JERRY OLTION and KRISTINE KATHRY RUSCH
DEUS X
"I know where God is," Lita told her brother
when he came to take her away. "I
know why He hasn't been in touch with humanity for so
long."
Marcus sighed. He hated these conversations and was secretly relieved he
wouldn't
have to face any more. Ignoring her greeting, he brushed a stray strand
of hair off his
forehead -- he felt in disarray today --and stepped into her
room.
It smelled of incense and
unchanged sheets. Her bed was made though, and all her
belongings straightened. A row of
tiny golden bells extended all the way across
the bookshelf above her bed -- a bookshelf
filled with history books. The tan
suitcase he had bought for her when she graduated from
college sat on the
hardwood floor, her overgrown house plants in a box lid beside it.
She
had already packed the suitcase. Marcus checked it to make sure she hadn't
hidden anything
forbidden in the bottom, but he found only toiletries and
clothing. Light, indoor clothing.
Good. She had no delusions about her
destination, at least.
"The hacksaw is cleverly
disguised as the handle," Lita said as he zipped the
suitcase closed again. When he
actually looked, she laughed, her high,
three-note arpeggio filling the bedroom.
"Very
funny," he said, and felt a pang of loss. Once Lita had had a marvelous
sense of humor --
and moments like this reminded him how much he missed it, how
much he missed the closeness
they had had. Years ago.
He picked up the bag, grunting once at the weight. Lita followed,
the plants
cradled like children in her arms.
"They may not let you have those," he said.
"They always allow plants in institutions," she said.
He swallowed, his mouth drier than he
wanted it. She sounded calm, almost
herself. If Phil weren't waiting downstairs, Marcus
might back out -- again.
But he couldn't. Not with the campaign heating up. Jimmy Carter's
crazy brother
had been funny in the '70s, but in the '90s a mayor's crazy sister called his
own sanity into question. Besides, Lita had gotten stranger in the last year,
and he
couldn't control her -- or her mouth. And in Wisconsin, people didn't
tolerate odd behavior
very well, especially from their politicians. He certainly
hoped the subject of God would
be forgotten for the drive.
He lugged the suitcase past his own room -- which had once
belonged to their
parents, before the plane crash -- and down the stairs to the entryway,
where
his campaign manager waited, nervously jangling the car keys.
"Hello, Phil," Lita said
from the top of the stairs. "Have you got the
straightjacket ready?"
He reddened. "I, um --"
"She's being a real clown this morning," Marcus said. "Come on, Lita. Your
appointment is
at ten."
She descended the stairs slowly, the wood creaking beneath her weight. The
slanting
line of photographs on the wall -- their parents' wedding picture,
their graduation
pictures, and that last family photograph --caught her
attention. "Good-bye," she told them
as she passed. "Good-bye, good-bye,
good-bye." When she got to the bottom of the stairs,
Phil opened the front door
for her, and she paused to say good-bye to the entire house.
Then on the way to
the car she said good-bye to a Mugo pine, and to three people who
weren't there.
After a bit of wrangling, Phil and Lita put the plants in the trunk of the
gray
Oldsmobile along with the suitcase. Lira slid into the back and Marcus sat
beside her,
his wool suit catching on the fabric upholstery. He missed the BMW
and its leather seats,
but Phil had told him a mayor should drive an American
car. Marcus hadn't actually driven
it much; Phil usually did all that while
Marcus read his reports and memorized speeches.
"Look out!" Lita gasped when Phil pulled out into the street. He stomped on the
brake,
jerking them all forward against their safety belts, but there was
nothing in front of the
car.
"What?" Phil asked.
She shook her head, her long hair catching on her bottom lip. "I
keep
forgetting. You can't see them. He's out of the way now. Go ahead."
Phil drove on
without answering, his back and shoulders rigid. Marcus brushed
the hair out of Lita's
mouth, and then used the moment to caress her cheek,
something he hadn't done since she was
a baby.
"We'll get this taken care of, sis. You'll be as good as new in no time."
"That'll
be a relief."
"You don't have to get sarcastic."
She laid her hand on his arm. "I wasn't.
Not entirely, anyway. It really would
be a relief if they'd just go away. They're all so
demanding, and they want
something I can't give them." The implication was clear, in light
of earlier
conversations. She thought there was something Marcus could do, if he'd just
accept
her invisible people as real.
The houses and trees streaming past were a blur beyond the
windows. Phil was
taking the back route, avoiding the downtown, City Hall, and any nosy
reporters.
Marcus tried to focus on his sister, but her blue eyes seemed to bore a hole
through
his own. "I've told you," he said, keeping his voice calm. "I can't see
them. There's
nothing I can do for them, either."
"How do you know that?"
"Because --" He stopped. Because
you can't help someone who doesn't exist, he
wanted to say, but he had said that over and
over already. "Because I've got my
hands full just running this city," he said instead.
"Because
you're up for re-election, and you can't be seen talking to people who
aren't there," she
amended with the tone of a child who had heard the sentence
many times.
"That too."
They rode
in silence past the lake, and to the dangerous unmarked intersection
Councilman Seals had
been nagging him about. The car merged into eastside
traffic, past his baby -- the
industrial park still under construction. He
supposed he would have to find some funding
for that intersection before the
three electronics firms opened their doors, and brought in
the promised thousand
jobs.
Phil turned the car on a side road and followed its twisty path
until they
reached the tasteful sandstone gate that hid the lawn of the private hospital.
"I know why God has been so silent lately," Lira said again as the huge tan
building came
into view. Her voice had a touch of desperation and her hands were
shaking. "He's been
quiet because He's under sedation."
An hour of paperwork later, Marcus left the hospital,
the institutional stink
buried in his clothes. He and Phil said nothing as they got into
the car. The
whole ordeal had left Marcus's shoulders so tight that he felt as if he would
pull a muscle if he turned his head too quickly. He had almost backed out when
they didn't
allow Lita to bring her plants into her room.
Her voice still rung in his head: You're
going to take my friends away from me.
At least let me keep my plants. Please?
He had
reached a compromise with the staff, probably because of his local
celebrity status. Her
plants remained, in a window she had chosen near the
lobby, and if she responded well to
treatment they would be moved into her room.
She would be allowed to tend them every day,
either way.
As they drove through the gate and onto the road, Phil turned to him. "Let me
buy you lunch?"
Being in public was the last thing Marcus wanted, but it was something he
could
no longer avoid. The campaign was heating up -- and with Jim Sorenson entering
the
race, Marcus no longer had the free ride he had once had. Sorenson had been
mayor of the
city almost twenty years before, a young radical elected toward the
end of the Vietnam era.
He had received national press coverage, being the
youngest mayor of a major U.S. city, and
the aging former hippies -- who were
all heavy voters -- remembered Sorenson's tenure with
fondness.
"Lunch sounds good," Marcus said, "but let's stay away from City Hall."
Phil drove
to an eastside diner that still had the original vinyl on the booths,
and authentic fifties
swirling counter stools. The hostess greeted Phil with a
smile and, without asking, led him
and Marcus to a table in the near-empty back
room.
"Favorite of yours?" Marcus asked.
"Mmmm
hmm," Phil said. "They do a great hot turkey sandwich."
So Marcus ordered a hot turkey
sandwich, and an ice tea when he realized the
diner didn't serve beer. Wily fellow, Phil.
He knew better than to let Marcus
drink on a Wednesday afternoon.
Phil looked like he could
have used a drink himself, though. He had been visibly
unnerved in the lounge when a small
woman had walked up to him, handed him a
pile of polished rocks, and walked away. He had
set the rocks on a table and
hurried to Marcus's side, for the first time in Marcus's
memory seeking advice
and protection rather than offering it.
"I hate leaving her there,"
Marcus said. "Maybe I should have hired someone to
care for her at home."
Phil shook his
head. "Even if you could afford it, how would you avoid another
Channel 6 problem?"
Marcus
took a sip of his ice water. A reporter from Channel 6 had taken footage
of Lita talking
with her imaginary friends. Phil had pulled a lot of strings to
prevent the story from
airing, and the whole incident still bothered him.
Marcus, too. He hadn't wanted the
footage to air, but manipulating the media was
such a Richard Nixon thing to do. If that
ever got out, he would be in a lot of
trouble, especially in this election.
"I know," he
said, not wanting to think about it anymore. He was glad he had a
City Council meeting
tonight, so he wouldn't have to go home early to an empty
house.
Not that going home to Lita
had been pleasant. In the last three months, she had
been so insistent. She had tried to
introduce him to her imaginary people,
making up long alliterative names for them, and when
that failed, she had acted
as "interpreter." She had even tried sleight of hand to convince
him that her
friends were moving things around the room. But the night she had asked him to
father a baby with one of them was the night he knew he had to get help for her.
He was
afraid that something had really slipped -- and he didn't even want to
think about what she
might have done if he had humored her and said yes.
He had humored Lira before, and it had
only made things worse. It had driven her
delusions to another level of complexity, turning
her one-time play friends into
oppressed refugees who needed her help, and then his.
When
the waitress returned, carrying Marcus's sandwich and Phil's chicken-fried
steak, Phil let
out a sigh that seemed to go on forever. His shoulders relaxed,
and his thin, worried
grimace slid a little closer to a smile. Marcus knew how
he felt. Familiar surroundings.
Comfort food. Marcus had used the same tactics
many times over the last few months.
He
wouldn't have to do that now. He was appalled at how relieved he felt, but
both emotions
were honest. Now he could bring colleagues home -- and dates, if
he were so inclined. Now
he could concentrate on the campaign and on the city
itself.
As if that would do any good.
He had been as idealistic as Sorenson when he got
into politics, only the '80s were death
to idealism, just as government was. For
the last two years, he'd had to compromise on
every issue just to get his
favorite ones passed, and he had come to realize that a man did
not change the
world by becoming a politician. Eventually politics and the world changed
the
man. When the last die was cast, all Marcus would ever be was a man who had made
some
partially successful deals.
He wished he could sit down with his opponent and explain that
to him, explain
that Sorenson's tenure had been a fluke because the times had been right
for it,
that no mayor in the 1990s could be a revolutionary too.
The idea was laughable.
They were political adversaries, and he'd better not
forget that.
"You're awfully quiet,"
Phil said.
Marcus nodded. "Just trying to adjust my focus," he said.
For the next few weeks,
Marcus kept being surprised by the yellow and red leaves
fluttering to the ground from the
oak and maple trees all over town. It felt
like springtime to him. Lita had responded to
medication, and no longer saw her
imaginary people. When Marcus visited, they actually held
normal, rational
conversations. Nearly normal, anyway. She spoke too slowly and the
brightness
had left her eyes. The drugs didn't affect her memory, so she still spoke of her
invisible friends, but time would take care of that. Eventually, she would lose
her concern
for them, and would replace them with friends from the real world.
Marcus wasn't able to
visit her as often as he liked, since the election was
only two months away, but he vowed
to make it up to her afterward. Now that he
was able to concentrate again, things were
clicking into place in a way he had
forgotten was possible. Sorenson was still giving him
trouble, but the man was
running on the golden memories of an outmoded era. Phil had found
a contemporary
statistical analysis of Sorenson's reign, and the analysis showed that
Sorenson's
idealistic games had put the city into a recession three years before
the rest of the
country. Much of the work Marcus had done almost fifteen years
later was a direct result of
the mess Sorenson had made of the city.
The polls after that story broke showed Marcus in
the lead. This afternoon he
would solidify that lead with copies of reports leaked to him
by two major
corporations who had decided not to come into the city during the 1970s
specifically
because of Sorenson's policies. The reports, besides citing
Sorenson as the main reason for
ignoring the city's bids, also showed that the
corporations would have brought five
thousand jobs to the area. If Sorenson
hadn't been mayor, the city would have gone into an
upswing instead of a serious
decline. Marcus had been saying that all along, but now he had
it in writing.
He grabbed the papers off his cluttered desk and shoved them in his breast
pocket. Phil would make sure that the reporters got copies at the end of the
press
conference, but Marcus liked to have the papers to wave around. He stepped
out into the
hall, passing two messengers scurrying toward his secretary's desk.
The hallway had the
dry, dusty odor of recycled air, mixed with the perfumes and
colognes of the overdressed
people who worked inside. Marcus wondered what it
would smell like if Sorenson won the
election. Sandalwood, maybe? He remembered
how in his college days the hippies had burned
sandalwood incense to mask the
smell of pot.
The thought made him laugh, and Councilman
Seals, a burly man who looked like a
used car salesman, tilted his head quizzically as he
passed. Marcus didn't
bother to explain. He turned left at the wide marble stairs that led
to the
press rooms in the basement.
Whistling as he took the steps two at a time, he nodded
to people in passing.
The building was full today -- odd, even for a press conference of
this
importance -- and he wondered if this presaged a blow-up on some issue he hadn't
been
concentrating on.
When he reached the landing, a man in strangely cut clothes -- it looked
as if
he had tucked a navy blue bathrobe into a pair of white and blue striped
jodhpurs --
tried to stop him, saying in an oddly accented voice, "Mr. Chambers,
I need to speak with
you in private."
Marcus sidestepped him with practiced ease. "Sorry. I've got a press
conference."
The man -- obviously a Sorenson supporter by the clothing --
reached for him, but missed as
Marcus danced out of his way. "Come to the
conference if you need to talk," Marcus told
him, then turned and hurried down
the remaining steps.
He heard the reporters before he saw
them. The wide hall and vaulted ceiling
caught and reflected sound. He recognized the faces
in this hallway. All three
local television channels were there, as well as all the radio
stations. The
newspaper reporters, milling near the bust of Thomas Jefferson, saw Marcus
first
and headed into the audience room. The others followed, and the wide hall was
suddenly
empty except for the oversized portrait of the city's first mayor and
the busts standing on
Grecian columns.
Marcus went in the side door behind the fake stage and immediately ran
into
Phil. "Ready?" Marcus asked. He had to speak loudly because of the babble of the
reporters
in the main room.
"Ready." Phil was rocking from foot to foot in excitement. "If this
works, we
should have the network boys at your next conference. They're already calling
this
a race between the ideals of the sixties and the realities of the nineties.
Did you catch
CNN this morning?"
"Nope," Marcus said, "but I heard about it from Beverly." In fact, his
secretary
was telling everyone who came in that their lowly mayoral race was becoming
national
news. The thing that bothered him was that he was being seen as the
slick politician and
Sorenson as the idealist. Phil didn't care, claiming the
free publicity was great. But
something about it rankled. Damn it, Marcus was an
idealist too. He wanted to save the
world just as badly as Sorenson did. Marcus
just knew the difference between possibility
and fantasy.
Phil slipped out behind the thin blue curtain and walked to the podium. A
single
mike faced him -- an innovation from early in Marcus's tenure -- placing enough
electronics
equipment in back that reporters could jack into the sound system
instead of tape their
mikes to the main one.
The din gradually receded. Phil waited, hands clasped behind his
back, until the
room was completely quiet, then he thanked everyone for coming and gave a
short
state-of-the-campaign speech to warm up the crowd. He wound it up after a few
minutes
and turned over the podium to Marcus.
"Thank you," Marcus said when he reached the podium.
Squinting against the harsh
glare of the TV lights, he looked out at the room full of
reporters in their
wooden chairs, notebooks and laptop computers opened like expectant
mouths on
their laps, and said, deadpan, "You're probably all wondering why I called you
here today.... "He waited for their laughter, grinned and said, "I've always
wanted to use
that line, but today it seems especially appropriate. I've just
discovered a little piece
of information I want to share with everyone."
With that as a teaser, he held back for a
couple of minutes, first setting them
up with a brief history of the city's economy as it
related to the state's and
the nation's. Then he cited figures on the way the early
recession had affected
the individuals in the city -- figures which showed a significant
decline in all
the local businesses, including the state run university, as well as a
serious
decline in the number of jobs.
When he judged that everyone was properly incensed,
he said, "Our office has
used these statistics before to show the detrimental effect of Mr.
Sorenson's
previous tenure on the city. But now we have outside confirmation." Removing the
papers from his pocket, he waved them in the air like a flag and dropped his
bombshell.
The
significance did not escape the reporters. Instead of losing ten thousand
jobs in the
1970s, the city would have gained five thousand. Fifteen thousand
people would have been
employed who were now out of work, and all because of
Sorenson.
In the stunned silence that
followed, the man he had seen on the stairs stood
up, the tassles on his sleeves jingling
softly, and said, "Mr. Chambers, I
really need to talk with you about your sister. What
you've done to her is
causing us great concern."
Marcus felt as if he had been hit in the
belly. He had been expecting someone to
ask about Lira, but not today, not on his afternoon
of triumph. He instantly
realized the score, though. Sorenson had been saving it for a
trump card, in
case Marcus managed to tarnish his image. Well, it wouldn't work. Phil had
already written a response, which Marcus had memorized. He launched into it now,
altering
it only enough to fit the current situation.
Focusing intently on the man, he said, "I
hardly think having a sister who needs
psychiatric treatment compares to the callow
disregard of his fellow human
beings that my opponent has shown in the pursuit of his
ideals. Mr. Sorenson may
wish to make a campaign issue out of my decision to seek treatment
for her, but
I challenge him to show me a better course of action. My sister's condition is
being treated by trained professionals, which is the only humane way to deal
with a
situation like hers. Similarly, you should look to a professional to
oversee the city
government, not an amateur whose anti-business attitude has
already cost us thousands of
jobs!"
A few of the reporters turned around in their seats to see who he was talking
to,
then turned back to him with puzzled expressions. Marcus thought furiously.
Was he missing
something here? Was this guy somebody he should know? Maybe a
local hero? He looked at Phil
in the wings, who was frantically tugging his left
earlobe, the signal to cut it short.
But
he couldn't do that; the conference had hardly gotten started. If he bailed
out now, the
whole thing would be a fiasco. The only way to fix it would be to
find out what was going
on, and hope he could patch things up once he
understood.
The reporters burst into a babble
of questions, but Marcus ignored them all and
said to the man in the robe and jodhpurs, "I
get the feeling I should know you.
What's your name?"
The man took a step forward. "I am
Kardalkeddy Ez Hakon. Your sister said you
couldn't see me, but fortunately, she was
wrong."
* * *
Marcus sat on his leather swivel chair, his feet propped up on his cluttered
oak
desk. Through the window below, he had a clear view of the press entrance.
Reporters
were standing in front of cameras, giving special reports. Others had
hurried to their cars
and driven away. A few, he knew, were plugged into the
phones downstairs, transmitting
their stories directly to the city desk.
And probably not the story he wanted them to tell.
He rubbed the bridge of his
nose with his thumb and forefinger. A headache was building
behind his eyes. He
had to wait until everyone was gone before he could even try to go
home.
The door to his office burst open, and Phil scurried in. His jacket was askew.
Beads
of sweat covered his brick-red forehead. "What the hell was that?" he
snapped.
"I saw
someone there," Marcus said, deciding to leave out the bit about the
strange clothes. "He
asked me about Lita."
"Yeah, right." Phil ran a hand through his stylish blunt cut. "And
the ghost of
FDR was hovering over us all, giving his blessing to the campaign." He grabbed
Marcus's ankles and pushed them off the desk. "Thank god the cameras were all
pointed at
you. No one can prove you were talking to thin air, but you can bet
your ass Channel 6 is
going to haul out that footage of Lita. What the hell were
you thinking?"
Marcus sat up. "I
tell you, Phil, there was a man there. Long-haired guy with a
funny accent. He must have
ducked out as soon as he asked the question." Even as
he spoke, Marcus knew that wasn't
what happened. But he was into full damage
control now; any explanation that fit the facts
was better than none. "I mean,
what better way to make the mayor look bad than to have him
talking to the air
like his crazy sister?"
Phil sighed and turned away. "I already thought
of that. In fact, I already said
as much downstairs." He turned back to Marcus, his
expression already hardening
with resolve. "That's our story, and we stick to it. We also
prevent another
looney from coming in again. We need security at these things. No more open
conferences. We do the Reagan thing and make everyone sign in and get assigned
seats,
okay?"
"Okay," Marcus said.
"And I will handle this. You will make no comment on it at all.
Understood?"
"Yes." Marcus gripped his hands together. He hated this kind of control, had
fought it for years. But because of this one -- serious -- blunder, he had to
give in to
Phil.
"We have to make these reporters look like idiots, suckered into believing this
kind
of story. That means an incredulous laugh whenever anyone mentions it, and
nothing else.
We'll beat this bastard through sheer denial." Phil adjusted his
suit, then pushed the knot
of his tie against his throat. "God, we should have
been prepared for this kind of end run.
I never thought Sorenson had it in him."
Marcus swallowed heavily, keeping his expression
impassive. Phil turned, looking
neater, but his hair still stuck out in all directions.
"You
realize what this means, don't you?" Phil asked. "It means the campaign has
just gotten
very dirty."
The house had never looked so inviting. Marcus let himself in through the
garage,
closing the door with the remote before he stepped out of the car so he
wouldn't have to
face the reporters camped out on the front lawn. He made a show
of shutting the drapes, and
unplugged the ringing telephones in each room while
he was there. When the entire house was
secure and silent, he went into the
kitchen where he warmed up a can of soup and made
himself a roast beef sandwich.
He pulled a Beck's out of the fridge and sat at the table,
his entire body
shaking.
Phil had bought it. At least, he was acting like he did. But that
didn't solve
the problem. What had the admitting nurse asked? Are there other cases of this
type, Mr. Chambers? Sometimes mental health problem s run in families.
Like a disease. And
now he had it.
"Excuse me."
The voice made him jump. He stood and whirled, ready to throw
the bastard
reporter out. But instead, he saw the man in the bathrobe and jodhpurs standing
beside the stove.
Marcus sank back into his chair. "Go away," he said. "Just disappear back
into
the ether where you belong."
"I wish I could, Sidenta," the man said. "But I do need to
talk to you." He held
his hands above the stove burner, warming them over its residual
heat.
"You've already messed up my life. Please leave." Marcus pushed the beer away.
He was
talking to the imaginary man as if he were real. Just like Lira did.
"I cannot," the man
said. "I need your help, Sidenta."
"I don't believe in you."
"I believe in you." The man's
voice was shy. He took a step forward, knelt and
took Marcus's hand. Marcus pulled away,
but not before he had felt the warmth of
the man's skin, and the roughness of his calluses.
"I have been trying to speak with your sister," the man said, "but she cannot
hear me
anymore. I had no choice but to come to you."
"Wonderful."
The man kept his head down as he
spoke. In the bright kitchen lights, his hair
had an odd greenish tinge. "I am Kardalkeddy
Ez Hakon, Traveler Between Worlds.
The sacred book of Davon foretold my coming by a
thousand generations. It spoke
of you, too, Sidenta, and the peace you would bring to our
people."
Marcus focused on the man. This vision was convincing. No wonder Lira believed
so
firmly. All it had taken was twice, and he was getting sucked into the
delusion too. She
had been seeing them for years. He shook his head to clear it,
and said, "Look, I'm not
bringing peace to you or anybody else from dreamland,
understand? I'm going to close my
eyes, and you are going to go where laps go
when people stand up. Is that clear?"
The man's
bow deepened. "Forgive me, Sidenta, but I choose not to leave. I have
a few moments left. I
must convince you."
Marcus stubbornly looked away, but out of the corner of his eye he
could still
see the apparition kneeling beside him. Kardalkeddy moved his arm, and the
tassles
on his sleeves tinkled with tiny golden bells.
"I don't believe in you," Marcus said again.
"Sidenta," the man said. "Let us not talk of belief. Let us talk of lives, of
needs, of
obligations. We need you. You could affect the fate of our whole
world."
Marcus closed his
fist and drew his hand against his side. He didn't understand
any of this. "What the hell
does 'Sidenta' mean?"
Kardalkeddy touched his forehead, quickly, like a Catholic
genuflecting. "It
means many things. To some, it means 'leader.' To others, 'lord.' In some
of the
old texts, it means 'blessed spirit.'"
Marcus got up from the table and carried his
beer and his soup to the sink. He
poured the beer out, watching it swirling amber around
the drain. "Get out," he
said.
"Sidenta, please. My power for this day is nearly faded. It
is not easy to
breach the wall between worlds. Your sister, and now you, are the only
people I
have been able to reach at all, and if you do not help us I fear there will not
be another. Please --"
"Get out," Marcus said firmly. He set the empty beer bottle beside
the sink,
then leaned forward and rested his head on the cupboards. Maybe he should
resign.
Maybe he should leave the campaign. Or maybe this was just a fluke,
induced by stress. He
would get a good night's sleep, and everything would look
better in the morning.
When he
finally turned around, he was alone in the kitchen. He glanced nervously
around, then
sighed and stuck his bowl of soup in the microwave, opened the
refrigerator, and pulled out
a can of Coke. He slipped off his shoes and put
them on the front stairs, returning to the
kitchen just as the microwave beeper
went off. He took the bowl out of the microwave and
was halfway back to the
table when he stepped on something hard.
"Ow, damn!" he said,
setting the bowl down and peering at the floor. There on
the varnished hardwood was a tiny
blue tassel, complete with bell.
The next day, following Phil's game plan, Marcus parked
himself in his office
and didn't budge all day, nor did he respond to the constant barrage
of phone
messages from the media. He overheard Beverly in the outer office telling each
caller
the same thing: "I'm sorry, but the mayor is in a meeting. Please give me
your name and
number and I will have him return your call."
Yeah, right.
The reporters camped out in the
front office got the "Do you have an
appointment?" treatment, at which Beverly was a
master. Marcus smiled when he
heard her typing steadily between calls, ignoring the
reporters as if they
weren't there.
How he envied her that ability. Marcus had tried
working, but he couldn't
concentrate -- and he needed to get things done, on the campaign
and on city
business. This disappearance was costing him in more areas than simply his
public
persona.
The sound of someone clearing his throat brought Marcus out of his reverie. He
turned,
expecting Phil or Beverly, but he drew in a sharp breath when he saw
Kardalkeddy standing
just inside the door. He was wearing a different outfit
today: a dark blue bodysuit made of
fine silky fur. His long hair had been tied
in a braid that hung over his left shoulder,
and another bell dangled from a
blue tassel at the end of the braid.
"Go away," Marcus
croaked.
"Thank you for seeing me," Kardalkeddy said. "You are a busy man, judging by the
size of the crowd in your audience hall."
"That crowd is your fault," Marcus said.
"Is it?"
Kardalkeddy pulled out one of the two chairs across the desk from
Marcus and sat down. The
leather seat creaked under Kardalkeddy's weight. "That
is an interesting conundrum, is it
not? You do not think I exist, yet you say I
am responsible for your problem."
Marcus could
think of no response to that, save looking away and trying to focus
on the zoning board
report on his desk.
Kardalkeddy laughed. "Yes, by all means, continue your work. I am sure
it is
more pressing than the needs of an entire people."
Marcus's shoulders tensed. He
turned the page, but the words blurred. He had
never been good at ignoring anyone or
anything. It was one of the things that
had made him a good politician.
"I know,"
Kardalkeddy said. "I shall tell you a story. A story of a people who
have suffered much for
their beliefs. A people who, even now, are dying because
they believe they shall be saved."
His voice took on a lyrical quality as he
warmed to his subject. "They are a good,
hardworking lot. They have listened to
their god and done all that she has said. But even
her council cannot save them.
They need a savior, one who is of them and not of them."
Marcus
turned another page. His hand was trembling.
"Fortunately," Kardalkeddy said without
missing a beat, "the sacred book of
Davon foretold of just such a one, who would appear in
our time of need. Many
other portents have already come to pass. Myself for instance, the
Traveler
Between Worlds who can see into the next plane of existence, and hunt for our
salvation
there."
Marcus pushed the report away. "So you're as loony as me, then." Kardalkeddy
shook
his head. "When I was a child, my parents thought me possessed. Then they
listened, and
realized that I spoke with a wisdom no child owned. Others came to
believe, and to rely
upon my otherworldly advice. Only those who cannot accept
reality call me Idiot. They see
me speaking to thin air, while balanced on the
limb of a tree, and they would chain me with
the dogs if not for the value of my
words."
Marcus frowned. Kardalkeddy was sitting flat in
the chair, his legs spread
before him. He didn't look like a man balanced on a tree limb,
even if the limb
only existed in his imagination.
"This advice -- you got it from Lita?"
"Yes,
Sidenta. She told us to rotate crops and to burn the fields when they are
fallow. She
explained how to divert rivers to water our dry land. She told us
how to clean meat so that
illness will not come to our people. And when the
Zetain came -- the conquerors -- she
taught us how to keep our own way of life
alive while pretending to accept theirs."
Marcus
sighed. All those books on pre-modern agriculture, the French Resistance,
and the history
of the religious faithful in Eastern Europe. He had thought Lita
was just interested in
history.
"The sacred book of Davon said the One would rise up and help us overpower the
conquerors.
As more and more of us died on the Zetains' swords, we pleaded with
her to help us. She
said she would speak with you, Sidenta, but then she
disappeared. When I could not talk
with her, I came to you. But you do not
believe the evidence of your own senses."
Marcus's
skin was crawling. He looked Kardalkeddy directly in the eyes. "Not
when they tell me
things that are flat out impossible."
"How can something be impossible when it happens?"
The question froze Marcus. He sat, unable to respond, when the door opened and
Phil walked
in. A burst of conversation from the front office entered with him,
and muted again when he
closed the door.
"How's it going?" Phil asked. He wore his light gray power suit, the one
he
usually reserved for tough council meetings.
"Fine," Marcus said, shuffling through the
zoning report and trying to look
busy. He had to get Phil out of the room.
Phil reached for
the chair that Kardalkeddy was sitting in, but Kardalkeddy
pulled the other one out
instead. Phil glanced at Marcus, obviously not seeing
Kardalkeddy at all, then sat in the
other chair. He'd evidently figured that
Marcus had slid it out with his foot.
Amazing what
the mind could rationalize when there was no other explanation.
"Channel 6 won't let go of
the crazy mayor story," Phil said, "but Channel 12
bought our version completely. They've
been running your footage -- which looks
good when you assume there's a question -- side by
side with Sorenson's news
conference from this morning. He comes off as a self-centered
jerk. Both state
papers came out for you, and all three of the talk radio stations."
"Good,"
Marcus said, not trusting himself to say more.
Kardalkeddy was watching the conversation,
his eyes bright.
"Of course, Sorenson has been going after the business with Lira now that
you're
on the record admitting to her hospitalization, but I think we can beat him on
that,
too. Play the humanitarian angle."
"Humanitarian. Such a natural role for you, is it not,
Sidenta?"
Marcus swallowed, forcing himself to keep his gaze on Phil. "Fine."
Phil folded
his hands across his flat stomach. "We need to give the press
something else to talk about.
I've been emphasizing the jobs thing, and people
are angry about it, but we need to show
that you're working to help the
community."
"My record should show that," Marcus said.
Kardalkeddy
snickered. "Not from this vantage."
"Not enough." Phil tilted his head in that cocky way
Marcus hated. "I figure we
need the library renovation."
The library renovation was one of
Marcus's long-running battles. He had been
arguing for it ever since he had gotten into
office, but even though everyone
agreed it was necessary, the council could not agree on
funding.
"We don't have the votes," Marcus said.
"Votes, Sidenta?"
Phil leaned forward. "We
do if we call in a few favors. We won't have to make
good until after the election."
"I
don't know," Marcus said. "There are still some serious flaws with the
proposal. If we pass
it now, it'll just come back to haunt us later. I'd like to
give it another run through
committee and see if we can't get it right the first
time."
Phil shook his head. "We need
that vote now, Marcus. We need news."
"Interesting." Kardalkeddy studied Marcus as if he
were an alien life form. "You
need the help of others to make changes in this world. Yet in
our world you
could save hundreds of thousands of lives with a single act."
Marcus glanced
over at him, then back at Phil. Phil hadn't even batted an eye.
Kardalkeddy sat beside him,
obviously enjoying Marcus's discomfort, and that
sight made Marcus boil. To Phil, he said,
"All right. You win. Let's make some
news."
Kardalkeddy sighed and stood. "You choose books
when you can save lives. You are
a small man, Sidenta." He reached up and pulled the bell
from his braid, then
held it over Phil's lap and let go.
The instant the bell left
Kardalkeddy's fingers, he disappeared. The bell,
however, landed with a soft ding on Phil's
leg, then bounced to the floor.
"Where the hell did that come from?" Phil asked, bending
over to retrieve it.
"What?" Marcus said innocently. "Oh, that. I must have accidentally
knocked it
off the desk. Sorry."
Phil looked at him suspiciously for a moment, then handed
the bell to Marcus.
Marcus held it in his closed fist until Phil left, a hard, cold lump of
impossibility digging into his flesh.
"The bell is a talisman," Lita said. She spoke
slowly, not at all like the Lita
of old. "It helps him transfer between worlds. Without the
bell, the transfer is
painful for him."
She was sitting at the foot of her bed, her bright
yellow blouse and white pants
glowing in the evening light filtering through the
west-facing window.
Marcus sat in the hard-backed desk chair and breathed deeply, trying to
stay
calm. "Good," he said. "That's a start, at least. So what can I do to make it
impossible?"
Lita stared out the window as if she hadn't heard him.
He rubbed a hand over his face.
"Come on, Lita. I need your help here."
She turned her head toward him. Each movement had
deliberateness, as if each
action had three parts: think; command; execute. "Marcus," she
said. "You can't
run away from this. There's a whole world over there that needs -- "
"Over
where?" Marcus demanded. Lita withdrew like a turtle into her shell, the
way she always did
when he raised his voice, but now even that movement was
slow. Sometimes he wanted to take
her off the drugs so his quirky hyperactive
sister would return.
"Sorry," he said, reaching
out to touch her arm. "All right. I admit, they're
real. At least their effect on us is
real. But I don't care about some alternate
universe. They're screwing up my life in this
one, and I want it stopped."
"Then check yourself into the same treatment program you
checked me into."
Marcus stared at her, wondering if she was joking. She stared back, her
blue
eyes dulled, no humor in her expression at all. He had thought of banishing
Kardalkeddy
with drugs, but that idea had died the moment he saw Lita again. He
couldn't face having
his mind altered. He had always been that way. The only
drug he used was alcohol, and he
had only been drunk a few times in his life.
"Of course," she said, misinterpreting his
silence. "The famous mayor would not
want to jeopardize his career." A slight flush rose in
her cheeks as she spoke.
She was angry with him. Underneath all the drugs, behind her flat
affect, lay
anger.
He took a deep breath. "I'm sorry, Lita."
"I'll make you a deal," she said
softly.
"What deal?"
She peered at him. "Did Kardalkeddy tell you what he wants from you?"
"Some crap about finding a true 'Sidenta' they could set up as a supreme
dictator and run
the infidels out of the country. Yeah. Sorry, but that's not my
style."
Lita giggled. The
sound had an eerie hollow quality. "Marcus, they don't want to
find a Sidenta. They want to
make one."
"Huh?"
She giggled again, and blushed. Even though her movements were slow, this
was
more like the Lita he loved. "Think about it," she said, her words so soft and
slow that
he leaned forward as if he could urge the words out with his body
language. "We can't visit
their world, but Kardalkeddy can visit ours, and he
can bring some of his friends with him.
If one of them was a woman and if she,
well, if she got pregnant here, it would look like
an immaculate conception to
everyone else. And her baby would have origins in both worlds.
He'd be able to
draw on knowledge that the rest of Kardalkeddy's people aren't even aware
exists. He might even have supernatural abilities."
"Supernatural abilities?" Marcus asked
dryly.
"Jesus did. At least they looked like supernatural abilities to us. Maybe for
his
father's people he was just a normal guy."
Marcus swallowed. She had asked him to do this
before, and he had put her here
because of it. But now he was seeing the same people....
"Was this your idea or
his?"
Lita glanced at him. "It's in their sacred book. The Book of
Davon. I've always
thought that was an Irish-sounding name. I looked it up, and 'Devin'
means -- "
She frowned, clearly searching her fogged brain for the memory. "'Devin' means
'poet-savant. A poet who puts his higher thoughts into words.' They've got lots
of legends
about invisible people in Ireland; I'd be willing to bet somebody
from our world wrote
Kardalkeddy's holy book."
Hah, Marcus thought. Imagine getting your religion from Northern
Ireland.
Knowing the source didn't help him any, though. He stood up and began pacing the
narrow room. The window overlooked the interior garden. So far, Lira's plants
remained in
the visitor's center, but at least she had this. He shoved his hands
in his pockets.
"You're serious, aren't you? You really want me to have sex with
an invisible woman, to get
her pregnant, so she'll bear the local equivalent to
the son of God."
"She won't be
invisible to you," Lita said. "She'll be as real as Kardalkeddy."
Marcus laughed. "That's a
relief."
Lita crossed her arms over her chest. "What's the big problem ? You've slept
with
dozens of women. What's one more?"
"All the women I've slept with were real, that's what."
"Think of it as masturbation, then. Or donating to a sperm bank."
Marcus shook his head.
"Lita, it's not that easy."
She shrugged. "Then spend the rest of your life ignoring
Kardalkeddy and his
pleas. It doesn't matter to me. I can't see him anymore." She glanced
up at him
and the smile that spread across her face was not friendly. "Or you could always
take my drugs."
He shuddered, just a little, before he could hide the reaction. Then he
flushed.
He had made her this way.
She nodded, as if she had expected that response. "You
don't need the drugs,"
she said softly. "And neither do I. As soon as you father a Sidenta,
Kardalkeddy
will leave both of us alone."
As Marcus drove away from the hospital, his head
felt fuzzy, as if he had taken
Lita's drugs. He wished that could be a solution, but after
seeing what they did
to her, he knew they weren't. Even Phil couldn't elect a candidate who
acted
like a zombie.
But the alternative seemed even worse. Sleep with a phantom? If the
press got
hold of that, he would be worse than a zombie. He'd be dead. Phil would kill him
with his bare hands.
Christ, Phil. Just when Marcus needed to confide in him the most, he
had
suddenly become an adversary. He had completely taken over the reelection
campaign, and
while that might keep Marcus in office, he would find his hands
tied in his second
administration by all the empty promises Phil had made.
Plus he didn't like the fact that
Phil was getting cozy with Councilman Seals.
Marcus wasn't sure what deals those two were
thinking up.
All of these problems plus the bad one, the one he didn't want to face. What
if
Phil and the doctors were right? What if Lita were crazy? Then Marcus was crazy
too. One
thing was certain: Lita didn't belong in the hospital any more than he
did. If he wasn't
willing to check himself in, then he should do everything he
could to get her out of there
and back home.
Everything? Marcus felt horrified to realize that he was actually
considering
her "deal." Yet if it would stop the visitations and let them both get back to
their normal lives, then it would be worth it. And compared to what Phil was
doing to
Marcus's career, the price would be quite small.
That little bit of resolve buoyed him up
on the drive home. He pulled into the
driveway and noted with satisfaction that the
reporters were gone. Phil's
manipulation on the library issue had done its job.
Marcus
parked the car in the garage and closed the door, then went inside the
house. He didn't
bother to pull the curtains or unplug the phones this time. He
went into his study, put a
George Winston CD in the player, and spread out on
the leather couch. He would relax for a
few minutes, then get back to work.
Things had started stacking up on him since he had been
so distracted.
"So, Sidenta, have you solved your crisis?"
Marcus jerked upright.
Kardalkeddy stood near the open window, the light forming
a halo behind his head. He wore
the bathrobe and jodhpurs again, and somehow
that bit of familiarity made Marcus relax.
"For
a true believer, your tone is a bit sarcastic," Marcus said.
Kardalkeddy got down on one
knee. "Forgive me, Sidenta, but you do not make it
easy to worship you."
Marcus sighed. "Get
up."
Kardalkeddy stood. He touched his forehead, then faced Marcus. "As you wish,
Sidenta."
Marcus stood up as well, suprised to realize that he was actually glad to see
his tormentor
again. At least face to face they had a chance to resolve these
visitations. "Look," Marcus
said, "I am not the kind of guy who needs someone to
worship him. If I'm going to help you,
I'd rather be your friend."
Sunlight reflected off something in the bushes just outside the
window. A
camera? Christ, that was all he needed. Marcus leaped toward the window, slammed
it shut, and drew the curtains.
Kardalkeddy had not moved. He waited until Marcus was done,
then asked softly,
"You will help us, Sidenta?"
Marcus looked at the closed curtains,
imagined reporters crawling through the
bushes like ants, poking their cameras through
every crack in the house. He
couldn't live with this much longer. "Maybe," he said. "Come
on. We've got to
talk."
He led Kardalkeddy through the house, up the stairs and into the
guest bathroom.
He closed the door, then turned on the shower and the sink. Gesturing for
Kardalkeddy to sit on the stool, Marcus took the countertop and said over the
rush of
water, "I talked to Lita and her story matches everything you've told me
so far. Either she
and I are crazy in the same way, or you're real."
Kardalkeddy looked around the bathroom in
puzzlement, at the tile-lined shower
and the light blue enamel walls with the matching blue
towels on the rack, then
shrugged and said, "I am real, Sidenta."
"And you're destroying my
life. Lita says you'll stop if I father a child with
one of your women. Is that true?" The
words sounded cold and harsh. He had never
spoken of intimate things like a deal over city
parking garages.
Kardalkeddy rose, his body shrouded in the steam rising from the shower.
"We
will leave you alone, if that is what you wish."
Marcus swallowed. The room was getting
hot. He should have turned the shower on
cold. "Yes," he said. "I want you to leave me
alone."
Kardalkeddy frowned. "I had hoped for a more enthusiastic Sidenta, but if this
is
the way it must be, then this is the way it will be. I will bring her to you.
At midnight.
The start of the new day, when my powers are strongest." He reached
out and plucked a bell
from his sleeve.
"Wait!"
But Kardalkeddy had already disappeared.
Marcus spent the rest of
the evening prowling the house like a caged tiger. With
the curtains closed again. He
unplugged the phones, too, after calling Phil and
promising to come into the office bright
and early in the morning. Phil had
wanted to come over and discuss another campaign
maneuver, but Marcus told him
no. He would deal with it in the morning, in the office,
after his invisible
problems went away.
If they went away. If Kardalkeddy and his world
weren't real, then tonight's
encounter would not stop anything. It would merely be the
jumping-off point for
a long descent into madness. But Marcus could see no other choice.
He changed clothes twice, brought out a bottle of expensive cabernet from the
basement,
then took it back and got a newer, sweeter rose. He had no idea what
Kardalkeddy's people
drank, but rose was a safer choice for an unknown palate.
He set a fancy table, started to
make a few appetizers, then decided to cook a
full meal. Most of his experience with
seduction had involved meals; it would
help calm him down to spend an hour or two eating
with the woman before they got
down to business.
The lasagne was already in the oven when he
realized that a traditional
seduction might not work. He had no knowledge of Kardalkeddy's
world, except
that it seemed more primitive than his. Maybe a well-set table and strange
food
would frighten the woman.
Marcus finished baking the lasagne anyway, wishing that his
imaginary people
were more like daydreams, that the woman who would appear in his house
would be
blonde, buxom and fully versed in 20th century American society.
That made him
laugh, remembering an old joke about a blackmail attempt on the
Pope. To save the church,
the Pope had been forced to make love to a woman, but
he had demanded three conditions:
that she be blind, so she couldn't see who was
doing such a thing to her, that she be deaf
for the same reason, and finally
that she have big tits.
Marcus laughed again. As trade-offs
went, this one was actually not so bad. Then
he had a horrible premonition that she would
show up, dirty and naked, and
expect him to service her then and there. The idea made him
shrivel up inside.
At midnight the wine was open and breathing on the table and the lasagne
was
cooling on the stove. The house smelled of garlic, tomato sauce, and cooked
hamburger.
Two candles glowed on the table, and Marcus sat in one of the dining
room chairs, hands
clasped on his lap. He felt like a twelve-year-old boy on his
first date: half-worried that
she would view him as stupid, and half-worried
because he felt stupid already.
With a tinkle
of bells, Kardalkeddy appeared. He was alone. He surveyed the
table, then nodded.
"Well?"
Marcus asked.
"She is frightened," Kardalkeddy said. "She has never known a man before."
"Wonderful." Marcus hadn't thought of that. He stood up. He should have paid
more attention
in Sunday School all those years ago. Mary had been a virgin --
and a child. God. If this
girl was a child, he couldn't do anything. "How old is
she?"
"She is a woman full grown. She
has been preparing all her life for this
moment."
Marcus tried not to groan aloud. All her
life? He had always avoided those kind
of women before. Maybe he could get out on a
technicality. "What do you consider
full grown?"
"She has seen twenty-five summers. Is there
a problem, Sidenta?"
He hoped to hell their years were as long as his. "No problem," he
said. Then he
felt his face heat. "Hey, uh, Kardalkeddy, um, how can we guarantee that this
will work? I mean, sometimes it takes more than one night. I really don't want
to do this
for a month."
Kardalkeddy paused for a moment, as if relishing Marcus's discomfort. "We
have
prepared several women. It is Naralena's fertile time." He sighed. "You will
treat her
kindly?"
Marcus froze. What the hell kind of question was that ? He had always been kind
to people -- except maybe Kardalkeddy. And Sorenson. And Lira, from
Kardalkeddy's
perspective.
Marcus closed his eyes. The question was fair. "I will," he said.
"Good."
Marcus
opened his eyes in time to see Kardalkeddy bend and reach behind him, as
someone would do
to help another person up a big step. His hand disappeared at
the wrist, only to reappear
holding another hand. A woman stepped out of
nowhere, as if she were stepping through a
doorway from one room to another.
She was not a supermodel. No bikini, no flat belly, no
breasts the size of
grapefruit. About five foot four, maybe less. Her face was oval-shaped,
cheekbones almost flat, her nose small and straight. Her skin, eyes, and hair
were the same
shade of gold. She wore a black dress that went to her knees, and
ankle-high leather boots
below that. A gold shawl wrapped around her waist and
accented her wide hips. She stayed a
half step behind Kardalkeddy, as though he
would protect her.
"This is Naralena," he said,
peering at Marcus. "Is something the matter? Is she
not pleasing to you?"
Marcus's hands
were damp. He resisted the urge to wipe them on his suit. "She's
-- actually, she's very
beautiful. Exotic." Christ, car dealership words. As if
she were a Jag instead of a woman.
"Good." Kardalkeddy turned to Naralena. "I will stay if you desire it."
Marcus felt his
face flame for the second time. He couldn't do anything with
Kardalkeddy around, imaginary
or not.
Naralena rescued him. Her wide gaze had not left Marcus's face. She nodded,
once.
"No. Return for me at dawn." Her voice was soft and husky.
Marcus felt a shiver run down
his spine. Dawn. He had never, in all his years of
single life, maneuvered this fast. He
had always known the woman, at least as an
acquaintance. In that moment, he realized that
the dinner -- the seduction --
was not for her. It was for him.
Kardalkeddy pulled loose
another bell, set it on the table, and disappeared.
Marcus noted that Naralena had a
leather chord tied around each wrist and ankle,
and a tiny bell dangled from each. That was
obviously so she wouldn't disappear
when he removed her clothing. They had thought of
everything.
Naralena dropped to one knee. "I am honored, Sidenta."
This would not work at
all. Marcus bent over and took her hand, helping her up.
His movements felt stiff and
awkward. He hadn't been like this since he took out
Cindy O'Brien in high school. "Please,"
he said, feeling ridiculous. "I need to
be a person to you. Just a regular person. Come
into the dining room. I've made
us some dinner."
She didn't move, just stood there holding
his hand, running the other over his
shoulder and down his side. She smelled faintly of
cloves and cinnamon.
He smiled at her. "I want you to tell me everything," he said. "About
yourself.
About your world."
She looked up at him, sideways, glancing at him out of the
corner of her eyes. A
faint smile played across her lips. An inviting smile. She put her
hand on his
cheek, then brought his face down to hers, and kissed him lightly.
"We do not
have much time," she said in her honeyed voice. "I do not think we
should waste it
talking."
He wanted to disagree, but she kissed him again, much deeper than before.
And that
was all it took.
* * *
Marcus crawled out of bed half an hour before dawn. Naralena reached
for him,
caught the love handles around his waist and pulled him back. He landed on top
of
her, laughing. They kissed, and he buried himself in her cinnamon scent. "I'm
an old man,"
he said against her throat. "I need breakfast."
"I could eat as well," Naralena said.
Marcus
glanced out the window. The sky was beginning to lighten. "Kardalkeddy
will be here soon."
The laughter left Naralena's face. "I wish this night would not end."
Marcus stroked her
cheek with the back of his hand. "Me, too," he said. He had
never expected to feel this
way. Something special had happened between them. It
hadn't felt like a one-night stand; it
had felt as if they had known each other
forever.
He got up, slipped on his maroon bathrobe,
then padded down the hall to Lira's
room and got her fluffy pink robe for Naralena.
Together they went downstairs to
the kitchen, where Marcus stared for a moment at the
cereal boxes, but he was
too hungry for cereal. "How's lasagne sound?"
"I do not know what
it is," she said, then smiled. "But if you made it for me, I
would love to try it."
He
pulled the lasagne out of the fridge and cut it, then put the pieces in the
microwave.
Naralena sat in the breakfast nook while he went into the dining room
and retrieved the
silverware they hadn't used last night.
He brought the candies and lit them, poured two
glasses of orange juice, and
then the microwave beeped. He set the plates before them, and
sat down to eat.
His stomach rumbled. He had taken one bite when Kardalkeddy slipped
through the
wall.
Kardalkeddy had been frowning as he came in, still wearing his jodhpurs,
his
hair mussed and deep circles beneath his eyes. He stared at them for a long
moment, so
long that Naralena held out her plate. "Would you like to break fast?
The Sidenta is a good
cook."
He glanced from one to the other. "Did you -- ?"
Marcus nodded quickly. He didn't
want to discuss the night with anyone.
But Naralena smiled. "Repeatedly. He is good at that
too."
Kardalkeddy's astonished look drew a laugh from Marcus. Despite his
embarrassment, he
felt good. It was nice to know that Naralena did as well.
Naralena. He reached across the
table and she took his hand. He didn't want her
to leave. "I was thinking" Marcus said.
"I'd be willing to modify our agreement
a bit."
Kardalkeddy pulled up a chair. He glanced at
the entwined hands. "Would you."
"That's right," Marcus said. He hadn't discussed this with
Naralena. His voice
shook a little as he spoke. "If you can keep from showing up at
inopportune
moments, I'd like to keep in touch with 'Lena here. And the child." He flushed
then. He felt as if he were speaking prematurely. There was no guarantee that
Naralena was
pregnant.
Kardalkeddy looked from Marcus to Naralena, his mouth agape. "How... ? What did
you... ?"
She squeezed Marcus's hand. "He is a much nicer man than you led me to believe.
He is tender and caring, and when I told him of our people, he was shocked. You
have said
nothing, Kardalkeddy, except vague warnings."
Marcus said, "She told me about the Zetain
and how they slaughtered her family,
and the way life was before they came. Kardalkeddy,
you know, if you had just
told me about this -- "
"It would not have made any difference,
Sidenta. You did not listen to me."
Marcus glanced at Naralena. She shrugged.
"Look," he
said. "I'm worried about you guys. Life doesn't sound easy there, and
if Naralena is
pregnant, then it might get worse. And if you're telling me the
truth, well, things didn't
work out too well for the savior in our world.
Personally, I mean." Marcus flushed as he
spoke. He still felt a bit odd about
all of this.
"His is not likely to be an easy life in
ours, either," Kardalkeddy said.
Marcus sighed. "I suspected as much. But a little help
from his old man at the
right moments might give him a better chance."
"You ... are truly
generous, Sidenta." Kardalkeddy extended a hand and raised
Naralena to her feet. She let go
of Marcus's hand reluctantly. "Very well, we
will return from time to time, as my powers
permit. Being careful not to intrude
when it would be awkward."
"I would appreciate that."
Marcus stood up and encircled Naralena in his arms.
She felt soft and small and fragile. He
didn't want her to go back to that
world, but he knew she couldn't stay. He kissed her on
the forehead, then on the
lips. "I'll count the hours," he said.
"And I as well." She leaned
against him for a second, then Kardalkeddy cleared
his throat.
She stepped away, and Marcus
felt the loss of her warmth. Kardalkeddy reached
for his sleeve, but Naralena stopped him
and untied one of her bracelets
instead. She handed it to Marcus, smiled, and let go.
The
light seemed to fade from the room. Marcus stood in the suddenly empty
kitchen for a
moment, then sighed and padded back upstairs to shower and dress
for work.
"Would you listen
a minute?" Phil slammed his hand flat on the desk, startling
Marcus from reliving the night
for the hundredth time. "I swear to God, I don't
know what's happened to you lately. First
you're talking to nothing, and now
you're ignoring the whole fucking world. I wish you'd
make up your goddamned
mind and help me with this fucking campaign."
Marcus tried to
remember what Phil had been saying a minute ago. Something about
funding for a homeless
shelter? He couldn't remember. Everywhere he looked, he
saw Naralena's face; every voice
was her voice. When Beverly had come into the
office earlier that morning with a cup of
cinnamon tea in her hand, the aroma
had driven him wild. He was glad he'd been sitting
behind his desk, or she might
have gotten the wrong idea.
Phil already had the wrong idea,
though, and it was getting worse every day. In
the week since Marcus had spent the night
with Naralena, Phil had forced three
more legislative time bombs through his office, all in
an attempt to keep Marcus
in the news. Well, Marcus was getting tired of it. Maybe it was
time he said so.
He focused on Phil's bloodshot eyes and said, "You want me to help with
this
campaign? Then run it with some integrity. You're doing stuff that'd make Nixon
blush,
and I don't want any part of it. You -- "
"That's enough," Phil said.
"No, it's not enough.
Not by a long shot. You seem to have forgotten who's
working for who around here. Well,
listen up. I need you a hell of a lot less
than you need me, and for the last week, you've
been a definite liability.
You're screwing with my town, and I want it stopped. Do I make
myself clear?"
"Clear as ice," Phil said. He got up and strode toward the door, then
whirled
around and stuck a finger straight at Marcus. "Clear as thin fucking ice, old
pal."
He turned back around, took a second to compose himself, then opened the
door and stepped
into the outer office.
Marcus's hands trembled when he laid them on his desk. He had never
argued with
Phil like that before. But Phil had never hounded him like this either. Didn't
he see that Marcus had a lot on his mind lately?
The hospital wouldn't release Lita, and no
amount of string-pulling would change
their mind. Sorenson was still attacking him on every
front. And Naralena -- why
hadn't Kardalkeddy brought her back?
Marcus sighed. He would
never have believed he'd be wishing for a supernatural
visitation, but here he was, pining
over a one-night stand.
No, that wasn't true. He wanted Naralena again, sure, but there was
more to it
than that. He had touched the burn scars on her back, left when the Zetain
burned
her home when she was a child. He had heard the stories of the
atrocities, felt the
calluses on her fingers, wiped the tears from her eyes as
she spoke. She had made him
believe in her world, truly believe, and that had
changed everything. He had a chance to
make a real difference there, and not
just by providing Earthly genes for their savior. He
knew politics; he could
probably get them organized enough to overthrow the Zetain invaders
before the
kid was ten. He could help in ways they would never have dreamed possible, but
not without Kardalkeddy to provide the doorway. Where the hell was he?
Marcus found out
three days later. He was in Lita's bedroom, staring at the row
of bells on her bookshelf,
when he saw a flicker of motion off to his right and
Kardalkeddy stepped into existence.
Instead of the robe and jodhpurs or the fur
suit, the Traveler Between Worlds wore a
much-used pair of coarsely woven pants
and a ragged shirt. Both were stained black with
dirt or worse. It smelled as if
Kardalkeddy had been crawling through sewers in them.
"What
happened to you?" Marcus asked.
"We were discovered." Kardalkeddy took a staggering step,
then sank into the
rocking chair beneath the window.
Marcus grabbed his arm. "Naralena? Is
she safe?"
"For now. She is among friends. However, we must smggle her out of the country
before she begins to show, for the Zetain have ordered that all pregnant women
and babies
up to a year of age be killed."
The breath left Marcus's body. "Why?"
Kardalkeddy looked up.
"The belief that a savior will come is as powerful a tool
in revolution as his actual
arrival."
"God." Marcus sat on the bed. "But you don't even know that Naralena is
pregnant."
"We know," Kardalkeddy said. "We have given her three tests, all positive."
Marcus didn't
want to know the details. For all he knew, Lira had given them EPT
boxes before she went to
the hospital. He clasped his hands tightly together.
Naralena. He closed his eyes, saw the
pictures of Sharon Tate from the Manson
murder -- he had read Bugliosi's book --remembered
how the fetus had been ripped
--
He opened his eyes. "Smuggle her here," he said. "I'll take
care of her."
Kardalkeddy shook his head. "That would not work, Sidenta. I do not have the
power to keep her here indefinitely, and even if I did, the child must develop
in our
world."
Frustration built in Marcus's chest. "How about bringing her here, then taking
her
back to someplace else?"
Kardalkeddy rubbed his eyes. "That is not possible. To travel in
my world, I
must also travel here."
Marcus stood, his fists clenched. There had to be
something they could do. He
couldn't let Naralena flee across some dirty, dangerous foreign
land with a gang
of cutthroats on her tail. Even if Kardalkeddy could bring her here
whenever she
was in danger, she would still have to cross every treacherous mile between
her
home and safety. Unless...
"That's it!" Marcus smacked his fist into his open palm.
"What?"
Kardalkeddy asked.
"You bring her here, we pile in the car, and I drive you wherever you
need to
go."
Kardalkeddy's expression brightened. "That ... could work," he said softly.
"Of
course it'll work. How soon can you be ready?"
"Tomorrow night."
"Midnight again?"
"Yes. That
would be best. But -- can we meet at your office? It would be much
easier to bring her
there than here. This place is being watched."
The press? What could that matter to
Kardalkeddy? Then Marcus realized
Kardalkeddy was talking about his side. The Zetain were
guarding the site of
Kardalkeddy's frequent disappearances. "Sure," Marcus said. "The
office is
fine."
The next day crawled as if the cosmic clock had been embedded in honey. All
except for the few moments when Marcus told Phil he would be out of town for a
couple of
days. That went way too fast.
"Out of town? For what?" Phil's face flushed a deep red.
Marcus could almost see
the steam leaking from his ears.
"Personal reasons," Marcus said
flatly.
"Personal reasons, my ass," Phil said. "Last week's pep talk notwithstanding,
I'm
still your campaign manager. If you don't come clean with me, then I can't
do my job."
Marcus
sighed. He knew Phil was right. But he just wished he could put this
campaign on hold until
his personal crisis was over. "Okay," he said. "I'm going
to jump in the car, drive for a
day, find a cheap motel where I can watch Star
Trek reruns until I've forgotten my own
name, then I'm going to drive back home
and pick up where I left off. Any problem with that
?"
"Any problem with it? Any problem ? What am I supposed to say? The mayor left
town on a
whim? And where am I going to say you went? To Illinois on a junket?
Canada to do some
fishing? Then they'll check up on it and they won't find you.
Or they will find you, in a
cheap motel. Even if you are alone, they'll crucify
you. Remember what they did to Gary
Hart ?"
"Hart brought that on himself." Marcus ran a hand through his hair. Phil was
right.
Marcus really did need to come up with a story. Only he couldn't think of
one. All he could
do was worry about Naralena, and hope that Kardalkeddy could
keep her safe. "The press
isn't going to find me, and even if they do, there
won't be anything to expose." Marcus
grinned. "I guarantee you, there won't be a
woman in sight."
"What then, a little boy
maybe?"
Marcus felt as if he had been punched. He and Phil had never talked that way to
each
other before. And this time, Phil was serious. Marcus made himself take a
deep breath and
count to ten before he spoke. Getting angry at this juncture
would be the worst thing he
could do. "I'll pretend I didn't hear that, Phil,"
he said as calmly as he could. "But you
said it yourself. I've been under a lot
of stress. I need a break. By myself. Just to rest.
I promise. I'll be back in a
day or two."
Phil stared at him for a minute, then sat back in
his chair with a disgusted
snort. "All right. I don't care. Do what you want. But if you
get caught, don't
expect me to come to your rescue, because I'm not going down in flames
with
you."
"No one is going down in flames," Marcus said reasonably. "Except Sorenson. When
I get back we're going to hammer him into the ground, and we're going to do it
without
shoving any more bogus legislation through the council."
Phil stood up. "Yeah, yeah, and
after that we make a jump for the governor's
chair, and from there the goddamn presidency.
Sure. Easy as pie. Enjoy your
trip." He turned and strode out of the office.
Marcus spent
the last couple hours before midnight packing the cat's trunk full
of things that
Kardalkeddy and Naralena might be able to use. Camping equipment,
dried fruit, a hunting
rifle and his military .45 pistol, some of Lira's and his
own clothing, and a few gold
Krugerrands he had bought for investment. At 11:30
he drove downtown, parked on the street
in front of City Hall, and let himself
in.
When he topped the stairs and turned down the
hallway, he could see light
streaming out under his office door. Had Beverly forgotten to
turn it off when
she left? Or were Kardalkeddy and Naralena early? Marcus hurried to the
door,
found it locked, and dug impatiently in the pocket of his jeans for the key.
There was
no one in the outer office when he opened the door. Beverly's desk was
covered with files,
and her desk lamp was on as well as the overhead. She must
have stayed late, then forgotten
to clean up before she left. Unless she was
still here, in the bathroom; but no, the door
was still open, and the light off.
Then she must have gone home without straightening up.
That wasn't like her, but
maybe she intended to come in early in the morning and continue
whatever she'd
been doing.
Marcus went on into his own office, flipped on the light there,
and paced until
12:05, when Kardalkeddy suddenly appeared.
"Are you alone, Sidenta?"
Marcus
nodded. All the muscles in his body were tense. He felt as if the Zetain
would follow them
here, as if the chase would happen in this world as well as in
Kardalkeddy's.
Kardalkeddy
reached out for Naralena, who stepped through nothingness, then took
another step forward
to stand before Marcus. "I missed you," she whispered.
Marcus drew her into his arms, and
kissed her hungrily. "I've missed you, too,"
he said.
They kissed again. After a moment,
Kardalkeddy coughed discreetly and said,
"Sidenta, we must be away. The border is far to
the south."
"We'll get you there, don't worry," Marcus said. "I've got a fuzzbuster." When
he saw two puzzled faces, he said, "Never mind. Let's go."
He opened the door to the outer
office, just in time to see Phil make a break
for the darkened bathroom doorway.
"What the
hell are you doing skulking around my office in the middle of the
night?" Marcus demanded.
Phil stopped, turned around, and said, "Checking on the mental health of my
candidate. Who
were you talking to?"
"Some friends of mine," Marcus said evenly. "On the phone."
Phil shook
his head. "You weren't talking on the phone. Not unless you have a
separate line that
doesn't go through Beverly's." He pointed to the multi-line
phone on her desk, all its call
lights dark.
"Cellular," Marcus said quickly.
"Show me the set."
It was still in the car, of
course. Marcus felt panic closing in. He was caught.
Phil would never believe him, nor
believe in him anymore. He would probably go
to the press himself with this one. Unless
Marcus could somehow convince him of
the truth.
"Kardalkeddy, I need your help here," Marcus
said.
"I am yours to command, Sidenta."
Phil crossed his arms over his chest. "Who the hell
is Kardick --whatever?"
"He's the person who's about to flip my office light on and off
three times."
Marcus held his hands out so Phil could see them.
"Uh, Sidenta, how do I do
that?"
"The switch! The little plastic thing by the door. Flip it up and down." Sweat
broke
out on Marcus's body.
"Oh. Like this?" The light went out, then back on.
"That's right.
Twice more."
The light blinked, and Phil's eyes narrowed. "There's someone in there with
you."
"Well, of course there is. You think I'd be talking to myself?" Marcus stepped
into
Beverly's office. "They're just not the sort of people you're used to.
Naralena, come in
here, and pick up those papers, would you?" He nodded toward
Beverly's desk.
Naralena, her
face taut with fear, nonetheless walked obediently over to the
desk, scooped up a handful
of papers, and held them a few feet in the air.
Phil's eyes were as wide as fried eggs.
"How the hell did you do that?" he
asked.
"I have friends in high places," Marcus said.
"Invisibly high places.
Kardalkeddy, switch out the light and close the door."
Kardalkeddy
did -- from the inside.
"No, no, from this side. We've got to go." Marcus swallowed. Phil
was staring at
the door as if a monster were hiding behind it.
After some experimental
rattling of the knob, the door opened again and
Kardalkeddy stepped through, closing it
behind him. He went over to Naralena,
who shot Marcus a pleading look. Marcus nodded at
her, just a little. She set
the files down and she and Kardalkeddy walked across the room
to the other door,
opened it, and stepped into the hallway.
Phil glanced at the door, then
at Marcus. Marcus made himself glare at Phil with
his most businesslike look. "We'll talk
about this when I get back. In the
meantime, see what you can do about getting Lita out of
that damned hospital.
She's no crazier than I am."
Phil's mouth hung agape, and tiny
squeaking noises came from his throat.
"Don't say it," Marcus told him, "or they might
start haunting you." Then he
followed Kardalkeddy and Naralena out the door and closed it
softly behind him.
Marcus took the interstate south. The traffic was light this time of
night.
Marcus drove seventy or so until a semi passed him, then sped up and followed a
half
mile behind, letting the truck smoke out the cops. The last thing he needed
was a speeding
ticket.
Naralena and Kardalkeddy sat up front, Naralena between the two men. Her arm
brushed
against Marcus's and he could feel the tension in it during the first
ten miles or so,
before she became used to the motion. Kardalkeddy asked a few
questions about the car, but
quit when the explanations made no sense to him.
After that he stared out the window into
the blackness, squinting whenever they
passed an all-night gas station. When they got
closer to Chicago, the road
flooded with light, and both Naralena and Kardalkeddy stared at
the truck stops,
roadside groceries, and mini marts with open-mouthed fascination.
Marcus
felt tension in his own back. He hadn't driven at night in a long time,
and beneath his
outward calm lay a deep terror. It felt appropriate to drive at
night; the enemy that
chased them was unseen, like a bogy under the bed, and yet
very real.
The city itself left
his passengers speechless, at least until they drew
downtown. The traffic was light enough
that Marcus had decided to take 94
straight through instead of going around on 294. Their
silence had him afraid
he'd made the wrong decision until Kardalkeddy suddenly pointed and
said, "There
is the Zetain palace."
"You're kidding" Marcus said. Kardalkeddy was pointing
straight at the Sears
Tower.
"I am serious," Kardalkeddy said. "There, where that tallest
building is; in our
world that is the Zetain Palace."
Marcus laughed. "Here it's a palace of
sorts, too. A monument to big business."
He drove on, amazed that there would be such a
connection between worlds. He
hadn't even expected the landmarks to be the same, but now
that he thought about
it, it made sense. How else would Kardalkeddy know exactly where to
go in order
to appear in Marcus's house as opposed to his office?
On the way out of town
Marcus pulled off the freeway at a gas and fast-food stop
and let the car coast into the
nearly empty McDonald's parking lot.
"We cannot stop here," Kardalkeddy said. "This is the
heart of our enemy's
homeland."
"It's just a rest stop," Marcus said. "The car needs gas and
we need food. Come
with me, and experience the true heart of America."
He let them out of
the car and they went into the McDonalds. While Naralena and
Kardalkeddy stared at the
murals of the Chicago skyline, Marcus ordered three
big Macs, two orange juices, and a
large cup of coffee for himself. He got it
all to go, then put his hands on his friends'
backs and literally pushed them
outside.
Once inside the car, he passed out the food. They
stared at the wrappers in
confusion, so he pulled his back and showed them how to eat the
burgers.
"They did not cook the food," Naralena said. "It was magic."
Marcus grinned. "If
they had used magic, these things would taste better."
He filled the car at the Texaco
station across the street, then drove down the
ramp and back onto the freeway, steering
with one hand, and eating with the
other.
"How much farther?" Marcus asked as the Chicago
skyline receded behind them.
"We have covered several days' journeys in the space of a few
hours,"
Kardalkeddy said. "If we go for another hour, the Zetain will have to travel
into
their enemies' country to find us."
"Good," Marcus said. He set the cruise control and
leaned back for some more
driving.
Naralena had fallen asleep, her head resting on Marcus's
shoulder, when they
drove over a bridge and Kardalkeddy said, "We have crossed the border."
"Great," Marcus said. "So where do we go from here?"
Kardalkeddy squinted, as if peering
into bright light, and said, "That way." He
pointed east.
Marcus took the next exit he could
find and drove east for about two miles
before Kardalkeddy told him to drive south again.
The road went through a series
of dilapidated family farms. On the top of a rise,
Kardalkeddy said, "This will
do. The city of Perecelto lies over this hill. It would be
better if we walked
from here rather than appear in its midst."
"Good thought." Marcus
pulled the car to the side of the road and shut off the
engine.
They all got out and Marcus
showed them the things he had packed, but
Kardalkeddy shook his head sadly over most of it
and said, "We would be branded
as witches or worse if we arrived with these tools." In the
end he took only the
Krugerrands, which could be melted down for their gold. Naralena took
one of
Marcus's shirts, "to give to the baby when he grows up."
Her words sent a pang
through Marcus. The entire morning had a feel of finality
to it. "He'll have more than just
that shirt," Marcus said with a gruff
joviality. "I'll shower him with gifts every
birthday. And Christmas. Hah!" He
laughed, realizing that they didn't have Christmas in
their world. Not yet.
He hugged Naralena one last time, enjoying her warmth. When they
finally parted,
he shook Kardalkeddy's hand, and promised to return to the same spot in a
week
to meet them again. The sun had broken through the early morning clouds when
they
stepped away from him, waved, and disappeared.
The empty road trailed on toward nothing. He
had only the remembered feel of
Naralena's body against his, the firm grip of Kardalkeddy's
hand, as proof that
they had traveled with him at all. He sat on the edge of the car until
he got
cold, but the road in front of him didn't change. Naralena and Kardalkeddy
didn't
reappear out of nothing, nor did they appear farther away. They had found
safety, for a
short time at least.
But they would have him. He was finally beginning to understand the
Biblical
stories. Jesus's father, whomever that person may have been, interceded in all
sorts
of ways. He probably took his son off the cross and tended him in his more
advanced world
for three days before returning him, healed, to Jerusalem.
Marcus grinned. No one would
believe that one, but it seemed so simple. He
shrugged. Now he had to tend to his own life.
He got into the car, and drove
back toward home. The farther he drove, the better he felt.
He hadn't done
something for someone else for a long time. This time, he had done a genuine
good deed, and he felt great.
It wasn't until he stopped for lunch in Chicago that his
fatigue caught up with
him. He decided to get a room for the night -- to make good his
promise to Phil
-- and then reality hit him.
Phil. The campaign. City business. He had
ignored it all so long. Phil had been
spending more time with the council and Councilman
Seals than Marcus had.
Everything was a mess. Even his relationship with his campaign
manager. What had
Phil said about his mental health? And what had Phil been doing in his
office,
anyway?
Marcus had only been home for five minutes when he heard a knock on the
door. He
peered out the kitchen curtains and saw Phil's car in his driveway. A shudder
ran
down his back. It was ten a.m. The only way Phil could have known that
Marcus had arrived
would have been to have someone watching the place. Phil had
Marcus under survelliance. So
much for good old-fashioned trust and acceptance.
Marcus went into the foyer and pulled
open the door. Phil pushed past him
without a hello, then reached around him and slammed
the door shut.
The force of Phil's anger hit Marcus like a wave. He had to take a step
back. He
ran a hand through his hair and caught his breath before attempting to reply. He
couldn't be on the defensive. Something told him that this meeting was too
important for
that.
"You have someone staking out my house."
Two spots of color appeared on Phil's cheeks.
"You would too if your meal ticket
was acting like a nut."
"My actions have been perfectly
rational," Marcus said and then mentally kicked
himself. Not defensive. Oh, he was doing a
good job there.
"Yeah, rational," Phil said. "If you're Jimmy Stewart and you have a big
invisible rabbit friend named Harvey."
Marcus winced. He had once said that very line to
Lira. "Look, Phil --'"
"No, you listen, Marcus. Maybe insanity runs in the Chambers family,
or maybe
you attract poltergeists or maybe your brains have this extra power like people
in Stephen King novels, but whatever it is, it's weird. And weird does not play
in an
election, you got me? I have been working hard these last few weeks to try
to save your
ass, and frankly, it's beginning to look like I need to save mine.
I have pictures of you
talking to an empty room, Marcus. You went off
half-cocked at a press conference, for
godsake, and now you run off to Illinois,
stop beside a ditch and sit there for hours, then
come home. This is not
rational behavior. Marcus. I'm sorry. It's not."
Marcus sat on the
stairs, the polished wood digging into his thighs. "You had me
followed."
"Of course I had
you followed. And I had to make sure no one else followed you.
I can imagine what Channel
Six would have done with footage of you hugging empty
air."
Marcus ran a hand over his face.
He and Phil had been friends. They had become
confidants by political necessity. They
understood each other. If Phil was upset
about this, the public reaction would be worse.
And Phil had a right to be
upset. Marcus hadn't even thought to be careful on the drive. He
hadn't even
realized that someone had followed him; he had been too concerned with saving
Naralena and Kardalkeddy. He knew how this looked. He remembered when Lira got
more and
more distracted, when her imaginary world became more important than
her real one.
"What do
you want me to do?" he asked.
Phil closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose as if
he were holding
back a headache. Then he moved his hand, opened his eyes, and sighed.
"Let's go
together and talk to Lita's doctor. Maybe he has some suggestions that we
haven't
thought of."
A frisson of fear ran through Marcus. "I'm not checking myself into that
hospital."
"Jesus Christ, Marcus. We're just going to go talk to the doctor. Everything is
confidential.
He might have some ideas about treatment, so you can keep going
the way you did before."
Marcus sat still for a moment. Phil couldn't force him into the hospital. No one
could,
except the state, and that was so hard to do a person nearly had to
commit murder before
they would take action. Marcus had forced Lita in, but she
hadn't really put up any
resistance. She had even said to the doctor that it
would be a relief if the invisible
people all went away.
It wouldn't be a relief for him, though. Naralena was carrying his
child. She
needed him to help keep her and the baby out of danger.
But Phil needed him too.
So Marcus would go to the doctor, play Phil's game, and
try to behave normally. He didn't
have to be back in Illinois for a week. Maybe
in that time, he could regain control of his
office, his staff, and his city.
"All right. I'll go." Marcus said. He stood up. "But if
anyone catches wind of
this, I will deny that this visit was anything more than a chance to
see my
sister. And if I suspect that you leaked the information, I'll fire you, Phil,
faster
than you can say 'Marcus is crazy.' You got that?"
"I got it," Phil said.
"Good," Marcus
said. He grabbed his keys from the key stand. "Let's get out of
here."
The hospital was even
more dismal than he remembered it. Someone had moved
Lita's plants from the window. An old
man wearing a blue bathrobe and white
slippers had shuffled his way into the reception area
where he pounded on the
desk and demanded to use the phone. The receptionist had a look of
harried fear
to her face. An orderly and a nurse arrived a few minutes after Marcus did.
They
grabbed the old man's arms and hauled him away as if he were an unruly child.
"I'm here
to see Dr. LaPine," Marcus said. Phil had dropped him off, promising
to arrive as soon as
he found a parking spot. But Marcus understood what was
taking so long. This place made
Phil even more uncomfortable than it made
Marcus.
The receptionist nodded. Her hands were
shaking. She ran a bejeweled finger
along a page of the appointment calendar. "It'll just
be a minute."
He sat down in one of the plastic chairs facing her desk.
"So, did you come to
protest?"
The voice behind him made him jump. It sounded like his mother at her most upset
-- Marcus Donald Chambers! Get in here this second! -- but it couldn't be. He
turned and
found himself staring at Lita.
Her gaze was brighter than it had been before, and her face
had more animation.
He reached out to her, but she shot a glance at his hand that warned
him away.
"Protest what?" he said.
"They took me off the medication two days ago. I suppose
you want me back on it
so I stay out of your way." She spoke at her normal pace, but he
hadn't seen her
this angry ever before.
"No. I came for another reason." Despite her look,
he took her arm and led her
into the hallway. "I helped Kardalkeddy and -- ah, I helped him
escape the
Zetain and now Phil thinks I'm crazy."
Lita gave a slight laugh. "I know what
that's like."
"I'm here to talk to your doctor at Phil's suggestion, and then maybe see if
I
can get you out of here."
"As if that'll do any good," Lita said.
"You'll be home, Lita."
She shrugged.
"Lita --"
She brought her head up so that her gaze met his squarely. "I don't
think you
know what you did, Marcus, my dear beloved brother. I'm off the medication, but
I can't see them anymore."
"I told you," he said. "I took Kardalkeddy to Illinois. You
can't see him
because he's not here."
She shook her head. "No," she said, keeping her voice
soft, "you don't
understand. I had gotten to the point where I could slip into their world.
Not
for very long but just enough to get a sense of it. I can't anymore. Whatever
those
chemicals were, they futzed with my brain badly. You took an entire world
away from me,
Marcus. An entire world."
"Mr. Chambers?"
The receptionist had come into the hallway. She
clutched a file in front of her
like a shield. "Doctor LaPine will see you now."
Marcus shot
a glance at Lira. He couldn't say anything. An apology was too small
for what he had done.
He turned, and found Phil hovering at the edge of the
reception area. At first he wondered
how much Phil had heard, and then he
decided that he really didn't care. The damage had
been done a long time ago.
He squared his shoulders, took a deep breath, and steeled
himself. Then he
followed the receptionist inside Dr. LaPine's office.
He remembered it from
earlier visits: the diplomas on the wall -- six of them,
expensively framed, all from major
universities -- the leather furniture whose
odor mixed with that of pipe smoke, the
handmade oak desk in the corner, and the
psychology books sitting on the matching
bookshelf. LaPine was standing in the
center of the room, the unlit pipe between his teeth.
He was a big man who had
been a track star in college: he still jogged six miles a day and
competed in
marathons. He nodded as Marcus came in, and indicated a spot on the couch.
Marcus
sat, and LaPine sat in the straight-backed chair across from him. Phil
took the rocking
chair near the window.
Marcus didn't look at him, keeping his gaze on LaPine. "I thought
this was going
to be a private meeting."
"I asked to sit in," Phil said.
"I thought clients
had to be examined in privacy." Marcus still addressed
LaPine.
LaPine took the pipe out of
his mouth and rested it in the pipe stand. "Not in
cases of evaluation, Mr. Mayor. There's
many a forensic psychologist who never
meets with patients at all, merely reviews records
and studies tapes and
transcripts."
"But that's for court. That's when people are paying
them to testify for another
side." Marcus remembered that much of his legal training, even
though he had
never practiced in a court of law.
LaPine shrugged, and Marcus suddenly felt
cold. He glanced at Phil, whose hands
were folded neatly across his lap. Only his thumbs
were moving, caressing each
other in small, neat, nervous circles.
"Phil paid you," Marcus
said. "You paid him!"
Phil shook his head. LaPine held up a palm at Phil. "I am here to
consult with
you, Mr. Mayor," LaPine said. "I have reviewed video tapes --"
Marcus clenched
his fists.
"-- transcripts of your conversations, and I have spoken with witnesses about
your behavior. We have spoken before, remember, and I am quite familiar with
your sister's
case. It appears that there is some other family history of
disturbance --"
"Only Aunt Verna
who had Alzheimer's," Marcus said.
"-- as well as other indicators. I believe that bringing
your sister here was
the last step for you, the last bit of stress which took you beyond
the
threshold that your mind could handle --"
"I am not crazy!" Marcus stood up. "There is a
rational explanation for
everything."
LaPine picked up his pipe and stroked it like a lover.
"Would you like to share
that with us?"
Marcus hesitated. He knew how it would sound. He
remembered when Lita had given
a similar speech to him and to Phil. Only his was worse. He
had made love with
an invisible woman. He had driven invisible people to safety outside the
state.
He had bought into their world one hundred percent.
"No," he said. "I would not. And
I won't stand for this lynching. I do not have
to stay here."
"No, you don't." Phil stood
too. "But if you leave, you can kiss the election
good-bye. I think you'll find it nearly
impossible to even finish out your
term."
"I don't like the sound of that," Marcus said.
"It's
quite simple really." LaPine was looking down at his pipe. "It is my
professional opinion,
Mr. Chambers, that you are in no condition to run this
city. I believe you need treatment
or your delusional phases will get worse and
you might be of harm to yourself or others. I
am prepared to make such a
statement to the press."
"Why?" Marcus asked. "Because Phil paid
you?"
"I haven't paid him anything," Phil snapped. "Jesus, you're paranoid too."
"A person
is not paranoid if people are actually out to get him."
Phil opened his mouth, shut it,
then opened it again. "Marcus, we've known each
other a long time. You've always been a
sane, rational man. You haven't acted
like yourself for weeks now. You moon over things,
you see things that aren't
there, you lie to me. You've never done that before."
"And you
have been grooming a new candidate. You have Seals all ready to run if
I get out of the
way."
Phil nodded. "We both understand political expediency. We agreed a long time ago
to
step aside if one man's career endangered the other."
"You think I'm endangering you."
"If
this continues," Phil said. He leaned against LaPine's desk. "Listen,
Marcus, I hate to do
this. I really do. But you need help and you won't get it
for yourself. I have been trying
to talk to you since the press conference and
you won't listen to me. Now you're getting
angry at Dr. LaPine and we're only
trying to save you."
Marcus took a deep breath and waited
for his pulse to slow. "You know I'm not
making this up," he said to Phil. "You saw the
light in my office go on and off
by itself, and you saw the files on Beverly's desk rise
into the air by
themselves. How do you explain that?"
Phil swallowed. "It was some kind of
trick. Something you learned from Lira."
"Yeah, right."
Marcus stared at Phil, watching him
sweat, but at last Phil looked away and
said, "I didn't want to do this, but LaPine warned
me that it might be the only
way to break your denial. Marcus, I have tapes of you talking
to thin air. I
have people, including Dr. LaPine, willing to testify to your odd behavior.
Worst of all, I have Lira. I have your own words defending the decision to put
her away.
And frankly, your behavior has been ten times worse than hers."
"You'll ruin me," Marcus
whispered.
"If I have to," Phil said. "If we let the press run with this, you'll never work
again. Anywhere. But if you finish the term, resign in relative silence, you can
work with
LaPine here or some other doctor of your choice, and once you're
rested and healed, you can
come back to political life."
Marcus was shaking all over. "This is blackmail."
"Actually,"
LaPine said, "it's intervention. And it's only recommended for
extreme cases."
Marcus sat
down. He could barely breathe. This must have been how Lita felt when
he presented her with
the options. Trapped. Misunderstood. And frightened. It
was so easy to strip him to
nothing. Years of work gone in a heartbeat. A single
news story and he would be the crazy
mayor forever.
LaPine got up and rummaged in his desk. Phil remained standing, his thumbs
still
tracing each other in endless circles.
"You've got me by the balls," Marcus said. "No
matter what I do, I'll lose. All
I can do is decide how big the loss will be."
"I'm sorry,"
Phil said. "You've left me no other choice."
Marcus closed his eyes and sighed. If he
resigned, no one would watch him
anymore. He would be free to go back to Illinois, free to
rescue Naralena and
Kardalkeddy, free to learn how to slip into their world, even if only
for an
instant. He found that the idea appealed to him.
"All right," he said. "I'll step
down."
He opened his eyes. LaPine was standing beside the desk, his hands clasped
behind his
back, looking scholarly. Phil had his nervous, I-hate-the-world look
plastered all over his
face.
Marcus pushed out of the sofa and started across the room.
"Where're you going?"
Phil's voice had an unnatural squeak.
"I'm going home. You got what you wanted. Now let me
go."
"There's one more thing," LaPine said. "You must consent to sessions --"
"Fine," Marcus
said.
"-- and special treatments --"
"Fine."
"-- and promise to stay away from anything that
appears unusual." "I promise,
for crissake."
"Good." LaPine traversed the room in an instant
and grabbed Marcus's arm. Phil
hurried to his side. "We will start the treatment now."
"What
the hell is this?" Marcus said.
"You agreed," Phil said. "I'm a witness."
"I didn't agree to
this!" Marcus struggled against them, but Phil and LaPine
held him tightly. "You need a
signature, God damn it. I didn't sign anything!"
LaPine looked to Phil, who nodded.
"You son
of a bitch," Marcus said. "You're going to forge it."
Phil wouldn't look at him. LaPine
rolled up Marcus's sleeve and jabbed a hypo
into his arm. The pain was slight, but
terrifying. Marcus watched as the clear
fluid slid into his vein.
"The medication will keep
you calm," LaPine said.
"Calm?" Marcus's struggles grew more intense. "Like Lita?"
"Yes,"
LaPine said. "It worked for her."
"Nooo!" But already Marcus could feel the slowness
creeping through his veins.
He felt as if he were struggling in half-time. He had to get
away, but it was
too late. His legs collapsed beneath him, and they eased him to a chair.
"How much did you give him?" Phil's voice floated above him.
"A normal dose," LaPine said.
"But I combined it with a sedative. He needs rest.
You may take him home and have someone
monitor him this evening."
They eased him back on the couch. The world was swimming. Lita
had said that the
medication cut her connection to Kardalkeddy's world. Naralena! He might
never
see Naralena again.
"No," he whispered, but his mouth was dry and the word stuck in
his throat.
They didn't understand what they did. Christ had said that once. Christ. Oh,
Lord. It followed the Bible now. Kardalkeddy and Naralena would stay in the
foreign land
for a year. But there would be no angel of the Lord to tell them it
was safe to return. No
counsel for his son. No three-day rescue from a horrible,
suffocating death on a cross. As
he felt his mind slip away from him, he heard
the voice of a young man he would never meet
cry out to a blackened sky: My God!
My God! Why hast thou forsaken me?
Oh, my son, he
whispered to his unborn child, to Naralena, to Kardalkeddy, to
all the people he had never
met, all the people he had failed. I never meant to.
I never meant to at all.