Special Thoughts
Freedom in Crisis Times
Before that explosive revelation of “Your husband
has leukemia” I knew nothing of worth, nothing of value in these
incredible friends I have, in this remarkable community I live in. I
invested in my plans and wasted the reality of friends, family and
community. Before leukemia I expected and rarely received. After
[leukemia], I didn’t even know the questions to ask or the
expectations to have, yet we received and continue to receive an
endless flow of the very best humans are capable of expressing,
of doing, of being.
Before leukemia I did not know the miracles, the updates, the
St.Patrick's Day prayer and all of the healing it has brought. Before
leukemia I did not know the capacity of divinity to move within
humans.
Before leukemia I had not experienced the the very center of the flow
myself, much less with so many other people.
Before leukemia was some hazy dream reflecting moments of gold,
seconds of clarity, almost nothing of the sacredness of life. After
leukemia there is a brilliant reflection of one perfect moment after
another. . .
Leukemia brought the keys to freedom. Freedom to live. Freedom to
express love. Freedom to fail. Freedom to change your mind. Freedom
to embrace, to fully experience the good and the bad because you can.
~~~ Just
because you can.
So is utopia then or now? The funny part is, I think it’s both. Now
could never be without then, and then without now. Both are required
elements in the formula. And if I close my eyes in this perspective
and
send my thoughts toward what the future might be? Oh well, that is
too precious for words. That is a reality that I suspect, given the
past and the present will be too deep for words. And somehow, in this
new life, the prospect of the future enhances, enlightens every
nanosecond of today - all that is.
~ ~ Cindy Cason ~ ~
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