The
Time of The Dark
by
Barbara Hambly
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CHAPTER
ONE
Gil
knew that it was only a dream. There was no reason
for her
to feel fear—she knew that the danger, the chaos,
the
blind, sickening nightmare terror that filled the scream-
ing night
were not real; this city with its dark, unfamiliar
architecture,
these fleeing crowds of panic-stricken men
and
women who shoved her aside, unseeing, were only the
vivid
dregs of an overloaded subconscious, wraiths that
would
melt with daylight.
She
knew all this; nevertheless, she was afraid.
She
seemed to be standing at the foot of a flight of green
marble
stairs, facing into a square courtyard surrounded
by tall
peak-roofed buildings. Fleeing people were shoving
past
her, jostling her back against the gigantic pedestal
of a
malachite statue, without seeming to be aware of her
presence
at all; gasping, wild-eyed people, terrified faces
bleached
to corpses by the brilliance of the cold quarter
moon.
They were pouring out of the gabled houses, the
men
clutching chests or bags of money, the women jewels,
lap-dogs,
or children crying in uncomprehending terror.
Their
hair was wild from sleep, for it was deep night; some
of them
were dressed but many were naked, or tripping
over
bedclothes hastily snatched, and Gil could smell the
rank
terror-sweat of their bodies as they brushed against
her.
None of them saw her, none of them stopped; they
stumbled
frantically up those vast steps of moonlit marble,
through
the dark arch of the gates at the top, and out into
the
clamoring streets of the stricken city beyond.
What
city? Gil wondered confusedly. And why am I
afraid?
This is only a dream.
But she
knew. In her heart she knew, as things are
known
in dreams, that this scene of frenzied escape was
even
now being repeated, like the hundredfold reflections
in a
doubled mirror, everywhere in the city around her.
The
knowledge and the horror created a chill that crept
along
her skin, crawled wormlike through her guts.
They
all felt it, too. For not a man would stop to lean
on the
pillar behind her, nor a woman stumble on the
steps
at her feet. They looked back with the blank, wide
eyes of
madness, their frenzied gaze drawn as if against
their
will to the cyclopean doors of ancient time-greened
bronze
that dominated the wall opposite. It was from these
that
they fled. It was behind this monstrous trapezoidal
gateway
that the horror was building, as water builds be-
hind a
weakening dam a soft, shifting, bodiless evil, an
unspeakable
eruption into the land of the living from out
of
black abysses of space and time.
There
was motion, and voices, in the cavern of the
arched
gateway behind her, muffled footfalls and the
thin,
ringing whine of a sword as it was drawn. Gil turned,
her
thick hair tangling in her eyes. The wild, jumping dance
of
wind-bent torches silhouetted crowding forms, flicker-
ing
across a face, a blade-edge, the dull pebbled gleam of
chain
mail. Against the thinning tide of desperate civilians,
the Guards
stepped into the cool pewter monochrome of the
moonlight—black-uniformed,
lightly mailed, booted, men
and
women both, the honed blades of their weapons shin-
ing
thinly against the play of the shadows. Gil could catch
a
glimpse of a nervous rabble of hastily armed civilians
massing
up behind them, whispering in dread and fumbling
with
unpracticed hands at the hilts of borrowed armament,
grim
fear fighting terrified bewilderment in their half-seen
faces.
And striding down ahead of them all was an old
man in
a brown robe, an old wizard, hawk-eyed and
bearded
and bearing a sword of flame.
It was
he who stopped on the top step, scanning the
court
before him like a hunting eagle while the last of the
fleeing,
half-naked populace streamed raggedly up the stairs
past
Gil, brushing against her, unseeing, past the wizard,
past
the Guards, bare feet slapping hollowly in the black
passage
of the gates. She saw him fix his gaze on the doors,
knowing
the nature of that eldritch unseen horror, know-
ing
from whence it would come. The battered, nondescript
face
was serene behind the tangled chaparral of beard.
Then
his gaze shifted, judging his battleground, and his
eyes
met hers.
He
could see her. She knew it instantly, even before
his
eyes widened in startled surprise. The Guards and vol-
unteers,
hesitating behind the old man, unwilling to go
where
he was not ahead of them, were looking around and
through
and past her, dubiously seeking the wizard's vision
in the
suddenly still moonlight of the empty court. But he
could
see her, and she wondered confusedly why.
Across
the court, from the cracks and hinges of those
tuneless
doors, a thin, directionless wind had begun to
blow,
stirring and whispering over the silver-washed circles
of the
pavement, tugging at Gil's coarse black hair. It
carried
on it the dank, cold scent of evil, of acid and stone
and
things that should never see light, of blood and dark-
ness.
But the wizard sheathed the gleaming blade he held
and
came cautiously down the steps toward her, as if he
feared
to frighten her.
But
that, Gil thought, would not be possible—and any-
way she
was only dreaming. He looked like a gentle old
man,
she thought. His eyes, blue and bright and very fierce,
held in
them neither pride nor cruelty, and if he were
afraid
of the shifting, sightless thing welling in darkness
behind
the doors, he did not show it. He advanced to within
a few
feet of where she stood shivering in the green shad-
ows of
the monstrous statue, those blue eyes puzzled and
wary,
as if trying to understand what he saw. Then he held
out his
hand and made as if to speak.
Abruptly,
Gil woke up—but not in her bed.
For a
moment she didn't know where she was. She
threw
out her hand awkwardly, startled and disoriented,
as
those suddenly wakened are, and the cold fluted marble
of the
pedestal's edge bit savagely into her palm. The
night's
damp cold knifed her bare legs, froze her naked
feet on
the pavement. The cries of fear from the night-
gripped
city came to her suddenly clearer on the wind, and
with
them the elusive scent of water. For an instant, the
shrieking
horror of what lay behind the doors was like
a
gripping hand at her throat, and then it sank, whirled
away
like leaves in the face of shock and confusion and
even
greater horror.
She had
waked up.
She was
no longer dreaming.
She was
still there.
All the
eyes were on her now; startled, uncertain, even
afraid.
The warriors, still gathered at the top of the broad
polished
steps, stared in surprise at this thin young woman,
dark-haired
and scantily clad in the green polka-dot cow-
boy
shirt that she habitually wore to bed, who had so
suddenly
appeared in their midst. Gil stared back, clutching
for
support the sharp edge of the marble behind her, weak
with
shock and frantic with bewilderment and dread, her
legs
shaking and her breath strangling in her throat
But the
wizard was still there, and she realized that it
was
impossible to be truly afraid when she was with him.
Quietly,
he asked her, "Who are you?"
To her
own surprise she found the voice to answer.
"Gil,"
she said. "Gil Patterson."
"How
did you come here?"
Around
them the black wind blew stronger from the
doors,
rank and cold and vibrant with brooding abhuman
lusts.
The Guards murmured among themselves, tension
spreading
along the line, visible as the humming quiver of a
tautened
wire—they, too, were afraid. But the wizard
didn't
stir, and the mellow, scratchy warmth of his voice
was
unshaken.
"I—I
was dreaming," Gil stammered. "But—this—I—
it
isn't a dream anymore, is it?"
"No,"
the old man said kindly. "But don't be afraid."
He
raised his scarred fingers and made some movement
in the
air with them that she could not clearly see. "Go
back to
your dreams."
The
night's cold faded as the cloying haziness of sleep
blurred
sound and smell and fear. Gil saw the Guards
peer
with startled eyes at the blue, flickering shadows that
she
knew were all they could now see. Then the wizard
spoke
to them, and they followed him as he strode across
the
deserted pavement of the court, facing into the black
winds
and the nameless menace of the doors. He raised his
sword,
a long two-handed blade, and it sparked in the
darkness
like summer lightning. Then, as if an explosion
had
rocked the vaults below the building, the doors burst
open,
and blackness poured forth over them like smoke.
Gil saw
what was in the darkness, and her own screams
of
terror woke her.
Her
hands shook so badly she could barely switch on
the
bedside lamp. The clock on the table beside her bed
said
two-thirty. Drenched in sweat and colder than death,
Gil
fell back against the pillow, whispering frantically to
herself
that it was only a dream—only a dream. I am
twenty-four
years old and a graduate student in medieval
history
and I will have my Ph.D. in a year and it's stupid
to be
afraid of a dream. And it was only a dream. It's all
over
now and none of it was real. It was only a dream.
She
told herself this, staring out from the fortress of
worn
sheets and cheap blankets at the convincing famil-
iarity
of her own apartment—the Levi's lolling out of the
half-closed
dresser drawer, Rooster Cogburn glowering
down
from a poster on the wall, the absent-minded litter of
textbooks,
tissues, pennies, and dog-eared paperbacks that
strewed
the threadbare shag of the rug. She thought about
the
early hour of today's seminar, glanced again at the
clock
and the lamp, and considered seeking sleep and
darkness.
But though she was, as she had said, twenty-four
years
old and almost a Ph.D., far too old to be troubled
by the
fears felt in a dream, she rolled over after a short
time
and groped Wayfaring Life in the Middle Ages from
the
floor beside her bed. She found her place in it, and by
act of
will forced herself to become fascinated by the
legal
status of the King's Highway in fifteenth-century
England.
She did
not trust herself to sleep again until it was
almost
dawn.
Oddly
enough, Gil remembered nothing of the dream
until
nearly a week later. And what she did remember,
driving
home from the university in the tawny-golden
brilliance
of a California September afternoon, was the
wizard's
voice, wondering where she had heard it, the warm
timbre
of it and the characteristic break in tone, the velvet
smoothness
sliding into roughness and then abruptly back.
Then
she remembered the eyes, the city, the shadows,
and the
fear. And she realized, turning her red VW down
Clarke
Street toward her apartment building, that it wasn't
the
first time she'd dreamed about that city.
The odd
thing about the first dream, Gil recalled,
maneuvering
into a narrow parking space on the perenni-
ally
crowded cul-de-sac, was that, though there had been
nothing
at all in it to cause her fear, she had been afraid
and had
waked up chilled with a lingering sense of dread.
She had
dreamed of wandering alone in a vaulted cham-
ber, so
huge that the lines of shadow-curtained arches sup-
porting
the low, groined ceiling had vanished into darkness
all
about her. Dust had stirred mustily beneath her bare
feet,
had coated the disused junk and dilapidated boxes
piled
between and among the pillars, and had fogged the
distant
glow of a yellow flame that she was following to
its
source, a little tallow-dip lamp burning beside the dark
sweep
of a red porphyry Stair. All around her, as cloaking
as the
dust, as ubiquitous as the shadows, was that sense
of
lurking fear, of being watched from the darkness by
things
that had no eyes.
The
pallid flame had gleamed dully on the broad red
steps
and had thrown back the half-seen shape of monu-
mental
bronze doors at their top, but had drawn no reflec-
tion
from the leaden blackness of the basalt floor, in spite
of the
fact that the floor was as smooth as glass, polished
by the
passage of countless feet; how this could be in the
deeps
of the vaults she did not know, and it was clear from
the
dust that few if any came here now. The floor was
old,
far older than the walls, though how she knew this
Gil was
not sure—older, she thought, than the city over
her
head, or any city of mankind. In the midst of that
dark
pavement, right before the lamplit steps, one single
slab of
the floor was new, hewn of pale gray granite, its
surface
rough against the worn, silken smoothness of the
rest of
the floor, though it, too, was covered with that
agelong
mantle of dust.
In the
darkness above her a door creaked, and light
wavered
across the many arches. Gil slipped back into the
shadow
of a pillar, though she knew it was only a dream,
and
knew that people here could not see her because they
did not
exist. A woman, a servant by her dress, came
padding
down the steps with a basket on her arm, hold-
ing a
lamp up above her head; at her heels lumbered a
hunchbacked
slave, peering around him at the darkness
out of
shadowed, wary eyes. The woman led the way un-
concernedly
down the Stair, across the smooth dark floor,
turning
aside to avoid walking on the odd granite slab,
although
her goal—a bin of dried apples—lay directly
opposite
the foot of the stairs, and the odd slab was in no
way
raised above the level of the rest of the floor. The
hunchback
made an even wider circuit, moving from pillar
to
pillar, woofing and clucking quietly to himself and
never
taking those sharp, fear-filled eyes from the pale
stone.
The
woman loaded her basket and handed it to the
hunchback
to carry. She started back toward the steps
and
paused, irresolute, clearly telling herself not to be a
silly,
superstitious goose, that there was no reason to be
afraid,
not of the darkness that pressed so close around
her,
and certainly not of six feet by twelve of pavement
that
was gray instead of black, granite instead of basalt.
But in
the end, she took the long way around, to avoid
walking
on that odd slab.
That's
why it's rough, when the rest of the floor is so
weirdly
smooth, Gil thought. No one walks on it. No one
has
ever walked on it.
Why?
But
even the sense that the two dreams were somehow
connected
held only a kind of passing curiosity for her,
until
the third dream. They did nothing to disturb the fabric
of her
daily existence. She continued to spend hours in the
university
library, searching scholarly articles and molder-
ing
Middle English town records, jotting information on
index
cards that she later sorted out at the kitchen table
back in
the Clarke Street apartment, trying to make sense
of what
she knew. She graded undergraduate papers,
sweated
over her grant proposal, and had her dealings
with
friends and lovers—the routine of her life—until she
dreamed
of that beleaguered city again.
She
knew it was the same city, though she looked down
on it
now from above. She found herself standing in the
embrasure
of a tall window, in a tower, she thought. So
bright
was the moonlight that she could discern the patterns
of the
courtyard pavement far below, see the designs
worked
into the wrought-iron lace of the gates, and make
out
even the shadows of the fallen leaves, like a furring of
dust on
the ground. Raising her eyes, she could catch,
across
the peaked maze of rooftrees, the glimpse of distant
water.
In the other direction, the black shoulders of moun-
tains
loomed against the hem of a star-blazing sky.
In the
room behind her a solitary tongue of flame stood
above
the polished silver of the lamp on the table, and by
its
small, unwavering glow she could distinguish the fur-
nishings,
few and simple, each exquisitely wrought out of
dark
wood and ivory. Though the design and motifs were
alien
to her eyes, she could recognize in them the creative
height
of a well-founded tradition, the product of a sophis-
ticated
and tasteful culture.
And she
saw that she was not alone.
Against
the chamber's far wall stood the room's largest
piece
of furniture, a massive ebony crib, its scrolled rail-
ings
veined in mother-of-pearl that caught the dim lamp-
light.
Above it, all but hidden in the massed shadows, a
tall
canopy loomed, with an emblem picked out in gold:
a
stylized eagle striking, beneath a tiny crown. This em-
blem
was repeated, stitched in pinfire glints of bullion, on
the
black surcoat of the man who stood beside that crib,
head
bent and silent as a statue, looking down at its sleep-
ing
occupant.
He was
a tall man, handsome in an austere way. Some
silver
showed in his shoulder-length brown hair, though Gil
would
not have put his age much above thirty-five. From
the
soles of his soft leather boots to the folds of the billow-
ing robe
that covered surcoat and tunic, the man's clothing
was
rich, of a piece with the subdued grandeur of the
room,
dark, plain, flawlessly tailored of the most expensive
fabric.
The gems in the hilt of his sword flickered like
stars
in the lamplight with the small movement of his
breath.
A sound
in the corridor beyond made him raise his
head,
and Gil saw his face, haunted with the expectation
of
terrible news. Then the door beside him opened.
"I
thought I should find you here," the wizard said.
For one
moment Gil had the absurd notion that he was
speaking
to her. But the man in black nodded, his face
setting
into lines worn by grim concentration on a problem
beyond
solving, and his long, slender hand continued to
stroke
the inward-curling circles of the rail of the crib.
"I
was on my way down," he apologized, his voice
muffled,
his face turned half away. "I only wanted to see
him."
The
wizard closed the door. The movement of the air
made
the single lampflame shudder, the flickering color
briefly
gilding sunbursts of wrinkles around his eyes, show-
ing
that same expression of weariness and strain. Gil saw
that
he, too, wore a sword, belted over the pale homespun
of his
robe. The hilt of it was not jeweled, but was worn
silky with
years of use. He said, "There is no need. I
doubt
they will attack again tonight."
"Tonight,"
the man in black repeated somberly. His
bitter
eyes were a hard smoke-gray, like steel in the
dense
shadows of the little room. "What about tomorrow
night,
Ingold? And the night after? Yes, we pushed them
back
tonight, back down under the earth where they be-
long.
We won—here. What about in the other cities of the
Realm?
What have you seen in that crystal of yours,
Ingold?
What has been happening elsewhere tonight? In
Penambra
in the south, where it seems now even my gov-
ernor
has been slain, and the Dark Ones haunt his palace
like
foul ghosts? In the provinces along the valley of the
Yellow
River to the east, where you tell me they hold
such sway
that not a man will leave his house after the sun
goes
in? In Gettlesand across the mountains, where the
fear of
the Dark Ones is so great that men will stay within
their
doors while the White Raiders ride down off the
plains
to burn and loot among them at will?
"The
Army cannot be everywhere. They're scattered in
the
four corners of the Realm, most of them still at Penam-
bra. We
here in Gae cannot hold out forever. We may
not
even be able to hold the Palace, should they come
again
tomorrow night."
"That
is tomorrow," the wizard replied quietly. "We
can
only do what we must—and hope."
"Hope."
He said it without scorn or irony, only as if it
were a
word long unfamiliar, whose very sound was awk-
ward
upon his tongue. "Hope for what, Ingold? That the
Council
of Wizards will break this silence of theirs and
come
out of hiding in their city at Quo? Or that, if and
when
they do, they will have an answer?"
"You
narrow hope when you define it, Eldor."
"God
knows it's narrow enough as it is." Eldor turned
away,
to pace like a restless lion to the window and back,
taking
the room in three of his long strides. He passed
within
a foot of Gil without seeing her, but Ingold the
wizard
looked up, and his eyes rested briefly, curiously,
on her.
Eldor swung around, his sleeve brushing Gil's
hand on
the windowsill. "It's the helplessness I can't
stand,"
he burst out angrily. "They are my people, Ingold.
The
Realm—and all of civilization, if what you tell me is
true—is
falling to pieces around me, and you and I together
cannot
so much as offer it a shield to hide behind. You
can
tell me what the Dark Ones are, and where they come
from,
but all your powers cannot touch them. You can't
tell us
what we can do to defeat them. You can only fight
them,
as we all must, with a sword."
"It
may be, there is nothing we can do," Ingold said,
settling
back in his chair. He folded his hands, but his
eyes
were alert.
"I
won't accept that."
"You
may have to."
"It's
not true. You know it's not true."
"Humankind
did defeat the Dark, all those thousands of
years
ago," the wizard said quietly, the flickering of the
light
doing curious things to the scar-seamed contours of
his
weathered face. "As to how they did it—perhaps they
themselves
were not certain how it came about; in any case,
we have
found no record of it. My power cannot touch
the
Dark Ones because I do not know them, do not under-
stand
either their being or their nature. They have a power
of
their own, Eldor, very different from mine—beyond
the
comprehension of any human wizard, except, perhaps,
Lohiro,
the Master of the Council of Quo. Of what hap-
pened
in the Time of the Dark, three thousand years ago,
when
they rose for the first time to devastate the earth—
you
know it all as well as I."
"Know
it?" The King laughed bitterly, facing the wiz-
ard
like a beast brought to bay, his eyes dark with the
memory
of ancient outrage. "I remember it. I remember
it as
clearly as if it had happened to me, instead of to my
however-many-times-great-grandfather."
He strode to stand
over
the wizard, shadowing him like a blighted tree, the
single
lamp flinging the great distorted shape of him to
blend
with the crowding dimness of the room. "And he
remembers,
too." His hand moved toward the crib, the
vast
shadow-hand on the wall its dark echo, toward the
child
asleep within. "Deep in his baby mind those memor-
ies are
buried. He's barely six months old—six months, yet
he'll
wake up screaming, rigid with fear. What can a
child
that young dream of, Ingold? He dreams of the
Dark. I
know."
"Yes,"
the wizard agreed, "you dreamed of it, too. Your
father
never did—in fact, I doubt your father ever feared
or
imagined anything in his life. Those memories were
buried
too deep in him—or perhaps there was simply no
need
for him to remember. But you dreamed of them and
feared
them, although you did not know what they were."
Standing
in the cool draft of the window, Gil felt that
bond
between them, palpable as a word or a touch: the
memory
of a gawky, dark-haired boy waked screaming
from
nameless nightmares, and the comfort given him by a
vagabond
wizard. Some of the harshness left Eldor's face,
and the
grimness faded from his voice, leaving it only sad.
"Would
I had remained ignorant," he said. "We of our
line
are never entirely young, you know. The memories
that we
carry are the curse of our race."
"They
may be the saving of it," Ingold replied. "And
of us
all."
Eldor
sighed and moved back to the crib in reflective
silence,
his slim, strong hands clasped lightly behind his
back.
But he was not now looking down at the child
asleep.
His eyes, brooding away into the shadows, lost
their
sharpness, focusing on times beyond his lifetime, on
experience
beyond his own.
After a
while he said, "Will you do me one last service,
Ingold?"
The old
man's eyes slid sharply over to him. "There is
no
last."
The
lines of Eldor's face creased briefly deeper with
his
tired smile. He was evidently long familiar with the
wizard's
stubbornness. "In the end," he said, "there is
always
a last. I know," he went on, "that your power
cannot
touch the Dark Ones. But it can elude them. I've
seen
you do it. When the night comes that they rise again,
your
power will allow you to escape, when the rest of us
must
die fighting. No—" He raised his hand to forestall
the
wizard's next words. "I know what you're going to
say.
But I want you to leave. If it comes to that, as your
King, I
order you to. When they come—and they will—I
want
you to take my son Altir. Take him and flee."
The
wizard sat silent, but his beard bristled with the set
of his
jaw. At last he said, "For one thing, you are not my
King."
"Then
as your friend, I ask it," the King said, and his
voice
was very low. "You couldn't save us. Not all of us.
You're
a great swordsman, Ingold, perhaps the greatest
alive,
but the touch of the Dark is death, to a wizard as
well as
to any other. Our doom is surely upon us here,
for
they will come again, as sure as the ice in the north,
and
there can be no escape. But you can save Tir. He's
the
last of my line, the last of Dare of Renweth's line—
the
last of the lineage of the Kings of Darwath. He's the
only
one in the Realm now who will remember the Time
of the
Dark. History itself has all but forgotten; no record
at all
exists of that time, bar a mention in the oldest of
chronicles.
My father remembered nothing of it—my
own
memories are sketchy. But the need is greater now.
Maybe
that has something to do with it—I don't know.
"But
I know, and you know, that three thousand years
ago the
Dark Ones came and virtually wiped humankind
from
the face of the earth. And they departed away again.
Why,
Ingold, did they depart?"
The
wizard shook his head.
"He
knows," Eldor said softly. "He knows. My memo-
ries
are incomplete. You know that; I've told you a dozen
times.
He's a promise, Ingold. I'm only a failed hope, a
guttered
candle. Somewhere in his memory, the heritage of
the
line of Dare, is the clue that all the rest of us have
forgotten,
that will lead to the undoing of the Dark. If I
ever
had it, it's buried too deeply; and he's the only other
one.
Him you must save."
The
wizard said nothing. The quiet Same of the lamp,
pure
and small as a gold com, reflected in his thinking
eyes.
In the stillness of the room, that tiny gleam was
unmoving,
the pool of waxy gold that lay around the
lamp on
the polished surface of the table as steady and
sharply
defined as a spotlight. At length he said, "And what
about
you?"
"A
King has the right," Eldor replied, "to die with his
kingdom.
I will not leave the final battle. Indeed, I do
not see
how I could. But for all the love you have ever
borne
me, do this thing for me now. Take Mm, and see
him to
a place of safety. I charge you with it—it is in
your
hands."
Ingold
sighed and bent his head, as if to receive a yoke,
the
gold of the lamplight limning his silver hair. "I will
save
him," he said. "That I promise you. But I will not
desert
you until the cause is hopeless."
"Do
not trouble yourself," the King said harshly. "The
cause
is hopeless already."
Deep
below the dark foundations of the Palace a hollow
booming
resounded, like the stroke of a gigantic drum,
and Gil
felt the sound vibrate through the marble of the
floor.
Eldor's head jerked up and around, his long mouth
hardening
in the smooth gold and shadows, his hand flinch-
ing
automatically to the hilt of his jeweled sword, but In-
gold
only sat, a statue of stone and darkness. A second
booming
shivered the weight of the Palace on its deep-
found
piers, as if struck by a great fist. Breathless in the
closeness
of that peaceful room, three people waited for
the
third stroke. But no third stroke fell; only a cold,
creeping
horror that prickled Gil's hair seemed to seep into
the
silence from below, the wordless threat of unknown
peril.
Finally
Ingold said, "They will not come tonight."
Through
his weariness, his tone was certain. "Go to the
Queen
and comfort her."
Eldor
sighed; like a man released from a spell that had
turned
him to stone, he shifted broad, rawboned shoulders
to
relax the tension from his back. "The landchiefs of the
Realm
meet in an hour," he excused himself tiredly, and
rubbed
at his eyes, his fingers grinding the dark smudges
that
ringed them. "And I should speak with the Guards
before
then about moving provisions out of the old vaults
under
the Prefecture, in case our supply lines are cut. But
you're
right, I should go to see her . . . though first I
should
speak with the Bishop about bringing Church troops
into
the city." He began to pace again, the restless move-
ment of
an active man whose mind forever outran his
body.
Ingold remained seated in the carved ivory chair
with
its little gilded deer-hoof feet, and the flame before
him
moved with Eldor's motion, as if it, too, were drawn
by the
restless vitality of the man. "Will you be at the
council?"
"I
have given all the help and advice I can," Ingold
replied.
"I shall remain here, I think, and try again to
get in
touch with the wizards at Quo. Tir may not be our
only
answer. There are records in the Library at Quo,
and
traditions handed down from master to pupil over
millennia;
knowledge and the search for knowledge are
the key
and the heart of wizardry. Tir is an infant. By
the
time he learns to speak, it may be too late for what
he has
to tell us."
"It
may already be too late." The flame bowed with
the
soft closing of the door behind Eldor.
Ingold
sat for a tune after he had gone, brooding si-
lently
on that pure small slip of fire. The glow of it played
across
his shadowed eyes, touched the knuckles of his
folded
hands—blunt-fingered, powerful hands, nicked all
over
with the scars of old sword cuts and marked on one
heavy
wrist with an age-whitened shackle gall. Then he
rubbed
his eyes tiredly and looked straight into the deep
hollow
of shadow where Gil stood, framed by the intri-
cately
screened filigree of the pillars beside the window.
He beckoned
to her. "Come here," he said gently, "and
tell me
about yourself. Don't be afraid."
"I'm
not afraid." But as she took a hesitating step for-
ward,
the lamplight darkened, and the whole room was
lost to
her sight in the foggy mazes of sleep.
Gil
told no one about the third dream. She had spoken
of the
second one to a woman friend who had listened sym-
pathetically
but hadn't, she felt, understood. Indeed, she
didn't
understand it herself. But the third dream she
mentioned
to no one, because she knew that it had been
no
dream. The certainty troubled her. Maybe, she told
herself,
she would tell her friend about it one day, when
enough
time had passed so that it was no longer im-
portant.
But for now she locked it away, with several other
irrelevant
matters, in her secret heart.
Then
one night she woke from a sound sleep standing
up. She
saw, as her eyes cleared, that she was in a sunken
courtyard
in that deserted city. The great houses sur-
rounded
her like lightless cliffs, and moonlight drenched
the
square, throwing her shadow clearly on muddy and
unwashed
flagstones under her bare feet. The place was
deserted,
like a courtyard of the dead. Where the ghastly
silver
light blanched the facade of the east-facing house,
she saw
that its great doors had been blown off their
hinges
from within and lay in scattered pieces about her
feet.
From
out of that empty doorway, a sudden little wind
stirred,
restless and without direction, turning back on
itself
in a small scritching eddy of fallen leaves. She
sensed
beyond the blind windows and vacant doors of
that
house a sound, a fumbling movement, as if dark
shifted
through dark, bumbling eyelessly at the inner walls,
seeking
a way out. She swallowed hard, her breath quick-
ening
in fear, and she glanced behind her at the arched
gateway
that led out into the deserted street beyond. But
the
gate was dark, and she felt a clammy, unreasoning
terror
of walking beneath the clustered shadows in the
high
vault of the enclosed passage.
The
wind from the house increased, chilling her. She
edged
her way back toward the dark gate, feeling herself
beginning
to shiver, her feet icy on the marble pavement.
The
silence of the place was terrible; even the screaming
flight
of that first night would have been more welcome.
Then
she had been in a crowd, though unseen; then she had
not
been alone. Silent and terrible, the lurker waited on
the
threshold of that dark house, and she knew that she
must
flee for her life. She would not be able to waken
out of
this dream; she knew that she was already awake.
Then,
out of the corner of her eye, she had the brief im-
pression
of something moving, low to the ground, in the
shadows
by the wall. Swinging around, she saw nothing.
But she
thought that the darkness itself was reaching out
toward
her, damping even the moonlight.
Turning,
she fled, her black shadow running on the
ground
before her in the ivory moonlight. Broken stone
and
iron gashed her bare feet as she plunged into the black
arch of
the gate, but the pain was swallowed in icy fear as
thin,
aimless winds tugged at her—as she sensed, rather
than
saw, something move in the utter blackness over her
head.
She stumbled into the street outside, her bleeding
feet
leaving red blotches on the wet slime of the cobbles,
running,
running in heart-bursting panic through the empty
boulevards
of the city that she now saw lay half in ruins,
the
silent pavements cluttered with rubble and new-stripped
human
bones. Shadows, black and as staring as walls of
stone,
confronted her with new horrors at every turn; gar-
goyle
shapes of terror lurked under every eave and fallen
rooftree.
The only sounds in all that empty city of freezing
night
were the moist, pattering slap of her bare feet on
stone
and the gasp of her laboring breath, the only move-
ments
her own frenzied flight and that of her jerking, leap-
ing
shadow, and, behind her, the drifting movement of
wind
and darkness pouring after her like smoke. She fled
blindly
down black canyons, feet numb, legs numb, stum-
bling
over she knew not what, knowing by instinct in which
direction
the Palace lay, knowing that Ingold the wizard
was
there and that Ingold would save her.
She ran
until she woke, sobbing, clutching her pillow in
the
dark, soaked with cold terror-sweat, her body aching
with
exhaustion. Only gradually did the filtered moonlight
register
the familiar things of the Clarke Street apartment,
alien
to her wondering eyes, as if both worlds were now
equally
hers. She forced her gasping breath to slow, forced
her
mind to think; her legs smarted; her feet were like ice
beneath
the covers. In a confused clutching at the straws
of
sanity she thought, That's why I dreamed of having cold
feet;
because my feet are cold. She groped for the light
with
trembling fingers, turned it on, and lay there shiver-
ing,
repeating to herself the desperate, unbelieving litany:
It was
only a dream, it was only a dream. Please, God, let
it be
only a dream.
But
even as she whispered, she felt the sticky wetness
matting
her numb toes. Reaching down, unwillingly, to
warm
them, she brought her fingers back streaked with
fresh
blood, from where she had cut her feet on the broken
stone
in the gateway.
Five
nights later, the moon was full.
Its
light woke Gil, startling her out of sleep into a split-
second
convulsion of fear, until she recognized the night-
muted
patterns of familiar things and realized she was in
her
place on Clarke Street. Waking suddenly in the night,
she was
seldom sure anymore. She lay still for a time,
listening
open-eyed in the darkness, waiting for the quick
flood
of panic to subside from her veins. White moonlight
lay on
the blanket beside her, palpable as a sheet of paper.
Then
she thought, Dammit, I forgot to put the chain on
the
door.
This
was purely a formality, a bedtime ritual; the apart-
ment
had a regular lock and, moreover, the neighborhood
was a
quiet one. She almost decided to forget the whole
thing,
roll over, and go back to sleep; but after a minute,
she
crawled out of bed, shivering in the cold, and groped
her
peacock kimono from its accustomed place on the floor.
Wrapping
it about her, she padded silently into the dark
kitchen,
her feet finding their way easily. Her hand found
the
light switch by touch in the darkness and flicked it up.
The
wizard Ingold was sitting at the kitchen table.
Absurdly,
Gil's first thought was that this was the only
time
she'd seen him in decent lighting. He looked older,
wearier,
the brown and white of his homespun robes faded
and
stained and shabby, but he was essentially the same
fierce,
gentlemanly old man she knew from her dreams:
the
advisor of the dark King; the man whose face she'd
seen
reflected in the foxfire glow of his sword, striding
down to
meet the darkness.
This is
stupid, she thought. This is crazy. Not because
she was
seeing him again—for she'd known all along that
she
would—but because it was in her apartment, her world.
What
the hell was he doing here if it wasn't a dream? And
she
knew it wasn't. She glanced automatically around the
kitchen.
The supper dishes—and the previous night's sup-
per
dishes—were piled unwashed on the counter, the table
top
invisible under a litter of apple cores and index cards,
cups of
moldering coffee and sheets of scribbled notebook
paper.
Two of her old T-shirts were dumped over the back
of the
chair on which Ingold sat. The seedy electric clock
behind
his head read just past three. It was all too squalidly
depressing
to be anything but real—she was definitely
neither
asleep nor dreaming.
"What
are you doing here?" she asked.
The
wizard raised shaggy eyebrows in surprise. "I came
to talk
to you," he replied. She knew the voice. She felt
that
she had always known it.
"I
mean—how did you get here?"
"I
could give you a technical explanation, of course," he
said,
and the smile that briefly illuminated his face turned
it
suddenly very young. "But would it matter? I crossed
the
Void to find you, because I need your help."
"Huhh?"
It was
not the kind of response best suited to what she'd
read of
dealing with wizards, but Ingold's eyes twinkled
with
fleeting amusement. "I would not have sought you
out,"
he told her gently, "if I didn't."
"Uh—"
Gil said profoundly. "I don't understand." She
started
to sit down opposite him, which involved clearing
two
textbooks and the calendar section of the Times off
the
chair, then paused in a tardy outburst of hospitality.
"Would
you like a beer?"
"Thank
you." He smiled, and gravely studied the open-
ing
instructions inscribed on the top of the can. For a first
time,
he didn't do badly.
"How
could you see me?" she asked, sliding into her
chair
as he shook the foam off his fingers. "Even when it
was a
dream, even when no one else could—King Eldor
and the
Guards at the gate—you could. Why was that?"
"It's
because I understand the nature of the Void," the
wizard
said gravely. He folded his hands on the table, the
blunt,
scarred fingers idly caressing the gaudy aluminum
of the
can, as if memorizing its shape and feel. "You un-
derstand,
Gil, that there exists an infinite number of
parallel
universes, meshed in the matrix of the Void. In
my
world, in my time, I am the only one who understands
the
nature of the Void—one of a bare handful who even
suspects
its existence."
"And
how did you learn about it, much less how to
cross
it, if no one else in your world knows?" Gil asked
curiously.
The
wizard smiled again. "That, Gil, is a story that
would
take all night to do justice to, without advancing the
present
situation. Suffice it to say that I am the only man
in
perhaps five hundred years who has been able to cross
the
curtain that separates universe from universe—and
having
done so, I was able to recognize the imprint of your
thoughts,
your personality, that had been drawn across the
Void by
the mass vibration of worldwide panic and terror.
I
believe there are a very few others in your world who, for
whatever
reason, be it psychic or physical or purest coinci-
dence,
have felt, from across the Void, the coming of the
Dark.
Of them all, you are the only one with whom I have
been
able to establish contact. It was seeing you, speaking
to you,
and then having you materialize not only in thought
but in
body, that made me understand what is happening
with
regard to the Void."
Outside,
a truck rumbled by on Clarke Street, its sound
muffled
with distance and the night. Somewhere in the
apartment
building, a toilet flushed, a faint echoing gur-
gle
along the pipes. Gil stared down at the table for a
time,
her eye automatically noting her own jagged black
handwriting
spelling out cryptic notes with regard to the
upkeep
of fourteenth-century bridges, then looked up again
at the
wizard calmly drinking beer across from her, his
staff
leaned against the wall at his side.
She
asked, "What is happening with the Void?"
"When
I spoke with you in Gae," Ingold went on, "I
realized
that our worlds must lie in very close conjunction
at this
time—so close that, because of the psychic crisis, a
dreamer
could literally walk the line between them and
see
from one into the next. This is both a rare and a tem-
porary
occurrence, a one-in-a-million chance for two
worlds
to drift so close. But it is a situation that I can use
to my
advantage in this emergency."
"But
why did it happen now, at the tune of crisis?" Gil
asked,
the harsh electric glare rippling in the embroidery
of her
gaudy sleeves as she leaned forward across the table.
"And
why did it happen to me?"
He must
have caught the suppressed slivers of uneasiness
and
fear of being singled out in her voice; when he replied
he
spoke gently. "Nothing is fortuitous. There are no ran-
dom
events. But we cannot know all the reasons."
She
barely hid a smile. "That's a wizard's answer if I
ever
heard one."
"Meaning
that mages deal in double talk?" His grin was
impish.
"That's one of our two occupational hazards."
"And
what's the other one?"
He
laughed. "A deplorable tendency to meddle."
She
joined him in laughter. Then after a moment she
grew
quiet and asked, "But if you're a wizard, how could
you
need my help? What help could I possibly give you
that
you couldn't find for yourself? How could I help you
against—against
the Dark? Who is, or what is, the Dark?"
He
regarded her in silence for a moment, judging her,
testing
her, watching her out of blue eyes whose surface
brightness
masked a depth and pull like the ocean's. His
face
had grown grave again, settled into its sun-scorched
lines.
He said, "You know."
She
looked away, seeing in her unwilling mind mono-
lithic
bronze doors exploding off their hinges; seeing shad-
ows
that ran behind her, inescapable as ghostly wolves. She
spoke
without meeting his eyes. "I don't know what they
are."
"Nor
does anyone," he said, "unless it's Lohiro, the
Master
of Quo. It's a question whose answer I wish I had
never
been set to seek, a riddle I'm sorry I have to unravel.
"What
can I say of the Dark, Gil? What can I say that
you
don't know already? That they are the sharks of night?
That
they pull the flesh from the bones, or the blood from
the
flesh, or the soul and spirit from the living body and
let it
stumble mindlessly to an eventual death from starva-
tion?
That they ride the air in darkness, hunt in darkness,
and
that fire or light or even a good bright moon will keep
them
away? Would that tell you what they are?"
She
shook her head, hypnotized by the warm roughness
of his
voice, caught by the intensity of his eyes and by the
horror
and the memory of even more appalling horrors
that
she saw there. "But you know," she whispered.
"Would
to God I did not." Then he sighed and looked
away;
when he turned his head again, there was only that
matter-of-fact
self-assurance in his face, without the doubt,
or the
fear, or the loathing of what he knew.
"I—I
dreamed of them." Gil stumbled on the words,
finding
it unexpectedly more difficult to speak of that first
forerunning
dream to one who understood than to one who
did not
"Before I ever saw them, before I ever knew what
they
were. I dreamed about a—a vault, a cellar—with
arches
going in all directions. The floor was black and
smooth,
like glass; and in the middle of that black floor
was a
slab of granite that was new and rough, because no-
body
ever walked on it. You said they came from—from
beneath
the ground."
"Indeed,"
the wizard said, looking at her with an alert,
speculative
curiosity. "You seem to have sensed their com-
ing far
ahead of its time. That may mean something,
though
at the moment I'm not sure . .. Yes, that was the
Dark,
or, rather, the blocked-up entrance to one of their
Nests.
Under that granite slab—and I know the one you're
talking
about—is a stairway, a stairway going downward
incalculable
depths into the earth. It was with the stair-
ways, I
believe, that it all began.
"For
the stairways were always there. You find repre-
sentations
of them in the most ancient prehistoric petro-
glyphs:
vast pavements of black stone and, in the midst of
them,
stairs descending to the deepest heart of the earth.
No one
ever went down them—at least, no one who came
back up
again—and no one knew who built them. Some
said it
was the titans of old, or the earth-gods; old records
speak
of the places as being awesome, full of magic. For
a long
time they were considered to be lucky, favored by
the
gods—the old religion built temples over them, temples
which
became the centers of the first cities of humankind.
"All
this was millennia ago. Villages grew to towns and
then to
great cities. The cities united; states and realms
spread
along the rich valleys of the Brown River, on the
shores
of the Round Sea and the Western Ocean, and in
the
jungles and deserts of Alketch. Civilization flowered
and
bore its fruits: wizardry, art, money, learning, war.
Records
of that time are so scarce as to be almost non-
existent.
Only beguiling fragments of chronicles remain,
mostly
in the Library at Quo, a teasing sliver of a civiliza-
tion of
great depth and richness, of sublime beauty and
wisdom
and truly foul decadence, a society that parented
first
wizardry and then the Church and the great codes of
civil
law.
"I
am virtually certain that some kind of tradition ex-
isted
then regarding the Dark Ones, simply because the
word
for them was in the language. Sueg—dark—isueg—
an
archaic, personalized form of the same word. But they
were
only a vague rumor of shadow on the edges of the
oldest
legends—the misty memory of hidden fear. And if
there
was such a tradition, it did not connect them with
the
stairways themselves. So they remained, rooted in the
abysses
of time, an ancient mystery buried in the heart of
civilization.
"Of
the destruction of the ancient world we have no co-
herent
account. We know that it happened within a matter
of
weeks. That what struck, struck worldwide, we also
know—a
simultaneous siege of horror. But the horror and
the
confusion were so overwhelming that virtually no
record was
preserved; and since defense against the Dark
generally
entailed uncontrolled use of fire as a weapon, we
lost
what little information we might have had about their
coming.
We know that they came—but we do not know
why.
"Unable
to fight, humankind fled and retreated to forti-
fied
Keeps, behind whose massive walls they led a window-
less
existence, creeping forth by day to till their fields and
hiding
when the sun went down. For three hundred years,
absolute
chaos and terror held sway on the earth, because
there
was no knowing where or when the Dark would
come.
Civilization crumbled, fading to a few glowing em-
bers of
the great beacon light that it had once been.
"And
then—" Ingold spread his hands, showing them
empty,
like a sideshow magician. "The Dark no longer
came.
Whether the cessation was sudden or gradual, we
cannot
be sure, for by that time few people were literate
enough
to be keeping accurate records. Little villages had
grown
up outside the Keeps; in time, new little villages
appeared
on the crumbling ruins of the ancient cities whose
very
names had been forgotten through the intervening
years.
There were wars and change and long spaces of tune.
Old
traditions faded; the very language changed. Old songs
and
stories were forgotten.
"Three
thousand years is a long time, Gil. You're an
historian—can
you tell me, with any accuracy, what hap-
pened
three thousand years ago?"
"Uh—"
Gil cast a hasty scan over her memories of
Ancient
Civilizations 1A. Marathon? Stonehenge? Hyksos'
invasions
of Egypt? As a medievalist, she had only the
foggiest
impressions of anything prior to Constantine. What
must it
be like, she wondered, for the average Joe Doakes
who
hadn't been to college and didn't like history much
anyway?
Even something as hideous as the Black Death, an
event
which had grossly and permanently impacted western
civilization,
was only a name to eighty percent of the
population—and
that was only six hundred years ago.
Ingold
nodded, his point made. It occurred to Gil to
wonder
how he had known that her subject was history, but
he went
on, as she was beginning to find was his habit,
without
explaining. "For many years I was the only one
who
knew anything about even the old tales of the Dark. I
knew—I learned—that
the Dark Ones were not utterly
gone.
Eventually I learned that they were not even much
diminished
in numbers. And I heard things that made me
believe
that they would return. Eldor's father had me ban-
ished
for speaking of it, which I thought small-minded of
him,
since sending me away could not reduce the danger—
but
perhaps he thought that I was lying. Eldor believed
me.
Without his preparations, I think we would all have
perished
the first night of their rising."
"And
now?" Gil asked softly.
"Now?"
The night was far spent; the lines of weariness
etched
into his scarred face seemed to settle a little deeper.
"We
are holding out in the Palace at Gae. The main body
of the
Army under the command of the Chancellor of the
Realm,
Alwir, the Queen's brother, has been in Penambra,
where
the raids were the worst. They should return to the
city
within days; but without a miracle they will be too
late to
prevent catastrophe. I have tried vainly to get in
touch
with the Council of Wizards in the Hidden City of
Quo,
but I fear they, too, may be besieged. They have re-
treated
behind their defenses of power and illusion. Though
I still
have hopes that we can hold out long enough for
Lohiro
to send us aid of some kind, I would not want to
wager
the lives of my friends on that hope. The defenders
at the
Palace need me, Gil. Though I cannot do much, I
will
not leave them until it is beyond doubt that no effort
of mine
can save them.
"And
that," he said, "is where I need your help."
She
only looked at him, uncomprehending.
"You
understand," Ingold went on in that same quiet
tone,
"that by leaving it that late, I shall be cutting my
escape
very fine. In the last extremity, my only course will
be to
flee across the Void into some other world—this
world.
I can cross back and forth at will with relative
impunity.
Normally such a crossing is a shocking enough
physical
trauma for an adult. For an infant of six months,
even
under my protection, it can be injurious, and two
such
crossings in a short span of tune could do the child
real
harm. I will therefore have to remain a day in this
world,
with the child, before I can return to some safer
spot in
my own."
The
light dawned. Gil smiled. "You need a place to hole
up."
"As
you say. I need an isolated spot and a few creature
comforts—a
place to pass that time in obscurity. Do you
know of
such a place?"
"You
could come here," Gil offered.
Ingold
shook his head. "No," he said decidedly.
"Why
not?"
The
wizard hesitated before answering. "It's too dan-
gerous,"
he said at last. He rose from his chair, moved
restlessly
to the flat rectangle of the window, and pushed
the
curtain aside, looking out, down into the apartment
courtyard
below. The greenish reflections of the courtyard
lights
in the waters of the swimming pool rippled over the
old
marks of alien battles on his face. "Too many things
could
happen. I have a great mistrust of fate, Gil. My
powers
are severely limited in your world. If something
were to
go wrong, I have no desire to try to explain my
presence
or that of the child to the local authorities."
Gil had
a brief, disturbing picture of Ingold, like some
bearded
refugee from the Society for the Preservation of
Dungeons
and Dragons in his shabby robes and killing
sword,
having a close encounter with the local police or
the
Highway Patrol. Despite her impression that the High-
way
Patrol would come off second best, she realized such a
confrontation
could not be risked. Not with so much at
stake.
"There's
a place we used to go past on trail rides," she
said,
after a moment's thought.
"Yes?"
He turned back from the window, letting the cur-
tain
swish shut.
"A
girl I used to go to school with lives out near Bar-
stow—it's
in the desert, way the hell east of here. I spent
a
couple weeks out there two summers ago. She had horses,
and we
used to ride all over the back-hills country. I re-
member
there was a cabin, kind of a little house, out in
the
middle of some abandoned orange groves in the hills.
We
holed up there one afternoon during a thunderstorm.
It
isn't much, but there's running water and a kerosene
stove,
and it's as isolated as you could want."
Ingold
nodded. "Yes," he murmured, half to himself.
"Yes,
it should do."
"I
can bring you food and blankets," she went on. "Just
tell me
when you'll be there."
"I
don't know that yet," the wizard said quietly. "But
you'll
know, at the time."
"All
right." Though Gil was normally a suspicious per-
son, it
never occurred to her to question him, and this did
not
even surprise her about herself. She trusted him, she
found,
as if she had known him for years.
Ingold
reached across the table and took her hand.
"Thank
you," he said. "You are a stranger to our world
and you
owe us nothing—it is good of you to help."
"Hey,"
Gil protested softly. "I'm not a stranger. I've
been in
your world, and I've seen the Dark. I just about
met
King Eldor, as a matter of fact." Then she paused,
confused
at her blunder, for she remembered that the King
and the
wizard were friends, and that Eldor was almost
certainly
going to die before the week was out.
But
Ingold passed over her error like the gentleman he
was.
"I know Eldor would have been pleased to make
your
acquaintance," he said. "And you shall always have
his
gratitude, and mine, for ..."
Some
sound in the night made him suddenly alert, and
he
broke off, raising his head to listen.
"What
is it?" Gil whispered.
Ingold
turned back to her. "I'm afraid I must go," he
said
politely. His voice seldom betrayed worry or fear—he
might
have been making his excuses because of a prior en-
gagement
for tea with the Queen of Numenor. But Gil
knew
that something was happening, across the Void, in
the
embattled Palace at Gae.
He rose
to go, the straight dark line of his mantle break-
ing
over the sword at his hip. Gil thought of the danger
and of
the Dark waiting on the other side of the Void.
She
caught at his sleeve. In a voice smaller than she meant,
she said,
"Hey, take care."
His
smile was like the coming of the sun. "Thank you,
my
dear. I always do." Then he walked a few paces to the
center
of the kitchen and put out his hand to push the
fabric
of the universe aside like a curtain. As he did so, he
drew
his sword, and Gil could see the cold light that burned
up off
the blade as he stepped into the mist and fire beyond.
CHAPTER
TWO
It was
the goddam motherless fuel pump!
Rudy
Solis identified immediately the gasp and drag of
the old
Chevy's engine, automatically checked his rear-
vision
mirror, and scanned the dark, straight, two-lane
highway
ahead, though he knew there was nothing resem-
bling a
light in fifty miles. With all of Southern California
to
choose from, naturally the thing would decide to give up
the
ghost in the dead, endless stretch of desert and hill
country
that lay between Barstow and San Bernardino,
miles
from anywhere in the middle of Sunday night.
Rudy
wondered if he could make it back to the party.
Be a
lot of sorrow and tears if I can't, he thought to him-
self,
glancing over his shoulder at the ten cases of beer
stacked
amid the shredded foam, old newspapers, and
greasy
articles of unidentifiable clothing heaped in the
sagging
back seat. The engine faltered, coughed apologet-
ically,
and chugged on. Rudy cursed the owner of the car,
the
seventh-magnitude rock-and-roll star at whose party
he'd
been drinking and sunburning himself into a stupor
all
weekend, and the buddies who'd volunteered him to make
the
beer run, thirty miles down the hills to Barstow; cursed
them
impersonally, and threw in a few curses at himself as
well
for being euchred into going.
Well,
serves 'em right. Next time they want somebody
to buy
their beer for 'em, they can damn well lend me a
decent
car.
But the
fact was that most people had arrived at Tarot's
party
on motorcycles, as Rudy himself had. And Tarot—
who had
started out life as James Carrow and was still
known
as Jim when not wearing his flameout stage make-
up—wasn't
about to lend his custom Eldorado to anybody,
no
matter how few cases of beer were left.
Well,
what the hell. Rudy shook back the long hair from
his
eyes and risked another glance at the unrelieved black-
ness of
empty desert reflected in his rear-view mirror.
Everybody
up at that hundred-thousand-dollar hideaway
in the
canyons was so drunk by this tune that it was im-
possible
to see what difference ten more cases of beer could
make.
If worst came to worst—which it looked like it was
going
to, from the sound of that engine—he could always
find
someplace in the hills to hole up in until morning and
try to
hitch a ride to the nearest phone then. There was a
service
road about ten miles farther on that he knew of,
which
would take him to a dilapidated shack in what re-
mained
of an old orange grove. Half-plastered as he was,
he
didn't relish the idea of trying to do anything about the
engine
tonight, nor was the thought of sleeping by the road
real
appealing. Rudy took a drink from the half-empty
bottle
of wine propped on the seat beside him and drove
on.
Rudy
had been driving and dealing with cars and
motorcycles
half his life—not always with legal sanctions
—but it
took all his expertise to nurse the failing Chevy
the mile
or two from the last lighted billboard to the rutted
track
of the service road. The lag and jerk of the big V-8
engine
as he maneuvered through potholes, gravel slides,
and the
ruinous washes of old stream beds made him
wonder
if the problem wasn't simply a blocked line. He
itched
to climb out, raise the hood, and check—except that
he had
nothing resembling a light with him, and the odds
were
that, once stopped, nothing short of total rebuilding
would
get the stupid car started again. The feeble glare of
the
headlights picked out landmarks he knew from his
motorcycle
trips back this way: an oak tree twisted into
the
shape of a disapproving monk, gloomily damning the
couples
who came out here to park; a rock like a sleeping
buffalo,
silhouetted against the star-luminous sky. Rudy's
hobby
of hunting with bow and arrow had given him a
familiarity
with half the wild country left in Southern
California,
a knowledge of these silent desert hills as casual
as his
knowledge of the inner workings of a V-8 engine or
of the
floor plan of his own sparsely furnished apartment.
He was
as much at home here as he was anywhere else.
Sometimes
more so. Maybe the hunting was the reason,
or
maybe only the excuse. There were times when he sim-
ply
took pleasure in being alone, a different pleasure from
what
was to be had from partying and raising hell, from
horsing
around with the guys at the body shop, from rat-
pack
weekends in the desert. Never self-analytical, Rudy
only
understood that he needed the solitude, needed the
touch
of the empty land and the demand for slow skill and
perfect
accuracy. Perhaps it was this that had kept him on
the
edge of the biker crowd; he'd become acquainted with
them at
the body shop but never of them. Or perhaps it
was
simple cowardice.
Whatever
his reasons, he was accepted for what he was;
and
though not part of any motorcycle gang, as an airbrush
painter
and pinstriper at Wild David's body shop in Fon-
tana,
he was part of that world. Hence, he understood his
inclusion
in Tarot's party—not that anybody in Southern
California
was excluded from Tarot's party. Tarot's local
reputation
included an apocryphal story about being a for-
mer
member of the Hell's Angels. But, thinking the matter
over as
he guided the thrombotic car deeper and deeper
into
the blackness of the hills, Rudy couldn't imagine any
gang
admitting a member as essentially chickenhearted as
Jim
Carrow.
The
car's front wheels dropped suddenly into a twelve-
inch
water-cut in the road with a heart-rending scrape of
oil pan
against rock. Rudy tried the engine twice and got
only a
tired whirring in response. He opened the door and
climbed
cautiously out, boots slipping on the round stones
of the
dry stream bed. Two days of continuous partying
didn't
help his footing much. He ascertained at once that
pushing
wouldn't help matters, for the car was nose-down
with
its front bumper inches from the far bank of the gully.
It
might, he decided, kneeling in the soft sand, be possible
to back
out if the engine could be started, but it wasn't
something
he'd want to try at one-thirty in the morning.
Disgusted,
he straightened up.
Starlight
showed him the shape and roll of the hills, the
shallow
valley opening out to his right, with a dark cluster-
ing of
dry, black-leaved citrus trees. The shack—a cabin,
really—would
be over there in the dense shadow of the hill,
a
hundred yards farther on.
Made
it, he thought. Thank God for small favors.
It was
surprising how silent the night was. There was
little
silence in the world; even away from people, there
was
usually street noise, airplanes, air conditioning. The
cooling
metal of the car's engine ticked softly in the dark-
ness;
now and then, dried grass sighed at the memory of
wind.
Rudy's eyes, adjusting to the wan glow of the Milky
Way,
slowly made out the edges of the cabin's roof line,
the
shapes of long grass and twisted trees. His footfalls
seemed
very loud in that world of darkness.
Walking
carefully, if not precisely staggering, he col-
lected
two six-packs of beer from the back seat and the
remainder
of his bottle of muscatel from the front. His
head
was beginning to ache. Just what I need. A busted
fuel
pump and a hangover to fix it with. They'll probably
figure
I took the beer money and headed for Mexico.
He made
his way up to the shack.
It
stood solitary against the dark of the hills, the long
grass
around its peeling walls concealing the fossilized re-
mains
of dead farm equipment and broken bottles, the
shabby
asphalt tile of the roof sagging under the weight of
accumulated
leaves. He mounted the crazy front steps and
set
down his burdens on the narrow front porch, the mild
chill
of the sweet-scented night making him shiver as he
stripped
off his greasy denim jacket, wrapped it around his
hand,
and punched out a pane of the window beside the
door to
let himself in.
The
lights worked, surprisingly. Hookup to the power
tines
in the grove, he decided, taking a quick look around
the
dingy kitchen. So did the sink, giving cold water but not
hot.
Well, you can't have everything. In the cupboard un-
der the
sink he found three cans of pork and beans with
prices
stamped on them that were at least four years old,
and a
kerosene stove with half a can of kerosene.
Not
bad, he reflected, if I had anything to cook. Further
exploration
revealed a minuscule bathroom and a cell-like
bedroom
at the end of a narrow hall, with a sagging cot
whose
threadbare mattress would have been thrown out of
any
jail in the state as cruel and unusual.
Nothing
to write home about, he thought, returning to
the
kitchen and thence to the star-limned silence of the
front
porch. He donned his jacket, on which the faded blue
denim
was rather gaudily illuminated with a flaming skull
with
roses in its eyes, and settled back against the door-
jamb to
polish off the muscatel and watch the night in
peace.
As the dark quiet of the hills soaked into his soul,
he
decided that there was, after all, something to be said
for the
place, a perfection of solitude in many ways supe-
rior to
all the beer busts thrown by all the rock stars of
California.
After a
long time of silence he returned inside to sleep.
He woke
up wondering what he'd done to annoy the
little
man with the sledgehammer who lived inside his head.
He
rolled over, to his instant regret, and wondered if he
was
going to die.
The
room was barely light. He lay for a time staring at
the
shadows of the dry, cobwebby rafters, memories of
yesterday
and last night leaking back to his protesting con-
sciousness:
Tarot's party; the fact that it was Monday and
he was
supposed to be back at work at the body shop,
painting
flaming sunsets on custom vans; last night's beer
run to
Barstow; and that pig of a Chevy. It might be just
the
fuel lines, he told himself, his mind backtracking
creakily
through the obstacle course of a splitting head-
ache
and assorted other symptoms of the immoderate con-
sumption
of muscatel. If that was the case, he could be
under
way in a few hours. If it was the pump, he was in
for a
long walk.
Rudy
made his way out of the house and down the steps,
blinking
in the pallid light of dawn. He was soon cursing
the
owner of the car. There wasn't anything resembling a
tool in
all the bushels of trash in the trunk or on the back
seat.
There
was a shed half-buried in the weeds farther back
in the
groves behind the cottage, and he spent ten grimy
minutes
picking through spider-infested debris there in
search
of tools. The result was hardly satisfactory: a rusted
Phillips
screwdriver with a dog-chewed handle; a couple of
blades
with the business ends twisted; and an adjustable
end
wrench so corroded that he doubted it could be used.
The sun
was just clearing the hills as he stepped out
again,
wiping his hands on his jeans; all around him the
clear
magic colors of day were emerging from the dawn's
grayed
pastels. The house, formerly a nameless bulk of
shadow,
ripened into warm russets and weathered sepias,
its
windows blazing with the sun's reflected glory like the
dazzle
of molten electrum. As Rudy stood there in the
shadow
of the shed, he thought for a moment that it was
this
burning glare that was playing tricks on his eyes.
Then he
saw that this was not so, but for a moment he
didn't
know what it was. He shaded his eyes against the
blinding
silvery shimmer that hung in the air like a twisting
slit of
fire, blinking in the almost painful brilliance that
stabbed
forth as the slit, or line of brightness, widened
scarcely
a dozen yards in front of him. He had the momen-
tary
impression that space and reality were splitting apart,
that
the three dimensions of this world were merely painted
on a
curtain, and that air and ground and cabin and hills
were
being folded aside, to reveal a more piercing light,
blinding
darkness, and swirling nameless colors beyond.
Then,
through that gap, a dark form stumbled, robed and
hooded
in brown, a drawn sword gleaming in one hand
and a
trailing bundle of black velvet gripped tightly in the
crook
of the other arm. The sword blade was bright, as if
it
reflected searing light, and it smoked.
Blinded
by the intensity of the light, Rudy turned his
face
away, confused, disoriented, and shocked. When he
turned
back, the blazing vision was gone. There remained
only an
old man in a brown robe, an old man who held a
sword
in one hand and a wailing baby in the other arm.
Rudy
blinked. "What in hell was I drinking last night?"
he
asked aloud. "And who the hell are you?"
The old
man sheathed the sword in one smooth, com-
petent
gesture, and Rudy found himself thinking that who-
ever
this was, he must be very quick on the draw with that
thing.
It looked real, too, balanced and razor-sharp. The
old man
replied, in a scratchy baritone, "I am called In-
gold
Inglorion. This is Prince Altir Endorion, last Prince of
the
House of Dare."
"Hunh?"
The old
man drew back the hood from his face, reveal-
ing a
countenance wholly nondescript except for the re-
markable
blueness of the heavy-lidded eyes and for its
expression
of awesome serenity. Rudy had never seen a
face
like that, gentle, charming, and supremely in com-
mand.
It was the face of a saint, a wizard, or a nut.
Rudy
rubbed his aching eyes. "How'd you get here?"
"I
came through the Void that separates your universe
from
mine," Ingold explained reasonably. "You could hard-
ly have
missed it."
He's a
nut.
Curious,
Rudy walked slowly around him, keeping his
distance.
The guy was armed, after all, and something in
the way
he'd handled the sword made Rudy sure he knew
how to
use it. He looked like a harmless old buffer, except
for the
Francis of Assisi get-up, but years of association
with
the brotherhood of the road had given Rudy an in-
stinctive
caution of anybody who was armed, no matter
how
harmless he looked. Besides, anybody running around
dressed
like that was obviously certifiable.
The old
man watched him in return, looking rather
amused,
one thick-muscled hand absently caressing the
child
he held into muffled whimpers, then silence. Rudy
noticed
that the old man's dark robes and the child's
blankets
were rank with smoke. He supposed they could
have
come out of the shadows around the corner of the
house
in the moment the reflected sunlight had blinded
him,
giving the impression they'd stepped out of a kind of
flaming
aura, but that explanation still didn't tell him
where
they'd come from, or how the old man had happened
to
acquire the kid.
After a
long moment's silence Rudy asked, "Are you for
real?"
The old
man smiled, a leaping webwork of lines spring-
ing
into being among the tangle of white beard. "Are you?"
"I
mean, are you supposed to be some kind of wizard
or
something?"
"Not
in this universe." Ingold surveyed the young man
before
him for a moment, then smiled again. "It's a long
story,"
he explained, turned, and strolled back toward the
house
as if he owned the place, with Rudy tagging along in
his
wake. "Would it be possible for me to remain here until
my
contact in this world can reach me? It shouldn't be
long."
What
the hell? "Yeah, sure, go ahead." Rudy sighed.
"I'm
only here myself because my car died on me—I
mean,
it's not really my car—and I have to check out the
pump
and see if I can get it running again." Seeing Ingold's
puzzled
frown, he remembered the guy was supposed to
be from
another universe where, since they used swords—
and
he'd still like to know where the old man had picked
that
one up—the internal combustion engine hadn't been
invented.
"You do know what a car is?"
"I'm
familiar with the concept. We don't have them in my
world,
of course."
"Of
course."
Ingold
led the way calmly up the steps and into the
house.
He proceeded straight on down the hall to the bed-
room,
where he placed the child on the stained, lumpy
mattress
of the cot. The baby immediately began working
himself
free of his blankets, with the apparently fixed in-
tention
of rolling off and braining himself on the cement
floor.
"But
who are you?" Rudy persisted, leaning in the door-
way.
"I
told you, my name is Ingold. Here, enough of
that .
. ." He reached down and stopped Prince Tir from
worming
himself over the edge. Then he glanced back over
bis
shoulder. "You haven't told me your name," he added.
"Uh—Rudy
Solis. Where'd you get the kid?"
"I'm
rescuing him from enemies," Ingold stated matter-
of-factly.
Wonderful,
Rudy thought. First the fuel pump and now
this.
Untangled,
the kid was revealed to be a crawler of six
months
or so, with a pink rosebud of a face, fuzzy black
hair,
and eyes that were the deep unearthly blue of the
heart
of a morning glory. Ingold set the kid back in the
middle
of the bed, where he promptly started for the edge
again.
The old man removed his dark, smoke-smelling
mantle
and spread it out like a groundcloth on the floor.
Under
it he wore a white wool robe, much patched and
stained,
a worn leather belt, and a low-slung sword belt
that
supported the sword and a short dagger in beat-up
scabbards.
The whole setup looked authentic as hell.
Ingold
picked up the child again and put him down on
the
mantle on the floor. "There," he said. "Now will you
stay
where you are put and fall asleep like a sensible per-
son?"
Prince Altir
Endorion made a definite but unintelligible
reply.
"Good,"
Ingold said, and turned toward the door.
"Whose
kid is he?" Rudy asked, folding his arms and
watching
the old man and the child.
For the
first time that look of self-command broke, and
grief,
or the concealment of grief, tightened into the mus-
cles of
the old man's face. His voice remained perfectly
steady.
"He is the child of a friend of mine," he replied
quietly,
"who is now dead." There was a moment's silence,
the old
man concentrating on turning back the cuffs of his
faded
robe, revealing a road map of old scars striping the
hard,
heavy muscle of his forearms. When he looked up
again,
that expression of gentle amusement was back in his
eyes.
"Not that you believe me, of course."
"Well,
now that you mention it, I don't."
"Good."
Ingold smiled, stepping past Rudy into the nar-
row
hall. "It's better that you shouldn't. Close the door
behind
you, would you, please?"
"Because,
for one thing," Rudy said, following him
down
the hall to the kitchen, "if you're from a whole other
universe,
like you say, how come you are speaking En-
glish?"
"Oh,
I'm not." Ingold located one of the six-packs of
beer on
the kitchen counter and extricated a can for him-
self
and one for Rudy. "Speaking English, that is. You
only
hear it as English in your mind. If you were to come
to my
world, I could arrange the same spell to cover you."
Oh,
yeah? Rudy thought cynically. And I suppose you
figured
out how to operate push-tab beer cans the same
way?
"Unfortunately,
there's no way I can prove this to you,"
Ingold
went on placidly, seating himself on the corner of
the
grimy formica table top, the butter-colored morning
sunlight
gilding the worn hilt of his sword with an edge
like
fire. "Different universes obey different physical laws,
and
yours, despite its present close conjunction with my
own, is
very far from the heart and source of Power. The
laws of
physics here are very heavy, very certain and irre-
versible,
and unaffected by ... certain other considera-
tions."
He glanced out the window to his right, scanning
the
fall of the land beyond, judging the angle of the sun,
the
time of day. The expression of calculation in his eyes,
adding
up pieces of information that had nothing to do
with
Rudy or with maintaining a role, troubled Rudy with
a
disquieting sense that the old man was too calm about it,
too
matter-of-fact. He'd met masqueraders before; living in
Southern
California, you could hardly help it. And, young
or old,
all those would-be Brothers of Atlantis had the same
air of
being in costume, no matter how cool they were
about
it. They all knew you were noticing them.
This
old croaker didn't seem to be thinking about Rudy
at all,
except as a man to be dealt with in the course of
something
else.
Rudy
found himself thinking, He's either what he says
he is,
or so far out in left field he's never coming back.
And his
indignant outrage at being beguiled into admit-
ting
two possibilities at all was almost immediately super-
imposed
on the uneasy memory of that gap of light and the
colors
he'd thought he'd seen beyond.
Watch
it, kiddo, he told himself. The old guy's not hit-
ting on
all his cylinders. If you're not careful, he'll have
you
doing it next. So he asked, "But you are a wizard in
your
own world?" Because the outfit couldn't be for any-
thing
else.
Ingold
hesitated, his attention returning to Rudy; then
he
nodded. "Yes," he said slowly.
Rudy
leaned back against the counter and took a pull at
his
beer. "You pretty good?"
Ingold
shrugged and seemed to relax, as if reassured by
the
disbelief in Rudy's tone. "I'm said to be."
"But
you can't do any magic here." A foregone conclu-
sion—the
ersatz Merlins of the world did not often operate
outside
a friendly environment.
But the
ersatz Merlins of the world didn't usually smile,
then
hide the smile, at the suggestion of fraud. "No. That
isn't
possible."
Rudy
simply couldn't figure the guy. But something in
that
serene self-assurance prompted him to ask, "Yeah, but
how can
you be a wizard without magic?" He finished his
beer,
crumpled the aluminum with one hand, and tossed it
into
the corner of the bare room.
"Oh,
wizardry has really very little to do with magic."
Taken
off-balance, Rudy paused, the old man's voice
and
words touching some feeling in his soul that echoed,
like
the distant note of a long-forgotten guitar. "Yeah,
but—"
he began, and stopped again. "What is wizardry?"
he
asked quietly. "What is magic?"
"What
isn't?"
There
was silence for the space of about two long-drawn
breaths,
Rudy fighting the sudden, illogical, and over-
whelming
notion that that was the reply of a man who un-
derstood
magic. Then he shook bis head, as if to clear it
of the
webs of the old man's crazy fantasies. "I don't un-
derstand
you."
Ingold's
voice was soft. "I think you do."
He
really did step out of that light.
In
another minute you'll be as crazy as he is.
Confusion
made Rudy's voice rough. "All I understand
is that
you're crazier than a loon..."
"Am
I really?" The white eyebrows lifted in mock of-
fense.
"And just how do you define crazy?"
"Crazy
is somebody who doesn't know the difference be-
tween
what's real and what's just in his imagination."
"Ah,"
Ingold said, all things made clear. "You mean if
I
disbelieved something that I saw with my own eyes, just
because
I imagined it to be impossible, I would be crazy?"
"I
did not either see it!" Rudy yelled.
"You
know you did," the wizard said reasonably. "Come
now,
Rudy, you believe in thousands of things you've never
seen
with your own eyes."
"I
do not!"
"You
believe in the ruler of your country."
"Well,
I've seen him! I've seen him on television."
"And
have you not also seen people materializing out of
showers
of silver light on this television?" Ingold asked.
"Dammit,
don't argue that way! You know as well as I
do..."
"But
I don't, Rudy. If you choose deliberately to disre-
gard
the evidence of your own senses, it's your problem,
not
mine. I am what I am..."
"You
are not!"
Slowly,
in an absent-minded imitation of Rudy's can-
squashing
ritual, Ingold crushed his empty beer can into a
wad
slightly smaller than his own fist. "Really, you're one
of the
most prejudiced young men I've ever met," he de-
clared.
"For an artist you have singularly little scope."
Rudy
drew in his breath to reply to that one, then let it
out
again. "How did you know I'm an artist?"
Amused
blue eyes challenged him. "A wild guess." In
his
heart Rudy knew it had been nothing of the kind. "You
are,
aren't you?"
"Uh—wen,
I paint airbrush pictures on the sides of cus-
tom
vans, and pinstripe motorcycle fuel tanks, that kind of
stuff."
Seeing Ingold's puzzled frown, he conceded, "Yeah,
I guess
you could call it art."
There
was another silence, the old man looking down at
his
scarred hands in the sunlight on the table top, the iso-
lated
cabin utterly silent but for the fault creaking insect
noises
in the long grasses outside. Then he looked up and
smiled.
"And is it beneath your dignity to have friends
with, I
think you call it, nonstandard reality?"
Rudy
thought about some of the people who hung
around
Wild David's bike shop. Nonstandard was one way
of
putting it. He laughed. "Hell, if I felt that way I'd have
maybe
about two friends. Okay, you win."
The old
man looked startled and just a little worried,
"You
mean you believe me?"
"No—but
it doesn't bother me if it doesn't bother you."
If he's
schizo, Rudy found himself thinking later in the
morning,
he's got it all down. Wizardry, the mythical
Realm
of Darwath, the Hidden City of Quo on the West-
ern
Ocean where the garnered learning of a hundred gen-
erations
of mages was stored in the dark labyrinths of
Forn's
Tower—Ingold had it all, seemed to know it as
intimately
as Rudy knew his own world of bars and bikes
and
body shops, of smog and steel. Through the long, warm
morning,
Rudy messed with the Chevy's engine, Ingold
lending
a hand occasionally when one was needed and stay-
ing out
of the way when it wasn't, and their talk drifted
over
magic, the Void, engines, and painting. Ingold never
slipped
up.
Not
only was he totally familiar with his own fantasy
world,
but Rudy noticed he had the lapses of knowledge
that a
man imperfectly acquainted with this world would
have.
He seemed totally fascinated with Rudy's world, with
the
wonders of radio and television, the complexities of the
welfare
system, and the mysteries of the internal combus-
tion
engine. He had the insatiable curiosity that, he had
said,
was the hallmark of wizards: the lust for knowledge,
almost
any kind of knowledge, that superseded even the
most
elementary considerations of physical comfort or
safety.
If it
wasn't for the kid, Rudy thought, glancing from
the
tangled shadows of the car toward the wizard, who was
seated
in the long grass, thoughtfully dissecting and exam-
ining a
seed pod, I wouldn't care. Hell, the guy could
claim
to be Napoleon and it'd be no business of mine. But
he's
got no business with a kid that young, wandering
around
a million miles from noplace.
And his
hangover hallucination of their stepping out of
the
burning air returned to him, the absolute reality of the
vision,
far clearer than anything muscatel or anything else
had
ever done for him. Something about it troubled him,
something
he could not yet define.
Then
the rusted nut he was working on gave way, and
other
matters claimed his attention. Ten minutes later he
crawled
out from under the car, grease-smudged, hot, and
disgusted.
Ingold set aside the seed pod and raised his eye-
brows
inquiringly.
Rudy
flung the wrench he was holding violently into the
dirt.
"Goddam fuel pump," he sighed, and dropped cross-
legged
to the ground at the wizard's side.
"It
is the pump, then, and not the line?" Rudy had
briefed
him on the problem.
"Yeah."
He cursed, and elaborated on the car, its owner,
and
things in general. He finished with, "So I guess the
only
thing to do is walk to the highway and hitch."
"Well,"
Ingold said comfortably, "my contact in this
world
should be here very shortly. You could always get a
ride
back to civilization with her."
Rudy
paused in wiping his oily hands on a rag he'd
fished
out of the back seat. "Your what?"
"My
contact in this world." Seeing Rudy's surprise, In-
gold
explained. "I shall be stranded the night in your
world
and, though on occasion I've starved, I see no reason
to do
it if it can be avoided."
"So
you're just passing through, is that it?" Rudy won-
dered
if there was, in fact, such a contact, or if this was
yet one
more strange figment of the old man's peculiar
imagination.
"In
a manner of speaking," Ingold said slowly.
"But
if you're a wizard in your own world, how come
you'd
starve?" Rudy asked, more out of lazy curiosity than
anything
else. "How come you can't just make food appear
if
you're hungry?"
"Because
it doesn't work that way," Ingold said simply.
"Creating
the illusion of food is relatively simple. To make
a piece
of grass like this one convincingly resemble bread
requires
only that in taste, texture, and appearance, I con-
vince
you that you are eating bread. But if you ate it, it
would
provide you no more nourishment than the grass,
and on
a steady diet of such things you would quickly
starve.
But literally to transform the inner nature of the
grass
would be to alter reality itself, to tamper with the
fabric
of the entire universe."
"Lot
of trouble to go through for a crummy piece of
bread."
"Well,
more than that, it's potentially dangerous. Any
tampering,
no matter how small, with the fabric of the
universe
is perilous. That is why shape-changing is seldom
done.
Most high-ranking wizards understand the principle
behind
turning oneself into a beast—with the mind and
heart
of a beast—but very, very few would dare to put it
into
practice. An archmage might do it, in peril of his life.
But . .
." He raised his head suddenly, and Rudy caught
the far-off
chugging of an engine in the still, pale air of
afternoon.
"My
friend," Ingold explained. He got up, brushing dry
grass
and twigs off his robe. Rudy scrambled likewise to
his
feet as a dusty red Volkswagen beetle crept into view
around
the shoulder of the hill.
"This
I gotta see."
The
bug's tires surrounded it in a light cloud of dust as
it made
its slow approach, bumping cautiously over every
rut and
pothole of the treacherous road. It came to a stop a
few
yards away, the door opened, and a girl got out
She
took one look at Rudy and stopped, her eyes filled
with
suspicion and distrust. Then Ingold stepped down the
bank
toward her, both hands held out in welcome. "Gil,"
he
said. "This is Rudy Solis. He thinks I'm crazy. Rudy—
Gil
Patterson. My contact in this world."
They
regarded each other in silent animosity.
Gil
would almost have preferred the Highway Patrol.
This
character had "biker" written on him in letters a foot
tall:
greasy jeans, grubby white T-shirt, scarred boots.
Dark
hair faintly tinged with red fell loosely on either side
of a
long widow's peak almost to his shoulders; cocky dark-
blue
eyes under sharply backslanted black brows gave her
an
arrogant once-over and dismissed her. She noted the
bump of
an old break on his nose. RUDY was tattooed on
a
banner across a flaming torch on his left wrist. A red
prize.
Kind of
tall and scrawny, but not bad-looking, Rudy de-
cided,
checking her out. Bitchy, though, I bet. A real
spook.
Beyond that he noted the worn jeans, blue check-
ered
shirt, lack of make-up, unworked hands and bitten
nails,
and cool, pale, forbidding eyes. Where'd Ingold dig
her up?
Ingold
went on, "Rudy's been stranded here with car
trouble.
Could you take him back with you as far as he
needs
to go when you leave, Gil, as a favor to me?"
Her
eyes went warily from Ingold to Rudy, then back
to the
wizard's face. Ingold rested a hand briefly on her
shoulder
and said quietly, "It's all right. He doesn't have to
believe
me, Gil."
She
sighed and forced herself to relax. "All right," she
agreed.
Rudy
had watched all this with curiosity bordering on
annoyance.
"Well, don't do me any favors."
Those
pale gray eyes grew colder. But Ingold's hand
tightened
almost imperceptibly on Gil's bony shoulder, and
she
said, in a more natural voice, "No, it's all right."
Rudy,
in turn, relaxed and meant it when he said,
"Thank
you. Uh—can I give you a hand with that?" for
Gil had
turned back to the car and was fetching out as-
sorted
provisions, including canned beef stew and diapers,
from
the back seat. He dropped back a pace to walk beside
her as
they followed Ingold up to the cabin, however, and
as soon
as the old man was out of earshot Rudy asked
softly,
"Who is he?"
She
regarded him with those pale schoolmarm eyes—
old-maid
eyes in the face of a girl his own age. "What did
he tell
you?"
"That
he was some kind of a wizard from another uni-
verse."
When
Gil was embarrassed, she became brusque. "That's
his
story."
Rudy
refused to be put off. "Where'd you meet him?"
Gil
sighed. "It's a long story," she said, falling back on
Ingold's
usual explanation. "And it doesn't matter, not
really."
"It
matters to me," Rudy said, and glanced up ahead of
them to
where Ingold was just vanishing into the shadows
of the
little house. "You see, I like the old guy, I really do,
even if
he isn't playing with a full deck. I'm just worried
some
land of harm will come to the kid."
They
stopped at the foot of the rickety steps, and Gil
looked
carefully for the first time at the young man's face.
It was
sun-bronzed and sensual, but not a crass face, nor a
stupid
one. "Do you think he'd let any harm come to Tir?"
Rudy
remembered the old man and the child together,
Ingold's
gentle competence and the protectiveness in his
voice
when he spoke to the baby. "No," he said slowly.
"No—but
what are they doing out here? And what's gonna
happen
when he goes wandering back to civilization like
that?"
There
was genuine concern in his voice, which Gil found
rather
touching. Besides, she thought, if I hadn't had the
dreams,
I'd probably think the same,
She
shifted her burden from one hand to the other. "It
will be
okay," she assured him quietly.
"You
know what's going on?"
She
nodded.
Rudy
looked down at her doubtfully, not quite satisfied
and
sensing something amiss. Still, in one real sense this girl
was
Ingold's contact with reality, which in spite of his ob-
vious
shrewdness and charm the old man sorely needed.
And
yet—and yet— Troubled visions of the old man stum-
bling
out of a blazing aura of silver light returned to him
as he
started up the steps, Gil climbing at his heels. He
swung
around on her abruptly, to ask, "Do you believe
him?"
But before
Gil could answer, the cabin door opened
again,
and Ingold re-emerged onto the narrow porch, a
flushed,
sleepy infant in his arms. "This is Prince Altir
Endorion,"
he introduced.
Gil and
Rudy came up the last few steps to join him,
the
question left unanswered. On the whole, Gil disliked
children,
but, like most hard-hearted women, she had a
soft
spot for the very young and helpless. She touched the
round
pink cheek with gingerly reverence, as if afraid
the
child would shatter on contact. "He's very beautiful,"
she
whispered.
"And
very wet," Ingold replied, and led the way back
into
the house.
It was
Rudy who ended up doing the changing as the
only
one with experience in the task, while Gil made a
lunch
of beef stew and coffee on the kerosene stove, and
Ingold
investigated the light switches to see how electricity
worked.
Rudy noticed that, among other things, Gil had
brought
an extra can of kerosene; though, if he recalled,
the
little stove had been out of sight beneath a counter
when
he'd first come in, and there had been no signs that
the
house had been entered in years.
How had
Ingold known?
Gil
came over to him and set a styrofoam cup of steam-
ing
black liquid on the floor at his side. She watched Rudy
playing
tickle-me with Tir for some moments, smiling,
then
said, "You know, you're probably the first man I've
ever
seen who'd volunteer for diaper duty."
"Hell,"
Rudy told her, grinning. "With six younger
brothers
and sisters, you get used to it."
"I
suppose so." She tested one of the wobbly chairs,
then
sat in it, her arm resting over the back. "I only had
the one
sister, and she's just two years younger than I
am, so
I never knew."
Rudy
glanced up at her. "Is she like you?" he asked.
Gil
shook her head ruefully. "No. She's pretty. She's
twenty-two
and already getting her second divorce."
"Yeah,
my next-next younger sister's like that," Rudy
said
thoughtfully, fishing in the pocket of his discarded
jacket
for his motorcycle keys, which Tir received with
blissful
fascination and proceeded to try to eat. "She's
seventeen
years old, and she's been around more than I
have."
He caught Gil's raised eyebrow and askance look,
and
followed her eye to the decoration on the back of
his
jacket—skulls, roses, black flames, and all. "Aah, that,"
he
said, a little embarrassed at it "Picasso had a Blue
Period.
I had my Pachuco Period."
"Oh,"
Gil said distastefully, not believing him. "Are
you in
a gang?"
Rudy
sat back on his heels, hearing the tone in her
voice.
"What the hell do you think I do, live in Fontana
and go
out on raids?"
Since
that was exactly what she thought he did, she
said,
"No. I mean—" She broke off in confusion. "You
mean
you painted that yourself?"
"Sure,"
Rudy said, reaching over to spread out the
offending
garment with its elaborate symbology and multi-
ple
grease stains. "I'd do it better now—I'd have different
lettering,
and no fire; the fire makes it look kind of trashy.
That
is, if I did it at all. It's kind of tacky," he admitted.
"But
it's good advertising."
"You
mean you make your living at that?"
"Oh,
yeah. For now, anyway. I work at Wild David
Wilde's
Paint and Body Shop in Berdoo, and painting's
a hell
of a lot easier than body work, let me tell you."
Gil
contemplated the jacket for a moment longer, her
chin
resting on her folded hands on the back of the chair.
Though
morbid, violent, and weird, the design was well-
executed
and argued a certain ability and sensitivity of
style.
"Then you're not a biker yourself?"
"I
ride a motorcycle," Rudy said. "I like bikes, work on
them.
I'm not in a gang, though. You can run yourself
into
real trouble that way." He shrugged. "Those guys are
really
heavy-duty. I couldn't do it."
Ingold
came back in, having traced the power cables
to
their sources and explored the land around the little
house
as if seeking something in the dusty silence of the
groves.
Gil dished up canned beef stew and bread. As they
ate,
Rudy listened to the girl and the wizard talk and
wondered
again how much this thin, spooky-looking wom-
an
believed the old man, and how much of her conversa-
tion
was tactful humoring of an old, well-loved, and
totally
crazy friend.
It was
impossible to tell. That she was fond of him was
obvious;
her guarded stiffness relaxed, and with liveliness
her
face was almost pretty. But it was Ingold who domi-
nated
and led, she who followed, and there were tunes
when
Rudy wondered if she was as crazy as the old man.
"I
never understood that about the memories," Gil was
saying,
blowing on her coffee to cool it. "You and Eldor
talked
about it, but I don't understand."
"No
one really understands it," Ingold said. "It's a
rare
phenomenon, far rarer than wizardry. To my knowl-
edge,
in all the history of the Realm it has appeared in
only
three noble houses and two peasant ones. We don't
know
what it is or why it works, why a son will suddenly
recall
events that happened to his grandfather, when the
grandfather
never exhibited such a talent in his life, why
it
seems to descend only in the male line, why it skips one
generation,
or two, or five, why some sons will remember
certain
events and be ignorant of others that their brothers
recall
with exacting clarity."
"I
could be like a double-recessive gene," Gil began
thoughtfully.
"A
what?"
"A
genetic trait . . ." She stopped. "Jeez, you people
don't
understand genetics, do you?"
"As
in horse breeding?" Ingold asked with a smile.
She
nodded. "Sort of. It's how you breed for a trait,
how you
get throwbacks, the more you inbreed. I'll ex-
plain
it sometime."
"You
mean," Rudy said, drawn into the conversation in
spite
of himself, "Pugsley here is supposed to remember
stuff
that happened to his dad and his grandpa and stuff
like
that?" He jiggled the baby sitting in his lap.
"He
should," Ingold said. "But it's a gamble, for we do
not
know for certain if—and what—he will remember. His
father
remembers—remembered—" There was a slight
shift,
almost a crack, in the wizard's rusty voice as he
changed
the tense. "—things that happened at the time
of
their most remote ancestor, Dare of Renweth. And,
Gil, it
was Dare of Renweth who was King at the time
of the
rising of the Dark Ones."
"The
who?" Rudy asked.
"The
Dark Ones." The touch of that heavy-lidded, blue
gaze
gave Rudy the uncomfortable feeling of having his
mind
read. "The enemy whom we flee." His eyes shifted
back to
Gil, the light from the western window slanting
strong
and yellow on the sharp bones of her face. "Un-
fortunately,
I fear the Dark Ones know it. They know
many
things—their power is different from mine, of a dif-
ferent
nature, as if from a different source. I believe their
attacks
were concentrated on the Palace at Gae because
they
knew that Eldor and Tir were dangerous to them,
that
the memories the King and Prince held were the
clue to
their ultimate defeat. They have—eliminated—
Eldor.
Now only Tir is left."
Gil
cocked her head and glanced across at the pink-
cheeked
baby, gravely manipulating a bunch of motorcycle
keys in
Rudy's lap, then at the wizard, profiled against the
cracked
and grimy glass of the window through which the
hills
could be seen, desolate, isolated, dyed gold by the
deep
slant of the light. Her voice was quiet. "Could they
have
followed you here?"
Ingold
looked up at her quickly, his azure-crystal eyes
meeting
hers, then shifting away. "Oh, I don't think so,"
he said
mildly. "They have no notion that the Void exists,
much
less how to cross it."
"How
do you know?" she insisted. "You said yourself
you
don't understand their powers, or their knowledge.
You
have no power at all in this world. If they crossed
the
Void, would they have power?"
He
shook his head. "I doubt they could even exist in
this
world," he told her. "The material laws here are
very
different. Which, incidentally, is what makes magic
possible—a
change in the ways the laws of physics op-
erate
..."
As the
conversation turned to a discussion of theoretical
magic
and its relation to the martial arts, Rudy listened,
puzzled;
if Ingold had his end of the script down pat, Gil
sure as
hell had hers.
After a
time, Ingold took charge of Tir to feed him,
and Gil
made her way quietly out onto the porch, seeking
the
silence of the last of the westering sunlight. She sat
on the
edge of the high platform, her booted feet dangling
in
space, leaning her arms along the bottom rail of the
crazy
old banister and watching the hills go from tawny
gold to
crystal, like champagne in the changing slant of
the
light, the air luminous with sunlit dust one moment,
then
suddenly overlaid with the cool of the hills' shadow.
The
evening wind slurred softly through the lion-colored
grass
of the wastelands all around. Each rock and stunted
tree
was imbued by the light with a unique and private
beauty.
The light even lent something resembling dis-
tinction
to the sunken wreck of the blue Impala and the
nondescript
VW, half-hidden by the screen of whispering
weeds.
She heard
the door open and shut behind her then and
smelled
the dark scent of tallow and wool permeated with
smoke
as Ingold settled down beside her, once more wear-
ing his
dark mantle over the pale homespun of his robe. For
some
minutes they didn't speak at all, only watched the
sunset
in warm and companionable silence, and she was
content.
Finally
he said, "Thank you for coming, Gil. Your help
has
been invaluable."
She
shook her head. "No trouble."
"Do
you mind very much taking Rudy back?" She could
tell by
his voice he'd sensed her dislike and was troubled
by it.
"I
don't mind." She turned her head, her cheek resting
on her
arm on the rail. "He's okay. If I didn't know you,
I
probably wouldn't believe a word of it myself." She
noticed
in the golden haze of the light that, though his
hair
was white, his eyelashes were still the same fairish
gingery
red that must have been his whole coloring at
one
time. She went on. "But I'm going to drop him off
at the
main highway and come back. I don't like leaving
you
here alone."
"I
shall be quite all right," the wizard said gently.
"I
don't care," she replied.
He
glanced sideways at her. "You couldn't possibly help,
you
know, if anything did happen."
"You
have no magic here," she said softly, "and your
back's
to the wall. I'm not going to leave you."
Ingold
folded his arms along the rail, his chin on his
crossed
wrists, seeming for a tune only to contemplate the
rippling
tracks of the wind in the long grass below the
porch,
the rime of sun-fire like a halo on the distant hills.
"I
appreciate your loyalty," he said at last, "misguided
though
it is. But the situation will not arise. You see, I
have
decided to risk going back tonight, before it grows
fully
dark."
Gil was
startled, both relieved and uneasy. "Will Tir
be
okay?"
"I
can put a spell of protection over us both that should
shield
him from the worst of the shock." The sun had
touched
the edges of the hills already; the evening breeze
wore
the thin chill of coming night. "There should be a
good
two hours of daylight left in my own world when
Tir and
I return—there seems to be a disjunction of time
involved
in the Void, your world and mine not quite in
synch.
We should be able to come to cover before dark."
"Won't
that be an awful risk?"
"Maybe."
He turned his head a little to meet her eyes,
and in
the dimming evening light she thought he looked
tired,
the shadows of the porch railings barring his face
but
unable to hide the deepened lines around his mouth
and
eyes. His fingers idled with the splinters of the wood,
casually,
as if he were not speaking of danger into which
he
would walk. "But I would rather take that risk than
imperil
your world, your civilization, should the Dark
prove
able to follow me through the Void."
Then he
sighed and stood up, as if dismissing the whole
subject
from his mind. He helped her to her feet, his hand
rough
and warm and powerful, but as light and deft as a
jeweler's.
The last glow of the day surrounded them, sil-
houetted
against the burning windows. "I am entitled to
risk my
own life, Gil," he said. "But whenever I can, I
draw
the line at risking the lives of others, especially those
who are
loyal to me, as you are. So don't be concerned.
We
shall be quite safe."
CHAPTER
THREE
"Where
you headed?" Gil carefully guided the VW in a
small
circle, bumping slowly over stones and uneven
ground,
and eased it back onto the road again. The road,
the
hills, the dark trees of the grove had turned gray-blue
and
colorless in the twilight. In her rear-view mirror, Gil
saw
Ingold's sword blade held high in salute. She could see
him on
the cabin porch, straight and sturdy in his billowing
dark
mantle, and her heart ached with fear at the sight.
Rudy,
chewing on a grass blade, one sunburned arm hang-
ing out
of the open window, was about as comforting as
reruns
of The Crawling Eye on a dark and stormy night.
"San
Bernardino," Rudy said, glancing back also at the
dark
form of the wizard in the shadows of the house.
"I
can take you there," Gil said, negotiating a gravel slide
and the
deep-cut spoor of last winter's rains. "I'm heading
on into
Los Angeles so it's not out of my way."
"Thank
you" Rudy said. "It's harder than hell to get
rides
at night."
Gil
grinned in spite of herself. "In that jacket it would
be."
Rudy
laughed. "You from L.A.?"
"Not
originally. I go to UCLA; I'm in the Ph.D. pro-
gram in
medieval history there." Out of the corner of her
eye she
glimpsed his start of surprise, a typical reaction in
men,
she had found. "Originally I'm from San Marino."
"Ah,"
Rudy said wisely, recognizing the name of that
wealthy
suburb. "Rich kid."
"Not
really." Gil objected more to the label than to the
facts.
"Well—I guess you could say that My father's a
doctor."
"Specialist?"
Rudy inquired, half-teasing.
"Child
psychiatrist," Gil said, with a faint grin at how
well
the label fitted her.
"Yow."
"They've
disowned me," she added with a shrug. "So
it
doesn't matter." Her voice was offhand, almost apolo-
getic.
She turned on the headlights, and dust plumed
whitely
in their feeble glare. By their reflection Rudy
could
see that her face wore the shut, wary look again,
a
fortress defended against all comers.
"Why
the hell would they disown you?" He was indig-
nant in
spite of himself for her sake. "Christ, my mother
would
forgive any one of my sisters for murder if she'd
just
finish high school."
Gil
chuckled bitterly. "It's the Ph.D. mine objects to,"
she
told him. "What up-and-coming young doctor or
dentist
is going to marry a research scholar in medieval
history?
She doesn't say that, but mat's what she means."
And Gil
drove on for a time in silence.
The
dark shapes of the hills loomed closer around the
little
car, the stars emerging in the luminous blue of the
evening
sky, small and bright with distance. Staring out
into
the milky darkness, Rudy identified the landmarks of
his
trip into the hills, rock and tree and the round, smooth
shapes
of the land. The green eyes of some tiny animal
flashed
briefly in the gloom, then vanished as a furry shape
whipped
across the dark surface of the road.
"So
they kicked you out just because you want to get
a
Ph.D.?"
She
shrugged. "They didn't really kick me out. I just
don't
go home anymore. I don't miss it," she added truth-
fully.
"Really?
I'd miss it like hell." Rudy slouched back
against
the door, one arm draped out the window, the
wind
cool against wrist and throat. "I mean, yeah, my
mom's
house is like a bus stop, with the younger kids all
over
the place, and the cats, and her sisters, and dirty
dishes
all over the house, and my sisters' boyfriends hang-
ing out
in the back yard—but it's someplace to go, you
know?
Someplace I'll always be welcome, even if I do
have to
shout to make myself heard. I'd go crazy if I had
to live
there, but it's nice to go back."
Gil
grinned at the picture he painted, mentally contrast-
ing it
with the frigid good taste of her mother's home.
"And
you left your family just to go to school?" He
sounded
wondering, unbelieving that she could have done
such a
thing.
"There
was nothing there for me," Gil said. "And I
want to
be a scholar. They can't understand that I've
never
wanted to do or be or have anything else."
Another
long silence. Up ahead, yellow headlights flick-
ered in
the dark. Long and low, the cement bridge of the
freeway
overpass bulked against the paler background of
the
hills; like a glittering fortress of red and amber flame,
a semi
roared by, the rumble of its engine like distant thun-
der.
The VW whined up the overpass; Rudy settled back
in his
seat, considering her sharp-boned, rather delicate
face,
the generosity belying the tautness of the mouth, the
sentimentalism
lurking in the depths of those hard, intelli-
gent
eyes. "That's funny," he said at last.
"That
anybody would like school that much?" Her voice
held a
trace of sarcasm, but he let it go by.
"That
you'd want anything that much," he said quietly.
"Me,
I've never really wanted to have or do or be any-
thing.
I mean, not so much that I'd dump everything else
for it.
Sounds rough."
"It
is," Gil said, and returned her attention to the road.
"Was
that where you ran into Ingold?"
She
shook her head. Though it hadn't seemed to bother
the
wizard that Rudy thought him a candidate for the soft
room,
she didn't want to discuss Ingold with Rudy.
Rudy,
however, persisted. "Can you tell me what the
hell
that was all about? Is he really as cracked as he
seems?"
"No,"
Gil said evasively. She tried to think up a reason-
able
explanation for the whole thing that she could palm
off on
Rudy to keep him from asking further questions.
At the
moment a queer uneasiness haunted her, and she
didn't
feel much in the mood for questions, let alone obvi-
ous
disbelief. In spite of the occasional lights on the high-
way,
she was conscious as she had never been before of
the
weight and depth of the night, of darkness pressing
down
all around them. She found herself wishing vaguely
that
Rudy would roll up his window instead of leaning
against
the frame, letting the night-scented desert winds
brush
through the car.
Billboards
fleeted garishly by them, primitive colors bril-
liant
in the darkness; now and then a car would swoosh
past,
with yellow eyes staring wildly into the night. Her
mind
traced the long road home, the road she'd seen in
last
night's aching dream of restlessness that had told her
where
she must come, then had framed awkwardly the
next
chapter of her thesis, which had to be worked on
tonight
if she were going to make her seminar deadline.
But her
mind moved uncontrolledly from thing to thing,
returning
again and again to that silent, isolated cabin, the
salute
from the blade of an upraised sword...
"You
believe him."
She
turned, startled, and met Rudy's eyes.
"You
believe him," he repeated quietly, not as an accusa-
tion,
but as a statement.
"Yes,"
Gil said. "Yes, I do."
Rudy.
looked away from her and stared out the window.
"Fantastic."
"It
sounds crazy ..." she began.
He
turned back to her. "Not when he says it," he con-
tradicted,
pointing his finger accusingly, as if she would
deny
it. "He's the most goddam believable man I've ever
met."
"You've
never seen him step through the Void," Gil said
simply.
"I have."
That
stopped Rudy. He couldn't bring himself to say, I
have,
too.
Because
he knew it had just been a hallucination, born
of
bright sunlight and a killing hangover. But the image of
it
returned disturbingly—the glaring gap of light, the fold-
big
air. But I didn't see it, he protested; it was all in my
head.
And,
like an echo, he heard Ingold's voice saying, You
know
you did.
I know
I did.
But if
it was all a hangover hallucination, how did he
know
it?
Rudy
sighed, feeling exhausted beyond words. "I don't
know
what the hell to believe."
"Believe
what you choose," Gil said. "It doesn't matter.
He's
crossing back to his own world tonight, he and Tir.
So they'll
be gone."
"That's
fairy-tale stuff!" Rudy insisted. "Why would a—
a
wizard be toting a kidnapped Prince through this world
on the
way to someplace else anyway?"
Gil
shrugged, keeping her eyes on the highway.
Annoyed,
he went on. "And besides, if he was going
back
tonight to some world where he's got magical powers,
why
would he need to bum my matches off me? He
wouldn't
need them there."
"No,
he wouldn't," Gil agreed mildly. Then the sense
of what
Rudy had said sank in, and she looked quickly
across
at him. "You mean, he did?"
"Just
before we left," Rudy told her, a little smug at
having
caught the pair of them out. "Why would he need
matches?"
Gil
felt as if the blood in her veins had turned suddenly
to ice.
"Oh, my God," she whispered.
I am
entitled to risk my own life . . . but I draw the
line at
risking the lives of others...
As if a
door had opened, showing her the room beyond,
she
knew that Ingold had lied. And she knew why he had
lied.
She
swerved the Volkswagen to the side of the highway,
suspicion
passing instantaneously to certainty as the thread-
bare
tires jolted on the stones of the unpaved shoulder.
There
was only one reason for the wizard to need matches,
the
wizard who, in his own world, could bring fire at his
bidding.
There
was only one reason, in this world, that the wizard
would
need fire tonight
He
hadn't spoken of going back until she'd offered to
remain
with him, until she'd spoken of the possibility of
the
Dark following him through the Void. He had refused
to flee
Gae until all those who needed him were utterly
past
help. So he would take his own chances, alone in the
isolated
cabin, rather than risk involving anyone else.
"Climb
out," she said. "I'm going back."
"What
the hell?" Rudy was staring at her as if she'd
gone
crazy.
"He
lied," Gil said, her low voice suddenly trembling
with
urgency. "He lied about crossing the Void tonight.
He
wanted to get rid of us both, get us out of there, be-
fore
the Dark Ones come."
"What?"
"I
don't care what you think," she went on rapidly, "but
I'm
going back. He was afraid from the beginning that
they'd
come after him across the Void ..."
"Now,
wait a minute," Rudy began, alarmed.
"No.
You can hitch your way to where you're going.
I'm not
leaving him to face them alone."
Her
face was white in the glare of the headlights, her
pale
eyes burning with an intensity that was almost fright-
ening.
Crazy, Rudy thought. Both of them, totally schizoid.
Why
does this have to happen to me?
"I'll
go with you," he said. It was a statement, not an
offer.
She
drew back, instantly suspicious.
"Not
that I believe you," Rudy went on, slouching
against
the tattered upholstery. "But you two gotta have
one
sane person there to look after that kid. Now turn
this
thing around."
With
scarcely a glance at the road behind her, Gil
jammed
the accelerator, smoking across the center divider
in a
hailstorm of gravel, and roaring like a tin-pan thun-
derbolt
into the night.
"There,"
Rudy said, half an hour later, as the car skidded
to a
bone-jarring stop on the service road below the
groves.
Ahead of them on its little rise, the cabin was
clearly
visible, every window showing a dingy yellow elec-
tric
glare. Gil was out of the car before the choking cloud
of dust
had settled, striding quickly over the rough ground
toward
the porch steps. Rudy followed more slowly, pick-
ing his
way carefully through the weeds, wondering how
in hell
he was going to get out of this situation and what
he was
going to say to his boss back at the body shop.
Dave, I
didn't make it to work Monday because I was
helping
a wizard rescue a baby Prince out someplace be-
tween
Barstow and San Bernardino? Not to mention ex-
plaining
why he never made it back to Tarot's party from
the
beer run.
He
looked around him at the dark landscape, distorted
by
starlight, and shivered at the utter desolation of it. Cold,
aimless
wind stirred his long hair, bearing a scent that was
not of
dusty grass or hot sunlight—a scent he'd never
smelled
before. He hurried to catch up with Gil, his boot-
heels
thumping hollowly on the board stairs.
She
pounded on the door. "Ingold!" she called out. "In-
gold,
let me in!"
Rudy
slipped past her and reached through the pane of
glass
he'd broken last night to unlock the door from the
inside.
They stepped into the bare and brightly lighted
kitchen
as Ingold came striding down the hallway, his
drawn
sword in his hand and clearly in a towering rage.
"Get
out of here!" he ordered them furiously.
"The
hell I will," Gil said.
"You
can't possibly be of any help to me..."
"I'm
not going to leave you alone."
Rudy
looked from the one to the other: the girl in her
faded
jeans and denim jacket, with those pale, wild eyes;
the old
man in his dark, billowing mantle, the sword
gripped,
poised, in one scarred hand. Loonies, he thought.
What
the hell have I walked into? He headed down the hall.
Tir lay
wrapped in his dark velvet blankets on the bed,
blue
eyes wide with fear. The only other thing in the bare
room
was a pile of kindling in one corner, looking as if
every
piece of wooden furniture in the little cabin had
been
broken up; next to it stood the can of kerosene. Steps
sounded
behind him in the hall, and Ingold's voice, taut
as
wire, said, "Don't you understand?"
"I
understand," Gil said quietly. "That's why I came
back."
"Rudy,"
Ingold said, and the tone in his voice was one
of a
man utterly used to command. "I want you to take
Gil,
get her in the car, and get her out of here. Now.
Instantly."
Rudy
swung around. "Oh, I'm gonna get out of here all
right,"
he said grimly. "But I'm taking the kid with me. I
don't
know what you guys think you're doing, but I'm not
leaving
a six-month-old kid to be mixed up in it"
"Don't
be a fool," Ingold snapped.
"Look
who's talking!"
Then,
as Rudy bent to pick up the child from the bed,
the
lights went out.
In one
swift movement, Ingold turned and kicked the
door
shut, the sword gleaming like foxfire in his hand.
The
little starlight leaking through the room's single win-
dow
showed his face beaded with sweat.
Rudy
set the whimpering baby down again, muttering,
"Goddam
fuses." He started for the door.
Gil
gasped. "Rudy, no!"
Ingold
caught her arm as she moved to stop him. There
was
deceptive mildness in his voice as it came from the
darkness.
"You think it's the fuse?"
"Either
that or a short someplace in the box," Rudy
said.
He glanced over his shoulder at them as he opened
the
hall door, seeing their indistinct outlines in the near-
total
blackness; the faint touch of filtered starlight haloed
Ingold's
white hair and picked out random corners of Gil's
angular
frame. The edge of Ingold's drawn sword glim-
mered,
as if with a pallid light of its own.
The
hall was black, pitch, utterly black, and Rudy
groped
his way blindly along it, telling himself that his
nervousness
came from being trapped in a house in the
middle
of nowhere with a deluded scholar and a charming
and
totally insane old geezer armed with a razor-sharp
sword,
a book of matches, and a can and a half of kero-
sene.
After that stygian gloom, the dark kitchen seemed
almost
bright; he could make out the indistinct forms of the
table,
the counter; the thread-silver gleam on the hooked
neck of
the faucet; the pale, distinct glow of the windows
by the
door; the single one in the left with the broken pane.
Then he
saw what was coming in through the broken
pane.
He
never knew how he got back to the bedroom,
though
later he found bruises on his body where he'd
blundered
against the walls in his flight. It seemed that
one
instant he was standing in the darkness of the tiny
kitchen,
seeing that hideous shape crawling through the
window,
and that next he was falling against the bedroom
door to
slam it shut, sobbing. "It's out there! It's out
there!"
Ingold,
standing over him in the gloom, scarred face out-
lined
in the misty gleam of his sword blade, said softly,
"What
did you expect, Rudy? Humans?"
Firelight
flared. Gil had made a kind of campfire out of
splintered
kindling in the middle of the cement floor and
was
coughing in the rank smoke. Lying on the sagging
mattress,
Tir was staring at the darkness with eyes huge
with
terror, whimpering like a beaten puppy afraid to bark.
Another
child would have been screaming; but, whatever
atavistic
memories crowded his infant brain, they warned
him
that to cry aloud was death.
Rudy
got slowly to his feet, shaking in every limb with
shock.
"What are we gonna do?" he whispered. "We
could
get out the back, make it down to the car . .."
"You
think the car would start?" In the smoldery orange
glare,
the old man's eyes never left the door. Even as he
was
speaking, Rudy could see that both his hands were on
the
long hilt of the sword, poised to strike. "I doubt we
would
make it to the car in any case. And—the house
limits
its size."
Rudy
gulped, cold with shock, seeing that thing again,
small
and hideous and yet rife with unspeakable terror.
"You
mean—it can change its size?"
"Oh,
yes." Sword in hand, Ingold moved cat-footedly to
the
door. "The Dark are not material, as we understand
material.
They are only incompletely visible, and not al-
ways of
the same—composition. I have seen them go from
the
size of your two hands to larger than this house in a
matter
of seconds."
Rudy
wiped sweating palms on his jeans, sickened with
horror
and totally disoriented. "But if—if they're not
material,"
he stammered, "what can we do? How can we
fight?"
"There
are ways." Firelight played redly over Ingold's
patched
mantle as he stood, one hand resting on the door-
knob,
the other holding ready the gleaming witchfire of the
blade,
his head bowed, listening for some sound. After a
moment
he spoke again, his voice barely a whisper. "Gil,"
he
said, "I want you to take Tir and get between the bed
and the
wall. Rudy, how much of a fire do we have left?"
"Not
much. That wood was dry as grass. It's going
quick."
Ingold
stepped back from the door, though he never
took
his attention from it. The little room was filled with
smoke,
the flaring fire already sinking, feebly holding at
bay the
encroaching ring of shadows. Without looking back,
he held
out his hand. "Give me the kerosene, Rudy."
Wordlessly,
Rudy obeyed.
Moving
swiftly now, Ingold sheathed his sword in a
single
fluid gesture, took the can, and set to work, un-
screwing
the filler-cap and throwing a great swatch of
the
clear liquid over the dry wood of the door. It glittered
in the
yellow firelight, its throat-catching smell mixing with
the
gritty foulness of the smoke, nearly choking Gil, who
stood
with her back pressed to the icy concrete of the
wall,
the muffled baby motionless in her arms. The fire's
light
had gone from yellow to murky orange, the brown
shadows
of the wizard's quick, sure movements wavering,
vast
and distorted, over the imprisoning walls. Ingold came
hack
toward her and saturated the mattress with the last
of the
kerosene, its stink nearly suffocating her at close
range.
Then he set the empty can down softly, turned
and
drew his sword again, all in one smooth move; all
told,
he had had his sword sheathed for less than forty
seconds.
He
returned to the center of the room, a few feet in
front
of the dying fire, which had fallen in on itself to a
fading
heap of ash and crawling embers. As the darkness
grew
around him, the pallid light that seemed to burn up
off the
blade grew brighter, bright enough to highlight
his
scarred face. He said softly, "Don't be afraid." Whether
it was
a spell he cast, or merely the strength of his per-
sonality
alone, Gil did not know, but she felt her appre-
hension
lessen, her fear give place to a queer, cold
numbness.
Rudy moved out of his frozen immobility, took
the
last stick of unburned kindling, and lit it from the
remains
of the blaze.
Darkness
seemed to fill the room and, heavier than the
darkness,
a silence that breathed. In that silence Gil heard
the
faint blundering sounds in the hall, a kind of chitinous
scratching,
as if dark fumbled eyelessly through dark.
Against
her own heart, she could feel the baby's heart
hammering
with small violence, and a chill wind began to
seep
through the cracks in the door, touching her sweating
face
with feathers of cold. She could smell it, the harsh,
acid
blood-smell of the Dark.
Ingold's
rusty voice came very calmly out of the shadows.
"Rudy,"
he said, "take that torch and stand next to the
door.
Don't be afraid, but when the creature comes in, I
want
you to close the door behind it and light the kero-
sene.
Will you do that?"
Empty,
cold, keyed up long past the point of feeling
anything,
Rudy whispered, "Yeah, sure." He sidled cau-
tiously
past the wizard, the flaming wood flickering in his
hand.
As he took his post by the door, he could feel the
presence
of the thing, a nightmare aura of fear. He felt
it bump
the door, softly, a testing tap, far above his own
eye
level, and his flesh crawled at the touch. The thing
would
pass him—if it did pass him and didn't turn on the
nearest
person to it as it came through the door—within
touching
distance. But on the other hand, the thought
crossed
his mind that if it did pass him, there was nothing
to
prevent him from slipping out that open door and
making
a run for the car.
If the
car would start. If, having polished off Ingold and
Gil,
the Dark didn't come after him anyway. No! The
need
was to finish it now—the Dark One, the Enemy, the
thing
from across the Void, the obscene intruder into the
warm,
soft world of the California night...
Groping
for the shattered ends of his world-view, Rudy
could
only stand in darkness beside the door, torch in
hand,
and wait.
The
last glow of the embers was fading, the only light
ha the
room now Rudy's smoldering torch and the gleaming
challenge
of the blade that Ingold held upright before him,
his
eyes glittering in the reflected witchlight like the eyes
of an
old wolf. There was a sibilant rustle of robes as
he
stirred, bracing himself, a whispering sigh as the dying
ashes
collapsed and scattered. The wind that ruffled so
coldly
through the cracks in the door seemed to drop and
fail.
In the
same instant that the door exploded inward, In-
gold
was striding forward, blade flashing down in an arc
of fire
to meet the bursting tidal wave of darkness. Rudy
got a
hideous glimpse of the fanning canopy of shadow
and the
endless, engulfing mouth, fringed in sloppy tenta-
cles
whose writhings splattered the floor with smoking
slime.
As if released from a spell, Tir began to scream, the
high,
thin, terrified sound going through Rudy's brain like
a
needle. The sword flashed, scattering fire; the creature
drew
back, unbelievably agile for that soft floating bulk,
the
slack of its serpentlike tail brushing Rudy's shoulders
as it
uncoiled in a whip of darkness. The thing filled the
room
like a cloud, its darkness covering them, seem-
ing to
swell and pulse as if its whole bloated, obscene
body
were a single slimy organ. The whip-tail slashed out,
cutting
at Ingold's throat, and the wizard ducked and
shifted
inward for position with the split-second reflexes of
a far
younger man. In his dark robes, he was barely to be
seen in
the darkness; mesmerized, Rudy watched, hypno-
tized
by the burning arc of the wizard's blade and the
thing
that snatched at him like a giant hand of shadow.
Gil was
screaming, "The fire! The fire!" The sound was
meaningless
to his ears; it was the heat of his touchlight
burning
down almost to his hands that made him remem-
ber. As
if awakened from a dream, he started, kicked the
door
shut, and hit the greasy smear of the kerosene with
the
last burning stump. The door exploded into fire, scorch-
ing
Rudy as he leaped back.
The
Dark One, thrown into crimson visibility, writhed
and
twisted as if in pain, changing size again and shooting
up
toward the ceiling. But streaks of fire were already
rushing
up the walls to the tinder-dry rafters. Sparks stung
Rudy's
exposed hands and face as he ducked across the
open
space of the floor and threw himself over the bed to
crash
against the wall at Gil's side. More sparks rained,
sizzling,
on the wet, twisting shadow of the Dark.
The
room was a furnace, blinding and smothering.
Bleeding
light silhouetted the creature, which fled this way
and
that, seeking a way out. Trapped by the fire, it turned
like a
cat and fell on Ingold, the whiplike tail elongating
into
spiny wire, slashing at his hands, his eyes, its claws
catching
at his body. The blade carved smoking slivers
from
the soft tissue, but the thing loomed too big, moved
too
swiftly in the cramped space, for Ingold to get in for a
killing
blow. Flattened against the wall, suffocating in the
heat,
and burned by the rain of falling sparks, Gil and
Rudy
both could see that Ingold was being pushed stead-
ily
back toward the corner where they crouched behind
the
filthy bed, hampered fatally by his need to remain at
all
costs between the creature and the Prince. He fell back,
a step
at a time, until Gil could have stretched her arms
across
the bed and touched his shoulder. Now, along with
the
sparks, they were burned by the flying droplets of acid
that
scattered like sweat from the creature's twisting body.
Then
the Dark One feinted with claws and tail, eluding
the
slash of the blade by fractions of an inch and throwing
itself
past the wizard with a rush. In the same split second
Ingold
flung himself over the mattress to the wall, between
Gil and
Rudy. As he did so, whether by accident or by
design,
the kerosene-saturated cotton went up in a wall of
fire
that singed the hem of his cloak and engulfed the Dark
One in
a roaring wave of scarlet heat. For one second
Gil was
conscious only of the wild, terrified screaming of
the
child in her arms, of the howling inferno only feet from
her
body, and of the heat of the holocaust that swallowed
her.
Then the wall of fire bulged inward, and the black
shape
appeared, distorted and buckling, blazing as it hurled
itself,
burning and dying, upon them all. Gil screamed as
hot
wind and darkness covered her.
Then
all things vanished in a sudden, blinding firefall
of
light and color and cold.
CHAPTER
FOUR
There
was only wind, and darkness. Gil stirred, her body
one
undifferentiated ache, frozen to the bone. The motion
brought
her stomach up into her throat. She felt as if
she had
swum a long way in rough cold water after a
heavy
meal, sickened and exhausted and weak. There
seemed
to be a weight of warm velvet clutched in her
tired
arms, a taste of earth and grass in her mouth, and
the
rankness of smoke in her jacket and hair.
All
around her, there was no sound but the wind.
Painfully,
she sat up. The child in her arms was silent.
Under
wispy starlight, she could make out bleak, rounded
foothills
stretching away in all directions around her, stony
and
forsaken, and combed incessantly by the ice-winds out
of the
north. Close beside her lay Ingold, face down, all
but
invisible in the darkness save for the faint edge of
starlight
on his drawn sword. A little farther away Rudy
Was
sitting, curled in a semifetal position with his head
clasped
between his hands.
She
asked, "You okay?"
His
voice was muffled. "Okay? I'm still trying to figure
out if
I'm alive." He raised his head, his dark, slanting eye-
brows
black in the starlight against the whiteness of his
face.
"Did you—were you—?"
She
nodded.
He
dropped his head back to his hands. "Christ, I was
hoping
it was all a hallucination. Are we—wherever In-
gold
comes from?"
He
still won't say it out loud, Gil thought. She looked
around
her at the ghostly pewter landscape, indistinct under
the
starlight, and said, "We're sure not in California."
Rudy
got up, stumbling as he came over to collapse
beside
her. "The kid okay?"
"I
don't know. I can't wake him. He's breathing—" She
pressed
her fingers to the child's waxy cheek, brought her
lips
close to the little rosebud mouth, and felt the thin
trickle
of breath. "Ingold said two crossings in twenty-four
hours
could do him a lot of harm."
"The
way I feel now, I don't think I could survive an-
other
one no matter when I did it. Let's see." He took the
child
from her, joggled him gently, and felt how cold his
face was.
"We'd better wake Ingold. Does this place have a
moon?"
"It
should," Gil said. "Look, the constellations are the
same.
There's the Big Dipper. That's Orion there."
"Weird,"
Rudy said, and brushed the long hair back
from
his face. He turned to scan the barren landscape.
Shoulder
upon shoulder, the hills massed up to a low
range
of mountains in the north, a black wall of rock
edged
with a starlit knife blade of snow. Southward, the
rolling
land closed them in, except for a dark gap through
which
could be glimpsed the remote glimmer of a distant
river.
"Wherever the hell we are, we'd better get some-
place
fast. If any more of those things show up, we're in
deep
yoghurt. Hey!" he called to Ingold, who stirred and
flung
out one groping hand to catch the hilt of his sword.
"Stay
with us, man."
"I'll
be all right," Ingold said quietly.
Lying,
Gil thought. She touched his shoulder, found his
mantle
splotched all over with great patches of charred
slime
that brushed off in a kind of flaky, blackish dust. Her
own
right sleeve was covered with it, the back of her
hand
and wrist smarting and scorched. The Dark One, in
dying,
had come very close to taking them all.
Ingold
half-rolled over, brought his hand up, and rubbed
his
eyes. "Is the Prince all right?"
"I
don't know. He's out cold," Gil said worriedly.
The
wizard sighed, dragged himself to a sitting position,
and
reached out to take the baby from Rudy's arms. He
listened
to Tir's breath and stroked the tiny face gently
with
one scarred hand. Then he closed his eyes; for a
long
time he seemed to be meditating. Only the thin moan-
ing of
the wind broke the silence, but all around them
the
night was alive with danger. Gil and Rudy were both
aware
of the depth of the darkness as they had never
been,
back in the world of Southern California, where
there
was always a glow in the sky from somewhere, com-
peting
with moon and star. Here the stars seemed huge,
intent,
staring down with great, watchful eyes from the
void of
night. Darkness covered the land, and their one
brief
contact with the Dark was all Rudy and Gil had
needed
to make them conscious of how unprotected they
were,
how uneasy with the ancient fear of being in open
ground
at night.
At
length Tir gave a little sob and began to cry, the
weak,
persistent cry of an exhausted baby. Ingold rocked
him
against his chest and murmured unintelligible words
to him
until he grew silent again, then held him, looking
for a
moment into the dark distance, idly stroking the
fuzzy
black hair. For a moment Gil saw, not a wizard
rescuing
the Prince and heir of the Realm, but only an old
man
cradling the child of his dead friend.
Finally
he looked up. "Come. We had best move on."
Rudy
got stiffly to his feet and gave first Gil, then Ingold,
a hand
up. "Yeah, I wanted to ask you about that," he
said as
the wizard handed Gil the child and proceeded to
wipe
his sword blade on the corner of his mantle and
sheathe
it "Just where can we go to, clear the hell out
here?"
"I
think," the wizard said slowly, "that we had best
make
for Karst, the old summer capital of the Realm,
some
fifteen miles from here in the hills. Refugees from
Gae
have gone there; we can get shelter, and food, and
news,
if nothing else."
Rudy
objected uneasily. "That's a helluva long way to
go
truckin' around in the middle of the night."
"Well,
you may stay here, of course," the old man
agreed
magnanimously.
"Thanks
a lot."
The
rising moon edged the hills in a thin flame of silver
as they
moved off, the shadows of the rolling land profound
and
terrible in the icy night. Ingold's dark mantle whis-
pered
like a ghost across the silver grass.
"Uh,
Ingold?" Rudy said hesitantly as they started down
the
long slope of the land. "I'm sorry I said you were a
nut."
Ingold
glanced back at him, a glint of the old mischief
in his
eyes. Gravely, he said, "Apology accepted, Rudy.
I'm
only pleased we were able to convince you—"
"Hey—"
Rudy bristled, and the wizard laughed softly.
"I
admit it was not a very likely story. Another time I
shall
do better."
Rudy
picked his way down the stony trail after him,
dusting
black crud off the gaudy sleeves of his patched
jacket.
"I hope you don't plan to do much of this," he
said.
"It's too damn hard on your friends."
They
were on the move until just before dawn. Though
the
night was profoundly silent and cold, nothing worse
was
seen or heard. If the Dark Ones hunted, they did
not
hunt these hills.
After
several miles Ingold left the wind-combed silver
slopes
of the foothills, and they began working their way
up a
steep wooded valley that seemed to lead straight
back
into the heart of the mountains, with the scent of
the
crackling mat of autumn leaves under their feet and
from
somewhere the far-off trickling sounds of water.
Only
once in the woods did Ingold break the silence, to
say,
"I'm avoiding the main road up from the plains and
leading
you into Karst by the back way. The road would
make
walking easier, but it will be crowded with refugees
and
consequently in greater danger from the Dark Ones.
I
personally have no desire for further swordplay tonight."
Gil,
weary already from stumbling over broken ground
with
fifteen pounds of sleeping infant in her arms, won-
dered
how Ingold had managed this far, after the original
battle
at the Palace of Gae, no sleep, and the fight with
the
Dark in the isolated shack in the orange groves. Did
all
wizards have that kind of reserve strength to draw on,
she
wondered, or was Ingold simply incredibly tough and
enduring?
In the shadows of his hood, his face was white
and
tired, his eyes circled by dark smudges of weariness.
Red
welts marked where the thing's whiplike tail had cut
his
face, and the shoulders of his mantle were scattered
with
spark-holes; dappled with the wan starlight, he moved
through
the darkness of the woods as straight and serene
as some
old gentleman out for an afternoon promenade in
the
park.
They
stepped from the dark beneath the trees into the
clearer
area of second growth along the stream, and the
music
of the water grew suddenly louder to their ears. After
the
darkness of the woods, even the shifting moonlight
seemed
bright. It illuminated a ghostly dreamscape of black
and
pewter, of deep patches of river sand and water-
smoothed
rocks. Before them, up the stream bed, loomed
the
black wall of the mountain's flank, featureless against
the
muted glow of the sky, save for one spot of orange, a
distant
glimmer of fire in the night.
"There,"
Ingold said, pointing. "That will be Karst.
There
we should find what is left of the government of the
Realm
of Darwath."
Karst,
when they reached the town, reminded Gil of
every
wealthy mountain resort town she had ever seen,
beautiful
with a self-consciously rustic elegance of roomy,
splendid
houses mingled with ancient trees. As they passed
the
dark mansions, locked up tight in leafy shadows, she
could
make out variations of the architecture which she
had
never before seen, but which were eerily familiar to
her—the
clusters of smooth, narrow pilasters, the twining
plant
motifs of the capitals, and, here and there, pierced
stone
molding in an elaborate geometrical design. As they
came
toward the center of town she saw sheep and cows
tethered
or in folds close around some of the buildings,
their
staring eyes gleaming in fright in the darkness. As
they
passed out of the woods, the path they walked turned
to
cobblestones, the mossy pavement down the center of
the
lane sporting a thin, silver trickle of water. For a mo-
ment,
walls enclosed them in sinister shadow; then they
emerged
into firelight as brilliant as day.
The
town square was deserted. Huge bonfires had been
kindled
there, the flames reaching fifteen feet toward the
cool,
watching stars, the light gleaming redly on the black
waters
of the great town fountain with its wide lichen-
rimmed
bowl and dark, obscure statuary. In the flickering
shadows
surrounding the square, Gil could distinguish the
walls
and turrets of several opulent villas, the fortresslike
towers
of what she guessed was a church, and the massive
foursquare
bulk of what was undoubtedly the Grand Mar-
ket and
Town Hall, three and a half storeys of gemlike
half-timbering,
like black and white lace in the dark. It
was for
this edifice that Ingold made.
The
double doors of the hall were ten feet high and
wide
enough to admit a cart and team, with a little man-
size
postern door cut in one corner. Ingold tested it; it was
bolted
from within. Since his body interposed between
them
and the door, Gil didn't see what he did, but a mo-
ment
later he pushed it open and slipped through into the
light
and the clamoring noise beyond.
The
entire lower floor of the building, one immense
pillared
market hall, was jammed to bursting with people.
It was
deafening with the unceasing chaos of voices, rank
with
grease and urine and unwashed bodies, smelly clothes
and
fried fish. A blue fog of woodsmoke hid the groined
ceiling,
stung the eyes, and limited visibility to a few yards
in any
direction. It must have been close to five in the
morning,
but people wandered around, talking, arguing,
fetching
water from a couple of half-empty butts over in
one
corner of the room. Children dashed aimlessly be-
tween
the serried pillars and endless jumbled mounds of
personal
belongings; men stood in clusters, gesturing, curs-
ing,
sharpening swords. Mothers called to children; grand-
mothers
and grandfathers huddled next to pitiful bundles
of
possessions, elbow to elbow with one another in hope-
less
confusion. Some people had brought crated ducks,
chickens,
and geese; the gabble of fowl and stink of guano
mingled
with the rest of the sensory onslaught. Gil glimpsed
a girl
of about ten in the homespun dress of a peasant,
sitting
on a pile of bedding, cradling a sleek brown cat in
her
arms; somewhere else, a woman in yellow satin, her
elaborately
coiffed hair falling in haglike disarray around
her
face, rocked back and forth on her heels next to a
chicken
crate and prayed at the top of her voice. The fire-
light
threw a glaring orange cast over everything, turning
the
crowd and enclosure into a scene from the anteroom
of
Hell.
Smoke
stung Gil's eyes and made them water as she
picked
her way in Ingold's wake through the close-packed
ranks
of people, sidestepping pots, pans, water buckets,
bundles
of clothes and bedding, small children and men's
feet,
heading toward the massive stairway that curved up-
ward
from the room's center to the floor above, and the
table
at the foot of those stairs.
Someone
recognized Ingold and called out in surprise.
His
name was repeated, back and back, washing like
ripples
of meaningless sound to the far corners of that
shadow-muffled
room. And that sound was of awe and
wonder
and fear. People edged away from the wizard's
feet to
let him pass by. Someone snatched a sleeping child
back;
someone else raked a bundle of clothes and a
money-bag
out of his path. Magically, an aisle opened be-
fore
him, an aisle lined with obscure forms and the glitter
of
watching eyes, a path to the table at the foot of the
stairs
and the small group of people assembled about it.
Except
for the soft clucking of some chickens and one
infant
crying, the hall had fallen silent. Expectant eyes
pinned
them, the hooded form of the wizard in his singed
brown
robe, the man and woman, strangers in outlandish
garb of
scuffed blue denim, the bundle of dirty black
blankets
the woman carried in her arms. Gil had never felt
so
conspicuous in her life.
"Ingold!"
A big man in the black uniform Gil recog-
nized
at once from her dreams came striding from the
group
to meet them, caught Ingold, and crushed him in a
bear-hug
that could easily have broken ribs. "We gave you
up for
dead, man!"
"Giving
me up for dead is always unwise, Janus," In-
gold
replied a little breathlessly. "Especially when . .."
But the
big man's eyes had already shifted past him,
taking
in Rudy, Gil, and the grimy bundle in Gil's arms,
the
grubby gold of the emblems embroidered there. His
expression
changed from delight and relief to a kind of
awe-struck
wonder, and he released the wizard numbly,
as if
he had half-forgotten him. "You saved him," he
whispered.
"You saved him after all."
Ingold
nodded. Janus looked from the child back to the
sturdy
old man at his side, as if he expected Ingold to
vanish
or change shape before his eyes. The murmuring
voices
of the multitude swelled again, like the swell of the
sea,
and washed to the far corners of the crowded room.
But
around the table, there was still that island of silence.
Into
that silence Ingold said, perfectly calmly, "This is
Gil,
and this is Rudy. They were kind enough to aid me
in the
Prince's rescue. They are strangers from another
land
and know nothing of the Realm or its customs, but
they
are both loyal and valiant."
Rudy
ducked his head, embarrassed at the description.
Gil,
for her part, had subconsciously avoided thinking any-
thing
positive about herself for the last fifteen years and
blushed
hotly. Undisturbed, Ingold continued. "Gil, Rudy—
Janus
of Weg, Commander of the City Guards of Gae."
His
gesture included the two still seated at the table.
"Bektis,
Court Wizard of the House of Dare; Govannin
Narmenlion,
Bishop of Gae."
Startled
that Ingold did not hold the title, Gil looked
at
Bektis, a self-consciously haughty man with the signs
of the
Zodiac worked into the borders of his gray velvet
cloak.
Because of the shaven head that gave the Bishop
of Gae
the look of some ancient Egyptian scribe, and be-
cause
of the voluminous scarlet robes that hid the thin,
straight
body, it took Gil a moment to realize that this
was a
woman, but there was not a second of doubt that
she was
a Bishop. That harsh ascetic face would tolerate
nothing
less than spiritual command and would trust no
one
else to guard sufficiently the honor of her God.
As
proper acknowledgments were made and the Bishop
extended
her dark amethyst ring to be kissed, Gil heard
behind
her the low murmur of Janus' deep voice speaking
to
Ingold. ". . . fight in the hall," he was saying. "Alwir's
set up
refugee camps here .. . sent patrols into the city ...
convoying
food . . . bringing people to safety here . . ."
"My
lord Alwir has taken command, then?" Ingold asked
sharply.
Janus
nodded. "He is the Chancellor of the Realm, and
the
Queen's brother."
"And
Eldor?"
Janus
sighed and shook his head. "Ingold, it was like a
slaughterhouse.
We reached Gae just before dawn. The
ashes
were still hot—parts of the Palace were still in
flames.
It was burned—"
"I
know," Ingold said quietly.
"I'm
sorry. I forgot you were there. The roof of the
hall
had caved in. The place was like a furnace. Bones
and
bodies were buried under the rubble. It was too hot
to do
much searching. But we found this, back by the
door of
that little retiring room behind the throne. It was
in the
hand of a skeleton, buried under the fallen rafters."
He
pointed to something on the table.
With
the practiced grip of one long accustomed to
handling
such things, the Bishop picked up the long,
straight,
two-handed sword and offered it hilt-first to Ingold.
Though
it was badly fire-blackened, Gil could recognize
the
pattern of rubies on the hilt. Once in a dream, she'd
seen
those gems gleam in lamplight with the movement
of the
breath of the man who'd worn them. Ingold sighed,
and
bowed his head.
"I'm
sorry," Janus said again. His tough, square face
was
marked with weariness and grief under the reddish
stubble
of beard; he had lost a friend he valued, as well
as a
King. Gil remembered a lamplit room, a tall man in
black
saying, ". . . as your friend, I ask you . . ." She
grieved
with the old man's grief.
"And
the Queen?" The tone of his voice indicated that
Ingold
knew what answer to expect.
"Oh,"
Janus said, startled, raising his head. "She was
taken
prisoner."
Ingold
started, shocked. "Prisoner?" Shaggy eyebrows
drew
down over his nose. "Then I was right."
Janus
nodded. "We finally caught them at it. They can
carry
weight; those tails of theirs are like cable. The Ice-
falcon
and a dozen of the boys were trapped in the main
vault.
They'd been guarding the Stair since the slab was
broken—"
"Yes,
yes," Ingold said impatiently. "I thought they were
killed
in the first rush. I discounted them. It doesn't do,"
he
added, with the quick ghost of a grin, "to discount
the
Icefalcon—but go on."
"Well,
the fire in the hall spread throughout the Palace—
anyone
who was trapped anywhere started burning things
for the
light. The Dark Ones came back down to the
vaults
like a river of night, dragging what must have been
half a
hundred captives, mostly women and some of the
dooic
slaves, yammering and screaming like beasts. The
Icefalcon
and the boys had the sense not to fire the vault
and
they put up a hell of a fight. In the end, half the pris-
oners
got left aboveground, and the Dark fled back down
the
Stair. Five of the women and some of the dooic died,
of
shock, we think—"
"And
the Queen?"
Janus
shifted from foot to foot uncomfortably, his eyes
troubled.
"She was—badly shocked."
The
wizard regarded him narrowly for a moment, sifting
the
sound of his voice, the evasion of his stance. "Has she
spoken?"
Bektis
the Court Wizard broke in officiously, his voice
low.
"It is my own fear that the Dark Ones devoured her
mind,
as so often happens to their victims. She has lain
raving
in a kind of madness, and with all the arts at my
command
I have been unable to summon her back."
"Has
she spoken?" Ingold repeated, glancing from Janus
to
Bektis, seeking something; Gil could not tell what.
"She
called for her brother," Janus said quietly. "He
arrived
with his men and a great part of the Army a few
hours
after daylight."
Ingold
nodded, and seemed satisfied. "And this?" He
gestured
around him, at the silent sea of people crowded
in the
smoky hall.
Janus
shook his head wearily. "They've been coming up
the
mountain all day," he said. "A great train of them
formed
around us when we left the Palace. They've been
pouring
up the road ever since. And three-quarters of them
are
without food. It isn't entirely fear of the Dark that
makes
them leave Gae—even with all the Guards and
Alwir's
regiments, Gae is broken. There's a madness in
the
town, even by daylight. All law is gone. We rode in
just
after dawn, to the relief of the Palace, and people were
already
looting it. Every farm within ten miles of the city
has
been abandoned—harvests rotting in the fields while
refugees
starve on the roads. Karst's a small town, and
they're
fighting over food here already, and over water, and
for
space in every building. We may be safe here from the
Dark,
but by tomorrow I'll wager we're not safe from one
another."
"And
what," Ingold asked quietly, "makes you think
you're
safe here from the Dark?"
Shocked,
the big man started to protest, then fell silent.
The
Bishop slid her eyes sideways at Ingold, like a cat, and
purred,
"And what, my lord Ingold, know you of the
Dark?"
"Only
what we all know," a new voice said. Such was
the
quality of it, deep and regal, like a fine-tuned wood-
wind
played by a master, that all eyes turned toward the
speaker,
the man who stood like a dark king, gilded by the
glare
of the torches. His shadow rippled down before him
like
water as he descended; like a second shadow, the wings
of his
black velvet cloak belled behind him. His pale face
was
coldly handsome, the regular fleshly features marked
with
thought and wisdom as with a carefully wielded grav-
ing
tool. The wavy raven-black hair that framed his face
half-obscured
the chain of gold and sapphires that glittered
over
his shoulders and breast like a ring of cold blue eyes.
"There
is a certain amount of profit and prestige attendant
upon
warnings of disaster, as we all have seen."
"There
is profit only for those who will heed them, my
lord
Alwir," Ingold replied mildly, and his gesture took in
the
smoke-fouled shadows of the room behind them, the
grubby mob
that had for the most part gone back to chat-
tering
among themselves, chasing children, arguing over
space
and water. "And sometimes even that is not enough."
"As
my lord Eldor found." The Chancellor Alwir stood
for a
moment, his height and elegance dominating the
small,
shabby form of the wizard. His face, naturally
rather
sensual, was controlled into a cool mask of immo-
bility,
but Gil sensed in the posture of his big, powerful
body
the tension and distrust between the two men that
looked
to be of long standing. Alwir was annoyed, Ingold
wary.
"Indeed," the Chancellor went on, "his warning was
the
first; the stirring of the memories of the House of Dare
long
buried in his family. Yet that did not save him. We
surmised
that you had taken the Prince and fled the battle,
when we
did not find your sword in the rubble of the hall
—though
indeed there were enough of the fighters, toward
the
end, who snatched up the weapons of the fallen to
make
that not a sure clue. Was it possible, then, for you to
assume
the form of the Dark and so escape their notice?"
"No,"
Ingold replied, without elaboration. But a mur-
muring
went through those nearest the table—for the hall
was
crowded to the bursting-point, and the conference be-
tween
wizard and Chancellor, though conducted in low
tones,
had at least two hundred onlookers besides the five
who
stood closest to them. Gil, standing half-forgotten with
the
sleeping child in her arms and her back to the mon-
strous
newel post of the granite stair, could see the glances
men
gave to Ingold. Fear, awe, and distrust; he was un-
canny,
an alien even in the Realm. A maverick-wizard, she
realized
suddenly, and subject to neither king nor law.
People
could believe of him, and evidently did, that he could
take
the form of the Dark,
"And
yet you contrived it somehow," Alwir went on.
"And
for that we thank you. Will you be remaining in
Karst?"
"Why
did you leave Gae?"
Dark,
graceful brows lifted, startled and amused at the
question.
"My dear Ingold, had you been there—"
"I
was there," Ingold said quietly. "In Gae at least there
was
water, food, and buildings in which to hide sufficient
for
all. At least there one could be reasonably safe from
one's
fellow man."
"Karst
is certainly smaller," Alwir conceded, glancing
deprecatingly
about him at the jammed, airless cavern of
the
smoky hall. "But my men and the City Guards under
the
able leadership of Commander Janus can control the
people
more easily than in that crazy half-burned laby-
rinth
that is all that remains of the most beautiful city in
the
West of the World. The Dark haunt the river valleys,"
he went
on, "like the marsh sickness of the south; but, like
the
marsh sickness, they shun the high ground. It may be
possible
to make a pact with them, such as the mountain
sheep
make with the lions of the plain. To avoid the lion,
one
stays clear of his runs."
"To
avoid the hunter," Ingold replied in that same quiet
tone,
"the deer shun the towns of men, but men seek them
in the
forest. The Dark never stalked the high country be-
cause
there was no profit in it. When their prey flee there,
thither
they will come, to take them in open ground, scat-
tered
broadcast halfway to Gettlesand, without wall or fire,
believing
themselves safe."
The
sapphires flashed in the torchlight as the Chancellor
shifted
his weight, and his cornflower-blue eyes were as
hard as
the jewels. "Two days ago there was a King at
Gae,"
he said. "And now there is none. This situation is
temporary.
Believe me, Ingold Inglorion, a city of people
cannot
come and go as lightly as you do yourself. We obvi-
ously
could not remain in Gae ..."
"Why
not?" the wizard bit at him.
The
slipping temper showed in the steel that suddenly
edged
his voice. "It was chaos there. We . . ."
"That
will be as nothing," Ingold said slowly, "to the
chaos
you will find when the Dark Ones come here."
In the
silence that followed, Gil was conscious of the
rustling
presence of the onlookers and eavesdroppers,
chance-camped
around the parchment-littered table that
was all
the headquarters the Realm of Gae now had—men
and
women, with their children or bereft of them, sitting
or
curled uncomfortably on their blankets, drawn against
their
will into the vortex around the tall, elegant Chancellor
and
this shabby pilgrim whose only possession seemed to be
the
killing sword at his hip. Though all around them in the
obscure,
pillared fastnesses of the hot, murky hall there was
subdued
talk and movement, here there was none. The
duel
was fought perforce in the presence of witnesses.
Alwir
seemed to remember them, for the tension in him
eased
perceptibly, and his voice was lighter, with just a
trace
of amusement, as he said, "You run ahead of your-
self,
my lord wizard. The Dark have not come to Karst—
of all
the cities in this part of the Realm, it is without trace
of
their Nests. As I have said, this state of affairs is tem-
porary;
it takes time to relocate and reorganize. Those who
have
refugeed here have nothing to fear. We shall make of
Karst
the new heart of the Realm, away from the danger
of the
Dark; it is here that we shall assemble an army of
the
allies of mankind. We have sent already to Quo, to the
Archmage
Lohiro, for his advice and aid, and south for
help,
to the Empire of Alketch."
"You've
what?" It was Ingold's turn to be shocked and
as
angry as Gil had ever seen him.
"My
dear Ingold," Alwir said patronizingly, "surely you
don't
expect us to sit on our hands. With the aid of the
armies
of the Empire of Alketch, we can carry the fight
into
the Nests of the Dark. With such aid and that of the
Council
of Wizards, we can attack the Dark in their own
territory,
burn them out, and rid the earth once and for all
of that
foul pestilence."
"That's
nonsense!"
Alwir
hooked his thumbs in his jeweled belt, clearly
satisfied
that he had taken the wizard off his usual balance.
"And
what would you propose, my lord wizard?" he asked
silkily.
"Returning to Gae, to be devoured by the Dark?"
Ingold
recovered himself, but Gil could see, from her
post by
the stairs, how shaken he had been by the Chan-
cellor's
suggestion. When he spoke, his voice was very quiet.
"I
propose that we go to ground," he said, "at Renweth."
"Renweth?"
Alwir threw back his head, as if uncertain
whether
to explode into rage or laughter. "Renweth? That
frozen
hellhole? It's ten days' journey from the end of the
world,
the jumping-off place of Hell. We might as well dig
our
graves and bury ourselves in them. Renweth! You
aren't
serious!"
The
Bishop shifted her black, lizard's gaze to Ingold
curiously
and spoke for the first time. "The monastery there
closed
twenty years ago, during the Bad Winter. I doubt
there's
even a village there anymore." Her voice was a dry,
thin
whisper, like the wind whistling through bleached
bones
in the desert. "Surely it is too isolated from the heart
of the
Realm to establish as its capital?"
"Isolated!"
Alwir barked. "That's like saying Hell has an
unseasonable
climate. A backwater pit in the heart of the
mountains!"
"I
am not concerned with the Realm," Ingold said, his
scratchy
voice uninflected now, but his eyes glittering in
the
murky torchlight. "There is no Realm anymore, only
people
in danger. You deceive yourself to think political
power
will hold together when every man's thoughts are on
refuge
alone." The Chancellor made no reply to this, but
along
his cheekbones Gil saw the flush of anger redden
the
white skin. Ingold went on. "Renweth Vale is the site of
the old
Keep of Dare. From the Keep, whatever else you
choose
to do, you can hold off the Dark."
"Oh,
I suppose we could, if the Keep's still standing,"
the
Chancellor admitted brusquely. "We could also hold
them
off if we lived in the wilds like the dooic, hiding in
caves
and living on bugs and snails, if you wanted to go
that
far. But you're not going to fit the entire population
of the
Realm into the Keep of Dare, for all your vaunted
magic."
"There
are other Keeps," the Bishop put in suddenly, and
Alwir
shot her a look black with anger. She ignored it, re-
folding
her long, bony fingers, her parchment-dry whisper
of a
voice thoughtful. "There is a Keep in Gettlesand that
they
still use as a fortress against the incursions of the
White
Raiders; there are others in the north ..."
"That
they've been using to cure hides in for the last
three
thousand years," Alwir snapped, really angry now.
"The
Church might not suffer much, my lady Bishop, in
the
breakup of human civilization; your, organization was
made to
hold sway in scattered places. And you, my lord
wizard,
think your own kind wouldn't be hurt—wanderers
and
brothers to the birds. But it's a long trek to Renweth."
He
jerked his head at all those watching eyes, that blur of
faces
in the blue fog of smoke-the girl with the cat, the
old man
with his crates of chickens, the fat woman in her
nest of
sleeping children. "How many of these would sur-
vive a
half-month of nights in the open, journeying through
the
river valleys where the road runs down to Renweth
Vale?
We are safe here, I tell you—safer than we'd be on
the
way."
There
was a murmuring among them, a shoal-whisper
of
agreement and fear. They had fled once from comfort-
able
homes and pleasant lives in a city now deteriorating
into
lawlessness by day and nightmare terror by dark—a
weary
climb up muddy roads, burdened by all they could
carry
away with them. Frightened and confused, they had
no
desire to flee farther, and there was not one of them
who, by
hope of Heaven or fear of Hell, could have been
induced
to spend the night in the open.
Alwir
went on, his voice dropping to exclude all but
those
closest in the smoky glare that surrounded the foot
of the
stairs. "My lord Ingold," he said quietly, "you held
a great
deal of power under King Eldor, power based on
the
trust he had in you from the time he was a child under
your
tutelage. How you used that power was your own
affair
and his; for you had your secrets that even those of
Eldor's
family were not privy to. But Eldor is dead; his
Queen
lies raving. Someone must command, else the Realm
will
destroy itself, like a horse running mad over a cliff.
Your
magic cannot touch the Dark—your power in the
Realm
is over."
Their gazes
met and locked, like sword blades held im-
mobile
by the matched strength of their wielders. The
tension
between them concentrated to a core of silence un-
broken
save by the sound of their breathing; blue eyes
looking
into blue, framed in darkness and the smoldery
glare
of jumping torchlight.
Without
taking his eyes from Alwir's, Ingold said, "King
Eldor
is dead. But I swore to see his son to a place of
safety,
and that place is not Karst."
Alwir
smiled, a thin change of his lips that neither
touched
nor shifted his eyes. "It will have to be, won't it,
my lord
wizard? For I am his Regent now. He is under my
care,
not yours." Only then did his eyes move, the entire
stance
of his body changing, and his voice lightened, like
that of
an actor stepping out of a role—or into one. His
smile
was genuine then, and deprecating. "Come, my lord,"
he said
pleasantly. "You must understand that there are
conditions
under which life is definitely not worth preserv-
ing,
and I'm afraid you've named one of them. Now—"
He held
up his hand against the wizard's next words. "I'm
sure we
will get off with less drastic consequences than the
complete
dismantling of civilization. I admit we are hard-
pressed
for certain things here, and I do not doubt that
there
are more refugees from Gae and the surrounding
countryside
coming up the mountain tomorrow. We're send-
ing a
convoy of the Guards down to the storehouses under
the
Prefecture Building at the Palace of Gae as soon as it
grows
light. As for getting in touch with the Archmage
Lohiro,
I'm afraid your colleagues seem to be in hiding,
and it
is beyond even Bektis' powers to get through to
them."
"There
is a glamour thrown over the City of Quo,"
Bektis
said stiffly, looking down his high, hooked nose at
Ingold.
"With all my spells and the magic of fire and jewel,
I have
been unable to pierce it."
"I'm
not surprised," Ingold said mildly.
The
Bishop's flat black gaze rested briefly upon them
both.
"The Devil guards his own."
Ingold
inclined his head toward her politely. "As does
the
Straight God, my lady. But we wizards are of neither
world
and so must protect ourselves as best we can. As the
stronghold
of the teachings of wizardry, Quo has always
been
guarded against invasion and destruction. I doubt that
any
wizard, however skilled, could pierce the town's de-
fenses
now."
"But
that is what you propose to do?" Alwir asked, a
note of
genuine curiosity stealing into his trained melodious
voice.
He had won his battle—or at least this particular
gambit.
He could afford now to drop pose and ploy that
Gil
sensed were habitual with him.
"It
is what I propose to try. As soon, as I said, as I have
seen
the Prince to a place of safety. But first, my lord
Alwir,
I need rest, for myself and my two young friends.
They
have journeyed far from their homes, and will set out
on
their return before today's sun sets. And, by your leave,
I would
like to see the Queen."
There
was a stirring in the hall beyond; someone opened
the
postern door, and the sudden, sharp draft of fresh,
biting
air threw smoke over them, making the Bishop
cough,
a dry, rasping sound. Beyond the door, the darkness
was
stained with paler gray.
As if
the opening of that small door had let in an unfelt
wind
that stirred the crowded multitude like leaves, ripples
of
movement eddied restlessly throughout the dim, smoky
chamber.
Some people settled down to sleep at last, secure
for the
first time in the long night; others got up and began
to move
about, the rise in their talk like the voice of the
sea
when the tide turns. The draft from the door caused
the
torchlight to flicker jerkily over stone arches and
haggard
faces. Men and women who had hitherto kept
their
distance from the red-lit circle of power and danger
surrounding
the great of the Realm edged stealthily closer,
and Gil
could hear the murmuring whisper in the shadows
behind
her as she stood against the banister with the flushed,
sleeping
child in her arms. "That's his Little Majesty him-
self? .
. . That's his little lordship, and a sweeter child there
never
was . . . Praise God he be safe . . . They say old
Ingold
stole him clean away from the Dark—he's a caution,
ain't
he? . . . Tricky old bastard, I say. Mirror of Satan,
like
all them wizards . . . He has his uses, and he did save
the
Prince that would have been dead, sure as the ice in
the
north . . . King, now; Lord Eldor's only child . . ."
The
great unwashed, Gil thought, and straightened her
cricked
back against hours of standing and the accu-
mulated
weight of the sleeping child in her arms. People
came as
near as they dared—for she, too, was an out-
worlder
and uncanny. She could smell on them the stench
of old
sweat and the grime of travel. At her movement
Tir
woke, grasped at a handful of her hair, and began to
whimper
fretfully.
Rudy,
who had been slumped, dozing, on the granite
steps
at her feet, glanced up at her, then stood up stiffly
and
held out his arms. "Here," he said, "I'll hold him for a
while.
Poor little bugger's probably starving."
Gil
started to hand him over, then stopped in mid-motion
as
Alwir turned toward them. The close-crowding people
fell
back. "I shall take the child," he said, speaking to Gil
and
Rudy as if they had been servants, "and give him to
his
nurse."
"Let
the Queen see him first," Ingold said, materializing
quietly
at his elbow. "That, I think, will help her more
than
any medicine."
Alwir
nodded absently. "It may be that you are right.
Come."
He turned away and moved up the stairs into the
shadows,
the child beginning to fret and cry weakly in his
arms.
Ingold started to follow him, but Janus caught the
sleeve
of his brown mantle and held him back.
"Ingold—can
I ask a favor of you?" His voice was
pitched
low to exclude all but those nearest him—Govan-
nin had
already gone to speak to a couple of shaven-headed
monks
in scarlet, and Bektis was ascending the stairs in
Alwir's
wake, his long hands tucked in his fur-lined sleeves
and a
look of pious despair on his narrow face. Ordinarily,
Gil
thought, the Commander of the Guards would be a
big,
roaring man, like an Irish cop; but strain and worry
had
quieted him, aging his square pug face. "We're riding
for Gae
in half an hour. The Icefalcon's already rounding
up the
troops. We've got as many of the Guards as we can
spare
and Alwir's private soldiers. The woods are full of
bandits,
refugees, people who'd kill for food, now it's so
short,
and in Gae it will be worse. The law's destroyed,
whatever
Alwir says about holding the Realm together—
you
know that, and so do I, and so does he, I think."
Ingold
nodded, folding his arms against the cold that was
blowing
in from outside. With that cold came the growing
murmur
of voices, the rattle of cart wheels on cobblestones,
and the
far-off creaking of leather.
"I
know it's hell to ask you," Janus went on, "after all
you've
done. God knows, whatever Alwir says, you've done
a
hero's part. But will you ride with us to Gae? The storage
vaults
are underground, and we may need you, Ingold, to
get the
food clear safely. You can't touch the Dark but you
can
call the light and you're the finest swordsman in the
West of
the World besides. We need every sword we can
get. I
asked Bektis to come, as a wizard, but he won't."
The
Commander chuckled wryly. "He says he won't risk
leaving
the Realm without a wizard to council its rulers."
Ingold
snorted with laughter or indignation, then was
silent.
Outside could be heard the voices of Guards and
the
sound of people coming into the square, new refugees
already
arriving in the town. In the corners of the smoky
hall
could be heard the muted rattle of cook pots, a man's
complaining
voice, young children crying.
The
wizard sighed deeply, but nodded. "All right. I can
sleep
in one of the carts on the way down—I must see the
Queen
first, though. Get as many carts and as many swords
as you
can." He turned toward the stairs, his white hair
matching
the gold of the torchlight as he moved. Gil took
a step
after him, uncertain whether to call his name, and
he
stopped, as if he had heard her speak. He came back
down to
her. "I shall be back before night falls," he said
quietly.
"By day you two should be safe enough, but don't
wander
about alone. As Janus says, the town isn't safe.
Before
sunset I'll return to send you back through the
Void."
"Isn't
that a little soon?" Rudy asked doubtfully. "I
mean,
you were right about the Void crossing being rough,
and
that will be only—" He calculated on his fingers.
"—fifteen
or sixteen hours."
"I
understand the risk," Ingold said. "You're both young
and
strong and should take no permanent harm from it.
And
consider the alternative. By daylight, you're safe in
Karst;
so far Alwir seems to be right, and the Dark do not
haunt
these hills. But I have no surety what another night
will
bring. Our worlds lie very close; the Dark followed
me
across the Void once, and it would be too easy for one
to do
so again. I said once that I was the only one who
understands
the Void, and as such I have a responsibility.
I
cannot let them contaminate other worlds. Surely not one
as
populous and as undefended as yours. Another night
could
trap you here," he finished bluntly. "For if the Dark
are
anywhere near, I will not send you back."
"So
you don't believe Alwir," Rudy said, folding his
arms
and slouching against the great granite newel post.
"No.
It's only a matter of time until the Dark Ones come
to
Karst, and I want you well away from here before it
happens."
"Hey,
affirmative, man. When you get back to town, I'm
gonna
be right here on the front steps waiting for you."
Ingold
smiled. "You're wise," he said. "You two alone
have
the option to leave this world. With what will come,
believe
me, you are to be envied." And he was gone, mov-
ing up
the long stairway as lightly as if he hadn't been
without
sleep for two nights, and was swallowed by the
shadows
at the top.
CHAPTER
FIVE
The
first sensation in Gil's mind, as she stepped from the
dark
slot of the postern door into soft pearl daylight and
bone-chilling
morning cold, was relief. She had made it,
somehow,
through the bizarre terrors of the night; she had
lived
to see dawn. She could not remember when she had
ever
taken such conscious pleasure in simple daylight.
The
second sensation was dismay. As she came out on
the top
step, the noise and stink hit her like a wall. People
were
quarreling, arguing, yelling at the tops of their voices,
demanding
where food could be found, squabbling over
the
possession of ragged and frightened animals, and clus-
tering
in an arm-waving group around the doorways of
buildings
already jammed to the rafters with refugees de-
manding
admittance; others were milling around the half-
drained
town fountain, bickering over water in voices sharp
with
the anger bred of fear. The growing light showed Gil
faces
pale and taut, wary eyes shifting like those of rats.
They
were physically and mentally angling for a toehold
of
position in this slipping world. The ice-breeze of the
mountains
bore on its cold breath the drifting stench of
untended
waste.
Jesus,
Gil thought, appalled, they're setting themselves
up for
cholera, plague . . . you name it. How much do
these
people know about sanitation and disease anyway?
And her
third sensation, as she stood shivering at the
top of
the steps in the biting cold, was ravenous hunger.
She
gave the matter some thought. The Commander of the
Guards
seemed to be on Ingold's side, and could probably
be
talked into giving her something to eat on the basis of
her
connection with the wizard. She made her way down
the
steps, having to pick her path around a middle-aged
man in
soiled broadcloth who seemed to have set up camp
on the
lowest step with every intention of staying there, to
where
half a dozen men and women in the black uniform
of the
City Guards were readying the transport carts to
join
the convoy to Gae. They were evidently under the
command
of a tall young man with ivory-blond braids that
hung to
his waist, who was currently engaged in a heated
argument
with a knot of civilians in dirty homespun. The
chief
of the civilians was shaking his head emphatically,
the
Guard gesturing to the mob in the square. As she came
close,
he dismissed the men in disgust and swung around
to face
her, regarding her from under colorless brows with
eyes as
light and cold as polar ice.
"Can
you drive?" he demanded.
"A
horse?" Gil asked, startled, her mind going to cars.
"I
don't mean geese. If you can't drive, will you lead on
foot?
Or ride the bloody thing. I don't care."
"I
can ride," Gil told him, suddenly aware of why she
was
being asked. "And I don't fear the Dark."
"You're
a fool, then." The captain stared down at her,
those
haughty white-blond brows drawing slightly together
as he
took in her alien clothes. But he said nothing of it,
only
turned to call to a grizzle-haired woman in a shabby
black
uniform. "Seya! Get this one a cart with riding
reins."
He turned back to Gil. "She'll take care of you."
Then,
as Gil started to go with Seya, he asked, "Can you
fight?"
Gil
stopped. "I've never used a sword."
"Then
if we're ambushed, for God's sake stay out of the
way of
those who can." He turned away, calling out orders
to someone
else, as concise and cold as a hunting cat. The
woman
Seya came up to Gil, wry amusement on her deep-
lined
face, her sword slapping at her soft booted feet.
"Don't
let him fret you," she said, glancing after his
slim,
retreating figure. "He'd put the High King himself to
driving
a cart if we were short, with never a by-your-leave.
There,
look."
Gil
followed the gesture of the woman's hand and saw
Janus
and Ingold standing in the middle of the ruckus at
the
foot of the steps, surrounded by quarreling drivers,
gesturing
Guards, and rickety carts. The tall captain was
talking
to them, gazing down the length of his aristocratic
nose.
Janus looked shocked, Ingold amused. The wizard
swung
himself up into the nearest cart, settled down on the
driver's
seat, and gathered the reins into his hands as deftly
as a
coachman.
The sun
cleared the spiky peaks in the east as they were
leaving
the last houses of Karst behind them, brightening
the
scene without dispersing the white mist lying so thickly
among
the trees. Gil was mounted uncomfortably on the
narrow
harness-saddle of a fat roan, drawing a cart close
to the
head of the convoy. She could see that most of the
vehicles
in town had been commandeered, far more than
could
be provided with civilian drivers who were willing to
return
to the haunted city of Gae. Many were driven by
Guards,
and a thin, straggling line of them walked on either
side of
the train—men and women both, she saw, mostly
young,
though there were gray or balding heads visible up
and
down the line as well. They moved restlessly, and she
could
see the marks of strain and exhaustion clearly on
their
faces. These were the fighters who had borne the
brunt
of the defense of Gae.
As the
light grew, Gil could make out little camps of
refugees
in the woods, straggling out along the road and
far
back among the trees. There were refugees on the road,
too,
men and women in wrinkled and dirty clothes, carry-
ing
awkward bundles of blankets and cooking pots on their
backs,
pushing makeshift wheelbarrows, or dragging crude
travois.
Now and then a man would be leading a donkey,
or a
woman drawing an unwilling cow at the end of a rope.
Mostly
they did not stop and gave only scant attention to
the
winding file of carts and their ragged line of escorts.
They
were too weary with flight and fear to have any
thought
but for the refuge ahead.
Eventually,
the road dipped and bent. Beyond the thin
screen
of brown-leaved trees, Gil felt the wind freshen
and
change. She looked up to see the land fall away on
one
side of the road, to show her the city of Gae.
Recognition
caught at her heart. It lay in the distance,
surrounded
by its many walls, held in the crook of the
river's
arm, facing out across a plain turned tawny gold
with
autumn and latticed with the white of the city roads.
It was
almost as if she had lived there, walked those close-
angled
streets, and known from childhood that skyline of
turrets
and branches. Against the morning sky, six spires of
stone
rose up, flying buttresses bereft of the walls they had
supported,
stretching like the bony fingers of a skeleton
hand
into the whiteness of the air.
"The
trees are bare," a man's light, breathless voice said
beside
her. "In summer it was a garden."
She
looked down. By her knee, pacing with the jogging
of the
cart, walked the pale-haired captain, his eyes reflect-
ing the
flat white light of the sky. She said, "I know."
The
light eyes shifted back to her face. "You're Ingold's
far
traveler."
She
nodded. "But I've been in Gae."
Again
there were no questions, only a docketing of in-
formation
in his mind. He was spare and loose-boned; in the
mingling
shadows of the trees, she saw that he was younger
than
she'd first supposed—in his early twenties, possibly a
few
years younger than she was. It was the toughness, the
sheath
of self-sufficiency, that aged him—that and the long
wrinkles
scored by weather around his pale eyes. After a
moment
he said, "I am called the Icefalcon of the Guards."
"My
name is Gil," she said, ducking as they passed be-
neath
the overhanging branches of a huge oak. Gae was
lost to
them once more behind the woods of rust and silver
and
opal mist. The sound of the cart wheels mingled with
the
crackle of the dead leaves underfoot.
"In
the old language of the Wath, gil means ice," he said
absently.
"Gil-shahs—a spear of ice, an icicle. I had a
hunting
hawk by that name once."
Gil
looked down at him curiously. "Then your own name
would
be—Gil-something-or-other."
He
shook his head. "In the language of my people, we
call
the icefalcon Nyagchilios, Pilgrim of the Sky. Why did
you
come with us?"
"Because
you ordered me to," Gil replied.
The
Icefalcon raised colorless eyebrows. But he did not
ask
further, and she could not have answered if he had
done
so. She only knew that she had felt drawn to these
calm
and competent warriors; asked to join them, she could
not
have stayed away.
They
broke from the woods and came down out of the
foothills,
riding through the lion-colored grasses of the plain
as if
swimming in a lake of soft, blown gold, the sun small
and
remote in a colorless morning sky. They passed more
refugees,
straggling family or neighborhood groups,
wretched
single men and women carrying the last of their
possessions
on their backs, confused gangs of children, the
older
herding the younger like geese. The edges of the road
were
scattered with the flotsam of flight—books, bedding,
and in
one place a silver bird cage, dainty as lace, on whose
open
door-frame a pink, ornamental finch sat chirping
fearfully
in the sky-wide freedom of the winds. The Ice-
falcon
pointed out Trad's Hill, the round promontory in
the
middle of the golden plain, crowned with its lichened
cross,
but Gil's eyes went past it to the walls of Gae. She
saw
towers mounting spire on shattered spire, arch and
corbel
and crenelations as fine as hand-tooled miniatures,
with
woven trellises of bare branches, and above it all, the
broken,
arching ribs of the buttresses that were all that re-
mained
of the Palace.
And as
surely as she knew her name, Gil knew that
somewhere
in that city there was a square whose steps were
guarded
by statues of malachite, where bronze doors lay
broken
among the rubble. Somewhere was a vault with the
red
porphyry Stair, an odd slab in the smooth basalt of the
floor,
and a shadow-crowded archway into an empty and
ruined
street. Cold wind stung her chapped hands on the
duty
leather of the riding reins; the jog of the slow-moving
cob
between her knees and the squeal of cart wheels came
like
elements of waking into an uncertain world of dreams;
and
with them came the mellow, rusty voice that floated
back
along the line of march, like a breath of mist on the
wind,
talking with the Commander of the Guards.
Gae
stank of death. Gil had not been prepared for it,
and it
took her by the throat like a strangler's hand. Her
otherworld
life had encompassed enough bus stations, rock
concerts,
and weekends in the desert to have in some
measure
inured her to the stench of Karst, but the fetor
that
hung like a cloud over the ruined city was the miasma
of rot,
dead rot that her world was wont to hide or incin-
erate.
The
streets lay empty to the sunlight, the echoes of
hooves
and booted feet and the creaking wheels of the
carts
ringing back off bare walls. House after house bore
signs
of burning—caved-in upper storeys, charred timbers
jutting
like the broken ribs of picked carcasses, barricaded
doors
and windows with the telltale crawling of soot reach-
ing
halfway up the walls above them. Gil saw how some of
the
walls had been broken inward; in other places, little
slides
of rubble spewed down into the street, mixed with
stripped,
rat-chewed bones. The hollow shadows rustled
with
the suggestion of a rodent population released from
its old
war with man and gorged on the spoils of victory.
From
the tops of broken walls, wild scrawny cats watched
them
with mad eyes. Gil held the short riding reins of her
fat
carthorse and tried not to be sick.
"Three
days ago it was going," a man's soft voice said
beside
her, and she almost jumped. "And now it is gone."
Ingold
had drawn up his cart next to her, blinking in the
sharp
changes of the barred and broken sunlight.
Something
unwholesome rustled and flicked out of sight
behind
a garden wall. Gil shivered, feeling unclean. "You
mean
the city?"
"In
a sense." A branch cracked under the wheels. The
Icefalcon,
scouting alongside, turned sharply at the sound.
Gil
could see they all felt it, all sensed the foulness of those
buzzing,
crawling streets. What must it be, she wondered,
to be
coming back now, after having known it, grown up
with
it, as it was?
Her eye
traveled slowly down the broken lines of a
graceful
colonnade that bordered the street, picking out
sophisticated
motifs of mathematics and flowers, the gaiety
and
balance of its multiple interwoven friezes. She remem-
bered
again the furnishings of Tir's nursery, museum pieces
of
inlaid ivory and ebony. All that was rich and beautiful
of this
civilization, all the good things that could be had,
could
once have been found here. She turned her horse's
head a
little to avoid the black ruin of a doorway in which
the
body of a woman lay sprawled in shadow, one gnawed
white
arm trailing limply in the sun, diamonds sparkling
on the
wrist among crawling flies.
Even
for those who had survived, there was no going
back.
She wondered if the people up at Karst had realized
this
yet.
Ingold did.
She saw it in the hard set of his mouth, in
the
line of pain that had appeared between his brows.
Janus
did. The Commander of the Guards looked white
and
ill; but beyond that, strange on a pug face that would
look
more at home above a Coors T-shirt and a six-pack
of
beer, was a look of a deep, quiet, and aching regret
His
expression was that of a man who looked on tragedy
and
understood the meaning of what he saw. The Ice-
falcon—
It was hard to tell. That enigmatic young man
picked
his fastidious way through the ruins of human
civilization
with the single-minded wariness of an animal,
uncaring
for anything beyond his personal safety and the
accomplishment
of his job.
Under
her, the horse let out a sudden, frightened squeal
and
threw up its head with white, rolling eyes. Almost be-
neath
their hooves, two shambling, misshappen things broke
cover
from a ruined doorway and fled down the lane at a
scrambling
run. Gil had a horrified glimpse of flat, semi-
human
faces under snarling manes of reddish hair, of
hunched
bodies and trailing, apelike arms. She stared after
them,
shocked and breathless, until she heard Ingold say
softly,
"No, let them go." Turning, she saw that the Ice-
falcon
had taken bow and arrow from one of the carts,
preparatory
to shooting the creatures down. At Ingold's
command
he paused, one pale eyebrow raised inquiringly,
and in
those few instants the creatures, whatever they
were,
had vanished down the lane.
The
Icefalcon shrugged and replaced his weapons.
"They're
only dooic," he stated, as a self-evident fact.
Ingold's
face was expressionless. "So they are."
"We'll
have them all around the carts, once we get the
food."
He might have been speaking of rats.
The
wizard turned back to his own business and flicked
the
reins of his mismated team. "We can deal with them
then."
The convoy started forward again, jostling in the
cold
shadows of the narrow streets. After a moment the
Icefalcon
shrugged again and slipped back, catlike, to his
place
in the Guard line.
"What
are they?" Gil asked of the Guard nearest her, a
fair-haired
young man with the shining face of an ap-
prentice
Galahad, walking at her other side. "Are they—
people?"
He
glanced up at her, shading his eyes against the sun-
light
that fell through the breaks in the buildings. "No,
they're
only dooic," he repeated the Icefalcon's excuse.
"Don't
you have dooic in your land?"
Gil
shook her head.
"They
do look like people," the Guard went on casu-
ally.
"But no, they're beasts. They run wild in most of
the
wastelands of the West—the plains beyond the moun-
tains
are crawling with them."
"Your
people might call them Neanderthal," Ingold's
soft
voice said at her side. "If they're caught they're put
to work
in the south cutting cane, or in the silver-mines
of
Gettlesand, but many people train them for household
tasks
as well. They're said to make useful slaves, but
evidently
no one considered them worth taking when their
owners
fled."
The dry
distaste in his voice wasn't lost on the young
Guard.
"We could never afford to feed them," he pro-
tested.
"Food's short enough in Karst." And he added
to Gil,
as if excusing himself, "I never liked them myself."
The
grain stores were in the vaults of the City Prefecture
Building,
a low, solid structure that formed one side of
the
great Palace square. As the convoy drew up before it,
Gil saw
that it had been little touched by fire, though
clearly
there had been looting going on—a trail of muddy
tracks,
torn grain sacks, and spilled corn led like a stream
up the
steps from the sunken doorway, to be dispersed
among
the general garbage of the square. The square itself
she
recognized, though she had last seen it from the win-
dow of
a tower that had now fallen to flaming ruin: a
broad
expanse of patterned marble; wide gates of intri-
cately
worked iron; and trees whose bare gray branches
were
scorched from the inferno that had swallowed the
last
battle. The monumental shadow of the Palace reared
to her
left, storey upon storey of sliding ruin, the gutted
belly
that had been the Throne Hall of the Realm laid open
to the
day, half-buried under rubble and ash.
This,
then, was the Palace of Gae, she thought, viewing
it
dispassionately, sane and awake and by daylight, from
the
back of a fat, jittery carthorse, with her hands blistered
from
the reins and her eyes aching from lack of sleep. This
was
what she had come to see, the place where Eldor had
died,
the place she had known in dreams. This was where
humankind
had fought—and lost—its last organized battle
against
the Dark.
By the
look of those blackened ruins, it was very clear
that
the place had been looted before the ashes were cold.
More
voices, angry this time, rang against the stone
walls of
the square in faint derisive echoes. Turning from
her
silent contemplation, Gil saw that a little group of
carters
and Guards had formed before the wide, shallow
steps
that led down to the broken doors of the Prefecture,
centering
on Commander Janus and a big, brawny man in
homespun
whom Gil remembered vaguely as having driven
the
lead cart. The man was saying, "Well, this driver's not
going
down to fetch no grain. If the top level of the vaults
has
been cleared out like you say, that means going down
the
subcellar, and that's death, sure as the ice in the north."
Someone
else chimed in over the general din of agree-
ment.
"The vaults is haunted, haunted by the Dark. I said
I'd
drive a cart, but going against the Dark ain't in it."
A Guard
shouted back, "Well, who in hell did you
think
was going down for the stuff?"
Janus,
red-faced with anger, spoke quietly, his brown
eyes
cold. "Every man knows the value of his own cour-
age.
Those drivers brave enough to do so can help us
fetch the
food out. I have no use for cowards. Icefalcon,
I'm
leaving you in charge on top. Pick twelve Guards and
shoot
anyone or anything that comes near the food once
we get
it up here. Get it loaded and be ready to move out."
From
the back of the cart he had been driving, Ingold
handed
down a bundle of cold pitch torches, then stepped
down
himself, bringing with him a six-foot walking staff
on
which he leaned tiredly.
The
Commander disengaged a torch from the bundle
and
went on. "Gae isn't empty, by any means. It's dead,
but
every corpse has its maggots. There's danger above the
ground
as well as below." He turned and walked, torch in
hand,
toward the steps. Without a glance at him, Ingold
made a
slight gesture with his fingers; the cold torch in the
Commander's
hand burst into flame with a loud whoof! The
other
Guards, and over half the drivers, clustered around
to get
their own torches and light them from his.
As Gil
was picking up a torch from the bundle on the
ground,
Ingold stepped over to her and laid a hand on her
shoulder.
"That didn't apply to you, Gil. This is none
of your
affair."
She
looked up at him, then straightened to bring her
eyes
level with his. "You don't have to look after me spe-
cially,"
she said. "I'll stay with the Guards."
He
glanced back over his shoulder at the small group
already
descending to the vaults, then at the long train
of
empty carts that would have to be filled by afternoon.
"I
brought you here against your will," he said quietly.
"You
are in my charge. I won't demand that you put your-
self in
danger of death in another universe, when you're
going
back to your own tonight. This is no dream, Gil. To
die
here is to die."
The
ice-winds from the north pierced her thin jacket
like a
knife, and the heatless sun glared in her eyes with-
out
power to warm her. From the steps a woman's voice—
Seya's,
she thought—called out. "Gil-shalos! You staying
or
coming?"
She
yelled back, "Coming!" Ingold caught her arm as
she
started to move off. To him she said, "I won't get in
your
hair", I promise."
He
smiled, the weary lines of his face lightening with a
brief
illusion of youth. "Like a bat, eh? As you will. But
as you
love your life, stay close to the others." And he
walked
with her to join the Guards.
They
worked swiftly in the darkness of the vaults,
soundlessly,
with drawn swords, their efficiency unpaired
by the
need to keep together. Following the bobbing chain
of weak
yellow lights, Gil found herself almost afraid to
breathe,
straining every nerve for the glimpse of some
anomalous
motion in the blackness, the breath of alien
wind.
In the deeper vaults where the food was stored,
the
endless darkness was all a whisper of tiny pattering
feet
and a sea of glaring little red eyes, gray bodies swarm-
ing
soundlessly away from the light of the torches; but
beside
the fear of the Dark, that was of no more moment
than a
cockroach on the wall might have been. They
carried
burden after burden back toward the light, sacks of
grain,
cured meats, great waxed wheels of cheese, treading
the
swiftest path they could under their loads, with Ingold
flitting
beside them like a will-o'-the-wisp, sword in one
hand,
the tip of his upraised staff throwing clear white
light
that dispelled the crowding shadows.
It was
hard labor, and they kept it up all the forenoon.
Gil's
arms ached; her blistered hands were smarting, her
nerves
humming like a plucked bowstring every tune she
dumped
a burden of corn or dried fruit or an unwieldy
slab of
cheese onto the pile at the top of the steps and
turned
back down to the waiting darkness. Her head
throbbed
with hunger and fatigue. Toward afternoon she
was
trembling uncontrollably, the stairs, the vaults, and
the men
and women around her blurring before her eyes.
She
stopped, leaning against the carved pilasters of the
great
doorway, trying to get her breath; someone passed
her in
a black uniform, bearing a torch, and laid a light,
companionable
hand briefly on her shoulder. Blindly, she
followed
him back into the vaults.
It was
well into afternoon when the job was done after
a last,
sweating hour of loading the carts. Lightheaded and
sick
with weariness, Gil wondered if it were only a hallu-
cination
on her part or if they were really watched from
every
black window by unseen eyes—if the prickling on
the
back of her neck were some premonition of real danger
or only
the result of fatigue whose like she had never be-
fore
known. That last hour she had noticed no one and
nothing,
only the pain that throbbed with every movement
of her
tired arms.
When
someone said that Ingold was gone, she could
not
remember when she had seen him last.
"He
was with us on the final trip out of the vaults, I
think,"
Seya was saying to the Icefalcon, wiping sweat from
her
brow with the sleeve of her damp undertunic.
"But
not after?"
The
woman shook her head. "I really don't remember."
"Did
anyone see him above the ground?"
Glances
were exchanged, heads were shaken. No one
could
recall. The fat carter in brown said, "Well, he's a
wizard,
and he's got his tricks, to be sure. Likely he'll
meet us
halfway up the mountains. Let's go, I say, if we're
to make
Karst in the daylight."
The
remark evidently didn't merit reply—Guards were
already
picking up the smoldered ends of doused torches
and
rekindling them from a little fire someone had lit
in a
corner of the court for warmth. Gil joined them as
a
matter of course, though she knew that there was no
question
of staying together for this search. Janus saw her
as she
was going down the steps and called out. "Gil-
shalos!"
But before he could go to her, the fat carter
caught
him by the arm and started a long expostulation,
about
reaching Karst before night. Quietly, Gil slipped into
the
shadows.
It was
different, entering the vaults alone. Her single
torch
called forth leaping, distorted shapes on the low
groinings
of the ceiling, her own footfalls multiplied eerily
in the
darkness, as if she were being stalked by a legion
of
goblins. The red gleams of wicked little eyes blinked
momentarily
from the impenetrable gloom around her,
then
were gone. All the stillness seemed to breathe. Some
instinct
warned her not to call out, and she continued alone
in
silence, scanning the maze of dark pillars for some sign
of that
bobbing white light or the soft tread of booted
feet—though
now that she thought of it, Ingold was a
man who
could move as noiselessly as a shadow. She left
the
trampled way the salvagers had taken and turned
toward
the deeper vaults, wandering down identical aisles
of dark
stone pillars, granite trees in a symmetrical forest,
her
torchlight calling no reflection from the smooth black
basalt
of the floor.
She
felt it grow upon her gradually, imperceptibly; a
sense
of having passed this way before, a lingering sense
of
unnamed dread, an uneasy feeling of being watched from
the
dark by things that had no eyes.
How she
could have helped Ingold she could not have
said,
for she was unarmed and less familiar than he with
the
haunts of the Dark. But she knew he had to be found
and she
knew that he was exhausted, pushed far past the
limits
of his endurance; she knew that, wizard or not, in
such a
state mistakes were fatally easy to make.
She had
almost given up the hope of finding him when
she saw
the faint reflection of white light against the dark
granite
of the pillars. She hurried toward the light, com-
ing at
last to a cleared space in that stone forest, where
her
torchlight gleamed on the dark sweep of the red por-
phyry
Stair that curved upward to the blown-out ruin of
cyclopean
bronze doors, with nothing but darkness beyond
them.
Among the rubble of disused furniture and dusty
old
boxes, she could make out the shapes of skeletons,
bones
scattered among the pillars, stripped of their flesh
by the
Dark. Almost at her feet, a sword-split box had
disgorged
its contents, and dried apples lay strewn among
the
skulls.
She
knew the place; the familiarity of it made her heart
pound
and the blood din in her ears. But no granite slab
broke
the ancient regularity of the smooth basalt of the
floor.
Only a great rectangular hole gaped where it had
lain,
black and yawning, the blasphemous gate of the
abyss.
And down from the pavement black stairs led, un-
speakably
ancient, cold with the ruinous horror of un-
counted
millennia, looking as she knew they would look,
even in
her dreams—as they had looked since the begin-
ning of
time. The damp chill that breathed out of that
darkness
brushed her cheek like the echo of primordial
chaos,
an evil beyond comprehension by humankind.
And up
from that unspeakable chasm, like the distant
glow of
a far-off lamp, shone the soft white light she had
been
seeking. It picked out the curves of the ceiling arches,
echoed
in the lines of a skull and the delicate roundness of
the
bone over the eye socket. Hands shaking, Gil stooped
and
picked up a long sword that lay on the floor amid a
tumble
of acid-eaten handbones. With the balanced weight
of the
hilt in her hand she felt better, steadier, and less
afraid.
She held the torch aloft and walked to the edge
of the
abyss.
Far
down the stairs, outlined by the soft brightness of
his
staff's white radiance, she could see Ingold. He stood
as
unmoving as a statue some fifty steps below her, just
at the
point where the stairs curved and were lost to sight
in the
black throat of the earth. His face was intent, as if
listening
for some sound which Gil could not hear. He
had
sheathed his sword, and his right hand hung empty at
his
side. As she watched, he moved with the slow hesitance
of one
hypnotized, down one step, and then another, like
a man
in a trance following enchanted music. She knew
that
after another step or two she would lose sight of him
utterly,
unless she chose to follow him down. He took the
next
step, the shadows closing him around.
"Ingold!"
she called out in despair.
He
turned and looked Inquiringly up at her. "Yes, my
dear?"
His voice echoed softly, ringing against the dark-
ness of
the overarching walls. He stared around him, at
the
stairway and the walls, and frowned, as if a little sur-
prised
to find he had come that far down. Then he turned
thoughtfully
to look at the deeper chasm below him again,
and Gil
remembered with a shiver that he had once told
her
that curiosity was the leading characteristic of any wiz-
ard,
and that a mage would pursue a riddle to the brink
of his
own grave. For a moment she had the terrible im-
pression
that he was toying with the notion of descending
that
eldritch stairs, of walking willingly into the trap to see
of what
it consisted.
But he
turned away and came up toward her, the dark-
ness
seeming to fall back at the advent of his light. He
emerged
to stand beside her on the top step and asked
quite
calmly, "Do you hear it?"
Gil
shook her head, mute and frightened. "Hear what?"
His
blue gaze rested on her face for a moment, then
moved
away, back toward that endless dark. There was
a
slight frown between his white brows, as if his mind
worried
at a riddle, oblivious to the danger in which they
stood.
She sensed that danger all around them, watching
and
waiting in the shadows, pressing behind them as if
it
would drive them into the accursed pit. But when he
spoke,
his rusty voice was calm. "You don't hear any-
thing?"
"No,"
Gil said softly. "What do you hear?"
He
hesitated, then shook his head. "Nothing," he lied.
"I
must be more tired than I thought. I—I thought—I
didn't
think I had descended the stairs quite that far. I
hadn't
meant to>."
That,
more than anything else, shocked her—the note
of
exhaustion in his voice, the admission of how close he
had
come to being trapped. He frowned again, looking
down at
the darkness that gaped below his feet, puzzling
at some
new knowledge, disconcerted, not by the darkness,
but by
something else.
Then he
sighed and let the matter go>. "You came alone?"
he
asked.
She
nodded, a curiously forlorn figure in her grubby
jeans,
with her guttering torch and the borrowed sword
heavy
in her hand. "The others are searching, too," she
explained—no
explanation, really, as to why she had come
alone.
"Thank
you," he said quietly, and laid a hand on her
shoulder.
"It's extremely likely that you just saved my life.
I—I
feel as if I have been under a spell, as if—" He broke
off,
and shook his head as if to clear it. "Come," he said
at
last. "This way out is quicker. Keep the sword," he
added
as she moved to lay it down where she had found
it.
"You may need it. Its owner never will again."
* * *
By the
time the convoy reached Karst the air was cold,
and the
late, weary day was drawing down to evening.
They
traveled slowly, for the underfed horses were dead-
beat
and the road steep and foully muddy. The closer they
got to
the town, the more often they were stopped by
men and
women who had been camping in the woods
and who
came hurrying down the steep banks to them,
begging
for something to eat. Only a little—it was always
only a
little.
Janus,
riding in the lead, shook his head. "There'll be
shares
given out at Karst."
"Bah!"
A woman in a torn purple gown spat. "Karst—
if you
can get into the town! And them as are there'll be
sure
they get first pickings!"
The Commander
only looked down with stony eyes.
"Move
aside." He kneed his sweat-darkened horse forward,
past
her. The wagons had not even stopped.
"Pig!"
the woman yelled at him, and bent to pick up
a stone
from the roadway. It struck his back hard enough.
to
raise dust. He didn't turn. "All of you, pigs!!"
It
wasn't what Gil had expected. Walking beside her
horse's
head, hanging grimly onto the cheekpiece of the
bridle
to keep from staggering, she'd half-expected to be
cheered
into town. But, she thought cynically, people are
people—nobody
cheers the lunchwagon unless he gets
first
dibs on the food. She looked back along the line of
the
convoy and saw none of her own feeling reflected in
the
strained and dusty faces of the other Guards. It's a
hell of
a thing, she thought, to risk your life to feed some-
one and
have him pelt you with mud on your way into
town.
But she supposed the Guards had seen too much of
human
nature in this crisis ever to be surprised by anything
again.
They
walked quietly along the blue evening road with
a
tirelessness and an endurance she bitterly envied. The
civilians
moved dully with fatigue, leading the over-
burdened
horses in silence. The sun had already vanished
behind
the tips of the surrounding mountains, and the
evening
grew cold. It would soon be night. Someone had
scrounged
a heavy, hooded cloak for her from the ruins
of the
Palace, and it flapped awkwardly around her ankles,
the
folds of it catching on her sword; the rhythmic slap
of the
scabbarded weapon against her calf was curious,
but
somehow comforting. She would take the sword back to
California
with her along with the memory of this strange
and
terrifying place.
Where
in hell are all these people coming from? she
wondered,
as a dozen or more came scrambling down the
ferns
of the roadside and into the way of the carts. She
straightened
up and scanned the woods, picking out the
hundreds
of trashy little campsites that strewed the slopes
all
around Karst. Sweet Mother of God, do they think
there's
a magic force-field around the place? Did they
really
buy that line of Alwir's about how safe they all are?
The
refugees tacked themselves onto the train, keeping
pace
with exhausted horses and their Guards, tagging them
through
the blue rivers of shadow between the first out-
lying
buildings. Some of the Guards drew their swords,
but no
move was made against them; the people simply
followed,
crowding one another but not the warriors, only
making
sure of being at the distribution point when share-
outs
began. Gil heard the murmur of voices thrown back
by the
moss-grown walls, a restless tension and discontent.
So many
people, so few wagons, so little food!
And
then they moved into the twilit square. Gil paused
in
shock, stiffening as if against a physical blow, and cold
apprehension
fisted in her chest. The square was nearly
solid
with people, all ages, both sexes, dirty, in rags or
clothes
soiled enough to be rags, and watchful as wolves.
The
great bonfires of last night had been kindled at the
four
corners of the square, and the leaping scarlet light
repeated
itself a millionfold in their glittering eyes, like
the
eyes of the rats in the vaults. The ugly tension was
palpable;
even Gil's horse, drooping with weariness, sensed
it and
threw up its head with a snort of fear.
At the
head of the convoy, Janus moved his horse
toward
the mob that was headed for the villa across the
square
where the food was to be stored. There was a slight
movement,
an uneasy convection current in the dark mass
of eyes
and faces, but no one stepped aside. The Com-
mander's
war horse fidgeted and sidestepped from that
wall of
hatred. Janus drew his sword.
Then
Gil felt the cart she was leading creak with a
sudden
motion, and Ingold, who had been dozing in the
back,
swung himself up onto the driver's seat. In the fire-
light,
he was visible to everyone in the square, the hood
falling
back from his head to reveal his craggy face with
its
rough chaparral of white beard and his eyes as cold
and
hard as the storm sky. He said nothing, did nothing,
only
stood leaning on his staff, looking down at the mob
in the
square.
After a
long moment of silence, men shifted away from
the
doors of the villa. A pathway widened before the
Guards,
their convoy, and the wizard.
Janus'
voice was crisp on the chilly air. "Start unloading.
Get the
stuff indoors, under triple guard." But he himself
did not
dismount. Other Guards emerged from the villa,
mixed
with Alwir's red-liveried private troops and the
warrior-monks
of the Church, also in red, the blood-
troops
of God. Gil leaned against the shoulder of the
carthorse,
feeling the sweat cold on her face, the warmth
of the
beast through cloak and jacket and shirt against her
arm, tired
and glad it was over. The mob in the square
had
fallen back, crowding one another around the bon-
fires,
but they watched the moving lines of armed men
stowing
the food, and that restless murmuring never ceased.
Gil
heard someone call out. "My lord Ingold!" Turning,
she saw
someone beckoning urgently from the Town Hall
steps.
She saw the wizard scan the crowd, judging it, but
few of
the people were watching him now; all eyes were
riveted,
as by enchantment, on the food. He swung himself
lightly
down from the cart, and the crowd rippled back
from
where he landed on his feet. They moved, not in
dread
or fear, exactly, but in awe of something they did
not and
could not comprehend. He did not have to push
his way
through them to the steps.
If Gil
hadn't been watching him, following his path with
her
eyes, she would have completely missed what happened
next. A
man, cloaked and hooded in red, stood waiting
for him
on the steps of the Town Hall, holding a rolled
parchment
in one hand, flat and colorless in the deep
shadows
thrown by the fires. He handed Ingold the parch-
ment
and drew his sword.
Gil saw
Ingold read what was written there and look
up. She
could feel, even at that distance, the fury and in-
dignation
that tautened every line of his body, the wrath
that
smoked off him. A dozen men in red emerged quietly
from
the shadows and surrounded him. They all carried
drawn
swords.
For one
instant, she thought he would fight. And she
thought,
Oh, my God, there'll be a riot, and queer, cold
fury
put fire-ice into her veins. Several of the red troops
evidently
thought so, too, for they flinched back from him.
Gil
remembered that, in addition to being a wizard, Ingold
was
supposed to be one hell of a swordsman. Then he held
his
hands up to show that they were empty, and the men
closed
him in. One of them took his staff, another his
sword,
and they all vanished into the shadows of the
Town
Hall doors.
Stunned,
Gil turned to see if Janus had witnessed this,
but the
Commander's back was to her, his attention held
by the
mob. The Guards were still working, carrying grain,
sides
of bacon, and sacks of potatoes and corn up the
steps
of the villa and through the guarded darkness of the
doors.
She doubted anyone besides herself had seen the
arrest.
They timed that, she thought suddenly. And they
counted
on his going quietly, rather than triggering a riot
by
resistance.
Rage
swept her then, leaving no room for fear. She
looked
back at the steps, splotched by shadow and fire-
light.
They were empty, as if nothing had happened. The
wizard
might simply have disappeared.
CHAPTER
SIX
A dying
civilization. A land locked in fear. A world go-
ing
down in a welter of hopeless chaos before an enemy
that
could not be fought. And, Rudy thought, strolling
down
the mossy cobbled streets of Karst through the cool
sunshine
of that mellow afternoon, one hell of a lot of
people
standing nose-deep in the sewer, with the tide com-
ing in.
If it
weren't jammed to the ceilings with people, Karst
would
be a pretty town, he reflected. That is, if you had
indoor
plumbing and some kind of central heating and
streets
you weren't likely to break your ankle on. This
lane
was relatively uncrowded and quiet, winding away
from
the town square to lose itself in the woods; it was
paved
in lumpy, fist-size cobbles that were high and dry
along
the walls on both sides and heavily upholstered with
bright
green moss down the center, through which a
thread
of silver water reflected the sky. Rudy had slept—
badly—in
a stuffy and flea-infested closet on the third
floor
of the Town Hall, and had spent what was left of
the
morning and most of the afternoon poking around
Karst,
trying to scrounge food and water, scraping acquain-
tance
with refugees and Guards and some of the Bishop's
people,
and checking out the town. He'd come to the
conclusion
that if Alwir didn't get his act together fast,
they'd
all be dead in short order.
There
were simply too many people. Gil and Ingold were
right,
whatever the Chancellor liked to say. Contrary to
the
assertions of most of his teachers in public school,
Rudy
was not stupid, merely lacking in appreciation for
the
public school system. He'd listened to the council last
night—with
as little room as there was in the hall, it
would
have been hard to help eavesdropping—and had
seen
today what was happening in Karst. He'd walked
through
the camps in the woods, trashy, filthy, lawless.
He'd
witnessed seven fights—three over allegations of
food
theft, two over water, and two for no discernible
reason
at all. He'd heard the stump preachers and soapbox
orators
propounding different solutions to the problem,
from
suicide to salvation, and had seen one ugly old man
stoned
by a pack of children and several of their elders
because
he was supposed to be in league with the Dark—
as if
anyone could get anywhere near the Dark Ones to
be in
league with them. Mostly Rudy sensed the tension
that
underlay the town like a drawn wire and had felt, with
an
uneasy shock, that closeness to that line that divided
a land
of law from a land without it. He'd seen the handful
of
Guards left in town trying to keep some kind of order
among
far too many people. Though it was a new sensa-
tion
for him to have sympathy for the fuzz, he found he
did. He
wouldn't have wanted to play cop to that mad-
house.
The
smoke of cook fires turned the air into a stage-
three
smog alert, wherever he wandered in the town or in
the
woods. Now, as he headed back toward the square,
shadows
began to move up the rock walls of the little
lane,
and the distant clamor of voices in the square was
muffled
by the walls, muted to a meaningless murmur like
the
far-off sounding of church bells. In spite of hunger,
the
crowds, the threat of plague, and the fear of the Dark,
Rudy
found himself oddly at peace with the world and
with
his own soul.
Beyond
the wall to his right he heard voices, a woman's
and a
girl's. The woman was saying, "And don't you go
let him
be putting things in his little mouth."
The
girl's voice, gentle and demure, replied, "No, ma'am."
"And
don't you be letting him wander away and hurt
hisself;
you keep a sharp eye on him, my girl."
Rudy
recognized the emblem on the half-open grille of
rusty
iron at the gap in the wall, the three black stars that
someone
had said belonged to the House of Bes, the
House
ruled by Chancellor Alwir. Rudy paused in the
gate.
If this was Alwir's villa, then the women were probably talking about Tir.
Beyond the
gap in the wall he could see the sloping
garden,
brown with cold and coming frost, and beyond
that
the rock wall of a terrace that backed the massive,
gray
shape of a splendid mansion. He was right; two
women
stood in the huge arched door of the house, spread-
ing
out, of all things, a bearskin rug in the last of the
pale
golden sun. The fat woman in red was doing this,
with
much bustle and huffing, while the slender girl in
white
stood, in the classic pose of women everywhere,
with
the baby riding her hip.
The fat
woman continued to scold. "You see he doesn't
get
chilled."
"Yes,
Medda."
"And
don't you get chilled, neither!" The fat woman's
voice
was fierce and commanding. Then she went bustling
back
into the dark shadows of the door and was gone.
Rudy
ducked through the gateway and made his way up
silent
paths fringed with sere brown hedges. Overhead,
arthritic
yellow leaves trembled in the watery blue of
the
air. Even moribund with autumn, the garden was
immaculate.
Rudy, pausing in its mazes to orient himself
toward
the haughty bulk of the villa, wondered whom they
got to
trim the hedges every day.
The
baby sitter had settled herself down on the corner
of the
bearskin next to the Prince. She looked up, startled,
as Rudy
swung himself over the balustrade to join them.
"Hello,"
she said, a little timidly.
Rudy
gave her his most charming smile. "Hi," he said.
"I'm
glad to see you've got him out here—I was afraid
I'd
have to ask permission from every Guard in the house
to see
how he is."
The
girl relaxed and returned his smile. "I should be
taking
him in before long," she apologized, "but it's prob-
ably
one of the last warm days we'll have." She had a
low
voice and an air of shyness; Rudy put her age at
somewhere
between eighteen and twenty. Her crow-black
hair
was braided down past her hips.
"Warm?"
Like most Californians, Rudy was thin-
blooded.
"I've been freezing to death all afternoon. What
do you
people consider cold?"
Startled,
she raised her eyes to his; hers were dark,
luminous
blue, like Crater Lake on a midsummer afternoon.
"Oh!"
She smiled. "You're the companion of Ingold, one
who
helped him rescue Tir."
And,
indeed, Tir was making his way purposefully over
to Rudy
across the bearskin, tangling himself in the black
and
white silk of his gown. Rudy folded up to sit cross-
legged
beside the girl and gathered the child into his lap.
"Well—"
he said, a little embarrassed by that awe and
gratitude
in her eyes. "I just kind of stumbled into that. I
mean,
it was either come with him or die, I guess—we
didn't
have much choice."
"But
still, you had the choice to be with him in the first
place,
didn't you?" she reminded him.
"Well—yeah,"
he agreed. "But believe me, if I'd known
what it
was all about, I'd still be running."
The
girl laughed. "Betrayed into heroism," she mocked
his
assertion gently.
"Honey,
you don't even know." Rudy extricated Tir's
exploring
hands from his collar and dug in his pocket for
his key
ring, which the child, in blissful fascination, pro-
ceeded
to try to eat. "You know," he went on after a few
minutes,
"what floors me about this whole thing is that
the
kid's fine. After all he's been through from the time
Ingold
got him out of Gae until we got him back here,
you'd
think he'd be in shock. Is he? Hardly! Babies are
so
little, you'd think they'd break in your hands, like—
like
kittens, or flowers."
"They're
tough." The girl smiled. "The human race
would
have perished long ago if babies were as fragile as
they
look. Often they're tougher than their parents." Her
fingers
made absent-minded ringlets of the black, downy
hair on
Tir's tiny pink neck.
Rudy
remembered things said in the hall and other talk
throughout
the day. "How's his mom?" he asked. "I heard
she—the
Queen—was sick. Will she be okay?"
The
girl hesitated, an expression of—what? Almost
grief—altering
the delicate line of her cheek. "They say
the
Queen will recover," she answered. him slowly. "But
I don't
know. I doubt she will ever be as she was." The
girl
shifted her position on the rug and put the long braid
of her
hair back over her shoulder. Rudy stopped, another
question
unspoken on his lips, wondering suddenly how
and
under what circumstances this girl had made her own
escape
from Gae.
"And
your friend?" The girl made an effort, and with-
drew
her mind from something within her that she would
rather
not have looked at. "Ingold's other companion?"
"Gil?"
Rudy asked. "I guess she went with the Guards to
Gae
this morning. That's what they tell me, anyway. You
wouldn't
get me within a hundred miles of that place."
"You're
within ten," the girl said quietly.
Rudy
shivered. "Well, I can tell you I'll be farther away
before
sundown. Food or no food, you'd have to be crazy
to go
back there."
"I
don't know," the girl said, toying with the end of her
braid.
"They say the Guards are crazy, that you have to
be
crazy, to be a Guard. And I believe that. I would never
go
back, not for anything, but the Guards—they're a rare
breed.
They're the best, the finest corps in the West of the
World.
It's their life, fighting and training to fight. The
Guards
say it's like nothing else, and for them there is
nothing
else. I don't understand it. But then, nobody does.
Only
other Guards."
Pro
ballplayers would, Rudy thought. Heavy-duty martial
artists
would. He remembered some of the karate black
belts
he knew back home. Aloud, he said, "God help
anyone
or anything that takes on a bunch of people like
that.
Ingold's with them, too."
"Oh,"
the girl said quietly.
"Do
you know Ingold?"
"Not—not
really. I—I've met him, of course." She
frowned
slightly. "I've always been a little bit afraid of
him.
He's said to be tricky and dangerous, all the more
so
because he appears so—so harmless. And, of course,
wizards—there
are those who believe that wizards are
the
agents of evil."
"Evil?
Ingold?" Rudy was startled and a little shocked.
A more
harmless old man he could never hope to find.
"Well—"
She hesitated, twining the end of her braid
through
her fingers. Tir, having misplaced or forgotten
the
keys, caught at the soft black rope with tiny hands.
"The
Church teaches us that the Devil is the Lord of
Illusion,
the Prince of Mirrors. Illusion is the wizards'
stock
in trade; they trade their souls for the Power, when
they go
to that school in Quo. The Council of Wizards
owes
allegiance to no one. There is no check on what
they
might do."
So that
explained the Bishop, Rudy thought, and her
watchful
dark gaze that slid so disapprovingly over the
wizard
at that hurried council last night. A witch hunter,
no
error.
The
girl went on. "Of course he was a friend and
counselor
of—of the King—"
There
was something, some catch, in her voice that
made
Rudy look over at her quickly, and it occurred to
him to
wonder what the late, great King Eldor had had
to do
with his son's nanny on the sly. Not that he blamed
Eldor,
he thought.
"But
Ingold had his—purposes," she continued quietly.
"If
he saved Tir, it was because of the—the inherited memo-
ries of
the Kings of Darwath, the store of knowledge within
him
that may one day be used against the Dark. Not be-
cause
Tir was only a child, helpless and in danger." Her
eyes
were down, considering the bent head of the child
nuzzling
around on the bearskin before her. Her voice was
shaky.
She
really cares for Pugsley, Rudy thought suddenly.
Hell,
since Queens—at least in his muzzy democratic
understanding
of the matter—don't take care of their own
babies,
she probably raised the little rug-rat. She wouldn't
see him
as a Prince—or even as King of Darwath, since
Eldor
had died—but only as a child she loved, as Rudy
loved
his baby brother. It changed her in his eyes.
"You
really believe that?" he asked softly. She didn't
answer,
nor did she look at him. "Hell, when you come
right
down to it, it's his job. If he's the resident wizard,
he's
got to do stuff like that. But I think you're wrong."
For a
time she didn't speak, and the silence came over
the
garden again, a contented silence, bred of the long
afternoon
light and what might be the last golden day of
autumn.
The sun had already slipped through a milky film
of
cloud on the western peaks; the blue shadow of the villa
marked
off the cracks in the terrace pavement like a sun-
dial,
creeping steadily up on the bearskin and its three
occupants.
Looking out over the austere brown and pewter
patchwork
of the frost-rusted garden beds, Rudy felt the
peace
of the place stealing over his spirit, an archaic,
heartbreaking
beauty, a silence of old stone and sunlight, of
something
seen long ago and far away, like a lost memory
of what
had never been, something as distant as the re-
flections
in still water, yet clear, clear as crystal. Every
pale
stone of the terrace, every silken grass blade thrust
between
them and turned gold now with the year's turn-
ing,
contained and preserved that magic light like the final
echo of
dying music. It was a world that yesterday he
had
never known and, after tomorrow, would never see
again,
but the present moment seemed to have been
waiting
for him since the day of his birth.
"Alde!"
A sharp voice cut that silver peace, and the
girl
whirled, startled and guilty as a child with her hand
in the
cookies. The fat woman in red stood in the door-
way,
hands on her broad hips fisted and face lumpy and
red
with annoyance. Rudy scrambled to his feet as she
bawled
out, "Sitting on the cold pavement! You'll catch
your
death! And his Little Majesty, to be sure!" She came
bustling
out, clucking and scolding like a mother hen with
one
chick. "Take him inside, child, and yourself—the air's
grown
nippy ..."
But for
all that she flustered around him as if he weren't
there,
Rudy knew the real problem was that Alde wasn't
supposed
to be wasting her time talking with some
stranger
instead of watching the baby as she was supposed
to. The
girl gave him a helpless, half-amused shrug of her
eyebrows,
and Rudy gallantly stooped to gather the bear-
skin in
his arms. The thing weighed a ton.
"What's
she think I'm gonna do, kidnap him?" he asked
in a
whisper as the older nurse waddled back into the
house,
baby in arms.
Alde
smiled ruefully. "She worries," she explained un-
necessarily.
She bent to retrieve the motorcycle keys, which
had
fallen from the folds of the rug. She wiped the slobber
off
them with a corner of her skirt and tucked them back
in his
pocket for him.
"She
boss you around like that all the time?" he asked.
"I
thought for a minute she was gonna spank you."
Alde's
smile widened, and she ducked her head. She was
laughing.
"Medda just thinks of Tir as her baby. Nobody
can
look after him the way she can, not even his own
mother."
Rudy
had to smile, too. "Yeah, my aunt Felice is like
that.
To hear her carry on with my mother, you'd never
think
Mom had raised seven kids all by herself. But you
just
got to let them do it."
"Well,
you certainly can't change them," Alde agreed.
"Here—I
can take that rug. Medda would faint if you
came
inside. She knows what's due to the House of Bes ...
No,
it's all right, I've got it."
They
paused, arms mutually entwined in the moth-eaten
red
fur. "Your name's Alde?" he asked.
She
nodded. "Short for Minalde," she explained. "Some-
one
told me yours. If ..."
"Alde!"
Medda's shout came from within the villa.
"Take
care of yourself," Rudy whispered. "And Pugsley."
She
smiled at the nickname and ducked her head again
as if
to hide the smile. "You also." Then she turned and
hurried
through the great doors, the claws of the bearskin
clinking
softly on the polished floor.
The sky
overhead had lost the paleness of day. The sun
was
long gone past the mountain's rim, and swift twilight
had
come down. All that afternoon's peace and beauty
notwithstanding,
Rudy had no intention of spending an-
other
night in this world. Besides which, he realized he
was
painfully hungry, and food was notoriously hard to
come
by. He made his way down the dead garden and
through
the rusted gate. He found the lane beyond almost
totally
dark, though the sky above still held a little of the
day,
like the sky above a canyon. As the shadows moved
up the
mountain toward Karst, he began his hunt for the
wizard
and the way home.
"Rudy!"
He turned, startled to see Gil materialize out
of the
gloom, striding quickly toward him, followed by
a tall
young man with white Viking braids who wore the
already-familiar
uniform of the City Guards. He noticed
that
Gil had scrounged a cloak from somewhere and wore
a sword
belted over her Levi's. The outfit made him grin.
This
was a long way from the lady and scholar of yesterday
afternoon
...
"Where's
Ingold?" he asked as they drew near.
Gil
answered shortly. "He's been busted."
"Busted?"
For a minute he couldn't take it in. "You
mean
arrested?"
"I
saw it," Gil said tightly.
Close
up now, Rudy saw that she looked exhausted,
drawn,
those cold gray-blue eyes sunk in purple smudges
in a
face that had gotten pointy and white. It didn't do
much
for her looks, he thought. But there was a hardness
in her
eyes now that he wouldn't have wanted to tangle
with.
She
went on. "A bunch of troops came and got him on
the
Town Hall steps while the Guards were busy unloading
the supplies."
"And he just went with them?"
Rudy asked, aghast and
disbelieving.
The
tall Guard nodded. "He knew that it was go or
fight.
The fight would trigger a riot."
The
light, spare voice was uninflected, unexplaining, but
the
scenario sprang to Rudy's mind. The Guards backed
Ingold
and would have rushed to help; the people in the
square
would go after the food; all the pent-up violence
of the
day would condense in rage and fear and terror of
the
night. The town would go up like gunpowder. He'd
been in
enough small-scale riots at the Shamrock Bar in
Fontana
to know how that went. But what was all right
in the
safety of a steel-mill town on Friday night would be
death
and worse than death on a large scale, played for
keeps
out of hunger and fury and frustration. Bitterly, he
remarked,
"They sure knew their man. Who nailed him, do
you
know?"
"Church
troops, from Gil's description," the Icefalcon
said.
"The Red Monks. The Bishop's men, but they could
have
acted on anyone's orders."
"Which
anyone?" Rudy demanded, his glance shifting
from
Gil to the Icefalcon in the dimness of the shadowy
lane.
"Alwir? When he couldn't push him out at the coun-
cil
last night?"
"Alwir
always feared Ingold's power over the King,"
the
Guard said thoughtfully.
"His
men wear red, too," Gil added.
The
Icefalcon shrugged. "And the Bishop certainly
doesn't
relish the thought of an agent of Satan that close
to the
throne."
"A
what?" Gil demanded angrily, and Rudy briefed
her on
the local Church stand on wizardry. Gil's comment
was
neither scholarly nor ladylike.
"The
Bishop is very strong in her faith," the Icefalcon
said in
his soft neutral voice, the tone as colorless as his
eyes.
"Or—the Queen could have put out the order for
his
arrest. From all accounts she has never trusted Ingold,
either."
"Yeah,
but the Queen's out on a Section Eight these
days,"
Rudy said unkindly. "And whoever popped him,
we've
got to find where they're keeping him, if we don't
want to
end up spending another night here."
"Not
to mention the next fifty years, if they decide to
wall
him up in some dungeon and forget about him," Gil
added,
her voice sharp with fear.
"Yeah,"
Rudy agreed. "Though I personally wouldn't
want to
be the one in charge of putting that old duffer
out of
the way permanently."
"Look,"
the Icefalcon said, "Karst isn't that big a town.
They
will have put him in the Town Hall jail, in the vaults
below
Alwir's villa, or in the Bishop's summer palace
somewhere.
Divided, we can find him within the hour. Then
you can
do—whatever you will do."
The
shift in inflection of that soft, breathless voice made
Rudy's
nerves prickle with the sudden premonition of dis-
aster,
but the inscrutable frost-white eyes challenged him
to read
meaning into the words. Alde had said that the
Guards
were all crazy. Crazy enough to jailbreak a wizard
out
from under the noses of the Powers That Be? They
were
Ingold's—and now, by the look of it, Gil's—allies.
Rudy
wondered if he wanted to mess with the whole thing.
On the
other hand, he realized he didn't have much
choice.
It was a jailbreak in the dark or spending the night
and God
alone knew how many other nights besides in this
world.
Even standing in the quiet of the dark lane, Rudy
had
begun to feel nervous. "Okay," he said, with as much
cheerfulness
as he could muster under the circumstances.
"Meet
you back at the Town Hall in an hour."
They
parted, Rudy hurrying back toward Alwir's garden
gate,
running over in his mind how he'd go about getting
on the
right side of Alde and, more importantly, Medda,
in
order to get in and search the villa.
Gil and
the Icefalcon headed in the other direction,
instinctively
hugging the wall for protection, guided by
the
reddish reflection of the fires in the town square. It
was
fully dark, a bitter overcast night, and Gil shivered,
feeling
the trap of the lane, aware of how restricted it was
on the
sides and how open from above. Cloak and sword
tangled
around her feet, and she had to hurry her steps to
catch
up with the long strides of the young man before her.
They
were within sight of the firelit crowds in the
square
when the Icefalcon stopped and raised his head to
listen
like a startled beast. "Do you hear it?" His voice was
a
whisper in the darkness, his face and pale hair a blur
edged
in the rosy reflection of the bonfires. Gil stopped
also,
listening to the cool quiet of the night. Pine-scented
winds
blew the sounds from beyond the town, far-off
sounds
changed by the darkness, but unmistakable. From
the
dark woods that ringed the town, the wind carried up
the
sounds of screaming.
The
Dark Ones had come to Karst!
There
was no battle at Karst—only a thousand rear-
guard
actions fought in the haunted woods by companies
of
Guards, of Church troops, and of the private troops of
the
households of noble and landchief. Patrols made sorties
from
the blazing central fortress of the red-lit town square
and
brought in huddled clusters of terrified refugees, the
scattered
stragglers who had survived that first onslaught.
Gil,
who found herself, sword in hand, hunting with the
Icefalcon's
company, remembered that first chaotic night-
mare in
Gae and wondered that she had thought it
frightening.
At least then she had known where the danger
lay; in
Gae there had been torchlight and walls and
people.
But here the nightmare drifted silently through
wind-touched
woods, appearing, killing, and departing with
a kind
of hideous leisure. Here there was no warning, only
a vast
floating darkness that fell upon the torches between
one
eyeblink and the next; soft mouths gaping wide, like
canopies
of acid-fringed parachutes; claws reaching to
tear
and to hold. Here there were the victims; a pile
of
stripped, bloody bones among the sticks of a half-built
campfire
or the blood-dewed shrunken mummy of a man
sucked
dry while a yard away his wife knelt screaming in
helpless
horror at the sight.
Naturally
coldhearted, Gil was made neither helpless
nor,
after the first few victims, sick. Rather, she was filled
with a
kind of cool and lightheaded rage, like a cat that
kills
with neither fear nor remorse.
In
those first chaotic minutes, she and the Icefalcon
doubled
back to the Guards' Court at a run. There they
found a
wild confusion of men arming, companies forming,
Janus'
deep booming voice cutting through the holocaust
of
sound, demanding volunteers. Since she was wearing a
sword,
somebody shoved her into a company—they were
halfway
out of town, armed with torches and pitifully few
to meet
the Dark, when she fought her way up to the
front
of the patrol and yelled to the Icefalcon, "But I
don't
know how to use a sword!"
He gave
her a cold stare. "Then you shouldn't wear
one,"
he retorted.
Someone
else caught her by the shoulder—the woman
Seya
she'd met that morning by the carts—and drew her
back.
"Aim at the midline of the body," she instructed Gil
hastily.
"Cut straight down, or straight sideways. There's a
snap to
the wrists, see? Hilt in both hands—not like that,
you'll
break both thumbs. You have to go in close to kill,
if
they're bigger than you are, which they will be, outside
like
this. Got that? You can pick up the rest later. Stay in
the
center of the group and don't take on anything you
can't
handle."
Watchword
for the night, Gil thought wryly. But it was
surprising,
the first time those dark, silent bulks material-
ized
out of the misty darkness between the trees, how
much of
that hasty lesson she could put into practice. And
she
learned the first principle of any martial art—that
surviving
or not surviving an encounter is the ultimate test
of any
system, lesson, or technique.
In one
sense it was easy, for those nebulous bodies of-
fered
little resistance to the razor-sharp metal. Precision
and
speed counted rather than strength; for all their soft
bulk,
the Dark Ones moved fast. But Seya had not men-
tioned
that the Dark Ones stank of rotting blood, nor
had she
described the way the cut pieces folded and
trailed
and spattered everything with human blood and
blackish
liquid as they disintegrated. This Gil found out
in that
crimson pandemonium of fire and dark trees, death
and
flight and war. And she found out, too, that there was
less
fear in the attack than in the defense and that, no
matter
how little sleep or food you have had in the last
forty-eight
hours, you could always fight for your life. She
fought
shoulder to shoulder with the black-uniformed
Guards
of Gae and ragged volunteers in homespun. She
ran in
the wake of the fighters as they moved through the
woods
like a wolfpack, gathering lost and terrified fugi-
tives
and shepherding them back toward Karst. The cold
electricity
of battle-lust filled her like fire and drove out
weariness
or fear.
In
time, the dozen or so warriors of the Icefalcon's com-
pany
rounded up some fifty refugees. They circled them
in a
loose cordon and gave torches to as many of them
as were
capable of carrying such things; most persisted in
holding
to possessions, money, and food, and a good thirty
were
women carrying children in their arms. For the third
time
that night, they started back for Karst. Woods and
sky
were utterly black, the dark trees threshing in the
wind.
All around them could be heard screaming and
wailing.
It was a Dantean scene, lit by the jerky glare of
torches.
Someone
behind her cried out. Looking up, Gil saw the
Dark
materializing in the inky air, with a sudden drop
of
slobbering wings and the slash of a thorned wire tail.
She stepped
into it, sword whining as she swung, aware of
Seya on
her right, someone else on her left. Then she was
engulfed
in darkness, wind, and fire, cutting blindly. The
fugitives
behind her were packing closer and closer to-
gether
like sheep, the children shrieking, the men crying
out.
Shredded veils of disintegrating protoplasm slithered
to the
ground all around her. She saw the man on her left
buckle
awkwardly to his knees, dry and white and dewed
all
over with blood as the Dark One rose off him like some
giant,
flopping, airborne blob. Wave after wave of dark-
ness
came pouring from the woods.
The
Icefalcon raised his light voice to a harsh rasp.
"This
will be the last trip, my sisters and brothers. There
are
more now than there were. We'll have to hold the
town."
In the
momentary lull, as the Dark Ones gathered like
a
lightless roof of storm overhead, a Guard's voice cried
bitterly,
"Hold that town? That collection of wall-less
chicken-runs?"
"It's
the only town we have. Now, run!"
And
they ran, through the black nightmare of alien pur-
suit,
with the winds stirring after them like the breath of
some
unspeakable abyss. It was a nightmare of woods,
darkness,
sinuous half-seen forms, flame, and stumbling
terror.
They ran toward the refuge of Karst, and the Dark
Ones
followed.
CHAPTER
SEVEN
Hell of
a joke on Alwir! Rudy slumped back against the
clustered
pilasters framing the open archway from the
villa's
main reception-hall out to its entryway and shut his
eyes.
But nothing could block out the wild glare of the
torches,
the screaming that went through his head like a
hacksaw,
and the dizzy sickness of fatigue. That whole
sales
pitch about everything being hunky-dory and let's
make
Karst capital of the new Realm had gone down the
tubes.
And Ingold, whatever the hell they did with him,
was
right all along.
He
opened his eyes again, the sensory burn-out of the
hall
stabbing body and brain like crimson knives. It was
like
the waiting room of Judgment Day. The hall and
entryway
on either side of the fluted arch were mobbed
wall to
wall with people, refugees driven in from the woods
and the
town square who had taken shelter here when the
defense
lines around the town had caved in. People were
weeping,
praying, cursing, all at the tops of their lungs;
they
were milling like panic-stricken sheep when the wolf
was in
the fold. The jackhammer din was like the final set
of a
rock concert, so deafening that no single sound was
audible,
and the faces illuminated by the bleeding torch-
light
seemed to mouth senselessly. The packed heat of the
room
was smothering, the air foul with smoke and human
fear.
Detachedly, Rudy wondered if he were involved in
one of
Gil's nightmares. But he was too hungry to be
asleep
for one thing; and for another, it looked as if he'd
started
at the wrong end of the dream and couldn't remem-
ber
going to bed. He wondered if the end of the world was
going
to be this noisy. He hoped not.
Like
Satan in the chaos of the fire, Alwir stood in the
middle
of the room, blood from his cut cheek making a
red
track in the sweaty slime of his face. One hand rested
on the
pommel of his sword, the other gestured, black and
eloquent—he
was speaking with Commander Janus and
Bishop
Govannin, who stood leaning on her drawn sword,
her
robe girded up for fighting. Under the marks of battle,
that
thin skull-face of hers was calm. Rudy reflected dryly
to
himself that it looked as if everybody in town knew how
to
handle a sword except him. Alwir suggested something,
and the
Bishop shook her head in somber denial. The angry,
insistent
sweep of the Chancellor's gesture took in all the
room.
Rudy had a bad feeling that he knew what the prob-
lem
was.
The
villa was indefensible.
It was
obvious. They'd been driven there when the de-
fenses
around the square had crumbled, when darkness like
a fog
had sapped the light of the fires. One minute, it
seemed,
Rudy had been standing in the line of armed men,
awkwardly
gripping the hilt of a sword somebody had
shoved
into his hands, backed by the wind-whipped, flaring
blaze
of dozens of bonfires and the yammering cries of the
unarmed
civilians who were crowding in the square for
protection
and watching with uneasy terror the restless
stirrings
in the darkness beyond the light. Then the dark-
ness
had begun to draw closer, the shifting suggestion of
nebulous
bodies growing increasingly clear. Looking be-
hind
him, Rudy had seen the bonfires pale and weaken, the
flames
robbed of their light. And then he'd been caught in
the
blind stampede for walls to hide behind, for any shelter
against
that encroaching terror. He'd been one of the lucky
ones.
The square and the streets outside were littered with
the
unlucky.
And the
irony of it was, Rudy thought, surveying the
scarlet
confusion before him, that this place which they'd
trampled
over each other to reach was about as defensible
as a
bird cage.
It was
a summer palace. A man didn't have to study
architecture
to guess that one. The whole place was de-
signed
to let in light and air and summer breezes. Colon-
nades
joined to open galleries; dainty, trefoiled arches
opened
into long vistas of wide-windowed rooms; and the
long
double stairway rising from the entry-hall to his left
terminated
in a balcony gallery that communicated with the
rest of
the villa by a series of airy, unwalled breezeways.
The
whole thing would be as much use as a lace table-
cloth
in a hurricane. If he hadn't been half-blind with ex-
haustion
and within kissing distance of a horrible death,
Rudy
could have laughed.
Janus
offered some other plan. Alwir shook his head.
Nix on
anything that means going outside, Rudy thought.
Blackness
seemed to press like a bodiless entity against the
long
windows that ran the length of one wall. A few min-
utes
ago, the orange reflection of firelight had been visible
through
them. Now there was only darkness. The multi-
voiced
baying of the fugitives had begun to fade, men and
women
making little forays into the murky dimness of the
entry-hall
beyond the arch, as if seeking a safer room for
their
hiding, but unwilling to leave the main crowd to do
so.
Alwir pointed downward, to the floor or, Rudy guessed,
to the
cellars of the villa. The Bishop asked him something
that
made his eyes flash with anger.
But
before he could reply, a rending crash sounded from
somewhere
in the deeps of the house, the violence of it
shaking
the stone walls on their foundations.
In the
hush that followed, Janus' voice could be heard
to the
far corners of the hall. "East gallery," he said briefly.
A woman
began to scream, a steady, unwavering note.
A few
feet from him, Rudy saw a young woman of about
his own
age tighten her clutch on a gaggle of smaller chil-
dren
who clung to her skirts for courage.. A fat man with
a
garden rake for a weapon hopped to his feet and began
to
glare around, as if expecting the Dark to come rushing
down
from the throbbing air. The mob in the room packed
tighter,
as if they could conceal themselves from the Dark
by
doing so.
Their
voices climbed to a crescendo of wild terror
through
which Alwir's trained bass battle voice cut like a
cleaver.
"With me! We can defend the vaults!"
Someone
began howling. "Not the vaults! Not under-
ground!"
Rudy
scrambled to his feet, cursing, narrowly missing
cutting
off his own fingers with the sword he still held. He
personally
didn't care where they holed up, as long as it
had
nice thick walls and only one door. People were yell-
ing,
swaying, surging after Alwir through the arched door-
way at
the far end of the tall. Torches were being pulled
down
from the walls, the flailing red light throwing the
room
into a maelstrom of jerking shadow.
Someone
shoved against Rudy in the mob, fighting
against
the current to go the other way, and he caught at a
familiar
arm.
"Where
the hell are you going?"
Minalde's
hair had come unbraided and hung against her
torn
and dirty white gown. "Tir's up there," she said fierce-
ly.
"I thought Medda had brought him down." Shoulders
jostled
them, throwing them close together. In the white-
ness of
her face, her eyes were iris-colored in the torchlight.
"Well,
you can't go up there now!" As she pulled an-
grily
at his grip, Rudy added, "Look, if the door's locked
and
there's some kind of light in the room, they'll miss him,
he'll
be fine. There's a zillion people down here for them
to
get."
"They
know who he is," she whispered desperately. "It's
him
they want." With a swift jerk she freed her arm and
plunged
toward the stairs, slipping between the crowding
bodies
like an eel.
"You
crazy female, you're gonna get killed!" Rudy
shoved
his way after her, his larger size hampering him,
the
crowd dragging him inexorably along. He saw Alde
stop by
the foot of the stairs and take a torch from its
holder.
Elbowing and struggling frantically, he reached the
place
moments later, snatched another torch, and dashed
up
after her into the darkness. He caught her at the top
and
grabbed her arm in a grip that would leave bruises.
"You
let me go!"
"The
hell I will!" he yelled back at her. "Now you
listen..."
With an
inarticulate sob of fury she thrust her torch
into
his face. He leaped back, barely catching himself from
going
backward down the stairs, and she was gone, a
flicker
of white fluttering down the wind-searched gallery,
her
torch streaming in her wake like a banner. Rudy fol-
lowed
profanely.
In
spite of the Dark, she left the nursery door open for
him. He
stumbled through and slammed it shut behind him,
gasping
with exertion and terror and rage.
"You're
insane, do you know that?" he shouted at her.
"You
could get the both of us killed! You didn't even know
if the
kid was still alive—"
She
wasn't listening. She bent over the gilded cradle and
gathered
the child in her arms. Tir was awake, but silent,
as he
had been in that dilapidated shack in the orange
groves
of California, dark-blue eyes wide with under-
standing
fear. The girl shook back the waves of hair from
her
face and smoothed the child's round cheek with her
fingers.
Rudy could see that her hands were shaking.
"Here,"
he said roughly, and pulled a shawl from the
table
beside the crib. "Make a sling and tie the kid to you.
You're
gonna need your hands free to carry the torches."
She
obeyed silently, not meeting his eyes. "I don't know
whether
I shouldn't brain you myself. It might knock some
sense
into your head."
She
took her torch from the wall holder where she'd
placed
it and turned back to him, her eyes defiant. Rudy
grunted
in an unwilling and inarticulate concession to her
courage,
if not to her brains. "You're gonna have to tell me
how to
find these vaults they're talking about."
"Down
the stairs, through the arch at the end of the big
hall,
down the steps to the right," she said in a small voice.
"It
will be the main vault, where they store the wine.
That's
the only room large enough."
He took
up his own torch again and glanced briefly
around
that small octagonal room with its dull gold hang-
ings
and filigreed ebony fixtures. Then he looked back at
the
girl, her face as white as her gown in the flickering
shadows.
"Yeah, well, if we get killed . . ." he began to
threaten,
then stopped. "Aah," he growled. "I still think
you're
crazy." He handed her his torch and edged to the
door of
the room, gripping the sword hilt in both hands, as
he had
seen Ingold do. Alde stood back from him without
a word.
"You
ready?"
"Yes,"
she said softly.
He
muttered, "Here goes nuthin', sweetheart," and took
a step
forward. In one quick movement, he kicked the
door
open and slashed. The Dark One that dropped
through
like an inky storm of protoplasm split itself on the
brightness
of the blade, splattering the three of them with
stinking
liquid; the second, immediately following the first,
withdrew
almost instantly on an aimless swirl of wind. No
shapes
were visible in the dark corridor stretching before
them—only
a restless sense of movement down at the -far
end. He
caught Alde by the arm and ran.
Fluttering
shadows pursued them down the hall, monster
shapes
of himself, the girl, and the child. The torchlight
briefly
illuminated the open arches to their left; but beyond,
sight
failed in an endless abyss of blasphemous night. Rudy
could
sense the Dark all around them, watching them with
a
queer, horrible intelligence, waiting only for the un-
guarded
moment to pounce. From the top of the stairs they
looked
down at the chasm of the hall, where a dropped
torch,
burning itself out on the floor, revealed a ruin of
filth,
torn clothes, discarded shoes, and smashed furniture
trampled
in the flight. Around the far archway and dimly
visible
in the hall beyond, a straggle of bones and blood-
less,
crumpled bodies showed what had happened moments
after
he'd followed Alde up the stairs; and beyond that
archway,
slipping over the bodies, a gliding shifting dark-
ness
seemed to flow.
Rudy's
breath strangled in his throat. Exposed as they
were at
the top of the stairs, nothing could have induced
him to
descend to that hall, to try to cross that floor. Be-
side
him Alde gasped, and he looked where she pointed.
Four or
five things like black snail shells clung to the great
arched
ceiling of the room, long tails hanging down, waver-
ing in
the moving air. The dim torchlight played over the
chitinous
gleam of their shiny backs, and picked out claws
and
spines and the glittering drool of acid that ran from
their
tucked mouths down the stone ribbing of the wall.
Then,
one by one, they released their hold, dropping down
into
the air, changing shape—changing size—melting into
the
shadows. Though he'd watched them as they let go,
Rudy
had no idea where they'd gone.
Alde
whispered, "There's another way into the vaults.
It's
back this way. Hurry!"
Needless
waste of words, Rudy thought, striding beside
her
down the gallery, the soft evil winds stirring in his long
hair.
How many of the things did it take to kill the light
of a
fire? A dozen? Half a dozen? Four? His T-shirt and
denim
jacket were clammy with sweat; his hand ached on
the
hilt of the sword. The shadows all around them seemed
to be
moving, pressing closer upon them. The torchlight
reflected
darkly in Tir's watching eyes. A doorway opened
on a
corridor, wind-searched and smelling of the Dark.
There
was a sense of something that followed, soft-breath-
ing and
always out of sight. Alde's breath came like a
swift-breaking
series of sobs; his own footsteps seemed
eerily
loud. A small black doorway led to the sudden, twist-
ing
spiral of a lightless corkscrew stair, down and down,
steep
as a ladder and perilously slippery; the amber flicker
of the
torches gilded stone walls barely a yard apart.
Then
they reached the bottom and smelled all around
them
the damp, nitrous odor of underground.
"Where
the hell are we?" Rudy whispered. "The dun-
geons?"
Dampness gleamed like phosphorus on the rough
walls
and pooled among the lumpy stones of the floor.
Alde
nodded and pointed down the corridor. "That way."
Rudy
took one of the torches from her and held it low,
so as
not to brush the stone ceiling with the flame. "These
were
really the dungeons?"
"Oh,
yes," the girl said softly. "Well, way back in former
days,
of course. Every great House of the Realm kept its
own
troops and had law over its own people. The High
Kings,
the Kings at Gae, changed all that; any man can
appeal
from a landchief's or a lord's court to the King's
now.
That's for civil crimes, of course; the Church still
judges
its own." She hesitated at a branching of the ways.
The
dungeons were a black labyrinth of cramped wet pas-
sageways;
Rudy wondered how she could be so confident.
"Down
here, I think."
They
passed along the narrow way, the light of their
torches
touching briefly on shut doors, hewn heavy oak
strapped
in bronze and iron, sometimes on a level with the
crude
flagstones of the passage, sometimes sunk several
moss-slippery
steps below it. Most of the doors were bolted,
a few
sealed with ribbon and lead. One or two were bricked
up,
with a hideous finality of judgment that made Rudy's
palms
clammy. It was brought back to him that he was in
another
universe, a world totally alien to his own, with its
own
society, its own justice, and its own summary ways of
dealing
with those who tried to buck the system.
Alde
stumbled, catching at his arm for support. Stop-
ping to
let her steady herself, Rudy felt the shifting, the
movement
of the air, the smell that breathed on his face,
He
could see nothing in the corridor ahead. The close-
hemmed
walls narrowed to a rectangle of darkness that the
torchlight
seemed unable to pierce, a darkness stirred by
wind
and filled with a terrible waiting. Wind licked at the
flames
of his torch, and he became suddenly aware of the
darkness
filling the passage at his unprotected back. It
might
have been only the overstretched tension of his
nerves,
the strain of keeping his senses at fever-pitch for
endless
nightmare hours—but he thought that he could see
movement
in the darkness before him.
Half-paralyzed,
he was surprised he could even whisper.
"We've
got no business here, Alde," he murmured. "See if
you can
find one of those doors that isn't locked."
He
never took his eyes from the shadows. By the change
in the
torchlight behind him, he knew she was edging
backward,
checking door after door. The light of his own
torch
seemed pitifully feeble against the pressing weight of
the
darkness all around him. Then he heard her whisper,
"This
one's bolted, not locked," and he moved back slowly
to join
her.
The
door stood at the bottom of three worn steps, nar-
row and
forbidding, its massive bolts imbedded in six inches
of
stone. Rudy handed Alde his torch and stepped down to
it, his
soul shrinking from the trap of that narrow niche,
and
used his sword to cut the ribbons that bound the great
lead
seals to the iron. The metal was disused and stiff,
scraping
in shrill, rusty protest as he worked back the bolt;
the
hinges of the narrow door screaked horribly as he
pushed
it ajar.
From
what he could see in the diffuse glow from Alde's
torches,
the place was empty, little more than a round hole
of
darkness with a black, empty-eyed niche let into the far
wall
and a small pile of moldy straw and bare, dusty bones.
The
queer, sterile smell of the air repelled him, and he
stepped
inside cautiously, straining his eyes to pierce the
intense
gloom.
But
even half-ready as he was, the rush of darkness
struck
too swiftly for him to make a sound. Between one
heartbeat
and the next, he was seized by the throat, and a
weight
like the arm of death hurled him against the wall,
driving
the breath from his body. His head hit the stone,
his
yell of warning strangling under the crushing pressure
of a
powerful forearm; he felt the sword wrenched from
his
hand and the point of it prick his jugular. From the
darkness
that closed him in, a voice whispered, "Don't
make a
sound."
He knew
that voice. He managed to croak, "Ingold?"
The
strangling arm lessened its force against his wind-
pipe.
He could see nothing in the darkness, but the texture
of the
robe that brushed his hand was familiar. He swal-
lowed,
trying to get his breath. "What are you doing here,
man?"
The
wizard snorted. "At the risk of belaboring the ob-
vious,
I am breaking jail, as your friends would so vulgarly
put
it," the rusty, incisive voice snapped. "Is Gil with
you?"
"Gil?"
He couldn't remember when he'd last seen Gil.
"No,
I—Jesus, Ingold," Rudy whispered, feeling suddenly
very
lost and alone.
Strengthening
light shifted in the dark arch of the door,
shadows
fleeing crazily over the uneven stone of the walls.
Minalde
stepped through the door and stopped, her eyes
widening
with surprise at the sight of the wizard. Then she
lowered
her gaze, and a slow flush of shame scalded her
face,
turning it pink to the hairline. She wavered, as if she
would
flee into the corridor again, though she obviously
could
not. In her confusion, she looked about to drop one
or both
torches and plunge them all in darkness.
Rudy
was still recovering from his surprise at this reac-
tion
when the old man crossed the room to her and gently
took
one of the flares from her hand. "My child," he said
to her
softly, "a gentleman never remembers anything a
lady
says to him in the heat of anger—or any other passion,
for
that matter. Consider it forgotten."
This
only served to make her blush redder. She tried to
turn
away from him, but he caught her arm gently and
brushed
aside the black cloak of her hair that half-hid the
silent
infant slung at her breast. He touched the child's
head
tenderly and looked back into the girl's eyes. There
was no
tone of question in his voice when he said, "So they
have
come, after all."
She
nodded, and Ingold's lips tightened under the
scrubby
forest of unkempt beard. As if reminded of their
danger,
Alde slipped from his grasp, her hand going to the
door to
close it.
Ingold
said sharply, "Don't."
Her
eyes went from him to Rudy, questioning, seeking
confirmation.
Ingold
went on. "If you close that door it will disappear,
and we
may all be locked in here forever." He gestured
toward
the foot of the little wall-niche, where a skull stared
mournfully
from the shadows. "There are spells laid on this
cell
that even I could not work through."
"But
the Dark are out there, Ingold," Rudy whispered.
"There
must be hundreds of people dead in the villa up-
stairs—thousands
in the square, in the woods. They're
everywhere,
like ghosts. It's hopeless, we'll never . . ."
"There
is always hope," the wizard said quietly. "With
the
seals on the door of this cell, there was no way I could
have
left it—but I knew that someone would come whom
I could
overpower, if necessary. And someone did."
"Yeah,
but that was just a—" Rudy hesitated over the
word.
"A coincidence."
Ingold's
eyes glinted with an echo of their old impish
light.
"Don't tell me you still believe in coincidence,
Rudy."
He handed back the sword. "You'll find a seal of
some
kind hung over the bolts of the door. Remove it
and
place it there in the niche for the time being. I'll shut
you in
when I leave. Here, at least, in all the town of Karst,
you
will be safe until I can return for you or send some-
one to
get you out. It's drastic," he went on, seeing Min-
alde's
eyes widen with fear, "but at least I can be sure the
Dark
will not come here. Will you stay?"
Rudy
glanced uneasily at Alde and at the skull in the
dark
niche. "You mean," he asked warily, "once that door
is
shut, we can't get out?"
"Precisely.
The door is invisible from the inside."
Open,
the door looked perfectly ordinary; it was the
shadow-haunted
darkness of the corridor beyond that wor-
ried
Rudy. The dim yellow torchlight edged the massive
iron of
its bindings and revealed the roughness of the
ancient
smoke-stained oak slabs. Wind stirring down the
corridor
made the lead seal hanging from the bolts move,
as if
with a restless life of its own. Rudy noticed that,
though
Ingold stood close to the door, his torch upraised
in one
hand, he would not touch it.
"Quickly,"
the wizard said. "We haven't much time."
"Rudy."
Alde's voice was timid, her eyes huge in the
torchlight.
"If I will be safe here—as safe as anywhere in
this
town tonight—I would rather you went with Ingold.
In case
something—happened—I'd feel better if two peo-
ple
knew where we were, instead of only one."
Rudy
shivered at the implications of that thought. "You
won't
be afraid here alone?"
"Not
any more afraid than I've been."
"Get
the seal, then," Ingold said, "and let us go."
Rudy
stepped gingerly to the door, the smoldering yel-
low
light from within the cell illuminating the narrow slot
of the
opening and no farther. The seal still dangled from
its cut
black ribbons, a round plaque of dull lead that
seemed
to absorb, rather than reflect, the light. It was
marked
on either side with a letter of the Darwath alpha-
bet; as
he reached to touch it, he found himself repelled by
a
loathing he could put no name to. There was something
deeply
frightening about the thing. "Can't we just leave it
here?"
"I
cannot pass it," Ingold said simply.
The
horror, the irrational vileness, concentrated in that
small
gray bulla were such that Rudy never thought to
question
him. He simply lifted the thing by its black rib-
bons
and carried it at arm's length to throw deep into the
shadows
of the niche. He noticed Alde had stepped back
as he'd
passed with it, as if the aura radiated from it was
like
the smell of evil.
Alde
fitted the end of her torch into a crack in the stone-
work of
the wall and turned back to him, cradling the child
in both
arms.
"We'll
send someone back for you," Rudy promised
softly.
"Don't worry."
She
shook her head and evaded Ingold's glance; the last
Rudy
saw of her was a slender white figure cloaked in her
tangled
hair, the child in her arms. The darkness of the
doorway
framed them like a gilded votive in a shrine. Then
he shut
the door and worked home the rusty iron of the
bolts.
"What
was that thing?" he whispered, finding himself
unwilling
even to touch the bolts where it had hung.
"It
is the Rune of the Chain," Ingold said quietly, stand-
ing on
the top of the worn steps to scan the corridor be-
yond.
"The cell itself has Power worked into its walls, so
that no
one within may find or open the door. With the
Rune of
the Chain spelled against me, even if I could have
found
the door, I could not have gone through. Presum-
ably I
would have been left here until I could be formally
banished—or,
just possibly, until I starved."
"They—couldn't
do that, could they?" Rudy asked
queasily.
Ingold
shrugged. "Who would have stopped them? Ordi-
narily,
the wizards look out for their own, but the Arch-
mage
has vanished, and the City of Wizards lies sunk in
the
rings of its own enchantments. I am very much on my
own."
Seeing the look on Rudy's face, compounded of hor-
ror and
shocked proprieties, Ingold smiled, and some of the
grimness
left his eyes. "But, as you see, I would have gotten
out,
magic or no magic. I am glad that you brought Alde
and the
baby with you. It was by far the best thing you
could
have done. Here, at least, they will be safe from the
Dark."
He
raised his torch, the sickly glow of it barely penetrat-
ing the
obscurity of the passage. "This way," he decided,
indicating
the direction in which Rudy and Alde had been
headed
before.
"Hey,"
Rudy said softly as they started down that dark
and
wind-stirred corridor. The wizard glanced back over
his
shoulder. "What was that all about with her?"
Ingold
shrugged. "At our last meeting the young lady
threatened
to kill me—the reason isn't important. She may
repent
the sentiments or merely the social gaffe. If one is
going
to ..."
And
then a sound rocked the vaults, a deep, hollow
booming,
like the blow of a monster fist, and the shock of
it
shivered in the very walls. Ingold paused in his stride, his
eyes
narrowing to a burning glitter of concentration as he
listened;
then he was striding down the corridor, Rudy fol-
lowing
behind with drawn sword. As they turned the corner,
Rudy
saw the wizard shift the torch in his hands, and the
rough
wood seemed to elongate into a six-foot staff, the fire
at its
tip swelling and whitening to the diamond brilliance
of a
magnesium torch, searing like a crystal vibration into
every
crack of those stained and ancient walls. Holding
the
blazing staff half like a lamp, half like a weapon, the
wizard
moved ahead of him, shabby cloak billowing in his
wake
like wings. Rudy hurried after, the darkness falling
back
all around them and closing in behind.
Somewhere
very close to them, a second blow resounded,
shaking
the stone under their feet like the smash of a piston
driven
by an insanely giant machine. Cold and hollow with
hunger
and fatigue, Rudy wondered shakily if they'd be
killed,
but the thought of it was strangely impersonal. Cor-
ridors
converged, widening the darkness where they trod;
he
could now smell water and mold, and all around them
the
stone-acid stink of the dark. Somewhere, all that was
left of
the mob who had taken refuge in Alwir's villa—the
handful
of Guards and the scarlet Church troops, the fat
man
with his garden rake and the young woman with her
attendant
mob of children, and all the other faces that had
swum in
the glaring maelstrom abovestairs—were cowering
in the
dark, jumping shadows of the vaults, watching with
horrified
eyes the might of the Dark Ones hammering the
barred
iron doors, the only line of defense, from their mas-
sive
hinges.
The
might of the Dark! Rudy felt it, like a blow in the
face,
as the third explosion rocked the foundations of the
villa;
he felt the contraction of the air, and the evil intel-
ligence
watching them as they passed. The winds had begun
to whip
through the passageways like the rising forerun-
ners of
a gale, fluttering in Ingold's mantle and twisting at
his own
long hair. The light from the staff in the wizard's
hand
broadened to a blaze like hot noon, scorching out the
secrets
of the darkness, and in its blinding glare they turned
a
corner into a major thoroughfare and saw through the
heavy
shadows that blotted the air like smoke the great
doors
that lay at the end.
Though
Rudy could see no single form, no shape in the
darkness,
he sensed the malevolence that beat the air with
the
movement of a thousand threshing wings. Their power
seemed
to stretch across the corridor like a wall; beyond it,
barely
visible in the clotted shadows, he could see the broad
line of
torchlight under the barred doors. There were no
sounds
from the people behind those doors. Those who
had
made it to that last covert in the vaults faced the Dark
in
silence.
He felt
the change in the Dark, the sudden surge of that
terrible
alien power, and the thunder of that explosive
sound
roared in his ears as he saw the doors buckle and
collapse,
breaking inward in a flying hurricane of splinter-
ing
wood. Sickly failing torchlight showed him faces beyond
the
broken doors and silhouetted smoky forms taking sud-
den
shape in the darkness.
Into
that darkness Ingold flung himself without so much
as
breaking stride, the cold light hurling around him like
the
explosion of a bursting star. Rudy followed, clinging to
the
light as to a mantle, and for one brief, terrible instant
it
seemed that the darkness streamed back on them, cover-
ing and
smothering that brilliant burning light.
Whether
it was exhaustion playing tricks on his mind or
some
magic of the Dark, Rudy did not know. He did not
think
he had shifted or closed his eyes and knew he hadn't
looked
away. But for one instant, there was the darkness,
pouring
down over the light. And the next moment, there
was
only light, white and chill, surrounding the strong,
shabby
form of the old man who stalked down that empty
corridor.
Streaming through the broken doors, the white
light
fell on waxy, pinched faces, was reflected from terri-
fied
eyes, and edged the steel in the hands of the thin line
of
troops stretched between the packed mob of surviving
refugees
and the doors. Then the light faded, shrinking
naturally
from the blinding glow to the yellow splotch of
simple
torch flame.
Rudy
knew that the Dark were gone. He sensed it in
some way
he could not be sure of. There were none in the
vaults,
none left in the villa over their heads. Following
Ingold
down toward the doors, their footfalls echoing hol-
lowly
in the empty shadows of the corridor, he could feel
the
emptiness stretching around and behind him into the
darkness.
Whether the Dark had drawn off before the wiz-
ard's
wrath or simply faded away, sated with their night's
kill,
he didn't know. In a way it didn't matter. All that
mattered
was that they were gone. He was safe. He had
survived
the night.
At the
realization of it, a weariness came over him, as
if all
strength had been suddenly drained from his body.
He
stumbled and caught the wall for support. Ingold moved
on to
the broken threshold, where three figures had de-
tached
themselves from the line of Guards and stood
framed
in the ruin of wood and iron. Under the filth and
slime
of battle, Rudy recognized Alwir, Janus, and Bishop
Govannin.
Without
a word, the Commander of the Guards of Gae
stepped
forward, dropped to one knee before the wizard,
and
kissed his scarred hand. At this gesture of fealty the
Chancellor
and the Bishop exchanged a glance of enig-
matic
distrust and disapproval over the Guard's bowed
back.
The echoes of the empty corridor murmured back
the
Commander's words: "We thought you'd gone."
Ingold
touched the man's bent red head, then raised
him,
his eyes on Alwir's. "I swore I would see Tir to a
place
of safety," he replied calmly, "and so I will No, I
had not
gone. I was merely—imprisoned."
"Imprisoned?"
Janus' thick brows met over russet, an-
imal
eyes. "On whose orders?"
"The
detention order was unsigned," the wizard said in
his
mildest voice. "Merely sealed with the King's mark.
Anyone
who had access to it could have done so." The light
of the
guttered torch in his hand flared in the hollows of
exhaustion-shadowed
eyes. "The cell was sealed with the
Rune of
the Chain."
"The
use of such things is illegal," Govannin com-
mented,
folding thin arms like a skeleton's, her black, lizard
eyes
expressionless. "And it would have been a fool's act
to
order such a thing at such a time."
Alwir
shook his head. "I certainly sealed no such order,"
he said
in a puzzled voice. "As for the Rune— There was
said to
be one somewhere in the treasuries of the Palace at
Gae,
but I always thought it merely a legend. I am only
thankful
that you seem to have effected your escape in
time to
come to our aid. Your arrest was obviously a mis-
take on
someone's part."
The
wizard's gaze went from the Chancellor's face to
the
Bishop's, but all he said was, "Obviously."
Much
later in the morning, Rudy backtracked their steps
to the
doorless cell, empty now and standing open, with
the
intention of taking that dark seal and dropping it quietly
down a
well. But, though he found the place all right, and
searched
through the dusty bones of the niche, someone
else
had clearly been there before him, for he could find
no
trace of it anywhere.
CHAPTER
EIGHT
"Will
she be all right?"
"If
the arm doesn't fester."
The
voices came distinctly to Gil, like something heard
in a
dream; as in a dream, she could identify them without
being
clearly able to say why. As if she lay at the bottom
of a
well, she could look up and see, a long way away, the
tall
shape of Alwir, blotting the sun like a cloud; beside
him was
the Icefalcon, light and cool as wind. But the water
of the
well she lay in was pain; crystal-clear, shimmering,
acid
pain.
Alwir's
melodious voice went on. "If it festers she'll lose
it."
And the
Icefalcon asked, "Where's Ingold?"
"Who
knows? His talent is for timely disappearances."
Curse
him, Gil thought blindly. Curse him, curse him,
curse
him . . . Alwir moved away, and a bar of sunlight
fell on
her eyes, like the stab of a knife. She twisted her
head
convulsively aside, and the movement wrenched at
the
sodden mass of pain wrapped around the bones of her
left
arm. She wept in agony and despair.
In her
delirium she dreamed, and in her dream she saw
him.
From the dark place where she stood, she could look
into
her lighted kitchen, back in the apartment on Clarke
Street;
a stale litter of old coffee cups and papers was on
the
table, and the half-finished research was strewn about
the
room like blown leaves in autumn. It seemed as if she
had
only to step down to reach it, as if a few strides would
take
her from this place to home, to the university, to the
quiet
life of scholarship and the friends and security of
her own
time and place. Dimly she heard the phone ring-
ing
there and knew it was one of her women friends call-
ing, as
they had been calling for two days now. They would
be
worried—soon they would begin to search. The thought
of
their pain and fear for her hurt Gil almost as much as
her
injured arm, and she tried to go into the kitchen to
answer
the phone, but she found that Ingold stood in her
way.
Hooded, his sword gleaming like foxfire, he rose be-
fore
her, a dark shape blown and wavering on the wind.
No
matter how she turned and shifted, he was always in
her
way, always turning her back. She began to cry, "Let
me go!
Let me go!" in helpless fury. Then wind caught at
him,
swirling his brown mantle into a black cloud of shad-
ow, and
in his place a Dark One rode the twisting air. She
tried
to run, and it was upon her; she tried to fight with the
sword
she suddenly found in her hands, but as she cut at
it, its
huge, slobbering mouth snatched at her, leaving a
trail
of acid down her arm that seared into the flesh until
she
cried out in pain.
She saw
her arm, bone and torn flesh, then. She saw the
hand
that touched it, molding and kneading at the ripped
ruin of
muscle. In her dreaming, she was reminded of a
man
molding putty or seaming together colored clays. It
was
Ingold's hand, nicked and marked with old scars, and
calloused
from the grip of a sword—and there he was, tired
and
shabby, eyes bright in circles of black exhaustion. She
struck
at him with her good hand, sobbing weak obscen-
ities
at him because he wouldn't let her go back, because
he had
trapped her here, cursing him and fighting against
his
strong, sure touch. Then that part of the dream faded
also,
and utter darkness took her.
From
the Town Hall steps, Rudy watched what re-
mained
of the powers in the Realm coming to council. It
was
early afternoon now, and bleak clouds had begun to
gray
the light of the day, piling heavily over the moun-
tains
like the threat of doom. He had eaten, slept, and
helped
the Guards and those survivors of last night's hor-
rors
who were still capable of directed action in the grue-
some
task of cleaning the bloodless corpses and stripped
bones
out of the gory mud of the square. Now he was cold,
weary,
and sickened in his soul. Even with the worst of the
mess—the
hopeless, twisted wrecks that had once been
living
people—out of the way, the square wore a look of
absolute
desolation. Strewn and trampled in the mud were
the
pitiful remains of flight—clothes, cook pots, books torn
and
sodden with mud, salvage from Gae whose owners
would
have no further use for it. During burial detail that
morning,
Rudy had found what he judged to be a small
fortune
in jewels, mixed with the churned slush in the
square—precious
things dropped unheeded in last night's
desperate,
futile scramble for refuge.
Karst
was a town of the dead. People moved about its
streets
blindly, stumbling with weariness or shock or grief.
Half-heard
through the town, the muffled wailing of sobs
was as
prevalent today as the woodsmoke and stench had
been
yesterday. The places that had been so crowded were
three-quarters
empty. People passed in the streets on their
blind
errands and looked at one another, but did not ask,
because
they did not dare, What now?
Good
question, Rudy thought dryly.
What
now, when the Dark Ones were everywhere, when
he was
an exile in an alien universe, hiding and dodging
until
something—the Dark, the cold, starvation, the plague,
or
whatever—got him before he could make it back to the
safety
of his own? And who knew how long that was going
to be?
Maybe even Ingold didn't. Anyway, what if some-
body
jailed Ingold again, and this time nobody came? Or
what if
somebody jailed him? It was possible—he was a
stranger,
unfamiliar with the customs, ignorant of the laws
that
could get him dumped into one of those bricked-up
slammers
he'd passed last night. Hell, he didn't even know
the
language, if anyone wanted to get technical about it.
Rudy
was well aware that he hadn't spoken a word of
English
since he'd been here. How he understood, let alone
spoke,
the Wathe, the common tongue of the Realm, he
wasn't
even prepared to guess. But Ingold had said some-
thing
about arranging it, back in California when he'd still
regarded
the old man as a harmless lunatic. Rudy guessed
that
was damn big medicine for somebody Alwir talked
about
as a kind of conjuring tramp.
He saw
Ingold and Alwir crossing the square together,
an
uneasy partnership for sure. The Chancellor was strid-
ing
amid the swirl of his flame-cut crimson cloak, rubies
glittering
like blood on the doeskin of his gloves; Ingold
walked
beside him, leaning on his staff like a tired old
man.
God knew how, but the wizard had reacquired both
staff
and sword.
His
voice, strong and raspy with that characteristic
velvet
break in its tone, drifted to Rudy as the two men
mounted
the steps. ". . . staring us in the face, all of us.
Our way
of life, our entire world, is changed, and we
would
be fools to deny it. All the structures of power
are
altered, and by no kind of machinations, magic, might,
or
faith can we keep what we have held."
Alwir's
deep, mellow tones replied. "And you, my friend.
Wizardry
has failed, too. Where is your Archmage now?
And the
Council of Quo? That boasted magic . . ."
They
passed within, the crimson shape and the brown.
He's
got a point there, Rudy thought tiredly. I may be
ignorant,
but I'm not dumb. As a refugee camp or a rally-
ing-point
for civilization, this burg has had it. He surveyed
the
silent square. Yesterday real estate could have been
sold
here at fifty dollars a square foot. It was a bust mar-
ket
now, the mud compounded of earth, rain and spent
blood.
He
recognized some of the others coming across the
square,
making for the council meeting. They were the
nobles
or notables of the Realm whom people had pointed
out to
him—Christ, was it only yesterday?—as he'd
bummed
around Karst, not a care in the world, checking
out the
lay of the land. He recognized a couple of the
landchiefs
of the Realm who'd ridden up to Gae to aid
the
late King and subsequently refugeed to Karst—a
young
blond surfer-type and a big, scarred old buffer who
looked
like John Wayne playing the Sheriff of Notting-
ham—Janus
of the Guards, in a clean black uniform but
beat-up
as an Irish cop after a Friday night donnybrook,
with a
black eye and a red welt down the side of his face;
the
Bishop Govannin, leaning on the arm of an attendant
priest;
and a couple of depressed-looking local merchants
who'd
been trading off a black market in food and water
while
there was still a shortage to kick up the prices.
Rudy
glanced at the angle of the shadow cast by the
fountain.
The council could last most of the afternoon—
they
had to figure out their next course of action before
night
fell again. Rudy wondered if he could catch up with
Ingold
after it was over, maybe see if there were some way
he
could get back without letting all the Dark Ones in
the
world through the Void after him. Maybe the Arch-
mage,
Lohiro of Quo, would have some ideas on that—
he was,
after all, Ingold's superior—if they could find the
guy,
that is.
But
then he caught sight of a familiar face across the
square,
and the thought dropped from his mind. She wore
black
velvet now instead of the plain white gown of yester-
day;
with her hair braided and coiled in elaborate gleam-
ing
loops, she looked a few years older. She reminded him
of a
young apple tree in its first blossom, delicate and
poised
and graceful as a dancer.
He got
to his feet and came down the steps to her. "I
see
you're all right," he said. "I'm sorry I didn't come
back
for you myself, but at that point all I wanted to do
was
find some quiet corner and fall asleep in it."
She
smiled shyly at him. "It's all right. The men Alwir
sent
had no trouble finding the place. And after all you'd
done
last night, I think I would have been ashamed of
myself
if you'd lost sleep to come after me and make sure
I
didn't get into any more trouble." She looked tired and
strained,
more fragile than she had last night; Rudy felt
he
could have picked her up in one hand. She went on.
"I
owe you my life, and Tir's twice over."
"Yeah,
well, I still say it was a crazy stunt to pull in
the
first place. I ought to have my head examined for
going
after you."
"I
said once before you were brave." She smiled, teasing.
"You
can't deny it now."
"Like
hell." Rudy grinned.
The
corners of the girl's blue-violet eyes crinkled with
laughing
skepticism. "Even when you followed me up the
stairs?"
"Oh,
hell, I couldn't let you go by yourself." He looked
down at
her gravely for a moment, remembering the terror
of that
wind-searched open gallery and the stygian mazes
of the
vaults. "You must care a lot for the kid, to go back
for him
that way."
She
took his hand, her fingers slim and warm in the
brief
touch. "I do," she said simply. "Tir is my son. If I
alone
had died last night, it might have made no difference
to
anyone, anymore. But I shall always thank you for sav-
ing
him."
She
turned and mounted the steps, moving with a
dancer's
quicksilver lightness. The Guards at the door
bowed
to her in an elaborate salute as she passed between
them,
and she vanished into the shadows of the great doors,
leaving
Rudy standing open-mouthed with astonishment
in the
mud of the square.
The
Guards' Court at the back of the town had once
been
the stableyard of some great villa. To Gil's trained
eye,
the overly intricate coats of arms over gatehouse and
window-embrasure
whispered of new money and the vast
inferiority
complex of the parvenu. In the cold afternoon
light,
most of the court was visible from where she lay on
a
scratchy bed of hay and borrowed cloaks, aching with
weariness
and the aftermath of pain, looking out from
the dim
blue shadows of the makeshift barracks.
Daylight
wasn't kind to the place. The lean-to that ran
around
three sides of the stone courtyard wall had been
roughly
converted into barracks, and the mail, weapons,
and bedrolls
of some seventy Guards were heaped hap-
hazardly
among the bales of. fodder. The mud in the
center
of the court was slippery and rank. In a corner
by a
fountain, someone was cooking oatmeal, and the drift
of
smoke on the wind cut at Gil's eyes. In the mucky
space
of open ground, thirty or so Guards were engaged
in
practice, muddy to the eyebrows.
But
they were good. Even to Gil's inexperienced eye,
their
quickness and balance were obvious; they were pro-
fessional
warriors, an elite corps. Lying here, as she had
lain
most of the day, she had seen them come in from
duty;
she knew that all of them had fought last night and,
like
her, bore the wounds of it. She had noticed in the
confusion
of last night that very few of the dead were
Guards,
and now she saw why; the speed, stamina, and
unthinking
reactions were trained into them until the
downward
slash-duck-parry motion of attack and defense
was as
automatic as jerking a burned finger from flame.
They
trained with split wood blades like the Japanese
shinai,
weapons that would neither cut nor maim but
which
left appalling bruises—nobody was armored and
there
wasn't a shield in the place. Gil watched them with an
awe
that came from the glimmerings of understanding.
"What
do you think?" a cool voice asked. Looking up,
she saw
the Icefalcon standing beside her, indistinct in the
murky
shade.
"About
that?" She gestured toward the moving figures
and the
distant clacking of wooden blade on blade. He
nodded,
pale eyes aloof. "You need it, don't you, to be
perfect,"
she said, watching the quick grace of the warriors
that
was almost a dance. "And that's what it is. Perfect."
The
Icefalcon shrugged, but his eyes had a speculative
gleam
in their silvery depths. "If you have only one blow,"
he
remarked, "it had better be perfect. How's your arm?"
She
shook her head wearily, not wanting to think about
the
pain. "It was stupid," she said. The bandages showed
a kind
of grubby brown through the torn, ruined sleeve
of the
shirt that had been part of a corpse's gown. "I was
tired;
it shouldn't have happened."
The
tall young man leaned against the wall and hooked
his
thumbs in his swordbelt in a gesture common to the
Guards.
"You didn't do badly," he told her. "You have
a
knack, a talent that way. I personally didn't think you'd
make it
past the first fight. Novices don't. You have the
instinct
to kill."
"What?"
she exclaimed, more startled than horrified,
though
on reflection she supposed she should have been
more
horrified than she was.
"I
mean it," the Icefalcon said in that colorless, breathy
voice.
"Among my people that is a compliment. To kill
is to
survive the fight. To kill is to want very much to live."
He
glanced out into the gray afternoon, his long, thin
hands
folding over his propped knee. "In the Realm they
consider
that such ideas are crazy. Perhaps your people do,
too. So
they say that the Guards are crazy; and by their
lights,
perhaps they are right."
Perhaps,
Gil thought. Perhaps.
It
would look that way from the outside, certainly. That
striving,
that need, was seldom understood, any more than
Rudy
had understood why she would turn away from her
home
and family for the sake of the terrible and abstract
joys of
scholarship. In its way, it was the same kind of
craziness.
A
little, bald-headed man was moving through the mazes
of the
combatants, watching everything with beady, elf-
bright
brown eyes. He stopped just behind Seya, scratching
his
close-clipped brown beard and observing her efforts
against
another Guard of about her size and weight. She
cut and
parried; as she moved forward for another blow,
he
stepped in lightly and hooked both her legs from
under
her, dumping her unceremoniously in the mud.
"Stronger
stance," he cautioned her, then turned and
walked
away. Seya climbed slowly to her feet, wiped the
goop
from her face, and went back to her bout.
"There
are very few," the Icefalcon's soft voice went on,
"who
understand this. Very few who have this instinct for
life,
this understanding for the fire of perfection. Perhaps
that is
why there have always been very few Guards." He
glanced
down at her, the light shifting across the narrow
bones
of his face. "Would you be a Guard?"
Gil
felt the slow flush of blood rise to her face and the
quickening
of her pulse. She waited a long time before
she
answered him. "You mean, stay here and be a Guard?"
"We
are very short of Guards."
She was
silent again, though a kind of eager tension
wired
its way into her muscles and a confusion into her
heart.
She watched the little, bearded, bald man in the
square
step unconcernedly between swinging blades to
double
up a tall Guard with a blow in mid-stroke, step
lightly
back with almost preternatural timing, and go on
to
correct his next victim. Finally she said, "I can't."
"Indeed,"
was all the Icefalcon said.
"I'm
going back. To my own land."
He
looked down at her and raised one colorless brow.
"I'm
sorry," she muttered.
"Gnift
will also be sorry, to hear that," the Icefalcon
said.
"Gnift?"
He
gestured toward the bald man in the square. "He is
the
instructor of the Guards. He watched you in the
vaults
at Gae and last night. He says you could be good."
She
shook her head. "If I stayed," she said, "it would
only be
a matter of time until I died."
"It
is always," the Icefalcon remarked, "only a matter
of
time. But you are right." He looked up as another
shadow
loomed beneath the low, shingled roof.
"Hey,
Gil." Rudy took a seat on the hay bale beside
her.
"They said you were hurt. Are you okay?"
She
shrugged, the movement making her wince in spite
of
herself. "I'll live." In the dimness Rudy looked shabby
and
seedy, his painted jacket a ruin of mud and charred
slime,
his long hair grubby with sweat, though he'd man-
aged to
come up with a razor from someplace and was no
longer
as unshaven as he'd been yesterday. Still, she re-
flected,
she couldn't look much better.
"Their
council meeting's broken up," he informed her,
scanning
the wet, dreary court before him with interested
eyes.
"I figure Ingold should be around someplace, and
it's
high time we talked to him about going back."
Across
the court a small group emerged from the shad-
ows of
the tall gatehouse. Alwir, Govannin of Gae, Janus
of the
Guards, and the big, scarred landchief someone
had
said was Tomec Tirkenson, landchief of Gettlesand in
the
southwest. The Chancellor's cloak made a great bloody
smear
of crimson against the grayness of the murky day,
and his
rich voice carried clearly to the three in the shad-
ows of
the barracks: ". . . woman will believe anything,
rather
than that she left her own child to die. I am not say-
ing
that he did substitute another child for the Prince, if
the
Prince were killed by the Dark—only that he could
have
done so easily."
"To
what end?" the Bishop asked, in that voice like the
bones
of some animal, bleached by desert sun. Under the
white
of the bandage, Janus' face reddened. Even at that
distance,
Gil could catch the dangerous gleam in that
rufous
bear-man's eyes.
Alwir
shrugged. "What end indeed?" he said casually.
"But
the man who saved the Prince would have far
greater
prestige than the man who failed to save him,
especially
since it is becoming obvious that his magic has
little
effect upon the Dark. A Queen's gratitude can go
far in
establishing a man's position in a new government.
Counselor
of the Realm is quite a step for a man who
started
life as a slave in Alketch."
Anger
flaring clearly in his face, Janus began to speak,
but at
that instant the Icefalcon, who had detached himself
from
the shed and made his way unhurriedly over to the
group,
touched the Commander's sleeve and turned his
attention
from what could have been a dangerous moment.
They
spoke quietly, Alwir and Govannin listening with
mild
curiosity. Gil saw the Icefalcon's long, thin hand
move in
her direction.
Alwir
raised graceful eyebrows. "Going back?" he asked,
surprised,
his deep, melodious voice carrying clearly across
the
open court. "This is not what I have been told."
There
was no need to ask of whom they spoke. Gil felt
herself
grow cold with shock. She threw off the cloaks
under
which she lay and got to her feet, crossing the court
to them
stiffly, her arm throbbing at every step. Alwir saw
her and
waited, a look of thoughtful calculation in the
cornflower
depths of his eyes.
"What
have you been told?" Gil asked.
The
eyebrows lifted again, and the cool gaze took her in,
shabby
and dirty and bedraggled beside his immaculate
height,
wordlessly expressing regret at the type of people
Ingold
chose as friends. "That Ingold cannot, or will not,
let you
return to your own land. Surely he spoke to you of
it."
"Why
not?" Rudy demanded. He had come hurrying,
unnoticed,
in Gil's wake.
Alwir
shrugged. "Ask him. If he is still in Karst, that
is—sudden
arrivals and departures are his specialty. I have
seen
nothing of him since he left the meeting, quite some
tune
ago."
"Where
is he?" Gil asked quietly. It was the first time
she had
spoken with Alwir, the first time, in fact, that
she
could remember the tall Chancellor taking even a pass-
ing
notice of her, though there was an uneasiness in her
mind
associated with him, quite apart from her suspicions
about
who had ordered Ingold's arrest.
"My
child, I haven't the slightest idea."
"He's
been staying in the gatehouse," landchief Tirken-
son
grunted, his big, grimy hand gesturing toward the
narrow
fortification that overspanned the court gate. "I
haven't
heard he's left town yet."
Gil
turned on her heel, making for the tiny door of the
gatehouse
stair without a word.
"Gil-shalos!"
Alwir's voice called her back. In spite of
herself,
she stopped, compelled by the command in his
tone.
She found she was breathing fast, as if she had been
running.
Wind stirred the tall man's cloak, and the blood
rubies
glittered on his hands. "No doubt he will have good
reasons
for what he does—he always does, my child. But
beware
of him. What he does, he does for his own pur-
poses."
Gil met
Alwir's eyes for the first time, as if she had never
before
seen his face clearly, studying the proud, sensual
features
as if she would memorize them, the droop of the
carved
lips that showed his disdain for those beneath him,
the
arrogance in the set of the jaw, and the ruthless selfish-
ness in
the glint of the eyes. She found herself shivering
with a
pent-up rage, and her hands remembered their grip
on the
hilt of a sword. "All men have their purposes, my
lord
Alwir," she said quietly. She swung about and left
him,
with Rudy following.
Alwir
watched them go, vanishing into the black slit
of the
gatehouse door. He recognized Gil's hatred for what
it was,
but he was used to the hatred of his inferiors. He
shook
his head sadly and dismissed her from his mind.
Neither
Gil nor Rudy spoke as they climbed the black,
twisting
stair. It led them to a room, hardly wider than a
hallway,
situated over the gate itself; warped windows of
bull's-eye
glass admitted only the cool whiteness of the
light
and blurred swimming impressions of color and shape.
The
place had been built as the quarters for the gate
porter,
but was now used for the storage of the Guards'
food.
Sacks of flour and oatmeal lined the walls like sand-
bags on
a levee, alternating with wax-covered wheels of
scarlet
cheese. Over a low pile of such provisions at the
far end
of the room a blanket and a fur rug had been
thrown;
a small bundle of oddments, including a clean
robe, a
book, and a pair of knitted blue mittens, was rolled
up at
the foot of this crude bed. Ingold sat in the room's
single
chair next to the south window, as unmoving as
stone.
The cold white windowlight made him look like a
black
and white photograph, etched mercilessly the deep
lines
of age and wear that ran back from the corners of
his
heavy-lidded eyes to his shaggy temples, and marked
with
little nicks of shadow the scars on his hands.
Gil
started to speak, then saw that he was looking into
a jewel
that he had set down on the windowsill, staring
into
the gem's central facet as if seeking some image in
the
heart of the crystal.
He
looked up at them and smiled. "Come in," he invited.
They
picked their way cautiously through the clutter of
the
room to the small patch of clear floor space by the
wizard's
bed. They found seats on sacks and firkins.
Gil
said, "Alwir tells me you're not sending us back."
Ingold
sighed but did not look away from the bitter
challenge
in her face. "I'm afraid he's right."
She
drew in a deep breath, pain, fear, and dread twisting
together
within her. Crushing emotion under an inner
silence
that she could not afford to break, she asked quietly,
"Ever?"
"Not
for some months," the wizard said.
Her
breath leaked out again, the slow release of it
easing
nothing. "Okay." She rose to go.
His
hand closed over her wrist like a snake striking.
"Sit
down," he said softly. She tried to pull her arm away,
without
replying, but his hand was very strong. "Please."
She
turned back, cold and angry; then looking down she
saw
something in his blue eyes that she'd never expected to
see—that
he was hurt by her anger. It shook her to the
heart.
"Please, Gil."
She
stood apart from him for a moment, drawn back
to the
length of her arm. His fingers were locked around
her
wrist as if he feared that if he released her, he might
never
see her again. And maybe, Gil thought, he'd be
right.
She saw again the vision of her delirium: warm,
bright
images of some other life, another world, friends
and the
scholarship she had hoped to make her life, dis-
tant
from her and guarded by some dark, terrible form that
might
have been the Dark and might have been Ingold; she
saw
projects, plans, research, and relationships falling into
a chasm
of absence, beyond her power to repair. Rage filled
her
like dry, silent heat.
Behind
her, Rudy said uneasily, "Months is a long time
to play
tag with the Dark, man."
"I'm
sorry," Ingold said, but his eyes were on Gil.
Trembling
with the effort, she let go of the rage. With-
out it
to sustain her, all the tension left her body. In-
gold
drew her gently to sit on the bed beside him. She did
not
resist.
"I
should have spoken to you before the council," In-
gold
said quietly. "I was afraid that this would happen."
Gil
still could say nothing, but Rudy ventured, "You
said
something about that yesterday morning, when you
were
taking off for Gae with the Guards. About how, if
the
Dark showed up, we maybe couldn't get back."
"I
did," Ingold said. "I feared this all along. I told
you
once before, Gil, that our worlds lie very close. Close-
enough
for a dreamer to step inadvertently across the line,
as you
did. Close enough for me to step quickly from one
world
to the next, like a man stepping behind the folds
of a
curtain. In time this closeness will become less, as
the
conjunction between worlds comes to its end. At that
tune,
Dark or no Dark, it will be safe enough for me to
send
you back through.
"I
am aware of the Void, always and subliminally, as I
am
aware of the weather. The first time I crossed it, to
speak
to you in your apartment, I was aware of a weaken-
ing all
through its fabric in the vicinity of the gate, that
I had
made. Even then, I began to fear. The Dark Ones do
not
understand the Void, but I think then they were first
aware
that it exists. And after that, they watched. The
second
time I crossed, escaping the battle in the Palace at
Gae, I
felt the single Dark One follow me across. The
opening
that I made caused a whole series of breaks in the
Void.
Most of them would not have admitted a human, but
the
Dark, with their different material being, were able
to use
at least one. That was why I tried to get you away
from
the cabin, Gil. But naturally, you were both too
stubborn
to go."
"I
was stubborn?" Gil began indignantly. "You were the
one who
was stubborn ..."
"Hey,
if you'd told me the truth, man . . ."
"I
did tell you the truth," the wizard said to Rudy. "You
simply
didn't believe me."
"Yeah,
well. . ." His grumbles trailed off into silence.
Ingold
went on. "I felt that sending you back yesterday
would
be marginally safe, with the Dark Ones fifteen miles
off in
Gae. But now it's out of the question. The single
Dark
One who crossed with me increased their awareness
of the
Void. And they know, now, that humans exist in the
world
on the other side."
"How
do you figure that?" The barrel staves creaked as
Rudy
changed position, bringing his feet up to sit cross-
legged,
leaning acid-stained elbows on his knees. "The
one
that followed you got fried on the other side. He never
made it
back to report."
"He
didn't have to." Ingold turned to Gil. "You saw
last
night how the Dark Ones fight, the speed with which
their
bodies maneuver and change position. How the com-
munication
between them works I'm not sure, but what
one
learns, I believe, they all then know. If we weaken the
fabric
of the Void, so that several of them pass through
behind
you and Rudy—if, as I suspect it may be, their
knowledge
of events is simultaneous rather than cumula-
tive—it
would be only a matter of time before they learned
to
operate the gates through the Void themselves.
"As
Guardian of the Void, I am responsible. At this
time, I
cannot endanger your world by sending you back."
In the
silence that followed his words, the drift of
Janus'
voice from the court below was faintly audible,
along
with the clear metallic tap of hooves on cobbles.
Somewhere
a dog barked. The light in the room faded as
twilight
drew down on the stricken town.
Rudy
asked, "So what can we do?"
"Wait,"
Ingold said. "Wait until the turn of the winter,
when
our worlds will have drawn apart far enough to per-
mit
safe crossing. Or wait until I can speak with the Arch-
mage
Lohiro."
Gil
looked up. "You've talked about him before."
The
wizard nodded. "He is the Master of the Council of
Quo,
the leader of all the world's wizardry. His under-
standing
is different from mine and his power greater.
If
anyone can help us, he can.
"Before
the Dark Ones broke forth at Gae, before the
night I
spoke with you, Gil, I spoke with Lohiro. He told
me that
the Council of Wizards, and indeed all the mages
of the
West of the World, were coming together at Quo.
Wizardry
is knowledge. Piecing together all wizardry, all
knowledge,
all power, we might come to a way to defeat
the
Dark. And until that time, he said, 'I shall ring Quo
in the
walls of air, and make of it a fortress that no dark-
ness
can pierce. Here we shall be safe, and from this
fortress,
my friend, we shall come in light.' " As he quoted
these
words, Ingold's eyes lost some of their sharpness, and
his
voice shifted, picking up the inflection and tone of
another
man's voice.
"And
since that tune, my children, I have heard noth-
ing. I
have sought . . ." He touched the crystal that lay
on the
sill next to his elbow, and its facets flashed dimly
in the
light. "At times I think I can make out the shape
of the
hills above the town, or the outlines of Forn's Tower
rising
through the mists. But I have had no word, not from
Lohiro
nor from any of the wizards. They are surrounded
in
spells, ringed in illusion. And so they must be sought—
and
only a wizard can seek them."
Gil
said softly, "Then you'll be leaving us?"
Ingold's
eyes flickered back to her, growing brighter
and
more present again. "Not at once," he said. "But we
will be
leaving Karst. At dawn tomorrow, Alwir is leading
the
people south to the old Keep of Dare at Renweth on
Sarda
Pass. You may have heard us speak of it in council—
it was
the old fortress-hold built against the Dark by the
men of
the Old Realms, many thousands of years ago, at
the
time of the Dark's first rising. It will be a long trek,
and a
hard one. But at Renweth you will be safe, as safe
as you
would be anywhere in this world.
"I
shall be going with the train to Renweth. Though I
am no
longer considered a member of the Regents, I am
still
held to the vow I made Eldor before his death. I prom-
ised to
see Prince Tir to a place of safety and that I will
and
must do, whether Alwir wishes me to or not. I am
afraid,
my children, that you have leagued yourselves with
an
outcast."
"Alwir
can go to hell," Gil said shortly.
Ingold
shook his head. "The man has his uses," he
said.
"But he finds me—unbiddable. On the road to Ren-
weth,
Tir will be in constant danger from the Dark. I
cannot
leave him. But Renweth will be, for me, only a
stopping
place, the first stage of a greater journey."
"Well,
look," Rudy said after a moment's thought. "If
we went
with you to Quo, couldn't you send us back from
there?
If it's so safe, it would be the one place where the
Dark
Ones couldn't get through."
"True,"
Ingold agreed. "If you made it to Quo. I wouldn't
recommend
the trip. In the height of the Realm's power,
few
people would venture to cross the plain and the desert
in
winter. It's close to two thousand miles, through desolate
lands.
In addition to the Dark, we would be in danger from
the
White Raiders, the barbarian tribesmen who have
waged
bloody war on the outposts of the Realm for cen-
turies."
"But
you're going," Rudy pointed out.
Ingold's
blunt, scarred fingers toyed with the crystal on
the
windowsill. "And you might be safe, traveling with me.
But
believe me, your chances of seeing your own world
again
are far greater if you remain in the Keep of Dare."
Gil was
silent, her bony hands folded on her knee,
staring
into the murky gloom of the gatehouse. She tried
to
picture that fortress among the mountains, tried to pic-
ture
weeks and months there alone, knowing no one,
isolated
as she had always been isolated. Her jaw tightened.
"You
will come back for us, though, won't you?"
"I
brought you into this world against your will," Ingold
said
quietly. He laid his hands over hers, the warmth of
his
touch going through her, warming her, as it always did,
by its
vitality. "If for no other reason than that, I am
responsible
for you. Lohiro may have a better answer than
I can
give you. It may even be that he will be able to re-
turn
with me to the Keep."
"Yeah,"
Rudy said dubiously. "But what if you can't
find
the wizards? What if they're locked up so tight even
you
can't get in? What if— Suppose the Archmage is
dead?"
He hadn't wanted to say it, since Ingold seemed to
be
operating on the assumption that Lohiro was alive, but
Ingold's
frown was one of consideration rather than of
anxiety
or annoyance.
"It's
a possibility," Ingold said slowly. "I had thought
of it,
yes, but—I would know if Lohiro were dead." The
last of
the twilight glinted on his bristling white eyebrows
as they
drew down over his nose. 'The spells that surround
Quo
might mask it—but I think I would know. I know I
would."
"How?"
Rudy asked curiously.
"I
just would. Because he is the Archmage, and I am a
wizard."
"Is
that why Alwir kicked you out of the council?" Gil
asked,
remembering the cold eyes of the Bishop and the
way
Alwir had spoken of Ingold at the gate below. "Be-
cause
you're a wizard?"
Ingold
smiled and shook his head. "No," he said. "Alwir
and I
are enemies of long standing. He never approved of
my
friendship with Eldor. And I fear he will never forgive
me for
being right about the dangers of coming to Karst.
Alwir,
as you may have guessed, has never thought much
of the
idea of retreating to the Keeps. The Keeps are
fortresses,
safe for the most part from the Dark, but lim-
ited in
scope. To retreat into them will fracture the Realm
beyond
hope of repair and destroy thousands of years of
human
civilization. Such a fate is inevitable, in an isolated so-
ciety,
where transportation and communication are limited
to the
duration of the daylight; culture will wane, narrow-
mindedness
set in; the human outlook will shrink from
urbane
tolerance of all human needs to a kind of petty
parochialism
that cannot see beyond the bounds of its
own
fields. As you know from your own studies, Gil,
private
law begets a host of its own abuses. Decentralized,
the
Church will degenerate, its priests and theologians de-
graded
into sanctified scribes and passers-out of the sacra-
ments
to a squabbling, superstitious peasantry. I fear that
wizardry,
too, will suffer, becoming more and more pol-
luted
with little magics, losing sight of the mainstream of
its
teachings. Anything that requires an organized body of
knowledge
will vanish—the universities, medicine, train-
ing in
any form of the arts.
"Eldor
was a scholar, and saw this; he knew what had
happened
before, through his own memories of the long
years
of superstition and darkness and the mean-minded
fears
of men to whom the unknown was always threaten-
ing.
Alwir and Govannin see it coming, and know that
once
they let their hold on centralized power slip, nothing
can get
it back.
"And
so, Quo could be our only hope."
Rudy
cocked his head curiously. "Didn't Alwir talk
about
some plan—about getting allies to invade the Nests
of the
Dark? Is that still coming off?"
"It
is," Ingold said thinly. "He has sent south, to the
great
Empire of Alketch, for help in this endeavor, and I
do not
doubt he shall get it."
The
flat, repressive note in his voice startled Rudy, who
looked
up from idly turning the crystal in his fingers, an-
gling
it to what remained of the waning light. "Sounds like
not a
bad idea," he admitted.
Ingold
shrugged. "It would not be," he said, "but for
two
things. The first is that, deny it though we might, our
civilization
is all but broken. Even if we drive back the
Dark,
to what new world of Light will we come? I have
seen in
the crystal, and by other means, that the depreda-
tions
of the Dark are far lighter in the south than they are
here.
The Empire of Alketch is a strong realm still. They
can
help us in Alwir's invasion; and then, when the remains
of the
forces of the Realm have taken the brunt of the
casualties,
they will be on the spot, ready to take the land
left
depopulated and defenseless in the aftermath. Alwir
will
have exchanged death for slavery—and there are vary-
ing
opinions on which is the worse fate."
The
blue eyes glittered under the heavy brows. "I know
Alketch,
you see," the wizard went on quietly. "The south-
ern
Empire has long coveted these northern lands. I know
Alketch—and
I know the Dark.
"Alwir
finds a great deal to say about the number of
things
for which mine is the only word. He is right. About
the
Dark, mine is the only word, now that Eldor is gone
and the
sole male heir of the House of Dare is too young to
speak.
And I know that an invasionary force to the Nests
will
surely fail.
"I
have been to a Nest. I have seen the Dark in their
cities
beneath the ground."
The
wizard leaned back against the wall behind him. The
room
was sinking in shadow all around. His voice was
quiet,
distant, leading his listeners to another place and
time.
"A
long time ago I was the local spell-weaver for a vil-
lage,
oh, way over in Gettlesand. It was a good-sized village,
but not
so large that the Lord of Gettlesand would think
to look
for me there. I was, in fact, hiding out, but that is
part of
another tale.
"The
dooic run wild in tribes in that part of the country.
They
prefer the empty plains, but they do hide in the hills,
and
they have sometimes been known to carry off small
children.
One of the children of the mayor of my village
had
vanished, and I tracked her and her tribe of kidnap-
pers
for a night and a day, back into the hills. It was in a
cave,
in a ridge of foothills beneath a desert mountain
range,
that I first saw one of the Dark Ones. It was night.
The
creature dropped from the ceiling of the cave where it
had
been clinging and devoured an old male dooic which
had
taken shelter there. It was not aware of my presence.
"Now
I had learned about Dark Ones in old books that
I had
read, and from the ancient legends handed down to
me,
like this jewel, from my master Rath. I realized this
must be
a surviving Dark One, and it occurred to me that
isolated
groups of these creatures, which had once over-
whelmed
mankind and then vanished from the face of the
earth,
might still be hiding in the fastnesses of mountain
and
desert. And because I am, and always have been, in-
curably
inquisitive, I followed it back through the darkness,
down
tunnels so steep I had to cling to the walls and floor
to keep
myself from sliding headlong into the blackness. I
remember
thinking to myself at the time that the numbers
of the
Dark Ones had shrunk so badly that they lived thus
for
their own protection; a wretched remnant of a force
that
had once dominated the face of the world and changed
the
courses of civilization.
"I
followed the little Dark One—for it was crawling
along
the floor, and only about so big—" He gestured with
his
hands. "—deeper and deeper into the heart of the earth,
crawling
and climbing and scrambling to keep up with it.
And do
you know, at that point I was almost sorry for the
vanished
Dark Ones in what I supposed to be their exile.
Then I
saw the tunnel widen ahead of me and I looked out
into
their—city."
The
quality of the old man's voice was hypnotic, and his
eyes
had the faraway look of seeing nothing in that small
twilit
room. "It was completely dark, of course," he went
on.
"I do see clearly in the dark. The cavern below me
must
have run on for almost a mile, stretching downward
and
back and farther down into the earth. The tunnel in
which I
lay overlooked it, and I could scarcely see the other
end of
the cave, lost as it was in shadows. The stalactites
of the
ceiling, as far back as I could see, were crawling with
the
Dark, covered with them, black with their bodies; the
rattle
of their claws on the limestone was like the sound of
hail.
And down the wall to my right, at floor level, there
was an
entrance to another passageway, about as high as a
man
could walk through. There was a stream of them,
coming
and going from deeper underground. I knew that
under
that cavern there was another one, as large or larger;
and
below that, possibly another. That was only one city,
situated
miles from anywhere, in the midst of the deserts,
probably
not even their largest city." Memory of the horror
deepened
the lines that age and hard living had scrawled in
his
face; he looked like some Old Testament prophet, gifted
with
the sure knowledge of civilization's downfall and help-
less to
prevent it. Rudy knew that he saw, not them, not
this
room, but the endless cavern of darkness, and felt
afresh
the impact of that first realization that unguessably
vast
hordes of the Dark Ones still lived beneath the surface
of the
earth—not in exile, not out of necessity, hut because
it was
their chosen habitat. And there was nothing to pre-
vent
them from rising, as they had risen once before.
Rudy's
voice broke the quiet that had followed the
wizard's
account. "You say they were all across the ceiling
of the
place," he said. "What was on the floor?"
Ingold's
eyes met his, darkened with the memory and
almost
angry that Rudy should have asked—angry that he'd
already
half-guessed. "They have their—flocks and herds,"
he said
unwillingly, and would have left it at that, but the
young
man's eyes challenged him to say it. "Mutated,
adapted,
inbred after countless generations of living in the
dark. I
knew then, you see, that human beings were their
natural
prey."
"That's
why the stairways," Rudy said thoughtfully.
The
Dark don't need stairs—they haven't got any feet.
They
could drive dooic . .."
"These
weren't dooic," Ingold said. "They were human
—of a
sort." He shuddered, repelled by the memory. "But
you
see, my children, all the armies in the world would be
hardly
enough for what Alwir proposes. All that an inva-
sion
will do is cripple the existing fighting force of the
Realm
and leave too few men to guard the doors of their
homes
against the Empire of Alketch—or against the Dark.
"The
alternative, retreating to the Keeps and letting
civilization
die around us in the hopes that one day the
Dark
will pass, is hardly a more appealing proposition; but
at this
point I literally cannot see a third course. Even
Alwir
has been forced to recognize that we cannot simply
flee
them, and it is not likely that the Dark Ones will spon-
taneously
become vegetarians.
"So
you see," he concluded quietly, "I must find Lohiro
and
find him quickly. If I do not, we are faced with a
choice
of disasters. Wizardry has long garnered its knowl-
edge in
an isolated tower on the shores of the Western
Ocean,
apart from the world, teaching, experimenting, bal-
ancing
itself in the still center of the moving cosmos—
power
working for the perfection of power, knowledge for
the
perfection of knowledge. Nothing is fortuitous—there
are no
random events. It may be that the whole history of
wizardry
from Forn on was for this end only: to save us
from
the Dark."
"If
it can," Rudy said softly, and handed him back his
jewel.
"If
it can," Ingold agreed.
Darkness
had fallen. Thin gray rain slanted down on the
wreckage
of the town of Karst, flurrying the dark slickness
of the
puddles in the soupy mud of the court, staining the
timber
and thatch of the lean-to sheds. Bitter winds blew
down
off the mountains, whipping Gil's wet cloak around
her
ankles as she and Rudy crossed the court.
"Three
months," Rudy murmured, raising his head un-
der the
downpour to survey the ruin of the town, the ruin
of the
civilization that had built it. "Christ, if the Dark
don't
get us, we'll freeze to death in that time."
Distant
thunder boomed, like far-off artillery. Gil sought
shelter
from the rain in the darkness of the lean-to bar-
racks,
watching Rudy as he crossed the court to where the
glow of
a sheltered fire marked the common pot. Guards
were
moving around it, dark ghostly shapes, the brother-
hood of
the sword, their stained black tunics marked with
the
white quatrefoil emblem of their company. The sounds
of men
talking drifted through the sodden drumming of
the
rain.
Strong
hands slipped over her shoulders from behind. A
colorless
voice purred, "Gil-shalos?" She glanced at the
hands,
close by her cheek; long and thin, the fingers cal-
loused
and knotted from the discipline of the sword. Past
the
black shape of a tunic and the tasseled ends of white
braids,
she saw a thin face and cool, disinterested eyes. In
a
flanking maneuver, two other forms appeared and made
themselves
at home on either side of her.
The
swordmaster Gnift took her hand and pressed it to
his
breast in a good imitation of passion. "O Pearl of my
Heart,"
he greeted her, and she laughed and pulled her
hand
away. She had never spoken to the instructor, and
indeed
had been rather awed, watching him coach the
Guards.
But his teasing took away her shyness and eased
the
bitterness in her heart. On her other side, Seya was
silent,
but the woman's thin, lined face smiled. She was
evidently
long familiar with Gnift's mock flirtations.
"What
do you want?" Gil asked, still grinning, shy with
them
and yet feeling strangely at home. In the brief time
she had
known them, Seya and the Icefalcon—and now,
evidently,
Gnift as well—had accepted her for what she
was.
She had rarely felt so comfortable, even among the
other
scholars at the university.
Distant
firelight reddened the smooth dome of Gnift's
head—his
baldness was like a tonsure, the hair around the
sides
growing thickly down almost to his collar. Under the
overhanging
jut of his brows, his brown eyes were bright,
quick,
very alive. He said quietly in answer, "You."
And
with a flourish he produced the bundle he'd been
half-hiding
at his side. Unwrapping it, Gil found a faded
black
tunic, homespun shirt and breeches, a surcoat, and a
belt
with a dagger. All were marked with the white quatre-
foil
sign of the Guards.
CHAPTER
NINE
Though
members of the various military companies
mounted
guard in the town throughout the night, no sound
battered
the outer walls but the steady drumming of rain.
After a
rationed supper of porridge and cheese, Gil took
her
position with the Guards of the first watch in the Town
Hall.
The refugees huddled in the shelter of that great,
half-empty
cavern bowed to her in respect, as they did to
all the
Guards.
Rudy
saw the change in her when he himself strolled
into
the smoky dimness of the hall later; it puzzled him,
for his
experience with women, though extensive, had been
within
a very narrow range. "Talk about hiding out on the
front
lines," he remarked.
Gil
grinned. She was finding that Rudy's opinion of her
mattered
much less than it had earlier. "We're all on the
front
lines," she replied equably. "If I'm out there, at least
it will
be with a weapon in my hands."
"Have
you seen the way they train?" He shuddered deli-
cately.
"The
insurance is cheap at the price."
But
they both knew that this was not the reason she had
accepted
Gnift's offer of inclusion in that elite corps,
though
neither Gil nor Rudy was quite clear about the true
reason.
In the
early part of the evening the great hall was wake-
ful,
though without the boisterous quarrelsomeness that
had
characterized the previous days. The massacre at Karst
had
broken the spirits of those who had survived it, had
brought
home to them, as well as to their rulers, that there
was no
escape and nowhere to hide.
Still,
Rudy was surprised to see how many had survived.
Some of
them he even recognized: that was the fat man
with
the garden rake of last night, and the pair of tough old
broads
he'd talked to in the woods yesterday; over in the
corner
he could see the little gang of tow-headed kids,
keeping
watch over the sleeping woman they seemed to
have
taken for their guardian. Stragglers who had hidden
in the
woods all day came into the hall by ones and twos,
as well
as people lost from their families who had taken
refuge
in other buildings in the town. From Gil's post by
the
doors, Gil and Rudy saw them enter the hall, all ages,
from
young teen-agers to creeping oldsters; they would
enter
and move slowly through the little groups engaged in
bundling
up their miserable belongings, searching the
faces
of the people. Sometimes, rarely, the searcher would
find
the one he sought, and there would be tears and anx-
ious
words, some questions and usually more tears. More
often
the seeker would leave again. One stout man in his
forties,
in the muddy remains of a respectable black broad-
cloth
tunic and hose, hunted through the hall for the better
part of
two hours, then sat on one of the piles of smashed
and
discarded utensils and rags by the door and cried as if
his
heart would break.
Rudy
was thoroughly cold and depressed by the time the
gray-haired
Guard, Seya, came over to them from the
shadows
of the great stairway, her face drawn and grim.
"Do
either of you know where Ingold might be found?" she
asked
them quietly. "There's a man sick upstairs—we need
his
advice."
"He
should still be at the gatehouse," Gil surmised.
Rudy
said, "I'll see." He crossed the main square where
the
torchlight fitfully gilded the rain-pocked mud. The old
fountain
brimmed with water, slopping in ebony wavelets
over
its leeward edge. Icy wind bit into his legs below the
wet,
flapping hem of the cloak he'd scrounged. Not even
the
Dark Ones, he decided, would be abroad in a down-
pour
like this.
A gleam
of gold led him toward the gate into the Guards'
Court.
Someone sheltering in the old stables was playing a
stringed
instrument and singing:
"My
love is like a morn in spring,
A
falcon fleet when he takes to wing;
And I,
a dove, behind will fly,
To ride
the roads of the summer sky..."
It was
a simple love song, with words of hope and bright-
ness,
but the tune was filled with melancholy and an aching
grief,
the singer's voice all but drowned in the pounding
of the
rain. Rudy entered the dark slit of the doorway and
groped
his way up the treacherous stair, guided by the faint
light
that came down from above. He found Ingold alone
in the
narrow room. A dim, bluish glow of ball lightning
hung
over his head, touching the angles of brow and nose
and
flattened triangular cheekbone with light, and plunging
all the
rest into shadow. Before him the crystal lay on the
windowsill,
its colored refractions encircling it in a ring of
fire.
Silence
and peace coalesced in that room. For a moment
Rudy
hesitated on the threshold, unwilling to break into
Ingold's
meditations. He saw the wizard's eyes and knew
that
the old man saw something in the heart of the crystal,
bright
and clear as tiny flame; he knew that his own voice,
his own
intrusion, would shatter the deep, welling silence
that
made that concentration possible. So he waited, and
the
silence of the room seeped into his heart, like the deep
peace
of sleep.
After a
time Ingold raised his head. "Did you want me?"
The
light above his face grew stronger, brightening to silver
the
shaggy hair and the beard where it surged over the
angle
of his jutting chin; it broadened to take in the obscure
shapes
of sacks and firkins, of scattered rushes and sawdust
on the
floor, and the random pattern of the stone ceiling's
cracks
and shadows, like incomprehensible runes overhead.
Rudy
nodded, releasing the room's silence with regret.
"There's
sickness over at the hall," he said quietly. "Bad, I
think."
Ingold
sighed and rose, shaking his voluminous robes out
around
him. "I feared that," he said. He collected the
crystal
and stowed it somewhere about his person, shrugged
into
his dark mantle, drew the hood up over his head, and
started
for the door, the light drifting after him.
"Ingold?"
The
wizard raised his brows inquiringly.
Rudy
hesitated, feeling the question to be foolish, but
driven
nevertheless to ask it. "How do you do that?" He
gestured
toward the slim feather of light. "How do you call
light?"
The old
man held out his open hand; slowly the glow of
light
grew up from his palm. "You know what it is, and
summon
it," he replied, his voice low and clear and
scratchy
in the room. The brightness in his hand intensified,
white
and pure, stronger and stronger, until Rudy could no
longer
look at it and had to turn his eyes away. Even then
he saw
his own shadow cast huge and black against the
stonework
of the wall. "You know its true name and what
it
is," the wizard went on, "and by its true name you call
it. It
is as simple as picking a flower that grows on the other
side of
a fence." Against the white brilliance, shadows
shifted,
and Rudy looked back, to see the old man's strong
fingers
close over the light. For an instant its beams stabbed
out
from between his knuckles; then the brightness of it
dimmed
and was gone.
The
vagrant glowworm of the witchlight that had been
over
Ingold's head wandered before them down the inky
stairwell,
to illuminate their feet. "No dice with Quo?"
Rudy
asked after a moment.
Ingold
smiled at his words. "As you say, no dice."
Rudy,
looking back at the sturdy, white-haired old wiz-
ard,
remembered that it was this man who had worked
that
subtle enchantment of the languages; he saw Ingold
again
going against the Dark in the vaults, unarmed but for
the
noonday blaze of his power. "Are they all like you?" he
asked
suddenly. "The wizards? Other wizards?"
Ingold
looked like an overage imp when he smiled like
that.
"No, thank God. No. Wizards are really a very indi-
vidualistic
crew. We are formed by what we are, like
warriors
or bards or farmers—but we're hardly alike."
"What's
Lohiro like?" The Archmage, Master of the
Council
of Quo—Rudy found it difficult to picture a man
whom
Ingold would call master. He wondered just how this
tough
old maverick got along with the leader of the world's
wizardry.
"Ah."
Ingold smiled. "That's a good question. No two
people
who have known him have the same answer. They
say he
is like a dragon, in that he is the boldest and most
guileful,
the bravest and the most calculating—and that,
like a
dragon, he seems to those who meet him to be made
of
light and fire. I hope one day that you will have the
opportunity
to judge for yourself."
They
paused in the doorway. Beyond them lay the court
of the
Guards, drowned under the drenching rain; to their
left,
the shadow of the gateway, and the broken street be-
yond.
The gutter down its center was roaring like a mill-
race.
The ground in the square would be nothing but suck-
ing
ooze. Rudy asked, "Do you like him?"
"I
would trust him with my life " Ingold said quietly.
"I
love him as if he were my son." Then he turned away
and
vanished into the shadows of the street, a stooped,
weary
form in his hooded robe. Rudy watched him disap-
pear
into the sodden darkness, and it occurred to him that
this
was the first time Ingold had come out with a straight
answer
about his personal feelings. Shining wetness picked
out the
peak of the old man's hood as he passed under the
glow of
a lighted window far down the lane. The light was
dim,
the soft glow of a single candle or a shaded lamp.
Rudy's
eyes were drawn to the window, and he saw a
wavering
shadow pass across the mullioned panes within.
He knew
that window.
After a
moment he thought, What the hell? Why not?
He
stepped from the shelter of the gate and hurried
down
the black lane in the rain.
Alde
looked up, startled, as he tapped at her open cham-
ber
door. Then she recognized him, and her violet eyes
darkened
with pleasure. "Hello."
"Hi."
He stepped hesitantly into the room, made uneasy
by the
dead stillness of the house below. The room itself
was in
wild disorder, curtained in shadow; bed, chairs, and
floor
were strewn with clothes, books, and miscellaneous
equipment;
dusky blood-rubies glittered on a pair of combs
in the
shadow, and white gauntlets lay nearby, like wrin-
kled
upturned hands. Minalde herself was wearing the
white
gown in which he'd first met her; it was evidently a
favorite,
like an old pair of jeans. Her black hair, un-
braided,
lay in great crinkled swatches over her slim shoul-
ders.
"I came to see if you might like a hand with your
packing."
"That
was kind of you." She smiled. "I don't need a
hand so
much as an extra brain, I'm afraid. This—
chaos .
. ." She gestured eloquently at the confusion all
around
her.
There
was a clicking tap of hard-heeled shoes in the hall
behind
him, and the short, stout woman Rudy remembered
from
the terrace—Christ, was that only yesterday evening?
—came
bustling in, dragging a small chest behind her and
carrying
a pile of empty sacks thrown over her arm. She
bestowed
a glance of withering contempt upon him, but
didn't
deign to speak. To Alde she said, "This was all I
could
find, your Majesty, and bless me if I don't think it's
all
we'll have room for in the cart. That and the great
chest
of my lord Alwir's."
"That's
fine, Medda." Alde smiled, taking the sacks from
her.
"It's a miracle you could come up with this, in all this
confusion.
Thank you."
The
older woman looked mollified. "Well, it's truth that
the
house is like a shambles, and I could barely find this.
What
you're coming to, your Majesty, I don't know—
forced
to ride in a cart, and hardly the clothes on your
back
and all. How we'll reach Renweth alive I'm sure I
can't
think."
"We'll
make it," the girl said. "Alwir will get us there."
Without
a word or a second glance for Rudy, Medda
scurried
to the corner of the room, where she began fold-
ing
blankets and sheets, packing them firmly into one of
the
sacks. Alde returned to her own packing, folding the
great
mass of flame-cut crimson velvet that Rudy recog-
nized
as the cloak Alwir had worn that afternoon. "Most
of this
is Alwir's," she said to Rudy, nodding to the tumble
of
cloaks, tunics, and robes that half-covered the big bed.
"He
asked me to sort bis things for him. It's hard to know
what to
take and what to leave behind." She packed away
the
cloak and picked up a quilt of star-embroidered silk,
the
colors of it changing and rippling as it moved. Rudy
came
over to give her a hand with it, being well-versed in
the
ways of laundromats, and she smiled her thanks.
"Well,
packing was an easy one for me," he said. "All
I've
got is a blanket and a spoon and what I've got on. For
a
Queen, you're traveling awfully light."
She
smiled at him and shook back the dark hair from
her
face. "Have you seen the cart I'm going to be riding
in?
It's about the size of that bed. I'm not usually this un-
encumbered;
anywhere I go I always seem to end up taking
carts
and carts of things, books and clothes and spare
cloaks
and tennis rackets and a chess game. My maid
takes—"
Her voice caught suddenly on the words, as if
she had
physically stumbled in a swift run. It was thin and
shaky
when she finished the sentence. "My maid used to
take
more than this." Then, with a forced lightness, she
continued.
"On longer trips I'd have furniture and bedding
and
dinner service and windows..."
"Windows?"
"Of
course." She looked at him in genuine surprise, for-
getting
momentarily, as the Icefalcon forgot when speaking
to Gil,
that he was an outworlder and a stranger in the
land.
"Have you any idea how much glass costs? Even we
quality
folks have to bring our own windows with us when
we
travel. One could never afford to glaze all the windows
in all
of one's houses." She smiled at his expression of
dawning
comprehension. A little ruefully, she went on.
"But
I don't think we'll need the windows in the Keep of
Dare."
"What's
it like?" Rudy asked. "The Keep, I mean."
She
shook her head. "I really don't know. I've never
been
there. The Kings of the Realm abandoned Renweth
so long
ago; there was never even a hunting lodge there.
Until—Eldor—"
Again there was that hesitation, almost
an
unwillingness to speak his name. "Until the King went
there
some years ago, to have it regarrisoned, I don't think
a King
of Darwath had visited it in generations. But he
remembered
it. My grandfather remembered it, too."
"Your
grandfather?"
"Oh,
yes. Our House, the House of Bes, is descended
from
Dare of Renweth, a side descent. Now and then the
memories
show up in our people, sometimes hundreds of
years
apart. Grandfather said he remembered mostly the
darkness
inside the Keep and the smoke and the smell. He
said he
had memories of twisting passageways lit by grease
lamps,
and rickety old makeshift stairways going up and
down
into darkness. He remembered himself—or Dare, or
some
ancestor—walking through the corridors of the Keep
and not
knowing whether it was day or night, summer or
winter,
because it was always lamplight there. When he'd
speak
of it," she went on, her hands pausing, still and white
against
the colors of the gown she was holding, "I could
almost
see it, it was so close to him. I could see the stairs,
going
up like scaffolding, and the fitful gleam of the lamps
on the
stone. I could smell it, damp and murky like old
blankets
and dirty clothes, and could feel the darkness sur-
rounding
me. It will be hard to live always by torchlight."
"Always
is a long time," Rudy said, and Minalde looked
away.
They
talked a while longer of the Keep, of the Palace
at Gae,
of the small doings that had made up the life of
the
Queen of the Realm of Darwath. The fire sank in the
open
brazier that warmed the room, the flames playing in
a
small, steady amber glow over writhing scarlet coals; the
soft
smells of camphorwood and lemon sachet drifted from
the
folded clothes. "A lot of this will have to be left, I'm
afraid,"
Alde sighed. "We have only three carts, and one
of
those has to be for the records, the archives of the
Realm."
She was sitting on the floor now, turning over in
her
hands book after book from the small pile beside her.
The
firelight sparkled off their jeweled bindings and spread
gold,
like a warm suntan, on the soft flesh of her chin and
throat.
"I'd wanted to take all of these, but some of them
are
terribly frivolous. Books are so heavy, and the ones we
take really
ought to be serious, philosophy and theology.
These
may very well be the only books they'll have in the
Keep
for years."
Behind
the gentle run of her voice Rudy heard the echo
of
another voice, Gil's voice, saying, Do you realize how
many of
the great works of ancient literature didn't sur-
vive?
All because some Christian monk didn't think they
were
important enough to preserve? He'd forgotten the
context
and the conversation, but the words came back to
him,
and he ventured, "Probably a lot of people are going
to hang
onto the philosophy and theology." And, God
knows,
I wouldn't want to be shut up for years with nothing
to read
but the Bible:
"That's
true," she mused, weighing the two books in her
hands,
as if measuring pleasure and emotional truths against
fine-spun
scholastic hairsplitting. Then she turned her head,
the
dark sheet of her hair brushing his knee where he sat
on the
edge of the bed behind her. "Medda?"
The
stout servant, who all this time had worked in silent
disapproval
in the darker corners of the room, came for-
ward
now, and her manner softened imperceptibly. "Yes,
my
lady?"
"Could
you go up to the box room and see if you can
locate
another trunk? A small one?"
The
woman bobbed a curtsy. "Yes, my lady." Her heavy
tread
with its clicking heels diminished down the dark hall.
Rudy
thought to himself, Score one for Gil and ancient lit.
Alde
smiled at him across the gemmed fire-glint of the
gilded
bindings. "She doesn't approve of you. Or of any-
body,
really, who isn't sufficiently impressed by my being
Queen.
She was my nurse when I was small and she puts a
lot of
store in being the Queen's Nurse. She isn't like that
when
we're alone. Don't let her worry you."
Rudy
grinned back at her. "I know. The first time I saw
the two
of you together, I thought you were some kind of
junior
servant, the way she bossed you around."
The
fine, dark eyebrows raised, and there was a teasing
light
in her eyes. "If you'd known I was the Queen of Dar-
wath,
would you have spoken to me?"
"Sure.
Well, I mean—" Rudy hesitated, wondering. "Uh
—I
don't know. If somebody had said, 'Look, that's the
Queen,'
maybe I wouldn't even have seen you, wouldn't
really
have looked at you." He shrugged. "We don't have
kings
and queens where I come from."
"Truly?"
She frowned, puzzled at the incomprehensible
thought.
"Who rules you, then? Whom can your people
love
and honor? And who will love and guard the honor of
your
people?"
To
Rudy, this question was equally incomprehensible,
and
since his major area of success in school had been
evasion
of classes, he had only a sketchy notion of how the
United
States Government worked. But he gave her his
perceptions
of it, perhaps more informative than political
theory,
and Alde listened gravely, her arms wrapped
around
her drawn-up knees. Finally she said, "I don't think
I could
stand it. Not because I'm Queen—but it all sounds
so
impersonal. And I'm not really a Queen anymore."
She
leaned her back against the carved post of the bed
frame,
her head close by his knee. Profiled against the am-
ber
glow of the fire, her face seemed very young, though
worn
and fragile and tired. "Oh—they honor me, they bow
to me.
It's all in my name. And Tir's. But—it's all gone.
There's
nothing of it left." Her voice was small and tight
suddenly,
as if struggling to be calm against some sup-
pressed
emotion. He saw the quick shine of tears in her
violet
eyes.
"And
it all happened so suddenly. It's not the honor,
Rudy,
not having servants who wait on me. It's the people.
I don't
care about having to pack my own things, when all
my life
servants have done it for me. But those servants,
the
household at the Palace—they'd been around me for
years.
Some of them were from our House, from when I
was a
girl; they'd been with me since I was born. People
like
the Guards who stood outside my bedroom door—I
didn't
know them well, but they were like part of my life,
a part
I never really thought about. And they're all dead
now."
Her
voice flinched from it, then steadied. "You know,
there
was one old dooic slave who scrubbed the floors in
the
hall at the Palace. Probably he'd done so for his whole
life,
and he must have been twenty years old, which is very
old for
them. He knew me. He'd grunt and sort of smile at
me when
I went past. In the last battle in the Throne Hall
at Gae,
he grabbed up a torch and went with it against the
Dark
Ones, swinging it like the men swinging their swords.
I saw
him die. I saw so many people I knew die." One tear
slid
down the curve of her cheek, those lobelia-dark eyes
turning
to meet his, seeking in them some comfort, some
bulwark
against the fear and grief she'd locked in.
"It
wasn't being Queen or not being Queen," she went
on,
wiping at her cheek with fingers that shook. "It's the
whole
life, everything. Tir is all I have left. And in the
last
fight, I left him, too. We locked him in a little room
behind
the throne, my maid and I. They needed every
sword
in the hall, though neither of us had ever handled
one
before. It was like a nightmare, some—some insane
dream,
all fire and darkness, I think I must have been half-
crazy.
I thought I was going to die, and that didn't matter,
really,
but I was terrified they'd get Tir. And I left him
alone."
She repeated the words in a kind of despairing
wonder.
"I left him alone. I—I told Ingold I'd kill him if
he
didn't take Tir and go. He was going to stay and fight to
the
last. I had a sword. I told him I'd kill him . . ." For a
moment
her eyes seemed to see nothing of the shadowy
golden
warmth of the curtained chamber, reflecting only
relived
horror.
Rudy
said gently, "Well, he probably didn't believe you,"
and was
rewarded to his joy with a tiny smile of self-
mockery
and the return to the present of those haunted
eyes.
"And anyhow, I don't think you could have hurt him."
"No."
She laughed softly, shakily, as people do when
they
remember any desperate passion which has lost its
importance.
"But how embarrassing to meet him after-
ward."
And whether, as Ingold had said, it was the senti-
ments
or the social gaffe that made her smile, it was enough
to
break the grip of the horror and let its raw memory fade.
The
rain had almost ceased, its persistent drumming
dimmed
to a soft pattering rustle on the heavy glass of the
window.
Coals settled in the brazier, the glow of them like
the
last heart of a dying sunset. Minalde stood and moved
through
the dimness of the room to kindle a taper from
the
embers and transfer the flame to the trio of candles in
the
silver holder on the table. She blew out the touchlight,
and
smoke folded around her face as she laid it aside.
"That
was what I couldn't endure," she went on, her
voice
quiet, as if she spoke now of someone other than
herself.
"That I'd left my child to die. Until Ingold came to
me, the
night before last—until he brought Tir back to me
—I
never even knew if they'd survived or not. All the rest
of it,
the Dark Ones surging down on us over the torches,
the—the
touch of it, the grip of it, like an iron rope—the
Icefalcon's
face when he picked me up off the floor of the
vaults—it
doesn't even seem real. Only that I'd left my
child,
the one person, the one thing that remained out of
everything
else in my life . .."
Her
hands and her voice had begun to shake again.
Rudy
came over to her in the halo of the candles, took her
hands
to still them, and felt the fragile bones in his own
rough
grip. His touch seemed to bring her back, for she
smiled,
half-apologetically, and looked down, away from
his
face.
"Alwir
tells me I was delirious with shock," she said
softly.
"I'm glad I don't remember leaving Gae. They tell
me the
city was ruined. Now I'll always remember it in its
beauty."
She looked up at him again, that soft little smile
of
self-mockery reappearing in one corner of her sensitive
mouth.
"That's why most of the things here are Alwir's and
not
mine. They're not the things I would have brought
with me
if I'd left Gae under my own power."
"Don't
worry about it."
"But
last night," Alde went on, "I think I would have
killed
you if you'd tried to stop me from going back for
Tir. I
wasn't going to leave him again. I'll always thank
you for
going with me, for staying with me through the
vaults,
for keeping us both safe. But I think I would have
gone
alone."
"I
still think you were crazy," Rudy said gently.
She
smiled. "I never said I wasn't."
Outside,
the rain had ceased entirely. Beside them the
smooth,
waxy glow of the candles lengthened into slim
columns
of yellow and white, the light growing stronger in
the
still deep silence. For a time the peace of the room
surrounded
them, bringing them a curious, isolated mo-
ment of
happiness in the confusion and wreckage of all the
world.
Rudy was conscious, as he had seldom been so
acutely
conscious of anything in his life, of her fingers rest-
ing
lightly in his. The smell of her hair came to him, a
scent
of sweetgrass and bay, and with it the soft tallow
smell of
the candles and the richness of cedar and lavender.
Enclosed
in the heart of a jewel-box of time they were
alone
and at rest with each other, her eyes gazing up at
him,
almost black in the shadows. Looking into them, Rudy
knew—and
knew then that she knew—what was inevitably
going
to be. The knowledge went through him like a bolt
of
lightning, but it was without any real surprise. It was as
if he
had always known.
They
stood thus for an endless single moment of time,
consumed
by that shared knowledge. The only sound in the
room
was the soft swiftness of their breath. Then an open-
ing
door downstairs stirred the air, and the flame of the
candles
dipped, making the shadows bow and tremble. On
that
incoming cold draft, Alwir's voice echoed mellowly in
the
unnaturally servantless hall. ". . . ponies around to the
courtyard.
It will take most of the night to load them.
Your
things will go in the third cart." And though no
words
were audible, they heard Bektis' light voice replying,
a
querulous interrogation from Medda, and the sharp, sud-
den
jingle of sword belt and mail.
Alde
made a move to go, and Rudy caught at her hands.
Their
eyes met again, puzzled, seeking some answer to
why
what had been between them had happened. The
liking
between them had changed—everything had changed
and was
colored by what had passed. In her face Rudy saw
desire,
fear of this terrible newfound intimacy, and the re-
flection
of his own bewilderment at a feeling he had never
known
himself capable of possessing. Then her cheeks
flamed
suddenly pink in the candlelight, and she pulled her
hands
away, stammering, "I—I can't—" She turned to flee.
"Alde."
He called her softly back, and at the sound of
his
voice she stopped, her breath quick and uneven, as if
she had
run a long way. "I'll see you on the road tomor-
row."
She
whispered, "All right," and turned her eyes away.
A
moment later he heard her footsteps flying lightly down
the
hall.
CHAPTER
TEN
A long
time ago and perhaps in a previous incarnation,
Rudy
recalled seeing a movie called The Ten Command-
ments
which, among other things, had contained a memo-
rable
scene of the Children of Israel getting their butts out
of the
Land of Egypt. Charlton Heston had lifted up his
staff and
they'd all been organized and ready to go, and the
whole
clear-out had taken about three minutes of screen
time,
goats and granddaddies and all, leaving not so much
as a
crumpled bread wrapper or a pile of dog droppings on
the
tidy streets of Thebes.
Karst
had been stirring since several hours before dawn.
Rudy,
standing by the cart in which the rations earmarked
for the
Guards would be hauled, had a good view of most
of the
square, and it didn't look to him as if anybody
would
be going anywhere until damn near noon, if then.
It had
begun to rain again, and the ground was like por-
ridge.
The cart wheels bogged in it; people running back
and
forth on aimless errands churned it to ever-deeper
ooze.
Mud and rain covered everything, soaked Rudy's cloak
and his
clothing underneath, and plastered the clumped,
dirty
agglomerations of depressed-looking refugees who
stood
or sat around that scene of sodden chaos. Even Al-
wir,
storming his elegant way among them, was beginning
to look
shopworn and dirty.
By
midmorning, the square was a total confusion of
people,
goods, and makeshift transport. Children wan-
dered
from their parents and got lost. Escaping pigs had to
be
chased through the standing carts, pack beasts, and little
mounds
of personal belongings, upsetting everything in
their
flying path. The larger families and groups, and the
households
of minor nobles, were engaged in last-minute
problem-solving
sessions, among much cursing and the
waving
of arms, arguing whether to go north to the Keep
of the
landchief Harl Kinghead, south to Renweth in the
mountains,
following Alwir and the Council of Regents, or
beyond
that, over Sarda Pass, to Gettlesand, to risk the
threat
of the White Raiders in the minor Keeps of the land-
chief
Tomec Tirkenson. Rudy could see Tirkenson, big,
scarred,
and ugly, cursing his followers into line with a
vocabulary
that would have curled a bullwhacker's hair.
Rudy
himself could have left town at a moment's notice.
From
the leavings of the dead, he'd collected himself an
outfit
of warm clothes—a brown tunic, shirt, breeches,
and
boots, a hooded cloak that was too large, and a pair of
gauntlet
gloves stitched with gold and emeralds. His Cali-
fornia
clothes he carried in his pack, along with shaving
things
scrounged, like everything else, from those who had
not
survived the coming of the Dark to Karst, his Amer-
ican-made
buck-knife, a horn spoon, and his big blue plas-
tic
comb. The unfamiliar weight of a sword dragged at his
hip.
Leaning
his shoulders against the tall wheel of the cart,
shivering
in the wind that drove the rain and tossed the
dark
trees that were visible above the black, gabled roofs,
he
surveyed the milling chaos before him. Mud-slathered
people
negotiated for space in two carts, tied dirty little
bundles
onto muleback or into crude wheelbarrows or
travois,
and argued about what to take and what to leave.
Watching
them, his face stinging in the icy wind, he re-
membered
California as if his whole life there had been
something
that had happened to someone else.
"There,"
the cool, husky voice of the Icefalcon said at
his
elbow. He turned to see the tall captain pointing out to
Gil the
small train of wagons drawn up outside the Bishop's
palace,
adjacent to the Church on the opposite side of the
square.
Red-robed monks were loading two of them with
chests
that were obviously filled with something heavy,
under
the arrogant direction of the Bishop herself. "I find
that
typical," the Guard went on. "They claim to work for
the
salvation of souls, but from all I've seen, they only
collect
the tithe, and keep records of how much is owed
and
what souls have been born and baptized and confessed
and
died, like a miser counting gold. Fleeing for their
lives,
they will carry paper rather than food."
"They?"
Gil echoed curiously, and glanced up at the tall
young
man with the incongruous pale braids lying rain-
slicked
over his dark shoulders. "You're not of the Faith?"
A
disdainful sniff was all the answer she got.
Past
the Church wagons, Alwir's household and the rem-
nants
of the government of the Realm were holding what
appeared
to be a Chinese fire drill on the steps of the Town
Hall.
Rudy saw Alde seated in the front of one of the carts
there,
muffled in black fur, her eyes peeking from the
shadows
of her streaming hood. On her lap she cradled a
great
bundle of dark, trailing blankets, in which no round
pink
baby face was visible; but once he saw the blankets
squirm.
That would be Tir. Medda, her round face swollen
with
weeping, clambered up to take her place at the
Queen's
side. Alde turned her head, her gaze searching the
crowd.
Across the milling confusion she met Rudy's eyes,
then
quickly looked away, as if ashamed to be caught seek-
ing
sight of him. Beyond her, Bektis was climbing into
another
wagon, his narrow face framed in a great collar
of
expensive marten fur, looking down his elegant nose at
the
bedraggled mob in the square.
Then
someone was calling out orders, Commander
Janus'
harsh, braying battle voice rising above the sluicing
drum of
the rain and the clamor of argument and prepara-
tion.
Alwir appeared from around the corner of the Town
Hall,
mounted on a slim-legged sorrel mare. His great cloak
flapped
in the wind as he bent from the saddle to exchange
last-minute
instructions with someone on the ground. The
Guards
moved into line, a ragged double file on either side
of the
Chancellor's wagons. Like a kettleful of oatmeal
coming
at last to a boil, the people in the square, alone or
by
couples, families, or clans, caught up their few posses-
sions
and jostled for a place within that doubled line, or,
failing
that, as close to its protection as they could get.
Those
who weren't ready to go yet redoubled their prepara-
tions,
hastening in the hope of catching up on the road.
Whatever
their ultimate goal, the north or Gettlesand or
Renweth,
sticking with an armed convoy was far preferable
to
taking that long road alone.
Rudy
was a little surprised at what a mob there was,
once
they got out on the road. They moved almost without
order,
a vast confusion of provision wagons, transport carts
for the
furniture of Alwir's household and the records of
the
government of the Realm, small herds of cattle and
sheep,
here and there coveys of spare horses for those for-
tunate
enough to be riding to Renweth, the shambling rab-
ble of
household servants, and the few remaining dooic
slaves
that an occasional wealthy family had brought out
of the
ruin of their world. Families straggled behind and
around
the main body of the royal wagons, with their
crated
chickens and barking dogs, their pigs and their
milk
goats; it was astonishing how many families had ac-
tually
succeeded in holding together through the chaos
of the
last few weeks, though many of them, Rudy knew,
were
missing members. Fathers and mothers were carrying
the
bulk of the load, older children carrying those too
young
to walk, others leading or driving such livestock as
they'd
been able to save or acquire. There were not a few
grannies
and grandpas of startlingly venerable years, too—
Rudy
wondered how some of those old people had man-
aged to
run fast enough to escape the Dark. But they were
there,
leaning on walking sticks or on the shoulders of their
grandchildren
or great-grandchildren, chirping to one an-
other
with the equable calm of those who have long since
ceased
being surprised by fate. And as they departed from
Karst,
that great straggling mob passed an infinitely greater
number
of half-assembled households, still loading the last
of
their belongings onto donkey back or dog travois, or
trying
to sort out the least essential essentials, arguing and
watching
with apprehensive eyes as the convoy slopped
past in
the driving gray rain. By the looks of it, Rudy
calculated,
people would be drifting out of Karst all day.
A
mud-spattered old man with a shabby bundle and a
stout
walking stick fell into step with Rudy as they passed
the
last outskirts of the town. The path dipped steeply in a
treacherous
slide of black muck. Rudy's feet slithered on
it, and
a strong hand grasped his elbow. "Cut yourself a
staff
from the woods," a familiar scratchy voice advised.
"The
roads aren't going to get any easier, once we reach
the
mountains around Renweth."
"We're
leaving the mountains, though," Rudy said, pick-
ing his
way more carefully in the wizard's tracks. "Are
these
the same mountains we're heading for, or different?"
"Different,"
Ingold said. "We're picking up the Great
South
Road outside Gae and following it down the valley
of the
Brown River, which runs through the heartlands of
the
Realm. The road up to Sarda Pass crosses it, and we'll
take
that up into the Big Snowies, the great wall of moun-
tains
that cuts the Realm, the lands of the Wath, in two,
dividing
the river valleys from the plains and the desert of
Gettlesand.
Renweth stands above Sarda Pass. Watch the
ground."
Rudy
scrambled over slippery autumn-yellow grasses
around
a noxious patch of black quicksand. The road from
Gae up
to Karst had been graded and cut so as to be easily
negotiable
in good weather, but the constant coming and
going
of the refugees, combined with the rains and the
steady
departures that had been taking place from the
town
since dawn, had reduced the way to a treacherous
river
of slop. Those refugees who waited until the after-
noon to
quit Karst would have to wade all the way to the
plain.
Rudy looked around at the darkness of the misty
gray
woods and pictured what the land would be like for
those
who got bogged in the road when night began to fall.
He
shivered.
"How
far is it?" he asked suddenly. "How many nights
are we
going to have to spend in the open?"
"Close
to a hundred and seventy miles," Ingold replied,
making
his way through the wet brush on the firmer ground
at the
edge of the roadbed. "Eight or ten nights, if the
weather
stays good and the Arrow River isn't too high to
cross
when we get there."
"You
call this good?" Rudy grumbled. "I've been freez-
ing my
tail off since I came here. I don't think I'll ever dry
out."
Ingold
held out his hand, and the rain collected, a tiny
lake,
in his calloused palm. "It could be far worse," he
said
mildly. "We've had harsh winters these last ten years,
with
killing snows on the plains beyond the mountains driv-
ing the
White Raiders, the barbarians of the plains, to
attack
the settlements out of pure famine. This winter
promises
to be the worst yet—"
"Fantastic."
"—but
it has been noticed that the Dark Ones seem to
attack
less in foul weather. High winds, heavy rains, or
snow
seem to keep them underground. Few blessings or
disasters
come unmixed."
"Great,"
Rudy said, without enthusiasm. "So we've got
a
choice of the Dark Ones or pneumonia."
The old
man raised his eyebrows, amused. "So which
would
you prefer?"
They
turned a corner of the road, as Gil had done two
days
before, and the rusty woods seemed to part, revealing
below
them the dim, tawny plain and, half-hidden in the
pearl
of the river mist, the ruined city of Gae. Used to the
megalopolis
of Los Angeles, Rudy found the city very
small,
but there had been a grandeur to it, a walled unity
with
which the sprawling, featureless towns of his own ex-
perience
could not compare. In his mind he pieced it
together
to put roofs on the burned walls of the close-set,
half-timbered
houses and leaves on the gray lace of bare
branches.
He remembered Minalde's low, gentle voice say-
ing
wistfully, "Now I'll always remember it in its
beauty..."
That
thought brought others, and he stood for some time,
looking
out over the pastel vista of ochre and silver-gray,
until a
dimming of the noise behind him alerted him to the
passing
of the convoy, and he thrashed back to the road
and
hurried to catch them up, plowing his way through
torn
black mud in which white chicken-feathers were
caught
like flakes of fallen snow.
Still
more refugees joined them on the plain by the walls
of Gae.
The Karst-Gae road crossed the Great South Road
a few
miles from the multiple turrets of the city gates, in a
great
trampled circle amid the withered grass. Just north of
the
crossroads loomed Trad's Hill, named for some hero
of
ancient wars, the only prominence on that flat plate of
land,
and from that hill a lichenous cross of carved stone
bestowed
its arcane sanction on the joining of the ways.
There
they were met by a motley horde of fugitives from
Gae
itself, braver, or more foolish, or more conservative
souls
who had hung on in the looted ruin of the capital,
hoping
that the danger would somehow miraculously pass.
They
were far better provisioned and more heavily bur-
dened
than those who had fled to Karst earlier in the week;
better
clothed, leading carts and mules and horses, driving
milk
cows and pigs and chickens, carrying great satchels of
books,
money, spare bedding, and the family silver.
"Where'd
they get the cows?" Rudy demanded of Gil,
who
happened to be walking close by him at the time.
"They
didn't keep all them animals in the city, for God's
sake,"
Gil
said, "People in New York, Boston, and Chicago
kept
cows and pigs clear up to the 1890s. How do you
think
you got milk if you lived in town?"
As the
two parties converged, he heard the buzz of talk
pass
down the length of the swelling caravan. "Is that really
her
Majesty? Is her Majesty really well and safe? And his
Little
Majesty?" People crossed themselves thankfully and
craned
their necks to see. As an American, and not a par-
ticularly
well-informed one at that, Rudy had expected the
subjects
of a monarchy to fear and resent those who had
such
absolute power over them, and it surprised him to see
the
reverence in which they held Alde and Tir. He remem-
bered
what she had said last night, about love and honor—
that
people needed a ruler they could love, as well as a
law
they could follow. Offhand, he couldn't think of any
member
of his own government he even respected, let alone
one for
whose survival he'd offer up prayers of joy. It
caused
him to look with new eyes at the tall, hide-topped
cart
with its drooping standards of black and red and to
think
about the dark-haired girl inside.
The day
wore on, and they followed the Great South
Road
through the drenched green farmlands along the
river.
In contrast to the muddy track down the mountain,
the
road was wide and well-drained, with deep, weed-grown
ditches
on both sides and a pavement of worn, close-fitted
hexagonal
blocks of some kind of pale gray stone. As the
centers
of the blocks were more worn than the edges, they
caught
the rain in each separate hollow and turned the
road
into a shining scarf of fish-scale silver, stretching away
into
misty distance. The caravan left the wide sweep of the
plain
of Gae behind them and crossed a bridge beneath
frowning,
empty towers, to enter into the fertile bottom
lands
where the road sought its lazy way between meadow
and
farm and woods.
No
countryman, Rudy was nevertheless impressed by
the
solid appearance of prosperity that lay over the land.
The
farmhouses were well-built, most of them boasting
more
than one room, with separate quarters for the animals
—not
always the rule in nonindustrial societies, Gil re-
marked
cynically. But the emptiness of the land was chill-
ing.
They saw very few people—only the eyeless stare of
vacant
houses, the abandoned cattle, and mile after mile
of
half-harvested corn, rotting in the rain. Those people
they
did meet were the farm families, or the remnants of
them,
who came out to the road with all their worldly
goods—plow,
seed, and poultry—and the youngest baby of
the
household piled haphazardly into ox carts, to swell the
ranks
of the moving army of refugees, with children and
servants
and herd dogs driving little bunches of sheep and
cows in
their wake. As they passed through those desolate
farmlands,
the Guards, or the Red Monks, or men and
women
acting on their own left the train to forage in the
ruined
fields and the oddly crushed, deserted barns for
what
they could find, though Rudy noticed they seldom
went
into the houses that they passed. Sometimes they
came
back with wagonloads of seed and grain, or livestock,
pigs,
and bleating sheep, or the small cobby farm horses—
beasts
whose masters would take no further interest in
husbandry.
And
still it rained. The convoy had grown to an army,
plodding
along the silver road in the downpour. Rudy
thought
of the sheer number of miles involved—Hell, that's
like
walking from Los Angeles to Bakersfield—and won-
dered
what the hell he was doing there. Above the dull
overcast
and slanting rain, the gray day was sickening to-
ward
twilight.
He
shaded his eyes and squinted out across the wet land-
scape;
he saw, as he had seen several times that day, a
person—man
or woman, he couldn't always tell—wander-
ing
aimlessly in the distance, driven by the cutting wind.
He
wondered about those people, for none of them had
made
any sign that they saw the passing convoy, and none
of the
company on the road spoke or waved to them.
Sometimes
alone, sometimes two or three together, they
moved
like zombies, stood staring listlessly at nothing, or
lay on
the ground in the fields, looking blankly into the
hollow
sky.
He grew
more and more curious about these outcasts.
Toward evening,
when he saw a man and two young
women
standing at the bottom of the drainage ditch on the
side of
the road, gazing vacantly into space, he left the
pavement
and went scrambling down the side of the culvert,
slithering
through weeds and mud, and waded over to
where
they stood.
The man
wore a loose white cotton shift, plastered to his
soft,
paunchy flesh by the rain. His hands and mouth were
nearly
blue with cold, but he seemed to take no notice of
the
ankle-deep ice water in which he stood. The girls wore
dripping
silk rags, wilted flowers and colored ribbons
braided
into their wet, snarled hair. Their lobotomized
eyes
followed his motions, but none of the three made a
sound.
Rudy
passed his hand cautiously across the man's line of
vision.
The eyes tracked, but registered no understanding
of what
they saw. The girls were the same—beautiful girls,
dainty
and sweet as lilies of the valley. Rudy would cheer-
fully
have taken either or both of them to bed with him,
except
for the creeping horror of that empty stare.
"This,"
Ingold's voice said behind him, "is the other
thing
that the Dark Ones do."
Rudy
swung around, startled; he hadn't heard the wiz-
ard
approach, even through four inches of water. The old
man's
face looked taut and sick, barely visible in the
shadows
of his drawn-up hood. "We didn't see much of it
at
Karst; probably because the victims were trampled by
those
seeking safety, or lost in the woods around the town.
But I
know this from Gae. I daresay most people know it."
"What's
wrong with them?" Rudy looked from the wiz-
ard to
the three shivering, empty-eyed automatons and felt
a
creeping of his flesh that, for once, had little to do with
the
cold.
"I
think I spoke of it earlier," Ingold said quietly. "The
Dark
Ones devour the mind as well as the flesh—which
is why,
I suspect, they prey upon human beings and not
upon
beasts. As well as human flesh and human blood, the
Dark
Ones devour the psychic energy, the intelligence—
the
mind, if you will. Perhaps to them that is the most
important
of the three."
Reaching
out, Ingold shut the eyes of the man with his
thumb
and forefinger and, closing his own eyes, meditated
for a
moment in silence. The man's knees buckled abruptly,
and
Ingold stepped lightly back from him as he splashed
noisily
into the rain-thrashed water and lay face down.
Rudy
was still staring, aghast, at the corpse when Ingold
touched
each of the girls in turn. They fell and lay with
their
flowered hair floating around them in the dirty water
of the
ditch. The wizard turned away and, leaning on his
staff,
clambered up the bank again. Rudy followed him,
water
dripping soggily from the hem of his mantle, cold
and
shivering and shocked at what he was pretty sure In-
gold
had done.
They
did not speak for some time, but trudged down the
road in
silence. Then Rudy asked, "They don't get over it,
do
they?"
"No."
The wizard's voice came disembodied from the
shadows
of his hood. A harmless old man, Rudy thought.
A
charming old lunatic. No wonder people are afraid of
him.
"No,"
Ingold went on. "If they are indoors they gen-
erally
starve. If they are outdoors they die of exposure."
"Uh—anybody
ever take care of one, to see if his mind
might
come back?"
Ingold
shrugged. "Not easy when you're fleeing the Dark
yourself.
Up in Twegged in the north, at the start of all
this
trouble, it was tried. The victim lasted two months."
"What
happened after two months?"
"Her
caretakers killed her." The wizard added, in a
tone of
explanation, "They were the victim's husband and
daughter,
you see."
Rudy
looked back over his shoulder. The evening mists
were
coming down heavily, shadow and darkness covering
the
land. Still, he thought he could see in the distance the
curve
of the road, the ditch, and the whitish blur against
the
darker ground.
The
night fell, and for miles up and down the Great
South
Road the refugees sought what sleep they could.
Watch
fires threaded the darkness like a glittering neck-
lace on
both sides of the road, and all who could bear
arms
took their turn at them. In the low ground, the
puddled
rain turned to ice.
Alde
came to Rudy's watch fire in the night, with Medda
escorting
her like a stout, disapproving shadow. She was
shy
with him, and they did not speak of what had passed
between
them at Karst, but Rudy felt a joy in her pres-
ence he
had never known with any other human being. As
they
sat together with their backs to the fire, not touching,
talking
of Tir or of the small doings of the road, the in-
timacy
between them was as close and warm as if they
shared
a cloak.
The
morning dawned clear and freezing cold. The wind
had
broken the overcast and piled the clouds in the south,
like
the immeasurable slopes of achingly white mountains
against
the soaring blue of the morning sky. Word came
down
the line that wolves had attacked the horse herd
belonging
to the Church and had been driven off by the
Red
Monks; four night guards had been found dead by
their
watch fires, bloodless victims of the Dark. Never-
theless,
Bishop Govannin gave a cart-tail service of thanks-
giving,
and those who had survived the night thanked their
God
that it had been no worse.
They
came into a rolling country now, the great road
looping
through the gray-green hills. To their right, the
distant
heads of the western mountains were sometimes
glimpsed,
plum and blue and gray, or covered in the lour
of
clouds. It was a land of streams, ice-rimed in the morn-
ing,
that flowed down toward the green, lush bottom lands
in the
east. These streams were sometimes crossed by
narrow
stone bridges, but often the road simply led to
shallow
fords, so that everyone was perpetually half-wet
and
shivering. Rudy, stiff and aching in every joint, took
Ingold's
advice and cut a straight sapling from the next
grove
of trees they passed, to trim into a walking stick.
He had
never been much good at botany, but the Icefalcon
told
him the wood was ash.
Toward
noon they crossed a broad saddle of land that
lay
between two hills, and from it a vista spread before
them of
all the countryside down to the river, the long
grass
rippling palely in the wan light of a heatless sun. The
red-clothed
trooper leading the mules of Minalde's cart
paused
there to breathe them, and Rudy came up close at
her
side. Many people stood there, having stopped to rest in
the
neck of that miniature pass and look down on the
lands
below. Alde turned to him and smiled. "How are
you?"
she asked quietly, a little shy at speaking to him in
the
light of day.
"Sore
as hell." Rudy leaned on his staff, not caring if it
made
him look like an old man. "How in God's name do
you
people stand it? I feel like I'm fixing to die."
"So
do most of these people," Alde said. "So would I,
if I
didn't have a cart to ride in because I'm the Queen.
We've
been passing women all day, with children as young
as Tir.
Carrying them. They'll carry them clear to Renweth,
unless
they die on the road." She tucked the blankets
closer
around the child she held propped at her side. Tir
made a
little noise of protest and a determined effort to
divest
himself of the blankets and, Rudy guessed, to roll
off the
seat. The kid was going to be a real pest when he
started
to walk.
"Die?"
he said uneasily. He remembered things people
had
said about those who straggled from the caravan . . .
"Of
cold," Alde said. "Or hunger. We're doing all right
for
food now, but when we get out of the farm country,
there
won't be nearly enough. Not for the children or for
the old
people or for those who are sick—"
She
broke off, startled, lifting her head to stare off across
the
hills, and Rudy followed her gaze down the smooth,
falling
curves of the gray-green land. Far off he could see
huge
brown forms stalking the distant pastures, swaying
like
monstrous animated haystacks—impossibly large, mon-
sters
in the icy distance.
"What
are they?" he asked, shading his eyes. Then he
glanced
back at Alde and saw the worry on her face. "Are
they..."
"Mammoths,"
Alde said, and her tone was puzzled and
surprised.
"Mammoths this side of the mountains . . ."
"Mammoths?"
She
glanced down at him, hearing but misinterpreting
the
shock in his voice. "Woolly elephants," she explained.
"They're
common on the northern plains, of course, but
they
haven't been seen in the river valleys since—oh, for
hundreds
of years. And never this far south. They must
have
come over the passes of the mountains for some
reason."
But
mammoths were not the only things to come over
the
passes of the mountains.
That
night, as he and Alde sat talking quietly under
Medda's
disapproving chaperonage by the watch fire, Rudy
thought
he heard the distant thunder of hooves, an unlikely
sound
in the convoy where horses were few and precious,
guarded
more carefully than a miser guards his hoard.
After a
time, the night wind brought him the faint, damp
drift
of smoke and a sound that reminded him of the howl-
ing of
wolves, although there was a difference to this
sound.
In the morning he rode out with Ingold and the slim
handful
of Guards whom the convoy could afford to
mount
to look for the source of the sound.
They
found it long before the sun had managed to burn
off the
thick, white river mist. The charred hulk of a gutted
farmhouse
loomed in the opal fog, haunted by the gliding
black
shapes of spectral crows and the smell of roasted
flesh.
They found some of the farm family a little ways
from
the house. At first Rudy didn't register that the body
staked
to the ground was human; when he did, he came as
close
to fainting as he ever had in his life. He looked
away,
his face clammy with sweat and the taste of vomit in
his
mouth. He heard Janus' boots squishing in the mushy
grass
and the faint, restless jingling of bridle-bits as the
horses
tossed their heads in alarm. He heard Janus say,
"Not
the Dark," and Ingold, skirting on foot the trampled
weeds
beyond him, reply, "No."
Faintly,
another Guard's voice drifted to him. "Dooic?
Gone
feral or—or mad?"
Another
responded. "On horses? Be serious."
Ingold
returned, materializing like a specter from the
mist,
holding in his hand a strip of rawhide trimmed with
chips
of colored glass, from which a long feather dangled,
its end
tipped in blood. "No," he said, his voice calm in
spite
of the butchered horror lying in the grass nearby.
"No,
I fear this is the work of the White Raiders."
"On
this side of the mountains?" Janus asked nervously,
looking
around him.
Ingold
nodded and held out to him the rawhide, the
spinning
feather brushing his wrist and marking the flesh
with
blood. "Lava Hills People," he identified briefly, and
gestured
toward the grisly evidence, scattered over several
square
yards of grass. "It's a sacrifice, a—propitiation. An
offering
to something they fear."
"The
Dark?" the Commander asked. He took and ex-
amined
the rawhide tag.
"Doubtless,"
Ingold said slowly, and looked around him
at the
burned trees, the scorched remains of the outbuild-
ings, and
the fallen house surrounded by a hideously sug-
gestive
cloud of screeching carrion-birds. "Doubtless.
Though
if the Dark were their principal fear—why did
they
cross the mountains? The danger of the Dark is
thickest
in the valleys of the river."
"Possibly
they didn't know."
"Possibly."
The wizard's tone was still dubious, and he
moved
restlessly along the trampled verge of the grass,
scanning
the flat opaque whiteness of a countryside turned
two-dimensional
with fog, as if sniffing the wind for the
scent
of unknown danger. "In any case, it puts us in a
bad
position. You see, the hoof-tracks here are shod, which
means
they're already short of horses, stealing what they
can
find from the valley farms. My guess is that they're
too few
to protect their herds from wolves. They'll be
turning
on the convoy soon."
"Would
they?" Janus asked doubtfully.
"If
they thought they could get away with it, yes." In-
gold
came back to him, brushing the dew from his sleeves.
He
walked, Rudy noticed, with an instinctive cat-footed
care
that left hardly a mark in the sodden grass. "The
combined
force of the Guards, Alwir's troops, the Church
troops,
and the remains of the Army, plus Tirkenson's
men,
outnumber the Raiders at least twenty to one. But
the
convoy is nearly seven miles long on the march; four
miles,
bunched up to camp. They could strike us like a
spearhead
at any point."
The
Guards were mounting to go. Only Janus and Ingold
remained
afoot, talking in low voices, the red-haired Com-
mander
of the Guards towering over the smaller form of
the
wizard. From his uneasy perch on the restless horse,
Rudy
looked down at the pair of them, wondering about
the
friendship that was so evident, despite the Church
strictures
against wizards. It occurred to him that, apart
from
himself and Gil, Janus seemed to be the only friend
Ingold
had in the convoy. People, ordinary people follow-
ing the
road to the myth of refuge in the south, treated the
old man
with a combination of awe, distrust, and out-
right
fear, as something completely uncanny; even Minalde,
whose
life and child he had saved from certain doom, was
timid
and silent in his presence. Rudy wondered what the
bond
was between the wizard and the Guards.
"And
how much danger are we in, from the Dark?"
In the
diffuse light Ingold's face was thoughtful, his gaze
going
past the Commander to scan the landscape that was
slowly
revealing itself as the mists dissolved into pale and
heatless
daylight. Far off, a dark sense of movement along
the
bases of the round hills marked the road, with its
endless
chain of pilgrims; closer, crows hunched in the
bare
black trees and watched the Guards with bright, in-
quiring
eyes. All around them, north and south and west,
lay a
desolation of sun-silvered grass. Rudy felt he had
never
seen a land so empty.
"More
than we think," the wizard said quietly. "We had
a good
moon last night, but I could sense them, far off,
masses
of them. There was a Nest of them at one time,
blocked
long ago, at the foot of the mountains. The road
will
run quite close to it."
Janus'
glance cut sharply back to him, but Ingold did not
elaborate.
He only said, "Right now, speed is our ally,_
and the
weather. We must reach the Keep and quickly;
every
day on the road heightens our danger. It may be
that,
when we reach it, we will have to hold the Keep
against
more than the Dark."
CHAPTER
ELEVEN
A fever
of uneasiness seemed to spread down the con-
voy.
The unseen presence of the White Raiders dogged
them by
day, as the threat of the Dark dogged them by
night,
and all that day and the next Rudy felt it, following
the
endless road. He heard it in the snatches of conversa-
tion he
caught and picked it up, unsaid, from the people he
talked
to during the days; he saw it in the movements of
the
refugees who still clung, a vast tattered horde, to the
nucleus
of what had been the government of the greatest
Realm
in the West of the World. Little groups and families
would
accelerate past him, a man pushing an impossibly
piled
wheelbarrow, cursing an exhausted woman with a
child
in her arms and a goat on a frayed rope behind her
to
hurry, hurry, get a little farther down the road before
something—the
Dark, the wolves, the invisible Raiders—
got
them. Later Rudy would pass them, sitting in a tired
huddle
on a worn milestone, the child wailing hungrily
while
the man and woman looked over their shoulders at
the
empty lands beyond. Tempers shortened. At the cross-
ing of
the Mabigee River, its bridge flooded out by unsea-
sonable
storms in the mountains, Alwir and Bishop Govan-
nin
came to bitter words over the cartloads of ecclesiastical
records
that the Bishop had brought from Gae. The rec-
ords
could be left behind—the carts were needed for the
sick,
the injured, the very old and very young whose
strength
was failing them due to poor food and exhaustion.
The
Bishop bit back at him, "Yes, and then all record
of
precedent, which puts the dominion of God above the
commands
of man, may be left behind, too, when we
reach
the Keep."
"Don't
be a fool, woman!" Alwir snarled. "God would
rather
have souls than a load of moldy paper!"
"He
has their souls," the Bishop snapped, "or should. If
it's
souls that concern you, my lord Chancellor, turn out
your
tame mirror of Satan, your pet conjurer, and let your
precious
sick ride in his place. A man who takes the ad-
vice of
wizards should be the last to talk of souls."
The
river crossing left the refugees soaked and ex-
hausted,
and no one traveled more than a few miles on-
ward
after that. The main body of the convoy halted in
an
abandoned village and took shelter in the stone houses
that
were half-falling into ruin, scorched by the fires their
defenders
had lit against the attacking Dark, or caved in
by the
power of the Dark themselves. Those parties that
could
not fit into the houses spread out like water across
a flood
plain all around, making a great tangled city of
tents
and makeshift shelters, ringed in the far-flung watch
fires
of its bright perimeter against the coming of the night.
Rudy's
campfire was built in a little dip in the ground a
hundred
yards from the building farthest from the road.
He'd
found a tiny dugout cabin nested into the side of a
kill
that, in better days, had been used for a wood store
and
still contained ample sticks for his fire. The hill itself,
facing
away from the road and the camp, made a fair wind-
break
against the bitter, searching winds from the west.
All
that day the mountains had been visible, growing per-
ceptibly
in the west and south. Now, in the last of the
sunset,
they hung like a black wall against the cloud-
heaped
sky of evening, their heads wreathed in storms and,
when
the wind cleared the cover a little, white with the
mantle
of winter. He had been told that Sarda Pass lay
high in
those mountains. Rudy thought of snow and shiv-
ered.
He had grown used to being wolf-hungry all the
time,
and, to his surprise, his body seemed to be adapting
to days
of walking and the weariness of night guard. But
since
his coming to the Realm of Darwath, he had always
been
conscious of being cold. He wondered if he would
ever
get warm again.
When
the night was fully dark, Alde and Medda ap-
peared,
bringing him some mulled wine. Rudy sipped it
thankfully,
reflecting to himself that he'd rather have had
about
six cups of the foulest black truck-driver coffee
and a
handful of caffeine tablets. Still, he reasoned, look-
ing
across the gold rim of the cup at the girl's dark eyes,
it
proved she cared, or at least felt something for him.
Alde,
Minalde, he thought despairingly, you're the goddam
Queen
of Darwath and I'm a bum passing through, and
why
does this have to happen to me? His desire for her
was
palpable, urgent, but they could not so much as touch
hands.
Medda sat, a stout bundle of silent disapproval, on
the
other side of his fire, far enough away so as not to
overhear
their conversation, if they kept their voices low.
For the
rest, her mere presence lent them a respectability
without
which Alde would not have been able to see him
at all.
"Would
Alwir be mad if he knew you were coming out
like
this?" Rudy asked, without taking his eyes from the
darkness.
It was a soldier's trick the Icefalcon had taught
him,
not to look at the campfire. It blinded the eyes to the
movements
of the night.
"Oh—"
Her voice was unwilling. "Probably. He half-
knows.
Alwir worries about me."
"If
you were my sister, I'd want to keep an eye on you,
too."
"Not
that way, silly." She smiled at him. "He's con-
cerned
about my 'state.' So is Medda, for that matter."
Rudy
glanced briefly across the fire and met the fat
woman's
disdainful eyes. She'd given him dirty looks when-
ever
their paths had crossed these last five days, and to-
night
he sensed the silence between Alde and Medda that
spoke
louder than any words. He guessed she'd said some-
thing
to her charge, the beautiful young woman who had
once
been her little girl, about going out alone at night to
see a
man, a mere Guard and an outworlder at that. He
could
feel in that frosty silence how that conversation had
gone;
he knew that Medda had reminded Alde of her sta-
tion in
life and had had the words thrown back in her face.
"If
it will make you trouble . . ." he began.
She
shook her head, the great cloudy mass of her un-
bound
hair sliding on the fur collar of her cloak. "I'd only
lie
awake, nights," she said. And her eyes met his, knowl-
edge
passing between them.
So they
were quiet for a tune, sitting side by side, not
too
close, not touching, only comfortable in each other's
presence.
He watched the darkness beyond the ring of the
firelight
and judged, with his ears, the noises of the night.
In the
distance he saw a dark shape walking back toward
the
camp along the line of the wide-spaced fires and knew
it was
Ingold, Ingold who seldom slept now, but divided
his
nights between a solitary, silent patrol and long hours
of
watching, staring into the heart of his enchanted crystal,
in the
cold time before dawn.
Wind
moved the clouds down from the west, obscuring
the
brightness of the moon. The camp was far enough
away,
behind the sheltering hill, to give them a greater
illusion
of privacy than they had ever had before, while
the
moon gave enough light between the clouds for Rudy
to be
sure nothing was sneaking up on them. He was less
afraid
of the Dark Ones than of the White Raiders or the
wolves,
though in all that dim world he saw nothing move,
nor
heard any howling nearer than the far-off river. So
they
drank the spiced wine Alde had brought and spoke
of
everything and nothing, of their childhoods and their
past
lives, trading memories like a couple of children
trading
marbles. More clouds gathered, and the darkness
surrounding
them deepened, the firelight warming and
bright
on their faces.
The
brief downpour, when it rushed without warning
from
the sky, took them completely unawares. Hand in
hand,
they ran for the dugout cabin, with Medda grum-
bling
behind and stopping to pick up the discarded wine
cup and
a stick from the fire. They fell, laughing, through
the
door. From inside, they could just barely see Medda,
leaning
over the torch to protect it from the rain and
stumping
grumpily through the long grass. But for the
moment
they were alone in the damp, earth-smelling dim-
ness of
the little house.
The
realization that this was the first time they had
been
alone together out of anyone's sight came to both
of
them, and their laughter faded. In the darkness of the
shack,
he could hear Alde's breathing and he sensed that
she was
afraid of something she had never felt before,
something
to which she was not yet ready to give herself.
She did
not move when he put his hand up to push aside
her
unbound hair. Her cheek was cold under his touch.
He
could feel her trembling, feel her breath grow quick
and
uneven against his face. She put her hands against his
chest,
resisting as he pulled her to him, and the cloak
slid
from her shoulders and fell with a soft thud around
their
feet. He took her mouth, forcing it open with his
own.
Though she made a small noise of denial in her throat,
she did
not pull away from him. She went limp against
him,
shaking as his hands molded her body under the soft
texture
of the gown, her arms sliding up around his shoul-
ders,
his neck, uncertain at first and then clinging tighter
and
tighter, as if she would never let him go. Through the
burning
urgency of his own desire, his common sense
told
him that Medda would be there soon—that the old
nurse
could probably see them already and would be
clucking
her shocked disapproval of them.
Releasing
Alde's searching mouth from his, he raised his
head
and looked out. The rain was easing to a gentle
shower,
and a sliver of moon had broken through a hole
in the
clouds. By its light, he saw Medda.
She
stood less than four feet away. She wasn't looking
at
them. Though her eyes were open and staring, she wasn't
looking
at anything. The wine cup dangled forgotten from
one
nerveless hand, and the torch had gone out in a puddle
at her
feet. All this Rudy saw across Alde's shoulder in a
split
second of time, and he felt a chill, directionless wind
ruffle
across his face from somewhere in the darkness.
With a
violence born of the pure reflex of terror, he
slung
Alde into the back of the dugout and jerked the door
shut
with a slam like a gunshot. She fell against the wall,
catching
at it for balance, her eyes dilated with fear and,
he
suspected, misinterpretation of the situation. "Get me
one of
those sticks," he commanded roughly. Warned by
something
in his voice, she obeyed immediately. He used
it to
bolt the door and found another to use as a wedge for
good
measure, his hands shaking with shock.
"There's
a Dark One out there," he told her quietly.
She
said nothing, but in the dim light of the cabin's single
window,
he could see her eyes get wider. "It—got Medda."
"Oh!"
she whispered.
"Do
you have anything to make a fire with?"
She
shook her head, a tiny gesture, stunned. Then sud-
denly
she turned, looking around the almost lightless in-
terior
of the room. "There's wood all along the back here,"
she
said, her voice low and tense. "Your fire outside . . ."
"It's
a long way to my fire," Rudy said shortly, "and
the
rain probably put it out. I wouldn't leave you alone
here,
anyway." The ceiling of the tiny place was barely
high
enough for him to stand. He waited, drawn sword
in
hand, before the door, trying desperately to think what
to do
next. Behind him Alde gathered sticks together and
made a
competent little arrangement of them, with dead
leaves
and twigs for tinder, working swiftly, without dis-
play of
the fear that must have been screaming inside her.
Still
tensed to spring, Rudy knelt down and fingered the
wood.
Soft and splintery. Did one need a special kind of
wood,
to make fire by rubbing two sticks together? Any-
how for
sure, this trash wouldn't work. He examined the
hilt of
his sword. Steel. Flint and steel. Was it worth it to
try to
get a spark from the steel blade of the sword, at
the
risk of ruining the thing for fighting purposes? Anyhow,
the
walls of the dugout were made of wattle-and-daub, not
stone,
let alone flint.
The
rain now drummed lightly and steadily on the front
wall.
The moon must be hidden again, since he could see
almost
nothing in the darkness. But he felt suddenly that
same
chill wind creeping around the edges of the door. It
stirred
in the tinder, made a thin, dry whispering among
the
leaves, and closed off the breath in his throat with the
strangling
grip of fear.
Flint,
he thought through his panic. We've got to strike
a spark
somehow.
"Are
you wearing any jewelry? Any stones at all?"
She
shook her head, her eyes wide.
What
the hell, I probably wouldn't know what to do
with
flint if it jumped out and bit me . . . "Well, after
this
you're going to have a gold ring made with a hunk of
flint
as big as a walnut set in it, and you're going to wear
it all
the time, you understand?"
"All
right," she whispered breathlessly.
What
the hell am I talking about? There's not going to
be
anything after this.
Alde
crouched back, keeping out of his way so as not to
encumber
his sword arm, though her terror cried for the
comfort
of his touch. High up, near the top of the door,
Rudy
heard a soft bumping noise, like a testing finger
tapping,
and then a faint scratching on the heavy glass of
the
window. His heart slamming sickeningly against his
ribs,
Rudy thought, All I can do is take a swing straight
down at
whatever comes through that door. What's stone?
What's
flint? What will make a spark? I wish to Christ
Ingold
were here. He could make a fire just by looking
at the
wood.
Wonder
if I could do that?
Ingold's
words came back to him, spoken in the darkness
of the
gatehouse, the light glowing up from his empty
palm.
You know what it is . . . by its true name you call
it . .
. Rudy looked at the tiny pile of wood, the dried
leaves
and tinder scattered beneath. That would catch, he
knew it
would. Its true name . . . Maybe there was some
kind of
a magic name for fire. But whatever you called it,
fire
was fire. The smell of it was the same, the brightness.
He
thought how it would smell as it caught off those twigs,
sort of
sweet and sharp. It would give off snappy, sputtery
little
gold sparks, little crackly sounds . . . He called them
to
mind, the shape and smell and brightness, straining eyes
and
mind to see the tinder in the deepening darkness. He
saw
only that the room was fading; even his consciousness
of Alde
kneeling beside him and his chilled fear of the
death
that waited outside the door began growing less im-
portant
than the fire, the fire purely for its own sake. He
could
see it, hear it, smell it; he knew how it would splutter
out of
that tinder. "
The dry
leaves fluttered a little in the wind. From far
off, he
could see Alde press her knuckles to white lips,
all the
while without a sound. Detachedly, he saw the fire
in his
mind, in the first instant of its sparking, and knew
exactly
how it would be. He could see it, just couldn't
touch
it yet. He felt his mind and body relax, withdrawing
to some
great distance, his perspective on the world alter-
ing,
narrowing to only the dry shapes of leaf and twig
and
wood that he could see, quite clearly, in the utter dark-
ness.
The wood, the dry little heap of leaves, the tiny gold
sparks
like stars . . . Without moving, he reached his mind
across
from where he was to where the fire was, as easily
as
picking a flower that grew on the other side of a fence.
There
was a sudden, bright crackle of little gold sparks,
and the
sharp, sweet smell of dry leaves catching. Rudy
bent
forward, still detached from himself, calm, half-
wondering
if it could be a hallucination, but calmly certain
that it
was not, and fed one twig and then another to the
fire,
real fire where no fire had been before. The light
spread
quickly into the room, threw gleeful shadows across
his
face, and danced flickering, crazy jigs of triumph that
reflected
in tiny points of light in Alde's eyes as she brought
up more
and bigger sticks without a word.
And
then it hit him, like a blow from a club. I did that,
he
thought. I did that. The warmth scorched his trembling
fingers
and seeped into the cold flesh of his palms and
face.
The wind that had rustled so evilly at the door
faltered,
then waned and ceased, and all outside the dugout
became
terribly still, except for the faint drizzling of the
last of
the rain.
Rudy's
mind echoed like a thunderclap with the shock,
and
rocked wildly with surging triumph. One part of him,
it
seemed, was screaming, I did it! I did it! I called the fire,
and the
fire came, and another was saying, I shouldn't have
been
able to do that. But more real than either, deeper,
within
his true heart, there was only a calm knowledge,
clear
and small like a little light—the memory of that
first
crackle of flame in the dry leaves and the knowing that
he
could do this.
Then he
looked up and met Alde's terrified eyes. They
were
wild with fear, a fear tinged with hysteria and relief
and
superstitious terror, fear of the Dark, of the fire, of
him. He
saw that newfound power reflected in her eyes,
saw it
as others would see it, alien and terrible and un-
canny.
She couldn't speak the wild question in her eyes,
nor
could he have answered, and for a moment they could
only
stare at each other in the firelight, as once before they
had
stared in the shocked, shared knowledge of their desire.
Then,
with a sob that seemed to rip her soul from her
body,
she threw herself into his arms, weeping wildly,
holding
onto him as if he were her last hope of life itself.
Magic
and terror and death released him, the tension break-
ing
with an almost physical shock, and he clutched the
slender
girl in his arms with a grip that seemed to drive
her
bones into his and buried his face in her dark hair.
Desperately
they took one another beneath their shared
cloaks
on the floor, while the fire threw its shadow dance
across
the low rafters.
Afterward
Alde slept, terror exhausted in passion, and
Rudy
lay awake, sword close to his hand, watching the
fire
and letting his thoughts of past and future have their
way
with him, until the rain outside stopped, and dawn
came.
"You
think that's fighting?" Gnift roared in a voice that
cut
like the steel of his grip-worn sword. "Get him! Get
him!"
The Icefalcon, armed with an eighteen-inch wooden
stick,
feinted warily at his opponent, a massive Guard
wielding
three feet of split bamboo that could draw blood
like
metal. The young captain was marked with it, face
and
hands; Rudy, sitting on the sidelines, shuddered. Gil,
he
noticed, watched beside him with an alert interest. She
looked
as if she'd already had her turn at this game, and
gotten
the worst of it.
Stubborn
broad, he thought. They'll have to kill her be-
fore
she'll give it up.
Gnift
yelled, "Attack him, you puling coward! Don't
make
love to him!"
The big
man swung, and the Icefalcon shifted back out
of
range. Exasperated, Gnift stepped forward under the
arc of
the wooden blade, grabbed the back of the captain's
black
tunic, and shoved him into the fray. The result was
bloody,
painful, and exhausting for both combatants.
Rudy
said thoughtfully, "One of these days somebody's
gonna
take a poke at that little bastard."
"Gnift?"
Gil raised her split eyebrow in amused sur-
prise.
"Not bloody likely." Rudy remembered seeing Gnift
sparring
with Tomec Tirkenson, the big landchief of Gettle-
sand,
yesterday evening about this time, in the last of the
daylight
after the long march. Maybe Gil was right.
They
watched for a time more, sitting side by side on
the
square of groundcloth just off the makeshift training
floor.
Around them, the camp was settling itself down for
the
night once again. It would soon be time to collect their
meager
rations and make for the watchfires. Rudy noticed
that
Gil looked drawn and exhausted, a thin, almost sex-
less
shadow with a great straggling mane of black hair.
He knew
that in addition to marching and guard duty she
was
training this way nightly, on starvation rations, with
the
mess of her half-healed arm wound, as if deliberately
driving
herself to collapse.
Wind
sneered down off the mountains and washed over
the
camp like incoming tide. The mountains loomed above
them
now, hugely close, blacking the western sky, a sheer
wall,
like the Rockies. That morning they had passed the
crossroads,
which were watched over by a crumbling stone
cross,
and set their feet on the great road that ran up
to
Sarda Pass. It was colder here in the shadows of the
foothills
and desolate of all habitation.
In the
wan twilight before them, the Icefalcon was hold-
ing his
own, retreating before the great swinging strokes of
his
opponent's sword. Sweat bathed his face, white in the
frame
of ivory hair, and his pale eyes were desperate with
exhaustion.
Cursing, reviling, Gnift circled the fighters,
finally
stepping lightly up behind the captain and hooking
his
feet out from under him with a deft sweep of one leg.
The
Icefalcon went down, his opponent dropping on him
like
grim death from above. There was a confused blur
of
movement. The younger man came up under the arc
of the
longer sword with a clean slash across the big
Guard's
belly and turned the end of the movement into a
circle-throw
that hurled his attacker over his head and flat
on the
Guard's back in the mud. He got both swords and
scrambled
to his feet, gasping. The bigger man lay on
the
ground, puffing and cursing. Gnift yelled, "When you
get
your man down, do something, don't just take his
sword
and stand there like a fool. If you did that . . ."
Rudy,
who'd been tremendously impressed with this last
maneuver,
whispered, "Do all warriors have to do that? I
mean,
Alwir's Guards and the Church troops?"
"The
method is much the same," Ingold's mild voice
remarked
behind them. "Gnift is stricter than most, and
the
Guards have the reputation of having the best instruc-
tion in
the West of the World. Methods differ in different
modes
of combat, of course. In Alketch, for instance, they
train
their famous cavalry by chaining a slave by one
wrist
to an iron post in the middle of the exercise hall,
putting
a sword in his free hand, and having the cavalry
trainees
practice their saber-charges on horseback against
him."
"What's
their budget for replacements?" Rudy wanted to
know.
"Somebody remind me never to visit Alketch."
Gil
glanced sideways, from the old shackle gall on the
wizard's
wrist to his serene face, and said, "Somebody told
me once
that you used to be a slave in Alketch."
"Did
they?" Ingold's eyes twinkled. "Well, I have been
and
done many things in the course of my misspent life.
Rudy,
if you could spare me a moment, I would like to
talk
with you in private." He rose and led the way through
the
orange-lit confusion of the settling camp with Rudy
tagging
at his heels. At a distance they passed Alwir's
wagons,
and Rudy recognized the sable standards of the
House
of Dare and knew that Minalde was there with her
son.
He had
hardly spoken to Alde during the day. She had
turned
away from him, silent and more shy than before, as
if
withdrawing herself after the shattering intimacy of last
night.
Rudy was puzzled but not surprised; they had taken
each
other in the passion that followed tension and terror;
such
things could change drastically come morning. It
could
be grief at Medda's death, though she must have
known,
after the Guards led the poor, stumbling zombie
who had
been her oldest companion out of the camp, that
there
was no way to bring her along with the train. It
could
be shame, either at the act of sex itself or at its
implicit
betrayal of her dead King. Rudy wondered about
that.
Alde seldom spoke of Eldor and shied almost visibly
at the
mention of his name. It might be shame that she'd
lain
with a commoner—though from remarks about history
that
Gil had dropped in passing, that wasn't something that
seemed
to bother female royalty much—or, more likely,
fear
and a kind of revulsion that she'd lain with a wizard.
Alde
was a good daughter of the Church. Rudy remem-
bered
the look in her eyes, awe and a wild kind of horror,
staring
into his across the new brightness of the flames.
But
whatever her reasons, he sensed in her no anger
toward
him, only a terrible emotional confusion. And he
knew,
looking back at the square gray silhouette of the
wagon
top against the fading salmon of the sky, that he
must
bide his time. Rudy had been around enough to know
that
sleeping with someone once could happen to and with
literally
anybody. It was the second time, and those after,
that
had meaning. Impatient as he was to be with her again,
he was
aware that to rush her would be fatal. He knew
Alde
and knew that behind her deceptive gentleness lay a
core of
steel. For all her quiet diffidence, she was not a
woman
who could be bullied into bed.
And
that would be fine, he thought, as his breathing
suddenly
constricted, if she were the only one involved.
He
forced himself to turn his eyes away.
"Now."
Ingold halted on the grassy open ground that
lay
between the edge of the camp proper and the guard
line
where the watch fires were being kindled. Here they
were
alone, camp and lines both fading into the feature-
less
gray of the evening. The wind blew the cold rain-smell
down
around them, surging through the grass and over the
bare
patches of stony ground beneath their feet. "You
told me
this morning how you called fire at need last
night.
Show me what you did."
Rudy
gathered a few sticks together that had been
dropped
from the making of the watch fires and found a
patch
of dry ground. With his thumbnail he peeled enough
dry
bark to make a little tinder and sat cross-legged beside
that
small pinch of wood, his cloak wrapped about him.
He
relaxed his body and mind, shutting out the smells of
the
camp, the smoke and scent of wet grass, and the low-
ing of
the cattle. He saw only the twigs and the bark, and
how the
stuff would catch. Smokier than last night's leaves,
he
thought. A little spot, like one made with a magnifying
glass
in the sun . .. a different smell from the leaves . . .
The
fire came much more quickly than it had come be-
fore.
There
was a hint of triumph mixed with anxiety in the
glance
Rudy gave Ingold. The older wizard watched the
new
flames impassively for a moment, then without moving
put
them out. He produced the stump of a candle from
somewhere
about his person and held it a few feet from
Rudy's
eyes.
"Light
the candle," he instructed.
Rudy
did.
Ingold
blew it out thoughtfully and regarded him for a
moment
in silence through the whitish drift of the smoke.
Then he
set it aside. From a pouch in his belt he fished a
piece
of string with a dangling bit of lead on it like a
fishing-sinker.
He held the string before him and steadied
the
suspended weight to stillness with his free hand.
"Make
it move."
It was
like starting the fire, only different.
"Hmm."
Ingold gathered the plumb weight into his hand
again
and put it away without speaking.
A
little ripple of evening wind stirred the grasses beside
them.
Rudy fidgeted, his mind shying from the implications
of what
he had done. "What is it?" he asked nervously. "I
mean—how
can I do this?"
The
wizard straightened his sleeves. "You know that,"
he
said. "Better than I do." Their eyes met and held. Be-
tween
them passed the understanding of something known
only to
those who had felt what it was. There were not
even
words for it among those who did not know already.
"The
question is the answer, Rudy. The question is always
the
answer. But as to your Power, I'd say you were born
with
it, as we all are."
We,
Rudy thought. We. He stammered, knowing Ingold
must be
right, his mind fighting the nets of the impossible.
"But—I
mean—I never could do this before."
"In
your own world you couldn't," Ingold said. "Or
possibly
you could—did you ever try?"
Rudy
shook his head mutely, helpless. It had never
occurred
to him past his childhood. But unbidden images
invaded
his mind, images of dreams he had had as a very
small
child, before he started school. Things he was not
sure
whether he had done or only dreamed of doing. The
memory
of the need in him struck like an arrow, a need
deeper
than his love for Alde, a wordless yearning so
deeply
buried he had never sensed its loss in all his aimless
life.
The need for something they had taken away from
him
when he was far too young to fight back. And, like
the
child he had been, he felt the tears choke him.
"Never?"
Ingold whispered, and his eye was like a
dragon's
that holds and reflects, a mirror that swallows the
soul.
In it Rudy saw his own memory of the spark leaping
from
the dried leaves, the dark, terrified gaze of deep blue
eyes
into his. He saw the scattered pictures from childhood
dreams,
and felt the utter grief he had felt when he had
first
learned that they were impossible. Ingold's voice held
him
like a velvet chain. "You have talent, Power. But even
your
little power is dangerous. Do you understand that?"
Rudy
nodded, hardly able to breathe. "Will I—can I—"
Was
there some kind of etiquette about it, some way of
asking?
"Will the Power grow, if I learn how to use it
right?"
The old
man made a slight movement of assent, sky-blue
eyes
remote and cool as water.
"Will
you teach me?"
The
voice was now very soft. "Why do you want to
learn,
Rudy?"
He felt
then for the first time the terrifying extent of
the old
man's power. The blue gaze pinned his brain like
a
spear, so that he could neither answer nor deny. He saw
his own
thoughts, stripped before that watching power, a
mushy
jumble of half-formed longings and a selfish, dis-
proportionate
indulgence of his own passing emotions,
pettiness,
indolence, sensuality, a thousand sloppy, stupid
errors
past and present, murky shadows he had turned
his
back on, probed by glass-edged light. "I don't know,"
he
whispered.
"That's
no answer."
Rudy
tried desperately to think, to express more to him-
self
than to the old man that terrible need. This, he under-
stood
suddenly, was what Gnift did to your courage, your
spirit,
your body, making you understand your own truth
before
you could manifest it to another. He understood
then
why Gil trained with the Guards, understood the bond
of
commitment and understanding that lay between Ingold
and the
Commander. And he knew he had to answer and
answer
right, or Ingold would never consent to be his
teacher.
But
there is no right answer! the other half of his mind
cried.
It's nothing—it's only that calm. It's only knowing
that
it's right, and I have to do it. It's only that I wasn't
surprised
when I could call the fire. But it's different for
everyone,
everything.
And
suddenly Rudy knew, understood, as if something
had
been turned within him and the truth of his own soul
had
focused. Tell the truth, he told himself. Even if it's
stupid,
it is the truth. He whispered, "If I don't, nothing
will
mean anything. If I don't learn—about that—there
won't
be any center. It's the center of everything, only I
didn't
know it."
The
words made sense to him, though they were prob-
ably
utter Greek to the wizard. He felt as if some other
person
were speaking through him, drawn out of his im-
mobilized
mind by the hypnotic power of that depthless
gaze.
"What's
the center?" Ingold pressed him, quiet and in-
escapable
as death.
"Knowing—not
knowing something, but just knowing.
Knowing
the center is the center; having a key, one thing
that
makes sense, is sense. Everything has its own key,
and
knowing that is my key."
"Ah."
Being
released from that power was like waking up,
but
waking up into a different world. Rudy found he was
sweating,
as if from a physical shock or some great exertion.
He
wondered how he could ever have thought Ingold harm-
less,
how he could ever have not been half-afraid, awed,
loving
the old man.
Dryly
amused fondness briefly crossed the old man's
face,
and with slow illumination, Rudy came to realize the
vast
extent of Ingold's wizardry, seeing its reflection in
the
potential of his own. "You understand what it is," the
wizard
said after a moment. "Do you understand what it
means?"
Rudy
shook his head. "Only that I'll do whatever I have
to. I
have to do it, Ingold."
At
that, Ingold smiled to himself, as if remembering
another
very earnest and extremely young mage. "And that
means
doing whatever I tell you to," he said. "Without
question,
without argument, to the best of your ability.
And
only you know what that best is. You will have to
memorize
thousands of things that seem to have no mean-
ing,
foolish things, names and riddles and rhymes."
"I'm
not very good at memorizing stuff," Rudy admitted
shamefacedly.
"Then
I suggest that you get good, and quickly." The
eyes
turned cold again, distant, and in the clipped, deci-
sive
tone Rudy could feel once more the flash of that ter-
rible
power. "I am not a kindergarten teacher; I have my
own
work. If you wish to learn, Rudy, you will learn as
and how
and when I choose to teach you. Is that clear?"
For a
split second, Rudy wondered what would happen
if he
said, What if I can't? But if the question was the
answer,
the answer would surely be. Then you can't. It was
entirely
his choice. And though he would be as friendly as
before,
Ingold would never mention the subject again.
Rudy
saw his own future, made suddenly clear, and
what
the commitment would mean: a change, enormous,
all-encompassing,
irrevocable, and terrifying, in everything
he was,
everything he would do or be. The choice was be-
ing
thrust violently into his shaky, unprepared hands, a
decision
that he must make, could never back out of, and
would
never, ever be able to make again.
How
come stuff like this always happens to me?
The
question was the answer. Because you want it.
He
swallowed hard and found his throat aching with
strain.
"Okay," he said weakly. "I'll do it. I'll do the best
I can,
I mean."
Night had
fallen around them. Ingold folded his arms,
a dim,
cloaked shadow against the distant glitter of the
camp
lights. Thin, translucent ground mist had risen, and
the
sounds and smells of the camp were obscure behind
them;
Rudy had the sense of being isolated in a wet, cold
world
of nothingness, as if he had been kneeling there
in the
damp grass for hours, wrestling with some terrible
angel.
And he
had won. His soul felt light and empty, without
triumph
or anxiety, as if he could drift upon the wind.
Then
Ingold smiled and was nothing but a shabby little
man in
a stained and rusty brown robe. "That," he said
pleasantly,
"is what I shall expect of you at all times.
Even
when you are bored, and tired, and hungry; when
you're
afraid of what I tell you to do; when you think it's
dangerous,
or impossible, or both; when you're angry
with me
for prying into what you consider your trivial
personal
life. You will always do the best you can; for
only
you understand what it is. God help you!" He stood
up,
shaking the damp grass and stray twigs from his rough
robe.
"Now get back to camp," he said, not unkindly. "You
still
have your shift of watch to stand."
Cold
wind keened down the foothills, whining in the
canyons
surrounding the refugee camp that lay strung out
along
the road. It flattened Rudy's little fire to thin yellow
streamers
that paralleled the ground and sent chill fingers
through
cloak and tunic and flesh, searching out his bones.
The
first hard, mealy, little flakes of snow had begun to fall.
Alde
had not come.
Rudy
knew why and was sorry. What had happened
last
night had changed things between them. That, too, was
irrevocable;
if she was not his lover, she could no longer
be his
friend, either. And, good daughter of the Church
that
she was, she would be no wizard's woman.
He
would miss Minalde. His body hurt for her, but the
longing
was deeper than that, a loneliness, a need for her
company,
for the sound of her soft voice. It brought home
to him
with a painful little stab that he was now an out-
sider,
as he would be an outsider for the rest of his life. In
this
world, or in his own, he had cut himself off from all
hope of
communication with those who did not understand.
It
would be worse when he went home—that much he
knew
already. But having seen the center, the focus, the
key of
his own life, he knew there was no way he could
not
pursue it. Even when he left the peril-fraught world
of the
Dark and returned to the electric jungles of Southern
California,
he knew he would be driven to seek it there.
And he
knew that somehow, some way, seeking, he would
find.
The
wind stung his face, carrying with the snow the
mourning
of the wolves. Behind him he sensed the camp
slipping
into its dark sleep, and the endless road behind
him,
down the foothills and out onto the plains, marked on
both
sides by a broken chain of watch fires.
He cast
his mind back to his interview with Ingold
earlier
in the evening, trying to recall that reflected glimpse
he'd had
of his own mind, or soul, or the center of his
own
being. The memory was hazy, like the memory of in-
tense
pain. He could recall seeing it, but could not call
back
clearly what it had been—only the grip, the cold, of
Ingold's
thought on his, and the clear certainty, for the
first
time in his life, of knowing what he was.
He
hadn't known then that it would cost him Minalde.
He
hadn't known it would cost him everything that he was,
for
that was what it amounted to. But if the question is the
answer,
it wouldn't have mattered if I knew or not. He
only
knew that if he had turned away, he would always
have
been sure that he'd had it within his grip and let it go.
He knew
that he couldn't have let it be taken from him a
second
time.
The
fire crackled, the wood sighing as it broke and fell.
Rudy
took a stout branch and rearranged it. The shower of
ascending
sparks glittered like fireworks among the spitting
snow.
He huddled deeper into his cloak, then glanced back
in the
direction of the camp. By the renewed light of the
fire he
could see a dark figure walking toward him,
wrapped
from head to heel in fur. Her black cloud of hair
blew
about her in the wind, and the firelight, when she
drew
near him, laid blue and golden shadows across her
violet
eyes.
CHAPTER
TWELVE
"Be
still. Let your mind be silent. See nothing but the
flames."
The hypnotic smoothness of Ingold's voice filled
Rudy's
mind as he stared at the brightness of the Guards'
campflre
by which he sat. He tried to push aside his own
chasing
thoughts, his fatigue and need for sleep, and
his
wondering about the White Raiders he thought he'd
glimpsed,
dogging the line of march. He tried to think of
nothing
but the fire, to see nothing but the little cluster of
sticks,
transfigured by the flames and heat. He found that
the
less he tried to think of something, the stronger it
crowded
back.
"Relax,"
Ingold said softly. "Don't worry about anything
for the
time being. Only look at the fire and breathe."
The
wizard turned away to speak to a middle-aged
woman
who'd appeared on the edge of the Guards' en-
campment
with a sickly-looking young boy in tow.
Doggedly,
Rudy tried to obey his last instructions. The
cold,
overcast daylight was fading out of the sky again,
the
eighth day from Karst. Voices bickered distantly along
the
line of the road as thin rations were handed out. Far off
he
heard the castanet-click of wooden practice swords
and the
harsh bark of Gnift's sarcasm blistering his ex-
hausted
students. Somewhere he heard Alde singing and
Tir's
little crowing voice joining in, making baby sounds
of joy.
A feeling went through him such as he'd never
known
before, a desperate tangle of yearning and relief
and
affection, and it distracted him hopelessly from the
matter
at hand.
He
glanced up. Ingold was sitting on his heels, looking
gravely
into the sick youngster's dutifully opened mouth,
then
into his eyes and ears. The mother wore that harried,
angry
look so common in the refugee train now. She was
looking
away, pretending she hadn't brought her son
to an
old excommunicate wizard; but her eyes slid back
to the
child, anxious and afraid. There were doctors in the
West of
the World who were not wizards, but few of them
had
survived the coming of the Dark. Those few who
moved
south with the convoy had their hands full, between
sickness
and exposure, fatigue and starvation; people were
not as
fastidious about going to a wizard for help as they
had
once been.
Ingold
stood up and spoke briefly to the woman, his
hand
resting on the boy's dark, ruffled hair. When they had
gone,
he turned back to Rudy and raised his eyebrows in-
quiringly.
Rudy
shrugged helplessly. "What am I supposed to be
looking
for?" he asked.
Ingold's
eyes narrowed. "Nothing. Just look at the
fire.
See how it shapes itself."
"I
have looked," Rudy protested. "And all I see is fire."
"And
what," Ingold asked tartly, "did you expect to
see?"
"Uh—I
mean—" Rudy was conscious of having missed
the
boat somewhere but wasn't sure where. "I see you
watch
the fire every night and I know for sure you aren't
just
watching wood burn."
"No,"
the wizard said. "And when you've been a wizard
for
fifty years, maybe you'll see more than that, also. You
must
love things wholly for their own sake, Rudy, before
they
will give themselves to you."
"Sometimes
I just don't understand," Rudy said much
later
to Alde, when she'd slipped away from her wagon
to sit
in the warmth of their shared cloak. "I feel that I
should
understand all this stuff, but I don't. I don't even
know
what I don't know—I feel as if I've been dumped
in the
ocean and I'm trying to swim, but it's a million miles
deep. I
don't even know how deep it is." He shook his
head.
"It's crazy. A month ago—" He broke off, unable
to
explain to this girl, who had grown up knowing kings
and
mages, that a month ago he would have laughed at
anyone
claiming to possess such powers.
Her
body moved closer to him, her breath a little white
mist in
the air. Due to the narrowness of the canyons
through
which the road now wound, the lines of watch
fires
lay only a dozen paces from the edges of the sleeping
convoy,
hemmed in by the shoulders of the mountains
whose
heads were hidden behind towering promontories of
granite,
furred over with the black of the pine forest. Now
and
then that day, Rudy had been able to catch glimpses
of the
higher peaks of the Rampart Range of the Big
Snowies
gouging the clouds like broken teeth. But mostly
he was
conscious of the forerunners of that looming
range,
and the way they overlooked the turnings of the
road
and hid what lay beyond.
Alde's
voice was comforting. "If the water's a million
miles
deep or only six feet, all you have to do is to keep
your
head above it," she said. "For an outlander, you're
doing
well." And her arm tightened around his waist.
He
grinned at her and returned the pressure gently. "For
an
outlander, I'm doing fantastic," he said. He shifted his
arm
around her shoulders to look at the tattoo on his wrist.
Alde
noticed the movement and looked, too, "What's
that
for?" she asked.
He
chuckled. "Just thinking. A girl I knew used to tease
me
about my tattoo. That's my name on the banner there
across
the torch. She used to say I got it so I could remem-
ber who
I was, if I ever forgot."
"And
do you need to be reminded?"
He
looked out for a moment into the bitter stillness of
the
alien night, then up to the great, burning stars. His
ears
caught the distant howling of wolves. All the scents
of the
looming mountains came to him, shrub and pine,
rock
and water. The long hilt of the killing sword lying
close
by his right hand reflected the dim sheen of firelight,
as did
the braided hair of the woman curled, warm and
fragile
as a captive bird, in the circle of his other arm. He
remembered,
as if in an old legend, a sunburned California
youth
in a garish pachuco jacket, painting vans in a body
shop.
About the only thing they had in common, he re-
flected,
was the tattoo.
"Yeah,"
he said softly. "Yeah, sometimes I do."
"I
know what you feel," she murmured. "Sometimes I
think I
need reminding myself."
"What
was it like," he asked, "to be Queen?"
She was
so long silent that he was afraid he had hurt
her by
asking. But looking over at her face, profiled against
the dim
rose-amber of the fire, he saw in her eyes instead
a kind
of dreamy nostalgia, of memories whose beauty
overrode
their pain.
"It
was very beautiful," she said at last. "I remember—
dancing,
and the hall all lit with candles, the way the
flames
would all ripple in unison with the movement of the
ladies'
dresses. The smell of the warm nights, lemon-
flowers
and spice perfumes, coming up-river on the royal
barge
and the water stairs of the Palace all lit like a jewel-
box,
golden in the darkness. Having my own household, my
own
gardens, the freedom to do what I wanted." She rested
her
head against his shoulder, the looped braids that bound
her
hair as smooth as satin under his jaw and gleaming
like
ebony. "Maybe it would have been the same, no matter
whom I
married," she went on softly. "Maybe it wasn't
so much
being Queen as having my own place to be."
Her
voice was wistful. "I'm really a very happy person,
you
know. All I want is to take life as it comes, to be at
peace,
with small things, small joys. I'm not really a stub-
born,
bloodthirsty hellion ..."
"Oh,
yes, you are," he teased her, holding her close. She
raised
her eyes to his reproachfully. "And I love you
anyway.
Maybe I love you because of it. I don't know.
Sometimes
I don't think there is any why in love. I just do."
Her
arms tightened convulsively around his ribs, and
she
turned her face away, burying it in his shoulder. After
a
moment he realized that she was crying.
"Hey
. . ." He turned under the weight of the cloak and
stroked
her shivering shoulders tenderly. "Hey, you can't
cry on
guard duty." The cloak slithered down as he raised
his
hands and caressed her bowed head with its gleaming,
twisted
braids. "Hey, what is it, Alde?"
"It's
nothing," she whispered, and began wiping futilely
at her
eyes with the back of her hand. "It's just that nobody
ever
said that to me before. I'm sorry, I won't be stupid
like
this again." She fumbled at the fallen cloak, her face
averted
and wet with tears.
Rudy
caught her firmly under the chin, forced her head
up, and
kissed her gently on the mouth. Her lips tasted of
salt.
"I can't believe that," he murmured.
She
sniffled and swiped at her eyes with her arm in a
child's
gesture. "It's true."
Rudy's
voice was soft. "What about Eldor?"
At that
her eyes filled again, the tears making them seem
fever-brilliant
in the soft, glowing light of the watch fire.
For a
moment she could only gaze helplessly at him, un-
able to
speak.
"I'm
sorry," Rudy said. So much had happened, he had
forgotten
how short a time it had been.
She
sighed and relaxed in his hold, as if something had
gone
out of her, a tension whose very pain had kept her
strong.
"No," she said softly. "No, it's all right. I loved
Eldor.
I loved him from the time I was a little girl. He had
a magic
that drew people, a vitality, a splendor. You no-
ticed
even the simplest things he did, as if they had a kind
of
significance that no one else could match. He became
King
when I was ten." She bowed her head, as if under
the
weight of memories impossible either to accept or to
withstand.
Wordlessly, Rudy took her back into the circle
of his
arm and drew the cloak up over her shoulders to
cut out
the icy air of the night. In those black cliffs above
the
road, the wolves were howling again, the full-throated
chorus
of the pack at the kill, distant and faint in the dark-
ness.
"I
remember standing on the balcony of our townhouse
in Gae,
the day he rode to his coronation." The murmur of
her
voice was hardly louder than the soughing of the pines
above
the road and the crackle of the fire. She was a
dreamer
reliving a dream. "He'd been in exile—he was
always
in and out of favor with his father. It was a hot
day in
full summer, and the cheering in the streets was so
loud
you could barely hear the music of the procession. He
was
like a god, like a shining knight out of a legend, a
royal
prince of flame and darkness. Later he came to our
house
to go hunting with Alwir or to see him on some mat-
ters of
the Realm, and I was so afraid of him I could
barely
speak. I think I would have died for him, if he had
asked."
Rudy
saw her, a shy, skinny little girl, all dark-blue eyes
and
black pigtails, in the crimson gown of a daughter of the
House
of Bes, hiding behind the curtains in the hall to
watch
her tall, suave brother and that dark, brilliant King
walk
by. He was barely aware that he spoke aloud. "So you
always
loved him."
That
same small smile of self-mockery folded into the
corner
of her mouth. "Oh, I was always falling in and out
of love
in those days. For six months I had a terrible crush
on
Janus of Weg. But this was—different. Yes, I always
loved
him. But when Alwir finally arranged the marriage, I
found
out that—that loving someone desperately doesn't
always
mean that he'll love you back."
And
Rudy said again, "I'm sorry." He meant it, though
he saw
now that the dead King's ghost would always be his
rival.
She had loved so much, it was monstrous that she
should
be hurt by not having that love returned.
Silently
the pressure of her hand in his thanked him,
"He
was so—distant," she said after a time, when she had
regained
control of her voice. "So cold. After we were
married,
I seldom saw him—not because he hated me, I
think,
but because—for weeks at a time I don't think he
even
remembered he was married. Looking back, I suppose
I
should have seen that that brilliance of his was so imper-
sonal,
but—it was too late, anyway." She shrugged, the
gesture
belied by the quaver in her voice, and she wiped
her
eyes again. "And the worst of it is that I still love him."
To that
there was no possible reply. There was only
physical
tenderness, the closeness of another human being,
and the
reassurance that he was there and would not leave
her.
Against him, he felt her struggle to control her sobs
and
eventually grow still, forcing living grief back into its
proper
sphere of memory. He asked, "So Alwir arranged
your
marriage, too?"
"Oh,
yes," she replied, in a small but perfectly steady
voice.
"Alwir knew I loved him, but I don't think that was
the
reason. He wanted the House of Bes allied to the
Royal
House; he wanted his nephew to be High King. I
don't
think he'd have forced me into it if there had been
someone
else, but since there wasn't—Alwir is like that;
he's
very calculating. He knew he would be made Chan-
cellor
after we were married. He's always doing things with
two
intentions."
You're telling
me, sweetheart.
"But
for all that," she went on, "he's been very, very
good to
me. Underneath that gleaming edifice of sartorial
splendor,"
she declaimed, half-jestingly, "there really does
lurk a
great deal of love."
Oh,
yeah? Love of what?
He had
realized that in Alwir's case, there was no such
thing
as Love of whom.
From
her watch fire in the darkness, Gil saw Alde stand
up,
wrap the soft bulk of her black fur cloak tighter around
her,
and make her way cautiously down the stony ridge of
land
back toward the dark silhouette of her wagon against
the
lighted camp. Gil was apprehensive, for the night
seemed
to her to prickle with evil, and she wondered how
the
silly girl could ever have left her child, even with the
camp
guards there, to go play pattyfingers in the dark with
Rudy
Solis. Gil was a woman who did not love, and her
feelings
toward those who did were a mixture of sympathy,
curiosity,
and occasionally a longing that she would not ad-
mit to.
Ordinarily she would not have cared whether Rudy
and the
widowed Queen held hands and talked or engaged
in al
fresco orgies. But tonight was different—tonight she
felt
the presence of the Dark, that watchful malice she had
fell
lurking in the stygian mazes of the vaults at Gae, that
chaotic,
abhuman intelligence, so close to her that, despite
the
fire at her back, she was always turning her head to see
if it
were standing at her elbow.
At
midnight one of Alwir's troopers relieved her, a big,
solid
young man in a red uniform much patched and
stained.
She saw Rudy turn his post over to one of the Red
Monks
and descend the ridge toward the camp. From the
darkness
where she stood, halfway between camp and
ridge,
Gil watched him double back through the shadows
of the wagons
and slip quietly over the tailboard of the one
that
bore the banners of the House of Dare.
Gil
sighed and started back for the campfire of the
Guards.
But, like a dog, she scented wrongness in the wind-
shifting
darkness. She kept looking out into the night that
lay
beyond the amber glow of the camp lights, feeling, like
a cold
and heavy hand, the threat of impending doom.
Most of
the Guards were already asleep when she re-
turned
to their camp, rolled in their blankets and lost in the
swift,
hard sleep of physical exhaustion. Only one man was
awake,
sitting by the small glow of the fire like a weathered
rock,
somehow giving the impression that he had been there
from
the beginning of tune. She'd seen him sitting thus
night
after night, when he wasn't patrolling the perimeters
of the
camp. She could not remember when she had last
seen
him sleep.
Gil
hunkered quietly down at his side. "What do you
see?"
The
wizard shifted his eyes from the blaze, light catch-
ing in
the shadowy seams of his face as he smiled. "Noth-
ing of
any moment." The small motion of his fingers took
in the
louring silence of the night. "Nothing to explain—
this."
"You
feel it, too," she said softly, and he nodded.
"We
should reach the Keep in as little as three days," he
said.
"Last night I felt this, dimly and far off. Tonight it's
much
worse. Yet for three nights now there has been no
report
of the Dark anywhere along the line of march."
Gil
locked her hands around her drawn-up knees and
looked
at the muted light flickering over her bruised and
swollen
fingers, reddened with cold. "Is there a Nest in this
part of
the mountains?" she asked.
"Only
the one I spoke of once to Janus. It's an old Nest,
long
ago blocked. Night after night, I've sought it in the
fire
and seen no sign that it has ever been touched. Yet
night
after night I look again." He nodded toward the small
fire.
"I can see it now. It lies in a broad, shallow-sided
valley,
maybe twenty miles from here. I can see the foun-
dation
lying at the very back of the vale, slanting upward
against
the cliffs; the valley itself is crowded with foliage;
filled
with heat and darkness." A log broke in the fire and
the
scattering embers threaded his face with light.
"The
place lies always under a kind of shadow. No re-
flection
of sky or stars touches that polished stone. And in
the
middle of that darkness, like the mouth of a tomb,
there
is the deeper darkness of the entrance itself. But I can
see
that it is blocked, and the heaped earth and rock there
are
covered over with straggling weeds."
Staring
into the fire, Gil could see nothing—only the
play of
colors, topaz and rose and citrine, and the curling
heat
shivering over the rocks that enclosed the pit, reveal-
ing,
like frost-traceries, the ghostly patterns of fossil ferns
printed
in the fabric of the rock. But his rusty voice put the
images
in her mind, the way the darkness clotted in those
too-thickly
twined trees, the stirring in the shadows of the
mountain
that no wind could account for. The sense of
eldritch
horror was latent in the whispering night.
"I
don't like it," Gil said softly.
"Neither
do I," Ingold replied. "I don't trust that vision,
Gil. We
are three days from the Keep. The Dark must
make
their attempt, and make it soon."
"Can
we go there?"
He
raised his head and looked around him at the silent,
sleeping
camp. Clouds were building above the mountains,
killing
the stars; it seemed as if deeper darkness were set-
tling
over the land. "I don't see," he said, "that we have
any
choice."
The
Dark were all around them. Gil could feel them,
sense
their presence in the still, sour miasma that overlay
the
daylight. She stopped on the edge of one of the innu-
merable
tangled woods that snarled the valley like the
thick-grown
webs of monstrous spiders, looking northward
on the
rising slant of that unholy land, and found herself
firmly
repeating in her heart that it was broad daylight and
she was
with Ingold.
But she
knew they were there.
The
climb had been an easy one. Too easy, she caught
herself
thinking—an odd thing to think. The broad, round,
shallow-walled
valley through which Ingold had led her
most of
the morning was smooth-floored, with an easy
grade
that would have made considerably better walking
than
the road below, were it not so badly overgrown. The
wind
that had tormented them on the long miles down
from
Karst was cut off here. The walls of the canyon, cliffs
marching
steadily back toward a tumbled pile of talus
slopes
and the sudden, dark ramparts of sky-gouging peaks,
protected
the place. In their shelter the air was warmer
than
she had encountered anywhere in the West of the
World.
But, though she was warm now for the first time in
days,
Gil found that the valley disconcerted her. The woods
were
too thick to be healthy, the air was too heavy, and
the
ground was too even underfoot. The clumps of dark,
sullen
trees that scattered the broad length of the valley
seemed
to hem her in with a labyrinth of shadow, guarding
beneath
their entangling boughs thin shreds of a night that
never
lifted.
"They're
here," she whispered. "I know they are."
Beside
her, all but invisible in the shadows of the trees,
Ingold
nodded. Though it was not long after noon, the ak-
in this
valley seemed to play tricks with the sunlight. The
thickness
of the atmosphere dragged on Gil's lungs and,
she had
thought once or twice, on her mind as well.
"Can
they be a danger to us even by daylight?"
"We
know very little about the Dark, my dear," Ingold
replied
quietly. "All power has its limits, and we have seen
that
the power of the Dark grows with their numbers. We
walk on
a layer of ice that covers the depths of Hell. Tread
carefully."
Drawing his hood over his face, he moved for-
ward, a
wraith in the vaporous, leaden air.
As they
climbed the valley, this sense that they were
tampering
in evil far beyond human ken grew upon her.
There
was something hellishly symmetrical about the valley,
some
persistent wrongness in the geology of the crowding,
stratified
rock of the cliffs that whispered warnings to Gil's
mind.
The land under their feet smoothed its way up over
a great
fault that cut the valley in half, with wild grape and
a
particularly tough-fibered species of ivy tangling over
the
break and the natural causeway that bridged it. Fossils
Gil had
seen on the stones of last night's campfire re-
peated
themselves, peeking from broken rock—huge ferns,
long-fingered
marine weed, and the crawling things of tunes
long
past, trilobite and brachiopod, imprinted forever in the
stamp
of the slate. The ground seemed leveled by the pass-
ing
feet of millions, hard as an ancient roadbed among its
pathless
labyrinth of crowding trees.
Ingold
paused and turned to check their backtrail for
what
seemed like the hundredth tune that day. Gil rubbed
her
aching eyes; she had snatched a few hours of sleep
before
setting out from the camp before dawn, but the
lack of
it was beginning to tell. Not, she reflected wryly,
that
she had gotten whole bunches of that particular com-
modity
since this trail drive started. Some anomaly in the
lay of
the ground caught her attention, a stream bed that
did not
lie as it ought, a formation of rocks . ..
Looking
back, she found she was alone. Momentary
panic
seized her. Even a few weeks ago she would have
thrown
caution to the winds and yelled for Ingold, even
on the
very doormat of the Dark. But living like a winter
wolf
and associating with the Icefalcon had altered her
reactions,
and she stood perfectly still, scanning the too-
regular
landscape.
A hand
touched her shoulder and she swung around.
Ingold
caught her wrist as her sword was half out of its
scabbard.
"Where did you go?" she whispered.
The wizard
frowned. "I didn't go anywhere." His hand
still
on her wrist, he looked around them doubtfully.
"You
sure as hell weren't here a minute ago."
"Hmm."
He scratched thoughtfully at his scrubby beard.
"Wait
here," he said finally, "and watch me." With these
words
he released Gil's arm and walked away, his feet
making
barely a sound in the knee-deep jungles of under-
growth.
Gil tried her best to watch him. Tired as she was
with
the weariness that seemed to have settled around her
bones,
she was certain she hadn't moved or shut her eyes.
But
somehow she lost sight of the wizard, in open ground,
in the
sunlight, without an inch of cover in yards.
She
blinked and rubbed her eyes again. There was
something,
she thought, in the air of this place, some foul-
ness,
an invisible game of blindman's bluff. Then she
looked
back and saw Ingold standing about twenty feet off
at the
end of the track of flattened ivy, as if he had al-
ways
been there. As he came back to her, she had no
trouble
following his movements.
Gil
shook her head. "I don't understand." She hitched
her
cloak up on her shoulder, a gesture that was quickly
becoming
automatic, like straightening her sword belt.
Always
before, the cloak had never provided quite enough
protection
from the cold, but in this place, with its stifling
air, it
seemed hot and heavy. She was acutely aware of
the
wrongness of this place. "Do you know what's going
on?"
"I'm
afraid I do," Ingold said slowly. "The power of the
Dark is
strong here, very strong. It seems to be interfering
with
the cloaking spell I've had over both of us, which is
a pity,
because that probably means I'll have to dispense
with
it."
"You
mean," Gil said in surprise, "we've been under a
spell
all along?"
"Oh,
yes." He smiled at her startled face. "I've been
keeping
a number of spells on the convoy all the way
down
from Karst. Mostly ward and guard, aversion and
protection.
They wouldn't hold back a concerted attack,
but
they have served to deflect random misfortune."
She
flushed, annoyed at herself. "I never knew that."
"Of
course not. It's the mark of a good mage that he's
never
seen doing anything at all." She glanced suspiciously
at him
to see if he were teasing her, but he seemed per-
fectly
serious—as serious as Ingold ever looked.
"But
would a—a cloaking spell protect us from the
Dark in
the first place?"
"Probably
not here in their own valley," Ingold replied
casually.
"But the White Raiders have been following us
since
we left the road. If the cloaking spell is unreliable,
we're
going to have a devil of a time getting back."
They
reached the place in midafternoon. Gil felt it from
afar,
horror coalescing in her veins. She knew without
being
told that this was the place that Ingold had seen
reflected
in the depths of the fire. The ground was unnatu-
rally
even, tipped at a steep angle, with a great slanting
slab of
basalt jammed into the foundations of the moun-
tain
behind it, its farther end rising like the hull of a heeled
wreck;
one corner was buried in the valley floor as if driven
there
by some unspeakable cataclysm lost in the abysses of
time.
The slanted angle showed how deep the slab was
founded;
though it had been displaced upward a good thirty
feet,
there was no sign of bottom. And in the midst of it
gaped
the black hole of its stairway, the plunging road
down
into the chasm of the Dark.
The
stairway was open. Little trace of the earth and
rock
Ingold had seen in the shadow image of the fire re-
mained
anywhere near that hideous gulf. A great scattering
of
stones, like the fan-trail of a volcanic spew, littered the
slope
below, but Gil could see from the way the clutching,
ubiquitous
weeds grew over them that the stones had
been
blown from that hole many years since. Still she
picked
one up. On its side, she could see the dry ghost
of a
lush, obscene orchid, frozen in some primeval swamp
a
million years ago and fragmented by the violence of that
ancient
blast. Ingold, too, was examining the wide-flung
pattern
of the stones, working his way methodically toward
the
crazily tilted pavement and the hole that yawned like
a
silent scream at the day.
He
paused at the place where the rank, overgrown
ground
ended and the black pavement began. Gil saw him
stoop
to pick up a stone and stand in thought for a mo-
ment,
turning it over in his hands. Then he stepped cau-
tiously
onto the slick, canted surface of the stone and
began
his careful climb toward the stairway itself.
Though
her whole being shrank from it, as it had on
that
other pavement in the vaults at Gae, Gil followed
him.
She struggled through the foliage that clung with
such
perverted persistence to her feet, scrambled up after
the
wizard onto the tilted pavement, and saw, ahead of
her,
Ingold pause to wait, his shadow lying small and
leaden
around his feet. Seen under the light of day, naked
to the
sky, the sheer size of the pavement awed her; from
the
corner buried in the weed-choked earth to the corner
tilted
upward and buried in the out-thrust knee of the
mountain,
it must have measured close to seven hundred
feet.
In its midst Ingold seemed very small and exposed.
It was
a tricky scramble up the smooth incline; when she
reached
his side, Gil was panting in the gluey, breathless
air.
"So
we were right," Ingold said softly. "The vision was
a
lie."
Below
them stretched the stairway, open to the winds.
A cool
drift of damp air seemed to rise from it, making
Gil's
sweat-matted hair prickle on the back of her neck.
There
was nothing now between them and the Dark ex-
cept
the presence of the sun, and she glanced at the sky
quickly,
as if fearing to see the gathering of clouds.
"So
what can we do?"
"Rejoin
the convoy as quickly as possible. We do not
yet
know what they plan, but at least we know the direc-
tion of
the attack. And in any case, it may be possible to
thwart
them and cover Tir's retreat to the Keep."
Gil
glanced across at him. "How?"
"Something
Rudy said once. If we—"
He
broke off and caught her by the wrist. Gil followed
the
direction of his eyes along the smooth, tangled floor
of the
vale and spotted a stirring in the dark woods near
one of
those queer formations of black stone that dotted
the
valley. A movement was quickly lost to sight, but Gil
knew
what it was. There was only one thing that it could be.
She
asked, "Have they seen us?"
"Doubtless.
Though I should be surprised if they came
any
closer." Balancing himself carefully with his staff,
Ingold
began his cautious descent from the ramplike pave-
ment,
with Gil edging gingerly behind. When they reached
the
ground, Ingold scanned the valley again, but could see
nothing
further. "Which doesn't mean anything, of course,"
he
said, turning to walk along the rising edge of the pave-
ment.
"Just because you don't see White Raiders doesn't
mean
they aren't there."
"So
what are we going to do?"
Ingold
pointed with his staff toward the narrowing maze
of
crevices and hanging valleys at the end of the vale of
the Dark,
a great ruinous confusion of old avalanche scars,
split
and faulted from the rock. "There should be a way up
there,"
he said calmly, pausing in the vine-entangled
shadows
of the seamless black wall.
"You're
kidding," Gil said, aghast.
"I
never kid, my dear." He started off up the talus
slope.
Gil
stayed where she was for a time, watching him dis-
appear
up the curve of the land. The ground rose and
buckled
oddly around the featureless wall of the black
foundation,
but whatever upheaval had disrupted it had
been so
long ago that the geology of the valley had settled
around
it. That in itself bothered Gil—the thing was so
old, so
incredibly old. Eons had rolled by since some
arcane
power had founded it here, so that the very shape
of the
lands and seas had changed. More fossils caught her
eyes.
My God, she thought, this place was a tropical swamp
when
this was wrought. How long have the Dark Ones
inhabited
the earth, anyway?
Who
could ever tell, since they didn't have a bone in
their
floating plasmoid bodies? And yet they had intelli-
gence,
the intelligence to sink shafts, to build these dark
pavements
at their heads and have them endure for mil-
lennia
with very little appearance of decay. They were
intelligent
enough to work their own kind of magic, differ-
ent
from the nature of human magic, ungraspable by any
human
brain. They were intelligent enough to keep tabs on
the
convoy, to know where Tir was, and to know why he
had to
be put out of the way.
Arms
folded, Gil stood for a while in the lengthening
shadows
and meditated on the Dark.
After a
tune she looked up and saw Ingold again, ap-
pearing
and disappearing among the twisted confusion of
boulders
and huddled trees at the end of the valley. Some
primordial
cataclysm had broken the side of one of the
guardian
peaks of the valley, leaving a wilderness of split
granite
and bottomless chasms, and time had overlaid
the
ruin with plant life grown far too large for the vertical
rocks.
The result reminded her vaguely of a Chinese
painting,
with full-size trees sprouting unconcernedly from
the
sides of cliffs. But this was messier, fouler, darker;
here
dead trunks had fallen to rot in gullies bristling with
dead
white spikes below the crumbly footing above. She
could
see Ingold's brown mantle shifting along impossibly
narrow
rock ledges high on the faces of those cliffs,
Ingold
saw her looking and paused, flattened to the
rock
behind him. "Come up," he called down to her, his
voice
echoing faintly among the rocks. "There's a trail."
What
the hell. Gil sighed. You only die once.
Gil had
never liked heights. Scrambling over the treach-
erous
footing, she envied the wizard his six-foot staff,
for in
places the ledges narrowed to inches, and in others
cascades
of vines sprawled over the trail and masked any
hint of
the footing underneath. She found herself back-
tracking
a dozen times, scrupulously avoiding looking up
or down
or anywhere but at her own scratched hands when
a
promising ledge petered out or a slit between two huge
rock
faces became too narrow to be passed, or too choked
with
rotting foliage that could house any number of
creatures
less Lovecraftian, but certainly as deadly, as the
Dark.
She wondered if there were rattlesnakes in this
world—or,
for that matter, poisonous snakes without
rattles.
She
finally caught up with him in the mouth of a dark
slit in
the rocks, after a precipitous scramble around the
convex
face of a boulder on a ledge over a nightmare maw
of
tangled thorn and broken stone. She was sweating and
gasping
in the afternoon heat and fighting for balance on
the
sandy, crumbling ground. The shift of the sun over the
backbone
of the Rampart Range had thrown the chasm
into
deep shadow. Ingold was barely visible but for the
pale
blur of face and beard and the bright glitter of his
eyes.
"Very
good, my dear," he greeted her mildly. "We shall
make a
mountain climber of you yet."
"The
hell you will," she gasped, and looked back down
behind
her. If there was any kind of trail she'd come up,
she was
damned if she could see it now.
"We
should be able to follow this chasm up toward the
top of
that ridge there," he went on, pointing. "Once over
the
ridge, we should be nearly to the snow line and, I be-
lieve,
out of reach of the Dark for the time being. With
luck,
we should be able to pick up another trail on the
other
side that will lead us down to the Vale of Renweth,
and
hence to the Keep of Dare."
Gil
calculated the distance as well as she could in the
deceptive
clarity of the mountain air. They seemed to
have
climbed above the drifting haze of the valley; things
seemed
blindingly clear up here, and the slanting shadows
altered
the apparent positions of peak and ridge. "I don't
think we'll
make it by dark," she stated doubtfully.
"Oh,
I don't either," Ingold agreed. "But we can hardly
spend
the night in the valley."
Gil
sighed resignedly. "You have a point there."
The
wizard jabbed his staff cautiously at the loose rock
hiding
the foot of the trail, and a boulder curtsied peril-
ously,
sending a little stream of gravel and sand down
across
their feet and over the edge of the trail. Muttering
to
himself about the advisability of taking along a rope
next
time, coupled with imprecations against the unseen
Raiders
in the valley below, he began to scout cautiously
for an
alternate route. While he did so, Gil turned to look
back
over the cliff, appalled anew at the suicidal ascent
she'd
just made. Her gaze wandered to the valley below
them
and was held there by a queer, cold feeling of shock.
"Ingold,"
she called quietly. "Come and look at this."
Something
in the note of her voice brought him scram-
bling
and sliding to her side. "What is it?"
She
pointed. "Look. Look out there. What do you see?"
Viewed
from above and behind, the land wore a different
aspect,
the angle of the sunlight westering on the moun-
tains
changing the perspective of that darkness-haunted
place.
From here the symmetry was obvious, the nuclei
of the
long-overgrown woods lying in some kind of pattern
whose
geometry was just beyond the range of human
comprehension,
the stream beds following courses that
held
the echoes of perverted regularity. The clinging mats
of the
ubiquitous vines took on a curious appearance from
this
angle, the shifts in their color and thickness disquiet-
ingly
suggestive. Almost directly below them the great
rectangle
of pavement lay, and its position relative to the
anomalous
mounds of black stone that thrust through the
foliage
became suddenly, shockingly, clear to a woman
trained
in the rudiments of archaeology.
Ingold
frowned, staring down at the distorted counter-
pane
beneath them. "It's almost—almost as if there were
a city
here at one time. But there never was, not in human
history."
His eye and finger traced the mathematical ob-
scenity
of a curved shadow in the weeds, the queerly
obtuse
angles faintly visible in the half-hinted relationships
between
stream and stone. "What causes that? It's as if
the
vines grow thinner in places..."
"Buried
foundations," Gil softly replied. "From the looks
of it,
foundations so deeply buried that they leave barely
a
trace. The trees are more stunted on that line because
their
roots cannot go so deep. Look, see the line of that
stream?
And yet—" She paused, confused. "It looks so
planned,
so regular, but it's not like any city I've ever
seen.
There's a layout—you can see that in the angle of the
sunlight—but
the layout's all wrong."
"Of
course," the wizard said mildly. "There are no
streets."
Their
eyes met. The meaning of this came to her slowly,
like a
whisper from incomprehensible gulfs of time.
"Come,"
Ingold said. "This is no place for us to remain
once
the sun has gone in."
CHAPTER
THIRTEEN
Once
they were out of the valley, the winds began, sear-
ingly
cold, ripping at their grip on the precarious hand-
holds
with active malice. At times they were far over the
timberline,
scrambling perilously over goat trails slippery
with
old snow, at others working their way through knots
of
vegetation, or clinging for support to the wind-flayed
roots
of twisted acrobat trees, trusting to their strength
over a
sightless abyss. Gil and Ingold moved through a
world
whose only elements were cold, rock, wind, and the
distant
roaring of water, where they could not have stopped
if they
had wanted to, for there was nowhere to rest. With-
out the
threads of witchlight Ingold had thrown to outline
the
ledges, Gil was certain they would not have survived
the
climb; even so, looking back on it later, she felt only
a land
of dull astonishment that she had done it at all.
They
slept, finally, in the crevices of the bare rock
slopes,
locked together for warmth; it was the first sleep
Gil had
had in close to forty hours. In the deeps of the
night
she felt the weather change and, in her dreams,
smelled
the far-off threat of snow.
In the
morning the going was easier, not much worse
than a
rough backpacking trip. By noon Ingold found the
ghost
of a trail-head and followed it down the sheer, tree-
covered
western face of the Rampart Range, to reach, by
midafternoon,
the cold, winding Vale of Renweth.
Gil
shaded her eyes and squinted into the long, bright
distance.
"What the hell?" The cold winds that snaked
down
the valley tore her breath away in rags and rippled
in
patterns like swift-pouring water over the knee-deep
fjord
of colorless grass. "What is it?"
"It's
the Keep of Dare." Ingold smiled, folding his arms
to keep
warm and shivering slightly in spite of it. "What
did you
expect?"
Gil
wasn't sure what she'd expected. Something smaller,
anyway.
Something more medieval. Not that trapezoidal
monolith
of black stone that rose, bone of the mountain's
bone,
on the great knoll at the foot of those distant dark-
browed
cliffs. Its roof was taller than the pine trees that
grew on
the ridge behind. Thin, powdery snow blew in
clouds
from the Keep's flat roof, but none lodged any-
where
on its sides, which were as bare and smooth as
unflawed
glass.
"Who
the hell built that thing?" Gil whispered, awed.
"How
big is it?" She could believe, now, that in it human-
kind
had withstood the Dark. The might of the Dark Ones,
which
could shatter stone and iron, would find this fortress
impregnable.
With a sense of surprise, she realized that
there
was, after all, a place of refuge in this dark and cold
and
terrible world into which she had been unwillingly cast.
"Dare
of Renweth built it," Ingold's voice said at her
side,
"using the last of the technology and power of the
ancient
Realms, power which is far beyond our means to-
day. In
it he sheltered those of his people who survived
the
first onslaught of the Dark, and from it he and his
line
ruled this valley and Sarda Pass and all that was left
of an
empire whose name, bounds, and nature have been
utterly
lost to human memory. As to how big it is—" He
gazed
into the distance, surveying the black monolith that
guarded
the twisting expanses of the valley beyond. "It is
small.
It can hold some eight thousand souls in some sort
of
comfort, and the valley can be cultivated to support
almost
twice that many. The records no longer exist, if
they
ever existed, as to how many it has actually sheltered
at any
one time."
As they
waded toward it through the champagne grass
of the
Vale, the thing seemed to grow in size, shadowless
in the
cold overcast of the day. Gil looked around her at
the
Vale as well, a walled series of upland meadows scat-
tered
with stands of aspen, birch, and cottonwood, their
leaves
glittering restlessly in the winds that whined down
from
the peaks above. There was a hard, bright beauty to
the
place, first heartland of the Realm and last, cradle and
grave.
Her bones ached, even muscles trained to the en-
durance
of swordsmanship burning with the lingering
effects
of that tortuous climb.
As a
place to be cooped up in for years on end, she
thought,
it isn't bad. Still, familiar as she had been with
petty
neighborhood bitchery, she had recognized its seeds
already
in the gossip that even a twenty-four-hour state of
crisis
hadn't eliminated from the refugee train, and she
saw
where it would lead—a small town, cramped in an
impenetrable
fort with the same people, bound together
year in
and year out, and nowhere to go.
"The
Keep has stood a long time," Ingold said as they
came at
last to the roadway that led up past the Keep
toward
Sarda Pass, the same road where, miles below, Al-
wir led
his people along in their quest for semimythical
safety.
"Yet the Runes of Power are still on the Keep
doors,
marked there by the wizards who helped in the
building
of the place—Yad on the left, and Pern on the
right,
the Runes of Guarding and Law. Only a wizard can
see
them, like a gleaming tracery of silver in the shadows.
But
after all this time, the spells of the builders still hold
power."
Gil
turned her eyes from the towering masses of the
mountains
that rose, wall on wall of black, tree-enshrouded
gorges
cut with the distinct, shallow notch of Sarda Pass,
to view
again the looming shadow of the Keep. She could
see
nothing of the Runes, only great panels of iron, hinged
and
strapped in steel, and untouched for centuries.
The
great gates stood open. Waiting in their shade were
the
assembled members of the small garrison Eldor had
sent
down years before to ready the place as an eventual
refuge,
when Ingold had first spoken of the possibility of
the
rising of the Dark. The captain of the garrison, a
petite
blonde woman with the meanest eyes Gil had ever
seen,
greeted Ingold with deference and seemed unsur-
prised
at the news that Gae had fallen and its refugees
were
but a few days off.
"I
feared it," she said, looking up at the wizard, her
gloved
fingers idling on the hilt of her sword. "We've had
no
messages from anywhere in over a week, and my boys
report
seeing the Dark Ones drifting along the head of the
valley
almost every night." She pursed her lips into a
wry
expression. "I'm only glad so many as you say got
clear.
I remember, when I was in Gae, people were laugh-
ing at
you in the streets about your warnings, calling you
an
alarmist crackpot and making up little songs."
Gil
made a noise of indignation in her throat, but Ingold
laughed.
"I remember that. All my life I wanted to be
immortalized
in ballads, but the poetry of the things was
so bad
that they were completely unmemorable."
"And,"
the captain said cynically, "most of the people
who
made them up are dead."
Ingold
sighed. "I'd rather they were still alive to go on
singing
about what a fool I am, every day of my life," he
said.
"We'll be here the night. Can you feed us?"
The
captain shrugged. "Sure. We have stock . . ." She
gestured
to mazes of cottonwood-pole corrals that stretched
out
beyond the knoll, where a gaggle of horses and half
a dozen
milk cows stood rubbing their chins on the top
rail of
the fences, staring at the strangers with mild, stupid
eyes.
"We even have a still over in the grove there; some
of the
boys brew Blue Ruin out of gaddin bark and
potatoes."
Ingold
shuddered delicately. "At tunes I see Alwir's
point
about the horrors of uncivilized existence." And he
followed
her up the worn steps to the gates.
"By
the way," the captain said as the other warriors of
the
garrison grouped up behind them, "we have Keep Law
here."
Ingold
nodded. "I understand."
They
entered the Keep of Dare, and Gil was struck silent
with
awe.
Outside,
the Keep had been intimidating enough. In-
side,
it was crushing, frightening, dark, monstrous, and
unbelievably
huge; the footfalls of the Guards echoed in
its
giant sounding-chamber like the far-off drip of distant
water,
the torches they bore dwindling to fireflies. The
monstrous
architecture with its blending of naked planes
had
nothing to do with the gothic liveliness of Karst—
nothing
to do with human scale at all. The technology that
had
wrought this place out of stone and air was clearly far
beyond
anything else in this world or, Gil guessed, in her
own.
She gazed down the length of that endless central
cavern,
where the small bobbing candles of torchlight were
reflected
in the smooth black of the water channels in the
floor,
and shivered at the cold, the size, and the emptiness.
"How
was this place built?" she whispered, and the
chamber
picked up her voice and sighed her words to
every
corner of that towering hall. "What a shame it
couldn't
have been the chief architect's memory that got
passed
on, as well as the Kings'."
"It
is," Ingold said, his voice, too, ringing family in the
unseen
vaults of the ceiling. "But heritable memory is
not
governed by choice—indeed, we have no idea what
does
govern it." He moved like a shadow at Gil's side, fol-
lowing
the diminishing torches. Gazing around her, Gil
could
see, as far as the torchlight reached, that the tower-
ing
walls of the central hall were honeycombed with dark
little
doorways, rank on rank of them, joined sometimes
by
stone balconies, sometimes by rickety catwalks that
threaded
the wall like the webs of drunken or insane spi-
ders.
Those dark little doors admitted onto a maze of cells,
stairways,
and corridors, whose haphazard windings were
as dark
as the labyrinths below the earth.
"As
to how it was built—Lohiro of Quo, the Master of
the
Council of Wizards, has made a study of the skill of
that
tune from such records that survived, and he says that
the
walls were wrought and raised by magic and machinery
both.
The men of those days had skills far beyond our own;
we could
never create something like this."
They
crossed a narrow bridge over one of the many
straight
channels that led water from pool to pool down
the
length of the echoing hall. Gil paused for a moment
on the
railless span, looking down into the swift, black
current
below. "Was that why he made such a study?" she
asked
softly. "Because he knew the skill might be needed
again?"
Ingold
shook his head. "Oh, no, that was years ago.
Like
all wizards, Lohiro seeks understanding for its own
sake—for
his own amusement, as it were. Sometimes I
think
that is all wizardry is—the lust for knowledge, the
need to
understand. All the rest—illusion, shape-craft, the
balance
of the minds and elements around us, the ability
to save
or change or destroy the world—are mere inci-
dentals,
and come after that central need."
* * *
"The
trouble with this," Ingold grumbled much later,
after
they had shared the meager supper of the Guards and
been
shown to a tiny cell next to those of the garrison, "is
that I
can only look for what I know. It's absolutely useless
for
what I don't know." He glanced across at Gil, the
pinlight-sparkle
of triangular lights thrown by his scrying
crystal
scattering like stars across the roughness of his
scarred
face. They had kindled a small fire on the tiny
hearth
to take the chill off the cell. To Gil's surprise, no
smoke
came into the room itself—the place must be
ventilated
like a high-rise. Her respect for its builders in-
creased.
Ingold
had sat watching the crystal for some time now.
Gil,
fortified with porridge and warmth, was sitting with
her
back to the corner, meticulously sharpening her dagger
in the
manner the Icefalcon had shown her, sleepy and
content
in the wizard's presence. From the first, she had
felt
that she had always known him. Now it was impossible
to
conceive of a time when she had not. She held the blade
up
critically to the light and tested it with an inexperienced
thumb.
For all the terror she had undergone, for all the
burden
of constant physical weariness and the unending
pain in
her half-healed left arm, for all her exile from
the
only world she had known and the only thing she had
ever
truly wanted to do, she realized that there were com-
pensations.
She never felt the weight of her exile when she
was
with him.
And
soon he'd be gone. She'd be here for endless weeks
while
he pursued his solitary quest across the plains to
Quo, in
search of the wizards, his friends, the only group
of
people who really understood him. She wondered what
he
would find there. She wondered, with a chill, if he'd
even
return.
He
will, she told herself, looking across at the old man's
still
profile and calm, intent eyes. He's tough as an old
boot
and slippery as a snake. He'll make it back all right,
and the
other wizards with him.
She
shifted the ball of her wadded-up cloak a little
more
comfortably behind her aching shoulders and blinked
out at
the room. After last night's trek over the bare back-
bone of
the world, even a watch fire by the road would
have
looked good; this nine-by-seven cell in which she
could
hardly stand was a little corner of Paradise.
The
place, viewed by more critical eyes, would have
been
called dingy; the warm gold of the firelight probing
into
the cracks of the rough-plastered walls and flagged
floor
cruelly revealed the unevenness, the shoddy work-
manship,
the patina of stains and soot-blackening, and the
dents
and scratches of hundreds of generations of con-
tinuous
habitation and a thousand years of neglect. The
cell
would be awfully crowded for a family, Gil reflected.
Unbidden
to her mind leaped Rudy's picture of his own
boyhood
home, shrill with the bickering of acrimonious
female
voices. She grinned as she wondered what the in-
cidence
of sibling murder had been in the Keep's heyday.
The
shadows by the fire shifted as Ingold put aside his
crystal
and lay down across the other end of the room,
drawing
his mantle over him as a blanket. Gil prepared
to do
likewise, asking him as she did so, "Could you see
the
convoy?"
"Oh,
yes. They're settling in for the night, under double
guard.
I don't see any sign of the Dark. Incidentally, the
crystal
shows the Nest in the valley of the Dark as being
still
blocked."
"They
like that, don't they?" Gil drew her cloak over
her,
watching the changing patterns of flame and shadow
playing
across the rickety wall that had long ago parti-
tioned
this cell off from a larger one. Her thoughts idled
over
the world enclosed within those narrow walls, over
the
great black monolith of the Keep, guarding its dark-
ness,
its silence, its secrets—secrets that had been for-
gotten
even by Ingold, even by Lohiro, Archmage of all
the
wizards in the world. Those dark, heavy walls held only
darkness
within.
She
rolled over onto her side and propped her head on
her
arm. "You know," she said dreamily, "this whole
place—it's
like your description of the Nests of the Dark."
Ingold
opened his eyes. "Very like," he agreed.
"Is
that what we've come to?" she asked. "To living like
them,
to be safe from them?"
"Possibly,"
the wizard assented sleepily. "But one might
then
ask why the Dark Ones live as they do. And when all
else is
considered, here we are, safe; and so we shall re-
main,
as long as the gates are kept shut at night." He
rolled
over. "Go to sleep, Gil."
Gil
bunked up at the reflection of the fire, thinking
about
that for a moment. It occurred to her that if once
the
Dark came into this place, the safety here would turn
to
redoubled peril. In the walls of the Keep was lodged
eternal
darkness, like the mazes of night at the center
of the
earth, which no sunrise could ever touch. She said
uneasily,
"Ingold?"
"Yes?"
There was a hint of weariness in his voice.
"What
was the Keep Law that the captain talked about?
What
did that have to do with our spending the night
here?"
Ingold
sighed and turned his head toward her, the dying
firelight
doing curious things to the lines and scars of his
face.
"Keep Law," he told her, "states that the integrity
of the
Keep is the ultimate priority; above life, above
honor,
above the lives of family or loved ones. Anything
that
does not require the presence of human beings after
dark is
left outside the gates, and when the gates are shut
at
night, it is, and always must be, the ruling of the Keep
that no
one will pass them until sunrise. In ancient days the
penalty
for opening the doors—on any excuse whatso-
ever—between
the setting and the rising of the sun was to
be
chained between the pillars that used to surmount the
little
hill that faces the doors across the road, to be left
there
at night for the Dark. Now go to sleep."
This
time he must have laid a spell on the words, for
Gil
fell asleep at once, and the wizard's words followed
her
down into the darkness of her dreams,
The
Dark hunted. She could feel them, sense them,
sense
the dark shifting of movement through spinning,
primordial
blackness, the vague stirrings in unspeakable
chasms
that light had never touched. Groggily, through a
leaden
fog of sleep, Gil tried to remember where she was—
the
Keep, Dare's Keep. Fleeting, tangled images came to
her of
slipping through nighted corridors and converging
on a
chosen prey. She could sense that eyeless, waiting
malevolence,
smell, as they smelled, the hot pulse of
blood,
and sense, through the thick gloom of vibrating,
purple
darkness, the glow of the prey, the centerpoint
of a
whirling vortex of lust and hate . . . But it wasn't the
closeness
of the Keep at all that surrounded her, but wind,
utter
bone-piercing cold, the roaring of water among
pillars
of stone, the white surge and fleck of spray, and the
freezing
touch of the air above the flood. Greedy power
gnawed
at stone, greedy minds counted out glowing beads
on a
four-mile chain of tangled sleep and laughed with a
gloating
laughter that never emerged to sound.
Her
eyes snapped open, and sweat drenched her face at
the
memory of that gloating laughter. She whispered,
"Ingold
. . ." almost afraid to make a sound, for fear they
might
hear.
The
wizard was already awake, his white hair tousled
with
sleep, his eyes alert, as if he listened for some dis-
tant
sound that Gil could not hear. A dim blue ball of
witchlight
hung above his head; the fire in the cell had
long
grown cold. "What is it?" he asked her gently. "What
did you
dream?"
She
drew a deep breath, grasping at the fast-fading rags
of
sensation, of things she'd heard and smelled. "The
Dark..."
"I
know," he said softly. "I felt it, too. What? And
where?"
She sat
up, drawing her cloak around her shoulders, as
if that
would still her shivering. "I don't know where it
was,"
she said, a little more calmly. "There was water rush-
ing,
and—stone—hewn stone, I think, pillars. They were
tearing
pieces of stone out of pillars, throwing them into
rushing
water—and—and laughing. They know where Tir
is,
Ingold," she added, her voice low and urgent.
He came
across the room to her and put an arm around
her
shoulders for comfort, though for her the worst was
past.
His voice was grim as he said, "So do I. He's with his
mother,
half a day's journey below the stone bridge that
crosses
the gorge of the Arrow River."
Somewhere
above the inky overcast, the sky might have
been
lightening, preparatory to the breaking of day; but
if so,
Rudy Solis could see little indication of it. The can-
yon
through which the road at this point wound was like a
black
wind tunnel, the smell of the wind strong and some-
how
earthy, its sound like the roar of the sea in the pines
above
the road. He prowled restlessly through the rousing
camp,
unable to account for his uneasiness, threading
through
little knots of bundled-up fugitives huddled around
their
breakfast fires, making his way almost subconsciously
back to
the wagons he had stealthily quitted before the
camp
was astir.
The
fires there had been built up and threw an uneasy
flickering
glow over the camp. Alde was awake, feeding
Tir on
bread soaked in milk in the little island of shelter
at the
back of her wagon. On the other side of the fire, a
handful
of troopers of the House of Bes were wolfing
down
their meager rations in silence. Farther out among
the
wagons, another woman, a servant of the household,
was
ordering two small children about as she fed a baby
smaller
than Tir, while her husband fed the ox teams in
sullen
silence. Overhead, the banners cracked like bull-
whips
in the icy stream of the wind.
Rudy
shook his head and grinned down at Alde, leaning
his
shoulder against the uprights that supported the wagon's
roof.
"You know, what amazes me about this trip is how
many
kids have survived. You see them all over the camp.
Look at
that one there. He looks as if the first stiff wind
would
blow him away."
"It's
a she," Alde replied calmly, watching the child in
question
playing tag with herself under the feet of the
wagon
teams. The little girl's mother saw what she was
doing
and called her back to the fire with a screech like a
parrot's,
and the child, with the sublime unconcern of those
who
have only recently learned to walk, came running
happily
back out of danger, arms open, a treasury of broken
straws
in her hands.
Rudy
reached out to stroke Tir's downy hair absent-
mindedly.
He'll grow up like that, he found himself
thinking.
Learning to run in the dark labyrinth of the
Keep of
Dare, learning swordsmanship from the Guards ...
Strange
to think of Alde and Tir going on living for years
in that
fortress Rudy had never seen, long after he was
gone.
If they
make it there. And he shivered, not entirely from
the
cold.
"And
it isn't so unusual," Minalde went on, a glimmer
of
timid mischief in her blue eyes. "If you've noticed, it
isn't
the women and children who sit down by the roadside
and
die. If a wagon breaks down, the man will moan and
despair—the
woman will start pushing. Watch sometime."
"Oh,
yeah?" he said, suspicious that she was baiting him.
She
gave him a sidelong, teasing glance. "Seriously,
Rudy.
Women are tougher. They have to be, to protect
the
children."
He
remembered the wind-stirred gallery at Karst, the
flutter
of the white dress of a girl who was running down
the
hall in darkness. "Aaah—" he conceded ungraciously,
and she
laughed.
More
children eddied into the circle of the fire, the
gaggle
of camp orphans with the slim young girl they'd
taken
as their guardian carrying the youngest in her arms.
The
girl and the servant woman stopped to speak. Seeing
them
together, Rudy was reminded of the way he'd seen
Alde
and Medda that first day on the terrace of the villa
at
Karst.
A new
thought crossed his mind, and he frowned sud-
denly.
"Alde?" She looked up quickly, getting milk all
over
her fingers. "How do the Dark Ones know who Tir
is?"
Slim
brows drew together in thought. "I don't know,"
she
said, startled by the question. "Do they?"
"Yeah.
They went after him at Karst, anyway, and at
Gae.
There were beaucoup kids in the villa at Karst. As
far as
they should have known, he could have been any
one of
them. But they were right on the spot outside his
nursery."
She
shook her head, puzzled, the cloak of her unbound
hair
slipping across her shoulders. "Bektis!" she called
out,
seeing the tall figure crossing the camp to his own
wagons.
He came
forward and gave her a gracious bow. "My
lady
pleases?"
The
Sorcerer of the Realm didn't look any the worse
for two
weeks in the open; like Alwir, he was fastidious to
the
point of foppishness, and there wasn't so much as an
untoward
wrinkle in his billowing gray robe.
Rudy
broke in. "How do the Dark Ones know where to
find
Tir? I mean, they haven't got eyes, they can't tell
he
looks different or anything. Why do they know to come
after
him?"
The
sorcerer hesitated, giving the matter weighty con-
sideration—probably,
Rudy guessed, to cover the fact
that he
was stumped. At length he said, "The Dark Ones
have a
knowledge that is beyond human ken." He is
stumped.
"Perhaps my lord Ingold could have told you,
had he
not chosen this time to disappear. The sources of
the
knowledge of the Dark—"
Rudy
cut him off. "What I'm getting at is this. Do the
Dark
Ones really know it's Tir, or are they just going
after
any kid in a gilded cradle? If Alde went on foot with
the kid
in her arms, like every other woman in this train,
wouldn't
she be safer than being stuck in the wagon?"
Bektis
looked down his long nose at this grimy upstart
outlander
who, he had been informed, had presumed to
show
signs of being mageborn. "Perhaps," he said loftily,
"were
we presently in any danger from the Dark. Yet it
has
been noted that no alarm of their presence has oc-
curred
since we reached the high ground . . ."
"Oh,
come on! You saw how well that high ground stuff
worked
at Karst!"
".
.. and," the sorcerer grated, with an edge to his high,
rather
light voice, "I have seen in an enchanted crystal the
only
Nest of the Dark known in these mountains, and I
assure
you that it is blocked, as it has been blocked for
centuries.
Naturally my lady may do as she pleases, but
for
reasons of her own comfort and health, and on account
of her
state and prestige, I doubt that my lord Alwir will
permit
my lady to walk in the back of the train like a
common
peasant woman." Turning on his heel, the old
man
stalked back toward his wagon, his fur cape swirling
behind
him like a thundercloud.
Minalde
sat in unhappy silence for a time, rocking her
child
against her breast as if to protect him from unseen
peril.
Distantly, the sounds of the camp's breaking came
to
them, the braying of mules and the creak of harnesses,
the
splash and hiss of doused fires. Somewhere quite close,
voices
raised in anger, Alwir's controlled and cutting as a
lash,
and after, the dry, vituperative hiss of Bishop Govan-
nin's.
Alde
sighed. "They're at it again." She kissed Tir's round
little
forehead, following up the mark of affection with a
businesslike
check of the state of his diaper, and proceeded
to tuck
him up in his multiple blankets again; the morn-
ing
seemed to be growing colder instead of warmer. "They
say we
should reach the Keep tonight," she went on in a
low
voice, excluding from hearing any but the man who
stood
beside her in the shadows of the wagon. "Sometimes
it has
seemed that we'd travel forever and never reach the
place.
So Bektis is probably right."
Rudy
leaned his elbow on the wagon-tail. "You think
so?"
She
didn't reply. Beyond, there was the clatter of trace-
chains
and the sound of troopers talking casually among
themselves
as they harnessed the oxen. "Will we reach the
Keep in
daylight, or will we have to push on after sun-
down?"
Her
hands paused in their restless readying of the
wagon
for travel. In a low voice she said, "After sundown,
I
think."
Ingold
slumped back exhaustedly against a boulder and
rested
his elbows on his drawn-up knees. "I am very
much
afraid, my dear," he said tiredly, "that we are not
going
to make it."
Gil,
who for the last several hours had been aware of
very
little beyond the form of the wizard, who had always
seemed
to be walking farther and farther ahead of her,
could
only nod. The little bay among the rocks above the
road
where they had taken shelter offered no protection
from
the increasing cold, but at least they were out of the
wind.
They had fought the wind all day, and, like a wolf,
it had
torn at their cloaks and mauled their exposed faces
with
savage violence. Gil could sense on it now the smell
of the
storm moving down from the glaciers on the high
peaks.
Even in this comparative shelter, hard bits of mealy
snow
had begun to fly. It was now late afternoon; there
was no
chance, she knew, of reaching the Arrow Gorge
before
the convoy did. Whatever the Dark Ones had done
to the
bridge there, it was beyond her power or Ingold's to
warn
the people of it.
After a
little time she recovered enough to disengage the
flask
she wore at her belt, draw the stopper, and take a
tentative
sip—the stuff made white lightning taste like
lemonade.
"The captain at the Keep gave me this," she
explained,
passing it over.
He took
a drink without turning a hair". "I knew there
was an
ultimate reason in the cosmic scheme of things for
you to
accompany me," he said, and smiled through the
ice in
his beard. "Now that makes twice you've saved my
life."
Over
their heads in the rocks, the roaring of the wind
increased
to a kind of cold, keening shriek, and a great
gust of
snow blew down on them. Gil drew herself closer
to
Ingold's side. "About how far above the Arrow are we
now?"
"Two
or three miles. We would be able to see it, but for
the
winding of the road. That's what worries me, Gil; if
they
had passed the bridge in safety, we would have met
them
before this."
"Might
the storm have slowed them down?"
"Possibly,
But it won't really hit until about sundown. It
would
be suicide for them to stop now."
"Can't
you do anything about the storm?" she asked
him
suddenly. "Didn't you say once that wizards can call
and
dismiss storms?"
He nodded.
"And so we can," he replied, "if that is what
we wish
to do." As he spoke she noticed that, instead of
gloves,
he was wearing mittens—old and frayed now, like
everything
about him, but, by the intricacy of their design,
clearly
knitted for him by someone who cared very much
for the
old man. "We can send storms elsewhere, or call
them to
serve us—all except the ice storms of the plains,
which
strike without warning and make this—" He ges-
tured
at the whirling snow flurries. "—resemble a balmy
spring
breeze. But I think I pointed out to Rudy once, and
I may
have mentioned to you as well, that the Dark will
not
attack under a storm. So it may be that in doing noth-
ing
about the storm, we will be choosing the lesser of two
evils."
He rose
to go, wrapping his muffler tighter around his
neck
and drawing his hood down to protect his face. He
was
helping Gil to her feet when they heard on the road
below
them the muffled clop of hooves and the jingling of
bits,
echoes thrown into the sheltered pocket of boulders
and
dried grass that a moment ago had hidden all sound
of the
troop's coming. Beyond the boulders, Gil saw them
come
into view, a weary straggle of refugees. She recog-
nized,
in the lead, the big, scarred man on a brown horse
whose
head drooped with exhaustion. She and Ingold ex-
changed
one quick, startled glance. Then the wizard was
off,
scrambling down the rocks to the road, calling, "Tirk-
enson!
Tomec Tirkenson!" The landchief straightened in
his
saddle and threw out his hand as a signal to halt
Gil
followed Ingold with more haste than seemliness
down to
the road. The landchief of Gettlesand towered
over
them in the leaden twilight, looking like a big, gaunt
bandit
at the head of his ragged troop of retainers. Glanc-
ing
down the road, Gil could see that his followers—a
great
gaggle of families, a substantial herd of bony sheep
and
cattle, a gang of tough-looking hard-cases riding point-
guard—were
hardly a sixth of the main convoy.
"Ingold,"
the landchief greeted them. He had a voice
like a
rock slide in a gravel pit and a face to match. "We
were
wondering if we'd run into you, Gil-shalos," he
greeted
her with a nod.
"Where
did you leave the rest of the convoy?"
Tirkenson
grunted angrily, his light, saddle-colored eyes
turning
harsh. "Down by the bridge," he grumbled.
"They're
making camp, like fools."
"Making
camp?" The wizard was aghast "That's mad-
ness!"
"Yes,
well, who said they were sane?" the landchief
growled.
"I told them, get the people across and to hell with
the
wagons and the luggage, we can send back for that..."
Ingold's
voice was suddenly quiet. "What happened?"
"Holy
Hell, Ingold." The landchief rubbed a big hand
over
his face wearily. "What hasn't happened? The bridge
came
down. The main pylons went under the weight of
those
carts of Alwir's, took the whole kit and caboodle
down
with them—"
"And
the Queen?"
"No."
Tirkenson frowned, puzzling over it "She was
afoot,
for some reason, up at the head of the train. Walk-
ing
with the Prince slung on her back, like any other
woman.
I don't know why—but I do know if she'd been in
a cart,
there would've been no saving her. So what's Alwir
do but
start salvaging operations, hauling the stuff up out
of the
gorge, and rigging rope pontoons across the river
down
below. Then the Bishop says she won't abandon her
wagons,
and they start breaking them down to carry them
across
in pieces, and half the people are cut off on one
side of
the river and half on the other, and squabbling
about
getting baggage and animals across, and before you
know
it, everybody's saying they'll settle there for the night
"I
tried to tell them they'd be froze blue by morning,
sure as
the ice comes in the north, but that pet conjurer of
Alwir's,
that Bektis, says he can hold off the storm, and by
the
time Alwir and the Bishop got done slanging one an-
other,
they said it was too late to go on anyway. So there
they
sit." He gestured disgustedly and leaned back into the
cantle
of his saddle.
Ingold
and Gil exchanged a quick look. "So you left?"
"Oh—Hell,"
Tirkenson rumbled. "Maybe I should have
stayed.
But Alwir tried to commandeer that big wagon of
the
Bishop's, the one she's dragging the Church records in,
and you
never heard such jabber in your life. She threat-
ened to
excommunicate Alwir, and Alwir said he'd slap
her in
irons—you know how she is about these damn
papers
of hers—and people were taking sides, and Alwir's
boys
and the Red Monks were just about pulling steel over
the
argument. I told them they were crazy, with the camp
split
and the storm and the Raiders and the Dark all
around
them, and they got into it again about that, and I'd
had
enough. I got my people and whoever else wanted to
come
with us to Gettlesand and we pulled out. It might
not
have been the right thing to do, but staying another
night
in the open sure as hell looked like the wrong thing
to do.
We figure we can make the Keep before midnight."
Ingold
glanced briefly at the sky, as if able to read the
time by
the angle of an unseen sun above the roof of
clouds.
The sky was no longer gray but a kind of vile yel-
lowish
brown, and the snow smell was unmistakable. "I
think
you did right," he said at last. "We're going on
down,
and I'll try to talk them into moving on. You'll
have to
fight the weather before you reach the Vale, but
if you
can, get them to open the gates and build bonfires
on both
sides of them, frame them in fire, and guard them
with
every man in the train. With luck, we'll be there
sometime
tonight."
"You'll
need luck," the landchief grumbled. "I'll see
you at
the Keep." He raised his hand in the signal to go
on. The
train began to move like some great beast dragging
itself
along in the last stages of exhaustion. Tirkenson
reined
away from where Ingold and Gil stood, clicking en-
couragement
to his tired horse. Then he paused and turned
back,
looking down on the two pilgrims in the frozen road.
"One
more thing," he said. "Just for your information.
Watch
out for the Bishop. She's got it around that you and
Bektis
are leagued with the Devil—and Alwir, too, just
coincidentally
by association, you understand—and she's
got
Hell's own support in the train. I never held with it—
wizards
trading their souls for the Power—but people are
scared.
They see Alwir's helpless. You might say the pow-
ers of
this world are helpless. So if they're gonna die any-
way,
they're gonna die on the right side of the line. Stands
to
reason. But scared people will do just about anything."
"Ah,
but so will wizards." Ingold smiled. "Thank you
for
your warning. Good riding and a smooth road to you
all."
The
landchief turned away, cursing his exhausted mount
and
threatening to rowel him to dogmeat if he didn't get a
move
on. Gil glanced from the big man's wicked, star-
shaped
spurs to the untouched flanks of the tired horse
and
knew, without quite knowing how, that Ingold's part-
ing
blessing had contained in it spells to avert random
misfortune,
to shake straight the tangled chains of circum-
stance,
and to aid the landchief of Gettlesand and those
under
his loud-voiced and blasphemous care.
CHAPTER
FOURTEEN
It was
snowing in earnest when Gil and Ingold came
within
sight of the camp on the near bank of the Arrow.
In the
swirling grayness they could make out huddled
shapes
bunched around the feeble yellow flickers of camp-
fires,
the dark milling of small herds of animals, the rest-
less
activity on the bank of the gorge, and the shadowy
comings
and goings around the broken bridge. Across the
gorge
more activity was visible, lights moving here and
there
around the farther camp, and the distant threnody of
bleating
goats and a child's wailing cries drifting on the
intermittent
veering of the wind. Between the two camps
lay the
gorge, a sheer-cut chasm of darkness, filled with
the
greedy roaring of the river. On either bank of the
gorge,
great tongues of broken stone thrust out over the
void.
"How
deep is the gorge at that point?" Gil asked, squint-
ing
through the blurring gusts of snow.
"About
forty feet. It's a difficult climb down the side
and up
again, but the water itself isn't very deep. As you
can
see, they've swum most of the stock." Ingold pointed
to
where three men were driving a small herd of pigs up
the
trail. "From what you told me of your dream, it would
seem
that the Dark weakened the central pillars of the
bridge,
so that they gave way under the weight of the
wagons—as
pretty an attempt at murder as you're likely
to see.
And even though the attempt failed, Prince Tir is
stranded
in camp on the banks of the river tonight, cut
off
from most of the convoy, with the camp in confusion.
Either
way, the Dark could hardly have missed." Leaning
on his
staff, he started down the steep slope toward the
fires.
Rudy
met them on the outskirts of camp. "What did you
find?"
he asked them.
As they
made their way through the dark chaos toward
Alwir's
massive tent, Gil filled him in on the valley of the
Dark,
Renweth, the Keep, and what Tomec Tirkenson had
said.
In the end, she asked, "Why wasn't Alde in her
wagon?"
"I
talked her out of it," Rudy said. "I had a bad feeling
they'd
try something tonight, but I never thought about
anything
happening by daylight. We were only a couple
feet in
front of the section of the bridge that went."
"And
you still believe in coincidence," Ingold chided
reprovingly.
"I'm surprised at you."
"Well,"
Rudy admitted, "not as much as I used to."
Alwir's
was one of the few tents left in the tram. It was
pitched
in the lee of some trees, out of the wind; in the
darkening
of the late afternoon, yellow lights could already
be seen
glowing within. Gil could make out a confusion of
voices
coming from it, Bishop Govannin's harsh half-
whisper,
and now and then Bektis' light, mellifluous tenor.
"..
. full ferocity of the storm is by no means upon us,"
the
sorcerer was saying sententiously. "Nor will it be, for
I will
turn its force aside and keep it over the mountains
to the
north until such time as we can come to the Keep."
"Turn
it aside?" Govannin rasped. "Have you been to
the
camp across the river, my lord wizard? They are half-
buried
in the snow there and freezing."
"Yet
we cannot go on tonight," Alwir said and added,
with
smooth malice, "We have too few carts and horses to
make
good speed. What must be carried, must be carried
on the
backs of men. And if they will not rid themselves
of what
is useless..."
"Useless!"
the Bishop spat. "Useless to those who would
dispose
of all precedents for the legal position of the
Church,
perhaps. Mere technicalities to those who would
rather
forget their existence."
Alwir
protested, as sanctimonious as a preacher, "God's
Church
is more than a pile of mildewed paper, my lady.
It lies
in the hearts of men."
"And
in the hearts of the faithful it will always remain,"
she
agreed dryly. "But memory does not lie in the heart,
nor
does law. Men and women have fought and died for
the
rights of the Church, and the only record of those
rights,
the only fruit of those spent lives, is in those wag-
ons. I
will not leave that to perish in the snow at the mere
word of
a baby King's running-dog."
Ingold
pushed aside the flap of the tent. Beyond him,
Gil saw
Alwir's face change and stiffen into a mask of
silver,
barred and streaked with ugly shadow, the mouth
made of
iron. The Chancellor lurched to his feet, his head
brushing
the bottom of the single hanging lamp, towering
over
the slight scarlet figure of the Bishop with clenched
fist;
for a moment it seemed that he might strike her where
she
sat. But she only looked up at him with flat black eyes,
emotionless
as a shark's, and waited in triumph for the
blow to
fall.
"My
lord Alwir!" Hoarse and unmistakable, the voice
cut
like a referee's whistle between them, breaking the ten-
sion
with an almost audible snap. They both turned, and
Ingold
inclined his head respectfully. "My lady Bishop,"
he
finished his greeting.
Just
perceptibly, the Bishop's taut body settled back into
her
chair. Alwir placed his fist upon his hip, rather than
visibly
unclench it at another man's word. "So you de-
cided
to come back," the Chancellor said.
"Why
did you make camp?" Ingold asked without pre-
amble.
"My
dear Ingold," the Chancellor soothed, "as you can
see, it
has begun to grow dark..."
"That,"
Ingold said acidly, "is what I mean. You could
have
pushed on, to reach the Keep sometime tonight, or
gone
back across the river, to be with the main body of the
convoy.
Isolated on this side of the river, you're nothing
but
bait."
Patiently,
Alwir said, "We have, as you may have no-
ticed,
a temporary bridge, across which we are slowly
bringing
the rest of the convoy, as well as sufficient troops
to deal
with any emergency that may arise in the night."
"You
think the Dark couldn't deal with that as easily as
they
deal with solid oak doors? As easily as they dealt
with
the stone pillars of the original bridge?"
"The
Dark had nothing to do with that," Alwir said
rather
sharply.
"You
think not?"
Bektis'
long fingers toyed with a huge solitaire cat's-eye
he wore
on his left hand. "You cannot pretend it anymore,"
he said
rather pettishly. "You are not the only mage in the
train,
my lord Ingold, and I, too, have cast my powers of
far-seeing
here and there in the mountains. The only Nest
that
was ever in these parts was blocked with stone long
ago,
and you yourself know that we have felt no threat of
the
Dark since we have come to the high country." He
raised
heavy white lids and stared from under them at
Ingold,
defiance, resentment, and spite mingling in his
dark,
burning eyes.
"So
they have made it appear," Ingold replied slowly.
"But
I have come from that Nest and I tell you that it lies
open."
"And
is this another of those things," the Bishop asked
dryly,
folding her fingers before her on the table, like a
little
pile of ivory spindles, "for which yours is the only
word?"
Lamplight
glittered in the melting snow on his shoulders
as he
turned toward her. "It is. But there are things, like
the
commandments of God, which we must all take upon
trust,
my lady. Surely you yourself know that we have only
one
man's word on the true means of salvation and that
those
means are not what a reasonable man would logical-
ly
conclude. For now mine—and, incidentally, Gil's—must
be the
only word you have that the Dark are in that valley,
that
they have held back from the train deliberately, and
that
they have broken the bridge in order to kill the Prince
or
isolate him on this side of the river."
Govannin
opened her mouth to speak, then shut it again
thoughtfully.
Ingold
went on. "They will never allow Tir, with what
he
could become and the secrets he may hold, to reach the
Keep. The
storm has given us our chance, and I suggest
that we
take it and push on now, tonight, under its cover
to the
Keep."
"Cover?"
Alwir swung around to face him, his voice
jeering.
"Shroud, you mean. We'll freeze to death . . ."
"You'll
freeze just as quickly here," Ingold pointed out
Piqued,
Bektis announced primly, "I am quite capable
of
holding off such a storm as this ..."
"And
the Dark as well?" Ingold retorted.
The
sorcerer stared at him for a moment, hatred in his
narrow
face, and a watery flush of red crept up under his
white
cheeks.
Without
waiting for his reply, Ingold said, "Nor could
I.
There are limits to all power."
"And
to all endurance," the Bishop said imperturbably.
"And
I for one will not be stampeded by fear, like a sheep
into
the shambles. We can weather this storm and push on
in the
daylight."
"And
if the storm does not break until this tune tomor-
row?"
Alwir
leaned a kid-gloved hand on the back of his
carved
chair. "Don't you think you're putting too much
importance
on this storm? I am agreeable to whatever may
be
voted, provided I can find cartage for the effects of the
government..."
Govannin's
eyes blazed. "Not at the cost of—"
"Don't
be a pair of fools." The words were spoken
quietly
as the white embroidery of the tent-curtains rippled,
and a
girl stood framed in gleaming silk against the shad-
ows of
the room beyond. Minalde's face was very white
against
the raven blackness of her unbound hair. She was
wrapped
for warmth in a star-decorated quilt, holding Tir
against
her under its folds. The child's eyes, wide and
wandering
in fascination over the lamplit ulterior of the
tent,
were a jewel-blue echo of his mother's and of Alwir's
own.
"You
are both acting like fools," she went on in a low
voice.
"The tide is rising, and you are arguing about who
will be
the first one into the boat."
Alwir's
aristocratic nostrils flared in annoyance, but he
only
said, "Minalde, go back to your room."
"I
will not," she replied in that same quiet voice.
"This
is none of your affair." His was the voice of a
man to
a recalcitrant child.
"It
is my affair." She kept her words soft, but Alwir and
Rudy
both stared at her, more astonished than if she had
burst
forth into colorful profanity. All the breath went out
of
Alwir as if she'd kicked him; he had obviously never
even
considered that his gentle and acquiescent little sister
would
defy him. Rudy, who remembered how she'd shoved
a torch
into his face on the haunted stairs at Karst, was
less
surprised.
"Tir
is my son," she continued. "Your stubbornness
could
get him killed."
The
Chancellor's impassive face flushed; he looked ready
to tell
her to mind her tongue before her elders and betters.
But she
was, after all, Queen of Darwath.
"If
what my lord Ingold says is true," he said.
"I
believe him," she said. "And I trust him. And I will
go on
with him to the Keep tonight, if I go alone."
From
where she stood in Ingold's shadow by the corner
of the
tent, Gil could see that this girl, wrapped in stars
and
darkness, was trembling. It couldn't have been easy to
defy a
man who, by all accounts, had run her life for years;
Gil's
respect for Minalde, who had been up to this mo-
ment
merely a name and a silhouette in the darkness,
increased.
"Thank
you for your trust, my lady," Ingold said quietly,
and
their eyes met for a moment. Gil knew from experi-
ence
that the wizard's gaze could strip the spirit bare and
defenseless;
but whatever Alde saw in his eyes, it must have
reassured
her, for she turned away with a straight back
and an
air of resolution.
Alwir
caught her arm, drew her to him, and said some-
thing
that none of them could catch, but his face was in-
tent
and angry. Alde pulled her arm from his grip and
went
inside without a word. It was just as well that she
did,
for she did not see her brother's face, transformed
by cold
rage into the mask Gil had seen when first she'd
entered
the tent, a mask all the more inhuman because it
was so
impersonal. But when he turned back to them, his
smile
was deprecating. "It appears," he said, "that we are
moving
on tonight after all."
It was
clear that this was the opening line to something
else,
but the Bishop cut him off so smoothly that the inter-
ruption
had every appearance of being accidental. "If that
is
so," she said in her slow, dry voice, "I must go and
make
ready the wagons of the Church." And she was gone,
far
more quickly than anyone would have believed possible,
before
he could speak any command.
It was
almost fully dark by the time the camp broke.
Snow
was coming down harder now, the wind whirling
little
flurries of grainy flakes into the ashes of the stamped-
out
fires and coating the churned mud in a thin layer of
white.
Word had been carried across the river over the
makeshift
bridge, and families were crossing slowly, men
and
women balancing precariously on the shaky spiderweb
of rope
and cottonwood poles, with their bundles on their
shoulders.
Oddly enough, when Rudy walked down to the
jerry-built
bridgehead with Ingold and Gil to see about the
single
wagon Alwir had negotiated from one of his mer-
chant
friends, he found that a spirit of optimism seemed to
have
seized the train, grossly at odds with the circum-
stances.
The grumbling wasn't any less prevalent, and the
curses
were just as loud and vivid. Men and women packed
up
their few belongings, rubbing chapped hands in the
flaying
cold, snapping, bickering, and fighting among them-
selves—but
something had changed. The bitter desperation
of the
early part of the march was gone. An aliveness
crackled
through the blinding air that had not been felt
before—a
hope. This was the last march, if they could
make
it. They were within striking distance of the Keep.
"That
should do," Ingold remarked, watching Guards
and
Alwir's private troops dragging the half-disassembled
wagon
box up the crooked trail. "Granted, it should make
Minalde
and Tir a target, but in this case that's better than
risking
losing them in the snow. As for you two . . ." He
turned
to them and laid a hand on each of their shoulders.
"Whatever
you do, stay close to that wagon; it's your best
hope of
reaching the Keep alive. I'm going to be up and
down
the train; I may not see you. I realize none of this is
any of
your business—that you were hauled into it against
your
will, and neither of you owes me anything. But please,
see
that Alde and the child reach the Keep in safety."
"Won't
you be there?" Gil asked uneasily.
"I
don't know where I'll be," the wizard said. Snow
lodged
in his beard and on his cloak. In the failing light
Gil
thought he looked worn out. Not surprising, she
thought.
She herself was operating on nervous energy
alone.
"Take care of yourselves, my children. I'll get you
safely
out of this yet."
He
turned and was gone, the stray ends of his muffler
whipping
like banners in the wind.
"He
looks bad," Rudy said quietly, leaning on his staff
as the
snowy twilight swallowed the old man. "You guys
must
have had one hell of a trip."
Gil
chuckled dryly. "Never doubt he's a wizard, Rudy.
He has
to be, to get people to follow him on crazy stunts
like
that."
Rudy
gave her a sidelong, thoughtful glance. "Well, you
know,
even back in California I thought the setup was
crazy,
but I just about believed him. You do. You have to."
And Gil
understood. Ingold had a way of making any-
thing
seem possible, even feasible—that an aimless motor-
cycle
drifter could call forth fire from darkness, or that a
mild-mannered
and acrophobic Ph.D. candidate would
follow
him over the perilous roof of creation to do battle
with
bodiless, unspeakable foes.
Or that
a ragged train of fugitives, split by dissensions,
frozen
half to death and at the end of their strength,
could
make a fifteen-mile forced march through storm and
darkness
to find at last a refuge they had never seen.
She
sighed and hitched her too-large cloak over her nar-
row
shoulders. The wind still bit through, as it had torn at
her all
day. She felt tired to the bones. The night, she
knew,
would be terrible beyond thinking. She started to
move
off, seeking the Guards, then paused in her steps.
"Hey,
Rudy?"
"Yeah?"
'Take
care of Minalde. She's a good lady."
Rudy
stared at her in surprise, for he had not thought
she had
known, much less that she would understand.
Rudy
still had much to learn about coldhearted women
with
pale schoolmarm eyes. "Thanks," he said, unaccount-
ably
touched by her concern. "You ain't so bad yourself.
For a spook,"
he added with a grin, which she returned
wickedly.
"Well,
it beats me why she'd hang out with a punk air-
brush-jockey,
but that's her business. I'll see you at the
Keep."
Rudy
found Alde where the few remaining servants of
the
House of Bes were packing the single wagon. She her-
self
was loading bedrolls into it; Medda, if she had still
been
alive, would have expired from indignation at the
sight.
He kissed her gently in greeting. "Hey, you were
dynamite."
"Dynamite?"
"You
were great," he amended. "Really. I didn't think
Alwir
would go along with it."
She
turned back, Hushing suddenly in the diffuse glow
of the
torchlight. "I didn't care whether he went along, as
you
say, or not. But I ought not to have called them fools.
Not
Alwir, and certainly not my lady Bishop. It was—
rude."
"So
do penance for it at confession." He drew her to
him
again. "You got your point across."
She
stared in silence for a moment into his eyes. "He's
right,
isn't he?" she whispered intently. "The Dark are in
the
mountains."
"That's
what Gil tells me," he replied softly. "He's right.
They're
nearer than we think."
She
stood for a moment, her hands clasped behind his
neck,
staring up into his face with wide, desperate eyes, as
if unwilling
to end this moment because of all that must
come
after. But a noise from the cart made her break
away
and scramble over the tailboard to replace her wan-
dering
son in his little nest among the blankets. He heard
her
whisper, "You lie down." A moment later she reap-
peared
around the curtains.
"You're
gonna need a leash for that kid once he starts
crawling,"
Rudy commented.
Alde
shuddered. "Don't remind me." And she disap-
peared
inside.
The
convoy began to move. The wind increased in vio-
lence,
howling down the canyons to fall on the pilgrims
with
iron claws. Rudy stumbled along beside the wagon,
blinded
by the snow, his fingers growing numb through his
gloves.
The road here was disused, but better than the
road
from Karst had been, with pavement down the center
where
it had not been broken up by tree-roots or buried
by
neglect. Still, the drifting snow made treacherous foot-
ing,
and Rudy knew that those at the tail of the convoy
would
be sliding their way through a river of slush. Wind
and
darkness cut visibility to almost nothing. The shapes
of the
Guards surrounding the wagon grew dim and cha-
otic,
like half-guessed shadows in a frightful dream.
Remembering
Ingold's teachings, Rudy tried to call light
to him.
He managed to throw a big, sloppy ball of it about
three
feet in front of him to light his steps. But the effort
took
most of his concentration and, as he slipped in the
snow or
staggered under the brutal flail of the wind, the
light
dimmed and scattered. The snow thickened in the
air,
like swirling gray meal all around him, except where
it
passed, unmelting, through the witchlight, which trans-
formed
it into a tiny roaring storm of diamonds that made
his
eyes ache. His cloak and boots dragged wetly on his
limbs,
and his hands passed quickly from insensibility to
pain.
Once, when the wind slacked like the slacking of a
rope,
he heard Minalde's voice from the wagon, singing
softly
to her child:
"Hush,
little baby, don't say a word,
Papa's
gonna buy you a mockingbird.. ."
He
wondered numbly how that song had ever leaked its
way
into the tongue of the Wathe.
He lost
all track of time. How long he'd been struggling
through
the blinding wilderness he had no way of knowing,
could
not even guess. He felt as if it had been hours since
they'd
broken camp, the ground always rising under his
slipping
feet, the wind worrying at him like a beast at its
prey.
He hung onto the wagon grimly with one hand and
onto
his staff with the other; at tunes it seemed as if those
were
the only things keeping him on his feet He knew by
then
that if he went down, he would die.
At one
point, Gil came up beside him, so thin and
ragged
he wondered dully why she didn't blow away. She
yelled
at him over the gale. "You okay?"
He
nodded. A lady and a scholar, he thought. And
tough
as they come.
Others
passed them, or were passed by them, fighting
the
wind with desperate persistence. He saw the old man
from
Karst with his crates of chickens still piled on his
bowed
back, wrapped up in blankets and laden with pounds
of
trapped snow. The struggling band of camp orphans
were
roped together like goslings behind their chief. A
stout
woman leading a goat passed them; a little farther
on he
saw her lying face down in the snow, the goat stand-
ing
wretchedly over her body.
And
still they pushed on. Rudy stumbled and fell, his
body so
numb he was scarcely aware of hitting the ground.
Someone
bent over him, hauled him to his feet, and shook
him out
of his stupor with a violence that surprised him—
a
ghostly, dark shape in a blowing mantle, with a blue-
white
light burning on the end of his staff. Rudy staggered
wordlessly
back to the wagon, catching the cover ropes for
support,
and the shape melted into the dark. In the light-
less
chaos he could see other shapes moving, dragging
stragglers
to their feet, urging them on with words or pleas,
curses
or blows. He clung to the ropes grimly, reminding
himself
he'd promised to get Alde to the Keep, reminding
himself
that there was a goal, somewhere in this black
universe
of unending cold. He had learned already that,
under
certain circumstances, death could be very sweet
indeed.
Time
had become very deceptive; every movement was
ponderously
slow, an incredible effort barely worth the
trouble,
like that old Greek guy who had to push the stone
up the
hill, knowing full well it was just going to roll to
the
bottom again. The night was far gone. He could tell by
the
changing note of the wind that they were coming clear
of the
deep gorges, coming into a more open space. Feebly,
mind
and will drowning in a blind darkness that was within
him as
well as without, he tried to call back a little of the
witchlight,
but raised not even a glimmer.
Just
keep putting one foot in front of the other, he told
himself
grimly. You'll get there. The wind struck him like
a club;
he went down and this time decided not to get up.
They
could make it to the Keep without him. He was going
to
sleep for a while.
He
drifted for a time in memories, chiefly of the warm
hills
of California, the rippling gold of the sunbaked grass,
and the
way the sun had felt on his bare arms as he hauled
down
Highway 15 on his chopper in the late evening, the
wind
streaming through his hair. He wondered if he'd ever
get to
do that again. Probably not, he decided. But even
that
didn't matter much. Who'd have figured that leaving
on a
beer run would end up with me freezing to death in
a range
of mountains that never even existed?
Life is
weird.
A
seven-foot giant with a kick like a mule loomed sud-
denly
in the darkness and booted him in the ribs. Cold
returned,
and a thin leakage of pain spread into every
muscle
and joint. He mumbled, "Hey," protestingly, and
the giant
kicked him again.
"Get
up, you sniveler." Why did a seven-foot giant have
Gil's
voice?
Arrogant
egghead bitch. "No."
Even a
few weeks of swordmastery training had given
her a
grip like a claw. Surprising, too, that somebody
wasted
down to ninety-eight pounds of brittle bone could
have
the strength to drag him to his feet and throw him
with
such violence against the side of the moving wagon,
so that
he had to catch hold of it.
"Now
keep moving," she ordered.
Stupid
of her not to understand. "I can't," he explained
groggily.
"The
hell with you!" she yelled at him, suddenly furious.
"You
may be a goddam wizard, but you're a coward and
a
quitter, and I'll be damned if I'll have you let everybody
down by
up and dying on the road. You die when you get
to the
Keep if you want to so bad. We're only a couple
miles
from it."
"Hunh?"
Rudy tried to keep a grip on the rope with his
fingers,
but they were too numb. He thrust his whole arm
through
the space between the rope and the flapping cover.
"What
did you say?"
But as
if in answer to his words, he felt a sudden change
in the
air. The titanic winds veered, and the relentless
hammering
force of them slackened, making him stagger,
as if
for a support suddenly lost. The snow, instead of
peppering
his body like bullets from a Tommy gun, fell
straight
for a few moments, then ceased. He could hear the
roaring
of the wind in the pines above the road and its
shrieking
whine in the rocks, but the air around him,
though
freezing cold, was still.
The
wagon team halted, one ox managing a plaintive
low.
Boots scrunched in the squeaking snow all about him;
somewhere
leather creaked. He could hear his own breath
and
that of the woman beside him.
"What
is it?" he whispered. "Has the storm let up?"
"Not
like that, it wouldn't. Besides, you can still hear it
overhead."
He
blinked against the darkness and raised a shaking
hand to
scrape ice crystals from his eyes. "Then what. . ."
Then he
realized what must have happened. Shock and
fear
sent a jolt of adrenalin into his veins that cleared his
groggy
mind. "Oh, Christ," he whispered. "Ingold."
"He
stopped the storm, didn't he?" Gil said softly. "They
must
have been losing too many people ..."
"But
you know what that means?" Rudy said urgently.
"It
means the Dark will be coming now." He took an ex-
perimental
step away from the wagon and found he could
stand
after a fashion by leaning on his staff. "We gotta get
moving."
The
Guards were closing in around them, some thirty
strong;
he could pick out their voices in the darkness. God
only
knew where the rest of the train was. They'd gotten
so
badly strung out in the storm, it was every man for him-
self.
He flexed his right hand stiffly, trying to convince
himself
it was still really his; he heard Gil's voice speaking
softly
to the Guards around them and, brief and cold, the
Icefalcon's
breathless laugh. Gil came back to him. "Can
you
call up some light?" she asked. "The land flattens out
from
here on; we could lose the road completely. Look."
There
was, in fact, only one thing to look at: a tiny
square
of orange light, distant and sharp in the wastelands
of
cold.
"Tomec
Tirkenson's up at the Keep. That's the fire
around
the doors."
"Okay,"
Rudy said. "We can make for that, if nothing
else."
He tried several times to call light, but his fatigue-
drugged
consciousness was unequal to the task. They were
moving
again, heading steadily toward that tiny orange
star,
the going impossibly rough over the steep, uneven
ground.
From the wagon behind him, he heard Tir's thin,
protesting
wails and Alde's voice, softly shushing him. He
trod on
something hard that rolled sickeningly underfoot,
stumbled,
and put his hand on it in falling. It was an iron
cook
pot. Despite the cold and danger, he grinned—others
had
made it this far. The whole Vale was probably littered
with
discarded household goods, flung away in a last,
desperate
effort to keep on going. Well, if they could do it,
he
could do it.
And
then he felt it—a breath of wind in the stillness, a
wind
not like the might of the storm, but a thin, direction-
less
whisper that spoke of stone and damp, warm darkness,
a faint
stirring of air from above and behind and all sides.
Turning,
he saw the Dark.
How he
saw them he wasn't sure—perhaps by some
wizard-sense,
grown from the exercise of his powers. They
flowed
over the snow toward the wagon, scarcely distin-
guishable
one from the other or from the shifting river of
illusion
in which they swam. Whiplike tails steered and
propelled,
and they moved with a sinuous glide, the jointed
legs
tucked in folds like bamboo armor under the soft,
dripping
tentacles of the slobbering mouths. For a moment
he
stood hypnotized, fascinated by the changing shapes,
now
visible, now only wavering ghosts. He wondered in
what
sense they could be said to be material at all. What
atoms
and molecules made up those sleek, pulsing bodies?
What
brain, or brains, had conceived the stairways that
led down
to the blackness under the earth?
Then
one of the oxen gave a great bellow of terror and
tried
to leap forward; it fell, pulling down its teammate in
a
tangle of harness and splintering the wagon tongue under
its
threshing weight.
"The
Dark!" Rudy yelled in desperate warning, and
tried
to summon light, any light, for aid against the unseen
foes.
He heard Alde scream. Then from behind him a shat-
tering
blaze of witchlight pierced the darkness like a
strobe,
and that pouring river of shadow and illusion broke
against
it and swirled away like a great ring of smoke.
Ingold
came striding out of the unnatural stillness, his
shadow
thrown hard and blue onto the glittering snow at
his
feet.
"Cut
that ox loose, get my lady out of the wagon, and
get
moving," he ordered briefly. By the burning light, the
Guards
came running to them, faces haggard under the
crusting
of frost. "Janus, do you think you can make it as
far as
the Keep?"
The
Commander, barely recognizable under the ice that
scaled
his hair and cloak, squinted at the light in the dis-
tance,
against which the tiny figures of men were now
clearly
visible. "I think so," he panted. "Again, you've
saved
us."
Ingold
retorted, "It's about a mile and a half too soon
to say
that. My lady..."
He
turned back to the wagon. The Icefalcon had cut the
team
loose, but the wagon was clearly beyond further use.
From
the curtains at the front, a white face looked out,
framed
in the darkness of a black fur hood and a cascade
of
crow-black hair.
Rudy
stepped quickly over to the wagon. "We've got to
run for
it, babe," he said softly, and she nodded, turning
unquestioningly
back into the shadows of the cart to fetch
Tir.
She reappeared a moment later with the heavily
muffled
infant in her arms, her face pale in the light of
Ingold's
staff, her eyes wide with apprehension. Gil held
out her
arms and received the child awkwardly, while
Rudy
helped Minalde down over the broken wagon tongue.
Even
through two pairs of gloves and the burning numb-
ness of
his fingers, he was conscious of the touch of her
hand.
"How
far?" she whispered.
Gil
nodded toward the distant orange gleam of the Keep
doors.
"About two miles."
Alde
took the baby back, feeling as she did so the chill,
prickly
sensation she had known before, the subconscious
awareness
of the presence of the Dark. The Dark Ones had
not
been defeated by the advent of the light. They had
merely
drawn off to wait.
The
wind still howled overhead, but near them the air
was
uncannily still. From all around them in the Vale they
could
hear voices, distorted by cold and distance, voices of
fear,
hope, despair. Refugees throughout the dark moun-
tains
were making for the lights of the Keep, unseen forms
fighting
their way through stillness and deep snow; but with-
in the
circle of light cast by Ingold's staff, the little group
of
Guards around the fallen wagon were alone. Coated with
frost,
they seemed to be some kind of fantastic ice-crea-
tures,
beaded with diamonds and breathing crystal smoke.
And
beyond them, invisible in the blue-black ocean of the
night,
that sense of restless motion stirred just out of the
range
of vision.
Ingold
came over to the little group by the wagon
tongue,
his light harsh on their drawn, haggard faces. He
was a
man who imparted his own strength to others; Gil
found
she drew warmth from his presence, as from a fire,
and saw
that Rudy and Alde looked a little less deathly as
well.
He put a hand briefly to Alde's cheek and gazed
sharply
into her face. "Can you make it?"
"I
have to," she said simply.
"Good
girl. Rudy..."
Rudy
stepped forward hesitantly.
"Channel
your Power through your staff; that's what it's
there
for, not just to keep you from stubbing your toes."
Rudy
looked in surprise at the six-foot walking stick
he'd
cut for himself miles up the road. "Uh—you mean,
that's
all? You don't have to do anything special to make
a staff
magic?"
Ingold
appeared to pray briefly for patience. "All things
are
inherently magic," he said patiently. "Now . . ."
Tentatively,
Rudy called light again, feeling the power
of it
through his hand, through the wood that had become
smoothed
to his grip by its use, through the air. Light be-
gan to
burn smokily from the end of the staff, growing
brighter
and throwing doubled shadows, blue and black, on
the
spokes of the wagon wheels, on the thin, frightened
faces
of the two girls, on the dilapidated cart, and on the
deep-set
hollows of Ingold's eyes.
Softly,
the wizard said, "Don't leave them, Rudy." Rudy
had the
sudden, uncomfortable feeling that the old man
knew
about his giving up, his lying down to die and leav-
ing the
others to their own devices. He felt himself flush.
"I'm
sorry," he mumbled.
Wind
stirred around his feet. He swung about, scanning
the
darkness beyond. He felt a counterspell, like the cold
touch
of an alien hand, slipping into his mind from the
darkness.
He felt the light dimming, looked up, and saw
that
Ingold's staff, too, had begun to flicker unsteadily.
At the
same time he smelled the cold, bitter, acid stink of
the
Dark. Steel whined as Gil drew her sword; all around
them
was the muted flashing of blades as the Guards
closed
in an outward-facing ring.
What
instinct warned him he never knew, but he
ducked,
drew and turned, and slashed in one movement,
almost
before he was aware of the thing that fell suddenly
on him
out of the night. He heard Alde scream and got a
confused
glimpse of Gil, with a face of stone and a blade
of
fire, cleaving darkness in a long side-on cut that seemed
to
cover them all in an explosion of blood and slime. The
witchlight
dimmed to gray, and the Guards pressed back,
defending
as best they could against the slimy onslaught.
The
counterspell sucked at him, draining his power as if
from a
cut artery, and for a time he saw nothing, knew
nothing
but that he must keep between the Dark and the
woman
at his back.
Then,
without warning, they were gone, and the strength
of the
witchlight was renewed. Somebody yelled, "Come
on!"
and Rudy found himself grasping Alde's right arm
while
Gil held her left, hurrying over the slime-spattered
muck of
the snow, the light of his staff brightening over
the
mess of mud and bloody bones, with the Guards clos-
ing
around them in a tight flying wedge. Ingold strode
ahead,
white breath smoking in the light that showed the
snow
all around them trampled by stampedes of fleeing
feet
and strewn with the discarded bundles of the refugees.
Groggily,
Rudy tried to keep up with him, leaden with
cold
and fatigue and stumbling in the drifted mess, trying
to keep
his eyes on the brilliant square of orange light in
the
distance that marked the end of this nightmare road.
He
could make out movement there clearly now, small
shapes
in those great doors. He could sense the Dark
massing
above them like storm clouds and felt the touch of
their
spells again, drawing and sapping at his strength.
Then
the soft, sinister shadows dropped like vultures
from
above, a half-seen cloudy death that filled the night.
Rudy's
sword seemed to be weighted with lead, his arm
shot
full of Novocain. He knew that if he hadn't been in
the
center of the pack, he would have been killed at once.
Seeing
Gil slash and dodge in the gray darkness and step
in
under the whining arc of a spined whip half again as
long as
she was, he understood why Gnift flayed the bodies
and
souls of his Guard students and why Gil and the
others
trained the way they did, doggedly, through injuries,
cold,
and fatigue. It was only their training that saved them
now.
Thin
winds ruffled mockingly around them, and the
Dark
were gone. Rudy, gasping for breath, hung onto his
staff
for support, holding the half-fainting Alde with his
other
arm and wondering if he'd have the strength to drag
her as
far as the Keep. Though they were less than a mile
off,
the roaring glow of the gate-fires could barely be seen
through
the massed, cloaking shadows that filled the night.
The
Guards closed up again.
"Now,"
Ingold said quietly. "Go. Go quickly."
Horrified,
Janus protested, "They're all around us, they'll
never
let us through."
The
wizard was panting with exertion, and the pallid
light
showed his hands cut and noisome with slime. "They
will if
you go now. Hurry, or—"
"You're
not staying!" the Commander cried.
"But—"
Rudy began, stupefied.
"Do
as I say!" the wizard thundered, and Rudy stepped
back a
pace, shocked. Ingold drew his sword in a single
gleaming
movement, the blade flashing in the dark. "Got"
Janus
looked at him for a long moment, as if he might,
at the
last, disobey. Then abruptly he turned and strode
off
through snow and darkness; after a momentary, uncer-
tain
pause, Rudy and the others followed, he and Gil half-
dragging
Minalde between them. He could feel the spells
of the
Dark shifting aside from the light he bore and could
sense
their malice concentrated elsewhere. Glancing back
over
his shoulder, he saw Ingold standing where they had
left
him, a dark form in the burning aureole of the light,
his
head cocked to listen to the sounds of the night, blood
dripping
from his gashed knuckles to stain the snow at his
feet.
The
wizard waited until the little party of Guards had
gone
almost two hundred yards from him. Then Rudy,
turning
again to look back, saw him throw down his staff
in the
snow. The light went out. The sword blade swung in
a
searing, phosphorescent arc. Rudy knew that the Dark
had
closed in on the old man.
They
ran on. Tir had begun to wail, his cries thin and
muffled
with exhaustion, within the shelter of his mother's
cloak.
There was no other sound; but looking across Alde
once,
Rudy got a glimpse of Gil's face, a pale-eyed mask
of
pain. The blazing gates seemed to get no nearer, though
he
could now clearly distinguish the shapes grouped on the
steps
in the glare of the bonfires, with the Runes of Guard-
ing and
Law looming behind them, reflected in the bloody
light.
One dark shape he knew must be Tomec Tirkenson;
another,
he thought, was Govannin. There seemed to be
something
wrong with his perception of distance. The air
was
still, without movement or scent or breath, without
even
the sensation of the nearness of the Dark—though he
knew he
had to be wrong about that; it must be only the
effect
of his senses slipping gradually away. The Dark had
to be
following, waiting the moment to strike. Twice he
looked
back over his shoulder and saw the firefly move-
ment of
Ingold's blade in the darkness. He wondered
dizzily
why the wizard had sent them on and wondered,
with
all the strength left in him to wonder, if they'd make
it as
far as the gates before the Dark finally fell on them
from
above. The ground steepened; he seemed to be mov-
ing
through a knee-deep sea of slush, struggling to keep to
his
feet.
Then
from above them, the wind streamed down—not
the
winds of the Dark, but the storm winds, swirling snow
down on
them as they fled toward the blazing Hell-mouth
of the
gates. The howl of the rising gale was like the
keening
of wolves on the kill. The storm winds that hit
them
with a force that made Rudy stagger were blinding,
freezing,
raging over them with wild, malicious glee. He
struggled
on, seeing before him the towering darkness of
some
vast, somber cliff, the storm winds driving the flames
into
thirty-foot maypoles of fire. He tripped on something
in the
darkness and fell, Alde's arm sliding from his grasp.
Looking
up, he saw before him the blazing gates; he had
fallen
on the steps. He could see Gil dragging Alde up the
steps,
framed in a wild coruscation of snow and fire, the
wind
mixing their dark hair into a single streaming cloud.
Someone
came down to him and hauled him up and into
that
red inferno. Sick and half-fainting, he could see only
that the
hand that gripped his arm was covered by a black
velvet
glove glittering with rubies, like droplets of new-
shed
blood.
When
his eyes cleared, he was lying on the floor just
within
the gates, half-covered in blowing snow. Men and
women
were coming inside, staggering with cold and ex-
haustion—children,
too, he saw, and realized Gil had been
right.
His surrender to fate back in the snowy darkness
had
been an act of cowardice that an eight-year-old could
have
bettered. Beyond them, silhouetted against the ruddy
light,
he saw Govannin, a skull with live coals in the eye
sockets,
a sword in her skeleton hand. Alwir was a dark
tower,
his sister leaning on the strength of his mighty arms,
her
child sobbing exhaustedly at her breast. Alwir's eyes
were
not on either of them, but looking beyond, into the
dark
cave of the Keep itself, calculating the dimensions of
his new
kingdom. And past them was Gil, her coarse,
witchy
hair fluttering in the backwash of the storm as she
stood
at the gates, looking out into the darkness. But in all
that
waste of ice and bitter wind, Rudy could see no trace
of any
moving light.
CHAPTER
FIFTEEN
"Where
is he?" Rudy asked.
"With
the Guards." Gil adjusted her sword belt without
meeting
his eyes. He could see that she had been crying.
Rudy
rolled over and found he had to use the wall to
climb
painfully to his feet. His body ached, and little elec-
tric
flashes of pain were stabbing every muscle and joint
as he
tried to move. Lassitude gripped not only his bones
but his
spirit as well, so that nothing—not last night's flight,
nor the
news Gil had wakened him with this afternoon—
brought
him either sorrow or joy. He recognized this as a
symptom
of extreme fatigue.
When I
get back to California, he vowed tiredly, I am
never,
ever going to gripe about anything again. I will al-
ways
know for a sure fact that things could be loads worse.
If I
get back to California, he amended, and followed
Gil out
of the cell.
The
cell was one of a warren of partitioned-off cubicles
that
stretched haphazardly beyond a door to the right of
the
gate. To get out, he had to pick his way through ill-lit
huddles
of those who still slept, lying where they'd fallen
in
blind exhaustion, and step over and around the pitiful
little
bundles of pots and blankets heaped in the corners
of the
tiny rooms. Next to a small hearth, a porcelain-
headed
doll slumped like a dead child against a pair of
broken
boots. The place stank of unwashed clothes and a
child's
neglected diaper. Blinking in the dim light, Rudy
stepped
out into the central hall of the Keep.
Looking
around him at the dark fastnesses of that fortress,
he
could only wonder at the human powers of recuperation
and the
human tendency to make oneself at home. Here, in
this
awesome fortress of stone and steel, after they'd fought
their
way through peril and death and darkness, people
were
settling themselves in cozily for the winter. Children
—Minalde
was right, children were tough little survivors—
ran
madly up and down that great, echoing hall, their shrill,
piercing
yells ringing off the unseen vaults. He heard
women's
voices, sweet and high, and a man's genuine laugh
of
pleasure. Down at one end of that monstrous space, a
rectangle
of blinding light marked the doors—daylight,
filtered
with clouds and snow. At the other end of the hall,
a
couple of monks in patched red robes were putting up a
bronze
crucifix over a cell doorway otherwise indistinguish-
able
from a hundred small black doorways exactly like
it to
establish the domain of the Church—Renweth Cathe-
dral
and the administrative offices of Bishop Govannin.
She was
evidently wasting no time. On the narrow catwalk
above,
he saw Alwir, like Lucifer in his velvet cloak, quiet-
ly surveying
his dominion.
The
Guards had a complex of cells to the immediate
right
of the great Keep doors. Gil led Rudy through a
narrow
entrance. By the smoldering light of grease lamps,
he saw
Janus arguing with a couple of indignant-looking
burghers
who had the air of having been men of property
before
the Dark had made hash of wealth and land and
prestige.
Janus
was saying patiently, "Cell assignments aren't the
province
of the Guards, they're the responsibility of the
Lord of
the Keep, so I suggest..." But neither of the men
looked
as if he were listening.
The
room was heaped with provisions and mail, weap-
onry
and kindling. Guards were sleeping in the chaos, with
their
slack, pinched faces showing the last stages of weari-
ness.
In the room beyond, the confusion was worse, for
most of
the Guards there were sitting around, eating a
scratch
dinner of bread and cheese, sharpening their
swords,
and mending their uniforms. The Icefalcon, his
white
hair unbraided and hanging in a sheet of liquid
platinum
past his waist, was keeping a pot of water from
boiling
by watching it impatiently. People looked up and
called
greetings, cheerful and noisy, which Rudy returned
with
what bloodless enthusiasm he could conjure. The place
stank of
filth and grease and smoke. What the hell was it
going
to be like in a year? Or two years? Or twenty? The
thought
was nauseating.
A
grubby curtain partitioned off a sort of closet, where
the
Guards had stored their spare provisions in wildest dis-
order.
Stepping through the grimy divider, Rudy blinked
at the
dimness, for barely any of the greasy yellow illumi-
nation
managed to leak through from the room beyond;
he had
the impression of heaped sacks, scarred firkins, a
floor
mucky with mud and old hay, and an overwhelming
smell
of dusty cheese and onions. Across the back of that
narrow
cell somebody had excavated a makeshift bed on
the
fodder-sacks. On the bed, looking like a dead hobo, lay
Ingold.
"You're
crazy, do you know that?" Rudy said.
The
blue eyes opened, drugged and dreamy with fatigue.
Then
the familiar smile lightened the whole face, stripping
the age
from it and turning it impish and curiously young.
"You
could have got killed."
"You
have an overwhelming capacity for the obvious,"
Ingold
said slowly, but his voice was teasing, and he was
obviously
pleased to see Gil and Rudy alive and well. The
wizard's
hands were bandaged in rags and his face welted
and
snow-burned, but on the whole, Rudy thought, he
looked
as if he'd live. He went on. "Thank you for your
concern,
though the danger was less than it appeared. I
was
fairly certain I could keep the Dark Ones at bay until
I
released the spells over the storm. I knew I could escape
them
under cover of the storm, you see."
"Yeah?"
Rudy asked, sitting down at the foot of the
bed.
"And just how the hell did you plan to escape the
storm?"
"A
mere technicality." Ingold dismissed the subject. "Is
it
still snowing?"
"It's
coming down pretty heavy," Gil said, drawing her
knees
up like a skinny grasshopper and settling herself be-
side
the head of the bed. "But the wind's stopped. Tomec
Tirkenson
says this is the coldest it's been in forty years.
The
Icefalcon said he's never seen the snow pile up in the
canyons
like this so early in winter. You're gonna have one
chilly
trek over the Pass." Barely visible in the smoky
darkness,
her face looked thin and haggard, but at peace.
"I'll
wait until it actually stops snowing," Ingold said
comfortably,
and folded his bandaged bands before him
on the
moth-eaten wool of the coverlet. Half-hidden in the
gloom,
he looked white and ill. Rudy didn't like the dreamy
weakness
of his voice, nor the way he lay without moving,
propped
on the sacks of grain. Whatever he said, the old
boy had
had one hell of a close call.
"I can't delay much longer than
that," the wizard con-
tinued.
"Things have happened about which it has become
imperative
that I consult Lohiro, quite apart from the fact
that,
so far as I know, Alwir still proposes to assemble his
Army
here, for the invasion of the Nests of the Dark."
"Look,"
Rudy began. "About your going to Quo . . ."
But
before he could finish, the muted voices outside rose
to a
quick babble, followed by the hasty scuffle of too
many
people all trying at once to get respectfully to their
feet in
too small a space. The ragged curtain was thrust
aside,
and a towering shadow blotted the infalling light.
Alwir,
Lord of the Keep of Dare, stepped through. At his
side, dark
and slender as a young apple tree newly come to
blossom,
was the Lady Minalde.
The
Chancellor stood silent for a moment, gravely re-
garding
the old man lying on his bed of sacks. When he
spoke,
his melodious voice was quiet. "They told me that
you
were dead."
"Not
much of an exaggeration," Ingold said pleasantly,
"but
not strictly accurate, as you see."
"You
could have been," the Chancellor said. "Without
you, we
might all have been, back by the river. I have
come—"
The words seemed to stick in his throat like dry
bread.
"I have come to say that I have wronged you, and
to
offer you my hand in friendship again." He held out his
hand,
the jewels of his many rings flaming in the shadows.
Ingold
stretched out a grubby, bandaged hand to accept,
a
king's gesture to an equal. "I only did as I promised
Eldor I
would," he said. "I have taken his son and seen
him to
safety. My promise is fulfilled. As soon as the
weather
permits, I shall be leaving to seek the Hidden City
of
Quo."
"Do
you think, then, that it can be found?" Alwir's frown
was one
of troubled concern, but his eyes were calculating.
"I
can't know that until I seek it. But the aid of the
Council
of Wizards is imperative: to your invasion, to the
Keep,
to all of humankind. Lohiro's silence troubles me.
It has
been over a month, without word from him or from
any
member of the Council. Yet it is impossible that they
cannot
know what has happened."
"But
you still think Lohiro isn't dead?"
Ingold
shook his head decisively. "I would know it," he
said.
"I would feel it. Even with the spells that surround
the
city like a ring of fire, I would know."
Minalde
spoke for the first tune, her eyes dark with
concern.
"What do you think has happened, then?"
Ingold
shook his head and said simply, "I don't know."
She
looked down at him for a moment, hearing, as no
one
else in the room did, the undercurrent in his voice of
helplessness
and fear—not fear for the world's wizardry,
but for
his friends in Quo, the only people in the world to
whom
the old man truly belonged. She had seen him be-
fore
only in his strength and command, and sudden sym-
pathy
clouded her face. She said, "You would have
sought
them weeks ago, but for your promise. I'm sorry."
Ingold
smiled at her. "The promise had nothing to do
with
it, my child."
She
stepped quickly forward and bent to kiss the top of
his
rough, silvery hair. "God be with you," she whispered.
She
turned and fled the room, leaving lover and brother
staring
after her in bemused surprise.
"You
seem to have made a conquest," Alwir chuckled,
though,
Rudy thought, he didn't sound a hundred percent
pleased
about it. "But she is justified. Your service to the
Realm
goes beyond any payment we can possibly make."
He
looked around him at the grimy, low-ceilinged room with
its
dirty walls, the smells and steam from the guardroom
outside
drifting in, along with Gnift's cracked, tuneless
voice
singing of love in cornfields. "It certainly deserves
better
than a back room in the barracks. The Royal House-
hold is
a regular warren—we can put you up there in the
comfort
that befits your state, my lord."
The
wizard smiled and shook his head. "Others could
use the
space there better than I," he excused himself.
"And
in any case, I shall be departing soon. As long as
there
is a spare bunk in the Guards' quarters, I shall have
a
home."
The
Chancellor studied him curiously for a long moment.
"You're
an odd bird," he said finally, without resentment.
"But
have it as you will. And if you ever get tired of your
gypsy
existence, the offer will always stand. The quarrel
between
us has wasted your talents, my lord. I can only
ask
your leave to make restitution."
"There
is no leave," Ingold said, "nor restitution. The
quarrel
is forgotten."
Chancellor
Alwir, Regent of the Realm and Lord of the
Keep of
Dare, bowed himself from the room.
A
moment later the Icefalcon slipped in to give Ingold
a cup
of the tea he had been brewing. The steam had a
curious
smell, but it was supposed to prevent colds. It
occurred
obliquely to Rudy that, although he'd been frozen,
wet,
half-starved, and nearly dead of exhaustion, at no
time
had he felt even mildly ill. Probably there was no
time
for it, he decided. And what I've been through would
scare
any self-respecting bacteria into extinction.
"Ingold,"
Gil said quietly after the Guard had left.
"About
your going to Quo ..."
"Yes,"
the wizard said. "Yes, we shall have to talk about
that."
Rudy
shifted his position at the foot of the bed. "I don't
think
you should go alone."
"No?"
"You
say it's dangerous as hell—okay. But I think you
should
take me, or Gil, or one of the Guards, or some-
body."
The old
man folded his arms and asked detachedly,
"You
don't believe I can look after myself?"
"After
that stunt you pulled last night?"
"Are
you volunteering?"
Rudy
stopped short, with a quick intake of breath. "You
mean—you'd
take me?" He couldn't keep the eagerness
out of
his voice or, to judge by Ingold's expression, off his
face.
The prospect of going with the old man, no matter
what
the dangers—of learning from him even the rudi-
ments
of wizardry—overshadowed and indeed momen-
tarily
obliterated everything he had ever heard or feared
regarding
White Raiders, ice storms, and the perils of the
plains
in whiter. "You mean I can go with you?"
"I
had already considered asking you," Ingold said.
"Partly
because you are my student and partly due to ...
other
considerations. Gil is a Guard—" He reached out to
touch
her hair in a wordless gesture of affection. "—and
the
Keep can ill spare any Guard in the months ahead.
But you
see, Rudy, at the moment you are the only other
wizard
whom I can trust. Only a wizard can find his way
into
Quo. If, for some reason, I do not make it as far as
Quo, it
will be up to you."
Rudy
hesitated, shocked. "You mean—I may end up
having
to find the Archmage?"
"There
is that possibility," Ingold admitted. "Especially
after
what I learned last night."
"But—"
He stammered, suddenly awed by that respon-
sibility.
The responsibility, he realized, was part of the
privilege
of being a mage; but still . . . "Look," he said
quietly.
"I do want to go, Ingold, really. But Gil's right. I
am a
coward and I am a quitter and if I didn't screw you
up or
get you into trouble on the way—if I had to find the
Council
by myself, I might blow it."
Ingold
smiled pleasantly. "Not as badly as I would al-
ready
have blown it by getting myself killed. Don't worry,
Rudy.
We all do what we must." He took a sip of his tea.
"I
take it that's settled, then. We shall be leaving as soon
as the
weather breaks, probably within three days."
Three
days, Rudy thought, caught between qualms and
excitement.
And then, to his horror, he realized that, faced
with
the chance of continuing bis education as a wizard,
he had
forgotten almost entirely about Minalde.
I can't
leave her! he thought, aghast. Not for the five or
six
weeks the journey will take! And yet he knew that there
had
never been any consciousness of a choice. To go with
Ingold,
to study wizardry under the old man, was what he
wanted—in
some ways the only thing he wanted. He had
known,
far down the road when he had first brought fire
to his
bidding, that it might lose him the woman he loved;
even
then he had known that there was no possibility of an
alternative
course. And yet—how could he explain?
Long
ago and in another life, he remembered driving
through
the night with a scholar in a red Volkswagen,
speaking
of the only thing that someone wanted to have or
be or
do. He looked across at her now, at the thin, scarred
face
with pale schoolmarm eyes, the witchlike straggle of
sloppily
braided hair. It had been hard for her to leave
something
she disliked for something she loved. Harder
still,
he thought, was it to leave something you loved for
something
you loved more.
Sorely
trouble in his mind, he returned his thoughts to
what
Gil was saying. "So you'll be bunking here until
then?"
"I
don't take up much room," Ingold remarked, "and I
far
prefer the company. Besides," he added, picking up
his
teacup again, "I never have found out who ordered my
arrest
in Karst. While I don't believe Alwir would put me
out of
the way as long as he had a use for me, there are
cells
deep in the bowels of this Keep that are woven with
a magic
far deeper and stronger and far, far older than
my own,
cells that I could never escape. The Rune of the
Chain
is still somewhere in this Keep—in whose possession
I
cannot tell. As long as I remain in the Keep of Dare, I
would
really prefer to sleep among my friends."
Rudy's
fingers traced idly at the moldy nap of the blan-
ket.
"You think it's like that?"
"I
don't know," the wizard admitted equably. "And I
should
hate to find out. The wise man defends himself by
never
being attacked."
"You
call that business last night not being attacked?"
Ingold
smiled ruefully. "That was an exception," he
apologized,
"and unavoidable. I knew that I could draw
the
Dark away from Tir and hold them off long enough to
let you
get close to the gates. There weren't very many of
them
left by that time, too few to split up and still have
enough
power among themselves to work counterspells
against
me."
"I
don't understand," Gil said, tossing the end of her
braid
back over her shoulder. "I know there weren't a lot
of
them—but why did they let us go? They've been follow-
ing Tir
clear the hell down from Karst. They know what
the
Keep is and they knew last night was their last chance
to get
at him. But they turned back and went after you.
Why?"
He
didn't answer at once. He lay watching the curl of
the
steam rising from the cup in his bandaged hands, his
face in
repose suddenly old and tired. Then his dark-circled
eyes
shifted to meet hers. "Do you remember," he said
slowly,
"when I almost became—lost—in the vaults at
Gae?
When you called me back from the stairways of the
Dark?"
Gil
nodded soundlessly; it had been the first day, she
remembered,
that she had held a sword in her hand. The
darkness
came back to her, the stealthy sense of lurking
fear,
the old man standing alone on the steps far below
her,
listening to a sound that she could not hear, the white
radiance
of his staff illuminating the shadows all around
him. It
had been the last day she had been a scholar, an
outworlder,
the person she had once been. The memory of
that
distant girl, alone and armed with a borrowed sword
and a
guttering torch against all the armies of the Dark,
brought
a lump to her throat that she thought would choke
her.
He went
on. "I guessed, then, what I know now—that
Prince
Tir is not their first target. Oh, they'll take him if
they
can get him—but, given a choice, as I gave them a
choice
last night, it isn't Tir they want.
"It's
me."
"You?"
Rudy gasped.
"Yes."
The wizard sipped his tea, then set it aside. From
beyond
the curtain, Gnift's voice bitingly informed some-
one
that he had less stance than a wooden-legged ice
skater.
"I can evidently be of more ultimate harm to them
than
Tir can. I suspected it before, and after last night
there
can be no other explanation."
"But
how—I mean—your magic can't touch them,"
Rudy
said uneasily. "To them you're just another guy with
a
sword. You don't know any more about the Time of the
Dark
than anybody else. I mean, Tir's the one who'll re-
member."
"I've
wondered about that myself," Ingold said calmly.
"And
I can only conclude that I know something that I'm
not yet
aware that I know—some clue that hasn't fallen
into
place. They know what it is, and they're concerned
lest I
remember."
Rudy
shuddered wholeheartedly. "So what are you going
to
do?"
The
wizard shrugged. "What can I do? Take elementary
precautions.
But it might be well for you to reconsider
your
offer to accompany me to Quo."
"To
hell with that," Rudy reconsidered. "You're the one
who
should reconsider."
"Who
else can go?" Ingold reasoned. "And if I were
afraid
of getting myself killed, I should never have taken
up this
business in the first place. I should have stayed in
Gettlesand
and grown roses and cast horoscopes. No—all
that I
can do now is stay a few steps ahead of them and
hope
that I realize what the answer is before they catch
me."
"You're
crazy," Rudy stated unequivocally.
Ingold
smiled. "Really, Rudy, I thought we'd long
settled
the question of my sanity."
"You're
all crazy!" Rudy insisted. "You and Gil and
Alde
and the Guards .. . How the hell come I always end
up
completely surrounded by lunatics?"
The old
man settled comfortably back among the blan-
kets
and picked up his tea again, the steam wreathing his
face
like smoke from the altar of a battered idol. "The
question
is the answer, Rudy—always provided you want
an
answer that badly."
Considering
it in that light, Rudy was not entirely sure
that he
did.
Alde
was waiting for him in the outer room. Most of the
Guards
had gone. Beyond the black, narrow arch of the
doorway,
Janus' voice could be heard in the next room,
still
arguing with the same merchants. In a corner, the Ice-
falcon
had fallen asleep, relaxed and self-absorbed as a cat.
But for
him, they were alone.
"Alde
..." Rudy began, and she stood up from the bunk
where
she had been sitting and put a finger to his lips.
"I
heard," she said softly.
"Listen..."
he tried to explain.
Again
she shushed him. "Of course you should go with
him."
Her fingers closed, cool and light, over his. "Was
there
any question of your not going?"
He
laughed softly, remembering his own apprehensions.
"I
guess—not to me. But I sure didn't think you'd under-
stand."
They stood together, as close as they had on the
road
when they'd been accustomed to share a cloak on
watch
at night. The ebbing yellow glow of the fire masked
them in
dun, pulsing shadow, and he could smell the sweet-
grass
braided into her hair. "I didn't think anybody would
understand
or could understand. Because I sure as hell
don't."
She
chuckled with soft laughter. "He's your master,
Rudy,"
she said. "And your need is to learn. Even if I
wanted
to, I could never stop you from it." But she moved
closer
to him in the shadows, belying her own words.
We all
have our priorities, Rudy thought, and brushed
aside
the dark silk of her hair to kiss her lips. If It came
to a
choice between me and Tir, I know damn well who'd
get
left out in the cold. She, too, had her choices between
loves.
The
embers in the hearth whispered a little and col-
lapsed
in on themselves, sending up a spurt of yellow
flame
and almost immediately cloaking them both in deeper
shadow.
From outside the room, the constant murmur of
voices
from the hall beyond came to them like the mingling
of a
stream. Rudy was finding already that he had grown
used to
the Keep, the noises, the shadows, the smells. He
could
feel the weight of that mountain of stone pressing
down
around them, as it had pressed for thousands of years.
But as
he kissed her again, holding her slenderness tight
against
him, he reflected that there was a great deal to be
said
for stillness and silence and love without fear.
Her
breath a whisper against his lips, she murmured, "I
understand,
Rudy—but I will miss you,"
His arm
tightened convulsively about her shoulders.
Scraps
of conversations drifted back to his memory, things
said in
Karst and in the night camps all down that perilous
road.
She had lost the world she had known and everyone
in it
she had loved, except her son. And now he, Rudy,
was
leaving her, too. Yet she hadn't said, Don't go.
What
kind of love, he wondered, understood that need
and
tried to make easier the separation it would cause?
None
that he'd ever run into.
Alde,
you're a lady in a million. I wish to hell you
weren't
the Queen. I almost wish I weren't going back, or
that I
could take you and Tir back with me when I go.
But
either course was impossible.
As she
slipped away from him, gathering her cloak about
her
shoulders as she vanished through the darkness of the
far
doorway, it occurred to him that she hadn't even asked
him
that other thing—Will you miss me, too?
Against
the blurred gleam that backed the grimy door
curtain,
Gil watched the shadows of man and woman em-
brace,
meld, and separate. In the stillness of the room, she
heard Ingold
sigh. "Poor child," he said softly. "Poor
child."
She
glanced across at him, invisible but for the glitter
of his
eyes In the darkness and his bandaged hands folded
on his
breast. "Ingold?"
"Yes,
my dear?"
"Do
you really believe there's no such thing as coinci-
dence?"
The
question didn't seem to surprise him, but then, few
tilings
did. Gil had known people—her mother, for one—
who
would have replied, "What a question to ask at a
time
like this!" But it was a question that could be asked
only at
such times, when all the daylight trivialities had
been
put aside, and there was only the understanding of
people
who knew one another well.
Ingold
gave it some thought, and said at last, "Yes. I
believe
that nothing happens randomly, that there is no
such
thing as chance. How could there be?" There was a
faint
squeaking rustle as he settled himself back against the
sacks
of fodder. "Why do you ask?"
"Well,
" Gil said uncertainly. "I think I understand that
Rudy
came here to—to be a wizard, to find that for him-
self—because
he was born one. But I wasn't. And if there
are no
such things as random events, why am I here? Why
me and
not somebody else? Why was I taken away, why
did I
lose everything I had—scholarship and friends and
—and
life, really, the life I had? I don't understand."
Ingold's
voice was grave in the darkness, and she saw
the
faint touch of light on his cheekbone as he turned his
head.
"You once accused me of dealing, magelike, in dou-
ble
talk. But truly, Gil, I do not know. I do not understand
any
more than you do. But I believe there is a purpose to
your
being here. Believe me, Gil. Please believe me."
She
shrugged, embarrassed as she always was by anyone's
concern.
"It's not important," she lied, and she knew In-
gold
heard the lie. "You know, I resented it like hell when
you
told me Rudy would be a wizard. Not because I
wanted
to be one, but—it's as if he's gained everything and
lost
nothing, because he really had nothing that he cared
about
to lose. But I lost everything . . ." She broke off, the
silence
coming between them like the ocean between a
swimmer
and the shore.
"And
gained nothing?" To that she could not reply. "It
may be
that it is not Rudy's purposes that are being served
at all
by his coming here. Rudy is a mage, and the Realm,
the
world, is suddenly in desperate need of mages. And it
may be
that in the months to come, the Keep will have as
great a
need for a woman with the courage of a lion,
trained
in the use of a sword."
"Maybe."
Gil rested her chin on her drawn-up knees and
stared
through the darkness at the dim reflections of the
embers
on the wall, like a streak of false dawn in the night
of the
Keep. "But I'm not a warrior, Ingold. I'm a scholar.
It's all
I ever have been and all I've ever wanted to be."
"Who
can say what you are, my child?" Ingold asked
softly.
"Or what you may be eventually? Come," he said,
as the
voices outside rose in volume. "The Guards are back.
Let us
go out."
The
Guards were trooping back into the room when Gil
and
Ingold came quietly through the curtain, the wizard
leaning
heavily on her shoulder. The Guards greeted him
with
boisterous delight, Janus all but dragging him off his
feet,
hauling him into the circle of the new firelight. The
rose
and topaz hearth-glow picked out the shabbiness of
the
wizard's patched robe and the lines and hollows of
strain
in his face. It flickered in a warm amber radiance
over
scarred faces, frayed black surcoats with their white
quatrefoil
emblem, and seedy old blankets making shift as
cloaks.
The finest fighting corps in the West of this world,
she
thought, huddling around a scratch fire like tramps in
a
boxcar. Her brothers in arms. People a month ago she
hadn't
even known.
Yet
their faces were so familiar. Janus' blunt, square mug
she'd
seen, nameless, for the first time by the cold light of
a
quarter moon in a frightful dream whose memory
was
clearer to her than the memory of many college
parties
she'd attended. And those white braids draped over
a
sleeper's anonymous shoulders—she remembered them,
briefly,
from that same dream, remembered wondering if
their
owner was the foreigner he looked to be. They had
been
nothing to her then—extras in a drama whose signifi-
cance
she had not grasped. Yet she knew them now better
than
she had known any of her otherworld lovers—better,
with
one exception, than she had ever known anyone in her
life.
Ingold
was sitting near the hearth at the head of the
Icefalcon's
bed, the Guards around him, his gestures ex-
pansive,
relating some story that made Janus throw back
his
head with laughter.
A voice
spoke at Gil's elbow. "Well, he's alive, anyway."
She
looked over and saw Rudy leaning against the wall
on the
other side of the curtained arch. His long hair was
tied
back, and that and the firelight made his rather aqui-
line
face more hawklike than ever in the dim orange light.
He had
changed, she thought, since that night he had called
the
fire. Older, maybe. And not so much different as more
like
himself than he had been before.
"I'm
worried about him, Rudy."
"He's
tough," Rudy said, though his tone was uneasy.
"He'll
be okay. Hell, he'll probably outlive thee and me."
But he
knew that this was not what she meant.
"What
if he gets killed, Rudy?" Gil asked softly. "What
happens
to us then?"
He had
turned his mind away from that thought time
and
time again, since the night in Karst when Ingold had
disappeared,
imprisoned by order of the council. He whis-
pered,
"Hell, I don't know."
"That's
what bothers me," Gil went on, hooking her
bony
hands with their nicks and scars and practice-blisters
through
the beat-up leather of her sword belt. "That's
what's
bothered me all the way along. That maybe there's
no
going back."
The
question is the answer, Rudy thought. The question
is
always the answer. "But there's no going back from any-
thing
we do," he said. "Not from anything we are. It
changes
us, good and bad. What it is, we become. If we're
stuck,
we're stuck. Would that be so bad? I've found my
power
here, Gil, what I've always been looking for. And a
lady in
ten million. And you ..."
"A
home," Gil said simply, realizing the truth. "What
I've
always been looking for."
And
suddenly, unexpectedly, Gil began to laugh. Not
hysterically,
or nervously, but with a soft, wholehearted
chuckle
of genuine amusement. Rudy could not remember
ever
seeing her laugh. It darkened her frost-gray eyes to
blue
and softened the bony hardness of her white face.
"And
my advisor will love it." She grinned up at him.
"What
a Ph.D. thesis! 'Effects of Subterranean Incursions
on
Preindustrial Culture.""
"I'm
not kidding," Rudy protested, still astonished at
how
changed she was, how beautiful, scars and swords and
all.
"Neither
am I." And she laughed again.
Rudy
shook his head, amazed at the difference in her.
"So
tell me truthfully," he said. "Would you go back
from
this? If it was a choice between the other world and
what
you have and where you are now, and if this had all
never
been—would you go back?"
Gil
looked at him consideringly for a moment. Then
she
turned her eyes back to the hearth, to Ingold, his warm,
rasping
voice holding his listeners enspelled, to the firelight
on the
faces of the Guards and the blackness of the shad-
ows
beyond, and, past that, to the dark weight of the Keep,
the
night it held within its walls, and the shifting, wind-
stirred
night that waited outside. "No," she said finally. "I
think I
must be crazy to say so, but no, I wouldn't."
"Lady."
Rudy grinned, touching the emblem of the
Guards
she bore on her shoulder. "If you weren't crazy,
you
wouldn't be wearing that."
Gil
looked him speculatively up and down. "You know,
for a
punk you have a lot of class."
"For
a spook," Rudy said gravely, "it's real perceptive
of you
to notice."
The two
of them went to join Ingold by the fire.