Men and women with closed eyes were sitting beside me on old wooden chairs arranged in a circle.
Startled by the faint rustle of a skirt swishing past me, I opened my eyes, and gazed at the candle burning on the altar in the semidarkness of the room.
The flame flickered and sent up a single black thread of smoke.
On the wall appeared a woman's shadow with a stick in its hand. The shadow seemed to impale the heads of the men and women.
I could barely stifle a nervous giggle upon realizing that it was Mercedes Peralta, placing big, hand-rolled cigars in everyone's mouth.
She took the candle from the altar, and lit each cigar with it.
Then she returned to her chair in the middle of the circle.
In a deep monotonous voice she began to chant an unintelligible, repetitious incantation.
Suppressing a fit of coughing, I tried to synchronize my smoking with the rapid puffing of the people around me.
Through teary eyes I watched their solemn, masklike faces becoming momentarily animated with every puff until they seemed to dissolve in the thickening smoke.
Like a disembodied object, Mercedes Peralta's hand materialized out of that vaporous haze. Snapping her fingers, she repeatedly traced the air with the imaginary lines connecting the four cardinal points.
Imitating the others, I began to sway my head to and fro, to the rhythmic sound of her snapping fingers, and her low-voiced incantations.
Ignoring my growing nausea, I forced myself to keep my eyes open so as not to miss a single detail of what was occurring around me.
This was the first time I had been allowed to attend a meeting of spiritualists. Dona Mercedes was going to serve as the medium and contact the spirits.
Dona Mercedes' own definition of spiritualists, witches, and healers was the same as Florinda's; with the exception that she recognized another independent class: Mediums.
Dona Mercedes defined mediums as the interpreting intermediaries who serve as conduits for the spirits to express themselves.
She understood that mediums were so independent that they did not have to belong to any of the three other categories. And they could also be all four categories in one.
"There is a disturbing force in the room." A man's voice interrupted dona Mercedes' incantations.
Smoldering cigars perforated the smoky darkness like accusing eyes as the rest of the group mumbled their agreement.
"I'll see to it," dona Mercedes said, rising from her chair.
She went from person to person, pausing for an instant behind each one.
I yelled out in pain as I felt something sharp piercing my shoulder.
"Come with me," she whispered into my ear. "You aren't in a trance."
Afraid I would resist, she took me firmly by the arm, and led me to the red curtain that served as a door.
"But you yourself asked me to come," I insisted before I was pushed out of the room. "I won't bother anyone if I sit quietly in a corner."
"You'll bother the spirits," she murmured, and noiselessly drew the curtain shut.
I walked to the kitchen at the back of the house, where I usually worked at night transcribing tapes, and organizing my gradually growing field notes.
Swarms of insects clustered around the single bulb dangling from the kitchen ceiling.
Its weak light illuminated the wooden table standing in the middle of the room, but left the room's corners in shadows; where the flea-ridden, mangy dogs slept.
One side of the rectangular kitchen was open to the yard.
Against the other three soot-blackened walls stood a raised adobe cooking pit, a kerosene stove, and a round metal tub filled with water.
I walked into the moonlit yard.
The cement slab where dona Mercedes' companion Candelaria spread out well-soaped clothes to whiten in the sun each day shone like a silvery puddle of water.
The wash hanging on the lines looked like white stains against the darkness of the stucco wall encircling the yard.
Outlined by the moon, fruit trees, medicinal plants, and vegetable patches formed a uniform dark mass humming with insects and the strident call of crickets.
I returned to the kitchen, and checked the pot simmering on the stove.
No matter what time of day or night, there was always something to eat. Usually it was a hearty soup made of meat, chicken, or fish, depending on what was available, and an assortment of vegetables and roots.
I searched for a soup plate among the dishes piled on the wide adobe shelves built into the wall. There were dozens of unmatched china, metal, and plastic plates.
I served myself a large bowl of chicken soup, but before sitting down, I remembered to scoop out some water from the nearby tub and replenish the pot on the stove.
It had not taken me long to familiarize myself with the habits of that eccentric household.
I started to write down what had transpired in the meeting. Trying to recollect every detail of an event or every word of a conversation was always the best exercise to fight off the sense of loneliness that invariably came upon me.
The cold nose of a dog rubbed against my leg. I searched for leftover pieces of bread, fed them to the dog, and then returned to my notes.
I worked until I felt sleepy and my eyes burned, strained by the weak light. I collected my tape recorder and papers, then headed toward my room, situated at the other end of the house.
I paused for an instant in the inside patio.
It was patched with moonlight. A faint breeze stirred the leaves of the gnarled grape vine; its jagged shadows painted lacy patterns on the brick courtyard.
I felt her presence before actually seeing the woman: She was squatting on the ground, almost hidden by the large terra-cotta pots scattered throughout the patio.
A wooly mop of hair crowned her head like a white halo, but her dark face remained indistinct, blending in with the shadows around her.
I had never seen her in the house before.
I recovered from my initial fright by reasoning that she must be one of dona Mercedes' friends, or perhaps one of her patients, or even one of Candelaria's relatives, who was waiting for her to come out of the seance.
"Pardon me," I said. "I'm new here. I work with dona Mercedes."
The woman nodded as I spoke. She gave me the impression she knew what I was talking about; but she did not break her silence.
Possessed by an inexplicable uneasiness, I tried not to succumb to hysterical fright. I kept repeating to myself that I had no reason to panic because an old woman was squatting in the patio.
"Were you at the seance?" I asked in an uncertain voice.
The woman shook her head affirmatively.
"I was there, too," I said, "but dona Mercedes kicked me out."
I felt relieved all of a sudden and wanted to make fun of the situation.
"Are you afraid of me?" the old woman asked abruptly. Her voice had a cutting, raspy, yet youthful sound.
I laughed. I was about to say no with a flippant air, when something held me back. I heard myself saying that I was terrified of her.
"Come with me," the woman ordered me matter-of-factly.
Again my first reaction was to follow her boldly; but instead, I heard myself saying something I had not intended. "I have to finish my work. If you care to talk to me, you can do it here and now."
"I command you to come!" the woman's voice boomed.
All the energy of my body seemed to drain out of me at once.
Yet, I stated, "Why don't you command yourself to stay."
I could not believe I had said that. I was ready to apologize, when a strange reserve of energy flowed into my body, and made me feel almost under control.
"Have it your way," the woman said, and stood up from her squatting position.
Her height was inconceivable. She grew and grew until her knees were at my eye level.
At that point I felt my energy leaving me and I let out a series of wild, piercing screams.
Dona Mercedes' companion Candelaria came rushing to my side. She covered the distance between the room where the meeting of spiritualists was taking place and the patio before I had time to gasp for air, and scream once more.
"Everything is all right now," she repeated in a soothing voice that seemed to come from far away.
Gently, she rubbed my neck and back, but I could not stop from shaking.
And then without wanting to, I began to cry.
"I shouldn't have left you by yourself," she said apologetically. "But who would've thought a musiua would see her?"
Before any of the other participants in the meeting came out to see what was going on, Candelaria took me to the kitchen. She helped me into a chair and gave me a glass of rum.
I drank it and told her what had happened in the patio.
The instant I had finished both the rum and my account, I felt drowsy, distracted, but far from drunk.
Not only did Candelaria put me to bed, she also placed a cot alongside so that she would be there when I awoke.
"Leave us alone, Candelaria," dona Mercedes said, stepping into my room.
After a long silence, dona Mercedes began, "I don't know how to say this, but you're a medium.
"I knew this all along." Her feverish eyes seemed to be suspended in a crystalline substance as she studied my face intently.
"The only reason they did let you sit in the seance was because you're lucky. Mediums are lucky."
In spite of my apprehension I had to laugh.
"Don't laugh about this," she admonished. "It's serious.
In the patio you called a spirit all by yourself, and the most important spirit of them all came to you; the spirit of one of my ancestors. She doesn't come often, but when she does, it's for important reasons."
"Was she a ghost?" I asked stupidly.
"Of course she was a ghost," she said firmly. "We understand things the way we've been taught. There are no deviations from that.
Our beliefs are that you saw a most frightening spirit; and that a live medium can communicate with the spirit of a dead medium."
"Why would that spirit come to me?" I asked.
"I don't know. She came to me once to warn me," she replied, "but I didn't follow her advice."
Dona Mercedes' eyes became gentle, and her voice grew softer as she added, "The first thing I told you when you arrived was that you're lucky.
I was lucky, too, until someone broke my luck.
You remind me of that person. He was as blond as you are.
His name was Federico and he also had luck, but he had no strength whatsoever.
The spirit told me to leave him alone. I didn't, and I am still paying for it."
At a loss as to how to take the sudden turn of events, or the sadness that had come upon her, I placed my hand over hers.
"He had no strength whatsoever," she repeated. "The spirit knew it."
Although Mercedes Peralta was always willing to discuss anything pertaining to her practices, she had quite emphatically discouraged my curiosity regarding her past. Once, and I don't know whether I caught her unaware or whether it was a deliberate move on her part, she revealed that she had suffered a great loss many years ago.
Before I had a chance to decide whether she was actually encouraging me to ask personal questions, she lifted my hand to her face, and held it against her cheek. "Feel these scars," she whispered.
"What happened to you?" I asked, running my fingers over the rough scar tissue on her cheeks and neck.
Until I touched them, the scars had been indistinguishable from the wrinkles. Her dark skin felt so brittle I was afraid it would disintegrate in my hand.
A mysterious vibration emanated from her entire body. I could not shift my gaze from her eyes.
"We won't talk about what you saw in the patio," she said emphatically. "Things like that pertain only to the world of mediums, and you should never discuss that world with anyone. I would certainly advise you not to be afraid of that spirit, but do not beckon her foolishly."
She helped me get out of my bed, and led me outside to the same spot in the patio where I had seen the woman. As I stood there inspecting the darkness around us, I realized that I had no idea whether I had slept a few hours or an entire night and day.
Dona Mercedes seemed to be aware of my confusion. "It's four in the morning," she said. "You've slept almost five hours."
She crouched where the woman had been. I squatted beside her between the shrubs of jasmine hanging down from wooden lattices; like perfumed curtains.
"It never occurred to me that you didn't know how to smoke," she said, and laughed her dry raspy laughter.
She reached inside her skirt pocket, pulled out a cigar, and lit it.
"At a meeting of spiritualists, we smoke hand-rolled cigars. Spiritualists know that the smell of tobacco pleases the spirits."
After a short pause, she put the lit cigar in my mouth. "Try to smoke," she ordered.
I drew on it, inhaling deeply. The heavy smoke made me cough.
"Don't inhale," she said impatiently. "Let me show you how."
She reached for the cigar, and puffed at it repeatedly, breathing in and out in short even spurts.
"You don't want the smoke to go to your lungs, but to your head," she explained.
"That's the way a medium calls the spirits.
From now on, you're going to call the spirits from this spot.
And don't talk about it until you can conduct a spiritualist's meeting all by yourself."
"But I don't want to call the spirits," I laughingly protested. "All I want is to sit in one of the meetings and watch."
She regarded me with a threatening determination. "You are a medium, and no medium goes to a meeting to watch."
"What is the reason for a meeting?" I asked, changing the subject.
"To ask questions of the spirits," she promptly responded. "Some spirits give great advice. Others are malevolent."
She chuckled with a touch of malice. "Which spirit shows up depends on the medium's state of being."
"Are mediums, then, at the mercy of the spirits?" I asked.
She was silent for a long time, looking at me without betraying any feelings in her face.
Then in a defiant tone she said, "They are not if they are strong."
She continued staring at me fiercely, then she closed her eyes. When she opened them again, they were devoid of all expression.
"Help me to my room," she murmured.
Holding on to my head, she straightened up. Her hand slid down my shoulder, then to my arm, the stiff fingers curling around my wrist like carbonized roots.
Silently, we shuffled down the dark corridor where wooden benches and chairs covered with goat hide stood rigidly against the wall.
She stepped inside her bedroom. Before closing the door she reminded me again that mediums do not talk about their world.
"I knew the instant I saw you in the plaza that you were a medium, and that you would be coming to see me," she affirmed.
A smile, the meaning of which I did not understand, crossed her face. "You have come to bring me something from my past."
"What?"
"I don't quite know myself. Memories, perhaps," she said vaguely. "Or perhaps you are bringing my old luck back."
She brushed my cheek with the back of her hand, and softly closed the door.