost dreamy murmur. "So you see, my dear," he was
saying, "it is best that we ascertain, once and for all, who
can-demonstrate-their loyalty to me." And his little white hand stole
around her waist, "Send your boy home."
"Apologize
to Drypettis?" Sun Wolf paused in the act of pouring; the golden brandy
slopped over the rim of the cup and onto his hand. The pine table of the
potting room was pooled with red wine and amber spirits; the laden air reeked
of them, heavy over the thick aromas of dirt and potting clay. His eyes were
red-rimmed, bloodshot, and unnaturally steady. He had been drinking
methodically and comprehensively since he had returned home that morning. It
was now an hour short of sunset, and Sheera had just returned. His voice was
only slightly thickened as he said, "That haughty little snirp should
never have called me captain in public and she knows it."
Sheera's
mouth looked rather white, her lips pressed tight together, her dark hair still
sticking to her cheeks with the dampness of her bath. The Wolf was half tempted
to pull up a chair for her and pour her a glass-not that there was much left in
any of the bottles by this time. He had never seen a woman who looked as if she
needed it more.
But
Sheera said, "She says she never called you captain."
He
stared at her, wondering if the brandy had affected his perception. "She
what?"
"She
never called you captain. She told me she called out to you and told you to
take a message to me, and you refused and told her you were no one's errand
boy..."
"That's
a lie." He straight-armed the brandy at one shot and let the glass slide
from his fingers. Then rage hit him, stronger than any drink, stronger than
what he had felt for Derroug while on his knees before the governor in the
prison.
"Captain,"
Sheera said tightly, "Dru spoke to me just before I left the palace. She
would never have called you by your title in public. She knows better than
that."
"She
may know better than that," Sun Wolf said levelly, "but it's possible
to forget. All right. But that's what she called me, and that's why-"
The
controlled voice cracked suddenly. "You're saying Dru lied to me."
"Yes,"
the Wolf said, "that's what I'm saying. Rather than admit that she was in
the wrong." It crossed his mind fleetingly that he should not be
arguing-not drunk as he was, not this afternoon, not after the kind of scene he
was fairly certain had taken place with Drypettis immediately after what
amounted to rape. He could see the lines of tension digging themselves tighter
and tighter into Sheera's face, like the print of ugly memories in her tired
flesh, and the sudden, uncontrollable trembling of her bruised lips. But her
next words drove any thought from his mind.
"And
what would you rather do than admit you're wrong, Captain?"
"Not
He about one of my troops."
"Hah!"
She had picked up a small rake, turning it nervously in fingers that shook; now
she threw it back to the table with ringing violence. "Your troops! You'd
have tossed her out from the start-"
"Damned
right I would," he retorted, "and this is why."
"Because
she was never to your taste, you mean!"
"Woman,
if you think all I've had to do in the last two months has been to put together
a harem of assassins for myself-"
"Rot
your eyes, what else have you been doing?" she yelled back at him.
"From Lady Wrinshardin to Gilden and Wilame-"
"Let's
not forget the ones who were assigned," he roared, pitching his voice to
drown hers. "If you're jealous ..."
"Don't
flatter yourself!" she spat at him. "That's what sickens you, isn't
it? You can't stand to teach women the arts of war because those are your
preserve, aren't they? The only way you can take it is if you make them your
women. They have your permission to be good so long as you're better, and the
ones who get to be the best you make damned sure will love you too much ever to
beat you!"
"You
don't know what the hell you're talking about and you sure aren't warrior
enough to know what it means!" he lashed back at her, hurling the brandy
bottle at the opposite wall, so that it shattered in an explosion of alcohol
and glass. "The best of the women
I know is better than any man-"
"Oh,
yes," the woman sneered furiously. "I've seen thatbest one of yours,
and she looked at you the way a schoolgirl looks at her First beau! You've
never given two cow patties together for anything about this troop! You
wouldn't care if we were all destroyed, so long as you aren't threatened by
anyone else's excellence!"
"You
talk to me about that when you've been a warrior anywhere near as long as I
have-or the Hawk has!" he stormed at her. "And no, I don't give two
cow pats together for you and your stupid cause. And yes, part of it's because
of the ladies whom I don't want to see get their throats cut in your damfool
enterprise-"
"Tarrin-"
"I'm
damned sick of hearing about pox-rotted Tarrin and your reeking cause!" he
roared.
Red
with rage, she shouted over his voice, "You can't see any higher than your
own comforts-"
He
yelled back at her, "That's what I've said from the beginning, rot your
poxy eyes! I'd have washed my hands of the whole flaming business, and of you,
too-stubborn, bull-headed hellcat that you are! I'm through with you and your
damned tantrums!"
"You'll
stay and you'll like it!" Sheera raged. "Or you'll die screaming your
guts out a day' s journey from the wall, and that's the only choice you've got,
soldier! You'll do what I tell you or Yirth may not even give you that
choice!"
She
whirled in a flame-colored slash of skirts and veils and stormed from the
little room, slamming the flimsy door behind her. He heard her footsteps stride
into the distance, crashing hollowly, and at last heard the thunderous smash of
the outer door. Through the window, he saw her stride up into the twilight of
the garden toward the house, past the rocks he had settled among the bare roots
of juniper, and past the dark pavilion of the bathhouse. She was sobbing, the
dry, bitter weeping of rage.
Deliberately,
Sun Wolf picked up a wine bottle from the table and hurled it against the
opposite wall. He did the same with the next and the next and the next-and all
the others that he had consumed in the course of the day, since he had returned
from seeing what it was that Derroug had hidden beneath his palace. Then he got
up and made his way with a perfectly steady stride to the stables, saddled a
horse, and rode out of Mandrigyn by the land gate, just as the sun was setting.
He rode
throughout the night and on into morning. The alcohol burned slowly out of his
blood without lessening in him the determination to thwart Sheera, once and for
all. Anzid was just about the last choice he would have taken, had he been
allowed to pick his own death, but horrible death of some sort would come to
him for certain if he remained in Mandrigyn.
Today
he had seen at least one that was worse than anzid. And in any case, he would
die his own man, not Sheera's slave.
He
turned the horse's head toward the west, traversing in darkness the
half-flooded fields, spiky with sedge and with the bare branches of naked
trees. Before midnight, he reached the crossroads where the way ran up to the
Iron Pass and the greater bulk of the Tchard Mountains and out over the uplands
to pass through the rocks of the Stren Water Valley down to the rich Bight
Coast. It had been in his mind to ride north up the pass, knowing that Sheera
would never think to seek him on Altiokis' !, very doorstep. And seek him she
would, of that he was certain. She would never endure this last defiance from
him. He had vowed that he would not give her the satisfaction of ever finding
his body, of ever knowing for certain that he was dead.
Besides,
if she found him before the anzid killed him, it might be possible for her to
bring him back.
But in
the end, he could not take the Citadel road. He turned the mare's head westward
where the roads crossed and spurred on through the dripping silence of the dark
woods.
He
wondered if the Hawk would understand what he was doing.
Ari, he
knew, would have apologized to Drypettis with every evidence of sincerity and a
mental vow to take it out of that pinch-faced little vixen later. And the Hawk
... The Hawk would have told them at the outset that she would die and be
damned to them-or else have found a way to avoid the entire situation.
What
had Sheera meant about the way the Hawk had looked at him? Was it simply
Sheera's jealousy or her hate? Or did she, as a woman, see things with a
woman's different eyes.
He
didn't think so, much as he would have liked to believe that Starhawk had
looked at him with something other than that calm, businesslike gaze. In his
experience, love had always meant demands-on the time, on the soul, and
certainly on the attention. Starhawk had never asked him for anything except
instruction in their chosen craft of war and an occasional daf bulb for her own
garden.
It was
Starhawk, in fact, who had defined for him why love death to the professional,
on one of those long winter evenings in Wrynde when Fawn had gone to sleep, her
head his lap, her curls spilling over his thigh. He and the Hawk sat up
talking, half drunk before the white sand of the ten hearth, listening to the
rain drumming on the cypresses of the gardens outside. It was he who had spoken
of love, who had quoted his father's maxim: Don't fall in love and don't mess with
magic. Love was a crack in a man's armor, he had said. But the Hawk, with her
clearer insight, had said that love simply caused one to cease being
single-minded. For a warrior, to look aside from the main goal of survival
could mean death. He could not love, if his goal was to survive at all costs.
Could a
woman who loved speak of love with such clear-eyed brutality?
Could a
woman who didn't?
Dawn
came, slow and gray through the wooded hills. Yellow leaves muffled the road in
soaked carpets; overhanging branches splattered and dripped on the Wolf's back.
He rode more slowly now, scouting as he went, taking his bearings on the
crowding hills visible above the bare trees. South of the road, those hills
shouldered close, massive and lumpy, stitched with narrow ravines and a rising
network of ledges, half choked in scrub and wild grape. Here and there, he
heard the frothing voices of swollen streams, booming among the rocks.
Wind
flicked his long hair back over his shoulders and laid a cold hand on his
cheek. He had forgotten how good it felt to be alone and free, even if only
free to die.
It was
midafternoon when he let the horse go. He sent it on its way along the westward
road with a slap on the rump, and it trotted off gamely, leaving tracks that
Sheera was sure to follow. With any luck, she'd trail it quite a distance and
never find his body at all. It would rot that hellcat's soul, he thought with a
grim inward smile, to think that he might, by some miracle, have eluded her-to
think that, somewhere in the world, he might still be alive and laughing.
He was
already beginning to feel the anzid working in his veins, like the early
stirrings of fever. He struck back through the woods in an oblique course
toward the rocks of the higher hills and the caves that he knew lay in the
direction of Mandrigyn. It was a long way, and he went cautiously, covering his
tracks, wading in the freezing scour of the streams, and finding his way over
the rocky ground by instinct when the daylight faded again into evening.
He had
always had sharper senses in the dark than most men; he had had that ability as
a child, he remembered, and it had been almost uncanny. Even in the
cloud-covered darkness and rising wind, he made out the vague shapes of the
trees, the ghostly birches and leering, gargoyle oaks. His nose told him it
would rain later, destroying his tracks; wind was already tugging at his
clothes.
The
ground underfoot grew steep and stony, rising sharply and broken by the
outcropped bones of the earth. He found that his breath t\ad begun to saw at
his lungs and throat, a cold sharpness, as if broken glass were lodged
somewhere inside. Still the ground steepened, and the foliage thinned around
him; vague rock shapes became visible above, rimmed with a milky half-light
that only the utter darkness of the rest of the night let him see at all.
Weakness pulled at him and a kind of feverish pain that had no single location;
nausea had begun to cramp his stomach like chewing pincers.
The
first wave of it hit him in the high, windy darkness of a broken hillside,
doubling him over, as if a drench of acid had been spilled through his guts.
The shock of it took his breath away and, when the pain faded, left him weak
and shaking, feeling sickened and queerly vulnerable. After a time, he got to
his feet, hardly daring to move for fear the red agony would return. Even as he
staggered on, he felt it lying in wait for him, lurking behind every fiber of
his muscles.
It took
him another hour to find the kind of place that he sought. He had been looking
for a cave deep in the hills, so far from the road that, no matter how loudly
he screamed, no searchers would hear. What he found was a ruined building, a
sort of chapel whose broken walls were wreathed and hung with curtains of
winter-brown vines. In the crypt below it was a pit, some twenty feet deep and
circular, ten or fifteen feet across. Thrown pebbles clinked solidly or rustled
in weeds; the little light that filtered through the blowing branches above him
showed him nothing stirring but wind-tossed heather.
By now
he was sweating, his hands trembling, a growing pain in his body punctuated by
lightning bolts of cramps. Cautiously, he hung by his hands over the edge, then
let himself drop.
It was
a mistake. It was as if his entire body had been flayed apart; the slightest
shock or jar pierced him like tearing splinters of wood. The sickening
intensity of the pain made him vomit, and the retching brought with it new
pains, which in turn fed others. Like the first cracking of a sea wail, each
new agony lessened his resistance to those mounting behind it, until they
ripped his flesh and his mind as a volcano would rip the rock that sealed it.
Dimly, he wondered how he could still be conscious, or if the agony would go on
like this until he died.
It was
only the beginning of an endless night.
Sheera
found him in the pit, long after the dawn that barely lightened the blackness
of the rainsqualls of the night. Wind tore at her wet riding skirts as she
stood looking down from the pit's edge and snagged at the dripping coils of her
hair. Though it was his screaming which had drawn her, his voice had cracked
and failed. Through the rain that slashed her eyes, she could see him still
moving, crawling feverishly through the gross filth that smeared every inch of
the pit's floor, groaning brokenly but unable to rest.
In
spite of the rain, the place smelled like one of the lower cesspools of Hell.
Resolutely, she knotted the rope she had brought with her to the bole of a tree
and shinned down. Her lioness rage had carried her through the night hunt, but
now, seeing what was left after the anzid had done its work, she felt only a
queer mingling of pity and spite and horror. She wondered if Yirth had been
aware that the death would take this long.
From
fever or pain, he had thrown off most of his clothes, and the rain made runnels
through the filth that smeared his blue and icy flesh. He was still crawling
doggedly, as if he could somehow outdistance the agony; but as she approached,
he was seized with a spasm of retching that had long since ceased to bring up
anything but gory bile. She saw that his hands were torn and bloody, clenched
in pain so tightly she thought the force of it must break the bones. After the
convulsion had ceased, he lay sobbing, racked by the aftermath, the rain
trickling through the stringy weeds of his hair. His face was turned aside a
little from the unspeakable pools in which he half lay, and the flesh of it
looked sunken and pinched, like a dying man's.
There
were no sounds in the pit then, except for the dreary, incessant rustle of
falling water and his hoarse, wretched sobbing. That, too, she had not
expected. She walked a step nearer and stood looking in a kind of horrible
fascination at the degraded head, the sodden hair thin and matted with slime,
and the broken and trembling hands. Quietly, she said, "You stupid,
stubborn bastard." Her own voice sounded shaky to her ears. "I've got
a good mind to go off and leave you, after all."
She had
not thought he'd heard. But he moved his head a little, dilated eyes regarding
her through a fog of pain from pits of blackened flesh. She could tell he was
almost blind, fighting with every tormented muscle of his body to bring her
into focus, to speak, and to control the wheezing thread of his
scream-shattered voice into something that could be heard and understood.
He
managed to whisper, "Leave me, then."
Her own
horror at what she had done turned to fury, fed by the weariness of her long
night's terrified searching. Through darkness and clouds of weakness, Sun Wolf
could see almost nothing, but his senses, raw as if sandpapered, brought him
the feel of her rage like a wave of heat. For a moment, he wondered if she
would kick him where he lay or lash at him with the riding whip in her hands.
But
then he heard her turn away, and the splash of her boots retreated through the
puddles that scattered the pit's floor in the rain. For an elastic time he lay
fighting the unconsciousness that he knew would only bring him the hideous
terror of visions. Then he heard the rattle of her horse's retreating hooves,
dying away into the thundering clatter of the rain. He slipped again into the
red vortex of delirium.
There
was utter loneliness there and terrors that reduced the pain ripping through
his distant body to an insignificant ache that would merely result in his
eventual death. Worse things pursued and caught him-loss, regret, self-hate,
and all the spilling ugliness that festered in the bottommost pits of the mind.
And
then, after black wanderings, he was aware of moonlight in a place he had never
been before and the far-off surge of the sea. Blinking, he made out the
narrowing stone walls of one of those beehive chapels that dotted the rocky
coasts of the ocean in the northwest, the darkness around the Mother's altar,
and the shape of a warrior kneeling just beyond the uneven circle of moonlight
that lay like a tiny carpet in the center of the trampled clay floor.
The
warrior's clothing was unfamiliar, the quilted, shiny stuff of the Bight Coast.
The scarred boots he knew, and the sword that lay with the edge of its blade
across the moonlight, a white and blinding sliver. The bent head, pale and
bright as the moonlight, he could have mistaken for no other.
She
looked up, and he saw tears glittering on the high cheekbones, like rain fallen
on stone. She whispered, "Chief?" d got haltingly to her feet, her
eyes struggling to pierce the gloom that separated them. "Chief, where are
you? I've been looking for you..."
He held
out his hand to her and saw it, torn and filthy, as he had seen it lying in the
slime of the pit. She hesitated, then took it, her lips like ice against it,
her tears scalding the raw flesh.
"Where
are you?" she whispered again,
"I'm
in Mandrigyn," he said quietly, forcing the scorched remains of his voice
to be steady. "I'm dying-don't look for me further."
"Rot
that," Starhawk said, her voice shaking. "I haven't come all this way
just to-"
"Hawk,
listen," he whispered, and she raised her eyes, the blood from his hand
streaking her cheek, blotched and smeared with her tears. "Just tell me
this-did you love me?"
"Of
course," she said impatiently. "Wolf, I'll always love you. I always
have loved you."
He
sighed, and the weight settled heavier over him, the grief for what could have
been. "I'm sorry," he said. "I wasted the time we had-and I'm
sorry for what that did to you."
She
shook her head, even the slight brushing movement of it tearing at the rawness
of his overtaxed body. He shut his teeth hard against the pain, for he could
feel himself already fraying, his flesh tugged at by the winds of nothingness.
"The
time wasn't wasted," Starhawk said softly. "If you'd thought you
loved me as you loved Fawnie and the others, you would have kept me at a
distance, as you did them, and that would have been worse. I would rather be
one of your men than one of your women."
"I
see that," he murmured, for he had seen it, in the twisting visions of the
endless night. "But that speaks better of you than it does of me."
"You
are what you are." Her voice was so quiet that, over it, he could hear the
distant beat of the sea on the rocks and the faint thread of the night wind.
Her hands tightened like icy bones around the broken mess of his fingers, and
he knew she could feel him going. "I wouldn't have traded it."
"I
was what I was," he corrected her. "And I wanted you to know."
"I
knew."
He had
never before seen her cry, not even when they'd cut arrowheads from her flesh
on the battlefields; her tears fell without bitterness or weakness, only
coursing with the loneliness that he had himself come to understand. He raised
his hand to touch the white silk of her hair. "I love you, Hawk," he
whispered. "Not just as one of my men-and not just as one of my women. I'm
sorry I did not know it in time."
He felt
himself slip from her, drawn back toward that bleak and storming darkness. He
knew his body and his soul were breaking, like a ship on a reef; all his
garnered strength sieved bleeding through the wreckage of spars. All the buried
things, the loves and hopes and desires that he had derided and forgotten
because he could not bear to see them denied him by fate, poured burning from
their cracked hiding places and challenged him to deny them now.
They
were like ancient dreams of fire, as searing as molten gold. He heard his
father's derisive jeers through the darkness, though the voice was his own; the
old dreams burned like flame, the heat of them greater than the pain of the
anzid burning through his flesh. But he gathered the dreams into his hands,
though they were made of fire, of molten rage, and of wonder. The scorching of
their power seared and peeled the last of his flesh away, and his final vision
was of the stark lacework of his bones, clutching those forgotten fires.
Then
the vision disappeared from him, as his own apparition had faded from
Starhawk's grasp. He opened his eyes to the slanted wood of the loft ceiling,
fretted with the wan sunlight that filtered through the bare trees of Sheera's
courtyard. He heard the murmur of Sheera's voice from below in the orangery and
Yirth's terse and scornful reply.
Yinh,
he thought and closed his eyes again, overborne by horror and despair. All his
efforts of that long day to hide his trail from Sheera-and she had only to ask
Yirth to speak his name and look into standing water. The night he had spent in
the pit, the pain, and the unnamable grief had been for nothing.
Weak
and spent, there was nothing of his scoured flesh or mind that would answer his
bidding; had he had the strength to do so, he would have wept. The women had
won. He was still alive and still their slave. Even had he been able to find a
way to elude Yirth's magic, he knew he would make no further attempt at escape.
He would never have the strength to go through that again.
CHAPTER
- 14 -
HAD SUN
WOLF BEEN ABLE TO, HE WOULD HAVE AVOIDED Yirth's care, but he could not. For
two days he lay utterly helpless, drinking what little she gave him to drink,
feeling the shadows shrink and rise with the passage of the cloudy days, and
listening to the rain drum on the tiles or trickle, gossiping, from the eaves.
In the nights, he heard the women assemble below, the thud of feet and the
sharp bark of Denga Rey's voice, Sheera's curt commands, and mingling of voices
in the gardens, as they came and went from the bathhouse. Once he heard a
hesitant tread climb the stairs toward his loft, pause just below the turn that
led to his door, and wait there for a long time, before retreating once again.
He
slept a great deal. His body and mind both felt gutted. Sometimes the women who
came-Amber Eyes, Yirth, occasionally Sheera-would speak to him, but he did not
remember replying. There seemed to be no point in it.
On the
third day, he was able to eat again, a little, though meat still nauseated him.
In the afternoon, he went down to the potting room and repaired the damage mat
neglect had done to his bulbs and to the young trees in the succession houses.
Like a spark slowly flickering to life against damp tinder, he could feel
himself coming back to himself, but the weariness that clung to his bones made
him wary of even the slightest tax on either his body or the more deeply
lacerated ribbons of his soul. When he heard Sheera come into the orangery in
the changeable twilight at sundown, he avoided her, fading back
into
the shadows of the potting room when she entered it and slipping unseen out the
door behind her.
After
the women had come and gone that night, he went to tie in the hot water and
steam of the bathhouse, listening to the wind that thrashed the bare branches
overhead, feeling, as he had felt as a child, that curious sense of being alive
with the life of the night around him.
He
returned to a sleep unmarred by dreams.
Voices
in the orangery woke him, a soft, furtive murmuring, and the swift patter of
bare feet. During his illness, though she had nursed him by day, Amber Eyes had
not spent the night there. He wondered whether she had had another lover all
along while Sheera had assigned her to keep him occupied. The room was empty as
he rolled soundlessly to his feet and stole toward the stairway door.
He
could hear their voices clearly.
"...
silly cuckoos, you should never have tried it alone! If you'd been taken
..."
It was
Sheera's voice, the stammering tension giving the lie to the anger in her
words.
"More
of us wouldn't have done any good," Gilden's huskier tones argued.
"It would have just made more to be caught... Holy God, Sheera, you
weren't there! I don't know what it was! But..."
"Is
she still there, then?" Denga Rey demanded sharply.
Gilden
must have nodded. After a moment, the gladiator went on roughly. "Then
we'll have to go back."
"But
they'll know someone's trying to rescue her now." That was Wilarne's
voice.
By the
spirits of my ancestors, how the hell many of them are in on it, whatever it
is! Sun Wolf asked himself.
Exercising
every ounce of animal caution he possessed, trusting that whatever noise they
were making down in the orangery would divert their minds, if the stairs
creaked-though it shouldn't, if their training had done them any good!-he
slipped down the stairs, stopping just behind where he knew his body would
catch the light.
There
were five of them, grouped around the seed of light that glowed above the clay
lamp on the table. A thread of gold reflection outlined the sharp curve of
Denga Rey's aquiline profile and glistened in her dark eyes. Beside her, Sheera
was wrapped in the cherry-red wool of her bed robe, her black hair strewed over
her shoulders like sea wrack. The three women before them were dressed-or
undressed-for battle.
From
his hiding place, Sun Wolf noted the changes in those delicate-boned bodies.
The slack flesh had given place to hard muscle. Even Eo, towering above the two
little hairdressers, had a taut sleekness to her, for all her remaining bulk.
Under dark cloaks, they wore only the leather breast guards of their training
outfits, short drawers, and knife belts. Their hair had been braided tightly
back; Wilame's had come half undone in some kind of struggle and lay in an
asymmetrical rope over her left shoulder, the ends tipped and sticky with
blood.
Sheera's
women, he thought, had gone to battle before their commander was ready for it.
He wondered why.
Sheera
was saying, "When was she arrested? And why?"
Eo
fixed her with cold, bitter blue eyes. "Do you really need to ask
why?"
Sheera's
back stiffened. Gilden said, with her usual diplomacy, "The reason was
supposedly insolence in the street. But he spoke to her yesterday outside Eo's
forge ..."
Eo went
on bitterly. "Well, he can hardly seriously suspect a fifteen-year-old
girl of treason."
"We
had to act fast," Wilame said, dark almond eyes wide with concern.
"That's why we weren't in class tonight."
"You'd
have done better to come and get help," Denga Rey snapped.
In the
darkness of the stairs, Sun Wolf felt sudden anger kindle through him,
startling and cold. Tisa, he thought. Gilden's daughter, Eo's niece and
apprentice. A girl whose adolescent gawkishness was fading into a coltish
beauty. He wondered if she, too, had been given an opportunity to prove her
"loyalty" to Derroug and had been arrested for rebuffing him.
Gilden
was saying, "We went in over the wall near the Lupris Canal. We took out
two guards, weighted the bodies, and dumped them. But-Sheera, the guards in the
palace compound itself! I swear they see in the dark. There was no light, none,
but they saw us and came after us. We could hear them. One of them caught
Wilame..."
"I
don't understand it," Wilarne whispered. Her hands, fine-boned and as
little as a child's, clenched together in the memory of the fight and the fear.
"He-he didn't seem to feel pain. Others were coming-I hurt him, I know I
hurt him, but it didn't stop him, it didn't do anything. I barely got
away..."
"All
right," Sheera said. "I'll send a message to Drypettis, tell her
what's happened, and see if she can get us into the palace."
"She'll
be watched," Sun Wolf said. "And you couldn't get a message to her
tonight."
It was
the first time that he had spoken in three days, and they swung around,
startled, not even knowing that he had been there watching them. Having spoken
to Starhawk from the pit, he was no longer surprised at what remained of his
voice, but he saw the frown that folded Sheera's brow at the rasping wheeze of
it, the worry in Eo's broad, motherly face, and the flood of joy and relief in
the eyes of Gilden and Wilame. They had, he realized, been truly frightened for
him.
Sheera
was the first to speak. "Derroug doesn't suspect Dru..."
"Maybe
not of treason, but he knows she'd do just about anything you bade her. Whether
he understands that there's some kind of connection between you and Gilden, I
don't know... But in any case, we've got to get Tisa out of there before he
tries to lay hands on her."
He
intercepted a look from Gilden and realized that, for all her briskly
matter-of-fact attitude about her daughter, she was not quite the offhand
mother she seemed. He also realized that she had not expected him to agree with
her. Gruffly, he amplified. "If Derroug tries to force her, she'll
fight-and she'll fight like a trained warrior, not a scared girl. Then the
cat's really going to be out of the bag. So when did you take out the guards,
Gilden?"
Gilden
stammered, recovering herself, "About two hours ago," she said.
"They were starting their watch-the watches are four hours."
"We'll
need a diversion, then." He glanced across at Sheera. "Think you can
find Derroug's sleeping quarters again?"
Her
face scarlet, she said, "Yes," in a stifled voice.
"Change
your clothes, then, and bring your weapons. Denga, you stay here. I'm not
surprised the little bastard's guards saw you skirts in the dark if you didn't
blacken your flesh."
Gilden,
Wilame, and Eo looked at one another in confusion.
"But
never mind, you're lucky you weren't killed, and we'll leave it at that. I
don't know if you've made any provision for the plot being blown, Sheera, but
it's too late to make one now. You know that if anyone's captured, she'll talk.
You were in that cellar, too."
At the
memory of the red-haired young slave's screams, Sheera went pale, her face
drained of color as quickly as it had suffused.
"Myself,
I'd sit tight and try to bluff it out. But if we're not back by morning, Denga,
you can assume that you're in command and Derroug knows everything. Take
whatever steps you think you need to."
"All
right," the gladiator said.
"We'll
get Tisa to Lady Wrinshardin's. Derroug know she's your daughter?" This
last was addressed to Gilden, who shook her head.
"Good."
He stood for a moment, studying his two half-pints, dainty little assassins
with blood in their hair. "One more thing. As I said, we'll need a
diversion. You two are so good at coming up with pranks-by the time I come
back, I want you to think of a real good one."
And the
interesting thing was that, when he came downstairs five minutes later, wearing
only a short battle kilt, boots, and his weapons, they had thought of one.
"There
they go." Turning his face slightly to keep his nose out of the muddy roof
tiles, Sun Wolf glanced down into the barracks courtyard of the governor's
palace, then across at Sheera, who lay spread-eagled in the shadows of the
ornamental parapet at his side. She raised her head a little; the view from the
roof of the counting house that backed the barracks court was excellent. Men
could be seen pouring out of the barracks, sleepily pulling on their blue and
gold livery or rubbing unshaven faces and cursing. In their midst, solicitously
supported by the fat captain, minced the veiled forms of Gilden and Wilarne,
dressed to the eyebrows in a fashion that would have done Cobra and Crazyred
proud.
He
heard the faint breath of Sheera's laughter. "Where on earth did Gilden
get that feather tippet?" she whispered. "That's the most vulgar
thing I've ever seen, but it must have cost somebody fifty crowns!"
Strident
and foul, Gilden's voice carried up to them in a startlingly accurate rendering
of a by-no-means carefully bred courtesan's tones. "The bastard said
something about burning the records-that all his Highness' troops wouldn't do
him a speck of good without records."
Sheera
whispered, "The Records Office is in the northeast comer of the palace.
Derroug's quarters are at the southwest."
"Right."
Moving carefully, Sun Wolf slid down the sharp slant of the roof, edged around
a lead gargoyle, and lowered himself down to the oak spar of a decorated beam
end that thrust itself out into space, a dozen feet above the dark slot of the
alley that separated counting house from barracks wall. The gap was negligible,
though the landing was narrow-eighteen inches at the top of the parapet. In
this corner of the old defense works that had once surrounded this part of the
grounds, the stonework looked neglected and treacherous. He jumped, out and
down, his body flexing compactly as it hit the top of the crenellations, and he
sprang neatly down to the catwalk a few feet below.
He
looked back up to the roof. Sheera had the sense to keep moving, smoothly and
swiftly, once she broke cover. The windy darkness of the night was such that
everything seemed to be moving-it would have been difficult to distinguish the
movement as human. Since his ordeal in the pit, Sun Wolf was aware that he
could see clearly now in darkness-he thought that his sense of direction,
always excellent, had improved as well. In the shadows, he could see Sheera's
face, tense and watchful, as she reached the edge of the roof. She lowered
herself over, her feet feeling competently for the beam, her blackened arms
momentarily silhouetted against the paler plaster of the house.
A
cat-leap, and she was beside him. Silently, she scanned the dark bulk of the
palace before them, then pointed southwest. Thanks to the alarm, the barracks
were empty. They descended from the wall by the turret stair of the guardhouse
itself, ducking through the stable wing that Sheera knew, from her acquaintance
with Drypettis, ran the length of the west side of the grounds, merging with
the kitchens on the southwest corner. As they dodged along the walls, in the
darkness Sun Wolf could sense the restlessness of the horses in their stalls,
excited by the winds and by the far-off turmoil from other quarters of the
palace. At the first opportunity, he drew Sheera through the postern of the
carriage house and thence up a ladder to the lofts that ran continuously over
the long rows of boxes. Twice they heard the voices of grooms and sleepy,
grouchy stable boys below them, but no one associated the uneasiness of the
animals with anything but the wind.
Certainly
the guards, running here and there throughout the rest of the palace grounds in
search of unspecified anarchists out to bum the Records Office, never thought
to look for them among the governor's cattle.
From
the loft, they climbed to the roof of the kitchens and over the tall, ridged
backbone of the rooftree. Lights milled distantly, clustering around the tall,
foursquare shapes of the northern administrative wing. To their left lay the
south wall of the palace enclosure, hiding the Grand Canal behind its
marble-faced stone; the lights of the great houses on the other side glittered
few and faint at this hour, and their reflections thrown by the waters rippled
over the stone lacework like moire silk.
Something
was moving about in the dark space of the kitchen gardens. Dogs? the Wolf
wondered. But in that case, there would be barking. Still, the noise was
animal, not human.
From
where he lay flattened on the slanted roof, he could make out the little
postern and water stairs, through which Gilden, Wilarne, and Eo had said they'd
entered, and the empty catwalk above it.
He
heard quick, slipping movement on the tiles, and then warm flesh stretched out
beside him. Sheera whispered, "Can we cross the garden without being
seen?"
"There's
something down there," the Wolf replied, barely above a breath.
"Animals, I think-hunting cats or dogs." He edged sideways, keeping
his head below the final, crowning ridge of the kitchen roof, a sharp frieze
work of saints and gargoyles, green with age where they were not crusted into
unrecognizable lumps of white by long communion with the palace pigeons. The
tiles were warmer under his bare flesh as he slipped around a great cluster of
chimney pots and raised his head again.
"There,"
he murmured. "The covered walkway from the kitchens into the state dining
room. You said yourself, the times you've eaten with the governor, the food
arrived three-quarters cold."
"To
be dropped on gold plates to complete the chilling," Sheera agreed,
quietly amused. "Yes, I see. That lighted window above and to the left
will be the anteroom to his bedchamber. That one there is the window that
lights the end of the hall."
"Good."
Booted toes feeling for breaks in the tiles, he eased himself backward down the
slant of the roof. Below him, the stable courts were a maze of rooftrees and
wells of darkness. Wind flickered over his skin, stirring the long wisps of his
hair. The tiles, offensive with moss and droppings, were rough under his
groping hands, still only partially healed. At the bottom of the roof, a sort
of gutter ran the length of the kitchens, and he slipped along it, moving
swiftly, to the peaked end of the building that overlooked the edge of the
gardens on the canal side. The wind was stronger here, channeled by the walls;
it carried on it the fish smell of the sea and the high salt flavor of the
wind. Down below him, the gardens were a restless murmuration of skeletal trees
and brown, wiry networks of hedge, an uneasy darkness broken by anomalous
shufflings.
Bracing
himself on the gutter, the Wolf worked loose a tile. The noise of the wind that
streamed like cool water over his body covered the scraping sounds of his
task-indeed, they almost covered the sounds of the voices. He heard a man curse
and froze, flattening himself on the uneven darkness of the roof and praying
that the mix of lampblack and grease that covered his body hadn't scraped off
in patches to show the paler flesh beneath.
From
below, he heard a guard's thorough, businesslike cursing. A second voice said,
"Nothing out here."
"Any
sign of Kran?"
Evidently
a head was shaken; the Wolf pressed his face to the filthy tiles, wondering how
long it would be until one or the other of them looked up.
"Damned
funny, him missing a match-up with the guard on the next beat like that... If
them troublemakers came in from this side..."
"When
they're out to bum the Records Office? Not qualified likely. Good thing them
two sluts got us word of it..."
"So
why check the stables? Rot that sergeant's eyes..."
Then,
with a curious, almost atavistic sensation, Sun Wolf knew that it was within his
power to prevent the guards from looking up. It was nothing he had ever
experienced before, but it tugged at him; an overwhelming knowledge of a
technique, a shifting of the mind and attention, that he could not even define
to himself. It was as natural as slashing after a parry, as ingrained in him as
footwork; yet it was nothing he had done or even conceived of doing before. It
was akin to the way he had always been able to avoid people's eyes-but never
from a position of complete exposure.
Without
moving, without even looking down, he consciously and deliberately prevented
either of them from looking up, as if he drew that thought from their minds by
some process he had never known of, except in his childhood dreams. Whether it
was for this reason, or because the night was cold and windy and the men
disgruntled, neither did look up.
"Let's
get on, mate, I'm poxy freezing. There's nothing here."
"Aye.
Rot his eyes, anyway ..."
A door
closed. The Wolf lay for a moment on the windswept tiles, counting the retreat
of their footfalls, until he was sure they were gone. Then he hefted the lump
of loose tiles in his hand, leaned around the edge of the gable, and threw them
down into the dark corner of garden beyond.
The
tiles crashed noisily in the dry hedges below. The Wolf ducked back around the
comer of the roof as more crashes answered, and whatever had been below-dogs or
sentries- bounded to investigate. Hidden from them by the angle of the roof, he
slid along the gutter and made his way, swift as a tomcat, up the slope to
where Sheera lay. He could see movement flicker around the corner at the far
end of the kitchens as he scrambled up beside her; in that short span of bought
time, he half rose to climb over the uneven teeth of the roof ridge and down to
the top of the walkway.
The
walkway top was flat-a stupid thing, in as rainy a town as Mandrigyn. Probably
leaks like a sieve all winter, he thought, crawling flat on his belly along it.
A quick glance showed him Sheera directly behind, her body as grazed and filthy
as his own; another quick glance showed him the gardens below, still empty. He
addressed a brief request to his ancestors to keep them that way and scanned
the available windows.
"Captain!"
Sheera whispered.
He
glanced back at her. The wind veered suddenly and he smelled smoke.
As a
man adept at the starting of fires, he recognized it as new smoke, the first
springing of a really commendable blaze. Looking, he saw it rolling in a
formidable column from the north end of the palace, streaming in huge,
white-edged billows in the wind. Voices were shouting, feet racing; everyone
who had been turned out for the original alarm was dashing toward the fire, and
everyone who had not was following close behind.
Gilden
and Wilarne were nothing if not thorough.
Scrambling
to the nearest window sill. Sun Wolf drove his boot through the glass.
It was,
as Sheera had said, the end window of a long corridor, dimly lighted with lamps
of amber glass and muffled by carpets of blue Islands work and iridescent silk.
He ducked through the nearest door into an antechamber, searching for the way
into the bedroom; then a noise behind him in the hall made him swing around. He
saw Sheera, frozen in the act of following him into the doorway, black and
filthy as a demon from one of the dirtier pits of Hell; and before her in the
hall, his crippled body clothed in a lavish robe of crimson brocade and miniver
and his prim face wearing an expression of profound and startled astonishment,
was Derroug Dru himself.
For one
instant, they faced each other; from the tenebrous antechamber. Sun Wolf saw
the jump of the governor's chest and the leap of breath in his throat as he
inhaled to shout for the guards ...
He
never made a sound. Sheera was taller than he and heavier; training day after
day to the point of exhaustion had made her lightning-fast. For all his power
to bend others to his will, Derroug was a cripple. Sun Wolf saw the dagger in
Sheera's hand but doubted that Derroug ever did. She caught the body and was
dragging it into the anteroom, even as blood sprayed from the slashed arteries
of the throat. The room stank of it, sharp and metallic above the suffocating
weight of balsam incense. Her hands glistened in the faint reflection of the
corridor lamps.
"Throw
something over him," Sun Wolf whispered as she pushed the door to behind
her. "That cuts our time-pray Tisa really is here and we don't have to go
hunt for her."
As
Sheera bundled the body into a corner, he was already crossing the anteroom to
the bolted door on the other side. He slammed back the bolts and stepped
through. "Tisa..."
Something
hit his shoulders and the back of his knee; cold and slim, an arm locked across
his windpipe, and small hands knotted below the corner of his jaw in a
strangle. Reflex took over. He roiled his shoulders forward, ducked, and threw.
Incredibly light weight went sailing over his head, to slam like a soaked
blanket into the deep furs of the floor.
Under
the softness of the carpets was hard tile, and a thin little sob was wrenched
from her, but Tisa was rolling to her feet as he caught her wrists. She'd kept
her head clear of the impact, but tears of terror and pain streamed down her
face. Then she saw who he was and turned her face away, ashamed that he should
see her weep.
It was
no time, the Wolf thought, to be a warrior-especially if one was fifteen and
the victim of a powerful and cruel man. He gathered her into his arms. She was
shaking with silent terror, burying her small, pointed face in the grimy muscle
of his hard chest. Sheera stood silent in the doorway, her hands red to the
elbows, watching as he stroked Tisa's disheveled ivory hair and murmured to her
as a father might to a child frightened by a nightmare.
"He's
dead," he said softly. "It's ail right. We've come to get you out,
and he's dead and won't come after you."
The
girl stammered, "Mother..."
"Your
mum's out burning down the other side of the palace," the Wolf said, in
the same comforting accents. "She's fine-"
Tisa
raised her head, her cheek all smutched with blacking, green moss stains, and
bird droppings. "Are you kidding me?" she asked, laughter and
suspicion fighting through her tears.
The
Wolf made wide eyes at her. "No," he said. "Did you think I
was?"
She
wiped her eyes and swallowed hard. "I'm not crying," she explained,
after a moment.
"No,"
he agreed. "I'm sorry I hurt you, Tisa."
"You
didn't hurt me." Her voice was shaky; the breath had been very soundly
knocked out of her, if nothing else.
"Well,
you damned near strangled me," he returned gruffly. "You think you
can swim?"
She
nodded. She was wearing, he now saw, a kind of loose white robe, clearly given
to her by Derroug. It was slightly too large for her and sewn over with white
sequins and elaborate swirls of milky, opalescent beads. Against it, he saw her
transformed, no longer a coltish girl, but a half-opened bud of womanhood. Her
eyelids were stained dark with fatigue and terror, her hair pale against the
silk, almost as light as Star-hawk's in the shimmer of the bedroom lamp. The
gown was cut so as to reveal half her young bosom. Before taking her post to
attack, she'd prosaically pinned the robe with a ruby stickpin that glowed
beneath her collarbone like a huge bead of blood.
She was
as light as a flower in his hands as he lifted her to her feet. Her eyes
lighted on Sheera and widened at the sight of the blood.
Sun
Wolf whispered, "Let's go. They'll be looking for him, now that the fire's
started."
As they
slipped back through the anteroom and out the window, Tisa breathed, "What
happened to your voice, Captain? And I thought..."
"Not
now."
Obediently,
she gathered handfuls of her voluminous skirts and followed Sheera down onto
the roof of the walkway. Even to his sharper eyes, the gardens below looked
deserted. He could see, vague against the deeper dark of the shadowed wall, the
shape of the postern gate.
"Wait
here till I signal," he said softly. "A whistle like a nightjar. Then
keep to the shadows along the wall. If it's locked, we'll have to go up the
steps to the parapet and dive."
Sheera
gauged the height of the wall. "Thank God it's the Grand Canal. It's the
deepest one in the city."
Sun
Wolf slithered down the side of the walkway and into the gardens below.
The
overcast was growing thicker with the night winds that fanned the blaze on the
north end of the palace. The din was audible over the moaning of the wind. It
should keep them all busy for at least another hour, he calculated and began to
move, slowly and cautiously, along the wall toward the inky wells of shadow
that lay between him and the gate.
The
blackness here was almost absolute; a month ago he would have been able to see
nothing. As it was, he was aware of shapes and details with a sense that he was
not altogether certain was sight-an effect of the anzid, he guessed, as well as
that curious ability to prevent people from looking at him.
That
would come in handy, he thought. Come to think of it, he realized he had used
it twice before tonight-when he'd evaded Sheera almost unthinkingly in the
narrow confines of the potting room, and earlier this evening, when he had
first come down the stairs to hear the war council in the orangery. The
professional in him toyed with ways of developing that strange talent; but deep
within him, a tug of primitive excitement shivered in his bones, as it had done
when he had first known that he could see demons and others could not.
The
postern was unguarded, but locked. He glanced around the blackness under the
gate arch and found the narrow stair to the parapet above. The garden behind
him still appeared deserted, but a tension, a premonition of danger, had begun
to prickle at the nape of his neck. The brush and hedges seemed to rustle too
much, and the wind, laden with smoke and shouting, seemed somehow to carry the
scent of evil to his nostrils. He whistled softly, like a nightjar, and saw
swift movement near the covered walk, then the flash of Tisa's almost luminous
white gown.
They
were halfway across the garden when something else moved, from around the comer
of the kitchen building.
The
things were armored like men, but weaponless. From where he stood at the bottom
of the parapet stair, the Wolf could see that they walked steadily, oblivious
to the darkness that made the fugitive women's steps so halting and slow. They
moved so softly that he wasn't sure Sheera and Tisa were aware of them, but his
own sharpened vision showed them clearly to him. There were four, wearing the
fouled liveries of Derroug's guards, their eyeless heads swinging as if they
also could see in darkness.
They
were nuuwa.
Realization
hit him, and horrible enlightenment, as if pieces of some huge and ghastly
puzzle had fallen into place. Rage and utter loathing swept over him, such as
he had never felt toward anyone or anything before. The nuuwa began to lope.
Sheera swung around, hearing the steps on the grass, but her eyes were unable
to pierce the utter darkness.
Sun
Wolf bellowed, "Run for it! Here!"
His sword
whined from its sheath. Unquestioning, the women ran, Tisa stripping out of her
billowing white robe as it caught on the dead limbs of a thorn hedge. They ran
blindly, stumbling, blundering through soft earth and gray tangles of vine and
hedge, and the nuuwa plunged soundlessly after. He yelled again, a
half-voiceless croaking that was answered by wild commotion in the windows of
the palace behind them. Tisa hit the stairs first, with Sheera a few strides
behind. The nuuwa were hard on their heels, running sightlessly with the drool
glistening on those gaping, deformed mouths.
Sword
naked in his hand. Sun Wolf followed the women up the steps, the foremost of
the pursuers not three feet behind. At the top of the wall, Tisa dived,
plunging down into the dark murk of the canal; Sheera's dark-stained, gleaming
body outlined momentarily against the reflected lamps in the villas across the
way as she followed. When the Wolf reached the parapet, huge hands dug into his
flesh from behind, and he writhed away from the fangs that tore like great
wedges of rusty iron into his shoulder. He turned, ripping with his sword,
knowing he had only seconds until they were all on him, literally eating him
alive. As the blade cleaved the filthy flesh of the nuuwa's body, the misshapen
face was inches from his own, the huge mouth still rending at him, flowing with
blood, the empty eye sockets scabbed wells of shadow.
Then he
was plunging down, and the freezing, salty, unspeakably filthy waters of the
canal swallowed him. The nuuwa, nothing daunted, flung themselves over the wall
after their prey. Weighted in their armor, too blind and too stupid to swim,
they sank like stones.
In her
usual silence, Yirth gathered up her medicines and glided from the dim confines
of the loft. Sun Wolf lay still for a time, staring up at the slant of the
ceiling over his head, as he had stared at it four mornings ago, when he had
awakened to know that Sheera had indeed won.
But
there was no thought of Sheera now in his mind.
He was
thinking now of Lady Wrinshardin, of Derroug Dru, and of Altiokis.
He felt
weak from loss of blood, woozy and aching from the pain of Yirth's remedies.
Against his cheek on the pillow, his hair was damp, and his flesh chilled where
the lampblack and grease had been sponged off it. Sheera, in her velvet bed,
and Tisa, safe at the Thane of Wrinshardin's castle, would both be striped like
tigers with bruises and scratches from that last crashing flight through the
gardens.
He
himself scarcely felt the pain. Knowledge still burned in him, and the heat of
fury that knowledge had brought; deformed, hideous, the face of the nuuwa
returned to his thoughts, no matter what he did to push it aside. The grayish
light beyond the window grew broader, and he wondered if he had best get up and
go about his business for the benefit of whatever servants of the household
might be questioned by Derroug's successors.
Weakness
weighted his limbs. He was still lying there when the door of the orangery
opened and shut, and he heard the creak of light feet on the steps, the soft,
thick slur of satin petticoats, and the stiff rubbing of starched lace.
He
turned his head. Sheera stood in the doorway, where she had so seldom come
before. Cosmetics covered the scratches on her face; but below the paint, he
thought she looked pale and drawn. In that crowded and terrible night, he
realized, she had avenged herself on Derroug. But it had been a businesslike,
almost unthinking revenge.
"I
came to thank you for last night," she said tiredly. "And- to
apologize for things that I said. You did not have to do what you did."
"I
told you before," Sun Wolf rasped, his new voice still scraping oddly in
his ears. "All it would have taken was for our girl to tackle Derroug the
way she tackled me for there to have been a lot of questions asked. And as for
the other business-you were tired and I was drunk. That should never have
happened."
"No,"
Sheera said. "It shouldn't have." She rubbed her eyes, the clusters
of pearl and sardonyx that decorated her ears and hair flickering in the wan
light of morning. "I've come to tell you that you're free to leave
Mandrigyn. I'm going to speak to Yirth-to have her give you the antidote to the
anzid-to let you go. For what you did..."
He held
out his hand. After a moment's hesitation, she stepped forward, and he drew her
to sit on the edge of his bed. Her fingers felt like ice in his.
"Sheera,"
he said, "that doesn't matter now. When you march to the mines-when you
free the men-what are you going to do?"
Taken
off guard, she stammered, "I-we-Tarrin and I will lead them back
here..."
"No,"
he said. "Lady Wrinshardin was right, Sheera. Yirth is right. Don't wait
for Altiokis to come to you. Those ways from the mines up to the Citadel
itself-could Amber's girls find them?"
"I
suppose," she said hesitantly. "Crazyred says she's seen one of them.
But they're guarded by magic, by traps..."
"Yirth
will have to deal with that," he told her quietly. "She'll have to
find some way to get you through them-and she will, or die trying. Sheera,
Altiokis has to be destroyed. He's got an evil up there worse than anything I
imagined- and he's breeding it, creating it, calling it up out of some other
world, I don't know. Lady Wrinshardin guessed it; Yirth knows it. He has to be
destroyed, and that evil with him."
Sheera
was silent, looking down at her hands where they rested among the folds of her
gown. Once she might have triumphed over his admission that she was right and
he wrong- but that had been before the pit, and before the garden last night.
Watching
her eyes, he realized that, since she had spoken with Lady Wrinshardin, she had
known in her heart that they would have to storm the Citadel.
He went
on. "Those were nuuwa that pursued us from Derroug's gardens last night.
Nuuwa under the control of Altiokis, I would guess-as nuuwa under his control
are said to march in his armies. When he's done with them-as he was after the
battle
of Iron Pass-he turns most of them out, to overrun the conquered lands; or else
he gives them over to his governors as watchdogs. I think they deform, they
deteriorate, in time- and that's why Aitiokis and Derroug have to go on
creating new ones."
"Creating?"
She raised her head quickly; he could see in her face the hideous comprehension
knocking on the doors of her mind, as it had knocked on his last night.
"You
remember that room in Derroug's prison? That-that thing that looked like a
flake of fire, or a shining dragonfly?"
She
glanced away, nauseated by the memory. After a moment, the thick curls of her
hair slipped across her red satin shoulder as she nodded. He felt her cold
fingers tighten over his.
"That
red-haired boy became the creature who tore up my shoulder last night," he
told her.
CHAPTER
- 15 -
FROM
PERGEMIS, THE ROAD WOUND NORTHEAST, FIRST THROUGH the rich croplands and
forests of the Bight Coast, then through mist-hung, green foothills, where snow
lay light upon the ground, printed with the spoor of fox and beaver. In the
summer, it would have been possible to take a ship from the port, around the
vast hammer of cliff-girt headlands and through the gray walls of the Islands,
to the port city of Mandrigyn below the walls of Grimscarp itself. But the
world lay in the iron grip of winter. Starhawk and Anyog made their way into
the Wizard King's domains slowly, overland, as best they could.
In the
higher foothills, the rains turned to snow, and the winds drove down upon them
from the stony uplands above. When they could, they put up at
settlements-either the new villages of traders and hunters or the ancient clan
holds of the old Thanes, who had once ruled all these lands and now lived in
haughty obsolescence in the depths of the trackless forests.
Starhawk
found the going far slower than she had anticipated, for Anyog, despite his
uncomplaining gameness, tired easily. In this weather, and in this country, an
hour or two of travel would leave the little scholar gray-faced and gasping,
and the time span shortened steadily as they pressed on. She would have scorned
the weakness in one of her own men and used the lash of her tongue to drive
him. But she could not do so. It was her doing that the old man had undertaken
the hardships of a winter journey when he should have been still in bed,
letting his wounds heal. Besides, she admitted to herself, she'd grown to be
extremely fond of the old goat.
Never
before had she found that her personal feelings toward someone bred tolerance
of his weakness. Have I grown soft, she wondered, those weeks in Pel Farstep's
house? Or is this something love does for you-makes you kinder toward others as
well"?
Dealing
with the irrationalities of love that she found in her own soul frightened her.
Her jealousy of poor Fawn had been as senseless as was her stubbornness in
pursuing a hopeless quest for a man who was almost certainly already dead and
who had never spoken to her of love in the first place. She knew herself to be
behaving stupidly, yet the thought of turning around and retracing her steps to
Pergemis or Wrynde was intolerable to the point of pain. Meditation cleared and
calmed her mind, but gave her no answer-she could find herself within the
Invisible Circle, but she could not find another person.
No
wonder the Wolf had always steered clear of love. She wondered how she could
ever find the courage to tell him that she loved him and what he would say when
or if she did.
And
with love, she found herself involved in magic as well.
"Why
did you never go on to become a wizard?" she asked one evening, watching
Anyog as he brought fire spurting to the little heap of sticks and kindling
with a gesture of his bony fingers. "Was it fear of Altiokis alone?"
The
bright, black eyes twinkled up at her, catching the glittering reflection of
the sparks. "Funk-pure and simple." He held out his hands to the
blaze. The light seemed to shine through them, so thin they were. The white
ruffles at his wrists, like those at his throat, were draggled and gray.
Starhawk
eyed him for a moment, where he hunched like a cricket over the little blaze,
then half glanced over her shoulder at the dark that always seemed to hang over
the uplands to the north.
He read
her gesture and grinned wryly. "Not solely of our deathless friend,"
he explained. "Though I will admit that that consideration loomed largest
in my mind when I deserted the master who taught me and took the road for
sunnier climes in the south.
"My
master was an old man, a hermit who lived in the hills. Even as a little boy, I
knew I had the Power-I could find things that were lost or start fires by
looking at bits of dried grass. I could see things that other people could not
see. This old man was a mystic-crazy, some said-but he taught me -.."
Anyog
paused, staring into the shivering color of the blaze. "Perhaps he taught
me more than he knew.
"I
tasted it then, you see." He glanced up at her, standing above him, across
the leaping light; the fire touched in his face every wrinkle and line of
gaiety and dissipation. "Tasted glory- tasted magic-and tasted what that
glory would cost. He was a shy old man, terrified of strangers. I had to hunt
for him for two weeks before he would even see me. He distrusted everything,
everyone-all from fear of Altiokis."
Starhawk
was silent, remembering that whitewashed cell in the distant Convent and the
mirror set in an angle of its walls. Somewhere in the woods an owl hooted,
hunting on soundless wings. The horses stamped at their tethers, pawing at the
crusted snow.
The
dark eyes were studying her face, wondering if she understood. "It meant
giving up all things for only one thing," Anyog said. "Even then I
knew I wanted to travel, to learn. I loved the small, bright beauties of the
mind. What is life without poetry, without wit, without music? Without the
well-turned phrase and the sharpening of your own philosophy upon the
philosophies of others? My master lived hidden-he would go for years without
seeing another soul. If I became a wizard like him, it would mean the same kind
of life for me."
The old
man sighed and turned to pick up the iron spits and begin setting them in their
place over the fire. "So I chose all those small beauties over the great,
single, lonely one. I became a scholar, teacher, dancer, poet-my Song of the
Moon Dog and the Ocean Child will be sung throughout the Middle Kingdoms long
after I am gone-and I pretended I did not regret. Until that night at the inn,
when you asked me if my safety had bought me happiness. And I could not say
that it had."
He
looked away from her and occupied himself in spitting pieces of the rabbit she
had shot that afternoon on the long iron cooking spike. Starhawk said nothing,
but hunted through the mule's packs for barley bannocks and a pan to melt snow
for drinking water. She was remembering the warm safety of Pel Farstep's house
and how she had not even thought twice about leaving it to pursue her quest.
"And
then," Anyog continued, "I feared the Great Trial. Without passing
through that, I could never have come to the fullness of my power in any
case."
"What
is it?" Starhawk asked, sitting down opposite him. "Could you take it
now, before we reached Grimscarp?"
The old
man shook his head; she thought the withered muscles of his jaw tightened in
apprehension in the flickering firelight. "No," he said. "I
never learned enough magic to withstand it, and what I learned... It has been
long since I used that. The Trial kills the weak, as it kills those who are not
mageborn."
She
frowned. "But if you passed through it-would it make you deathless, like
Altiokis?"
"Altiokis?"
The winged brows plunged down suddenly over his nose. For an instant she saw
him, not as a half-sick and regretful little old man, but as a wizard, an echo
of the Power he had passed by. "Pah. Altiokis never passed the Great
Trial. According to my master, he never even knew what it was. My master knew
him, you see. Vain, lazy, trifling... the worst of them all."
He
might have been a classical poet speaking of the latest popular serenade
writer. She half smiled. "But you've got to admit he's up there and you're
down here, hiding from him. He's got to have acquired that power from
somewhere."
Anyog's
voice sank, as if he feared that, this close to the Citadel of the Wizard King,
the very winds would hear. "He has," he told her quietly.
Her
glance sharpened, and she remembered the smoky darkness of the inn at Foonspay
and the old man's raving quietly before the sinking fire, with Fawn standing
quiet, hidden in the shadows of the corridor. "You spoke of that
before," she said.
"Did
I? I didn't mean to." He poked the fire, more for something to do than
because it needed stirring. The wind brought the voices of wolves from the
hills above, sweet and distant upon the hunting trail. "My master knew
it-but very few others did. If Altiokis ever found out that it was known, he
would guess that my master had taught others. He would find me."
"Where
does Altiokis get his power?"
Anyog
was silent for a time, staring into the fire, and Star-hawk wondered if he would
answer her at all. She had just decided that he would not when he said softly,
"From the Hole. Holes in the world, they are called-but! think Holes
between worlds would be more accurate. For it is said that something lives in
them-something other than the gaums that eat men's brains."
"Gaums
..." she began.
"Oh,
yes. My nephews call them after dragonflies, but they're things-whatever they
are-that come out of the Holes. They are mindless, and they eat the minds of
their victims, so that their victims become mindless, too-nuuwa, in fact. The
Holes appear-oh, al intervals of hundreds of years, sometimes. My master said
they were ruled by the courses of the stars. Sunlight destroys them-they appear
at night and vanish with the coming of dawn."
Something
moved, dark against the mottled background of broken snow and old pine needles;
Anyog looked up with a gasp, as if at an enemy footfall, and Starhawk,
following his gaze, saw the brief green flash of a weasel's eyes. The old man
subsided, shivering and rubbing his hands.
At
length he continued. "The Holes vanish with sunlight- as do the gaums, if
they don't find a victim first. But this Hole Altiokis sheltered. He is said to
have built a stone hut over it in a single night, and from that time his powers
have grown. It animates his flesh, giving him life-but he has changed since
then. I don't know." He shook his head wearily, a harried, sick old man
once more. "He had only to wait for the great mages of his own generation
to die and to kill off those who followed before they came to greatness. As he
will kill me."
His
voice was shaky with exhaustion and despair; looking at him across the topaz
glow of the fire, Starhawk saw how white he looked, how darkly the crazy
eyebrows stood out against the pinched flesh. As if he'd been a boy trooper,
funked before his first battle, she said hearteningly, "He won't kill
you."
They
left the magical silence of the foothills, to climb the Stren Water Valley.
Fed by
the drowning rains on the uplands above, the Stren Water roared in full spate,
spreading its channels throughout the narrow, marshy country that lay between
the higher cliffs, cutting off hilltops to islands, and driving those farmers
who eked their living from its soil to their winter villages on the slopes
above. Starhawk and Anyog made their way along the rocky foothills that
bordered the flooded lands, always wet, always cold. Anyog told tales and sang
songs; of wizardry and Altiokis, they did not speak.
They
made a dozen river crossings a day-sometimes of boggy little channels of the
main flood, sometimes of boiling white streams that had permanent channels. At
one of these, they lost the packs and almost lost the mule as well. Starhawk
suspected that the struggle with the raging waters had broken something within
Anyog; after that, he had a white look about the mouth that never left him and
he could not travel more than a few miles without a rest.
She had
always been a blisteringly efficient commander, using her own supple strength
to drive and bully her men to follow. But she found that her fears for Sun
Wolf, though unabated, left room for a care for the old man, who she was sure
now would never be able to help her, and she broke the journey to give him a
day's rest while she hunted mountain sheep in the high rock country to the
northwest.
She was
coming back from this when she found the tracks of the mercenaries.
It had
been a small band-probably not more than fifteen, she guessed, studying the
sloppy trail in the fading afternoon light. Their mere presence in the valley
told her they were out of work and had been so for at least three months, since
the rains had begun, holed up somewhere, living off the land by hunting or
pillage-too small a group to be hired for anything but tribal war between the
Thanes; and most of the Thanes in these parts hadn't the money to hire, anyway,
and wouldn't go to war in the winter if they could.
Starhawk
cursed. Her experience with out-of-work mercenaries was that they were always a
nuisance and generally robbers to boot; she would have to trail them to make
sure where they were headed and what they were up to before she would feel safe
returning to camp.
She had
shot a sheep in the high rocks, one of the small, shaggy crag jumpers, and was
carrying the carcass over her shoulders. She hung it from the limb of a tree to
keep it from wolves and hung her coat up with it; she might want her arms free.
Then she transferred her sword from her back, where she'd been carrying it on
the hunt, to her hip, restrung her bow, and checked her arrows. She had been a
mercenary for a long time-she was under no illusions about her own kind.
The
trail was fresh; the droppings of the few horses still steamed in the cold
evening. She found the place where they'd turned aside from the main trail
through the hills at the sight of Anyog's campfire-she could still see the
smoke of it herself, rising through the trees from the wooded hollow where
she'd left him. As she clambered cautiously down the rocks that skirted the
downward trail, she began to hear their voices, too, and their laughter.
She
muttered words that did greater credit to her imagination than to her convent
training. They wanted horses, of course. She hoped to the Mother that Anyog had
more sense than to antagonize them-not that anything would be likely to help
him much, if they were drunk-which, by the sound of it, they were.
She'd
chosen the campsite carefully-a wooded dell surrounded by thin trees with a
minimum of large boulders, difficult to spy into and impossible to sneak up on.
She pressed her body to the trunk of the largest available tree and looked down
into the dell.
There
were about a dozen men, and they were drunk. One or two of them she thought she
recognized-mercenaries were always crossing one another's paths, and most of
them got to know one another by sight. The leader was a squat, hairy man in a
greasy doublet sewn over with iron plates. It was before him that Anyog knelt
on hands and knees, his gray head bowed and trickling with blood.
At this
distance it was hard to hear what the leader was saying, but it was obvious the
robbers had already appropriated the livestock. Starhawk could see the two
horses and the mule among the small cavy of broken-down nags at the far edge of
the clearing; the camp was strewn with cooking gear, and a couple of
snaggle-haired camp followers stood among the half circle of men with her and
Anyog's bedrolls. She barely felt her anger in the midst of her calculations.
The horses were unguarded at the rear of the cavy, since most of the men were
up front, watching the fun with Anyog. The animals would provide better cover
if she could get to them.
More
laughter burst from the circle of men; a couple of them jostled for a better
position. She saw the leader's hand move, and Anyog began to crawl, evidently
after something thrown into the muddy pine needles. Bawling with laughter, the
mercenary captain reached out his boot and kicked the old man in the side,
sending him sprawling. Doggedly, Anyog got back to his hands and knees and
continued to crawl.
Starhawk
was familiar with the game; paying for the horses, it was called. A player
threw coppers at greater and greater distances and made the poor bastard crawl
after them while everyone kicked him over. The game was on a par with ducking
the mayor of the village, or forcing his wife to clean the captain's boots with
her hair-the sort of thing that went on during the sacking of a town. It was
hilariously funny if a person was drunk, of course, or had just survived a
battle that could have left him feeding the local cats on his spilled guts.
But
sober, and watching it played on a man who had done her nothing but kindness,
she felt both anger and distaste. It was, she saw, akin to rape; and like rape,
it could easily get out of hand and end with the victim dead as well.
She
began to edge her way through the trees toward the far side of the cavy. The
gathering darkness helped her-it had been blackly overcast all day, with snow
falling lightly in the high country where she had hunted; the world smelled of
rain and frost. The men, moreover, aside from being drunk, were totally
engrossed in their game. Anyog was kicked down again and lay where he had
fallen. It was hard to tell in the twilight, but Starhawk thought he was
bleeding from the mouth. She decided then that, whether or not they offered him
further injury, she would kill them. One of the camp followers, a slut of
sixteen or so, walked over to the old man and kicked him to make him get up;
Starhawk saw his hands move as he struggled to rise.
The
mercenaries closed in around him.
It took
her a few extra seconds to cut the reins of the horses •from the tether rope;
the men were yelling and laughing and never saw her until she was mounted. She
fired into their midst, calmly and without rage; her first arrow took the
captain straight through the throat, above the iron-plated doublet; her second
pinned the camp follower between the breasts.
She was
mounted; the height and the weight of the horse gave her an edge over their
numbers, though later she suspected that she would have taken on the twelve of
them, even had she been afoot. She came plowing in among them from the
darkness, the last light flashing from her sword blade as from the sickle of the
Death Goddess of ancient days-silent, inhuman, merciless as the Plague Star.
She killed two before they even had their weapons drawn, and the horse
accounted for a third, rearing as they closed around it and smashing the man's
skull with an iron-shod hoof. Another man seized her leg to pull her down and
she took his hands off at the wrists. She left him standing, screaming, staring
at the spouting stumps, as she turned and beheaded the other camp follower and
another man who was grabbing at her from the opposite side. Two men had the
bridle, dragging and twisting to pull the horse down; she dug in her heels and
drove the animal straight ahead over them, so that they had to release their
grip or be trampled. One of them she hacked through the shoulder as she went
by, and he crumpled, screaming and kicking in the plowed, wet pine mast.
AH this
she did calmly, without feeling. She was a technician of death and good at her
job; she knew what she wanted to do. The men were running in all directions,
drunk and confused. Someone got to the packs; a moment later, an arrow embedded
itself in the saddletree a few inches from her leg. She wheeled the horse and
rode at the man. Another shaft sang wide beside her, his aim erratic from panic
or from cheap gin; then he dropped his bow and ran, and she cut him through the
spine as she overtook his flight.
The men
who were chasing the fleeing horses she brought down with arrows, as if they
were hares. Only the last stood and fought her, sword to sword, when her arrows
were spent; and though she was dismounted by this time and he was both larger
and heavier than she, she had the advantage of speed.
She
pulled her grating sword blade from his ribs, wiped it on his clothes, and
turned back to where Anyog lay in the trampled slush. The cold brightness of
battle still clung to her; she looked down at the crumpled body and thought.
Another deader.
Then
the grief hit her, like the howling of a wolf at the moon.
She
looked around her at the bodies that lay like dark lumps of mud against the
slightly lighter blur of the pine needles. The air smelled heavy with blood,
like a battlefield; already foxes were creeping from the woods, sniffing at the
carrion. In the night, there would be wolves. She saw that at least one of the
mercenaries had been a woman, something that she hadn't noticed in the heat of
the fight. And none of their deaths would bring Anyog back.
Gently,
she knelt beside him and turned him over. His breath caught in a gasp of pain;
she saw that he was not, in fact, dead; but he would have to be a powerful
wizard indeed to pull himself back from the darkness now. Around her, the trees
began to whisper under the falling of rain.
Starhawk
worked through the night, rigging a shelter for him and for the fire she built,
and making a travois. Beyond the circle of the firelight, she was conscious of
continual movement, of faint snarlings and growls, and huge green eyes that
flashed with the reflected light. The single horse she had salvaged-one of Pel
Farstep's-snorted with fear and jerked at its tether, but nothing threatened
them from the rainy blackness. The kill was fresh and enough to glut a pack.
The
sodden dawn was barely glimmering through the trees when she moved on. She
collected what little food the mercenaries had carried, plus several skins of
raw liquor-Blind White, it was called-and all the arrows she could recover. As
she was tying Anyog to the travois, the dark eyes opened, glazed with pain, and
he whispered, "Dove?"
"I'm
here," she said gruffly. "Uncle, I'm sorry. I..."
His
voice was a thread. "Couldn't let you face... Altiokis... alone ..."
He
coughed, bringing up blood. Starhawk stood up and went to hang the rest of
their meager supplies over the various projections of the saddle, fighting the
guilt that came from bitter enlightenment and the sudden understanding of why
Anyog had joined her in her hopeless quest. She stood for a moment, leaning her
throbbing head against the horse's withers while the rain streamed down through
her pale, dripping hair. Ram had taken his courage in his hands, as he had
said, and spoken to her; and having spoken, had been turned down. Perhaps it
was Anyog's age that had robbed him of the courage to speak, or perhaps it was
the prior knowledge that his love for her would not be returned. But it was the
old man, not the young, who had come with her to his death.
Starhawk
sighed. She had learned a long time ago that crying only wasted time. They had
a long road to go.
It was
almost nightfall before they came to shelter. Because she could not scout the
countryside, Starhawk backtrailed the mercenaries, hoping that they had spent
the previous night in a place not too exposed to the elements. The rain had
lightened through the afternoon, but the cold was deeper, and she began to fear
snow. The road led them up the hard, rocky tracks into the higher foothills,
skirting the deep flood meres and the sour bogs that surrounded them. In the
end, it led her to a high valley, a sort of bay wedged among the tall cliffs,
where a chapel had been built, looking like something that had grown of itself
from the lichened stones.
The
chapel was filthy. It had clearly served as a stable, and its altar had been
further defiled by all the gross usages of which drunken and violent men were
capable when they grew bored. Starhawk was used to this kind of thing and had
moreover been raised to believe that the worship of the Triple God was an
intellectualized heresy; nevertheless, she was angered that men would treat
holy things so, simply because they were holy.
Still,
the roof was intact, and the single doorway narrow enough to forbid the
entrance of wild beasts, if a fire were kindled there. She cleared a place
among the mess to lay Anyog down and set about gathering damp brushwood, then
barked her knuckles with flint and steel lighting it.
It
snowed in the night, with bitter wind keening around the open chapel door. By
dawn, it was obvious to Starhawk that Uncle Anyog would never recover.
Yet he
was too tough to die quickly. He lingered on the cloudy borderlands of death,
sometimes in a cold sleep that she would have mistaken for death, had it not
been for the painful wheezing of his breath, other times weeping and raving
feebly of Altiokis, of the nuuwa, of his sister, or singing snatches of poems
and songs in a cracked little voice like the grating of a rusty hinge.
Occasionally he was lucid enough to recognize her cropped hair and
brass-studded doublet as the marks of a trooper and struggled with feeble
determination against the gruel she fed him or the water she washed him with.
On the
third night of this, it crossed her mind that the sensible thing to do would be
to kill him and go on with her quest. There was no hope of his recovery-even if
what remained of the little wizardry he had been taught was strong enough to
pull him back from death, it would be long before he could embark on another
journey by travois. One way or the other, she would have to free Sun Wolf from
the Citadel of the Wizard King alone, without the aid of a wizard-without the
hope now of ever finding one.
It was
better that she got on with it and did not delay further.
Yet she
stayed. The cold deepened over the high peaks, and the snow locked its grip on
the valley tighter. Daily the Hawk trudged to the few tufts of birch and aspen
at the lower end of the little valley by the spring to cut firewood. She saw in
the snow the marks where deer had pawed at the crust to feed on the dead
grasses underneath; she hunted, and the calm absorption of it eased her heart.
During the night she meditated, contemplating in the stillness of the Invisible
Circle the truths of her own violent soul. In spite of her own faith in the
Mother, she tended the altar of the Triple God, ridding the chapel of its
pollutions and cleansing the stone with ritual fire; and in that, too, she
found comfort.
Night
after night she sat listening to Anyog's quiet murmuring and staring out into
the still darkness of the silent valley and the flooded lands beyond.
What
had happened to her, she wondered, those weeks in Pel Farstep's tall stone
house? She did not want to become like them, like the busy, bustling Pel or the
placid Gillie. So why did her mind keep returning to that peaceful place and
the small beauties of everyday things?
Would
she even love the Wolf when she met him again, or would she find that he was
like the men she had killed, brutish, dirty, and crass?
The
Mother knew, she'd seen him perform worse outrages than that when they'd sacked
cities.
But her
own experience with the wild, careless arrogance of victory prevented her from
thinking that what one did during a sack was what one would do in cold blood.
Would
it be better if she found that she did not love him, for that matter? Had
Fawnie had the right idea, to marry a well-off man who would cherish her?
If the
Wolf was a mercenary like the others, why did she still love him enough to seek
him? And if she still loved him with that same determination, why did she not
kill Anyog, who was dying anyway, bury him, and leave?
From
there she would settle herself into meditation; but the answers that she found
within its stillness were not the answers that she sought.
One
night the wind changed, squalling down over the mountains in a fury of driving,
intermittent rain. Droplets hissed loudly in the little fire; Starhawk could
hear its fitful beating against the stone walls of the chapel, but within the
hollow darkness at the far end of the holy place, the altar lights burned with
a steady, hypnotic glow. Her mind focused upon them, drawing them into herself,
and the light and darkness merged and clarified into one entity-rain and earth,
wind and silence, that which was known and that which was yet to be-the single
Circle of Is.
She
found herself in another wind-sounding darkness, hearing the far-off beating of
the sea. She knew the place well- the Mother's chapel on the cliffs, pan of the
Convent of St. Cherybi, which she had left to follow Sun Wolf to learn the ways
of war. She had heard of other nuns doing this, for each point of the Invisible
Circle was each point, everywhere, and it was possible, she had heard, to step
from one to another.
Moonlight
shone down through the sky-hole, the only illumination in that dark place, a
blinding sliver on the edge of her drawn sword. Peace filled her, as it had
always done here. She wondered if this were a dream of her past, but knew, even
as she formulated the thought, that it was not so. There were small changes
from what she had known-weather stains on the floor and the walls, slight
shifts in the way the vessels stood upon the bare stone of the shadow-obscured
altar-which told her that she was truly there, and this did not surprise her.
When
she saw Sun Wolf, standing in the darkness near the door, she knew that he,
too, was truly there-that he had come there to find her...
She had
never cried as an adult. But when she returned to the barren darkness of the
chapel in the Stren Water Valley, tears were icy on her face, and exultation
and bitter grief warred in her heart.
I'm
sorry I did not know it in time, he had said. And yet, when he lay dying in
Mandrigyn, he had contrived to come to her.
So
near, she thought. Had I not stayed in Pergemis with Fawn...
But she
knew she could not have deserted the girl.
Grief
and defeat and exhaustion weakened her; long after her sobbing had ceased, the
tears ran down from her open eyes. She had followed him for years to war, and
they had saved each other's life a dozen times, almost casually. She must have
known, she told herself, that he was going to die sometime.
Was
this grief because she had always expected to be at his side when it happened?
Or because of this stupid, cursed, miserable condition that people called love,
which had broken her warrior's strength and given her nothing in return?
She
wondered what she would do, now that he was dead.
The
gray house in Pergemis came to her mind, with the booming of the sea and the
mewing of the wheeling gulls. Pel Farstep had said that Starhawk would always
have a home with them. Yet it would be shabby treatment of so good a man as Ram
to make him forever her second choice; and shabbier still to live in that
house, but not as his wife. Though the peace that she had felt there called to
her, she knew in her heart that their way-to count money, and raise children,
and wait for ships to come in-was not her way.
Wrynde?
It was peace of another sort, the rainy quiet of the winters and the mindless
violence and glory of campaign. Her friends among the mercenaries returned to
her mind, along with the bright joys of battle and war. But what was known
could never be unknown. One day, she thought, she might become a warrior again.
But having lived among her victims, she knew that she could never ride to the sacking
of a town.
The
altar lights flickered. As she walked through the darkness of the chapel to
trim them, she automatically made the sign of respect, although it was a holy
place of the Three, not of the One-the worship of the Triple God had always struck
her as rather sterile and businesslike; and in any case, she knew mat ritual
was for the benefit of the worshipper and not from - any need of the God's.
As she
stood in the deep silence beside the altar stone, it came to her that she could
remain here.
The
chapel's guardian had been chased away or killed by the mercenaries who had
camped here, but the building had been recently inhabited. Even in the depths
of the holy place, the crying of the wind came to her, and the sporadic
flurries of rain; it was close to dawn, the valley around the chapel an empty
darkness, inhabited only by winds, wolves, and deer. To have this life, this
peace... this place of meditation and solitude ... a place to find her own road
...
She
stepped down from the altar and crossed the darkness once again, to the wall
niche where Anyog slept, like a corpse already awaiting burial.
He,
too, had loved her, she thought. It seemed that Sun Wolf's father had been
right, after all; love brought nothing but grief and death, as magic brought
nothing but isolation.
But as
Anyog had found-and as she, to her grief, was finding-the lack of them brought
something infinitely worse. Why Mandrigyn'? she wondered suddenly. He had said
Mandrigyn, not Grimscarp. . .What was the Wolf doing in Mandrigyn?
Distantly,
the woman's face returned to her-the dark-haired woman she had seen so briefly
in Sun Wolf's tent the night he had shown her the letter. Sheera Galernas of
Mandrigyn ... a matter of interest to you . . .
She
stopped still in the darkness of the chapel, her mind suddenly leaping ahead.
Sweet Mother, he didn't change his mind and accept her proposal, after all, did
he?
Why
wouldn't he have told anyone? Why the illusion of Ari? He'd never have left the
troop to find its own way home. . .
How the
illusion of Ari, for that matter? Was there another wizard in it, after all? Or
a partial wizard, like Ariyog-one who had never passed through the Great Trial?
What
the hell was the Wolf doing in Mandrigyn?
From
the darkness, she heard Anyog whisper, "My dove..."
The
chapel was tiny; a step brought her to his side, and she bent down to take his
cold hands in hers. Anyog seemed in the last few days to have shrunk to a tiny
skeleton, wrapped in a suit of withered skin. His features were the features of
a skull; from dark hollows, black eyes stared up at her, clouded with fever and
fear. She whispered, "I'm here, Uncle," and the thin lips blew out a
pettish sigh.
"Leave
you ..." he murmured, "... face him alone."
She stroked
his clammy forehead. "It's ail right," she assured him quietly.
Outside,
a rainy morning was struggling with the wind-torn rags of the sky. Through the
door, she saw that much of the snow had melted; the long stretch of the valley
below the chapel looked dirty and sodden, like the earth in the first
forewhispers of spring.
Skeletal
little fingers tightened weakly over hers. "Never the courage," he
breathed, "to grasp..."
Her
love! she wondered. Or the Great Trial, the fearsome gate to power!
"What
was it?" she asked him and brushed his sunken cheek gently with her
scarred hand.
"Secret..,
from master to pupil... So few know now... No one remembers. Not Altiokis ...
no one."
"But
you must know it, if you feared it," she said, wondering, in the back of
her mind, if the knowledge could be used. If there were an untried wizard in
Mandrigyn who had had something to do with the Wolf's death...
He
shook his head feebly. "Only the mageborn survive it," he murmured.
"Others die... and even for those who survive. .."
"But
what was it?" she asked him.
His
breath leaked out in a little gasp, and the dark eyes closed.
Then he
whispered, "Anzid."
CHAPTER
- 16
"ALTIOKIS
IS COMING."
"To
Mandrigyn?"
Sheera
nodded. "Wilarne had it from Stirk the harbor master's wife this
morning." Above the frame of her starched lace collar, her jaw muscles
were settled into a hard line.
Sun
Wolf rested his shoulders against the cedar upright that supported the roof of
the potting room and asked, "Why? To replace Derroug?"
"Partly,"
she assented. "And partly to make a show of force against the rumors of
insurrection in the city. Wilarne said he was supposedly bringing troops."
She leaned against the doorpost and looked down at her hands, clasped in the
wine-colored folds of her skirts. Like most of the women, she had abandoned
wearing rings-a warrior's habit. In a quieter voice, she began, "If I
hadn't killed Derroug..."
"He'd
have had every guard in the palace down on us," Sun Wolf finished for her.
Still she did not meet his eyes. "Does Drypettis know?"
Sheera
shook her head, then glanced up, weary hardness in those brown eyes.
"No," she said. "In fact, I had the impression that his death
really didn't concern her one way or the other. It-it was almost as if she
didn't know about it."
The
Wolf frowned. "You think that might be the case?"
"No,"
Sheera said. She moved her shoulder against the doorframe; the light glimmered
on the swirls of opal and garnet that armored her bodice and festooned her
extravagant sleeves. "I went to see her the day after it happened, and she
did mention it. But-in passing. Almost for form's sake. The rest of our talk
that day was about-other things." Her mouth tightened a little at the
memory. "And I'm inclined to think you were right about her, after
all."
He was
silent for a moment, studying her face. Her eyelids were stained with weariness
and, he saw now, had begun to acquire those sharp, small creases that spoke of
character and responsibility, which men claimed ruined a woman's looks.
"What did she say?"
"Not
much to the point." She shrugged. "Why did I take your part over
hers? Why did I let you poison my mind against her? Were you my lover?"
"What
did you tell her?"
She
looked down again. "That it wasn't her affair."
"She'll
take that for a 'Yes.'"
"I
know." Sheera shook her head tiredly. "But she'd have taken 'No' for
a 'Yes.'"
"Very
likely," he agreed.
Sheera
occupied herself for a long moment in rearranging the folds of the lace that
cascaded from her cuffs over her hands. Sun Wolf noticed what Gilden had
pointed out to him only yesterday-that Sheera, along with most of the women in
the troop and scores of women who were unaware of its existence, had gone over
to what they called the "new mode" of dressing, without the stiff
boning and lacing-in and padded panniers. Though as elaborate and ostentatious
as the old style had been, it allowed for more comfort and quicker movement.
Privately, the Wolf thought it was more seductive as well.
She
raised her eyes to his again. "What do you think of her?" she asked.
He
considered the question for a moment before replying. "What do you think
of her?"
"I
don't know." She began to pace, her restless movement somehow feral, like
that of a caged lioness. "I've known her from the time we were girls in
school together. She said I was the only person who was ever good to her. Good
to her! All I ever did was extend her common courtesy and keep the other girls
from teasing her because she was proud and solitary and talked to
herself."
He
smiled. "In other words, you were her champion."
"I
suppose. One goes through a stage of being someone's champion-or at least, I
did. And I know one goes through a stage of being in love with another girl-oh,
perfectly innocently! It's more a-a domination of the personality. A 'pash,' we
called it-a 'rave.' And it seldom goes beyond that. But- I suppose you could
say Dru never outgrew her 'pash' for me." She shrugged again. "Dru
was such a precocious child, but socially she was so backward."
"She
still is a precocious child," the Wolf pointed out, "at the age of
twenty-five."
Sheera's
eyes flashed suddenly, and he saw in her again the head girl of the school,
beautiful and imperious at the age of ten, taking under her wing the
wealthiest, proudest, and most miserable child in her class. She had always, he
thought, been a champion, even as she was now. "It doesn't mean she would
'betray us," she said defiantly."
"No,"
he agreed. "But what it does mean is that there's no knowing which way
she'll go if she's pushed. With most things-men or women, horses, demons,
dogs-you know at least to some degree what they'll do if you push them-get
angry, break down, stab you in the back. Drypettis..." He shook his head.
"The bad thing is that we've given her a certain amount of power."
"You
wouldn't have," Sheera said glumly.
The
Wolf shrugged. "I wouldn't have given you power, either," he
returned. "I've been wrong before."
Absurdly,
color flushed up under that thin, browned skin. "Do you really mean
that?"
"Am
I in the habit of saying things I don't mean?" he inquired. The yellow fox
eyes glinted curiously in the gloom of the potting room. "You're a fine
warrior, Sheera, in spite of the fact that you're crazy; and if it weren't for
the sake of another warrior who's both finer and also crazier than you, I might
just be tempted to fall in love with you. Though the thought makes me
shudder," he added.
"Good
grief, I should hope so!" she said, genuinely appalled at the idea.
Sun
Wolf laughed. It was a horrible sound, like the scraping of rusty iron, and he
stopped, coughing. Sheera had the grace to look unhappy. The loss of his voice
was her doing, and she knew it.
"Listen,
Sheera," he said after a moment. "How long would it take the mining
superintendents' comfort brigade to find out how many men Altiokis is bringing
with him?"
Sheera
frowned. "I think Amber Eyes can get a report within a day. Why?"
"Because
it occurs to me that this may be our time to strike, while Altiokis and a lot
of his troops aren't in the Citadel at ail. Yirth says that the tunnels from
the mines up to the Citadel are guarded with illusion and magic-but if Yirth is
going to be the one to try and break the illusions, it would probably be better
if she did it when Altiokis was gone."
Sheera
was staring at him, her dark eyes blazing with sudden fire. "You
mean-strike now? Free the men now?" "When Altiokis comes to
Mandrigyn, yes. Can you?" She took a deep breath. "I-I don't know.
Yes. Yes, we can. Eo's made copies of the keys to most of the weapons stores
and gates in the mines... Amber Eyes can get word to Tarrin to be
ready..." She was shivering all over with suppressed excitement, her hands
clenched in the velvet of her skirts. "Lady Wrinshardin can get word to
the other Thanes," she continued after a moment. "They can be ready
to strike once we've freed the men."
"No,"
the Wolf said. "The Thanes are always ready to fight, anyway-we won't give
Altiokis the warning of a rumor. He's here to investigate the rumors Gilden and
Wilarne started the night they burned the Records Office. How soon will they
arrive?"
A
meeting was called that evening in the orangery, the heads of the conspiracy
arriving secretly, slipping across the canals and through the tunnels to
assemble in the vast cavern of the dim room. Amber Eyes came in with Denga Rey,
their constant company in the last few days since Amber Eyes had parted from
the Wolf explaining a lot of things about the gladiator's commitment to the
cause. Gilden and Wilarne arrived by separate routes-a different sort of
friendship, the Wolf thought; probably closer, for all its lack of a physical
or romantic element. Having waded through the morass of their jokes, verbal and
otherwise, he had developed a hearty sympathy for his half-pints' respective
husbands.
After a
few minutes of the swift crossfire conversation among those four, Sun Wolf saw
Yirth arrive, fading soundlessly from the shadows of the door and moving like a
cat to take her place in the darkness beyond the single candle's flicker. She'd
been there almost ten minutes before any of the others noticed her, listening,
her crooked mouth smiling; Denga Rey's expression when she finally did see her
was almost comical. But when they heard the sound of the door closing again,
and all eyes turned-as they always did-to watch Sheera stride into the circle
of the candle's light, Sun Wolf felt the witch's gaze, brief and speculative,
touch him.
Sheera
sat down among them, and her look traveled from face to face. "Well?"
"Eo
says the keys are ready," Gilden reported.
"Yirth?"
"I
have read and studied," the witch said softly, "everything that my
master left me on the subject of Altiokis and upon illusion. I am as prepared
as any can be who has not crossed through the Great Trial."
Sheera
smiled and reached across the table to clasp the long, heavy-knuckled hands.
"It's all we ask of you," she said. "Amber Eyes?"
"Cobra
just got back from the mines," the girl reported in her low, sweet voice.
"She says they expect a force of about fifteen hundred with Altiokis,
leaving about that many in the Citadel. Cobra says Fat Maali was going to see
if she could find Tarrin himself. She'll come to us directly here."
Sheera's
face was half in shadow, half edged in the primrose softness of the dim light.
Sun Wolf, watching her, saw the change in her eyes at the mention of Tarrin's
name, saw the champion, the war leader, the woman who would be Queen of
Mandrigyn, change suddenly for a fleeting second to a girl who heard her
lover's name. In spite of all she had done to him, his heart went out to her.
Like Starhawk, she was seeking, with single-minded brutality, to find and free
the man she loved.
Then
she was all business again. "Captain Sun Wolf?" she asked.
"Would you say the women are ready?"
"I'd
rather have another two weeks," he said, the harsh scrape of his voice
startling in the gloom. "But I think Altiokis' absence and fewer troops
make up for the lack. I have only one request of you, Sheera."
She
nodded. "I know," she said. "Yirth, I was going to ask
you-"
"No,"
Sun Wolf said. "It isn't that. I want to lead the troops myself."
The
silence was as echoing as the silence that followed thunder. The women were
staring at him, openmouthed with astonishment. In that silence, his eyes met
Sheera's, defying her to refuse to let him shove his nose in her right to
command.
"You
may be a decent commander," he said after a moment, "and you may even
be good, in about another five years. But I've trained these women and forged
them into a weapon; and I don't want that weapon being broken by inexperience.
If you're taking on Altiokis, you'll need a seasoned leader."
Sheera's
eyes were wide and dark in the candlelight; surprise and relief at having a
seasoned general and fighter like the Wolf struggled with resentment at being
supplanted and relegated to second place. After a moment of silence, she
breathed, "Would you? I mean-I thought-" The resentment faded and
vanished, and the Wolf smiled to himself.
"Well,
we both thought a lot of different things," he growled. "And if I'm
going to mess around with magic, anyway, I want to make sure the job gets done
right."
It was
a momentary stalemate whether the leadership of the resistance forces of
Mandrigyn would behave like grim and serious conspirators or like thrilled
schoolgirls; and regrettably, instinct won out. Wilarne flung her arms around
Sun Wolf's neck and planted an enthusiastic kiss on his mouth, followed in
quick succession by Gilden, Sheera, Amber Eyes, and a bone-crushing hug from
Denga Rey. Sun Wolf fought them off with a show of disgust. "I knew this
would happen when I went to work for a bunch of skirts," he snarled."
Gilden
retorted, "You hoped, you mean."
He was
conscious again of Yirth's watching him from the shadows, of the puzzlement in
the sea-green eyes. He glowered at her. "What's the matter? You never seen
a man change his mind before?"
"No,"
the witch admitted. "Men pride themselves on their inflexibility."
"I'll
get you for that," he promised and saw, for the first time, an answering
sparkle in the sardonic depths of her eyes.
Then
the sparkle vanished, like a candle doused by water; she swung around, even as
he raised his head, hearing the sound of footfalls on the wet gravel of the
garden path. A moment later the orangery's outer door opened, and the woman
they called Fat Maali came in.
Fat
Maali was clearly one of Amber Eyes' skags, the lowest type of camp follower,
of the class of women whom mercenaries referred to by a name as descriptive as
it was unrepeatable. She could have been thirty-five, but looked fifty,
immense, blowsy, and strong, with a hard face that had never been beautiful and
was now ravaged by poverty and debasement. Her eyes were limpid blue and
cheerful. Sun Wolf wouldn't have wanted to be drunk in her company, if she knew
he had any money on him.
She was
dressed in a filthy green gown with clearly nothing underneath. Brass-colored
curls tumbled down over her shoulders like a young girl's. The effect was
almost as horrible as the stench of her perfume.
She
said, "I've seen Tarrin."
Sheera
was on her feet, her face alive with eagerness. "And?"
"He
says don't do it."
Sheera
sagged back as if struck, shock and disbelief parting . her lips without words.
It was
Amber Eyes who spoke. "Did he say why?" she asked quietly.
Fat
Maali nodded, and her eyes were downcast. "Yes," she said softly.
"He says-and I-I agree with him-that if we attacked the Citadel while
Altiokis and his men were in the town, he's afraid of what would happen to the
people here. The ones who didn't have anything to do with any of it, who just
want to be let alone. He says the old bastard would massacre 'em, sure."
She looked up, her eyes troubled but unwavering. "And he would, Amber.
Y'know he would."
There
was silence, the fat woman's gaze going worriedly from Amber Eyes to Sheera,
and to the faces of the others in turn-Denga Rey, Gilden, Wilarne, Yirth, Sun Wolf.
It was Sun Wolf who broke the silence. "He's right," he said.
"M'lord
Tarrin-" Maali said hesitantly. "M'lord Tarrin said he wouldn't buy
his freedom or the city's al that cost. He said he'd die a slave first."
Two
days later, on orders from Acting Governor Stirk, the larger portion of the
population of Mandrigyn turned out along the Golden Street, which led into the
town from the tall land gate, to welcome Altiokis of Grimscarp, Wizard King of
the Tchard Mountains. Though the crowds that lined the way were thick-troopers
of the governor were going from house to house to make sure of it-they were
silent. Even those who had welcomed the soldiers who had put an end to the
succession troubles in the city ten months before in Altiokis' name no longer
cheered.
In the
thick of the crowd, dressed in his patched brown gardening things, with Gilden
and Wilarne brightly veiled and giggling on either arm, Sun Wolf watched the
Wizard King ride in.
"He
never came after Iron Pass," Gilden whispered, her calmly businesslike
tone belying the caressing way she rubbed her cheek on his arm. "The
captain of his mercenaries-the Dark Eagle, his name is-led his troops into the
city, with Derroug and Stirk and some of the other chiefs of the council who'd
been exiled by Tarrin. Amber Eyes tells me..."
A harsh
blare of trumpets rose over the deeper drone of the battle horns, cutting off
her words. The Wolf raised his head, the sounds prickling his spine. Rolling
like thunder down the wide, tree-lined street, the deep boom of the kettledrums
was picked up and flung from wall to marble-fronted wall. Sun Wolf and the
girls had taken their positions in the last straight reach of the Golden
Street, where it ran down to the Great Landing; beyond the crowds, the gilding of
the ceremonial barge flashed in the wan sunlight. Across the way, on a balcony
draped with pennons, one of Amber Eyes' girls sat combing her hair, preparing
to tally the number of troops as they passed.
"There,"
Wilarne whispered.
Around
the comer of the lane they appeared, a mass of black-mailed bodies, their
measured tread lost in the sonorous crash of the drums. Antlike heads, faceless
behind slit-eyed helmets, stared out straight ahead. Sun Wolf wondered, with a
prickle of loathing, whether the eye slits were functional or merely to keep
the populace from suspecting. Like the nuuwa in the palace gardens, these
soldiers marched unarmed.
"Aitiokis'
private troops," Wilarne breathed, under cover of the Wolf's drawing her
closer to him as if to protect her. Though his ancestors help the man who
thought this sloe-eyed scrap of primordial mayhem needed protection!
"That's Gilgath at their head, riding the black horse. He's the Captain of
Grimscarp, Commander of Aitiokis Citadel."
The
Wolf considered the inhuman, mailed bulk with narrowed eyes. Like his men,
Gilgath was masked and hidden by his armor. Men at his sides led beasts on
chains-huge, strange beasts, like slumped dog-apes with chisel teeth and mad,
stupid eyes-ugies, Lady Wrinshardin had called them.
More of
them walked with the black-mailed guards around the Wizard King's ebony litter.
The people in the street had fallen utterly silent; the only sounds now were
the blows of the drums, steady and inescapable as doom.
At the
sight of the litter, the Wolf felt his flesh crawl. It was borne by two black
horses, their eyes masked with silver, led by the black-armored guards. Pillars
of twisted ebony, whose capitals flashed with opal and nacre, supported
dead-black curtains; where the curtains had been drawn back, the interior of
the litter was masked by heavy lattices of carven Blackwood. Sun Wolf, who
stood taller than anyone around him in that chiefly female crowd, craned his
neck, but could see nothing of the wizard within, except for a still, dark
shadow, unmoving against the blackness of the cushions.
And
yet, at the sight of it, something stirred in Sun Wolf, anger and an emotion
deeper than anger; revulsion and an implacable hate. The impact of his feelings
startled him, with the awareness that he looked upon pollution. And behind that
came the horrible and revolting certainty that he had sometimes felt in the
haunts of the marsh demons of the North-the certainty that he looked upon that
which was not entirely human.
This
was not a demon, he knew, edging his way forward through the crowd to follow
the litter with his eyes. But something ...
He
pushed ahead to the front edge of the packed throng as the litter descended to
the landing stage and the waiting barge. No snake, no spider, no foul and
creeping thing had ever affected him with such cold loathing, and he struggled
for a glimpse of the thing that would emerge. Distance and the angle confused
his line of sight; Goliath, the Commander of the Citadel, was deploying his
soldiers across the covered tunnel of the Spired Bridge, to line the canal
route toward the governor's palace. Behind him, other marching footsteps echoed
in the narrow street as the rest of Aitiokis' force approached.
Then
the Wolf heard a single deep voice call out, "Arrest that man."
Turning, he found himself staring up into the face of the Dark Eagle, captain
of Aitiokis' mercenary forces.
The
Eagle hadn't changed since they'd campaigned together in the East. The sardonic
blue eyes still held their expression of bitter amusement as Sun Wolf turned to
flee.
He
found himself hemmed in by the civilians at his back and the City Troops that
were running toward him from all sides. Gilden and Wilarne had melted away into
the crowd, already heading in opposite directions to get the news to Sheera.
The Eagle spurred his black mount forward toward him, bowmen clustering around
his stirrups-if the Wolf remembered the Dark Eagle's specialties, there wasn't
much chance they'd miss. Civilians were crowding away from him, panic-stricken.
Someone grabbed his arm from behind and shoved a sword Made against his ribs;
he ducked and feinted. An arrow shaft burned his shoulder as it buried itself
in the body of the man behind him.
The
Wolf grabbed the sword from the slacking grip and spun to meet his would-be
captors, throwing another one of them into the path of the second arrow and
darting for the mouth of the nearest alley. A man in his way cut at him with a
halberd; he parried, slashed along the shaft, and jumped over the falling
weapon. The crowd milled and scattered before him. The Eagle's mercenaries and
the City Troops broke ranks to pursue.
He was
closed in, he saw He cut another man's face open and turned to strike a third.
Though battle concentrated his mind, he was somehow peripherally aware of
movement near the landing, of a stirring in the black curtains...
Something,
he did not know what, like a smoky and confusing cloud, struck at his face, and
he turned to slash at it. His sword cleaved it like air, haloed in a
splattering of red lightning. In the last second in which he realized that it
was merely an illusion sent to break his concentration, something hit him on
the back of the head, and darkness closed around him.
CHAPTER
17
"CAPTAIN
SUN WOLF."
The
voice that penetrated the blackness of his mind seemed to come from a great
distance away. It was the Dark Eagle's, he recognized, obscured by the buzzing
roar that filled his skull.
"And
in such clothes, too. Open your eyes, you barbarian; I know you can hear
me."
The
Wolf pried one grit-filled eye open and squinted against the burning glare of
yellow light.
"They
say when you hire out your sword, you meet acquaintances in all comers of the
world," the Eagle went on, "but I hardly expected to see an old
friend here."
Sun
Wolf blinked painfully. The light that had blinded him a moment ago resolved
itself into the smoldering fireball at the end of a torch stuck in a greasy
iron wall sconce, just behind the Dark Eagle's shoulder. He became slowly aware
of the burning ache in his arms; when he tried to move them, he found that they
were, in fact, supporting the weight of his limp body. The short chain that
joined his wrists had been thrown over a hook a few feet above his head. He was
hanging with his back to the stone wall of a room which he guessed was
underground-under what was left of the Records Office, presumably-and the
memory of another small underground room and the drifting sparkle of unknown
fire on the air brought sweat to his stubbled face. He got his feet under him
and stood, glaring at the mercenary chief, who was, for the moment, the only
other man in the room.
"The
least you could have done was keep your flapping mouth shut," he growled
hoarsely.
The
Dark Eagle frowned. He was a stocky man of medium height, his black hair
falling forward over his bright eyes. "Lost your tongue?"
"A
lady poisoned me, and I lost my voice over it," the Wolf answered quite
truthfully, hearing, as he said the words, the metallic rasp of the sound.
The
flicker of concern that had glimmered behind the blue eyes fled. The mercenary
chief laughed, "I hope you had your revenge. The reason I took you in is
that I'm paid to keep order in Altiokis' domains. Why ever you've decided to
winter in this lovely town, I'd have to clean up the mess sooner or later.
Where are your men?"
"At
Wrynde."
"I
didn't mean your troops, I mean the men you're leading. And believe me, Wolf,
I'm not going to accept that you're in this town to no purpose. What men are
you at the head of?"
Sun
Wolf sighed, leaning his head back against the rough rock of the wall behind
him. "None," he said. "No one."
"You
put up one hell of a fight for a man with a clear conscience."
"You
wouldn't know a clear conscience if you found one in your bed. What in the name
of all your sniveling ancestors are you doing serving that demon?"
The
Dark Eagle frowned. "Demon?"
"Whatever
was in that litter, it wasn't human. I'll take oath on that."
The
blue eyes narrowed to slits. "You always could spot them, couldn't you?
But Altiokis is no demon. I've seen him summon demons and I've seen him handle
the things they dread to protect himself against them."
"He's
no demon, but-I don't know what he is."
A white
grin split the swarthy countenance, and the uneasy look vanished. "He's
the greatest wizard of the world-and a man of uncommon appetites to boot."
The smile faded. "Why do you say he isn't human?"
"Because
he isn't, dammit! Can't you tell it? Can't you feel it?"
The
blue eyes hardened. "I think we hit you harder than we intended, my
friend," the Eagle said. "Or maybe your light-skirts' poison addled
your never-very-stout brains. Altiokis is a man-and a man who can afford to pay
damned well to keep trouble out of his lands. As you shall see."
He
moved toward the cell door, Uien paused, his hand on the handle. In a quieter
voice, he said, "I'd advise you to tell him whatever you're in,
Wolf."
He
opened the door and stepped aside.
Altiokis
entered.
Two
impressions, spiritual and physical, seemed to overlap for a second in Sun
Wolf's brain.
The
spiritual was the impression of a half-rotted tree, leprous with age, its
cancered bark still standing but enclosing another entity, a black and lucid fire
that showed through the cracks.
The
physical was the sight of a man of medium height, impossibly obese from eating
rich foods, with bad skin, the suspicion of a shadow of stubble on his pouchy
jaw, and too many rings embedded in the flesh of his fat fingers. Contact with
merchants' wives had sharpened Sun Wolf's appreciation of the value of cloth;
the black velvet that formed the underpinning of the jewel-beaded embroidery of
the immense doublet sold for fifty silver crowns a yard. The jeweled belts that
supported the overhanging rolls of fat would have purchased cities.
In the
back of his mind, the Wolf heard Lady Wrinshardin's acid voice saying, "He
is vulgar."
And he
knew, watching the Dark Eagle's face and the faces of the gaunt harbor master,
Stirk, and of Drypettis, who stood in the shadows of the corridor behind him,
that the physical being was all anyone ever saw.
He
wanted to scream at them, "Don't you see it? Don't you understand what he
is?" But he did not understand himself.
Sunk m
their pouches of fat, the cold little eyes gleamed with smug amusement. The
Wizard King stepped forward, raising his staff. Like the pillars of his titter,
it was carved of ebony in twisting patterns, its ornate tip flickering with the
ghostly gleam of opal and abalone. The touch of it on Sun Wolf's neck was like
ice and fire, a searing dart of pain, and he flinched from it with a stifled
cry.
A
satisfied little smile decorated the puffy lips.
"So
you're the man who thought he could go against me?"
Sun
Wolf said nothing. After the ordeal of the anzid, pain had changed its meaning
for him, but the shock of being touched by that staff had taken his breath
away. He was aware of Drypettis, standing in the doorway, like some monstrous
orchid in her orange gown and veils; he could see her huge brown eyes watching
him with an unreadable mixture of coldness and hatred and spite. He wondered if
she had thought to tell Sheera where he was being held and what good it would
do anyone if she had.
Or was
she waiting to see if he broke, to slip away and warn the others when he did?
Aitiokis'
voice went on. "Who hired you, Captain?"
The
Wolf swallowed and shook his head. "He never told me his name," he
whispered. "He said he'd pay me to spy out the city, the gates, and the
canals and to lay out a siege plan..."
"Probably
one of the Thanes." Altiokis yawned. "They're always stirring up
trouble-and it's time they were put down."
"Where
did he meet you, this man?" the Dark Eagle asked.
In a
stifled voice, the Wolf replied, "In the Peninsula, after the siege of
Melplith. He arranged a meeting with me, three weeks from now, in East Shore. !
was to come here, which I did, overland, and lay out my plans..."
"Yes,
yes," Altiokis said in a bored voice. "But who was he"
"I
tell you, I don't know. "The Wolf glanced from the Eagle to Aitiokis and
back again, sensing that the Wizard King didn't really much care who had hired
him. Was he that confident of his own powers and of the magic that protected
the Citadel? Or had he, as a result of his endless life, merely reached the
point of bored carelessness with everything?
"The
man chose an expensive spy," the Dark Eagle commented thoughtfully.
"The world abounds in cheaper ones."
The
Wolf flashed him what he hoped was an angry dagger of a glance. "Would you
hire a cheap one?"
Then he
flinched in agony from the glowing tip of the Wizard King's staff.
"Remember
to whom you're talking, barbarian," Altiokis said, with a kind of quiet
relish. He brought the staff toward Sun Wolf's face, the white metal of its tip
seeming to glow with an unholy luminescence. The Wolf drew back from it,
feeling the sweat that poured down his cheeks, staring as if hypnotized at the
star-flash of the opals and at the twined jaws of the inlaid serpents that held
them. Something that was not heat seemed to smoke from the jeweled tip, like a
cold promise of unbearable pain.
"I
am Altiokis," the Wizard King said softly. "No one has the temerity
to speak thus to my servants."
The
burning jewels were within a half inch of the Wolf's eyes when he whispered,
"I'm sorry, my lord."
Past
the opals, he saw the little smirk appear and wrenched his head aside as the
staff touched him again. A cry of pain escaped him, and he felt the flesh along
his cheekbone sear and curl, the shock of it piercing his whole body like a
sword.
Savoringly,
Altiokis said, "I could chip you away, piece by piece, until you begged
for the chance to tell what you know and the mercy of a cut throat. I may do it
yet, merely to amuse myself."
Sun
Wolf made no reply to this. For a time, speech was beyond him. Sickened with
the pain, he hung from the chain above his head, trying to regather his
thoughts, telling himself that, no matter how bad it was, the anzid had been
far worse. But beyond that, he was conscious of both anger and outrage that a
man with powers of the Wizard King should use them so, like a cruel child
pulling the wings from a fly. He had met enough men in his time who were amused
by pain. He had not expected a man who had mastered the hard disciplines of
wizardry to be one of them.
"Governor
Stirk ..." Altiokis said, and Stirk looked up, the surprised gratification
on his face reminding Sun Wolf of a dog that hoped for a pat. The tall harbor
master came forward, almost wagging his tail. In the doorway, Drypettis
stiffened with outraged indignation. Stirk actually went down on his knees and
kissed the Wizard King's jewel-crusted shoe. Altiokis almost purred.
"Did
the interrogation chamber survive the fire?" the wizard asked.
The new
governor's face fell. "Alas, no, my lord," he said, rising and
unobtrusively dusting his knees. "The upper level of the prisons was
gutted by the fire the night Governor Derroug was murdered."
My
ancestors, the Wolf thought, through the raw anguish that seemed to be pouring
into his flesh from the open burn on his face, are looking out for me, after
all.
There
was a pout in the fruity voice. "Then he shall go with me to the Citadel
in the morning. When I depart. Governor Stirk, I shall leave a force of men
here under the command of General Dark Eagle, to be billeted in the houses of
citizens as you choose. Do not think that in the event of these disruptions,
the annual tribute from this city will be excused. Moreover, I feel sure that
you are moved to make some suitable show of gratitude for your elevation to
your new position."
Stirk
almost fell over himself agreeing; Sun Wolf wondered what Aitiokis could
possibly want with more wealth.
"As
for this-arrogant barbarian..." The butt end of the staff licked out and
cracked sharply on the side of Sun Wolf's knee. Beside the agony of his seared
face, he hardly noticed. "I scarcely feel that he is telling us all the
truth; but in time, we shall learn from him the names of the men
ill-intentioned enough to hire such a person to spy out my city. From my
Citadel, I can see all. No army can approach without my knowledge. But it will
save trouble to know whom to punish."
The
words were rhetorical, and Sun Wolf knew it. Altiokis didn't much care whom he
punished or why; to a man a hundred and fifty years old and of no great mental
resources to begin with, the infliction of pain was one of few amusements left.
Sun Wolf's eyes followed the fat wizard as he waddled toward the door, with
Stirk bowing along at his heels. The Dark Eagle, his face a smooth and cynical
blank, brought up the rear.
Did
others wonder about this, tool the Wolf asked himself, watching them mount the
few steps to the hall. How could something that trivial, that spiteful and
vicious, have acquired this kind of power?
Didn't
any of them see?
"One
more thing."
Altiokis
turned back, the torchlight from the hall outside streaming over his jewels
like a spent wave over a barnacle-encrusted hull. He snapped his fingers. Past
him, the Wolf saw the guards in the hallway startle, heard Drypettis give a
sharp squeak of alarm.
Two
nuuwa entered the cell.
Sun
Wolf felt his heart stop, then pound to life with a surge of terror that momentarily
drowned out all things else. He cast one quick glance at the hook that held his
chained hands helpless above his head, calculating whether he could get free
before they began ripping at his flesh, then stared back at them, knowing he
was trapped. Aitiokis' smile broadened with delight.
"You
like my friends, eh?" he asked.
Both
waggling heads turned toward Sun Wolf, as if they could see him or smell the
blood in his veins. Drool glistened on the misshapen chins, and they champed
their impossibly grown teeth and fidgeted as the wizard laid companionable
hands on the sloped backs. Their uniforms-foul, torn, and crawling with
lice-were so filthy the Wolf wondered how anyone could bring himself to touch
even those, let alone the mindless, unclean flesh beneath.
"You'll
be quite safe." Altiokis smiled. "As long as you make no attempt to
get away, they shall curb their appetites and be content with-ah-contemplation.
But believe me, should you try to get away, I'm sure they could chew off quite
large portions of you before your screams brought the guards- if any guards
would be willing to try to separate them from their victim."
That
pleased smile widened still more at the thought, and the most powerful wizard
in the world paused thoughtfully to excavate a nostril with his jeweled finger.
He wiped it fastidiously on Stirk's sleeve. Stirk gave a fatuous smile.
"I
hope I shall see you in the morning."
The
door shut behind him.
For a
long time Sun Wolf stood, his twisted shoulders racked and aching from the drag
of his body against the chain, his mind chasing itself blindly from thought to
thought.
The
most powerful wizard in the world! His stomach turned at the thought of that
power and that waste.
But the
power came from nothing within Altiokis himself. He was a man half rotted from
the inside by something else; the power was not of his own finding. That first,
fleeting impression was all the Wolf had to go on; afterward, he had seen the
wizard only as others saw him-obese, omnipotent, and terrifying. Sun Wolf felt
as he had in his childhood, frantically insisting to his father and to the
other men of the tribe that he could see the demons whose voices taunted them
from the marsh mists and being sharply told to shut up and follow. He had been
right then, he knew. And he knew now that there was something in Altiokis that
was neither human nor clean nor sane.
Tomorrow
he would be taken up to the Citadel. He'd seen enough torture to harbor no
illusions about his own abilities to withstand it for any protracted period of
time. Altiokis was right-the threat of being given anzid again, or of being put
into a room with whatever it was that could transform a man into a nuuwa, would
have him selling off all these women he had come to be so fond of without a
moment's hesitation.
Except,
he thought, that it probably would not save him, anyway. Even upon short
acquaintance, he knew Altiokis too well for that.
His
eyes returned to the nuuwa. Altiokis had left a torch, burning in its bracket
on the other side of the room. The nuuwa wore the uniforms of Altiokis' troops,
but they were already ragged and fouled, for the creatures were too brainless
to change them or even unsnag them if they caught on something. It occurred
obliquely to the Wolf, in the one corner of his mind not occupied by horror,
that what undoubtedly became of nuuwa, if they weren't killed, was that they
simply rotted away from self-neglect. One of these already had what looked like
a badly festered gash on its leg, visible through the torn and soiled breeches.
Now
that he had seen them made from men, the Wolf could tell that one of these was
more recent than the other-the one eye seared out and scarred over, the other
rotted out from within and already scarring. The second nuuwa was older, the
bones of the face changed and deformed, the shoulders more slumped. It was
impossible to tell through which eye the flame-creature had bored.
They
stood unmoving, watching him from eyeless holes, their reek filling the cell.
Sometimes one of them would shift from foot to foot, but neither stirred itself
to brush away the roaches that crawled over its feet in the straw. Once Sun
Wolf looked cautiously over his head at the chain and hook again, and they grew
restless, snuffling and fidgeting.
He gave
up the attempt.
His
mind returned to that windowed cell in the burned-out wing of the prison. The
flake of flame, the young slave screaming as he clutched his bleeding eye...
Altogether it had taken nearly a minute, the Wolf calculated, between the time
the thing had got the boy and the time it had bored through to the brain. Had
he known what would happen to him in those endless, racking seconds? Or had the
pain been too great?
The
Wolf shuddered with the memory of it. In his heart, he already knew what was
intended for him, whether he revealed any plans or not.
The
anzid had changed his tolerance for pain, which was already higher than most
men's, but it had given him a hearty appreciation of how bad pain could get.
And even with the blessing of ignorance, without the knowledge that one's
scooped-out husk would be ruled by Altiokis' foul will, the sixty seconds or so
that it took for the thing-fire, insect, or whatever-to bore its way inward
would be like the distilled essence of the deepest Hells.
He
glanced at the nuuwa and then back up at the chains.
It
would be possible, he saw now, to stretch his body and arms enough to lift the
manacles up over the top of the hook that held them. The hook was positioned
for a slightly shorter man-few of the men of Mandrigyn topped six feet-and he
thought that he could manage with a struggle. But it would take a short while;
in the meantime, his body would hang exposed and helpless before those mindless
things drooling in their comer.
He wondered
how far his own abilities of nonvisibility went.
He'd
experimented with them since the night he'd first called them into use on the
roof of the palace kitchens, the night he and the women had rescued Tisa. With
a little practice, he had found that he could, within certain limits, avoid the
eyes of someone entering a fairly small and well-lighted room, provided he did
nothing to call attention to himself. The nuuwa had no eyes-it stood to reason
that they saw with their minds. But if that were the case, his nonvisibility
should work better on them, since it was, in fact, avoidance of the attention.
It
might be worth a try.
In any
case, he was aware that, objectively, in the long run, he would not be worse
off. Being devoured alive by them would be a messy and hideous way to die, but
he wondered whether it would be worse than becoming a nuuwa himself.
It was
a choice he had no desire to put to the test.
Hesitantly,
he groped his mind out toward theirs, shifting their attention past him, toward
the stones of the wall and the crawling straw at his feet, letting them look
through him, around him, turning that intentness toward trivial things, and
making them forget that he was there. He found himself sweating with the effort
of it, trickles of moisture running down his aching arms and down his face and
his body. He made himself relax into the effort, becoming less and less
important in their minds against their general awareness of the cell and
occupying their attention, their senses, with the crackle of insect feet in the
straw, the smell of the torch smoke...
He
braced his body, then began to reach upward, rising on his toes and stretching
his stiff back and shoulders toward the iron hook.
The
nuuwa stared stolidly at the walls to either side of him.
Delicately,
he hooked the tips of his half-numbed fingers under the short links that joined
the metal bracelets. He strained to lift them toward the tip of the hook,
loosening his back muscles against the shooting fire of cramps that raced down
them from their long inactivity. The sweat burned in the raw flesh of his
opened cheek, and his arms trembled at the effort of movement. The tip of the
hook seemed impossibly high. One of the nuuwa belched, the sound sharp as an
explosion in the silent room; half hypnotized by the effort of concentration,
the Wolf never took his mind from the illusion of nonvisibility that he held
with his whole attention, despite the physical strain that occupied his limbs.
He had been trapped once by having his concentration broken. Even if they tore
him to pieces, he would not do so again.
The
metal slipped over metal. The slacking of the hook's support was abrupt, as the
links slid over it. The Wolf felt as if all the weight of his body had dropped
suddenly upon his exhausted muscles. He could have collapsed in a thankful heap
on the fetid straw, but he forced himself to remain upright, lowering his arms
slowly to his sides, shaking all over with the effort. The separate agonies of
the day were swallowed in an all-encompassing wave of anguishing cramps in arms
and back.
The
nuuwa continued to look at the wall.
As soon
as he was satisfied that his legs would support him, Sun Wolf took a cautious
step forward.
There
was no reaction.
His
mind held their attention at bay, but the concentration required most of his
strength, and he knew he could not keep it up for long. He took another step
and another, without either of them appearing to notice... No mean feat, he
thought in that clear cynical corner of his mind, to keep a nuuwa from going
after ambulatory food.
The
door was bolted with an iron dead bolt, not merely a wooden drop that could be
lifted with a card. He glanced over his shoulder at the nuuwa, the nearest of
which stood, a stinking lump of flesh, less than six feet from him.
He
decided to risk it.
"Dark
Eagle!" he yelled, lifting his raw voice to as carrying a pitch as he
could manage. "Stirk! I'll tell you what you want to know! Just keep them
off me!"
His
concentration pressed against the nuuwa, a sheer physical effort, like that of
trying to hold up a falling wall. The nuuwa shifted, scuffling around the cell,
arms swinging, lolling heads wagging, as if seeking for what they could not
find. Rot your eyes, you poxy corridor guard, he thought, don't you want to be
the first with the news that your prisoner's broken?
He
yelled again. "I'll tell you anything! Just get me out of here! I'll tell
you what you want!"
Running
footsteps sounded in the corridor. One man, he guessed from the sound,
hesitating outside the door. Open it, you cowardly bastard! the Wolf demanded
silently. Don't call your chief...
The
bolt shot back.
Sun
Wolf came slamming out of the cell, throwing his full weight on the door,
heedless of any weapon the man might have had. The guard's drawn short sword
jammed in the wood of the door and stuck; the man had his mouth open, too
startled to scream, showing a wide expanse of dirty teeth. Sun Wolf grabbed him
by the neck and hurled him bodily into the arms of the advancing nuuwa.
He sent
the door crashing shut and shot the bolt against the man's screams, pulled the
sword free, and ran up the empty corridor as if heading for the half-closed
doors of Hell.
CHAPTER
- 18 -
"AND
YOU TURNED THEIR MINDS ASIDE?"
Sun
Wolf nodded. Yirth's drugs could ease pain without dulling the mind, but the
release of concentration acted almost like a drug in itself. Lying in the
fading light of her tiny whitewashed attic room, he felt as exhausted as he did
after battle. The smell of the place, of the drying herbs that festooned the
low rafters in strings, filled him with a curious sense of peace, and he
watched her moving around, gaunt and powerful, and wondered how he had ever
thought of her as ugly. Stern and strong in her power, yes. But the marring
birthmark no longer drew his eyes from the rest of her face, and he saw her now
as a harsh-faced woman a few years older than he, whose life had been, in its
way, as strenuous as his own.
As if
she felt his thoughts, she turned back to him. "How did you do this
thing?" she asked.
"I
don't know," he replied wearily. "It was the anzid, I think." He
saw her sudden frown and realized it wasn't much of an explanation.
"I
think the anzid did something to me-besides half killing me, that is. Since I
was brought back, I've been able to see in the dark, and I've had this-this
ability to avoid people's sight. I've always been good at it, but now it's-it's
uncanny. I used it the first time when we rescued Tisa, and I've been
practicing since then. I used to-"
She
held up her hand against his words. "No," she said. "Let me
think."
She
turned from him, pacing to the narrow window that looked out over the wet, red
roofs of Mandrigyn. For a long moment she stood, her dark head bent, the gray
light gleaming in the pewter streaks that frosted her hair. Outside, the plop
and splash of a gondola's pole could be heard in the canal, and the light
tapping of hooves over the bridge nearby. Yirth's cat, curled at the foot of
Sun Wolf's narrow cot, woke, stretched, and sprang soundlessly to the floor.
Then
Yirth whispered, "Dear Mother." She looked back at him. "Tell me
about the night you spent in the pit," she said.
He
returned her gaze in silence, unwilling to share the extent of grief and pain
and humiliation. Only one person knew the whole and, if she were even still
alive, he did not know where she was now. At length he said, "Sheera had
her victory over me. Isn't that enough?"
"Don't
be a fool," the witch said coldly. "There was no anzid left in your
system when she led us back to you."
He
stared at her, not comprehending.
"Did
you have visions?"
He
nodded mutely, his body shaken with a fit of shivering at the memory of those
dreams of power and despair.
She put
her hands to her temples, the thick, streaky hair springing over and through
her fingers, like water through a sieve of bone. "Dear Mother," she
murmured again.
Her
voice sounded hollow, half stunned. "I found it among her things when she
was killed," she said, as if to herself. "Chilisirdin-my master. I
didn't think ... in our business there are always poisons. We deal in
them-poisons, philters, abortifacients. Sometimes a death is the only answer. I
never thought anything else of it."
"What
are you talking about?" he whispered, though it was coming to him, in a
kind of unveiling of horror, what she meant.
Her
face, in the deepening shadows, seemed suddenly very young, its stony
self-possession stripped away by fear and hope. "Tell me, Captain-why did
you become a warrior and not a shaman among your people?"
Sun
Wolf stared at her for as long as it would take to count to a hundred, stunned
at the truth of her question, struck as he had been during the tortured visions
in the pit, with the memory of his black and icy childhood and of all those
things of beauty and power that he had set aside in the face of his father's
bleak mockery. In a voice very unlike his own, he stammered, "The old
shaman died-long before I was born. The one we had was a charlatan, a fake. My
father..." He was silent, unable to go on.
For a
time neither spoke.
Then he
said, "No." He made a movement, as if thrusting from him the thought
that he could have what he had known from his earliest childhood was his
birthright. "I'm no wizard."
"What
are you, then?" she demanded harshly. "If you hadn't been born with
the Power, the anzid would have killed you. I was surprised that it didn't, but
I thought it was because you were tough, were strong. It never crossed my mind
otherwise, even though my master had told me that the Great Trial would kill
any who were not mageborn to begin with."
Cold
and irrational terror rose in him. His mouth dry, he whispered, "I'm no
wizard. I'm a warrior. My business is war. I stay out of that stuff. My life is
war. Starhawk ..." He paused, uncertain what he had meant to say about
Starhawk. "I can't change at my age."
"You
are changed," Yirth said bitterly. "Like it or not."
"But
I don't know any magic!" he protested.
"Then
you had best learn," she rasped, an edge of impatience stinging into her
voice. "For believe me, Altiokis will come to know that there is another
proven wizard in the world, another who has passed through the Great Trial.
Most of us undergo the training first, and the Trial when we have the strength
to endure it. You had the strength-either from your training as a warrior or
because the magic you were born with is strong, stronger than any I have heard
tell of. But without training in the ways of it, you are helpless to fight the
Wizard King,"
Sun
Wolf lay back on the cot. The smart of his arms and shoulders and the raw
places on his wrists where the spancel had been removed bitterly reinforced his
memory of the Wizard King. "He'll follow me wherever I go, won't he?"
he asked -quietly.
"Probably,"
Yirth answered. "As he hounded my master Chilisirdin to her death."
The
Wolf turned his eyes toward her in the dark. The daylight had faded from the
attic, but among themselves, wizards had no need of light. "I'm
sorry," he said. "I was just given for free what you would have sold
everything you owned to possess; and here I am complaining because I don't want
it. But I was raised to steer very clear of magic, and I-I'm afraid of the Power."
"You
should be," she snapped. In a quieter voice, she went on. "It is
unheard of for an untrained mage to pass through the Great Trial. You must
leave Altiokis' domains, and quickly; but if you take my advice, you must seek
out another wizard as fast as you can. You do not know the extent of your
powers; without the teaching and the discipline of wizardry, you are as
dangerous as a mad dog."
Sun
Wolf chuckled softly in the darkness. "I know. I've seen it a thousand
times in my own business. When a boy comes to me to be trained in arms, he's
the most dangerous between the fourth month and the twelfth. That's when he's
learned the physical power, but not the spiritual control-and he hasn't quite
grasped the fact that there's anyone alive who can beat him. That's the age
when someone-myself or Star-awk or Anas to trounce the daylights out of him, to
keep him from picking fights with everyone else in the troop. If a boy survives
the first year, he has the discipline and the brains to be a soldier."
He
heard her small, faint sniff, which he rightly interpreted as laughter.
"And to think I once despised you for being a soldier," she said.
"I will teach you what I can while you are hidden here, until we can get
you out of the city. But you must find a true wizard-one who has had the
fullness of his power for many years and who understands in truth what I know
only in theory."
"I
would do that in any case," Sun Wolf said quietly. "I know dial my
days as a warrior are done."
Clear
and sharp, the vision returned to him of his own hands seared to the bone from
grasping the molten fire of his dreams. It hurt to let the old life go, to
release what he had striven for and taken pride in since he was a boy old
enough to wield a child's sword. It left him with a stricken feeling of
emptiness, as if with the sword he had given up an arm as well. Ari would take
the troop and the school at Wrynde. Starhawk...
He
looked up. "There'll be a woman coming here," he said, knowing that
with the Hawk's stubbornness, even his vision manifesting itself to her in a
dream and telling her to give up the search would not be sufficient to turn her
aside. Stubborn female! he added to himself. "She's looking for me. Tell
her..."
Tell
her what? That he'd gone on, searching for a wizard in a world long bereft of
such things? That she should follow him once again?
"Tell
her to meet me in Wrynde, before the summer's end.
Tell
her I swear that I will come to her there." He paused, picturing her with
sharp and painful clarity in the quiet of the stone garden below the school. He
had not walked its paths in summer for nearly twenty years. "Tell her what
became of me," he added quietly.
The
deformed mouth quirked suddenly into a wry smile, showing teeth white as snow
in the gloom. "A long way to travel," she remarked. "Shall I
teach you how to find this woman yourself?"
He saw
what must have been his own expression reflected in the one of deepening
amusement in her eyes and grinned ruefully. "If I'm going to go back to
being a schoolboy at my age," he said, "I'm certainly developing the
reactions of one."
"That,
Captain, is only because you have never before this particularly cared where
anyone else was, or if that person lived or died," Yirth replied calmly.
"The relationships of the body are the business of women like Amber
Eyes-the relationships of the heart are mine. I have made as many love philters
as I have made poisons and abortifacients. They all tell me why. They are
driven to tell; I do not ask. There is nothing that I have not heard.
"And
do you know, Captain, that I have heard men sneer at-what do they call? A
respectable man of full age-suddenly discovering what it is to love another
person. Doubtless you yourself know what they say."
Sun
Wolf had the grace to blush.
"But
if a man who has been crippled from childhood is healed at the age of forty,
will he not jump and dance and turn cartwheels like a young boy, scorning the
dignity of his years? The mockers are those who themselves are still crippled.
Think nothing of it." She shook back the thick mane of hair from her
shoulders, her face framed in it like the white blur of an asymmetrical skull
in the gloom. "Will you sleep?"
He
hesitated. "If you're tired, yes," he said. "If you're willing,
I'd rather spend the night learning whatever you have to teach me about my new
trade."
And
Yirth laughed, a faint, dry, little sound that Sun Wolf reflected he was
probably the first member of the male sex to have heard. "What I have to
teach is meager enough," she said. "I have the learning, but my
powers are very small."
"Will
they increase when you yourself pass through the Trial?"
She
hesitated, the indecision in her green eyes, the fear robbing her of her years
of experience, making her look again like a thin, bitter, ugly young girl-like
the duckling in that rather comforting fable, who knew that she would never
grow into a swan. "They should," she said at length. "And I will
read and learn all that I can about it before I take the anzid myself, so that
I may meet Altiokis as a proven wizard when Sheera and Tarrin agree that it is
time to attack. And that must be soon. Altiokis has long suspected there is
another person born with the powers of wizardry here in Mandrigyn; after the
Trial, it will be harder to hide."
In the
darkness, he heard her move, stepping to the narrow window that overlooked the
slimy alley outside, the reflected light from the other houses that crowded the
Little Island touching the hooked aquiline profile and the spider threads of
silver in the dark masses of her hair as she turned back to face him once more.
"As for the Trial itself, I think that my strength is sufficient to carry
me through it alive," she went on. "For thirty years, since I came to
my powers as a child, I have felt them in me, chafing and twisting at the walls
that flesh and mind set against their exercise. I know they are strong-there
have been times when I have felt like a woman in travail with a dragon's child,
unable to give it birth."
She was
silent again, only the ragged draw of her breath audible in the cool,
herb-smelling darkness of the bare attic room. Seeing her clearly in the
darkness, the Wolf could see also the girl that she had been, like a young tree
girdled with steel as a sapling, warping a little more each day as it strove
despairingly toward a destiny not permitted it-And ugly, he thought, to boot.
He knew now that the limitations that beauty set upon a woman were far
pleasanter, at least at the time, than the ones ugliness placed-and he knew
from bitter personal memory how cruel the world could be to women who were not
pleasing to men's eyes.
But he
only said, "At least you knew why you were in pain. I never did."
"Knowing
why only made it worse," she whispered.
"Maybe,"
the Wolf said, sitting up a little in the narrow bed and bracing his shoulders
against the dry, smooth wood of the wall. "I'm not sure whether it would
have been better to know I'd been robbed or to grow up trying to hide from
everyone- particularly my father-the fact that I suspected that I was
mad."
Against
the reflected window fights, he saw her head turn sharply and felt the touch of
her green eyes on him. He wondered suddenly how long it had been between the
time she had realized her own powers and the time she had found someone who
understood what they were.
When
she spoke again, her voice was quieter, and the edge of bitter mockery was gone
from it, leaving it sweet in the darkness, like the sweetness of the smell of
drying rosemary. "I should look to the Trial as a gate to freedom-freedom
from all that I have been-even if it is only -freedom to challenge Altiokis and
die. But-I saw you when we brought you up out of the pit, Captain."
Then
she turned away, covering her fear of pain with brusqueness, as the Wolf had seen
warriors curse rather than weep when their bones were set. "Come. If you
intend to learn tonight, we had best start."
Twenty-five
years of hard soldiering had not given Sun Wolf much background in wizardry or
love, but they had taught him discipline and the concentration to set aside
physical weariness and apply himself to what must be done. As he worked under
Yirth's guidance through the dark hours, he was constantly aware that it might
be months or years before he found another teacher. I will sleep, he told
himself, when I get on the road.
One of
the first things that she taught him were the spells to hold back the need for
sleep and rest and the drugs to reinforce them. He'd been familiar already with
the drugs-most mercenaries were.
But
this was only a beginning.
As with
the body, there were exercises of the mind and spirit, without which large
portions of wizardry would be impossible to comprehend, even for those born
with its seeds within them. Those exercises she also taught him, in the shadowy
dimness of that long workroom with its arcane charts, its age-worn books, and
its phials of poisons and philters-things that in a year, or two years, or five
years would come to fruition, if he meditated daily and practiced and learned
the complexities of mathematics and music which were as much a part of wizardry
as drugs and illusion. At one point, she stopped in her teaching and regarded
him across the cluttered table, her long hands resting tranquilly among the
diagrams that strewed its waxed surface.
"You
are certainly the most cooperative student I have ever heard of," she
commented. "At this point, I was in tears, arguing with my master. I hated
the mathematics part."
He
grinned ruefully and pushed the lank, sweat-damp strands of his hair back from
his stubbled face. "Mathematics has always been a closed book to me,"
he admitted. "I know enough about trajectories to get a rock over a wall
with a catapult, but this..." He gestured in amazement at the abstruse
figures that covered the yellowed parchments. "I'm going to have to take a
couple of hours and memorize it by rote, in the hopes that one day it will make
sense to me. By the spirits of all my drunken ancestors, it sure doesn't
now!"
She sat
back, a wry expression on her craggy face. "For a warrior, you're
certainly peaceable about accepting things on faith."
"I
accept that you know more about it than I do," he told her. "In fact,
that's exactly what made teaching those wildcats of Sheera's so easy. To teach
men, I have to prove to them that I'm capable of whipping the daylights out of
them-and I have to go on proving it. Women don't care." He shrugged.
"That was the most surprising thing about it. Women are a pleasure to
teach the arts of war."
Her
white teeth glimmered again in a smile. "For the sake of your self-esteem
I shall not pass that along to Sheera. But I tell you this also-it is a
pleasure to teach this..." The spare movement of her hand took in not only
the charts but the whole of the long room, the gold gleam of the book bindings
in the brown shadows, the jungles of hanging plants, and the skeletal shapes of
the instruments that read the stars. ".. .to a mind that has already
grasped the concept of discipline. That is what I myself found hardest to
learn."
It was
the discipline of a warrior that carried him through that night. Toward
morning, he snatched an hour or so of sleep, above stairs, in the little
whitewashed attic where Yirth had cared for so many exhausted mothers, but rest
eluded him. When the witch descended the stairs to her workroom at dawn, she
found him already up and dressed in the shabby, brown smock of Sheera's
gardener, as still as stone over the mathematical exercises, memorizing their
incomprehensible patterns.
Sheera
came after sundown that evening. He could tell by the way she spoke to him that
she had heard what had happened to him; when she thought he was not looking, he
caught the glimpse of something in her eyes that was almost fear.
"Altiokis
left for the Citadel this morning," she reported, settling wearily onto
the carved X of a folding chair in Yirth's long study. She rubbed her eyes in a
way that told the Wolf that she had had hardly more sleep than he. He himself
had dozed a little in the afternoon, but always the pressure was nagging at his
mind-that he must learn, must absorb all that he could, before he left this
stem and clear-hearted teacher. Yirth had spoken to him of what her own master
Chilisirdin had told her many years ago, and he knew that it might take years
of searching before he could find another wizard with even Yirth's limited
education to continue his training. And in those years, Altiokis would be
searching for him.
"According
to Drypettis, the Dark Eagle has orders to remain with the troops here in
Mandrigyn and hunt for you. The gates of the city are double-guarded. There are
far too many for a couple of girls and a phial of laudanum to account
for."
"I'll
get out," Sun Wolf said.
Yirth
raised one of her straight brows. "Illusion is a thing that comes only
with long study," she said. "This nonvisibility I cannot do-I must
look like someone, not no one. You can elude the guards, if you move quietly
and keep from drawing attention to yourself. Once men see you, you cannot
vanish. But get through locked gates you cannot, without calling down their
eyes upon you."
"I'll
leave at dawn, when they unlock the land gates."
"There'll
be a horse waiting for you in the first woods," Sheera said. "There
will be gold in the saddlebags..."
"Ten
thousand pieces?" Sun Wolf inquired, with mild curiosity, and saw Sheera
flush. "I'll let you owe me," he temporized with a smile.
She
hesitated, then rose from her chair and went around the end of the table to lay
her hands on his broad shoulders. "Captain, I want to say thank you-and,
I'm sorry."
He
grinned up at her. "Sheera, it has been far from pleasurable to know you;
but, like dying in the pit, it's something I think I'm glad I did. Take care of
my ladies for me."
"I
will." Behind the graveness in those brown eyes, he could read the same
grim purpose that he had seen four months ago in his tent below the walls of
Melplith. But the wildness in them had been tempered by experience and by the
knowledge of her own limitations. She bent gravely, to touch her lips to his.
"Makes
me sorry I never bothered to seduce you," he murmured and was pleased to
see her bristle with her old rage. "When are you going to hit the
mines?"
"Two
weeks," she replied, swallowing her angry words at him with difficulty.
"We'll send word to Lady Wrinshardin to start an insurrection in the
Thanelands, and draw Altiokis out of his Citadel that way. By then, Yirth will
have had time to go through the Great Trial herself and to recover from it.
Tarrin..."
"You
know, I'll always be sorry I never met Tarrin," Sun Wolf mused.
Sheera
was touched. "He would have been honored ..." she began.
"It
isn't that. It's just that I've heard so much about his perfection, I'm curious
to see if he really is seven feet tall and glows in the dark."
"You-"
she flared, and he caught her drawn-back fist, laughing, and kissed her once
again.
"I
wish the poor bastard joy with you." He grinned. "Be careful,
Sheera."
There
was fog the next morning. It had begun to creep in from the sea during the
night; the Wolf had seen Yirth sitting alone in the shadows of her study,
surrounded by her herbs and her charts of the sky, stirring at the surface of
the water in her ancient pottery bowl, watching as the liquid within grew gray
and clouded. He had not bidden her goodbye, not wanting to break her
concentration and knowing that she would understand.
The
Golden Gate loomed before him through the slaty darkness, like the bristling
back of a sleeping dragon. Sun Wolf moved quietly from shadow to shadow,
hearing and feeling around him the faint noises of the awakening city, wary as
an animal going down to drink. Distantly, the lapping of the canals came to his
ears and the far-off mewing of the gulls in the harbor.
He
wondered if he would ever see any of these people again.
It was
not something that had ever troubled him before; in twenty years, he had left
so many cities behind! He wondered whether this was an effect of Starhawk's
influence on him or simply that he was forty now instead of twenty; or because
he was a solitary fugitive, with no idea of where he would go. Three days ago,
from this street, he'd been able to look beyond the walls to the dark crags of
the Tchard Mountains; they were hidden now in fog, and the Wizard King was
within them. If Sheera's plan succeeded, he would be able to return to
Mandrigyn eventually. If it did not-if she and her Tarrin met defeat and
death-he would be hounded by Altiokis to the ends of the earth.
They
would need a wizard on their side to emerge victorious.
Yirth's
face returned to him, and the fear in her eyes as she'd said, "I saw you
when they brought you up out of the pit." She had to want her power very
badly, if she proved willing to seek it in the racking of her body and the
lightless pits of her mind. He did not doubt that she would do it, but he
understood her fears.
Would I
go through that voluntarily, if I knew?
He
didn't know.
Like a
ghost, he drifted into the looming shadows of the turreted gates.
There
were soldiers everywhere, and the gold of the torchlight within the passage
under the over spanning gatehouse flashed on polished mail and leather. The
great gates were still shut, barred, bolted, and studded with iron. A group of
the Dark Eagle's mercenaries loitered around the winch that would raise the
portcullis; others were dicing in an archway opposite, their gleaming steel
breastplates catching the red firelight, silhouetting them against the
impenetrable dark beyond.
Sun
Wolf melted himself back into the shadows of another of the numerous arches
that supported the gatehouse overhead and waited. It wouldn't be long. Already
he could hear the market carts assembling on the other side of the gates,
bringing in produce from the countryside. It would be easy enough to drift out
in the confusion.
And
yet... The memory returned to him of the fight in the street, when the Dark
Eagle had taken him, and of the illusion that had broken his concentration. In
the heat of battle it took very little to break a defensive line; and once an
army began to flee in panic, there was little hope of its rallying. Was that
how Altiokis had defeated them, up at Iron Pass?
Would
Sheera be able to handle that, even with Yirth at her side? She had the courage
of a lioness, but she was inexperienced-as inexperienced as Yirth would be
against Altiokis' greater magic.
The
red-haired slave boy in the prison came back to his thoughts, and the obscene
thing that had raped the boy's mind. What of that?
It was
Altiokis' doing that Sun Wolf would have to search the earth for someone to
teach him to handle the powers he had. If the women met defeat in the mines and
the Citadel, it was Altiokis who would pursue him.
Beside
their bonfire, one of the soldiers cracked a rude joke and got a general laugh.
Outside the gates, farmers' voices could be heard. The gray mists in the wide
street behind were paling. He thought of Starhawk, hunting for him somewhere,
thought of telling her that he was a warrior and her captain no longer, but
that he was a fugitive, neither wizard nor warrior, doomed to wander.
He
thought again of Altiokis.
Very
softly, he turned and started back toward the streets of the town.
Like
the flare of a far-off explosion, amber light sprang into view in the darkness
of a pillared arch. Curiously hard-edged, a glint of light fell like a round
hand from there onto his shoulder, and the Dark Eagle's voice said, "Good
morning, my barbarian."
The
chief of Altiokis' mercenaries materialized from the shadows. In one hand he
held a sword; in the other, a mirror.
A
faint, steely rattle sounded and men stepped from behind pillars, from around
the turrets and gargoyles, and from the black pockets of shadow behind the
columns of the gatehouse stair. Flattened back into a niche, Sun Wolf found
himself facing a battery of arrows, the bows straining at full draw. He let his
sword hand fall empty to-his side.
"No,
no, by all means, draw your weapon," the Eagle eluded. "You can throw
it here at my feet." When Sun Wolf did not move, he added, "When
you've lost enough blood to pass out, we can always take it from you, I
suppose. My lord Altiokis will not be pleased to receive you in a damaged
condition- but believe me, my barbarian, he will receive you alive."
The
blade clattered on the stone pavement. The Dark Eagle snapped his fingers, and
a man ran warily out to fetch it.
The
mercenary captain flashed the mirror in the torchlight, his eyes glinting pale
and bright under the dark metal of his helmet. "We were warned you'd grown
trickier. You can fool the eyes of a man, my friend, but not a piece of glass.
Hold your arms out to the sides, shoulder-high. If you touch the men who are
going to put the bracelets on you, you may find yourself conducting your
interview with my lord Altiokis from a stretcher on the floor. So."
"Who
told you I'd be here?" Sun Wolf asked quietly as the irons were locked to
his wrists. He shivered at their touch-there were spells forged into the metal
of the bracelets and into the five feet of chain that joined them.
The
Dark Eagle laughed. "My dear Wolf-your secret is how you've acquired your
wizard tricks, mine is how we learned where and when you would make your break.
Ask your precious ancestors about it. You'll be seeing them soon, but not, I
daresay, soon enough."
CHAPTER
19
STARHAWK
HEARD THE HOOFBEATS OF THE CAVALCADE LONG before they emerged from the gray
mists. She was in the open country of stubble fields, not far from the walls of
Mandrigyn; there was but little cover beyond the fog itself. Still, they
sounded to be in a hurry.
She
scrambled down the dead and matted vines of the roadside ditch and curled
herself half under a tangle of gray and web-spun ivy just above the brim of the
ice-cold water. Yesterday the water in the ditches had been scummed with ice
and every leaf rimmed with a white powder of frost, but the weather seemed to
have turned. In a few more weeks it would be spring.
Pebbles
thrown from the hooves of the horses clattered around her. She heard the brisk
jingling of mail and the rattle of weapons and trappings. She estimated the
force to be a largish squadron, between fifteen and twenty riders. Yesterday at
the crossroads, where the wide trade road from the Bight Coast joined the
Mandrigyn Road up to the Iron Pass, she'd found the unmistakable spoor of a
huge force going from the Citadel to the city and the marks, not many hours
old, of a smaller force returning. Yet this road was also marked with cart
traffic, farmers taking vegetables to town, so at least the place wasn't under
siege.
Starhawk
lay with her head down under the wiry thicket of the vines, listening to the
riders pass, and wondered what she would do when she reached Mandrigyn.
Seek
out Sun Wolf? He had said he was dying.
Seek
out Sheera Galernas?
May his
ancestors help the poor bastard. Sun Wolf had said, who falls afoul of her.
The
memory of the vision came back, the aching confusion of misery and despair and
a weird, deep-seated peace. She had been right in her love for him, right to
seek him, as, at the end, dying, he had sought her. But she had been too late-
after months of journeying, she had missed him by less than a week.
And now
he was dead.
She
remembered his face, pain-ravaged and exhausted, and how warm the blood on his
hands had been in contrast with the coldness of his flesh. What had happened to
him in Mandrigyn?
Had
Altiokis done that to him?
He said
that he loved me.
She had
tried to hate Fawnie for delaying her, but it had not been Fawn's fault. All
she had done was what the Hawk herself had done-sought for the man she loved.
That she had been injured doing so was only due to the difference in their
training; that she had found another sort of happiness altogether was something
that the Hawk could not pretend couldn't just as easily have happened to
herself.
None of
it changed the fact that she had been too late.
Anyog
had lived for three days after the night of her vision, sinking gradually into
deeper and deeper delirium. At first he had raved about the Hole, about
Altiokis, about the spirit that dwelt in that sunless gap between worlds.
Between tending him and hunting in the woods, she had had little time for other
thought, or to wonder why she wanted to make this final conclusion to her
quest.
When
Anyog had died, she had buried him in the birch grove at the bottom of the
valley, with tools she had found in the cell of the chapel's former guardian.
Whether because of the old man's love for her, or because Sun Wolf's death had
broken some last wall of resistance within her soul-or simply because, she
thought without bitterness, she had, after all, grown soft-she had wept over
Anyog's grave and had been unashamed of her tears. Tears might be a waste of
time, she had thought, but she now had time; and the tears had been a medicine
to her chilled soul.
The
hoof beats faded into the distance. Starhawk got to her feet, brushing the damp
ivy from her buckskin breeches and from the quilted sleeves of her much-stained
black coat. It only remained for her to make her way to Mandrigyn and seek out
Sheera Galemas, to ask her why and particularly how she had been able to carry
off a full-grown and presumably protesting captain of mercenaries-and what had
become of him.
The
woman in the marketplace from whom she asked directions looked askance at
Starhawk's sword belt and brass-buckled doublet, but directed her without
comment to the house of Sheera Galemas. It stood upon its own island, like so
many of the great townhouses of that checkerboard city; from the mouth of the
narrow street that debouched into the canal just opposite it, Starhawk studied
its inlaid marble facade. Carved lattices of interlocking stone quatrefoils
shaded the canal front arcades; red and purple silk banners, their bullion
embroidery gleaming wanly with the lifting of the morning's white mist, made
stripes of brilliant color against the black and white stark-ness of the stone.
Two gondolas were already moored at the foot of the black marble steps-a
curious thing, the Hawk thought, at so early an hour.
She
followed the narrow wooden catwalk that formed a footpath for a few dozen yards
above the waters at the edge of the canal, crossing eventually by a miniature
camelback bridge that led into the maze of alleys on the next islet. It was
difficult to maintain any kind of sense of direction here, for the high walls
of that crowded district cut her off from any glimpse of the roofline of
Sheera's house; but by dint of much backtracking over tiny bridges and through
the twisting streets, she was eventually able to circle the grounds. From the
catwalk along the wall of the nearby church-owned public laundry, she could
look down into the grounds themselves and guessed" that, with so much
waste space, Sheera Galemas must be rich indeed. Behind the house stretched
elaborately laid-out gardens, fallow and waiting for the rains to end, a big,
boarded-up orangery and a string of new, glass-roofed succession houses, and a
stable court and what looked like a pleasure pavilion or a bathhouse, brave with
pillars of colored porphyry.
It
occurred to Starhawk that there were an unnatural number of entrances to those
grounds.
She
glimpsed movement in an alleyway on an adjacent island and pressed herself back
against the uneven brick of the laundry's high wall. A stealthy figure
descended the few steps that led from the alley's mouth to the opaque green
waters of the canal and glanced quickly to the right and left. From where she
stood on the catwalk above, Starhawk could see the woman-for it was a woman,
wrapped in a dark cloak-go to the cellar door of the last house on the alley
and from it produce a plank, which she laid across the canal to a
disused-looking postern door in Sheera's back wall. In spite of the postern's
dilapidated appearance, it did not seem to be locked, nor, the Hawk noticed,
did the hinges creak. The woman crossed, pulled the plank after her, and shut
the door.
Curious,
Starhawk swung down the rickety flight of steps and wound her way through the
alleys to where the woman had been. The cellar door wasn't locked; in the
muddy-floored room lay quite a few planks.
Intrigued,
Starhawk returned to the mouth of the alley. It led straight down into the
dirty canal water, about two feet below. The stones of the alley were uneven,
slimy and offensive with moss; she guessed this was the neighborhood dumping
ground for chamber pots. Leaning around the corner of the tall house beside
her, she could see the backs of all the houses along the curve of the canal;
women were laying out bedding over the rails of makeshift balconies to air, and
someone was dumping a pan of dishwater from a kitchen doorstep directly into
the murk a few feet below. A couple of the houses had little turrets, with long
green smears of moss on the walls below them to announce their function.
A quiet
place, altogether, she thought, glancing back at the deep-set little door in
the wall. It wasn't the regular kitchen entrance-that was visible down at the
far end of the wall, a double door and a kind of little step for deliverymen
unloading from gondolas.
The
Hawk had another careful look around, then fetched a plank from the cellar, as
she had seen the furtive woman do. It just reached from the pavement to the
doorsill; Starhawk realized that all these planks had been cut to the same
length. She drew her sword, look a final look around, and slipped across.
The
postern was unlocked. It opened directly onto a thicket of laurel bushes, which
masked it from the main house. There was no one in sight.
Starhawk
pulled in her plank and added it to the three that already lay concealed under
the laurels. The ground here was trampled and grassless. As Ari would say,
somebody had more up the sleeve than the arm.
Well,
of course Sheera was involved in a cause-meaning a conspiracy. But whether
she'd been able to involve Sun Wolf in it...
The
Hawk moved soundlessly around the edge of the laurel thicket and stopped,
startled by what she saw.
The
gardens were empty, the brown, formal hedges marching in elaborate patterns away
toward the distant terrace of the main house. But here someone had quite
recently half built, half excavated, a pocket-sized wilderness in one comer of
those formal beds, the rocks settled like the bones of the sleeping earth,
waiting for their attendant vegetation.
Sun
Wolf had laid out those rocks.
She
knew it, recognized his style in the shaping of them, the lie of the colored
fissure in the granite, and the latent tension between large shapes and small.
How she knew it she was not sure-the aesthetics of rock gardening was a subject
she knew only through him-but she was as certain of it as those who could look
upon a painting or hear a tune and say "This was created by that
person."
The
warrior in her remarked, He was here, then, while some other part of her
throbbed with a deep and unexpected ache, as if she had found his glove or his
dagger.
And
then, an instant later, an absurd thought crossed her mind: I knew good
gardeners were hard to find, but this...!
She
knew from working with him on the one at Wrynde that rock gardens like this
were the work of days, sometimes weeks.
Steam
billowed from the laundry quarters at the back of the house, drifting across
the brown beds of the gardens. Voices came to her, like distant bird song.
A high,
twittering voice insisted, "I've told you, he's learned all he wants to
know! There's no danger! He's looking for men, and looking in the Thanelands
..."
Among
the bare white stems of the ornamental birch, Star-hawk saw two people
descending the terrace steps-a black-haired woman in purple and sables, with
amethysts snagged in the dark curls that lay scattered across her shoulders,
and a small, curiously childish shape pattering at her side, rattling with
incongruous masses of heavy, jingling jewels, a king's ransom in bad taste.
The
dark-haired woman she recognized at once as Sheera Galemas.
"We
don't know that," Sheera said.
The
smaller woman said, "We do! I do. I heard them talk of it. Altiokis has no
interest in questioning him. And Tarrin says-"
"Tarrin
doesn't know the situation here."
The
little woman looked shocked. "But he does! You've kept him
informed..."
"For
God's sake, Dru, that isn't the same as being here!"
The
women passed through the door of the orangery. As it shut behind them, Starhawk
glimpsed other forms moving about inside.
Who,
she wondered, had Altiokis taken for questioning or not for questioning, as the
case might be? The hoof beats of the passing cavalcade returned to her with new
meaning. Greatly interested, she slipped cautiously across the open space that
separated her from the orangery and glided along its wall until she found an
open window that let into a sort of potting shed built out of one wail. It was
empty. She found it a simple matter to force the catch with her dagger and
climb in unheard. The women in the main, boarded-up section of the building
were talking far too intently to hear the small sounds of her feet.
Sun
Wolf had been here. Looking about her in the gloom, she was virtually certain
of it. He had been here and had worked here. She knew the way he habitually
laid out things at his workshop back in Wrynde too well to think that another
could have his same order of putting up those mysterious little medicines to
succor ailing plants.
But-it
made absolutely no sense. Holy Mother, had Sheera really kidnapped him to do
her gardening? And why-and how, for that matter?-had he appeared to Starhawk in
a dream, and how and why had he died? Her hand tightened over the worn hilt of
her dagger. That, at least, Sheera Galernas will tell me. And if it was her
doing...
Starhawk
stopped. She had far too much experience with the motivations of sudden death
to make an unequivocal threat, even in the privacy of her mind. It was
perfectly possible that Sun Wolf had asked for the fate he got-and in fact,
knowing the Wolf as she did, more than likely.
She
pressed her ear to the door.
A
confusion of voices came to her, the high, strident twitter of the little woman
called Dru, insisting over and over again that they were safe. Starhawk found a
knothole in the door just as a tiny, golden-haired lady snapped impatiently,
"Oh, button it, Dru!"
Dru
swung around, blazing with self-righteous wrath. "You dare speak that way
to me-" she began furiously. Then she caught Sheera's disapproving eye and
relapsed into red-faced and stifled silence.
Sheera
said to another woman, "What about it. Amber Eyes?"
Starhawk
had noticed her before, a slender girl of about Fawn's age, standing almost
shyly in the circle of her big, dark-eyed friend's arm. But the moment she
spoke, the Hawk realized that the helpless shyness was only an illusion-she was
clearly the stronger of the partners.
She
said, "It's true we don't know where Tarrin and the other leaders are
working today. But Cobra and Crazyred have both been all over the mines, as I
have, and we've all made maps. We can get you to the armories, to the passages
up to the Outer Citadel, and to the storerooms where they keep the blasting
powder. There's enough blasting powder to destroy half the Citadel, if it could
be placed. It doesn't need magic to be ignited, just a slow match."
"What
if he's talked already?" her friend demanded worriedly. "Altiokis
might question him up at the Citadel-from what Dru told us, it's in the
wizard's power to put him to what no man could stand. They could be lying in
wait for us when we get there."
"I
tell you-" Dru began in her high, hissing voice.
Then
from the dark doorway of the potting room, Starhawk spoke. "If that's the
case, you'd better chance it and strike now."
All
eyes swiveled to her. The women were shocked into silence as she stepped forth
from the shadows. To do them credit, they weren't frozen with
astonishment-three of them were already moving to flank her as she emerged.
Sheera Galemas was frowning at her, trying to place her, knowing they had met
before.
Starhawk
went on. "Waiting won't buy you anything if your friend breaks."
"We
could get out of the city-" someone began.
A thin
little woman in the dark robes of a nun asked, "Do you really believe
Altiokis would not hound us over the face of the earth, once he knew who we
were?"
Starhawk
rested her hands on the buckle of her sword belt and surveyed the group
quietly. "It isn't any of my affair, of course," she said, surprised
at how easily she fell back into her habit of command, then accepting the way
they listened to her, somehow knowing her for a commander. "I'm only here
to speak to Sheera Galernas." From the tail of her eye, she saw Sheera
startle as the memory returned. "But if your friend was the one who passed
me under escort this morning, I'd say strike, if you think he has any kind of
strength to hold out against questioning."
The
little blonde murmured, "He has the strength."
"They
won't reach the Citadel until after noon," the Hawk continued. "Thai
gives you maybe an hour or two hours to gamble on whatever you plan to do. It
all depends on how tough you think your friend is."
She saw
their eyes, exchanging glances, questioning. As a rule, she had found that
women vastly overestimated a man's stamina against torture, as men
underestimated women's. That seemed to be the case here-none of them appeared
to be in much doubt, except Sheera herself. To her, Starhawk said, "I
won't trouble you now, if you're going into battle. But there's something you
owe me to speak of when you're done."
Sheera's
eyes met hers, and she nodded, understanding. But a taller woman, harsh-faced
and ugly, who had stood in the shadows, spoke up. "He said there would be
a woman coming to seek him." The voice was as low and soft as a rosewood
flute, the green eyes like sea-light in the dimness. "You are she?"
There
was no need to ask who "he" was. Starhawk said, "I am."
"And
your name?"
"Starhawk."
There
was a pause. "He has spoken of you," the beautiful voice said.
"You are welcome. I am Yirth." She came forward and held out long
slender hands. "He told me to tell you what became of him."
"I
know what became of him," Starhawk replied grimly. On all sides of them,
the women watched silently, amazed both at her presence and at the fact that
this dark, lanky woman seemed to have expected her. To them, the exchange
between Yirth and Starhawk must be cryptic, half intelligible; but none asked
for an explanation. The tension in the room was too electric; they feared to
break it.
Starhawk
said, "I know that he died. What I want to know is how and why."
"No,"
Yirth said quietly. "He did not die. He is a wizard now."
Shock
left Starhawk speechless. She could only stare at Yirth in blank astonishment,
scarcely aware that her surprise was shared by all but a very few of the other
women in the room.
Yirth
added, "And he is Altiokis prisoner."
"And
I don't think there is any question," Sheera put in, her voice suddenly
hard and cutting as a sword blade, "that Altiokis' mercenaries knew where
to look for him."
She
swung around, her eyes going from face to face-browned faces, darkened from
exposure, some of them with the bruises of training hidden under carefully
applied cosmetics. There were pretty faces, faces plain or homely, but none of
them weak, none of them afraid. "Starhawk is right," she said
quietly. "We must strike and strike now."
Drypettis
caught her petaled sleeve. "Don't be a fool!" she cried. "Do you
know how many men there are in Grimscarp now?"
"Fifteen
hundred less," purred a red-haired woman in a prostitute's thin, gaudy
silks, "than there were a week ago."
"And
Altiokis!" the little woman squeaked.
"And
Altiokis," Sheera echoed. She turned back to Yirth, who still stood at
Starhawk's side. "Can you do it, Yirth? Can you fight him?"
Yirth
shook her head. "I can lead you through illusion," she said,
"and to some degree protect you from the traps of magic that are set to
guard the ways to the Citadel from the mines. But my wizardry is knowledge
without the Great Power, even as the captain's is Power without the knowledge
of how to use it. We are equally helpless before Altiokis' might, though he is
stronger than I. But as I see it, neither I nor any of us has a choice, it is
now or never, prepared or unprepared."
"Don't
be fools!" Drypettis cried hysterically. "And you are fools, if you
let yourselves be stampeded this way! Altiokis doesn't care about information.
All he wants is Sun Wolf's death! I know-I overheard Stirk and the mercenary
captain speak of it! If we rush in now, before Yirth has a chance to gain the
power she needs, before we can coordinate with Tarrin, we will cast away
everything!"
"And
if we wait," Gilden lashed, "Sun Wolf is going to die."
"He
would have let the lot of us die!" Drypettis retorted, her face suddenly
mottled with red blotches of rage. "Even those of you he made his
sluts!"
Gilden's
hand came up to strike her; but with a curiously practiced neatness, an equally
tiny lady standing behind Gilden caught her wrist before she could deliver the
blow. Drypettis stood before her trembling, her face white now but for the
spots of color that stood out like rouge on her delicate cheekbones.
In a
cold voice, Sheera said, "He was brought here against his will, Dru. And
as for the rest, that is hardly your affair."
The
little woman whirled on her in a hurricane of jangling metal and tangled veils.
"It is my affair!" she cried, her brown eyes blazing with shame and
rage. "It is exactly my affair! How is the good and the decent in this
city to triumph, if it debases itself to the level of its enemies to defeat
them? How are we to face the men whom we wish to free, if we make trollops of
ourselves to free them? That is precisely what this captain of ours has done.
He has debased us all. Debased us? Seduced us into debasing ourselves, rather,
with this lure of success at any cost! We should have suffered the evils that
befell us and learned to work around them, before we turned ourselves into
coarse and dirty soldiers like this-this-" Her jerking hand waved
violently toward the startled and silent Starhawk. "-this camp follower of
his!"
Her
tone changed, became wheedling. "You are worthy of the Prince, Sheera,
worthy to wed the King of Mandrigyn and to be its Queen. And I would have
supported you in this, given everything to you for it-my wealth and the honor
of the most ancient House in the city! I would have given you my life, gladly.
But to have given these, only to see you turn them and the cause itself over to
such a man as that-to transform an ideal of decency and self-sacrifice into a
base, athletic exercise in brute muscle and sneakiness-"
Sheera
strode forward, caught the hysterical woman's shoulders in powerful hands, and
shook her with terrible violence. All the ridiculous jewelry jangled and
rattled, catching in the sudden tumble of unraveled brown hair. She shook her
until they were both breathless, her eyes burning with fury; then she said,
"You told them."
"I
did it for your sake!" Drypettis screeched. "I have seen what one
man's influence can do-how far one man's influence can defile everything that
he touches! You are worthy-"
"Be
quiet," Sheera said softly. "And sit down."
Drypettis
obeyed, staring up at her in silence, tears of fury pouring down her round,
red-stained cheeks. Watching their faces, Starhawk was conscious of that
curiously concentrated quality to Drypettis' gaze, as if Sheera and Sheera
alone had any reality for her, as if she were literally unaware that she had
enacted a lovers' quarrel in the presence of some fifty other people. For her,
they did not exist. Only Sheera existed- perhaps only Sheera ever had.
Very
slowly and quietly, Sheera said, "Drypettis, I don't know whether or not
you ever wanted yourself to be queen of Mandrigyn, rather than me, as the
ancient lineage of your House might qualify you to be. I never questioned your
loyalty to me, or your loyalty to my cause."
"I
was never disloyal to you," Drypettis whispered in a thin voice, like the
sound of a crack running through glass. "It was all for you-to purge the
cause of the evil in it that could destroy it and you. To make it pure again,
as it was before that barbarian came."
"Or
to get rid of a man of whom you were jealous?" Sheera's hands tightened
over the slender shoulders. "A man who took it away from being your cause,
operated by your money and your influence, and threw it open to all who were
willing to fight for it, no matter how rough their origins, how crass their
motives, or how inelegant and dirty their methods might be? A man who changed
the whole game from something that was bought to something that was done? A man
who put commoners on the same level with yourself? Who treated you like a
potential soldier instead of a lady? Is that why?" she asked, her voice
low and harsh. "Or do you even know?"
Drypettis'
face seemed to soften and melt like wax with grief, the exquisite brown eyes
growing huge in the puckering flesh. Then she crumpled forward, her face buried
in her hands, sobbing bitterly. The faint, silvery light from the high windows
danced like expensive glitter over the incongruous riot of ornaments strewn
through her hair. "He has done this to you," she keened. "He has
made you tike him, thinking only of victory, no matter how dishonorable you
become in the process."
Sheera
straightened up, her mouth and nostrils white, as if with sickness.
"Defeat will only make us dead," she said, "not honorable. I
will never say anything to anyone about what has happened here, and no one else
in this room ever will, either; not even to one another. That's not an
order," she added, looking about her at the stunned, silent circle of
women. "That's a request, from a friend, that I hope you will honor."
She turned back to the bowed form of Drypettis, now rocking back and forth in
the straight-backed chair where she herself had sat, during that first meeting
in the orangery, the night Sun Wolf had come to Mandrigyn. "I will never
speak of this," she repeated, "but I do not ever want to see you
again."
Her
face still hidden in her hands, Drypettis got slowly to her feet. The women
made way for her as she stumbled from the room; through the orangery door, they
could see the colors of her clothes, a gaudy fluttering of whalebone and
panniers, veils and jewels, against the liver-colored earth of the garden,
until she vanished into the shadows of the house.
Sheera
watched, her face white and tears glittering like beads of glass upon her
wind-burned cheeks; the grief in her eyes was like that on the face of
Drypettis, the grief of one who had lost a close friend. At her sides, her
sword-bruised hands were clenched, the knuckles white under the brown of the
skin.
Not
what she needed, Starhawk thought dryly, with her first battle before her; and
if for nothing else, she cursed the woman for that selfishness.
That
was first; and then the anger came-anger at the petty jealousy of Drypettis, at
her own slow realization that the man whose capabilities to resist torture they
had been speaking of was, in fact, the Wolf himself, still alive-but in
horrible danger. She had missed him by hours. He had passed within a dozen feet
of her as she lay hiding in the roadside ditch, the stones of his horse's
hooves showering her with pebbles...
He was
alive! Whatever else had happened to him, would happen to him, he was alive
now, and that knowledge went through her like a living heat, kindling both
blood and spirit.
But,
with her customary calm, she turned to the woman beside her, the woman who
still gazed, with her jaw set, out into the now-empty garden, grief and the
bitterness of betrayal marked onto her face like a careless thumbprint on
cooling bronze. A sister in the fellowship of arms.
The
women around them were silent, not knowing what to say or how to speak of that
betrayal.
It was
Starhawk who broke the silence, her natural habit of command laying the course
for all the others to follow. Sheera's grief was her own; Starhawk understood,
and was the first of them not to speak of it. She laid a hand on the woman's
shoulder and asked in her most businesslike voice, "How soon can your
ladies be ready to march?"
CHAPTER
20
IF WHAT
LADY WRINSHARDIN HAD SAID WAS TRUE-AND SUN Wolf could think of no reason for
her to have lied-the fortress of the Thanes of Grimscarp had once stood at the
base of that rocky and forbidding knee of stone which thrust out of the
mountain above the Iron Pass. The siege craft that had been bred into his bones
picked out the place, even as the Dark Eagle and his men took him past it-a
weed-grown rubble of stones, just past where the road divided. There was no
signpost at the fork, but Amber Eyes and her girls had told him that the
right-hand way went up to the southward entrances of the mines below the
Citadel, then wound around the base of the mountain to the main, western
entrances above Altiokis' administrative center at Racken Scrag; the left-hand
way twisted up the rock face, toward the Citadel itself.
Weary
from two days with little sleep and from half a day's hard ride up the rocky
Iron Pass, his wrists chafed and raw from the weight of some thirty pounds of
iron chain, Sun Wolf looked up through the murk of low-lying cloud at the
Citadel, where the Wizard King awaited him, and wondered why anyone in his
right mind would have made the place the center of his realm.
There
was the legend Lady Wrinshardin had quoted about the stone hut that Altiokis
had raised in a single night-the stone hut that was supposed to be still
standing, the buried nucleus of the Citadel's inner core. But why Altiokis had
chosen to do so made no sense to the Wolf, unless, as he had begun to suspect,
the Wizard King were mad. Perhaps he had built the Citadel in such an
impossible, inaccessible place simply to show that he could. Perhaps he had put
it here so that no city could grow up around his walls; Racken Scrag perforce
lay on the other side of the mountain.
The
Gods knew, the place was defensible enough. The impossible road was overlooked
at every turning by overhanging cliffs; if Yirth were right about Altiokis'
powers of far-seeing, he would be able to detect any force coming up that road,
long before it got within sight of the Citadel, and bury it under avalanches of
stone or landslides of burning wood. But when they reached the narrow, rocky
valley before the Citadel's main gate. Sun Wolf understood why it was cheaper
and simpler to haul the food for the legions up through the mines, for here
Altiokis' fears had excelled themselves.
Most of
the works in the valley were new. Sun Wolf judged; with the expansion of his
empire, the Wizard King had evidently grown more and more uneasy. The Citadel
of Grimscarp had originally been built between the cliff edge that looked
northward over the wastes of the Tchard Mountains and a great spur or rock that
cut it off from the rest of the Scarp on which it stood; its main entrance had
tunneled straight through this unscalable knee of rock. Now the floor of the
valley below the gate had been cut with giant pits, like a series of dry moats;
slave gangs were still at work carving out the nearer ones as the Dark Eagle
and his party emerged from between the dark watchtowers that overhung the
little pass into the vale. While they paused to breathe the horses after the
climb. Sun Wolf could see that the rock and earth within these long moats were
charred. If an enemy managed to bridge them-if any enemy could get bridges up
that winding road-the ditches could be floored with some flammable substance
and ignited at a distance by the magic of the Wizard King.
They
were bridged now by drawbridges of wood and stone, things that could easily be
torn down or destroyed. The bridges did not lie in a direct line with the gate,
which was cut directly into the cliff face at the other side, without turrets
or outworks. The Wolf knew instinctively that it was the kind of gate that
could be concealed with illusion; if Altiokis willed it, travelers to that
Citadel would see nothing but the stark and treeless gray rock of the Scarp as
they reached the head of the road.
He was
coming to understand how a man such as the Wizard King had built his empire,
between unlimited wealth and animal cunning, between hired strength and the
dark webs of his power.
The men
who held the reins of Sun Wolf's horse led him on, down the slope toward the
bridges and the iron-toothed, forbidding gate. The hooves of the horses echoed
weirdly in the smooth stone of the tunnel walls. Guards in black armor held up
smoky torches to look at them. The Dark Eagle repeated passwords with a faint
air of impatience and led them onward. The tunnel itself reeked with evil; its
stone walls seemed to drip horror. The air there was fraught with latent magic
that could be turned into illusions of unspeakable fear. Great gates led into
wide, downward-sloping ways, the lines of torches along the walls fading into
blackness at the end. The warm breath that rose from these tunnels stank of
muddy rock, of illusion, and of the glittering, nameless magic of utter dread.
It was as if Altiokis' power had been spread throughout his Citadel, as if his
mind permeated the tunnels, the darkness, and the stone.
Sun
Wolf whispered, almost unaware that he spoke aloud, "How can he spread
himself so thin?"
The
Dark Eagle's head snapped around. "What?"
There
were no words to express it to someone not mageborn; it was a concept
impossible to describe. The closest the Wolf could come to it was to say,
"His spirit is everywhere here."
White
teeth flashed in the gloom. "Ah. You've felt that, have you?"
The
Wolf could see that the mercenary captain thought that he spoke in admiration,
or in awe. He shook his head impatiently. "It's everywhere, but it isn't
in himself. He's put part of his power in the rocks, in the air, in the
illusions at the bottom of the mine shafts-but he has to keep it all up. He has
to hold it together somehow, and-how can there be anything left back at the
center of him, the key of his being, to hold it with?"
The
Dark Eagle's smile faded; that round, swarthy countenance grew thoughtful; in
the darkness, the blue eyes seemed very bright. "Gilgath, Altiokis'
Commander of the Citadel, has said that my lord has been slipping-he's been
with Altiokis far longer than I." His voice was low, excluding even the
men who rode about them. "I never believed it until about two years
ago-and what you say makes sense." He shrugged, and that wary look left
his face. "But even so, my barbarian," he continued, as staves came
to take their horses, and they passed through the courtyards of the heavily
defended Outer Citadel, "he has power enough to crush his enemies to
dust-and money enough to pay his friends."
Other
guards surrounded them, men and a few women in the bright panoplies of the
mercenary troops. They were escorted through the courts and gateways of the
Outer Citadel, up to the massive gatehouse that loomed against the sky,
guarding the way into the Inner Citadel. The Dark Eagle strode now at Sun
Wolf's side, the chain mail of his shirt jingling, the gilded spike that
protruded through the dark, fluttering veils of his helmet crests flashing in
the wan daylight.
"Wait
until you come into the Inner Citadel, if you think his power has
thinned."
They
entered the darkness of the gatehouse, two men holding the chain that joined
Sun Wolf's wrists, the rest of the troop walking with drawn swords behind him.
All the while the Wolf was concentrating, his mind calm and alert as in battle,
waiting for his chance to escape and reviewing the way down the mountain.
Daylight
blazed ahead. Like a huge mouth, a gate opened around them. As they stepped
from the dense shadows, Sun Wolf saw that it led onto a kind of causeway that
spanned the long, stone-walled ditch separating the Outer Citadel from the
Inner. At the center, the causeway was broken by a railless drawbridge. The pit
itself crawled with nuuwa.
In
spite of the day's cold, the carrion stink of them rose in a suffocating wave.
Halfway across the drawbridge itself, the Wolf stopped. Turning, he saw that
the Dark Eagle had his hand on his sword hilt. "Don't try it," the
mercenary said quietly. "Believe me, if I went over, I guarantee that
you'd go, too."
"Would
it make that much difference?"
The
Dark Eagle cocked a sardonic eyebrow. "That depends on what you think your
chances of escaping from the Inner Citadel are."
Below
them, the nuuwa had begun to gather, their grunting undulations shattering the
air. Sun Wolf glanced at the men holding his chain, then back at the Eagle. He
could see that the sheer wall of the Inner Citadel was broken by two gates, one
fairly close and one several hundred feet away, with steps leading down into
the pit of the nuuwa, plus the heavily guarded gate on their own level that let
onto the causeway. There were gates into the pit from the Outer Citadel as
well. It was a good bet that those were all heavily barred.
It was
a gamble-to die horribly now, or to risk an uglier fate against an almost
nonexistent chance of escape.
Compared
with this, he thought bitterly as he moved off again toward the looming maw of
the Inner Citadel's gates, the choice Sheera had given him on the ship appeared
monumental in its opportunities. But he would not give up when the chance
remained to play for time.
The
nuuwa's screams followed them, like derisive jeers.
"You'll
be down there soon enough," the Dark Eagle remarked at his elbow.
"It's a pity, for no one knows as well as I how fine a soldier you are, my
barbarian. But I know that's what my lord Wizard does with those who go against
him. And after that thing gets through gnawing your brains out, you won't much
care about the accommodations."
Sun
Wolf glanced back at him. "What is it?" he asked, "What are
those-those flame-things? Does he create them?"
The
mercenary captain frowned, as if gauging the reasons for the question and how
much he would give away in his answer. Then he shook his head. "I don't
know. There's a- a darkness in the room at the bottom of the Citadel, a cold. They
come out of that darkness; usually one or two, but sometimes in flocks. Other
times there'll be days, weeks, with nothing. He himself won't go into the
room-I think he fears them as much as anyone else does. He can't command them
as he does the nuuwa."
"Can
he command the darkness they come from?"
The
Dark Eagle paused in his stride, those swooping black brows drawing together
beneath the crested helmet rim. But all he said was, "You have changed, my
barbarian, since we rode together in the East."
The
black doors of the Inner Citadel opened. Its shadows swallowed them.
The
dread of the place, the eerie terror that permeated the very air, struck Sun
Wolf like a blow in the face as he crossed the threshold. Like a dog that would
not pass the door of a haunted room, he stopped, his breath catching in his
lungs; the men dragged him through by the chain on his wrists, but he could see
that their faces, too, were wet with sweat. Fear filled the shadowy maze of
tunnels and guardrooms on the lower level of the Citadel, as if a species of
gas had been spread upon the air; the men who surrounded him with a hedge of
drawn swords looked nervously about them, as if they were not certain in which
direction the danger lay. Even the Dark Eagle's eyes darted from shadow to
shadow, the only restlessness in his still face.
But
more than the fear, Sun Wolf could feel the power there, cold and almost
visible, like an iridescent fog. It seemed to cling to the very walls, as it
had pervaded the tunnel of the gate-a strength greater than that of Altiokis,
all-pervasive and yet tangible. He felt that, if he only knew how, he could
have gathered it together in his hands.
They
ascended a stair and passed through a guarded door. It shut behind them, and
Sun Wolf looked around him in sudden, utter amazement at the upper levels of
the tower, the inner heart of the Citadel of Altiokis, the dwelling place of
the greatest wizard on the face of the earth.
Quite
factually, Sun Wolf said, "I've seen better taste in whorehouses."
The
Dark Eagle laughed, his teeth and eyes bright in his swarthy face. "But
not more expensive materials, I daresay," he commented and flicked with a
fingernail the gold that sheathed the inner side of the great doors. "A
house, as my lord Wizard is fond of saying, fit for a man to live in."
Sun
Wolf's eyes traveled slowly from the jeweled garlands that embroidered the
ivory panels of the ceiling, down slender columns of pink porphyry and polished
green malachite twined with golden serpents, to the tastelessly pornographic
statues in ebony, alabaster, and agate that stood between them. Gilding was
spread like butter over everything; the air was larded with the scent of
patchouli and roses.
"A
man, maybe," he said slowly, realizing it was only a gross exaggeration of
the kind of opulence he would have gone in for himself, not too many months
ago. Then he understood what had shocked him in his soul about the place and
about all the fortress of the Wizard King. "But not the greatest of the wizards;
not the only wizard left on the face of the earth, damn it." He looked
back at the Dark Eagle, wondering why the man did not understand. "This is
obscene."
The
captain chuckled. "Oh, come now, Wolf." He gestured at the
shamelessly posturing statues. "You're getting squeamish in your old age.
You've seen worse than this in the cathouses in Kwest Mralwe-the most expensive
ones, that is."
"I
don't mean that," the Wolf said. He looked around him again, at the glided
archways, the embroidered hangings, and the bronze lamp stands on which burned
not flames, but round, glowing bubbles of pure light. In his mind, he was
comparing the garish waste with Yirth's shadowy workroom, with its worn and
well-cared-for books, its delicate instruments of brass and crystal, and its
dry, muted scent of medicinal herbs. "He is deathless, he is powerful; he
has command over magic that I would trade my soul for. He can have anything he
wants. And he chooses this trash."
The
Dark Eagle cocked an amused eyebrow up at the Wolf and signaled his men. They
jerked on the chain and rattled their swords, leading Sun Wolf on through the
wide, softly lighted halls of the upper levels, their feet scuffing over silken
rugs or whispering over carved jade tiles. "I remember you almost cut my
throat fighting over trash very much like this when we looted the palace at
Thardin," he reminded the Wolf with a grin.
Sun
Wolf remembered it. He could not explain that that had been before the pit and
the ordeal of the anzid; he could not explain, could not make the Eagle
understand, the monstrous-ness of what Altiokis was. He only said, "How
could a mind that trivial achieve this kind of power?"
The
Dark Eagle laughed. "Whoa! Teach him a few tricks and he knows all about
wizardry and power, does he?"
Sun
Wolf was silent. He could not say how he knew what he knew, or why it seemed
inconceivable to him that a man with a mind whose greatest ambitions rose no
higher than dirty statues and silk rugs could have gained the power to become
deathless, could have made himself the last, most powerful wizard on the earth.
He understood, then, Yirth's anger at his frightened rejection of his power; he
felt it reflected in his own outrage at a man who would not only so waste his
own vast potential but destroy everyone else's as well.
Doors
of white jade and crystal swung open. The room beyond them was black-black
marble floor and walls, pillars of black marble supporting a vaulted ceiling of
shadow. A ball of pale bluish light hung over the head of the man who
overflowed the huge chair of carved ebony between the columns at the far end of
the room, and the light picked out the details of the sculpted dragons and
gargoyles, of the writhing sea life and shining insects, that covered the
chair, the pillars, and the wall. The incense-reeking darkness seemed filled
with magic; but with a curious clarity of the senses, Sun Wolf saw how flawed
it was, like a prostitute's makeup seen in the light of day. Whatever Altiokis
had been, as the Dark Eagle had said, he was slipping now. Having destroyed
everyone else's power, he was letting his own run to seed as well.
Looking
at him as he squatted, obscenely gross, in his ebony chair, for a moment the
Wolf felt, not fear, but angry disgust. Not even unlimited evil could give this
man dignity. Sun Wolf's captors pushed him forward until he stood alone before
the Wizard King, his shoulders dragged down by the weight of his chains.
Altiokis
belched and scratched his jewel-encrusted belly. "So," he said, in a
voice thick with brandy, "you think the palace of Altiokis, the greatest
prince this world has known, looks like a whorehouse?"
His
wizard's senses had spread throughout that tawdry palace; he had heard every
word that they had said. The Dark Eagle looked frightened, but Sun Wolf knew
how it was done, though he himself could not do it. He only looked at the
Wizard King, trying to understand what unlimited life, unlimited power, and
unlimited boredom had done to this man, this fast and most powerful wizard.
"You
poor ass, did you really think you could get away from me that easily?"
Altiokis asked. "Did you really have any idea of what you'd be up against
when you accepted the commission of that fool, whatever his name was-the man
who hired you? One of the Thanes, I think we said. Not that it matters, of
course. I know who my enemies are. We'll have them gathered in..."
The
Dark Eagle's bright blue eyes widened with alarm. "My lord, we don't
know-"
"Oh,
be silent," Altiokis snapped pettishly. "Cowards-I am surrounded by
cowards."
"My
lord," the Dark Eagle grated, "if you arrest without proof, there'll
be trouble among the Thanes..."
"Oh,
there's always trouble among the Thanes," the Wizard King retorted
angrily. "And there always has been-we needed only the excuse to put them
down. Let them come against me-if they dare. I will crush them..." The
dark, little eyes glittered unnaturally bright in the gloom. "... as I
will crush this slave."
He had
risen from his chair, his eyes holding Sun Wolf's, and the Wolf saw in the
wizard what had struck him before. There was very little that was human left of
the man. The fire within was eating it away, his soul literally rotting, like
the minds of the nuuwa. Like them, the Wolf realized, Altiokis existed almost solely
to devour.
Sun
Wolf fell back a step as the Wizard King raised the staff with its evil,
gleaming head. At a distance of several feet, he could already feel the searing
pain that radiated like waves of heat from the metal. Altiokis raised it, and the
Wolf retreated until he felt the sword points of the guards press his back.
"Are
you stupid," the Wizard King whispered, "or only a nerveless animal?
Or don't you believe what could happen to you here?"
"I
believe you," Sun Wolf said, keeping a wary eye on the staff, which
hovered a foot or so in front of his throat. His voice was a dry rasp, the only
sound in that hushed darkness of perfume and sweat. "I just don't believe
that anything I can say will stop you from doing what you choose."
It was
as polite a way as any he could think of to say that he made it a policy never
to argue with a crazy man.
A sneer
contorted the greasy face. "So it has wisdom, after all," the wizard
said. "Pity you did not exercise it sooner. I have lived longer than you
know. I am versed in the art of crushing the soul from the body, while leaving
the brain time for-reflection. I could put the blood worms on you, until a
month from now you would be nothing but a crawling mass of maggots, begging me
for the mercy of death. Or I could blind and cripple you with drugs and find a
job for you hauling bath water for my mercenaries-eh? Or I could wall you into
a stone room, with only a cup of water, and that water filled with anzid, and
leave you to choose between slow death from poison and slower from
thirst."
Sun
Wolf fought to keep his expression impassive, knowing full well that the fat
man had both the power and the inclination to mete out any one of those fates,
merely for the entertainment of seeing him die. But, sickened as he was by
horror, two things remained very clear in the back of his brain.
The
first was that Altiokis had never passed the Great Trial. He clearly had no
idea that anzid was anything other than a particularly loathsome poison. And
that meant that he had derived his power from some other source.
It
would explain some things, the Wolf thought, his mind struggling to grasp that
awareness. The power that pervaded the lower level of the tower and that filled
the mines was then not entirely from Altiokis' attenuated personality. It was
something else, something foul and filthy, not like Yirth's academic sorcery,
nor what the Wolf felt of the wild magic that seemed to fill his own soul. Was
the power only channeled through the Wizard King from the darkness that the
Eagle had spoken of, the darkness that dwelt in the innermost room of the
tower? A power that had no ambitions, but that Altiokis had seized upon to
fulfill his own?
The
second thing Sun Wolf realized was that, like a cruel child, Altiokis was
simply telling him this, not to learn any information, but in order to see him
break. He knew from his own experience that a screaming victim was more
satisfactory to watch. He did not doubt for a moment that they would get down
to the screaming sooner or later, but he was damned to the Cold Hells if he'd
give the Wizard King that pleasure now.
Altiokis'
face changed. "Or I could give you worse," he snarled. He snapped his
fingers for the Dark Eagle and his men. "Downstairs," he ordered.
"With me."
The
mercenaries closed in around Sun Wolf, dragging at his wrist chains, thrusting
from behind with their swords. A door opened in the wall, where no door had
been; the blue brimfire that floated over Altiokis' head illuminated the first
steps of a stair that curved down into darkness. The Wolf balked in sudden
terror at the power, the evil, that rose like a nauseating stench from the pit
below. The blackness seemed filled with an alien, hideous chill, like that from
the demons he had seen in the marshes of his childhood-a sensation of seeing
something that had risen from unknowable gulfs of nothingness, a sensing of
something that was not of this earth.
Someone
shoved a blade against his ribs, pushing him through the door. The soldiers
seemed unaware of what lay below; they could not know what he knew and still be
willing to go that way themselves. He almost turned to fight them in the
doorway, but Altiokis reached forward with his staff and used the glowing head
of it to drive the Wolf forward down the stairs. The men surrounded him again,
and the eldritch cold rose about them as they descended.
The
descent was less far than he had thought. The stair made one circle, then
leveled out; the floor, he saw, was rock and dirt. They must be at ground level,
at what had been the top of the crag, close to the cliff's edge. At the end of
the short, lightless vault of the hallway was a small door. Even as his soul
shrank from it, he thought, I have done this before.
The
room beyond was like the one Derroug Dru had shown him in the prison below the
Records Office in Mandrigyn. It was small and dank, furnished with a huge,
carved chair whose black velvet cushions boasted bullion tassels. The white
glow of the witchlight gleamed oilily on the wall of glass before the chair.
The only difference from that other chamber was that there was a door beside
the wide window that looked into darkness.
Something
like a restless flake of fire moved in that dark beyond the glass.
Sun
Wolf had known this was coming to him, all the long road up the mountain. In a
way, he had known it since Derroug Dru had first shown the abominations that
Altiokis had given him, in the cell beneath the Records Offices. Horror went
through the Wolf like a sword of ice; horror and despair and the terrified
consciousness that in that room, not in the fat man chuckling throatily beside
him, lay the center point of the evil power that pervaded the Citadel. Whatever
was in there, it was the source, not only of the creatures that turned men into
nuuwa, but of the power that had let Altiokis become the swollen and abominable
thing that he was.
Behind
the glass, the bright flake of fire zagged idly in the air, leaving a thin fire
trail in the stygian dark. It was waiting for him, waiting to devour his brain,
to make him one of the mewing, slobbering things that were filled, like the
dead stones of the Citadel, with Altiokis' perverted will.
Swords
pressed into Sun Wolf's back, forcing him toward the narrow door. All of his
senses seemed to have dulled and concentrated; he was conscious of no sound but
the frantic hammering of his own heart and of no sensation but the cold of
sweat pouring down his face and breast and arms. The sharpness of the steel was
driving him forward. His vision had shrunk to that idle flake of fire, to the
dark door, triple-barred with iron, and to the hands of the men unbarring it.
Cold
and evil seemed to flow forth from the black slot of the opening. With curious,
instantaneous clarity, he saw the round stone walls of Altiokis' original hut,
the weeds that lay dead and tangled about the edges, and the scuffed, fouled
dirt within. But all that was peripheral to the awareness of that black pit at
the center, a boundary less, anomalous, and utterly hideous vortex of absolute
darkness that seemed to open in the air of the room's center. It was a Hole, a
gap of nothingness that led into a universe beyond the ken of humankind.
Through it flowed the power that filled the Citadel, filled the nuuwa, and
filled Altiokis' corrupted, deathless flesh and rotting brain.
But
worse than the awareness of the power was the knowledge of the mind of the
Entity that lived within the Hole, of the Thing that was trapped there, its
thoughts reaching out to him, as shocking as ice water flowing over his naked
brain.
Not
human, nor demon ... demons were of this world, and quite ordinary and
comforting compared with that ice-cold, streaming black fire. Yet it was alive,
and it reached to fill him.
Hands
thrust him, unresisting, forward to the threshold of that tiny room. Unaware
that he spoke aloud, he said, "It's alive..." And in the last second,
as the guards shoved him in, he turned his head, meeting Altiokis' startled,
dilating eyes with a sudden knowledge of where he had seen that Thing before.
He said, "It gave you your power."
The
Wizard King was on his feet, shrieking. "Bring him out of there! Shut the
door!" His voice was frenzied, almost in panic.
The
guards wavered, uncertain whether they had heard aright. The Dark Eagle grabbed
Sun Wolf by the arm and pulled him backward, slamming the door to with a kick;
Sun Wolf staggered, as if he had been released from a chain that held him
upright, and found there was no strength left in him. He clutched the door
bolts for support.
Altiokis
was screaming, "Get him out of here! Get him away from here! He sees it!
He's a wizard! Get him away!"
"Him?"
the Eagle said, rather unwisely. "He's no wizard, my lord..."
Altiokis
strode forward, swinging his staff to knock Sun Wolf's hands from the door
bolts, as if he feared the Wolf would throw the door open and fling himself
inside. Ignoring his captain of mercenaries, Altiokis clutched with his fat,
jeweled hands at the grubby rags of what remained of Sun Wolf's tunic, his face
white with hatred and fear.
"Did
you see it?" he demanded in a stinking blast of liquor and rich food.
Exhausted,
leaning against the stone wall at his back for support, Sun Wolf whispered,
"Yes, I did. I see it now, in your eyes."
"It
might choose to call another wizard," the fat man gasped hoarsely, as if
he had not heard. "It could give him its power, if he were lucky, as I was
lucky..."
"I
wouldn't touch that power!" the Wolf cried, the thought more sickening to
him than the horror of that flake of fire boring steadily through his eye.
Again
the Wizard King appeared not to have heard him. "It could even give him
immortality." The black, lifeless eyes stared at Sun Wolf, desperate with
jealousy and terror. Then Altiokis whirled back to his guards, screaming,
"Get him out of here! Throw him to the nuuwa Get him out!"
Like
the tug of a fine wire embedded in his flesh. Sun Wolf felt the touch of that
black Entity in the Hole, whispering to his brain.
Furiously,
he thrust it aside, more frightened of it than of anything he had yet seen, in
the Citadel of Altiokis or out of it. He fought like a tiger as they half
dragged, half carried him along the maze of corridors to where a shallow flight
of steps led downward to a broad double door. Altiokis strode at their heels,
screaming incoherently, reviling the Eagle for bringing this upon him, and
cursing his own means of divination that had not shown him this new threat. One
of the guards ran ahead to peer through the judas in the door, and the faint yellow
bar of light from the westering sun picked out the scars on his face as he
looked. He called, "There are few of them out there now, me lord. They're
mostly gone in their dens."
"Open
their dens, then!" the Wizard King shrieked in a paroxysm of rage.
"And do it quickly, before I throw you out to keep him company!"
The man
darted off, his footfalls ringing on the stone of the passageway. Sun Wolf
twisted against the hands that gripped him, but far too many men were holding
him to give him purchase to fight. The doors at the bottom of the steps were
flung open, and sunlight struck him as the Dark Eagle shouted a command. He was
flung bodily down the steps, the harsh granite of them tearing at and bruising
his flesh as he rolled.
The
filthy reek of the nuuwa was all around him. As he heard the doors clang shut
above him, the shrill howls began to echo from all sides. He saw that he was in
the long ditch between the inner and outer walls. From various points in the
shade of the looming wall, a dozen nuuwa and two or three of the apelike
uglie-beasts were lolloping toward him, heads lolling, dripping mouths gaping
to slash.
Sun
Wolf knew already that there was no further hope of escape. The walls of the
ditch were too steep to climb. It was only a matter of time before he would be
overpowered, torn apart, and eaten alive. He flung himself back up the few
steps to where the embrasure of the door made a kind of hollow in the bald face
of the wall, taking advantage of the only cover in sight. He put his back to
the massive, brass-bound wood, gathered the five feet of chain that joined his
manacled hands, and swung at the first of the things that hurled itself upon
him. Brains and blood splattered from the burst skull. He swung again,
slashing, the heavy chain whining through the screaming, stinking air. Anything
to buy time-minutes, seconds even.
The
chain, close to thirty pounds of swinging iron, connected again, flinging the
creature that it hit back against two of its fellows. He brained one of them
while they were fighting each other; the remaining monstrosities named on him,
spitting mouthfuls of rotted flesh, and he slashed, swinging desperately,
keeping them off him as long as he could, praying to his ancestors to do
something, anything...
You can
control them, that black slip of fire whispered in his brain. Turn them aside.
Make them do your bidding.
Chain
connected with flesh. His wrists were scraped raw from the iron, and the smell
of the blood was driving the nuuwa to madness. He could feel himself tiring,
instant by instant, and knew to within a moment how long his strength would
last. All the while, the thought of the Entity he had seen, that black
intelligence glimpsed in the Hole and in the Wizard King's possessed eyes,
whispered to him the promise of the life that it could give him.
The
world had narrowed, containing nothing but blood-mouthed, eyeless faces,
ripping hands, pain and sweat and the foul reek of the air, screaming cries and
that terrible, nagging whisper of uncertainty in his brain. He was aware of
other sounds somewhere, distant noises in the Outer Citadel, a far-off howling
like the din of a faraway battle.
An
explosion jarred the ground. Then another, heavier, louder, nearer, and he
thought he heard, through the shrieking of the mindless things all around him,
the triumphal yells of men and the higher, wilder keening of women.
He was
aware that no new attackers were running toward him. He swung grimly at those
that remained, half conscious of things happening elsewhere in the long
ditch-of fighting somewhere-on the causeway-of fire...
Teeth
slashed at his leg and he stomped, breaking the neck of the uglie that had
crawled up below the arc of the swinging chain. Whatever else was happening was
only a distraction, a break in his concentration that could cost him his life.
Another
explosion sounded, this time very near, and it took all his will not to look.
The chain crushed a final skull, the last nuuwa fell, wriggling and snapping at
its own flesh, and he stood gasping in the doorway, looking up to see the
causeway drawbridge fall in flames.
The top
of the outer wall was a frieze work of struggling men. A rear guard of
black-armored soldiers was being cut to pieces on the causeway itself. What
looked tike an army of black and filthy gnomes was pouring through the causeway
gate and down makeshift ladders into the ditch, brandishing picks, adzes, and
weapons stolen, from the armories in the mines. The blood of their wounds
gleamed bright through the rock dust, and their screams of triumph and anger
shook the air.
Then he
heard a voice pitched as only a warrior's could be to carry over the roar of
battle-the one voice that, of all others, he would have given anything he had
ever possessed to hear again.
"DUCK,
YOU OAF!"
He
ducked as an axe splintered into the wood of the door where his head had been.
He saw the advancing forces of the Dark Eagle's mercenaries pouring down from
the other side of the causeway to meet the miners in battle in the ditch. With
a great scraping of bolts, the doors behind him were thrown open, and
reinforcements poured through in a mixed tide of mercenaries, regulars, and
nuuwa. The battle was joined on the corpse-strewn steps around him.
Somehow,
Starhawk was there, where he knew she always should be, fighting like a demon
at his side.
"I
thought I told you to go back!" he yelled at her over the general chaos.
His chain smashed the helmet and skull of a mercenary before him.
"Rot
that!" she yelled back. "I've quit the troops and I'll look for you
as long as I bloody well please! Here..." She stooped to wrench a sword
free from the dead fingers that still grasped it and thrust the bloody hilt at
him. "This will get you farther than that silly chain."
"Cheap,
rotten, general-armory issue," he grumbled, testing the edge on the neck
of an advancing nuuwa. "If you were going to get me a sword, you might at
least have made it a decent one."
"Gripe,
gripe, gripe, all you ever do is gripe," she retorted, and he laughed, teeth
gleaming white through the filthy stubble of his beard, joyful only to be with
her again.
They
were silent then, except for the wordless yelling of battle, merging with the
dirty mob of the advancing forces. But he was conscious of her at his side, battle-cold
and bright, filled with concentrated fire, and he wondered how he had ever
thought her plain.
The men
now around him were gaunt as wolves but rock-muscled from hard labor, their
dusty hides striped with the scars of beatings. He knew they were the husbands,
the lovers, or the brothers of those crazy and intrepid wildcats he'd spent the
winter training. There were more of them than he'd thought; the long ditch was
rapidly filling with men. The gate at the top of the steps was disgorging more and
more of Altiokis' troops. The melee was deafening. A momentary sortie drove the
miners down the blood-slick steps, and he heard a woman's voice-Sheera's
voice-raised in a piercing rallying cry.
Someone
came running up behind him, and he swung around, sword ready, heavy chain
rattling. A dusty little man yelled, "Are you Sun Wolf?"
"Yes."
Under the grime, he saw that the man's hair was flame-gold, the mark of the
royal House of Her, and he asked, "Are you Tarrin?"
"Yes."
"Does
one of your people have the key to this mother-loving chain?"
"No,
but we've got an axe to cut the links free. We'll get rid of the bracelets
later."
"Fine,"
the Wolf said. Eo loomed up out of the confusion of the fight, half a head
taller than Tarrin and brandishing an enormous axe. Tarrin positioned the chain
over a corner of the stone steps; they all winced as the axe blade slammed
down.
"You
girls make it in all right?" the Wolf asked, after Eo had whacked the
chain free of the bracelet on his other wrist.
Her
reply was drowned in the renewed din of the fighting, the sounds of the
struggle rising like a voiceless howling, elemental as a storm. More men were
pouring from the doors, impossible numbers of them-the Wolf had not thought
there were that many in the fortress. He caught up his sword and plowed back
into the fray on the steps at Tarrin's heels. Eo followed with her axe. Battle
separated them. Sun Wolf pressed upward, fighting his way to the shadow of the
gate, where the line of defenders was weakening. Freed of the chain's weight,
he felt he could fight forever.
He
slashed and cut, until the sword embedded in flesh and bone. He looked down to
pull it loose and froze in nauseated horror at what he saw. The flesh of his
arms was white with leprosy.
He
didn't see the enemy sword that slashed at his neck until Starhawk's blade
deflected it, so frozen was he by sickened despair. She yelled at him,
"It's an illusion! Wolf! Stop it! It isn't real!"
He
looked up at her, his face gray with shock. She, too, had momentarily stopped
fighting, though the battle raged on all sides of them.
"It's
an illusion, rot your eyes! Do you think leprosy takes hold that fast? That's
how he won at Iron Pass. We've already been through six things like this coming
out of the mines!"
Her own
face was blotched with it, like lichen on stone. But as he blinked at her, his
mind coming back into focus, he saw that what she said was true. As with the
seeing of demons, he became aware that by changing his perceptions slightly, he
could see the whole flesh under the superimposed illusion of rot. Blood and
anger slammed, raging, back into his veins. The men and women struggling all
around him didn't have his power to see through, or Yirth's power to combat,
illusions- but they had seen the Wizard King's illusions before. And now they
were too angry to care.
Cursing
like a bullwhacker, the Wolf threw himself back into the fray. He could see
through the gate to the corridors beyond, clogged with Altiokis' troops; and,
as if the realization that the leprosy was an illusion had somehow cleared a
block from his eyes, he saw that three-quarters of these new warriors were
illusion as well. By the way they cut at them, the others could not tell the
difference, and he knew himself to be fighting as a wizard would fight, and
seeing as a wizard would see. Starhawk, at his side, slashed at one of the
insubstantial figures as a real warrior cut at her with a halberd. Sun Wolf
hacked the man's head off before the blow landed and wondered how many others
would fall to just such a fraud. Behind him, he heard a man cry out in terror.
He whirled, looking into the darkness of the Citadel gate. There was something
there, visible behind the backs of the retreating sortie, a shapeless shape of
luminous horror, a coldness that ate at the bones. Altiokis' men were
retreating through the doors. Tarrin and his miners were unwilling to follow,
frozen by the coming of that horrible fog and what was within it. They fell
back toward the sunlight of the ditch, and the doors began to swing shut, as if
of themselves.
Sun
Wolf, left momentarily alone with Starhawk by the ebbing forces, scanned the
darkness, searching it with his mind rather than with his eyes... and finding
nothing but the shape of Altiokis, far back among those glowing wraiths, his
hands weaving the illusion from the air.
He
bellowed, "It's an illusion, dammit! Don't let them close the gate!"
He plunged forward, hearing Starhawk's footfalls at his heels. He heard her
voice somewhere in back of him, calling out to the others, and heard them
follow. Then he heard the gate slam behind him.
The
luminous fog vanished. His arms, as he glimpsed them, swinging his sword at the
men who crowded toward him, were clean again. There were few of Altiokis' men
still around the gate, the rest having gone to the fighting on the walls, and
those few he dispatched or drove away. Then he plunged after the retreating
shape of the Wizard King.
The
darkness beneath the Citadel seemed thicker than it had before, defeating even
his abilities to pierce it. He tore a torch from its holder, and the smoke of
it streamed like a banner in his wake. Altiokis' fruity laugh taunted him from
the black hole of a corridor arch; Sun Wolf sensed a trap and advanced
cautiously, the curious perception that detected reality from illusion showing
him the ghostly outlines of the spiked pit in the floor beneath the illusion of
damp flagstones. He edged past it on the narrow walkway that the Wizard King
had used; but by then his quarry was out of sight.
He
seemed to be caught in a maze of twisting rooms and corridors, of doors that
opened to nowhere, and of traps in the wails and floor. Once nuuwa attacked him
in a room that had seemed empty-purposefully, controlled by another mind, as
the nuuwa had fought in the battle. He cut at them with sword and fire, wedging
himself into a niche in the wall. As he split skulls and burned the dirty hair
and rotted flesh, he felt again that eerie little whisper at the back of his
consciousness.
You can
control them yourself. You only have to give a little pan of your mind to that
cold, black fire, and you can control them ... and other things as well.
Turn
away, and what can you offer this woman you want except a battered and
poverty-stricken wanderer? Do you really think Art will give up the troop to
you?
He
remembered the sightless blaze burning in the rotted remains of Altiokis'
failing brains and fought grimly, humanly, bloodily, exhaustedly. He killed two
of the nuuwa, and the rest of them drew back, retreating into the stone mazes
away from his torchlight, dodging through the stone walls like bats.
Altiokis,
he reflected, must be running out of nuuwa if he's started conserving them.
Grimly,
he pursued.
There
was a trap of some kind in one guardroom. His hypersensitive sense of direction
let him pick out a way around it, seeking the source of the fat man's wheezing
breath. He saw Aitiokis then, fleeing up a dark corridor. The torchlight
bounced crazily over the rough stone of the walls as the Wolf ran. It glittered
on the blood that smeared his arms and on the far-off glint of the jewels on
the Wizard King's doublet. He heard the gasping of Altiokis and the stumbling,
clumsy footsteps. Ahead, he saw a narrow door, bound and bolted with steel. A
darkness, a last illusion, confused his sight, but he heard the door open and
shut.
He
flung himself at it, tore it open, and plunged through, holding the torch aloft
to see. As he passed through the door, he realized that the wall in which it
was set was the same as the wall of that tiny, windowed chamber-the rough stone
wall of the original hut that Altiokis had built in a night.
And he
knew that Altiokis had never come through that door.
It
crashed shut behind him, and he heard the bolts slam home. He turned, gasping,
his lungs stifling with terror. Black and empty, the Hole of darkness lay
before him, absorbing and drowning the light of the flames. On the far side of
the Hole, he could make out the window to the observation room and the narrow
door beside it-the door, as he recalled, that Altiokis had not bolted when he'd
ordered Sun Wolf out of the room.
But the
width of the room lay between it and the Wolf, and the ugly, evil, screaming
depths of that silent blackness lay between. The sword dropped from his
nerveless fingers at the thought of having to walk past it; he could see the
light of the torch wavering over the shadowy walls with the shaking of his
hand. He stood paralyzed, conscious of the Entity that he would have to pass
and of the mindless intelligence of fire and cold trapped these hundreds of
years between this universe and whatever arcane depths of unreason it called
its home.
Something
bright nickered in the comer of his vision, like a spark floating on the air.
Too late, he remembered the other danger, the horror that even the Entity that
wanted his mind could not prevent. As he wrenched his face away, fire exploded
in his left eye, a numbing, searing blast followed by the horrible wash of
pain. From his eye, it seemed to be spreading throughout every muscle of his
body. He could hear himself screaming, and his knees were buckling with agony.
With a curiously clear sliver of the remains of rational thought, he knew
exactly how many seconds of consciousness he had left, and the single thing
that he must do.
CHAPTER
21
THE
DOOR OF THE WINDOWED OBSERVATION ROOM WAS PUSHED carefully open. Altiokis,
Wizard King of the greatest empire since the last rulers of Gwenth had retired
in a huff to their respective monasteries, peeked cautiously around the
door-jamb.
The big
mercenary lay face-down on the floor a few feet away. He must, Altiokis
thought, have gotten through the door somehow-a glance showed that it wasn't
bolted-in his final agony. A trickle of blood ran out from beneath his head.
Altiokis
relaxed and smiled with relief. His earlier panic had been absurd. Drink is
making me foolish, he thought with a self-indulgent sigh. I really should take
less. He had always suspected that the Entity in the Hole had no real control
over the gaums, and it was for that reason that he had never gone near it
unprotected. But there was always the risk that some other wizard would know
the secret of destroying them-if there was a secret.
He
frowned. There was so much that his own master- whatever the old puff-guts'
name had been-had never told him. And so much that he had been told had not
made sense.
He
padded into the little room, two nuuwa shuffling at his heels. Really, it had
only been sheerest luck that he hadn't become a nuuwa himself, he thought,
looking down at that huge, tawny body at his feet. All those years ago. How many had it been? There seemed to be so
many periods of time that he couldn't quite recall. It was only by sheerest
chance that the men he'd been out with that night-the old Thane's men, silly
old bastard!-had their eyes burned out and their brains destroyed, while he hid
in the brush and watched. Oh, he'd heard of the Holes, but he'd never thought
to see one. And he'd never realized that Something lived in them.
Something,
that is, other than gaums.
That
was another thing old-old-whatever his name was- had never bothered to tell
him.
Altiokis
bent down. A wizard! After all these years, he'd hardly expected that any dared
to oppose him still. But there were those he hadn't accounted for, over the
years, and perhaps they'd had students. That was the big advantage, he'd found
about living forever, as the Entity in the Hole had promised him he might do.
Well,
not promised; exactly. He couldn't recall. Nevertheless, he had won again, and
he gave a delighted little giggle at the thought as he bent down to examine his
newest recruit to the ranks of the mindless.
A hand
closed around his throat like a vise of iron. With bulging eyes, Altiokis found
himself staring down into a face that was scarcely human; the one eye socket
was empty and charred with fire, but the other eye was alive, sane, and filled
with livid pain and berserker rage.
The fat
wizard let out one gasping squeak of terror. Then Sun Wolf found himself
holding, not a man, but a leopard by the throat.
Claws
raked his back. His hands dug through the soft, loose flesh of the white-ruffed
throat. Even shape-changed, Altiokis was a fat, old animal. The Wolf rolled to
his feet, dragging the twisting, snarling thing toward the narrow door of the
room where the Hole waited. Peripherally, his single eye caught the bright
movement of more of the fire-flecks beyond the glass, and the smoldering yellow
glow of the torch where it lay, burning itself out on the stone floor. The
leopard must have known, too; for its struggles redoubled, then suddenly
changed, and Sun Wolf found himself with nine feet of cobra between his hands.
It was
only for a moment. The tail lashed at his legs, but the poisonous head was
prisoned helplessly in his grip.
The
next thing was horrible, something he had never seen before, bloated and
chitinous, with clawed legs and tentacles raking at him like whips. He yanked
open the door.
The
nuuwa stirred uneasily, held still by the tangle of forces in the room. The
Wolf could feel Altiokis' mind drawing and blocked it with his own. With the
door open, the whispering in the thoughts was overwhelming. Past the shrieking
mouths and flailing antennae of that horrible head between his hands, he could
see the movement in the darkness, surrounded by the mindlessly devouring motes
of flame. The thing in his hands twisted and lashed, and the blood ran fresh
from his clawed shoulders and from the ruined socket of his eye. The monster
was hideously strong; he felt the muscle and sinew of his arm cracking under
the weight of it, but he refused to release his strangling grip.
As they
struggled on the threshold of that vile room, Altiokis became once again a fat
man, crazy and sweating with fear. Sun Wolf slung the man inside and crashed
the door shut with all his strength. It heaved under the weight thrown against
it. He shot the bolts and stood hanging onto them, as he had done before,
feeling them jerk and pull under his hands with desperate spells of opening.
The two nuuwa jiggled from foot to foot, and he threw the barriers of his mind
against them, keeping them from understanding, wondering if it would be worth
it, just this once, to yield to the drag in his mind and order them away.
Then
the screaming started. The fight to free the door bolts ceased; he heard
Altiokis blundering around the room, shrieking with agony, hitting the wall,
and falling. Sun Wolf leaned against the door, sickened by the sound,
remembering those endless seconds and counting them down.
He had
been in enough dirty fighting to know how to gouge out an eye. He doubted that
Altiokis had the knowledge and the resolution to do it or the determination
needed to sear the bleeding socket with fire. The brutal action had saved him,
but he was sure that he would never-could never-erase from his mind the long
seconds that it had taken him to nerve himself to do it.
He knew
by the screaming and by the change in the behavior of the nuuwa when what
remained of Altiokis' mind was gone. He turned the nuuwa's attention to the
opposite walls and walked nonvisible, between them and out into the Citadel.
The
black flames tittered in his mind.
Hearing
the yelling confusion that came to him from every corner, he guessed that the
nuuwa, released from control, had become as they were outside Altiokis'
domains-randomly rampaging, turning on the troops beside whom they had fought.
He
plunged down the corridors, finding his way back to the entrance into the ditch
from whence he had come.
The
doors were barred. He could hear the slam of a battering rams against them and,
faintly, Tarrin's ringing voice. But the defenders, clutched in a comer,
fighting the small swarm of nuuwa that had suddenly turned upon them, were in
no shape to prevent him from dragging back the bars.
Two of
the nuuwa broke away from the main group and shambled toward him, groaning and
slavering, as the first blazing crack of daylight opened through the doors. He
started to order them away and stopped himself. His brain seemed to be swimming
in dark, murmuring liquid, his thoughts struggling against insistent, alien
urges.
Men
poured through the gate around him. He found himself clutching the doorposts
for support. Then hands were gripping his arms. A voice called him back to
himself.
"Chief!
What in the name of the Mother happened to you?"
He
clutched Starhawk's shoulders, holding to her as if to the last spar of sanity
in the sea in which he felt himself sinking. "That Thing-the Thing in the
room..."
"The
Hole?"
His eye
focused. He noted distantly, automatically, that his depth perception was gone
and that he'd have to retrain to compensate. The slanted light of late
afternoon that streamed through the gate showed him Starhawk's face, grimy,
bloody, and unsurprised. Her gray eyes were dear, looking into his. Though
there was no reflection of it in her face, he realized that he himself must
have been a choice sight. Trust the Hawk, he thought, not to ask stupid
questions until there's time to answer them.
"How
did you know?"
"The
wizard Anyog told me," she said. He realized he hadn't seen her in four
months; it only seemed like yesterday. "Where is it?"
"Back
there. Don't go near it. Don't go in that room with it..."
His
hands left patches of bloody dirt where they rested on her shoulders. She shook
her head. "Is there any room near it? Around it-to put blasting powder
from the mines? We were bringing some up to take care of the gate."
"Blasting
powder?" The draw on his mind was growing stronger. He wasn't sure he had
heard.
"To
blow out the walls," she explained. "Daylight will destroy it."
She put a hand to his face, slimy with the scum of battle, gentle as a lover's.
"Wolf, are you all right?"
She
wasn't asking about his eye or the claw marks and sword cuts that covered his
body as if he had rolled in broken glass. She knew his physical toughness. Her
fears for him went deeper than that.
"Daylight,"
he said thickly. "Then... The hut was built at night."
"Yes,
I know," she said.
He
didn't bother to ask her how she knew. A darkness seemed to be edging its way
into his thoughts, and he shook his head, as if to clear it. "Altiokis'
forces are still holding that part of the Citadel," he said. "You'll
have to fight your way in."
"Is
the room itself guarded?"
He
shook his head.
"Then
we'll make it. We can leave a long fuse..."
Others
had come up to them. The battle was raging past into the corridors. Sheera's
voice gasped, "Chief! Your eye!" Amber Eyes' hand on his arm was
suddenly motherly in spite of the fact that her arms were smeared with blood to
the shoulders. A viselike grip that he recognized as Denga Rey's closed over
his elbow, offering support.
Starhawk
gave them a rapid precis of what needed to be done. The women nodded, evidently
on terms of great friendliness with her. Sun Wolf wondered suddenly how
Starhawk happened to be there in the first place, then discarded the thought as
irrelevant. It was true that in the crisis of battle, the most appalling
coincidences were commonplace.
Amber
Eyes said, "We can't leave a long fuse, though. It would have to be long
enough to let us get clear of the Citadel. In that time, someone would find
it."
"You're
right," the Hawk agreed.
"Could
we wait until the battle's over?" Sheera asked. "By nightfall we
should have the place. Altiokis' forces are holed up in the upper part of the
tower-once they got clear of their own nuuwa, that is. Then we could-"
"No,"
Sun Wolf said hoarsely. The Thing-the voice, the urge, whatever it was-he could
feel it tearing at the fraying edges of his mind, growing stronger as final
exhaustion took its toll on his body. Sunrise tomorrow seemed hideously far
away. "It has to be before sunset tonight."
Amber
Eyes and Denga Rey looked at him, deeply troubled, but Starhawk nodded.
"He's right," she said. "If there's some kind of living thing,
some kind of intelligence in the Hole, we can't give it the night to work
in."
"We've
only got about an hour and a half until sunset," Denga Rey observed
doubtfully.
"So
we have to work fast. We can stack powder around it. Damned good thing Tarrin
had it brought up from the mines to blow the gate or we'd be forever getting
it."
"Yirth
could light it from a distance," Amber Eyes said suddenly. "I've seen
her light torches and candles just by looking at them. If we could get her out
here, then she could light the powder..."
"Get
her," Sheera said.
The
lovers vanished in opposite directions. He leaned back against the wall behind
him, suddenly weak, his mind drifting. The roar of battle seemed to sink to an
unreal whispering.
"Chief!"
He
blinked into Starhawk's frightened face. Somehow, Amber Eyes and Denga Rey were
back, and Yirth was with them, standing with Sheera, grouped around him as they
had been on the ship. He thought for a moment that he had fainted, but found he
was still on his feet, leaning against the stone arch of the gate, the long
fosse with its carpet of trampled dead stretching away to both sides.
He
shook his head, with a sensation of having lost time. "What
happened?"
"I
don't know," Starhawk said. By the pale light that came through the
gateway beside him, her scarred, fine-boned face looked as calm and cold-blooded
as ever, but he could hear the fear in her voice. "You were-you were gone.
I talked to you, but it was as if you were listening to something else."
"I
was," he said grimly, suddenly understanding. "Yirth, can you set
fire to something at a distance without having seen it first?"
The
witch's dark brows plunged in a startled frown. She alone of them, though she
wore a man's doublet and breeches for convenience, bore no marks of physical
fighting. But under the crown of her tight-braided hair, her harsh face was set
with fatigue, the ugly smear of the birthmark appearing almost black against
her pallor. She looked older, the Wolf thought, than she had before she'd led
the women through the traps into the Citadel. All her scars would be upon the
fabric of her mind.
"I
cannot set fire to anything at a distance," she said. "I must see it
to bring fire."
The
others stared at her, shocked at the limitation; the Wolf was puzzled.
"You can't-can't bring fire to a place that you know in your mind?"
he asked. "Can't form it in your mind?" The act of bringing fire
seemed so easy to him, though he had never done it-like turning away the minds
of those who sought him, or changing the way he saw things, to pierce another
wizard's illusions.
She
shook her head, clearly not understanding what he meant. "You can,
perhaps," she said. "But it lies beyond my power."
So it
was Sun Wolf, after all, who had to lead the small crew through the winding
mazes, toward the Hole once again. Yirth followed them, though he had warned
her against entering the observation room of the Hole itself; two or three of
the freed miners helped carry the sacks of blasting powder. To Sun Wolf's ears,
the fighting was far off in the upper part of the tower and, by the sound of
it, it was turning into the grim, messy business of mopping up, fighting in
pockets here and there-the bloody scrag ends of battle.
Closer
and more real in his own mind was the buzzing darkness that ate at the corners
of his consciousness, demanding, insistent as a scarcely bearable tickling. He
rested his hand on Starhawk's shoulder for support and saw, almost
disinterestedly, that his fingers were trembling. He was conscious in a
half-detached way of the sun sliding down the outside walls of the Citadel, changing
colors as it approached the ragged horizon; though, when he mentioned to Yirth
this awareness of things he could not actually see, she shook her head and
looked at him strangely with her jade-colored eyes. The Entity whispering in
his mind was more real to him than his own body, more real than the stone halls
through which he stumbled like a mechanical thing-more real than anything
except the sharp bones of the shoulder beneath his hand and the cold, pale silk
of hair that brushed the backs of his fingers when Starhawk turned her head.
Through
the little window of the observation room, they could see that Altiokis was
still moving. Rolling, flopping grotesquely, he would occasionally stagger to
his feet or mouth at the window glass. The jewels of his clothing had caught on
the rough walls and ripped as he'd moved, and fat, white flesh bulged through
the rents. One eye was gone, the other already being eaten away from within;
his face was starting to change, as the faces of nuuwas did. Sheera made a gagging
noise in her throat and looked away.
Sun
Wolf scarcely saw. He remained by the door while the sacks of powder were
stacked in the room and in the hall beyond, where Yirth waited. There was
enough powder to blow out the whole western wall of the Citadel. His gaze went
past the window, past the darkness, to deeper darkness, where he could see the
Thing moving.
The
giggling, scratching sensation in his brain was almost unendurable. It knew
him. Threads of it permeated every fiber of his consciousness; he had a
momentary, disturbed vision of himself, visible in the shadows through the
thick, black glass of the window, his half-naked body clawed and filthy, his
wrists still weighted with the iron bracelets, the blood from the ripped flesh
of them slowly dripping down his fingers; his left eye was a charred and gory
pit in a face white with shock and strain. The other people in this vision were
mere puppets, grotesque, jerking, and unreal as they stumbled about their
meaningless tasks. The Entity-whatever it was-could no more see them than they
could see it. They were only half-guessed shapes, more like monkeys than human
beings.
He
watched as one of the shapes shambled up to him and reached a fiddling, picking
hand out to touch him.
He
closed his eyes, and the vision dissolved. When he opened them, Starhawk was
looking worriedly into his face. "Chief?"
He
nodded. "I'm all right." His voice sounded like the faint rasp of a
fingernail scraping metal. He looked around him, fixing the room in his mind-the
stone walls, the shadows, the grayish-white cotton of the sacks that he knew
the flames would lick over when he called them, and the carved ebony chair,
shoved unceremoniously into a corner.
Starhawk
and Denga Rey supported him between them as they led him from the room.
"You
sure this is going to work?" Sheera asked nervously.
"No,"
the Wolf said.
"Could
Yirth..."
"No,"
Starhawk said. "We have enough problems without its getting its claws into
another wizard."
They
turned a corner and followed a narrow passage toward the gate. With the
smoothness of a door closing before them, the way was suddenly filled with
armed men in black mail. The Dark Eagle stood at their head.
"I
thought," he said, smiling, "that we would still find you wandering
around here. And Starhawk, too... You did bring your men, after all." The
Eagle's swarthy face was grimed with blood and dirt in the torchlight, the
swirling, petal-edged crests of his helmet torn and hacked with battle, their
dark blue edges black in places and dripping; but through it all, his grin was
no less bright.
"Let
us out of here," Sun Wolf said in a voice that shook. This is no time for
fighting."
"No?"
One black brow lifted. "The nuuwa seem all to have gone crazy, but we
should be able to drive them off the walls without much trouble. Altiokis
should be pleased to hear-"
"Aitiokis
is dead," the Wolf whispered, fighting to keep his thoughts clear and to
keep the words that he spoke his own and not those that crowded, unbidden and
unknown, to his throat. His harsh voice had turned slow and stammering, picking
at his words. "His power is broken for good-there's no need to fight-just
let us out..."
The
mercenary captain smiled slowly; one of his men laughed. Sheera made a move to
draw her sword, and Starhawk caught her wrist, knowing it would do no good.
"Quite
a convincing tale," the Dark Eagle said. "But considering that I have
here my lord Tarrin's lady-no uncommon general, I might add, my lady-not to
mention the witch who led the miners through the traps and into the Citadel-if
my lord is dead, which I have yet to believe, the power he wielded will be up
for the taking. We can-"
"If
you can touch the power he had, it will snuff your brains out like a candle
flame," the Wolf said harshly. "Go down the corridor and through the
door. Look through that pox-rotten glass of his-look at what you see. Then come
back, and we'll talk about power!" His voice was trembling with strain and
rage, his brain blinded with the effort of holding itself together against
those tearing, muttering, black roots that were thrusting it apart. "Now
let us the hell out of here, unless you want that Thing in there to take root
in my brain as it did in his!"
The
Dark Eagle stood for a moment, staring up into Sun Wolf's face, into the
hagridden, half-mad, yellow eye that stared from the mass of clotted cuts,
stubble, and filth. The captain's own face, under the soot and grime of battle,
was smooth, an unreadable blank. Then without a word, he signed to his men to
let Sun Wolf and the women pass. The Dark Eagle turned and walked down the
corridor toward Altiokis' observation room.
Sun
Wolf had no recollection of passing the gate of the Inner Citadel or crossing
the causeway over the fosse that was littered with the bodies of the slain. The
men the Dark Eagle had sent to guard them halted at the far end of the
causeway, and the Wolf slumped down in the shadows of the turreted gates, with
his back against the raw, powder-burned stone. Looking back, he could see the
lowers of the Inner Citadel alive with men and nuuwa, fighting in the corridors
or looting the gilded halls. The shrieking came to him in a vast, chaotic din,
and the shivering air was rank with the smoke of burning. The sinking sunlight
gilded huge, billowing clouds of smoke that poured, black or white, from the
tower windows. Heat danced above the walls, and now and then a man or a nuuwa
would come running in flames from some inner hall, to fall screaming over the
parapet, gleaming against the sunset like a brand. In the direction of the
distant sea, torn rags of cloud covered the sky. It would be a night of storm.
Wind
touched his face, the breath of the mountains, polluted by the stinks of
battle. Everything seemed remote to him, like something viewed through a heavy
layer of black glass. He wondered idly if that had been how things appeared to
Altiokis-unreal, a little meaningless. No wonder he had sought the grossest and
most immediate sensations; they were all he could feel. Or had his perceptions
changed after he had given up?
Darkness
seemed to be closing in on Sun Wolf. He reached out blindly, not wholly certain
what it was that he sought, and a long, bony hand gripped his. The pressure of
Starhawk's strong fingers helped clear his mind. His remaining eye met hers;
her face appeared calm under the mask of filth and cuts; the sunset light was
like brimstone on her colorless hair. Against the grime, her eyes appeared
colorless, too, clear as water.
Beyond
her, around them, the women stood like a bodyguard, their own blood and that of
their enemies vivid on their limbs against the rock dust of the mines. He was
aware of Yirth watching him, arms folded, those sea-colored eyes intent upon
his face; he wondered if, when his mind gave up and was drowned in blackness,
she would kill him.
He
hoped so. His hand tightened over Starhawk's.
There
was a brief struggle on the far end of the causeway. A sword flashed in the
sinking light; one of the soldiers at that, in the armor of Altiokis' private
troops, went staggering over the edge into the ditch.
The
Dark Eagle came striding back, sheathing his sword as be picked his way
carefully across the makeshift of rope and pole that had been thrown up to
replace the burned drawbridge. Under the tattered wrack of his torn helmet
crests, his face was green-white and gray about the mouth, as if he had just
got done heaving up his farthest guts. The dying sunlight caught on the gilded
helmet spike as on a spear.
When he
came near, he asked, "How do you mean to destroy it?"
"Light
the powder," Sheera said. "Tarrin and the men are clear of the place
now."
"There
are nuuwa all over the corridors," the Eagle informed her, speaking as he
might speak to any other captain. And so she looked, Sun Wolf thought, with her
half-unraveled braids and black leather breast guards, her perilous beauty all
splattered with blood. "By God and God's Mother, I've never seen such a
hell! You'll never get back to put a fuse to it. And even if you did..."
"The
Wolf can light it," Starhawk said quietly. "From here."
The
Dark Eagle looked down curiously at the slumped figure propped among the women
against the wall. His blue eyes narrowed. "His Nibs was right, then,"
he said.
Sun
Wolf nodded- Fire and cold were consuming his flesh; voices echoed to him,
piping and far away. The shadow of the tower already lay long over the fosse
and touched him like a finger of the coming darkness.
Fumblingly,
as if in a drugged nightmare, he began to put together the picture of the
observation room in his mind.
He
could not see it clearly-there were nuuwa there, shambling over everything,
blundering into walls, shrieking at their mindless brother and maker, who
clawed and screamed through the black glass. He formed the shadows in his mind,
the shapes of the powder sacks, the harsh lines of the broken chair...
The
images blurred.
Suddenly
sharp, he saw them from the other side of the window.
He
pushed the image away with an almost physical violence. It intruded itself into
his mind again, like a weapon pushed into his hands. But he knew if he grasped
that weapon, he would never be able to light the flame.
Both
images died. He found himself huddled, shaking and dripping with sweat, in the
blue shadow of the tower, the cold wind licking at his chilled flesh. He
whispered, "I can't."
Starhawk
was holding his hands. Trembling as if with fever, he raised his head and
looked at the setting sun, which seemed to lie straight over the mountain
horizon now, glaring at him like a baleful eye. He tried to piece together the
image of the room and had it unravel in his hands into darkness. He shook his
head. "I can't."
"All
right," the Hawk said quietly. "There's time for me to go in with a
fuse."
It
would have to be a short fuse, he thought... There were nuuwa everywhere ... If
she didn't get out by the time it went off...
There
would be no time for her to get out before the sun set. And it was quite
possible that she knew it.
"No,"
he whispered as she turned to go. He heard her steps pause. "No," he
said in a stronger voice. He closed his eyes, calling nothing yet, losing
himself in a chill, sounding darkness. He heard her come back, but she did not
touch him, would not distract him.
Small,
single, and precise he called it, not in pieces but all at once-room, shadows,
chair, powder, window, nuuwa, darkness. He summoned the reality in his mind,
distant and glittering as an image seen in fire, and touched the gray cotton of
the sacks with a licking breath of fire. The nuuwa, startled by the sudden
heat, drew back.
The
thunderous roar of the explosion jerked the ground beneath him. The noise of it
slammed into his skull. Through his closed eyes, he could see stones leaping
outward, sunlight smashing into the centuries of darkness... light ripping
where that darkness had taken hold of his brain.
He
remembered screaming, but nothing after that.
CHAPTER
22
"THERE
ISN'T THAT MUCH MORE TO TELL."
STARHAWK CROSSED her long legs and tucked her bare feet up under the
tumble of sheets and flowered silk quilts at the end of the bed. Against the
dark embroidery of her shirt and the gaily inlaid bedpost at her back, she
looked bleached, clean as crystal, remote as the winter sky, with her long,
bony hands folded around her knees. "Amber Eyes had a picked squad of the
prettiest girls- Gilden and Wilarne were two of them-and they tarted themselves
up and went in first, to slit the throats of the gate guards before they knew
what was happening. The alarm was out after that, but it was too late to keep
the troop out of the mines; once we'd made it to the first of the armories and
Tarrin got his men rallied, it was easy."
Sun
Wolf nodded. From long professional association, he understood what Starhawk
meant by easy. The women all bore wounds of hard fighting. Twelve of the fifty
had died in the darkness of the mines, never knowing whether their cause would
succeed or not. But the fight had been straightforward, with a clear goal. He
doubted whether either Starhawk or Sheera had ever questioned their eventual
victory.
He
leaned back against the silken bolsters and blinked sleepily at the primrose
sunlight that sparkled so heatlessly on the diamond-paned windows. Waking in
this room, he had not been certain of his surroundings. It turned out that this
was Sheera's best guest room, and that amused him. Never in his stay in
Sheera's household had he been permitted inside the main house. He had half
expected to wake up in the loft over the orangery again.
Sheera
had not yet come.
"She'll
be at the coronation," Starhawk said. "It killed me to miss it, but
Yirth said she'd rather not have you left alone. Yirth stayed with you
yesterday when I went to the wedding- Sheera and Tarrin's, I mean. There was a
hell of a dust kicked up over it with the parliament, because Tarrin and Sheera
insisted that they be married first and then crowned as joint rulers, rather
than have Tarrin crowned King and then take Sheera as Queen Consort." She
shrugged. "Parliament's meeting this afternoon, and there'll be a
town-wide gorge on free food and wine all night to celebrate. Tomorrow, if
you're up to it, you'll be received by Tarrin and Sheera in the Cathedral
Square."
He
nodded, identifying at last the faint wisps of noise that had formed a
background to the room. It was music and cheers, coming from the direction of
the Grand Canal. If the town had found time to reorganize itself for
celebrations, he realized, he must have been unconscious for longer than he had
thought.
He smiled,
picturing to himself the jewel-box vaults of the Cathedral of the Three and
Sheera in a gown of gold. Drypettis had been more right than she knew. Sheera
was worthy to be Queen-but Queen on her own terms and not on any man's. He was
glad she'd achieved it, no matter what the hapless Tarrin had felt on the
subject.
"What
do you think of her?" he asked. "Sheera, I mean."
Starhawk
laughed. "I love her," she said. "She's the damnedest woman I've
ever met. She's a good general, too, you know, easily better than Tarrin. She
always had her forces at her fingertips-always knew what was going on. Even in
the worst of it, getting through the traps that guarded the ways up to the
Citadel, she never batted an eye. Yirth showed her the true way, and she followed,
through illusion and fire and all hell else. The rest had no choice but to do
the same."
Sun
Wolf grinned and reached up to touch the bandage over his eye that would soon
be replaced by the patch that he would wear for life. "Even a man's
deepest fear of magic," he said in his hoarse voice, "isn't strong
enough to make him admit that he's afraid to follow where a woman leads."
One of
those dark, strong eyebrows moved up. "You think I haven't capitalized on
that ever since you made me a squad captain? One memory I'll always cherish is
the look on the face of Wilarne M'Tree's husband when they met in the battle in
the tunnels. It was a toss-up whether he'd die of a stroke induced by outrage
or I'd die laughing. She all but hacked the arm off a mine guard who had him
cornered-she's wicked with that halberd of hers-and he looked as indignant,
when he finally recognized her, as if she'd made a grab at him in the
street."
Sun
Wolf laughed. "I suspected Sheera would be a good fighting general,"
he said. "But sending her green into her first battle-and an underground
one involving magic at that-in charge of fifty other people, would be one hell
of an expensive way to find out I was wrong."
"You
know," Starhawk said thoughtfully, "I always did suspect you were a
fraud." The gray eyes met his, wryly amused. "The hardest-headed
mercenary in the business..."
"Well,
I was," he said defensively.
"Really?"
Her voice was cool. "Then why didn't you sneak off to Altiokis first thing
and offer to trade information about the whole organization for the antidote?
It would have got you out."
Sun
Wolf colored strangely in the pale, butter-colored sunlight. In a small voice,
he answered her. "I couldn't have done that."
She
extended her foot like a hand and patted the lump of his knee under the covers.
"I know." She smiled, got to her feet, and walked to the window. The
shadows of the lattice crisscrossed her face and her short, sulfurous hair.
Over her shoulder, she said to him, "The Dark Eagle says there's going to
be years worth of pickings, with Altiokis' empire broken up. Tarrin told me
this morning they'd gotten news of a revolt in Kilpithie. You know they lynched
Governor Stirk-the man Altiokis appointed here in Derroug Dru's place. There's
already war in the North between Altiokis' appointees in Racken Scrag and the
mountain Thanes. With the fortune Altiokis amassed in a hundred and fifty
years, the money will be incredible."
Her
back was to him, only a part of her face visible, edged in the colors of the
window; her quiet voice was neutral.
Sun
Wolf said, "You know I can't go back, Hawk."
She
turned to face him. "Where will you go?"
He
shook his head. "I don't know. To Wrynde, at first. To let Ari know I'm
alive and to turn the troop over to him. To give Fawn money."
"To
pay her off, you mean?"
There
was a time when he would have lashed back at those words, no matter who had
said them, let alone Starhawk, who had never criticized his dealings with women
before. Now he only looked down at his hands and said quietly, "Yes."
After a moment, he raised his head and met her eyes again. "I didn't treat
her badly, you know."
"No,"
the Hawk said. "You never treated any of them badly."
It was
the first time he had heard bitterness-or any other emotion, for that matter-in
her voice. Ii both stung him and relieved him, to let him know where she stood.
"Do
you blame me for it?" he asked.
"Yes,"
Starhawk said promptly. "Completely illogically, since I was the one who
never told you that I loved you-but yes."
Sun
Wolf was silent, trying to choose his words carefully. With any of his other
women, he would have fallen back on the easier ploys of charm, or excused
himself on the grounds of his own philandering nature. But this woman he knew too
well to believe that her love for him would keep her by his side if he was
anything other than straightforward with her. With any of his other women, he
realized that it had not much mattered to him whether they stayed by him or
not. The last several months had taught him that he did not want to live
without Starhawk in his life.
At
last, finding no adequate way to excuse himself, he only said, "I'm sorry
I hurt you. I wouldn't have done it knowingly." He hesitated, fumbling for
words. "I don't want to have to do this to Fawn, because I know she is
fond of me-"
"Fawn,"
Starhawk said quietly, "loved you enough to leave the troop and come with
me to look for you. She traveled with me as far as Pergemis. She loved you very
much, Wolf."
He
heard her use the past tense and felt both sadness for that gentle girl and
shame. Shame because he had, in fact, loved Fawn no more than a kitten, no more
than he had loved the others-Gilden, Wilame, Amber Eyes, or any of his
concubines before. "What happened in Pergemis?" he asked.
"She
married a merchant," Starhawk replied calmly.
Sun
Wolf looked up at her, the expression of hurt vanity on his face almost
comical.
Starhawk
continued. "Farstep and Sons, spices, furs, and onyx. She said she would
rather marry into a firm of merchants than be the mistress of the richest
mercenary in creation, and to tell you the truth, I can't say that I blame her.
I was asked to stay there myself," the Hawk went on in a softer voice.
"I thought about it. We had lost so much time, I don't think she ever
thought you'd come out of this alive."
"She
wasn't alone in that opinion," the Wolf growled. "Will he be good to
her?"
"Yes."
Starhawk thought of that tall stone house near the Pergemis quays, of Pel
Farstep in her tall hood and elaborately wrought widow's coif, and of Ram and
Imber and Orris, smoking and arguing in front of the hearth, amid a great
brangle of children and dogs. Anyog should never have left there, she thought,
and then wondered whether he would have been any happier living among them
constantly than she would have been, had she given up her quest and accepted
Ram's love.
She
realized she had been too long silent. Sun Wolf was watching her, curious and
concerned at the change that had come over her face. She said to him,
"They are good people, Wolf. They're the kind of people whose homes we've
looted and whose throats we've slit for years. I can't go back to our old life
in Wrynde any more than you can."
She
walked back to the bed and leaned her shoulder against the gay carvings of the
inlaid pillar, her long fingers lying among the curved patterns of ivory and
gold, like something wrought there of alabaster, the strong knuckles and
wrinkled, pink war scars like the work of a master craftsman against the
alternation of abalone and ebony. "So here we are," she said
ironically. "Your father was right. Wolf. We've been spoiled for our trade
by love and magic."
He
shrugged, leaning back against the shadowy silk of the many pillows.
"Looks as if we'll have to seek a new trade. Or I will, anyway."
He
reached up and touched the eye bandage again. As he suspected, his depth
perception was completely gone. He'd have to retrain himself with weapons to
compensate, if he ever wanted to fight again. "Sheera told you what
happened to me that night in the pit?" he asked.
Starhawk
nodded, without comment.
"Yirth
was right. I need to find a teacher, Hawk. I feel the Power within me; there
are things that I know I can do, but I dare not. I don't want to become like
Altiokis. I need to find someone to teach me to use my powers without
destroying everyone and everything I touch. And the damned thing is, I don't
know where to look. Yirth was cut off from the line of her master's
masters-Aitiokis managed to wipe out most of the lines. I'll have to search-and
I have no idea where that search will take me."
He
paused, studying that calm, unexpressive face that watched him in the shadows
of the bed canopy. He scanned the strength of its bone structure under the
straight reddish mark of a war scar, where once her cheek and jaw had been laid
open to the bone, fighting to get him off a battlefield when he'd been wounded,
and the cool, smoke-gray eyes that seemed to look at all things-including his
soul and hers-with such lucid calm.
Then he
gathered all his courage into his hands and asked, "Will you come with me?
It will be a long search. It could take years, but..."
"Wolf,"
she said softly, "years with you is all I've ever wanted," She came
quietly around the end of the bed and into his arms.
He was
received by Tarrin and Sheera in a public ceremonial in the Cathedral Square
the following day.
The
cold and rains of winter had changed, seemingly overnight, into the first
breath of spring. The windless balminess of the morning had a frost-edge
sparkle to it, but the crowds that filled the square before the Cathedral of
the Three all seemed to be wearing flowers on their shoulders, bosoms, and
hatbands, like the pledge of beauty to come. Sun Wolf saw that most of the
women wore what had come to be called the new mode, the flowing and easy-moving
lines introduced by the fighting women. The men, laced into whaleboned and
padded doublets, looked as if they were far thinner than they had been when
they had worn that finery last. The faces of the men were pale; those of the
women, brown.
The
thirty-odd surviving members of Sheera's corps, he saw, were standing in a body
at the foot of the Cathedral steps, about where Drypettis had gotten him
arrested the morning he had gone to ask Yirth to give him his freedom.
Drypettis was not among them, though Starhawk had told him last night that the
woman who had betrayed him had come to make her bow to Tarrin at the new King's
official reception into the city. She was, after all, the last representative
of the most ancient and honorable House in Mandrigyn.
"I
was half afraid she would kill herself," he had said when Starhawk had
told him, remembering the numerous, ugly scenes he had witnessed and heard of
between Dm and Sheera. "Not that she didn't deserve thrashing-but it
wouldn't have done Sheera any good. She was fond of the little snirp."
Starhawk
had shaken her head with a wry grin. "Drypettis is far too vain to kill
herself," she'd said. "In fact, I'm not entirely certain she's even
conscious that she did wrong. She still looked upon war as something that
gentlefolk-particularly women-hired the ruder classes to do for them, not go
out and do themselves. She honestly thought that Sheera had sullied herself and
prostituted her soul by becoming a soldier. No, Drypettis will go to her grave
believing herself ill-done-by, walling herself tighter and tighter into her own
world of the past glories of her House, and exulting in her reputation as one
of the original conspirators to the end."
On the
way to the square, the gondola in which Sun Wolf and Starhawk were riding had
passed the House of Dru, the only one of those marble-fronted palaces of the
old merchant nobility to be undecorated and without a hundred watchers on every
one of its tiered, trellised balconies. As Sheera's servants had poled the
graceful boat past, they had heard music played in one of the rooms above; a
single harpsichord, pure, lilting, and disinterested.
The
other women were there, massed together as they had been that first night in
the orangery, their eyes bright as they followed Sun Wolf's movements. He saw
Wilarne M'Tree with Gilden, Eo, and Tisa. Across the square, he saw a man whom
he vaguely recognized as Wilarne's husband with their stiff-necked,
twelve-year-old son, looking haughty and uncomfortable. He thought Wilarne
looked worn, her eyes stained with the blue smudges of fatigue. Here was one,
at least, whose reunion had been less than peaceful. But she still stood with
the women rather than with her family, and her menfolk did not look happy about
this in the least.
There
were others of the women who looked the same. But Amber Eyes and Denga Rey were
like newlyweds in black velvet. Denga Rey glittered in her new panoply as
Captain of the City Guards.
Yirth
was there, too, standing a little to one side, her bony hands tucked into the
star-stitched sleeves of her night-blue gown, her dark hair braided back, her
face showing fully in daylight for the first time since the Wolf had known her-perhaps
for the first time in her life. Even at a distance, before he realized what had
changed about her, he knew she had passed through the Great Trial, sometime
while he had been ill, and had grasped the wider understanding of such magic as
she had been taught. The change was clear in her carriage and in her
sea-colored eyes. Sun Wolf was quite close to her before he realized that the
birthmark which had marred her face was gone, leaving only a faint shadow of a
scar. It was, he thought, probably the first thing that she had done when she
had the Power.
Near
the women were the Thanes, and he glimpsed Lady Wrinshardin among them, haughty
as an empress in her barbaric splendor, with marigolds in her white hair. Her
gaze crossed his, and she winked at him, to the evident scandal of a podgy
young man at her side who was obviously her son.
On the
other side of the Cathedral steps, the dark-robed members of the parliament
were banked, most of them still with the pale complexions and calloused hands
of their former trade of deep-rock gold miners. Between the women and the
parliament, Tarrin and Sheera stood like snow and flame, blazing with the pride
of their love and triumph.
Clothed
in the white silk majesty of his office, Tarrin of the House of Her, King of
Mandrigyn, was no longer a dusty, quick-moving little man in a grimy loincloth,
but a very elegant prince indeed. Against the miner's pallor of his face, his
hair was a golden mane, a shade darker than Amber Eyes'; but of very much the
same texture, rough and springing; his eyes were vivid blue. The festoons of
lace that fell from his sleeves covered the shackle galls on his wrists. Beside
him, Sheera was an idol in bullion-stitched gold, her high, close-fitting lace
collar not quite concealing the bandages underneath. Sun Wolf remembered seeing
the sword cut on her shoulder and breast when they'd been together in the
Citadel and thinking that she would carry the scar to her grave.
Most of
the women who had been at the storming of the mines would bear such scars.
Sun
Wolf and Starhawk came forward to the foot of the steps. Carpets of eastern
work had been laid down on the pavement and on the steps above, crimson and
royal blue, scattered with roses and daffodils. The roaring of voices silenced
as the rulers of Mandrigyn descended the steps; a hush fell over the square.
Tarrin's
face was set and expressionless as he held out his hands to Sun Wolf. In his
right hand was a parchment scroll, the seals of the city dangling from it by
purple ribbons; he made no other gesture of welcome.
Sun
Wolf took the scroll doubtfully, men glanced at Tarrin, puzzled.
"Read
it," the King said, then swallowed.
Sun
Wolf unrolled it and read. Then he looked up from the parchment, too
incredulous even to be shocked.
"You
what?" he demanded.
Starhawk
looked around his shoulder quickly. "What is it?"
Sun
Wolf held it out to her. "It's an order of banishment."
"It's
what?" She took it, scanned it over, then looked up disbelievingly at the
Wolf, at Tarrin, and at Sheera, who stood looking off into the distance, her
face an expressionless blank.
Sun
Wolf's single eye glittered, yellow and dangerous; his raw voice was like metal
scraping. "I did not ask to come here," he said quietly to Tarrin,
"and in the course of this winter I have lost my eye, I have lost my
voice, and I have damned near lost my life five times over." His voice was
rising to an angry roar. "All for the sake of saving your lousy city. And
you have the unmitigated and brass-faced nerve to banish me?"
To do
him credit, Tarrin did not flinch in front of what ended as a harsh vulture
scream of outrage; when he spoke, his voice was quiet. "It was voted upon
yesterday in parliament," he said. "I'm afraid the-the original
measure was much more punitive."
The
paper read:
By
Order and Fiat of the Parliament of Mandrigyn, Month of Gebnion, First Year of
the Reign of Tarrin II of the House of Her and Sheera, his wife: Be it herein
proclaimed that the bounds and gates of Mandrigyn are closed to one Sun Wolf,
wizard and formerly captain of mercenaries, residing at one time in Wrynde in
the North; that as from this day he is banished from the City of Mandrigyn and
all the lands appertaining to that City, and all the lands that hereinafter will
become sway of that City, in perpetuity. This by reason of his flagrant
violation of the laws of the City of Mandrigyn, and for his wanton corruption
of the morals of the ladies of Mandrigyn. Be it known that hereafter from this
day, if he sets foot upon the lands of the City of Mandrigyn, he will become
liable for the full penalties for these his crimes.
TARRIN
II, KING SHEERA, HIS WIFE
"It
means," Starhawk said, with quiet amusement, into Sun Wolf's dumbfounded
silence, "that you taught the ladies of Mandrigyn to bear arms."
The
Wolf glanced at her and back at the King. Tarrin was looking deeply
embarrassed.
"If
I hadn't taught your ladies to bear arms," the Wolf said in a tight,
deadly voice, "you and all the members of your pox-rotted parliament would
still be tapping great big rocks into wee small rocks in the dark at the bottom
of Altiokis' mines, without hope of seeing the sunlight again."
"Captain
Sun Wolf," Tarrin said in his light voice, "believe me, your deeds
toward the City of Mandrigyn have earned the gratitude of our citizens, down
through many generations. I am sure that once the present social disruptions
arrange themselves, the order will be rescinded, and I will be able to welcome
you as befits-"
"Social
disruptions?" the Wolf demanded.
Behind
him, he heard Starhawk give a very unwarriorlike chuckle. "He means,"
she said, "that the ladies won't turn back control of the city, or of the
businesses, or go back to wearing veils, and the men aren't pleased about that
at all."
Tarrin
went on. "The social order of Mandrigyn is built upon generations of
traditions." There was a thread of desperation in his voice.
"The-repercussions-of your action, laudable and necessary though it was,
have brought nothing but chaos and confusion to every household in the
city."
Starhawk's
voice was amused. "I think the men are out for your blood. Chief. And I
can't really say that I blame them."
"That's
ridiculous!" the Wolf said angrily. "There weren't above fifty women
in the poxy troop! And the women had started to take over running the
businesses of the city from the minute the men marched off to fight their
witless war! Hell, most of the crew of the ship that brought me here were
skirts! And anyway, it wasn't my idea..."
"The
fact remains," Tarrin said, "that it was you who schooled the women
in these-" He glanced at the glowering members of his parliament.
"-unseemly arts; and you who encouraged them to consort with gladiators
and prostitutes."
Sun
Wolf's voice was a croaking roar of rage, "And I'm being banished for
that?"
"Not
only for that," Sheera said quietly. Under the rose and gold of her
painted lids, her eyes were touched with something that was not quite sadness,
but not quite cynicism either. "And it isn't only the men who want to see
you go. Captain. Do you have any concept of what has happened in this city? We
were all of us raised to participate in a dance-the men to cherish, the women
to be cherished in return, the men to rule and work, the women to be protected
and sheltered. We knew what we were-we had harmony in those times, Captain.
"We
have all passed through a hell of terror and pain, of toil and despair.
We-Tarrin and I, and every man and every woman-fought not only for our city but
for the dream of that way of life, that dance. We thought that with victory,
all that old comfort of being what we were raised to be would be restored. But
the men have returned to find the dream that sustained them in the mines
forever broken. The women-" She paused, then went on, her voice level and
cool. "Most of those women who did not fight did not even want what has
happened. They wanted to be free of Altiokis, but not at the price that we have
forced them to pay. We have pushed chaos and struggle into their lives without
their consent. You yourself, Captain, and your lady, know that you cannot
unknow what you know. And even those who fought find victory an ambiguous fruit
to the taste."
As if
against his will, the Wolf's eyes went to where Wilame's husband and son stood
without her, their eyes both sullen and confused. How many others of the troop,
he wondered, would meet with that mingling of outrage and incomprehending hurt?
Not only from those close to them, he now saw-not only from the men. Most of
the women in the crowd were silent and looked across at him and at the ladies
he had trained with wariness and disapproval, with the anger of those who had
something taken from them without their consent and who did not want what was
offered in return. The seeds of bitterness were sown and could not be picked
out of the soil again.
And,
logically, he saw that he was the only one they could banish. He was not the
disrupter of the dance, but he was the only one of those new and uneasy things
that they could dispose of without tearing still further the already riven
fabric of their lives.
He
looked back at the young man before him, clothed in the stiff white ceremonial
garb of the ruler of the city, and felt an unexpected stab of pity for the poor
devil who would have to sort out the ungodly mess. At least he and Starhawk
could get on their horses and ride away from it-and there was a good deal to be
said simply for that. He grinned and held out his hand. Tarrin, who had been
watching his face with some trepidation visible beneath his own calm expression
relaxed and returned the smile and the handclasp with broken knuckled,
pick-calloused Fingers.
"Along
with the curses of parliament," Tarrin said quietly, "I give you my
personal thanks."
"Of
the two, that's what matters." The Wolf glanced over his shoulder at the
sound of hooves clicking on the pavement behind them. The crowd opened in a
long aisle, from the steps where they stood to the flower-twined stone lacework
of the Spired Bridge, which led toward the Golden Gate of the city and to the
countryside beyond. Down it, a couple of pages in the livery of the city were
leading two horses, with saddlebags already packed and the Wolf's and
Starhawk's weapons strapped to the cantles. One of the pages, it amused him to
see, was Sheera's daughter, Trella.
With a
mercenary's typical preoccupation, Starhawk gave one of the saddlebags an
experimental prod. It clinked faintly, and Sun Wolf asked, "All ten
thousand there?" That was a patent impossibility; no horse in creation
could have carried the unwieldy bulk of that much gold,
"The
rest of the money will be forwarded to you at Wrynde, Captain," Sheera
said, "as soon as it can be raised by parliament. Have no fear of
that."
Looking
from her calmly enigmatic face to the disgruntled countenances of the members
of parliament, the Wolf only muttered to Starhawk, "Where have we heard
that before?"
She
swung lightly into the saddle, her fair hair catching the sunlight like pale
silk. "What the hell does it matter?" she asked. "We're not
going back mere, anyway."
The
Wolf thought about that and realized that she was right. He had sold his sword
for the last time-like the women, like Starhawk, he was no longer what he had
been. "No," he said quietly. "No, I don't suppose we are."
Then he grinned to himself, mounting, and reined back to where Tarrin and
Sheera still stood at the foot of the steps. Sun Wolf held out his hand.
"My lady Sheera?"
Sheera
of Mandrigyn came forward and raised her lace-gloved hand for his formal kiss.
In former days he would have asked the permission of Tarrin, but the King said
no word, and the glance Sheera cast them silenced the parliament, like a spell
of dumbness. For the first time since he had seen them together. Sun Wolf
noticed that Sheera stood an inch or so taller than Tarrin.
He bent
from the saddle and touched her knuckles to his lips. Their eyes met-but if she
had any regrets, or wished for things between them to be or to have been other
than they were, he could find no trace of it in that serene and haughty gaze.
She was Sheera of Mandrigyn, and no one would ever see her with mud and rain
and sweat on her face again.
He said
softly, "Don't let the men get your ladies down, Commander."
She
elevated a contemptuous eyebrow. "What makes you think they could?"
The
Wolf laughed. He found that he could take a great deal of pleasure in seeing
those he loved behave exactly like themselves. "Nothing," he said.
"May your ancestors bless you, as you will bless those who follow you with
blood and spirit."
He
reined his horse away; but as he did so, Starhawk rode forward and leaned to
take Sheera's hand. A few words were exchanged; then, in a very unqueenly
gesture, Sheera slapped Starhawk's knee, and Starhawk laughed. She rode back to
him at a decorous walk; the crowd moved aside again to let them ride from the
city.
As they
moved under the flamboyant turrets of the Spired Bridge, Sun Wolf whispered,
"What did she say to you?"
Starhawk
glanced at him in the shadows, her wide, square shoulders and pale hair
silhouetted against the rainbow colors of the throng they had just left. Past
her, the Wolf could still see Tarrin and Sheera, two glittering dolls beneath
the scintillating bulk of the Cathedral of Mandrigyn.
"She
told me to look after you," the Hawk said.
Sun
Wolf's spine stiffened with indignation. "She told you to look after me
... ?"
Her
grin was white in the gloom of the covered bridge. "Race you to the city
gates."
To
those standing in the great square of the Cathedral, all that could be heard of
the departure of Sun Wolf and Starhawk from the town was the sudden thunder of
galloping hooves in the tunnel of the enclosed bridge and, like an echo, a
drift of unseemly laughter.
ABOUT
THE AUTHOR
At
various times in her life, Barbara Hambly has been a high-school teacher, a
model, a waitress, a technical editor, a professional graduate student, an
all-night clerk at a liquor store, and a karate instructor. Born in San Diego,
she grew up in Southern California, with the exception of one high-school
semester spent in New South Wales, Australia. Her interest in fantasy began
with reading The Wizard of Oz at an early age and has continued ever since.
She
attended the University of California, Riverside, specializing in medieval
history. In connection with this, she spent a year at the University of
Bordeaux in the south of France and worked as a teaching and research assistant
at UC Riverside, eventually earning a Master's Degree in the subject. At the
university, she also became involved in karate, making Black Belt in 1978 and
competing in several national-level tournaments.
Her
books include the Darwath Trilogy: Time of the Dark. The WallsofAir, and The
Armie-. c- M • '•-(" and a historical whodunit, The Quirinal Hill Affair.
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